I love how open and honest you are with the natural human urge to fall out of a healthy habit. Being aware and reflective makes these moments a time of learning instead of a set back. I love hearing your experiences with this đ
âjoy is allowed, not achievedâ sheeeeeesh, say that again also i got so emotional watching your family argue over that watermelon⊠this is my chinese family TO A TEE
Iâve been subscribed since your first move in vlog at RISD, and it is so amazing to see how much you have grown emotionally, artistically, and intellectually. You have grown to understand your thoughts, feelings, and body and youâve started to prioritize taking care of those things first instead of letting work or school or something else stress you out so much. Iâm just really happy that you seem more settled in yourself and in your heart â€ïž I canât wait to keep watching you grow and change and learn, thank you for bringing us along in your journey! We love you Annabelle đ€
I absolutely understand the desire to make odd little technically âuselessâ objects and Iâm glad that youâre giving yourself permission to make fun pretty things!
the thing about laziness is so true. these last couple years after learning i have adhd it's just been realisation after realisation that i'm not a bad person and i'm not lazy, i just have terrible and extreme executive dysfunction. just like learning i'm not a picky eater and i wasn't a bad kid for throwing 'tantrums', i just have a lot of sensory issues and my needs were not met, so i would have meltdowns!!
Thank you for sharing! I wanted to leave you with something as well. Itâs a quote from Natalie Angier: âMuscles retreat when theyâre not used, but they will always come back if you give them good reason. No matter how old you get, your muscles never lose hope. Few cells of the body are as capable as muscle cells are of change and reformation [âŠ].â â€ïž
i really resonated with the physicality of your anxiety - no matter how much you've mentally made peace with your emotions, your body is a different storyyyy
Could you get a collapsible shopping cart? Also, that video of your family towards the end brought SUCH a smile to my face. It reminds me of my family back in Florida. I am currently in Michigan, so it got me in the homesick feels for sure. Always treasure your family. â„
22:34 Sonder: noun, the feeling one has on realizing that every other individual one sees has a life as full and real as oneâs own, in which they are the central character and others, including oneself, have secondary or insignificant roles: ex. In a state of sonder, each of us is at once a hero, a supporting cast member, and an extra in overlapping stories.
this whole video spoke to me. Maybe a little personal but , this video is like something I needed very badly. Alot of bad things have happened, and alot of adult centered things like having to worry about rent, car payments etc. Frustration with work and falling from some habits because of my sadness and issues within my work space it is like a weird cocktail of emotions and depression. I am as well someone who has trouble expereincing and living in the moment with my emotions so then it spreads out over the course of months dealing with issues and rumination instead of just letting it flow for a shorter time and then allowing myself to move on sooner. Im glad you posted this and I found this video as the first from your channel. Thank you for making me feel kinda seen. Youre a saint.
Very few things can make me sit still for a long time and listen to every word thatâs being said. Watching your videos feels like taking a min during the day to go outside and drink a cup of tea. I always feel like Iâ ve used my time wisely and leave with a warmed heart đ§Ą
hi Annabelle! Just finished watching this february notes and I can just feel the energy and refreshed feeling coming from u through the screen. Itâs a great reminder for me to reframe how I think of rest, that itâs not being âlazyâ or âunproductiveâ, especially since I want to work towards perceiving this world in a positive and kind light. For years you have literally been the only person on this platform where I write in the comments, because it feels like Iâm partially journaling this journey together with you and this community. Thank you for curating this lovely space, itâs always felt so safe and warm and nourishing.
Another video of you speaking so much hope and profound, comforting, insightful words of wisdom to those who just resigned, taking another longest break in their life. Thank you
I'm not a big commenter, but I just wanted to say that your videos mean a lot to me, and really resonate in a warm and loving way. I'm watching this while having a break from uni work and it's very restorative, thank you for putting this out into the world xx
This video hit a home run... reminded me of when my dad had cancer and the feelings would randomly hit you in unexpected places and time. I'm still not over loosing him despite it being an year .. and I think that's okay. I am going to take my time in accepting and moving on. And I love how raw and real you were about your emotions. Sending all of my love to you đ
While this video is from last year, it is so relevant to me right now and I see myself in many of the feelings you described! So I want to tell you a quote from my martial arts teacher: "good is good enough". Whether that goes for training, work, or the pressure of perfectionism
I've been subscribed since the early RISD days and your growth has been so empowering to see, especially over the past year!! I was going through so many big changes in life at the same time and watching you graciously and honesty grow into your own self has been so inspiring to me. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. đđŒâ
I feel like you were less filtered in this video. Longer clips that went unedited. I really enjoyed this, felt more like just hanging with you. Thank you Annabelle
I, too, had a similar change regarding living in the moment and letting the sadness to show itself. Probably my biggest lesson in February was to listen to myself and give myself time, take things one step at a time, and don't stress over my full-packed schedule. I'll do as much as I can, while I give myself time to think less.
Oh I'm 100% getting that book! Every snippet you said left my mouth hanging! What a lovely and raw update, it takes courage to be so open đđŒđ I hope march is full of present moments and we continue to allow ourselves to feel! đ«
God this came at such a good time because I also went through a workout break and hearing from your experience reassured me and made me learn from you as well
I do too get hit with the feel of all the uniqueness and individuality of people in the public transportation, it humbles me and also makes me feel the abyss, I donât know why.
Been watching your vlogs since RISD, and watching your videos now feels like growing up with a friend. I'm so happy I get to see you grow and realize that wow, I am growing too! All these realizations about going through grief, searching for oneself, accepting we need rest and just appreciating the mundane day to day really help me look within. I really appreciate these videos, Annabelle! Love and light đ
Your videos are so soothing. I have been feeling super lonely lately and after you spoke about letting go and letting oneself feel, I just couldn't help but cry it out ;v; It helped and I actually found myself chuckling by the time the watermelon cutting came up. Thanks for the good vibes
i love how genuine you are! I'm trying to get back into keeping up a diary/ reflecting more frequently and trying to heal! listening to your notes feels like catching up with a friend~
Yeyyy Another video!!! I don't know if you know this but your videos are one of my realization for this week. I was completely burned out. As soon as the vid starts, I feel peace and I was about to cry. đ I love you, Annabelle! You truly are an amazing person!
been having a hard couple days, and itâs nothing i have ever experienced before. this video really comforted me and even put me to sleep LOL thank you so much annabelle, you have been a comfort for the past few years and i hope you are doing well â€ïž
hi annabelle!I really love your videos and watching you go through your therapy journey and learning how to accept and give attention to negative thoughts is really inspirational for me on my own journey as well- I love how down to earth you are and I am so grateful everytime I see a new upload from u!
Although we've never met and thousands miles apart, your videos resonate with me like no other, your words, struggles and the way you view life it amazes me how it all feels like catching up with a kindred spirit. Thank you Annabelle for bringing hoy and comfort to your viewers we really appreciate you and your efforts đ€đ
Hi Annabelle! I loved this video, but I wanted to respond to what you said at the very beginning- that one should focus on the positive. That is something we have all been tricked into believing, but like you said: allowing yourself to deeply feel your emotions is so important, and so is not categorizing your emotions as "good" or "bad". I want to recommend a podcast for you to listen to if you haven't already: The name of the podcast is Terrible, Thanks For Asking and the episode is "What's Negative About Positivity?" Sending good energy your way!
I want to thank you for being this open, Iâm going through a rough patch rn and you talking about your process makes me feel valid and less Alone. Thank you Annabelle â€ïž
I havent even watched the video yet, but from reading the title Iâm like⊠what are the chances?? This is exactly what I need and have been feeling myself (Iâm suspecting chronic fatigue), and I love how you always are so open and honest about struggles in life. Iâm so looking forward to watch the video later today đ„șđ§Ą
I admire your authenticity and ability to show up for us. I checked this book out on my Libby app and so I am looking forward to this. Good luck on your kick boxing endeavors.
Great video! Yes -- I am so tired of the fear-food culture where what you eat and when you eat it becomes a judgement on your character! As long as you pay attention to how you feel in your body and mind -- eat food, enjoy food! I have been overweight almost my entire life! I hated myself for not being someone else's version/opinion of the perfect weight and/or shape. We all come in different shapes and sizes and I had to learn to accept the body I have even though some people in my life can not. But now that I am coming to peace with my body and food, I have lost the excess weight in a way that has become of life-style and mind-set that does not require the constant dread or the fear the I will blimp-up at the first bite of a donut! The only downside of this is the weight loss happens in a matter of months/years, not days/weeks -- no immediate gratification, no targeted date, not targeted weight, no specific dress size, just the drama-less boredom of good health. The biggest payoff is the fact that I have learned to be kind and compassionate with myself. I think you will make a great aunt, BTW!
Thank you for sharing with us all your feelings with us in such an open way, congratulations for your progress, youâre an Amazing person and really an inspirationđ
I've lived in San Diego my whole life and I think the best part of living here is that it doesn't get hot that much! It's usually 70s. But I would love to move somewhere to experience seasons lol
this video was exactly what i needed to end a long day. i will absolutely have to pick up that book and allow myself time to process and annotate everything, so much of what you said resonated with me. mac x
We are just always on the same page it's crazy! I've been learning all about greenways and walkable, car-free cities recently! A podcast I've really liked has been the war on cars :) I think you would like it and the hosts live in New York too!
if you ever feel called to start yoga you could check out kundalini or kemetic yoga, kemetic is good for beginners itâs very flowy and nice kundalini is meant to get ur energy transmuted more equally and itâs very cleansing!!
thank you for another wonderful video! i do the same thing where i sit for a few minutes just staring into the eyes of my cat. it makes me think about their little cat brains; what they must be thinking of; how do they see me?
Please go on sharing your memories with your dad and family! It hurts me so much to know my dad won't get to know who I will become, because he passed so suddenly and unexpected. I wish he knew I started painting, started playing Shooters with my friends, started playing DnD and got to know myself well enough to know I would do my best in a creative job - not necessarily art, but I NEED a creative aspect. I wish he knew I had ADHD - because he problably did! And even though he knew how to fix anything and everything, he still never considered himself smart, which makes me so sad... I feel like I finally exited survival mode and worked on myself to finally be a real person. It's unfair he didn't get to see, but he would have loved every single achievement for me. Enjoy every moment you get with your dad - even if it's a memory. Becuase it's never JUST a memory.
I love how open and honest you are with the natural human urge to fall out of a healthy habit. Being aware and reflective makes these moments a time of learning instead of a set back. I love hearing your experiences with this đ
I guess we often process a pause as a setback. Speaking about it help normalise these common situations.
âjoy is allowed, not achievedâ
sheeeeeesh, say that again
also i got so emotional watching your family argue over that watermelon⊠this is my chinese family TO A TEE
Iâve been subscribed since your first move in vlog at RISD, and it is so amazing to see how much you have grown emotionally, artistically, and intellectually. You have grown to understand your thoughts, feelings, and body and youâve started to prioritize taking care of those things first instead of letting work or school or something else stress you out so much. Iâm just really happy that you seem more settled in yourself and in your heart â€ïž I canât wait to keep watching you grow and change and learn, thank you for bringing us along in your journey! We love you Annabelle đ€
You said itâ€ïž
February is the best month to have a bad month because it is the shortest of months!
I absolutely understand the desire to make odd little technically âuselessâ objects and Iâm glad that youâre giving yourself permission to make fun pretty things!
the thing about laziness is so true. these last couple years after learning i have adhd it's just been realisation after realisation that i'm not a bad person and i'm not lazy, i just have terrible and extreme executive dysfunction. just like learning i'm not a picky eater and i wasn't a bad kid for throwing 'tantrums', i just have a lot of sensory issues and my needs were not met, so i would have meltdowns!!
this resonated with me sooooo deeply. grateful for all that you create annabelle!
Thank you for sharing! I wanted to leave you with something as well. Itâs a quote from Natalie Angier: âMuscles retreat when theyâre not used, but they will always come back if you give them good reason. No matter how old you get, your muscles never lose hope. Few cells of the body are as capable as muscle cells are of change and reformation [âŠ].â â€ïž
i really resonated with the physicality of your anxiety - no matter how much you've mentally made peace with your emotions, your body is a different storyyyy
Could you get a collapsible shopping cart? Also, that video of your family towards the end brought SUCH a smile to my face. It reminds me of my family back in Florida. I am currently in Michigan, so it got me in the homesick feels for sure. Always treasure your family. â„
22:34 Sonder: noun, the feeling one has on realizing that every other individual one sees has a life as full and real as oneâs own, in which they are the central character and others, including oneself, have secondary or insignificant roles: ex. In a state of sonder, each of us is at once a hero, a supporting cast member, and an extra in overlapping stories.
this whole video spoke to me. Maybe a little personal but , this video is like something I needed very badly. Alot of bad things have happened, and alot of adult centered things like having to worry about rent, car payments etc. Frustration with work and falling from some habits because of my sadness and issues within my work space it is like a weird cocktail of emotions and depression. I am as well someone who has trouble expereincing and living in the moment with my emotions so then it spreads out over the course of months dealing with issues and rumination instead of just letting it flow for a shorter time and then allowing myself to move on sooner.
Im glad you posted this and I found this video as the first from your channel. Thank you for making me feel kinda seen. Youre a saint.
Very few things can make me sit still for a long time and listen to every word thatâs being said. Watching your videos feels like taking a min during the day to go outside and drink a cup of tea. I always feel like Iâ ve used my time wisely and leave with a warmed heart đ§Ą
Omg the clip of you and your kitties but especially when youâre both enjoying the sunlight!!!!! So cute!!!!! Friggen love cats.
The way you said âI love thatâ with the clay and beads gives me JOY
hi Annabelle! Just finished watching this february notes and I can just feel the energy and refreshed feeling coming from u through the screen. Itâs a great reminder for me to reframe how I think of rest, that itâs not being âlazyâ or âunproductiveâ, especially since I want to work towards perceiving this world in a positive and kind light. For years you have literally been the only person on this platform where I write in the comments, because it feels like Iâm partially journaling this journey together with you and this community. Thank you for curating this lovely space, itâs always felt so safe and warm and nourishing.
Another video of you speaking so much hope and profound, comforting, insightful words of wisdom to those who just resigned, taking another longest break in their life. Thank you
I'm not a big commenter, but I just wanted to say that your videos mean a lot to me, and really resonate in a warm and loving way. I'm watching this while having a break from uni work and it's very restorative, thank you for putting this out into the world xx
This video hit a home run... reminded me of when my dad had cancer and the feelings would randomly hit you in unexpected places and time. I'm still not over loosing him despite it being an year .. and I think that's okay. I am going to take my time in accepting and moving on. And I love how raw and real you were about your emotions. Sending all of my love to you đ
every reflective quote you say literally has made me tear up
I didn't have time to watch ur videos, and finally I have time. Watching you is always what I need to hear.
đ LOVE ur pink panther in the background !!!
this is a beautiful video, full of lovely advice and great words... saving this in my playlist to come back to on sad days!
I have been trying to shift my mindset about exercise similar to yours. It has been so hard in a world that needs to track continuous progress.
While this video is from last year, it is so relevant to me right now and I see myself in many of the feelings you described! So I want to tell you a quote from my martial arts teacher: "good is good enough". Whether that goes for training, work, or the pressure of perfectionism
I've been subscribed since the early RISD days and your growth has been so empowering to see, especially over the past year!! I was going through so many big changes in life at the same time and watching you graciously and honesty grow into your own self has been so inspiring to me. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. đđŒâ
I feel like you were less filtered in this video. Longer clips that went unedited. I really enjoyed this, felt more like just hanging with you. Thank you Annabelle
I just wanna know WAS THE WATERMELON OKAY
Joy is allowed. Not achieved. Wow that brought me to tears.
I, too, had a similar change regarding living in the moment and letting the sadness to show itself. Probably my biggest lesson in February was to listen to myself and give myself time, take things one step at a time, and don't stress over my full-packed schedule. I'll do as much as I can, while I give myself time to think less.
Oh I'm 100% getting that book! Every snippet you said left my mouth hanging!
What a lovely and raw update, it takes courage to be so open đđŒđ I hope march is full of present moments and we continue to allow ourselves to feel! đ«
Itâs been Amazing seeing you grow and learn to navigate your emotions! So proud of you! â€ïžâ€ïžâ€ïž
Yesssssss I have finally caught up on your vids, I loved your feb notes!!!!
God this came at such a good time because I also went through a workout break and hearing from your experience reassured me and made me learn from you as well
I do too get hit with the feel of all the uniqueness and individuality of people in the public transportation, it humbles me and also makes me feel the abyss, I donât know why.
you mentioning the portuguese tiles
This is exactly what I needed right now thank you so much
Been watching your vlogs since RISD, and watching your videos now feels like growing up with a friend. I'm so happy I get to see you grow and realize that wow, I am growing too! All these realizations about going through grief, searching for oneself, accepting we need rest and just appreciating the mundane day to day really help me look within. I really appreciate these videos, Annabelle! Love and light đ
I needed to hear the thing about being a long texter! You're right! No more apologising!
You being vulnerable and opening up makes me willingly process my problems and triumphs.
your videos always give me such a sense of peace and further understanding of my inner self and of others. you are such a light in this space!
whenever annabelle posts it's a BLISS
Your videos are so soothing. I have been feeling super lonely lately and after you spoke about letting go and letting oneself feel, I just couldn't help but cry it out ;v; It helped and I actually found myself chuckling by the time the watermelon cutting came up. Thanks for the good vibes
i love how genuine you are! I'm trying to get back into keeping up a diary/ reflecting more frequently and trying to heal! listening to your notes feels like catching up with a friend~
Yeyyy
Another video!!!
I don't know if you know this but your videos are one of my realization for this week. I was completely burned out. As soon as the vid starts, I feel peace and I was about to cry. đ I love you, Annabelle! You truly are an amazing person!
You donât even know how much I needed this!
been having a hard couple days, and itâs nothing i have ever experienced before. this video really comforted me and even put me to sleep LOL thank you so much annabelle, you have been a comfort for the past few years and i hope you are doing well â€ïž
Please talk about dealing with heart break. If you are comfortable.
this is such a beautiful video with so many compassionate reminders, thank you annabelle!
thank you :'âą)) you're so welcome vicki!!
hi annabelle!I really love your videos and watching you go through your therapy journey and learning how to accept and give attention to negative thoughts is really inspirational for me on my own journey as well- I love how down to earth you are and I am so grateful everytime I see a new upload from u!
Although we've never met and thousands miles apart, your videos resonate with me like no other, your words, struggles and the way you view life it amazes me how it all feels like catching up with a kindred spirit. Thank you Annabelle for bringing hoy and comfort to your viewers we really appreciate you and your efforts đ€đ
Hi Annabelle! I loved this video, but I wanted to respond to what you said at the very beginning- that one should focus on the positive. That is something we have all been tricked into believing, but like you said: allowing yourself to deeply feel your emotions is so important, and so is not categorizing your emotions as "good" or "bad". I want to recommend a podcast for you to listen to if you haven't already: The name of the podcast is Terrible, Thanks For Asking and the episode is "What's Negative About Positivity?" Sending good energy your way!
The video Iâve been waiting forâšâšâš
also youâre so gorgeousđâ„ïž
đ loved hearing you talk about the memories with your dad, thank you for being so vulnerable with us đ
I want to thank you for being this open, Iâm going through a rough patch rn and you talking about your process makes me feel valid and less Alone. Thank you Annabelle â€ïž
Great book recommendation! I look forward to sitting down and listening to your reflections, too.
YOU ARE AMAZING AND YOU ARE FLOURISHING đđđ
AND I CAN 100% RELATE TO THE FEAR OF LOOKING LAZY OR AS A PROCRASTINATOR !!! đłđł
My sister just gave birth, so I just became an aunt! So exciting! I'm excited for you as well
I stopped watching you and now I'm back because the editing and the style love itttt~
i work with elementary schools and putting beads in clay is something we do to help with fine motor movements!!
I love this
Hi!!! Can't believe February's over already.
Thank you for the video
đč the watermelon chaos
I havent even watched the video yet, but from reading the title Iâm like⊠what are the chances?? This is exactly what I need and have been feeling myself (Iâm suspecting chronic fatigue), and I love how you always are so open and honest about struggles in life. Iâm so looking forward to watch the video later today đ„șđ§Ą
sending you my love Johanna!! thank you for your time here
Really important things, thank you for talking about it. Sending you love and light â€
I love you how honest and raw your videos are, thank you for being so open with us, I really feel like Iâve grown by your sideđ
I admire your authenticity and ability to show up for us. I checked this book out on my Libby app and so I am looking forward to this. Good luck on your kick boxing endeavors.
the energy in the video was beautiful, u inspire me to take better care of myself. much love
really loving these notes videos ^^ thank you always for sharing these moments and your reflections with us
you said it so nonchalantly but âjoy is allowed, itâs not achievedâ really struck a chord with me
Great video! Yes -- I am so tired of the fear-food culture where what you eat and when you eat it becomes a judgement on your character! As long as you pay attention to how you feel in your body and mind -- eat food, enjoy food! I have been overweight almost my entire life! I hated myself for not being someone else's version/opinion of the perfect weight and/or shape. We all come in different shapes and sizes and I had to learn to accept the body I have even though some people in my life can not. But now that I am coming to peace with my body and food, I have lost the excess weight in a way that has become of life-style and mind-set that does not require the constant dread or the fear the I will blimp-up at the first bite of a donut! The only downside of this is the weight loss happens in a matter of months/years, not days/weeks -- no immediate gratification, no targeted date, not targeted weight, no specific dress size, just the drama-less boredom of good health. The biggest payoff is the fact that I have learned to be kind and compassionate with myself. I think you will make a great aunt, BTW!
Been loving your earrings and hairstyles! I know they seem simple but I love them so much, I might try recreating them. đđđ
Thank you for sharing with us all your feelings with us in such an open way, congratulations for your progress, youâre an Amazing person and really an inspirationđ
The acid reflux is something I get when my anxiety is bad, even after Iâve calmed down I usually still have that feeling for the rest of the day
I've lived in San Diego my whole life and I think the best part of living here is that it doesn't get hot that much! It's usually 70s. But I would love to move somewhere to experience seasons lol
im so appreciative of these vids!! thank u so much for letting us in, i love reflecting with you
this video was exactly what i needed to end a long day. i will absolutely have to pick up that book and allow myself time to process and annotate everything, so much of what you said resonated with me. mac x
We are just always on the same page it's crazy! I've been learning all about greenways and walkable, car-free cities recently! A podcast I've really liked has been the war on cars :) I think you would like it and the hosts live in New York too!
this was interesting to watch, btw love your art prints, do make some more and add frogs, for me :o) lol
I LOVE YOUU UGHHHHHHHHH đ©đ©
rly happy for how you are doing, annabelle
you should get a rolling shopping cart to carry your groceries home!
Annabelle! I was just thinking about you while painting. :) thanks for the video!
Yes!! My dinner time entertainment!! (Also if Iâm this early maybe Annabelle will be around? đâșïž)
i love this video so much!! đđđ
I'm like yes, make a whole video about what you learned in the book hahaha :)
if you ever feel called to start yoga you could check out kundalini or kemetic yoga, kemetic is good for beginners itâs very flowy and nice kundalini is meant to get ur energy transmuted more equally and itâs very cleansing!!
amazing, thanks so much for the suggestion Jessie
gotta get a rolling cart for some big grocery trips!
IâVE ALSO BEEN RESTING SO MUCH
LIKE ALL THE TIME đ€Łđ€Łđđ
The watermelon video got me laughing so hardddd!! Hahahah đđ
Thank you for your amazing vibes with each video! Always looking forward to hearing more of your thoughts and views in life. đđ»ââïžđ
loved this!!
Heve you tried using one of those asian grandma shopping carts fro groceries?
ahahah, yes, when you carry heavy things, I couldn't do it lol.
I just read that book too!!!!!!
Annabelle to the moon let's go!
thank you for another wonderful video! i do the same thing where i sit for a few minutes just staring into the eyes of my cat. it makes me think about their little cat brains; what they must be thinking of; how do they see me?
Please go on sharing your memories with your dad and family! It hurts me so much to know my dad won't get to know who I will become, because he passed so suddenly and unexpected. I wish he knew I started painting, started playing Shooters with my friends, started playing DnD and got to know myself well enough to know I would do my best in a creative job - not necessarily art, but I NEED a creative aspect. I wish he knew I had ADHD - because he problably did! And even though he knew how to fix anything and everything, he still never considered himself smart, which makes me so sad...
I feel like I finally exited survival mode and worked on myself to finally be a real person. It's unfair he didn't get to see, but he would have loved every single achievement for me. Enjoy every moment you get with your dad - even if it's a memory. Becuase it's never JUST a memory.
i needed this đ! also where are your earrings from???
at 11:55 she says she got them back in middle school from some fast fashion place and doesn't remember unfortunately!
omg if you come to Portugal i'll give you a free tour of the country!!