Citizen Soldier - Face To Face (Official Lyric Video)

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  • @mclordplayz9729
    @mclordplayz9729 Před 3 lety +3240

    One of the few perks of insomnia is being able to listen to these songs as they come out.

    • @shukakura937
      @shukakura937 Před 3 lety +215

      you aint even wrong lol

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety +374

      Much love 💜

    • @jeryn8200
      @jeryn8200 Před 3 lety +45

      06.00 here for me.. days off are hard. I work nights normally but still.

    • @mariaoswin4061
      @mariaoswin4061 Před 3 lety +37

      I feel you! it was 3.30am in Russia and I also had insomnia, but I was able to watch Jake going live on tik tok! Definitely not going to be salty about it

    • @lazarusc1994
      @lazarusc1994 Před 3 lety +11

      Totally agree

  • @duchessofpotatoland
    @duchessofpotatoland Před 3 lety +691

    This song makes me want to find the devil in me, fight it and reclaim the whole me.

  • @chibiquil
    @chibiquil Před 3 lety +861

    "I'd rather die on my feet than live on my knees" hits me in my soul. Super motivational. This song is awesome

    • @swatirai1123
      @swatirai1123 Před 2 lety +12

      My fav part it is just amazing song but this line is just wow

    • @gabriellemccurdy1794
      @gabriellemccurdy1794 Před 2 lety +6

      I get chills when I listen to this

    • @laurenspataro3792
      @laurenspataro3792 Před rokem +7

      I just learned today that it is a quote from George Washington

    • @Obi-Wan_Kenobi62
      @Obi-Wan_Kenobi62 Před rokem

      If it was actually motivating, you’d get on your feet and _do something_ instead of resonating with the song and doing jack sh*t.

    • @melissae.8031
      @melissae.8031 Před rokem +3

      I'd be willing to bet big money that this comment, from a year plus ago, is far more relevant "today'

  • @HJ-kf7zn
    @HJ-kf7zn Před 3 lety +597

    "My scars are my war paint."
    Yes they are. I've carried mine for 16 years, and I'm still standing. I'm still standing, still fighting, still alive.
    I'm still fighting my demons to this day, but as time goes on... I'm growing stronger than them. 🖤

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety +53

      💜

    • @mnhaziq5010
      @mnhaziq5010 Před 3 lety +24

      NEVEER STOP FIGHTING

    • @HJ-kf7zn
      @HJ-kf7zn Před 3 lety +13

      @@mnhaziq5010 don't plan on it!

    • @syrup5481
      @syrup5481 Před 3 lety +6

      @JUDE CULBERT get a therapist and tell your parents or someone you trust im not good at saying these things so sorry if it sounds dull

    • @AssholeDevourer
      @AssholeDevourer Před 3 lety +9

      @JUDE CULBERT you need to tell them... being here doesn't always help, try not to linger around in your mind too long because those voices don't help either, it's not about your parents so you don't have to know what they think about needing therapy, when you go onto the path of recovery eventually you realize things sometimes this fight is done alone, other times with family or friends, and sometimes the pain Is like a drug to people because some are addicted, others overdose and finish themselves off, some try to but fail, others repeat this cycle.... don't push off needing help though, what would you do if you got shot? I think you would call 911 or your parents, treat this like it's as dire as a gunshot wound, forget what they think, and get help I think it'll be worth it.

  • @luciferpetrenkoff5040
    @luciferpetrenkoff5040 Před 3 lety +421

    “What a terrifying place, left alone here in my head” a poor mental state, like mine, makes your head and inner thoughts hell to be around or live with

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety +26

      💜💜💜

    • @learnerofsuntzu9325
      @learnerofsuntzu9325 Před 3 lety +13

      but at least you dont let them rule you, that is the key, they can be there, but they wont define you

    • @lechking941
      @lechking941 Před 3 lety +4

      he i have had nights like that, but i also more often have nights were being in my head has been blessings over human interaction

    • @RoxyRoomba
      @RoxyRoomba Před 3 lety

      @@lechking941 I know that feeling

    • @joshuahopkins7987
      @joshuahopkins7987 Před 3 lety

      Sound's fun, and different from my madness

  • @lynzylu5
    @lynzylu5 Před 3 lety +825

    This is why I love rock and metal. Your song is ABOUT something, and it's about something important; living with your scars, standing up to your problems, making a change for yourself. And man, it sends that message in a way that frickin slaps. Well done, looking forward to more

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety +86

      Appreciate that 💜

    • @mastersinthe5114
      @mastersinthe5114 Před rokem

      I agree too many pop songs that are called motivational but are just describing what being a slut is like

    • @Eleven_Mayfield
      @Eleven_Mayfield Před rokem +10

      @@CitizenSoldier you are a legend 💜

    • @demonderpz7937
      @demonderpz7937 Před rokem +1

      I agree, but I believe Hopsin’s “the ill mind of hopsin” 5-9 all have a decent meaning behind them as well. Having said that, nothing beats citizen soldier

    • @primetimespecialtyservices117
      @primetimespecialtyservices117 Před rokem +2

      Thank you so much for doing this song. I feel like you said everything I was thinking

  • @christopherromo8013
    @christopherromo8013 Před 2 lety +97

    "I Am Not Afraid
    My life is worth the struggle"
    That line right there. That gets me up every morning to tackle the day.
    That needs to be on a t-shirt or something lol 😂

  • @satanm8c40
    @satanm8c40 Před 3 lety +228

    "I'm not okay" and "Would anyone care" are still my favourites. But this slaps.

  • @secretsecret9164
    @secretsecret9164 Před 3 lety +189

    i feel like a lot of these lyrics call back to past songs.
    "i cant forgive, i cant forget" (youre always in my head) - I Hope It Haunts You
    "the darkest part of me" (im gonna burn it to ashes) - The Cage
    and not exactly, but
    "i will not be defined by the life i left behind" makes me think of "i refuse to be defined by what i almost did that night" - Stronger Than My Storm
    there are probably others, that's just what stood out off the top of my head. anyway, amazing job as always! I'm loving the defiantly hopeful tone of a lot of the latest songs

  • @adorkablefox
    @adorkablefox Před 3 lety +88

    The lyrics are so powerful, especially "My life is worth the struggle" and "My past will not define me"

  • @blaizefire4903
    @blaizefire4903 Před 2 lety +264

    This song speaks to me I battle depression and anxiety and I’m still here thanks to my wonderful family who helped me with all my struggles

  • @lyulf
    @lyulf Před 3 lety +42

    I love how Citizen Soldier throws back to their other songs. It creates this connection that tells a story of hurt, struggle, despair, and a will to survive in spite of it. It shows this choice to live that, while positive, doesn't sound corny or like a socially expected response. It sounds real, and doesn't gloss over or ignore the negative that's still there. To me, that makes it so much more powerful.

    • @partypoison8476
      @partypoison8476 Před rokem +3

      Yeah, cause the thing is, their songs are mostly based on Jake's personal experience of attempting suicide :') But also he is practicing as a therapist

  • @oni_leonidas
    @oni_leonidas Před 3 lety +106

    "I fought the devil and I'll live to tell" I have gone throught a lot, I have cried and I have struggled. But one thing is certain, my Body and mind want vengence over all those bad moments and are willing to live throught more pain and struggle to prove people with evidence that even insignificant people like me can become so much more than they thought they were. I have fought the devil, and I live to tell the tale.

  • @andy4380
    @andy4380 Před 3 lety +147

    Facts about Citizen Soldier
    - never disappoint
    - makes the greatest lyrics and music in the world
    -you Guys are the best
    -still Citizen Soldier in 2040

    • @thenexus8384
      @thenexus8384 Před 2 lety +7

      -never make a boring song
      -never fail to make you feel strong

  • @XTrifinityX
    @XTrifinityX Před 3 lety +193

    "Scares are my war paint."
    "I'm face to face with the devil."
    That hits me so hard. I always call my dad the devil because of the why he acts. This song hits me hard. Great work guys.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety +20

      💜

    • @izzaireredacted3018
      @izzaireredacted3018 Před 3 lety +6

      Yeah my stepdad is almost like the devil... I'm so sorry for you. I hope everything is going to get better

    • @tweetthechicken3870
      @tweetthechicken3870 Před 3 lety +4

      I hope you are fine with me asking but how bad is he

    • @XTrifinityX
      @XTrifinityX Před 3 lety +2

      @@tweetthechicken3870 he's verbally abusive to my mother and I. He also has hurt my mother many times.

    • @XTrifinityX
      @XTrifinityX Před 3 lety +2

      @@izzaireredacted3018 I'm sorry to hear about your stepfather. I thank you for your good wishes and hope you are alright as well.

  • @diamondblade3490
    @diamondblade3490 Před 3 lety +26

    "Something had to change, so I faced it."
    Yes, this is so true. You are in charge. You are the one who can change your world. Don't rely on others to do it for you.

  • @drek1461
    @drek1461 Před 3 lety +160

    Just the fact that is a song of this guys is enough to know that will be AWESOME!!!

  • @genericosgenericbrandoceri873

    I always love these songs, they are filled with burning passion that is addicting. I just love the choice of dialect as well, is unique and powerful. They lyrics could have been "I won't give up without a fight" but instead "I'd rather die on my feet, than live of my knees". It had similar sentements, but they way the lyrics are written feels more powerful, and I absolutely love it.
    Keep up this amazing work.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety +36

      Thanks for listening 💜

    • @Obi-Wan_Kenobi62
      @Obi-Wan_Kenobi62 Před rokem

      Maybe it’s possible you’ve found this out already (and partly thinking out loud)
      So you’d rather resonate with this song and agree with “damn my life sucks” and continue to live like that and live in that clouded vision, rather than _doing _*_something_* about it and taking it upon yourself to get to the point to where you finally don’t relate to the song at all? That’s the end goal from what I can tell.

  • @gregorykolenbrander595
    @gregorykolenbrander595 Před 3 lety +8

    I did fight the devil in me and lived. I just got out of a state psychiatric hospital a few days ago after being there 7 months and let me tell you. Having a good support system helps. If ANYONE needs a good support system, just ask for help. I know it's hard, but it's a huge relief to get it out. Thank you guys for your music. It has helped me a lot this past year.

  • @angelicaybarra9716
    @angelicaybarra9716 Před 3 lety +71

    "I was In such a hard place , something had to change." Wow!! This group is becoming one of my favorites. Amazing music

  • @fonky3332
    @fonky3332 Před 3 lety +274

    I used to be scared of what hides in the dark, now everything what is in the dark is scared of me.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety +28

      💜💜💜💜

    • @kingak2328
      @kingak2328 Před 3 lety +14

      I love your comment

    • @insaniacgaming2009
      @insaniacgaming2009 Před 3 lety +12

      The same thing for me.. Everyone is scared of the truth I speak
      . Everyone sits by idly and blindly while sit awake at night seeing so much wrong.. I never chose to be born but I live this life anyways. My choice to conform is real.. I won't give in

    • @tweetthechicken3870
      @tweetthechicken3870 Před 3 lety +1

      @@insaniacgaming2009 then what is the truth you speak of

    • @devyl3057
      @devyl3057 Před 3 lety +4

      Especially after I threw my stuffy, pillow, nlanket, clock, toy Pennywise, roller skate, sketch book (and much more) at the darkness. Boi, them monsters got more cu cussions than I've had (8)

  • @georgemunteanu7904
    @georgemunteanu7904 Před 3 lety +61

    "I'd rather die on my feet than live on my knees" such a powerfull line
    This song goes to my workout playlist, thank you Citizen Soldier for this amazing song 👍

  • @RFpejo
    @RFpejo Před 3 lety +39

    I am a clinical psychologist from Romania, I just wanted to thank you, because you helped me alot and my patients. I use your songs to help them to rationalize the ``problem``. You got some fans in my country mate. (I am sorry for my english level tho).

  • @reydragonclaw1128
    @reydragonclaw1128 Před 3 lety +21

    "I'd rather die on my feet than live on my knees"
    HELL YES

  • @lotus5770
    @lotus5770 Před 3 lety +61

    Perfect thing to go to bed too! The song already sounds like fire!

  • @jayemsea4742
    @jayemsea4742 Před 3 lety +64

    "If i face my darkest days will i finally make my peace". This just is so true. Exactly now. Everyone has something that is hard for them and its hard to face it. But with no fear anyone can defeat their devil inside. ❤ love the song.

  • @MortisLegio
    @MortisLegio Před 3 měsíci +5

    "My scars are my war paint" goes so hard. Love it.

  • @user-yp7zm1lp7l
    @user-yp7zm1lp7l Před 7 měsíci +5

    I'm still fighting the devil and my shame. Citizen soldier thank you for the words "my past will not define me" and "my life is worth the struggle" and "my scars are my war paint". These word really give me confidence

  • @cha_riffik
    @cha_riffik Před 3 lety +150

    I struggled with depression for one year, In that time I lost the love of my life, I fell out with my parents, I almost killed my brother and I was a cutter because it had gotten to a point where physical pain was better than emotional pain. But now I can say that after struggling to get though a single day, waking up in the morning, of wanting to die everyday. I faced it and I can't say I'm a hundred percent better but I'm trying to be. Your songs always encourage me(only God knows how many sleepless nights your songs have made me feel not alone). Thank you so much !

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety +21

      Appreciate you Charles 💜 Let's keep fighting

    • @johnbarton5
      @johnbarton5 Před 3 lety +5

      You are not alone.

    • @koki1829
      @koki1829 Před 2 lety +6

      Hey brother, I noticed you capitalized God. So I’m going to take the assumption that you’re Christian. If so, and if those urges come to fight you again. I’d like you to take a look at Leviticus 19:28, 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 (different context but I’d say it still applies). Hope you’re beating those trials brother.

  • @tinou3462
    @tinou3462 Před 3 lety +20

    "My scars are my war paint" Man, Citizen Soldier always hitting me with the chills, keep on being awesome you guys

  • @JilieBoe
    @JilieBoe Před měsícem +2

    "I'd rather die on my feet, than live on my knees!" Gosh, you are THE BEST, and you always hit the right spot to save/help someone in need! Thank you for that! ♥️🍀🤘

  • @connorfoley5061
    @connorfoley5061 Před 3 lety +52

    I fought the devil and I'll live to tell
    I fought the devil and I'll live to tell
    I fought the devil and I'll live to tell
    I fought the devil and I'll live to tell
    What a terrifying place
    Left alone here in my head
    Remember every last mistake
    I can't forgive, I can't forget
    But if I face my darkest days
    Will I finally make my peace?
    With the past I buried deep inside
    The darkest part of me
    No, I will not be defined
    By the life I left behind
    You're gonna see
    I'd rather die on my feet than live on my knees
    I'm face to face with the devil
    I am not afraid
    My life is worth the struggle
    My scars are my warpaint
    Face to face with the devil
    Pray, it's not too late
    My past will not define me
    I'm face to face
    I fought the devil and I'll live to tell
    I fought the devil and I'll live to tell
    No one ever held my hand
    Always me against the world
    At war with monsters in my head
    Kept digging down 'til I hit gold
    I'm not ashamed of who I was
    You'll never take this fight from me
    You'll see, I'd rather die on my feet than live on my knees
    I'm face to face with the devil
    I am not afraid
    My life is worth the struggle
    My scars are my warpaint
    Face to face with the devil
    Pray, it's not too late
    My past will not define me
    I'm face to face
    I fought the devil and I'll live to tell
    I fought the devil and I'll live to tell
    I fought the devil and I'll live to tell
    I fought the devil and I'll live to tell
    I was in such a dark place
    Something had to change
    So I faced it
    I'm face to face with the devil
    I am not afraid
    My life is worth the struggle
    My scars are my warpaint
    Face to face with the devil
    Pray, it's not too late
    My past will not define me
    I'm face to face
    I fought the devil and I'll live to tell
    I fought the devil and I'll live to tell

    • @abunchofrs9266
      @abunchofrs9266 Před 2 lety +3

      Thank you for writing down the Lyrics for the song!

    • @ShinyShadow_
      @ShinyShadow_ Před 2 lety +2

      @@abunchofrs9266 For copy pasting them from google*

    • @BLACK-HEART
      @BLACK-HEART Před 2 lety

      @@ShinyShadow_ what I was going to say 👑

  • @HerondalesAngel
    @HerondalesAngel Před 3 lety +597

    Absolutely 💯% epic goodness I get so excited when you post a new song and video thank you Citizen soldier 🖤

  • @Glacial_Wintrr
    @Glacial_Wintrr Před 3 lety +105

    Haven't heard it yet but I can already tell it's going to be good!!

  • @CentennialCripple
    @CentennialCripple Před 5 měsíci +11

    Started therapy not too long ago to deal with anxiety and depression. I'm hoping this will be my anthem.

    • @chayharding326
      @chayharding326 Před 3 měsíci +1

      I hope everything works out for you 🔥🔥🔥🔥

  • @viktorvolkov5314
    @viktorvolkov5314 Před 4 měsíci +4

    as someone who has survived 10 attempts on my own life this band is a breath of fresh air, great music and songs that remind me even in my darkest moments there is someone out there who knows exactly how I feel and what I am going through. Much love to you and your music and mission. Has helped me through a lot of dark moments in my life.

  • @xXJaneRoseXx
    @xXJaneRoseXx Před 3 lety +154

    As usual with the music you release, this is a song I needed to hear. As I’ve commented on past videos, I’ve been professionally diagnosed with OCD, depression, and anxiety. Now I’m looking into Borderline Personality Disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder, Avoidant Personality Disorder, PTSD (car accident, abuse/witness to domestic abuse, and sudden loss of a love one), Complicated Grief Disorder, Depersonalisation/Derealisation Disorder, and Bipolar (none of them other than BPD and depersonalisation/derealisation disorder is currently ruled in. I have not spoken much to a professional about any of the other diagnoses but I have an appointment coming up in a week and I’m hoping to get to the bottom of this). I’ve done a lot of things that I regret, and things that have happened in my past and people I’ve lost continue to haunt me to this day, and I blame myself for all of it. All of the music you’ve released has spoken to me on a personal level and has been a comfort for me when nothing else was. I’m glad I was able to be here from the beginning with you guys. Thank you for continuing to create and release amazing music. I’m looking forward to future creations in the future.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety +33

      Sending tons of love 💜

    • @BlueTextingStories
      @BlueTextingStories Před 3 lety +23

      You know Jane, it takes a lot of courage to tell this, even online. I may not know what you are going through right now, but keep standing strong. You'll get past these, you hear me? You'll face your demons, and you'll beat them. Every. Single. One. Of. Them.

    • @hermitsunite953
      @hermitsunite953 Před 3 lety +11

      I hope you have a great life despite your challenges. The universe gives the strong the hardest challenges.

    • @ExplosionMare
      @ExplosionMare Před 3 lety +3

      I hope your appointment goes well

    • @Voron_Aggrav
      @Voron_Aggrav Před 3 lety +6

      You've got my respect, all of this and you're still in the ring fighting for another round, stay strong and I hope you can get on top of things,

  • @PastaSick
    @PastaSick Před 3 lety +59

    got emotional there real quick-
    "my life is worth the struggle"

  • @ericlammers3492
    @ericlammers3492 Před 8 dny

    “My past will not define me “
    Love that part.❤

  • @reydragonclaw1128
    @reydragonclaw1128 Před 3 lety +22

    Kind of wish they added a,
    "WE FOUGHT THE DEVIL AND WE'LL LIVE TO TELL"
    Since there are so many who've been through hell

    • @avalon5fallen
      @avalon5fallen Před 3 lety +6

      I'm sorry I know it says "I fought the devil" but all I can hear is "I fucked the devil and I lived to tell"

  • @grimmist1805
    @grimmist1805 Před 3 lety +174

    Me: dose nothing
    Citizen Soldier: So we're going to make theses songs and there going to hit very very Close to home. Have a nice day!

    • @fuzybearfluffkins2697
      @fuzybearfluffkins2697 Před 3 lety +27

      I know right 😂 some of them are so relatable and i shouldnt be able to relate to them bc ive never been through it but bam hits me right in the feelz everytime 😅

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety +22

      💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

    • @embergallagher8133
      @embergallagher8133 Před 3 lety +1

      Ikr!!!

  • @precious5795
    @precious5795 Před 3 lety +8

    "I'd rather die on my feet than to live on my knees."
    This line is so deep! I love this song so much!

  • @Shoyro
    @Shoyro Před 3 lety +4

    Hearing this, it reminded me that my life is worth the fight. I overcame my inner demons already, but the emotional scars I have still exist. They are no longer signs of dark thoughts, but signs of the fact that I still live a life worth living for.

  • @Brndndutton
    @Brndndutton Před 7 měsíci +7

    Such passion and depth to your words. This song speaks volumes. Thank you for this. It connects on so many levels.

  • @ANoonieK
    @ANoonieK Před 3 lety +76

    "My scars are my war paint" sent a shiver down my spine; the lyrics you all put together never stop hitting me in the feels. It's amazing what you all do to bring awareness of different struggles people keep quiet about.

  • @kingfroggy2425
    @kingfroggy2425 Před 3 lety +28

    "my life is worth the struggle" indeed it is. Just need to find the reason for holding on this long...

    • @astrodreamer946
      @astrodreamer946 Před 3 lety +3

      I feel you. Sometimes we have to make our own reasons, even if those reasons are elusive to us.

    • @kingfroggy2425
      @kingfroggy2425 Před 3 lety +1

      @@astrodreamer946 and sometimes the reason was with us from the get go, we just need to find it deep within ourselves.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety +4

      Hang in there 💜

    • @masterazazehll3961
      @masterazazehll3961 Před 3 lety +1

      I found that reason in my family. My parents, my sister, in my darkest days when every inch of my body wishes to leave this hell on earth, I cling to them, I can only imagine how much pain I'd cause them if I'd leave and I never wish to make anyone feel that

  • @Krystabel100
    @Krystabel100 Před 6 měsíci +144

    am i here because of the cat video too

  • @cherylgiunto9155
    @cherylgiunto9155 Před 2 lety +2

    Thanks for putting out such a inspirational song.. i am a 54 yr old woman who is battling stage 3 cervical cancer.. everyday im face to face with my devil.. this song gives me more drive to keep pushing thru.. today is the first time i heard this song called face to face.. it rocks and its a song that has so much meaning when i listen to it.. my life is worth the struggle.. keep jammin out songs like this.. it gives people like me who are facing real demons hope to keep fighting thru everyday.. i will be jamming out to this song during my chemo treatment.. thank you for this song #FCANCER

  • @storm685
    @storm685 Před 3 lety +41

    I just started playing the song and oh my fucking god..this is amazing.

  • @FaeTomioka
    @FaeTomioka Před 3 lety +18

    Three words: I GOT THIS!!!
    I have fought many times. My head can be such a scary and dark place, but if I can beat it ONCE, I can beat it again. I will always stand up. I am bulletproof against many things now. I went to hell and back but I am still standing.
    IF I CAN... YOU CAN TOO!!!
    My issues do not define who I am...
    💜💜💜💜

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety +3

      💜💜💜

    • @FaeTomioka
      @FaeTomioka Před 3 lety

      @JUDE CULBERT I am sure you can get out of this. I know it's easier said than done, but you are way stronger than you believe when being strong is all that's left. You're human and making mistakes and feeling sadness and everything is valid.
      YOU ARE VALID IN EVERY WAY POSSIBLE!!!
      I don't know you, but I have faith in you. Sending healing vibes your way 🤗🦋

    • @FaeTomioka
      @FaeTomioka Před 3 lety

      @JUDE CULBERT I just know how it feels like to be left all alone because of the issues I have and more. Many ''friends'' I had left me because I was ''too much'' to handle. I was all alone. Many nights I tried and tried to keep the thoughts at bay, but they kept coming back to haunt my brain. I almost gave up a lot of times, but I know I have people here who cares about me and would be devastated if I was gone forever. Sometimes we tend to forget them in our darkest moments. They give me strenght to keep on fighting. These people are a rare gift and I know you have some by your side.
      I have psychotic depression and chronic generalized anxiety. Had that since childhood due to intense psychological bullying. I am an adult now and let me tell you something:
      It's not always easy and I still cry myself to sleep sometimes, but I keep on being brave like it did not happen cause I know I am stronger than my demons. I fought them for so long. They get me at times, but I get up and run head first until they remain quiet again.
      Hell started when I was 5... I am still alive. If I can, you also can. I will keep you in my healing thoughts.
      To heal and to help everyone in need of a hand 💜💜

    • @FaeTomioka
      @FaeTomioka Před 3 lety

      @JUDE CULBERT I can understand all this (is an adult). Your family that you have and trust should never judge you for this. They might even have their own demons that you do not know about. Everyone faces their own battles and are worthy to ask for help when it is needed the most. Of course it's not easy, but you have to give it a try. You have to give it a shot even if it scares you. You are worth so much more than you believe. You need that therapy? Get that therapy!! I am rooting for you!! 🤗💙

    • @FaeTomioka
      @FaeTomioka Před 3 lety

      @JUDE CULBERT I can also provide you some links from people I watch. Those are streamers I watch all the time so I am almost always in the chat. They are not family-friendly so adult subject and cussing at times so I warn you. Hope to see you there!!
      Furan:
      m.czcams.com/channels/EJtn-7wtaphW_-e2h-Yh5g.html
      SnapClickKat:
      m.czcams.com/users/dangerouskat

  • @thediamondarcher2880
    @thediamondarcher2880 Před 2 lety +7

    Honestly, just the song I needed to hear “my past will not define me”; thank you citizen soldier!

  • @charlesphilabaumjr4522
    @charlesphilabaumjr4522 Před 2 lety +2

    Citizen Soldier, I just want to say thank you for making such amazing music. When I lost my brother back in February I was so helpless and depressed. I was scrolling through TikTok one night and just found your song "Face to face". Ever since that night, I have been fighting for my life. I just want to say thank you and God bless you.

  • @mystiangel96
    @mystiangel96 Před 3 lety +22

    "What a terrifying place
    Left alone here in my head
    Remember every last mistake
    I can't forgive, I can't forget"
    "At war with monsters in my head"
    My head is definitely a scary place sometimes and it doesn't make healing easy. Thank you for this song, all of your past songs, and all of your future songs.🎶❤

  • @jeremybrack8836
    @jeremybrack8836 Před 3 lety +18

    "I fought the devil and I lived to tell"
    Just those opening words let me know this song is going to be AMAZING!!!

  • @calvyn8059
    @calvyn8059 Před 5 měsíci +10

    Came for the cat that stood in front if a lady

    • @conksuckboot2426
      @conksuckboot2426 Před měsícem

      me too, I assumed it was citizen soldier when I heard it and I was right lol

  • @Dark_Shade_drawz
    @Dark_Shade_drawz Před rokem +3

    I absolutely love this song. Sometimes ill be screaming at the top of my lungs in a pissed off mood with tears in my eyes in revenge, other times I will be sitting at my desk staring into the abyss while crying my eyes out from my trauma. No one is alone in the world, just know that everyone is loved.

  • @SkyDragonsX
    @SkyDragonsX Před 3 lety +13

    Citizen Soldier: Uploads
    me: This is a good day

  • @stefandrumcea7021
    @stefandrumcea7021 Před 3 lety +9

    I DID NOT expect that begging, i love this song so much already!

  • @keithcasner3277
    @keithcasner3277 Před 2 lety +6

    Out of all of your songs I have listened to. This one is one of my favorites because this song speaks to me about both my depression and my past abusive relationship. It shows how much you can face but still be able to live strong despite what has happened to you. So thank you so much for producing these songs for us fans. That have stories that relate to each other.

  • @katcrooks2215
    @katcrooks2215 Před 2 lety +4

    “I’d rather die on my feet than live on my knees” that one hit hard… damn

  • @Logan_Vitalis
    @Logan_Vitalis Před 3 lety +55

    I have waited a while for this I know I’m commenting so fast but I can’t not immediately click the notification!!! Love you guys!! I can sleep in peace now.(somewhat haha) 😂🖤🖤

  • @emi30120
    @emi30120 Před 3 lety +9

    "I rather die on my feet than live on my knees" Just wow...you guys did amazing work again - I didn't expect anything else from you! So much power in one song

  • @DeathsExile
    @DeathsExile Před 7 měsíci +5

    I took to using scarification to prove my changes to myself so that line "my scars are my war paint" really speaks to me thank you for making such meaningful songs

  • @dawid6418
    @dawid6418 Před 3 lety +5

    "I'd rather die on my feet then live on my knees 🔥"
    I've already love this song😎

  • @HatoriMoons
    @HatoriMoons Před 3 lety +5

    Such an empowering song. Thank you, Citizen Soldier, for once again voicing the things often left unsaid and the pain often left locked up.

  • @jasminechavez7653
    @jasminechavez7653 Před 3 lety +43

    This song really hits me in the heart guys this tune is an awesome healing song of me not giving up my life and I’m healing from the pain I fought in my life for the last 8 years When I saw the lyrics in this video those lyrics remind me to leave my painful past behind I’m learning to do that and focus more on my happy place and my dreams for myself to pursue melodic rock music as a melodic rock singer this song really hold a special key to my heart I’m now leaving my painful past and my depression behind it’s a big change for me I’m now open and honest with myself and learning to love myself more and healed my wounds and my scars I left with my soul guys this is an awesome song u guys change my life for me to become a better young woman young adult young lady i can’t thank u enough you guys are my savior you saved my life and your music gave me so much hope in my life love you my angels your great mentors to me love u awesome album you rock and your vocals touches my heart love u 😍

  • @ethanmiles-keay6439
    @ethanmiles-keay6439 Před 2 lety +5

    I've been struggling with depression for years found you guys on tictok and your now part of my power playlist to pull me out of my head. This song says exactly what I need to be thinking

  • @itssilver8525
    @itssilver8525 Před 3 lety +3

    Citizen Soldier, I would like to say thank you. You saved my life. I never thought that listening to music that relates so close to my life could save me. I've never been able to relate to anyone about my problems but your music makes me understand that I have to go on living

  • @msuwolflink2397
    @msuwolflink2397 Před 3 lety +5

    That opening though!!

  • @skyroyal9612
    @skyroyal9612 Před 3 lety +5

    The is the definition of the life I live now and how much I have fought my past. Your music always speaks to me in one way or another. Keep going your music has made this fight much easier

  • @joebrock8627
    @joebrock8627 Před 2 lety +32

    CZcams for some reason didn't like my first comment and took it down. Let's sanitize it for them. I am a combat veteran battling PTSD, and your music is a lifesaver for real. Thank you for all you do and keeping it 💯. #PTSDisReal #22aDay #CombatVet

    • @deliawilliams2164
      @deliawilliams2164 Před rokem +2

      Thankyou 🖤 for your service

    • @johnbubba1143
      @johnbubba1143 Před rokem +2

      Much respect bro. Men like you fought the enemy far from home and men like me handled the enemy close to home. Former law enforcement.
      We see the worst humanity can do to each other, but we stand ready to face the wolf when it comes prowling.

    • @leeroy4958
      @leeroy4958 Před 5 měsíci

      Lol you sold your sanity for a few jewish coins.

  • @ShigekiHizashi
    @ShigekiHizashi Před 3 lety +7

    This can easily be a fitting song for folks who manage to leave an abusive relationship behind! Whether it's family, spouse, etc

  • @vmikarae
    @vmikarae Před 3 lety +12

    When I didn't even listen to it but I already know that this is a masterpiece.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety +2

      💜💜💜

    • @vmikarae
      @vmikarae Před 3 lety

      @@CitizenSoldier I listened to this song right now after my final math exam and I'm not disappointed.
      Good job 🛐👏

  • @acetune0080
    @acetune0080 Před 3 lety +9

    "I rather die on my feet than live on my knees..." that hit different

  • @crowfoxington6838
    @crowfoxington6838 Před 3 lety +4

    I'll admit, your songs bring peace inside my deranged and depressed mind. I was in a pretty tough place until I discovered your music, thank you for this, I feel like this is a voice to my life.

  • @brianagrootboom1039
    @brianagrootboom1039 Před 3 lety +6

    Thank you once again for voicing out our words that we couldn't say. I really appreciate it. 😭❤️Keep them coming... They are saving lives. 💪❤️

  • @heaven2988
    @heaven2988 Před 3 lety +6

    "i can't forgive, i can't forget"
    YOU ALWAYS IN MY HEAD!

  • @brokendaylight13
    @brokendaylight13 Před 3 lety +10

    I’ve recently been feeling like I’ve defeated my demons, but sometimes it feels like they’re always going to come back and take me down again. Songs like this is what keeps me going. Songs like this and Let It Burn, Hallelujah, and Hope It Haunts You. Thank you so much for making these sorts of songs, they really help a lot of people 💜

  • @FluffyArtiste20
    @FluffyArtiste20 Před 3 lety +4

    You have helped to motivate me to keep pushing and get through what I’ve been chained to for many years. Eventually, it will all come to a close and I’ll find peace. I know this to be true. “At war with monsters in my head,” “I fought the devil and I’ll live to tell.” “My past will not define me.” Thank you for this message. It couldn’t have come at a better time. 💜❤️🖤

  • @dragonfire8484
    @dragonfire8484 Před rokem +2

    “I’m fought the devil and I lived to tell” I feel that to my core

  • @mariaoswin4061
    @mariaoswin4061 Před 3 lety +23

    This is so precious! I love how you play with music and this moment with the voice behind the song. Everything is just incredible! And I have a soft spot for red so the video is even more amazing because of it! The lyrics are so inspiring. I will definitely try to stand firm on my feet (I just need to stop standing on my knees first lol) Thank you so much for the song, going to have it on repeat for the next month for sure

  • @Hghgghg
    @Hghgghg Před 3 lety +7

    "my scars are my war paint" damn, never thought of it that way

  • @saturndik4013
    @saturndik4013 Před 3 lety +5

    They do more then sing songs. They save lives! 🖤🖤🖤

  • @user-r1234t
    @user-r1234t Před rokem +5

    This song saved my life

  • @autumnfrost2488
    @autumnfrost2488 Před 3 lety +23

    Yet another powerful, emotional and empowering anthem! I don't know how y'all do it but your music makes people feel seen and heard, you put words to feelings that otherwise couldn't be explained

  • @nemoschmetterling6053
    @nemoschmetterling6053 Před 3 lety +6

    I can relate to this so much rn. I fight 2 chronic illnesses for about 16 years now, the biggest battle is to accept them as a part of me. Your songs are an emotional refuge on the days I see no light. Thank you so much and keep up the amazing work.

  • @MGHays
    @MGHays Před 3 lety +5

    2:04 - 2:08
    This is super inspiring, y'all. I mean, the whole thing is inspiring but this line in particular. I am so tired of being pushed around by other people and by my own thoughts (which, in truth, are my biggest bully). Your songs are always so relatable in so many ways and that is what makes a piece of art. I lost my grandfather last night and this song truly helped. It reminded me that no matter what the pain be it life-inflicted or self-inflicted, we have to keep going. We have to wear our scars with pride. Everyone just remember that.

  • @krakenlikesmen
    @krakenlikesmen Před 3 lety +3

    I've listened to this song over and over

  • @mattadams1694
    @mattadams1694 Před 3 lety +3

    Every single lyric you guys put out.... Speechless. It’s like you guys have looked inside the most broken of all people and put their struggles into every last word, every last riff and every last beat of the drum. Thank you is all I can say. Thank you.

  • @haleyraven.lilrocket9241
    @haleyraven.lilrocket9241 Před 3 lety +19

    Wow another amazing song I feel like my cancer is the devil I'm still fighting a big thumbs up this song is absolutely amazing 👍☺️🤗

  • @Sarah-du7vy
    @Sarah-du7vy Před 3 lety +5

    I swear to god, you guys have the best timing with releasing songs.
    It’s been a really rough time for me, it had started to get better and in a way it still is but I’ve slipped up a lot this week with my devil, and it made me realize that I wasn’t doing as well as I thought I was. Still trying to fight it, I’ve been stuck for years in up and down quasi recovery and every time I think it’s getting better I realize I was just suppressing it. Still trying but it’s so hard. I am blessed to have found your music, keep writing. You help me and countless others in so many ways and I hope you know that❤️

  • @quilendas
    @quilendas Před 4 měsíci +4

    Amazing song, I remember finding this through a instagram cat meme video haha.

  • @charles7740
    @charles7740 Před 3 lety +16

    I think I have finally found a band that understands me even though they've never met me🖤🖤Thank you guys

  • @callmejj9318
    @callmejj9318 Před 3 lety +18

    I feel like Citizen Soldier is way too epic and far too relatable with their music. You'd be hard pressed to find a song that ISN'T inspiring rather than the other way around, holy. So good.

  • @siennalarson7069
    @siennalarson7069 Před 2 lety +3

    “My past will not define me.” This is my favorite line as I was abused in a cult as a young child and this reminds me that my past didn’t make me I made me. Thank you so much Citizen Soldier 💜

    • @siennalarson7069
      @siennalarson7069 Před 2 lety

      The cult doesn’t have a name but is sometimes referred to as “The Truth,” “The Way,” “The Lowly Way,” or the “Two-by-Twos.” It is one of the largest cults worldwide with several hundred thousand members. “The Way” took my virginity before I even started preschool (when I was about four) and no one ever believed me. I told my best friend this week what happened (just to clarify I’m not being abused anymore) but she didn’t believe me. It hurt so bad not to be believed. But anyway this song always reminds me that yes, I fought the devil. Yes, I’ll live to tell. My past didn’t make me I made me 💜 I’m 15 now and learning to go from surviving to thriving 💜 My story starts today The last 15 years of my life arent my story. My story starts today 💪💜

  • @cemeterysinner7284
    @cemeterysinner7284 Před 2 lety +2

    I was having panic attacks an hour ago. I was breaking down and bawling because I felt so lost because the mountain of pain on my shoulders from what's happened the last couple of years was about to break me. I'm okay now. Thank you. So much. Metal, rock, it's the reason I'm still here and alive and able to love. Keep making badass music, know you are helping, I'm sure there are thousands doing the same thing and feeling the same way.

  • @ShoguYT
    @ShoguYT Před 3 lety +5

    This song makes me want to fight with my own weaknesses. Amazing song to wake up with

  • @kalseru
    @kalseru Před 3 lety +6

    I absolutely fell in love with the song!
    The lyrics are so meaningful, especially the lines „my past will not define me“ and „my life is worth the struggle, my scars are my war paint“ really hit me as I heard the song for the first time.
    Especially when suffering from depression, I often think way too much of my own mistakes and it’s incredibly helpful to hear encouraging songs like yours. Thank you so much!

  • @filiplass7442
    @filiplass7442 Před 3 lety +6

    HOW DO YOU KEEP MAKING SUCH PERFECT MUSIC THE LYRICS LITERALLY HIT SO HARD

  • @GilesCorey2011
    @GilesCorey2011 Před 3 lety +5

    The worst demons are the ones we fight inside ourselfs. Great song as aways, and it's beautiful to not feel so alone. I wish relief and a BIG hug to everyone who is dealing with suicidal thoughts and deep depression, I hope that WE can win this fight in the future.