Hi Derrick! First, let me say you’re amazing for making this video. It’s part of your healing journey for sure. I feel you 100%. I have complex PTSD from many traumas going as far back as five years old. Of course I won’t get into it here. I suffer severe depression, bipolar, borderline personality disorder, dissociation, severe anxiety and panic, complex trauma and all that it entails, so bad the last like 15 months I’ve been in severe isolation to where I can’t leave my home for anything but therapy, I struggle to eat, to sleep, to where I’m physically ill most days. However I’ve been facing the demons the last four months or so and getting to know my inner child who has emerged, unfortunately all alone, because therapy had to be on Zoom, therapy groups had to be on Zoom. But I’m slowly facing it all. I’ve done PHP several times. I’ve been inpatient several times. It’s recommended I go inpatient again, but I’ve been fighting it for weeks. Mainly because my anxiety is so severe I can’t be away from home and it scares the crap out of me just thinking about it. It takes a lot of strength to face traumas from decades past. And it may take many years to get through all that. The point is to keep moving. That is all that matters. When we keep moving, we heal. I could say so much more. Hang in there friend. You’re on your way. One day, one step, one minute at a time. And it’s nice to have “met” you in Jen’s karaoke last week! Hope to see you again! 🥰 Stay safe.
I am at the phase of acknowledging and working through it. For me, a lot of it is about letting go of shame. Some of the things I've done are brutally embarrassing and letting go of that is actually feeling really good. I also consider myself a survivor.
Hello Derrick. I can relate so much. I have been in 2 73 hour holds, outpatient therapy was very very hard on me. Some stuff I wish I could back and not go through. I have severe depression and severe anxiety. I am SO proud of you for sharing this. You WILL get through this. Very elated that you are vlogging again whether you post it or not. Many props. Love you, Derrick. Please stay safe. Hugs. I wonder if cherry juice might help with your sleep.
I commend you for your commitment to Iop and all the work you’re doing on your mental health. I have severe depression and anxiety, and I appreciate your openness in this video. I’m starting to hear more overall talk about trauma in our society, but I feel like trauma and it’s effects need to be discussed so much more. It’s been fun getting to know you a bit during karaoke. You seem like a great guy! I wish you well with your mental health journey.
WAKIN’ UP with Dee thanks. Part of why I’m being more open about what is going on with me is to destigmatize. I’ve debated doing more videos but have been doing other things. I shot two others but can’t remember why I didn’t post them. Or at this point where they even are.
Hi Derrick! First, let me say you’re amazing for making this video. It’s part of your healing journey for sure. I feel you 100%. I have complex PTSD from many traumas going as far back as five years old. Of course I won’t get into it here. I suffer severe depression, bipolar, borderline personality disorder, dissociation, severe anxiety and panic, complex trauma and all that it entails, so bad the last like 15 months I’ve been in severe isolation to where I can’t leave my home for anything but therapy, I struggle to eat, to sleep, to where I’m physically ill most days. However I’ve been facing the demons the last four months or so and getting to know my inner child who has emerged, unfortunately all alone, because therapy had to be on Zoom, therapy groups had to be on Zoom. But I’m slowly facing it all. I’ve done PHP several times. I’ve been inpatient several times. It’s recommended I go inpatient again, but I’ve been fighting it for weeks. Mainly because my anxiety is so severe I can’t be away from home and it scares the crap out of me just thinking about it. It takes a lot of strength to face traumas from decades past. And it may take many years to get through all that. The point is to keep moving. That is all that matters. When we keep moving, we heal. I could say so much more. Hang in there friend. You’re on your way. One day, one step, one minute at a time. And it’s nice to have “met” you in Jen’s karaoke last week! Hope to see you again! 🥰 Stay safe.
I am at the phase of acknowledging and working through it. For me, a lot of it is about letting go of shame. Some of the things I've done are brutally embarrassing and letting go of that is actually feeling really good. I also consider myself a survivor.
Hello Derrick. I can relate so much. I have been in 2 73 hour holds, outpatient therapy was very very hard on me. Some stuff I wish I could back and not go through. I have severe depression and severe anxiety. I am SO proud of you for sharing this. You WILL get through this. Very elated that you are vlogging again whether you post it or not. Many props. Love you, Derrick. Please stay safe. Hugs.
I wonder if cherry juice might help with your sleep.
I commend you for your commitment to Iop and all the work you’re doing on your mental health. I have severe depression and anxiety, and I appreciate your openness in this video. I’m starting to hear more overall talk about trauma in our society, but I feel like trauma and it’s effects need to be discussed so much more.
It’s been fun getting to know you a bit during karaoke. You seem like a great guy! I wish you well with your mental health journey.
WAKIN’ UP with Dee thanks. Part of why I’m being more open about what is going on with me is to destigmatize. I’ve debated doing more videos but have been doing other things. I shot two others but can’t remember why I didn’t post them. Or at this point where they even are.