Its 2:33 am. This is nice. Its raining outside. I feel neither sad nor happy. Rather at peace. No angry thoughts. No sad thoughts. Its just quiet. Its good.
It’s almost 4 am. Idk how I ended up here but I feel like my life is at a standstill right now. I’m too scared to take a big risk and move forward because I have no idea where I’ll end up. But I don’t really feel happy with where I’m at. As each day goes by I just feel like I’m losing time. If you’re reading this comment and feel lost as well, I believe someday we’ll all find our way. Just keep your head held high and keep moving forward, you got this.
I feel you. 4 am here as well. Almost 2 years ago now I succumbed to external pressures and basically decided to give up on my dreams in the pursuit of a stable, reliable career. I kind of regret it and I could take that big risk and jump back into doing what I’m passionate about but I feel stuck. I’m lost and I don’t know what to do. But I think eventually this will all pass and we will both be in a better place.
@@michaelibrahim9275 It’s been awhile since I commented this, but that’s rough man, hope you’re doing well. It may sound cliché, but I don’t think you should ever give up on your dreams. If it’s something you’re really passionate about then don’t let anyone stop you from doing it. Whatever you’re doing right now, I hope it was your decision and not anyone else’s.
35 and going through it again. Trying to allow myself to feel it as strong as it still can be, without telling myself "i should have it figured out by now.".
it's 12am and i have a morning shift at work tomorrow. sleeping allows for me to escape the world, if only for a few hours, but it's not enough.... i want to escape forever. i just wanna float in space yknow? become non-existent and matter to no one and no thing. Update: Thanks for the likes and replies guys! i’m glad to help y’all feel seen! and i am still alive yes.
i feel you man i should of been asleep 2 hours ago as i write this,something is just keeping my up ig ihave to get up in 4 and half to do the same job for the past 9 months ...it's a great job for my job i make a significant more than minimum wage nothing crazy just better than the norm still most people would love to have the payrate i have but respectfully i worked really hard the past 3 years with all the 80hr weeksi dont even want to take credit cause honestly i just zoned out,if you wrote it on a piece of paper and showed me how next three years were gonna go i would think you took bathsalts before talkin to me ,ive been in my own apartment for awhile now idk man i just feel empty, the 8 year old me wouldnt even recognize who i became now.been in a rut for a couple of years now wouldnt call it deppression cause it lasted to long. kinda long i know just wanted to say i feel for you man
@@truu8541 depression has no limits but diagnoses made by professionals have a possibility of being biased. nevertheless, i completely understand what you mean. sometimes you gotta spice it up, like doing something different each day. it’s the little things that can make big differences. life will get tough but you can’t depend on life itself to help you fix it. sometimes you gotta do it yourself, yknow?
damn.. i feel you compadre... to me, sleep and video games are my two only doors to escape this depressive reality, if only dreams could come truth, all we want is peace... stay strong brother, we'll get this through
My alarm is set for 4:45AM. It’s about 12:20AM now. Every night I ask myself what I’m even supposed to be doing. I can’t tell if this music helps or hurts, it’s soothing though.
Neverending question... every day, every night. I also always ask myself if these songs keep me alive or slowly break me. You are not alone mate. Keep your head up better times have to come.
You are not the only one, have millions and billions peoples in the world lost, my dream its to give anyone of you a great hug... its very hard all the pression, make money, but remember u need be a inspiration for everyone who still lost and without a purpose.. Im from Brazil, life here its very hard, we feel like a slave every Day, but I hope we can found one day, in this world or in the next.. Be strong and the God bless you all.. You guys are very young dont wasting your time with girls and bad things, focus in you, training, make money, study and be inspiration and help everyone this guy its you in the past and needs your help like you need now, be a good people in the world and the world will give you back. God bless you all.
For everyone going through tough times, have faith, trust the process and keep pushing forward, just take it one day at a time and eventually the storm will pass.
I challenge you with this question. Have Faith in what? I’m not trying to say anything to insult or stump you. But if we don’t believe in Jesus, what can we have faith in, where will we get our hope. The things of this world won’t live on forever, and I’m not saying to not love people or have connections, I love people, I love my friends and the experiences I’ve had alone and with people. When I catch myself adrift in my thoughts at night. I place my hope and faith in Jesus, not in a religious way but in a friend way. Where I can tell him my struggles, my victories and defeats. The most intimate friend I have is him. I trust him to lead me through dark times and I trust him hold my hand through this Hellish world. My brothers, being a man is not easy. We have the responsibility of leading in our relationships and being accountable to our friends. If anyone reads this, know that we face very similar struggles in life believers or nonbelievers, we have struggle. But there is an option to not face these things alone. Seek the kingdom first. I love you guys, stay safe and become wise
I wish people understood me as much as people do on the internet, then I would at least have a shoulder to cry on. Its a sad fact that I haven't felt genuine happiness in years, I just hope that all of us all around the world can get better soon. Drink water and rest a lot, love you guys.
❤❤❤ I love you too dude. "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13
Porque falas isso meu bem? Quem e Voçê ? Parese uma pessoa que Amo💙🧑🏻💙👩🏵️❤mas Ele Nem mim dá atenção não sei porque! Se eu amo Ele Mais que tudo nesse mundo🌏meu Sonho era encontrá-lo e não separar dele nunca mais na minha vida. Queria até casar 💍💐💍 pra Ele não Separar nunca mais de mim. Compraria uma colera, prefere Ele do meu lado iria virar meu cachorrinho lindo lindo da minha Vida. só eu poderia mandar nele.💙🧑🏻👩❤️🦮💙❤️💙❤️💙❤️💙❤️💙❤️💙 Deus ✝️🙏 vai mim intregar ainda esse cachorrinho lindo pra mim. Acredito muito 🙏🙏 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
It’s 4:30 am this time last year I was in jail on a charge I was running from for almost 8 years finally turned myself in served my time and been out since January 25th music was what got me thru my time and nights like this where I’m over thinking I lay down after work put both my headphones in and let the music take away all the stress thank you for this playlist 🖤
So that was a very long run on sentence. Definitely could’ve used some periods, or commas in that matter. Respect for doing time my brudda. Love from South Africa 🇿🇦 let’s goooooooo
It really says something when people on the internet understand you more than most people in your life. I don’t know if it’s good or bad, but it’s something when you realize that.
It's rather nice, when you think about it. You have a much wider range of people to speak with, some may vary in experience and understanding, but when you find people who have just the right amount, it's truly a good feeling, knowing that at least SOMEBODY understands you, in a life where you've likely felt isolated from the rest.
It’s 11:23 pm and I’m laying here thinking about life . My two kids are getting older & my relationship with my wife is getting rocky & I just hope everything’s going to be alright. Just remember guys keep fighting and pull thru . Life is strange to say the least but it’s a beautiful thing . Love and peace to everyone .
Something to uplift you: my dad was in this exact situation just last year. Me and my brother are grown, his wife of 17 years divorced him, and he was messy for a while. But he started going to the gym, he quit smoking, started taking better care of himself. And one day when he went to the gym he met someone… he’s the happiest I’ve seen him in basically my entire life. Things do get better if you hang on to see it..
Take your wife out on a nice date, try to impress her, do your best. Make yourselfs fall in love again. That’s what marriage is all about. Best of luck buddy ❤
11:25 pm and I’m finally 18. And it’s not something I was expecting bc when I was younger I wanted to be 18 but now this is where my life begin bc school was just a time consumer. High school wanted me to focus on the small things and to not be prepared for the big things and idk I was just force to jump in and go and idk if I fail this army test and I fail the driving test then idk what’s left for me like I think I can feel young all the time but I’m going to start getting older and alone and ppl are living the lives they wanted to live and idk it got me sad when things didn’t go the way I wanted to and idk what’s my life going to be. Sometimes thinking of being dead is the best thing to not deal with the problems but I just can’t do that to my family yk that’s selfish so right I’m living my life taking things slow and I do not want to waste time but use every time and second I have bc I never when it all can go away. So I just hope and pray to see myself become something not just for myself but for my family yk I just can’t always be happy bc the things that make me happy are not sustainable and I need to work for it so I can be happy everyday. But I just know that right now in this comment section was my break on how I acc feel. So thank you CZcams. I had to speak on this.
its 6:48 AM, i have an alarm set up for 6:00AM, i decided not to go to work... throwing my life away. Im at peace, this music is playing in my head as im floating in my imagination. thanks to this video i realized i hate my job, i hate my life and that i need a break from society and everything...
@@0l0l00l0 Hey there, just a quick update for my fans i know you guys missed me and you might be thinking: hmmm... i wonder how my hero is doing?, well, i was able to pull through my crippling depression by watching bubu and dudu videos, i feel much better now, i got a new job at mcdonalds and i eat the frozen cookies everytime i go in the freezer, i take a bite and let it thaw out in my mouth and honestly i never been happier.
Im going to remember this video for when im having one of those days or nights that im feeling down or life doesnt feel real or when i dont feel like living. This comments section is the most supporting and wholesome ive ever seen. Thank you to everyone here for helping each other! We’re in this together eventho everyone is fighting there own battles
Its good to know there are so many that feel so similar. Just existing, not fighting the void, not breaking down, just processing how fucked life can get.
4 am just hit on my area. I didn't even plan to pull an all-nighter this time... just got a terrible anxiety for everything and a big stomach ache. but this playlist will probably lead me to sleep and inner peace I kinda both wanted and needed. thank you
It’s so hard to live these days… im from Korea and its 00:09. My family is all sleeping and i am crying quietly. I hope everything will be okay. Cheer up everyone. I hope you guys have a good day. I will slepp. My English comment can be wrong.😅 Let’s live our precious life happily. I will try. _ good playlist :)
Me too and remember You are not the only one, have millions and billions peoples in the world lost, my dream its to give anyone of you a great hug... its very hard all the pression, make money, but remember u need be a inspiration for everyone who still lost and without a purpose.. Im from Brazil, life here its very hard, we feel like a slave every Day, but I hope we can found one day, in this world or in the next.. Be strong
@@henryalucard4091 I can't believe you gave me strength in Brazil.. Thank you very much. That's very encouraging to me. I hope your life gets better and happier. Let's all find our way to life.
@@hwaeunjeong4890 thanks, we will see again brother one day and I will remember when I said this to you and I gonna say : "Hey brother I told you, you did it brother".. all the best brother God bless you, Im here praying for you, Im your fan number on, never forget That.
This comment section is awesome. Never get to open up like this so here it goes. I’ve always been known as the calm outgoing guy. No one really knows my suffering, but I also feel no one knows my happiness as well. Have gratitude everyday. The toughest times is your brain and soul adapting to situations and growing. It’s like your body sweating when exercising. Your emotions have been created for a reason. Embrace them but don’t overanalyse in your thoughts. You control what your brain wants to focus on. (to an extent)
@@wkillzpI feel like everything is falling apart. I am born again Christian. I tried fasting, praying and still no break through. Things are getting worse. But I still love Jesus Christ.
You know, I don't go to bed until late, because sleep always ends very quickly and here it is, morning again, business again, fuss, and I didn't have enough time to rest. Spending time until late at night somehow helps to mentally restore a little strength. It's hard when you're not like many others who are able to work hard at least 24/7. Depression, what to say
I do not think that sleep less will be help for you mentally, trying to regulate your sleep is more beneficial for both your rest and your health.I used to sleep less when I was working, I thought its helping my mental to stay awake at night, but I was wrong.
I relate so much with you. When the day ends, the last thing I want is to start the next day, so I usually stay up late cause I feel like it's the only way to have some peace in my life
It's 1am, and I want sleep. But I can't. I'm so worrying about everything in my life. Idk why. Today was a good day, but I can't just fall asleep. I think, I needed this playlist. So calm and so necessary to me right now. I read some comments and found myself in them. People in comments so much like me. I feel calm here Thank you all. (And sorry for my English, I don't know it very good and can make many mistakes haha..)
This playlist is actually good for those who suffers in an environment full of chaotic people accompanied by severe noise pollution, including me. Thanks
It’s currently 12:54 am and I am looking out at the raindrops on my window. I am deep in realisation and hope. I hope to accomplish things in life. For some reason this music is just so surreal.
Crazy how much i genuinely relate to the comments in this video, this community feels like a safe space where i can express myself. Thank you from the bottom of my heart family ❤️😪
Just turned midnight and I have school tomorrow which on Monday. Times like this feel so special for some reason, just listening to peaceful music late at night knowing you’ll probably forget about it the next day. Goodnight to everyone and good luck
It’s 2:34 am. I’m not happy. I haven’t felt genuine joy in years. I do feel slightly better reading these comments knowing I’m not the only one.. Edit: almost a whole year later I’m in such a good place now 🤎 things get better
Dude today I was overthinking all the things in my life and always i wake up maybe 3am to overthinking again its weird youtube recommend this videos. I hope everyone can have peace in their lives
Im 31 now and i never had a relationship never found a gf, i dreamed of love all my life but nothing except heartbreak. In this life ut appears to be nothing but sorrow and emptyness
Same with me bro....hope you are able to have some courage now, I have failed myself just for a punk girl and been unwillingly thi**ning about her since last 8 years
@RaviKiranGoswami 8 years that's how long I ask out my 1st crush wich I was 19 this was March 2015.....since the. I still think of that day😢never want that feeling anymore
I had a brief relationship only. I'm 37. a) relationships are overrated. most people are not as happy as they claim b) we can't find lasting love in another. the more unique you are the more difficult it is to find someone compatible and willing to spend time with us. Please don't have a superficial view of the situation.....really try to understand human psychology and dynamics. Without juding yourself. What's important is to live according to your values..........being in relationship won't ever feel like love unless they share those values with you. Know yourself.......understnaind how people think...and I promise you life won't feel to sad and lonely. I still want a relationship myself....but I'm no longer worried about not having one.
My alarm is set for 5AM. It's 3AM now in Brasil. I have school tomorrow. I discussed with my mother, I didn't talk to my father yesterday. I have a test today and three activities to hand in by next week. If the sun didn't rise, at least today, I could stay lost in my thoughts forever, and then rest from it all.
All of these comments... i feel so safe here and to all those people who are having rough times... it eventually passes... im also confused with my life but music like this helps me cleanse my soul ;) i hope every person gets a better life.
i miss her. i miss her warmth, or could it have been the warmth itself? my heart feels cold, i cant wait to fall asleep again and start a new day. maybe patience is a virtue, but sometimes i wish things could just go differently. ill always be here for you no matter what.
Sleeping is like a drug for me, i get to escape this soul crushing reality for a bit. But then i wake up missing the high. The rest of the day is withdrawal, unbearable, itching for the end of the day. Finally night comes again, but I'm hesitating to sleep. I know the after effects of dreaming is bad for me. But I need it
Born 1993, when I was around 5/6 me and my family had to move to Germany, Osnabruck because my Dad was stationed there for being in the British Army. We stayed there until 2001. I can honestly say from what memories are still there in my head, are the best years of my life. If I could just relive those days, just for a few hours, I would be so happy. I spend hours crying happy/sad tears on Google Earth Pro with the time machine of the maps. Seeing my old Primary School before it was demolished. Seeing the Army barracks my dad was at before that too was sadly demolished. Seeing my old childhood home which I haven't seen since we left 22 years ago. It's even more saddening with how Germanys privacy laws are. Google Street view is practically none existent. So the buildings and the streets I fondly remember are mainly just these pixelated resemblances of buildings that I still vividly remember from my childhood but i can't see how are now or was a few years ago. I only have what I remember, and the odd remnants of videos here on CZcams which is extremely lacking and rare to find. The walks we went on, the Warner Brothers Movie Theme Park down south near Dorsten. Pony rides in the woods and picking the oldest one there who was called Boris. I picked him all the time because he liked to eat the grass a lot which made the ride last longer so I could spend more time with him. The little & big lake walk just behind the Nettebad. The traditional Christmas Markets in the town centre. Playing video games when my Dad finally came home on my Playstation 1, we would try and beat the games in one day but never could because I didn't have a memory card. Getting excited whenever Pokemon was on the TV. Friends round mine to share the big swimming pool I had. Watching Halloween Town before going out trick or treating. Finding our first ever pet, a kitten abandoned behind a grit bin while we were on a bike ride and taking her home, we named her Millie. So many memories. All lost to time. With only old VHS tapes & photographs to try and relive those memories at least just a tiny bit. Oh what Id do just to go back to those days. Nostalgia is such a beautiful but cruel mistress. I hate to love it and love to hate it. I Miss you Osnabruck. I miss you childhood. But. I have a baby daughter now. And I honestly can not wait to be the best father I can possibly be. And to make everlasting memories with her that she can look back on and smile just as much as I do looking back at the ones I made with my Mum & Dad. Oh Germany. Oh Osnabruck. Oh childhood. You were the best of days. I'll revisit you one day. With the whole family hopefully.
Greetings from Germany, near Hameln. I miss the British Army and British Citizens, most have returned back to UK, the Barracks and Buildings in Hameln, Herford and Rinteln were torn down, shame
I think why I'm so connected to my past, why I'm so nostalgic, is because I see things that remind me of what was, and it makes me sad. It makes me fill up with resentment, wishing I could go back to that time and do things right. But it also helps push me to want to do better now.
if you are sad of the past tell jesus and he will help you if you have sined it is normal just ask jesus and he will forgive you no mater what jesus is king amen❤❤❤
3am thoughts are those that hits you so hard. Staring at the ceiling while wondering what would your life be years from now, or thinking about all your past mistakes and what you could've done to make it right.
That’s me currently (4:45 a.m.) some things are very difficult to let go of. I’m very hard on myself for my past mistakes. I know it’ll get better one day but brother, depression is one difficult hole to climb out of. I pray that our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ touches your heart the way he’s touched mine, if he hasn’t already. One love. 🤍
Even if just a tiny bit, this playlist gives me a sense of serenity. Perfectly what I needed as tommorrow is a big day for me. It's 3am in the morning and I'm meditating to calm my paranoia and social anxiety. I really appreciate that there are people like you who make these types of content. Thank you, dear creator! I'm really thankful for this wonderful song collection.
I haven't done this In a while, but I thought I'd do It here since I have had a pretty rough week. I come to videos like this a lot because they help me relax and think, think about a lot of things. I don't really know what Is wrong, I feel like I should since I am turning 20 In a week but I just can't figure It out. I am Incredibly unhappy with my life, I have been for a long long time, It started when I was around 16 but could have been earlier, I am not sure. Every night I reflect on my day and actions, and feel empty, everything feels like a blur as If what I did doesn't matter at all. I know I have amazing friends and family but I can't help but feel the urge to leave them, everything In my life, who I am doesn't have any meaning to me, almost like I only live for others or to appease others. You have no Idea how many times I have tried to correct my way of thinking over the years, at first I thought that maybe It was a life style choice (I am very fat and hate how I look, I have attempted to go on a diet and fix It before but every time I fail) but after acquiring a kit to help me with my cravings and trying to Improve how I looked I quickly realized that my days didn't Improve, they only made me feel even more exhausted (the feeling of being tired has followed me as well). After a while things people said about me or how I acted started to hurt more and more, I hate going out or meeting new people because I feel ugly, I started to hate talking because I am constantly reminded by my friends and family how stupid or moronic I am (I know they are joking, but even after telling them It does hurt to hear that they don't stop) more and more I just hated going out In general. It lead to me quitting school due to me failing my classes and not fitting In with any of the new people. I thought that maybe a change of scenery and being at home would help, but that went away quickly. However I did realize that being at home felt nicer and easier than being out, when I am online It's like I can be a lot better, I can be who I want to be. But soon after all this, everything kind of fell apart, because of me dropping out of school the feeling of being stupid amplified 100 fold, I grew an Intense love for learning new things and trying to be the smartest because It helps with that feeling and helps a small amount when others say I am an idiot. I started to feel useless to my mother since I was 17 and hadn't had a job even though all those around me had either started to look or had one, I felt lazy since I played video games all day, etc. Things just got worse and worse over the years. Skipping ahead a couple years (so that I don't write a 8 page comment) I was 19 and finally had a job, It felt amazing making money and finally paying my mother, but after a couple months nothing had changed. I was making money and was helping my mother but now I felt like a money bag since all I did was pay for my family, what's more I could barely talk to or hang out with anyone at work, I just kind of became the "every day guy" who would come In, talk with people, but then leave. I rarely spoke to anyone outside of work and I didn't really care to Improve that, because I have this Irrational fear of meeting or hanging out with anyone outside of our respective environments. After a couple more months things got bad, worse than they had ever been before. I don't want to talk about that part specifically, but I had to call some people that day to calm down. That was kind of the last straw, I met and talked with a psychiatrist, got pills, and tbh I don't know If things ever got better, because shortly after I was unable to afford them anymore. I never went back to meet her because I felt bad for wasting her time with an appointment If I was just going to not show up again, my mom was under the assumption that I only needed those pills for a month since to her my mood Improved. But I don't believe her, she didn't know anything was going on before all of It happened, she only found out because I told her. I realized though that after all these years nothing worked, I still feel empty, I still feel alone, and I still feel like my life and purpose means nothing. To everyone else I'm just the funny fat guy. I don't tell anyone what has been going on because I genuinely feel as If I would be ruining there days, I don't want any of them to worry about me, I don't want anyone to worry about me, because I don't bring anything to them, I am worthless. It would be a waste for anyone to care, that Is why I stopped trying to ask for help after the pills, and why I only think about all of this when everyone has gone to sleep. I don't know what I am going to do, I can't afford a therapist, I feel as If I don't deserve help In the first place If I can't even bring myself to ask for It, and after a year I feel like I am slowly approaching that breaking point again. Yesterday I started thinking about how It would be If I just stopped, stopped living, stopped doing, stopped everything, It sounds so peaceful. No more anxiety, no more extreme stress, no more hopelessness, just nothing. I could peacefully float away. Thank you for reading this, I am sorry If It somehow ruined your mood or If It ruined your moment, I just truly am at a point again where I don't really see a point In It all. Please don't attempt to give me words of encouragement, or try to tell me the cliche "things get better, trust me". I have heard It all before, for years and years, and I can say that at least for me, It hasn't gotten better, and at this point It probably never will. I simply just wanted to write something down again like old times, and tell someone. The months of trying to live day by day as If nothing Is wrong has made me so exhausted and I just needed to let some of It out. Please, live your lives, find Incredible people, do Incredible things, don't be like me, find purpose and love, don't hide away Inside yourself and not try to reach out for help. I am beyond the point of help, just a empty shell living for others, no point In living for myself, but you still have a life, you still exist.
Hey, venting out somewhere felt better didn't it? That's all therapy is, venting out your feelings and frustrations and trying to either fix them or rationalize that they aren't under your control. Take care of yourself, there are few in the world who would introspect, who would think about themselves from a third eye like you just did, most just kinda live. And no, you are important, there's a reason you live and breathe. Imagine how proud your mom was when you could finally take care of her, when she felt you got better. Just give her a hug and tell her that you love her. And don't bottle up feelings like this, trust me. Good times are ahead for sure, just keep grinding and putting in the work. It's okay to fail, it's not okay to give up. It's gonna be better, and hey, even if somehow it isn't, I want you to feel better ok :). If you ever need to vent out again, or just want someone to talk to, and you aren't yet comfortable talking with your mom, or someone close to you, feel free to reach out to any of us on the internet. Like you said, you can talk freely here, just get it out. It's cliche to say stuff will get better, but it's mathematically accurate to say you'll make things better cause I believe in you ✨. -Random 18 year old on the internet :)
Hey man, thanks for letting us know. I know you said not to try and reach out buuut I don't care, you sound way too much like me and I wanna make sure you know you're not alone... I'm currently 20, and I remember that feeling of the lead up to my birthday. How lonely I felt, how I kept thinking that I've never accomplished anything in my life, how every second felt like a second wasted, that THAT was gonna be who I was as a teenager.. and that's all I ever would be.. I honestly feel like I let people down, who at least think I had some potential and... I just wasted all of it. I dropped out of school like you did, and for me I did it the first semester.. I didn't do a single thing of homework, I had great professors who all believed in me, that I could easily pass their classes but as soon as I got home every day, I just.. yeah. I kept thinking about shit in my life. A really bad breakup, the fact that I'm just a shitty older brother and don't call him enough... I know that feeling of not wanting people to worry about you. I honestly wish a lot of times that everyone in my life would hate me so it'd be easier to just end everything.. but I can't. Honestly feels like there's just a bunch of rusted chains coming out of this dent in my chest that keep me stuck to the ground.. I've lost a lot of people, all of them by suicide and every day I wish I could've done more. Not just for them, but now after there gone I wish I could've been better to the people closest to them.. I seem to never be able to take care of the people I love the most I suppose. One thing I'm gonna tell you right now, and one reason I haven't ended things is that you don't realize just how many people truly care about you, that will truly miss you. You might have an idea, you might say that you do, but you don't. It ripples out, and it fucking hurts.. I've come close to ending it, both times in highschool, and every now and again when I see a train approaching I do get that feeling of just.. wanting to let go of everything.. I never could though, mainly because I'd never wanna traumatize the people who would see something so horrible, but also because I know deep down I gotta keep going. I know it's kinda dumb, but in Highschool I picked up a manga called Berserk and I think it honestly saved me.. or was part of the reason. You've probably heard of it, but it's main thing is about how even when things are horrible, you need to struggle on. I think reading about someone who's whole life was a living hell from day one, and who kept going even after everything really gave me hope. It's scary, it's brutal... and it's fucking beautiful in small moments. It took me a few years before I could just allow myself to actually.. have fun. Or take moments to just appreciate how terrifyingly beautiful the world is, how kind people can be. I'm telling you this as someone who felt like my teens were wasted, that I'd never be comfortable with my gross body, who could never find someone who genuinely loved me again.. and I'm telling you right now that the first week of 20, I had all that pent up self hatred, all those years of just hating who I was as a person, and I decided that "if I really wanna torture myself, I'm gonna try telling myself something I don't believe. I deserve happiness, and I'm gonna try every day to get it." I started working out instead of self harming myself or hitting my head and said "if I'm gonna hurt myself I might as well try and do it in a way where it's somewhat beneficial" as a way of tricking my self sabotaging brain to actually work on myself. The first few weeks fucking sucked. I didn't have a gym, I'd give up half way and then wouldn't do them again until some random middle of the night burst of energy. I don't have enough money for a gym so I just youtube'd different videos of what people use at home. I use a backpack full of random books as weights. I'm no where near even close to being healthy, but somehow after failing so many times, giving up so many times, I've actually been somewhat consistent and am on my 11'th day of trying to exercise. It fucking sucks but hey, it's painful and it's a good painful in the end. I've tried actually talking to my coworkers which.. was fucking hard (one thing I will say is start with small things and go from there. I mean complement something they have on and that's all you gotta do on that day. If there's someone that wears earrings you'll really start to notice how different the earrings they wear might be, so point it out and say how cool that is. Again, it'll be fucking hard but it'll pay off) and I even got close with this barista who I had a crush on and after months of trying to push myself to ask her out.. she said no, and she that she was too old (she's 26, gonna be 27.. yeah I really don't mind or think it's too old but I get it) but it felt so god damn cathartic, that after those months of just being silent, then finally talking, and finally pushing myself that I didn't have to keep it on my chest anymore. (granted the reason I actually did it was because she was getting a new job and thus I wouldn't ever be able to really see her again). So, because of that I tried getting Hinge. It's been pretty rough trying to find someone that'll talk for more than a sentence BUT I kept trying and actually found someone that seems cool. Who knows if it'll go anywhere but hey you gotta have some hope. (side note, this video really helped me out. It's long so if you don't wanna watch it I get it, plus on the surface it just looks like some random ass self help video but I am telling you, therapists in the comments were talking about how genuinely great it was, how many people in the comments it's actually helped out: czcams.com/video/be_Ms3nVG10/video.html okay, sorry that's all I wanted to send) I don't know how close you are with your mom, I live with my dad and I know we both miss how it use to be.. that we use to be close and now barely ever talk... just a quick "hey how was work" and I'll always say "it was okay" before he says "good good" and I'd hide in my room... so my next goal is to change that and just start talking to him. And try to attempt to get it back to the point where it use to be, where I felt like I could tell him anything.. and I hope you can get to that point with your mom too. The one thing I'm trying to hammer home to myself is that I could die at any point of the day, I could get hit with a car, have a random brain aneurysm, anything, and if I died without even doing everything I could to be happy then yeah it was a waste. I genuinely smiled a few weeks ago.. after years of just pure agony, genuinely smiled, and genuinely laughed with a coworker... I'm not saying things are gonna just get better and stay better. Life's always gonna be tough.. but it'll also have waves of weird moments, waves of really terrifying moments, waves of chaotic and really funny as hell moments, waves of some absolute beautiful moments. Stupidly beautiful moments. I don't know if you're gonna read any of this, or even take anything from it which hey, I get it. I'm just some random ass 20 year old on the internet but all I can say is you are not alone. Understand this. you. are. not. alone. We're both tired, but I believe there's gotta be something worth living for.. I mean why else are there 8 billion other people still going? They've all had to have gone through shit too, maybe some not as bad as us but some of them worse then we could imagine, and they've found some reason to keep going. I've heard enough old people tell me how young I was to be worrying about shit, and so what I'm gonna do is see if by the time I'm 40- if NOTHING has changed.. then yeah I might just take a plane somewhere and end things. But that's 20 more years, and they'll go by fast, but by my guess I'll have to have figured out SOMETHING. I'm not funny, I'm awkward as hell and never know what to say especially if there's just two people but I'll tell you this.. I'm not gonna let that be who I am, and I'm gonna try to change that before I die. Because why not? Struggle on man, I really hope your birthday isn't as lame as mine was and if it is then hey, I still wish you a happy birthday. Take care :)
I'm 28 now, and for the past 11 years, i have been suffering. I had seen myself near death many times, and a couple of times, i have been on ventilator, but life has always given me many chances to live on. Still, i think of passive suicidal thoughts, but I don't know why I'm still alive. Maybe there's something that i have been born to accomplish. Everyone who sees me says that " I'm handsome & smart guy, who will achieve something," but deep down in my heart, i feel like so lonely and emptiness. Even i had left my studies 10 years back, i was a topper in my high school, but still, life has always cruel to me. And now i think i have to live on like this my entire life because i had lived so long in suffering that it's become part of me. everday, i woke up. It's like why i woke up. Only sleep gives me some relaxation in this life. And about women, i had always had bad luck with them, I'm really a shy person, and many girl's approached me, but i was like, first, i needed to do something with my life. Really to say, i have never had been with any girl. Because i had loved someone in my high school, but it's been a decade since i saw her. But the past is past. Soon, I'm going to marry a girl. It's an arranged marriage. Yeah, seriously, I'm doing an arranged marriage. I just want you guys to know that what we wish or what we like will never happen like that, and that's life. But eventually, it will lead you somewhere good. Just until then, hold on to it. There's a saying, "After every pain, there is relief, and after difficult times, there will be good times." Until then, my friends hold on because they are many people who have suffered a lot but have never left hope.
I just want to share something with you. I get it, I really do. However, among all of the corny things once could say, I would like to say; no matter what, I am proud of you. If nobody has said it to you recently, or if you have never heard it, or are longing to hear it, you have no heard it. Do not ever begin to think you are not useful, valued, or have a purpose. You were created for something. You may not know what that something is right now, for 10 more years, 20 more years, or 50 years from now, but one day, you will. If I could ask one thing of you, would you be able to do it? Instead of focusing on the past, or the future, focus on right now; this very second, and do that until your thoughts subside. It seems to alway help. If you take life in small increments, most of the time any worries you may have just fall to the wayside. Seriously though, if you ever need anyone to talk to, or just want someone to listen, I’ll be here. Let me leave you with this. “Matthew 6:25 Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?” Jesus loves you, and so do I.
its 1:30 here, scrolling away trying to find something, yet not knowing what im looking for. cheers to everyone here in the same pinch as me. these times are tough, but they will only make us stronger. goodluck to all of you my friends
I never had bad experience growing up. Compared to other people, I'm gifted to have a loving family, a place to stay and food set everyday on the table, clothes and necessities vital for survival. However, the struggle withing oneselfs' is torture. My addictive, introverted personality led me to gaming addictions and laziness. Throughout my school years I found myself skipping lectures, classes, not caring about what previously mattered to me. All in all, I'm suddenly finding the significance of trusting yourself, slowly taking steps towards doing what you aspire to be, it definitely is hard, you always have that lurking feeling of going back to your habits, but as far as now, I'm feeling a bit free. It's noon, slightly raining, in my room, laying down on my bed, my sleep schedule slightly ruined yet I'm positive in my ability to fix it. I hope you sweet people, all of you, even though I don't know you, experience life in a more positive way, all your problems are your infrastructure they are who shape you and trim you to who you will be in the future, as challenging as they are and will be in the future they are the ones who will define who you will be mainly. I hope your rest is pleasant, your stomachs full, and your harsh critique about yourself moderated and minimized. :S
Listening to this at dawn is quite the experience. Not joyful nor sad, soothing and calming is more like it. Reading the comments got me feeling somehow understood, going through changes in life, overthinking at times and not even thinking about anything at other times and just trying to make sense of it all. The most important thing is to cherish life and live it the way it is, we don't need to overthink and bend it to whatever we imagine it should be. Cherish the bitter and the sweet, the significant moments and the little ones, because they all are what makes life you know, life. We just need to be more present to enjoy it and always look for the light in any circumstances. If you've made it here you're awesome and thanks for spending your time reading my random philosophical ramblings and I hope to introduce some positivity to everyone sharing these moments as well. ❤
Had a pretty bad time these last 2 months. Exam stress, break-up, very close friends betraying me, my dog died... Everything seemed to finally be fine and calm again. My exam went well, I stayed with the few loyal friends that I have, and most important I met a great girl. Everything was perfect, but recently she suddenly became cold, nearly stopped answering my texts. Everyday this week I've been overthinking about this. And a few hours ago she texted me to "break up". Man, I just started breathing again and I'm brought back under the ground. It's just too much for me right now. Just wanted to share this somewhere. This playlist feels so good and every comment here feels familiar to my mood rn. Whoever reads this, I hope you'll be ok and you'll put your trust, time and efforts into the right things / persons.
in fact I'm just wondering what or who does that to me, and why? anyways, whoever or whatever ruins my life, I hope it has almost finished destroying everything so I can start building something new
@@noevalero3381 "Dear brother, it's not your fault. Believe me, what the Western governments did is nothing compared to what our own governments (our people) did. Anyway, I am grateful for your kindness."
It's evening here and it's raining outside. I can't work today because I'm really sick. I've been sick for several months. I'm not able to live my youth like I want to. I have financial stress but no matter how hard I try it's going to be impossible to cover my debts. I'm tired so tired of trying again and again and just everything going wrong all the time. But I am grateful for the times my parents and I can talk to each other and share our sorrow and I'm grateful for the people who care. I'm grateful for this music.
Everything is too tiring lately, and i cant get enough sleep bcs of stressing out too. I graduate highschool in covid era, and not gonna lie.. the highschool student in me is still here. Now i feel stuck, and my bestfriend started to get busy. Its just overwhelming, with all the health, financial, and jobs. With life basically. And i am not that old, i just turn 20. Besides my notes, i feel like here is a safe space.. with all the vibes, visual and music. Its just fitting and making me want to talk here. Its 3:39 am here too. Also to notes, if you wanna be friends, like to talk etc im in. This comment sections seems nice and look like its only good people with beautiful soul here.
1:50 am and i have school tomorrow. I shouldnt be staying up this late but its becoming hard to sleep again. I dont know how much longer i can go on for, knowing that every time i think im getting better ill just come back to feeling like this. This music makes me wanna cry again, but its also kinda soothing somehow
1:13am, I’m alone, in bed listening to this, collecting my thoughts wondering, why, why does time fly the way it does, 24 hours in a day but feels like tomorrow is already today, so someday comes one day at a time, take life slow, easy your self and there you will what you deserve so truly
Crazy how we all clicked on a video playing music but all feel the same. It’s 12:21, I’m dreading waking up, so I do not want to sleep. Never the less, I am tired and I must let go to a few precious hours before another day of work and unfulfillment. To all you guys out there like me, here’s a hug ❤
It's 12 and I'm listening to this with the fact I'm waking up at 4 to go to work for a 17 hour shift, I feel odly at peace in this moment and remember that whatever happenes tomorrow or be it today I will meet it with the same weapons of reason and logic with which I am armed at present. Don't worry it'll be alright be happy with what you have because it could always be worse, always be thankful and never lose hope wish you all the best.
My crush kissed me goodnight and although I fell asleep at a reasonable time, I woke up at 3am and got too excited thinking about him so I can’t fall back asleep.
It's 1:49 AM, recently turned 18 and about to head into college in a couple of months. I'm jealous of how everyone has their lives planned out while I'm here with a couple of months left thinking what should I do with the rest of my life. With the current academic pressure that I'll probably have in the next couple of months I don't think I'll have some time to rest, especially now with my relationship in shambles. I'm tired of constantly self-sabotaging my self and now to the point where my partner starts to have doubts if I'm treating her right. I'm doing the most that I can to make some progress to be better, even just a little bit yet it hurts so much to hear that she thinks I've made no progress at all while I'm out here doing the best I can to be better. I'm drained, physically and mentally, right now I just need a hug more than anything else and maybe someone telling me that things will be all right and not to worry much about it
Hey see after reading your comment I just want to say that you know that you are doing your best you are giving your hundred percent to fix all the things so you don't need anything you know that you have given your hundred percent then rest is on God and see if your partner don't think that you are giving your hundred percent then you don't need to worry because her thinking will not change the reality see it hurts when your loved one didn't understand you but what we can do you are also human and even if you are not giving your hundred percent still you are not at fault you are also on this earth for the first time and pls don't think that you are wrong love yourself the most than anybody your self respect is more than any person anything I hope you are understanding me and I know you are going through a lot and you are also going through academic stress and that must be really difficult because I also have a lot of academic stress and I know what it feels when you are not able fulfill the expectations that you set for yourself and everything is going to turn out good believe me you are giving your hundred percent and that matters the most but don't be hard on yourself too much like take some rest I am not saying leave everything but start doing everything slowly and you will surely see the results and bro everything is going to turn out good just believe yourself and I will definitely include you in my prayer
nobody actually knows what they want to do when they go to college. That's part of the fun part. I just recently moved into a college dorm for the first time, nervous as fuck. But it will be okay. Figure out what makes you happy, and that is all that matters. The struggle never ends, there is always a fight to be had. But you can't stop fighting. Just keep going man, you are capable of great things, and the world knows it. Keep your head up.
It’s 12:53 am for me and I’m 20, 1 day technically away from my birthday on the 19th so it’s gunna be my 21st birthday and I am just listening to this and thinking about how lucky I am in life with the blessings I have gotten. When listening to this sometimes I am thinking abo ur ny blessing and other times I’m just here floating in space it seems. Love the video my friend
for some reason listening to this playlist has given me a blank mind, this is the first time in months where i haven't had immense fear of being harmed or just being scared in general. i can finally take a break, it feels as if im slowly fading into a whiteness, with no thoughts, sadness, fear, joy, or anger.....just a calming peace, i can finally relax now...i can finally be at peace
Once the storm has ended and the clouds clear it may have been years but look at you I am proud of you for fighting and sticking with yourself you have become unstoppable.
About six years pasted and still I love him. I cannot cease this feeling. Even İf I know that I'll die one day like everybody, I'll love him in grave too.⚖
Who else is afraid to live, afraid to sleep, and finds no comfort anywhere? Just remember you are not alone, we will get out of our misery together, one step at a time! “The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?” -Psalm 27:1 P.S Guys its not worth trying to fix all your problems yourself, just give it all to God and see what happens! I will reply to this comment when I am all better, but until then, keep moving forward!
I'm convinced 4am is the time of day most people are asleep. Most people go to bed before 4 and wake up after 4. It's the most calming and quiet hour of the night.
This lowkey made me sad. Made me think about the good ole days, when even though I was depressed I could remember when I’d have happy moments & felt more in touch with myself, my spirit & just life period. Now it’s like no matter how hard I try I’m just numb & angry most days. Feels so hard to get back in touch with myself. Love this playlist tho relaxing & reminiscent ❤
Not sure how to feel. I guess I'm feeling down, I asked a girl to formal but she didn't respond and it's been over a day. At this point I'd rather a no than no response. It is 2:50am and I need to be up at 6:45. I am tempted to just give school a miss tomorrow. With my second last exams of highschool next week, the stress is overwhelming. A one day break from everything would be nice. I wish life went a little slower sometimes, so these quiet moments are nice. To whoever is reading this, I hope you are happy. You deserve it. There is too much negativity in this world. If you aren't happy, I hope you are at least finding peace in any way possible. Greetings and farewell from one lost soul to another.
@@mag4208 Life is good man. That girl actually responded a little later saying she'd love to go and it was a great night. I did well in all my exams and graduated from high school. I'm in uni now and I'm chillin. Got a job and stuff. I'm taking things slow and easing myself into this whole adult thing. I was pretty depressed when I made that earlier comment. Since then, I came off my antidepressants and have been in a better place overall. So yeah, overall things are better and I'm a lot more optimistic than I used to be
It's 5.00 in the morning. Still I'm in the hang of this. These are the sleepless nights!!!!!! I'm waiting for the sea to settle and the sun to shine✨as this vibes do.
It’s 11 am, I’m here in a Psych ward where I put my self in, because i couldn’t deal with anything in my life anymore. It’s raining, it’s dark and the patient next to me is snoring. I just look out of the window listening to this, and some day when I come back here, I’ll be okay…..
Life can be overwhelming. But the more we suffer, the more we owe it to ourselves to be compassionate towards us. No situation is crazy enough that self-compassion won't lead the way back to a better place (both within and without). Big hug and take care :)
1am. Idk I’m just here to type whatever, to get something out of my head. I’ve never had a serious relationship in my 20 years of living. Well one but it was kinda long distance. We had the same interest, playing halo all the time. Even tho we never seen each other, she showed me what caring for someone is about. I miss it because no one else has showed me love and compassion like that. I really fucked up by leaving and needing time alone. Took her for granted. Wish I never left. God I miss that feeling of loving someone and they would show it back, being a kid. Now we’re grown up doing our own things. I think about our situations very often at night. It’s just hard because I can’t find that feeling again. Everyone around me has someone, including her and It makes me think about stuff I normally wouldn’t
Now, in the early hours of the morning, I remembered this video and I also remembered one of those days, the 12th, Friday night, watching this video on my notebook while I was lying in bed, simply tears started to flow uncontrollably over my face, while I would sink into my thoughts, when suddenly I start laughing hysterically, I remember feeling my thoughts hurt, but it's not something metaphorical, it's as if instead of my head hurting, as if thorns were growing in the part where I think, it's difficult to explain , thinking about it now I realized that it's been a few days or weeks since I cried normally, instead only tears fall on a neutral face or I simply start laughing, I think that means I'm really fucked up.
It's 12am and I'm just thinking if I'm headed in the right direction. Thinking about life and hoping I'm not wasting it. Hoping I don't regret much when I'm towards the end of my journey. But I am glad I'm part of the journey.
It's kind of long, but here you go. 🖥 It's 3am, but you are already lost in thought. You find yourself staring at the flickering screen, captivated by the words swirling in your mind. The room is enveloped in an eerie silence, broken only by the faint hum of the computer. As your thoughts dance between the lines of your work, time loses its grip, and the outside world fades into obscurity. The glow of the screen seems to be the only beacon in the vast darkness of the night, drawing you deeper into the labyrinth of imagination. The maze is heavy and pulls your mind into self reflection Within this labyrinth of thoughts, introspection becomes inevitable. The weight of the night amplifies the echoes of your inner voice, urging you to delve into the depths of your consciousness. Memories and emotions intertwine, forming a tapestry of introspection, unveiling forgotten dreams and unspoken desires. Each twist and turn in this mental maze brings forth moments of clarity and revelations about oneself, sparking a journey of self-discovery amid the nocturnal solitude. It's difficult, though. Your reflection has cracks and blemishes that can't be fixed. The imperfections in your self-reflection cast shadows upon the path of introspection. Scars of past experiences and mistakes linger, creating fractures in the mirror of self-perception. Yet, it's within these very flaws that the beauty of resilience and growth resides. Embracing these blemishes becomes a testament to the journey traveled, acknowledging that healing often arises not from erasing imperfections but from accepting and learning from them. As you navigate the labyrinth of thoughts, these cracks become reminders of strength and the capacity for metamorphosis.
Music is such a huge impact in peoples lives. Everyobe calms down to certain songs. And some understand themselves with it. Some express themselves trough it. Its relaxing and fun. Every emotion there is always a song with it
son las 3:24 am no puedo dormir por el ruido aunque realmente no se trata de el ruido de estos sonidos sino del ruido en mi cabeza, no me sentía así desde 2021 jaja es raro tener que volver al pasado y exactamente en la misma situación me hace pensar si realmente mejoré en todo el tiempo que pasó desde el 25 de noviembre de 2021 pues ahora mismo me siento exactamente igual estoy en mi habitación llorando desahogandome en un comentario que nadie leerá pero aunque suene triste y raro ver que no soy el único que la esta pasando mal me hace sentir acompañado
Its 2:33 am. This is nice. Its raining outside. I feel neither sad nor happy. Rather at peace. No angry thoughts. No sad thoughts. Its just quiet. Its good.
2:33 for me as well, wild I saw this at the perfect time
Same man.
Even I saw this comment at exact 2.33 am. 😳
dude became a philosopher 💀 stfu lmfao
2:33 for me as well lol
emptiness is peaceful
Worrying doesn't take away tomorrows trouble, it takes away today's peace.
i never thought of it like this, thank you
damn you dropped the most deepest quote man
Thanks for opinion
❤
thanks bro
It's 5am. I'm a new father. I'm walking my dog right now and hoping that things are bright for mine and my family's future.
Congrats, and I wish you the best for the future
U will be good
Best wishes to you. Hope all is well for your family.
Man, keep on keeping on. Do it for them 💪🏻
wish you the best dawg
It’s almost 4 am. Idk how I ended up here but I feel like my life is at a standstill right now. I’m too scared to take a big risk and move forward because I have no idea where I’ll end up. But I don’t really feel happy with where I’m at. As each day goes by I just feel like I’m losing time. If you’re reading this comment and feel lost as well, I believe someday we’ll all find our way. Just keep your head held high and keep moving forward, you got this.
You dont even know how relatable it is to read what you wrote
I feel you. 4 am here as well. Almost 2 years ago now I succumbed to external pressures and basically decided to give up on my dreams in the pursuit of a stable, reliable career. I kind of regret it and I could take that big risk and jump back into doing what I’m passionate about but I feel stuck. I’m lost and I don’t know what to do. But I think eventually this will all pass and we will both be in a better place.
Everything u said is point on how I feel rn and ion know what to do tbh. Wish you the best man🤝
@@michaelibrahim9275GO PURSE YOUR DREAM. THERE IS NO TMM , IF YOU DONT PURSE IT YOULL REGRET IT FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE
@@michaelibrahim9275 It’s been awhile since I commented this, but that’s rough man, hope you’re doing well. It may sound cliché, but I don’t think you should ever give up on your dreams. If it’s something you’re really passionate about then don’t let anyone stop you from doing it. Whatever you’re doing right now, I hope it was your decision and not anyone else’s.
The weight of not knowing what to do with my life destroys me more and more..
Got this feel the first time when I was 19, now I’m 25
.. :(
Yeh, i'm 18 and now feeling it 😢
Im 24... Feeling so lost
💯💯💯
I feel you tbh, since I was like 12 I've felt that shit and I get it, just keep working hard and push yourself on making yourself better
35 and going through it again. Trying to allow myself to feel it as strong as it still can be, without telling myself "i should have it figured out by now.".
it's 12am and i have a morning shift at work tomorrow. sleeping allows for me to escape the world, if only for a few hours, but it's not enough.... i want to escape forever. i just wanna float in space yknow? become non-existent and matter to no one and no thing.
Update: Thanks for the likes and replies guys! i’m glad to help y’all feel seen! and i am still alive yes.
i love dreaming because i'm happy in it but also i hate dreaming because i'm only happy when im dreaming,good luck with work man have nice day 🙏🏻
@@JoshoModoru i agree, also thanks for the pin bro!
i feel you man i should of been asleep 2 hours ago as i write this,something is just keeping my up ig ihave to get up in 4 and half to do the same job for the past 9 months ...it's a great job for my job i make a significant more than minimum wage nothing crazy just better than the norm still most people would love to have the payrate i have but respectfully i worked really hard the past 3 years with all the 80hr weeksi dont even want to take credit cause honestly i just zoned out,if you wrote it on a piece of paper and showed me how next three years were gonna go i would think you took bathsalts before talkin to me ,ive been in my own apartment for awhile now idk man i just feel empty, the 8 year old me wouldnt even recognize who i became now.been in a rut for a couple of years now wouldnt call it deppression cause it lasted to long. kinda long i know just wanted to say i feel for you man
@@truu8541 depression has no limits but diagnoses made by professionals have a possibility of being biased. nevertheless, i completely understand what you mean. sometimes you gotta spice it up, like doing something different each day. it’s the little things that can make big differences. life will get tough but you can’t depend on life itself to help you fix it. sometimes you gotta do it yourself, yknow?
damn.. i feel you compadre... to me, sleep and video games are my two only doors to escape this depressive reality, if only dreams could come truth, all we want is peace... stay strong brother, we'll get this through
My alarm is set for 4:45AM. It’s about 12:20AM now. Every night I ask myself what I’m even supposed to be doing. I can’t tell if this music helps or hurts, it’s soothing though.
Neverending question... every day, every night. I also always ask myself if these songs keep me alive or slowly break me. You are not alone mate. Keep your head up better times have to come.
You are not the only one, have millions and billions peoples in the world lost, my dream its to give anyone of you a great hug... its very hard all the pression, make money, but remember u need be a inspiration for everyone who still lost and without a purpose.. Im from Brazil, life here its very hard, we feel like a slave every Day, but I hope we can found one day, in this world or in the next.. Be strong and the God bless you all.. You guys are very young dont wasting your time with girls and bad things, focus in you, training, make money, study and be inspiration and help everyone this guy its you in the past and needs your help like you need now, be a good people in the world and the world will give you back. God bless you all.
Same here
Did you wake up on time?
And it repeats again and again like an endless dungeon
For everyone going through tough times, have faith, trust the process and keep pushing forward, just take it one day at a time and eventually the storm will pass.
the sad thing its not even a storm but a whole lot of nothingness....
Trying buddy.
Some storms won't pass
I challenge you with this question. Have Faith in what? I’m not trying to say anything to insult or stump you. But if we don’t believe in Jesus, what can we have faith in, where will we get our hope. The things of this world won’t live on forever, and I’m not saying to not love people or have connections, I love people, I love my friends and the experiences I’ve had alone and with people. When I catch myself adrift in my thoughts at night. I place my hope and faith in Jesus, not in a religious way but in a friend way. Where I can tell him my struggles, my victories and defeats. The most intimate friend I have is him. I trust him to lead me through dark times and I trust him hold my hand through this Hellish world. My brothers, being a man is not easy. We have the responsibility of leading in our relationships and being accountable to our friends. If anyone reads this, know that we face very similar struggles in life believers or nonbelievers, we have struggle. But there is an option to not face these things alone. Seek the kingdom first. I love you guys, stay safe and become wise
its been 7 years man i dont know if i can hold it any longer
It's 1:10AM. We're all gonna make it. Maybe not today, or tomorrow, or the day after. But someday. Don't give up.
💯😇😇🥹🥹🥹
1:54
I wish people understood me as much as people do on the internet, then I would at least have a shoulder to cry on. Its a sad fact that I haven't felt genuine happiness in years, I just hope that all of us all around the world can get better soon. Drink water and rest a lot, love you guys.
❤❤❤ I love you too dude.
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."
Romans 15:13
@@the.seagull.35❤
Feel the same way. Life is so hard this days its hard to feel happy
Hey man been a month feeling better
@@marcosmercado3243 Not really, I appreciate the concern though!
This feels like such a safe place with all these familiar yet unknown people
Agreed
That is the beauty of the internet
What a lovely portrait. Humans being nice. I think I found a new form of art, among the short 30 second sad videos on YT at 5 AM.
Yes mate we all are a family 🫂🫂
"We suffer more in imagination, than reality"
Porque falas isso meu bem?
Quem e Voçê ?
Parese uma pessoa que Amo💙🧑🏻💙👩🏵️❤mas Ele
Nem mim dá atenção não sei porque! Se eu amo Ele
Mais que tudo nesse mundo🌏meu Sonho era encontrá-lo e não separar dele nunca mais na minha vida. Queria até casar 💍💐💍 pra Ele não
Separar nunca mais de mim. Compraria uma colera, prefere Ele do meu lado iria virar meu cachorrinho lindo lindo da minha Vida.
só eu poderia mandar nele.💙🧑🏻👩❤️🦮💙❤️💙❤️💙❤️💙❤️💙❤️💙
Deus ✝️🙏 vai mim intregar ainda esse cachorrinho lindo pra mim.
Acredito muito 🙏🙏 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
-Seneca
Wrong
Indeed
@@Gamer__girlnope it's actually true
It’s 4:30 am this time last year I was in jail on a charge I was running from for almost 8 years finally turned myself in served my time and been out since January 25th music was what got me thru my time and nights like this where I’m over thinking I lay down after work put both my headphones in and let the music take away all the stress thank you for this playlist 🖤
So that was a very long run on sentence. Definitely could’ve used some periods, or commas in that matter. Respect for doing time my brudda. Love from South Africa 🇿🇦 let’s goooooooo
It really says something when people on the internet understand you more than most people in your life. I don’t know if it’s good or bad, but it’s something when you realize that.
It's rather nice, when you think about it. You have a much wider range of people to speak with, some may vary in experience and understanding, but when you find people who have just the right amount, it's truly a good feeling, knowing that at least SOMEBODY understands you, in a life where you've likely felt isolated from the rest.
it is quite literally 3am for me and listening to this is finally letting me go to bed and have a small break form life. thank you
i glad u liked
🕒 AM !!! Not enough time for your so-called break, in a couple of hours.... Rise and shine 💥 😂
Me today
Say for yourself "Cancel" 5 times when you had a bad thought, with this the thought will have no effect on you. Do the test
I hot recommended this at 02:19 and my head is full of mostly negative thoughts.
It’s 3:21AM, late nights always hits, no distractions, no expectations, no responsibilities, nothing. Just you. Truly inner peace. Love ❤️
Fr brother
Right!! It's because of no expectations that nighttime is the best
Exactly this is so real. Your words are exactly how late nights feel.
Say for yourself "Cancel" 5 times when you had a bad thought, with this the thought will have no effect on you. Do the test
Yeah same for me 4:38 on a Saturday night I would of met friends a few years ago but life is a wreck so it’s CZcams time
It’s 11:23 pm and I’m laying here thinking about life . My two kids are getting older & my relationship with my wife is getting rocky & I just hope everything’s going to be alright. Just remember guys keep fighting and pull thru . Life is strange to say the least but it’s a beautiful thing . Love and peace to everyone .
Something to uplift you: my dad was in this exact situation just last year. Me and my brother are grown, his wife of 17 years divorced him, and he was messy for a while. But he started going to the gym, he quit smoking, started taking better care of himself. And one day when he went to the gym he met someone… he’s the happiest I’ve seen him in basically my entire life. Things do get better if you hang on to see it..
Take your wife out on a nice date, try to impress her, do your best. Make yourselfs fall in love again. That’s what marriage is all about. Best of luck buddy ❤
Hope all goes with u man
11:25 pm and I’m finally 18. And it’s not something I was expecting bc when I was younger I wanted to be 18 but now this is where my life begin bc school was just a time consumer. High school wanted me to focus on the small things and to not be prepared for the big things and idk I was just force to jump in and go and idk if I fail this army test and I fail the driving test then idk what’s left for me like I think I can feel young all the time but I’m going to start getting older and alone and ppl are living the lives they wanted to live and idk it got me sad when things didn’t go the way I wanted to and idk what’s my life going to be. Sometimes thinking of being dead is the best thing to not deal with the problems but I just can’t do that to my family yk that’s selfish so right I’m living my life taking things slow and I do not want to waste time but use every time and second I have bc I never when it all can go away. So I just hope and pray to see myself become something not just for myself but for my family yk I just can’t always be happy bc the things that make me happy are not sustainable and I need to work for it so I can be happy everyday. But I just know that right now in this comment section was my break on how I acc feel. So thank you CZcams. I had to speak on this.
@@arontheDonikr.. I feel you. Howd the test go?
its 6:48 AM, i have an alarm set up for 6:00AM, i decided not to go to work... throwing my life away. Im at peace, this music is playing in my head as im floating in my imagination. thanks to this video i realized i hate my job, i hate my life and that i need a break from society and everything...
Start small changes and you’ll get there. I hope you’re feeling better 🍃
You are just like me bro
I’ve done the same just decided to not go to work it’s ok while it lasts then reality hits
how u feeling now? update plz
@@0l0l00l0 Hey there, just a quick update for my fans i know you guys missed me and you might be thinking: hmmm... i wonder how my hero is doing?, well, i was able to pull through my crippling depression by watching bubu and dudu videos, i feel much better now, i got a new job at mcdonalds and i eat the frozen cookies everytime i go in the freezer, i take a bite and let it thaw out in my mouth and honestly i never been happier.
Im going to remember this video for when im having one of those days or nights that im feeling down or life doesnt feel real or when i dont feel like living. This comments section is the most supporting and wholesome ive ever seen. Thank you to everyone here for helping each other! We’re in this together eventho everyone is fighting there own battles
Its good to know there are so many that feel so similar. Just existing, not fighting the void, not breaking down, just processing how fucked life can get.
4 am just hit on my area. I didn't even plan to pull an all-nighter this time... just got a terrible anxiety for everything and a big stomach ache. but this playlist will probably lead me to sleep and inner peace I kinda both wanted and needed. thank you
good night buddy
Jesus will give you true peace bRuH
@@SUTD727 Lord Ram is more peaceful brother 🙏🏻
@@shubhbhagat7366No need to say all these everywhere, they believe in their religion, we believe in our Sanatan Dharma.
जय श्री राम ❤️
3am too and big stomach ache, been having stomach ache so often recently it's scary...
When you're happy, its relaxing. When you're sad, it hurt.
This songs help me when i'm sad...
It did hurt😅
It’s so hard to live these days… im from Korea and its 00:09. My family is all sleeping and i am crying quietly. I hope everything will be okay. Cheer up everyone. I hope you guys have a good day. I will slepp. My English comment can be wrong.😅 Let’s live our precious life happily. I will try. _ good playlist :)
Me too and remember You are not the only one, have millions and billions peoples in the world lost, my dream its to give anyone of you a great hug... its very hard all the pression, make money, but remember u need be a inspiration for everyone who still lost and without a purpose.. Im from Brazil, life here its very hard, we feel like a slave every Day, but I hope we can found one day, in this world or in the next.. Be strong
@@henryalucard4091 I can't believe you gave me strength in Brazil.. Thank you very much. That's very encouraging to me. I hope your life gets better and happier. Let's all find our way to life.
@@hwaeunjeong4890 thanks, we will see again brother one day and I will remember when I said this to you and I gonna say : "Hey brother I told you, you did it brother".. all the best brother God bless you, Im here praying for you, Im your fan number on, never forget That.
화이팅!!!
My friend I pray for your peace and happiness in this life and the next one. ❤ love and kisses from Thomas
This comment section is awesome. Never get to open up like this so here it goes.
I’ve always been known as the calm outgoing guy. No one really knows my suffering, but I also feel no one knows my happiness as well.
Have gratitude everyday. The toughest times is your brain and soul adapting to situations and growing.
It’s like your body sweating when exercising.
Your emotions have been created for a reason. Embrace them but don’t overanalyse in your thoughts. You control what your brain wants to focus on. (to an extent)
Dear Lord.
Send me a little extra love right now.
I'm grateful but I'm a little tired.
jesus love life but not the life we live thats why he died for us so we can be cleaned to join him
@@wkillzpI feel like everything is falling apart. I am born again Christian. I tried fasting, praying and still no break through. Things are getting worse. But I still love Jesus Christ.
You know, I don't go to bed until late, because sleep always ends very quickly and here it is, morning again, business again, fuss, and I didn't have enough time to rest. Spending time until late at night somehow helps to mentally restore a little strength. It's hard when you're not like many others who are able to work hard at least 24/7. Depression, what to say
I do not think that sleep less will be help for you mentally, trying to regulate your sleep is more beneficial for both your rest and your health.I used to sleep less when I was working, I thought its helping my mental to stay awake at night, but I was wrong.
@@JoshoModoru I understand.. thank you for that, I wish you well
I relate so much with you. When the day ends, the last thing I want is to start the next day, so I usually stay up late cause I feel like it's the only way to have some peace in my life
It's 1am, and I want sleep. But I can't. I'm so worrying about everything in my life. Idk why.
Today was a good day, but I can't just fall asleep.
I think, I needed this playlist. So calm and so necessary to me right now.
I read some comments and found myself in them. People in comments so much like me. I feel calm here
Thank you all.
(And sorry for my English, I don't know it very good and can make many mistakes haha..)
That was well said
This playlist is actually good for those who suffers in an environment full of chaotic people accompanied by severe noise pollution, including me. Thanks
This hits🙏
My obsessive thoughts can't just go away sometimes, this is the reason why I am here. Goodnight everyone ❤
It’s currently 12:54 am and I am looking out at the raindrops on my window. I am deep in realisation and hope. I hope to accomplish things in life. For some reason this music is just so surreal.
Crazy how much i genuinely relate to the comments in this video, this community feels like a safe space where i can express myself. Thank you from the bottom of my heart family ❤️😪
I'm glad you found a good place... just curious. Your name is depressed and deprived, what are you being deprived of? ❤
Crazy how I can't relate your comment with any of the other ones, fuwooahhhhh🎉
Living is more of a punishment than dying
@@LoneBuffalo118 real, i definitely feel that. At least death will end the pain.
@@LoneBuffalo118 know what you mean ❤ there are better days ahead with God, for all who believe. 🙏☀️
Just turned midnight and I have school tomorrow which on Monday. Times like this feel so special for some reason, just listening to peaceful music late at night knowing you’ll probably forget about it the next day. Goodnight to everyone and good luck
same 😂
It’s 2:34 am. I’m not happy. I haven’t felt genuine joy in years. I do feel slightly better reading these comments knowing I’m not the only one..
Edit: almost a whole year later I’m in such a good place now 🤎 things get better
real
Learn to appreciate yourself. Strive to greatness
Dude no freaking way it's literally 2:34 am for me as I read this (however I am quite happy)
@@duppy404 also 2:34 am for me. AHAHAHAHAHAHHA
Bro gimme you’re insta and we’re gonna speak together if you want
Dude today I was overthinking all the things in my life and always i wake up maybe 3am to overthinking again its weird youtube recommend this videos. I hope everyone can have peace in their lives
This really helped me cry out my pain truly thanks 🙁☺
Im 31 now and i never had a relationship never found a gf, i dreamed of love all my life but nothing except heartbreak. In this life ut appears to be nothing but sorrow and emptyness
damn. ;/
@adamnabiyar2706 I’m so sorry to hear that,I hope you can get back up and keep fighting
Same with me bro....hope you are able to have some courage now, I have failed myself just for a punk girl and been unwillingly thi**ning about her since last 8 years
@RaviKiranGoswami 8 years that's how long I ask out my 1st crush wich I was 19 this was March 2015.....since the. I still think of that day😢never want that feeling anymore
I had a brief relationship only. I'm 37. a) relationships are overrated. most people are not as happy as they claim b) we can't find lasting love in another. the more unique you are the more difficult it is to find someone compatible and willing to spend time with us. Please don't have a superficial view of the situation.....really try to understand human psychology and dynamics. Without juding yourself. What's important is to live according to your values..........being in relationship won't ever feel like love unless they share those values with you. Know yourself.......understnaind how people think...and I promise you life won't feel to sad and lonely. I still want a relationship myself....but I'm no longer worried about not having one.
My alarm is set for 5AM. It's 3AM now in Brasil. I have school tomorrow. I discussed with my mother, I didn't talk to my father yesterday. I have a test today and three activities to hand in by next week. If the sun didn't rise, at least today, I could stay lost in my thoughts forever, and then rest from it all.
Everything will be ok
Hey man how did it go since it’s 1 month ago
All of these comments... i feel so safe here and to all those people who are having rough times... it eventually passes... im also confused with my life but music like this helps me cleanse my soul ;) i hope every person gets a better life.
We are in the same part maybe
@@AxeBrD going through the same phase... this comment section is like a family, all of us understand each other... this is heaven :)
“Who knows what would’ve happened, for all we know what we did was the best move, sometimes life’s just too uncertain to have regrets” -Goku
i miss her. i miss her warmth, or could it have been the warmth itself? my heart feels cold, i cant wait to fall asleep again and start a new day. maybe patience is a virtue, but sometimes i wish things could just go differently. ill always be here for you no matter what.
Sleeping is like a drug for me, i get to escape this soul crushing reality for a bit. But then i wake up missing the high. The rest of the day is withdrawal, unbearable, itching for the end of the day. Finally night comes again, but I'm hesitating to sleep. I know the after effects of dreaming is bad for me. But I need it
i got you man,i also love dreaming because i'm happy in it but also i hate dreaming because i'm only happy when im dreaming
Sad🚬
True
You're depressed. From this comment, probably severely depressed.
Born 1993, when I was around 5/6 me and my family had to move to Germany, Osnabruck because my Dad was stationed there for being in the British Army. We stayed there until 2001. I can honestly say from what memories are still there in my head, are the best years of my life. If I could just relive those days, just for a few hours, I would be so happy.
I spend hours crying happy/sad tears on Google Earth Pro with the time machine of the maps. Seeing my old Primary School before it was demolished. Seeing the Army barracks my dad was at before that too was sadly demolished. Seeing my old childhood home which I haven't seen since we left 22 years ago.
It's even more saddening with how Germanys privacy laws are. Google Street view is practically none existent. So the buildings and the streets I fondly remember are mainly just these pixelated resemblances of buildings that I still vividly remember from my childhood but i can't see how are now or was a few years ago. I only have what I remember, and the odd remnants of videos here on CZcams which is extremely lacking and rare to find.
The walks we went on, the Warner Brothers Movie Theme Park down south near Dorsten. Pony rides in the woods and picking the oldest one there who was called Boris. I picked him all the time because he liked to eat the grass a lot which made the ride last longer so I could spend more time with him. The little & big lake walk just behind the Nettebad. The traditional Christmas Markets in the town centre. Playing video games when my Dad finally came home on my Playstation 1, we would try and beat the games in one day but never could because I didn't have a memory card. Getting excited whenever Pokemon was on the TV. Friends round mine to share the big swimming pool I had.
Watching Halloween Town before going out trick or treating. Finding our first ever pet, a kitten abandoned behind a grit bin while we were on a bike ride and taking her home, we named her Millie. So many memories. All lost to time. With only old VHS tapes & photographs to try and relive those memories at least just a tiny bit.
Oh what Id do just to go back to those days. Nostalgia is such a beautiful but cruel mistress. I hate to love it and love to hate it. I Miss you Osnabruck. I miss you childhood.
But. I have a baby daughter now. And I honestly can not wait to be the best father I can possibly be. And to make everlasting memories with her that she can look back on and smile just as much as I do looking back at the ones I made with my Mum & Dad.
Oh Germany. Oh Osnabruck. Oh childhood. You were the best of days. I'll revisit you one day. With the whole family hopefully.
Don't be sad that you won't live these moments anymore, but be happy that you lived them. Peace. From Paris
Greetings from Germany, near Hameln. I miss the British Army and British Citizens, most have returned back to UK, the Barracks and Buildings in Hameln, Herford and Rinteln were torn down, shame
The sadness climbs with me even when I sleep so i stay awake so it doesnt haunt my dreams.
real
real
🪄💕💕❤️❤️🌟🌟
Well then, it’s gonna be okay. Because you’re not alone :)
Here if you need to talk or just to be sad together
You just went into my soul and explained 27 years i couldn't explain. 😔
I think why I'm so connected to my past, why I'm so nostalgic, is because I see things that remind me of what was, and it makes me sad. It makes me fill up with resentment, wishing I could go back to that time and do things right. But it also helps push me to want to do better now.
if you are sad of the past tell jesus and he will help you if you have sined it is normal just ask jesus and he will forgive you no mater what jesus is king amen❤❤❤
Came for the soothing music but stayed up reading the comments 🥹. Love your community. A lot of positivity and supportive comments 🩵.
3am thoughts are those that hits you so hard. Staring at the ceiling while wondering what would your life be years from now, or thinking about all your past mistakes and what you could've done to make it right.
That’s me currently (4:45 a.m.) some things are very difficult to let go of. I’m very hard on myself for my past mistakes. I know it’ll get better one day but brother, depression is one difficult hole to climb out of. I pray that our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ touches your heart the way he’s touched mine, if he hasn’t already. One love. 🤍
Snowfall vibes.. so beautiful and touching, yet so silently painful and makes you embrace the emptiness left in your soul.
You spelled beautiful wrong!😡😡😡
@@TooMuchNectar Don't be angry 😌 I corrected, i missed a letter by mistake 😉
Even if just a tiny bit, this playlist gives me a sense of serenity. Perfectly what I needed as tommorrow is a big day for me. It's 3am in the morning and I'm meditating to calm my paranoia and social anxiety. I really appreciate that there are people like you who make these types of content. Thank you, dear creator! I'm really thankful for this wonderful song collection.
The pain does not go away and the memories are not erased, every day I get further and further from that life, but it’s all in my head forever
It gets easier but you gotta do it everyday, that’s the hard part but it does get easier
Every night… it always finds me. Wether I’m awake or asleep I can’t escape my thoughts
I was really depressed for the last 2 years. It get better. For the people struggling out there, everything will be alright.
I feel nothing but silence. This playlist is really helpful thank you. Sending love.
Sometimes, when I feel bad, I come in here and finally immerse myself in my thoughts
Getting this recommended in 3am is a crazy coincidence
I haven't done this In a while, but I thought I'd do It here since I have had a pretty rough week. I come to videos like this a lot because they help me relax and think, think about a lot of things. I don't really know what Is wrong, I feel like I should since I am turning 20 In a week but I just can't figure It out. I am Incredibly unhappy with my life, I have been for a long long time, It started when I was around 16 but could have been earlier, I am not sure. Every night I reflect on my day and actions, and feel empty, everything feels like a blur as If what I did doesn't matter at all. I know I have amazing friends and family but I can't help but feel the urge to leave them, everything In my life, who I am doesn't have any meaning to me, almost like I only live for others or to appease others.
You have no Idea how many times I have tried to correct my way of thinking over the years, at first I thought that maybe It was a life style choice (I am very fat and hate how I look, I have attempted to go on a diet and fix It before but every time I fail) but after acquiring a kit to help me with my cravings and trying to Improve how I looked I quickly realized that my days didn't Improve, they only made me feel even more exhausted (the feeling of being tired has followed me as well). After a while things people said about me or how I acted started to hurt more and more, I hate going out or meeting new people because I feel ugly, I started to hate talking because I am constantly reminded by my friends and family how stupid or moronic I am (I know they are joking, but even after telling them It does hurt to hear that they don't stop) more and more I just hated going out In general. It lead to me quitting school due to me failing my classes and not fitting In with any of the new people. I thought that maybe a change of scenery and being at home would help, but that went away quickly. However I did realize that being at home felt nicer and easier than being out, when I am online It's like I can be a lot better, I can be who I want to be. But soon after all this, everything kind of fell apart, because of me dropping out of school the feeling of being stupid amplified 100 fold, I grew an Intense love for learning new things and trying to be the smartest because It helps with that feeling and helps a small amount when others say I am an idiot. I started to feel useless to my mother since I was 17 and hadn't had a job even though all those around me had either started to look or had one, I felt lazy since I played video games all day, etc. Things just got worse and worse over the years.
Skipping ahead a couple years (so that I don't write a 8 page comment) I was 19 and finally had a job, It felt amazing making money and finally paying my mother, but after a couple months nothing had changed. I was making money and was helping my mother but now I felt like a money bag since all I did was pay for my family, what's more I could barely talk to or hang out with anyone at work, I just kind of became the "every day guy" who would come In, talk with people, but then leave. I rarely spoke to anyone outside of work and I didn't really care to Improve that, because I have this Irrational fear of meeting or hanging out with anyone outside of our respective environments. After a couple more months things got bad, worse than they had ever been before. I don't want to talk about that part specifically, but I had to call some people that day to calm down. That was kind of the last straw, I met and talked with a psychiatrist, got pills, and tbh I don't know If things ever got better, because shortly after I was unable to afford them anymore. I never went back to meet her because I felt bad for wasting her time with an appointment If I was just going to not show up again, my mom was under the assumption that I only needed those pills for a month since to her my mood Improved. But I don't believe her, she didn't know anything was going on before all of It happened, she only found out because I told her. I realized though that after all these years nothing worked, I still feel empty, I still feel alone, and I still feel like my life and purpose means nothing. To everyone else I'm just the funny fat guy. I don't tell anyone what has been going on because I genuinely feel as If I would be ruining there days, I don't want any of them to worry about me, I don't want anyone to worry about me, because I don't bring anything to them, I am worthless. It would be a waste for anyone to care, that Is why I stopped trying to ask for help after the pills, and why I only think about all of this when everyone has gone to sleep.
I don't know what I am going to do, I can't afford a therapist, I feel as If I don't deserve help In the first place If I can't even bring myself to ask for It, and after a year I feel like I am slowly approaching that breaking point again. Yesterday I started thinking about how It would be If I just stopped, stopped living, stopped doing, stopped everything, It sounds so peaceful. No more anxiety, no more extreme stress, no more hopelessness, just nothing. I could peacefully float away.
Thank you for reading this, I am sorry If It somehow ruined your mood or If It ruined your moment, I just truly am at a point again where I don't really see a point In It all. Please don't attempt to give me words of encouragement, or try to tell me the cliche "things get better, trust me". I have heard It all before, for years and years, and I can say that at least for me, It hasn't gotten better, and at this point It probably never will. I simply just wanted to write something down again like old times, and tell someone. The months of trying to live day by day as If nothing Is wrong has made me so exhausted and I just needed to let some of It out. Please, live your lives, find Incredible people, do Incredible things, don't be like me, find purpose and love, don't hide away Inside yourself and not try to reach out for help. I am beyond the point of help, just a empty shell living for others, no point In living for myself, but you still have a life, you still exist.
Hey, venting out somewhere felt better didn't it? That's all therapy is, venting out your feelings and frustrations and trying to either fix them or rationalize that they aren't under your control. Take care of yourself, there are few in the world who would introspect, who would think about themselves from a third eye like you just did, most just kinda live. And no, you are important, there's a reason you live and breathe. Imagine how proud your mom was when you could finally take care of her, when she felt you got better. Just give her a hug and tell her that you love her. And don't bottle up feelings like this, trust me. Good times are ahead for sure, just keep grinding and putting in the work. It's okay to fail, it's not okay to give up. It's gonna be better, and hey, even if somehow it isn't, I want you to feel better ok :). If you ever need to vent out again, or just want someone to talk to, and you aren't yet comfortable talking with your mom, or someone close to you, feel free to reach out to any of us on the internet. Like you said, you can talk freely here, just get it out. It's cliche to say stuff will get better, but it's mathematically accurate to say you'll make things better cause I believe in you ✨.
-Random 18 year old on the internet :)
Hey man, thanks for letting us know. I know you said not to try and reach out buuut I don't care, you sound way too much like me and I wanna make sure you know you're not alone... I'm currently 20, and I remember that feeling of the lead up to my birthday. How lonely I felt, how I kept thinking that I've never accomplished anything in my life, how every second felt like a second wasted, that THAT was gonna be who I was as a teenager.. and that's all I ever would be.. I honestly feel like I let people down, who at least think I had some potential and... I just wasted all of it. I dropped out of school like you did, and for me I did it the first semester.. I didn't do a single thing of homework, I had great professors who all believed in me, that I could easily pass their classes but as soon as I got home every day, I just.. yeah. I kept thinking about shit in my life. A really bad breakup, the fact that I'm just a shitty older brother and don't call him enough... I know that feeling of not wanting people to worry about you. I honestly wish a lot of times that everyone in my life would hate me so it'd be easier to just end everything.. but I can't. Honestly feels like there's just a bunch of rusted chains coming out of this dent in my chest that keep me stuck to the ground..
I've lost a lot of people, all of them by suicide and every day I wish I could've done more. Not just for them, but now after there gone I wish I could've been better to the people closest to them.. I seem to never be able to take care of the people I love the most I suppose.
One thing I'm gonna tell you right now, and one reason I haven't ended things is that you don't realize just how many people truly care about you, that will truly miss you. You might have an idea, you might say that you do, but you don't. It ripples out, and it fucking hurts.. I've come close to ending it, both times in highschool, and every now and again when I see a train approaching I do get that feeling of just.. wanting to let go of everything.. I never could though, mainly because I'd never wanna traumatize the people who would see something so horrible, but also because I know deep down I gotta keep going.
I know it's kinda dumb, but in Highschool I picked up a manga called Berserk and I think it honestly saved me.. or was part of the reason. You've probably heard of it, but it's main thing is about how even when things are horrible, you need to struggle on. I think reading about someone who's whole life was a living hell from day one, and who kept going even after everything really gave me hope. It's scary, it's brutal... and it's fucking beautiful in small moments. It took me a few years before I could just allow myself to actually.. have fun. Or take moments to just appreciate how terrifyingly beautiful the world is, how kind people can be.
I'm telling you this as someone who felt like my teens were wasted, that I'd never be comfortable with my gross body, who could never find someone who genuinely loved me again.. and I'm telling you right now that the first week of 20, I had all that pent up self hatred, all those years of just hating who I was as a person, and I decided that "if I really wanna torture myself, I'm gonna try telling myself something I don't believe. I deserve happiness, and I'm gonna try every day to get it." I started working out instead of self harming myself or hitting my head and said "if I'm gonna hurt myself I might as well try and do it in a way where it's somewhat beneficial" as a way of tricking my self sabotaging brain to actually work on myself. The first few weeks fucking sucked. I didn't have a gym, I'd give up half way and then wouldn't do them again until some random middle of the night burst of energy. I don't have enough money for a gym so I just youtube'd different videos of what people use at home. I use a backpack full of random books as weights. I'm no where near even close to being healthy, but somehow after failing so many times, giving up so many times, I've actually been somewhat consistent and am on my 11'th day of trying to exercise. It fucking sucks but hey, it's painful and it's a good painful in the end.
I've tried actually talking to my coworkers which.. was fucking hard (one thing I will say is start with small things and go from there. I mean complement something they have on and that's all you gotta do on that day. If there's someone that wears earrings you'll really start to notice how different the earrings they wear might be, so point it out and say how cool that is. Again, it'll be fucking hard but it'll pay off) and I even got close with this barista who I had a crush on and after months of trying to push myself to ask her out.. she said no, and she that she was too old (she's 26, gonna be 27.. yeah I really don't mind or think it's too old but I get it) but it felt so god damn cathartic, that after those months of just being silent, then finally talking, and finally pushing myself that I didn't have to keep it on my chest anymore. (granted the reason I actually did it was because she was getting a new job and thus I wouldn't ever be able to really see her again). So, because of that I tried getting Hinge. It's been pretty rough trying to find someone that'll talk for more than a sentence BUT I kept trying and actually found someone that seems cool. Who knows if it'll go anywhere but hey you gotta have some hope.
(side note, this video really helped me out. It's long so if you don't wanna watch it I get it, plus on the surface it just looks like some random ass self help video but I am telling you, therapists in the comments were talking about how genuinely great it was, how many people in the comments it's actually helped out:
czcams.com/video/be_Ms3nVG10/video.html
okay, sorry that's all I wanted to send)
I don't know how close you are with your mom, I live with my dad and I know we both miss how it use to be.. that we use to be close and now barely ever talk... just a quick "hey how was work" and I'll always say "it was okay" before he says "good good" and I'd hide in my room... so my next goal is to change that and just start talking to him. And try to attempt to get it back to the point where it use to be, where I felt like I could tell him anything.. and I hope you can get to that point with your mom too.
The one thing I'm trying to hammer home to myself is that I could die at any point of the day, I could get hit with a car, have a random brain aneurysm, anything, and if I died without even doing everything I could to be happy then yeah it was a waste. I genuinely smiled a few weeks ago.. after years of just pure agony, genuinely smiled, and genuinely laughed with a coworker... I'm not saying things are gonna just get better and stay better. Life's always gonna be tough.. but it'll also have waves of weird moments, waves of really terrifying moments, waves of chaotic and really funny as hell moments, waves of some absolute beautiful moments. Stupidly beautiful moments.
I don't know if you're gonna read any of this, or even take anything from it which hey, I get it. I'm just some random ass 20 year old on the internet but all I can say is you are not alone. Understand this. you. are. not. alone. We're both tired, but I believe there's gotta be something worth living for.. I mean why else are there 8 billion other people still going? They've all had to have gone through shit too, maybe some not as bad as us but some of them worse then we could imagine, and they've found some reason to keep going. I've heard enough old people tell me how young I was to be worrying about shit, and so what I'm gonna do is see if by the time I'm 40- if NOTHING has changed.. then yeah I might just take a plane somewhere and end things. But that's 20 more years, and they'll go by fast, but by my guess I'll have to have figured out SOMETHING. I'm not funny, I'm awkward as hell and never know what to say especially if there's just two people but I'll tell you this.. I'm not gonna let that be who I am, and I'm gonna try to change that before I die. Because why not?
Struggle on man, I really hope your birthday isn't as lame as mine was and if it is then hey, I still wish you a happy birthday. Take care :)
I'm 28 now, and for the past 11 years, i have been suffering. I had seen myself near death many times, and a couple of times, i have been on ventilator, but life has always given me many chances to live on. Still, i think of passive suicidal thoughts, but I don't know why I'm still alive. Maybe there's something that i have been born to accomplish. Everyone who sees me says that " I'm handsome & smart guy, who will achieve something," but deep down in my heart, i feel like so lonely and emptiness.
Even i had left my studies 10 years back, i was a topper in my high school, but still, life has always cruel to me. And now i think i have to live on like this my entire life because i had lived so long in suffering that it's become part of me. everday, i woke up. It's like why i woke up. Only sleep gives me some relaxation in this life.
And about women, i had always had bad luck with them, I'm really a shy person, and many girl's approached me, but i was like, first, i needed to do something with my life. Really to say, i have never had been with any girl. Because i had loved someone in my high school, but it's been a decade since i saw her. But the past is past. Soon, I'm going to marry a girl. It's an arranged marriage. Yeah, seriously, I'm doing an arranged marriage.
I just want you guys to know that what we wish or what we like will never happen like that, and that's life. But eventually, it will lead you somewhere good. Just until then, hold on to it. There's a saying, "After every pain, there is relief, and after difficult times, there will be good times." Until then, my friends hold on because they are many people who have suffered a lot but have never left hope.
I just want to share something with you. I get it, I really do. However, among all of the corny things once could say, I would like to say; no matter what, I am proud of you. If nobody has said it to you recently, or if you have never heard it, or are longing to hear it, you have no heard it.
Do not ever begin to think you are not useful, valued, or have a purpose. You were created for something. You may not know what that something is right now, for 10 more years, 20 more years, or 50 years from now, but one day, you will.
If I could ask one thing of you, would you be able to do it? Instead of focusing on the past, or the future, focus on right now; this very second, and do that until your thoughts subside. It seems to alway help. If you take life in small increments, most of the time any worries you may have just fall to the wayside.
Seriously though, if you ever need anyone to talk to, or just want someone to listen, I’ll be here.
Let me leave you with this.
“Matthew 6:25
Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?”
Jesus loves you, and so do I.
I love you ❤️
its 1:30 here, scrolling away trying to find something, yet not knowing what im looking for. cheers to everyone here in the same pinch as me. these times are tough, but they will only make us stronger. goodluck to all of you my friends
Your comment is a glimpse of light in the midst of many dark ones. This is what we all need to do, introduce some light in the dark. Cheers stranger
This is actually very soothing. Just laying in bed @ the stroke of midnight with my cat listening to this. Love it! 😊
Glad you like it!
Doing tjat right now 🥰🤓
Ur stroking your cat?!?!?!? At midnight?!?😡😡LOVE FROM SOUTH AFRICA 🇿🇦
I never had bad experience growing up. Compared to other people, I'm gifted to have a loving family, a place to stay and food set everyday on the table, clothes and necessities vital for survival. However, the struggle withing oneselfs' is torture. My addictive, introverted personality led me to gaming addictions and laziness. Throughout my school years I found myself skipping lectures, classes, not caring about what previously mattered to me. All in all, I'm suddenly finding the significance of trusting yourself, slowly taking steps towards doing what you aspire to be, it definitely is hard, you always have that lurking feeling of going back to your habits, but as far as now, I'm feeling a bit free. It's noon, slightly raining, in my room, laying down on my bed, my sleep schedule slightly ruined yet I'm positive in my ability to fix it. I hope you sweet people, all of you, even though I don't know you, experience life in a more positive way, all your problems are your infrastructure they are who shape you and trim you to who you will be in the future, as challenging as they are and will be in the future they are the ones who will define who you will be mainly. I hope your rest is pleasant, your stomachs full, and your harsh critique about yourself moderated and minimized. :S
Listening to this at dawn is quite the experience. Not joyful nor sad, soothing and calming is more like it. Reading the comments got me feeling somehow understood, going through changes in life, overthinking at times and not even thinking about anything at other times and just trying to make sense of it all. The most important thing is to cherish life and live it the way it is, we don't need to overthink and bend it to whatever we imagine it should be. Cherish the bitter and the sweet, the significant moments and the little ones, because they all are what makes life you know, life.
We just need to be more present to enjoy it and always look for the light in any circumstances.
If you've made it here you're awesome and thanks for spending your time reading my random philosophical ramblings and I hope to introduce some positivity to everyone sharing these moments as well.
❤
Had a pretty bad time these last 2 months. Exam stress, break-up, very close friends betraying me, my dog died...
Everything seemed to finally be fine and calm again. My exam went well, I stayed with the few loyal friends that I have, and most important I met a great girl. Everything was perfect, but recently she suddenly became cold, nearly stopped answering my texts. Everyday this week I've been overthinking about this. And a few hours ago she texted me to "break up".
Man, I just started breathing again and I'm brought back under the ground. It's just too much for me right now.
Just wanted to share this somewhere. This playlist feels so good and every comment here feels familiar to my mood rn.
Whoever reads this, I hope you'll be ok and you'll put your trust, time and efforts into the right things / persons.
in fact I'm just wondering what or who does that to me, and why? anyways, whoever or whatever ruins my life, I hope it has almost finished destroying everything so I can start building something new
Sounds like normal social interaction unfortunately. Gotta keep moving man
3:03 am
23 years in iraq, and there is no way to see the happiness.
Im from occident and i feel some short of responsability for the damage that we have caused you. I know it means nothing but i am sorry
@@noevalero3381
"Dear brother, it's not your fault. Believe me, what the Western governments did is nothing compared to what our own governments (our people) did. Anyway, I am grateful for your kindness."
It's evening here and it's raining outside. I can't work today because I'm really sick. I've been sick for several months. I'm not able to live my youth like I want to. I have financial stress but no matter how hard I try it's going to be impossible to cover my debts. I'm tired so tired of trying again and again and just everything going wrong all the time. But I am grateful for the times my parents and I can talk to each other and share our sorrow and I'm grateful for the people who care. I'm grateful for this music.
keep it strong brother
It's interesting how 3am is the time where all the spooky stuff happens but 4am is the time of pure serenity
Ikr
then 5am hits and shit gets real af
It's when the server resets for the next day
real
@@jordanf8797yeah you have real life and shi
When silence aches for the dark you can be ever so silent to hear it yearn
real
Everything is too tiring lately, and i cant get enough sleep bcs of stressing out too. I graduate highschool in covid era, and not gonna lie.. the highschool student in me is still here. Now i feel stuck, and my bestfriend started to get busy. Its just overwhelming, with all the health, financial, and jobs. With life basically. And i am not that old, i just turn 20. Besides my notes, i feel like here is a safe space.. with all the vibes, visual and music. Its just fitting and making me want to talk here. Its 3:39 am here too. Also to notes, if you wanna be friends, like to talk etc im in. This comment sections seems nice and look like its only good people with beautiful soul here.
Yow
@@jando4l16 yo
I'm Korean. Hi
@@user-tn1pp1pl1l Hi!
1:50 am and i have school tomorrow. I shouldnt be staying up this late but its becoming hard to sleep again. I dont know how much longer i can go on for, knowing that every time i think im getting better ill just come back to feeling like this. This music makes me wanna cry again, but its also kinda soothing somehow
1:13am, I’m alone, in bed listening to this, collecting my thoughts wondering, why, why does time fly the way it does, 24 hours in a day but feels like tomorrow is already today, so someday comes one day at a time, take life slow, easy your self and there you will what you deserve so truly
Crazy how we all clicked on a video playing music but all feel the same. It’s 12:21, I’m dreading waking up, so I do not want to sleep. Never the less, I am tired and I must let go to a few precious hours before another day of work and unfulfillment. To all you guys out there like me, here’s a hug ❤
It's 12 and I'm listening to this with the fact I'm waking up at 4 to go to work for a 17 hour shift, I feel odly at peace in this moment and remember that whatever happenes tomorrow or be it today I will meet it with the same weapons of reason and logic with which I am armed at present. Don't worry it'll be alright be happy with what you have because it could always be worse, always be thankful and never lose hope wish you all the best.
Thank you
Ma 😊i
My crush kissed me goodnight and although I fell asleep at a reasonable time, I woke up at 3am and got too excited thinking about him so I can’t fall back asleep.
I wish you both happiness
meanwhile I could only imagine having a so called crush
@@kirdot2011meanwhile im here getting crushed because of the rejection from my crush
порой я даже не знаю как описывать свои чувства, кажется, что все никогда не кончится, но эта музыка помогает уйти хотя бы на время в другие измерения
Жиза
Очень хорошо понимаю вас.
Плюс
It's 1:49 AM, recently turned 18 and about to head into college in a couple of months. I'm jealous of how everyone has their lives planned out while I'm here with a couple of months left thinking what should I do with the rest of my life. With the current academic pressure that I'll probably have in the next couple of months I don't think I'll have some time to rest, especially now with my relationship in shambles. I'm tired of constantly self-sabotaging my self and now to the point where my partner starts to have doubts if I'm treating her right. I'm doing the most that I can to make some progress to be better, even just a little bit yet it hurts so much to hear that she thinks I've made no progress at all while I'm out here doing the best I can to be better. I'm drained, physically and mentally, right now I just need a hug more than anything else and maybe someone telling me that things will be all right and not to worry much about it
Hey see after reading your comment I just want to say that you know that you are doing your best you are giving your hundred percent to fix all the things so you don't need anything you know that you have given your hundred percent then rest is on God and see if your partner don't think that you are giving your hundred percent then you don't need to worry because her thinking will not change the reality see it hurts when your loved one didn't understand you but what we can do you are also human and even if you are not giving your hundred percent still you are not at fault you are also on this earth for the first time and pls don't think that you are wrong love yourself the most than anybody your self respect is more than any person anything I hope you are understanding me and I know you are going through a lot and you are also going through academic stress and that must be really difficult because I also have a lot of academic stress and I know what it feels when you are not able fulfill the expectations that you set for yourself and everything is going to turn out good believe me you are giving your hundred percent and that matters the most but don't be hard on yourself too much like take some rest I am not saying leave everything but start doing everything slowly and you will surely see the results and bro everything is going to turn out good just believe yourself and I will definitely include you in my prayer
Hi! How's life going on?
It’s going to be okay my friend
It’s going to be okay
Don’t forget to breath for me
nobody actually knows what they want to do when they go to college. That's part of the fun part. I just recently moved into a college dorm for the first time, nervous as fuck. But it will be okay. Figure out what makes you happy, and that is all that matters. The struggle never ends, there is always a fight to be had. But you can't stop fighting. Just keep going man, you are capable of great things, and the world knows it. Keep your head up.
It’s 12:53 am for me and I’m 20, 1 day technically away from my birthday on the 19th so it’s gunna be my 21st birthday and I am just listening to this and thinking about how lucky I am in life with the blessings I have gotten. When listening to this sometimes I am thinking abo ur ny blessing and other times I’m just here floating in space it seems. Love the video my friend
for some reason listening to this playlist has given me a blank mind, this is the first time in months where i haven't had immense fear of being harmed or just being scared in general. i can finally take a break, it feels as if im slowly fading into a whiteness, with no thoughts, sadness, fear, joy, or anger.....just a calming peace, i can finally relax now...i can finally be at peace
It's suprisingly calming and conforting
Once the storm has ended and the clouds clear it may have been years but look at you I am proud of you for fighting and sticking with yourself you have become unstoppable.
Comforting lies... It's only gonna get worse
If there is a hell this world is IT
@@LoneBuffalo118It will only get worse if you allow it to. I’m so happy all the time and I’m 15 as of right now. Life is just so good
@@-_Blitz_- some things you can't control.. only aim
Enjoy it while it lasts kid
About six years pasted and still I love him. I cannot cease this feeling. Even İf I know that I'll die one day like everybody, I'll love him in grave too.⚖
This is so calming. Just listing to this and watching the rain is very soothing
Thank you ❤
glad you like it ❤️
Thank you for existing
Thanks bro this is some really beautiful music, I been hella stressed but this calms me
🙏🏻🫂
2 am. Nothing feels right at the end of the day and my thoughts wont stop. But this... this just resonated with something in me. I needed this.
Who else is afraid to live, afraid to sleep, and finds no comfort anywhere? Just remember you are not alone, we will get out of our misery together, one step at a time!
“The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?”
-Psalm 27:1
P.S Guys its not worth trying to fix all your problems yourself, just give it all to God and see what happens!
I will reply to this comment when I am all better, but until then, keep moving forward!
I'm convinced 4am is the time of day most people are asleep. Most people go to bed before 4 and wake up after 4. It's the most calming and quiet hour of the night.
I have no friends from childhood i feel like this music made for me❤
glad you like it
This lowkey made me sad. Made me think about the good ole days, when even though I was depressed I could remember when I’d have happy moments & felt more in touch with myself, my spirit & just life period. Now it’s like no matter how hard I try I’m just numb & angry most days. Feels so hard to get back in touch with myself. Love this playlist tho relaxing & reminiscent ❤
Love you stay strong. We’ll be ok
@@ETSdede I love you too! Thanks we got this!
"I'm depressed. You know what will help? A depressing playlist."
*curls up into a ball of pain*
It’s 4 AM and I’m not at peace with myself. This music makes me feel the way I am OK
Not sure how to feel. I guess I'm feeling down, I asked a girl to formal but she didn't respond and it's been over a day. At this point I'd rather a no than no response. It is 2:50am and I need to be up at 6:45. I am tempted to just give school a miss tomorrow. With my second last exams of highschool next week, the stress is overwhelming. A one day break from everything would be nice. I wish life went a little slower sometimes, so these quiet moments are nice. To whoever is reading this, I hope you are happy. You deserve it. There is too much negativity in this world. If you aren't happy, I hope you are at least finding peace in any way possible. Greetings and farewell from one lost soul to another.
No happy, cant find peace, just empty sad hole in my heart and struggling in every area of my life but thanks. Greetings
How’s it been going so far lil bro?
@@mag4208 Life is good man. That girl actually responded a little later saying she'd love to go and it was a great night. I did well in all my exams and graduated from high school. I'm in uni now and I'm chillin. Got a job and stuff. I'm taking things slow and easing myself into this whole adult thing.
I was pretty depressed when I made that earlier comment. Since then, I came off my antidepressants and have been in a better place overall. So yeah, overall things are better and I'm a lot more optimistic than I used to be
It's 5.00 in the morning. Still I'm in the hang of this. These are the sleepless nights!!!!!!
I'm waiting for the sea to settle and the sun to shine✨as this vibes do.
It’s 11 am, I’m here in a Psych ward where I put my self in, because i couldn’t deal with anything in my life anymore. It’s raining, it’s dark and the patient next to me is snoring. I just look out of the window listening to this, and some day when I come back here, I’ll be okay…..
I hope everything is better now!
@@Karreismmf thinks that depression goes away in 10 days
@@CancunSeeeegaaa day by day things get better
Life can be overwhelming. But the more we suffer, the more we owe it to ourselves to be compassionate towards us. No situation is crazy enough that self-compassion won't lead the way back to a better place (both within and without). Big hug and take care :)
1am. Idk I’m just here to type whatever, to get something out of my head. I’ve never had a serious relationship in my 20 years of living. Well one but it was kinda long distance. We had the same interest, playing halo all the time. Even tho we never seen each other, she showed me what caring for someone is about. I miss it because no one else has showed me love and compassion like that. I really fucked up by leaving and needing time alone. Took her for granted. Wish I never left. God I miss that feeling of loving someone and they would show it back, being a kid. Now we’re grown up doing our own things. I think about our situations very often at night. It’s just hard because I can’t find that feeling again. Everyone around me has someone, including her and It makes me think about stuff I normally wouldn’t
Now, in the early hours of the morning, I remembered this video and I also remembered one of those days, the 12th, Friday night, watching this video on my notebook while I was lying in bed, simply tears started to flow uncontrollably over my face, while I would sink into my thoughts, when suddenly I start laughing hysterically, I remember feeling my thoughts hurt, but it's not something metaphorical, it's as if instead of my head hurting, as if thorns were growing in the part where I think, it's difficult to explain , thinking about it now I realized that it's been a few days or weeks since I cried normally, instead only tears fall on a neutral face or I simply start laughing, I think that means I'm really fucked up.
People with kind hearts never win and neither do the people that would do anything for someone else
It's 12am and I'm just thinking if I'm headed in the right direction. Thinking about life and hoping I'm not wasting it. Hoping I don't regret much when I'm towards the end of my journey. But I am glad I'm part of the journey.
You have time
living a quite life without any worries or stress, being free from your mundane tasks. man, i wish i could live this kind of life.
It's kind of long, but here you go. 🖥
It's 3am, but you are already lost in thought.
You find yourself staring at the flickering screen, captivated by the words swirling in your mind. The room is enveloped in an eerie silence, broken only by the faint hum of the computer. As your thoughts dance between the lines of your work, time loses its grip, and the outside world fades into obscurity. The glow of the screen seems to be the only beacon in the vast darkness of the night, drawing you deeper into the labyrinth of imagination.
The maze is heavy and pulls your mind into self reflection
Within this labyrinth of thoughts, introspection becomes inevitable. The weight of the night amplifies the echoes of your inner voice, urging you to delve into the depths of your consciousness. Memories and emotions intertwine, forming a tapestry of introspection, unveiling forgotten dreams and unspoken desires. Each twist and turn in this mental maze brings forth moments of clarity and revelations about oneself, sparking a journey of self-discovery amid the nocturnal solitude.
It's difficult, though. Your reflection has cracks and blemishes that can't be fixed.
The imperfections in your self-reflection cast shadows upon the path of introspection. Scars of past experiences and mistakes linger, creating fractures in the mirror of self-perception. Yet, it's within these very flaws that the beauty of resilience and growth resides. Embracing these blemishes becomes a testament to the journey traveled, acknowledging that healing often arises not from erasing imperfections but from accepting and learning from them. As you navigate the labyrinth of thoughts, these cracks become reminders of strength and the capacity for metamorphosis.
You are a amazing writer
Jesus said unto them
“that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.”
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Music is such a huge impact in peoples lives. Everyobe calms down to certain songs. And some understand themselves with it. Some express themselves trough it. Its relaxing and fun. Every emotion there is always a song with it
son las 3:24 am no puedo dormir por el ruido aunque realmente no se trata de el ruido de estos sonidos sino del ruido en mi cabeza, no me sentía así desde 2021 jaja es raro tener que volver al pasado y exactamente en la misma situación me hace pensar si realmente mejoré en todo el tiempo que pasó desde el 25 de noviembre de 2021 pues ahora mismo me siento exactamente igual estoy en mi habitación llorando desahogandome en un comentario que nadie leerá pero aunque suene triste y raro ver que no soy el único que la esta pasando mal me hace sentir acompañado
u are not alone, bro! wish u all the best from Russia
One day at a time, things will get better.
Wishing you well from Australia