i'm taking a gap year from princeton
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- čas přidán 10. 09. 2024
- this was a really hard decision for me to make, but i'm hoping to make it all great. this film only encapsulates so much of what i'm feeling right now. and the making of it was strange, as i wrote and edited the video and made the decision simultaneously. but i'm taking a leap! going to give my best effort at this thing. it's a year of creation, and i'm happy you're here for it. i'm excited for this series. i hope you are too :)
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i don't understand the feelings your videos make me feel, ina. i'm here in my room a crying mess because somehow you're the most genius person i've ever seen write anything because no one has ever put MY thoughts to metaphor to words to film like this. i am one of your biggest fans, and your videos are catharsis for me.
wow this is so so so beyond kind! that you feel so much says a lot about YOU. thank you for being here. you motivate me to keep creating!
This video resonates with me so much. I'm a high-school senior applying to colleges, going through a lot of the same choices and decisions. Parts of your video were so relatable-I even wrote my common app essay about stars and the smallness they afford. I talk about how each city light is a person, almost the same exact way you do. I feel like you get it. So many little parts of this film give voice to so many of my thoughts that I seldom stop to consider.
As I'm considering my future, I think a lot about my career path. I find myself caught between some desire for practicality and tangible success, and also a burgeoning idealism, a naivete even, that pushes me instead to pursue what I believe I love-my dreams.
College decisions, career choices, and the expectations of those around me-even my expectations of myself-I know it can be overwhelming. I can't exactly explain the extent to which your video resonated with me, but know that you're not alone in this strange purgatory of coming-of-age. Where you're not quite ready to choose what you want to set out as in the world, still clinging to some sense of exceptionalism and childish naivete-imbuing your dreams with these same sentiments.
It feels like the choices we make now are so dependent on a variety of fickle factors-the books we happen to be reading, the music we happen to be listening to-and that these choices are the deciders of our future. And we put so much stock into our future, maybe unreasonably so. But I'm a big believer in the fact that some things are just RIGHT, or "meant to be". The person you are on a fundamental level-your trajectory in life-is not so easily swayed. You feel exactly as you are meant to.
Thank You
wow. this is so eloquently-written. i'm with you in every sentiment. i can tell you think and feel very deeply about your dreams and decisions. what a way to describe it: a "strange purgatory of coming-of-age"! i'm wishing you all the best in your own journey. i feel lucky that your thoughtful eye landed here for a moment. thanks for leaving your beautiful words
ina ina ina im crying as a 23 year old software engineer in nyc in bed who found one of your reels randomly when i redownloaded IG in shanghai china. my brother and I proceeded to watch almost all of your reels. my brother, a 21 year old frat boy, was enraptured. at the end of our binge he said, "u know whats so beautiful is how she can make others feel". to choose the unconventional path, the creative path, is brave and a vote to humanity enduring among all the dressed up absurd seriousness in the adult world. i love your videos and writing so much you have a talent for articulating the inarticulable. it feels dreamy in a way that reminds me of murakami. ok that is all
wow -- your comment absolutely made my day! picturing you and your brother go through my reels together???? that's so crazy and wonderful wow. haha "a 21 year old frat boy." what a description. i want you to know that i started today feeling sorta dull but then i saw your comment and it just, like, totally enlivened me. you are so kind, and i'm just so happy to know that the stuff i make can have such an effect.. i'm wishing you all the best :) i'm glad you found me.. i needed to read your words for reall
I feel this so much. I'm currently on my third year in college taking up CS. Whenever I go to school it always feels forced and my mind is always somewhere, art. Everyone knows me as someone grade conscious so I'm afraid of what people might think of me but I made a decision anyway. I'm taking a gap year. I don't really have a plan but I'll figure it out along the way.
wow! this was so inspiring to read! i feel you about how your mind is always somewhere else (art). i've felt the same thing.. it's like we can't avoid the thing we're attracted to.. just gotta give it a try and see how it plays out! wishing you all the best on your journey
this made me cry a lot on my dorm couch and my tears got on my mousepad and it made my cursor go crazy. this is great
wait are you serious 😭 wow this is crazy. thank you for watching. i hope your cursor is okay i am honored to have affected it
When I clicked this video about a gap year, I was just curious about what that person would tell the people on CZcams. I haven’t expected to feel the things I felt watching your video.
My brain is able to explain the techniques. The camera, the cuts, the pacing… they are brilliant! The most fascinating part though, was the one my brain couldn’t explain and that’s that you managed to create this feeling in a total stranger who just stumbled upon your video in a moment of bored pastime scrolling.
Perhaps you needed to read this, perhaps not, but thank you for doing what you do!
wow! 😭 your comment means so so much. amidst it all--the camera, the cuts, the pacing, like you point out--the connection is the most important bit for me. so yay. i totally did need to read this haha. thank you so so much.
Thank you so much for sharing. Never related that much to a ytb video. It's comforting to see i'm not the only one feeling like that, like some kind of failure, passive in my own life. You're really brave for taking a gap year and not quitting on your dreams. Wishing you the best
wow, this is a really kind message. i'm really happy what i'm saying/going through is something you can connect with. wishing all the best to you
"I just want a nice feeling. For a little longer than a bit." This is how I've felt for the past four years. I'm currently awaiting my college decisions. One of which is Princeton. My father went to Princeton, so I feel the pressure. I remember visiting the campus as a young girl for my father's class reunions. I've changed a lot since then. My father played lacrosse at Princeton. He has friends and connections there. I should feel grateful, but I want to distance myself from it. I don't even play lacrosse. I know my father will be happy for me, wherever I choose to go. But, deep down, I feel like he would be most proud if I went to Princeton. I'm looking forward to starting anew, wherever I end up. I believe in "meant to be" as well. I find comfort in "meant to be", but perhaps it has made me passive.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful film. I follow you on Instagram, but I've just now discovered your yt channel! I wish you all the best in your gap year, and I hope you find happiness. And know that you are making a difference
i'm also waiting to hear back from princeton. I have that same feeling of dread. although others tell me I will end up okay if I don't end up there, I still hesitate to believe them. knowing that the decision is coming soon but I haven't been rejected yet is giving me false solace, false hope. it will be hard, and frankly, I don't know how I will get over it. Best of luck to you, though
hi, thanks for sharing your thoughts here
i hear you with the anxiety, and the false hope. i remember the general sentiment from people being "oh, you'll be fine wherever you go" or like "you can have a good time anywhere" and while those things are so so true, hearing it doesn't help at all as an anxious senior, haha. that being said, as i've spent my three years in college, i really really really get the strong sense of like, oh... they were right.. there is so much college experience to be had everywhere..and i really can't convince myself that it's better one way or the other.. at one school or another..!!! which is so great. this is all to say that until you hear back, i hope you can let yourself enjoy these last months of high school. and when you do hear back, feel free to reach out and let me know how it goes. i know all my words are rendered pretty much meaningless because of the way things worked out for me (it's so annoying to be preached at like this so apologies) but i thought i would just leave this anyways
I just wanted to say that there's a certain amount of humility involved creating an over-dramatised video like this and I respect you for following through with it
haha thank you. over-dramatized indeed. very strange and meta a lot of the time but figuring it out with each one i make. :)
hi ina, i'm in the same boat but I graduated university a bit ago and i'm trying to pursue my content filmmaking dreams in some ways, thank you so much for sharing. i can say that sometimes you feel you are in the right path and sometimes scared but hey, in the end you find your calling even in the most unexpected moments, excited for this series and hoping to see more of it
thank you for leaving your kind words here. i'm glad to hear i'm not alone in this sorta journey :) it is scary, but we're in it together! thanks for being here
You are infinite. Thank you for your words and videos, they make me feel less alone. Wishing you many adventures in your gap year! Tell us all about it when you come back ❤
thank you so much!
I didnt complete watching the video yet.. but damn oh my god.
YOU ARE GOING TO BE ACTIVE NOW.
more of your films that i get to watch.
yes!!!!!! more and more!!!! thank you for being here
this is courage!! i love it
thank you so much
I relate so much ina, you're not alone :)
thank you
How do you do it every single time? I want to go back and watch it again and I will but I also have so much reaction. First, a gap year is brilliant. I see so much wrestling with perspective in your videos. Why does the malaise - as you say melancholy -- descend at 2pm on a Wednesday or after midnight alone with thoughts. But then you see city lights as a universe, and can make the ordinary act of hanging out on the roof extraordinary, with your perspective. You don't seem to be chasing happiness so much as purpose and fulfillment and that chase will, as a side effect, bring happiness? This is what I feel is converging in your work. In what you're producing. You ask where do dreamers go? You're already there. Creating - writing/film/light/editing - capturing soul and having this gift that you seem to be cultivating with hard work that allows you to package it in such quietly powerful and unusually insightful ways. You ask at one point - what if I regret? A Princeton grad wrote for one of his characters the line: "Live your life the way you want to and if you make a mistake hope you have the courage to start over." These videos delve into a lot of uncertainty but one thing from them is certain: you have plenty of courage for whatever comes your way. Finally, the end you say you're leaping with your eyes closed bracing for impact. For once, I respectfully disagree. The work you've created shows nothing but vision - sharp eyes wide open - open to the exterior and the interior. Justas importantly your heart is open. And the impact you're bracing for will be a hug from the universe. For using an array of talents to authentically chase fulfillment in a world that would have us chase many other things, to the detriment of all, material and spiritual. You are so onto something. And with what you call "weird" or "strange" ambition, there is liable to be bumps. That's where you seem to find your gold. And you share the gold with us. I am so excited. For you and for us who experience your life's work.
oh my god, your comment is video-worthy.
@@ramyahahha thank you for writing that! I was so inspired and impressed by the video.
your comments are truly so spectacular 😭 i do not even know what to say. you have such a thoughtful eye. i will keep coming back to your comments when i need motivation. thank you for always watching so considerately. also, i am still meaning to read Proust ever since your recommendation some while ago.
@@inafinity. your reply made my day. Thank you. Every one of your films I want to mention how it reminds me of Proust or inspires me similarly.
Gonna miss you but super good luck on your gap year!!
haha is this gabe -- thank you!!!
@@inafinity. ❤️
i feel like every video you made is a damn beautiful movie, you are one of the most spectacular people of the world
this is such crazy high praise! i'm just happy you enjoy what i make :) thank you so much, i hope to keep making stuff you enjoy~
There is something special about you =))) you are just.. just so cool. You're work is amazing:))
thank you so much!! wow
omg i've been admiring your films for a while now and this has definitely been my favorite one yet. so excited for you to take on this adventure. to inafinity and beyond!
i am so happy to hear this!!! i'm really trying to make the best i can from here on.. at least as much of the time as i can haha. some might be flops... thanks for being here for a while, and for your kind words. i hope you like the future stuff tiffany
you’re so awesome for doing this ❤
you are kind for writing so
Wow! This is so exciting and something I think many people wish they had the courage to do! Good for you for taking life by the horns! So excited to see what you make over this year
thanks for your words! i'm glad you call it courage! going to keep telling myself it is that, too. thanks for being here!
wow :) this is so well crafted and encapsulated so many of the thoughts I had before I took my gap year. it is definitely a scary decision, but a leap of faith well worth taking.
you're brave for taking a bet on yourself! take that conviction and run with it. excited for you and what you'll create
thank you so much for this! i am glad to hear it's a risk worth taking -- it's a sentiment that seems to be shared among many gap year-takers. i'm excited. thanks for your kindness :)
this is my girlmore girls
omggggg i can't explain how happy i am to know
wishing you all the love i could possibly gather ❤
thank you so much
I’m glad I found you
Amazing video, good luck!
thanks so much!!
you are 100% courageous girl
yay :D thank youuu need to hear this haha
Go for it girl!❤
thank you!!
Wow
you are so cool!!! I believe you can do it, also
thank youuu!!!!!
5:09 inspired me to wrote a poem on that topic (:
wow :)
Awesome. Can’t wait to see what you do.
thank you so much :)
i felt every word of this
thank you
this is beautiful
thank you
I dont know you. I just know you should keep doing what you are doing because it felt right at the moment u took the decision to do it. Thanks for sharing this video. It inspired me to keep trying to make the life I want to live
thank you for your kind kind words and affirmation! very happy to inspire. wishing all the best to you!
you got this!!!
thank you!!!
I clicked on this because I was thinking the same thing. I want to make big cash money in my lifetime in the freest sexiest way possible but shit is in my way. I need to firmly dickslap my obstacles into oblivion and was hoping that you would provide the insight I would need for this goal... but was wrong. I went too far into the cosmos and got lost, not because I was curious, but because I had too much free time... Perhaps that's the solution then... more free time. Hope all goes well, the style was a little wishy-washy but I liked it.
ha ha ha. i'm def trying to figure out the answers, too. wishing you all the best in your journey out of oblivion
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hii'm eiei from the better chai! you can create such a spectacular film, so I think you can do anything!!! haha!!! to be honest, i am in a might-be-bad-situation now struggling with severe mental illness that is preventing me from studying at uni i am glad your parents are supportive! it is very important!!!! writing down things make you happy everytime they occur might help you to be happy. at least, it works for me!!! I'm looking forward to infinite series!!!!! glgl!!! happy tokyo(i rarely go to a center of tokyo, so it is nice to see it in your video!!!)
thank you for this kind message eiei !! and for your thoughtful suggestions. i'm so happy you're looking forward to the series!! sending you all the best energy