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I’m so proud of you. It’s so incredibly hard when you’re in the midst of the dark recesses of your mind to pull yourself out of it, but it’s completely possible and you’re proof of that ❤️ I’m really glad you’re taking time with content too, there’s no Super Rae Dizzle without Rae, just like you always told me when I was struggling 💕
Your loyal followers still have the respect for you as always- just take small steps to find your comfortable place for content. You are very brave xx
@@kathytebbett8398 very true
Love you both so much, I takes a lot of courage to talk talk about mental health specially on social media, 100 % supporter
jambalaya is the worst and I have to the one who has hecho
I wholeheartedly agree with Chloe ❤
Ooof I feel you that making videos during the grief process is ROUGH. I also felt compelled to upload every single upload day without fail when I wasn't really taking time to process anything that was happening. Glad that as time goes on we're learning healthier coping mechanisms for these things!! Being mentally content is SUCH an underrated stat :D
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It takes a lot to be vulnerable like this and put yourself out there. I’m so happy to hear you are in a better place and doing things for you. You’re truly a gift to your subs and I’m so happy for you and look forward to all the amazing things the future has in store!
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Total 100% respect. I've been there. Let me tell you a quick fact.
You are one of the reasons that I am alive today.
I am a 64yr. old artist, and dying. Cancer, Stage 4. (No sympathy please, I've made my peace). Anyway, After chemo, it came back. Dr. gave me 6 to 9 months. That was over 2 years ago. I went to a deep, dark, scary place. Tried therapy, no help. I'd look at my easel & supplies, and just cry. What was the point? Nothing helped. One day I was on CZcams & watching Jazza. Your videos came up. I clicked. Must have watched 20. Don't know why, but I just wanted to paint. Next day same. Now all that I want to do is create. To paint, to make something beautiful in this place while I'm still here. I don't know how or why, but you did that for me. Thank you. And I'll say this:
This world sucks and people are cruel. To each other and to ourselves. It's a constant barrage of negative everyday. Both inside & outside of our own head. It's hard to keep fighting. But...
I have seen the beauty that is inside you. Your art shines because of it. You take your time. Your be you. Love & appreciate you. Love & appreciate the very few in this life who love & appreciate you.
Do what you love & love what you do. Life is too short for anything else.
I guess it wasn't that quick. 😂
Thank you
Thank you for sharing this ❤️
@@stillnotstillYou are welcome. I hope she sees it.
You have a lot of wisdom in that mind of yours. I feel a lot of that is also applicable to most who read it. Thank you for your sharing
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Love you, Rae! I’m so glad you were able to get through so many difficult times and come out on the other side with a new perspective and insight on what matters most to you now. It’s good to see you at the happiest you’ve been in a long time - you deserve all the happiness in the world! 💕💕
im a huge fan! :D
You’re so strong for sharing. I’m glad you’re finally feeling better and hell yessss to spending more time on better more aesthetic ✨ videos rather than feeling guilt around quantity and chasing the algorithm.
Yass I think some of us are forgetting to take breaks
I agree so so so so much, Rae deserves the best! I love you and Rae!
@@Blink12365 same these are my favorite art CZcamsrs
Rae, when I was in my mid 20's(I'm 60 now) I developed stomach cramps, diarrhea, and I kept burping. It turned out to be my gallbladder, it was, in the words of my surgeon, "stuffed full of gallstones.". It's unusual for a woman in her mid 20's to get gallstones, but it does happen. I can really relate to how restrictive your diet became. By the time my surgery happened, I was eating only plain pasta, with just a smidgen of butter and some salt. I'm so glad that you were able to move past it. I can also speak to the benefits of therapy, I highly recommend it. If money is an issue, many communities have free mental health resources. I'm glad you're feeling better about yourself, and any real fan of yours, will want you to be happy and healthy. I hate it when people get on CZcams creator's backs about uploading more. Take your time, live your life, we will be here.
I can sort of relate. I'm 14 right now and we recently discovered that I was born with my bile ducts all weird so my gallbladder had tons of stones. A month ago I had my gallbladder removed and my bile duct reconstructed but since I was 3 I would have inexplicable stomach pains and vomiting. It got so bad that I was terrified to eat certain foods, thinking they would cause me immense pain. I would usually be stuck eating porridge which sucks a lot.
@@kyu3052 , I'm so sorry that you had to go through all that. It's really awful to be a sick child. I spent lots of time in hospital as a child, although my issues were with my lungs. I hope that you are doing better now.
I had gallbladder issues in my 20s, too. There's no pain like it. :-/ Glad you were able to get treatment!
My family has gallbladder problems, my grandma and mom both had theirs removed, by the time i was 13 the attacks started, at one point i had them every night fot 3 days, and i once had an attack from about 3am to 9am. Had to go to the hostpital for that one, which lead to an ultrasound which lead to them telling me it was full of stones, luckily when i was 18 the attacks just stopped, its been about 3 years now sincd then and to this day its still genuinely the worst pain ive ever felt, at minimum i had an attack once a month, i think the worst part was how hard it was to breathe
I'm so glad all of you had ur surgeries and I hope none of you have had complications since ♥️
I was 32 when I had to have my gallbladder removed. But bc it’s so rare for a women to get gallstone at that age the drs dismissed the possibility for months. Which resulted in severe damage to my pancreas due to my common bile duct being repeatedly blocked & causing bile to back up into my pancreas & liver. I had the worst pancreatitis 3 specialists had ever seen by the time I gave up on my drs & went to the ER. As a result my pancreas no longer produces digestive enzymes which are NEEDED to breakdown proteins, carbs & fats. So for the rest of my life I have to take EXTREMELY expensive prescription enzymes…my insurance pays $6300 PER MONTH. And I have very strict limitations on what I eat as well as the amount. Oh! Also due to the damage I struggle with chronic pancreatitis & sphincter of oddi dysfunction…both extremely painful. 😕
Seeing my favorite artist on CZcams give words of encouragement to my other favorite artist has restored some of my faith in humanity.
We are here for u
Where are here for you I really love I like your father who you are
Sorry about that I made a mistake because because I I like how to say that’s that I love you for who you are
oh man this hit... really hard... i'm happy now knowing where you're currently at. especially given where you were. it makes positive change and inner peace and an end to the rock bottom phase feel attainable. it kind of nut-punches hopelessness in the... nuts? idk anyway i can imagine this boosted a lot of ppl up who are also in a scary spot rn. it definitely helped me so thank you. lol you don't even realize how much your stuff impacted my stuff '''[whew deep breath]'''
The amount of courage you have for opening up and talking about this, especially publicly to millions of people is ASTRONOMICAL. I know we don't know each other, but every time I watch your videos, you're yet another person whom I feel like I'm just hanging out with and listening to/watching a friend. I love love love your content and you and your personality! I'm thrilled to hear that you're feeling so much better now, and seriously, good on you for grabbing life by the balls and making those positive changes for yourself!! You're awesome and I hope your journey only gets better and better! Much love to you Rae!! 💞💞💞
Soo true, everything you said.
I recently lost my father to covid and it is really nice to hear how in a roundabout way that horrid diseases saved a life. Keep it up, Rea. You rock.
Im sorry for your loss
I'm sorry to hear about your father. But yes, as awful as it is, it has provided a necessary escape for a few of us.
Getting away from the toxic stew of my narcissistic family actually showed me how narcissistic they are. I'm looking forward to using COVID (or a simple "No, thanks.") as an excuse to get away from the toxicity for the foreseeable future.
@Harmony Love 144 Amazing, isn't it? Dateline, March 2000: "What AM I going to do with myself?" June 2000 "Um, I'm going nuts and the plant in the corner is talking about me."
"September 2000 OK, after discussion with a therapist, I actually realize how toxic my situation was, and it's not healthy for me to be in this state. It's time for some changes. The plant was actually my subconscious trying to tell me something..."
So soory for your loss💔
I'm sorry for your loss. This pandemic has been extremely difficult for some of us, but some people have found some positivity out of it, too.
As a person who struggles with a binge eating disorder this video makes me feel so much less alone❤️ wishing you nothing but the best rae
You're definitely not alone and I hope you're doing well. ♥️
I have very poor eating habits, although I don't think I suffer from binge eating. I'm addicted to sugar. I wish everyone success in overcoming eating disorders.
I feel you 🤗
I feel we’re all slipping deeper into our boats, into darkness I feel non of us understand fully. I LOVE YOU Rae, you’re genuinely the one creator that I connect with, I paint along with you and have learned so much from you Rae. I feel we’re ALL here behind you, and can sympathize what life brings our way. Thank you for staying strong for not only followers, but for yourself! I see strength when I see you Rae, thank you for being someone I can look up to😌🥰
Pray it will help you.....lots of love
we love you rae
Same
RaeDizzle, I watched you at my worst. I’m not even an artist but you’ve always been there. Your videos have been wonderful for me in so many ways. Thank you for all you do and I’m wishing you peace and light.
I feel you. On this entire thing. I had a set back less than a year ago untop of my anxiety and depression, it was awful. Art saved me. I couldn’t eat but when I got happy I binged and gained tons of weight, I had to get myself to focus on art, and girl the fact that you’re coming out and telling people is a huge step towards your healing, I love you no matter what. You’ve got my support.
It’s great to hear that you’re doing better, you don’t owe us anything but I’m sure we all appreciate you sharing your story, you’re so brave and you deserve true happiness always!
As someone who also struggled massively with binging- that stuff is hard to deal with. Literally so much love and respect for being able to own up to it and also giving visibility. EDs are so invisible by their nature sometimes it feels like you're alone- thank you so so so much for letting all of us know we're not alone and it genuinely gets better
We haven't officially connected, but I'm so proud of you for sharing this. Your self awareness in working through this is a huge thing to be proud of - it's an inspiration to many to see that you've journeyed through something like this and come out the other side. This video was SO relatable, and I know it's something that many (if not ALL) creators on CZcams face at some point, although maybe not to the same degree as you've experienced. Thank you for your bravery in sharing this so others can overcome their challenges too.
I'd love to see CZcams provide more support for creators in this, but in reality, the algorithm will always come first. So instead, it's up to us to band together and support each other! Another great reason to stay connected and another reason I love the art community. Nobody has to do this journey alone. Hugs x
9:41 that radiant smile that starts to come out really hits home. I loved seeing it, glad to hear you’re doing better
The irony in that your videos were VITAL to my recovery within my own eating disorder. I had been in and out of treatment centers for years for anorexia and bulimia. I found your videos and they brought me comfort. (You actually look and sound like the house manager of the place that changed my life for the better). I’m so proud of you. SO fucking proud of you. I love this Rae, the real Rae. ❤️ don’t beat yourself on not being 100%, I’ve been in recovery for 3 years, and it’s not easy. I struggle every. single. day. But life is worth living. ❤️
You are so strong for this. Admitting and addressing it is the first step. We're here for you Rae.
I relate to this so much. The obsession with productivity and disordered eating and all. I feel like from the outside we can pretend that everything is ok and people think we're successful and inspiring, but behind the scenes we're barely getting by. Thank you so much for sharing this because I'm sure it will help so many people.
Rae, from personal experience I can relate to the binging, weight, stress, self esteem cycle. The pressure of perfection can be very grueling especially when we are demanding it of ourselves. I've been in therapy for 2 years now and I'm still struggling to be honest about my binging. It's a work in progress.
Rae, you have done some amazing things in your life and you have so many accomplishments to come. Please don't let youtube metrics define you. You bring something special to this platform.
I started watching you when I was stuck in the bed during my 2nd pregnancy with twins. You were just being Rae back then. I made it to 36 weeks thanks to you and my other fave youtubers who kept me sane for 20 weeks of being bed bound with a toddler.
Now my daughter, one of the twins, has developed a passion for art. We watch you together now and she tries to mimic your tricks and tips. You are the reason she has prismacolor pencils and color pencil specific sketch pads for her dress designs. She just turned 7. Lol
You went from a funny college student to our art tutor. You Have made a difference in our life. You have helped me connect with my daughter through art. I want you to know that is a special talent. I'm 46, never thought I could do art and now I have my own custom designed character I use to express myself through art.
I am realizing that so many youtubers have made a big impact on me the last few years and I haven't stopped to appreciate them. So I hope you read this Rae. Because, I think we often get used to watching the videos and feel we are interacting with you. But sometimes just watching isn't enough.
Thank you Rae for all the videos you gave us, the laughs you shared with us, the experiments you tried, and the precious moments of your life you sacrificed for us. YOU 👏 ARE 👏 FABULOUS 👏
Normally I don’t react much on CZcams, but really wanted to say how proud you can be at yourself for being so open about your health mentally and physically. Hope your doing better every day and wish you the best of luck. And I love your videos even if it means I have to wait for 3 weeks or 2 days I love them 🥰 wish you love, health (mentally and physically), good friends, luck and happiness 🥰
ah Rae you're so cool. Thank you for making this video and sharing so much of your experience. You help give perspective to things others of us are going through. Thank you Love
This is such a brave video... it's actually helped me because I also have a shaky relationship with food. I'm a huge comfort eater and it comes from stress, depression, PTSD and anxiety. Spent many of my 42 years thinking I'm horrible and unlikeable.
I'm so proud of you battling through and doing all the right things to help yourself. I can't imagine the stress of keeping ahead of the CZcams curve and algorithm. Love your channel and your videos no matter how much time it takes. You're amazing and I admire you so much. 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
I wish for you happiness and self love
@@blkrainbow1075 Wishing the same for you too 🌈🙏🏻
Wishing you all the best💗
Food addiction is real. You're so brave for talking about it. Hang in there, I was there myself and I go back from time to time. Learning new healthy coping mechanisms is hard but definitely worth it.
Rae, I've been watching your videos since "dos and donts of drawing an eye" and even now, I rewatch your old videos lot and i can see the amazing improvement in your health. please keep moving forward being an amazing person no matter what anyone says and thinks. It is truly a blessing to have your beautiful face talking to me, and as jazza likes to call it "having fun with art and creativity"! And rae, please always remember: health > looks, health > work, happiness and health > all.
It takes so much courage to share the dark times with others, and I’m sure a lot people related to your words. Thank you for showing your journey to healing, happiness, and balance in your life. ❤️
I've always had spurts of overworking and binge eating. Apparently I was dopamine seeking and was diagnosed with ADHD last year. My head feels so much calmer now. I'm so happy that you are finally finding yourself. Sometimes, it takes us to completely stop overworking ourselves to become more proactive and productive. ❤️
Seeing Rae’s true smile is literally so comforting and it makes me so happy :)
I have had issues with disordered eating throughout my life, you're so strong for coming out and telling people about it. That really is the first step. You're not alone.
I’m so sorry to hear that you went through all this and I’m really glad that you’re happy. Keep doing what you’re doing, you’re an amazing artist and such a strong person. Remember that if you ever see yourself slipping, seek help, tell your therapist, just tell someone. It’s so important. And I hope that you will always have the support available when you need it.
I know exactly how this feels sweetie & im so sorry you’ve had to experience this. I don’t wish it on anyone. I’m kinda going through this right now. It’s been for years but it hits me in tsunami like waves. It’s either all the way up or all the way down. I struggled w/ addiction to the pain medication I was being prescribed along w/ SEVERE anorexia, & I did nothing but work work work. I would draw for HOURS straight trying to create content to post & enter, & now I’m sober, but I’ve gained so much weight, along w/ SO many health issues. I found out I have a bad heart condition, literally just walking around the house exhausts me. I’ve been having seizures 5 days out of every week along w/ all the other stuff in between w/ my bipolar disorder depression psychosis & it takes literally everything in me to get up during the day & right now I am STRUGGLING to work & put anything out. It is so disappointing & it terrifies me. I made so much progress so quick as far as my art quality goes & now I’m just at a halt.
You deserve a break from the hard stuff & to be happy. Art is my passion & I would love to be able to get to the point where I can post on CZcams & make something of it. I look up to you & your work so much, just know that. ❤️ You’re amazing & beautiful & funny & smart & one day I hope to be the same. Keep moving forward girly, we are ALL HERE FOR YOU!
I'm praying for you!🌹🌹💕💕
That struggle is real and I feel like many of us artists (especially the ones starting out and trying to make it) are in danger of falling into similar situations.
I was mad at the lack of productivity in my life (art-wise) so I'm almost finished creating a schedule and a plan for building my social media presence but doing everything alone drains the energy and it's been weeks now that I feel like a zombie trying to prepare everything on time and actually stack up the materials/videos/drawings etc.
As artists we tend to be eccentric which makes destructive behaviors too attractive at times. The war of constant disparities (or are they just so similar?) and doubts haunts many of us. I already love and hate equally the journey that I just recently started! I guess that makes it even more exciting, but oh well, who knows how it will end!
Anyway, stay strong and put your mental health above everything else! In the end that's what matters the most. Besides, the art community and people around you are here for you, so don't you feel alone anymore!
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Rae we totally understand,I’m sorry you have gone through this,we are here for you don’t worry,please if u need to take a mental health break,we love u xxx
PROUD OF YOU! Thank you for sharing your story :D
same
i’ve been here since the very first video and seeing you grow as a person and as a creator is just absolutely amazing. i’m proud of you for talking about this because i feel like people don’t realize that someone who comes off as really happy and “perfect” isn’t actually like that off camera. your content has improved drastically. know that we’re all proud of you and i’m really happy that you’ve gotten to the mental and physical point you’re at now. you deserve every bit of success that you have. don’t stop being yourself because that’s when you’re at your best :)
You’re so strong for telling your story. Please don’t ever feel bad about needing your time to deal with life ❤️
The fact that you're here today to talk about it is astonishing and you should be proud. I'm an addict in recovery from opiates I've been clean for 4 years and looking back is painful for me too. And I know it's hard to feel proud for yourself I definitely feel that. I'm such an empath that I always acknowledge other people's wins, but feel mine aren't worthy. I used to always feel like "well I did bad things so me stopping those bad things shouldn't be celebrated when I'm not supposed to be doing the bad things in the first place" but we gotta just look back no matter how painful and grow from it.
I am super proud of you.
When you said you used food as a way to reward yourself and as a punishment I really really felt that. I struggle with the same thing and I have that shame cycle. So proud of you love your videos 🥰
As a person who is going through exactly the same, I feel you. I feel you so much. Hang in there. The cycle will be broken at the right time. ♥️ We got this.
I'm proud of you Rae, to overcome the hard times, remember that your fans, friends and family always with you in the journey. 💙
Rae, I'm so sorry you've had to go through this, I am on my own journey to recover from similar issues. I know how absolutely hard it is to break cycles of addiction, Self-harm, eating disorders, substance abuse, etc. Being open about this type of stuff is so challenging. We're all so proud of you, and no matter what, we will support you. I know it hardly does any good to hear this, (and trust me, I know it gets annoying to hear this over and over again) but you're phenomenal and you're MORE then enough, we love you becuase you're an incredibly skilled artist, and an AMAZING person.
Rae, I am so proud of you for taking the steps toward living a healthier life! And thank you for sharing your experience, it takes a lot of strength and courage to be so open, especially on the internet. Coming from my own personal experience with depression, anxiety, and self esteem issues, I related to your story very much so. I understand the struggle to break the cycle of negative self talk, as well as bettering mental health in general; it is not an easy journey, but it is not impossible. Every single amount of progress you've made deserves to be celebrated. Keep on keeping on. Much love 💛
I’ll be honest, I didn’t start watching you until 2020 but I think it’s really important that you shared this and I’m really proud of you! I’m so glad you’re doing well and just know we all love you!
I am struggling with the same thing right now. I really appreciate you spreading awareness on this. I struggle so much with my self esteem and eating disorder. I’ve been putting off getting mental health treatment, but honestly this video is helping me know it’s okay to get help. Thank you! We can do it!❤️
I am so sorry you had to go through this (and still go through stuff). I suffered from binge-purge behaviour. From depression. I know very few people who never had issues with food. You are not alone. And you are so brave for putting this out there. I hope you will be happy and well.
you don't know this but back in 2017, when i found your channel, you helped me thru a lot of depression. and still help me through this confusing, long pandemic too.
thank you for sharing your story. ❤
tw- depression; self harm, OD, purging and binging… thank you so much for sharing! 21 was the worst ever year of my life. it actually started with stomach issues, and they couldn’t figure it out either. there was lot a whole two weeks where i couldn’t even turn myself over in my bed. but during that time i got really lonely. i developed really bad mental illness issues. i didn’t self harm until two months after this all started and now i struggle with that. i also tired to OD so that people would start caring about me. i starved myself, and then binge, and then purged. but i got better. and here i am in 2022, alive, still struggling with body image issues, but better. you just showed so many people that they aren’t alone. you are so brave and beautiful and i glad to know that i’m able to support you as a youtuber.
I can't watch the video, but please don't force yourself! Health comes first, and I think you're very brave sharing this! I've had some issues myself too so please, take care of yourself
Thank you for sharing this, I have been struggling with OCD and I’ve had to hide it and still do bc my parents mainly my mom just don’t care really but when people like you who I look up to put out things like this it makes me feel less alone and more accepted as me even with all of my mental health bumps so yeah thank you Rae
I'm proud of you for telling is especially cause this is extremely personal which you didn't have to open up about I understand what you mean & what you were going through I went through it myself
I am so sorry that you had to go through something like that, but glad at the same time, that you went on and started to live again. Listening to you brought me to tears because I've been binge eating since I was in elementary school, stuffing myself with everything I found. After school I bought chocolate from my pocket money and ate it all on my way home. I still do it, and I still can't get myself to love myself.
You are so incredibly brave and such an amazing, inspirational person. I suffer from binge eating disorder, and depression and I know how hard it can be and how much you can hate yourself in this period. Just remember that you are loved and I'm glad you are doing better.
I am so so glad you had the courage to open up to us about this, you are so strong and I am glad you’re doing better. I understand how much mental health can suck and I’m glad you were able to break the cycle
I really appreciate you being honest with us about all this, and whenever you feel like this, just remember it won't last forever some days are better than others.......
BUT WE ALL LOVE YOU!!!!! RAE!❤🧡💛💚💙💜 you help sooo many people every day.
Only halfway Into the video. This couldn’t have been easy to film and I applaud your courage and bravery. Thank you for speaking out.
I was going through a heartache, and that year I got depression. I also had trouble with eating. I wont say I know how U felt, but I understand that it was difficult. And I am so proud of U for taking this decision❤️. And I think ur right. At least I think quality is more important than quantity.
As a fellow binge-eater, it is very healing for me to see you, someone I admire so much, be so honest and real about this. Thank you for being you Rae!
This video is super relatable, ive had pretty much all the same mental health issues in the past 7 months as you did. youtube, moving to a new country, feeling that im not good enough and no one will like me were big contributers to how I felt about myself. This video really helped realise that I'm not alone and many other people are dealing with these issues aswell. To anyone dealing with hard times, i wish you all luck and you will get through this👊💪
You put into words exactly what I feel. Thank you for coming out with this! I hope you know that you are amazing, and that you deserve to be happy and healthy. I'm so proud of you for being able to tell your story.
Rae saying these things makes me realize how I actually feel. Thank you rae. You are helping me with my mental health by admiting yours. You help me a lot, with art and with everything else. Your awesome ❤✨
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I went through this exact same thing... just recovered recently and feeling so much better. It's such a hard thing to go through and I'm sorry you had to endure it. I'm so happy you shared this with us, and I know you can get back to your best health and happiness! We love you 💖
I'm a little bit late and my comment probably wont be noticed, but I just wanted to make sure you are aware of this. As someone who is currently struggling with some of the things you talked about today, This video is extremely inspiring. My admiration for you has shot up. I know it took extreme courage to post this. I'm glad to know your doing better, just know all of us are behind any decision you make
I have had a lot of similar struggles with eating disorders that impact the way you do almost anything. Keep strong Rae, and true to yourself. We'll be here when you're well and ready.
haven’t watched yet but just know we love & appreciate all you do for us
Thank you so much for sharing this! Every time someone influential is honest about their mental health it helps break the stigma for everyone. You're awesome! 💗
You’re incredible strong for being so open and vulnerable!
I’m just another comment but I am so proud of you for being able to pull yourself out of the darkness, be able to work on yourself mentally and physically; it’s absolutely NOT EASY.
I love your channel, your content, your personality and I constantly look forward to your videos (no matter how many days in between 😉)
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Rae, let me tell you something, why I always wait patiently is because no matter how long you take, you make videos that are inspiring, fun and it really shows when you're truly enjoying the process.
Its not about the products, or reviews, or money, we just love seeing you being so passionate about CZcams and just overall US. Trust me, you don't need to sacrifice your health for our enjoyment and entertainment! You're happy and that's all that matters. We all support you truly, never forget that.
It takes a lot of courage to admit these kinds of personal things, especially to the public. We all love your content, but your Heath and happiness comes first. We all love you ❤️
It’s a shame you went through this but I’m so happy you are doing better now
I’m so sorry you went through all this, Rae… I’m glad you’re getting better now!
Aww, you're so strongg! Im so proud of youu, and also happy for you! Thank you for taking time to make high quality and entertaining videos for us! and thank you for taking care of yourself 💗 We love you Raee! 💗💗💗
Thank you, for being open, honest, and sharing such intimate parts of yourself. You don't owe us anything. Yet you being brave, and speaking on your mental health and eating disorder. So proud of you!
rae ilysmmm im so glad ur feeling better !!! ur such an inspiration for me and pther ppl. i hope u find peace forever :) u deserve all the good things happening to u rn ily again im so proud of uuuu💓💓💓
It was so incredibly brave of you to open up about this, Especially showing the very personal clips of yourself during that time. You aren’t obligated to do so, but by doing it, just know you are going to make difference for some who may be struggling right now and are watching this, and that’s so powerful! I’m so so happy to hear that you are feeling happier and healthier now! 💖💖💖☺️☺️☺️
What a beautiful journey you are on coming through some of the toughest stuff to deal with. So proud of you! You’re not alone! 💜
Rae, I feel this to my core. These past few years have been incredibly difficult. It took me a ton of therapy to be where I am today and I recognize I still have a ton of work to do. Every day is a new day and a new journey. I am so happy you were able to pull yourself out. I am here to cheer you on and look forward to seeing you continue on your path
I watched this from start to finish. How inspiring. How just, true to yourself. Thank you for being open. And know we all love you. Self love is important!❤
Hey, just wanted to say that you're so brave to have opened up to talk about this. Been following your channel for years now under another nick and I am so glad to hear you feel like you've found help and peace. It ain't easy dealing with everything when your body and mind sort of becomes your enemy, getting stuck in patterns which are bad for your mental and physical health. In the past I've struggled with alcohol abuse and hearing what you've gone through, trying to keep performing better and better while this other thing just spiralled and taking over, turning to a spiral of self hatred-I've been there. Looking back I really thought now and again on your frequent update schedule and wondering at how you could keep such a high pace, knowing that out of that pursuit of success can come a lot of pain. That cycle of being ashamed of and hiding what you're doing to yourself from the world is something I'd never wish upon anyone. Really can't say how glad I am to hear and see you doing better. It tends to sound like a cliché when someone says that life is here and now, but it's also true. Being thankful and caring for what you have instead of chasing affirmation elsewhere is the most reliable path to happiness there is. I'll keep watching your channel, and I sincerely wish you all the best. /E
So sweet and I agree with you ☺️☺️❤️🧡💚💛💙🖤💜
You are amazing and I’m so proud of you Rae! And you’re so strong ❤️ we are all here for you! And love your honesty we all need that
I've been watching your videos back when I was 17 when you were making art tutorials. You've helped me get better at art and kinda helped me grow in a way. I think you're really admirable for being able to share so honestly. I wish you all the best. I'm 21 now. I kinda feel like I've grown up with you
this is a very emotional video and i think it's so amazing of you to openly talk about these struggles now and i'm glad to hear that you're doing better for yourself now. i think i speak for a whole lot of people when i say that we rather skip out on some uploads and instead have you actually enjoy what you're doing. you are incredible. sending so much love your way
I’m very proud you were able to open up with everything your going through. I’m so glad your doing better. I found your channel when I was in a dark place. I lost my dad in march 2021. He was my only living parent. I slipped into a depression. I took up art as a form of therapy. That’s how I found you!
I am so proud of you for being open about this. It is incredibly hard. You are an amazing person, and you are gorgeous, both on the inside and outside. Keep on fighting, we are cheering for you. Please take care of yourself and don't push CZcams videos. We can wait. We would rather have a happy Rae than many videos. Good luck with your recovery!
This video is hard to watch, having gone through something similar. More than your honesty, thank you for your sincerity. It's inspiring to witness people that I, frankly, kinda look up to, overcome such issues and give them a moment of spotlight. Everyone should be considerate of their own mental health, and personally, when I falter and start falling back into bad habits, those moments of humanity, of someone who shared and who got better, are a source of strength. So, thank you
Rae, thank you for speaking up and sharing your story. It's easy to forget how important our mental health is as CZcamsrs and artists. The process is the most important part and it's inspiring to hear how you've fallen in love with your process and yourself again. We love you!
Rea I’m really glad that you are ok. We need great artists like you in this world. I have only stumbled on to your videos just recently but I’m making my way through them. I love the one you did with your mum not so long ago. I’m 58 and have a great relationship with my two girls one being 23 and the other 20. It’s nice to see you and all the art you do. Thank you for just being you.
I am so sorry you are going through all of that. I went through disordered eating for a long time. I have gotten a lot better but it is still a struggle. You are important and I hope you get better. Love and light to you.
Sooo proud of you that you shared your dull phase. I had it too in 2020, it was terrible for my mental health
I can totally relate to everything you have said in this video. Please know that we LOVE you...Everyone struggles at some point in life.
I feel so proud of you, Rae, you are always inspiring and I know its gotta be hard to open up with something like that. It is reassuring you are getting help and realizing you don't have to go be someone you aren't and stress over work to please others. True fans would understand that influencers such as yourself need their selfcare time and their social life as much as everyone else. We love you Rae and if you ever need time to yourself, to take breaks to hang out with people, or to have a time to relax, you definitely deserve it. Thank you for the videos you post and showing us yourself in little ways like make up or lighting! I love your personality and I hope you won't forget how much your worth is, I love you.
Man, this is the most amazing video! I have two daughters who watch this channel and you have done them such a HUGE service by sharing this. I am forever grateful.
My 10 YO has cancer, so this has inspired her t o eat, and has even crossed over into her self esteem with losing her hair.
Damn, you’re a hero!
I’m glad your happy and doing great now🤍
I'm so sorry you went through this Rae. We appreciate you for sharing this, even if it was hard, thank you, remember that were here, we fully support you. Take care, don't forget to keep hydrated and give yourself a break when you feel overwhelmed, we'll wait so you feel healthy and comfortable. Lots of love ❤
Oh, sweetie! I relate so much. I’m so glad that you shared this with us! Keep sharing your truth - it makes you braver and shows us your bravery. I can’t speak for everyone who enjoys your channel, but I will support you to the ends of the earth.!
We’re all still here for you Rae!!!!!! We love you!!!!
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14:55 Aww, Rae, don't ever feel weird for finally being in a good place again and being happy/content! This is so important, and I'm so glad you got there!! Your story and feelings about your ED and everything surrounding it (like removing yourself from social situations and getting reclusive) sounded very similar to my experience, only that mine was some 15 years ago. I was lucky enough that my mother caught onto the whole thing rather quickly and got me to see a therapist with the help of my family doctor (bless his heart), so I wouldn't have to deal with everything myself and didn't damage my body any further than I'd already done by this point. So seeing you're now able to speak about it and how you managed to work through so many things on your own during quarantine in a global pandemic is nothing but commendable! You have my outmost respect 💕
You're a beautiful person. I love your videos and will always watch, no matter how long I have to wait in between. I have had struggles my entire life, but especially in the last few years. I have very disordered eating problems. In fact, I would call it an addiction. When I am depressed, food is my crutch. It's my joy, my pain, my best friend, and my worst enemy.
My Mom was diagnosed with stage four metastatic ovarian cancer on my birthday of 2020, just before covid lockdowns. 7 weeks later I held her hand as she took her last breath. Those were the worst 7 weeks of my life. Four days after her funeral, lockdowns began in my state. So I was then in the darkest place of my life, and also locked in my house. It was like a prison in hell.
Every day was exactly the same. I laid on my couch (slept there too), I ordered fast food delivery, I ate and I cried. I only moved to go to the bathroom. I stopped taking care of myself completely. I gained so much weight, so quickly. My heart began to fail. I couldn't walk from one end of the house to the other without being out of breath, my heart pounding. Everything hurt. Inside and out. I was dying.
I thank God that I woke up one day and decided that I didn't want to die. It's been a long hard journey to get myself back, and to be honest, I still have a long ways to go. Sometimes I backslide, and sometimes I make strides. The important thing I've learned, though, is to get up every day and keep fighting. To accept and learn from my failures, and celebrate the wins. Even the small ones.
I think people who have been through dark, heavy times are some of the best people. We really understand both the highs and lows. So we are not as quick to judge someone who is struggling through their own journey. We can revel in the good because we know how dark the bad can get. We get to see the type of beauty on life that only reveals itself in the ashes.