"black swan" - bts but you're a frustrated figure skater falling out of love with your passion[...]
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- čas přidán 9. 09. 2024
- [...]but then you remember how much the ice feels like home, so you skate on.
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☾joonpiter's notes;
ik i'm suuuuuper late but i wanted to make a concept like this for black swan so here it is ahahaha. i decided to go with a figure skating idea bc i've always loved watching figure skaters and seeing them do what they love in their own element. just watching their focused faces and then seeing them persevere through each jump and flip,,, aaaa so amazing !! it always sends chills up and down my body. more importantly tho, it gives me hope and inspiration to continue to do the same in my own life and beloved doings. so, i hope you can also feel that through this edit.
in general, i find the theme of falling out of love with your passion or just feeling tired or inadequate in smth you love to do, to be so relatable - whether that be figure skating, dancing, singing, making art, playing sports, studying smth you love, etc. this orchestral version is so beautiful and chilling and it scores that theme so brilliantly. the melancholic yet hopeful sounds always bring me to tears bc it makes me think abt all the times someone out there has ever felt frustrated or tired in doing what they love (( like those hands through your hair, face in your hands kinda moments that have almost made you quit )).
for me, i think this is a normal feeling sometimes bc we naturally put all our effort and time towards smth we love or care abt. we always feel like we have to push ourselves more and more each time and that every single thing we do or put out has to be better than the last. ofc, this is the part where you need to remind yourself that it's ok to take breaks or that you are enough, that you are trying, that it is ok to fail or feel bored or tired or disconnected. this is all still true. but i also understand that as passionate and creative ppl, this is smth we have to mentally and emotionally go through sometimes. it's how we continue to grow and //really// live.
but despite how exhausting and draining it may be, smth magical always happens every time.
we get up.
we go to the next practice, we pick up another paintbrush, we attend the next day's lecture, we sign up for the next competition and are sleepless during the nights leading up it. and why? bc we are constantly reminded that we simply love that thing we do, and that this one thing we love is a part of who are. it's not just for those around us who are watching, but for ourselves. it engulfs us, day in and day out, and keeps our heart burning. in moments when we're doing smth else, it's still there in the back of our mind waiting on us to get back up.
so, here's to the things we love, and likewise, the crucial dark moments that often remind us of the things we love.
hoping you hold on to them as much as you can,
joonpiter ♡
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☾credits;
- to "on ice perspectives" for the beautifully-made video
↳ • Vincent Zhou / Stars O...
- to vincent zhou, the talented figure skater shown in the vid. his performance of "slow dancing in the dark" by joji was so moving, and it inspired this concept immensely
!["fix you" (cover) - bts but this is what it feels like listening to their music [3D enhanced vocals]](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/LcIfI5_quig/mqdefault.jpg)
my fav part is 3:38 omg,, i swear the chills i got while i was editing aaaskdsdj
which part of the routine was your favourite? : ))
*[EDIT]* the figure skater's name is vincent zhou and this performance is originally of the song "slow dancing in the dark" by joji. please check it out (( link in the description )) bc it is absolutely beautiful and haunting.
I really like 3:13 to the end don't know why I just do it just had me shook.
My favorite part is when it changes to the more intense sound at 2:50
YES THE ICONIC KNEE SLIDE
BRO SLOW DANCING IN THE DARK SLAPS
EVERYTHING! but the ending gave me chills especially! i love the idea that the skater got back up and continued to practice :
"A dancer dies twice, once when they stop dancing, and this first death is the more painful."
-Martha Graham
Me hating the way I looked and thinking I was fat stopped me from dancing cause I was self conscious and all the other girls I danced with were skinny.
Where do I remember hearing that...?
@@marissag.Vs_winterbear kinda similiar to yoongi's verse
@@marissag.Vs_winterbear black swan's mv i think
@@marissag.Vs_winterbear have you watched angels last mission?
Out of all the pain I've experienced, nothing is worse to the one you feel when you lose passion on the thing you love most.
I currently feel like that
@@kira14374 hey, i went through this back in december/january and i wanted to tell you that eventually you'll get it back. and stronger than ever. it's very tough, since in my case it's the thing i love the most in my life. please just don't lose hope. and if it everntually doesn't it sure will open a door for even a stronger passion. speaking from experience❤ all love❤
jaehyun's daughter hmmmmm :/ I hope I will. I am currently 27 years old but I always thought I would die before 25 and currently I just surviving instead of living to my fullest
@@kira14374 hold into the faith that you'll get your passion back. i don't promise you that everything will change but it will definitely make things 100000x better, i was also going through one my darkest times when it was gone
I feel like that right now I pulled a muscle while dancing and I have to perform this Friday and what is worse is that I’m the this of the triangle so it’s not like I can hide myself in the back an no one will see me :(
Falling out of love with a passion is almost more terrifying than falling out of love with a person. Because when people leave, what we have left are our passions and our dreams. Losing that is like losing the basis of ourselves. It's like falling out of love with your own self.
damn reading this makes me feel like I lost some talent which I don't have
beautifully said
I FELT this
I felt this... It IS actually more terrifying. At least to me..
I understand what you’re saying. I’ve been playing netball for almost 8 years and singing for more than 10 and I feel like I have no more motivation to do either even though both helped me overcome some really shit moments on my life.
I can imagine Enhypen Sunghoon in this. How he has been figure skating since he was 9 and realizing that he actually wants to become an idol. Him trying so much to prove to his parents that choosing the idol life is worth it.
THAT'S WHAT I WAS THINKING ice prince
Oml! I was thinking the same freaking thingg!!!
i bet we all got this on our reccomended because of the amount of sunghoon ice skating vids we watch
@@simonsaysnctisthebest5508 Ikrr!!!
Exactly!
“Living without passion is like being dead”
Jungkook was the one who said this, right?
And currently i am not ALIVE
Yea
dear my passion,thr thing/or person or whatever i am passionate about
I am looking for u everywhere.How come u nenver show up tho
Where are u now?under the sea..
im dead
Yes, hi currently dead over here ✋☠
- Jeon Jungkook
"Id rather die than live without passion"
“Then you’d be dead already”- _Yoongi’s response_
@@maeel8601 LMAO
i- then i suppose i’d be dead already
Well, I guess I’m dead then
Fuck ,im dead now
As a figure skater, the dread when you realize that stepping onto the ice and landing a jump doesnt feel special anymore, is the worst feeling ive ever experienced. But then i remember why i started, and i work twice as hard to land that next jump or spin. And when i do, it fills me with love all over again. Once a skater always a skater
Sascha Kaiser I agree
Same im a former Irish dancer, I remember how empty I felt when I no longer felt that spark of adrenaline that would come when I would do Lifts or beautiful routines. It terrified me cause I no longer felt accomplished. Especially when I wouldn't get anything higher than a 3rd place when I would normally get 1st places and swiftly move up ranks. I think the breaking point was when my friends moved into intermediate and I was stuck at primary. I no longer had passion for it, the last time I was truly in love with my passion was at my last nutcracker performance, that was the night my world fell apart. I was the queen of the Gypsy's and the Nutcracker in the battle scene. It was truly euphoria I felt on stage, I loved having hundreds of eyes watching me preform. I loved wearing those beautiful sparkly dresses and my shoes laced up in those intercut patterns so I could dance my soul out on stage. That was my last performance, I cried so much on my car ride back from the theatre. Even though I was surrounded by many bouquets of flowers, I remember how my mascara streamed down my face as looked at all the beautifully lit shops decorated for the holidays, and how lovely the snow looked as it danced across the sky. It was such a odd feeling, I had just finished the best performance of my life I had received gifts, flowers and showered in compliments but at the same time it hurt so much. Even though I no longer felt that familiar passionate love, I still was so crushed that I finally abandoned something I was once so passionate for. Long story short I still wonder if I ever should have left, the hollow pain still cuts deep into my soul when I glance over at my trophies, medals and countless photos of my dancing career.
the fact that this was the song that made me realize my passion for figure skating, the lyrics just meant so much. this made it feel so special.
Sascha Kaiser i was the 666 like lmao
Sascha Kaiser the farthest I’ve gotten is a double salchow, it’s the worst feeling when you do it so many times that it loses passion and meaning.
If Sunghoon didn't quit as an ice skater he would probably skate using this song.
I WAS THINKING THE SAME
What's scaring me the most here is how all the comments talk about their passions while I'm sitting here completely empty on the inside.... Because I don't know what that feels like. I'm turning 18 next year and I'm scared of being the only one among the people around me who doesn't know what they want to do yet. All I know is that I don't want to live a simple 9-5 job life. I want something more in life. I want to experience the happiness in doing what I really love. But how can I when I don't even know what that is yet?
Edit: Omg guys I just came back and read all your replies and almost cried. Thank you so much for your sweet messages and encouragement. I promise I'll try my best and maybe one day I'll find my place just like everyone else. Love y'all!
Nothing wrong with that everyone lives their lives differently you may not know what it is you but that doesn't mean your life will be worse than others you'll have a different type of adventure
I just cried after I read your comment because I can relate so much. All of my friends already have their things figured out, they have plans for their future. They have goals and passion to aim for while all I do is standing on shore watching them sailing away in their boats. I crave for the feeling of passion. I want to feel what others feel when they work hard for their passion. I desperately want to fight for something but all I feel is emptiness and lost in my own maze. It’s painful...
Edited: I know it’s been months but thank you so much for all the encouragement 🥺 BIG HUGS TO EVERYONE AHHHH
If finding your passion is your passion
Then ofcourse its still a passion 💜✨💜
Just don't forget to look for it and try everything
its ok dear....there so many people that they find their goal in life just a little later than other people there is nothing wrong with that! you are fine...just follow your heart dont be frustrated!
We are often too distracted to realize what we want as well. We were born empty, we keep filling and emptying ourselves through the years of our life. It's ok to not know what makes you feel alive. It's ok to not want to submit to the mundane routine. It's ok to be lost. We were born that way. If you don't have a passion rn, it's ok. You need to find yourself all the while you look for the thing that makes your heart race, where you feel yourself. It's not easy, finding a passion is a journey of self exploration. The more time you spend with yourself,living in the moment, the more you get to know yourself. Remember, it's just as fine to slow and weak, as it is to be strong and fast.
it hurts to see people talk about their passion and suddenly falling out of love with their passion.
I'm here still figuring out what is mine
same :") hope you find yours soon!
Sometimes it feels weird, when I was kid back then I really like arts, drawing everywhere, and want to learn more but more hard I try to be better at drawing it just feel like I'm not sure if this is I really want. Then I remember I love music too, I always listen and sing that's when I realize that when I become have a interest in art I start losing my passion in music, it's been a long time too when I sing but it's just frustrating that I didn't master both of them I really want to see myself proud but it feels not enough
@@clarissearagon1690 sis are you my twin? Lmao jk but I feel the same too. I had a talent for arts but then I got stuck in a Science high school just because I passed an exam. My environment is basically pushing me to be a doctor or smthn but that's not my passion. And since I don't have time for arts anymore, I feel like I'm deteriorating. Someday I might go talentless...and I hate that.
@@hugnboba maybe we just need time to think clearly. And question ourselves
"It's okay if you don't have a dream. You just might not have one. Just be happy." - Min Yoongi (2018)
this song always gave me ice skating vibes!!
Me too!
LITERALLY ALL THE TIMEE
For me this song give me ballet vibes
BRUHHH SAME! When it came out I told my friend that I wanted to skate to it one day, and I drew an outfit based on this song for my favorite skater, Yuzuru Hanyu 😂😂😂
my pleasure me too!
*Someone mentions figure skating.*
Me: CAn yoU HeAr MY heArT BeAt
AT A13 lover oopp yuri on ice vibe!!!!
TIRED OF FEELING NEVER ENOUGH
YEASSSS
I CLOSE MY EYES AND TELL MYSELF THAT MY DREAMS WILL COME TRUE
yAAAS-
so many in the comments lost their passion for something they used to love, while i'm still stuck here, feeling empty because in the 17 years of my life, i never had anything i was passionate about. i wish i knew the feeling of what it's like to be so passionate about something. i'm currently forcing myself to study and get into medical school to get the best job possible because i literally have no idea what career should i take for my future. a lot of people and my parents tell me to just follow my dreams but i have none. it feels so suffocating to me. to all the people who lost their passion or something they used to love, i just want to tell you guys to be grateful and feel blessed that you had the chance and experience of feeling what it was like to able to do something you once loved- even if you don't anymore. i bet it must feel so nice to have dreams you're passionate about.
Why can I relate so much to you I truly feel everything you’re feeling
i think a lot of us are like that. we're all still young and we haven't figured out what we want to do but we have to pick, we have to pick _now_ and there's this feeling of running out of time and you still just don't know.
There's no time limit in developing a passion. You just haven't found what makes your heart flutter yet.
Angys Taekookies Wow I’ve never heard of anyone so much like me. I could say don’t worry, that it’ll be okay. But I have no clue. I’m in the same situation. I’m one year younger than you but I have no dream, no passion, skill, hobby, and it feels like no talent to fall in love and perform in the way that makes me happy. I thought that I should at least get a high paying job and study to go to medical school, too. I can’t help but resent myself for having no passion. Resent the world for feeling so empty, my parents for never getting me into anything. For the me that was too weak to state the things she likes and pursue them, and sometimes to even like anything at all. I tried later but it always felt awkward, the people around me have talent, I don’t, the people around me have been training since they were 5, I’m nothing, I thought. It felt like trying to put on a tshirt you wore when you were younger. You loved it so much back then, but you’re different now, it doesn’t fit. Like putting a square key into a circle shaped keyhole? That kind of feeling, is the worst one. Sometimes your best isn’t enough people said to me. But my best was never enough...Now, I don’t like anything, feel anything. I hope we can both find something that makes us truly happy. Good luck!
I just want to tell you to take your time bro , I know it is stressful but I promise here is so much time in your hands , and even if you graduate Med school and get a medical licence you would still have time to discover what you really like
Yuri on Ice be like-
Ngl nothing could be as calming as ice skating to black swan
Idk why this song makes me just think about viktor nikiforov
i- i was just abt to make a yuri on ice reference-
Idk I imagine Yurio lowkey being bored of it soon coz he won the grand prix at a young age, so I imagine himtoo feel like "now what?"
@@hugnboba here’s your hug and your boba ->🧋
My name is Yuri and I was an actual figure skater so u talk abt me?...👁️👄👁️
as a violinist, I've never related to something more. I started violin at 6, and it was my pride and joy. it was the other thing that I could show off, the only thing that I could show the world and say "look!". my parents pushed me so hard, I remember hating it so much but I slowly began to love it. at age 12, I loved it so, so much, I loved the feeling of the bow in my hands, the sweet sound the strings made, I still hated practicing but I loved performing. fast forward to 16. now I can't help but wonder, where did all that magic go? why don't I feel that spark? I don't know. will it ever come back? it feels like you lost a friend, a family member. I didn't know how dull my life could be until now. there's no color...and I don't know how to fix it. I don't know how to get my zest for living back again, what if it never comes back? opening my violin case and rosin-ing my bow was always a lovely experience for me. I was always excited to play, excited to get my fingers on the strings...
i’m the same as you bby
Awww :( I started piano at age 6 and because my teacher was a terrible teacher, not only lost my passion by age 11 but became so afraid of my teacher and of going to lessons that I would cry regularly. Eventually, though, I moved on to a new teacher that was truly what I needed. Her teaching fostered (and continues to foster) a love for piano that truly shows when she teaches. When she plays for me to demonstrate, I feel like the music comes to life. She has so much passion for what she does, shows so many colors, so many emotions, understands how the music works so well, how to make things sound beautiful... although I may never be as passionate about piano as she is, she was able to show me how beautiful piano can be. Sometimes, it just takes one person to make the difference, and if it doesn’t happen, don’t panic. Someone new will bring a new passion someday.
@@annabethyeung8512 i lost my passion for piano because i remember my teacher always would force me to play till i cried. My mom also kept pushing me so hard to do piano to the point i had to be dragged out of the car. But in the end, i loved piano, but after that i started losing passion as all i did was play the same songs over and over. I felt bored and i dropped piano at 10 years old.
Hello, I sincerely hope your love for the violin has come back during these 4 months. In case it didn't, maybe you could try to make a video of you playing? And uploading it on CZcams for example. Sometimes we only need an exterior opinion/vision to reanimate the spark. And who knows, maybe the lovely comments will make you want to film another one..!
@@ihrtblanchett aw, that's sad, piano is anything but boring. But I hope you have found something else to love!!
I could never be a good skater even when imagining it I'll just be there sliding around the arena falling on my butt every 5 seconds.
Bruh when I tried to and I kept falling and my butt was sore after we left
I went with my class ice skating this year and I fell like 917382917272 times. And so then my body hurt for a week ._.
same. i literally fear ice skating bc one slip n my ass is done sjdhsjdhs
@@joonpiter I got noticed by the one and only jOoNpItEr yAyYyYy
ᴍᴏᴏɴʟɪɢʜᴛ ᴘᴇᴀᴄʜᴇs lmao i skate but quarantine is mean 😤 also i know my bodys so freaking sore and the i have blisters on my feet cuz of the skates but i miss skating so muchhhh
Imagine Yuri or Victor from yuri on ice skating to black swan IM MAKING MYSELF CRY
My weeb side is taking over me
OH MY GOD YESSS😭🤘🏻
I'm hoping that would be in their new movie TvT
THATS WHAT I THOUGHT OF AS WELL!!
That’s literally the reason why I clicked. I was trying to imagine this 😂😂😂
the title itself is so beautiful.
My best friend of 11 years passed away last year and to be honest, it's still hard to get back on track. We were in dance together since we were about 5 and it became our little safe haven through our hard years, so continuing it when she wasn't here seemed immoral for, "How was I supposed to do the one thing she loved and cherished...without her?" But, I've decided with strength, i can use dance to honor her and hold her close to my heart and continue to use my passion for dance as a way to remember her, so I'm gonna start trying.
Idk, I just wanted to tell this to you guys because we're a family and i wanted this to show that strength can come even during the hardest times because the dawn right before the sun rises is the darkest.
We can overcome anything if we just stay strong and believe that we can.
If you want, we can tell each other little stories of strength in the comments as a way as a way to remember, you never walk alone. 💜💜
first of all, my heart goes out to you. i hope you are doing much better these days but from what i've read, it shows that you are at least, trying to be. although ik how hard it is to lose someone you care so immensely abt, i think you are so brave to channel your love and yearning for your friend into continuing your passion for dance. also, she sounds just as resilient and passionate as you and i'm sure she wouldn't have wanted you to ever stop doing what brought you both together. she'd be so happy and proud knowing you didn't. : ) anyway, thank you so much for sharing !! this channel has become one of my favourite places bc of stories like yours. love you and take care always !! 💜
Damn that's rough buddy. Hope the best for you 💜
@@joonpiter this channel has such a strong hold in my heart and your words mean the world to me. the video was only four minutes but made me feel like I was with her and it gave me strength. Thank you do much for your hard work and kind words and I hope only good things will come your way. :) 💜💜
Thank you for sharing your story. I understand also how heartbreaking it is. This story reminds me of mine. I had a friend who passed away a year ago. It really hurt me when I knew about that. she was my dancing friend. I went to the Kpop classes and she started to talk with me first time. She was the most happiest and cutest girl in the world what I’ve met. Every dance class we always talked and laughed and she was so nice to me. I never thought that she has any mental health issues because she just never cried and never said anything bad and never had anything signs of that. Then after few years I left dance classes since I moved to another country and we still talked with her through snapchat but sometimes I didn’t answer because I didn’t know what to answer. I wasn’t sure are we still that close. And after 4 months my moving I heard from one of her best friends about that she committed a suicide. And on that day I just couldn’t breath. I still can’t breath even writing this. It just hit me so hard because she was just happiest angel. And when I imagined this situation when she did it I just fell into tears. I was so lost. I just cried everything because I just couldn’t believe. And I feel I didn’t believe at first whole year. Because on her anniversary I came to the cemetery back home and wanted to put some candles and flowers for her memory. But I just didn’t know that on her funeral memorial will be her photo. And when I saw her I just started to cry so much. And I couldn’t stop. At that point I just realized that she isn’t anymore with us. And I still feel that I could’ve done something even if we weren’t as close as she was with other her friends. Please support each other. It’s really important to talk. I hope my beautiful friend will be happiest angel in the heaven as she was in the dance classes. I really miss her...
Littlevideographer i really cried reading your comment. i just don’t know what to say, all i can say is that everything is so hard. your comment has motivated me to live one more day. please stay strong!
this makes me think of sunghoon who was a figure skater. he gave up 10 years of that to follow another dream which was to become a idol :(( i’m glad he was able to debut in enhypen. he really deserves the world 💞
Welcome to another episode of "Where quarantine has brought you"
I had skated for 7 years and had stopped skating round two years ago. At that point, I knew that I've fell out of love with skating for a long time. I finally mustered the courage to quit something that I no longer loved. There was no point of forcing myself to keep doing this simply to keep my parents proud. Without passion for what I did, skating eventually felt like a chore... I don't regret that decision though. I am happier now that the burden of skating is off my shoulders.
This video made me think of those long, tiring days at the rink. Even though during that period of my life, everything was pretty depressing, Bts had seriously helped me to get through those tough times. Watching and listening to this video had made me smile with fondness in my eyes for the music that I love and for the art that I used to love.
often times we outgrow hobbies, other times we outgrow unhappiness. you finally chose yourself and you could never go wrong with that. : ) i'm happy for you. thank you for sharing. ♡
Me too I did compatitive swimming for 9 years I began when I was 8 and I enjoyed it at first but I lost passion for it 5 years in but I continued it because I wanted to make my parents proud I told them many times that I don't wanna swim but they would say "oh so what was the use of swimming for so many years if you are gonna guit now " so I continued to swim like a dead body in water they would even fight with me and make me frustrated and angry because they knew that when I am angry I swim faster because I vent out all of my frustrations onto the water because I began to hate it. Swimming the one thing that 8 yr old me would enjoy doing is the same thing that 16 yr old me would hate to do . I never lacked behinde my coach always cheered me up but the moment I lost the passion I just felt like why am I not enjoying it anymore, the smile that I had before every dive into the water had become nothing but a mere frown . I loved it so why do I not enjoy it anymore? I used to question myself everyday and now that I'm 17 l finally quit swimming my coach said to altleast come on the weekends but l had to tell him that I won't swim anymore my parents were disappointed but it is really scary how you can loose passion for the very thing you once looked forward to everyday and I'm happy that BTS made a song about it cause it makes you question how long will it take for you to loose interest in something even if you don't want to .
I literally am the exact same, I skated for 7 years and also quit 2 years ago and although I regret it a bit now, I knew I would end up hating it if I continued longer.
Kate NEKIC i think it’s was on DJ SUGA FM the one he did on April
same with volleyball here, it just became too hard, the trainings everyday after being at school for 8 hours and we always had the competitions for the weekend it all was just too much for the 14 years old me and i sad to my trainer that ill quite in 2 months and im so happy right now
As a competitive swimmer, this past year I started to fall out of it. It suddenly became ‘work’ instead of enjoyment. I had lost touch with why I loved it the most. I had expressed to my coach what I was feeling. I told her how much anxiety and it causes each time I try to do a stroke. It felt like kept swimming into a wall. My coach heard me and said that there were two options: quit, or keep going. I was completely torn, but I chose to quit. I had a date set aside as my last day. That last day would be a dual meet. I told no one besides my coach and my parents what I was doing. My teammates didn’t know what I was going to. So, the day before that last day, our trainer came in and spoke about mentality. How to keep your head up when the outlook was low. And although I don’t remember exactly what she said that day, I took her words to heart. I changed my mentality and I never looked back. I didn’t quit. I kept swimming. The wall that once stopped me, disappeared and I remembered why I loved to swim. It water. The water pulled me in and kept me safe. With my whole mentality flipped around, I became stronger and faster. I achieved countless Personal Records, I Lettered in events, and overcame a time I had trouble overcoming before. From this I finished my last swim season with no regrets and with pride. My outlook on life changed too and I consider myself to be a better person in general. :) This edit was amazing. I loved how I could relate to it. :) thank you. You brought back some good memories :)
Thank you for this, it inspired me too. I missed the futures time by one and a half seconds and I just lost all my motivation, but with covid and not being in the pool at all for the past 2 months made me think more about how much I missed it :)
I hope you're doing well now. You got this, keep persevering. This comment inspired me to work harder every single day and to put my effort into everything I do. Thank you so much for this.💜💜
Sridevi Sudhahar 💜💜
I had a similar experience: I’m also a competitive swimmer and a few years ago I just couldn’t get myself to swim anymore. It was terrible and I felt like trash. Going to this new team really made me lose my love for swimming. I quit for about a year after that, to afraid to feel that again. But towards the spring of 2019 I decided to try again. I feel like I’m slower now but I love the sport again. And I’ve joined water polo as well so I can do something else for one half of the year, while still keeping my body conditioned and healthy.
My fav part 2:37, just him gliding across the ice with open arms and the lyrics like hes inviting us to join him🥺
omg yes !!!! ughhh love that part as well !!
@@joonpiter who's the guy in the video
Vincent Zhou
it’s called a spread eagle in case you wanted to know! they’re very pretty 🥺
It just reminded me of SRK XDXDXD
Reminds me of Park Sunghoon doing figure skating for 10 years the realizing that his true passion was to become an idol now he's a part of the new debuting group ENHYPEN.
imagine park sunghoon dancing to this asdfgjkl
someone made a tiktok of him ice skating with black swan playing in the background
OMG YESSSSSSSSSS
WE NEED THIS
That would be legendary
I would die I think
That’s exactly what I was thinking!
Losing your passion hurts so bad and when you just know that there's no point in dreaming any more, that hurts real bad.
Like you start going through your bucket list and then you start deleting stuff off of that list, it's just like deleting a part of yourself just because you want to be accepted.
But what's the point of dreaming when you know that you'll never achieve your dreams.
Slowly you start listening to what people say about you and slowly to curl up and one day, you just disappear.
There's no 'you' anymore, there's just you and no one bothers to call out your 'name' after that.
When you're forced to let go of your passion, you just let go of yourself too because what's the point of being you when your passion is stripped away from you.
At that point, nothing feels right.
And then, you just feel like you're doing your swan song and after that grand performance, you just disappear.
how true......
I felt this comment
When I was 5 I started doing figure skating took me 2 years to start skating without protection it felt different like.. I've unlocked the next level I could do perfect spins, jumps, and more... I also went to provincial junior skating competitions and won 3rd 2nd or 1st place... I started skating because of my grandma.. she wanted to see me win a medal at the Olympics. She died september 3rd 2018.. but she missed one thing month later my skating instructor told me that she signed me up for the national. I went to the nationals with so many things I was stressed of at the same time I had to study for a test to enter special high school for like really smart people I was suuper stressed. I practiced every day for both of the events and all of my friends started to leave me because i was more 'famous' or 'talented' for them. Those are pretty dark times for me.. BUT HERE I AM GRANDMA I GOT 1ST PLACE AAAAND I MADE MOM AND DAD PROUD FOR JOINING THE HIGH SCHOOL, MADE NEW FRIENDS I ALSO HAVE GOOD GRADES ! ONE DAY YOU WILL SEE ME FROM HEAVEN AND BE PROUD OF ME!!
I love you abuelita
I’m actually sobbing that’s so inspirational
Keep up the good work please! :)
I don’t know you but I’m really proud of you
Your grandma sure will be 100% proud of you unlike me...I got good grades but that was in the past... I feel useless and hopeless and I'm a shy person, I hate talking because usually people like to mimic my voice. Bcuz of that my dream breaks apart...
Lightcore Walker I hope someday you’ll see how special you are and how much you matter. Don’t let the others drag you down, I feel you I have the same problem with my voice but don’t let anyone tells you that you’re not good enough. I believe in you, you CAN achieve your dreams
Ever since this song was first released I have been terrified of the thought of never being passionate about music ever again. Music is something so special in my family, my mom is an entertainer and incredible singer, my brother is in college studying vocal jazz, arranges music all the time, and is in two a cappella groups that he loves, I have always loved singing and have been getting into music production, my little brother is a great singer and incredible drummer, and my dad can’t sing but he is also a great drummer with so much passion for the music he loves. The thought that my favorite song, maybe even this song, could turn on and I could feel nothing anymore is truly scary. You expressed this so beautifully, thank you.
That's very cool that music is special to your family I'm the only one in my family that always seems to gravitate to music. It's so amazing how you can express yourself within music, I just cant get enough of it, I know how you feel it's like the whole world stops but we'll continue to go for our passion and remember those hardworking and accomplishing moments 🥺🥺💕
yo imagine, park sunghoon
I also thought of him uwu
me too
Oof I'd die
Imagine if he covered this!!!! My Armengene heart would explode!!
tmr a veces pienso que están hablando español :'v
anyone else remembered Park Sunghoon?
ok only me
yes, imagine he covers black swan on ice. id cry
@@kimkoya3882 yaaaas we love our ice prince 💜💜
@@cringepillow yesss we do
same
as soon as l saw this, l remembered how happy he was when he went ice skating after a long time
OMGG ME BEING A FIGURE SKATER I KNOW THIS IS GONNA BE GOOD
wiame xx SAME!!!
omg i'm not a figure skater but i swearrrrrr whenever i watch a figure skating performance, i just get chills and start tearing up. it makes me wish i could turn back time and learn !! : )) also, i'm sure when you're actually on the ice, you're usually focused on the routine maybe a lil stressed out ahaha but to me, as a viewer, you guys always look so beautiful and graceful. the way you guys move, i can jus feel the wind on my own face and my heart beating so fast aaaa. in short, i love you guys jhasdjhs you guys inspire me and i hope you never stop doing what you love ♡
joonpiter omgg ur so cuutee skjfks😭 and yea it takes a loottt of focus to perfect the jumps and spins. its really a beautiful sport and i think you can enjoy skating even if you’re not doing it regularly as a hobby 💓
this was so moving!!! :(( you know when you're at the movie theatres and the credits of a really good movie just starts rolling and you're just sad because you're back to reality?? yeah that's what i felt at the end of this video :'(
ahahphsns same moa 💚🥺
aw same :(
When this song first came out and I understood what these lyrics meant I started to cry because I lost my passion for figure skating after doing it more than 15 years of my life, at that point I was 17 or 18 so ice rinks were my second home.
Loosing passion for something you loved to do is heartbreaking. I also couldn't do figure skating anymore because my body is so broken from it
This is my story.
As a competitive figure skater this is my story. I have never told anyone this. I have been skating for almost 8 years. This year was one of the worst years i have ever experienced. I constantly had hip and knee pain I also had pain on my ankle from an old injury. Because of covid many rinks closed. so this year we were supposed to have two big competitions this year. But, in the middle of the year I lost the passion. Suddenly, i just felt like it was becoming a chore. I was so tired all the time and i worked so hard if i didn't land a jump correctly or do a clean program i would get angry at myself. to be honest now that i think about it i was just scared. i didn't want to lose something i loved very dearly. But, deep inside i knew it was time to let go. near the end of the year in november i fractured my ankle and the two big competitions were canceled. that was when i was glad. i don't know why i was happy to be injured maybe because i finally got a break. i just lost my passion of gliding and the beauty of being on the ice. I used to be so free and happy on the ice but know theres so much pressure to win to just land a jump clean. i am still recovering from my injury to this day. but i am not sure if i will go back to skating again.
whoever reads this i hope you dont lose your passion for what you love like I did.
I feel like I had so many opportunities in my life that would've been good to me but instead, i ignored them because i was scared. I lost passion on so many things and now I'm regretting it. It was just one day that I stop, I couldn't anymore. I took those years for granted and I realize that now. I used to love ice skating when I first started because even though I was nervous half of the time it was exciting. It was the same with art and soccer. I played soccer and I suddenly stop, it was something where at the moment I was playing it I never realized how much I loved it. I miss that feeling of adrenaline pumping when i have the ball. I think it was that fear of judgement of other people that stopped me from playing. In my grade 7 and 8 years I never really tried out something new even though my friends tried out for a school play I didn't bother. But I realized something now. In life, you have to learn and in order to learn you have to do things. Things that you haven't been able to do. You experience it and you learn from it. No matter what people are going to judge you, don't let your fear stop you. People are always going to be judgemental so I say fuck them and what they think because you know what, why does their opinion have to matter? Don't give them what they want, do what you want. Your only gonna have regrets in the future.
This song is literally perfect for this concept, ice skating has such a graceful passionate powerful feel just like the song this is amazing !!
Black Swan resonated deeply within me when it first came out.
I've dedicated the past 6 years of my life to horse riding. The beginnings were hard, in fact, I would often end the lesson in tears. But then I got the hang of it and I really started enjoying it. I missed family events, even friends' birthdays, sometimes it felt like I spent more time at the barn than at home. Horses always came first. But as years went by, it became a chore rather than something to look forward to. I spent a period of time questioning everything, regretting the time I'd spent there, the days with my friends I'd missed because I'd been too busy helping out at the barn. At one point, I barely rode anymore and my parents were glad when I went once a month.
But then this year came along, and something changed in me. I realized how much I'd actually missed it and how much it meant to me. How much the horse I'd been riding frequently meant to me, and how I'd probably have quit already if it weren't for her. She'd been there for me since day one, she put up with me when I was barely able to control her in walk and even though she isn't a school horse, she was the best teacher I could've ever asked for.
So I started riding more frequently again, just because I missed her and wanted to see her more frequently. She really does put a smile on my face every time. And sometimes, I feel the same kind of passion I used to feel when I was younger.
I have my regrets, of course. If I hadn't spent so much time there, maybe I wouldn't have burnt out so badly. And many more. But I've made some incredible memories there that I won't ever forget. I know nothing may ever be the same again because some major changes have happened at the barn, but as long as I'm able to ride my horse of a lifetime, it will always feel like home to me.
aw, i’m 3 months late but i’m so happy you found your passion again
I horse ride too! And i can't continue it.....After 2 years of training, I had to move somewhere else. But, once I get the time again, I'll make sure to ride again and make the best of it
please take time to read this 🥺
after quarantine begin, I was devastated about my rink closing because of covid.
I trained in my home, I would put a lot of effort everyday in school, and then I would train giving the best of me, but someday, somehow, everything started going wrong, I lost all my hope and motivation, the passion for the sport that I did was gone, and I felt in depression. I realized skating was my life, I cant live without it, now, I'm here, still alive, because I have that passion that keeps me motivated, is hard, VERY HARD, but I'm gonna make it, I know.
but if I can make it, you to, you can chase your dreams, keep going, you're loved, and precious ♡.
save this comment, someday, I'm going to skate this song, I promise.
i'm counting on it! 💕
Whenever i watch someone skate i just can’t take my eyes off of them.
It’s just so beautiful and magical.
I’ve been watching lots of olympics since i was just a few years old and i really wanted to start figure skating when i was little but my parents couldn’t afford the lessons..
Why does figure skating have to be so damn expensive..
the first time i played this song on spotify (the day it came out) i cried so hard. i had fallen out of a passion i had since i was 10 recently and after learning the song's meaning, it hit too hard for me. BTS really come up with the best and beautiful types of concepts. (also this video was just as beautiful omg)
I GOT GOOSEBUMPS WHILE WATCHING THIS MASTERPIECE.
this literally broke me. I never fell out of love with long jump but rather I was forced to fall out of it. One training session went wrong and suddenly I wasn't allowed to run or jump for a year. I made it to state regionals which was such a big deal and I had to give it all up. that was my first death
this reminded me of Sunghoon from ENHYPEN he ice skated for 10 years and then he realized that he was more passionate about being an idol, his mum didn't accept it but now he proved her wrong and has successfully debuted and won the ROTY, i am sooooo proud of him🥺💞
anyways , CHASE YOUR DREAMS!!!! ITS NEVER TOO LATE!!✨✨
the comments are making me scared- my life is empty like nothing. everybody is talking bout passion and there is me who stay in my bed the whole day-
Don't worry you're not alone 😭✋
I'm tearing up right now ㅜㅜ Everything is so beautiful, from the melodies and lyrics, visuals, aesthetic, concepts of the video to your confessions, shares, lovely sentences and encouragements above. So inspiring, peaceful and yet relaxing~! I am feeling really depressed now. Thank you so much for cheering me up. I can start a brand new start, can I? I hope so. I really appreciate this. LOVE YOU joonpiter
I can only speak personally off my experiences. But for me it’s that moment when I step on the ice and I don’t feel free anymore, I don’t feel the excitement rush through me as much anymore and it scares me. When ever I finish a performance I don’t feel as excited and accomplished as I used to, learning a new jump is like a chore and a spin just doesn’t have the same feel to it. The sport itself is beautiful but I just feel like holding on to it now is only hurting me more... I don’t know when I started listening to this I just started wondering if I should let it go
When I was around 13, I quit skating since I got into it to make my parents happy and I never had the passion for it. I wanted to please them, even though I was terrified of falling and never had interest in the sport. I had broken my wrist on a stupid mistake (hitting the end of my blade on a back crossover lmao) and that was the most free I had been in years- I was happy to not skate for six weeks while I healed. It was a burden to come back to it, honestly. I later quit, until I realised I did love the sport and came back to it a few years later. This may not happen for you, but it wasn't until I took a break from it that I found my passion; for you, it could be skating or something completely different and new! Just know that you don't have to rip it out of your life forever, but sometimes a break can be the absolute best thing. I personally believe that once you don't love something anymore, it's time to let go. It might hurt, but you'll be happier afterwards. Again, it doesn't have to be forever, but the freedom will bring happiness. Do what you believe will make you happy and know that if no one else, I will support your decision
WAIT- figure skating is the first thing i thought of when i heard the orchestral version cause i thought it'd be neat to see someone skate to it.......i'm so glad u thought of this
I’m a figure skater.
When I first heard this song, it felt exactly like how I feel. I love to skate, it’s my life. But the feeling when landing a jump suddenly doesn’t feel special, when something feels off and you can’t pinpoint what it is, all the hours that should be spent with family are spent on the ice, working your tired and heavy body to the point where you don’t even know what you wanted to do in the first place. This is my sport, this is my home. I fell out of love with it, I didn’t want to skate any longer. But then I see the ice again, I hear the cheers, I feel myself becoming whole again, I can’t imagine how my life would be without it. The ice is my everything, and without I am not me.
Same
Walking out into that volleyball court just doesn’t feel special anymore. Spiking a ball over the net and into the opposing team’s side, getting aces. Being team captain and calling the coin isn’t a position you strive for anymore.
It isn’t so much that you fall out of love with the sport, you just enjoy it so much that you have to give it up to have other chances at other things.
I will always love volleyball and will always remember the times that I’ve had. Being a third year now, this is my last year of volleyball for school and remaining sports career. I have been a volleyball player for 9 years and have enjoyed it thoroughly, but over the years I’ve injured my shoulder again and again. This year I didn’t get to finish my season because of a dislocation in my shoulder and shoulder impingement, and slowly I’ve watched my team grow into something amazing. I’m glad I could’ve been your captain for the many years that I was. ❤️
I just - got to a point and stopped feeling motivated to do skating. I’m still doing it, but it’s not fun for me anymore. I take any chance I can to miss it. I haven’t made any progress for the past year. I’m considering quitting. I’ve loved skating for 6 years, and I’ve stopped feeling motivated to do it for about 2 years now. I’m a rather new Army, but I’m very happy that I’ve found BTS.
u know what yoongi said once, it takes courage to pursue something, but it also takes courage to leave something when youve exhausted all means possible
OMG I GOT SO EMOCIONAL, I GOT GOOSEBUMPS I SWEARRRRRR
LONG LIVE TO ART!!!!!!!!!!
the way this reminds me of sunghoon from iland 😭😭 sunghoon, let’s debut!! 🤍
I just want to say I've never had a passion. I've never had much I could lose either, like money or people because I didn't care too much about people because everyone left. I still don't believe that anything will last to death apart from age. I just like things. That's it. Nothing I'd sacrifice everything for... So the weird sense of nostalgia hitting me is weird. But it's for something I never looked at or had. I don't know what it is... But I only know feelings
It's weird but this is good! Well done!
Why do I relate so hard to this 😭
The boy who was skating was performing "slow dancing in the dark" and I loved how you make this I got chills.
imagine park sunghoon with this
ikr..
I'm so much into music and dance, its a passion that I wanna follow till the very end..... I started singing since i was 5 and dancing since I was 3 years old but when I turned 11, I feel out of passion for dance...........but now I'm again passionate about dancing no one takes me seriously..... I was wanted to do something with music....... I love music, very much............all I wanna say is thank you for uploading this, I felt do touched..........
When ur an actual figure skater losing all passion for the sport and don't want to go back even after this pandemic...
But this made a lil more motivated :)
i’ve been so desperate to become a figure skater i’ve given up hope of becoming one and fulfilling my passion
@@tall_stranger6892 same ugh
tae bae yea it’s kinda sad i have no dreams other than to be one and i don’t think i’ll be able to and i’m already 16 now i feel like it’s too late
@@tall_stranger6892 I started when I was 9, when did you?
tae bae i never started thats the thing. i think it’s such a graceful sport and i really want to just go on the ice and express myself because i think it would be really great for my mental health
bts definitely brings color to so many lives, helps people regain their purpose, and ignites their passion once more.
bts made me think introspectively about what it means to live in the moment and cherish what i have while they last.
truly speaking, bts has helped me move forward and made life bearable for me. no artist can supply the same comfort that bts has given me. they're life-changing.
It feels like the time had stopped, you are all alone in this world of darkness, it has no happiness, you could only skate in pain and break down on the ice.
Joonpiter, your videos just keep getting better and better. Thank you so much for making this type of content. Your videos feel like a breath of fresh air during these stressful times. Hope you’re doing well 💜
I always wanted to be a figure Skater when I was younger, and my first time ever being on ice was perfect. I had natural talent I never fell I was fine... But I never got back on the ice again... Now this wants me to get back on the ice.
i fell out of love with skating a while back, this brought all the emotions i felt then back
It honestly hurts, the feeling of losing the passion & motivation for something you once use to love doing so much, my love for dance just doesn’t feel the same anymore, it sucks so much, I don’t even know what to do anymore.
I don’t even know how many times I’ve watched this but I just seem to keep watching it again and again
This is amazing! I remember when I was younger I always wanted to be a figure skater
OMG I GOT ON CZcams AS SOON AS THE PREMIERE STARTED SKDBDODNSO I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE NOTIFICATIONS ON
this singular video fed my wife and kids when i could not
OMG I was just watching yuzuru hanyu's figure skating videos thinking that he should skate to this and then I saw this. Perfect timing hahah :3
It's truly lovely to see people with passions. It's horrible when you realize your still living without one.
(Figure skater) Reading these comments makes me happy because I recently placed 8th in a new level and I skated the best I have ever and in these past few weeks I feel like I have a fire in my belly I don’t know how to describe it like just looking at my skates or leggings makes me want to go and skate and get this new jump, place higher in competitions, perfect those steps,make that 1 hard spin look effortless , I want to make everyone around me and myself so proud. Every time I think about that feeling I get when I land jumps I get giddy and excited.
ugh this literally hits so many different places like just in general
I’ve been doing dance for basically all my life, I started when I was 3, and have been to about 3 different studios, I started off doing ballet, and I’d always dream of being a ballerina, I then started doing tap, commercial and hip hop, I loved it, I remember stretching every night, so I could be the best I could. But recently dancing hasn’t been the same, it’s starting to become a chore, a way for me to exercise and to see my friends. I’ve been skipping classes, just because I don’t want to do it, I don’t enjoy it anymore. I’ve done so many different activities before, and I’ve quit every single one but dance. However, now that I’m 16 and getting older I feel like I’m too old for dancing, and that I’ll never make it big, which makes me want to quit, but I don’t want to throw away 13 years of my life. Now that we have classes online it’s different, I feel like I don’t have to join the class, and that it’s optional. I’m torn between quitting and staying :(
there is courage in giving up on something you love. you know, sometimes it takes a break for you to find your passion again. if you keep doing the same thing every day, you’re bound to get tired of it, however if you take some time off, live freely for a while, walk alongside the butterflies in the park, dance along the riverside, fly in a parachute, and, glide across a frozen lake. when christmas time comes around and you see a frozen lake, go dance by it of your own accord. look at it, and if your feet feel like walking up to there and moving, dancing like a free bird, do it. if you get the urge, even if you feel like your lungs will run out of air, you just gotta keep on breathing. just because you’ve fallen out of love with your passion, doesn’t mean you can’t fall in love again. take a break, don’t think about others’ expectations, what your family will say, what your friends will say, what your mentor will say, just do it. and if you find your passion again, then that’s cool, if you don’t, that’s also cool. it is okay. you’re not abandoning your past, or giving up on your past, you’re rediscovering your past. the only way you’d be abandoning your past is by dancing when you don’t feel anything, unlike your younger self. it’s okay to feel this way. if you lose this passion, you can find another passion which you enjoy a lot even if you’re reluctant to replace dancing, and that’s okay. if you want to stop dancing, that’s okay. if you want to take a break, that’s okay. if you want to fall in love with dancing again, that’s okay. as long as you don’t force yourself, it is okay. like I said, there is courage in giving up on something you love, and after taking a break, either direction you choose, it will all be okay. 💞
This song means a lot to me, art used to be my escape, used to my passion, now I’ve fallen out of love with it, and it scares me because at one point it was all I had to cope
I felt like black swan was made for ice skating u know, it's just rly graceful
I’ve experienced what it feels like to forget what you came for. Music has helped me a lot over the years but once High School came along, I was being turned down all opportunities. I was constantly rejected and being stared down as the “under dog” in the music department. I forgot everything about my love for music until I stopped being shy and started to talk to more people. I began to feel more like home❤️
I am crying. Because I lost my passion. It faded away. And Black Swan always made me really emotional because of this. But this video... this video changed everything. I remembered the emotions, the liberty I felt when I danced. I remembered everything, how much I needed it, how magic it was. And now I feel the passion coming again. I feel it, slowly, devouring me, and as BTS say, I want to shout, to shout so lout the Earth shakes. So thank you. You gave life to something I thought was dead.
I love how everyone is talking about how they lost passions while me I never had one...
아 이거 진심 떡상해야돼 진.짜. 진심으로 ㅠㅠㅠ아니 그냥 목소리랑 분위기만으로도 저절로 이렇게 상상되는 거 처음임..;
I always come back to this audio every now and then when I feel... very off.
This was the one audio where I cried my heart out because it made me come to terms on how I had let go my long time partner ever since I was born: my dancing, specifically ballet.
It was the first memory I remember clearly when I was a child. Not my parents who gave me away to a guardian because they were "busy" nor the guardian who gave me back the moment I could take care of my self as a child not even 10-years old. But me dancing to classical tunes from old cassette tapes that were grandfather's prized possessions that I inherited.
I still cry, to this day whenever I remember happy memories I created while I was in a troupe, bittersweet they may be.
I hope that noone else were forced nor coerced to let go of the things that made life just a little less bleak.
nothing is scarier to me than losing my passion, a pain like that can't be compared to any other
I always read your descriptions and this one got me in the feels. What you wrote is so true and thank you so much for reminding us that its okay to feel left out of love for our passion but then you remember how much you love doing that and you keep going and keep following your dreams.
Thank you for making this kind of content, its always fun to see what you come up with, tysm 💜
Now I'm imagining Sunghoon dancing to this 🥰
this hit really close to home. ive been a varsity swimmer for over 7 years. the last few years have been very hard on my mental health, and it all stemmed from swimming. trainings and morning practices werent the same. i would cry in the pool, and i would have panic attacks while swimming. so i decided to finally let go.
the feeling of competing is something unexplainable. the rush it gives you just leaves you breathless at times. the moment you dive in the water, (not to be corny but) its literally like you forget everything around you and its all just you and the water. i will never forget that feeling. its something im so proud to have experienced
this is my last year as part of the team. i can really say swimming has been a big part of my life. i will never love and hate anything as much as i do with swimming. sometimes i think to myself why dont i just go back. but then again i remember all the pain and toll it took on my mental health. yes, i still swim at times now, just not as seriously as my past trainings, and not competitively. i dont think i will be fully able to let go of this sport of mine. it made me to the person i am today. and im thankful for all the years.
This has happened to me recently. Iv'e been figure skating for 8 years and once covid happened, my love for figure skating went really down. I recently went ice skating too and I got brought back to many memories but I still can't feel the love for it as before. Glad I found this
Hope you find your love for figure skating again
I LOVE THIS BC I LOVE FIGURE SKATINgg
that title did more for me than a therapy session
reading all these stories, honestly fills me with something i couldn’t put into words. all the stories, all the colors and memories and experiences of everyone woven into one, ignites something.
i wish i could tell you all, individually, how much it is to be one with the passions that you connect with. to remind you of all the light and the dreams that once sparked something in you as well - and no matter what it is, that connection will always be part of you. that connection is yours, and it is forever. and i guess i kind of am, right now. but i’m just a stranger on the internet, aren’t i?
either way, take this as a sign. a sign to keep going. to believe in yourself. because even if you don’t, i will, the rest of us will.
enjoy your life with what you truly love. it’s alright to take a break. but it isn’t an excuse to stop feeling alive altogether. i promise you, it’ll be worth it.
I remember standing there, victorious, while everyone clapped and my coach patted me on the back. That proud look on his face was something that I can’t never forget in my life, no matter how hard I try to, right now.
I won district level badminton and also achieved position in the state level.
I remember joining badminton classes just for exercise. I hated it, but my parents pushed me. They forced me, and I used to hate them for it. Waking up at 4 in the mornings for practice while I was still very young, was the worst. Yet, I had no choice.
But then years passed by, I remember becoming the best player among all of the others in my team.
I remember all of them being proud of me.
And... I fell in love.
My first love, my racquet and shuttle.
Now I’m 16.
Due to
Academics and school, pressure to perform well and rising competition in examinations, my parents started forcing me to give up badminton.
But I still played. I tried to juggle between studies and playing....
But...
That was the greatest mistake.
I love to study too, and I cannot imagine giving up my studies...
But badminton was my love, my life...
That was when I starting loosing... I couldn’t have continued with juggling two most important things in my life.
I couldn’t pay attention to either one.
I couldn’t practice properly,neither could I study properly.
I stating worsening in badminton. I remember loosing... I remember that disappointment on my coach’s face.... I remember defeat... I remember the next day, when I lost the competition.
It was like I was falling out of love with the only thing that kept me alive..
I remember the last match I played... I lost.
Now I avoid looking at my racquet with which I won so many games.
It’s probably ruined and old now, laying at some corner of our house.
And it pains me... whenever I think about it.
I lost myself that day I stopped playing.
This really hits different when you’ve always tried finding your passion but your parents disapprove of all of them
Yea... I started ballet when I was really young and it was all I ever wanted to do. It was my dream. I started at about age 3 and unfortunately stopped when I turned 11. And it is my biggest regret to this day. The day I quit I was very tired and we had rehearsals after school. These rehearsals would consist of preparing for a performance we would do for a show and our exam practice stuff in order to move up a grade in our company. I was running late as my school was about an hour and a half away from the studio. I was late because I had a detention at school though. But when I went to the dance lesson my teacher chewed me out in front of the class and I couldn't perform my best during the lesson because I suddenly felt this weight on my and I was shaking a lot so my moves were not precise and weren't properly executed. My mum was waiting outside of the studio room as well and often she would watch me dance just for fun and would smile at me a lot so that was always fun. But that day I saw her looking at me smiling and I tried so hard not to cry because in my mind I knew I was gonna do something stupid and I was only going to make things more difficult for my mum that day. That day was pay up day too (a day where parents or the students would give the fees that went towards paying for lessons. We didn't ay for each lesson bit more like give the money once a month to pay for that month. My mum at the end of my lesson wanted to pay extra for the next month ahead and I stopped her and told her not too because I didn't want to continue and she looked so confused and disappointed. When I got home that day I shoved my ballet uniform into a suitcase and put it in some corner to leave that dream and went to bed crying. It hurt a lot because I didn't know why I just quit. I was just so tired and frustrated and felt embarassed and anxious that I acted on impulse and put an end to my own dreams. Now I'm 16 so it's much more difficult to get into a ballet company and my mum doesn't seem to take me seriously whenever I mention that I'd like to join Again cause it's the only thing I want to do. I don't want to do anything but go back to dance and focus on that career but it's really late and my parents think it's just another hobby I'll give up on again
I don't think it's too late. If your parents won't let you, you can try regaining/improving your skills by yourself, even if it isn't as good as being taught by a professional. Even if it seems impossible, I know that you'll find a way if you really want to get back to ballet.
I love this, although it says 'you are falling out of love with your passion', it somehow also is falling in love with passion again.
Being on the ice and slowly getting frustrated with every mistake you made, everything feeling like a chore rather than an activity. Just being on the ice feels like a burden and it doesn't feel like the same ice you preformed on when you first started. Yet you start again, with a routine you did once did. As you did it you remember when you had preformed and emotions you felt. The emotions that made you fall in love with skating in the first place. The speed on the ice, the satisfaction when you landed, and the heat you felt even though the room was cold. Your movements corresponding with the music, no longer did you feel like preforming rather you felt like you were dancing by yourself, all those emotions coming back. Soon the routine ends and you come back from your memories. you look around and see that you had successfully preformed the routine. The music comes to an end and your emotion high is calming down. Slowly you begin to do more warm ups again, however you feel a little bit lighter now.
This was kinda how I was imagining the video, although I've never figure skated so I'm not sure how people feel when they do cool stuff on the ice.
OOF YESSSSS I LOVE FIGURE SKATING AND BTS AND YOU MADE THIS AHHHH I LOVE YOU SO MUCH 😭❤❤
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(Also is anyone here a fan of Yuzuru Hanyu? ✊😔)
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if you put it on loop it feels like you're stuck in an endless period of having to perfect it, falling, getting flashbacks(?maybeee???), then getting up to try again and again.
Let me tell my story I love.
I dance since I was 10 and I always loved to dance but i needed to quit dancing for about 2 years because of knee pain. I remember that kpop remained my of my old passion.
And black swan always hit different
When i think about it
Everyone talks about their passion, while I sit here realising that I don’t have a passion and I can’t find one and I don’t think I ever will. I’m nothing anymore.
hello, I was wondering if you could make a video with the song "Who" by Lauv featuring BTS, the whole vibe of the song gives me the vibe of a couple questioning their relationship (mainly the boyfriend). The girlfriend knows she has changed & she poors out her emotions by dancing. She's in the dance studio by herself & dances her emotions out to a point where she stressed about everything she misses a step & hurts her self. She sits on the floor of the dance studio & cry's her emotions out instead.
This is vibes of the song gives me. I would love to see a video like this but it's totally okay if you don't want to do this song & video! ☺️
me imagining i was sunghoon from iland
the way i immediately thought of him too :(
this video just gave a new meaning to black swan.
this is so scarily accurate for me. I used to be in love with figure skating, you’d hardly ever see me off ice. now, I haven’t gone in months, my skating gear collecting nothing but dust.