what happened... where I've been and how I'm healing
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- čas přidán 11. 08. 2021
- i'm very nervous to share this but my hope in doing so is that it helps even just one person in their grief and healing process. I appreciate your love and support more than you will ever know. See you all next Thursday
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All the mommies who didn’t make it through childbirth are in heaven taking care of all the babies who didn’t make it through their delivery❤️
I love this thought 💕
This is a wonderful view of such tragic situations. Thank you for this comment.
What a beautiful thought.
I love this!
Amen 🙏🏻
Your baby girl didn’t know her life was cut short, she only knew warmth and love. We loved you then, now, and always. Heal you and your family. If you’re worried about putting out content frame it this way, you can’t give your all to videos if you’re not all there. You come first.
I love the realization that this little girl did not know how short her life (on earth) was, but only that she was/is loved and cherished. I believe she has eternal life now. ❤️
I’m rewatching this and wanted to say I lost a baby and it’s been 18 hrs and I’ve learned that you do and can heal. You have to learn to live in a new normal.
Rach, I'm so sorry. I lost a son at 23 weeks, and I'll never forget holding his tiny little body. It's a pain no one should ever have to feel. On top of the pain of losing a child, you have people who try to minimize your feelings and big emotions. Time is the ultimate healer. 💙💙💙 💕💕💕
My mom passed away on New Year’s Day of 2020 and one of the greatest gifts I’ve held in my heart was her finally getting to hold the baby she lost before my brothers and me. As much as I her, knowing that she is eternally surrounded by love is everything.
I just lost my son at 24 weeks last Friday. I hope I’ll be ok. I don’t feel like I’m going to make it
@@prettyinpink9893 I am so very sorry. It's a pain unlike any other in the world. I'm not going to tell you things happen for a reason bc I HATED all the well meaning people that said that to me. Time is truly the only thing that will help. My son would have just turned 15, and I still feel that pain every year. I'm here to talk if that helps. It helped me to share with other women that had gone through the same thing. What happened to us wasn't a miscarriage, and I had a lot of resentment towards the people that tried to minimize it to that by telling me a lot of women have miscarriages. I, as I'm sure you did, had to deliver my son and hold him while he tried to take his one and only breath. And I am NOT saying miscarriages are minute either bc I've had an early term miscarriage as well, and that tore me up inside, too. I will tell you that I have had 2 perfectly healthy normal pregnancies since then. My sons are 5 and 6. It took me a long time to get to the point where I was emotionally ready to try again. You feel all those feelings, cry, scream, whatever you feel at the moment allow yourself to feel it. The pain and heartache never truly go away, but you will be able to deal with it easier as time passes. And like I said, I'm here to chat if you need to. 🌈 💙 💙
I lost my first daughter at 23 weeks and it was so hard I wish I would have held her and looked at her but I was so hurt in that moment and didn’t know what to do I just didn’t even want to see her biggest regret in my life
Wow....I know i shouldn't be on here this is making me cry and my heart goes out to you and everyone on this thread. I had a daughter at 21 weeks on literal new years eve. I thought I didn't want to see her but im glad the nurses held onto her until I felt better, also never seen my husband cry like that ever and I thought he wasn't connected. My sister had a still birth 2yrs ago and I don't want anyone to go thru what we went thru. I can't imagine any of it and I went thru it. Hoping this time a rainbow 🌈 for all of us in Jesus name!
I recently went through a major loss, different than you. My husband passed away suddenly due to a stroke, I was 6 weeks pregnant with our first child at the time. Thankfully my pregnancy is ok and I’m currently 21 weeks pregnant with a baby boy. My grief counsellor said something that resonated with me “I am only an expert at my own loss, no one else will truly understand my loss”. So don’t let anyone tell you how you “should” grieve or how you “should” move on. Do what feels right for you and your family. Im so sorry you are having to go through this trauma.
I'm so sorry for your loss
I’m so sorry for your loss. 🙏💖
This baby is so lucky to hv you as a mom❤ good luck mama
Im so sorry for your loss 🙏
I am so sorry for your loss. Best wishes for when your son arrives
My heart breaks. Especially when you said “last miscarriage video” the fact that you are brave enough to talk about it and help people is inspiring. Thoughts and prayers are with you lady!
Almost identical situation here-I was due in December and I also had a missed miscarriage. I was pregnant with twins and babies had stopped growing at 9w3d. It was such a horrifying experience, both physically and emotionally. I am also still struggling. Sending warm thoughts your way. You are not alone.
Hey hun, you’re not alone either. I just went through it too 😢 The most traumatic thing I’ve ever experienced. I’m sending you lots and lots of love!
My baby was due in December too! I'm sorry for what u went through. March is now a month I dont feel comfortable TTCing in ever again.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I was wondering if you had any covid tests or injections before the miscarriage. 💧♥️
I went through the second part of your story... Therapy was so helpful, especially to manage each month. You are so brave and so strong. Thank you for sharing your story. 💕
I always get upset when creators feel the need to thank their viewers for giving them peace when they are inactive. There's nothing you owe us. There's nothing you have to say regarding your absence, as long as you don't want to. You are allowed to not be there. You're allowed to not put out content. We, as viewers, are not entitled to your life.
I can't imagine the trauma of all of this. It's heartbreaking and the fact you were able to sit down and film your story is amazing.
There's nothing that can be said or done to make it any better, just know you are heard.
I think it's because some creators have created a community. Some people likely checked in on her when she took the break. I don't think it's meant necessarily negatively or pressure
@@Artliker1234 I understand, I just can't imagine having that much investment without respect. It's awesome to check in, but sometimes space is needed. You know. It's a horrible situation, and I hope her community support helped
I know what you mean, I feel the same way about recession lines at a wake 😞 Having to thank all those people when you feel so heartbroken just doesn’t seem right
All of this. I totally agree. God bless her. 🙏🏻😢💗
Thank you for saying that, I feel the same, CZcams creators do not owe us their lives!
She is and was your baby. A precious life. We grieve with you.
You’re such an awesome human being! Such a courageous soul! I’m so sorry for your loss and so impressed you took the time and energy to share and help others going through the same thing! Sending you strength and energy to you and your little family 🥰
I started watching this last week and had to stop myself halfway through because I was so overwhelmed with the fear of losing my baby. I was 11 weeks when I watched it. At my 12 week appointment I found out my baby stopped growing at 8.5 weeks. I'd already miscarried when I watched it and I think I subconsciously knew already. Anyway, I just wanted to say I'm sorry for your loss and I understand what you're going through as I'm going through it right now. There's nothing worse then trying for a baby and wanting them and not getting to hold them. I've had you in my thoughts a lot, I hope you're continue to cope in healthy ways. ❤
I went through a miscarriage, and was left to deal with it on my own. My employer at that time, wouldn't even give me time off, and so I had to go to work the next day. I never had the chance to mourn the loss. I felt so lost and alone, because everyone's life continued on, while mine fell apart. So I want to thank you for this video, and sharing your story with us. I cried with you for the loss of my little one. Lots of love
I’m so sorry you had to go through that. Time off should be mandatory when you’re dealing with trauma like that.
I’m going through exactly the same thing right now. Thank you for sharing. Wishing you so much healing.
We need better laws for women. Employers shouldn't be allowed to do what they did to you. I'm so sorry.
I’m so saddened and angered reading this. I’m so sorry for your loss and mistreatment
Thank you everyone. I feel miscarriage just gets swept under the rug and is a taboo subject. I'm glad Rachel decided to share her story on CZcams. Perhaps it'll enlighten others about the trauma of having a miscarriage.
I’m currently going through my first miscarriage at almost 9 weeks. No one I’m close with really understands and I’ve felt so lonely. My son is 4 so I was already sad at the thought of them not being close in age. I watched your first video and was heartbroken for you. Now I have a whole other level of empathy for you. You are so kind and brave to share again. Thank you for making me feel heard. We love all the parts about you, happy and sad, and I hope you find peace in some way ❤️
It’s sounds cliche, but it does get better. It’s never going to be perfect and you will always think about it. But it gets easier to think about. It’s been 12 years since I miscarried twins, but this year I cried on the day I lost them. But I was able to move on after I cried. I wish you well and hope you heal. Just know it’s ok to cry about the loss and grieve. Sending love and prayers.
i’m so sorry for your loss. sending you love ❤️
You are never alone even if it’s not with people close to you just know there’s always someone out there who cares for you even if it’s a stranger. So sorry for your loss👼 your baby will always be watching over you
I'm sending you love and caring. You aren't alone. It's real. And it's ok to grieve. ❤️❤️
I'm so sorry for your loss. It can feel so isolating especially if those around you don't understand.
Thank you for sharing your story. You’re so brave and so strong. I’m so sorry you’ve been going through this.
Thank you for being strong enough to share your story 💕 I’m so sorry this happened to you. Stay strong and I’ll keep you and your family in my prayers
You are a whole person, Rachel. We love the sunny, bright Rachel that we usually see in your videos, but we love this Rachel too. Thanks for sharing your whole self with us
I often watch your content as a safe space, where I can look at this happy woman with a healthy relationship, great husband and kids and a beautiful house. It's a comforting dream but this video reminds me that real life happens when the camera is off. Thank you so much for sharing, take your time
Thank you for sharing Rachel. The healing process is so hard and it’s comforting to know others are going through it as well. The timeline for mine this year was almost exactly the same.
Oh Rachel, I’m so sorry. I completely relate to feeling uncomfortable feeling intense emotion and grief, been going through some hard times and this is a great reminder of how important it is to let my body feel that emotion. My prayers are with you and your family.
I just want to hug you through the screen. Can’t imagine what pain you and Chris have gone through. Love to you both. 💗
Miscarriage is such a tragic, indescribable experience. My heart truly aches for you, having been through it myself at 10 weeks. I am keeping you and your family in my prayers. ❤️
I also had a mc at 10 weeks end of May. Currently 9 weeks pregnant again so early after and I’ve been a nervous wreck. Ugh!
@@misSimplicityXx Wishing you all the best for a healthy pregnancy. I realize that it is incredibly hard not to worry but if you can find it in yourself to be positive it will help you both stay strong mentally and physically.
Thank you so much for sharing your story with us, Rachel. I've watched you for years and this isn't something I've ever had to experience, but I can only imagine the pain you are going through. I'm so sorry you have gone through this and I wish there was something we all could do to help you as you and your family heal.
I'm so sorry for your loss. It's helpful for me to remember "grief is love with nowhere to go". Your grief is all the love you have for your girl over flowing.. sending you and Chris all the love.
Your comment is so true. I gave the love I had for my stillborn baby to hundreds of women by reaching out after their own pregnancy loss.
That phrase speaks to me and I hope I never forget it.
This is one of the most difficult things we can go through as women. It isn’t talked about enough and you feel so alone going through the process. Sending hugs your way!
To everyone in the comments (and Rachel), who have been through this, I am unbelievably sorry. You are truly so strong. Your experience is valid and we see and love you❤️
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My heart is with you, Rachel. Sending you a great amount of healing vibes. So sorry for your loss.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine going through what you have gone through. Praying for you and your family. Thank you for sharing your experience with us and trusting us with this
I’m so sorry for your loss. My daughter Chloe was stillborn at 6 months gestation. It’s been 23 years now. I still think of her every day. 💔
I’m so so sorry. How you treasure her and her short life shows what an amazing mother you are❤️
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I'm so sorry you went through this Michelle 💕 Chloe is a beautiful name 🙏❤
😔 I’m so sorry for your loss… my little sister had a miscarriage pretty far into her pregnancy, and her daughter’s name was Chloe too ❤️
My SIL lost our niece at 5 months due to a heart defect. Josie would have been 20 in November.
I just stopped and prayed with my 13 month old daughter over you and your family. May you seek God in all this. Remember He can handle you screaming, crying, and being mad at Him for allowing this. May God be with you. And what a blessing He gave you to hold your beautiful angel.
I just wanted to say thank you for making this video! Having been through a very similar experience, I know how difficult and heartbreaking it must have been. I suffered a MC in July 19 and I was hospitalised due to the amount of blood I was losing. It was probably the hardest thing I’ve ever had to go through. 2 years on and my body has never fully returned to normal, I was diagnosed with PCOS last year and it’s made conceiving again difficult. I hope you and Chris are doing ok and you both continue to heal ❤️ sending you both lots of love
Sending so much love from the other side of the ocean! I’ve been following you for 7 years now and can only imagine how hard these last months must have been! I am wishing all the best for you and your family and hopefully new joys and exciting news are lying ahead!
my heart truly broke when you talked about holding your baby.. I only have one daughter and I cant even imagine going through that experience and loss. I truly wish you and your family so much love and healing.
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I lost my daughter last month… I had went into labor and everything was absolutely fine until two pushes before she was out. Her heartbeat was lost. She had aspirated on meconium. I pushed her out and for 28 minutes they fought to get her heartbeat back and succeeded. Meanwhile I’m bleeding out and nearly died. She was in the NICU for 8 days before it was determined that she wouldn’t recover. Saying goodbye to her has been the hardest thing in my entire life and the grief is unreal. I know exactly what you mean by one day is tough and the other is fine. It makes me scared to try again, she was my only child.
I’m so sorry
thinking of you and your family! Sending hugs
I’m sorry for your loss 🤍🤍
Thank you so much for sharing your story, Rachel. You are such a strong and inspiring soul. I’ve followed you for years, and you have always been a solid constant in my life. I pray that you can find peace in this heartbreaking time. We are all here for you and will always love and support you and Chris! Please take all the time you need to heal, and when you’re ready, we’ll be here 💕
I’m so sorry to hear this, I appreciate you sharing and being so open.
I've never commented on a CZcams video before, but I wanted to say thank you for this. All of the moms who have even an inkling of what you have just been through are standing with you and crying with you. You have kept me company through a military move away from family and two rounds of post partum mood disorder and I am so grateful for the brightness I feel when I see you post a new video. We are here because you are real with us. Much love to you and Chris on your journey.
I feel the need to clarify that my "like" on this video is purely to help your channel stats. My condolences to you and your husband, may you find healing and peace in your own time.
The way I can relate to this made me feel better and that I'm not alone. It also made me realize that it is okay to grieve, so thank you for sharing this with us 🤍
Thank you so much for sharing your story Rachel. It’s an incredibly important topic that not enough women talk about, so many of those who experience similar occurrences feel alone. Thoughts and prayers and vibes encouraging strength passed onto you and your family.
Memory Eternal. Baby girl is where there is no more pain, sorrow, or suffering. ♥️
Recently, I came to terms with the fact that I will never have another child. My son is 15. I’ve suffered from 7 unexplained miscarriages. My last I lost twins at 13 weeks. Having gone through this, I will say the only thing anyone should say- I am so sorry. You are not alone and everything you feel is valid.
One thing I have found is that fathers don’t get enough support when a couple suffers a miscarriage. There are some really great books for men to help them to support you but also process their own feelings.
Wow, I'm so sorry you've been through that. I wish I knew you because I don't want to come off as offensive in anyway, but a lot of times miscarriages, especially multiple ones, come from generational curses. Not sure if you believe in that but it's usually demonic. That wasn't the portion the Father had for you at all but the enemy looks for doors to come in to kill, still and destroy. My husband and I cast out demons, and a lot of times they hold on to generational curses and wreak havoc in people's lives.
in n.z after ur third in a row miscarriage they take u for specialised tests to c what the root of the problem is.
I’m sorry for your loss also. I just want to say my mom miscarried 8 times before having me. I guess you could say I was a miracle baby for my parents. My sister and I have a 6 year difference between us. While isn’t isn’t the biggest we aren’t close. Bit of a shame.
Thank you for sharing such a personal experience 💖 sending prayers to you and your family!
I’m so sorry for your loss! Thanks for sharing your story and healing journey, I wish you all the best ❤️
take your time healing, there is no "correct" time frame we will be here whenever you get back
Oh Rachel. I'm soo sorry that you've gone through this twice and had to make this video twice.💙❤ We love you!
From one angel Mama to another, all the thoughts in the world!
I'm so sorry! Praying for you! Glad you're taking time to heal!
Sending you love and strength. I’m so sorry you had to go through this. I cannot imagine the pain and fear you’ve experienced, and I hope you are healing and are taking care of yourself 💕
We lost our little boy at 20 weeks and have never really recovered, 12 years later. I kept all my emotions to myself and found it very difficult to talk to my friends and family about it for fear of upsetting them, with hindsight I should have been brave enough to show my emotions as I feel this would have helped with the healing. My heart goes out to you and Chris, you are a beautiful soul with a beautiful heart and I admire your bravery in speaking up about your experiences in losing a baby, I feel if I had listened to your words when it happened to me, it would have given me the courage to speak up, God bless you and your beautiful family and I pray for happiness in the future xx
It is so important to increase awareness of these topics, but it’s so hard and awful that people have to go through these challenges and heartbreaks at all. I am so proud of you for putting your mental and physical health first. It’s extraordinarily difficult and doing so can feel worse before it feels better. Thank you for speaking on this heartbreaking topic, and I am so sorry you’ve gone through it twice. I’m sending all my love and positive feelings your way 💜
Sending you much love and prayers for healing, both physically and emotionally! I’m so very sorry!
You are such a beautiful person and I feel like that has drawn a really amazing group of viewers to you 🥰 all the love and well wishes are a testament to your character. Thank you for sharing and I hope you and your family all the best.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my son back in March and I sometimes feel like I haven’t fully grieved. I had him at 23 weeks and I got to watch him grow for 2 months before he passed. I love and miss him so much.
Sorry for your loss. I’ll keep you in my prayers.
I’m so sorry to hear you went through this. 😢 I absolutely could not imagine how traumatic that must have even .. praying for you during this time! 🤍
Love you so much! I’m keeping you all in prayer and I’m so glad you are in a place where you could share.
@Miles Doyle well said 👏
We love you ❤️
New follower here. So heartbreaking to hear what you have been walking through, the initial part sounds terrifying and dealing with grief along with that must have been so, so hard. It’s brilliant that you have sought professional help, I’m so glad you took the time to focus fully on working through it all, and it’s beautiful that you are using both of your experiences to encourage other women that they can get through it too, AND teaching your littles what to do with big emotions. Much love ❤️
Thank you for sharing this with us Rachel. That is so intimate and you are generous sharing that, God bless you and I hope you heal soon 🙏
Thank you for sharing. I had a stillborn baby girl three years ago and EVERYONE treats these topics like taboo. No one wants to talk about and it’s heartbreaking. But thank you for being brave and sharing your experience- I believe that sharing these experiences is a way of celebrating that there IS another part of your family. ❤️❤️
Bless you. I’m sorry sorry that you had to go through that♥️
So very sorry for your loss
I'm so sorry. My best friend had a full-term stillborn. The umbilical cord wrapped around the baby's neck during her labor. When she got to the hospital to give birth she was told there was no heartbeat. They made her give birth naturally. It was her first baby and she was in labor for over 17 hours, knowing he was not alive. I thought it was torture what they did to her. Later the doctor said that had he known how big the baby was he would have done a c section...it was such a nightmare. It was a long time ago but she still grieves and I still grieve for her.
I’m so sorry 😢 sending you lots of love ❤️❤️❤️
Throughout my years of following you, I've looked up to you like an older sister, or another aunt. Women are so strong, and you sharing your grief and healing journeys is a testament to that. Your baby girl and Michael are surely in Heaven, watching over their beautiful family. Sending lots of love and prayers, and gratitude for opening up like you do ❤️
I'm so sorry for your loss and your pain. We're all here for you. Thank you for this message on being gentle with ourselves and learning to take time. I definitely struggle with this and am learning how to navigate grief too.
My heart aches for you. You are such a strong and resilient woman. Thank you for talking about this. Take the time you need to heal. Sending so much love your way. ❤️
Rachel, this is the most important video you’ve made. This will help so many women heal. This is such a hard topic because most women grieve in silence but you have given this the attention it deserves. I’m sorry to you, Chris and your family for your loss. I hope you heal physically and emotionally.
My first pregnancy ended exactly like this, went in for an ultrasound and there was no more heartbeat. It’s the worst feeling in the world when you’re so blindsided. I’m so sorry this happened to you too I wouldn’t wish this on anyone 💕
I’m so sorry for your loss, beautiful. I’m proud of you for sharing this even though it’s difficult. We love you and we are here whenever you’re ready to come back. You’re amazing and such a wonderful person. Sending love, peace, and healing to your family.❤️
My love and prayers are with you.
And what a raw, informative, encouraging, & supportive video to show the importance of grieving and feelings and how to feel them
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I’ve had 2 miscarriages. It’s such a hard thing to go through. I waited to try and miscarry naturally but wound up having to have surgery both times. I’m so sorry you had to go through that. Much love and support to you ❤️
I waited too after having 2 missed miscarriages and it never happened so they gave me these pills to stick up my vajay and that moved it along within 24 hrs
I’ve had 1 miscarriage and thankfully it happened naturally. I had no idea these type of complications could happen. At the time, I was also oblivious of how long it took to miscarry. I thought “either you’re pregnant or you miscarry” it felt so awful being in that grey-area stage for 2 weeks waiting for my body to let go.
I’m currently going though a miscarriage and your story has given me a sense of comfort knowing other women have been where I am. I am so sorry you are going through this. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing this.
Sending so much love to you. ❤️
I’m so sorry Alice. My heart is with you. Just know that you will get through. It will never be easy or normal, but you are strong and will get through.
Unfortunately this happens way way too often and is not being spoken up enough.
I also went through a long miscarriage and the only thing my doctor said we could do was waiting to be over.
I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I hope you feel better and recover soon.
❤️❤️ so sorry.
I am so sorry for your loss.
Thank you so much for sharing this, as hard as it must have been to film. I'm so sorry for your loss. I have been blessed with 2 children and haven't experienced a miscarriage personally, however I know many women and friends that this has happened to. I completely broke down when you described the gift of being able to hold your baby girl. It breaks my heart for anyone to go through this. It is very true, this happens far more often than is talked about. I really appreciate you posting this video to help others!
You are so strong. Thank you for sharing your experience. Your story is going to help so many with the struggle. My heart is with you and your family
I had a friend who miscarried a few years ago and she still struggles with it but refuses to go to therapy. It’s hard watching someone hurt like that and not know how to help them. And knowing that they won’t help themselves. I’m glad you figured it out and are doing the work. And I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s astounding how common miscarriages actually are but it feels like nobody talks about it or like it’s not that big of a deal. But it really is trauma, physically and mentally.
I am heartbroken that you and Chris have had to go through this again. Thank you for using your platform to help the rest of us learn more about miscarriages. They are more common than we are lead to believe.
Thank you for being so open and brave with sharing your experience ❤
You’re right! When I had my miscarriage I thought “what did I do wrong” “what’s wrong with my body?” Because you never hear about miscarriages and how common they are and there’s nothing that we did wrong and our bodies didn’t fail us!
@@heatherlynn1016 so true...until u have one and then everyone tells u that they have had one too.
I am so sorry that you had to go through this. Thank you for sharing this!
Your words hurt so much as I can totally relate to your pain and I am still healing after more than a year. You are a strong woman for talking about it and I send you so much love and strength. ❤️
We missed you and my gut told me you were going through it. I’m praying for you and your family if you are ok with that.
Oh god rachel im so sorry, i was here the other time it happened and it just completely breaks my heart to see you like this again. You are a beautiful person and an amazing mom, and you are SO strong. My mom went through something like this before having me, and as far as i know she completely shut that whole experience down, so the fact that you actually held baby and are talking about it now speaks of your incredible strength. Im sending you so so much love♥️
Prayers and love to you and your family. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story 💕
♥️ thank you for sharing your experience. Keeping you and your family in thy thoughts !
This was heart wrenching and I can’t imagine how scary this was to go through. Please take all the time you need. I am so sorry you went through this.
@@youssefhachicha49 miscarriage
@@youssefhachicha49 dude wtf? People don't choose to have a miscarriage. Maybe check a dictionary and delete your stupid comment.
@@youssefhachicha49 dude no need to harsh and disrespectful grow up
@@youssefhachicha49 no, it doesn't. But I can guarantee you already knew that and you're just trolling. One day maybe you'll grow up 🤷🏻♀️
@@youssefhachicha49 I’m going to assume you’re a child. A miscarriage is something that the body does on its own, there is no choice in a miscarriage. You’re talking about an ab0rti0n
I just want to say I’m so sorry to hear of your loss of your daughter. The fact that you are brave enough to share such a personal story and struggle…how you got through the pain both physically and mentally gives is a wonderful message of hope for all of us who watch your channel. May God bless you and your family and be with you through this time.
Very well said ma’am god bless you all
Thank you for sharing your story and thank you for listening to your body. It’s so easy for our brains to believe that they are in charge. I can’t even begin to imagine what you’re feeling, but just know that we love you and will be here to support you always. Sending hugs and hope for healing for your whole family. ❤️
Rachel, I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your experience, it’s something that so many of us go through but not many talk about, I appreciate the strength it must have taken to make this video and I KNOW it helped others who have been in the same awful boat. 💗
I'm so sorry Rachel. You are so strong and resilient in sharing your story. I pray the healing process held you and is still nurturing your heart and soul in all the ways you need ♥️
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Oh wow I was so sad I missed the last one of you and you
Beautifully spoken. ❤️
I am so sorry for your loss!
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My heart aches for you. I’ve had a full term still born and a miscarriage. The grieving is some of the most intense things I’ve ever been through. It’s been 2 years since my daughter passed and I’m still grieving. Sending you so much love right now 💜
So sorry for your loss, full term still born breaks my heart for mothers/parents 😔
My heart aches for YOU too - I cannot imagine how difficult it would be to suffer such a loss, yet still having to “live life” and keep going. I imagine feeling guilty for feeling any sort of happiness and for the split second your mind is not dwelling, almost like it’s somehow a betrayal to their memories. I feel like they are looking down from Heaven and saying, “It’s ok mama - don’t be sad, it’s not your fault - we chose you and will love you forever.” 💕
I’m so sorry for your loss! I had my daughter at 34 weeks 5 days. She passed away the day after she was born. This has destroyed me.
@@79Kallie my heart goes out to you, such a tragic loss 💔 wishing you so much love, support & healing
@@79Kallie I’m so sorry 😢 💔
You are so incredibly inspirational ... I can't imagine what it took to do this video. I'm so so grateful you chose to share your story. Saying some prayers for you and your family as you navigate through this. My heart breaks for y'all.
I’m so sorry for your loss. You are so strong for telling us! Will keep you and your family in my prayers!
This is truly heartbreaking.. :( was crying with you.. But so glad you're on the road of recovery both physically and mentally. This is definitely a very traumatic experience and good for you, for taking the time to grieve and heal (also very scary for Chris, I'm sure! I work in healthcare and know too well how things happen REALLY quick when someone goes down like that!.. and super scary for the family member witnessing all that.. So I hope Chris is doing well as well).
The strength you have for posting this is amazing. From a therapist, you'd make a really good therapist. Youre so open with your thought processes and feelings and how you're coping. I am so sorry youre going through this again but i hope you know how amazingly strong you are. Take all the time you need, any breaks, you are the most important.
That is incredibly intense. I’m so sorry you had to deal with such a scary medical situation on top of your grief. I think taking a break was the absolute right call. ❤️
Absolutely admire you for sharing this with everyone and my thoughts and prayers are with you, Chris, and your family.
I'm so sorry Rachel. I recently lost 2 people who were really close to my heart and honestly, I shut everyone out. I haven't opened up in front of anyone, I just couldn't, and I have been feeling lonely. I cried with you throughout the video and now I realise how much I needed this. Sending you all the love Rachel. The RachhLoves fam laughs and cries together ❤️
This was such a brave and beautiful video, and I'm so impressed and proud of the responsible way you faced your pain and grief to share it with us.
Praying for you in your loss. Thank you for sharing and empowering other women with the understanding they aren't alone.
Having experienced my own traumatic miscarriage that felt like I was dying (ectopic that burst), I'm happy to hear that you're putting yourself first and valuing your grief because you have every right to that and you need that. All my love, Rachel. I'm sending you the warmest hugs ❤
I’m so so sorry to hear this. It really never gets easier. I’ve had three and thankfully I was able to stay home but it’s so hard physically and emotionally. Your story will help someone one day.
So so sorry Rachel! Praying for comfort and peace over your heart! 💛 You are incredibly strong and so inspiring! Thank you for sharing! 💛✨
Sending you so much love Rachel! Be strong and take for yourself and Chris 🤍 time is a healer xxx
I was so scared you were going through this again when you said you were taking some time off and I hoped and prayed so hard that that wasn't the case. I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through. Please take your time to grieve and heal. We all love you and want nothing but the best for you.
I am so sorry for your and Chris’s loss. Your baby girl is in God’s loving hands and with Michael having fun.
When I had my miscarriage, I had a DNC and didn’t get to see my baby or hold it or find out if it was a boy or girl. I didn’t get to grieve but today I did because of you. So thank you Rachel for helping me grieve and to get through it as I should have then.
Sending you love ❤❤❤
Hugs! My story is so very similar to yours. It can be a very lonely and dark time. So glad your taking the time you need to heal and recover. Thank you for your bravery as well and for giving infant and pregnancy loss a voice. ❤
Oh my goodness, I can only imagine what you went through. That’s so hard Rachel ♥️ So thankful for the care you got and are giving yourself to make sure you’re okay. I respect the boundaries you are putting in place for filming and not forcing yourself to film when you’re not ready. And when you put out videos in that good place, know it’s making me and others smile :)
Prayers for continued healing in this process.
You are such a amazing and strong human being Rachel. I've watched you for years and always come back to your videos to enjoy. Your strength amazes me ❤