yes!! bring back casual, fun youtube... before it became a chase for views, likes, and sponsors. i also want to use youtube as a medium to improve at public speaking. i believe the point of the internet is to be a tool to connect you with your community. let's bring it backkkk
I think the reason why I stayed to watch it all, was how authentic you were. Most youtubers cut out any trailing thoughts or ideas but you left it in. It's always so refreshing to see someone being themselves regardless if a camera is on them. Since that's a rare thing nowadays, so i'll be rooting for you!
spot on @XeL__ 0 seconds ago 15:30 you seem genuine and not acting up too much nice tone voice and speed, very refreshing, you feel natural its so refreshing in this world of fakeness and entitled narcisist top 0.1% princess karenism stay real its amazing (way better than faking top 0.1) you shine being natural and not over the top stay legit
I might not make a youtube channel specifically, but this video really makes me consider the other ways I want to express myself, but have been avoiding because of self-doubt and fear of rejection. Thank you for reducing the suffering in my world!
you have DEFINITELY increased the net amount of happiness in the world because i am very happy after this video, in a few weeks i'm turning 18 and that's when i want to make my first video and publish it, i'm scared and have been going back and forth on it, but this video inspired me and i think gave me the last push i needed to actually go ahead and do the thing, so thank you lauren
That the greatest decision you will ever make. 😊 Make sure to research more. And start with what you have. And don't care so much about what people will say just doing cause God knows someone will be so encouraged just by seeing you on their screen. Be the change just by being you. 😍
I used to make a youtube channel for every hobby I had as a kid, but at some point in high school I stopped doing this due to the same reasons you mentioned about social rejection. looking back, I effectively cut off the only outlet I had for the things I was passionate about and killed that unique inner child. it took a loooong time to realize this and start to repair the damage. this was a really great video and really resonated with me! I think it would be really sick to use future, past, and present Lauren as recurring characters throughout your videos lol
This is so relatable😭I think I was also confident as a kid with self expression but was hurt by social rejection and became super reserved. but at least we r doing better now lol. i'm really happy you liked my video & i wish you the best on your youtube journey !!
Jared and Lauren, it's no coincidence that 1- I was watching Jared's latest video a few days back 2- I find Jared here now as I'm watching Lauren's video 3- I made a YT channel and uploaded 6 videos 1 day before watching Jared's for more or less the same reasons Lauren mentioned in this video. The videos I uploaded are only related to foreign languages....as of now. I plan to upload videos reading children stories, doing some voice acting, and expressing many of my different hobbies. In the past, my English level was heavily impacted by my judgmental environment. That is, you get made fun of both for sounding bad and/or "trying to sound American". Now, years later, after I managed to stop caring what people will think about me, I can say that I jumped fairly quickly, approximately from B2 to C2 in as little as 3 months, all while also "improving" my accent. But man, was I so much more confident when I was a kid. I even have a name for "that confident kid", '3bood', always wishing I could take him out to a nice dinner and chat with him for at least 10 minutes. I wish I had recorded myself to see what were my "constants" (as you accurately put it). I just want to understand what went through my head during such a close yet seemingly far time. I didn't just make my channel and hope nobody finds it, I actively shared it with those I know. The reason for that is nobody can spill your beans if you do it first. Nobody can hurt you if you hurt yourself first 😭😁 Maybe in another life I'd share it with you all 😂 but for now, thank you both.
lmaooo the youtube algorithm is getting too accurate! you could try making a video or writing a letter to your past self. i’m sure that kid is still there and ready to listen, as deep through the layers it may take to reach them.
14:55 so relatable Because i am a person who likes to talk to myself for 40 minutes straight only difference is that i voice record my thought ( tho im gettin convinced by past lauren atm , so we'll see how it ends up ) I aguree that it is a form of self acceptance. I went from hating my voice, like most people ive met, to enjoying it.( tho thays when im judging the singing, otherwise for talking, the worse it can get is that i find myself funny)
Thank you so much past Lauren for uploading this video, make my day and gave me so much motivation to start the journey to make videos. Keep going girl
The bits about "talking to the voices in your head" and "a lot of tension being present between your past, current, and future self" is so relatable that I don't even know what to say. I think that this all stems from being a "special kid" (being really smart, creative, or confident as a kid) and then the world somehow taking that special thing away from you. We lose all self. We lose all individuality and start looking at others to imitate them in order to be more "happy" or "succesfull", which is a terrible way to achieve those things in the first place. In my case, nobody valued my imagination. My parents say I used to make up crazy fantastiacl stories when I was 5 years old. But they shut it down because it could be dangerous if I believed I could fly or lift something very heavy or things like that... They didn't know how to channel that side of my unique self into something beautiful and productive instead. Also I had ADHD and I was so smart that I didn't need to study for anything at school, I just had to listen to my teachers in class to pass tests with the highest grade. I wasn't challenged enough. And I'm being real here, this isn't some ego trip. Not taught how to study hard for something in order to achieve it became a huge problem for me later on in my life. I still don't know how to put off instant gratifications in return for real achievements in life. I literally couldn't sit still in my seat in primary school. Thankfully my form teacher accommodated that behaviour and I wasn't thrown out of the system. No adult ever knew that I had ADHD, or what to even do with my behaviour. I was a good student and that was enough for them. This turned out to be a ranting session, but I'll still post this comment because it would be off my chest. If you read until now, one thing you can ascertain from this is that you are not alone. The way of the world beats all kinds of eccentric people down into submission and depression. Fight the good fight, and love yourself!
I relate very hard to this. But I'm trying. My reality check came in college entrance exams, where I'm like ohh you really gotta study hard for this. And since then I've been trying my best to learn to work hard. Although sometimes I still have that power to get the highest grades without studying hard at all, but all in all I now realise that being the "special kid" ain't gonna cut it. This was very relatable and close to home for me. And I loved your take on it and I agree 💯 percent on that instant gratification part. But I know we gonna make it. Have a nice day!
As you grow old, you do get moments of disassociation with your past self and sometimes your recognize that consciously. Then you can also further imagine that your future self will be feeling similar things about your present self. The present is indeed fleeting and your character is never exactly the same. You cannot step in the exact same river again. The Ship of Theseus paradox applies to the neurons of our brain and time as well. But don't fret about it. Treat each moment, each instance of yourself as "the One" and make the best decisions for the situation and your current version of self. "All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us." - J.R.R. Tolkien
Same here. I breezed through primary and secondary school without studying at home, and college hit me hard in the face. So hard in fact that I'm a 5th year student of a 3.5 year computer engineering bachelor's degree, with 2 years minimum left. One excuse that I maybe can be entitled to is that my family couldn't support me and I had to move from home, so I have to support myself and work alongside uni. There are two things that bring me peace: the fact that I make more money than the average salary in my country even though I'm part time; and personal advancements due to working + building resilience by failing a lot at uni. McDonald's in the first few years pretty much shaped my personality into who I am now, I was a very socially awkward, wimpy kid and I learned to communicate better, be assertive and more confident (and ofc learn to clean efficiently lol). After that I finally decided to do something that's in my field and was lucky enough to land a junior web developer position. I picked up things very quickly, I feel like my brain is literally built to absorb documentation lol... So I really don't understand why uni is so hard for me. But anyways I decided I'm going to do it no matter what. If it takes 10 years it takes 10 years. I don't care I'm going to do it. Inferiority complex, self loathing etc. went away after I landed the developer job, even more so after receiving good feedback and seeing my progress, plus I make a decent amount of money so mentally I'm ok I guess. Thank you for coming to my ted talk (and sorry for the long comment).
@@jonnyjoker01 Dude I appreciate your input. Believe me, this gave me a lot of confidence and frankly your resilience inspires me. Have a good day mate and best of luck🤞
I'm 22, soon to be 23, and I'm in a point of my life where I feel like I've never been able to develop my true self. I'm in my second year of uni, and since I got in my mental health has only gotten worse, I've been neglecting myself just to get good grades, and I'm not even enjoying my career at this point, I want to make this year about me and take care of me, you got me thinking of new ways to accept and develop myself, we should not care what other people think of us, and you are increasing the net amount of happiness in the world by inspiring people like me and everyone else in the comments, thank you!!
Also kudos to you for breaking past the "caring what people think" and actually DOING what you want to do. I wish I would have way sooner -- you're 20, I'm 31 turning 32 this year and think about the time I "lost" over the years a lot. If nothing else, you're inspiring me to take action and I'm proud of you.
I just turned 34 and considering starting a podcast. Just speaking for myself, I’m glad I never expressed myself publicly in my twenties. I’ve healed a lot of trauma from childhood abuse in these last 5 years. And the person I am now has so much more to offer like wisdom, experience and compassion than when I was younger and operating out of fear and pain. And I probably would’ve embarrassed myself. Anyway, don’t worry about “time lost”. Our thirties are full of value if you can beat out the societal view of youth being the only value you have. It’s just not true. Good luck!
Hi, Lauren. Thanks for being so authentic! It's a treat to witness your process of thinking and feeling about the issues you raise.Your altruistic purpose to encourage others is refreshing. Your presence is uplifting. May you accept and believe in yourself fully.You deserve it. I hope you get lots of empathy, recognition, and validation and become self-validating and at ease with yourself.
6:11 Actually I think the more constancy that a person has makes them less resilient against change. Like if someone is used to certain things always being stable, the moment something happens and they have to change to adapt to the new situation, they might not be able to go through it as smoothly as someone who’s used to constant change. This makes me believe that the constant thing that we all should have in our lives is the action of ‘change’.
i randomly came across this video, and I rly like the vibes and the message! I also started a youtube channel some years ago after procrastinating a long time because of fear of judgment. And even after starting and having a few videos up with positive reception, I still struggle to stay consistent. I think this social rejection part is so true, it's always at the back of your mind, consciously or subconsciously. But whenever I do upload, and even if it feels like barely anyone cares, despite the intense work and effort to overcome the resistance, it is always a step further in self-acceptance as you mentioned. Great video, and very authentic. Maybe the lack of music made it more "real" too. Keep it up! :D
Thank you so much for your comment wow I feel the same way :) but after the first few videos I realized that it’s really not the end of the world haha. Best of luck on your journey as well, we can’t wait to see more content from you!
Thank you so much for making this video past Lauren. Some of the reasons like "having a constant in your life" is exactly the reason i started journaling. But journaling felt a bit flat. Not to take away anything from it but journals, by their nature, allow us to just hide away in our own words. It's like texting a late replier(future you). I have always been wanting to make youtube videos and I think I really should to just stop hiding away and document my life.
Bruh. I related so much to this video. Like the way she communicated, the indecision, the back and forth with “the voices in your head” and the fear of judgement. Thank you for sharing and encouraging me to make videos🙏🏾You’re awesome 💗
you are definitely making an impact, Lauren! your return to making videos feels like inner child healing, and that’s so beautiful and powerful. ty for your messages, authenticity, and the chart! 😊
Just wanted to thank you for not only making this video but SHARING it! I relate SO HARD to you, despite being a bit older. I smiled so much and laughed a lot too- you definitely increased my happiness and I’m sure I’ll be revisiting this video when I need a lift of spirits. You are pure delight!
You should be so proud of yourself for posting this! I love that it feels authentic to who you are and it’s very encouraging and inspiring to new CZcamsrs or anyone for that matter who wants to try something new outside of their comfort zone. I also really love that we’re seeing your work “in progress” and it’s not super perfect. You’ll get used to talking to the camera but I love that you simply acknowledge this. I subscribed to your channel and know you’ll hit 1k soon! ❤
Thanks for making this video and putting yourself out there more. I’m struggling with similar feelings but watching this has given me more courage. I look forward to many more videos!
This video was so wholesome. Hella raw. Hella authentic. I love the fact you kept the parts where you stumbled over your words/couldn't find the right words to express your point in. It really showed ur humanity and how much you truly believe in your message. Your points were also very eye opening. I think in this age we prioritize everything high quality and perfect, but the point of videos SHOULD be to document how we thought and behaved at different points in our lives. It inspires me to edit out less of me fumbling over my own words and just live lol❤❤❤
Man. I've been needing this sort of authenticity. What a beautiful way to encourage yourself and others to live authentically! I'm going to set a goal to upload at least one video a month this year and see what happens!
Yeah, this is definitely the best coincidence CZcams recommended this masterpiece; I've been so insecure abt publishing a video on youtube (idk why). Thank you, Lauren, your words are so inspiring! ❤
I've been wanting to publish videos on my channel for a while now but I've always been hesitant. This video has given me the reassurance and motivation to just do it without worrying too much. Thank you Lauren, for sharing this with us ❤
Ahhh, I really enjoy watching your thought process in real-time. It's stretching, it's growth! I actually really like how you take your time articulating your thoughts while considering the present reality, it's a difficult situation to put words to sometimes :o
Lauren, i must tell you that you are an absolute gem. CZcams ALWAYS seems to reccomend me the exact thing that I have been pondering, its like it knows that I needed to see your content. I filmed my first on-camera video a few days ago and it was both the hardest thing and the most important thing ive ever done. This channel im using to comment was where my love for making videos was born, but i dont want to make silly video game content anymore I want to do what YOU are doing now. Thank you for doing the hard thing and making this content, I cant wait to see your journey documented here, much love 😊❤
Something I wanna give you for your youtube journey is to try and working on not giving a f*ck so much. Ever since I stopped letting others drag me down, I started having a better life in general. Sadly in our society self confidence and self content is frowned upon because being fine with yourself removes you from the capitalization of looks, self improvement and confidence seeking. And honestly, it can also help avcoiding bad ppl in your life as well as you seeking stuff you don't need. What I mean by that is that If you struggle with negative self talk, sit down when it comes up, examine it and question it and also assert yourself. It's like saying: "I will not be tolerating of negative self talk any longer you either behave or perish!" and the more you do this active rewiring of the inner self, the more the internal bully will shrink and become your hype man over time. All it really takes is believing in it. Cause it is possible. You do not have to be passive towards self bvullying. You can fight it internally. Even if it's difficult. Another thing is abandoning the idea that liking yourself or rooting for yourself and hyping yourself up is egotistical or narcissistic. Egomania is when it becomes toxic to the outside and the inside. and Narcissism is when your deep inner self is insecure and self hating. But other people trying to drag you down or "humbling you" aren't ppl you should at all listen to. They are unhappy with themselves and therefor project onto you. Do not try to please them. Don't even respond. You only need to listen if you seek out that criticism yourself. It's about consent. People do not have the right to erode your boundaries and consent to compensate for their own insecurity and criticism should only come from ppl closest to you and then again if you don't want it, you can chose not to listen. And trust me, ppl will get mad. People can't cope with rejection or struggle to cope when they see someone with confidence they don't have. So stay away from meanspirited obessive gossipers, hypercritical ppl that don't respect boundaries and people that try to drag others down. People can be opinionated ofc but there's a difference between having opinions and trying to force them on people. That doesn't work usually. There can be other methods ofc to advocate for things or bring ppl to your side politically or otherwise but don't try to force it. It doesn't work. And lastly, know your worth. You are yourself and therefor you are the most important part in your life. So prioritize yourself and only the closest ppl to you that respect and care about you. keep out the jealous and the ones desperate for validation. This doesn't mean that you have to shut out anyone in a bad place emotionally or anything but rather means that you can be emotionally avalable and caring but don't become a therapist to anyone that doesn't pay you. There is a limit to giving and it ends wherever you say it does. And lastly, know that your life is yours. If someone doesn't make you feel good, drags you down or makes you feel bad or holds you back, drop them. bye! don't even look back. That is the only way ppl that are toxic or think they are owed other people's unending time and attention will learn. Do not enable ppl that don't give you anything and endlessly suck your energy. You are nobody's mommy outside the children you chose to have or don't have. Stand your ground, know your worth, Never tolerate disrespect or toxicity and confidence will come. You don't have to explain yourself to nobody other than yourself and the people you allow to. And most importantly thrive. You are smart, gorgeous and awesome!
Thanks past Lauren for recording this video. These points about the videos that may or may not be seen and may or may not making a difference in the world kept me from starting something for a long time. Especially since my English communication isn't that great in comparison to the many channels I follow. Hearing your points and watching your efforts to make them clear made me realize that I was being foolish by not even trying. Not only that, but I'm probably letting many future friends down by NOT sharing the knowledge I have acquired over the years. Thanks again Lauren, I'll make sure to start something ASAP. Good luck with your vet school 💖
I can’t decide on what to tell you! From “you are my sense of humor” to “what a hard watch. Do it again” I have been laughing my ass off watching this because I can see myself if you. I’ve changed because society tells me to but deep down who I truly am is someone who introspects like you and cringes a lot. This is amazing.
This was amazing. Sooo glad you shared this and the thoughts you shared are truly amazing. Trust me the people who relate to your thoughts is so much better than not sharing it. You are amazing so I'm happy you shared and I just want to learn more! Hope the best for your own personal growth and on CZcams!
I can't say enough just how happy I am to have found this video. I feel exactly how you feel about philosophy and how creating things can help others. I also get stuck up really bad with my thoughts with the imaginary scenarios and internal debate. I'm now inspired to want to make videos which I've always wanted to do for CZcams but I never really did. It's also a lot of work editing but I guess that's something I'd have to get used to. I really like your diagram on the Happiness to Suffering compare and contrast. It's also really cool that you're very transparent and honest when making the video and I think that can inspire to be themselves and be comfortable with these types of things. Thank you for this video. I hope you continue to make videos and have fun with them. You're really intuitive, creative, and logical which are things I feel like are lacking in this world nowadays. Keep it up👍🏽
I've always had CZcamsr aspirations growing up (am 22) but I never really followed up on them. I've been thinking about it even more lately, this is honestly probably a sign. I really like this video! Good job. :) 👍
Ur very pretty and u definitely did influence me, I’ve always wanted to make videos for the same reasons u listed but we’ll see what I do with my life lol
Please, for the love of god, please make some philosophy livestreams, I’m sure many of us would love to hear your thoughts and discuss them in real time
That’s such an inspiring video Lauren ❤ Regarding friends or vet school or outside judgements in general: your outlooks about them come from fears and anxiety. Think about it this way: imagine the friends you’d meet because you started CZcams; people who’d like you for you are because they see you so clearly now. Imagine getting into a school because they like you and what you’re saying and doing. I think we focus way too much on the negative possibilities of our actions, not realising that most things we do usually bring something positive into our lives.
This is great. I made videos for 10 years and slowed down over the past 2 years leading to a decline in my self confidence but I still love it. Nowadays I just have a hard time fitting it in to my schedule. This was really encouraging ❤
I relate to this a lot, with my channel i just like to upload for the purpose of archiving my life moments onto the internet and though it wont get that much views, future generations will be curious enough during our time period of growing up and might come across seeing my videos maybe even relating to some stranger that has grown old or long passed away. Also having something to look forward to everyday such as uploading a short clip of my life actually makes me motivated enough to have other daily tasks in my schedule. Hope your channel grows bigger this video was very nice!
I started my youtube channel a few weeks ago and I've already noticed a difference in the way I speak and talk about things in person (I'm naturally an introvert who always trails off and never finish my sentences lol). I spent so long on my first video trying to make sure I speak as clearly as possible, but I quickly realized that it's something I can slowly learn rather than try to perfect immediately. Watching this video of you talking about how youtube creates a positive impact on your life is really eye-opening, and is exactly the push I need to continue my journey! I also love how authentic and honest you are, which is incredibly refreshing to see. Keep it up!!! :) 🥰
Such a great video Lauren. Your reasoning for making videos and stopping making videos is much the same as mine. I was making videos when I was 13. Then I stopped, and I'm just now getting back into it. Excited to watch your journey!
Hi Lauren! We think in such a similar way, not a monologue inside but a dialogue with future, present, and past selves. It is overwhelming, and I am proud of you for being vulnerable with us and show it. I spend so much time doing this part off camera so on camera I can appear somewhat “presentable”. But you are presentable! You make sense to me this way. You are inspiring me to be braver thank you. I am sorry for random hate comments I hope you can ignore them!
Lauren this video helped me so much. I was making CZcams videos since middle school and my “friends” at the time shamed me and made me feel so stupid for deciding to document my life. People see it as narcissism but rather that.. I see it as a diary. Thank you so much for sharing this. I relate to you so heavy 😭😭😭
Thanks for making this video, it definitely brought me happiness. You were great and it was really admirable to see how you worked through the negatives and cancelled them out. I'm gonna try making a video this month and see how it goes!
I'd love to see more philosophy related videos from you, it was really fun to witness your trail of thought. I've tried several times to make videos on CZcams but I always get caught up in trying to get views or get discouraged that there's a lack of reach, but you've convinced me to try again.
Hi this was so good. One problem I have with starting my own channel is that i get in a rut of whether i want to share what i record or just keep it for myself, and if i'm somewhat selling my soul a bit by sharing parts of my personal life online
I have no idea why I was recommended your video, and I don’t know why I watched. But I am glad I did You are half my age but twice as wise! I can tell this video took courage, but it paid off imo. A lot of lightbulbs went off in my head as your video progressed, thank you for your insights. Also, I live on a farm and work with vets all the time. If you want to follow that route, imo, here are three things every good vet has: 1- a deep sense of love, empathy, sympathy for all patients/animals 2- a strong technical command & understanding of biology, math, etc. and the tools at your disposal 3- a constantly evolving customer service skill set (you will have to give your share of bad news to scared, vulnerable people) If you can demonstrate your understanding of these three, getting into vet school will be a breeze. Interviewers are trained to sniff BS. However, true passion for the craft is something you cannot fake or hide, and they can smell that too. Thanks again and best of luck!
This video feels so authentic and is really encouraging to me at least because I just want to share to the world the things I love, but I feel like it's not worth it because of fear of judgement or just because I feel like it won't make a difference in someone else's life. Loved your approach in this video, especially since I didn't know about utilitarianism, thanks for this! I wish you success with your YT channel, I've already subscribed and hope you hit 3k soon!
This must be the most wholesome of random youtube suggestion i've ever got.. Thank you for listening to yourself - which is bold and badass on it's own - and doing what you're doing with such genuine honesty. Just a few days ago i've been talking with a friend about how important it is that people share their ideas/thoughts/authentic selves with the world even if it means overcoming inner conflicts and fears, of which rejection sensitivity is probably one of the most difficult to. This is seriously inspiring, it initiates the chain of positive impact and growth, and just..makes me happy! So thank you, and looking forward to see and hear more of what you have to share!
honestly this was such a good video. I feel like you can still justify creating a youtube channel even with the opposite of utilitarianism, deontology. especially when you were speaking about adversities, as long as you are aligned with your moral duties and views, you can use loads of different ethical frameworks to justify your choice in making videos, so it must be a good idea, right? i think its interesting how two opposite ideas can be used to justify creating art. but anyway, i loved this video and I'm so excited to see more :D
As you grow old, you do get moments of disassociation with your past self and sometimes your recognize that consciously. Then you can also further imagine that your future self will be feeling similar things about your present self. The present is indeed fleeting and your character is never exactly the same. You cannot step in the exact same river again. The Ship of Theseus paradox applies to the neurons of our brain and time as well. But don't fret about it. Treat each moment, each instance of yourself as "the One" and make the best decisions for the situation and your current version of self. "All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us." - J.R.R. Tolkien
literally these are all such valid points. thank you past lauren, you've increased happiness in the world after i watched this:) might start a youtube channel now.....
Completely agree that having consistency in your life makes you more resilient and something that i definitely need to work on! Love how authentic and transparent you are in your video and wish you the best on your youtube journey girl! 🙌🏻💕✨
Advance apologies for my English: I found this immensely useful! As a guy who has a lot of voices in his head, I'm going to be making videos to help others and saving time the things that I do like photography, fixing things, and my interest in cards. Thank you so much for going beyond what you think would happen to you. From a random person who is on CZcams I love you for what you have done. It is honorable. And you may have gone through so many things that have battered you, but you have to believe that this is only a moment in time and what you want is what you'll get. It won't be 100% what you want, but you will be much closer to that than anything else after you look back whenever you choose to do some. And if that's okay? Good! If not? Change the direction and do the same thing over again! This is long as you feel that you're making a change for yourself and for the others around you? You will find those people that you need or even want, or you will end up taking care of people and that's rewarding in itself just like how you said your one video may have zero views and eventually help one person and there you go!
You are a kind soul Lauren. Trust me, I know one when I see one. Deep down I think you have the feeling of uncertainy. I am just here to tell you it's valid, legitimate and everything will be ok. I know it will. That was a beautiful video!
Lauren im so glad i decided to watch your video. From the get go I loved how you described what its like to record yourself and forever have a piece or part of that version of yourself even if that wasnt your intention for pressing the record button it still counts as that. Keep going girlie!!
A Great find on YT, the screen feels like a window to you, getting to know your perspective is the point. that is youTube to know and learn from people around the world and vibe with our thoughts. love this video.
Hi Lauren, I've always wanted to have a CZcams channel but had many thoughts of other's opinion about me, but you're right, I don't need to change who I am and what I want because of people I don't even like, congrats from Brazil!
Have to shout you out on my first vid!!! Thanks so much for making this and reinforcing that voice in my head that tells me to just do it. Much appreciated!
I resonated with so many things in this video. I fear what others will think of me. Especially what employers might think of me because of what I post. But also a stumbling block for me has just been feeling not creative. I don't see how I can always have things to talk about. Also I'm just lazy. So that part's my fault.
you inspired me to restart my youtube channel, i made youtube videos since i was 13 too now 24 and i stoppped around 20 , alot of things like yeah judgement and like not growing etc but now i have a new purpose honestly its been calling to me to make videos again , i feel like with my voice and what i have to say it would be selfish not to start because it can help people and alot of people have been telling me i did , i just wanna say ur doing great n u will go far just keep pushing
i think everyone should be themselves n make their own videos out of creativity n know that the right people will find them and that they have something unique to offer , even if other people are doing it alrdy ur way of doing it is what someone will resonate more with ykwim
This was so helpful as I am also trying to document parts of my life and this brought up some interesting points :) I wish you all the best in creating.
What a cool unexpected video. I'm happy the algorithm recommended your video. As someone who started a month or so, the journey is fun and the act of just posting what you enjoy most and getting a comment or two makes it worthwhile.
i am going to open my channel by the end of this week no metter what, i was t thinking about this for a long time. but i shouldn't have overthink it, i should have just open it. (i am very sick right now). btw just imagine, if 10k people watch this and 5 of them open a youtube channel and one of them makes a video about "how to see beatifullness in life" and one person watches it and act good to his family. or more
I'm very critical, and tend to do tons of research on different topics thoughout CZcams. Creating a channel will help me express, and and show different views from how people view themselves, and others. This video is a great way to help me figure out what I want to do.
Thank you for being so real in front of the camera! I've struggled a lot over the years trying to figure out who I want to be in front of the camera myself. The way you correlate philosophy with your own journey through CZcams really hit home with me. And me being a logical person who has wanted to follow my own dreams of becoming a content creator (making videos since 2011) then learning editing so I could hide flaws I see in myself. I know for a fact from now on I am going to try to be a lot more real in my own content creation journey! Thank you so much and great video!! +1 Subscriber and best of luck in your future on this everchanging platform "YOU"tube!!! ❤️🔥😭
We need more positivity like the kind you exude! I agree, anybody who wants to should definitely make a YT channel. Glad YT recommended your channel on the side, Lauren. :D
Thank you so much, this is the sign I was looking for. I also made videos at 13 about animation but stopped because of lack of discipline and fear. But that desire is constantly follow me. And now you motivated me, I'm gonna do my in list of reasons. Thank you so much ❤
Counterpoint: making videos is a lot of work, which increases my suffering, and it could expose people to me, which increases their suffering.
i love this self deprecating humor
You think too highly of yourself.
I’m here to introduce you to real misery.
Lol this was funny - proof that people should be exposed 😏
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“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” -by Maya Angelou.
yes!! bring back casual, fun youtube... before it became a chase for views, likes, and sponsors. i also want to use youtube as a medium to improve at public speaking. i believe the point of the internet is to be a tool to connect you with your community. let's bring it backkkk
I think the reason why I stayed to watch it all, was how authentic you were. Most youtubers cut out any trailing thoughts or ideas but you left it in. It's always so refreshing to see someone being themselves regardless if a camera is on them. Since that's a rare thing nowadays, so i'll be rooting for you!
spot on
@XeL__
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15:30 you seem genuine and not acting up too much
nice tone voice and speed, very refreshing, you feel natural
its so refreshing in this world of fakeness and entitled narcisist top 0.1% princess karenism
stay real its amazing (way better than faking top 0.1)
you shine being natural and not over the top
stay legit
Yes!! This was so interesting
She's soooooo cute too, like an anime character
You're doing great! Keep going ❤
Stop simping
“listening to the voices in my head” “I just made this up rn” I really feel you
I might not make a youtube channel specifically, but this video really makes me consider the other ways I want to express myself, but have been avoiding because of self-doubt and fear of rejection. Thank you for reducing the suffering in my world!
you have DEFINITELY increased the net amount of happiness in the world because i am very happy after this video, in a few weeks i'm turning 18 and that's when i want to make my first video and publish it, i'm scared and have been going back and forth on it, but this video inspired me and i think gave me the last push i needed to actually go ahead and do the thing, so thank you lauren
Aww that is so heartwarming😭 Good luck on your CZcams channel, I know you'll do great :)
Same, 17 turning 18 next year in September. I have thoughts on creating a video too!
Wishing y’all the best
shaddup
That the greatest decision you will ever make. 😊
Make sure to research more.
And start with what you have.
And don't care so much about what people will say just doing cause God knows someone will be so encouraged just by seeing you on their screen.
Be the change just by being you. 😍
I used to make a youtube channel for every hobby I had as a kid, but at some point in high school I stopped doing this due to the same reasons you mentioned about social rejection. looking back, I effectively cut off the only outlet I had for the things I was passionate about and killed that unique inner child. it took a loooong time to realize this and start to repair the damage. this was a really great video and really resonated with me! I think it would be really sick to use future, past, and present Lauren as recurring characters throughout your videos lol
This is so relatable😭I think I was also confident as a kid with self expression but was hurt by social rejection and became super reserved. but at least we r doing better now lol. i'm really happy you liked my video & i wish you the best on your youtube journey !!
@@lrnjulie stop being so relatable y'all...
Jared and Lauren, it's no coincidence that
1- I was watching Jared's latest video a few days back
2- I find Jared here now as I'm watching Lauren's video
3- I made a YT channel and uploaded 6 videos 1 day before watching Jared's for more or less the same reasons Lauren mentioned in this video.
The videos I uploaded are only related to foreign languages....as of now. I plan to upload videos reading children stories, doing some voice acting, and expressing many of my different hobbies. In the past, my English level was heavily impacted by my judgmental environment. That is, you get made fun of both for sounding bad and/or "trying to sound American". Now, years later, after I managed to stop caring what people will think about me, I can say that I jumped fairly quickly, approximately from B2 to C2 in as little as 3 months, all while also "improving" my accent.
But man, was I so much more confident when I was a kid. I even have a name for "that confident kid", '3bood', always wishing I could take him out to a nice dinner and chat with him for at least 10 minutes. I wish I had recorded myself to see what were my "constants" (as you accurately put it). I just want to understand what went through my head during such a close yet seemingly far time.
I didn't just make my channel and hope nobody finds it, I actively shared it with those I know. The reason for that is nobody can spill your beans if you do it first. Nobody can hurt you if you hurt yourself first 😭😁
Maybe in another life I'd share it with you all 😂 but for now, thank you both.
lmaooo the youtube algorithm is getting too accurate! you could try making a video or writing a letter to your past self. i’m sure that kid is still there and ready to listen, as deep through the layers it may take to reach them.
You’re making ME suffer with your CZcams channel, past Lauren
LOL taking the time to leave this comment is giving fan behavior, Future Lauren
For a minute there i started feeling like future Lauren ❤
Have a nice day
14:55 so relatable
Because i am a person who likes to talk to myself for 40 minutes straight only difference is that i voice record my thought ( tho im gettin convinced by past lauren atm , so we'll see how it ends up )
I aguree that it is a form of self acceptance.
I went from hating my voice, like most people ive met, to enjoying it.( tho thays when im judging the singing, otherwise for talking, the worse it can get is that i find myself funny)
Back to the future?
Thank you so much past Lauren for uploading this video, make my day and gave me so much motivation to start the journey to make videos. Keep going girl
The bits about "talking to the voices in your head" and "a lot of tension being present between your past, current, and future self" is so relatable that I don't even know what to say. I think that this all stems from being a "special kid" (being really smart, creative, or confident as a kid) and then the world somehow taking that special thing away from you. We lose all self. We lose all individuality and start looking at others to imitate them in order to be more "happy" or "succesfull", which is a terrible way to achieve those things in the first place.
In my case, nobody valued my imagination. My parents say I used to make up crazy fantastiacl stories when I was 5 years old. But they shut it down because it could be dangerous if I believed I could fly or lift something very heavy or things like that... They didn't know how to channel that side of my unique self into something beautiful and productive instead. Also I had ADHD and I was so smart that I didn't need to study for anything at school, I just had to listen to my teachers in class to pass tests with the highest grade. I wasn't challenged enough. And I'm being real here, this isn't some ego trip. Not taught how to study hard for something in order to achieve it became a huge problem for me later on in my life. I still don't know how to put off instant gratifications in return for real achievements in life. I literally couldn't sit still in my seat in primary school. Thankfully my form teacher accommodated that behaviour and I wasn't thrown out of the system. No adult ever knew that I had ADHD, or what to even do with my behaviour. I was a good student and that was enough for them.
This turned out to be a ranting session, but I'll still post this comment because it would be off my chest. If you read until now, one thing you can ascertain from this is that you are not alone. The way of the world beats all kinds of eccentric people down into submission and depression. Fight the good fight, and love yourself!
I relate very hard to this. But I'm trying. My reality check came in college entrance exams, where I'm like ohh you really gotta study hard for this. And since then I've been trying my best to learn to work hard. Although sometimes I still have that power to get the highest grades without studying hard at all, but all in all I now realise that being the "special kid" ain't gonna cut it. This was very relatable and close to home for me. And I loved your take on it and I agree 💯 percent on that instant gratification part. But I know we gonna make it. Have a nice day!
Your writing is so good! I enjoyed reading you. Love the "fight the good fight!" ❤
As you grow old, you do get moments of disassociation with your past self and sometimes your recognize that consciously. Then you can also further imagine that your future self will be feeling similar things about your present self. The present is indeed fleeting and your character is never exactly the same. You cannot step in the exact same river again. The Ship of Theseus paradox applies to the neurons of our brain and time as well. But don't fret about it. Treat each moment, each instance of yourself as "the One" and make the best decisions for the situation and your current version of self.
"All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us." - J.R.R. Tolkien
Same here. I breezed through primary and secondary school without studying at home, and college hit me hard in the face. So hard in fact that I'm a 5th year student of a 3.5 year computer engineering bachelor's degree, with 2 years minimum left.
One excuse that I maybe can be entitled to is that my family couldn't support me and I had to move from home, so I have to support myself and work alongside uni. There are two things that bring me peace: the fact that I make more money than the average salary in my country even though I'm part time; and personal advancements due to working + building resilience by failing a lot at uni.
McDonald's in the first few years pretty much shaped my personality into who I am now, I was a very socially awkward, wimpy kid and I learned to communicate better, be assertive and more confident (and ofc learn to clean efficiently lol). After that I finally decided to do something that's in my field and was lucky enough to land a junior web developer position. I picked up things very quickly, I feel like my brain is literally built to absorb documentation lol... So I really don't understand why uni is so hard for me.
But anyways I decided I'm going to do it no matter what. If it takes 10 years it takes 10 years. I don't care I'm going to do it. Inferiority complex, self loathing etc. went away after I landed the developer job, even more so after receiving good feedback and seeing my progress, plus I make a decent amount of money so mentally I'm ok I guess.
Thank you for coming to my ted talk (and sorry for the long comment).
@@jonnyjoker01 Dude I appreciate your input. Believe me, this gave me a lot of confidence and frankly your resilience inspires me. Have a good day mate and best of luck🤞
I'm 22, soon to be 23, and I'm in a point of my life where I feel like I've never been able to develop my true self. I'm in my second year of uni, and since I got in my mental health has only gotten worse, I've been neglecting myself just to get good grades, and I'm not even enjoying my career at this point, I want to make this year about me and take care of me, you got me thinking of new ways to accept and develop myself, we should not care what other people think of us, and you are increasing the net amount of happiness in the world by inspiring people like me and everyone else in the comments, thank you!!
girrrlrlllll omfg I relaTE to this beyond
Also kudos to you for breaking past the "caring what people think" and actually DOING what you want to do. I wish I would have way sooner -- you're 20, I'm 31 turning 32 this year and think about the time I "lost" over the years a lot. If nothing else, you're inspiring me to take action and I'm proud of you.
30 going 31. I lived past the youtube early days and saying to myself “i should’ve been a youtuber when it was starting out.”
I just turned 34 and considering starting a podcast. Just speaking for myself, I’m glad I never expressed myself publicly in my twenties. I’ve healed a lot of trauma from childhood abuse in these last 5 years. And the person I am now has so much more to offer like wisdom, experience and compassion than when I was younger and operating out of fear and pain. And I probably would’ve embarrassed myself. Anyway, don’t worry about “time lost”. Our thirties are full of value if you can beat out the societal view of youth being the only value you have. It’s just not true. Good luck!
Hi, Lauren. Thanks for being so authentic! It's a treat to witness your process of thinking and feeling about the issues you raise.Your altruistic purpose to encourage others is refreshing. Your presence is uplifting. May you accept and believe in yourself fully.You deserve it. I hope you get lots of empathy, recognition, and validation and become self-validating and at ease with yourself.
6:11 Actually I think the more constancy that a person has makes them less resilient against change. Like if someone is used to certain things always being stable, the moment something happens and they have to change to adapt to the new situation, they might not be able to go through it as smoothly as someone who’s used to constant change. This makes me believe that the constant thing that we all should have in our lives is the action of ‘change’.
i randomly came across this video, and I rly like the vibes and the message! I also started a youtube channel some years ago after procrastinating a long time because of fear of judgment. And even after starting and having a few videos up with positive reception, I still struggle to stay consistent. I think this social rejection part is so true, it's always at the back of your mind, consciously or subconsciously. But whenever I do upload, and even if it feels like barely anyone cares, despite the intense work and effort to overcome the resistance, it is always a step further in self-acceptance as you mentioned. Great video, and very authentic. Maybe the lack of music made it more "real" too. Keep it up! :D
Thank you so much for your comment wow I feel the same way :) but after the first few videos I realized that it’s really not the end of the world haha. Best of luck on your journey as well, we can’t wait to see more content from you!
@@lrnjulie Thank youu! 🙌
Thank you so much for making this video past Lauren. Some of the reasons like "having a constant in your life" is exactly the reason i started journaling. But journaling felt a bit flat.
Not to take away anything from it but journals, by their nature, allow us to just hide away in our own words. It's like texting a late replier(future you).
I have always been wanting to make youtube videos and I think I really should to just stop hiding away and document my life.
Bruh. I related so much to this video. Like the way she communicated, the indecision, the back and forth with “the voices in your head” and the fear of judgement.
Thank you for sharing and encouraging me to make videos🙏🏾You’re awesome 💗
you are definitely making an impact, Lauren! your return to making videos feels like inner child healing, and that’s so beautiful and powerful.
ty for your messages, authenticity, and the chart! 😊
Just wanted to thank you for not only making this video but SHARING it! I relate SO HARD to you, despite being a bit older. I smiled so much and laughed a lot too- you definitely increased my happiness and I’m sure I’ll be revisiting this video when I need a lift of spirits. You are pure delight!
You should be so proud of yourself for posting this! I love that it feels authentic to who you are and it’s very encouraging and inspiring to new CZcamsrs or anyone for that matter who wants to try something new outside of their comfort zone. I also really love that we’re seeing your work “in progress” and it’s not super perfect. You’ll get used to talking to the camera but I love that you simply acknowledge this. I subscribed to your channel and know you’ll hit 1k soon! ❤
Wow, she had less than 1k 10 days ago?! Now 3k plus... congratulations past present and future Lauren!!
Thanks for making this video and putting yourself out there more. I’m struggling with similar feelings but watching this has given me more courage. I look forward to many more videos!
Thank you so much, I'm glad this inspired you. I know your channel will be great and we can't wait for your first upload :)
This video was so wholesome. Hella raw. Hella authentic. I love the fact you kept the parts where you stumbled over your words/couldn't find the right words to express your point in. It really showed ur humanity and how much you truly believe in your message. Your points were also very eye opening. I think in this age we prioritize everything high quality and perfect, but the point of videos SHOULD be to document how we thought and behaved at different points in our lives. It inspires me to edit out less of me fumbling over my own words and just live lol❤❤❤
The paradox of being aware of being recorded so they record our whole life without us knowing to get a true reaction of life
Man. I've been needing this sort of authenticity. What a beautiful way to encourage yourself and others to live authentically! I'm going to set a goal to upload at least one video a month this year and see what happens!
Yeah, this is definitely the best coincidence CZcams recommended this masterpiece; I've been so insecure abt publishing a video on youtube (idk why). Thank you, Lauren, your words are so inspiring! ❤
Bright insights which make alot of sense. So bold,too.👊
Luv your room/decor
I've been wanting to publish videos on my channel for a while now but I've always been hesitant. This video has given me the reassurance and motivation to just do it without worrying too much. Thank you Lauren, for sharing this with us ❤
this video feels so cozy
Ahhh, I really enjoy watching your thought process in real-time. It's stretching, it's growth! I actually really like how you take your time articulating your thoughts while considering the present reality, it's a difficult situation to put words to sometimes :o
Lauren, i must tell you that you are an absolute gem. CZcams ALWAYS seems to reccomend me the exact thing that I have been pondering, its like it knows that I needed to see your content. I filmed my first on-camera video a few days ago and it was both the hardest thing and the most important thing ive ever done.
This channel im using to comment was where my love for making videos was born, but i dont want to make silly video game content anymore I want to do what YOU are doing now. Thank you for doing the hard thing and making this content, I cant wait to see your journey documented here, much love 😊❤
Something I wanna give you for your youtube journey is to try and working on not giving a f*ck so much. Ever since I stopped letting others drag me down, I started having a better life in general. Sadly in our society self confidence and self content is frowned upon because being fine with yourself removes you from the capitalization of looks, self improvement and confidence seeking. And honestly, it can also help avcoiding bad ppl in your life as well as you seeking stuff you don't need. What I mean by that is that If you struggle with negative self talk, sit down when it comes up, examine it and question it and also assert yourself. It's like saying: "I will not be tolerating of negative self talk any longer you either behave or perish!" and the more you do this active rewiring of the inner self, the more the internal bully will shrink and become your hype man over time. All it really takes is believing in it. Cause it is possible. You do not have to be passive towards self bvullying. You can fight it internally. Even if it's difficult.
Another thing is abandoning the idea that liking yourself or rooting for yourself and hyping yourself up is egotistical or narcissistic. Egomania is when it becomes toxic to the outside and the inside. and Narcissism is when your deep inner self is insecure and self hating. But other people trying to drag you down or "humbling you" aren't ppl you should at all listen to. They are unhappy with themselves and therefor project onto you. Do not try to please them. Don't even respond. You only need to listen if you seek out that criticism yourself. It's about consent. People do not have the right to erode your boundaries and consent to compensate for their own insecurity and criticism should only come from ppl closest to you and then again if you don't want it, you can chose not to listen.
And trust me, ppl will get mad. People can't cope with rejection or struggle to cope when they see someone with confidence they don't have. So stay away from meanspirited obessive gossipers, hypercritical ppl that don't respect boundaries and people that try to drag others down. People can be opinionated ofc but there's a difference between having opinions and trying to force them on people. That doesn't work usually. There can be other methods ofc to advocate for things or bring ppl to your side politically or otherwise but don't try to force it. It doesn't work.
And lastly, know your worth. You are yourself and therefor you are the most important part in your life. So prioritize yourself and only the closest ppl to you that respect and care about you. keep out the jealous and the ones desperate for validation. This doesn't mean that you have to shut out anyone in a bad place emotionally or anything but rather means that you can be emotionally avalable and caring but don't become a therapist to anyone that doesn't pay you. There is a limit to giving and it ends wherever you say it does. And lastly, know that your life is yours. If someone doesn't make you feel good, drags you down or makes you feel bad or holds you back, drop them. bye! don't even look back. That is the only way ppl that are toxic or think they are owed other people's unending time and attention will learn. Do not enable ppl that don't give you anything and endlessly suck your energy. You are nobody's mommy outside the children you chose to have or don't have.
Stand your ground, know your worth, Never tolerate disrespect or toxicity and confidence will come. You don't have to explain yourself to nobody other than yourself and the people you allow to. And most importantly thrive. You are smart, gorgeous and awesome!
Thanks past Lauren for recording this video.
These points about the videos that may or may not be seen and may or may not making a difference in the world kept me from starting something for a long time.
Especially since my English communication isn't that great in comparison to the many channels I follow.
Hearing your points and watching your efforts to make them clear made me realize that I was being foolish by not even trying.
Not only that, but I'm probably letting many future friends down by NOT sharing the knowledge I have acquired over the years.
Thanks again Lauren, I'll make sure to start something ASAP.
Good luck with your vet school 💖
I can’t decide on what to tell you! From “you are my sense of humor” to “what a hard watch. Do it again” I have been laughing my ass off watching this because I can see myself if you. I’ve changed because society tells me to but deep down who I truly am is someone who introspects like you and cringes a lot. This is amazing.
This was amazing. Sooo glad you shared this and the thoughts you shared are truly amazing. Trust me the people who relate to your thoughts is so much better than not sharing it. You are amazing so I'm happy you shared and I just want to learn more! Hope the best for your own personal growth and on CZcams!
I love how genuine you are in this video. Also, this was kind of what I needed 💛
You are really lovely, and a good fresh energy for this platform. Thanks for making these videos. We definitely need you here.
a masterclass in punching fear in the face and doing what you want to do. Love this example of the creative act.
What a wormderful video, thank you for posting!
I can't say enough just how happy I am to have found this video. I feel exactly how you feel about philosophy and how creating things can help others. I also get stuck up really bad with my thoughts with the imaginary scenarios and internal debate. I'm now inspired to want to make videos which I've always wanted to do for CZcams but I never really did. It's also a lot of work editing but I guess that's something I'd have to get used to. I really like your diagram on the Happiness to Suffering compare and contrast. It's also really cool that you're very transparent and honest when making the video and I think that can inspire to be themselves and be comfortable with these types of things. Thank you for this video. I hope you continue to make videos and have fun with them. You're really intuitive, creative, and logical which are things I feel like are lacking in this world nowadays. Keep it up👍🏽
I've always had CZcamsr aspirations growing up (am 22) but I never really followed up on them. I've been thinking about it even more lately, this is honestly probably a sign. I really like this video! Good job. :) 👍
Ur very pretty and u definitely did influence me, I’ve always wanted to make videos for the same reasons u listed but we’ll see what I do with my life lol
Wow thank you :) I hope you pursue anything you want to in life
Please, for the love of god, please make some philosophy livestreams, I’m sure many of us would love to hear your thoughts and discuss them in real time
I feel seen watching this video. It popped up on my feed in a crucial moment. I really needed to hear this. Thank you for your story
i feel like a dumbass when i listen to someone so wise and smart great vid
honestly great vid, hope to see more of this from you in the future
Thank you so much wow🫶 hope to make more in the future haha
That’s such an inspiring video Lauren ❤
Regarding friends or vet school or outside judgements in general: your outlooks about them come from fears and anxiety. Think about it this way: imagine the friends you’d meet because you started CZcams; people who’d like you for you are because they see you so clearly now. Imagine getting into a school because they like you and what you’re saying and doing.
I think we focus way too much on the negative possibilities of our actions, not realising that most things we do usually bring something positive into our lives.
Banger 🔥 I miss this types of videos, its like raw OG youtube. You remind me of me and i never see people show that online
This is great. I made videos for 10 years and slowed down over the past 2 years leading to a decline in my self confidence but I still love it. Nowadays I just have a hard time fitting it in to my schedule. This was really encouraging ❤
I relate to this a lot, with my channel i just like to upload for the purpose of archiving my life moments onto the internet and though it wont get that much views, future generations will be curious enough during our time period of growing up and might come across seeing my videos maybe even relating to some stranger that has grown old or long passed away. Also having something to look forward to everyday such as uploading a short clip of my life actually makes me motivated enough to have other daily tasks in my schedule. Hope your channel grows bigger this video was very nice!
I started my youtube channel a few weeks ago and I've already noticed a difference in the way I speak and talk about things in person (I'm naturally an introvert who always trails off and never finish my sentences lol). I spent so long on my first video trying to make sure I speak as clearly as possible, but I quickly realized that it's something I can slowly learn rather than try to perfect immediately. Watching this video of you talking about how youtube creates a positive impact on your life is really eye-opening, and is exactly the push I need to continue my journey! I also love how authentic and honest you are, which is incredibly refreshing to see. Keep it up!!! :) 🥰
Thanks Lauren, I started my channel this month. I definitely have a lot to learn and improve on, but I'm happy that I finally started 😊
Such a great video Lauren. Your reasoning for making videos and stopping making videos is much the same as mine. I was making videos when I was 13. Then I stopped, and I'm just now getting back into it. Excited to watch your journey!
Hi Lauren! We think in such a similar way, not a monologue inside but a dialogue with future, present, and past selves. It is overwhelming, and I am proud of you for being vulnerable with us and show it. I spend so much time doing this part off camera so on camera I can appear somewhat “presentable”. But you are presentable! You make sense to me this way. You are inspiring me to be braver thank you. I am sorry for random hate comments I hope you can ignore them!
I enjoyed watching your thought process👏🏾👏🏾
Lauren this video helped me so much. I was making CZcams videos since middle school and my “friends” at the time shamed me and made me feel so stupid for deciding to document my life. People see it as narcissism but rather that.. I see it as a diary. Thank you so much for sharing this. I relate to you so heavy 😭😭😭
This is pretty interesting, I think if I started talking to the camera like I talk to myself in my head I'd push alot of people away 😂😂
Hey Lauren, excited to see you grow. Keep creating good stuff. Don't quit.
Not even done yet but I really love how raw and authentic this is helps inspire me to just get started with my channel myself.
Thanks for making this video, it definitely brought me happiness. You were great and it was really admirable to see how you worked through the negatives and cancelled them out. I'm gonna try making a video this month and see how it goes!
I'd love to see more philosophy related videos from you, it was really fun to witness your trail of thought. I've tried several times to make videos on CZcams but I always get caught up in trying to get views or get discouraged that there's a lack of reach, but you've convinced me to try again.
Hi this was so good. One problem I have with starting my own channel is that i get in a rut of whether i want to share what i record or just keep it for myself, and if i'm somewhat selling my soul a bit by sharing parts of my personal life online
Thank you for making this video, your inspiration will live positively through many of us
you are so sweet! and the timing was so right, just when I need it the most. That’s incredible!
I have no idea why I was recommended your video, and I don’t know why I watched. But I am glad I did
You are half my age but twice as wise! I can tell this video took courage, but it paid off imo.
A lot of lightbulbs went off in my head as your video progressed, thank you for your insights.
Also, I live on a farm and work with vets all the time. If you want to follow that route, imo, here are three things every good vet has:
1- a deep sense of love, empathy, sympathy for all patients/animals
2- a strong technical command & understanding of biology, math, etc. and the tools at your disposal
3- a constantly evolving customer service skill set (you will have to give your share of bad news to scared, vulnerable people)
If you can demonstrate your understanding of these three, getting into vet school will be a breeze.
Interviewers are trained to sniff BS. However, true passion for the craft is something you cannot fake or hide, and they can smell that too.
Thanks again and best of luck!
This video feels so authentic and is really encouraging to me at least because I just want to share to the world the things I love, but I feel like it's not worth it because of fear of judgement or just because I feel like it won't make a difference in someone else's life. Loved your approach in this video, especially since I didn't know about utilitarianism, thanks for this! I wish you success with your YT channel, I've already subscribed and hope you hit 3k soon!
This must be the most wholesome of random youtube suggestion i've ever got..
Thank you for listening to yourself - which is bold and badass on it's own - and doing what you're doing with such genuine honesty. Just a few days ago i've been talking with a friend about how important it is that people share their ideas/thoughts/authentic selves with the world even if it means overcoming inner conflicts and fears, of which rejection sensitivity is probably one of the most difficult to. This is seriously inspiring, it initiates the chain of positive impact and growth, and just..makes me happy! So thank you, and looking forward to see and hear more of what you have to share!
you are a light ! love how pure your video is !
this is great, its almost as if we can all relate how raw and unedited this video is. most of us dont see this side on youtube. kinda like this style.
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honestly this was such a good video. I feel like you can still justify creating a youtube channel even with the opposite of utilitarianism, deontology. especially when you were speaking about adversities, as long as you are aligned with your moral duties and views, you can use loads of different ethical frameworks to justify your choice in making videos, so it must be a good idea, right? i think its interesting how two opposite ideas can be used to justify creating art.
but anyway, i loved this video and I'm so excited to see more :D
She got a beautiful soul
these are exactly the kinds of conversations I have with myself and find them very comforting. great job!
As you grow old, you do get moments of disassociation with your past self and sometimes your recognize that consciously. Then you can also further imagine that your future self will be feeling similar things about your present self. The present is indeed fleeting and your character is never exactly the same. You cannot step in the exact same river again. The Ship of Theseus paradox applies to the neurons of our brain and time as well. But don't fret about it. Treat each moment, each instance of yourself as "the One" and make the best decisions for the situation and your current version of self.
"All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us." - J.R.R. Tolkien
literally these are all such valid points. thank you past lauren, you've increased happiness in the world after i watched this:) might start a youtube channel now.....
I'm so glad to hear that :) don't ever be scared to do the things you're passionate about
Completely agree that having consistency in your life makes you more resilient and something that i definitely need to work on! Love how authentic and transparent you are in your video and wish you the best on your youtube journey girl! 🙌🏻💕✨
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I found this immensely useful! As a guy who has a lot of voices in his head, I'm going to be making videos to help others and saving time the things that I do like photography, fixing things, and my interest in cards. Thank you so much for going beyond what you think would happen to you. From a random person who is on CZcams I love you for what you have done. It is honorable. And you may have gone through so many things that have battered you, but you have to believe that this is only a moment in time and what you want is what you'll get. It won't be 100% what you want, but you will be much closer to that than anything else after you look back whenever you choose to do some. And if that's okay? Good! If not? Change the direction and do the same thing over again! This is long as you feel that you're making a change for yourself and for the others around you? You will find those people that you need or even want, or you will end up taking care of people and that's rewarding in itself just like how you said your one video may have zero views and eventually help one person and there you go!
You are a kind soul Lauren. Trust me, I know one when I see one. Deep down I think you have the feeling of uncertainy. I am just here to tell you it's valid, legitimate and everything will be ok. I know it will. That was a beautiful video!
Lauren im so glad i decided to watch your video. From the get go I loved how you described what its like to record yourself and forever have a piece or part of that version of yourself even if that wasnt your intention for pressing the record button it still counts as that. Keep going girlie!!
A Great find on YT, the screen feels like a window to you, getting to know your perspective is the point. that is youTube to know and learn from people around the world and vibe with our thoughts. love this video.
Hi Lauren, I've always wanted to have a CZcams channel but had many thoughts of other's opinion about me, but you're right, I don't need to change who I am and what I want because of people I don't even like, congrats from Brazil!
You can make your channel just about certain interests and not tell everyone about it. It’s a kind of freedom.
you're so eloquent and insightful, i've been influenced lol
that is so kind😭 can't wait to watch your CZcams channel :)
Have to shout you out on my first vid!!! Thanks so much for making this and reinforcing that voice in my head that tells me to just do it. Much appreciated!
Never thought about it like that. Thank you for your perspective
I resonated with so many things in this video. I fear what others will think of me. Especially what employers might think of me because of what I post. But also a stumbling block for me has just been feeling not creative. I don't see how I can always have things to talk about. Also I'm just lazy. So that part's my fault.
you inspired me to restart my youtube channel, i made youtube videos since i was 13 too now 24 and i stoppped around 20 , alot of things like yeah judgement and like not growing etc but now i have a new purpose honestly its been calling to me to make videos again , i feel like with my voice and what i have to say it would be selfish not to start because it can help people and alot of people have been telling me i did , i just wanna say ur doing great n u will go far just keep pushing
this is my youtube channel , one of which , i will give u a shoutout on my next video! you inspired me thank you
i think everyone should be themselves n make their own videos out of creativity n know that the right people will find them and that they have something unique to offer , even if other people are doing it alrdy ur way of doing it is what someone will resonate more with ykwim
This was so helpful as I am also trying to document parts of my life and this brought up some interesting points :) I wish you all the best in creating.
What a cool unexpected video. I'm happy the algorithm recommended your video. As someone who started a month or so, the journey is fun and the act of just posting what you enjoy most and getting a comment or two makes it worthwhile.
This made more sense than you know! Glad I came across this! Keep awakening enjoy the journey!
I'm so glad you liked it & thank you😭
i am going to open my channel by the end of this week no metter what, i was t thinking about this for a long time. but i shouldn't have overthink it, i should have just open it. (i am very sick right now).
btw just imagine, if 10k people watch this and 5 of them open a youtube channel and one of them makes a video about "how to see beatifullness in life" and one person watches it and act good to his family. or more
thx to you
update i have opened a chanel. recorded some video and realised that my phone is the worst. so I ordered an action camera. one step at a time.
Great video! I instantly subscribe. Thanks for the inspiration! I’ve been procrastinating doing the same thing and now feeling inspired ✨
Subscribed. Lauren's are such a rare sight to find on this platform. Popular tubeyoube videos are so shallow & vapid. Really love the authenticity.
I'm very critical, and tend to do tons of research on different topics thoughout CZcams. Creating a channel will help me express, and and show different views from how people view themselves, and others. This video is a great way to help me figure out what I want to do.
We can’t wait to hear your opinions on different topics on here :)
All right Lauren Kim, i go make youtube videos in some near future, thank you =D
yayyyy we can't wait to see it :D
Thank you for being so real in front of the camera! I've struggled a lot over the years trying to figure out who I want to be in front of the camera myself. The way you correlate philosophy with your own journey through CZcams really hit home with me. And me being a logical person who has wanted to follow my own dreams of becoming a content creator (making videos since 2011) then learning editing so I could hide flaws I see in myself. I know for a fact from now on I am going to try to be a lot more real in my own content creation journey! Thank you so much and great video!! +1 Subscriber and best of luck in your future on this everchanging platform "YOU"tube!!! ❤️🔥😭
Your genuine energy is refreshing
We need more positivity like the kind you exude! I agree, anybody who wants to should definitely make a YT channel. Glad YT recommended your channel on the side, Lauren. :D
Your youtube WILL BE A SUCCESS 💖
Wishing your channel the best too :)
@@lrnjulie thank youuu 🫶🏼
I just randomly came across you but I love your philosophy.
Thank you so much, this is the sign I was looking for. I also made videos at 13 about animation but stopped because of lack of discipline and fear. But that desire is constantly follow me. And now you motivated me, I'm gonna do my in list of reasons. Thank you so much ❤
The real suffering of a creator 14:15 😅
Really appreciate for putting out such a thoughtful video. 🌿
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