My husband and I are blind. We are authors. We have been published. We read. You can read with your ears/it's called audio, if you don't wish to learn braille. We write on the computer, it's called typing and we use a screen reader, nvda, it's amazing and free. The fact anyone feels they can't do such basic things is really infuriating and insulting and frankly shockingly ignorant for 2022/2023. Really, thought people were smarter these days, sorry but seriously, Bruh. I am typing this all by my blind self right now. LOL. BTW, thank you for describing your paintings, that was cool, so I could understand your art a bit. Very neat. I love anything fantasy for art and did you say you painted a doll? Very cool/interesting/spooky. Randomly I wanted to add that I am not one of those super easily offended people, really it takes a lot but wow.
So you won't allow someone to grieve the loss of their sight? I can't be sad about this for even a moment? I don't get to be scared for my future for even one single moment? I understand that blindness is not the end of the world and there are many alternatives i can learn. But seriously, I can't even make a video describing my condition, and how I got it, and how others can prevent themselves from getting it. Did you even watch my follow-up video? But Thanks for being the sole arbitrator of how everyone should feel about their own medical condition. If I was just diagnosed with cancer would you shame me for that too? Would you call me ignorant for being sad & scared? Would you call my video infuriating and shocking if it was about cancer? Or a stroke? Or paralisys?
Wow. Congrats. You managed to make this about you somehow. It's really sad that you weaponize your own disability against someone in the midst of a really terrifying and tragic circumstance in some strange sense of self-righteousness. I'm sorry. The fact is you have a disability that literally no one wants to have. Someone coming to grips with having said disability is going through immense pain and grief. This has no bearing on your value as a person, and I'd highly recommend you leave such people alone to deal with it how they see fit rather than interpreting it as an attack against your tribe.
My God, no matter WHAT there will always be those people huh...so sorry Mr Durfee, you're such a gifted individual, I'm currently reading your trilogy now and it is a banger. No matter what happens, take comfort in knowing you've touched the lives of so many people and have left a wonderful mark on this miserable world.
@@B.LEE.DbrianleedurfeeREVIEWS I know it’s hard durfee but don’t pay any attention to that piece of garbage hater. THANK YOU for everything you do and being so open with your fans. Your feelings about what your going through are completely natural and that guy is just a tool. I love your energy and your channel is great keep it up and I pray you are able to continue doing what you love for as long as possible. Durfee for president!
I'm absolutely crushed for you, Brian. One of my biggest fears as my eyes have degraded rapidly the past decade is losing sight. What is happening to you simply isn't fair and I hate it. Love you, Bubba.
@@B.LEE.DbrianleedurfeeREVIEWS Hello Mr Durfee. I found your channel today from watching YoBiebs Reads. If you can please consider reading/listening to a book called The Invisible Rainbow. It gets into how electromagnetic fields of all kinds are effecting us all in different ways. What you said about your blood pressure is what compelled me to leave this comment. You may have a few ah-ha moments from this book. Eye issues are increasing at a rapid rate. It truly is a must read and you may be able to help mitigate some of the harm if you feel it resonates as such. I'm so sorry you have experienced this. Your paintings are beautiful. You're very gifted. Perhaps you could learn braille and the best case scenario your eyesight stabilizes or perhaps improves. I never rule anything out. Wishing you well!
I never cried watching a youtube video, but you got me with this one. You’ve always defied expectations and have faith you’ll come out of this stronger than ever! Just remember that nothing can suppress talent and expression when it comes from the heart. We will keep following and appreciating you regardless.
I can't begin to imagine how devastating this must be for you as an artist, writer, and, of course, a reader. I admire the honesty and strength it took to do this on CZcams because you don't owe us anything about your private life or medical condition. For you to do this shows the kind of person you are. Honour and love to you from this dedicated subscriber. Wishing you the best!
“You know that illness is a precious gift that God gives us to make us feel the weakness of our soul by the weakness of our body.” ~Francois Fenelon. I’m going blind, too. I’m 57 and it started a year ago.
This breaks my heart, Brian. Your talent is enormous. To be able to paint so incredibly well and to also be a successful author is amazing. Your artistic achievements have been brilliant. Also, your channel means an awful lot to us, your viewers. We love you. We really do. Hang in there, my friend.
I’m really sorry for what is happening. The only silver lining I can think of is we live in an age where audiobooks are really accessible. I’ll keep watching all your reviewers and supporting you, you got this! Just like how you went from painting to writing published novels I’m sure you can make things work.
I am absolutely sad over this, Brian. Your art, whether it's painting or books, is amazing. But more than that, you're a great person, and you don't deserve any of this happening to you. There's not much I can do except pray and hope that things WILL get better for you. Once again, so sorry to hear this, and I wish you nothing but the best. :(
Nothing but love for you Durfee. Absolutely devastated for you and just want you to know your books kick ass, your paintings kick ass, I hope your Raiders kick ass this season. It's truly unfair that your vision is failing you and potentially taking so many talents from the world. I sincerely wish nothing but the best for you and hope that the surgery at least corrects it enough to stave off your vision loss for a while.
Brian, I was so devastated to hear this and it's so unfair. I wish you the very best, and if there is anybody who can kick this problem in the ass and come out on top - it's you!
hey! I found you on Mike's book reviews. just want to say that I am legally blind and was raised by a totally blind mother along with my 7 brother and sisters. the loss of eyesight is scary, but you don't have to give up all your dreams. there are lots of blind artists and content creators out there. you are not alone and there is great support out there.
Oh man my brother. You got me back into reading daily and now your dealing with this?! I will read for you brother. I hope it goes as good as it possibly can.
I am just heartbroken reading this. I know what it's like losing vision in one eye as it has happened to me. But the thought of a wonderful artist like yourself losing his vision devastates me. As a side note, I live just outside Ann Arbor Michigan. It's the home of one of the greatest medical centers in the world. Home also to one of the greatest eye care centers on the planet. Have you considered coming here to be assessed? They saved part on my vision in my right eye. My situation was nor as dire as your but perhaps they could help? I'm with you no matter what. Your posts are enlightening and fun no matter the genre you are discussing. I look forward to your discussions and enthusiasm every evening. We love you Brian.
I know words don’t do any justice, but I want you to know how much your books and channel have meant to me. Just sending love your way man. Stay strong my dude.
It’s heartbreaking to watch this. Brian, you’re one in a million brother. As someone who’s life is dedicated towards reading and introducing my passion to others, I can’t imagine what you must be going through. As bleak as the situation appears now, please know that there is a life beyond this. Me and all your followers will always be there for you. You’ve beaten the odds many times before and I’m sure you’re going to end up overcoming this setback and emerge triumphant once again. Much love brother ❤️
As a fellow life long reader.. I can't imagine being faced with this. You're in my prayers man. Thank you for putting your art into the world, the world is better with your paintings and fiction in it. Get well soon man
This was pretty heartbreaking. I feel so bad and just want you to know how much I appreciate not only your channel but your books and art as well. You're an incredibly talented guy with a heart of gold. The world would be better off with more people like you. Best wishes to you, sending all my positive energy to you
I am blind, and because of screen readers, I can write and read. Book share, will give you access to a lots of information, though it is with synthesized speech. You can write, as long as you have a good familiarity with the keyboard. Painting, that’s a different story all together. If you need any help, feel free to contact me. I am Dictation for gas because I’m lazy. So please do not judge the quality of my writing by my dictation.
Your paintings ARE INCREDIBLE!!! Love your library too I’m crushed to hear about your eyes… at least you caught it early hopefully you’ll have your sight for many more years to come my friend
1. Great video 2. Those paintings are amazing 3. Your content is excellent 4. I know you'll continue to do great things 5. I'm looking forward to every new thing you do
I'm so sorry. This must be devastating. I lost my health 15 years ago and never got it back. It has changed every aspect of my life. I learned to focus on the things that I CAN do. I recomend Ryan Holladay's audio book on stoicism.: "The obstacle is the way". Stoicism is a good way to navigate the world for people with health challenges. Not sure if you are intetested in this, but there are some great braille word-processors (BrailleSense Polaris) and other tools for the vision impaired. You can still create. You can still write. You can still impact the world with your writing. You are a man who overcomes challenges. You will overcome this. Keep going brother.
Day may come when you may not be able to see us, but we see you and will be here to appreciate your amazing talent and passion for all you do. Here's hoping you defy the odds in every regard. much respect.
I’m so sorry brother! Those paintings are so good I thought they were digital at first! They are well worth 10k for the time and effort you put into them
It is incredibly painful after so many years of reading and dedication and writing that now all of a sudden it's gone. I am truly sorry. However, the challenge now is to try and remain optimistic with what you can do, with what you have. It will take time to get used to it no doubt, but now more than ever are audiobooks much more relevant for not just the handicapped, but even those that struggle in reading itself. (not everyone prefers to read, some prefer to listen) This is a new chapter in your life where hearing will be your main tool going forward, you won't miss out on the stories. They will always be there, to be listened or to be read to you. As well as writing, perhaps you can't write, but you can record your stories verbally. Have them being written, think of it as another style. You would become an excellent storyteller. Keep your chin up, imagination is the key to everything, and all the reading you have done throughout your life has prepared you for this moment, when now your ears will become the medium to your imagination. I know perhaps it's not encouraging enough what I say, but most important is to maintain your optimism. With a little adjustment, you can and will continue to "hear" and "tell" stories. Stay safe brother.
Hi Brian, I'm no doctor. The doctors told you it's inevitable, but don't let that put you down. In every case, there is always a chance and it's not too late. Eat healthy, exercise and take vitamins if you need. I'm rooting for you.
That just sucks! As someone who also fell into the small percentage of people who got certain unlikely complications to diseases, I feel your pain. It's so unfair. Thanks so much for giving to the world in all the ways that you have and will.
I am so sorry, Brian. Obviously I don’t know if anything I can say will help at all, but I can’t imagine what you are going through right now. You are such an incredible talent in every type of art medium you touch and I can’t tell you how much joy this channel and your reviews have brought me over the past few years. I, along with this entire community, are here for you and are wishing you the absolute best.
I've been kinda lurking on this channel since I got into Grimdark Fantasy and heard about "The Forgetting Moon". It's probably about 2 years ago by now. I'm still fairly new to booktube. But because of you... I now have plastic slips on all my hardcover books. Also, I have a co-worker that has been reading fantasy since the 80s. He loves David Weber but I never considered giving him a shot... until you did a book review for the Safehold Series. (Which I still watch from time to time) But I'm not touching it until I finish the Five Warrior Angels Series. Damnit, this is terrible news. I know you try to keep it PG-13 on this channel but this is extremely fucked up. I just wanted to say thanks for everything and that we fuckin love you, man. As long as you keep making content. I'll keep watching and supporting. Riding with you until the wheels fall off. Wishing you nothing but the best.
OMG!!! No one deserves this. I’m so sorry, Brian. My eyes are fading fast…and now seem to read books with larger print. I hope that somehow out there science is moving to help you and others. Your spirit is infectious. Your vast knowledge steals many in the right direction. Hugs from across the pond.
You are a strong man with incredible talents and compassion, and while its cruel that life is taking this away from you. You live in an age were technology can do the heavy lifting for you for some things. We're still here. Computer adaptations for the blind are getting better all the time, audio books are a great option, Braille is worth considering if you want to the solitude and quiet reading experience back. I sympathise greatly, and I hope you keep writing, even if you have to use audio dictation. Don't lose hope, and thank you for sharing.
As a visually disabled person myself, you do not need to worry about reading an writing, because you can still type and read with screenreaders or braille displays. I am sure this will work out for you, do not lose hope. I just started Forgetting Moon, well the german version, and like it so far, so I hope there will be more. All the best to you.
I’m so sorry this is happening to you. Especially as a writer and painter it must be devastating. My mother started to go blind when I was 15. It’s crazy to think that she’s now been blind for more of my life than she could see. I will say that there are so many more services available now than there were 20 years ago. Braille availability has improved. And there are library services for blind/visually impaired that may have some of the older books in your collection that Audible may not have. Don’t stop writing! There are screen readers, and excellent talk-to-text technology that they have available. All Apple products are amazing for their accessibility. My mom has a lot of those things. She’s still very independent and does most things (including cooking) for herself. She still sees all the movies because now everything has descriptive audio. Her losing her sight is one of the hardest adjustments we’ve ever had to make. But over time we did adjust. We learned to laugh at things she would get into, and my dad and I had to get way better at giving directions. Don’t hesitate to start taking advantage of the services available, even though you still have vision left. It can make you feel better to know that you’re taking steps now to set up for the future. Surround yourself with good people. And keep telling stories. Your vision may change but you as a person will remain the same. If I’ve learned nothing else from my mom, it’s that even with medical issues you can still have a full and fun life, just with a few modifications.🤗🤗🤗🤗
Brian- I am so saddened to hear of your tragic diagnosis. I hope you are able to continue living how YOU want to for as long as possible. Live long and prosper, my friend.
I'm so sorry that you are going through this. Just seeing this video two years later, but I hope that this is somehow in the mercials that happen to people in this universe happens to you, I believe that you are the type of person that NEEDS a mercial. You do good with the your eyesight, you write books (that I LOVE, some of my favorite books of all time) and then you read books, then review them so that we can watch your videos. It just pains me to see you in this pain, and know that we are here with you every step of the way. The end of the video got me crying as well. We love you Durfee! ❤
This video made me cry! I have no words to describe how bad I feel for you. I watch all your videos, and I am about to start reading your books, I've been a long time fan and I think we both love books in the same way and I would be devastated if something happened to my vision. I hope the medication works and everything turns out okay for you. Wishing you the best Mr. Durfee!!!
As a patient of another non-fatal yet uncurable disease, I can definitely relate to those feeling. You are a talented painter and a brilliant writer, I wish all the best for you, and stay strong, in this day and age, who knows how fast the medication may advance, there's always hope.
My buddy of 55 is a DM trained by TSR and had a stroke a few years ago, and he also has that extended blood pressure hell going on. Thank you for giving context to his situation.
Brian, I am shattered by your story. As a fellow writer and artist, I can only imagine the heartbreak and confusion, and while I won't say everything will be ok (sounds kinda trite), I am certain your imagination and will to create will stay strong... and your ability to do so -- although potentially altered -- will stay viable. And always remember that time has ways of working things out via channels we never knew (or that did not exist when our journeys began) if we only stay open to them. We are pulling for you. We care about you. Always wishing you the best.
Heartbreaking. 😢 You’re strong and will use your deep well of creativity to craft a life that will uncover even more talents and gifts to continue to bless the world. This is incredibly sad for me and I can’t imagine dealing with such a challenging situation. My heart goes out to you.
I just started following you not too long ago and read both books. I’m sorry man! This video really got to me. I couldn’t even begin to understand losing a hobby I love due to a medical condition. Thinking about you bud!
I can relate insofar as I lost my paramedic career after 16 years of working on ambulances and became completely disabled due to health problems, but what you're losing is not just a career; it's also a passion. However even if you never put paint to canvass again, you've already enriched the world with truly stunning artwork! Just as you switched to writing with the first challenge you faced, I'm sure you'll always have an outlet for your creative energies.
Oh man, I'm so sad,i used to have much respect for you but now i am proud! There's a "curse" for every true artist and a heavy cross for every good person and i believe that you will always see with your heart and soul and remain a lighthouse for us..
Brian, you are an extraordinary person and I believe that you will find ways to express yourself no matter the challenges and we are all here for it. I hope the treatments slow down the progression by a substantial margin, but just know everything you have done so far has made a difference in the peoples lives that have read, watched, and seen your work, and I think you will continue to do so.
I'm sorry to hear about this, Brian. Our bodies are so fragile. Here's hoping advancements in cybernetics and nanotech will be here before we know it. Brian Lee Durfee, Booktube Cyborg has a nice ring to it. Anyway, love your channel, and I'm hoping having so many fans who love what you do helps keep your spirits up. All the best, sir.
DAMN man, I cannot get over how real, how photographic your paintings are. I can't process it. I've dabbled in painting over the years, nothing exciting, but I could never get water down. I avoided water as much as I could. Yours? I could run my fingers thru it. Fn impressive
Brian, man, I am so so sorry. I recently found I may have glaucoma, and I've had other eye problems all my life - this is literally my worst nightmare. It is absolutely heart breaking to see this. I just want you to know, for whatever it is worth, that I care for you, and that I will be here supporting you cause you're a fuckin' awesome human being, and nothing is gonna change that. Much love for you, brother.
Mr Brian I am so sorry to hear that this is happening to you. You are a strong individual as evidenced by you sharing this devastating news with us. Godspeed
Both my in-laws are blind and it hasn't stopped them. It will not stop you. It may lead you down a different path but you will ultimately achieve your goals. Stay strong. Walk tall. Conquer all. Love from Canada.
This is so heart breaking. I don't know what to say other than I am so sorry this has happened to you and I hope you get as long as is possible to continue in these endeavours that you so clearly love, and can continue to entertain us with your awesome videos for as long as possible.
Brian I am so so sorry you're going through this. I will pray for you, even if you ask me not to, I care about you. Your enthusiasm, your love for fantasy and for books are just contagious. I've been looking forward to your books ever since I found out about them and your channel. I hope you'll get to finish them, but if you can't i'll still watch your videos. You can still do them with audiobooks, and I'll be waiting no matter how long it takes. You are a gem. I have diabetes and losing sight is a real possibility. I hope you keep going, no matter what happens. I'll be here to cheer you on.
I have had the same injections for a different condition. I too have a disconnect in my vision. It is scary. My only comfort is that the treatment allows me to see at least for now. And yes your paintings of water are good
I am so sorry. This is such sad news. Your paintings are gorgeous. I'm reading your book The Forgetting Moon and it's SO good. You are clearly a man of many talents. Hopefully the surgery will delay the deterioration. All the best to you.
Sorry to hear Brian... I will keep watching your videos and reading your books as long as you keep putting them out, I'm sure many others in the community will do the same!
I didn't plan on crying today, but here we are! Dude, I wish you the best of luck! Keep doing what makes you happy as long as you can. Who knows, technology is advancing so much that hopefully one day there is something that can help your situation. Godspeed my man.
Brian, I’m so glad I stumbled on your channel. You are such a brilliantly talented and creative soul. I wasn’t surprised when watching booktubers review your novels - EVERY ONE of them had to mention what a kind a generous person you are. Just ordered “The Forgetting Moon,” can’t wait to dive in! You are loved and appreciated! ❤
I am so sorry, man! It's not fair that this would happen to you, when you're such a talented guy. May you find happiness still as you're absolutely awesome!
Well, damnit. I hate when the crappy hard things happen to the best people. I am so sorry. Sending you so much love. I trust, that though it may seem impossible right now, you and your generous, creative soul will find a way through. Please don't be shy letting us fans and followers know how we can support you.
All of your videos have been a huge inspiration. It takes courage to face life with that darkness on the horizon, but you’ll never have to face it alone
Brian, I came across your channel about two months ago. I've been hooked since. You have been singularly responsible for getting me back into reading - both classics and fantasy. I am purchasing books again. Many of them. Yours included. Fiction has returned to my life and it is thanks to you... I am gutted by this news. My heart hurts. However, you are an incredibly talented and clever man. If anyone can figure out a way to continue being productive and creative, I know it is you. I am confident you will find a way. I look forward to your future videos and writing. I eagerly await them all... You are inspirational. I thank you for your efforts. Sending love and thinking of you. Eddie
I'm so sorry you have this eye problem. It must have been so scary first finding out. You're a very funny, warm and outstanding personality and seeing how strong you handle this gives me strength in my life struggles. God bless you man. You're a wonderful person. The artistic accomplishments you've made are truly outstanding. I'll be searching out your magic the gathering cards and artwork.
Oh man. That is rough and I'm so sorry you have to go through it. I had an accident when I was in college that blinded me for a month. I didn't think I was getting my vision back but I did over time thanks to awesome medical intervention. But I do know the gut wrenching feeling and don't wish it on anyone. Stay strong.
I'm so sorry you are going through such a difficult time. I'm wishing you the best. Growing accustom to a massive change is difficult but know that you are still capable of creativity and expression even without your eyesight. I have faith you will take this new phase of life in stride. Take your time and when you are ready I'm sure you'll take life by the horns. Best wishes
Nothing to add but am a fan and want you to know that you are a treasure. Hopefully there's some hope or counseling you can receive from others who have been through something similar
Was devastated to hear about your health issues yesterday. We are praying that your eyes will recover from this. You are a blessing to this platform and we support you no matter what.
I don’t know what to say because there are no words to say it. You have been blessed with incredible talent in art and writing and reviewing and it’s a sad world that takes that from you.
I am so sorry my friend! Reading has been my passion as a teen and young adult. I've stopped reading couple years ago, this video has reignited my passion for reading. You never know how blessed you are until something happens. I wish you all the best, you got yourself a new subscriber. I am currently re-reading the Wheel of Time series, and how I missed it!
So heartbreaking to hear that your vision is failing. What a wonderful painter you've been - that art will live on as will your writing. Keep up the good fight and may you come out on the other side with a good result.
This is heartbreaking news, Brian, and I am so sorry you have to go through this. My words are too feeble to help you, but I hope you know that you can and will get through this. You are stronger than you know. If possible ask a friend or loved one to come with you for the doctor appointments, it can be useful to have someone to help with the many questions and challenges ahead. Thousands of.people like myself watch your reviews daily, and look forward to them. You make a difference to all of us. Enjoy your days as much as you can.
After watching your video, I can't say how sorry I am for what is happening, as you are so full of life and have such a passion for all that you do. I'm hoping with medical improvements, as time goes by there will be something that will be developed to prolong your sight. I truly love your writing, adore your paintings, and your channel. My prayers are with you.
Brian. I just finished your first book and this is your first video that I’ve watched of yours. I’m saddened to hear about this horrible medicine condition that you have. Thanks for being open with your fans.
I am so sorry. Please try to keep your chin up and have faith that the doctors can find a way for you to keep your eyesight as long as possible. You are in my prayers.✨
I am so so sorry, Brian! I feel for you. I saw the vid title and was hoping it was one of your jokes. I pray and hope for complete healing somehow, but at the very least that you will be able to enjoy your love of reading well into old age. Regardless, hang in there and know that you are loved and appreciated.
Your work is incredible, Brian. What courage it takes to face a loss like this, and to keep fighting the good fight until the last possible moment. Your creative works continue to bring vibrant light into the world. And yeah, you absolutely kick ass at rendering water.
I just discovered your channel and subscribed a day or two ago. I watched 3 or 4 videos and instantly fell in love with you and your style. The right words are impossible to find, but after watching this I stopped immediately and sent out a heart felt prayer to you and for you, Brian. I'm praying and will continuing praying for you, man! 🙏🙏🙏 Thank you and God bless you!
Watching your videos, I feel like I’ve come to know you, or at least as well as one can know an internet entity on the other end of a computer screen. I’m so very sorry to hear you’re going through this scary situation, and it’s obviously one many of us fear as well. You’re handling it with more strength and courage than I could.
You're an inspiration and a bastion for readers and book-lovers, Durfee, and I am really, really sorry to hear this is happening to you. Your earlier videos on learning from the masters of epic fantasy, about doing 5 rereads of novels from Jordan, Martin, Tad Williams, and reading every possible genre and author, from Follett to Donna Tartt, science fiction to sword-and-sorcery, were HUGELY INSPIRING for me (I've actually rewatched those videos many times, particularly how you emphasized learning from the best, and how much authors who've come before have inspired you). You are that inspiration too, believe it! I'm sorry to hear this Brian, it's just not fair and in the midst of all of that, I really wish only the best for you. You're the real deal!!
So sorry to hear about this. We love you and are pulling for you. Thank you for being brave and sharing this with us. You are my absolute favorite booktuber. I love your fun, chaotic (in a great way) videos. Hang in there. Remember your health, both physically and mentally, comes first. If that means not releasing as many videos or even having to stop YouTubing someday, we will understand! Thank you for existing Brian. I wish you the best.
My husband and I are blind. We are authors. We have been published. We read. You can read with your ears/it's called audio, if you don't wish to learn braille. We write on the computer, it's called typing and we use a screen reader, nvda, it's amazing and free. The fact anyone feels they can't do such basic things is really infuriating and insulting and frankly shockingly ignorant for 2022/2023. Really, thought people were smarter these days, sorry but seriously, Bruh. I am typing this all by my blind self right now. LOL.
BTW, thank you for describing your paintings, that was cool, so I could understand your art a bit. Very neat. I love anything fantasy for art and did you say you painted a doll? Very cool/interesting/spooky.
Randomly I wanted to add that I am not one of those super easily offended people, really it takes a lot but wow.
So you won't allow someone to grieve the loss of their sight? I can't be sad about this for even a moment? I don't get to be scared for my future for even one single moment? I understand that blindness is not the end of the world and there are many alternatives i can learn. But seriously, I can't even make a video describing my condition, and how I got it, and how others can prevent themselves from getting it. Did you even watch my follow-up video? But Thanks for being the sole arbitrator of how everyone should feel about their own medical condition. If I was just diagnosed with cancer would you shame me for that too? Would you call me ignorant for being sad & scared? Would you call my video infuriating and shocking if it was about cancer? Or a stroke? Or paralisys?
Wow. Congrats. You managed to make this about you somehow. It's really sad that you weaponize your own disability against someone in the midst of a really terrifying and tragic circumstance in some strange sense of self-righteousness. I'm sorry. The fact is you have a disability that literally no one wants to have. Someone coming to grips with having said disability is going through immense pain and grief. This has no bearing on your value as a person, and I'd highly recommend you leave such people alone to deal with it how they see fit rather than interpreting it as an attack against your tribe.
And tone deaf to boot.
My God, no matter WHAT there will always be those people huh...so sorry Mr Durfee, you're such a gifted individual, I'm currently reading your trilogy now and it is a banger. No matter what happens, take comfort in knowing you've touched the lives of so many people and have left a wonderful mark on this miserable world.
@@B.LEE.DbrianleedurfeeREVIEWS I know it’s hard durfee but don’t pay any attention to that piece of garbage hater. THANK YOU for everything you do and being so open with your fans. Your feelings about what your going through are completely natural and that guy is just a tool. I love your energy and your channel is great keep it up and I pray you are able to continue doing what you love for as long as possible. Durfee for president!
I'm absolutely crushed for you, Brian. One of my biggest fears as my eyes have degraded rapidly the past decade is losing sight. What is happening to you simply isn't fair and I hate it. Love you, Bubba.
Looks like you got your health in order sooner than I did. Its weird how eyesight can be tied to simply eating better & exercise
@@B.LEE.DbrianleedurfeeREVIEWS Hello Mr Durfee. I found your channel today from watching YoBiebs Reads. If you can please consider reading/listening to a book called The Invisible Rainbow. It gets into how electromagnetic fields of all kinds are effecting us all in different ways. What you said about your blood pressure is what compelled me to leave this comment.
You may have a few ah-ha moments from this book. Eye issues are increasing at a rapid rate. It truly is a must read and you may be able to help mitigate some of the harm if you feel it resonates as such. I'm so sorry you have experienced this. Your paintings are beautiful. You're very gifted. Perhaps you could learn braille and the best case scenario your eyesight stabilizes or perhaps improves. I never rule anything out. Wishing you well!
I never cried watching a youtube video, but you got me with this one. You’ve always defied expectations and have faith you’ll come out of this stronger than ever! Just remember that nothing can suppress talent and expression when it comes from the heart. We will keep following and appreciating you regardless.
I can't begin to imagine how devastating this must be for you as an artist, writer, and, of course, a reader. I admire the honesty and strength it took to do this on CZcams because you don't owe us anything about your private life or medical condition. For you to do this shows the kind of person you are. Honour and love to you from this dedicated subscriber. Wishing you the best!
“You know that illness is a precious gift that God gives us to make us feel the weakness of our soul by the weakness of our body.” ~Francois Fenelon. I’m going blind, too. I’m 57 and it started a year ago.
This breaks my heart, Brian. Your talent is enormous. To be able to paint so incredibly well and to also be a successful author is amazing. Your artistic achievements have been brilliant.
Also, your channel means an awful lot to us, your viewers. We love you. We really do.
Hang in there, my friend.
I’m really sorry for what is happening. The only silver lining I can think of is we live in an age where audiobooks are really accessible. I’ll keep watching all your reviewers and supporting you, you got this! Just like how you went from painting to writing published novels I’m sure you can make things work.
I am absolutely sad over this, Brian. Your art, whether it's painting or books, is amazing. But more than that, you're a great person, and you don't deserve any of this happening to you. There's not much I can do except pray and hope that things WILL get better for you. Once again, so sorry to hear this, and I wish you nothing but the best. :(
Get well my friend!
Well said. 😭
Oh man. The end just broke my heart. Such a good soul ❤️
Nothing but love for you Durfee. Absolutely devastated for you and just want you to know your books kick ass, your paintings kick ass, I hope your Raiders kick ass this season. It's truly unfair that your vision is failing you and potentially taking so many talents from the world. I sincerely wish nothing but the best for you and hope that the surgery at least corrects it enough to stave off your vision loss for a while.
Brian, I was so devastated to hear this and it's so unfair. I wish you the very best, and if there is anybody who can kick this problem in the ass and come out on top - it's you!
this nightmare, or some variation, is coming for everyone in the world one day. we all need to get started changing ourselves
Holy shit Brian, I had no idea you painted. And they’re GREAT!
Thanks for everything you do and all that you give to us!
hey! I found you on Mike's book reviews.
just want to say that I am legally blind and was raised by a totally blind mother along with my 7 brother and sisters. the loss of eyesight is scary, but you don't have to give up all your dreams. there are lots of blind artists and content creators out there. you are not alone and there is great support out there.
Oh man my brother. You got me back into reading daily and now your dealing with this?! I will read for you brother. I hope it goes as good as it possibly can.
I am just heartbroken reading this. I know what it's like losing vision in one eye as it has happened to me. But the thought of a wonderful artist like yourself losing his vision devastates me. As a side note, I live just outside Ann Arbor Michigan. It's the home of one of the greatest medical centers in the world. Home also to one of the greatest eye care centers on the planet. Have you considered coming here to be assessed? They saved part on my vision in my right eye. My situation was nor as dire as your but perhaps they could help? I'm with you no matter what. Your posts are enlightening and fun no matter the genre you are discussing. I look forward to your discussions and enthusiasm every evening. We love you Brian.
I know words don’t do any justice, but I want you to know how much your books and channel have meant to me. Just sending love your way man. Stay strong my dude.
It’s heartbreaking to watch this. Brian, you’re one in a million brother. As someone who’s life is dedicated towards reading and introducing my passion to others, I can’t imagine what you must be going through.
As bleak as the situation appears now, please know that there is a life beyond this. Me and all your followers will always be there for you.
You’ve beaten the odds many times before and I’m sure you’re going to end up overcoming this setback and emerge triumphant once again. Much love brother ❤️
As a fellow life long reader.. I can't imagine being faced with this. You're in my prayers man. Thank you for putting your art into the world, the world is better with your paintings and fiction in it. Get well soon man
This was pretty heartbreaking. I feel so bad and just want you to know how much I appreciate not only your channel but your books and art as well. You're an incredibly talented guy with a heart of gold. The world would be better off with more people like you. Best wishes to you, sending all my positive energy to you
I am blind, and because of screen readers, I can write and read. Book share, will give you access to a lots of information, though it is with synthesized speech. You can write, as long as you have a good familiarity with the keyboard. Painting, that’s a different story all together. If you need any help, feel free to contact me. I am Dictation for gas because I’m lazy. So please do not judge the quality of my writing by my dictation.
Your paintings ARE INCREDIBLE!!! Love your library too I’m crushed to hear about your eyes… at least you caught it early hopefully you’ll have your sight for many more years to come my friend
So sorry. I'm a cancer survivor and understand the helplessness when your body betrays you. You are in my thoughts.
1. Great video
2. Those paintings are amazing
3. Your content is excellent
4. I know you'll continue to do great things
5. I'm looking forward to every new thing you do
Being of poor eyesight and from a family of eye problems going blind has been my number 1 fear all my life. Wishing you good luck, Brian
I'm so sorry. This must be devastating.
I lost my health 15 years ago and never got it back. It has changed every aspect of my life.
I learned to focus on the things that I CAN do. I recomend Ryan Holladay's audio book on stoicism.: "The obstacle is the way". Stoicism is a good way to navigate the world for people with health challenges.
Not sure if you are intetested in this, but there are some great braille word-processors (BrailleSense Polaris) and other tools for the vision impaired.
You can still create. You can still write. You can still impact the world with your writing. You are a man who overcomes challenges. You will overcome this. Keep going brother.
You are a great guy Brian! Hang in there. We are all rooting for you to continue to do what you love.
Day may come when you may not be able to see us, but we see you and will be here to appreciate your amazing talent and passion for all you do. Here's hoping you defy the odds in every regard. much respect.
I’m so sorry brother! Those paintings are so good I thought they were digital at first! They are well worth 10k for the time and effort you put into them
It is incredibly painful after so many years of reading and dedication and writing that now all of a sudden it's gone. I am truly sorry. However, the challenge now is to try and remain optimistic with what you can do, with what you have. It will take time to get used to it no doubt, but now more than ever are audiobooks much more relevant for not just the handicapped, but even those that struggle in reading itself. (not everyone prefers to read, some prefer to listen) This is a new chapter in your life where hearing will be your main tool going forward, you won't miss out on the stories. They will always be there, to be listened or to be read to you. As well as writing, perhaps you can't write, but you can record your stories verbally. Have them being written, think of it as another style. You would become an excellent storyteller.
Keep your chin up, imagination is the key to everything, and all the reading you have done throughout your life has prepared you for this moment, when now your ears will become the medium to your imagination. I know perhaps it's not encouraging enough what I say, but most important is to maintain your optimism.
With a little adjustment, you can and will continue to "hear" and "tell" stories. Stay safe brother.
Hi Brian, I'm no doctor. The doctors told you it's inevitable, but don't let that put you down. In every case, there is always a chance and it's not too late. Eat healthy, exercise and take vitamins if you need. I'm rooting for you.
That just sucks! As someone who also fell into the small percentage of people who got certain unlikely complications to diseases, I feel your pain. It's so unfair. Thanks so much for giving to the world in all the ways that you have and will.
I am so sorry, Brian. Obviously I don’t know if anything I can say will help at all, but I can’t imagine what you are going through right now. You are such an incredible talent in every type of art medium you touch and I can’t tell you how much joy this channel and your reviews have brought me over the past few years. I, along with this entire community, are here for you and are wishing you the absolute best.
Shayla called me yesterday and told me the sad news. I am so sorry brian. Please take care and know you are loved. Aunt kevin
I've been kinda lurking on this channel since I got into Grimdark Fantasy and heard about "The Forgetting Moon". It's probably about 2 years ago by now. I'm still fairly new to booktube. But because of you... I now have plastic slips on all my hardcover books. Also, I have a co-worker that has been reading fantasy since the 80s. He loves David Weber but I never considered giving him a shot... until you did a book review for the Safehold Series. (Which I still watch from time to time) But I'm not touching it until I finish the Five Warrior Angels Series.
Damnit, this is terrible news. I know you try to keep it PG-13 on this channel but this is extremely fucked up. I just wanted to say thanks for everything and that we fuckin love you, man. As long as you keep making content. I'll keep watching and supporting.
Riding with you until the wheels fall off. Wishing you nothing but the best.
OMG!!! No one deserves this. I’m so sorry, Brian. My eyes are fading fast…and now seem to read books with larger print. I hope that somehow out there science is moving to help you and others. Your spirit is infectious. Your vast knowledge steals many in the right direction. Hugs from across the pond.
You are a strong man with incredible talents and compassion, and while its cruel that life is taking this away from you. You live in an age were technology can do the heavy lifting for you for some things. We're still here. Computer adaptations for the blind are getting better all the time, audio books are a great option, Braille is worth considering if you want to the solitude and quiet reading experience back. I sympathise greatly, and I hope you keep writing, even if you have to use audio dictation. Don't lose hope, and thank you for sharing.
As a visually disabled person myself, you do not need to worry about reading an writing, because you can still type and read with screenreaders or braille displays. I am sure this will work out for you, do not lose hope. I just started Forgetting Moon, well the german version, and like it so far, so I hope there will be more. All the best to you.
Oh man, that's hard 💔
I’m so sorry this is happening to you. Especially as a writer and painter it must be devastating. My mother started to go blind when I was 15. It’s crazy to think that she’s now been blind for more of my life than she could see. I will say that there are so many more services available now than there were 20 years ago. Braille availability has improved. And there are library services for blind/visually impaired that may have some of the older books in your collection that Audible may not have. Don’t stop writing! There are screen readers, and excellent talk-to-text technology that they have available. All Apple products are amazing for their accessibility. My mom has a lot of those things. She’s still very independent and does most things (including cooking) for herself. She still sees all the movies because now everything has descriptive audio. Her losing her sight is one of the hardest adjustments we’ve ever had to make. But over time we did adjust. We learned to laugh at things she would get into, and my dad and I had to get way better at giving directions. Don’t hesitate to start taking advantage of the services available, even though you still have vision left. It can make you feel better to know that you’re taking steps now to set up for the future. Surround yourself with good people. And keep telling stories. Your vision may change but you as a person will remain the same. If I’ve learned nothing else from my mom, it’s that even with medical issues you can still have a full and fun life, just with a few modifications.🤗🤗🤗🤗
Brian- I am so saddened to hear of your tragic diagnosis. I hope you are able to continue living how YOU want to for as long as possible. Live long and prosper, my friend.
I'm so sorry that you are going through this. Just seeing this video two years later, but I hope that this is somehow in the mercials that happen to people in this universe happens to you, I believe that you are the type of person that NEEDS a mercial. You do good with the your eyesight, you write books (that I LOVE, some of my favorite books of all time) and then you read books, then review them so that we can watch your videos. It just pains me to see you in this pain, and know that we are here with you every step of the way. The end of the video got me crying as well.
We love you Durfee! ❤
This video made me cry! I have no words to describe how bad I feel for you. I watch all your videos, and I am about to start reading your books, I've been a long time fan and I think we both love books in the same way and I would be devastated if something happened to my vision. I hope the medication works and everything turns out okay for you. Wishing you the best Mr. Durfee!!!
Wow Brian, that’s awful! Thank you for sharing this with us.
I'm really sorry about that man. If theres any way any of us could help somehow, let us know. I'll be praying for you
As a patient of another non-fatal yet uncurable disease, I can definitely relate to those feeling. You are a talented painter and a brilliant writer, I wish all the best for you, and stay strong, in this day and age, who knows how fast the medication may advance, there's always hope.
No words, Brian. So sorry to hear this. Please keep strong.
My buddy of 55 is a DM trained by TSR and had a stroke a few years ago, and he also has that extended blood pressure hell going on. Thank you for giving context to his situation.
Brian, I am shattered by your story. As a fellow writer and artist, I can only imagine the heartbreak and confusion, and while I won't say everything will be ok (sounds kinda trite), I am certain your imagination and will to create will stay strong... and your ability to do so -- although potentially altered -- will stay viable. And always remember that time has ways of working things out via channels we never knew (or that did not exist when our journeys began) if we only stay open to them. We are pulling for you. We care about you. Always wishing you the best.
Heartbreaking. 😢
You’re strong and will use your deep well of creativity to craft a life that will uncover even more talents and gifts to continue to bless the world.
This is incredibly sad for me and I can’t imagine dealing with such a challenging situation. My heart goes out to you.
I just started following you not too long ago and read both books. I’m sorry man! This video really got to me. I couldn’t even begin to understand losing a hobby I love due to a medical condition. Thinking about you bud!
Sorry to hear this. You’re still the man, always. Love from all of us
I can relate insofar as I lost my paramedic career after 16 years of working on ambulances and became completely disabled due to health problems, but what you're losing is not just a career; it's also a passion. However even if you never put paint to canvass again, you've already enriched the world with truly stunning artwork! Just as you switched to writing with the first challenge you faced, I'm sure you'll always have an outlet for your creative energies.
Oh man, I'm so sad,i used to have much respect for you but now i am proud!
There's a "curse" for every true artist and a heavy cross for every good person and i believe that you will always see with your heart and soul and remain a lighthouse for us..
Great paintings! You have many skills.
Brian, you are an extraordinary person and I believe that you will find ways to express yourself no matter the challenges and we are all here for it. I hope the treatments slow down the progression by a substantial margin, but just know everything you have done so far has made a difference in the peoples lives that have read, watched, and seen your work, and I think you will continue to do so.
I'm sorry to hear about this, Brian. Our bodies are so fragile. Here's hoping advancements in cybernetics and nanotech will be here before we know it. Brian Lee Durfee, Booktube Cyborg has a nice ring to it. Anyway, love your channel, and I'm hoping having so many fans who love what you do helps keep your spirits up. All the best, sir.
DAMN man, I cannot get over how real, how photographic your paintings are. I can't process it. I've dabbled in painting over the years, nothing exciting, but I could never get water down. I avoided water as much as I could. Yours? I could run my fingers thru it. Fn impressive
Brian, man, I am so so sorry. I recently found I may have glaucoma, and I've had other eye problems all my life - this is literally my worst nightmare.
It is absolutely heart breaking to see this. I just want you to know, for whatever it is worth, that I care for you, and that I will be here supporting you cause you're a fuckin' awesome human being, and nothing is gonna change that.
Much love for you, brother.
Mr Brian I am so sorry to hear that this is happening to you. You are a strong individual as evidenced by you sharing this devastating news with us. Godspeed
Both my in-laws are blind and it hasn't stopped them. It will not stop you. It may lead you down a different path but you will ultimately achieve your goals. Stay strong. Walk tall. Conquer all. Love from Canada.
This news breaks my heart, Brian. You’re such a great guy and don’t deserve this at all. My heart goes out to you.
This is so heart breaking. I don't know what to say other than I am so sorry this has happened to you and I hope you get as long as is possible to continue in these endeavours that you so clearly love, and can continue to entertain us with your awesome videos for as long as possible.
Brian I am so so sorry you're going through this. I will pray for you, even if you ask me not to, I care about you. Your enthusiasm, your love for fantasy and for books are just contagious. I've been looking forward to your books ever since I found out about them and your channel. I hope you'll get to finish them, but if you can't i'll still watch your videos. You can still do them with audiobooks, and I'll be waiting no matter how long it takes. You are a gem. I have diabetes and losing sight is a real possibility. I hope you keep going, no matter what happens. I'll be here to cheer you on.
I have had the same injections for a different condition. I too have a disconnect in my vision. It is scary. My only comfort is that the treatment allows me to see at least for now.
And yes your paintings of water are good
Sorry to hear this, Brian. Hopefully this disease will stabilize with surgery and medication. My thought are with you!!
Praying for you Brian. This is truly devastating. Hoping for the Best for you and sending you well wishes.
I am so sorry. This is such sad news. Your paintings are gorgeous. I'm reading your book The Forgetting Moon and it's SO good. You are clearly a man of many talents. Hopefully the surgery will delay the deterioration. All the best to you.
Sorry to hear Brian... I will keep watching your videos and reading your books as long as you keep putting them out, I'm sure many others in the community will do the same!
I didn't plan on crying today, but here we are! Dude, I wish you the best of luck! Keep doing what makes you happy as long as you can. Who knows, technology is advancing so much that hopefully one day there is something that can help your situation. Godspeed my man.
Brian, I’m so glad I stumbled on your channel. You are such a brilliantly talented and creative soul. I wasn’t surprised when watching booktubers review your novels - EVERY ONE of them had to mention what a kind a generous person you are. Just ordered “The Forgetting Moon,” can’t wait to dive in! You are loved and appreciated! ❤
I am so sorry, man! It's not fair that this would happen to you, when you're such a talented guy. May you find happiness still as you're absolutely awesome!
Well, damnit. I hate when the crappy hard things happen to the best people. I am so sorry. Sending you so much love. I trust, that though it may seem impossible right now, you and your generous, creative soul will find a way through. Please don't be shy letting us fans and followers know how we can support you.
All of your videos have been a huge inspiration. It takes courage to face life with that darkness on the horizon, but you’ll never have to face it alone
Brian,
I came across your channel about two months ago. I've been hooked since. You have been singularly responsible for getting me back into reading - both classics and fantasy. I am purchasing books again. Many of them. Yours included.
Fiction has returned to my life and it is thanks to you...
I am gutted by this news. My heart hurts.
However, you are an incredibly talented and clever man. If anyone can figure out a way to continue being productive and creative, I know it is you. I am confident you will find a way.
I look forward to your future videos and writing. I eagerly await them all...
You are inspirational. I thank you for your efforts.
Sending love and thinking of you.
Eddie
I'm so sorry you have this eye problem. It must have been so scary first finding out. You're a very funny, warm and outstanding personality and seeing how strong you handle this gives me strength in my life struggles. God bless you man. You're a wonderful person. The artistic accomplishments you've made are truly outstanding. I'll be searching out your magic the gathering cards and artwork.
Oh man. That is rough and I'm so sorry you have to go through it. I had an accident when I was in college that blinded me for a month. I didn't think I was getting my vision back but I did over time thanks to awesome medical intervention. But I do know the gut wrenching feeling and don't wish it on anyone. Stay strong.
I'm so sorry you are going through such a difficult time. I'm wishing you the best.
Growing accustom to a massive change is difficult but know that you are still capable of creativity and expression even without your eyesight. I have faith you will take this new phase of life in stride. Take your time and when you are ready I'm sure you'll take life by the horns.
Best wishes
Nothing to add but am a fan and want you to know that you are a treasure. Hopefully there's some hope or counseling you can receive from others who have been through something similar
Brian I am truly a fan and am so sorry to hear this news. I am also a stroke survivor for six years. Stay strong dude. We all love you so much.
Was devastated to hear about your health issues yesterday. We are praying that your eyes will recover from this. You are a blessing to this platform and we support you no matter what.
I don’t know what to say because there are no words to say it. You have been blessed with incredible talent in art and writing and reviewing and it’s a sad world that takes that from you.
I am so sorry my friend! Reading has been my passion as a teen and young adult. I've stopped reading couple years ago, this video has reignited my passion for reading. You never know how blessed you are until something happens. I wish you all the best, you got yourself a new subscriber. I am currently re-reading the Wheel of Time series, and how I missed it!
Thoughts and prayers are with you sir. Love your reviews so much; you have a huge passion for amazing novels that is contagious.
My entire soul felt like it just left me. My tears and apologies are just not enough. We love you sir and will gladly do whatever we can for you 💔
So heartbreaking to hear that your vision is failing. What a wonderful painter you've been - that art will live on as will your writing. Keep up the good fight and may you come out on the other side with a good result.
This is heartbreaking news, Brian, and I am so sorry you have to go through this. My words are too feeble to help you, but I hope you know that you can and will get through this. You are stronger than you know. If possible ask a friend or loved one to come with you for the doctor appointments, it can be useful to have someone to help with the many questions and challenges ahead.
Thousands of.people like myself watch your reviews daily, and look forward to them. You make a difference to all of us. Enjoy your days as much as you can.
You are an absolute legend, Brian. I’m so sad to hear this. Stay strong and never lose that spark. Sending very best wishes from the Uk
After watching your video, I can't say how sorry I am for what is happening, as you are so full of life and have such a passion for all that you do. I'm hoping with medical improvements, as time goes by there will be something that will be developed to prolong your sight. I truly love your writing, adore your paintings, and your channel. My prayers are with you.
Brian. I just finished your first book and this is your first video that I’ve watched of yours. I’m saddened to hear about this horrible medicine condition that you have. Thanks for being open with your fans.
I am so sorry to hear this, Brian. You are super talented! I hope you can continue reading and writing for years! Big hug from Argentina.
I am so sorry. Please try to keep your chin up and have faith that the doctors can find a way for you to keep your eyesight as long as possible. You are in my prayers.✨
So sorry to hear about this! You are a great man and great example. My thoughts and prayers are with you!
I am so so sorry, Brian! I feel for you. I saw the vid title and was hoping it was one of your jokes. I pray and hope for complete healing somehow, but at the very least that you will be able to enjoy your love of reading well into old age. Regardless, hang in there and know that you are loved and appreciated.
Your work is incredible, Brian. What courage it takes to face a loss like this, and to keep fighting the good fight until the last possible moment. Your creative works continue to bring vibrant light into the world. And yeah, you absolutely kick ass at rendering water.
I just discovered your channel and subscribed a day or two ago. I watched 3 or 4 videos and instantly fell in love with you and your style.
The right words are impossible to find, but after watching this I stopped immediately and sent out a heart felt prayer to you and for you, Brian.
I'm praying and will continuing praying for you, man! 🙏🙏🙏
Thank you and God bless you!
same
That was really really sad to hear… I cried in the end of the video. You are such a great person and so artistic.
Watching your videos, I feel like I’ve come to know you, or at least as well as one can know an internet entity on the other end of a computer screen. I’m so very sorry to hear you’re going through this scary situation, and it’s obviously one many of us fear as well. You’re handling it with more strength and courage than I could.
You're an inspiration and a bastion for readers and book-lovers, Durfee, and I am really, really sorry to hear this is happening to you. Your earlier videos on learning from the masters of epic fantasy, about doing 5 rereads of novels from Jordan, Martin, Tad Williams, and reading every possible genre and author, from Follett to Donna Tartt, science fiction to sword-and-sorcery, were HUGELY INSPIRING for me (I've actually rewatched those videos many times, particularly how you emphasized learning from the best, and how much authors who've come before have inspired you). You are that inspiration too, believe it! I'm sorry to hear this Brian, it's just not fair and in the midst of all of that, I really wish only the best for you. You're the real deal!!
So sorry to hear about this. We love you and are pulling for you. Thank you for being brave and sharing this with us. You are my absolute favorite booktuber. I love your fun, chaotic (in a great way) videos. Hang in there. Remember your health, both physically and mentally, comes first. If that means not releasing as many videos or even having to stop YouTubing someday, we will understand! Thank you for existing Brian. I wish you the best.