Pt 3 - Chico Bean EXPOSES NICK CANNON Looking at Him Weird & Martin Situation - Its Up There Podcast

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  • Part 3 of our engaging series with Chico Bean on Its Up There Podcast. In this episode, Chico opens up about his challenging experiences with Nick Cannon and being booed at a comedy club in front of Martin. He also delves into profound discussions about men's roles in households and avoiding crucial conversations with loved ones."
    Key Discussion Highlights:
    Chico Bean's recount of getting kicked out of a comedy club and Nick Cannon's reaction.
    The experience of being booed during a performance in front of Martin.
    His insights on the societal expectations of men as household leaders.
    Chico's personal reflections on evading important discussions with people he cares about.
    Community Engagement:
    "How do you relate to Chico Bean's experiences and viewpoints on manhood and leadership? Have you ever found yourself avoiding significant conversations with loved ones? Share your stories and thoughts in the comments below."
    Exclusive Patreon Content:
    "Join us for more exclusive conversations and deeper insights on our Patreon at www.patreon.com/ItsUpTherePodcast. Become a part of our community for additional content and unique perspectives on life, comedy, and personal growth."
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    0:00 🎤 Chico Bean's experience at a comedy event led to self-realization and independence in his career.
    4:33 🔥 Chico Bean emphasizes his dedication to his work, aiming to impress without boasting or proving himself.
    8:45 🎤 Chico Bean discusses his approach to writing jokes and embracing his unique creative process.
    12:38 🎤 Chico Bean faced restrictions on his comedy material while preparing for a show with Nick Cannon.
    16:38 👦🏽 BIg Loon reflects on shouldering adult responsibilities as a young man, finding gratitude in the experience.
    21:29 🤔 Reflection on being deceived by words and the realization of personal intelligence and worth.
    26:00 🤔 Chico Bean discusses feeling emotionally unavailable and disconnected, prioritizing self-fulfillment over relationships.
    30:46 🤔 Chico Bean discusses feeling conflicted about love and loyalty, questioning motives, and maintaining perspective.
    35:15 ⚠️ Chico Bean discusses the need to cancel a show and change his approach to performances, requiring support from his audience.
    39:57 ⚖️ A reflection on past mistakes and the impact on family, highlighting the conscious decision to avoid repeating them.
    44:42 🤔 Discussion about personal growth, giving oneself grace, and reprogramming mentality to adapt to new success.
    49:18 ⚠️ Chico Bean candidly reveals his approach to relationships, setting clear expectations upfront.
    53:35 🚫 Chico Bean discusses the pressure to conform to societal expectations in relationships and the importance of being true to oneself.
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  • @itsuptherepodcast
    @itsuptherepodcast  Před 4 měsíci +42

    Hey everyone! 🌟 We're thrilled to see your reactions and comments on our latest episode with Chico Bean! If you enjoyed it, do us a huge favor and share it around; it really helps us out with the algorithm. 🚀 And remember, for those of you craving more exclusive content that you won't find anywhere else, be sure to check out our Patreon at Patreon.com/itsuptherepodcast. We've got some amazing stuff waiting for you there. Thanks for all your support, and let's keep the conversation going! 🎙💫"

  • @shashpicasso6210
    @shashpicasso6210 Před 4 měsíci +107

    Isolation leads to growth 😊 the only way to elevate is to leave things/people behind and not view it in a negative way

  • @ghostoftheredrose9528
    @ghostoftheredrose9528 Před měsícem +27

    Loons needed this. Seemed like Chico is a natural therapist

  • @Osiristhewisest
    @Osiristhewisest Před 4 měsíci +48

    Boundaries and detachement is necessary for perseverance in the world! Can't trust everyone cause of intentions and lack of integrity

  • @anottage74
    @anottage74 Před 4 měsíci +89

    This has got to be one of the best grown man conversations I’ve heard in awhile. Salute to Loon and the Podcast. Great interview with ChicoBean. Thanks for being vulnerable fellas hopefully, this interview helps plenty of young kings make the right decision.
    #Salute 👑

  • @nbaoldhead4666
    @nbaoldhead4666 Před 4 měsíci +77

    ITS UP THERE PODCAST taking over. Best Guest, best dialogue. BEST INTROSPECTION. Youngins NEED THIS GAME

    • @whattowatchonyoutube
      @whattowatchonyoutube Před 4 měsíci +4

      Man, this is like a whole sermon with my name on it. I really appreciate you brothers for sharing. Very helpful

    • @itsuptherepodcast
      @itsuptherepodcast  Před 4 měsíci +2

      how dumb do you sound@@Captn94149

    • @cosanostra8526
      @cosanostra8526 Před 4 měsíci

      @@itsuptherepodcastfuck em loon we know aint shit fake

    • @QueenMicaRenee
      @QueenMicaRenee Před 2 měsíci +1

      Ecclesiastes 8:8 KJVS✝️
      There is no man that hath power over the spirit to retain the spirit; neither hath he power in the day of death: and there is no discharge in that war; neither shall wickedness deliver those that are given to it.

  • @blackstarg
    @blackstarg Před 4 měsíci +36

    Appreciate yall sharing this space and your thoughts. Chico is a real one I wish nothing but more success to him.

  • @GoldenEye1018
    @GoldenEye1018 Před měsícem +2

    I love how y'all was building... I definitely learned something today

  • @jamesharper3140
    @jamesharper3140 Před 4 měsíci +20

    Great convo and interview! Listening to this was therapeutic for me! Just subbed 💯✌🏾

  • @itsuptherepodcast
    @itsuptherepodcast  Před 4 měsíci +7

    Thanks so much for watching make sure you come to www.patreon.com/itsupthrepodcast for more. also what did you think about this interview part 3? and which part was better

  • @markhallman696
    @markhallman696 Před 4 měsíci +10

    Great interview I love how you both was interviewing each other and the honesty.

  • @bigal724
    @bigal724 Před 4 měsíci +5

    This is a great conversation piece. Really enjoyed it

  • @jessehenderson5626
    @jessehenderson5626 Před 4 měsíci +7

    These the conversations that help us grow!!! Loved listening to these 2 brothers

  • @MediaMonsterNews
    @MediaMonsterNews Před 4 měsíci +20

    Chico always dropping gems salute to both these brothers 🔥🔥✊🏾

  • @sunnythacreator
    @sunnythacreator Před dnem

    This is some dope dialogue! I appreciate both of their commentary. 💪🏾☀️

  • @user-oq9bn3kk8n
    @user-oq9bn3kk8n Před 4 měsíci +9

    Dope interview!

  • @amoseuins8323
    @amoseuins8323 Před 4 měsíci +21

    Man you dude are the truth keep grinding my brothers

  • @daquietstorm9513
    @daquietstorm9513 Před 3 měsíci +6

    LOON this was great dis conversation yall had was LEGENDARY and alot of MEN benefited from dis particular episode. Seems when u let out more personal it's a better conversation

  • @MoeJangelz007
    @MoeJangelz007 Před 3 měsíci +5

    I love this y’all help apart of me that I was naive to that existed. I knew it was there losing my father, my mother young. Feeling like “Am I lonely or alone?” It was just me shielding myself to get to know myself. Thank you guys because I’m not alone or lonely because my brothers are right here sharing a similar story to me. I appreciate this 🫡💯

  • @amylynn2901
    @amylynn2901 Před 4 měsíci +15

    This conversation is revealing. Helps, as a woman, to understand more.

  • @user-ib8yp5cb1z
    @user-ib8yp5cb1z Před 4 měsíci +13

    Dont fool yourself some of these square people are just as vicious as the streets . Cant trust nothing .

    • @SneakGod100
      @SneakGod100 Před 17 dny +1

      Only da wise gone feel dis 💯

  • @antonemoody1723
    @antonemoody1723 Před 4 měsíci +5

    New fan of your channel, I needed to hear this today.

  • @daneashagolden1403
    @daneashagolden1403 Před 4 měsíci +4

    Outstanding interview ❤❤❤

  • @daquietstorm9513
    @daquietstorm9513 Před 3 měsíci +5

    Bro dis da best podcast episode I have seen probably ova a year. Is as black men alot of us are dealing with same emotions.

  • @julianarmstrong2880
    @julianarmstrong2880 Před 4 měsíci +27

    Braaa this is crazy I’m going through this right now I needed this on the highest level lost 100s now figuring it out on the slow path an finally realized I threw 20+ yrs away for nothing ain’t no love out here they just love what you can do for they I’m out here 100% solo I can’t wait to get everything I lost back this other way much love an more respect

    • @jigstars
      @jigstars Před 4 měsíci +3

      I can relate to this comment 💯more will be returned than what was lost king ✊🏾

    • @itsuptherepodcast
      @itsuptherepodcast  Před 4 měsíci +1

      Thanks for your support! 🌟 Share this to help us grow and for exclusive content, check out Patreon.com/itsuptherepodcast. See you there! 🚀"

    • @rozaytripman7186
      @rozaytripman7186 Před 3 měsíci +1

      Ong I feel u on this 💪🏿

  • @CaramelKissez100
    @CaramelKissez100 Před 4 měsíci +7

    Just subscribed!!! Great interview ❤

  • @Abovewater45
    @Abovewater45 Před 3 měsíci +2

    Great build, 💪🏿 I can relate to 90% of this interview

  • @Tboccm
    @Tboccm Před 4 měsíci +9

    Awesome real discussion!!!!! Thanks @chicobean

  • @jsmithlb
    @jsmithlb Před měsícem +1

    The convo was real good. Then Chico started interviewing the host. And it got great, it became a conversation.
    And the host allowed for the convo to happen and answer Chico’s follow up question.
    Mos def subscribing.

  • @junebugdagreat3035
    @junebugdagreat3035 Před 3 měsíci +7

    I've been in the same shoes bro One thing I can promise you is it gets easier and easier everyday even when you got to cut off uncles and aunts everyday it gets easier and easier because you truly begin to understand that those people you love so much never loved you the way they pretended

  • @BLFSportstv
    @BLFSportstv Před 4 měsíci +4

    This was a great convo

  • @bing6010
    @bing6010 Před 4 měsíci +2

    This was an awesome watch.

  • @CampionBondMUSIC
    @CampionBondMUSIC Před 3 měsíci +3

    Much respect. Real conversation

  • @fredstormes6515
    @fredstormes6515 Před 3 měsíci +1

    Thank you both for talking real talk. About your mind is the most important part of living a free life within yourself!! EACH ONE TEACH ONE!!!!

  • @Eggs4breakfastt
    @Eggs4breakfastt Před 4 měsíci +2

    Joined at 65k. Glad to be part of the journey to 1 M 👊🏾

  • @Frfrnetwork
    @Frfrnetwork Před 3 měsíci +1

    Great interview

  • @tonyharris6847
    @tonyharris6847 Před měsícem

    This is the best thing I've heard and listened to in a while I know Chico not too familiar with the other guy but your story just like mine but you inspired me to keep pushing with the words you speaking brother

  • @traceysimpson9343
    @traceysimpson9343 Před 6 dny

    this is my favorite podcast and one of my favorites interviews. I really enjoyed the conversation and learned so much. although, I am not in the industry, I can still apply some of this knowledge to my everyday life. I am super proud of you Loon. keep up the awesome work Chico Bean. I am wishing you brothers all the best❤

  • @jayhustlemarley6281
    @jayhustlemarley6281 Před 4 měsíci +15

    This shit is on the money! I definitely resonate with this! Dope dialog 🔥🔥

  • @timthompson2406
    @timthompson2406 Před 4 měsíci +7

    These 2 make magic #PAUSE but this conversation is gems on gems

  • @Superstardark
    @Superstardark Před 4 měsíci +6

    That L.A. hat sick afffff

  • @BrainzBronze
    @BrainzBronze Před 3 měsíci +1

    Thank you 🙏 this right here treasure

  • @Tpeele88
    @Tpeele88 Před 4 měsíci +3

    Bro I see you are learning getting better with the podcast still got some lil bit of learning to let the guest finish the conversation but you are getting better I am subscribing 💯💪🏿

  • @stefanobajos6627
    @stefanobajos6627 Před 2 měsíci +2

    Man, I’m leaving this comment before I do research cuz I just wanna say thank you to you both, especially Loon, for the authentic grasping and groping to find your truth in this convo. And of course the vulnerability in revealing your struggles. It was very compelling and I appreciate it much. I don’t know who Loon is besides the rapper. I’ll find out.

  • @jonathanelam2846
    @jonathanelam2846 Před 3 měsíci +1

    Salute, This Is Top Tier

  • @TheMPthatsMe
    @TheMPthatsMe Před 2 měsíci +1

    good episode

  • @positivevibes5066
    @positivevibes5066 Před 4 měsíci +5

    Great interview fellows

    • @itsuptherepodcast
      @itsuptherepodcast  Před 4 měsíci +2

      Thanks for your support! 🌟 Share this to help us grow and for exclusive content, check out Patreon.com/itsuptherepodcast. See you there! 🚀"

    • @positivevibes5066
      @positivevibes5066 Před 4 měsíci +1

      @@itsuptherepodcast Yw

  • @outoftimeproductionz
    @outoftimeproductionz Před 3 měsíci +1

    Solid G Convo with substance✊

  • @timned
    @timned Před 4 měsíci +9

    Yo this is a powerful podcast! Loon is gem! Chico is a gem!

  • @dedra4035
    @dedra4035 Před 2 měsíci

    This was a very insightful conversation. God bless yall. As someone who is experiencing these same detachments, I too suffered from not giving myself grace and being ok with not looking back. This really helped me out. I suffered with survival remorse but I knew going back would only pull me back into the life I was saved from.

  • @ckutmasterrick5310
    @ckutmasterrick5310 Před 4 měsíci +18

    Great Interview Nephew @chicobean. I agree 💯 that We who love you, should pay to see you when you come home. Glad to say I paid for us to come see you at that last MGM show. ❤ #ChicoBean

    • @itsuptherepodcast
      @itsuptherepodcast  Před 4 měsíci +5

      Thanks for your support! 🌟 Share this to help us grow and for exclusive content, check out Patreon.com/itsuptherepodcast. See you there! 🚀"

    • @ckutmasterrick5310
      @ckutmasterrick5310 Před 4 měsíci +2

      💯

  • @quateriousali9727
    @quateriousali9727 Před 3 měsíci +8

    “Duck, the responsibility of having a conversation with these people!” 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

  • @FREEZTV
    @FREEZTV Před 4 měsíci +5

    Dope Interview!!

  • @twizrock7081
    @twizrock7081 Před 4 měsíci +7

    This was a good back and forth! 🔥Chico B is wildly talented!! Naturally funny ! You have to see him on T Pain’s podcast to witness his true genius!!… That sht was so funny I actually rewatch it often lol . Salute 🫡 to him and everything he’s got going!!!….

  • @PRESIDENT754
    @PRESIDENT754 Před 3 měsíci +2

    LOVE THIS REAL CONVERSATION LIFE SHOWS U ALOT SELF UNDERSTANDING WILL TAKE U ALONG WAY YALL DID DAT!!!

  • @cosanostra8526
    @cosanostra8526 Před 4 měsíci +1

    Loon u dropping plenty game g u got us yns tuned in

  • @florellbrown5099
    @florellbrown5099 Před 4 měsíci +7

    SUCH A FAN CHICO LUV THIS INTERVIEW SIRRR AS WOMEN FROM PHILLY THAT FIT THAT JAWN RIGHT THERE 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥❗❗❗

  • @MenesKedar
    @MenesKedar Před 3 měsíci +1

    this was uplifting.

  • @jdotbeats3727
    @jdotbeats3727 Před 4 měsíci +8

    @28:01 this is just like how some of our ancestors would not take a compliment. This still happens in some cultures. I think it's a great thing to take positive feedback and negative feedback or experiences' the same way.

  • @JustUdoro
    @JustUdoro Před 2 měsíci +1

    When I see CHICO BEAN…the flutters🤣!! This man right here is one who will hold such a high regard about life for many many years to come! His rhetoric has not changed-an admirable trait. The more he shares about his childhood and upbringing in these interviews is the very humanity that is needed in this world of the superficial. 🙌🏾💚🙌🏾

  • @lenora3639
    @lenora3639 Před 9 dny

    Realest pod…. SALUTE!!!! 💯💯💯💯

  • @ChangedMan4414
    @ChangedMan4414 Před měsícem

    Love you Chico that's real spill appreciate that...

  • @carolynhampton4602
    @carolynhampton4602 Před 4 měsíci +2

    I appreciate the vulnerability that Loon is giving as well as Chico’s honesty. It’s evident that Loon has been hurt to the core, he still desires the street life but is smart enough to understand the danger of that lifestyle. Stay strong, positive and continue growing. Chico is correct, anyone that loves/respects you would not want you in any bad situations. As you grow you have to also elevate the people that you surround yourself with. If you are are the smartest person in the room, find a larger room, continue to grow.❤

  • @dariousross1959
    @dariousross1959 Před 4 měsíci +7

    Your interview style is impeccable. But most of all thanks for the game you drop eretime

  • @g-harly4560
    @g-harly4560 Před 3 měsíci

    Segment 🔥🔥😤

  • @jamesstokes1726
    @jamesstokes1726 Před 3 měsíci +2

    Comfort is a great place but nothing grows there.

  • @LOUDMOUF-DallaFornia
    @LOUDMOUF-DallaFornia Před 2 měsíci +1

    Chico is in my top 5 list for Comedians. He's a real one!!!

  • @user-oq2fq4mw6c
    @user-oq2fq4mw6c Před 3 měsíci

    That 1st minute is exactly where I am in life at this very moment

  • @TheDontaShowNetwork
    @TheDontaShowNetwork Před 4 měsíci +2

    Good Video........... Im Going Through It Now

  • @dmiller6134
    @dmiller6134 Před 3 měsíci +1

    Great one. Survivors remorse

  • @Mel-yg8qn
    @Mel-yg8qn Před 3 měsíci +1

    This is an amazing conversation men need to have from young.

  • @shashpicasso6210
    @shashpicasso6210 Před 4 měsíci +7

    Sometimes GOD HIDES YOU IN PLAIN SIGHT 🙏🏽 ❤️ IYKYK 💯

  • @fredstormes6515
    @fredstormes6515 Před 3 měsíci +1

    Great minds!! Thank you for explaining how we grow up with our mind. Have to live other life as we grow as kid. Thank you for opening up your experience!! I am one man that has always have each One TEACH one self!! Also historically respect my own mind.. Thank. You!!

  • @LegendKingJames
    @LegendKingJames Před 3 měsíci

    Bro ain’t playin. This pod gets better everytime I see it

  • @k23williams
    @k23williams Před 4 měsíci +6

    That's good shit Chico!! #soufside DC

  • @blackenyoutube3327
    @blackenyoutube3327 Před 4 měsíci +1

    Thinking about that and them booing you is hilarious bruhbruh funny

  • @STYLEE-T
    @STYLEE-T Před 5 dny +1

    Hey man I don't know your name I'm talking to the dude wearing the white hat. You said more than once that you would put yourself in a trick bag. I've been listening, and I want you to know that it sounds like you are aware of the spiritual nature of man. You're feeling those evil spirits attempting to pull you back. Associating with those types of spirits will draw you back in, and something deep inside you knows that you can't go back to that. Love yourself with no regret. Peace.

  • @nicolerobertson2284
    @nicolerobertson2284 Před 12 dny

    I love me some Chico Bean! He seems like such a real humble and cool human.

  • @coreylove8122
    @coreylove8122 Před 3 měsíci +1

    Loon, this one is a MONSTER! GROWN MAN TALK!

  • @KimmieSue.
    @KimmieSue. Před 24 dny

    I love this conversation. I can relate to some of it even as a woman.

  • @ubuent4842
    @ubuent4842 Před 4 měsíci +4

    This guy (the interviewer) is a great conversationist

  • @Tu5mooth
    @Tu5mooth Před 4 měsíci +3

    Good shit to you and Chico . Great convo.

  • @FizzBeam22
    @FizzBeam22 Před 4 měsíci +5

    That mane Chico a real life therapist/life coach salute 🫡

  • @Gina-gk1zj
    @Gina-gk1zj Před 2 měsíci +1

    Powerful

  • @yaboi9191
    @yaboi9191 Před 4 měsíci +3

    Love the eagles hat

  • @KenGlo
    @KenGlo Před 27 dny

    Definitely a conversation I can relate to and I feel the same as OG I’m tryna figure out the disconnect I got cause I feel the same way and sometimes it hurt 😂

  • @prodigalsongod
    @prodigalsongod Před 2 měsíci +1

    I KNOW CHICO LUNCHIN W/ THAT BEAGLES HAT ON

  • @ayayeshakur
    @ayayeshakur Před 4 měsíci +3

    25:25 Salute Bean.....

  • @MsApple0916
    @MsApple0916 Před 3 měsíci

    Yea Chico 🦅 🦅 🦅

  • @joee9488
    @joee9488 Před 4 měsíci +2

    Damn I didn't who was interviewing who. Great dailagoue

  • @envyellissays9116
    @envyellissays9116 Před 2 měsíci

    I thoroughly enjoyed this interview, and I could relate to having to cut ties to loved ones. I understand Chicos side as well, but some of us can’t go back because the people that we know do love us only love us to a specific capacity only as far as their comprehension of love go’s and sometimes their capacity is just not good enough. So why would we go back? You already know what’s back there you’re already know what you’re going to get. And of course we could say you can’t change others but you could change yourself but why even deal with that? If I have to suffer to love you or constantly fight myself against something to be around you, you’re just don’t belong there and I’ve come to terms with that.

  • @jaraad92
    @jaraad92 Před měsícem

    I don’t think this interview was planned to go this way. But as I’m watching I feel like this is a therapy session not only for them , but for me as well. There is plenty of Gems 💎 in this interview.

  • @doratheacarpenter9424
    @doratheacarpenter9424 Před 2 měsíci +1

    I really enjoyed this. I never knew who Chicobean was until I stumbled upon Wild ànd Out one night Chico was so funny and I've been rocking with him every since. He was real then ànd still to this day.❤ 🔥

  • @SBSAKILL
    @SBSAKILL Před měsícem

    My new favorite podcast keep spitting game OG , I’m 22 entrepreneur & vocalists from the dmV any tips or words of advice for me ?

  • @Nettamorphosis
    @Nettamorphosis Před 4 měsíci +7

    What an interesting conversation. I have a very different upbringing than these 2, but I have similar feelings. For the past year, I've been a very happy hermit, but I feel guilt for it.

    • @itsuptherepodcast
      @itsuptherepodcast  Před 4 měsíci

      Thanks for your support! 🌟 Share this to help us grow and for exclusive content, check out Patreon.com/itsuptherepodcast. See you there! 🚀"

    • @user-be7tc2bd6e
      @user-be7tc2bd6e Před 4 měsíci

      What do you mean happy hermit ???

    • @Nettamorphosis
      @Nettamorphosis Před 4 měsíci

      @@user-be7tc2bd6e I’ve been having the time of my life in the house, by myself. lol.

  • @quateriousali9727
    @quateriousali9727 Před 3 měsíci +1

    Only Chico bean can turn into the interviewer! 😂😂😂😂😂

  • @bree_amputee
    @bree_amputee Před 28 dny

    Grown man convo 💯💯

  • @phillip8364
    @phillip8364 Před 3 měsíci +2

    This was healthy

  • @maggsurvival3786
    @maggsurvival3786 Před 4 měsíci +3

    DAAMMMNNN REALLLSHITTTT DETROIT 👂🏾 LISTENING 👂🏾 SURVIVAL GET AT M3

  • @iamiHateMondays
    @iamiHateMondays Před 3 měsíci +1

    I really felt this interview this was a real conversation not an interview. I have an even bigger respect for Chico. Definitely a real one. Made me look at some things different and realize I was moving correctly, but I misstepped and lost focus trying to be the version of myself that my friends and family wanted me to be and not who I felt I needed to be. Knowledge of self is more important than we know