Ren - Depression (Official Lyric Video)
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Ren - Depression (Official Lyric Video)
We live in an age where medical science advances are made every day, yet mental health issues are on the increase. As someone who has wrestled with severe mental health issues most my life I think it's important for my art to reflect the cracks I feel around me.
I felt it was important not to sugarcoat this or put a positive spin on it as I wanted to create a snap shot of what it's like when it really does feel like there is no hope and no way out.
Despite this, for those who are listening who may be able to relate a bit too much please know that there are moments in life which make it worth living, and for every single moment that I wished I wasn't here there have been moments that justified my decision to live. Sometimes they take a lot of patience to find, but they do exist.
I hope this can help someone feel less alone.
Depression (along with 'insomnia')will be out on Spotify/Apple Music/I-tunes etc. as part of a 3 part E.P - coming soon
Listen to 'insomnia' here:
• Ren - Insomnia (Official)
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- What's your favourite genre of music?
- Ren.
all of it
Life
Me exactly😭
@@Kanihide06 🙏
Hes literally all I listen to anymore
I think he likes a lot of bit of everything.
So many artists sing about "depression" but most of it ends up pretty generic and cheesy, not this, this is art
thats fucking right
I imagined you with a heavy irish accent m8
Thankyou, I'm touched that you got so much out of it!
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Yh but like someone like to express there feelings as with other people it may help them
I like how it starts as a monologue and ends as a song and you go from being a victim to rebelling against your affliction almost as if music was your cure
wow
This comment puts into words how this song makes me feel lol, i didn't really know how to express it😅
Thats exactly how I view it
@Ren Music is the cure! It releases the pain into the wind! It frees it from our chest! Keep going and stay strong even if everything is crumbling down...
eased pain and renewed hope- he’s The closest to an angel. Super corny, but he really shines
Man, I came from Luigi singing about capitalism to an emotional roller coaster about myself, he sings so well.
Same
I’ve seen so many people brought here by Luigi. To be honest I don’t know how I didn’t find him that way either.
Emotional*
@@theemperor1379 thx
I didnt came from.luigi
But im glad u also found this
I’ve now totally gone down the REN rabbit hole. Fuck, this one is harsh. Brutal, frightening and very very accurate. Not just the lyrics, even the music feels heavy and hopeless. It sounds like Ren is performing the personification of depression. Unbelievably raw, vulnerable and honest. REN has blown me away again! 😮
holy fuck. i had to listen to this twice, and each time i could feel each word even deeper. at the end when you broke down, i cried with you. thank you, for putting such deep pain, in a beautiful beautiful way. please don't stop.
His artistry is incredible.
Thank you so much!
Every time I hear it again, I discover a new feeling. I didn't listen to it for years because most of the feelings weren't that good. Now after a long time I can finally hear it from a better standing point and it validates me how far I've come.
Took me almost a week to take strength and write this comment.
I'm 25 yo now but diagnosed with anxiety and depression since I was 12.
No one to talk with, not even my parents because football soccer seemed to be more important than their kid crying every night.
In high school I spent my first 2 years not talking to someone, sitting alone and eating alone while lunch time.
I was rapped at the age of 8, then at 13 and last time on May 2018.
This song... Fck... Ren, thanks, thanks a lot for helping me on finding the words I was afraid to face to. Thanks for making this great war declaration to depression. I hate depression too.
I hated it when I was been used for a fcking pervert when I was 8.
I hated it while sitting alone in the school for 2 years and feeling everyone's eyes on me like "look the freak!".
I hated it when soccer was on TV and my parents were paying full attention to every player and not to me.
I hate it when I was alone at my room back this February and had to call the police for help because my mind was "that knife in your hand looks like will give us relief".
I've been scared since then. I'm scare to attack my body, to become a murderer and that my victim will be myself. I'm really scare, so fcking scared of the power this disorder causes on people. But now I feel that I am not alone, thanks for giving voice to the inside-me who was silenced long time ago.
Wow what a story 😢🙏🏾❤️ i hope God heals your heart!!
I am very sorry that this happened to you..I want you to remember one thing tho.They can steal and violate anything,except your mind.
Stay strong bro, you've got this shit
you are brave. keep going strong.
F
*The golden age. You know those times where everything was golden? Where you were carefree and everything was golden. The hardest thing I ever had to do was come to terms with the fact that... That time never really existed...*
It hurts so much, more than the most horrible physical pain I've ever felt, to realize and accept that things were never really okay.
That line really made me tear up
Exactly 💯💯
In a Depression and Bipolar peer support group, an attendee once said, "Hoping a person will understand your depression, is like asking a blind man to describe the color blue". Ren really nails it, and all who have experienced it know it. I do wonder if a person who has not experienced actual depression (not the "I'm so depressed I can't find my glasses" kind) can come any closer to understanding thru his words. I hope so! In the meantime, the peer support groups I once scoffed at have been a life saver. No clinician has truly understood how it FEELS if they themselves have not/do not struggle with it themselves. Many do their best to learn from their patients, and I applaud them. Thank you, Ren, for having the bravery it takes to share these raw emotions. We feel seen.
Pills didnt help, therapists didnt help but the song really helps
Ren, with your music I feel less alone. Thank you
"I've been living in your shadow for so long that I forgot how I can shine". Listening to this in 2024, I believe that Ren absolutely is shining! I pray that he continues to thrive and that everyone who feels that way will eventually find that version of themselves again.
Holy cow, “ I’ve always felt so fucking detached” that exact sentence I have used when descirbing myself. Seperate of others, no, not better, nor worse, just distant, unable to connect or relate.
I always felt the same way. Completely detached. Not that I want to be, I just can't help it after things I have been through. Ya know? I love his music because it hits home. In so many ways.
I’ve been dealing with depression for 25 years. It’s a ruthless cycle but I’m still here. Thanks REN!
Dude. This is a masterpiece. Keep it up. Listening from Argentina.
Hey! Que bueno ver a otro argentino por aca.
Aylen Davila ya somos 3! Jajajaja
4 :v
I'm glad you like it :)
es un capo ren!
Nah mate, it's scary how accurate this is... I'm 24yo man crying like a baby right now.
The description made me smile tho. Thanks for caring (after breaking me into pieces😂).
The golden age hits me hard. When I started therapy I was asked when the last time I was happy with myself was. I kept insisting that there was a time when I was younger. There must have been. I couldn’t remember it, but there must have been a time. Thinking of my childhood only makes me sad, but it must have been better than this. Surely it must have been...
That realization crushed me even more.
I can only think of one, and it was when I was escaping from my old life, one moment of transition felt liberating
Hi, hope since this post things have gotten better. But to respond to your then post. There is a possibility there were times where you were happy. You just dont remember or feel it during a depressive ep. Cause in those eps you remember the bad times more.
A coworker told me to check out your music. Im never able to express my emotions, I don't understand what emotions are most of the time or how I should feel them... Then tonight, I've never wept genuine tears from hearing music that,like magic, dug my suppressed depression out from its hiding place and beat it senseless. Thank you ren for giving us a pieces of your soul with every track you record.
This is beyond just music and poetry. Pure Art. This captures exactly what it feels like to go through depression. It was so nice to have words to describe what it felt like.
yes
Most of people make music. Ren writes a most beautiful, painful and personal diary and shares it with us. Thank you Ren !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
@Ren, thank you for this. After 32 (I'm 45) years of "living" with mental illnesses, I finally decided to seek professional help. My heart skipped a beat when I heard "Running water is the state that I wish to become". One morning after a few weeks of being medicated, I woke up to my alarm. I was laying in bed, half sleep and half awake, I think ( I might have been just dreaming). I suddenly realized that my thoughts were so clear and the constant ringing in my ears had been silenced. When I finally got out of bed, I sat at my computer and wrote (something that I never do btw) this. "3/18/2022 - I wanted to write this down so I didn’t forget how I felt this morning. For a brief moment before I was fully awake my mind felt quiet. No ringing, no thoughts being bounced all over the place. No having pointless conversations with myself in my head that will never come to fruition. It felt as if my thoughts flowed with no resistance. Like water flowing calmly down a river with nothing in its path. It was as if I could make any decision immediately and it would be the right choice. I pray that this wasn’t a dream and it’s what it’ll feel like when the medicine starts to fully work..." Dang, I almost teared up after rereading this 😢😂 . Sadly, I haven't experienced it again since that day. The meds are somewhat helping and I hope that someday I can feel that way every morning when I open my eyes.
It's such an overwhelming feeling when you find an artist who manages to make you feel so proudly alive, in sorrow as well as happiness. Thank you Ren.
honestly this song really struck a chord in me... but the part
"I've danced with the devil in hell.
I've sat in a prisonless cell.
and here I always dwell... in this prison in myself"
that part really made me look at myself and realize the prison i put myself in, but it made me realize that im the inmate and the warden... both stuck and in control of a place i cant leave
Seriously, Ren - you’ll prob never see this - but I need to tell you. I discovered you from “Hi Ren” I’ve shared it in every platform I have. You have caused me to weep. Not cry. But weep. finding it difficult to catch my next breath. Fucking chills when I even hear your song in my head. I’ve been a successful songwriter in music, for TV/Film with my Hollywood publishers - but your music pulls me back. Shows me what all I lack. When I heard “Hi Ren” - it felt like when I heard the Beatles for the 1st time, like when I heard the sweetness of James Taylor for the 1st time - like when I heard the angst of Tool in the early 90s. This thing that you are is simply generational. It’s something for the masses to try to understand. It is honesty, combined with the brilliance of musical talent and horrors.
My life’s path as a songwriter has changed because of you. Bless you - and fuck you for making my songs feel so …. Normal.
Cheers from Texas, US. Be well, man. You deserve it.
"Depression brings us lessons" it does, they're just lessons no one wants, needs, nor deserves to have to learn
I like this. It isn't like, "Oh yeah, there's a cure for depression" it's "depression is here and it's not going away but I'm living with it."
As if the song wasn’t good enough, at 1:40 it was then the replay buttons been hit non stop.
yesss
if you're on a computer press left click on the video and press loop
@@terrapin6647 right*
that part... more of that please! its like describing the heavy draft, push-pull mechanic of depression. Its like a deep punch that fades into fatalistic acceptance just before the next meaningful punch hits you to keep the meaningless circle alive... (yes this probably only makes sense in my head)
Ren you beautiful broken minded soul... Your not alone in your aloneness even though it's a lonely space there's a lot of us wandering around in the same dark fucked up place
❤❤❤
That's not a broken mind. Far from it.
I found you so late. It sucks I found you so late. A couple days ago I got lost again and I almost went too deep into that abyss again, so it's a hell of a coincidence youtube brought me to your music. This song is so damn relatable, man. Thank you for sharing your art and your pain. Alone, the weight crushes us. It's so fricking unbearable most days. But there's many of us and together we're stronger. I don't know you, but I love you, man. I don't know if you'll read this since this is an older video, but thank you.
I too found Ren a month ago and I too know the dark.
Now through Ren I found you too and no longer feel so apart.
Through Ren our numbers grow and you're so right, it helps and I think this is only the start.
I love Ren and I love you, It"s true. Some say we are mirrors so does that mean I love me as I love the both of you? I really want to.
Thank you
@@achebwahs1111 thank U 2🫶
Knowing we're not alone.... One of the most helpful therapies. Hope you both are in a l8ghter place today.
Writing this in tears. Big hugs. I feel like you just read out my diary. My dad died when I was 10 my best friend at 16. Life of therapy pills and misdiagnosis. Depression is the biggest battle I still fight to this day apart from ADHD. almost 33 and you just made me cry like a baby.
Big hugs to you ❤️
Ren speaks for a generation of young and old, all over the world for the ones that cant speak on it. Thank you for helping me through these past few days Ren. Been dancing with the devil since I was 12, Im 36 with a young son of my own now. Ill give him all the love I yearned for. Thank you Ren. You touch all of the lost souls of the world ❤
This song is a perfect example for why I love ren’s music so much. finding something that feels real is so rare, that when you find it’s the greatest gift of all.
Thank you for knowing how to speak our pain.
Im 22 and I started crying listening to this song, thanks to u ren i started playing the guitar again cause i was missing a passion in my life. thanks
Succes ermee
I'm 34 and I started crying listening to this song... yo so you still play guitar? Hope you're feeling better
Having never suffered from depression myself; just a mere month ago, I would not have understood the meaning of these lyrics. But 3 weeks ago I met someone online who was crying out for help. I arrived in their life just in time to avert a 4th suicide attempt. Since then, I've made myself available to help them 24/7. Most days for the first two weeks staying up all night to keep their mind off their problems. Now I understand. I recognise so much truth in this song. This past week, some progress has been made and I'm hoping that with my help, the progress will continue and they may one day see the light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you, Ren , for pointing it all out in this song.
I am 59 years old and you are describing my life . Can't believe we are still in this place - but you are saying it and that makes all the difference X Don't ever stop Ren X
Wait this song is 4 years old? No surprise you've been blowing up lately, you have always been making great art of course people would eventually catch onto this.
I’m so emotionless anymore. This helps me cry though. It hurts how much I relate to this. I love you Ren. Thank you.
I think it's really important that this song DOESN'T have a swelling, inspiring section. Because that's how depression can be. You can be endlessly aware of how screwed up you are, and constantly try to fix it, but sometimes there's nothing you can do. This pandemic has driven me to just look up depression countless numbers of times, and this is the most powerful thing I've found this way. Thank you Ren.
Ren ....you make every breath feel so real...so alive .... The opening to this song is the reason music exists .... Your a special special guy Ren .... I aspire to be like you one day.... Im a musician ...song writer and inspirational speaker in my tiny little town ...bobcageon.... Tragically hip sang a song about my town :)
Depression, Anxiety, Addiction, health, Loss, Fear, Pain, Failing… In life I have fell into all of these depths… I try to be the best me everyday, and always praying to still be better… Some Battles I have come through scorched, bruised, and bleeding but not beaten. Some are battles I fight daily…
Thank you @Ren
Being bipolar and ADHD I have had this whole monologue in my head when I try to sleep. I love how its captured
I have never listened to an artist whose music moves me the way Ren's music does. I can't describe the love I have for this man and his music. His lyrics. His brain.
I needed to hear this. I want to share this with every person who ever looked down at me as I struggled to explain how it felt to be inside my head. To those who have told me "get over it" "just dont be sad" "chill out" "its not that bad" .. get yourself educated.
Depression is ruthless. Fuck depression.
This song hits real hard. It really feels like the poem "Spleen IV" by the french poet Baudelaire. Pure art. Such great description of depression, anxiety.
I am thankful and disturbed finding your music. I was “diagnosed” as manic at 12….. manic? Or bad parents? Hmm…. Doesn’t matter now. I’m an adult and the job is mine right? I refused all the pills at 19. Decided then to feel everything instead of nothing. 5 therapists later….. I stopped. I will make it or I won’t. Thank you for your music, your stories, your voice. You are a gift and I AM glad I found you. Be well and hopefully heal swiftly
A detail I really appreciate in this song is how the tone shifts through the beginning, middle and end.
The start is like the low, obsessing on the pain, struggle and helplessness of the past, the middle is the high, accepting and overcoming the overwhelming sadness, and pushing to get better, and the inevitable crash back down, sinking back into the murky ocean of depression. It's truly an amazing metaphor and I haven't heard a better description. You really are a talented lyricist Ren, you deserve so much more than you have.
This is absolutely one of the most heart wrenching, yet beautiful songs I've ever heard. Feeling these lyrics wholeheartedly today, Ren. My father commit suicide and its almost the 10 year anniversary of his death so I'm thinking of him a lot recently. The only outlet I have is putting my headphones on and blasting your music. Your lyrics make give me a sense of safety and security so thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️
💙🫂💙
yesterday I discovered you and your music, heard this song for the very first time! I connected immediately. when I heard the line "I've danced with the devil in hell(, sat in a prisonless cell, in here I always dwell in this prison in myself)" I had to pause and I decided then and there: I'm getting this tattooed. if you are okay with that. this song speaks a heavy part of my own story, my life. thank you for sharing this vulnerable piece! please never stop making music and creating art. xx
Itd an honour to have my work mean that much to you ❤please send me a picture if you do so x
@@RenMakesMusic I definitely will do both! x
All I can say through my tears is thank you thank you for making me feel understood
I’m here for everything Ren has to offer. So many levels. So much depth. Music and poetry and art: the only place where you can take solace in depression.
my life has been an endless line of suffering, your music helps me, calms me from doing something i'll regret, thank you ren, thank you for helping my with your art
Running water is what I wish to become, that one I felt in my soul 😢
For 38 years, I suffered from depression and anger due to childhood and military trauma. Diagnosed in 2019 with bipolar disorder type 2, depression, anxiety/panic disorders, and intermittent explosiveness; and then PTSD in 2020 I know the struggle. And to hear someone as talented as you sing about issues that many of us relate makes it possible to feel as if we are not alone. Praying for you and your journey brother. Never stop the fight; or as you put it in "Hi Ren," the eternal dance.
why why why are people just finding you now ?? Such raw talent every word you were saying had feeling and meaning , and most people with depression will relate .
Love you mate. It's like I'm hearing my thoughts - depression and adhd since forever and 32 yo rn. Cheers!
Punched me in the gut,
the not-so Golden Age I knew was never so fucking shiny,
& in the end, by the end,
the last choking verse,
our curse,
I'm sobbing.
There's something about this song that settles down into the deepest pit of your stomach. It's beautiful, and hypnotising, but it hurts because it conveys that specific feeling so perfectly it's like opening a fresh wound with words and sound alone.
I myself struggle with depression, and my grandfather killed himself thanksgiving. This song, for the first time in a while, made me really feel something. It sent chills down my spine- for the first time ever. I used to think that the idea something could make you feel that way was a figure of speech. The chill and the way it just opened up the things I had locked inside... Thank you Ren, for sharing.
I just come across this singer guy. Hrs singing about his real day to day depression and his life. I just love him.
25 years listening to hiphop but this came at the right time REN is talking bout things no one wants to. thank you i needed this today
My wife has depression. It never really made sense to me, my mom has it and it never made sense. It does now. God I'm insensitive, thank you ren, you gave my wife the greatest gift, now her husband gets it.
That's a really good thing
I’ve tried singing this song about 30 times now. I can’t do it without tears surfacing. Great job REN
Another Ren song that makes me cry 😢. Know depression all too well.
When you said "I had to come to terms with the fact that that time never really existed" that really hit me hard. I'm a very nostalgic person and when I look back on my memories they all have a bit of a "happy glow" of sorts. But thinking back on it alot of those times I wasn't really happy that's just how my brain chooses to remember it because it's less painful than the truth. The truth is all of those "happy" memories I was struggling with depression and my demons but now I look back on those memories and they bring me comfort
This is genuinely some of the most beautifully written words I have ever heard, it's a raw honest representation of feelings that are weighing heavily on a person. Indeed the song succeeded in saying what many wanted to say but couldn't or did not know how to.... Just freaking wow
My thought patterns are composed by a time-bomb for an author
Like pigs to the slaughter
A symphony of self doubt sings out
Breath starts getting shorter
Running water
Is the state that I wish to become
Instead concrete envelopes my movement
And I am rendered deaf and dumb
Unable to heed the advice of others
Don't tell me things will get better
'Cause so far things haven't got better
I've got the sweater
Poster child Bipolar ADHD, Therapists wet dream
I don't wanna talk about my father
I don't wanna talk about my dead friend
I don't wanna talk about myself
I'm sick of talking about my self
I'm sick of talking about my self
And realising that talking about myself never, ever helps
Still...I call for help
'Cause I really want help
But the pills didn't seem to help
And the therapists didn't seem to help
But still... I want help
I've danced with the devil in hell
I've sat in a prisonless cell
And here I always dwell
In this prison in myself
I do this thing where my mind travels back to the golden age
You know those times where you were carefree
And everything was Golden? The golden age
You know those times where everything was golden?
Where you were carefree and everything was golden
The hardest thing I ever had to do
Was come to terms with the fact that...
That time never really existed
I've always felt so fucking detached
And broken, bruised and mismatched
Find it hard to relax
Living under the cracks
Try to fill in the gaps
Lying here on my back
Still, I can't find it
Sense of peace, yeah?
My mind declined it
Pulse increased and my sweat combines with
A feeling so deep I fall inside it
Depression
I hate you, Depression
Your constant oppression
Respond with aggression
They say depression brings you lessons
Constant stressing conceals blessings
You will grow in broken settings
Fuck those lessons, fuck Depression
I've been living in your shadow for so long
That I forgot how I can shine
How I can find a refuge in my mind
How am I meant to sit here and unwind?
The planets align
I feel like I'm cursed
Feel like im cursed to just be here to hurt
I feel like im cursed just to be here to bleed with my demons
Been feeling this way since birth
Did you just post lyrics to a video with lyrics?
@@varflock9777 I rather reading them like this then them popping up tbh
@@varflock9777 It's easier to sing along, since you can see the words before it is sung. In the lyric video, the words pop up as soon as it's sung
@@varflock9777 what's the point of bitchin' lmao
@@varflock9777 yeah, so people can copy-paste maybe?
Life’s been rough ren. Since birth sure, but shits on a different level these last couple years. These traumas hammer at my soul so I turn on some music, load another bowl , extend my workable hours and dive deeper into my great unknown. My greatest fears appear to be unraveling right before me. I struggle dialectically so upon protecting myself and my family from danger can’t help but wonder just how nuts I still am and if this is really all happening just because of me??? Im unclear the last time I cried actual tears of empathy for myself when it was well fkn earned but recently discovering YOU and your music helped me breakthrough. I can not even explain how much I adore your honesty, vulnerability, and accent 🥰🥰🥰🥰. I cry for you and I cry for me and I cry for anyone silently living in similar misery. I advocate for our kind, I try to help to lead the blind, maybe i don’t know- maybe I can change their mind?? I advocate for my predators because I know their poor souls have got it even worse. That empty core curse.
People feel through music and I believe you are becoming a huge part in our humankind’s evolution. Thanks for being real af and turning your shame into share. I 🖤 your aching heart, homie!!! Keep them coming🖤
Down the Ren rabbit hole I went. Here I sit crying again to myself. Can't live without ren anymore
“Sat in a prisonless cell” what a great way to describe it.
"Don't tell me things will get better..."
Many of us have been there and felt the same... but healing has to start from somewhere :'(
I love you Ren. Thank you for putting it into words dear friend
I didn't think anyone could explain this so well. I didn't know anyone could explain how I'm feeling so well. Thanks... I've realised that it's the same feeling other people have. You're a good person and thanks for making this music. I've listened to a lot of your songs, and you seem like you've been through a lot. I just hope you see this message and realise how many feel this mutual gratitude towards you. Thanks for being alive.
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Its a shame that this was taken off of Spotify, because damn this song just rocks. Like every thought flew out and into this song that brings peace whenever I listen to it.
Its a bonus track, dont know if it got taken down but if it did, its back up
Holy shit Ren.This is how I feel everyday
I can't explain it but i just know i'll never get tired of this song. It's literlly my cup of tea, it has monologue no cheesy overused lines, originalitty,instruments, and to top it all off wonderful timed background music..and aswell acting(like the crying at the end.)
Arrrgghh i cant conjur words in any language with enough expression and meaning to express how i feel about this piece of art real art.
"You're freaking out over nothing." "It's your own fault." "It will pass." "Being depressed is better than.." "Try thinking positive" "Everyone has problems." "don't feel sorry for yourself"
Stay calm, and just quiet it out. It never overpowers you if you don't think it does. That's step one.
Step two is to try to stay away from stressful things you can avoid. The news, the more aggravating games, take a vacation day just to relax in your own home (because you really do deserve it), anything.
Step three is to start looking at things differently, without the news stressing you out. Look at something as simple as, say, your wallet. What a journey that thing has been through. Whether it's been many credit cards and one-dollar bills or the pain of being empty all the time, it's been through every bit of it as much as you have.
Step four is up to you. Self-care is subjective beyond this point.
Just stay calm. It takes real courage, and you have it _right now._
My parents are literally just telling me to think positive, but depression is causing a cycle
That’s what CBT would tell you, is to do.
It’s not helpful but it attracts the funding in the nhs. When what we need are relational therapists. Look for one, if they aren’t up to your depth leave and try another.
Don’t stay, don’t stay thinking they have answers they don’t. Being with you, connecting with you in a meaningful way xx
You can’t listen to this without understanding it 🥺
I love that golden age part. How he repeats it as if he is trying to convince himself that it is real. That in itself is golden
I knew I had to steel myself before experiencing this work of art because I was afraid it would hit too close to home.
It's not something I'll be able to listen to often because it's so raw, but I really appreciate Ren for putting this out. It hurts my heart, but it also provides that solidarity that I and so many others crave when we're going through hard times.
One week ago today my mom's heart stopped. I feel like mine did too. I miss her so much even though I can feel her here with me I want to be with her.
This is the deepest and most honest song I have heard in so long...wow...just wow your capacity to put your emotions into those hurting words. As you say, this is your art, this is who you are and I am very grateful to be able to hear you. Thanks for sharing this
❤🙏
Thank you Ren sharing your story much respect X
This is absolutely heart wrenching. I truly didn’t know other people felt this way. I was misdiagnosed for years and the therapists never help, the medication never helped. Spent so much of my youth in a psych ward. The only thing that helps is being in that “flow” state while creating. Later to find out I am actually AuDHD. I can never relax, yet so detached from everything surrounding me. No better way described as a concrete slab. Thank you for making me feel.
Wow, I cant find the words to describe how this song and insomnia have pervaded my mind and soul. The more i dig the more I feel awakened. Thanks for sharing.
This song perfectly describes wanting anything, anyone, just something to help but nothing does. But you just keep begging for anything to make it go away...
!
except “it” isnt a thing. its an absence. everybody thinks depression is a sadness. but more than anything, its an emptiness.
Yours can't be called music, it can't be called art, none of those even do it justice.... you're a fucking genius bro. I am so in love with your work, I hope there's a lot more to come.
This speaks to me on an other level....it feels strange...that someone else knows what it feels like to be so low....
I hope you're doing good Ren, here if you need. ❤️
OMG Ren. 💔😭💯 I feel you. I love you so much. You put into words what so many people hold inside as it drowns us, but opening up yourself in this way helps us connect as your words cut into our hearts and help release our own pain as it flows down our cheeks, from your soul to ours
Ren, you are a blessing. ❤️✌️🌹🌈👍
Listening from 1:32 until the end, I couldn't breathe properly. When I listen to music, most of the times, I just want to feel. But when I listen to your music, it strips me of all the façades I've put up. Like I'm itching to take off my skin. It's scary. Thank you for your lyrical honesty, Ren.
man, i keep getting back to this everytime i slide from reality, i know my feelings i know where i am but sometimes i need this. thanks
i hope you are doing good Ren, been following your music for a while now i just hope is helping you as much as it's helping others...
This is amazing. A beautiful song as well as insomnia, would love to see an ep of these spoken word - ish songs.
wow even after having improved my life so much this still touches my heart, Ren you're incredible I hope you find success. not necessarily fame but just success, whatever that means to you, and overall, thanks.
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ I love this song so much. I can't get out of the Ren rabbit hole. DON'T send help❤❤❤❤❤
been on meds for a year now.. helped nothing but dragged me into a suicide attempt. medication is just a temporary solution. you really have to find that real solution within yourself. within the people around you. it´s in those little things we might not see right now cause we´re blinded by bad thoughts and self hatred. recovery is a fucking hard journey, and it may take a lot of time to finally be able to feel happiness. i found strenght in helping others go through their struggles, but sometimes i forget that i am also one of those persons who need help. your music helps, Ren. thank you for taking a little weight out of my chest and putting it into these masterpieces! wishing you all the best in life!!!! ♥
But how do you find that olive branch and move forward, accepting of your demons? Can't seem to break the back of it man no matter what I try
I just try to lock everything in the seemingly endless hole in my chest/heart and try to be in a more or less stable state of mind
In my case it's a more or less good solution until I find a better way.
(Sorry if my English is a little bit weird or if I make some Grammer mistakes. I'm German and I feel an urge to apologise for mistakes that are probably not even real)
You are probably by far my favourite artist. Your lyrics speak everything I feel and you make me feel like I'm not alone. I love you so much Ren and it's not fair you must know this shit life throws at us, and I'm sorry you go through it. It fucking sucks, alot. You're music gets me through some of the darkest of days. I appreciate you and your lyrics
damn ... i never saw an artist approaching the same topics even with the same imagery as i did... never heard an artist saying that there had never been a golden age to remember upon. thank you, thank you for making me, and all of the other people feeling left out, don't feel alone with their portrayal of depression, that is never shown that way by all the other people, who try to find the right words for their state.
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I've always Felt so fucking detached and broken bruised and mismatched, find it hard to relax, living under the cracks, tried to fill in the gaps, lying here on my back, still I can't find it, sense of peace yeh my mind declined it, pulse increase and my sweat combines with a feeling so deep I fall inside it.
Wow
1:36 best part
"I've always felt so fucking detached."
Fuck man, me too.