Q & A JUICY QUESTIONS AND THE REAL REASON I LEFT YOUTUBE 😔

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  • čas pƙidĂĄn 11. 12. 2019
  • Hia Everyone,
    Hope you enjoy this Q&A video that you asked for. I have had such an amazing response to my return on CZcams and I cant thank you all enough for being patient with me and giving me so much support over these last few months. You are all so lovely and all the support means the world to me.
    I hope I answered any questions you all may have had about why I left CZcams for a while.
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    I meant what I said when I was talking about how youve all made me feel staying with me from the beginning. Youll never realise how much it means to me. Thank you.
    Thanks for watching, subscribing, commenting, following, sharing and all that jazz!
    Zoom zoom!
    Lauren
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  • @lt73me
    @lt73me Pƙed 4 lety +1286

    Just wanted to let you know..you were LITERALLY THE first person I EVER watched on CZcams, EVER... your unedited makeup tutorials....I opened a youtube account, just to watch you.

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +28

      Awe bless you, Thanks so much! I hope you continue to enjoy

    • @maddiegascarrr
      @maddiegascarrr Pƙed 4 lety +4

      Same here!!! ♄♄♄

    • @TheTempletons
      @TheTempletons Pƙed 4 lety +16

      Yes! Me three! I don’t even watch makeup CZcams videos anymore, but I will watch Lauren’s videos just for the nostalgia factor.

    • @VeronicaSwe
      @VeronicaSwe Pƙed 4 lety +3

      Me four!

    • @petoetjuh
      @petoetjuh Pƙed 4 lety +3

      Same here!

  • @StinkyDustyBird
    @StinkyDustyBird Pƙed 4 lety +196

    Waiiiit, we don’t want “perfect”, I’m tired of filters, you’re real and relatable.

    • @messybunbudgeting5099
      @messybunbudgeting5099 Pƙed 4 lety +5

      Tammy Douglas exactly what I was thinking... I love Lauren because I feel like she is one of us.

    • @MsMakeupsavvy
      @MsMakeupsavvy Pƙed 3 lety +1

      I love Lauren Luke, because her Makeup principle is not about, unachievable perfection. But flawless yet wearable.

  • @lauren5455
    @lauren5455 Pƙed 4 lety +263

    I'm glad you are back. We missed you. Dont feel pressured to do anything, just be Lauren Luke. We all remember and miss you because you have always been yourself.

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +4

      Bless your heart Lauren x

    • @JLBailey007
      @JLBailey007 Pƙed 4 lety +2

      Me too! She absolutely taught me how to not just wear eye make up but how to create amazing eye looks. the Chapman sisters and she are who seriously changed the quality of my make up application!!

    • @clairestevenson5192
      @clairestevenson5192 Pƙed 4 lety

      I agree

  • @melaniemurphyofficial
    @melaniemurphyofficial Pƙed 4 lety +254

    goodness I'm sobbing with you, you're such a bloody WONDERFUL human! I've followed since the very beginning! xxx

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +14

      Awe Im sorry to make you cry, Thanks so much for still being here all these years later. It means a lot x

    • @DdFirebolt
      @DdFirebolt Pƙed 4 lety +6

      And two of my fav youtubers are talking, this feels like i’m in a paralel universe and it’s soooo good! Whata time to be alive!

    • @emilyoh6072
      @emilyoh6072 Pƙed 4 lety

      I was crying with her too.

  • @SomethingAboutVintage
    @SomethingAboutVintage Pƙed 4 lety +137

    Unfortunately your fame came on early in the beauty world and there wasn’t a lot of advice. I hope u come back even stronger!

  • @lizziebeggimbo
    @lizziebeggimbo Pƙed 4 lety +184

    Also, who knows a lawyer/solicitor that could potentially help Lauren take legal action against the company who treated her badly?

    • @clairethecrazycatwoman679
      @clairethecrazycatwoman679 Pƙed 4 lety +13

      Totally agree and I wish I did! The solicitor that let Lauren sign the contract all those years ago didn't do their job properly, disgraceful!

    • @matzohgirl
      @matzohgirl Pƙed 4 lety +1

      ChronicGlamour Too much time has elapsed me thinks.

    • @margaretsayers7641
      @margaretsayers7641 Pƙed rokem +1

      So angry they did this to Lauren xxx

  • @JosephAcena
    @JosephAcena Pƙed 4 lety +145

    I’ve been a subscriber for probably 10 years now, and I’ll continue supporting. I don’t even wear makeup.

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety

      Awe bless you :) well I hope that you continue to enjoy them.

  • @The_Real_DreamM
    @The_Real_DreamM Pƙed 4 lety +96

    You literally started it all!! Trail blazer you are and every beauty “influencer” on here owes it to you.... and all the companies who profit. No one can take that away from you!!!

  • @Lala6969
    @Lala6969 Pƙed 4 lety +441

    I just hope someone like Shane Dawson or Jeffree Star can help bring her back to the spotlight since she’s one of the first makeup gurus here on youtube.

    • @vanessa73jb
      @vanessa73jb Pƙed 4 lety +6

      La Laine I’d love to see this happen too. Lauren, Shane and Jeffrey are the 1st CZcamsrs I ever watched all those years ago and still follow to this day. x

    • @rebeccamillington4863
      @rebeccamillington4863 Pƙed 4 lety +3

      I was thinking this too x

    • @StinkyDustyBird
      @StinkyDustyBird Pƙed 4 lety +5

      Tweet to them, I did otherwise how will they know

    • @shicadelic
      @shicadelic Pƙed 4 lety +10

      J* hates women....

    • @hellaBayAr3a
      @hellaBayAr3a Pƙed 4 lety +15

      Why? Do you want Laura to be more like them? Cuz I don't.

  • @bethburton7812
    @bethburton7812 Pƙed 4 lety +169

    Dear Lauren, as I was watchign this video I longed to reach out and give you a giant hug! It is such a shame that a wonderful person like you was treated terribly by the "machine". I hope that you can continue to push forward and do the types of videos that you love and enjoy. It is so important to work on your own personal happiness, if that means working and your current job and doing the ocassional video, then that is what you should do!

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +8

      Thank you so much for your lovely message. I will continue to push though and enjoy doing my videos. Thank you for still being here after all these years, That means a lot to me.

    • @margaretsayers7641
      @margaretsayers7641 Pƙed rokem

      We love you so much Lauren from one Geordie macro another you are such a star we love u so much whatever you are amazing xxx

  • @GabrielleMarie
    @GabrielleMarie Pƙed 4 lety +61

    I was obsessed with your videos in middle school. So happy to see you back

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety

      Awe thank you lovely 😊

    • @renstarburst4472
      @renstarburst4472 Pƙed 3 lety

      Me too,i was 15 back then and Lauren just started channel and from her i learn about basis for eyeshadow jumbo pencil.Now I am 28,almost 29. We need you on youtube, and your words means a lot to us . ps from Diana with a lot respect and love❀

  • @suziobrien6707
    @suziobrien6707 Pƙed 4 lety +134

    I've been around since the start.
    I had it in my gut that something was wrong with the makeup line.
    I'm sorry they did that to you. Disgusting company.
    Glad your still around.

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +7

      Thank you for being there from the start, I really do appreciate that. I remember lots of people saying something wasnt right, I just couldnt talk about it. Its over now

    • @beriloaquam
      @beriloaquam Pƙed 4 lety +3

      Lauren we loveee uuu!!!

  • @kayrillc
    @kayrillc Pƙed 4 lety +39

    I don't normally comment but you really made me feel emotional like a long lost friend... Glad you're back.

  • @TheMakeupChair
    @TheMakeupChair Pƙed 4 lety +31

    I just wanna give you the biggest hug. ❀ I adore you, always will.

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +3

      Awe thanks so much lovely ❀

  • @missytyrrell1
    @missytyrrell1 Pƙed 4 lety +64

    I can't help but smile as soon as I hear, 'Hiya everyone...' đŸ„°
    Chick, you're an inspiration to so many people. Be kind to yourself. Xx

    • @carloo69
      @carloo69 Pƙed 4 lety +3

      In Australia, there is a series of ads for Mazda, where they say "zoom zoom" at the end, and I always think of Lauren. 😂

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety

      Bless you :) thanks for staying!

  • @genevablanc
    @genevablanc Pƙed 4 lety +127

    I've been following you since 2007 and I haven't went anywhere. You inspired me so much in a dark time in my life that I was fully depressed and you inspired me to do makeup. I still love makeup and still do it. Now your inspiring me to go on painting and I am going for it. Your amazing

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +5

      AWe bless you, I hope that things are good for you now. I hope you do have a go at painting, Its so theraputic and calming. Thanks for still being here x

    • @genevablanc
      @genevablanc Pƙed 4 lety

      Well try to keep it up, and try to be positive. Of course I will be here. I cant wait I started looking for stuff to buy to start painting. I'm excited cant wait to try.

  • @butterpecanrican_
    @butterpecanrican_ Pƙed 4 lety +22

    You were literally the first CZcamsr I ever subscribed to. I'm so happy you're still around. I feel like you're an old friend.

  • @elinevandewalle9826
    @elinevandewalle9826 Pƙed 4 lety +66

    Oh Lauren.. You're one of the most genuine people on CZcams! To this day, I still use your brushes, I still love them... I NEVER forgot about you, you are the one that made me fall in love with make up! Big kiss from Belgium xx

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +6

      Awe bless you lovely! :) Thank you! x

    • @ream
      @ream Pƙed 4 lety +1

      Same same same!!! 💚💚💚

  • @eyecre8art
    @eyecre8art Pƙed 4 lety +48

    I think I followed you from the end of 2007, my son had just been born, and he's 12 now! I also had the opportunity to meet you at Sephora Times Square, and you are the sweetest, loveliest person. I still have my palette that you signed that day! Sending you many best wishes!

  • @youroneandonly860
    @youroneandonly860 Pƙed 4 lety +64

    I just found you after finding an interview with kandee Johnson mentioning the first youtubers in beauty. I watched you in high school 10+ years ago. I am now a 27 year old married mom of three and I am so glad I found your channel again. I was off CZcams for some years as I went to college and had my kids. I hope you find a happy medium with managing your channel. I will be here to watch whatever you put out and whenever you put it out 💕 hugs from Texas đŸ‘‹đŸŒ

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +6

      You are so lovely, Thank you very much :)

  • @glassengraver
    @glassengraver Pƙed 4 lety +17

    I watched you from the beginning the lovely young lady who said "zoom zoom" . You just popped up on my CZcams now, so lovely to see you back, couldn't believe it! Come back and smash it again. 💞

  • @Dutchez378
    @Dutchez378 Pƙed 4 lety +22

    Seeing you cry breaks my heart. You were the very first makeup video I saw in 2008. I genuinely love to watch you. I'm so happy you are back. You are beautiful Lauren. Always remember you ARE enough.

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +2

      Awe thank you so much ❀

  • @Tsukshiro
    @Tsukshiro Pƙed 4 lety +61

    Lauren take your power back girl! You really are the OG and I don't think you know the respect you have in the beauty community. You will be welcomed with open arms. Go on then, do your brushes love.

  • @neevahberesford
    @neevahberesford Pƙed 4 lety +47

    I'm so sorry this happened to you. I stayed with you through it all. Been a subscriber for over 10 years. I hope you can get your confidence back and try again xxx

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +6

      Thank you for still being hee, it means a lot x

  • @ind_i_gox
    @ind_i_gox Pƙed 4 lety +9

    Lauren, I never stopped watching you. You taught me how to do makeup at 16 years old. I'm 30 years old now and will never stop watching you. You were the sister / mom I never had that made me feel confident and comfortable expressing myself with makeup and art. Love you lots, so happy with where you're at now! Just rewatching your videos cause I love your rawness

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 3 lety

      Awe bless your heart you’ve made my day! I hope that you are keeping well? X

  • @moonchildseven
    @moonchildseven Pƙed 4 lety +14

    You and michelle phan were my first beauty gurus ive ever watched back in 2007 ahh memories!

  • @Aliiiciiaa
    @Aliiiciiaa Pƙed 4 lety +28

    I’ve been following you forever since “putting on some shaak skin 🩈” when you began your YT journey it was a lot more passion driven whereas now the passion is more towards the money.
    You’ve been through so much and come out so much stronger, I’ve loved your videos and personality from day one. The thing that pisses me off is that the nice people (you) always get walked all over because you’re nice whereas the horrible people tend to succeed a lot more.

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +2

      Awe bless your heart. Thank you for taking the time to leave such a lovely comment. I loved sharkskin, mac should bring it back! 😊 thanks again for making my day x

    • @margaretsayers7641
      @margaretsayers7641 Pƙed rokem

      You are like a dear friend to me one Geordie MUA to another I wish I knew you in real life we are the same age and our lives have been so similar.you are most brilliant woman with talent and courage xxx big hugs xx

  • @beautystarlet
    @beautystarlet Pƙed 4 lety +8

    I'm here for you Lauren! Liking and watching all the way through to show my support !!! Guys let's help her star shine again !!!She deserves it !

  • @jpt100595
    @jpt100595 Pƙed 4 lety +29

    literally discovered my passion for makeup through you and JOSH (PETRILUDE)... glad you're back. sending big hugs.

  • @techwithbec
    @techwithbec Pƙed 4 lety +5

    Thank you for sharing, you're such a genuine person. So happy that you are in a better place now

  • @XSidSChikX
    @XSidSChikX Pƙed 4 lety

    You’re amazing, I’m so happy you’re back and sharing everything with your dedicated followers. I relate a lot to you and thank you so much 😊

  • @shannnybannny
    @shannnybannny Pƙed 4 lety

    I love seeing you on here. You were the first person I ever watched and inspired me to start my own channel. You are such a breath of fresh air! Thank you for coming back to us.

  • @missytina6085
    @missytina6085 Pƙed 4 lety +14

    Oh Lauren! How I've missed you! You're the orginally beauty guru queen! You were one of my first beauty gurus I subscribed too.
    Thanks for making videos again! Keep putting out whatever you love, it really shows and it makes watching you just that much more amazing! 💕

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety

      Thanks so much for continuining to be a loyal friend and watcher of my videos, I hope you continue to enjoy :)

  • @fierceANM
    @fierceANM Pƙed 4 lety +10

    You're the FIRST person i ever saw on youtube and you're the reason why i started doing makeup. I'm sorry for all that has happened but im just here to say that i'll support whatever you choose to do. Im sure a lot of other people will too.

  • @MsMoem
    @MsMoem Pƙed 4 lety

    Aww Lauren! Such a massive thing for you to talk about and I am sorry about your house! Big hugs xx I hope someone out there can do something for you. I really truly do. It's a new beginning!!! You'll see! xx

  • @so_so_online
    @so_so_online Pƙed 4 lety

    I will never stop watching your videos! You have such a beautiful, kind energy, and I loved your old videos and will continue to watch the new ones. It doesn’t matter if you have to take breaks, it’s always such a lovely surprise to see that you have posted something.

  • @jessicag814
    @jessicag814 Pƙed 4 lety +7

    I’m so glad you’re back, and I enjoy your authenticity. ❀

  • @Diana-83
    @Diana-83 Pƙed 4 lety +4

    You're the 1st makeup guru I found & followed on CZcams ❀ sending love & light from South Texas.

  • @allaboutretta2725
    @allaboutretta2725 Pƙed 4 lety

    I admire you so much!!! THANK YOU for coming back to CZcams and sharing yourself with us again!

  • @taniasabo939
    @taniasabo939 Pƙed 2 lety

    Lovely as always Lauren !!! I’m so happy to see you doing great I wish all the happiness.

  • @DramaticModels
    @DramaticModels Pƙed 4 lety +8

    Thank you Lauren. Thank you for opening up to us and letting us know about the past even though we can tell how difficult it was to talk about it. You deserve all the happiness in the world, honestly. Keep smiling and keep aiming for the stars. X

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety

      Thanks so much! I will try my best x

  • @mandyroxurworld
    @mandyroxurworld Pƙed 4 lety +16

    I remember being about 13 and watching you religiously and when my account got hacked and I lost everything, and it took me ages to get things all back, I couldn’t find you again for the longest time and I’m so pleased I managed to find you again recently. I’m now 23 and my love of makeup started with you and took off from there. You always seemed so genuine and so sweet and I’m so happy that now I’ve re-found you that it wasn’t just me being naive; and you are just as precious and wonderful as I remember you. ❀❀

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +3

      Awe what a lovely thing to say. Thanks so much. I’m sorry to hear you got your account hacked. That must have been awful 😞 thanks for still being here after all these years. Hope you continue to enjoy 😊

  • @MAGA24MakeAmericaGodlyAgain

    Ah, so good to see you! I've watched you since the beginning. You are beautiful, amazing and talented and so original! Thank you for making us all look beautiful!

  • @inlimboxyu
    @inlimboxyu Pƙed 4 lety

    I've been watching your videos for over ten years, so this little life update was really special. I'm so happy to hear that you are doing so well these days! I will probably keep watching for another ten years - if you keep making videos, I'll be watching them. You're one of the best.

  • @trishwilson7517
    @trishwilson7517 Pƙed 4 lety +6

    God bless you Lauren, you're truly the most endearing person! I'm delighted you returned to YT.

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety

      Thanks so much for continuining to be a loyal friend and watcher of my videos, I hope you continue to enjoy :)

  • @SupaDupa97
    @SupaDupa97 Pƙed 4 lety +19

    You’re the very first makeup guru I watched on CZcams, I’ve always loved your sincerity and how you would chat about your day. It always made me feel like I had a friend behind the screen and brought me comfort as I was a very shy and lonely kid back in the day. Thank you so much for helping me shape into the woman I am today.

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +2

      Awe bless you, Its lovely to hear that you seem happy today with who you are. Take care x

  • @debcllns
    @debcllns Pƙed 4 lety

    It’s so nice to see you back, Lauren. Thanks for sharing this Q&A. So sorry you went through such a bad time, but you seem to be in a much better place now. I’m happy for you and am looking forward to seeing more videos from you. I would love if you would do some asmr videos. The lucky dips definitely fit that category. Take care 💕

  • @Littleowl21
    @Littleowl21 Pƙed 4 lety

    Your videos were some of my first videos I ever watched on CZcams. You made really long days better. Thank you for being here for us. Sending you huge hugs.

  • @j.a513
    @j.a513 Pƙed 4 lety +5

    Oh Lauren, I am so so sorry this happened to you. However, we are still here and you can start again. Please don't give up, start again, we will support you. Lots of love. Xxx
    P. S. Don't dwell on the past, that allows that company to keep the power they took from you. Look forward, make the videos and some company will team up with you and this time you will have the power.

  • @annazraf
    @annazraf Pƙed 4 lety +10

    YOU ARE THE REASON I STARTED TO LOVE MAKEUP!!! Thank you sweet sweet Lauren! I was here from the start and I will be here until your channel stops. And then I will be stalking you to find out what you’re up to next! đŸ˜‰â€ïž

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety

      Haha aweee you made me laugh đŸ€­ bless you. Thanks so much for watching & showing your support x

  • @Fijianhibiscus
    @Fijianhibiscus Pƙed 4 lety

    OMG so happy to subscribe again! Someone mentioned that you were back on a Lisa Eldridge video. So pleased to hear that accent and see your wonderful smile. What doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger...Simply the best to you Lauren xx #zoomzoom

  • @humairaaayub8387
    @humairaaayub8387 Pƙed 4 lety

    I have missed you! Your videos! And your little zoom zoom at the end! I'm glad you're back!! You were the first to encourage me to experiment with colours and makeup! Please don't ever let anyone put you down! I'll always be supporting you đŸ„°đŸ’â€â™€ïžâ€ïž

  • @xRiniX666x
    @xRiniX666x Pƙed 4 lety +12

    Been here since '07 and will be here till '77. I will always support you! If we can do a pre-order for brushes, i would pay immediately!! I think we could do that for you đŸ„°

  • @sorvynia
    @sorvynia Pƙed 4 lety +6

    Bless you Lauren. I love watching your videos. You've always been so genuine and real. You can rebuild. And come back even more fierce, wiser, and won't let anyone take advantage of you.

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +1

      awe bless you, thanks so much for the kind words :)

    • @sorvynia
      @sorvynia Pƙed 4 lety

      @@panacea81 You are welcome!

  • @tskitty
    @tskitty Pƙed 4 lety +1

    Oh sweetheart, I also knew something went wrong. No wonder you struggled with blood pressure! I was never going to ask you what happened, but I appreciate you telling us. You have always been an inspiration to me (for many reasons - makeup, painting, cooking, health). Lots of love, hugs, and prayers from Minnesota!

  • @janebeyondtheacademy_
    @janebeyondtheacademy_ Pƙed 4 lety

    All the love to you, Lauren! You seem to have the kindest soul and I hope you have fun doing CZcams again!

  • @rumitapannu5860
    @rumitapannu5860 Pƙed 4 lety +4

    I really feel for u Lauren,such a sweet girl who didn’t deserve this.
    so wanted to reach out to u and give u a big hug.
    You are beautiful inside and out so don’t let anyone dull your sparkle xxx

  • @thecraftywitch510
    @thecraftywitch510 Pƙed 4 lety +10

    Awwww I still love you Lauren 'zoom zoom' Big hugs from me in Scotland x

  • @abidakhanom
    @abidakhanom Pƙed 4 lety +1

    Been subscribed for almost 10 years now. I remember I used to love lucky dip makeup videos. Thank you for opening up to us. I'm sorry you had to go through all of that.

  • @hariXmizu
    @hariXmizu Pƙed 4 lety

    You are such a sweet and gentle soul. I’m so sorry you’ve gone through all of this, but just know you’re so strong. I’ve been following you for a long time. I’m so glad you’re still making videos. Thank you for opening up to us and sharing your life.

  • @ciaranicanairchinnigh5666
    @ciaranicanairchinnigh5666 Pƙed 4 lety +3

    We love you Lauren

  • @Morkiemom535
    @Morkiemom535 Pƙed 4 lety +26

    You were the first girl I watched do makeup on CZcams! I’ve missed you❀ Welcome back...😇

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +1

      Thanks for still being here for me x

    • @Morkiemom535
      @Morkiemom535 Pƙed 4 lety +3

      panacea81 Now that I know you’re back I’ll be checking for you. I had just started working as a MAC artist in 2007. You used a lot of MAC then. I would go in with looks that nobody else had. Thanks for the inspiration 😊You are unique, entertaining, talented & humble. Have not seen all those positive traits (that so appeal to me) from anyone else on here! The dips are so great. For some reason when you ramble in the containers it relaxes me. 😂

  • @toaturner1988
    @toaturner1988 Pƙed 4 lety

    I was soooooooo happy to see one of your videos pop up in my video recommendations. I used to watch you ALL THE TIME and really enjoyed them. I'm so glad to see you back again ❀

  • @jillcraig5530
    @jillcraig5530 Pƙed 4 lety

    You are and always have been one of my very favorites !! I enjoy any video you put out because I know its genuine Lauren !! Sorry you were treated so badly, many hugs !!

  • @CoolInOlympia
    @CoolInOlympia Pƙed 4 lety +3

    Oh, I don't know how anyone would drop you! I have followed you from the beginning, or at least since 2009 or so, and you are so sweet, honest and real, that I could NEVER drop you! I support you as long as you stay YOU!!!! :) Love love love!

  • @nixayp
    @nixayp Pƙed 4 lety +3

    You've grown, and so have your audience, we are still here and still respect you and love you. We are ready for round 2 whenever you are xxx

  • @lostcandy
    @lostcandy Pƙed 4 lety

    Hi Lauren, it was the natural way you come across in your videos that I've always loved. No need for airbrushed perfection, just your warm smile does it every time!! x

  • @baumra
    @baumra Pƙed 4 lety +2

    So glad to see this. You were literally one of the people who got me into watching CZcams all those years ago 😊

  • @artbyweez
    @artbyweez Pƙed 4 lety +10

    Listening to all of this has broken my heart for you, Lauren. You were the reason I got so into makeup. I used to watch you all the time when I was starting secondary school and you taught me how to cover my spots and blend my eyeshadows and I’m forever grateful for your teaching and your lovely personality. You were a ray of sunshine for me during some tough times. I still have your palettes, funnily enough. I wish I’d known then that you weren’t getting paid because I’d never have saved up and bought them! I cannot believe you were taken advantage of in such a way and suffered such hard times. I’m delighted you’re back on CZcams and delighted that things are going well for you now, you’re a wonderful person and I look forward to your new videos. Sending you so much love 💕

  • @tammymilda2169
    @tammymilda2169 Pƙed 4 lety +4

    I miss real authentic lovely people on youtube like this woman

  • @nikkiwhite-bhardwaj3609
    @nikkiwhite-bhardwaj3609 Pƙed 3 lety

    Glad to see you back!!! I missed videos like you use to do. The videos now a days while they are good. Like you said it’s hard to trust. You’re one of the genuine ones!!

  • @theonlyexception54
    @theonlyexception54 Pƙed 4 lety +2

    You’re such a sweet human being. You’re such a brilliant makeup artist and your talent is unmatched! It’s wild to know how much anxiety you have suffered from because I when I watched your videos after school, it would calm me down so much. I can’t thank you enough for all of your hard work. I’m a fan for life!

  • @marthaguadamuz6662
    @marthaguadamuz6662 Pƙed 4 lety +13

    I'm so sorry what happened to you Lauren. I knew something was wrong I remembered watching your tutorials for each palette and I loved the purple palette and tried to recreate it just like you. The first video I watch from CZcams was you and I told all my friends at school that I learned makeup from you. I lost my account but got a new one and did not hesitate to subscribe again. You will always be an inspiration and I'm not going anywhere will follow always. I'm loving your content as always. I'm glad your here I really appreciate it your here.

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +4

      Yeah I wish I could have spoken about it before but it wasnt something I could do. I loved gettng feedback on all the palettes that so mnay of you bought but I was sad that I didnt earn anything from such a huge deal. Glad you are back and I hope you continue to enjoy :)

  • @EllieKettel
    @EllieKettel Pƙed 4 lety +8

    I’m so sorry this happened to you Lauren. You’re a really sweet person and didn’t deserve to be treated that way. You’re brave to have chased your dream and brave now to talk about what happened. I’m happy you’re back, I’ve missed you

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety

      Awe thanks for the lovely comment. Thanks for still watching & being here x

  • @hellaBayAr3a
    @hellaBayAr3a Pƙed 4 lety

    Thank you for sharing with us. Whatever you decide to do, I just hope that you're happy. Thank you for just,... being you :) I feel so comfortable listening to you and watching your videos. So thank you.

  • @siobhandonnelly9142
    @siobhandonnelly9142 Pƙed 4 lety

    Hi Lauren, you were the first you tuber I ever watched and I loved you videos and your honesty. It’s lovely to have you back. I hope you keep going and you do what’s right for you, stay true to yourself and that’s what we love about you. 😘

  • @rosesneverfade5646
    @rosesneverfade5646 Pƙed 4 lety +7

    You have the most kind soul Lauren. If only everyone on CZcams were as down to earth as you. I’ve been a fan since I began watching CZcams in 2008. I love your sincere personality and the warm nostalgic feeling your videos bring. I could listen to you talk for hours no matter what the topic. You’ve had a lot of heart ache over the years, but have overcome so much and stayed true to yourself. You’re not a fake sell out like many others on this platform. You’re still the same sweet humble girl that you always were. Your loyal fans will always be here as your extended family anytime you need us ❀❀❀

  • @cjlong1100
    @cjlong1100 Pƙed 4 lety +4

    The thing is, I always enjoyed the makeup, but I enjoyed you as a person so much more and I’m just so happy to see you happier and doing well. You could come on and talk about anything you want to and I’d watch, because it feels like a chat with a friend. You are honest and real and I’ll take that over makeup community drama any
    day. I wish you joy and peace of mind and I’m thankful that you still want to make content for us...just keep the balance for your well being❀

  • @alisonwalton322
    @alisonwalton322 Pƙed 4 lety

    your honesty does you credit Lauren, as long as your are putting on the videos ill be watching !!!! good luck and happy new year xx

  • @TheTempletons
    @TheTempletons Pƙed 4 lety +1

    Lauren! I’m still here too! I don’t watch makeup videos any longer, and I hardly wear makeup anymore. But any time I see you upload, I watch it! And I love the feelings of nostalgia. I’m so glad you’re still here for us.

  • @khendo80
    @khendo80 Pƙed 4 lety +4

    Zoom zoom. Omg, OG! Still love you all these years later Lauren. Good things will come Mrs, I truly believe that ❀

  • @adeletartilaite8796
    @adeletartilaite8796 Pƙed 4 lety +14

    As most of us, I have been following you for 10 years. Even now I watch your old videos before I go to sleep because you are so amazing. Bless you

    • @modthryth
      @modthryth Pƙed 4 lety +1

      I do, too! After watching her videos for so many years, I find her voice calming.

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety

      Thanks so much for continuining to be a loyal friend and watcher of my videos, I hope you continue to enjoy :)

    • @beckydorricott
      @beckydorricott Pƙed 4 lety +1

      I think it was Lauren's videos that got me into ASMR and it's been helping me get to sleep for a decade now!

  • @sallyfoster7739
    @sallyfoster7739 Pƙed 4 lety

    So lovely to see you back. I wish you the absolute best for the future.

  • @MrJoyus
    @MrJoyus Pƙed 4 lety

    I don't think I've ever commented but feel like I need to tell you that you are a rock star and still so inspirational. Be kind to yourself because you are beautiful! Thanks for this video. It was very courageous! Can't wait to see more tutorials!

  • @lizziebeggimbo
    @lizziebeggimbo Pƙed 4 lety +3

    I'm so glad to see you back. You don't have to explain at all why you were away.
    Also, that is crazy your gums changed after smoking. The same thing happened to my mum, had been a smoker for years and stopped then her gums changed and teeth moved apart. She had a gap in the exact same place yours is and she got the dentist to just fill up the area with composite (nhs dentist). It's very cheaply done, stops you from having to get a brace too. You would never notice it now on my mums teeth and it gave her her confidence back. Xxxx

  • @bekindification
    @bekindification Pƙed 4 lety +7

    It's you that's wonderful, makeup was secondary for me. Sorry for all your pain. You got through it, now life can begin for you. I cant wait.

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety

      Thank you for your lovely note Katie x

    • @beckydorricott
      @beckydorricott Pƙed 4 lety

      I agree, Lauren, you're a star, the make-up was always second to your lovely personality and charm!

  • @MandyMcPandy85
    @MandyMcPandy85 Pƙed 4 lety

    I've watched your videos from early on and have always checked back in to see how you're getting on. You're a genuine person. I'm so sorry to hear that you've been through so much but you seem in a good place and have found a way to cope and manage the stress. I look forward to your future videos x

  • @fitzbunch6
    @fitzbunch6 Pƙed 4 lety

    I’m so glad you’re back!! I’m so sorry for what you’ve gone through. Been waiting for a long time and noticed you popped up on my feed and I couldn’t be more pleased.

  • @MisssDimples
    @MisssDimples Pƙed 4 lety +3

    Hi Lauren, I’ve watched you since the beginning and I’m glad you’re back. I remember that bbc interview too. I wasn’t aware of all the heartache you had gone through. I’m so sorry you were used in this way. I own the big brush from your range and I love it! It makes me think of you every time I see your name on it. You’ve got so many lovely comments from wonderful friends on here, don’t feel pressured to doing anything or being anyone but yourself xxx

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety

      Thanks so much for the lovely message plus getting my brush. I’m so happy you love it x

  • @teamfallows
    @teamfallows Pƙed 4 lety +4

    You’re a beautiful person.
    So sorry you’ve had such a rough go. Miss your tutorials. đŸ„° I hope you continue to make tutorials and share your talent. â˜ș But only if it makes you happy.

    • @teamfallows
      @teamfallows Pƙed 4 lety +1

      Also, I had and LOVED your palette. So sad to hear that wasn’t good for you.

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +1

      @@teamfallows Bless you, I am glad that you liked your palette & thnaks so much for still being here for me. x

    • @teamfallows
      @teamfallows Pƙed 4 lety

      panacea81 Always girl!! đŸ„°đŸ„°đŸ„°

  • @moonbeam0
    @moonbeam0 Pƙed 4 lety +1

    I adore you. You were one of the first I ever watched years ago. Thank you for your vulnerability and authenticity. You are LOVELY!

  • @chezzacollinson6938
    @chezzacollinson6938 Pƙed 2 lety

    Like others, you were the first YT'er I watched. I adored your videos, the sheer joy you had for doing what you did was fabulous. So glad I've reconnected with you and your videos. It's so lovely to see you back Lauren.

  • @shycatzk
    @shycatzk Pƙed 4 lety +3

    Hi love! You are such a beautiful soul! I've been here since early 2008. Sending you hugs and light!

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety

      Hugs right back at you. thanks!

  • @mrpois0n
    @mrpois0n Pƙed 4 lety +5

    Nowadays I can't watch videos on CZcams without skipping parts of it. However I absolutely enjoy watching Lauren's video from the very beginning to the end without skipping a second.

    • @desireecabrera7168
      @desireecabrera7168 Pƙed 4 lety +1

      mrpois0n me too! If I watch a tutorial and there’s too much talking, I change it. But not with Lauren. She has a way of talking that makes it feel like we are old friends. I never skip ahead.

  • @MathieuMiranda
    @MathieuMiranda Pƙed 3 lety

    Three minutes in and I'm already tearing up. My goodness. I just love shearing your voice and seeing this openness and vulnerability. :)

  • @TyneSocial
    @TyneSocial Pƙed 4 lety +1

    You’re so amazing! Massively missed you on CZcams! X

  • @Volvican
    @Volvican Pƙed 4 lety +3

    There is nothing wrong with making money form your videos! We want you to succeed! Make sure these are monetised!

  • @bluegypsy71
    @bluegypsy71 Pƙed 4 lety +5

    LAUREN!!! đŸ„ș So sorry for all you went through...I love you more than ever and for me, YOU ARE THE BEST OG BEAUTY CZcamsr‌ You are a True beauty...and even w/ the horrible treatment it is a credit to you that you are still a sweet giving caring talented lady đŸ„°đŸ‘đŸ‘đŸ‘ Fan for life!

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety +1

      Awe thank you lovely, that really means a lot to me. Thank you for still being here x

  • @table004
    @table004 Pƙed 4 lety +1

    You were a pioneer in this genre and are a wonderful person! Been following you for YEARS! :)

  • @roxb74
    @roxb74 Pƙed 4 lety +1

    I’m so glad your back. I’m so sorry you went through all that. I’m so proud of you. Keep on smiling. Your beautiful doll. It’s great to see that your in a happier place. Proud of you! 😊

    • @panacea81
      @panacea81  Pƙed 4 lety

      Awe thanks so much & for still being here watching after all these years! All the best x