I think it will be. When he posted the song to his tiktok he said it should be released in the coming months, and he posted it in October I believe. The song is called gut punched. His spotify and Tiktok handles are the same :)
For me it gives me pressure. I don't want to disappoint those I love any further by giving up, so it's stay silent until I can push the barriers of my mental illness until it bursts by either me being able to tell my parents or it gets so blatant that they decide to bring me to a therapist or I burst. These are my options and I'm not even 14 yet
I will not let my grandparents bury their grandchild. I only have my grandma on my mum's side, but the message still stands, she lost her husband, and her oldest daughter, also known as my mother, I will not let her see three generations gone because of me.
awe im so sorry about that i dont really know what its like to loose a parent or parental figure but if it helps this year my dad was hit by a car while on a motor cycle and he is now home after 4 months i think and he was suppose to be in hospital for around 1 year he recovered very well but he tells us stories that he remembers leaving his body when he was hit and he saw his dad (hes dead) my dad went to hug him but he pushed him away then my dad remembers waking up on the road. dad says that he pushed him away because it wasn't his time to leave yet and thats what my grandad told him apparently. also a week after my dad was hit by a car i lost my dog, i have known her my whole life basically and we grew up together i saw her as my sister. she was originally my uncles dog but he committed su1c1de and she was handed over to us. he died when i was seven and we had her for 7 years she was put down cause she had cancer and wouldn't of lived any longer than 2 days. i refused to see her before she died and i regret it, i didnt wanna stress myself by seeing her but now i can never see her again. i was really attached to her and my uncle. loosing her wasn't just loosing the dog it was loosing the last of my uncle. have a nice Christmas though thats if you even celebrate
"I feel guilty being hurt because there are other people hurting" "I'm learning but it's happening by force" "it's 4am and I'm fucking tired" honestly amazing lines
"I won't let my grandparents bury their grandchild." The only reason I survived my worst months of depression and suicidal thoughts was because I couldn't stand the idea of my grandma in grief. It's been years since my last depressive swing, but f-ing damn, that line hits so hard. I almost gave up so many times back then, but whenever I was at that edge, she came to my mind. She became my everyday hero. Roles may have switched now as I've become her caregiver, but she's still and will always be the person who saved my life more times than I want to count. Whoever's struggling... please don't give in. Trust me, I know it's hard as f-k sometimes- even always at points, but please hold on just a little longer, it will get better. Impossible to believe, it was for me- but it does get better.
Thats like saying geometry dosent hav problems jus bcuz trig is f*ed up. Your feelings are valid. Dont bury because theyll got mixed with everything and come back in a way which will be hard to identify their roots. Acknowledge your feelings, they are valid. But doing something wrong and taking it out on someone else isnt. Tho i empathise with your point, you arent responsible for someone else's feelings.
Literally. I’m fucking depressed and have thought about suicide so much but my parents have their hands full with my older sister because she’s bipolar. And every time I’m trying to say “I’m depressed” I feel like I shouldn’t be talking about myself because my sister is hurting more than me.
@@citris_runaway same. My sister whom is my step sister but i always forget shes only my half sister she has severe anxiety which developed after her dad passed and i also have anxiety but my family is already learning to deal with her anxiety so i try to hide it from them cause i feel like mines not as important as hers. Even reading your text makes it hard for me to admit i have problems because i instinctively just wanna tell you itll be okay and try to help but the truth is when we have these mindets its really hard to get out of it. I just hooe one day we both learn to acknoledge our own feelings and establish that are feelings are just as worth the while.
I'm fricking shaking. I heard this song and I'm hysterical all over again. I lost someone who meant the world to me yesterday morning. Please to anyone reading this, you are loved. You are seen. You are cared for. It DOES get better even if it takes a long time I PROMISE there is hope to be found
hey, i just want you to know, i love you. you probably think its creepy coming from a stranger on the internet, but i know a few people just need that validation. im so sorry for your loss and i hope you get better.
My grandparents are raising me too ,and I was was curious have you ever spent hours thinking about what would happen to you if they passed or is that just me
Hey, do you know of any way I could contact the song creator more directly, I’ve been thinking about making a cover of this song but wanted to ask him about it first
“i wont let my grandparents burry their grandchild” hits hard. my nana died when i was 10 and i loved her so much on an outstanding amount of levels and i would hate for her to see me dead
In a way, i too am scared to find them after i died (my grandma and dad) and not have a thing to tell them, no story, no achievements. Ive been better, no more bad thoughts(or at least none thats back to back and hits my emotion hard) as life got better, but when the bad thoughts come, i just thought...i dont wanna die until i have something to tell them, about the world, about me, about the people.
The thing that kept me alive in highschool was knowing how much it broke my grandmother and dad to burry my mom and knowing her and my dad couldn't handle doing it for me too
"I feel guilty being hurt cause there are other people hurting and those people really need support right now" and "It's 4AM and I'm fucking tired" hit me in the soul
“I will not let my grandparents bury their grandchild” hit me hard. There are days when I think my parents and brother would be better off without me but my grandparents have always made it very clear how much I matter. That line made me cry in like two second, no other song has every done that.
I relate I honestly saw how hard it was for my grandparents when my cat MY CAT died I can't imagine their grief when or if I pass I don't want them going through that
“I will not let my grandparents bury their grandchild” I relate to every word of this song but this line hit me hard. Earlier today I visited my grandparents in a nursing home, Last time I saw them was in July when they had sold their house. They are both really old and I want to spend as much time with them as possible. It’s so scary leaving because it could be the last time I see them. I’ve struggled a lot with depression and anxiety but I know that they both love me and it would break their hearts if I was gone. Thank you grandma and grandpa for helping me through life, I love both of you so much.
Value your time you will never know when it will be the last and I honestly can relate everyday I think about when I might get a call from my relatives or when I get home from school and my mom tells me that their home I can't handle it they are the only reason I'm here if not I would be dead by now
I remember my first attempt, sitting in the hospital late at night remembering how I could have left my little sister alone in this society without guide from their older sibling. It breaks my heart to think I could have done that.
"I feel guilty being hurt cuz there are other people hurting" that hit hard, my whole life it's been preached to me that I shouldn't be sad because other people have it worse than me
I changed up the lyrics in my head to "I will not let my little sister bury her own brother" because my sister is what keeps me going right now. I can't imagine the pain I would put her through and I really want to see her grow up. It's sad that I only vaguely remember what she was like before.
“I will not let my grandparents bury their grandchild.” I really needed something like this. Therapy has been rough but I know going back will only help. If I can’t go back for myself, I’ll go back so I can see my grandma smile when I sing to her
[ SENSITIVE WARNING AHEAD!!!] 'I'm not comfortable with my family as I have issues' I relate to this. When I'm hurting, I feel guilty because other people are more hurting and I support them more than myself. Whenever someone hurts them, I want to build them back up, but when dealing with my own problems k*lling myself has been my solution but I'm not letting my own 'familymembers/ family' or my friends see me gone.
@@peacefulleopard8016 again if you haven't read the message at the beginning, i'm no comfortable with my family as right now i'm having family issues, ok :) or to make it better i'll fix it
I'd been planning on leaving when I hit a certain age, but hearing this reminded me of how my family would be affected. How they would have to shoulder their child's death in the news, in their home. I won't leave. For them.
"I feel guilty being hurt because there's other people hurting and those people really need support right now" ... Oh. Oh. Oh. Okay. Never thought I'd relate to something so much. But here I am. ❤️
The guilt of struggling when you know there's others out there who have it "harder" than you do... when you're someone who just wants to make it all better so you push down your own problems to help those around you through theirs. I can relate to this... but also to anyone else who can, take care of yourself! It's not selfish to care about your own wellbeing. You can help others best when you've gotten help yourself!
This really spoke to me, and made me think of my grandparents. All of them are dead, and they're probably not ready to see me yet. Thank you so much for this song, it's amazing.
I want this to be a full song so I can put it on loop when im up really late at night studying and stressing about school, wishing I could allow myself a break. All the lines are more relatable than they should be, especially "and im learning but its happening by force"
"i feel guilty being hurt because there are other people hurting, and they really need support right now." but most importantly, *"i will NOT let my grandmother bury her grandson."* that actually really hurt. she was there for me through EVERYTHING. LITERALLY. THERE WAS *NOTHING* THAT SHE DIDNT SUPPORT ME THROUGH. I LOVE HER MORE THAN FUCKING ANYTHING. :(
"I feel guilty being hurt cause there are other people hurting and those people really need support right now" I feel the same way, I feel like I must help others before myself but I don't know how and I struggle even more because I'm hurt too...
I am trans, I have lived through hell. I came out the other end a fighter, this isn't about loathing yourself, it's about fighting through your pain and understanding it. I understand myself and so now I find it's my duty to help those struggling, psychological and physical. The revolution is now, and its not being televised.
Holy shit. My grandmother died when I was young, and I think it’s her worst nightmare now to see me again. I will see her in at least 70 years, whatever I have to put up with to do so.
Love this song and did a version for myself I hope whatever everyone is going through we all make it out ❤️❤️ Every time I see a spark there’s someone putting out the fire but I will not let my little brother bury his big sister Every day is getting harder but I just need a little time. Don’t let me go until he can make it on his own. Don’t give me a speech that he’s not the only one, I don’t need that from you. Every day I dig that hole a little deeper, watching him slowly learn to fly. When he soars I can rest easy, knowing they can’t get to him. Every time I see a spark there’s someone putting out the fire, but I will not let me my little brother bury his big sister. No, every day’s a little harder and I can’t wait for it to go up in flame! I can see the colors swallow me whole! I don’t know what I did to make it this far, but if the Gods are willing I can hold on for just a while! Every time I see a spark there’s someone putting out the fire, but I will not let my little brother bury his big sister.
I won't let my family bury me. I won't let the world turn me to yet another RIP on the news, in the newspaper. I won't let fate turn my life and my death into a campfire story, a rumor around the school that people whisper about around the halls, that new students hear and immediately get scared of. I won't let my grandparents bury their grandchild.
To all the people who relate to "I feel guilty being hurt because there are other people hurting and those people really need support right now" It doesn't matter. You're still hurting. Your feelings *are* valid. Just because it could be worse doesn't mean what's happening to you isn't bad enough for you to matter.
All the good people are gone Or at least, the ones I know I know that’s nihilistic bullshit And my friends have told me so I feel guilty being hurt ‘Cause there are other people hurting And those people really need support right now I cast a stone out on the water And it came back to me And it broke the laws of physics, But I kind of wish it sank ‘Cause when you break what can’t be broken There are people who get hurt And those people really need support right now Every time I see a spark There’s someone putting out the fire But I will not let my grandparents Bury their grandchild It’s a struggle back and forth and I’m learning But it’s happening by force It’s 4am and I am fucking tired
"I will not let my grandparents bury their grandchild" I was raised by my abusive and neglectful great-grandparents who constantly told me I would be nothing and end up just like my parents. Fuck them. Edit: Going through other comments relating to this line is weird as hell. My interperetation is hella different. I guess I meant they would bury me emotionally and others heard this as physically. Funny how human minds are so different.
Two of my six grandparents died a year ago. Since then I've attempted twice and want to join them so bad. only thing that keeps going now is that I want to give them stories for when I see them again. Sadest thing is that we're all prettyy sure 3 of my other grandparents dont have much left. I'm so scared to lose them. I know my parents will end up burying me but I don't want my grandparents to. I dont want my 4 year old cousin to lose who she sees as her big sister. So I just hide the cuts and keep going. Day by day. Youd think after 3 years in this depressive episode that itd get easier. It doesn't. It really doesn't. You just find new ways to get through it until eventually you can feel anything for more than 5 minutes. Good or bad anything is better than this robotic feeling. My body is on autopilot and everytime I take control things go wrong. I lose track of time and what I'm doing. But day by day we push on. Just so I have a life to tell my grandparents about when I see them again.
Sending hugs and love out to you💕 i hope it gets better, i really do, and i hope you find them when youre 100, when you have abundance of stories, all the friends you make, the places you see, the struggles, the frustration and the end results basked in achievement. The stories happened because of you, the stories happened all around you, and the stories meaningless without you, i wish you can tell that to your loved ones when you meet one another again
I felt the same way for years. But I can tell you that surrounding yourself with positive people who love you is the best thing you can do outside of traditional treatment. There ARE people like that, even if it’s hard to believe. It’s not a cure all. Nothing is. But after a while, it helps. It isn’t as all-consuming. A more direct course of action is tracking your mood and symptoms, and trying to find ways to work through and around them. Do you seem to get worse at certain times? Try changing the lighting around then. Stupid stuff like that. It helps.
Hey! I know this was a year ago but if you see this I, just want to check in. Are you doing ok? Have you made any new friends? found new hobbies? Either way, I love you. Stay safe and well! ❤❤❤❤
Reminds me of my friend, he told me similar, he felt guilty for being in pain because he felt like the other people in his life who were also hurting, mattered more than him. His grandparents *did* unfortunately bury their grandchild. Rest in peace my friend.
It often feels like my little sister hates me only if she knew that her moral is whats been keeping me alive. I dont want her to have the trauma of losing her brother to himself.
“I feel guilty for hurting cause other people are hurting and they need support” that actually hits me very hard when I’m having a bad day i feel guilty for crying or being angry because I have a decent life compared to most so I feel like I can’t be anything other then happy and it’s basically this vicious cycle of me being sad/angry then feel guilty which makes my problem even worse then I just end up sobbing I’m my room at 3am because now I can’t stop thinking about every negative thing in my life👌
My grandfather lost his wife of 60 years, and his only daughter, but I visit him everyday. I only have one goal in life, make him proud; before I do anything I ask myself, would this make PAPA proud!
I lost both my grandfather's before I was even born. (First child out of three) I'd look at them in photos and wondered how they would care. I never had the experience to have a grandfather but I'm glad my grandmother is here. I heard stories about them and I wish I could meet them. I
For me, it's always been either "I will not let my parents bury their own child" or "I will not my friends bury their only buddy". My grandparents weren't ever the best, maybe not the worst, but my Mom, Dad, and my friends, the thought of them losing me is how I keep myself alive. I've never been suicidal, but if I didn't have that voice in the back of my head, showing me all the ways they might react if I died, I genuinely think I would have been. My life has been far from perfect but thinking about my friends who have suffered so much worse than me losing someone they care about, breaks my heart. Same for my parents. Especially my Dad, I know if I ever did anything to myself, he'd blame himself. He used to be abusive, but he changed, and I don't want him to think what I know he would. I'm living for those who love me, And slowly, I'm learning to live for myself.
Thank you for sharing this part of yourself with us! We thank you for your vulnerability, your creativity, your talent. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. P.S., I subbed.
“I will not let my grandparents bury their grandchild” Honestly, at this point I think that’s all that’s keeping me here, if it wouldn’t affect anyone around me I would un-alive myself today, I’m just scared that if I do it it might tip some of the people in my life over the edge and they’ll either blame themselves, or follow in my footsteps. Sometimes promising to live for someone is so much harder that promising to die for someone. Also, “All the good people are gone, atleast the ones I know” Also rings very true for me, since my best friend committed in-alive just over a month ago, he was 15, and was the sweetest, purest boy I’d ever met, he had things done to him that no one deserves, and I just wish I could have done something to help him. But I’m coming to learn that when someone really wants to k*ll themselves, there’s nothing you can do to stop them, not really, restrain them physically all you want, if they can’t k*ll themselves from the outside they’ll just do it from within
"i won't let my grandparents bury their grandchild" really resonates w me because my grandparents practically raised me when my parents had to work and I don't think I could ever put them through the pain of losing their only grandchild like that
Showed this to my brother needless to say we both cried at “i will not let my grandparents bury their grandchild” all of my siblings will forever love our Oma and Opa :)
my grandparents used to live in a whole different province, and i met them only once a year. still, i love them so much. and now theyve moved just a couple of minutes away from my house, and suddenly i see them everyday. and it feels so real now, i can imagine their grief right there, and i don't want to imagine them burying their grandchild
This song used to bring me out of committing. I didn't want my grandparents to bury me. My grandmother, whom I was very close with, passed away recently. I only have one grandparent left. He turned 81 this year, and I know he won't see me grow up either. I'd rather my last remaining grandfather bury me instead of the other way around.
BRO THE LYIRCS *"I feel guilty being hurt, cause there are other people hurting."* FIT THE ENTIRETY OF MY EXISTANCE, ESPECIALLY CAUSE I'M SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE WHO HAVE BIGGER PROBLEMS THEN I DO, AND I FEEL LIKE I DON'T EVEN DESERVE TO BE SAD
This song hits me like a truck... four months ago the love of my life died of a lifelong heart disease she struggled with since childhood and it has left a deep empty space that has been hard to shake off.
I just realised that I lost my last grandparent in December last year. I guess it's time to adopt the mentality of not letting my parents or brother bury me
Being suicidal is a constant battle every day. Whether U have attempted or not it's a constant burden. It effects your everyday life and it fucking sucks but when you find people who also feel the same it kinda helps feeling less alone and helping each other out...we can't change how we feel but we can work on it. Anyone agree?
"and everytime I see a spark someone puts out the fire" That hit harder then I expected. I've watched some of the most wonderful and creative people I know have all that creativity stomped down for the sake of turning them into another corporate drone.
“cause when you break what can’t be broken there are people that get hurt” … “but i will not let my (baby sister) bury her (big sister)” oh yay i’m ceying
I didnt know i needed to hear this song again but I'm glad I did. The line "everytime I see a sparks there's someone putting out the fire. I won't let my grandparents bury their grandchild" really just hits somewhere close
Great song! And wow is that an evocative title! I've definitely experienced the feeling of "I have it too good to be depressed, but I'm still depressed, and that makes me feel worse because now I have guilt too," so I'm happy to see a talented songwriter wrote a song about it.
Look like my homie ..he committed suicide the 16th and I just found out..he is such a good kid grateful I got to spend 24 years as homies..miss ya boobi
Every time I sing this song in my head I always accidentally sing “I will not let my grandparents MARRY their grandchild” ever time I do that i am like what is wrong with me
Only grandma lost her husband and I don’t want her to hurt more by seeing her granddaughter gone and my mom was so hurt by the news and this song just reminds me that their a lot of people hurting. So thank you for making this amazing song
But i will not let my chosen parents bury their only child I only have grandparents and parents by blood who hate me for who i am but my chosen parents should never have to bury me.
Remember: Drowning at 20 feet below the surface isn't worse than drowning at 10 feet below the surface. Your feelings are valid no matter what
Wow I haven’t heard that comparison before, I love it
I really like that..
@@emithesheepling9951 same
aw man thanks
it is tho, ten less feet to swim
Really wish this was a full song
Yea......i really love it,..btw your pfp is cute:]
Same I’ve listened to it like 7 times on repeat
I think it will be. When he posted the song to his tiktok he said it should be released in the coming months, and he posted it in October I believe. The song is called gut punched. His spotify and Tiktok handles are the same :)
They just posted yesterday and said it will be on his upcoming EP but no concrete release date as of yet!
Same
"I will not let my grandparents bury their grandchild" something about this line gives me hope to keep going
For me it gives me pressure. I don't want to disappoint those I love any further by giving up, so it's stay silent until I can push the barriers of my mental illness until it bursts by either me being able to tell my parents or it gets so blatant that they decide to bring me to a therapist or I burst. These are my options and I'm not even 14 yet
@@sincerecinnamon that describes me perfectly
I have not seen my grandparents in 2 year it more like that with my parents i can’t be selfish and do that to them
@@sincerecinnamon
same
i lost hope long ago but this is giving me some sort of guilt?.. i think i shouldnt let my grandparents burry their grandchild
I will not let my grandparents bury their grandchild.
I only have my grandma on my mum's side, but the message still stands, she lost her husband, and her oldest daughter, also known as my mother, I will not let her see three generations gone because of me.
awe im so sorry about that i dont really know what its like to loose a parent or parental figure but if it helps this year my dad was hit by a car while on a motor cycle and he is now home after 4 months i think and he was suppose to be in hospital for around 1 year he recovered very well but he tells us stories that he remembers leaving his body when he was hit and he saw his dad (hes dead) my dad went to hug him but he pushed him away then my dad remembers waking up on the road. dad says that he pushed him away because it wasn't his time to leave yet and thats what my grandad told him apparently. also a week after my dad was hit by a car i lost my dog, i have known her my whole life basically and we grew up together i saw her as my sister. she was originally my uncles dog but he committed su1c1de and she was handed over to us. he died when i was seven and we had her for 7 years she was put down cause she had cancer and wouldn't of lived any longer than 2 days. i refused to see her before she died and i regret it, i didnt wanna stress myself by seeing her but now i can never see her again. i was really attached to her and my uncle. loosing her wasn't just loosing the dog it was loosing the last of my uncle. have a nice Christmas though thats if you even celebrate
@@C1r0-C0r0 its honestly a miracle your dad survived, and I'm glad he did! I'm sorry for your losses and I wish the best for you and your family
@@Kiara-jk2fi oh its fine i have more sympathy for others i want this person to know that eveything will be fine, loosing your mum is horrible
So sorry for your loss, i hope you and your family is doing well! :) Sending much love and comfort . May they always be by your side ❤
I'm so sorry may they always be with you
"I feel guilty being hurt because there are other people hurting" "I'm learning but it's happening by force" "it's 4am and I'm fucking tired" honestly amazing lines
"I won't let my grandparents bury their grandchild."
The only reason I survived my worst months of depression and suicidal thoughts was because I couldn't stand the idea of my grandma in grief. It's been years since my last depressive swing, but f-ing damn, that line hits so hard. I almost gave up so many times back then, but whenever I was at that edge, she came to my mind. She became my everyday hero. Roles may have switched now as I've become her caregiver, but she's still and will always be the person who saved my life more times than I want to count.
Whoever's struggling... please don't give in. Trust me, I know it's hard as f-k sometimes- even always at points, but please hold on just a little longer, it will get better. Impossible to believe, it was for me- but it does get better.
Glad you’ve gotten out of your depression. Hope your grandma is doing well.
That's what helped me through as well. I didn't want my siblings burying their older sister.
same for me the only thing keeping me going was the idea that my freinds and sister would have to see that
This was me but my grandma died exactly a month ago. I will keep trying because I know she’s up there watching over me.
"i feel guilty being hurt cause there are other people hurting and those people really need support right now"
Me every fucking day
Thats like saying geometry dosent hav problems jus bcuz trig is f*ed up.
Your feelings are valid. Dont bury because theyll got mixed with everything and come back in a way which will be hard to identify their roots. Acknowledge your feelings, they are valid. But doing something wrong and taking it out on someone else isnt.
Tho i empathise with your point, you arent responsible for someone else's feelings.
@@_SomyaY Thank you
Ur not alone
Same lol (I cope with humour and the lol is just there)
Me too
"I feel guilty being hurt because there are other people hurting and those people really need support right now"
...
Ouch.
Literally. I’m fucking depressed and have thought about suicide so much but my parents have their hands full with my older sister because she’s bipolar. And every time I’m trying to say “I’m depressed” I feel like I shouldn’t be talking about myself because my sister is hurting more than me.
@@citris_runaway same. My sister whom is my step sister but i always forget shes only my half sister she has severe anxiety which developed after her dad passed and i also have anxiety but my family is already learning to deal with her anxiety so i try to hide it from them cause i feel like mines not as important as hers. Even reading your text makes it hard for me to admit i have problems because i instinctively just wanna tell you itll be okay and try to help but the truth is when we have these mindets its really hard to get out of it. I just hooe one day we both learn to acknoledge our own feelings and establish that are feelings are just as worth the while.
This is the reason I never talk to my friends when they ask what’s wrong because I’ve been told this so many times
I'm fricking shaking. I heard this song and I'm hysterical all over again. I lost someone who meant the world to me yesterday morning. Please to anyone reading this, you are loved. You are seen. You are cared for. It DOES get better even if it takes a long time I PROMISE there is hope to be found
I'm sorry for your lose and I hope things are better.
I lo e this
hey, i just want you to know, i love you. you probably think its creepy coming from a stranger on the internet, but i know a few people just need that validation. im so sorry for your loss and i hope you get better.
My grandparents raised me. I never thought what they would feel if you lost me. I love them
Hope things are going well for you, Abigail.
My grandparents are raising me too ,and I was was curious have you ever spent hours thinking about what would happen to you if they passed or is that just me
@@jackiemasters8621 all the time, sometimes I get annoyed with them and I just break down at the thought
Why does this hurt so freaking bad
Right?
Ik it's a punch to the gut
@@Aceofdiamonds22 Ironically, that’s the name of the song
willisagachakid ooo ty
ALL OF HIS SONGS ARE FREAKING LIKE THAT, THEY ARE LIKE THE ONLY THING I LISTEN TO WHEN CRYING NOW
The singer is on Spotify, Everybody's Worried About Owen
Go check it out!
Whats the song name
I want to know what’s the song name please :’D
@@SillySamWho Screw In A Lightbulb is the song name!! 😁
Hey, do you know of any way I could contact the song creator more directly, I’ve been thinking about making a cover of this song but wanted to ask him about it first
@@timhrnets Thank you
i will not let my grandparents bury their grandaughter, im their grandson and until ill be recognized as such im not gonna die
Fuck yes Liam, make sure everyone knows your real name!
Hell yeah, friend, I wish you the best 💛
Hell yeah liam, keep fighting, you got this dude
Fuck yes, king shit right here
this was the same for me not long ago, stay strong and let everyone know your name
“i wont let my grandparents burry their grandchild” hits hard. my nana died when i was 10 and i loved her so much on an outstanding amount of levels and i would hate for her to see me dead
In a way, i too am scared to find them after i died (my grandma and dad) and not have a thing to tell them, no story, no achievements. Ive been better, no more bad thoughts(or at least none thats back to back and hits my emotion hard) as life got better, but when the bad thoughts come, i just thought...i dont wanna die until i have something to tell them, about the world, about me, about the people.
The thing that kept me alive in highschool was knowing how much it broke my grandmother and dad to burry my mom and knowing her and my dad couldn't handle doing it for me too
I am sorry for your last
"I feel guilty being hurt cause there are other people hurting and those people really need support right now" and "It's 4AM and I'm fucking tired" hit me in the soul
blessed are the poor in spirit for theirs is the kingdom of heaven matthew 5:3
“I will not let my grandparents bury their grandchild” hit me hard. There are days when I think my parents and brother would be better off without me but my grandparents have always made it very clear how much I matter. That line made me cry in like two second, no other song has every done that.
I relate I honestly saw how hard it was for my grandparents when my cat MY CAT died I can't imagine their grief when or if I pass I don't want them going through that
“I will not let my grandparents bury their grandchild”
I relate to every word of this song but this line hit me hard.
Earlier today I visited my grandparents in a nursing home, Last time I saw them was in July when they had sold their house. They are both really old and I want to spend as much time with them as possible. It’s so scary leaving because it could be the last time I see them. I’ve struggled a lot with depression and anxiety but I know that they both love me and it would break their hearts if I was gone. Thank you grandma and grandpa for helping me through life, I love both of you so much.
Recently lost my grandpa, value your time with them so fucking much, grandparents are such lovely people, tell em how much you love them :]
Value your time you will never know when it will be the last and I honestly can relate everyday I think about when I might get a call from my relatives or when I get home from school and my mom tells me that their home I can't handle it they are the only reason I'm here if not I would be dead by now
I remember my first attempt, sitting in the hospital late at night remembering how I could have left my little sister alone in this society without guide from their older sibling. It breaks my heart to think I could have done that.
blessed are the poor in spirit for theirs is the kingdom of heaven matthew 5:3
dude you have to make this into a full song. I relate to it a lot and i'm interested to see what you'd do with a full version
idk if you ever found the full song but its Gut Punch/Don't Meet Your Idols
@@kodylovesyou1412 I did, but thank you anyway :)
"I feel guilty being hurt cuz there are other people hurting"
that hit hard, my whole life it's been preached to me that I shouldn't be sad because other people have it worse than me
I changed up the lyrics in my head to "I will not let my little sister bury her own brother" because my sister is what keeps me going right now. I can't imagine the pain I would put her through and I really want to see her grow up. It's sad that I only vaguely remember what she was like before.
the passion in his voice is just beautiful
“I will not let my grandparents bury their grandchild.” I really needed something like this. Therapy has been rough but I know going back will only help. If I can’t go back for myself, I’ll go back so I can see my grandma smile when I sing to her
[ SENSITIVE WARNING AHEAD!!!]
'I'm not comfortable with my family as I have issues'
I relate to this. When I'm hurting, I feel guilty because other people are more hurting and I support them more than myself. Whenever someone hurts them, I want to build them back up, but when dealing with my own problems k*lling myself has been my solution but I'm not letting my own 'familymembers/ family' or my friends see me gone.
I feel bad for sayings this but same..\
Why is family censored?
@@peacefulleopard8016 again if you haven't read the message at the beginning, i'm no comfortable with my family as right now i'm having family issues, ok :) or to make it better i'll fix it
@@oblong050 sorry, thank you.
@@peacefulleopard8016 it's ok :D
I'd been planning on leaving when I hit a certain age, but hearing this reminded me of how my family would be affected. How they would have to shoulder their child's death in the news, in their home.
I won't leave. For them.
How are you now?
Stay strong
This gives me hope bc i will not let my older brothers bury their little sister. I love you guys thank you
We love you too!
"I feel guilty being hurt because there's other people hurting and those people really need support right now"
...
Oh.
Oh.
Oh.
Okay.
Never thought I'd relate to something so much.
But here I am.
❤️
The guilt of struggling when you know there's others out there who have it "harder" than you do... when you're someone who just wants to make it all better so you push down your own problems to help those around you through theirs. I can relate to this... but also to anyone else who can, take care of yourself! It's not selfish to care about your own wellbeing. You can help others best when you've gotten help yourself!
This really spoke to me, and made me think of my grandparents. All of them are dead, and they're probably not ready to see me yet. Thank you so much for this song, it's amazing.
"i feel guilty being hurt cause there are other people hurting and those people really need support right now"
holy shit someone put it into words
I want this to be a full song so I can put it on loop when im up really late at night studying and stressing about school, wishing I could allow myself a break. All the lines are more relatable than they should be, especially "and im learning but its happening by force"
the full song is called 'screw in a lightbulb' bye Everyones worried about Owen
it’s gut punch ❤
ive been trying to find words to describe how i feel for 2 years now and this song perfectly depicts all of my jumbled up feelings
"i feel guilty being hurt because there are other people hurting, and they really need support right now."
but most importantly, *"i will NOT let my grandmother bury her grandson."* that actually really hurt. she was there for me through EVERYTHING. LITERALLY. THERE WAS *NOTHING* THAT SHE DIDNT SUPPORT ME THROUGH. I LOVE HER MORE THAN FUCKING ANYTHING. :(
"I feel guilty being hurt cause there are other people hurting and those people really need support right now"
I feel the same way, I feel like I must help others before myself but I don't know how and I struggle even more because I'm hurt too...
I am trans, I have lived through hell. I came out the other end a fighter, this isn't about loathing yourself, it's about fighting through your pain and understanding it. I understand myself and so now I find it's my duty to help those struggling, psychological and physical.
The revolution is now, and its not being televised.
You go, buddy! ✨
“I fell guilty being hurt cause there are other people hurting.”
Damn that hit home
Holy shit.
My grandmother died when I was young, and I think it’s her worst nightmare now to see me again. I will see her in at least 70 years, whatever I have to put up with to do so.
Love this song and did a version for myself
I hope whatever everyone is going through we all make it out ❤️❤️
Every time I see a spark there’s someone putting out the fire but I will not let my little brother bury his big sister
Every day is getting harder but I just need a little time. Don’t let me go until he can make it on his own.
Don’t give me a speech that he’s not the only one, I don’t need that from you.
Every day I dig that hole a little deeper, watching him slowly learn to fly. When he soars I can rest easy, knowing they can’t get to him.
Every time I see a spark there’s someone putting out the fire, but I will not let me my little brother bury his big sister.
No, every day’s a little harder and I can’t wait for it to go up in flame! I can see the colors swallow me whole!
I don’t know what I did to make it this far, but if the Gods are willing I can hold on for just a while!
Every time I see a spark there’s someone putting out the fire, but I will not let my little brother bury his big sister.
Ok imma go cry now see ya
@@yiggityyiggity69 ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Omg stfu that was so good and sad ahhh I’m in love
no bc I have little brothers and if they didn't exist I would've kicked the bucket already
Wow that awesome xxxx
The lyrics are really sad
But I couldn't help but listen to just
How nice the guy's voice is
It's such a great singing voice like yes
I won't let my family bury me. I won't let the world turn me to yet another RIP on the news, in the newspaper. I won't let fate turn my life and my death into a campfire story, a rumor around the school that people whisper about around the halls, that new students hear and immediately get scared of.
I won't let my grandparents bury their grandchild.
To all the people who relate to "I feel guilty being hurt because there are other people hurting and those people really need support right now"
It doesn't matter. You're still hurting. Your feelings *are* valid. Just because it could be worse doesn't mean what's happening to you isn't bad enough for you to matter.
This hits deep! The only that stopped me was my papa going the way I thought about going and my dad walking me to his grave saying I go, before you.
“I feel guilty being hurt because there are other people hurting”, that line really hits different 💔
All the good people are gone
Or at least, the ones I know
I know that’s nihilistic bullshit
And my friends have told me so
I feel guilty being hurt
‘Cause there are other people hurting
And those people really need support right now
I cast a stone out on the water
And it came back to me
And it broke the laws of physics,
But I kind of wish it sank
‘Cause when you break what can’t be broken
There are people who get hurt
And those people really need support right now
Every time I see a spark
There’s someone putting out the fire
But I will not let my grandparents
Bury their grandchild
It’s a struggle back and forth
and I’m learning
But it’s happening by force
It’s 4am and I am fucking tired
Thank you so much
Chords: on capo 2 G Em C G (looks like its not exactly what he played but its basically the same)
@@keanus6873 G B C G
@@lucasprim76 oh right, looked a little weird, im used to the bar chord version. Thanks 👍🏼
@@keanus6873 no problem
I love this person's music, I don't know why, but sometimes it's the only thing that can make me feel when I'm stuck in my own thoughts.
honestly the lyrics is both relatable and just beautiful, i love it and it really helps me
"I will not let my grandparents bury their grandchild"
I was raised by my abusive and neglectful great-grandparents who constantly told me I would be nothing and end up just like my parents. Fuck them.
Edit: Going through other comments relating to this line is weird as hell. My interperetation is hella different. I guess I meant they would bury me emotionally and others heard this as physically. Funny how human minds are so different.
This song gave me chills. Literal CHILLS! Love this song!! Much love to all ❤️❤️❤️
Two of my six grandparents died a year ago. Since then I've attempted twice and want to join them so bad. only thing that keeps going now is that I want to give them stories for when I see them again. Sadest thing is that we're all prettyy sure 3 of my other grandparents dont have much left. I'm so scared to lose them. I know my parents will end up burying me but I don't want my grandparents to. I dont want my 4 year old cousin to lose who she sees as her big sister. So I just hide the cuts and keep going. Day by day. Youd think after 3 years in this depressive episode that itd get easier. It doesn't. It really doesn't. You just find new ways to get through it until eventually you can feel anything for more than 5 minutes. Good or bad anything is better than this robotic feeling. My body is on autopilot and everytime I take control things go wrong. I lose track of time and what I'm doing. But day by day we push on. Just so I have a life to tell my grandparents about when I see them again.
Sending hugs and love out to you💕 i hope it gets better, i really do, and i hope you find them when youre 100, when you have abundance of stories, all the friends you make, the places you see, the struggles, the frustration and the end results basked in achievement. The stories happened because of you, the stories happened all around you, and the stories meaningless without you, i wish you can tell that to your loved ones when you meet one another again
I felt the same way for years. But I can tell you that surrounding yourself with positive people who love you is the best thing you can do outside of traditional treatment. There ARE people like that, even if it’s hard to believe.
It’s not a cure all. Nothing is. But after a while, it helps. It isn’t as all-consuming.
A more direct course of action is tracking your mood and symptoms, and trying to find ways to work through and around them. Do you seem to get worse at certain times? Try changing the lighting around then. Stupid stuff like that. It helps.
Hey! I know this was a year ago but if you see this I, just want to check in. Are you doing ok? Have you made any new friends? found new hobbies? Either way, I love you. Stay safe and well! ❤❤❤❤
this song hit me in a way before all my grandparents died, and it hit completely differently after. its...interesting to say the least
This is beautiful, hope he's doing well.
love his voice!❤️ wish this was a full song!!
This song hit so hard my grandma has been the only thing keeping me alive for far to long
Reminds me of my friend, he told me similar, he felt guilty for being in pain because he felt like the other people in his life who were also hurting, mattered more than him.
His grandparents *did* unfortunately bury their grandchild.
Rest in peace my friend.
"When you break what can't be broken there are people that get hurt" kinda reminds me of the plot in the new Disney movie encanto
It often feels like my little sister hates me only if she knew that her moral is whats been keeping me alive. I dont want her to have the trauma of losing her brother to himself.
“I feel guilty for hurting cause other people are hurting and they need support” that actually hits me very hard when I’m having a bad day i feel guilty for crying or being angry because I have a decent life compared to most so I feel like I can’t be anything other then happy and it’s basically this vicious cycle of me being sad/angry then feel guilty which makes my problem even worse then I just end up sobbing I’m my room at 3am because now I can’t stop thinking about every negative thing in my life👌
My grandfather lost his wife of 60 years, and his only daughter, but I visit him everyday. I only have one goal in life, make him proud; before I do anything I ask myself, would this make PAPA proud!
God I can't express how much I relate to this.
he sounds so much like Andrew Jackson Jihad, amazing artist with similar vocal abilities. this is a very powerful song and it really is done amazingly
I lost both my grandfather's before I was even born. (First child out of three) I'd look at them in photos and wondered how they would care. I never had the experience to have a grandfather but I'm glad my grandmother is here. I heard stories about them and I wish I could meet them. I
For me, it's always been either "I will not let my parents bury their own child" or "I will not my friends bury their only buddy". My grandparents weren't ever the best, maybe not the worst, but my Mom, Dad, and my friends, the thought of them losing me is how I keep myself alive. I've never been suicidal, but if I didn't have that voice in the back of my head, showing me all the ways they might react if I died, I genuinely think I would have been. My life has been far from perfect but thinking about my friends who have suffered so much worse than me losing someone they care about, breaks my heart. Same for my parents. Especially my Dad, I know if I ever did anything to myself, he'd blame himself. He used to be abusive, but he changed, and I don't want him to think what I know he would.
I'm living for those who love me, And slowly, I'm learning to live for myself.
Thank you for sharing this part of yourself with us! We thank you for your vulnerability, your creativity, your talent. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. P.S., I subbed.
“I will not let my grandparents bury their grandchild”
Honestly, at this point I think that’s all that’s keeping me here, if it wouldn’t affect anyone around me I would un-alive myself today, I’m just scared that if I do it it might tip some of the people in my life over the edge and they’ll either blame themselves, or follow in my footsteps.
Sometimes promising to live for someone is so much harder that promising to die for someone.
Also, “All the good people are gone, atleast the ones I know” Also rings very true for me, since my best friend committed in-alive just over a month ago, he was 15,
and was the sweetest, purest boy I’d ever met, he had things done to him that no one deserves,
and I just wish I could have done something to help him.
But I’m coming to learn that when someone really wants to k*ll themselves, there’s nothing you can do to stop them, not really, restrain them physically all you want, if they can’t k*ll themselves from the outside they’ll just do it from within
i’m so sorry for your loss and for everything you’re going through 💔 i hope you’re still here today
"i won't let my grandparents bury their grandchild" really resonates w me because my grandparents practically raised me when my parents had to work and I don't think I could ever put them through the pain of losing their only grandchild like that
"People who relate to a song so much are weird"
**Slowly turns this song on and walks away**
take me with youuu~
Ok but can we just take a moment to appreciate this man putting all of our pain into a beautiful song. Btw your voice sonds amazing😍
Showed this to my brother needless to say we both cried at “i will not let my grandparents bury their grandchild” all of my siblings will forever love our Oma and Opa :)
Im so sorry for anyone who has to struggle on their own, I really hope you will go through it. You are strong, I know you will
Even though this raw, unpoetic style of writing is not really my favourite thing in the world, "It's 4am and I'm fucking tired" is such a great line
Dude this is actually good, straight to my playlist
my grandparents used to live in a whole different province, and i met them only once a year. still, i love them so much. and now theyve moved just a couple of minutes away from my house, and suddenly i see them everyday. and it feels so real now, i can imagine their grief right there, and i don't want to imagine them burying their grandchild
this song really hits to home because someone really close to me recently passed away and their grandparents actually helped bury her... I miss him.
Something about the angry determination to keep living just speaks to my soul.
"I feel guilty being hurt because there are other people hurting"
That basically sums up my life.
This song used to bring me out of committing. I didn't want my grandparents to bury me. My grandmother, whom I was very close with, passed away recently. I only have one grandparent left. He turned 81 this year, and I know he won't see me grow up either. I'd rather my last remaining grandfather bury me instead of the other way around.
BRO THE LYIRCS
*"I feel guilty being hurt, cause there are other people hurting."*
FIT THE ENTIRETY OF MY EXISTANCE, ESPECIALLY CAUSE I'M SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE WHO HAVE BIGGER PROBLEMS THEN I DO, AND I FEEL LIKE I DON'T EVEN DESERVE TO BE SAD
As I’m taking care of my husband through end stage alcoholism I feel this so much
This song hits me like a truck... four months ago the love of my life died of a lifelong heart disease she struggled with since childhood and it has left a deep empty space that has been hard to shake off.
I just realised that I lost my last grandparent in December last year. I guess it's time to adopt the mentality of not letting my parents or brother bury me
that’s a great mindset !
I've never agreed so much with something I disagree with.
This song is truly amazing.
Being suicidal is a constant battle every day. Whether U have attempted or not it's a constant burden. It effects your everyday life and it fucking sucks but when you find people who also feel the same it kinda helps feeling less alone and helping each other out...we can't change how we feel but we can work on it. Anyone agree?
This was all I needed to hear, at this exact moment
Thank you for sharing it
this kept me alive this year
i love everybody’s worried about owen ‼️‼️
"and everytime I see a spark someone puts out the fire"
That hit harder then I expected. I've watched some of the most wonderful and creative people I know have all that creativity stomped down for the sake of turning them into another corporate drone.
Please give us a full version, this song is too good to go without one!
“cause when you break what can’t be broken there are people that get hurt”
…
“but i will not let my (baby sister) bury her (big sister)”
oh yay i’m ceying
I know it's a depressing song and all, but I've watched this so many times, and I just realised that they're actually a really attractive person
I didnt know i needed to hear this song again but I'm glad I did. The line "everytime I see a sparks there's someone putting out the fire. I won't let my grandparents bury their grandchild" really just hits somewhere close
Great song! And wow is that an evocative title!
I've definitely experienced the feeling of "I have it too good to be depressed, but I'm still depressed, and that makes me feel worse because now I have guilt too," so I'm happy to see a talented songwriter wrote a song about it.
Look like my homie ..he committed suicide the 16th and I just found out..he is such a good kid grateful I got to spend 24 years as homies..miss ya boobi
Every time I sing this song in my head I always accidentally sing “I will not let my grandparents MARRY their grandchild” ever time I do that i am like what is wrong with me
blessed are the poor in spirit for theirs is the kingdom of heaven matthew 5:3
Only grandma lost her husband and I don’t want her to hurt more by seeing her granddaughter gone and my mom was so hurt by the news and this song just reminds me that their a lot of people hurting. So thank you for making this amazing song
Finally...words to how Ive felt for so long. Thank you so god damn much
I need this asap I'm not doing ok 🥺
I Love you ❤
Hope things get better!
But i will not let my chosen parents bury their only child
I only have grandparents and parents by blood who hate me for who i am but my chosen parents should never have to bury me.
i got chills this is relatable you are a legend
The first song that i sang with feelings and so much power