💙 A BROKEN GENERAL BUT STILL AIMS TO KEEP HIS HEAD HELD HIGH - AND ABOVE WATER. 💙 22 October 2023

💙 A BROKEN GENERAL BUT STILL AIMS TO KEEP HIS HEAD HELD HIGH - AND ABOVE WATER. 💙🙏🏽
LAST EDIT: 22ND OCTOBER 2023
Mans has been through the works in my 30 years on this planet. Sometimes to most times I don’t understand why, Why this happened… Or why I can be some type of way. Maybe it’s a past trigger that ignites certain times or how I react to such thing…
WRITTEN: 21-10-2023
FIRST ATTEMPTED SUICIDE:
17-06-2007 - DADS GARAGE (TRIMDON) SHIFNAL. REWA - THE ROPE BROKE IN HALF! NO KIDDING!! AS I WENT TO PUT A NOOSE OVER MY HEAD. 💯
04-05-2009-2010 - MY AUNTY SANDRA CAME TO ME AT THE BEAUMONTS PARK (REWA)
03-08-2020 - MY LIL BROTHER LES ANSWERED MY 3AM DISTRESS CALL
- I LOST MY JOB AT COURIER POST AOC.
- I LOST MY SMALL FAMILY.
- MY HOME. I LOST ALL HOME.
12-12-2022 - MOST RECENT ON MY BIRTHDAY!!! LAST YEAR!!
IT WAS SON: “DADDY, WHERE ARE YOU… DADDY DONT GO”
- WHILE I WAS SITTING AT A PARK (ONE MONTH IN ON AB26)
CRAZY RIGHT!!
WHEN YOU SIT THERE & YOU’RE LIKE:
DAMN IVE BEEN THROUGH IN LIFE…
2007 - WHAT IF - THE ROPE DIDNT BREAK IN HALF AT MY FIRST ATTEMPT?
2010 - WHAT IF MY AUNTY SANDRA DIDNT FIND ME AT THE BEAUMONT PARK?
2020 - WHAT IF LES DIDNT PICK UP HIS OLDER BROTHERS 3AM CALL SITTING UNDER A EAST TAMAKI TREE NOOZE ALREADY TIED TO THE TREE…
12-12-2022 - WHAT IF MY SON DIDNT RING HIS DADDY WHILST AT A PARK…
“DADDY, DONT GO - WHERE ARE YOU DADDY” 🥺🥺😭😭😭
💙 A BROKEN GENERAL. BUT STAYED ABOVE WATER 💙
GOIN LIVE ON THE TIKY SOON! 😍 9:30pm NZ TIME LETS RUN IT BACK!! RUN THESE KŌRERO.
I KNEW I HAD TO BREAK OUT THOSE DARK THOUGHTS!! STOP WITH IT!! CHANGE MY MIND!! 💜 2023 - 2024 WE STAYED HUNGRY!! #TYJ
🎶 POETIK 🙏🏽🙏🏽
💙 A BROKEN GENERAL BUT STILL AIMS TO KEEP HIS HEAD HELD HIGH - AND ABOVE WATER. 💙🙏🏽
PEP THIS POST! ENOUGH SAID!! NOT FOR THE GRAM BUT REAL RECOGNISE REAL. 💯💙
#INSPIAR #mensmentalhealth
“YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR PROBLEM IS…”
- YOU DONT EVER SEE THE BIG PICTURE. 😏🥺😫
👩🏽: “OI, BUT SHE SAID SHE LIKES YOU. SHE WATCHES YOUR STUFF - DO YOU TALK TO HER.”
ME: 🤦🏽‍♂️
ENOUGH SAID!! 💯💯
VIDEO // WRITTEN: 21-10-2023
“SET A FIRE IN MY SOUL LORD - I WANT MORE OF YOU.”
WHAT IF?? 🤔🤔🤔🤔
POETIK - “CRAZY LOVE” || TENELLE 🔥🎶🫡🫡
(THE 685 LANDLORD - THE ORIGINATOR) 💐
TREVOR THE YOUNGIN!! 💙 A BAWSE AS MUTHA. A GENERAL || A NATURAL BORN LEADER. || A REAL ONE!! || REAL RECOGNISE REAL - NOT FOR THE GRAM!! BUT THE BROKEN WHO CAN RELATE - WHO LOOKS BACK LIKE “DAMN, IVE REALLY MADE IT THIS FAR - I FOUGHT THROUGH IT ALL.” SALUTE!! 🫡🫡🫡💙💙💙
I REALLY START TO REALISE - HOW MUCH THE LORD ALREADY HAD A PLAN FOR ME. ALL SET OUT BEFORE I EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT THOSE DARK THOUGHTS IN THAT MOMENT OF TIME IN MY LIFE - THE DRIVEN EMOTIONS THAT LEAD TO A FEW OF MY ACTUAL ATTEMPTS. 💙🫶🏽💯
IM GOOD - THIS WAS JUST A REFLECTION. 🙏🏽💙
#TYJ
#INSPIAR #mensmentalhealthawareness #mensmentalhealthmatters #INSPIAR2INSPIRE
NEVER THOUGHT IN A MILLION YEARS I WOULD SURPASS 25* - YET ALONE… MILESTONE 30* WITH THE CRAZY THOUGHTS I WOULD THINK ABOUT, ATTEMPT IN MY 20*s..
#LOVEYOURZ #BEKIND #INSPIAR
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FOR CZcams PURPOSE. 📺
22-11-2022
Last edit: 22-11-2022
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