1st Time Hearing NF - How Could You Leave Us • ...This One GOT ME

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    1st Time Hearing NF - How Could You Leave Us • ...This One GOT ME
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  • @LFRFAMILY
    @LFRFAMILY  Před 3 lety +378

    Please join the Patreon‼️‼️ *ROAD TO 100k!!!* SUBSCRIBE, LIKE & SHARE This Video PLEASE‼️🔥🥩 🖤 FEEL FREE TO COMMENT‼️

    • @Nazyairsengikar
      @Nazyairsengikar Před 3 lety +8

      4:16 it's cool I watch to see what think you are 1 of the good people in this world I believe. 😎😎

    • @christianeconomupro.3498
      @christianeconomupro.3498 Před 3 lety +3

      This is not a good first reaction to nf, it honestly makes everyone hurt. A better song would be, "Real" or "all I have", but its still a bop tho.

    • @wellsy626
      @wellsy626 Před 3 lety +3

      Shouts out from down under bro if you like story telling rap pls react to a story by 360 called tiny angle as a father you will understand if you do it .....old as shit but amazing and i havnt seen you do any Aussie rap yet could be wrong but ....always 🔥 reaction brah
      czcams.com/video/LuOhD_VB7y4/video.html

    • @mariaisabelrodriguez7875
      @mariaisabelrodriguez7875 Před 3 lety +2

      Love your channel!!! Keep up the good work 👏👏💪💪 fan from Chile... react to Remember this by NF ... great song!!!

    • @kylegoldberg3852
      @kylegoldberg3852 Před 3 lety +4

      Bro there ain't shit to be ashamed of when I first heard this song I was tearing up the whole time just goes to show you how talented he is.

  • @erikahunter5937
    @erikahunter5937 Před 3 lety +2402

    This was the 1st song I ever heard from NF and I was deep into a heroin addiction and a single mom to my daughter. This song hit me super hard as I pictured my daughter thinking some of these things. This song was the moment that made me change and seek help. That was 17 months ago and I am the sober mom my daughter deserves and has.

    • @huggybearjohnson4197
      @huggybearjohnson4197 Před 3 lety +67

      Keep.Ya head up! 🤘❤

    • @waverider-17
      @waverider-17 Před 3 lety +66

      Proud of you Erika❤️
      Your daughter will be one day too

    • @alecminor474
      @alecminor474 Před 3 lety +41

      AWESOME NEWS. KEEP IT UP

    • @deevo6478
      @deevo6478 Před 3 lety +50

      So happy to see this comment this gives me hope

    • @songbird4330
      @songbird4330 Před 3 lety +41

      You are an absolute superhero. Your kids can now say “my badass mom beat addiction, something that a lot of people can’t do” CONGRATULATIONS! Awesome job!! SOBER FOR LIFE I PROMISE ITS POSSIBLE! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @johnwalker6977
    @johnwalker6977 Před 3 lety +4495

    This is what is so special about NF. He has a song for everyone of us. This one was yours.

    • @jon_because
      @jon_because Před 3 lety +11

      👍

    • @nicholegallo1664
      @nicholegallo1664 Před 3 lety +20

      And mine.

    • @trai8
      @trai8 Před 3 lety +33

      Yea it’s awesome but it’s a lil ironic/shitty that it’s this one cuz this one makes me drop tears almost everytime

    • @corbinsligh1463
      @corbinsligh1463 Před 3 lety +25

      My mom and dad had me listen to this song awhile ago because they realized their wrongs. I remember seeing my dad crying to this. Its deep

    • @nicholegallo1664
      @nicholegallo1664 Před 3 lety +8

      Corbin Sligh I wish I cloud be the one to show this to my mom. Her story fits well but she was an angel regardless

  • @thessalylarissa3261
    @thessalylarissa3261 Před 3 lety +1123

    "I don't get it mom, don't you wanna see your babies grow?" That part...everytime. every damn time

    • @laleinareveira2022
      @laleinareveira2022 Před 3 lety +5

      Yea

    • @kamrynborst402
      @kamrynborst402 Před 2 lety +4

      It hurts so much to hear that line over and over agian knowing you couldnt ever help them

    • @thomasb5304
      @thomasb5304 Před 2 lety +4

      I don't need a picture of my mom i need the real thing. that part hits me

    • @xKotun
      @xKotun Před 2 lety +1

      When you realize your parents are selfish and only care about getting throwed. Remember to be better than that fam.

    • @peetti3608
      @peetti3608 Před 2 lety +2

      Every time..this song is a hammer.

  • @charnegriessel4737
    @charnegriessel4737 Před 3 lety +429

    I've never wanted to hug someone through CZcams so bad...

  • @BunnyGirl580
    @BunnyGirl580 Před 3 lety +983

    She really did pass away from a drug overdose and he's actually really crying in his video it's very sad.

    • @fabiandeutschle3372
      @fabiandeutschle3372 Před 3 lety +130

      He told everyone to get out at the end. So he could do the last bit.... by himself.

    • @missnix6151
      @missnix6151 Před 3 lety +47

      This is heartbreaking to hear his pain hurt deeply 😭

    • @adversary7038
      @adversary7038 Před 3 lety +3

      @@fabiandeutschle3372 😭😞

    • @ayabokti161
      @ayabokti161 Před 3 lety +2

      Damn.......😔🙏🙏🙏

    • @gabriellelombardi1613
      @gabriellelombardi1613 Před 2 lety +4

      I heard he asked everyone to leave while he talked and cried at the end...

  • @hellalyfe
    @hellalyfe Před 3 lety +769

    That last part fam, he asked everyone to clear the booth/studio cause he felt he needed to finish that song alone. I connect with this whole song but that last part gets me every. damn. time.

    • @eb6973
      @eb6973 Před 3 lety +32

      Wow didn't know he asked everyone to clear the booth. But makes sense I would need to be alone to record it and even the video & him crying.

  • @katblair7886
    @katblair7886 Před 3 lety +420

    I can’t even cry in front of my own family, but NF is here crying in front of us, maybe even for us. His bravery is amazing, and I thank him for telling us that we’re not alone.

    • @dfrescki
      @dfrescki Před rokem

      Pray…He will find you…

    • @josephpena6181
      @josephpena6181 Před 7 měsíci

      The spirit God lives all of us u are never alone cus he sent u a comforter holy spirit God bless u sis

  • @westleyparker7810
    @westleyparker7810 Před 3 lety +320

    This song showed me how much I was taken my mom for granted. How disrespectful I was, I called her right after and just apologized with everything I had. Changed my life

    • @jordanrayne4779
      @jordanrayne4779 Před 2 lety +8

      I always grew up looking at my peers and the way they would treat their moms and the way they would complain about them and being so sad and jealous. All i wanted was my mom, i would have given anything to have what they took for granted

    • @nuffsaid8706
      @nuffsaid8706 Před 2 lety +3

      It’s a very honorable thing to put our pride and ego aside that blinds us…. Jesus Loves You!…
      Forever Grateful,
      One ❤️ Love

    • @javkhlanankhbayar6421
      @javkhlanankhbayar6421 Před rokem +1

      i wish i was brave like you

  • @btackett2
    @btackett2 Před 3 lety +669

    He is such a powerful artist, not rapper, artist.

    • @CDuff86
      @CDuff86 Před 3 lety +11

      I couldn't agree more. He has so many hard hitting songs.

    • @shutupnerd6209
      @shutupnerd6209 Před 3 lety +9

      He’s a rapper that makes art

    • @a.j.9797
      @a.j.9797 Před 3 lety +4

      I completely agree!

    • @momsmusic8136
      @momsmusic8136 Před 3 lety +1

      Him and Tom MacDonald need to do one together, they are both classed ss rapper's but not they sre artists with messages for msny if they just listen

    • @NathanWhitlatch
      @NathanWhitlatch Před 3 lety +3

      This comment 👌🏽👏🏽👏🏽 PREACH!!!

  • @zachv3101
    @zachv3101 Před 3 lety +2107

    My mom shot herself in front of me when I was 12. Not alone man. Love

    • @CarriedAwayChannel
      @CarriedAwayChannel Před 3 lety +265

      I’m so sorry. I can’t imagine and am sorry for what you witnessed and had to go through. 😢🙏🏼 My belief and understanding of suicide is that she wasn’t trying to hurt you. She was lost and her mental health caused it. You certainly know more about her, but I just felt like sharing that with you for some reason. Take care.💕

    • @raeannaroylance5401
      @raeannaroylance5401 Před 3 lety +99

      😳I am SO sorry!

    • @LFRFAMILY
      @LFRFAMILY  Před 3 lety +295

      Damn Zach! I’m so sorry my man🖤🖤

    • @eb6973
      @eb6973 Před 3 lety +36

      Just saw ur comment and I can relate to alot. Even the age 12.

    • @CarriedAwayChannel
      @CarriedAwayChannel Před 3 lety +7

      Eeeer

  • @TYLERNAVYGUY
    @TYLERNAVYGUY Před 3 lety +167

    THESE are the reaction videos we are searching for. TRUE emotion, unexpected, relatable. I'd be thankful it was given without a description or warning. Hell I fuck'n cried....Never knew my Father. Mom battled addiction all my juvenile life...

  • @kaildraconis
    @kaildraconis Před 3 lety +283

    Ive heard the song dozens of times. I dont watch reactions to listen to the song. I got Spotify for that. I watch reactions to see what music means to people.

  • @NathanCline12-21
    @NathanCline12-21 Před 3 lety +351

    This song does need a warning label for the feels

  • @brennan-az5460
    @brennan-az5460 Před 3 lety +429

    While recording this, he asked everyone to leave the studio he wanted a private talk with his mom. That pain is 100% as it happened in the song. He is incredible

  • @zoeith6
    @zoeith6 Před 2 lety +16

    This gentleman was abandoned at 3 years old and he not only has a very succesful career, but has an incredible family he includes every day in his life. Sir, you ARE the American dream. Keep it up LFR

  • @AussieCreeker
    @AussieCreeker Před 2 lety +41

    Van I appreciate your honesty. I used to sit on the front stairs waiting for my dad to turn up, every second Friday. I would sit on those stairs and I would watch every car come around the corner and would get my hopes up that it was Dad and then it wasn’t. I would sit there for 5 hours on the stairs till I would give up. I never break promises to my son. That’s probably the worst part of my memories of Dad. We don’t talk and I’m 50. I’ve only really known him for 20 years as I chased him down in my 30’s and saw him till I was 40. He has shunned me and he has two other sons so I’m some sort of diss appointment to him. I pray that my son never feels about me the way I think of my Dad. He was an alcoholic for the first 25 years of my life and I rarely saw him. He was always angry at me but I think it’s because I reminded him of my Mum. He just wanted to do away with that part of his life. I notice even till this day, I can’t be late for anything because he was late for everything or was a no show. Thank you Van for sharing and respect to NF. I have heard some of his stuff but now I am going to check out his catalogue. Peace and love from Australia

    • @jrdnwhtny1
      @jrdnwhtny1 Před rokem

      I went through the exact same thing. Finally caught back up with my dad 20 years later…he’s a pastor and asked me to send him money to be my spiritual advisor

    • @fawxiie
      @fawxiie Před rokem

      i can tell you're a great man. you're not continuing the cycle, you're breaking it, and that's one of the best things you could do as a dad. i wish happiness for you and your son.

    • @AussieCreeker
      @AussieCreeker Před rokem +2

      @@fawxiie thank you. I have had full custody of my son since he was 13 and he has never gone without. We lost everything we own in a flood in February but I have done my best to give him a stable home life. He’s 17 now and has 2 more years of school and he will be the first person in my family to go to University. I was eligible but I was to poor to afford it. I don’t regret a thing though. Providing him with better opportunities in life is my job. He’s also not entitled and he works part time and has an excellent work ethic.

  • @brendanwillmore3235
    @brendanwillmore3235 Před 3 lety +990

    The last verse, the Producers & Engineers left the studio for Nates Privacy

    • @jayzicmatos4791
      @jayzicmatos4791 Před 3 lety +67

      I’m a really big fan of NF and didn’t know that

    • @AndyProper
      @AndyProper Před 3 lety +56

      He asked them to leave for the ending.

    • @shanepeterman6054
      @shanepeterman6054 Před 3 lety +17

      Where did you see/hear this?? That’s awesome, I love NF. This hits home hard.

    • @AndyProper
      @AndyProper Před 3 lety +17

      shane peterman he said it in an interview

    • @shanepeterman6054
      @shanepeterman6054 Před 3 lety +9

      Theking 535 .. thx :)) now I wanna watch this interview lol

  • @rcrowe88
    @rcrowe88 Před 3 lety +335

    I'm almost 41 years old and cried like a baby the first time I heard this. And I don't give a damn who knows. Such an amazing song

  • @gcmotorman6379
    @gcmotorman6379 Před 3 lety +45

    By the 3-minute Mark I'm crying my eyes out thinking of my son. This must be what my son thinks of his mother. He's great, 22 and wise. She's still a mess. I raised him. Proudly and well.

  • @laguerrera2902
    @laguerrera2902 Před 3 lety +167

    I’m so sorry for your pain sweetie 😥 I am a recovering pain pill addict, 8 years now. My mom and dad had to take my son from age 1-10. This song broke me when I first heard it. All I could think of was my sons pain that he never deserved and how selfish I was to stay in the addiction for so long. I regret it every single day, and this song reminds me that my son needs me and to NEVER use again! For all the kids reading this, or anyone who has a parent with an addiction- please know that it’s not your fault and your parent absolutely does love you. They have a disease and are struggling. It doesn’t excuse that behavior- and I know it may not help the pain that much- but from a mother who once was the mother in this song- addiction robbed you of one or both parents- you are not alone. And I know if every single addict parent could take back what they did to hurt their children, they’d do it in a second. Love all of you guys, and I just want to apologize on behalf of other parents struggling with addiction that is hurting their children. I am so sorry for all the pain and tears. Life is precious, and our children are the most important thing in this world. If you’re a child with an addicted parent reading this- I want you to know that I love you, and you are beautiful and you don’t deserve any of the pain you are feeling. I pray you all find peace and love in life. ❤️🙏

    • @TheoryofUltran
      @TheoryofUltran Před 3 lety +6

      Stay strong. Thank you for this message

    • @gg-ro9jb
      @gg-ro9jb Před 2 lety +4

      God is good. God bless you

    • @carpentryfirst3048
      @carpentryfirst3048 Před 2 lety +3

      Much love ❤️

    • @dawnak.3056
      @dawnak.3056 Před 2 lety +5

      Kudos for getting clean. I wish you continued success. My brother told my Mom once that drugs will always be an addict's one and only true love. Well, his true love assassinated him a year ago, leaving behind a 22 year old son who is completely lost. For the first time in his young life, he's started dabbling with drugs and alcohol too. I'm sure it's as a means to escape his grief and it scares the living hell out of me. My brother's addiction ripped us all apart for years. I can't watch his son go through it or worse, bury him because of drugs too.

  • @1976dracos
    @1976dracos Před 3 lety +316

    It doesnt make you "unmanly" to shed a tear man. And I truly, truly feel this song to the depths of my soul! I am a "metalhead" and I do listen to NF, because his music is so fucking real! Cry, man! It is allowed to happen! Please, please, please check out more of NF!

  • @tinabagheri5158
    @tinabagheri5158 Před 3 lety +196

    This song was my introduction to NF. My 23 year old son passed away from an overdose in 2017. The line “I hate the way I remember you” was the one line that stood out for me. I so desperately want to remember my son as he was prior to his addiction.

    • @lesliepotestio7266
      @lesliepotestio7266 Před 3 lety +13

      Ur a good mom....I hurt my mom so bad with my addictions but I straightened my life up and she never let's me live it down still.....its a bad disease that kills so many!!

    • @tinabagheri5158
      @tinabagheri5158 Před 3 lety +10

      Leslie Potestio it is indeed a terrible disease and so many people just don’t understand that. Congratulations on straightening up your life. No matter what, mom’s don’t stop loving you. They might get frustrated and discouraged, but it is unconditional love. I wish you nothing but success and happiness! Stay strong!

    • @mslou-dj9oq
      @mslou-dj9oq Před 3 lety +3

      I am so sorry. This hurts me for you. Sending love

    • @tinabagheri5158
      @tinabagheri5158 Před 3 lety +3

      @@mslou-dj9oq thank you. December 18 was three years. Needless to say, it has been a tough few days. Thank you for your comment.

    • @bibattybobattyboop9567
      @bibattybobattyboop9567 Před 3 lety +2

      I’m so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine the pain that I’m sure you both went through. It’s hard struggling with addiction but it’s also hard being the loved one that’s left behind.

  • @AviationNut
    @AviationNut Před 3 lety +49

    Hey man it's okay to cry, we are humans with emotions. When you cry it actually shows you have a good heart.

  • @kristalascano812
    @kristalascano812 Před 2 lety +14

    "I know your gone but I can still feel you." Hit me right in the face.

  • @frankieluckett8393
    @frankieluckett8393 Před 3 lety +471

    Hey man, I saw that freeze. You were abandoned when you were a baby???? For real! Be proud!!! You are an, amazing man! Amazing parent! Even if your parents aren’t saying it....we are all proud you are a stand up man! If our paths ever cross I would love to share a drink/meal. Be proud of the man you have become! #Respect

  • @JonBlaze1014
    @JonBlaze1014 Před 3 lety +640

    This is probably the only song that has ever made me shed tears. My mother struggled with pill addiction when I was in my teens and I almost lost her twice. Fortunately for me, after years of dealing with depression and addiction she got help. I'm not religious, but her faith was probably the biggest factor in her getting clean, along with my sister and I leaving to live with our father. But I could have just as easily been in the same shoes as Nate. So like you, this one hits me hard. My mom's been clean now for 20 years, but those feelings still rise to the surface when I hear this song.

    • @ChrisSmith-ci5ii
      @ChrisSmith-ci5ii Před 3 lety +17

      Same page brother, only difference is my dad and step mom were the addicts, the bio mom was in prison when I was young, found out when I was 17 that she wasn't in prison for what I was told when young, but actually for pedo shit, so now i don't have a mom as far as I'm concerned.

    • @erikanorman928
      @erikanorman928 Před 3 lety +2

      Same

    • @brianjomoj7628
      @brianjomoj7628 Před 3 lety +1

      Shows you how real God is

    • @natemotivation8523
      @natemotivation8523 Před 3 lety

      ❤💯

    • @adamwilliams2679
      @adamwilliams2679 Před 3 lety +1

      So glad she made it, man. I hope someone who needs the inspiration comes across her example.

  • @shannonwilkerson
    @shannonwilkerson Před 2 lety +32

    Damn, Van. That one hit hard. I had chills through the entire song, and I felt your pain, brother. God Bless you. Thank you for surviving and being here today for the world.

  • @jeremyjohnson1336
    @jeremyjohnson1336 Před 3 lety +93

    Mom passed away when I was 2. Dad abandoned me when I was 4. Drugs and alcohol got the best of him. NF speaks to me on a level that most people can't.

    • @jamescorbin876
      @jamescorbin876 Před 11 měsíci

      My mom passed away when i was 15 bcuz of drugs and like you said he speaks too me on way different level

    • @1EnergyInMotion
      @1EnergyInMotion Před 10 měsíci

      :( he really does..

  • @Fades2Black
    @Fades2Black Před 3 lety +385

    Deep song. The emotion you can hear in Nate’s voice is heartbreaking. But also powerful in connecting with all of us. Sorry to hear about that Van. But you seem to be a hell of a dad to your children. Respect.

    • @eb6973
      @eb6973 Před 3 lety +6

      Word,I was so wrapped into the emotions he was showing that I forgot that point. He for sure seems like an amazing dad.

  • @LolGurrl91
    @LolGurrl91 Před 3 lety +117

    No shame in crying, don't let the whole "men don't cry" lie tell you that because it's a natural human reaction to something that clearly hits you in a deep way. I love this artist, I'm not a big rap person but I love the message in this song and how raw his emotions are.

    • @stoffni
      @stoffni Před 2 lety +2

      Always makes me think about the Johnny Depp quote,
      "People cry, not because they're weak. It's because they've been strong for too long." -Johnny Depp

  • @simplylearning25
    @simplylearning25 Před 3 lety +42

    FYI the ending, apparently asked everyone to leave so he could record what he said. I feel like no one understands how special he is

  • @TraciMoore1
    @TraciMoore1 Před 3 lety +16

    You came to me in recommendations tonight.... This broke me too. I lost my mother to suicide at a young age and always asked the same question why did you leave us. There was four of us kids and we were split up and I was placed in foster homes then later adopted into an awful home.. Here I am at 52 yrs of age and bawling like a baby... I feel you man.. God Bless

  • @ericmiller9331
    @ericmiller9331 Před 3 lety +139

    Seen tons of people react to this and it still gets me everytime, never get used to this one

  • @HTHonda420
    @HTHonda420 Před 3 lety +274

    I lost my mom this year to overdose... never have I ever heard this song until now... and as I sit her crying typing this... I’m sorry for anyone’s hardships.... I pray for each and everyone of you... we deserved better, Rest In Peace momma...

    • @CGJero
      @CGJero Před 3 lety +7

      I'm really sorry for your loss my man. Stay strong.

    • @djhu306
      @djhu306 Před 3 lety +2

      Dude... that is heartbreaking. So many ODs this past 16 months. Sorry for your loss. I pray that the Peace that surpasses understanding invades your heart, man. God bless.🙏

    • @amu_01
      @amu_01 Před 3 lety +1

      I’m so sorry.

    • @spiritualau8263
      @spiritualau8263 Před 3 lety +1

      🙏❤️ I hope you get abundance and prosperity!!

    • @adamstrunz4557
      @adamstrunz4557 Před 2 lety +3

      Saw your comment and said a prayer for you. Hoping you are doing well.

  • @sallyg.125
    @sallyg.125 Před 2 lety +16

    Love to Van and LFR Family! I'm 64 and not on top of new artists and I appreciate you helping keep me up to date. This was powerful and got to me too. I don't know your background but we share so much. Thinking of forwarding to my family but don't know if it's my place to bring up that pain again. Mad ❤ love

  • @sidelines4794
    @sidelines4794 Před 3 lety +32

    My childhood was really messed up so I heard NF then I now know I'm not alone.

    • @kousteven777
      @kousteven777 Před 3 lety

      Another child saved. Keep it up!
      NF makes me know I am not alone as well.

    • @fatallove2570
      @fatallove2570 Před 2 lety +1

      Same here

  • @shanepeterman6054
    @shanepeterman6054 Před 3 lety +141

    My son’s mom is still a heroin addict, just got arrested again... OD’d multiple times, she’s never here for him. This one gets me hard, I grew up with one parent and watching it happen to my son kills me. I can relate to this song wayyyy too much n now I’ve passed it to my son, I hate myself for it but I am the best damn dad I can be EVERY DAY.
    Love you brother, we all go through it. Respect ✊💙🙏

    • @caseaddison982
      @caseaddison982 Před 3 lety +16

      Ain’t ur fault. Never blame it on ur self. Be proud ur sticking with him. Ur the guy he looks up to.

    • @msbabyboo20111
      @msbabyboo20111 Před 3 lety +1

      Never your fault! As a child of an addict I blamed myself too but always prayed. So happy after 27 years of my 29 years of life my father is finally sober. Keep being that role for your son

    • @jacobfromallstate4963
      @jacobfromallstate4963 Před 3 lety +1

      You're a good man

  • @NoNo-wz5yv
    @NoNo-wz5yv Před 3 lety +169

    Anyone who’s been in foster care knows that line about the parent he doesn’t know and a lady in the corner taking notes is the realest bar in the song.

    • @paulettaphillips3659
      @paulettaphillips3659 Před 3 lety +7

      Not even foster care. My mom layed me in a baby bed and left me when I was 18 months old and my grandmother raised me (my dad's mother). I got that line very clear. It hurts. I wasn't in foster care nor in the states custody but in WV they check on Kids that have been abandon to make sure the person who takes them are fit.

    • @legendaryperson5267
      @legendaryperson5267 Před 3 lety

      @Isabella Funk I don't want to say this but keep your distance to those who you think don't care about you.
      Or either you really are doing something that gets on your parents nerves, can't trust everything you say, no offense.

    • @Jordyn_loveeew
      @Jordyn_loveeew Před 3 lety +4

      I definitely know. I spent many years in the system growing up. Thankfully at 32, it has molded me into the person and parent I am today. With therapy and patience as well. Makes me sad that it wasn’t the same for my 3 brothers. All of them are in prison and substance abusers. There’s some things you just can’t forget and you damn sure can’t forgive. Painful to think about. I hope someday they find peace. I know they’re hurting. Much love to anyone who’s been through it.

    • @schloomyschloms
      @schloomyschloms Před 3 lety +1

      Adopted since birth basically for me

    • @ScottyTownsend91
      @ScottyTownsend91 Před 3 lety

      Yo I was in foster care for 2 years and homeless a little before that and let me tell you... the system would’ve broke me if I had not believed that my dad would’ve found me and my brother and got us out. I’m hitting 30 this year and I still fight demons from when I was in the system at 7-10 years old. Not trying to preach or be religious but faith is a powerful weapon. And a man who goes without his mother is just as serious as a daughter without his father and vice versa

  • @MartinScheuerJr
    @MartinScheuerJr Před 2 lety +13

    Dude…first time I’ve heard this. This shits heavy man and it’s an amazing song. Bless you and glad you’re doing well after what you’ve been through at such a young age. Keep up the good work and thank you for turning me on to this tune. Subscribed and can’t wait to see more!

  • @chuckmcdaniel4820
    @chuckmcdaniel4820 Před 2 lety +9

    As a retired career paramedic and firefighter I had seen my share of drug related tragedies amongst families. Pulling out a deceased mom, dad, son, or daughter was never easy on us or especially on surviving family members.

  • @denaeculbreth7980
    @denaeculbreth7980 Před 3 lety +101

    I lost my dad to drugs so every time I hear this song it hurts. And at the end I went through those same questions. Him missing my graduation my marriage not having him walk me down the aisle and having my kids.

    • @LFRFAMILY
      @LFRFAMILY  Před 3 lety +16

      Wow. 🖤🖤🖤 Thank you for sharing that.

    • @shashirekhakamle4655
      @shashirekhakamle4655 Před 3 lety +1

      M so sorry for ur loss. Rip

    • @michm6806
      @michm6806 Před 3 lety

      Girl, me too. I 100 percent know what you're feeling. Mine passed when I was 17. 30 now. Doesn't ever get easier. 😭

  • @Kath_klclouds
    @Kath_klclouds Před 3 lety +22

    Those are Nate's vocal cords!! NF can truly sing, and I can't wait til you hear even more of his voice.
    If I could give you a hug, I would.

  • @kathyduvall1766
    @kathyduvall1766 Před 2 lety +6

    This is my first time hearing this song. Cried my eyes out. I can’t understand how a parent can do this to their children. I loved my babies with all my heart. I’m so sorry you had this life. God bless you all 😢

  • @oliviar8060
    @oliviar8060 Před 2 lety +7

    This is deep. Watching your reaction and seeing the emotions cross your face as you felt them through the song. Real shit. Nf is a legend

  • @michaelangel1906
    @michaelangel1906 Před 3 lety +49

    I am 9 yrs clean from pain meds. It took almost losing my life and my wife and sons to straighten up. Not quite like the song but god damn was close to that. God bless my wife and the good Lord.

  • @curtiswilson3569
    @curtiswilson3569 Před 3 lety +14

    Thanks for checking this one out fam. Hits me hard every time since I lost my little brother last year due to similar issues. Stay safe out there family.

  • @trentbobo4171
    @trentbobo4171 Před 2 lety +4

    Bro, I watch A LOT of reactions. It's my way of watching a clip again for the 1st time. I've only recently discovered NF. I'm submersing myself in reactions. I wish this was my first time watching a reaction to this song. So profound. I'm sorry you had to deal with that childhood pain that you must've went through. But look at you. The man and you've raised to great kids. You're still my favorite reactor, Van. You're that dude.

  • @katmenendez777
    @katmenendez777 Před 2 lety +3

    “I hate the way I remember you” was the line that completely broke me. I’m sorry this one hurts so bad for so many of us. The chorus alone tears the heart.

  • @michaeljohnson767
    @michaeljohnson767 Před 3 lety +45

    My mom walked out when I was 9 months and my dad gave me up for adoption to my grandmother when I was like 10... this song hits so close to home and chokes me up Everytime I hear it.

  • @breakbread2907
    @breakbread2907 Před 3 lety +33

    Therapy session by NF IT’S really deep and you’ll enjoy it

  • @carrissamcwilliam5757
    @carrissamcwilliam5757 Před 2 lety +5

    This one got me too. My mum left when I was 1 and my dad put me and siblings in foster care at the age of 2. First time hearing this guy. Wow 💕

  • @tolduahunnidtimes
    @tolduahunnidtimes Před 3 lety +9

    this hits close to home for me too man, but it’s my dad instead of my mom, my dad is an addict, i haven’t seen him or heard from him in 13 years, i’m 16. your not alone man, i’m sorry, i love you.

  • @byroncatu
    @byroncatu Před 3 lety +67

    “I know he don’t cuss, I’mma do it for him”😂

  • @dusman7
    @dusman7 Před 3 lety +28

    Thanks for your reaction and sorry. Ususally the NF family gives reactors big warnings before they do this one. When I saw you do your normal intro before this song, I thought to myself “oh no, he’s about to run full speed into a brick wall and he has no idea.” But it’s songs like this that make NF fans fiercely loyal to him. And it’s ok to cry or feel overcome with emotion. I could see this brought up real stuff for you. Respect. ✊

    • @eb6973
      @eb6973 Před 3 lety

      Agreed

    • @mattconley9589
      @mattconley9589 Před 3 lety

      Couldn't have said it better my guy. They did him dirty by not warning him man. We all felt this song. Its deep fr.

    • @MrBamapride27
      @MrBamapride27 Před 3 lety +1

      Fiercely loyal. I love that! So true. Out of all music and artists I’ve ever heard in my 31 years of life, his has impacted me the most 🙏🙏🙏

  • @JreignSWF
    @JreignSWF Před 3 lety +3

    I’m just happy the first time I experienced this song was with you! The emotional connection I just had with not only you but this song was nothing less than cosmic. I feel truly blessed for coming across this and I never watch reaction videos!
    Thank you
    #tiesandbars stamp of approval

  • @monopilis9845
    @monopilis9845 Před 3 lety +7

    Everything NF said in this song I relate to with my dad. This song has always made me go deep in my thoughts.

  • @JimmyHey
    @JimmyHey Před 3 lety +41

    I'm a 25 year old grown ass man and I couldn't hold it anymore when he was breaking down at the end.
    I rewatched and relistened to this while still fully crying.
    I don't know you personally, my man, but I wish you all the best, I think I can tell that this song had just as deep as an impact on you as it had on a lot of us. It hurts.
    Much love to you!

  • @dwaynebillings2103
    @dwaynebillings2103 Před 3 lety +59

    Yeah, this one hits hard brother. I just lost my mom back in July not to addiction, she was in a bad car accident. Much love ❤✌

    • @LFRFAMILY
      @LFRFAMILY  Před 3 lety +15

      I’m so sorry my brother. 🖤

    • @eb6973
      @eb6973 Před 3 lety +5

      Sorry 2 hear.My condolences

    • @sarahgaither7960
      @sarahgaither7960 Před 3 lety +1

      Dwayne so sorry. I lost my mother to addiction 3 years ago. She was never THE mom I wanted her to be. This song hits home so hard. She was 56, liver failure, never changed her life to be there for her kids or her grandkids. Rip mom.

    • @sarahgaither7960
      @sarahgaither7960 Před 3 lety

      LFR a great song resonates with what we really go through in life. Not the same or the fortune but the real loss and love. my heart and past is with you, I see you and feel you.

  • @noahpierce8155
    @noahpierce8155 Před 3 lety +12

    God bless you brother 💜
    I'm a single father with sole custody of my boy. His mom left us at the hospital to run through rehabs.
    I will never give up on my son. I could never. I hope to foster and adopt as my life progresses. Im only 26. My boy has special needs because his mother continued to use.
    She has never called. I keep the same number and have not moved. I hurt for him, but it fuels me when im feeling run down. He deserves the best.
    I survived over 10 years of domestic abuse.
    God will grant the strength to carry all burdens. For that I fear no evil as I walk with him through the valley.
    Be proud of who you are, what you've built. You are an amazing person.
    Thanks for releasing some real and heavy content.

  • @MamaSally79
    @MamaSally79 Před 3 lety +5

    My ex husband died the day after father's day in 2016. My daughter was obsessed with this song for so long. Would listen to it on repeat. Her dad drowned, but had meth in his system, he had been on in for awhile beforehand. She still listens to it every now and then. It gets me now whenever I hear it, especially the ending.

  • @eb6973
    @eb6973 Před 3 lety +59

    TY for sharing your Life,your story. You were always the diamond in the dirt, and look at what is fulfilled through you....smiles & a community to thousands of people🖤🖤❤❤

  • @georgiasmith5655
    @georgiasmith5655 Před 3 lety +35

    "I know he dont cuss, so imma do it for him"
    I snorted😂😂
    First vid of yours I've seen and I'm hooked

  • @Chloee117
    @Chloee117 Před 3 lety +2

    First reaction of yours I've watched and you had me tear up several times. My heart breaks for you and anyone that has dealt or is dealing with something like this! 💔 Hugs from Florida!

  • @jasejens
    @jasejens Před 2 lety +1

    I come back to this reaction every couple of months. Thanks for everything Van.

  • @kyleriopel
    @kyleriopel Před 3 lety +40

    I have a personal connection with this song as I almost lost my mother to pills. So every time I hear this it hits close to home.
    Check out other songs by Nf like why, time, stress

  • @MochaCrochetsandCrafts
    @MochaCrochetsandCrafts Před 3 lety +11

    I'm 51 and my mom died a year ago yesterday from complications of drug and alcohol abuse. I felt this song in my soul. Even though she didn't technically OD, she was gone for most of my life, even when she was in the same house. Addition kills...and not just the person who is addicted. I feel your pain.

  • @shyshy4202
    @shyshy4202 Před 3 lety +3

    Lost my mom to an overdose when I was 15. She was in and out of rehab/jail my whole life. This song hits me where it hurts. Sending light and love to anyone hurting 💕

  • @thomasnesmith5684
    @thomasnesmith5684 Před 3 lety

    Love why you do , that goes for yoh and the whole LFR FAMILY , mad respect from northeast Tennessee 💪🏻

  • @rucksackzen
    @rucksackzen Před 3 lety +40

    5:42 that’s what I respect about you, Van. I watched the first Patreon Podcast with Brandon and DJ, learned your story and saw you being vulnerable as hell. Men need to step up and give the guys in our lives the space to be authentic, vulnerable and unashamed. The way we are raised to not cry and to “man up” is killing us.

    • @TheRealMikeDrop
      @TheRealMikeDrop Před 2 lety

      Dying a lil more every day too. Letting this damn stress fucking kill me. It’s gotta stop. I gotta fuckin change. “Man up” yeah… till I’m the man down. Heart attacks becoming the norm, I sit here with this pain in my chest wondering if it’s not too late already. God help me please. I don’t wanna die. Not like this.

  • @Dave-bo1yk
    @Dave-bo1yk Před 3 lety +13

    It didnt happen to me, but i cannot stop crying everytime i hear this song.
    NF is a real true artist.
    I have never had such a strong emotions to an artist like i have to NF.
    Emotional reaction man! Respect!

  • @lisaphelps7349
    @lisaphelps7349 Před 2 lety

    ❤❤❤Love your channel! I just discovered it recently and I have been crying through this one, but in a healing way. Knowing you are not alone in the struggles of life help immensely. I also have laughed hysterically with your other videos, and got angry about the unfairness in life for others. True art brings out passion and moves people. Thank you for your works of art!

  • @sandoval7035
    @sandoval7035 Před 3 lety +1

    Powerful video. Peace to all who struggled listening this and the memories it brought forward.

  • @jaipoh3965
    @jaipoh3965 Před 3 lety +15

    Look how you turned it around with your family. YOU are a good man.

  • @eb6973
    @eb6973 Před 3 lety +32

    Thank you Van. This joint right here. Hits the soul. I'm just as vulnerable as you are watching this.

  • @JuuzyFruit
    @JuuzyFruit Před 3 lety

    Much love man this song hit's home for many of us. It's good to know that you aren't the only one feeling this kind of pain.

  • @kimberlygoddard7372
    @kimberlygoddard7372 Před 2 lety +3

    Don't ever ghink you dont have family. We all here. Bc of you. We all fam!

  • @hardtruth7988
    @hardtruth7988 Před 3 lety +10

    No judgement here bro, we all family in this joint. Thanks Van, emotional reactions are some that I enjoy most. It helps me connect better with the reactor.

  • @jimlively6884
    @jimlively6884 Před 3 lety +20

    I'm raising 5 of my Grandkids now because of this same shit. They've been with us for 3 yrs. And doing better than ever. Love them like they were my own.

  • @richardolder9626
    @richardolder9626 Před 3 lety

    What an amazing reaction video. The song is great but you were so touched by it. Thanks for sharing. Definitely hit that subscribe.

  • @jeffthompson3379
    @jeffthompson3379 Před 3 lety

    This is my favorite reaction video I have ever seen. Your reaction brought me back to the very first time I heard this song, but the tears weren't for me this time around, they were for you. Here's a virtual hug my friend 🤗 (and a subscriber 😋)

  • @GS-xt8fu
    @GS-xt8fu Před 3 lety +10

    That was my mom too....hurts a little bit, for sure. Thank you god for my father who never left. Thanks for my wonderful wife and son. So many years ago but I could feel it, as well.

  • @Jaysun1
    @Jaysun1 Před 3 lety +52

    If your eyes don't well up at the end of this video you've got no soul!

    • @designcenter1970
      @designcenter1970 Před 3 lety

      It just breaks me knowing how many ppl go through this. And how blessed I am not to have to deal with this.

  • @bobbydelamar606
    @bobbydelamar606 Před 2 lety +1

    Let it out! Sending love from Texas. 🤟🏼

  • @prophetmuhammad2274
    @prophetmuhammad2274 Před 3 lety

    Your reaction with the song both are pure raw emotion. Caught a sub and follow after this keep doing what you do and always keep it real.

  • @bigcraiggles9838
    @bigcraiggles9838 Před 3 lety +50

    This song is deep...

    • @jaipoh3965
      @jaipoh3965 Před 3 lety +7

      Look how you turned it around with your family. YOU are a good man, LFR.

    • @eb6973
      @eb6973 Před 3 lety +2

      Seriously it does.

  • @TrumpTrain86
    @TrumpTrain86 Před 3 lety +12

    This jam really hit me hard i watched my mom struggle with addiction my whole life, and after 24 years the pills and alcohol caught up to her in 2010 when she overdosed. NF is an amazing rapper...dude raps from his heart.

  • @SchafterJ
    @SchafterJ Před 3 lety

    You are amazing my dude. Thank you for amazing content

  • @johnathanmcearchern5911
    @johnathanmcearchern5911 Před 3 lety +1

    I'm glad I subscribed to you brother man. I've seen so many reactions to this song but you're the only one who's had the same life as us. The good thing for NF is that his mom's gone now. She can't hurt him anymore. My mom is still doing it to me promising she'll change and this song made me realize where she's headed and I can't stop her.

  • @sherylh2570
    @sherylh2570 Před 3 lety +10

    Thank you for sharing your past with us. This is such a hard song to listen to, but so necessary to understand Nate’s pain.

  • @joereyes7100
    @joereyes7100 Před 3 lety +15

    This video hits me Hard
    Glad to see NF on the channel again!

  • @justinbridgez
    @justinbridgez Před 3 lety +1

    You never know. Tears are on my face. Great content. 👍🏻

  • @Aloading43
    @Aloading43 Před 2 lety

    Thank you for pushing through with this video this song hits home for me afyer I lost my aunt to suicide but at the same time it brings comfort knowing others have been through the same

  • @williamh.2982
    @williamh.2982 Před 3 lety +10

    Its good man let the tears flow, brother I have took in 19 kids over the years and give them all the love and knowledge I could. Brother me up anytime....

  • @applesauce4389
    @applesauce4389 Před 3 lety +16

    There's something special about this song. Even if you don't relate or can't directly connect with the story, the delivery of it and the heartbeat and passion that come through can still get to you. I didn't lose a parent like NF, my parents got divorced when I was really young. Even though my Father stopped trying to be a part of life, only calling when his booze gave him the courage, I grew up happy with my mom and my stepdad, and this song still gets me. Just that feeling of being alone, like you weren't good enough. Cause as kids, we don't get it, and by the time we do understand we still got all this baggage hanging around.
    This song's not on any of my playlists, but whenever I have a shitty day and need to just be alone and feel all the shit inside, this is one of my go-to tracks. This song will always be in my mind and in my heart.

  • @redalex8794
    @redalex8794 Před 2 lety +1

    Sad part of life so raw and real. Your reaction was real as well. Thank you, for sharing this talented artist.

  • @mattblack5982
    @mattblack5982 Před 3 lety

    You are NEVER alone, we are all here for each other even with our pain. This was the first vid of yours I've ever seen and I'm so glad this was put on my path because I found another person who knows what real means. You are real af and I respect you so much dude.
    Much love 🙏🏼🙏🏼

  • @patrickbseattle
    @patrickbseattle Před 3 lety +14

    This song always hits me. NF "Returns" is straight fire.

  • @MakoCS2
    @MakoCS2 Před 3 lety +17

    ive listen this song 100rd time still almost make me come to tears

  • @niccraig3234
    @niccraig3234 Před 3 lety +1

    Wow never heard this song. This is absolutely what music is about what rap is about. Thank you for giving a voice to so many and bringing this to the forefront..... Moving