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So very sorry for your loss, Maddi. May the special memories of your mother bring you comfort and peace, take your time, and be kind to yourself.
As long as you remember her, she is alive in your memories.
Make her proud, as you always did.
im so sorry for your loss Maddi. thank you for sharing your story with us. Please take care of yourself
You obviously had a good mother and had a strong bond with her. Others aren't so lucky. That should be of some comfort to you.
I’m so, so sorry for your loss. As someone who’s suffered personal loss, the thing with creativity during these times is just go with whatever you feel like. If you don’t have the energy to do something, that’s all fine. If you end up doing something without a destination of what it’ll become, that’s all fine. Creativity is an expression of yourself, and that will change as you go through these next weeks, months and years. Just be very kind to yourself, and it’s all ok to be stunned and emotional.
My heartfelt condolences, my mother also passed away last month, I feel for you!
Around the same time.. I feel your pain. My heartfelt condolences to you.
I know you will channel your mother's spirit in your projects to come. May her memory be a blessing.
Sorry for your loss x,I lost my mom during covid in 2019 I miss her so much.
So very sorry to hear this! ='( Take care of yourself, Rich and your family - you all need each other more than ever. Everything else other than love of your family is irrelevant just now. My mum has cancer at the moment, that's traumatic enough, but sudden loss is much harder. We feel like we didn't get chance to say what we wanted, but she knew you loved her more than anything. If she were here now, she would want you to be happy. You and your brother(s) shine through who she was, and although she's not here - she always will be in all of your hearts and minds.
Thank you Chris, and I'm sorry to hear about your mum, it is traumatic. I wouldn't say it's harder for them to go suddenly because even when you're expecting it, it brings the trauma in a different way. Them going suddenly does add the shock element, which I have to admit has knocked the stuffing out of me.
My grandma (mum's mother) passed away from a brain tumour and we watched her deteriorate. We nursed her at home initially. Its very different, but it's the trauma of watching a loved one go through all that vs the shock of a sudden disappearance. I know how both ways feel and I don't think they can be compared really, it's just different.
I hope you are okay Chris, please take care of yourself.
@@MsMadLemon Thanks! I don't mean to try and compare - it's all terrible no matter how you look at it, Take care of yourself too and your family! ❤🩹
@@GadgetUK164 That's not how I meant it. You said sudden loss is much harder, basically i'm saying what you're going through is equally as hard, just in a different way. Take care Chris ❤
So sorry for you loss Maddi. You’ve been an inspiration over several years. I wish you the best in finding peace and joy in your future.
Oh I’m so sorry to hear this . Sending you my thoughts and comfort. Stay strong and take care.
I mourn your loss. 😔
Strength to you and your family!
Greetings from another unconventional person. 😘👋
sorry for your loss Maddi i just lost my dad the same way .life will never be the same . thanks for you heartfelt video taker care
I can understand you well. This reminds me of the situation when my father died. He didn't want to die in the hospital, but there was nothing I could do about it. It's always good when you can talk to someone about it. I wish you the best.
So very sorry to hear this. The pain is the same no matter what part of the world we are in. I also know this pain. Take time to be with your family. Your Mom would want you to do only what makes you happy. Do that. You have given us all happiness in your projects. I wish you all the best.
I'm sorry for your loss, honor your mother by doing what makes you happy, I'm sure any mother would want their children to be safe and happy. But, you have every right to take your time with all this. Find peace and hug your love ones even more.
So sorry to hear that Maddi, my late condolences. 😞
Ina Lilahi wa Ina Ilayhi Raji3oen , 🙏 all the strength to You, step by step, مَدِيْحَة step by step.
We don’t get over our losses but we learn to live with them and press on. Your mom was obviously very proud of you. Thank you for your inspiring work, it has directly affected my own enjoyment with retro tech and you show us the warm human side of enjoying these creations. I always feel that when a loss like this floors you, it is your body and soul recognizing how important someone was to you. Painful, but beautiful in a way. Take care and take your time, but know that your mom would want you to continue to enjoy your life, doing the things that make you happy.
My deepest condolences, dear Maddi. Hugs from Chile.
Endless condolences to you on your loss, Maddi. Deepest sympathies.
May she rest in peace 🙏 hope you find the strength at this time. Grief isn't easy. Let yourself take the time to get through it. It's comforting she was thinking of you. Take care Maddy.
I'm so sorry for your loss Maddi. I unfortunately had to go through this a couple of years ago and to be really honest, I'm still not really "over it"... I guess you never can be. You have to give yourself some time to mourn. Don't rush getting back into the "normal". Continue when you're ready to continue, we'll be here, we'll be waiting for you to come back to us. God bless you.
My Heart goes out to you for your loss Life is a struggle for most of us .though illness or disability. But never chuck in the towel .❤
I've watched your videos when they pop up on and off over the years and and thoroughly enjoyed them, this is probably the first i've watched in quite sometime as i haven't been doing YT in general. Tomorrow (friday) will be 4 weeks when i lost my dad, ill health yeah but still thought i had quite a few years with him and it's kinda knocked me to the core. As you i'm still not only going threw the grieving process but then also accepting what's happened. Everyday you wake up and something is missing and it feels like you have a hole in your heart and don't know how to fill it. You feel like your living in a bubble and wondering what to do with yourself, and you just have this huge empty void.
My Dad & mum (who passed 4 years ago) bought my first console (2600) and then later a C64, when i was old enough to buy my own stuff, i got the Amiga, and my dad got the Amiga love. When i moved away for a short time, he bought his own A600 and later A1200 and was an avid Amiga gamer. \o/
While i have now inherited my dads old Amiga warez, i'd sell it all in a heardbeat x10 over to have my dad and true Amiga (Friend) still with me now.
Stay Strong!
"It feels like you have a hole in your heart and don't know how to fill it....and you just have this huge empty void"
It's exactly this feeling, it's like experiencing a disappearance of someone you're so used to having around. Someone's taken away a light and energy source. i'm happy to hear you connected with your dad in such a beautiful way, via the Amiga.
Thank you and I'm sorry to hear about your loss also. I hope you are okay.
That's heart breaking - sorry for your loss. Take care, and as has been said before: it will slowly get easier...
Sorry for your loss, Maddi. I always enjoy watching your videos because you always project a cheerful vibe. I hope you feel better soon and take care of yourself.
Life is finite and we really never really realize that until confronted. As a rational human being I am sorry for your loss and do understand the emotions involved. This happened to me at an early age and back then there was no mourning process. Time heals everything but memories last forever. Love everything you have contributed, just keep going in that direction and think of you.
Rest in Peace, Mother Mad Lemon. 😟
First I wanna say your one of my favorite tech channels, take your time in the grief and healing process, the drive to do more videos and such will all come back to you when your ready.
Im sorry for your loss. I've just also lost my grandmother too a week ago after an 11 day diabetic coma.
My condolences to you, i'm sorry for your loss.
Maddi, sorry for your loss, condolences from Brasil!
sorry for your loss x thank you for sharing with us. We love you x
Maddi, I am sorry for your loss. Yes, it is painful, I understand. The pain you feel is the love that you had for your Mother. It would be a lie to say that over time it will go away. Never let it. The pain isn't pain. It is a symbol of your love for Her. Embrace this as it shows how much you loved her. Think of the things she used to do that drove you crazy and smile and laugh. She sounds like a Great Woman and as life is a journey she had an amazing one with a good family. Don't focus on the loss. Though she has moved on to the next life she will never be forgotten. It is the memories that keep her with you and your family. She will always be there in your heart watching over you. It will get easier over time. There will be instances where you might feel down about this loss. Again reflect on the good and bad things that should now bring a brief smile or chuckle and make you think "woman you were crazy". When that day is upon us I would hope that we all have the strength and courage to face it as you Mother did. "Oh don't worry, it is nothing!" To be at peace.
My thoughts and Prayers go out to you.
Please don't stop making your videos. I will miss your little laugh and chuckles, and how you call yourself out when you make mistakes.
I feel with you. Take your time. Nobody can feel what you feel, nobody can grief for you.
This will leave a wound in your soul for some time. Try to heal, try not to let that scar you.
All my best wishes to you.
May she rest in peace, and may the God grant her a place in paradise insha Allah, I offer you my sincere condolences... It is an immense loss, but she worked to make you through her education, a person extraordinary, gifted, intelligent and caring... She lives in your heart forever...
Please don't give up Maddi, about your projects or your dreams, your mother doesn't want that... it will take you time, but you will come back stronger because she will support you...
Sorry for your loss Maddi, take all the time you need to heal. My father passed away in January and I haven't had a chance to grieve, all the paperwork that still needs to be done, its ongoing and I've been focusing on that side of things and taking care of my mom, again my condolences.
So sorry about your mom. Nothing I can write will bring you to closure or ease the path of grief - and you can read about it and analyze it forever, but that won't change how you feel and the path you must follow now. My mom passed rather quickly also at the start of 2020 so I can relate strongly to what you feel now. For now, know that people care and do think about you, and when you come up for air we can chat.
I am so very sorry for your loss. Thank your for sharing. Your experiences are very relatable. This year April 28th it was 10 years ago that I lost my dad and it helped me to share. Take care.
Oh Dear Heart...I am so sorry you lost your mother. I hope you are able to find your path through this tough time by taking care of yourself, and letting others take care of you also. As for CZcams...let that happen when the time is right. Focus on your projects as your own accomplishments. There will be a time when you will turn the camera back on and share your warm, entertaining, technical content with all of us out here. We can wait. Be well and God Bless.
I'm so sorry for your loss.
For what it's worth, your work has helped me to stay inspired to create during a personal tragedy of my own. I really mean that.
So I hope you feel better, take care of yourself. And I hope you'll feel the satisfaction and joy of creating more again soon.
Your fans here really love you.
Hey Maddy. I am so so sorry for your loss. Please do not rush to make more content, take your time and take care of yourself first. Your mum sounds amazing and you both had a pretty special relationship, so let yourself grieve, maybe in the future you might write a song for her? But please take good care of yourself.
I am sorry for your loss.
Take the time you need, no matter how long it takes.
I went through it myself, since last year.
When you are ready to do the things you care about, you will know.
Don't rush it.
Love ❤
So sorry Maddi. It will take time to heal your heart and relight your fire to get back to doing what you love, but it will happen. We will be here when you are ready. ❤
I've just seen your video bonita, like I was saying in your dm ,it's going to take you awhile to comeback since I healed by myself it kinda took me a year to two years to comeback and start creating again myself, in your situation ,since your a creator with electronics be a creator with something else, try art you been expressing yourself with electronics how about now expressing yourself through art like painting and drawing give that a try ,remember us as creators we can never just stop, just shift to what you were doing and shift it to art that way you can keep going and heal at the same time that way your not rushing or feel pressure to come back to electronic projects in time you will comeback bigger and stronger than ever I know it , if your going to start drawing start with color pencils and a number 2 pencil and start off by drawing what you feel only nothing simple nothing complex just draw what you feel at this present moment if you want to share ,share this moment in time is for you love and prayers bonita ❤🙏💯🌹‼️
My sincere condolences,
May your Mom rest in peace and continue to guide your way in life.
My condolences
I am very sorry for your mother and I can understand your feelings very well. Before something like this happens, you can never really imagine what the time without your parent will be like. My own mother died two years ago and every object that was left of her makes me grieve. It hurts that you will never be able to see or speak to this person again. Even if you had been with her every day, you would have felt like I did, that you hadn't done enough.
Mothers are usually always grateful in the end that their children became well-behaved people. That's what my mother told me in the end. She must have been very proud of you. She also doesn't want you to be sad for too long.🥺
Still take the time to grieve.
i feel your pain hun. justlost my mum in law😭
There is a video titled Good Grief by Alistair Begg if you search it. The message is one that helped me during a period of grief in my life. My condolences, on the loss of your dear Mother.
My heartfelt condolences and deepest sympathy. I wish you much strength for the time ahead.
My sincere condolences to you and yours Maddi, my heart goes out to you at this very sad time!! Maybe when you feel ready to, you could dedicate some lovely new music to your mother! I always try and recommend getting creative to my friends, whenever they're in times of crisis, I know it's hard, and you don't feel like doing much at all like that, but in time those feelings WILL return!!
Like others have said, take comfort from the amazing memories you have of times in your life spent with her, cherish those special memories, and most of all, look after yourself too....big hugs! xx
I wish that I could do, or say, something that would help take away your pain. A lot of us love you and wish you the best. Take care and know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.🙏
My condolences, May she rest in peace. My mother passed away 2 years ago, She was 91, I went to visit her abroad as she was on her deathbed, Talking to her knowing that this is the last time I will ever see her was a killing moment for me, After I came back to the states she died a month later, Even in her age it took me a long time to get over her death.
Very sorry for your loss. Blessings😢
So sorry. Do whatever you have to do to to keep on keepin' on!
My deepest condolences , hugs from germany 🫂🫶
I'm deeply sorry for your loss. Though we didn't know your mother, we can see her incredible influence through your art. Our thoughts are with you during this difficult time. Hugs from Chile!
My condolences Maddi, this was very moving, it's clear you meant the world to each other.
I had a call from my mother this afternoon from the hospital after a bad fall, she too was very calm and dismissive about it. This is something that has been on my mind all day, so I appreciate you tackling such a difficult subject.
So sorry for your loss. Went through something similar sometime back. May God give you strength to carry on. TC.
My sincere condolences to you and your family. That picture of her holding you is so precious. So glad you still have those visual memories to hold on to and you to live through.
*My sincere condolences to you and your family*
My sincere condolences. Reach out if you ever need a stranger to vent to. Thank you for sharing this.
Sorry for your loss I can’t even watch the video. So sorry.
I'm sorry for your loss. My heartfelt condolences. Hearing that they took so long to diagnose a heart attack is shocking. And that feeling "she's still there, you can talk to her any time" - in my experience, that never goes away. Perhaps there's a reason for that.
Yeah i'm struggling to believe it took them 17+ hours to diagnose a heart attack, it's ridiculous. I think the feeling you describe is beyond our physical senses, I know there's a reason for that and I know it's not going to go away. I know there's more to life than what the eyes see. Thank you Floyd.
So sorry for your loss. My condolences to you and your family. I lost my mum in 2013 and my dad in 2020 too, it gets easier I promise.
Oh Maddi, I'm so sorry for your loss.
When my mum passed I threw myself into my music and writing songs to vent my frustrations and thoughts. No one will ever hear them, but they helped me at the time.
Don't rush into making YT content, take your time to come to terms with how you feel.
My thoughts are with you. ❤
So hard to get your head around it when a loved one passes on unexpectedly. I know how you're feeling. Life as you knew will come back to you but it takes time. 💚
Im sorry for your loss too!
don't despair,your mother will always be with you,in the heart first and often in another dimension but still present.
Condolences Maddi (and family), it's ironic to like a video to show our heartfelt support when its such a sad subject.
I'm so very sorry for your loss madija! Sending positive energy your family's way.
Sorry for your loss. Even though she's gone, your mother lives in you and your memories of her. Take care of yourself.
Im really sorry to hear that...I didnt knew her so everyting id like to say could not relieve the pain.....
So i wish you alot of strength to manage all these feelings....
Cant find the perfect words cause a loss of somebody is always painfull ....
Take your time... Priority is just you .... not youtube...
We will wait for new content... doesnt matter how much time you need.... Luv from the Amiga Music Scene
Sorry for your lose, you said you're not sure how you can continue your projects? Do them in honor of her and you will continue to be inspired. She would love to see you continue on, again do them in honor of her..
I really shared this. At some stage we all go through this. It takes time to assimilate the memories and the emotions. One thing I am positive she would want you to be compassionate about your own feelings. Relax and accept.
I'm deeply sorry for your loss. Please take care of yourself and give yourself the grace to heal, however long that takes. You've been a huge inspiration to me through difficult periods in my life and for many others as well, she must have been very proud.
Drum lin printre stele, Bunul Dumnezeu să aibă grijă de sufletul ei . Condoleanțe Maddi
I’m so sorry Maddi. Sending you love and hugs. It’s never easy to lose someone so suddenly.
I’m so sorry for your loss sincerely!! I can’t imagine what you’re going through sending love from Australia.❤
So sorry for your loss. Condolences and best regards, and take care of yourself going forward. All the best.
I'm so sorry to heaar about your mother. You are very strong to do this video. And don't worry, creativity will come back amd it will all be fun again but it need to take some time. A lot of hugs and love!!!!!
My condoleances Maddi, I lost my mother last november to dementia. We all know the time will come when we loose our parents but you are never prepared. I hope you stay strong and give your loss a place in your heart❤.
inallah waina ilayhi raji'un (To Allah we belong and to Allah we shall return). I am so sorry to hear of your mother's passing. May Allah raise her ranks in the highest of places in paradise. A few years ago, both of my parents passed away. Although it was not sudden, as they were quite elderly, I know the feeling of pain and loss of a parent. So far that feeling hasn't comply gone away. Not a single day goes by where I don't remember them. The only advise I can offer is that as time goes by, while you may not have your mother's physical presence as comfort, you will find joy and comfort in her words, her love and her actions (even those memories of tough and difficult times). I will keep you and your family in my duas (prayers) that Allah grants you sabr (physical, spiritual and emotional endurance/patience) through this difficult time. As-salaam-ali-kum
Sorry for your loss. Stay strong and keep going with the loved ones around you!
I'm sorry for your loss. Stay strong and remember the beautiful things you shared.
Baraka fi raskoum. All my condoleances.
My condolences ... I'm really sorry for your loss... :(
Hey there. I'm so sorry to hear about the passing of your mother. If you feel like you need to cry, you can always think of me giving you a comforting hug. Just hang in there. Keep happy thoughts in your mind. It's going to be okay.❤️😀❤️😀I send you all my love and deepest sympathy.❤️😀❤️😀
سلام حبيبا اختي العزيزة. ان لله و ان اليه راجعون. الله يصبّرك اختي الغالية.
I too have lost my little brother (33 years old) this month. heart attack as a result of complications of an already existing medical issue. He was the only family member that understood me and supported me and we loved each other so much. Now the world feels so quiet and so empty and all so pointless. But you and me, need to mourn and let pain be. It’s a sign that we have loved them! The price of loving someone we lose. But we are gonna be alright Incha Allah. You are in our heart and prayers.
سلام يا اخي العزيز، الله يصبرك.
33. It's too young. I'm so sorry for your loss
هو في العالم الحب الان، مثل الحب الذي يعطيك بينما كان هنا معك ❤
How uncanny that it's around the same time as my mum, and for the same reason.
May Allah bring you love and comfort ❤
Sad for your loss, my thoughts and love are with you in these difficult times 😔
I'm..... absolutely in loss of words, Maddi..... I sooo feel for You and your family.... You have my deepest condolences in this hard time now... *hugs you tightly* I am so so sorry to hear about that personal loss... feeling that you were very close with your mother and she did a great job raising you to the fine, sweet loving, creative and talented lady that you've become. Pretty sure a great part of that was on her :) Knowing this from a personal loss of mine (my grandmother died 2 years ago after a sudden extreme health downfall that went on for a day or two) this will only starting to really hit you and making you realize wayyyy later... It is both heartbreaking and sweet to hear that you were the last person who was talking to her and she had in mind as she passed.....I think that really says something. And i have a feeling she is very proud of you.... and most likely still around during the time of mourning and saying good bye. Remember... Nobody is really gone for real if you keep talking about them and keeping them in your hearts and minds. Maddi... as the great Edgar Froese of Tangerine Dream once said: "There is no death. There is only a change of our cosmic address." *hugs you once more* Stay strong Maddi. There's a huge community here and all across the sends you all the love and prayers you and your family need right now. Nobody really can prepare us for moments like this as they happen, just like that. And i don't think there is anything you could have done. And the story about the hospital.. yeah that too brings back memories to the days before my grandma passed... and the bad news they gave her.. and she basically... shut down completely ... The public Health system of England is just as gruesome and inhuman as is here in Germany... Maddi..... if you ever ask yourself how you are supposed to continue your projects and everything.... remember.. do it in Her honor. Keep in every thought of your creative flow. She will be there and blessing you. Because she wants you to continue and not lose hope and your creative drive. Even if it is a hard time right now... give it time, Maddi. Just give it time. ❤❤🩹 Do not lose hope. All of it is waiting for you when you are ready to take your next steps ahead. Your mom lives, through you. All the best wishes from my side, Maddi. *hugs you once again*
Sorry for your loss, I know closely how you feel and what you're processing my mother passed away 2 years ago, I never got to say goodbye she lived in England and I live in New Zealand.
My advice to you is this, it gets better [nb: not easier] with time the shock turns into remembering the good memories, that's how they remain in your memory as an ever present library of tools you can draw from, because part of them is you and can never be taken away even in their passing.
Sorry for you loss MsMadLemon
Sorry for your loss Maddi. I know your headspace. My mum does not have long now either, i am numb, cant think straight and am excited by nothing. I only take solace that my mum will be in a better place free of pain, like yours. Look after yourself mate.
sweet Madya , i m so sorry.....be strong!
I'm so sorry maddi for your loss thinking of you in this tough time
I'm so sorry! I'm certain you will feel creative again in the future but please take all the time you need to process everything. My heart breaks for you because I know how this feels, having lost my mom 5 years ago. Massive hugs!
Those type of events make you change perspective on life; let you see what's significant, what's not. Don't distract yourself with work; let it work itself out.
That must have been a very difficult video to make. I related to it a lot, as a friend who I loved more than anything also suddenly died of a heart attack out of nowhere a few years ago. It destroyed me. It really trivialises everything else in life. It makes everthing feel smaller and insignificant.
It also made me question, what am I doing and it felt almost impossible to carry on. I felt guilty doing so, and I no longer wanted to be happy. What gave me the strength to carry on, was hearing Jennys selfless voice in my head telling me to not stop my passions and halt my life on her account. From what you said about your Mum also being creative, I have a strong feeling she'd be saying the same to you. She would want you to keep doing what you do and carry on enjoying it, for her.
The initial shock can take months to process. Grief comes like waves in the ocean. At first, an unbearable Tsunami, then a moment of calm where you feel OK, then another wave out of nowhere. I found as time goes on, these waves of grief get smaller and easier to cope with and they come less frequently than they did.
You will never get over this, but living with it gets easier, and finding enjoyment in your life and passions will come back. It just takes time, and you take as much time as you need. Keeping busy is good, but also deal with it. Cry, get angry and allow the storms of all the emotions to come out.
Sending all my condolences to you, and your family, and may she rest in peace.
I am really sorry for your loss. Be strong, it is not easy.
May the memories of your loved one bring you comfort and peace. My deepest condolences…
So sorry for your loss Maddie. It’s not easy. Please take care.