Reading my son's eulogies and going through his belongings | REMEMBERING CARSON
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- čas přidán 25. 08. 2024
- I haven't went through my son's clothes or the memorial box his funeral home gave us in a very long time. A lot of different emotions were experienced but felt healing in a way. I share with you Carson's eulogy that Vince and I put together for his memorial service🤍
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None of this is weird. Everyone grieves differently. I am so sorry for your loss. I am past my due date right now with our 4th baby boy. My heart goes out to you. No one can prepare you for something so devastating. I pray you find peace knowing your baby is protected and pain free. 🙏🏼
life isn't fair, Carson is the cutest. once again you are so brave. the eulogies were beautiful. hugs to you mama ♥
This just breaks my heart, sweet mama. Just makes me so sad because your son reminds me of my great-nephew who went to Heaven too, after a tragic car accident with his daddy and one of his grandmas. He was two months old. No parent should ever have to endure this horrific pain. I hope both boys get to play together in Heaven in the presence of our Saviour. That, for me, is the only good thing in all this bad. Sending you love and hugs. xo Vicky
I agree with you so much!! It is the only good thing in all of this bad and I am so incredibly sorry for your losses. That literally breaks my heart thinking about it💔💔 sending you love and hugs as well!! Thank you for sharing your story
Mama you dont have to say sorry or justify what make you happy and helps . Having his locks of hair isn't weird at all. Prayers ❤
I know we dont have the same type of losses but it is nice to know im not alone in the pain i feel most days off my loss. I cry watching each one of these videos and as sad as it is i know that every tear God catches and will bring us comfort and His peace.
It's 2 am, and I've just been listening to the story of your beautiful boy. As someone who has also experienced shattering grief... Your description of coping and the difficult way forward is spot on. Tears on my pillow for your beautiful family. Thank you for sharing it with us. ❤
When you started reading both of y’all’s speeches my heart/chest tightened up so badly. Brings back so many memories as if I was the one writing that for my baby boy, Keikilani who passed away at 5.5 months old. Praying for you, and your family. My son was also our third child (second boy) and now a big brother of a baby sister and brother. 😢
Your channel came across my screen and I feel blessed to have virtually met you. It breaks my heart to see your pain but I do know that god has you. Trust in him to guide you and help the pain lessen each and every day. What a strong and beautiful mommy you are. I pray for you 🙏🏽❤
You probably can't imagine how much your videos touch me.
They really, really help me get to grips with my own experience of death and grief.
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Thank you so much for being so open and making yourself vulnerable.
May God comfort you and your family.
I walked with my best friend as she lost a daughter full-term to stillbirth. The pain was excruciating. I am so sorry for what you are going through. My heart breaks 💔 for you a d your family and I am praying for your comfort. This is one of those things that we will NEVER understand until we get to the other side of eternity.
Thank you for sharing your best friend’s story. She’s so lucky to have you by her side🤍 and thank you for praying for us!!!
I miss snuggling him, I love you so much sweet friend 🫶🏻
I know he misses you🤍I love you the most!!
Grieve however you need too mama ❤😢your babies are so precious .
Thank you so much🤍
Your babies are so beautiful, I really hope you two go on to have more children. I think when your heart heals maybe you and your wonderful husband can welcome more members to the family. A new baby will never replace him but I’m sure they can help heal the wounds ❤
My heart is completely broken for you!! You are such a strong woman I can’t imagine the pain you have endured 🥲 I pray you heal and find your inner peace 🩷 you should take his clothes and burp clothes and have a blanket made with them that way you have a keepsake
@13:15 never in my life have I ever wished so hard to be able to reach through the webosphere and give you a hug 💜
sometimes life is so cruel but we have to think life is impermanent. Your two beautiful daughters need you strong mom and he wants you to take care of his two sisters very well.
You have such a beautiful family. Baby Carson was blessed to have you as his mama. I don't know how i found you on CZcams, but im so glad I did. Because its an honor to know all about Carson. You and your family are in my prayers. 💙💙
That means the world to me😭🤍 thank you so much!! I just want the world to know about him!
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🕊Rest in Peace🕊
❤️ Baby Carson❤️
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Sorry for your loss and girl grieve however you need to!
Thank you for sharing your pain- I can’t imagine the pain you are feeling.. but your story had made me take more moments in the hard times.. to just sit and hold my babies.. prayers for you and your family.. ❤
Thank you so much and so glad you got that from my story🤍🤍🤍 when times are hard, still allow yourself to feel the way you do but definitely sit and hold your babies tight. I hug my girls even tighter than I ever have
My heart breaks for you and your beautiful family. Carson is absolutely beautiful. Thank you for sharing his beautiful little life and all his beautiful moments and photos. You ARE NOT weird, anything that you are keeping or anything you pull out to look at that makes you feel close to him you do it! You heal however you need to. Bless you sweetheart 😢❤
My heart and prayers are for you and your family. So sorry for your loss.Hold onto Jesus,He will carry you through.Your faith and love for Carson will bless others,his life was meant for a purpose,even in such a short time.God is already being glorified through Carson's life and you sharing him through this channel. Praying for you and Joy will come to you,It will be a blessing watching you and your sweet family grow and fulfill God's plan 🙏💜🙏
I would definitely be smelling everything. My Mom died a year and a half ago and I still smell her robe on bad days. I will never get rid of it. Thank you for sharing. I would put Carson’s clothes in a ziplock bag and keep them forever.❤😊new clothes I would keep to use again or donate.
My heart breaks for you 😢 you have such a beautiful family. I wish I could take your pain away. ❤❤ hang in there momma. I hope you both are seeing a grief counselor. 🤗
Thank you so so much😭 we are definitely looking for one!!
I went through the same way you did and all I did was write ✍️ down everything about my baby boy, crying was my pain and agony but at the same time my only therapy 💙. It's been nearly 3 years and I finally found enough strength to put all his belongings and store them away.
I have pictures of him throughout my bedroom.
It's okay to release your sorrow in your ways. My solace to you and your family. Only time will heal your loss. God bless ❤
You are so brave for doing this.
I’m truly sorry for your loss and family..May God continue to watch over your beautiful family! 😢
I am so sorry for your loss of your precious little boy. You were mentioning if you should keep the clothes for your future babies, I think Carson would have grown to be a kind, sharing and loving boy to his future siblings. I believe those clothes will be passed on to your kids so that they will remember Carson.
My heart really just goes out for you I don’t no what made you pop up on my feeds but my heart genuinely goes out for you❤keep your head held high and continue to be a great person you are
rest in peace 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽❤️❤️❤️❤️
I just came across your videos I am so so so sorry for you I was just watching your video of you telling us what happened and I had so many tears running down my face I could not imagine what you are going through I was holding my 4 month old baby watching that video and just hugging her so hard 😢 this truly brakes my heart I wish I could just hug you 😢
My heart is broken 👼🕊️ for you and your husband sweet mama, God bless you 🙏and your beautiful family. Sending love,hugs and prayers your way. Much love from Debra in Maine ❤❤❤
Sending you so much strength and love from Australia, such a sweet Mama, so much love and care given to creating a beautiful nursery and choosing all his little clothes❤ x
Thank you sooo much!! Wow all the way from Australia🥹🤍 xoxo
I love you beautiful momma! From one that has lost a child to another❤. You are amazing!
Thank you and omg I’m so sorry for your loss💔💔💔 hate that we are both on this excruciating journey together. Love you as well!
@@liftingmotherhood 🥰Much love to you always!
Give yourself Grace and time to heal.prayers lifted💐
I hurt for you and am so sorry youve had to experience this.Your girls are absolutely beautiful and I pray theyre okay and healing.I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
My heart breaks so much for you. You are so strong and you will always have him close to you ❤ thinking of you and sending you and your family so much love.
Thank you so much!!! 😭🤍
She’s ultra sound picture is moving while your reading your letter to him❤❤❤
Keep going Momma! Keep Carsons memory alive!!! And again thank you for sharing your Journey .
You are an amazing woman and this is all part of your healing. You are so precious ❤️
This just breaks my heart so much! Bless you and your family momma. I know what it’s like to lose a child, it’s not easy and very heartbreaking💔. Time has gone by and I still feel the pain like it was yesterday.
much Love to you always sweetheart💜!!!
I cannot imagine the strength you have😭 it’s so painful and it’s so hard for everyone else to comprehend which I don’t blame them at all. We are surviving the best we can🤍🤍🤍 love to you as well mama!!! I’m so sorry you had to lose a child💔
@@liftingmotherhood Thank you for your kind words, they really mean so much! I came across your Channel the other night and I cried and cried right along with you and I wanted to reach out to you and let you know that your not alone and that your a wonderful mom and so loved💜!
I lost my son when he was 19 years old in a horrible car accident. He passed away on impact and it wasn’t his fault at all. The last day I saw him was Mothers’s Day, and then we got the knock at our door by two police officers that he got into a car accident and was gone😞.
I know the heartbreak you have, it’s the most horrific pain in life.
I’m always here if you ever want to talk💜! You’re a sweet beautiful mom, don’t ever forget that.
You have a beautiful family, sending blessings and a lot of serenity! Carson is your little angel and he was very adorable 🙏
Thank you sooo much❤️❤️❤️
Let your son's legacy move forward he would definitely want you to pass his belongings on to another
Thank you for sharing your heart and soul, i cannot comprehend the heartbreak 💔 you are feeling, i wishnu could find the words to help you, all i can do is pray for you and your family, you have such a sweet angelic soul carson was blessed to have you as a mother, much love and peace
I'm sorry for you'r family's loss of such a precious lil baby boy. I hope the Lord blesses you with another healthy baby real soon.
I will never be able to move on if i loose my kids... i cant imagine what you ate going through... im so sorry for your loss😢
i am so sorry for yalls loss this breaks my heart my prayers are with you guys
Thank you so much for your prayers🤍🤍
@@liftingmotherhood your so welcome this breaks my heart no parent should ever have to bury there child
🤣sorry you’re daughter makes me giggle 🤭she’s so cute at the background yelling at the dog 🤣
She is such a character😅 caught me off guard while I was recording haha
I giggled at that she is the boss of those puppies and they love her.
@@Ruth78620 they do love her! I should’ve added some pics of them growing up with her🥹
@@liftingmotherhood I'm surprised you're able to do anything so please don't worry about photos ❤️
@@Ruth78620 you’re too sweet🤍 just trying the best I can these days
I’m so very sorry for your loss 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
So very sorry for you loss❤
I love this. Your going to get through. Even though you don't see your strength you are.Your going to help others get through because of your strength. 🙏🙏💞
Thank you😭 I pray I can help moms one way or another🤍🤍
Sending my love to you❤️🙏🏽 keep you in my prayers 🙏🏽
Thank you so much for your prayers🤍🤍
My granddaughter yells at the cats like that when they go in her room, glad to know she's not the only one that gets pissed when the animals go in "her space".
My heart is breaking for you, I lost twin girls at 26 weeks gestational. I can't imagine the pain you are feeling.
I’m praying for your emotional healing. It will be a rough journey but you got this💯💪🏾🙏🏾
Thank you so so much love🤍🤍
Your light came back on there at the end. I lost my mom 4 months after turning 18. Ive been showing some symptoms she showds right b4 passing and my dads been trying to talk me into going to the docror but im terrified. He tells me to look around at my life w/ my mom and my 4/8 year olds lives w/o her and my life,wedding and her grandbabies going through parts of life she should be a part of!!
First of all I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine losing my mom especially at 18!! Definitely see a doctor for some peace of mind for the both of you. It’s better to know than finding out something when it’s too late for treatment. So heartbreaking what you are going through, thinking of you🤍
Awww. Thank you for sharing!!, Nahyun!
@14:10 matthew 19:14 i 💚 that.
tysm for sharing both you & your husband’s speeches with us. they were beautiful & touching.
i’m sure when you’re ready, you’ll find a special way to keep carson’s clothes that were used & unused.
don’t worry about making videos that are more upbeat, take things day by day & share how you feel. you’ll have support regardless. this is your channel & your journey to embrace all your highs & lows. i loved how your dogs kept checking on you when they’d pop up behind you behind the gate.
seeing the pictures next to the outfits carson used was so creative & touching.
i lost my mom, grandfather & aunt within months of each other in the same year & i constantly asked God why. years later i don’t know if i found the complete answer but i do know that there was a purpose in the pain. life is very unfair & even when we try our best to be good people, it seems things happen to the best of us. all i feel i can do is have faith in God, keep busy & keep moving - keep myself preoccupied but also stop to smell the tulips.
i pray for peace, harmony, and tranquility for you & your family. may your faith bring you healing & understanding. huGs 🙏💕
Your comment has me in tears. In all the good ways🤍🤍 I’m so sorry for your losses and all so close together. I can’t imagine the heaviness in your heart and the grief you must have experienced. It’s like you’re trying to grieve the loss of your mother and before you even find ways to comfortably grieve you’re shocked with more grief upon grief. I’m so sorry💔 my 3 dogs are very in tune with me and I’m so thankful for them through this whole journey!! Thank you for the tips and your encouraging words. And also for sharing your story🤍 I have found comfort where I can especially through prayer and knowing that Carson is with God. There is no better place than heaven and being in the arms of Jesus Christ!!
@@liftingmotherhood ty 🙏💞 & amen ✝️💚
My grandma lost her first child when she had her (my aunt was my grandmas second child) she was born as a stillborn. But growing up I was afraid to ask her any questions about my aunt Tammy but then she lost her oldest my uncle Jeff two years ago due to a diabetic coma he was 50 I don’t know what u are going through but I have an idea. I am a mom to a two year old boy and I don’t know what or how I would grieve such a loss. Keep your head up. I am new here but I’m here to stay. Stay strong my friend ❤
U DID FABULOUS!!! You’re NOT AT ALL strange that’s YOUR BABY BOY!!! Your my new friend 💕💕💕
Thank you so much for all of your support and encouragement!! Means so much🤍🥹
I'm so so sorry for your loss
Beautiful family.... I've been binge watching all your videos 🤍
Thank you😭😭🤍
@@liftingmotherhood you're very welcome 🤍🤍🤍
My suggestion the clothes he wore save them for your memories!!! The new ones save if u do have another boy 💙🩵💙
I think that's a great idea!! I don't ever want my grief to overshadow my future baby which is also a reason why I'm nervous about having another!🥹
Praying. Just subscribed. I pray that your healing will come to the entire after this great loss. I am a medical doctor. Death is never easy. Take your time Momma
I have all my sons outfits I got him are in a memory box I was so happy finally shop for a boy since had 4 girls before him
Hello lovely family from Melbourne Australia 🇦🇺 ❤😊🕊🌈👑💎🌹🦋🌻💙
My heart🤍can’t believe how much love I’m getting from so far away! Thank you so much🤍🤍
@@liftingmotherhood it's a big world 🌎 ❤️ but our heart's connect strongly lovely mummy no matter the distance 😊
It saddens me that your letter to your beautiful baby boy that you say you’re sorry you weren’t there for him. You were and you are and will always be his mommy. You were everything to him. Just know you did nothing wrong. You may not have been at Chipotle but we can not be with our children every second of every day of their lives. It’s kinda like we hear many stories of family members leaving the hospital,going to cafeteria or just the restroom and that’s when the family member passes away. It’s because the person doesn’t want them to have that memory. I believe not just God but Carson himself did not want his mommy to have that horrible memory on top of the rest you would have. I’m shocked there was no signs of him being that sick especially bc he was just sick in the hospital but you are right God needed him more. Which as a mom I would be screaming NO HE DOESNT I DO. That’s the selfishness inside of us. I think God tires always calling the aged unto the fold and so he picks a rosebud before it can grow old. Oh heaven was beautiful but now I bet it really is. Hugs and prayers to you and your family. And give those pups a treat when they are told to sit and they do lol.
Have you heard of those places on Etsy that can make a quilt from clothes? Oh I so so so wish I had known about those when I lost my child… I kept her clothes for years but finally got rid of them… I’d give anything to have them back and have them made into a blanket! Or some make them in to teddy bears!
I'm so so sorry
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I know the sting of death. I lost my boyfriend December 4th 2023 and it completely tore me apart so i know what its like
You guys are so cute 🥰…hang in there mama
Thank you love!!
He looks so much like you mama , it’s sad and we never be able to understand why god allowed so much pain ,
Thank you!! I finally got my twin and he’s not here anymore💔💔 exactly we will never understand His plans but He tells us not to lean on our own understanding
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Just a thought but I have seen some people take cloths of a passed loved one and they either make a stuffed animal or a blanket it’s made from all the cloths that they receive. If your interested I can try to find it and send it your way. Hugs to you mama
Omg thank you!! My best friends mom doesn’t do this for a living but she does do it for her friends and family- knits clothes into blankets and I’m going to have her do that for me! I’m just having a really hard time letting go of his clothes😭
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You are not weird for any way you choose to grieve. If you have another baby and choose to put him in the clothes I think it would be an honor to your baby in heaven 🤍🤍🤍
Please don't think it weird for keeping those things,l get it as mommies we hold those things taught l have every hair cut of my son and his baby teeth he got thirty three here ,but it was not long enough God bless you,❤😊
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hy beautiful soul
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Hey Nahyun I know I’m wanting your other videos. I sent you a message but I wanted to leave one in this one because it was a few things that I didn’t mention it’s brain fog due to you know once an experience like that you never go back to same I know that you understand so I forgot, I haven’t done any videos of my life started. I need to think a few of them because I was going to surgery but I don’t know if it’s on this channel or old channel that I used to have that I don’t know. I think it’s still wandering around, even though I deleted it but I’m talking about my life in general talking about My Son‘s life on from the beginning until his departure it’s gonna be quite a few videos. He was a sick child was born so it’ll be talked about, but he likes to wear memories but when he was a child and leaves this world leaves empty and especially if it’s a child that leaves grandbabies, you kind of replaced them a little bit with the grandbabies with their still that have a heart that’s not filled well due to My Son. It’s a whole heart, but not because he didn’t get anything of him here just like yours because he was very young wasn’t I’ll talk about it but he wasn’t like to live you know mine in three years talk about those things today to go through everything I don’t think so but good time I just wanted to let you know that if you weren’t looking at the videos and didn’t see if you saw those old videos that I started on wasn’t in any of them yet, but I will be putting you know photos and learn how to do this thing and get it going or whatever it is I’m still learning lingo before I start so give me if you don’t mind helping me if we become friends and talk to each other or whatever the case thank you then let me know. I would appreciate it because I said I want to start but I don’t know how to use this. I’m just parting now, I want to now God called me home to be with my baby because I have three boys but the one that’s in heaven now with my little son just figured I’d let you know you know a little bit about I would like to talk on the phone don’t hesitate to give me a call just let me know if you want the number or here it’s fine all right sweetie take care God bless.
Where was the beach trip?
Are they twins?
Nooo just one baby boy
So sad
Beautiful baby boy how much did he weigh? At birth
It’s weird cus he was born at the army hospital where they said he was 8lbs 15oz but the NICU said they weighed him as 10lb 6oz! He was just a big boy🤍
@@liftingmotherhood thank you
He’s beautiful and also will be
Get someone to make a blanket out off he's clothing its a keepsake that you can use
My best friends mom is def doing that!! I have to mail her out his clothes! Def such a special idea, thank you!!
Im so sorry . Have a quilt made with his clothes
I’m definitely doing that thank you!!
People please hit the 👍 so her videos get out
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I'm sorry to hear this I am confused as if y'all have 2 kids or 3? Because he said 3 sisters & you said 2. Idk if that was all for yall. Once you're done grieving maybe you'll get your 🌈 baby?
She has a stepdaughter (her husband's first child) but gave birth to their 2 daughters and little angel Carson.
I don't understand why this happened to you there is no justice in this world
Lol the lil girl is funny n too cute but from a mom who lost my daughter who was 17 to suicide i will said dont part with anything if u dont want i lost my daughter july would be 8yrs i have her hair also but every clothing she owned i placed them in them bags u take air out n then placed in a bin n when ever i move i take with me wen my other kids got older i did let them pic something out to wear since she was gay/boyish my sons was easy pic stuff out but keep everything if that helps ur heart and maybe wen the girl's r bigger give them something for maybe they baby dolls i also placed stuff in ziplock bags helps keep its smell sorry for ur lost its jus day by day some days r harder then others jus take a breath give ur self that moment
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