what it feels like to forgive yourself (playlist)
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- čas přidán 14. 05. 2024
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Tracklist:
0:00 reidenshi - snowfall w/ Øneheart
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1:59 Øneheart - apathy
soundcloud.com/iamoneheart/ap...
3:48 sevenlies - fleeting moments
soundcloud.com/svnlies/fleeti...
6:09 ghxsted. - orchid painting.
soundcloud.com/yung-ghxsted/g...
8:17 Antent - hope to see you again
soundcloud.com/antent/hope-to...
10:40 Inan & auroratønes - catch me
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12:38 knonzzz x ghxsted. - heartbeat.
soundcloud.com/yung-ghxsted/k...
14:58 les - numbness
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16:50 sevenlies - nothing feels the same (Slowed Version)
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19:36 🔁
#ambientmusic #snowfall #darkambient #sleepmusic - Hudba
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You will
Thank you Im listing to this on my birthday as a took some shrooms... Universe brought me here thank you
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Apple Music please
I want to forgive myself, I really do. I want to forgive myself for all the times I stayed up late because I was on CZcams, for all the times I didn't stick to my schedule, for all the times I've been on social media for too long, for every time I ever blamed myself for things others wouldn't dream to blame on themselves. I want to forgive myself for not forgiving myself. I want to forgive myself for being hard on myself, for making myself cry, for making myself feel like I'm not worth it. But I can't. You see, I have found that I'm no person of shallow emotions. When I try to feel happy about making pretty notes, eating healthy, aesthetic food, about just romanticizing life, I find myself exhausted after a couple of hours. I cannot feel that kind of ''shallow" happiness. My real nature of feelings is deep and calm and dramatic and sad and loving and true, but at the same time, I've never really loved myself. Silly innit? Even though I am the only person who I will always be with. My heartbeat is my home. But I cannot bring myself to forgive myself because it is not something I feel with all my heart, in my true nature of feeling. I will have to fight, though, because I ain't giving up. I really hope I can come back to this comment in a couple of years and be like ''Yes Darling. We made it.'' That would make me so crazily happy. Thankfully I'm still young. Wish me luck, thank you for reading this far, random stranger I'm never gonna meet :) Have a good life, bye bye
Edit: I didn't want to edit this originally, but concluding from the replies to this some people think I'm suicidal. I just wanted to let you know that I'm not, that I never was, and that I'm doing better now. But I want to thank all of you who wrote supportive comments, they always made a bad day a little lighter :)
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dude the beautiful thing thing about life is that with enaugh work everythung can chang so stop this bullshit of forgiving yourself when you know you could do bettee go out there an get what you are worth
I.. what do I say?
This is just me.
Except for one thing.
That, I gave up. I'm not trying anymore.
If my real self has no meaning. Well.
What is, the point of life?
I try to give up every single day.
But, I continue to live some how.
I can't forgive myself, because I Don't FUCKING WANT TO.
why? I don't know. I don't want to waste time on something that I don't care about.
And, that is myself.
I might sound weird. Hate me, hurt me, do whatever you want to me.
Just know, I'm mentally insane.
And well, I have tried everything that would make me die.
And it hasn't worked.
So, do your best to hurt me.
you will. Even though life can seem meaningless at times, you are not meaningless, even if you hurt yourself, or make yourself cry it doesn't make you a bad person. You are someone, maybe not for the entire universe but who cares, you are someone for you and that's enough. I truly want you to succeed because you deserve it. Maybe you won't see this, maybe you will forget about this, maybe this message can seem meaningless but you know, the meaning of something is created by someone, and that someone is you, something becomes important the moment someone finds it that way. And you are important so do what makes you happy, not what others wants you to be happy about. As long as you're happy with it, you life is accomplished. and i'm sure you'll have a wonderful life, stranger :)
fake it till you make it, my love 💖
Tell yourself that you love you and that you forgive yourself. Tell yourself that over and over again. When you pass a mirror, look yourself in the eye and tell yourself again. One day you will wake up and find that you *have* forgiven yourself after all! I wish that that day would come sooner rather than later for you 💌
It's interesting how 3am is the time where all the spooky stuff happens but 4am is the time of pure serenity
All spooky stuff starts from 2 am till 3 am, 3 am is considered the Brahm mahurat time (the divine time, the purest of all) when everybody and everything is in the same sync together. 3:30 am is considered as the most powerful time of the entire day because if you wake up at this time and meditate, your body your mind your soul will get in sync with the universe and right things will start to happen in your life.
It is also the time that the most natural sleep deaths occur.
333 likes as well, and im the 3rd comment
@@redacted242fr? damn
@dariazavatska2767 Before the Industrial Revolution, people did multiphasic sleeping. Now, people typically are "dead asleep" by 3am based on the modern work schedule. I imagine it has to do with the heart rate being its lowest at that time, along with any pre-existing conditions they may have.
We need to start listening to each other more than fighting each other.
Listening is love
Preach brother
No War , Brother 👊
Peace ✌️
of course we all need peace for once
It’s your road, and yours alone, others may walk it with you, but no one can walk it for you
I walk alone
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@@Hades.666 HELP WHAT UR NAME
@@Ninjateamahdi ❤
@@uneedsleep a fancy word for Hell
you know it's a good playlist when it starts with snowfall.
Couldnt agree more
Amen
I am straight up addicted to Snowfall. I'm writing a book. And down the road. I thought about a scene that I'm writing, where the MC, would have to confront the loss of his lover. And during this segment he is forced to face the delema in his heart. How will he accept her death? Will he run away into a fantasy, or is he going to accept that she's gone, and move forward. I imagine that song would be playing. It sets the mood for it perfectly.
@@GameExplorer0115good luck on your book! I hope to reconnect with my love of writing this year as well.
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I forgive myself for being so emotional, for caring too much, for trusting too easily, for having too much hope, for loving too deeply, for overthinking too much. Yes I might have trouble controlling my emotions and always ending up embarrassing myself, but I forgive myself, because that’s the way I am, and I am thankful that I still have a brave heart that can experience these emotional turmoils, that still know how to love someone, that still be able to care and still be able to get hurt. I forgive myself!
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Hello. Thanks for your comment, I really need this. Love u human.
Beautiful words…I recognize myself in every single word you wrote. I am at the begining to forgive myself. It is a hard task, but than more I try, than more I feel peaceful. 😌😇
I relate 😞❤️🩹
Relate ❤😢❤
After 3 years of alcoholism, selfishness and lack of self respect or to others, I'll be a year clean in a month and a half. I've done a lot of shitty things during that time. Both those that i remember and those that someone told me the day after. I betrayed trusts, lied, cursed, fought, insulted and cheated. Cheated the people that i loved the most in this world. I still hate myself some days, as many of those people that i wronged, I'll never have a chance to apologise to or get any type of closure. These scenarios repeat themselves over and over in my head when i try to sleep some days, memories that only live in my head and im too ashamed to speak about. But despite all of this, God still looked after me every now and then, enough to allow me to band together as much courage as i could, get up on my feet and climb out from rock bottom's basement. I doubt myself and my thoughts often, but the beast has been slain. It will never come back again to haunt me. I want to be better and i will be better. I owe it to every single one of you here and moreover, to everyone that i hurt. To all of you, im sorry i was like that.
Taquito, im so fucking sorry i was the monster that i was. You were an absolute angel and i thanked God every day for allowing me to draw breath every second that i was blessed to look at those green eyes and pretty dimpled smile of yours. Your presence made me believe that there really is a God, and that i was blessed to be together with you.
Kae, im sorry i said all those foul things to you. Im sorry we fought all those times because i wanted to keep on drinking. Man, you are my best friend. You truly are the most exceptional, loyal, loving, caring and inspiring friend one can hope to find in a lifetime.
I owe it to myself and to them. I will never be able to go back there and fix it, but i won't fall down into those depths again.
Today i lay my first stone and i say: You deserve forgiveness. Let it in.
If you've read this all, wholeheartedly, thank you for coming with me down that dark path and not leaving me alone there. I felt it.
I'm proud of you. It takes a lot to admit your mistakes, especially online. From one stranger to another, I hope you find peace. Don't hate yourself for the past, people change and from the sounds of it you've grown a long way from that person. I'll be rooting for you :)
I share very similar experiences. Thank you. You are not alone and I am so proud of how far you've come.
I have autism so text cannot convey the emotion i felt. um. i did cry reading this, and pretended i was delivering my own apologizes to my best friend as well. Thank you again internet stranger :)
When we wrong others, we wrong ourselves. We're not bad people, we just get caught up doing bad things. God bless and I hope you can find peace within, you deserve it.
Thanks, man. I saw my self in you.
It's crazy how these songs aren't actually sad but in context it's heartbreaking.
Yah, but sometimes I feel so super chill with that melody ❤
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@@TrangThuy-xc7iy هل يمكنك الرد بالعربية وشكرا على الإنتباه غالباً لاينتبه أحد لي🖤☠️
ldont sbeak english🤗🤗😘
So real music changed with how ur feeling
i love this comment section. i feel so safe here
just wanna say you guys can do it
i‘ve struggled with an eating disorder for 5 years and i‘m finally back at peace with food and my body. there‘s always hope you just need to follow your path❤
That is so very awesome @katharina4755!! I don't know you, but I am very proud of you!!
i forgive myself for the same reason. i hope you'll do as well.
Almost 5 am in germany. I'm rly young but often I'm scared. When I'm scared I go to water. When I'm angry, I go to fire. When I'm happy, I go see my family. When I'm sad, I listen to this beautiful people feeling the same as me writing these lovefull comments. Amen ✝️
Forgiving yourself is a deeply personal and emotional experience that can vary from person to person, but it often involves a range of feelings and sensations:-
Relief: Forgiving yourself can bring a sense of relief and release from the burden of guilt or self-blame. It's like lifting a heavy weight off your shoulders.
Peace: Forgiveness can bring a sense of inner peace. You may find that the inner turmoil and emotional turmoil you've been experiencing start to subside.
Self-Compassion: It often involves showing yourself the same compassion and understanding that you would offer to a friend or loved one in a similar situation. You become more accepting of your own imperfections and mistakes.
Healing: Forgiveness can be a healing process. It can help you let go of the past and move forward with your life.
Empowerment: Forgiving yourself can make you feel more in control of your emotions and your life. It allows you to take responsibility for your actions and make positive changes.
Freedom: It can feel like breaking free from the chains of self-blame and shame, allowing you to experience life without constantly dwelling on past mistakes.
Self-Growth: Forgiving yourself often comes with a commitment to personal growth and self-improvement. It's a recognition that you are a work in progress and that learning from your mistakes is part of the journey.
Gratitude: Forgiveness may lead to a sense of gratitude for the lessons you've learned from your mistakes and for the opportunity to grow and evolve as a person.
Reconciliation: In some cases, forgiving yourself can lead to reconciliation with others if your actions have harmed them. It can open the door to repairing relationships.
Renewed Self-Esteem: As you forgive yourself, you may start to rebuild your self-esteem and self-worth. It's a reminder that you are deserving of love and acceptance.
It's important to note that forgiving yourself is not always easy, and it may take time. It often involves self-reflection, self-awareness, and a willingness to let go of negative self-talk and beliefs. Seeking support from a therapist or counselor can be helpful in the forgiveness process, especially if you're struggling with self-forgiveness in the face of significant guilt or trauma. Ultimately, forgiving yourself can be a powerful act of self-compassion and a step toward emotional healing and growth.
Thank you, I’ve been trying to and I still am trying ❤❤
Thank you for these words.
@Warden-cj1im me. 🤝 You and me both. Its taking me so long to fully forgive myself. But I'll tell you the only place I've found certainty of mercy: at the cross of Jesus.
Look at the punishment Jesus took. If you ever look into the actual medical facts of crucifixion, it is a horrible, horrible way to die. It was violent, depraved, and degrading. There are scenes of the crucifixion on yt... Its pretty insane.
Jesus deserved none of it; but He suffered it anyway for us. He took a terrible punishment, because some of us have done terrible things. God wanted even the worst of us to take a look at Jesus Christ on the cross, and see our salvation. ✝️☀️
@Warden-cj1im don't be so quick to push the cross aside. ❤✝️ Its such a tremendous gift from God to you.
@@Warden-cj1im Its respected 🤝 the things I'm saying are out of love for you, not disrespect.
I can finally breathe
I can finally vocalize my sorrows silently to myself
I can finally tell myself
that’s it’s ok
and that forgiving and forgetting yourself
isn’t always bad
because to forget, is to remember
and to remember, is to reminisce
I ask nothing of anyone reading my comment
Except for you to find a moment
Where you to, can forgive yourself for at least one thing
Please remember that in the end of this reality, when everyone leaf has blown off its branch.. including yourself
You have nobody but you
So don’t hurt them
Dont yell at them
Don’t harm them
Because they love you
They will stick with you when everyone else is gone
You need to be you, and care for you
And if you can’t, let out a breath.. and forgive yourself for not being able to
Tell yourself it’s ok to mess up and not be able to do things, because even forgiving yourself for dropping a pencil is recognizing that hey, you dropped this, that’s ok though.. just a minor set back in writing the rest of my feeling
Writing out my future
Writing out
This message
To a lovely reader
Who’s too hard on themself sometimes
I love you, and I hope you can love you to some day.. if even just for a moment❤️
Thank you so much.. 🫂❤️
You're a good soul, I'm blessing you with the truth: love yourself and through yourself you will see the love in the universe. Only with love you can experience love, when you're with people that you love you are happy, so love yourself harder than everyone else, because the meaning of individual life is to love, we are part of the same thing, the universe is like a body and we are cells, only by loving every cell of the body you can be an happy cell. You can be happy, you can control your mind. This is signal of the universe.
Completely touched by the words I this and grateful for the moment I have read this poem or message this is kind and understanding and I thankyou.
From Portland oregon
Peace and love
And eat noodles and listen to the rain if you can and draw anything ❤❤❤❤❤sweetest dreams to everyone in the world 🌎
Thank you, every word I read hit my heart and soul. I really do need to forgive myself. They deserve it.
I have no words to thank you for this comment... ❤️🩹
In an age of mass consumption and alienation, we ironically find ourselves in these comments and find friendship and comradery with people we’ll never meet. Yet we all have the same goal and that is inner peace. We’ll find it one day, we’ll always be alone but we’ll be stronger and it’s okay to move on. You’re safe and the journey is yours. 💗💚🖤❤️💙✨
I forgive myself for not knowing myself. I forgive myself for not being true to myself. I forgive myself for not introspecting earlier. I forgive myself for not wanting to be myself. I forgive myself for hating myself. I forgive myself for not forgiving myself. I forgive myselffor not listening to myself when something or some one was wrong for me and i knew it before evidence happened. I forgive myself for giving up on myself, and my dreams. I forgive myselffor allowing others to cross boundaries and for being a people pleaser. I forgive myself for not honoring my body by foolish deeds and unhealthy living. I forgive myself for my mental illness. May love, joy, peace, and abundance follow each one of us that needs to and is forgiving ourselves. ❤
I cried reading this as I related to it - was like I wrote it myself - was a oh wow moment. Thank you and may love, joy, peace and abundance follow you too 😊❤
There something very unique on CZcams where we can find each other in contents like these.
I look at my apartment, only the street light coming through the window and this playlist making believe that breath and relax is the best thing to do.
Nothing matters, and that can be peaceful.
Yes rest is productive ❤
I forgive myself for holding myself back for so many years when I knew I could do more. I forgive myself for not loving and taking better care of me. I know better now & I learning how to love myself ❤
Forgiving yourself is the bravest thing you can do ❤
Putting the blame on those who are accountable and not your self. Letting the guilt of carrying it go. That's the bravest thing.
@@comitvomit4371 sometimes you're the one who's accountable. Still forgiving yourself is harder and braver.
I guess then i would never be brave. I had the chance to save my sister, my mother from the car accident,yet i was frozen there. I can never forget that scene in front of me. Even though i always come first in my college,yet i am not satisfied with myself. I am a coward. Every day I have to get up and put on a fake smile, many a times not just to convince others, but myself that I am fine. I just hope that one day , I will be proud to say that I am successfully a doctor and have forgiven my old younger self.
@@padamshree8126omg I’m so sorry even though I’m wondering how that happened. I hope u forgive ur self too
This music is sad but not in a bad way, somehow it comforts me . I miss my old life , i miss my mother so much i wish i can meet her even just on my dream. I'm okay, we're all going to be.
Good luck to those here who are currently working on assignments, dissertations, papers, studying for exams or just studying to make the world a better place for all of us. You rock!
thnk you
These types of music actually brings back my old memories of when my actual mom was alive when I was younger I am 18 now and I still miss her so it literally makes me feel happy and remembering the memories listening to this song I appreciate the CZcamsr that actually made this video you actually made my day
How weird life is...
I'm 18 too and lost my mom a few years ago when i was 6. I do still remember her, you know
Sometimes just as crystal clear but most of the them just memories without faces.
I wished I could know her, sit with her, talk...
I want to know the way her mind used to work, her thoughts and her passions
What she used to like or what was her favorite perfume
I miss her so much, and I just feel so lonely. I wish I could hug her...one last time
@@montero895 same
Bless you Catmaster - that is young to lose a precious parent.
@@andyfield7397 at this day that I'm 19 now I still miss her
Whats up you youngins!!! Lol JK im 24 now BUT i also lost my mom when i was 17 and it was a rough couple of years. Im not gonna say the pain goes away, it doesn’t BUT it does get easier to deal with. My mom was everything to me, she was a superhero in my eyes. She was cool, confident, kind to everyone, loved me unconditionally. Losing her was the hardest thing that i had went through at the time. But as the years went by it started to fade. It still hurts the same but life goes on. Im not saying you wont have moments of deep grief and pain but it will be far less as time goes ever forward. Thats not a bad thing either, dont feel guilty about that cause your mom would want you to move forward and succeed and be happy. Grief is a natural part of loss and is the only clear evidence that she is dearly loved. Youll meet so many amazing people in your lives and experience all kinds of things that life has to offer. Im not even at the quarter of my life yet and i already feel better about it (some people are slower tho and thats okay). My whole point here is that you guys are young and i hope you can move past this. Live your life and find love wherever you go. Better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all❤️. Always here to talk if ya need advice. Men love their mommas too. Lol Anyways love you guys ✌️.
this music perfectly describes my life. My parents are always busy, I don’t want to disturb them and share my problems. I hate talking to people and talking to thin air. He will not say “everything will pass, this is such a stage,” he will listen silently and reward you with silence. I'm not an outcast in the class, but I have no friends either. I'm just emptiness. I was often forgotten or not noticed, but I got used to it. My best friends are music, books and the silence of the night. I have enough, but sometimes I wish there was a person nearby...
I send you love, and I hope you find your person and your people in general ❤
God's always listening ask him for a friend it can't hurt and it'll work🙏❤️
@@Coral333 Thank you
I forgive myself. I still hold on to my ego a little bit which is fighting to convince me that I’m only worth as much as I do.. as much as I accomplish. but this simply isn’t true. we all have one higher, truer purpose- To just BE.
I am here. I am existing. my ego fights back, trying to convince me how stunted, lazy, and unintelligent I am compared to my peers. but I’m learning to not let it win.
I’m here.
you’re here.
we are winning. we are fulfilling our highest purpose. the rest will follow, friend
JESUS CHRIST loves you all. GOD BLESS everyone here.
Amen
Amen god bless you to
AMEN GLORY BE TO GOD. He's forgiven us all so we must also forgive ourselves and others❤ we're human and sometimes make mistakes but we are still loved and are trying to be better 🫶🙏
Is he real?
@@DreamWalkerr0 Jesus Christ is absolutely real. HE has been real since the beginning and will continue to be real when HE comes back for those who receive HIS forgiveness from the Cross.
I want to forgive myslef. I feel like a terrible person. Im always ruining things for everyone else. I always feel like the problem. I always am the one who messes up, So I always rightfully get the blame.
I always act without thinking.
I say things that I dont mean, or I say something differently than I should. I always mess up. Im never good enough. I always make poeple upset. I always end up hurting somebody no matter what I do. I tell them how sorry I am, and they dont understand. Its all an accident. I dont want to hurt anyone, but I cannot help it. It feels like a disease, everything I do goes wrong. I ruin every friendship I start. I cry at night and hug my pillow because I cannot cry infront of someone else. I cannot be seen as weak. I want to forgive myself, But when I hurt others, I cannot.
I feel exactly like you TT
It's okay just don't be hard on yourself. Now rewrite this and turn it into the opposite and start living it bit by bit. You'll surely see a difference
xoxo
In the night's transition from 3am to 4am, mysteries give way to serenity, creating a captivating and peaceful ambiance. 🌌🕓✨
Without the dark, you can’t find the light. That’s why it feels like that
A letter to myself ~
Hey dude, don't be too hard on yourself. There is a lot going on in life and you're only a single person. Tasks, thoughts, emotions... can only be handled one at a time. Do your best, take some deep breaths, and keep fighting. You know that life gets hard but all you can do is continue to push through and let time pass. Try smoking less, being more in the moment, and more importantly, try to see that moment in front of you, and enjoy it. If you don't slow down and take a look around, you'll be more miserable than you have been in the past. Good times come and go, just like the bad times; try to enjoy the neutral time you have aswell, rather than stressing yourself out. Life's not that serious. You know how stressed you've felt, that tightness in your chest, the pain in your stomach, & the exhaustion; however if you keep overwhelming yourself to this point you won't be around much longer. Just please man try to relax; you're doing great, you're doing your best at work, you're doing your best with your girlfriend, you're doing great handling and planning tasks. Just keep trying to do better each day with one small step. Please man do not give up on yourself, the future you is depending on the current you to keep the promises you made to yourself yesterday. Keep your head up bud, keep grinding, greatness is just around the corner.
If anyone has decided to read my letter, just know things will get better for you too. You're not alone. As long as you are fighting for you, your happiness, whatever it may be... time will pass, and so will your problems.
-Much love from someone struggling but never giving up. We've got this!
has anyone struggled with dissociation that he couldn't feel anything yet tried to but no result. they wait for a sign for a hope that things will be better. they are lost and afraid if they are not doing what they should but they trust time to fix everything. they are kind to everyone but not themselves but why? they don't believe that they are worthy and deserve to be loved. the past has shown to them that no one is wanting to hear them with their heart, they are feeling like they don't deserve anyone's love and attention. you know it's sad that the only thing you crave for is just acceptance.
God loves you. Please seek him. When I felt that way and had absolutely no one God was there and welcomed me with open arms. He loves you as you are and will never leave you. You can call out to him. I pray to him in my mind and he hears me and answers me. You aren’t alone and you are loved. 🕊️
i forgive myself for not knowing how to handle my emotions and drinking too much back then. grateful to see how far ive come, a year and 6 months sober. I also forgive myself for being unexperienced in heartbreak. my ex cut me off a week before my birthday. We worked together and i quit just to heal. Thankful i don't drink anymore and amplify my pain, I'd rather heal and prioritize my peace instead. THANKFUL FOR HOW MUCH I'VE GROWN. 🙏
I haven't cried like this in months... Thank you.
I want to forgive myself for not listening to myself, i want to forgive myself for not forgivin myself, i want to forgive myself for not trusting me, i want to forgive myself for always blaming me, i want to forgive myself because i putted myself into traumas,phobias,problems, i want to forgive myself because i blamed me, i want to forgive myself for cutting my hair off, i want to forgive myself for not trusting people, i want to forgive myself for not listening to myself, i want to forgive myself for cutting me, i want to forgive myself for causing fights with everyone, i want to forgive myself for not believing in love or loving others, i want to forgive myself for making my moms day the worst day ever, i want to forgive myself for being the bad child..(people call me that) , i want to forgive myself for believing everyone, i want to forgive myself for doing everything anybody had told me, i want to forgive myself for hatting myself, i want to forgive myself for making my dads day the worst day ever, i wanf to forgive myself for shouting at my grandma...I want to forgive myself for a lot of stuff. I tried tried tried. I lost again and again and again my hearts betting so fast and my brain is telling me to die. Im only 15 and i wish i can become a kid again..have great frends..no familly issues..no fights..no traumas,probias..not being hated..not being picked at..I wana have a normal life again.
Thank you for you time! Have a good night/evening/afternoon!
Love yall so much wish you the best ❤
it's not the songs that make you cry it's your heartbreaking moment that breaks your hurt like a shattered glass.
Crys. I miss my great grandma and grandpa....😢😢😢😢
🫂❤️
I forgive myself for putting her before my own happiness. I forgive myself thinking I was not enough because in reality I was more than she could hope for. I forgive myself for hoping even when all reasons for hope were gone. I forgive myself for the time I lost trying to fight a battle I lost long before the battle even started. I forgive myself for overthinking and creating a world of hurt where I was the only one trapped in. I forgive myself for believing that my life was worthless just because I loved too deep. With forgiveness I wish myself self-love and healing.
Reading these comments so late/early in the morning really hit different. It gives me a lot to think about but in the most beautiful and peaceful way possible. It makes me feel greatful for what i have but also what i could be doing better. I don't know how to describe it. This comment section just really hits close to home for me.
"I can't forgive you, Diana, for breaking yourself so many times, for crying so much, for trusting too much, and believing so strongly that you will find someone who will stand by you. I don't know, Diana, but make your heart a priority for yourself. Be happy, knowing that others will judge you no matter what they say. Be content in your own company, as no one will be your friend forever. Be thankful that, despite all of this, you still have a heart."
my chest feels heavy but warm. my toes and hands are cold but my face is flushed.
i feel i am slowly breaking apart. i feel so lost and stuck. my heart hurts. i am past the point of crying. instead all i can do is stare into the sky, watch the beauty of whatever time of day. feel the wind and just feel my heart painfully squeeze and that sinking feeling all around me.
while my heart hurts i still have that small feeling. i still have me, i’m still me. i’m a person too. i give off my own warmth. i am capable of doing what i wish.
i may be alone but i do not feel lonely.
i look at my life at 19 years old and wonder… is this normal? am i okay? i am so young but i have hurt so much. everyone has a story to tell and the more i feel the more i’ve realized it.
It is normal. and you will be okay
I'm 19 as well, and I am very familiar with that feeling. It's going to be okay. Take care of yourself and take it one day at a time 🫂
He is near to the broken hearted
You are worth fighting for. But you need to say to yourself and believe it💕
Hepimiz bir tür savaş veriyoruz, bence zaman pes etmediğimiz takdirde bu savaşta bizden yana. İyi anılar ve kötü anılar biriktiririz, hepsi zaman alır, bir anıyı unutmak yıllar alırken birini hatırlamak bir andır. Ama her şeyden önce bir mücadele vardır, her şeyin daha güzel olması için verilen bir mücadele. Unutma, seni güçlü kılacak olan pes etmemektir.❤
I forgive myself because I wasn't guilty of my circumstances neither my problems or family issues.
I was just me.
i'm strong i will support myself i will not care about others thoughts. i will develop myself i will be always positive about myself even when I'm in the most worst situation i will fight for myself, i am much stronger than i could think.
I cried about 3 times while listening to this. I want to forgive myself but I feel unworthy of it. I want a relationship and to give and receive love and affection but every time since "him" I get so physically sick at my happiness and how I act. I want to feel comfortable in my own skin but its hard when you constantly feel like a hollow shell of who I once was. I go to therapy but i'm afraid to tell them that I feel this way. I'm terrified to tell anyone that I feel this way. Everything that I see in my hometown brings back memories. Memories I wish I could just erase or at lease forgive and forget. How will I ever be well enough to let myself feel? To allow myself to forgive what I've done and just learn? The mention of people from my past who I have cut off and experiences I had with them make me anxious. I can't tell who is lying or telling the truth. Who actually wants to be friends or who just wants to use me and get information out of me? My anxiety makes me throw up. every attack I have ever had has ended in what feels like my guts being emptied completely. When will I ever be able to realize if I'm valued or not? Who can I trust? Can I even trust myself?
To forgiving myself for allowing someone other than myself degrade, pity, water me down as a human is all I wanted. All those nights i spent crying myself to sleep, those days i would spend on end hiding the pain they’ve inflicted upon me.. the way i stood by this person for most of my teenage years (34 months) blinded by what i thought was love, finding out why he stayed..
i was the only one who dealt with the trauma, who excused it as their own wounds which was partly the case for awhile turned out to be hatred and fear.
He hated how i wanted to express myself, how i wanted him to express himself, how i wanted to feel free and how i wanted to feel at peace with him not only him but with everyone around us. He feared that i would leave but reality is that i genuinely loved & wanted to continue loving him until that was not enough. i would have had to give up my dignity for it to last longer, its time for me to heal what he caused. It’s time to love me too. 🥀🌧️
I forgive myself for being so insecure even when I know that I should not feel like that, I understand that it takes time for me to actually heal and become a better version of myself , I forgive myself for not investing in my study and dreams lately....
only I see forgetting oneself as a loss. I miss the person I was before, I miss feeling the same as before, I was fine even if in reality I wasn't fine.... but in a certain sense I miss it. Anyway, great playlist 🥺🖤
This songs always makes me experience a life crisis I became sad at first, crying like a baby… then when I’m done crying I start to feel very very nostalgic, missing everything I once was and will be. Missing something that I don’t know. Missing past lifes. Missing home ( like if my home is somewhere distant in the universe). A feeling of not belonging here, not belonging to my body but to belong to something spiritual. The last stage it’s feeling calm and comprehensive. It almost feels like I’m calmer and my thoughts are silent and now I can see everything clearly. Like if my 3rd eye opens and I connect to the universe… I become to feel healed, and to let go the pain. I think I really need to cry sometimes and to let myself feel, kinda like a detox from bad feelings that were accumulated 😢 I’m terrible at regulating my emotions but this feels like a guided meditation ❤
Hope someone can relate to this…
Yes actually, well said ❤
Hi from Turkey 🙏
i can relate 🥺
Hey, I’m back again. Tough night, a lot of thoughts
@@lau_5127
I understand your pain. keep your mindset fresh and create a goal of your life. And do hard work with it abide though discipline. Find purpose of your life. Why you came to this world? This answer of question will show you the way. And I believe this answer of question, you will only get from Quran. Have a good day. I appreciate your mindset. A lonely life is very important for make a mind stronger and knowing God.
While listening to this I try to forgive myself that I didn't want my pregnancy 5 years ago due to problematic life circumstances and already being a mom to another child and didn't take care of that pregnancy because of that and than miscarried. 🖤 I still regret it so much even though I'm very thankful for having another child that was born after my loss. 🌈
No more "trying", my sweet sister - let go of the regret. Circumstances were as they were... not so much "problematic" as just... what was necessary/possible for you at that time. Souls choose when and to whom they come down. Love is the only guiding principle, and I guess maybe Faith? That Creator's got it all written down... hey! Just got an amazing music idea for your mood:czcams.com/video/wxspBCCoaiU/video.html
I forgive myself for not being able to make any friends even when i try my best, eating a little bit much, staying in my bed hopelessly for all day, having shivering in all my body when i have to speak up and many more forget it ur good
I forgive myself for hurting myself when others hurt me.
19:35 pure bliss ☺
Forgiveness was done long ago. Grieving is something I can't let go.
trust me guys, it's magic! only a magician can create music that unlocks the hearts and memories of a few million people. 💚💚💚
Gods always with you
@@lukebuster8711and were always there with him
I'm using this as the soundtrack when I work in my shadow journal and it's helping me a lot ❤
I forgive Myself for every time I was mean to People, I hurt People or just wasn’t there for them
Because of the Lord Jesus! I am never alone 🙏💯
Well said!
This video made me stop and think about how I’m spending my time right now falling back into an unnecessary habit - scrolling through CZcams. I really never get anything out of it. The title of forgiveness causes me to think of how I can have empathy and forgive myself for falling short by going back on my phone when I have better things to do. So, I once again forgive myself for turning to my phone even after the realization that my old attachment to it does nothing productive for me, but only leads me away from completing tasks. I forgive myself for wasting my free time by spending too much time on social media talking to people years ago. I forgive myself for being irritated and impatient. I forgive myself for lacking patience with myself and with others. But I don’t stop at forgiveness - and my forgiveness doesn’t mean acceptance, allowing myself to repeat the same patterns. Forgiveness means having empathy for myself, and understanding that the past was different than it is now. I had these coping mechanisms for mental survival, but I’m not simply surviving anymore. Tactics for survival are no longer relevant to my life. I relish in building real friendships and using my alone time to either create or give my mind a rest - real rest, not by sinking into the internet. I accept that I will need self control and to step away from my phone again - by putting it in a separate space, whether it be a desk or drawer - and taking a breath. I have been told that this is an act of limiting and having the mindset of limiting any action isn’t really beneficial. However, I willingly accept that moderation is key to maintaining balance. Sometimes limits can be good. What if there were no limits to eating or drinking? An overindulgent gluttonous person, for instance, should be forced away from their vice of overeating. By putting away my phone I am not simply limiting myself because I acknowledge that I’m replacing it with what will better me; hobbies, chores, and tasks. Really what I’m limiting here is dopamine consumption - it’s what makes getting off of social media difficult because you feel hooked in. I won’t always be the most jolly completely detoxing from the dopamine I get from playing games, texting, or watching CZcams, but in the long run I will be better for it. The long term outcome of balancing my time to relax and assignments is what I would like to repeatedly remind myself whenever I fall short. For I can always get back up again.
Here’s a few important questions I’ve asked myself:
Why argue with reality? Why defy my own reality by escaping to a platform like CZcams?
There is no reason. It’s not needed.
When has this ever gotten me far?
When has procrastination helped?
When has worrying helped me?
The answer is never.
I love all the comments it make me feel free ,i feel like im not alone , im not the weird sad person come at nights and cry with this songs , i feel connected i feel pain is one part of human nature , i feel peaceful, i always say to people the best i always be positive..tell them how much things they can create they need to believe in their progress . I come back and crying couse i cannot say that to my self too i hope one day i can go back and hug me
You’ll never be alone, I will always be here to have you back
its 12:50am and im studying for a big exam which is in 5 days. everyone is expecting good results from me but only i know whats gonna happen. i cant tell them what im going though or what i cant do rn. and it hurts. its overwhelming for me to see that they actually think i can go good, but in reality it is not. i study hard. i want to learn. i want to see my mistakes and learn from them but i regret not doing it sooner. i wasted my 1 year[2022] thinking that its gonna be alright but now im fucking working and studying my ass all day and night but still i dont have any confidance in myself. i feel like i will now smash my head against a wall. i compare myself to others to the point where i feel like im of no use. that i cant match thrm. i am working hard but cannt bring same marks as them. everything hurts. its pains and i know that its my own mistake and i am now suffering. but i also know hard work pays off and even if its not working for me. ill still keep myself going and try hard. i know its gonna be hard, painfull, ill be sleepless and shit but still....im not giving up..........which im scared of the most that i WILL give up on myself which i dont want to...hopefully everything will be alright....
I forgive myself for thinking negatively and putting myself down on days where grief wouldn't allow me to get out of bed, or stop crying, or even wake up. Healing isn't linear and I understand that. I'll be okay one day. I miss you, Mike. Every day. But, I'll heal, and I'll be okay, and I'll learn to love myself and smile again.
I forgive myself for not letting him go yet and loving him too much. I forgive myself for thinking about him everday. I forgive myself for crying about him everyday. I forgive myself for dreaming about him way too often. I forgive myself all these things. But I hope I have to forgive myself someday for getting him out of my head and heart finally. I hope that so very much.
I had decided to forgive myself about two years ago. I think about it often and reason to myself about why i need to forgive myself, and i give myself reason after reason as to why i should forgive myself. I never disagree with the reasons that not only i, but everyone i know have said to me. I hadn't even noticed until tonight that I've failed to forgive myself. I've managed to calm down my hatred of myself but I've never been able to move on to the next step. Not really.
Beautiful and peaceful ambiance....no annoying solfeggio chords. Help me cope with my migraines. Thank you for sharing
I forgive myself for always putting myself last. For being so hard on myself when I only ever needed love and kindness. I forgive myself for letting it take me this long to see the truth. It feels good to finally be making peace with myself. And most importantly giving myself the time to find myself again. To love and take care of myself the way I deserve. And to set healthy boundaries in all relationships.
i wish i could relate to this. no one gave me an apology, not even myself. even though i know that it wasn't my fault at all.
❤ if it wasn't your fault, why would you need to apologize to yourself?
@@the.seagull.35 I don’t know, maybe I could’ve been stronger at the moment, maybe I could’ve asked for help, maybe I could’ve done something to prevent it. I hurt myself afterwards and it felt deserved, but I just know that it wasn’t. My feelings and my mind are still in conflict.
hope you heal your wounds brother
@@kitsune_reynafive stages of grief
Denial > Anger > Bargaining > Depression > Acceptance
IDK if this helps, but learning about this process helped me get through a tough time.
I want to forgive myself for being hard headed and making selfish decisions. I want to forgive myself for doing good for people when I wouldn't do it for myself. I want to forgive myself for every time I doubted myself. I want to forgive myself for the pain I caused others. I want to forgive myself for the disrespect I given to my family and myself. I want to forgive myself for not being the best father to my only son. I want to forgive myself for all the disrespect I given myself. I want to forgive myself for not liking myself
I forgive myself for not doing it before. And I'm trying to ask for forgiveness to My inner child so we can make a better me ❤
This song give me a nostalgia that I can't even described in words 😭 is like that moment in life when you wher young and thrives in happiness and joy but you longer forgot and then suddenly you just remembered and it hits you hard but then you realize the time have passed...
I stumbled upon this video as I was beating myself up about a failed relationship that I let drag on for way too long. I been on CZcams tryna find answers about what I did wrong and if I will ever get justice. Today I was fighting the urge to keep hanging on to these thoughts, these emotions, this pain. I want to let it go and go be happy. I want to forgive myself and let go. I have been stuck in this cycle for weeks looking for answers and over analyzing and discovering more ways that he betrayed me 😢. I love him deeply and I want to love me the same way that I love him. Today Im going to let go for good. Im gonna burry our love and grieve for the last time. To the guy that broke my heart into a million pieces, I still love you, I always will. I forgive you, I forgive myself, and I truly wish you the best. Goodbye❤
I hope you find all the strength to keep going ❤
@@SiphokaziMfundisiVisionary Thank you❤️
i want to forgive myself for all the times i let people walk on me, for trying to be there for people when i thought it would be reciprocated, for the many times i accepted and absorbed the idea i was just a bad person and didn't deserve anything good, for the many times i tried so hard to get acknowledgement from the people that never believed in me, j want to forgive myself so i can feel that love is, feel it in all its pure form and let it overtake me, i want to forgive myself and soften , not to be too cautious sonthayvi can enjoy all the moments, if i don't have me no one else will.
Tearing up, these music are helping to loosen up, to feel less terrible about myself, self realising and just tearing up out of pure relief. No pain, no regrets, no overthinking, this is just pure bliss. It's okay if you can't daily meditate, find such soothing content here, and feel rejuvenated. Feel blessed, you are not alone. You are here for a reason, your purpose is yet not served. You are worthy, you are capable of everything, you are not lazy, you are just a bit tired, but don't worry, bad times don't last a long time. There's always sunshine after a dark night. But there's always a dim yet beautiful moonlight, it's not completely dark. You are good at heart, don't let nobody say what you are. You know what you are. It's not late yet, I, me and all of you can change for the better, for ourselves. Just know you are loved, and I love you too. I didn't see you, but I can feel the energy that you're a good soul. Never ever put yourself down again. You are fine, pain might last for a long time, you might not do well physically, as I am not, suffering since years, but I guess I am still here for a reason, so make the best out what you have. Make those little changes in life, eat well today, sleep a little earlier, don't be like me, its 3.36 in India and I am still awake, but I am pouring my heart out. Being or feeling down doesn't mean u r suicidal or not mentally well. You are doing just fine and you will do much better. You are healthy, you are happy and you are immensely loved. Goodnight. Sleep tight :-)
I forgive myself for allowing the abuse to continue. I forgive myself for not packing up my stuff and walking away. I forgive myself for not being strong enough to leave after the first red flag. I forgive myself and I am letting myself free, because that's what we all deserve, right? A second chance to blossom again. Random stranger reading this, you are so so beautiful
We might already living in the uncertain future of life, but our Spirit to live the life is more stronger than ever. ❤
Did anyone else just break down crying?
I wish I can cry
sobbing and i don’t even know why
If it hurts..
Cry.
Dont bury it.
Cry for awhile.
Cry the next day.
And then next.
However long it takes to get it out.
But once its out,
Theres that moment of silence.
Where the darkness, saddness and loneliness is pouring through outside of you....
Thats when the acceptance comes...
Accept this what has happened to you, has happened.
And its over now.
Accept that it is in the past.
And then you now, have accepted that it hurt.
But its time to keep pushing forward.
Because, in the moment- you have to take care of yourself.
You are there for you.
Sometimes thats all you need.
For now.
:)
HEAL.
Just a mom rocking her baby to sleep to these songs while everyone else is asleep. sometimes I think I can't do this any longer.
Hi there Mamas, I want you to know that these hard times don't last forever and I'm proud of you -- I'm proud of you for getting up today, for caring for your little ones, for not giving up, for not giving in. Yes it can definitely be hard caring for our littles ones and sometimes we just need moments to ourselves, but you're everything that your baby needs and looks forward to each day. Scream if you must, cry if you have to, punch a pillow. But remember, it gets easier day by day. Take it one day at a time. Stay positive. Each day is a new beginning. I believe in you. Always remember that You Are Loved and You Are Not Alone. Peace ☮️
Forgiving myself is something really struggle with. I remember almost evey wrong thing i ever did, but the funny thing is almost no one remebers those things, even if they were the ones directly hurt by me. People have foegiven me, i know God has forgiven me. Its time i forgive myself.
“Time” is the measurement to which you allow yourself to fall or rise. They say “in time this will happen” or “good things come to those who wait”, etc. etc. Even if those statements you were told in hard times are true it doesn’t change the fact that you need to align yourself with your “inner time clock” in order to achieve that of which you desire…. Find out what you like, what you like to do, and when you prefer to do it. Then find out what you NEED and when you need it. If those two things are align with each other you have it and are ready for the next chapter in your life(if you haven’t started to write those blank pages yet). If those things don’t align then I’m sorry my friend but we have some work to do and it may get ugly… but it’s all for the better.
❤CREATE & EVOLVE❤
Like how the sun rises and sets and how the seasons change with the sky. I promise you whatever you are searching for you will find it in due time. Just be sure to use that time wisely.
A successful journey requires self awareness, self awareness requires knowing your “inner time clock”. And knowing that requires you to dig deep into your existence and account for the life you created now so that you may shift into the life you deserve.
Peace and Love from the Most High ❤
Eh, I really listen to this playlist to have the feeling of what it's like to forgive myself, but even though I feel I've done the best I can, I still will never forgive myself for the smallest mess up's..
The time my help turned to disaster
The time I got B's instead of A's
The time I got a call at 1 am to my friend trying to commit and I made the situation worse
The time I've beaten myself up
The time I ignored the people who loved me
The time I wouldn't just accept love and punishment
The time of only thinking about forgiving myself but I just can't
I hope you all will do what you wish and hope and dream rather than be in a mental state of never being good enough..
Love y'all, stay safe ❤
I think you only need time:) all will be good
I hope that one day you will recognize that you did everything you could with the tools and time you had at the moment. I hope you forgive yourself, I hope you find peace 🤍
Sending love, stay healthy 🤍
Best wishes dear ❤
Being a true friend to the world starts with being a friend to yourself 😊
Beautiful playlist, nice work🖤
The first song is so majestic
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любила подобные плейлисты лет так с 13. сейчас мне почти 16, мои музыкальные вкусы кардинально изменились, но такую музыку я никогда не разлюблю)
I forgive myself for the mistakes of my younger years, I forgive myself for my shortcomings, I forgive myself for giving love and empathy to everyone but myself, I forgive myself for hating my body most of my life, I forgive myself for having intense emotions (after all my love and kindness is just as intense), I forgive myself for my isolation and selfishness, I forgive myself for my harmful past coping mechanisms, I forgive myself for not living up to my own expectations and impossible standards
To anyone struggling, I strongly recommend therapy, it might be difficult at first finding the right fit but I promise once you have a therapist whose values line up with your own, your life will drastically change.
True. Also, if it’s up to the parents, it may be hard to ask (at least it was for me) but it is 100% worth it. It genuinely helps you understand yourself more, it’ll give you stuff to think about and what could have caused it, and honestly you have to be open to fixing yourself otherwise it won’t help, at first I wasn’t doing anything but I realized I needed to put in some kind of effort and that’s when it started to help. I had it weekly, now I have it once a month and even then, I’m still really happy with what’s been going on.
It's too expensive going from therapist to therapist
I forgive myself for not caring
more for my health and mental state of mind .
i wish i could properly forgive myself for my mistakes. for the people i hurt, for hurting myself, for ruining my own life for someone who stabbed me in the back, for ruining my sleep schedule just for youtube, for being overly aggressive, for not eating properly. its difficult, it really is. i can no longer decide wether im fine or not, i feel only a fraction of the things i used to. have i been hurt too much? its hard to decide, but for now all i can do is...
continue trying.
today I did shadow work and wrote a letter to myself. I released all ties to negativity and what no longer serves me prosperity, growth, and love. Last year so many things weighted me down and I was left draining and feeling alone. I was used and felt like I lost control. But towards the end I felt new hope..I enter this year feeling light as a feather. The sun is brighter, my heart feels softer, and I am radiating with serenity. I welcome the euphoria as I embrace a new chapter. Shedding my old self and molting into the new world. I love you, and I’m here growing with you too.
Be kind and remind yourself we are just children in aging bodies. Inside our spirit is still that little being, and it needs to be felt and nourished too. Protect yourself and inspire yourself as if you’re mentoring your younger self. What would they do? How would they feel? What do they need?
Im feel tired ,loneliness and helpless … cant find anyone to share my emotions with😞
I don’t know you but I’m here 💕🫶🏼. Your not alone 💕
what a beautiful playlist ❤amazing work!
At some point in your life you are so aloñe...no parents,no friends,..no one
I wish i knew that ago... Only your soul is with you, until death... never betray with your soul.. because when it cries it feels the most painful thing ever
And learn how to forgive yourself, how to love yourself most
Lovely, so glad there aren’t commercials within or at the end , though.. there are a couple times where there’s a sudden startling sound like someone is stoping and flipping a cassette tape?
absolutely love your channel ❤ thank you for all the soothing playlists, they gave me hope in dark times
also, snowfall became my most fave track over the past year or two
feeling so safe listening to this song
I want to forgive myself for being so trusting and forgiving all these years, how I always carried myself as the strongest because that's how everyone saw me. I was always the last one to crack from the pressure, but when I finally did....only God Himself heard my cries.
I forgive myself for hurting my body,l forgive myself for being emotional,my life has been nothing but struggles and pain l am grateful for meeting the people l have met this year,taught me a lot of things. I forgive myself for letting people taking advantage of my kindness and love for guaranteed. In this life l wish to be happy and free from my toxic household.
I’ve been trying to heal myself but it’s hard for me to do it. Already years it won’t feel better but just even worst.
just hearing this song i feel like everything is calm even my soul too . and everything i got in this day likee wisely.
In the gentle embrace of these melodic tunes, the world of studying transforms into a harmonious sanctuary. The soothing melodies weave seamlessly into the background, creating an atmosphere of concentration and calmness. With every note, your study environment becomes a tranquil space where focus flourishes and learning becomes a serene journey. Here's to more productive and peaceful study sessions ahead! 📖🎵✨
The problems you're facing won't last forever, no matter how bad they might seem. If you ever feel lost or hopeless, just remember: the night is always darkest before the sunrise. You're going to get through this. I know you will. Now, get some rest. You've earned it, and you deserve it. Peace be with you, my friend. ♥