🌿ASMR🌿 My Body Dysmorphic Disorder: How It Started vs. How It’s Going ⚠️CW⚠️ - 100% Soft-Spoken

Content Warning: Suicide; Mental Illness; Body Image, Dysphoria, & Appearance
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[Filmed 7/28/22]
Hi, Sleepyheads!
Thank you in advance for giving me a little extra grace around how I explain all of this-it’s really hard to put into words!
I hesitate to even talk about things in terms of ‘ugly’ or ‘not ugly’ or ‘pretty,’ except as a jumping-off point for discussing the larger internalized constructs that have undergirded my negative self talk at the height of my dysmorphia.
I also didn’t mean the bit about some celebrities’ plastic surgery not ‘end[ing] up looking great’ as a value judgment on the cosmetic preferences of those individuals, but more as a reference to predatory surgeons and aestheticians whose negligence can create undesired outcomes (i.e. scarring, overfilling, etc.).
Lastly (until something else occurs to me)… sorry this video involved so much pee talk. It surprised me, too.
Oh, and a friendly reminder: please refrain from commenting on my appearance in response to this video, as that is not what it’s about. Plus, even words meant to negate my hallucinations/delusions are still a form of interaction with them, which ultimately does not help me.
Love you all lots, please take care of yourselves & each other!