Home, At Last. (Vlog.23)
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- čas přidán 28. 10. 2017
- the happiest i'd been in months, all documented. i was smiling so wide the whole time i was editing this. this video means the world to me.
going back home made me reevalute what my goals in life are. my head was so scrambled in la. now i remember. i remember my childhood dreams. i remember what my laugh sounds like when it isn't stifled. what the night sounds like when it isn't drowned. i feel whole again, ready to pursue what i've always meant to pursue.
thank you for spending time with me, you mean the world and more to this texan boy.
with love,
- cone
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so many lights
so many lives
goodbye, city of stars
was so beautiful i had to write it somewhere and be amazed
❤️
conan, ilysm :(
goodbye city of stars, hello lone star state, that was the sweetest transition i've ever witnessed.
this part was literally so beautiful, i rewatched it at least 5 times
this boy got me feelin so nostalgic towards texas & i ain't even been to texas wtf
Gisell Gonzalez same and I'm from Argentina wtf lolololol
Gisell Gonzalez same honestly
I just moved from Texas and so I’m feelin allll the feels
texas is great !
SAMEEE TF
imagine conan smiling while editing this footage
Stephanie Emma Too pure ❤
gosh as if i wasnt crying enought w this vid😂
it's so cute:(
wholesome
🥺🥺🥺
Literally had to pause the video to point out that even his suitcase is the primary colors.
Matthew Micyk AND THE PLANE WING
I love seeing how happy he is
Tayla Maybon indeed(;
Tayla Maybon same 😊💖💖💖
Tayla Maybon same
Tayla Maybon ahh same
Tayla Maybon sameee
At 2:52 when he said "I'm home" and put his head out the window I actually started crying. Seeing people so happy makes me feel super happy too.
Its like 3 am and ive been crying for like 3 hours watching Conan videos
same 🥺
same
I have exactly same reaction as you, his smile was so innocent and made me feel empathized and then started crying.
She is so lucky to have him in her life. And he is lucky to have her as well. I want a friendship like that... I want a Conan❤️
Me toooo
I want an Ashley-
I swear if I don’t have a friend like that then what’s the point lmao
If I don't get friends like Conan Gray and Ashley Kellner I don't want them
me too
I saw a quote recently that said they wished everyone could be rich and famous just to see it's not as fulfilling as it seems. Some people live with the main desire of wealth, but when they actually attain it, they realize it isn't the answer to happiness. I feel like you're experiencing a similar situation. One of your biggest dreams was getting away from Texas and going to UCLA. I remember watching your videos back when you were waiting to see if you got into UCLA, and once you did get in, you were thrilled. But, once you got to California and started going to UCLA, you realized it wasn't as amazing as you had imagined. I love that you're being so honest with everybody. It's making me realize that maybe I should appreciate the life I'm living now, and worry a little less about growing up.
Emily H yeah that's true. I to need to just slow down and enjoy what I have now. Our youth truly is a gift
Wow this is honestly so deep, I feel like we think too much about the future, we firget about the present.
this video smells like nostalgia
Does anyone else feel at home when they see Conan’s bedroom in Texas... bc I defo do
Weirdly i feel comforting listening to his vlogging feels homey
Same!
i dont know why im crying
Ugh yeah
same
I miss his vlogs :')
@@Dheord26
Me too :(..
Hey man, I moved to college in a huge city from a tiny little rural town too. I can tell you that it does get better. The first time I went home I sobbed and hugged my dog for hours. I thought that place was were I was me, were I was supposed to be. Now I can go back and forth without shedding any tears. I've grown to love my new home just as much as where I've come from. And realized that it's people, and not really the places, that make you feel at home, and that new people come into your life to make new places home. Keep your head up
His happiness is the one where even from afar you can hear it. You can hear his bursting energy that makes others smile or giggle. Conan I want to Thank you. Thank you, for sharing your life, for making music, for being who you are. I am no one but a stranger typing on a computer, but never the less YOU have changed my life in ways that are hard to comprehend. Thank you, Conan. And, God bless you.
Been 3 years and I am still crying over this video
Same here... :'(
SPENDING TIME AT THE YELLLOOWW CAFFEFEFEFFEFFEE
I was asked where I want to live and I said *idle town* my friend said where's that?
Me: The best place on the planet...
Friend: Yeah but where is it?
Me: Somewhere in Texas...
Ik it's not actually called idle town but I like confusing friends :)
@@Holly-iq5tm i live in texas and the song idle town really made me appreciate it just thought i'd share :)
@@frogberet4956 :))
cone, my main squeeze, we want you to be happy. we love you so much. I smiled from ear to ear seeing you having fun with your friend. if you’re not happy in college, then do what does make you happy. no one is going to be disappointed in you if you leave UCLA, because all of you friends, family and viewers want to see you smile the way you do in Texas. please take care of yourself, please. 🌿
kat shannon thank you, love. i am trying to take care of myself. this means a lot to me. thank you.
Conan Gray not a problem, my friend. if you ever need to talk to someone who can have a neutral perspective (since we don’t know each other), my insta is @katshannon_ I’ve been told I’m a good person to talk to when in crisis mode. feel better, cone.🌻
Conan Gray cone, we love you. ✨💚
Conan Gray i am: crying
this is old now but :,))
🥺🥺🥺🤍🤍
Omg i was in conan video @ 16:08
Meme Queen errr stop stealing my thunder that was me
Meme Queen 😂😂😂😂 Im actually dead when I saw the trash can
omg
Meme Queen lol
oMG i literally thought a person would be in the frame and i saw the trash can and i spat out my water
i hope he’s still this happy sometimes :)
“I haven’t seen her in so long, even though we talk like everyday”
I feel like that sentence sums up this pandemic so well. All my friends. I haven’t seen them in so long, even though we talk everyday. It’s just not the same, I guess. I don’t know why I’m even saying this. When this pandemic is over, I will be home at last. With my friends, seeing them. Living.
Edit: I posted this comment close to two years ago, so I guess I’ll give an update. Those people are not my friends. Our friendship didn’t work. Now, I’m happy with the best friends in the absolute universe. We don’t get to see each other very much, but just like Conan said, we talk like every day. I love them so much. I am home at last, just as I hoped for back in the height of the pandemic.
Same around here )’: :‚)
cartwheels? juggling? that conan is a circus boy
lincoln Hecc?! Two aesthetically pleasing CZcamsrs interacting?
fancy seeing you here
🌿🌻🌿🌻🌿When you are like Conan but, all you want is to find another person like him to be friends with.💗A friend like Conan is almost imposable. 🌿🌻🌿🌻🌿
Now I know why he called his first EP "Sunset Season"
Just going through liking all the comments on this video basically... I think I love Conan’s youtube fam almost as much as I love Conan.
i'm happy when you're happy, it's inevitable
NATALIA he has contagious happiness ❤
this is beautiful conan!!! this got me reflecting on my life and my friends and I cried while watching it. thank you for putting so much effort into your videos, they are their own works of art filled with beautiful memories.
everytime i watch conan’s vlogs, it just makes me wish i had friends :,)
same :')
Sameee
Same
These vids are all so aesthetic we need them again 😭
they’re just so happy and calming 😭
this was so heartwarming.. it's so beautiful to see how grounded Cone is and how he always remembers home
1:53 even the wing of the aeroplane conforms to Conan’s primary colour aesthetic
Nisio Keynn wanted to say the same thing lol :)
Nisio Keynn yeah lol
I was thinking the same haha
conan is like the best friend that i never had
same :')
This was such a cute ass indie film
Conan is so cute I’m crying
Tayla Maybon same!😊
*where can i find this kind of happiness?*
NATALIA i am asking the same😳😭
According to Conan... in Texas
in target
texas
In texas
I have watched this over and over and over again, and every time I want to pause the video because I feel my heart almost ache in some kind of agony -I don't pause it. There is something so perfectly sculptured about this video, so well crafted, designed, made, formed-oh my, is it a beauty. Every time I watch it, my heart speaks many different things, and my whole body feels encased in something so sublime, yet so frustratingly sentimental to the point where I keep wanting to cry every-time. Perhaps, it is that I am perplexed and longing for some counterpart to my journey to equilibrium, but I am not so sure. A work of art is what I would call this piece; this magnificent craft: perfection to it's finest, and everything by design. Like I said, over and over and over again will I continue to watch this. And, over and over and over again will I be waiting for the next chapter to your story whilst crafting my own.
lol guys. i just watched again
Liking this comment so you can comeback and rewatch it like I'm doing it ❤️
wow. you put everything I was feeling into words. it’s beautiful🖤🖤
it somehow makes me sad watching this. puppy have missed you so much :'( (tears)
Seeing you this happy makes me happy! I know we don‘t know you, but I think I speak for most of your subscribers when I say we feel deeply connected to your life and we care about what you‘re going through. I hope this time at home helped putting everything in perspective 💖 We love you!
Really well said :)
This is the truth!!
Cora B u took the words out of my mouth 💖
YES!!!
this is such a wonderful comment and i can agree :)
you seemed so carefree and at peace in this video
you make me happy
Me neither.
I always revisit this video when I'm feeling lost. Thank you for that.
awwwwwww this video made my heart melt
You are such a great person and friend, I'm just happy to be able to witness your creativity and your kindness. In fact, just as Texis reminded you about your goals, this video reminded me of mine. I've just started my first year at university and things aren't as magical as i thought they would be. But i really just needed to remember how much i wanted to get here. Thank you, just thank you for being such a great person and for sharing some parts of your life with us, 'cause it helps. a lot. Good luck! (sorry for the mistakes)
I'm not crying. You're crying.
But for real, this vlog had me weeping. I've just recently moved from a really, really, r e a l l y small town to Vienna. The whole admission process was so exhausting and tiring and on top of all that my one and only best friend stayed back to study home and I haven't seen her in two months. I'm still not used to living in a big city. Every day I have to remind myself that this is my life and this is my new "home" but I still feel like a tourist. Maybe because I still haven't started classes yet so I feel like I'm behind and late to the party, or because like you said, I grew into being a small town, quiet, introverted girl used to the comfort of my home, my room, the street leading to my friends house. But it's all different now. She's living in a city and hour away from our hometown. My room doesn't look like my room anymore. The fairy lights and pictures have been taken down, as well as all the sheets. The closets are empty and my books are gone. I wish I could time travel a few months back and just spend a day feeling comfortable and safe like I used to. It's funny to say this cause for years I've wanted to move here and finish university and get a job and build a life of my own, but now that I'm here reality looks a lot different then what I imagined it to be and I don't have the confidence or security in my own choices so it feels like I'm making all the wrong ones. But this really helped me feel less alone, I guess I'm not the only small soul lost in the big city whirlwind.
Thank you for your videos. Besides being beautiful to look at, like so, so aesthetically pleasing, they're also very comforting and calming. So - thank. you.
♡♡♡♡
Awww i hope ur doing well now
sending love. I moved from a big city to a smaller town. it’s really hard.🖤🖤
When I want to cry I come back to his channel and watch every single video all over again.
this warmed my heart
When you stuck ur head out of the window it reminded me of perks of being a wallflower
Yesss💗💗
Overdrive type beat🥺
he did it again in a music video aww
aw this is exactly what i was imagining when i started making this new style of music lol beautiful
hi um i was wondering, what are your pronouns? =]
this. probably my favorite video on the internet.
I had a similar experience when I graduated 2 years ago from hs and went to Colorado and even though I loved it I had the same feelings and felt so out of place and ended up with bad depression so I came back home and I've never been happier. I don't regret my time in CO but it just made me appreciate home in TX. lovely video Con.
Even the plane was primary colors
not talented I think you're talented pal
I love how you try, and succeed beautifully in your own way, to embrace your feelings---happy or lonely. In contrast, my mind is a Hot Mess™️, and with all the different voices around me, I find it so hard to be honest with myself. But you inspire me to keep trying. Thank you💛
I remember watching you go into ucla when I was still in high school, I can't believe it's gonna be two years since then, I feel like time just flew by and I couldn't catch up, the Conan now has come a long way since then, wish I could say the same for myself. Two years later and now I feel myself in the same position as you were, I just started college and to be honest I feel lost and a little scared for my future self. I come back to your videos to help me heal and hope that I can find myself again, thank you for that
i really missed old conan, however this new conan is way better and happier according to him. his videos used to be my gateway, but now since he's busy with his music, i also lost... i subscribed to conan since late 2017. and you're right, 2 years has past and couldn't catch up with his life update. then i learn he doesn't like yt conan anymore, he didn't find happiness and what's not he's somebody now. he wanna keep his life more private. it's sad, i always patiently wait for his new video, but now it's not the case anymore :") sorry for this long comment, i just feel very nostalgic. im having a conan vlog marathon, just how i missed old him :")
I feel like Conan is the realest and most relatable youtuber out there 🐥
Cora B only his aesthetic is unreachable
read this for free mac n cheese**give it some time. ucla is such a big opportunity and brings so many opportunities. when something new comes your way and it’s super big you get this adrenaline rush and then it dies down and you kind of just have a “oh shit now what” moment. but new things will come your way. but this is obviously your life and you have so much more time to grow and do things different. if you don’t like where this is going then you don’t. i’m happy to see your happy. god bless my love♥️♥️
I missed conans genuine smile and laughter.
I know these videos are a few years old but they make me so happy 😭🫶
I love this video so so so much. I feel so deeply connected to Conan and when i see him happy it just makes me so happy
8:04 i actually cried. I love this
jordan is a waffle me too, i can't handle all the nostalgia and love😭
I did too and I am still crying
me tooo
am I watching a ghibli film ? 8:02
So beautiful 🌹
Conan is a type of person with tons of hopes, a boy full of kindness, sweetness, loveliness he is the best in his place , he literally appreciate all things in his life , and about this writings and thoughts are the greatest thing I have ever seen in my life. He is one of those persons are hard to find but I found him here's he, going through his hards with a big smile on his face :)
it takes a year or so to really get used to LA. I graduated from UCLA and know your experience... I lived o n the east coast of US
This was a really good pick-me-upper :)
I wish you luck on your midterms!!
his smile is so wholesome 🥰
It's perfect
i know i'm really late to this bc i just found your channel, but i'm already attached to you? seeing you so happy makes me feel so soft, and warm and i'm just so happy for you. i haven't felt this unconditionally soft in so long, so thank you for helping me feel more joyful, i've been struggling as of late, like you have.. so you've given me hope. plus you're always hella cute and your hair is just as wild as mine is, so sksks i adore you.
Don’t worry Cone - being at school is an adjustment period. I had a mental breakdown and thought about dropping out in my first year. Those four years ended up being the best of my life, it was still stressful don’t get me wrong, but you learn to balance things and meet great people etc.
Also I’ve been graduated for three years now and being out of school is also a weird freaking adjustment. There’s no summer break, I just keep working through the summer. You don’t move up in what you’re doing every year. You don’t get graded all the time to tell you that you’re doing good - you mostly only get told if you’re doing bad. Life is about growing and making the best of what you’re dealt with - which is a lot easier said than done - but I’m doing my best!!!
It’s also weird because I became really involved with my peers at school AFTER I graduated? Also the people in first year you become friends with because they’re there. I find the people you become friends with in the other years are the ones you stay friends with because you actually find who has common interests. First year is so weird.
SORRY FOR POSTING 100 THINGS
I’m happy when Conan’s happy
Conan and Ashley are so pure and so sweet together and it makes me smile so much
Got this video in my recommended again and I actually cried. This whole video feels just so nostalgic. I adore conan just so much and im so proud of him.
Dear Conan,
Classes will only be a fraction of your full college experience. The vast majority of the beauty of college is the stuff you do outside of class - it’s the clubs and organizations and projects that make you feel like you’re impacting the world.
I’ve been juggling 21 credits in Computer Science for a while now, and while the content is useful, I really grow as a programmer by putting my skills to practice. I’m writing software for balloon payloads, rocket payloads, and even a small satellite, all outside of class! These are the things that make college worth it; it’s like the world has opened up before me, and all I had to do was reach out and grab it. Yea, I sometimes sleep in class, but sometimes your classes will be boring (especially in your first year).
Keep up the good work, and remember that there is so much more to the world outside of classes, as long as you put yourself out there. So join a club, build a thing, maybe join a Kpop dance group, or find a lovely lady. The world is waiting.
[TLDR; college is fun, but the classes aren't the fun bit]
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your happiness is so contagious, conan. watching this made me so happy i cried. much love cone
Conans vlogs are the type of videos I don’t need to read the comments for when I get bored, cause it’s so entertaining and I just wanna take in the wholesome vibe
It would be really nice if I had a friend like Conan! It's really rare for me to see someone who really loves and appreciate their friends, to have that kind of bond and relationships is really what I crave for. Just pure and genuine.💕✨
The joy in this video is palpable :) and quite contagious. Thanks for reminding me of the good times Conan
Rin ._. Ii
it amkes me so sad that you aren’t happy in LA i just want you to be happy
I can't help myself smiling seeing how happy he is. I love him
This is my favorite video ever, not even joking. i love seeing other people so happy
THE PERFECT WAY TO ROUND OFF MY SUNDAY NIGHT. GODBLESS YOUUUUUUUUUU.
I didn't realize I was smiling for 18:49 minutes until the video ended. I love you so much Conan
I've watched a handful of your vlogs more times than I can count. When I first discovered your channel I was starting my senior year of high school. Now, in my second semester of college, I find myself constantly replaying your videos to feel at nostalgia and at home. Seeing you travel home in this vlog makes me feel at home!
I'll be done with school soon and this video makes me cry. Life is a riddle for me, I don't know anything really. Thank you for this honest reflection! 🌾🐇✨💛✨
*WE'RE GOING BACK HOME FOLKS!!*
(Okay after watching this like a hundred times bc your happiness is infectious I'd just like to say something. You're a lot like me. We're really nostalgic and we hold on to places and memories. LA isn't home yet so you're confused and sad. Give it time. I know that I despise new places for a good 6 months before I get used to them and learn to love them. If you're still not happy after giving it enough time, then leave if you want. But I've really found that my nostalgia and anxiety always cause me to let go of opportunities and live in the past too much. Give your future a chance too.)
*OTTER*
*YOUNGJAE*
mark tuan can step my face anytime username!!!!!!
The bird that Youngjae holds in the Hard Carry MV. Aaahhhhhhhh username!!!
BTS is everything whilst youtube is evil snakeu username my heartu
when he screamed in the car I rolled laughing 😹💓
Conan makes me feel like he's doing everything ultimately to seek his existence as a unique human being, which is so artistic and touching.
My favorite video on the internet.. So close to my heart , i watch this every night before sleeping.. Its THE comfort video for me
Im so happy to see my little ice cream Cone returning to where it all began! thank you for being so honest about your journey and being so Cone and only Conan!
y'all 20 minutes of conan hdgdhdjs
literally the most touching vlog he’s ever made 🥲❤
so true i cry everytime i rewatch it
this is so beautiful, i started crying when conan had to leave
I can really really relate to this. I just went into highschool this year and and its been 2 months and i still cant cope with not having any of my friends around me and the workload. I know its nothing compared to what your going through. Im only 5 subway stops and a bus ride away from my old school, your half way across the country from yours. I just wanted to say how much your videos mean to me. They really help me relate to someone because I really dont have anyone to realate to at the moment.
wasssuuhhh when i 1st went into hs i too hated it, i had zero friends (bc all of them went to a different one then me), i was shy af, and i just hated life all together. for a whole school yr i was miserable. but last yr i told myself im tired of this $h¡t, so i joined the basketball, got into a few clubs, and really forced myself out of my comfort zone. it was really hard and im still constantly working on this but now ive made a bunch of really awesome friends and most importantly, im happy. also about the work load, its always going to be alot, especially if u take a bunch of APs like me but eventually u get uesd it. anyways i hope this helped u in some way and i promise u one day ur gonna love going to school, okay maybe not love but you'll enjoy all the fun things that aren't really academic related😄
I know you worked your butt off to get to UCLA and you're putting everything you have into your collage expierence but Cone, your mental health and your happiness has to come first. you are lucky and I'm glad you get these opportunities but I just want you to be happy. do what you need to do to be happy. I watch your vides from LA and they seem different - like your trapped. I want you to just be happy Cone, please be happy
This is the most serene, peaceful thing I think I’ve ever watched
same, I feel the same when I got into my uni and I'm on my last year now and nothing changed lol people always tell me "you should enjoy your uni life, those are the best years of your life" and I think I never felt more miserable than I felt during my uni years loool
would have been first but had to untangle my headphones
the second CZcams video that ever made me cry. the first one was the ucla one, but this one made me realise what actually is important. the moment where you where sitting in the car with your friend, just a simple moment with a friend. very. important. must. rememer
i looove how beautiful your friendship is with ash 💞
every time i watch this i cry
This made me so happy I'm gonna cry I'm serious! I'm tearing up while typing this...cone has a power that makes you happy and sad and nostalgic at the same time it's crazy
If it makes you feel better, Im in a really similar situation. I just started college and I was really looking forward to it, but I find that I'm struggling adjusting. Im so luck to be able to have the opportunity to go, but Im not happy anymore. Its kinda nice seeing that Im not alone in feeling like it was too much of a change all at once, and I wanted to let you know that there's any other kid (me) out there who's in the same boat, so you don't feel so alone. I hope everything works out tho! and im glad you got to visit home :)
seeing him happy makes me cry because he’s so happy
Ash and cone are the best, made me cry ilysm