My Alcoholism - 5 Years In Recovery
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- Äas pĆidĂĄn 10. 03. 2020
- Hi I'm Janet and I'm an alcoholic. As much as you may think this is clickbait, it's not. I've been wanting to make this video now for five years, but the timing never really did feel right. I just wanted to be honest and open with you so you can know the real me. I know you may be wondering why I'd even post something like this. The truth is, when I was searching for someone online 5 years ago who was talking about these things, it was hard to find. Which only made me feel even more isolated and alone. So as much as I hope you don't relate to this video, if you do, you're not alone.
I'm sorry if you feel mislead.
I hope you're having a happy day!
Janet
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Thank you so much for such an overwhelmingly supportive reaction to this video. Iâm not sure what I expected but I wasnât expecting to be met with so much love! Iâve received so many comments, questions and people wanting to know more about my experience with alcoholism. Without sounding like Iâm trying to sell my book here - it is the place where Iâve written down my experience, strength and hope. When writing about my alcoholism, I tried my best to write with an open heart and spent a long time doing so. So if you wanted to know the more raw versions of what happened then maybe consider having a read. Itâs available on www.janetdevlin.com/store or even www.amazon.co.uk/gp/aw/d/1913172244/ref=tmm_hrd_title_0?ie=UTF8&qid=1587129869&sr=8-1
Hi Janet, I related to some of the things you said so deeply, I am still crying. I don't have a problem with any substance, I have a problem with me. I hate me way too much and I have to make a conscious effort every day to not loose control. It is so hard, and I am so lonely. Please, if you actually even read this post, please tell me how you got past those things? I have been screaming for help to everyone, and I am still alone. I am not sure why I even think you would care. I have always loved your music, and I would love to hear more. If you read this, thanx. Take care, and for what it's worth, I'm on your side...
You re such a strong person janet. Be proud of who you are and where you made it until today. Life is all about making experiences good and bad ones. And to know that early in life, that you have to be honest to yourself is the best experience you can make. Stay that strong and wunderful. And also stay safe. Greetings from Germany.
Janet I never comment, but your video inspired me to. I am a 46 year old ginger who has lived a life of addiction, mirroring all your traits of self hatred and self destructive behavior. Your pain has mine for so long. Oh how many times I went AWOL in life and hit bottom. I figured it out 4 yrs ago. For me it was learning to love myself, unique flaws and all, forgive myself, a big one, and giving myself grace when needed. We've beat ourselves up way too much already. I can see how the pain is motivating you to become stronger. Pain is often times the best motivator.
I just wanna say thanks for your bravery to become vulnerable with your storey to encourage others, and from one ginger to another, I think your hair is absolutley gorgeous.
I have an addictive personality and was a functioning alcoholic and addict for all my 20s and drank 30 pints of tennents lager a night
starting at 10am break with 2 pints in 10 minutes and 4 pints at a 30 minute lunch then after work a 24 pint can slab of lager every night till 4am
go to bed at 4am then up for work at 6am and repeat the whole thing over every day for years until the doc said i would die before 30 so i said enough is enough
the doc gave me these green pills and i never thought about drinking after 3 days and never touched a drink for 2 years i went cold turkey no help
i could go to bars and drink soda no problem and now i can take or leave drink now, i drink a few times a year if i'm lucky, it has no hold over me now
Hey... im from Germany... and my english is Shit đ
But i am a big Fan of you.
Best Wish and Stay strong. â€
( Sorry for this englishđ)
it's been so long that i genuinely can't remember myself without anxiety or depression. it consumes me and controls every aspect of my life. i'm so tired.
I remember being an anxious kid and getting depressed at 17. i'm 26 now and stronger!! All from the great wonders of magic mushrooms.
I'm going through mushroom infusion therapy, and I can confirm that it does work real good..
after my trip yesterday, I did understand why mushrooms are praised... you can have some beautiful experiences on them..
Hello! It appears I have interests, I want to get some.. where do you get from?
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Janet, I'm a heroin addict for 10 years, been clean for almost 6 months, fighting to stay clean, thank you so much for sharing your story!
You can do it..
@@williamric-hansen3983 thank you
so proud of you! you can do it!!
you can do this, girrrrl!!!! be brave! â„ïžâ„ïžâ„ïžâ„ïžâ„ïž
Keep fighting darling, we wish you so much love and greatness. Continue to see the strength in yourself
I have been very heavily drinking for 15 years. I stopped drinking 6 days ago and I became SO sick for 3 days! I didn't know why...I then realized, I'm an alcoholic and I thought I was literally going to die for 3 days straight. Shakes, chills, nauseous, didn't/couldn't eat for 3 days. This is tough but if I can do it, anyone can do it!! Thank you all for sharing everything in your life. I've read them all!! We all got this fight! Stay strong!
Hi TA, I see that you made this comment 4 months ago. I hope you are still fighting and doing well.
And, if you didn't manage to be sober. I hope you try again and keep trying until you eventually get through.
Manifesting positive stay strong please donât let this overtake you. You are much bigger than this. Please take minute by minute.
I learned that I was an alcoholic at 19, I didnât admit it until this year... Iâm 28. I had my first drink at 8 and I have relapsed multiple times since I regularly started drinking. God has been very kind to me during this process and heâs guided me through the darkest of nights. Iâm thankful for your story and sobriety, itâs a blessing.
I'm 27 I think, honestly I've done so much escapism I dont actually know. my first taste of it was 7, it was just a beer, but you gotta start somewhere. I am diabetic t2 and cerotic, if I get a deep enough wound now I might just bleed out without suffering a mortal wound. and now I am in recovery. I don't know what to even use as a leg to stand on. Sometimes the thing that makes me care is only the fact that my mother would suffer. I have a large family, but I can only feel for her in any way.
Woah, Iâm completely taken a back! đ„șThank you so much for your overwhelmingly positive response! Iâll be responding to as many comments as I possibly can but I hope you know how much your support means đ x
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AA doesnât need a response, 5 years is a major accomplishment and itâs impressive
I like your newer videos and covers anyways
Thank you for sharing your story, this is what helps. Go on :)
I was born a day after you 13th November 1994 ur so pretty
Janet. The greatest drug in the world is love. If you ever feel that you're running out, we will be here for you.
fantastic
Thank you so much đ„șđ
@@janetdevlin You are helping me get through a very rough patch with your truth. Thank you. We need more like you, not less, so please take good care of yourself. Lots of love.
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How did all these onions get in here?
No, it isn't. The greatest drug in the world is ecstasy. But love is pretty amazing.
The wife and I are closing on 1 year sober. We struggled to get to sobriety for several years. We understand your pain and hard work. You're absolutely right about living in sobriety. It's magical how much better and clearer the world is when you dig your way out!
From one alcoholic in recovery to another, thank you for your courage, honesty, and strength to share the insufferable hell that is addiction. Thank you for sharing. I am in rehab right now and I have been drinking since I was 16 years old. I had addictive tendencies since I was very young as well. I am 32 years old right now and it's a miracle that I am still alive. The more we share our stories, the more we heal and help others. Thank you for your bravery. One day at a time. Love, a fellow AA. xoxo
Thank you for sharing!!
I am reading your comment 2 years after you posted it. I hope you stayed sober and you are doing well. You still have a great future ahead off you.
Welcome to the club. Ex military with severe PTSD. You can do it - one day at a time my friend. Love your voice - it brings me peace.
Search about ayahuasca...sending healing your way âšđ
You realize this just makes you more of a real person? Just love you more
I love you too buddy, thank you so much for the support x
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No, thank you, you are a blessing to all of us to share your story, I donât suffer from alcoholism, I suffer from depression. I have had many times that I wanted to end it all, I was tired of living at the age of 13. I started listening to Linkin Park, most people donât realize this, but most of their music is about getting help for the pains your going through in life. I found music to be a great outlet. Iâm now 32 years old, and I still have my moments that I donât want to carry on anymore, itâs a constant struggle, but then I have such wonderful people like you to listen to and hear your story and your music, and it gives me hope, and it helps give me a reason to want to live. Itâs very difficult to talk about, but Iâm blessed to have you, and Iâm trying to help my dad with his addiction to alcohol. Thank you for everything, much love from us in this small town of Waycross, Georgia!!!
Hi Janet, Iâm also 5 years sober. Thank you for sharing your story with young people around the world. The sooner we can identify the sooner we can reach out for help
Iâm a 67 year old grandma of 12. I just want to hug you and say what a brave, loving & wonderful young lady you are. Thank you so much for sharing this. Youâve got this girlđ€ oh, I am a huge huge Elton John fan and I loved your version of his song on your audition â€ïž
Professionals say that alcohol is harder to "escape" from than drugs or other substances, because you can find it everywhere...at the shop around the corner, it's not illegal substance and it doesn't cost as much as some other stuff. But the battle is the same for any addicted person using whatever... This video is a true inspiration for people to stay on track and people who are not there yet...THANK YOU FOR THAT
Janet I think we are the first generation of Irish people to actually recognize we were addicted to alcohol , you know our culture and how it can be seeing this made me wonder how lucky we were to see it I have family to this day that simply cant see alcohol as the crutch they are using it as I'm sure you do too , thank you for the music it really does touch that deep Celtic nerve and moreover thank you for sharing
I was alcoholic at 18 , there is nothing to be ashamed of. Addiction is a addiction. Iâm 2 years sober now.
Congratulations darling
Proud of you đâš
Good for you. What were you addicted to?
We're you actually an alcoholic, or do you just like the label? Claiming to be a young alcoholic is like having a badge that reads "I'm interesting. Give me attention". How much were you actually drinking?
I work with people with an a addiction, primarily alcohol addiction. I see a lot of young people every day, it is not about how much you drink.
âI thought everyone was in on this joke that i wasnât.â Yep, I felt that.
aw I'm sorry :(
Janet Devlin donât be!! you just put into words something that I havenât been able to for a very long time. Thanks for sharing with us đ
Same itâs nice knowing other people have felt that sometimes
Yessss, I felt it too. I have said repeatedly that I feel like I'm just some big cosmic joke and I'm too stupid to realize it. Ugh. Horribly isolating feeling. :(
@@janetdevlin don'T be. It's that Voice. It's lying,you know. Not your Fault.
Janet, you are an incredible person, and I am so proud of the strides you've made in your recovery journey. As someone who has battled addiction myself, I have some understanding of the challenges you've faced. It's all the more remarkable considering the unique pressures that come with your talent and career. You've overcome incredible obstacles, and I'm really proud of you.
Janet, like so many your music blew me away the moment I heard it. I hope you're able to keep your sobriety and live a long and happy life. I'm 100% certain there are millions of people who wish nothing but the best for you.
There are MANY alcoholics at age 20. Most people just are not aware enough to recognize it and DO something positive about it. Kudos, Janet, Blessings of God upon you.
About a decade ago binge drinking going through media and a lot of people said "If you drink regularly so and so much, you're an alcoholic". Well, when I look back to the years when I was between 14 and 25 and those people were right, I was an alcoholic. And nearly all of my friends. And my parents. And nearly all of their friends.
But for me those people are wrong. There's a difference between drinking too much and the necessity of drinking. I admit, it's just a small step from drinking too much to become an alcoholic and most people don't be aware getting close. Anyway most people don't make that last step, being aware of it or not. So I don't think there are "MANY alcoholics" at the age of 20, there are some.
But for sure, it's something to be careful about. If you look in the mirror early morning saying "Ouch, that was too much last night." it maybe ok. If you look at that mirror thinking "Guess I need another drink" you need help, not a drink.
Iâm 1 week sober today. Thankyou for sharing beautiful, sending love to you â€ïž
Ps. Never apologise for being emotional xxx
Fingers crossed for you to stay sober! Be strong
Stay strong itâs worth fighting đđ„âš
Way to go!
stay strong Sam
Thank you for this as an addict been clean for 7 years this means alot this will help so many people thanks for being honest this touched me deeply and proved that you dont have to spend 10+ years useing to be an alcoholic/addict or to seek help i have the biggest respect for young ppl who get clean cause i was to proud to do it young i had to lose everything before i got help
When you sang for the first time on X factor I was blown away by your amazing voice, sly smiles at the crowd, and most of all you were a soul that I wanted to know more about. You had this mysterious aura, but this big personality, I could tell you were strong. I'm not much younger than you and I saw this piece of myself in you that I idolized. Eventually, I understood you had the same special that I had, an ability to make people smile and feel genuinely good and happy. Thank you for sharing, this couldn't have been easy to get strangers comments on, but thank you it has been yet another moment you are helping to make someone's day a little bit better.
âItâs a little bit funny, this feeling inside
Iâm not one of those who can, easily hideâ
Thatâs how I met you, youâre very precious, take care of yourself. â€ïž
Narcissus weirdo!
Narcissus is referring to the Elton John song she sang at her world famous audition. Thatâs how I got to know her too. So thereâs nothing weird about this comment at all.
Ditto
I donât know why this just popped up in my CZcams feed but I just wanted to say how much I admire your bravery and honesty. You are an amazing young lady and I wish you all the very best x
Your honesty is very refreshing. It doesn't make any difference how rich, powerful, big, strong, successful, popular, etc etc etc you are. It is a chemical dependency and it will crush anybody. Well done. You could have been describing me with the anxiety, the negative self talk, the imposter syndrome, the shutting the noise off, the anxiety attacks and that self doubt. Just remember, every time you face down your demons, they get weaker and you get stronger. You are MUCH stronger than you think you are. Well done.
Thank you Janet for your honesty , when I heard your song by Elton John at sixteen , it's very brave of you to open up your heart, we are thinking of you in our prayers . We pray for your courage and determination to continue on the right path , we look forward to seeing you , the love which flows from your heart . There is so much in which you can achieve when we trust the direction of the heart . Never give up on this wonderful dream . Praying for you . Martyn đčđđ”ïž
Being an alcoholic is A VERY COMMON thing, especially in ireland. Tell someone they ain't allowed to drink at the weekend and they'll show withdrawal symptoms straight away.
Iâm 20 & Iâm an alcoholic. I started drinking when I was 13. I have never said that...
Please find support to help you âșïž
check Wes Watson channel
13? Damn. That's too early. Good that you're not an alcoholic anymore.
moodini99 wha? She is still one she just said that.
@@Prince_Oli She said it? Must be true then. Anyone can say anything. She's got books and albumbs to sell
Props to you not easy getting sober awesome that your realizing while you're young the damage being an alcoholic can do. My father quit when he was 20 years old he's going on 40 years this New Year's. Alcoholism does not discriminate I was an alcoholic addict by the age 20 by the age 15. Just wanted to say awesome job keep it up one day at a time. I was at a meeting nobody showed up so I looked for a recovery video and I came across this. I live on the reservation native reservation in Maine and there is so much desperate need for Recovery here. Very sad to just watch everybody dying that I love. I just turned 42 and I am going on 14 months over it's my first time ever being sober. Tomorrow is Christmas and I am just grateful to be spending it with my two fur babies and very grateful that I'm sober. Keep up the good work!
I don't think I could like, admire & love another human being more than I do right now Janet....thankyou for being you even though you did this 2 years ago I hope you stayed true to yourself and didn't let your demons define you...love and respect Cole x
I'm also an Alcoholic. I'm so glad that I ran into your video. I've been struggling with it for some time, I know the feeling. I've also thought about offing myself. But your video gives me hope and courage to keep living life.I think that you are brave for posting this video. Thank You đ
The fact you can talk about it so openly is most inspiring.
I have a relative who's an alcoholic, and it truly destroyed her life, so I know just how bad alcoholism can get.
Bravo to you for fighting and taking on it head on, you're such a strong brave person.
As I sit here incredibly hungover. I loved your message. I am broken right now. I have screwed up so many things due to alcohol. Your story gives me hope. I cry along with you because I relate to you so much. I am powerless over alcohol. Thank you for being you and giving us all hope.
Oh same alcohol ruined my career my relationship with my boyfriend and my health
I really hope that you are better now I am hung over right now
just saw this...I'm 3 years sober, hope you are ok...
You're a very strong young lady Janet. You've faced a lot of demons in your young life but guess who's winning. You are. I also started young. Had my first drink (in a bar) at the age of 15. Just after I turned 20 my spouse gave me an ultimatum. Give up the booze or give up my spouse and the kids. I chose the later. 45 years sober and I don't regret a minute of it. I learned very quickly that I had to take it one day at a time. I sometimes reflect on my past and that helps to keep me on the straight and narrow. Be true to yourself Janet. Use your past experience to draw strength from. Take it one day at a time and stay strong.
Hi Janet...I remember you from the X Factor and you sang, "Your Song" by Elton John. I am an alcoholic and have been sober for almost 23 years now!!! It was the best decision I ever made...I went cold turkey!!! I would drink until I blacked out so many times that I can't even remember and also tried to off myself a couple of times, just so the pain would go away!
You have so many "sisters" and "brothers" who know exactly what you went through and maybe some still are. I just take one day at a time...it's all you can do! I am so so proud of you to have the courage to share your story because it is so hard to admit! I love ya girl!
I'd like to thank you for posting this video. After many years of struggling with drug and alcohol addiction, your story inspired me to clean up. I sat here, watching this video, with tears streaming down my face as I watched and really listened. I was lucky, though. My rock bottoms were padded. I've had one friend continually catch me as I fell. My hardest fall was when I dropped over $30,000 on drugs, booze, and a little food in less than 4 months. When i was evicted from my apartment, that friend was there to put me up in their shop. Helped me find a job. That wasn't enough to make me want to, or realise that I should, quit. But, watching your open, sincere, and candid video stopped me in my tracks. I've now been sober for around two months. This is the longest I've gone without being out of my head on something or another. So thank you, Janet, for being the other hand that helped me out of my Hell. For that, you'll always be 'the other woman," lol.
congratulations on being sober for 2 months!! đ i hope your recovery keeps going wellđ
It's truly amazing to read so many comments from those amazing people like yourself who are touched by Janet's story đ€ Take care of you and LIVE YOUR CLEAN LIFE!
Wow, Janet, thx so much for telling your story. I first saw you 5 days ago when I started watching x factor reruns. Then I googled you tube videos of you because I'm an instant fan of yours. Thank you so much for your talent. But my god am I grateful when I came across this video...Today I celebrate 1 year clean from meth and I happen to choose AA as my home of recovery as well! I was a suicidal mess 1 short year ago. I'm grateful for the AA rooms, for being in trauma therapy the past 8 mths, Dharma recovery, ACOAmtgs, family support and holding daily gratitude in the present moment so that the past and future don't take me off my square. Also someone in a MTG the other day said " you can keep getting 90 days, use, get 90 days, use, etc but you'll never know what 91 days clean/sober feels like...it clicked...hence I'm now coming up on a yr for the first time in over 2 decades. Also I could never sit still long enough sober with the discomfort of my traumas without reverting back into relapsing by using to cope with PTSD and dissociation but thanks to alot of intense work in trauma therapy (first time in therapy)I no longer have the need to run from myself. I fucking love unpeeling the onion and no longer live in fear. I can't express the gratitude I have for what I have today and none of it is measured in material possessions for I live in a recovery house and work 2 jobs and literally left rehab with a suitcase of clothes. This past year so far has been hard but so worthwhile. If anyone reading this is struggling, all I can say is Don't Give Up! My first week I wanted nothing but the pain to end (suicidal) and now I'm thriving and independent and plugged in. If you need an ear to bend I'm a non judgemental friend here for anyone in need, msg me anytime, day or night. And Janet, you are inspiration through and through!
As a freind of Bills, thank-you. I couldn't make a meeting tonight, but you certainly took care of that for me. You helped to keep me sober by sharing your experience , strength and hope.
@Robert Congratulations I know it wasn't easy
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I am impressed Janet. I was drinking like an alcoholic at 20, but continued on for 15 years. Now have 13 years sober, and couldnât be happier. Good on you Janet, for dealing with your addiction and for your courageous honesty!
Doesn't have an addiction. She's just looking for attention to sell some books and music. Typical narcissist
I respect you for being so honest, especially to yourself.
Thank you Ellie! â€ïžâ€ïž
Janet Devlin â€ïžâ€ïžâ€ïž
You too need should meet up & have a drink! đ€·ââïž
@@basementboutiques8617 what an idiotic thing to say to an alike. Do you realise that this addiction kills Fool
@@elliemarsh1 I hope you got the underlying message which is donât drink. Did you?
Thank you so so much for your honesty, we all think no one gets it, but that darkness stops when we recognize there are other amazing people suffering and struggling, Its openness like this that truly helps people (including myself) that are suffering from alcoholism and addiction. Everyone needs to know they are never truly alone. Thank you.
@Janet Devlin I have worked with drug/alcohol recovery in the states, and have been in my own pits of despair. I am also a huge fan of yours, and love your music. You have encouraged me many times when I needed it. I want you to know, that you are amazing. You have many people who love you. You have a wonderful spirit, and voice. Millions have been impacted by you(and I am one of them). I just want you to know that you are special, and lovely, and have people in your life who truly care about you. I believe in you, and in your victory in the depths of your struggles. "It is in our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light." Thank you for your heart and your life and the joy you have brought to mine.
Your voice broke my heart all them years ago. And once again im reduced to a tear but i promise you your voice is just as loud and the day i first heard an angle sing live on tv. And ive chased and look for voices like yours and it can not only be heard through your music and voice . Live isn't that we see. Life isn't what we chase it's a dream state of mind. A pint glass half full to float in andpainfully have to have no escape. Reality hurt reality is truth reality is a beautiful talented young lady with just a dream telling us shes human. Today i realised the brightest star ive ever seen shine is just as human as me. X
I don't think you realize how much you've helped many who are in dark spots and haven't figured out how to get out. This video is HUGE & IMPACTFUL and the number of broken lives its touched, and hopefully helped, is probably more than we all realize. I'm sure it hurts to go back to those dark days but, when you do, you offer many a light at the end of the tunnel that wasn't previously there. Kudos to you, Janet, and may God bless you. đ
So very true!
Dear Janet
This is the first time i have watch your videos because i loved your voice. But when i watched and heard you talk about your problem, I was so moved by your honesty..
I lost my dear Wife in 2017 after 43 years of marriage, and when you fined your now alone and with no one to talk to or hold , it is so easy to hide ones sadness and hurt inside a bottle.
I do not consider myself a alcoholic.? But i think one could easily become one. I do have a glass each night prior to going to bed but only at that time. You are an inspiration and you deserve as much love and happiness that God can bestow on you. Thank You
Alcohol can be such a draining drug; been a chronic drinker for a decade now. I've always associated my drinking with boredom and emotional distress. Been working on it for years and been 6 month sober. Thanks for for sharing! You are a very strong woman.
I see people talking shit about her, but she is speaking from her heart. She's being honest, not trying hide anything. Hell yeah you can be an alcoholic and addict at any age. There's no time limit on it. I think she's awesome! I know that many people that hear her feel the same exact way and it helps them to hear it. Thanks for sharing Janet!!
Iâve been trying to comment for the past hour I just canât find the words I need. Iâve always struggled to talk about this subject, my grandad died because he drunk so much his liver started to fail. Iâve been there on the sideline just watching and hoping my friend would stop drinking. Iâd try and talk to them but majority of the time Iâd get ignored theyâd continue the only thing I could do was to be there.
I need you to know that I donât see you in a different light, my opinion of you hasnât changed I still think youâre a bloody goofball and I fucking love and care about you to the moon and back! You can throw as many confessions as you want me at me and Iâm still going to be there! We learn from our past and youâre not that person anymore and Iâm so fucking proud of you. Youâre one of the most amazing people I know genuinely youâre fantastic and brave and so so strong mate I could compliment you all day but I know you ainât good with compliments so Iâll shh now. Thanks for saving me. đ
Beautifully said Jess.đ
totally understand that!
I just discovered you! I love that you shared your story. I got sober when I was 26 In 1991. I'm a fan and bigger fan now that I know you're one of us! Hang in there. God speed in your recovery
Hi Janet...Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am sure it was very difficult to explain to others something so very personal. My mother died at 53 from alcoholism, and my sister died at 46. You are a beautiful woman, inside and out! Never doubt how wonderful you are! You are an amazing person! Every day, I miss my Mother and Sister. It is the worst feeling to have tried to save them from themselves, and failed. Please, never put that burden on your family. You have a long life ahead of you. Find something silly to direct your addictive tendencies, something that is not a health risk to you. Maybe it's video games...maybe charity work, whatever interests you, and that you could become addicted to. As long as you have some addiction, it will feed that need you have deep inside of you. We love you, and want you in our lives until our dying days. I want to see you on the stage when I am 90, happy and healthy.... Laurie
Hi Janet I'm a a drug addict I have been clean for a month and your honesty has been really refreshing and has helped me in so many ways! Thanks and I am now addicted to your voice and your smile! Thanks again!
âIt isnât comfortable but itâs familiar.â That is so real. Iâm very familiar with that voice and itâs taken me to some bad places. Havenât had a drink in almost a year and a half. I feel like I miss it but then get reminded why I donât when I see others struggling. â€ïž
I am 23 and became an alcoholic 2 years ago this has been the hardest and scariest thing that's ever happened to me thank you for being brave enough at such a young age. I only hope I can do the same one day.
Just stop. Itâs not hard. Save your money to buy you some clothes or something. Why would you even want to buy alcohol?
@@thehourglassfan3515 itâs not that easy, if sheâs been drinking for 2 years, her body will withdrawal and Iâm sure she has experience with that if sheâs tried stopping. Addiction is a horrible freaking disease
Janet - you are such a sweet courageous "girl" - it is so touching that you dared to speak about the hardest years of your life and it is great that you dared to work hard and now dare to cry, to laugh, to be happy and sad and happy again and socialize without substances ... the darkness has been washed away with your decision to LOVE YOURSELF !! Move on, make music, love and embrace each single moment of your life ! ... THANK YOU, JANET ! ... many young people will take this open emotional revelation as a huge help for their own life and maybe can overcome their addiction too.
Proud of you! Youâre helping so many people đ
Universal Hobo thanks so so much lovely đđ
Being an alcoholic is not an easy thing to admit but you're helping so many people, I'm very proud of you
@@janetdevlin keep it up you look amazing and are amazing
@@janetdevlin I am a huge fan of yours and I am so far you have come
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My name is Jason. I understand your message. Filling a void. The emptiness within... We need to fill this void. But because the void is negative we seek a negative solution. I can explain more if you need. Good luck. From a friend.
12 years sober. Not alcohol but drugs. At the same age I was almost 21 when I went cold turkey and within 2 months I fell pregnant. And my son (now 11) saved my life so many times. He helped me through the dark times and the times I just wanted to go back not being sober. I think you are brave and beautiful and talented and I'm so happy for you and your sobriety đ€
Vox Spectris well done you đđ»đđ»xx
Congratulations on your sobriety!! â€ïžđđ»
Your maturity is amazing. A lot of people never get to your maturity level. I wish you the very best of what life has to offer.
I'm so glad to be sober after 22 years of drinking I am celebrating 1 year alcohol free Janet I never felt better I understand what you went through I appreciate you sharing your encouragement staying sober thanks for sharing stay strong đȘđ
I'm 42 years old and just realized I'm an alcoholic, thank you for your story!
No offense but are you Self diagnosing?
Sending random love , I don't know you but the fact that you are strong enough to understand such a thing about yourself tells me you are going to get rid of it !
@@Cvnt_blvnt no offense but it doesn't take a doctor to tell someone they're an alcoholic for them to know it.
Sara D yea ig ur right
@@Sara-gl8ue well said.
Well done Janet. I've been sober 26 years, and got sober when I was 27. Yes, I walked around with "a lot of inner pain". My soul was crying out for a different way. The sober life is that way. I've achieved so much that I never would have if I had continued drinking. Life isn't perfect, and never will be. The great thing is I can face it..with the help of others and accepting help and giving support too. Keep enjoying this life..the only one we have.
You are a blessing to others, Janet. You are a beautiful, courageous human being. â€ïž
All the very best wishes! Bravo!
Oh Janet, i remember seeing you on the X Factor, and then i didn't know that you became an Alcoholic. You were so adorable on the Show at your audition, then they tried to change you. I don't have an addiction to anything but my Grandad was an Alcoholic and my Mum drank too.
I admire your bravery in dealing with your Alcoholism.
You made me cry watching your video. Keep on fighting. Sending my love and best wishes. â€
My heart... My dad died 2 years ago, he was an alcoholic. I never got to grow a relationship with him, but I miss him, and I needed and need him everyday of my life. It is way more destructive than people think...Keep up with the good work, you have a beautiful soul and I wish you the best in life, grab it and live it †i loved your video.
Iâve watched so many similar videos to this and read so many articles online.. trying to understand what my husband has been going through.. trying to make sense of how he can go AWOL and drink for days. Youâre the first person to put it into the right words to click in my head. To sound so similar to what it seems he has been through. Heâs not the best with words. Thank you.
I'm so sorry to hear about your husband! I hope he finds it within himself to get sober. Have you considered attending an AL-anon meeting? Just an idea. I've heard good things but I've obviously never been.
I hope you're okay lovely x
WOW! Janet - thank you for sharing and being open, honest and venerable about your humanity and struggles. Listening to you from here in Cape Town, and being a fan, loving your music, I am really touched and moved by your life's storey. You have been blessed and gifted with such an amazing voice - you are truly a beautiful person and don't ever forget that. My prayer is that you stay strong and as the song goes "look up child" there is hope and help from above.
We love to have you here, so you are not alowed to leave!
Janet this is incredibly raw. We all struggle, we all fail, but it is how we rise. Your struggle is but one step of your journey, and though i am sorry to hear you went through it. I am happy to hear you are rising and rising strong. Keep the strength. The journey is in eb and flow, godspeed.
Everyone has their own personal issues but truthfully and honestly, you are an extremely talented person and would love to see you get further in the future. â€ïžâ€ïž
Sisters Gossip thank you so much đ„șđ
I love the fact that you can openly talk about your subject. It shows a real strength of character we live you for your honesty and your beautiful voice
Bless you Janet! I was so moved hearing your journey to overcome this addiction, gave me so much hope that addiction can be won by having support and understanding from people who loves you. You are a young, beautiful, smart girl your future will be bright!
I'm a paramedic. The majority of addicts I attend started in their late teens and early twenties. One young man always stays in my mind and I think of him often, I hope he has got the help he needed to start defeating his demons, he was close to death when I met him. But it's surprising the amount of young alcoholics there are.
This is one of the most human video I've seen on the Internet.
Thank you and well done Janet.
Love you and kiss you.
All the best for the future.
Wow. This is so powerful. Thank you for sharing. I'm blown away. I hope you continue to good and great things
This is so strong and so real, and it shows such confidence in a person to share it. I'm thoroughly impressed by your insight and your strength to combat the addiction. Sharing a story like this is like stripping down naked, it shows the real person with every imperfections and flaws we have and it is one of the hardest things to do. Stay strong. Stay real. Stay sober.
My favorite thing in the world about this girl is how true she is. She's real. Even on AGT there is a clip of the show pepe asking her to change so more people will like her and she refused. She said (paraphrasing) "If they don't like me that's fine. That's their opinion. I'm here for the music." Since then I have always loved everything she's done. She's open about her sexuality. And her struggles. And with all of them she makes sure it comes from her. That way if it's seen elsewhere it's already old news. Also if it's from her it's the truth. You can't twist her story if she's the one giving it. All of that rolled into one makes her, in my humble opinion, far better than most of the musicians and artist of her age. We need more of this.
All things considered, I definitely wouldnât see this as anything to be ashamed of.
Thank you Bryony! â€ïžâ€ïž
randy johnson, people find different ways of coping.
yea it is a disease, but i am ashamed of my addiction to meth. been clean off of it for about half a year now. but its its something to be taken as a learning point and to help others find recovery from as well. either it be from alcoholism or drugs. the cravings that hit us is the same regardless. we are able to show them that there is hope and that they can get into recovery as well.
Gothic Phoenix addictions come in many shapes and sizes. Itâs hard to let go of something sometimes. Keep at it! For yourself more than anything, prove who you can become.
Thankyou for sharing! I've been an alcoholic/addict for over 20 years. Got clean here and there and although my mental health is ok i'm drinking and scared about the future, Loved watching this and connecting to my past. Best of luck for the future x
I appreciate your testimony. I also came from an alcoholic affected family. I can relate to your early addiction. I watched your audition 10 years ago. I thought about you today and here you are. Thank you for being so open. You are such a blessing girl! Please keep shining! Never change only for the better. Thank you once again. I bless you in your life and pursuits.
So this is the second time watching this. Janet, thank you for coming out with this video. Despite the sadness of this, and the intensity of the video, it's made me realise something. I'm an addict too... Your videos always give me an awakening. Thank you for being you, thank you for sharing the awesome you alongside the sad bits. I love you so much, and know that I (along with all your followers, friends and family) will be here to support you through it all.
Hi Janet, I'm a guy who is 28 years old and I'm from the Czech Republic. My english is not so good to I could express everything what I would want to say. Anyway I'm going to try it and I hope you will understand it. At the beginning of the comment I have to say I follow you since X factor performance. You are incredibly talented and beautiful girl with awesome voice. Each of us may have a problem. The most important thing is admitting of the problem to yourself. Then you should face to the problem even with your loved ones. It's not a reason to shy, but it's the moment when you realize you are not alone, you have an option to solve your problem with someone who is able to help, because they love you. Success of this is - not be a hero, but to beat the problem. I appreciate that you have decided to share your experience with us. That's not easy at all. We are able to face to anything until we die. It's not easy to understand your vlogs. Your accent is hard to me, but it doesn't matter. I understood what's going on and that's why I decided to support you. I am so sorry about your experience. I love you as a singer. I wish you to stay strong. Never give up â„
Filip NÄmec Your English is perfect. Donât put yourself down!
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@@richiedoc7208 Thank you! :)
@@GOLDmartinaGOLD DÄkuji :)
@@richiedoc7208 Yes I agree! (:
hey Janet. i want to say thanks so much for this video and helping whoever is out there with this bad addiction. im so glad you have pulled through and are living the dream. My dad struggled with Alcoholism around the same age as you up until i was around 4 or 5 years old. the night that he finally woke up and saw that he had to stop and go find help was when he accidently crushed my pinky in a door. i was fine, just some scars that i still have to this day. but i feel like its a good reminder on how great my dad is for giving up his addiction so he could be the best dad he could be. Im 37 now so that tells u how long hes been sober for and im so proud of you for being able to do the same for yourself!. i also just lost a good friend last year from Alcoholism and i feel if i found this video when you released it, it could have helped him and he would still be here today. he was so lost for many years bc of the loss of his father to alcoholism he just started to drink his life away and no matter how much others tried to help him he couldnt get away from it and he was a musician like yourself. he was an amazing guitarist and had such a great talent and heart for music. i love what ive seen of you so far and hope you continue to have an amazing life! i just found you from an Ad on facebook last week and youve already made a big impression on me.
Janet, thank you so much for this video. It is difficult for most of us to imagine the difficulties that come with success at such a young age. As a person who struggles with alcoholism, I am proud of your hard work and your success. Stay strong and enjoy your life. I am a much older man who enjoyed youth in the 1960's. As I listened to your story, I thought of the successful performers who were lost to drugs during those years. I loved your first performance on the X Factor. I've enjoyed your performances since. I am so glad you are now free from the demon that you fought for those years. Thank you for sharing. I'm having a happier day because of your voice.
You look like Merida on BRAVE
Lily Horsburgh haha thanks đđ
Can come save me anyday đ đ
And Saoirse Ronan lol
Iâm sure someone says this every video
I've looked this a couple of times and every single one of them I had tears in my eyes..So proud of you!And your audition, years ago in X factor still in my top 3 ever!Keep going, girl! Often life is hard, and not fair but we have it just once and that's the beauty of it..
Hi Janet, I'm a big fan of yours since 2011 and never could have guessed what you were going through. I'm so impressed by how you have dealt with everything that you have been through. Don't apologise for anything! Sharing your story is such a powerful thing to have done.
I am really sorry you had to go through that janet to come out better in the end. seeing you cry just makes me want to give you a great big hug! hope you will make your dreams come true.
My God, I'm just bawling my eyes out. Everything you just said touched me because I can see how much pain you've been through and most importantly I can tell you understand hopelessness. It's hard to find people who know exactly how it feels to be in a pit and see no way out. And want no way out because they just want the pain to end. That's where I am right now and I live each day not knowing if I'll live long enough to find that joy & purpose within but you inspire that bit of hope left in me. You're honestly so special and I'm so glad you made this video. Love from Canada. :)
The strength it took to sit and be that honest. I'm in awe of you. What you've been through... how you have pulled yourself back and hopefully help people in the same position. Thank you for keeping on keeping on!!
Really proud of you for being so honest. Youâre such an amazing person
I " LOVE YOU",my sister! I know it sounds strange coming from a stranger but, I truly do! If you could feel this feeling I feel, you would feel unexplainably amazing!! So, I am sending you these vibes and praying that God will deliver them to the deepest part of your soul!!! You are so much more than what you know! You have just been lost. I pray for your path to shine bright for you to follow unmistakably! Thank you, my sister, for your rawness, for your truthfullness!!! May the God of all creation put a burning light in your heart! Shine girl, shine!
I'm so proud of you. I was going to come in here with a joke of you being Irish and an alcoholic but then your honesty just hit me, your emotion was so hard to listen to in a sentimental way. You should be so proud of yourself for speaking about this. You didn't owe anyone this story and yet you told it, that takes huge guts! You are so so stunning and I could listen to you talk all day! Your smile is captivating and I wish you all the best! I hope you have the support you need to keep on a healthy road.
The fact that being on TV started off the whole makes me think that fame isn't a thing to crave at the end of the day. Anyway, I love the video and your courage to address the whole thing. KEEP GOING, YOU ROCK! â€ïž
That took balls girl.
Respect.
Thank you for sharing your truth with the entire platform.
Knowing you have an issue, admitting the problem as then actually asking for help... that takes A LOT of courage & strength.
The getting sober can be easy, STAYING SOBER is a daily battle. Some days are harder and then there are those days that seem just so easy.
But Iâm very proud of you not just for standing up and getting yourself help... But the fact that youâre willing to share it with people from literally all over the world. Your strength is amazing.
Iâve been sober for 8yrs now myself. Itâs the hardest thing Iâve ever done but also the most rewarding thing Iâve ever had to do
I remember seeing you on tv and I was completely enchanted. I thought your shyness was charming, not weak (and I still don't think of you as weak, I just realised you thought of yourself that way and you're not). I've suffered with anxiety and I know how that feels. I'm sorry that you were alone and that didn't get the right help back then. But you're still young and it's wonderful that you're sharing this now and helping others with your story
why am i only seeing this now, and ohmygosh you literally havent aged. and thanks for sharing. i love what you said, "The pain isnât comfortable its familiar" it totally sucks. i battle with mental health and anger issues, but i know that every day i have to choose to be happy knowing my mind will take over, and that sucks but choosing to be happy or at least starting your day right helps. We love you Janet, excited for where your music will take you now, now that its pure you and in a stable mindset
Thank you so much for giving us a voice. Alcohol is absolutely deadly for some of us. It's great to see somebody that can reach so many people being so honest. I relate in every way to how you were feeling. I wish the best in your sobriety, can't imagine the pressures you face.
Dear Janet,
Thanks for your openness in sharing your story, it's inspiring.
I have recently started going to AA and intend to go to one or two other 12-step programmes to overcome various addiction. Every time I hear another person talking about their journey, I am motivated to press on.
I wish you all the best in all your endeavours, as well as love, joy and peace in your life.