I appreciate all the love. Y'all are the best! ❤️ Here's an update video of life after Ayahuasca along with tips for integration! czcams.com/video/DQmkvErKvUs/video.html For those interested in embarking on their own Ayahuasca Journey, I offer private virtual 1:1 Ayahuasca Coaching to help prepare for your first ceremony. This also includes Post Ceremony Integration Coaching to help you integrate your experience more deeply and continue the momentum of your spiritual development. Click this link below to book a consultation: www.momentswithz.com/spiritual-integration Much love 💛
That was a very powerful story, and I hope you don't feel bad about needing to be restrained, it seems you required special processing to make it all better!
@@chaimbrownbasketball4730 I appreciate the concern 🙂 I don't feel bad about the restrain. It saved me from severely hurting myself. The facilitators knew exactly what they were doing thankfully 🙂❤️
You are not a crybaby; you are in touch with very real, very healthy, and very normal emotions. Thank you for telling your experience. This was a profound experience, even if it was terrifying at the time. Congratulations on your freedom ❤
I had an Ayahuasca experience three weeks ago that took me literally into hell and back. Ten years or so ago I’d had several and they were all good experiences. This time, I asked for enlightenment and boy did I get it. But, just when I thought I couldn’t take anymore I called out, God help me, and I was out. I was God, breathing out the Universe. What an experience. I was enlightened all right. One day, soon I hope, I’ll make a video on my experience. By the way, it’s never too late, I’m 72 and you don’t have to go all the way to Peru either. Mine were all in the UK.
That is so great to hear. I am in the UK too and have managed to attend ten different retreats here. I have thankfully so far not been to hell but have had extremely difficult and intense experiences but guess the full on terror is yet to come. May I ask whereabouts you drank? Was it in Ireland?
Thank you all so much for taking the time to listen to me share this experience. The support and responses I've gotten so far has been incredible. Thank you so much for the support. You guys are the ones that give me continual affirmation that I am on the right path and to continue to share myself. I hope this has aided you on your own journey towards healing in some way. I'm looking forward to producing more content as we embark on this journey together
This is hands down one of the BEST Ayahuasca stories I've ever heard. Jesus Christ, you've been through so much. From going to one of the most hellish experiences to one that transcends the cosmos. God bless you man, you have a purpose and definitely deserve a lot of love and light!:) ♥️
I laughed, cried, and felt incredibly happy while watching this video. Thank you for sharing your experience Zhi and for being so raw and honest! Sending you love and wishing us all a bit of healing from our own demons❤️
You just described my EXACT second night ceremony I just finished last night. I’ve been laying here absolutely traumatized looking for answers, and your mirrored experience just offered that for me. And the encouragement to reach out and the help will be there. Thank you, brother.
I'm so glad you found the answer you were looking for. Take it one moment at a time. This is not an easy journey but it's very much worth it. Your clarity and peace is coming. It's going to be ok my dear sister 🫂 Feel free to email me at hello@momentswithz.com if you have any questions or need some support, you are not alone in this 💛
You are such a beautiful soul! This is an incredible presentation and I learned even more about what happened that night in the jungle. We were all rooting you on and I’m so glad it became a positive experience in the end. Thank you for acknowledging me, hugging you the next morning was healing for me, too. I am lucky to call you “friend” and I look forward to the day that I can hug you again in person. Love and light, Donna ❤️
Past weekend was my first experience with this intelligent medicine… 2 days of Aya.. The human vocabulary does no justice to this profound life changing experience… Thank you for this video and I completely understand and are so proud of you brother 🙏🏼 Corazon Medecina ❤️
I love that you hold power to being vulnerable instead of seeing it as a weakness. You speak for those who aren’t ready to use their voices yet, thank you for creating a safe space on your channel for people to share their thoughts. 🙏🏼
Thank you for taking the time to listen to my experience Lan :) You've always been a relentless supporter and it serves as a constant reminder for me to believe in myself. Love you so much Lan
I’m glad you made this channel Zhi, you’re such an articulate storyteller and I’m glad you’re sharing your journey and experience. As someone who also lost their mind in the jungle sometimes I fear I didn’t dive deep enough, like Shantanu said - There’s always more. Love you man.
I miss you a ton Andrew :) Thanks for your kind words! No need to fear not diving deep enough. Everyone heals in different ways and at a different pace. You dove as deep as you needed to that week in the jungle. You will continue to heal at a rate perfectly suitable for you. I promise
As they say in AA, everyone's rock bottom is different. Some people have a very high bottom and others' bottom is much deeper. Also, trust yourself and look at it as a feedback that you don't need to beat yourself up for not going deeper ie. falling short in some way (incorrect core belief). You actually learned an important lesson that you have agency and your body/mind is allowed to choose how far to go and how comfortable it needs to be for the moment. Trauma has taught us overwhelm outside of our control. This is a pattern/vasana/neural pathway of trauma. If there is indeed any more depth to come, then there will be another time when you have integrated that depth level and can go deeper. Or maybe the depth was an illusion and you are self-gaslighting as you have learned/been conditioned to do. Another learned trauma thought/behavior pattern/vasana. Usually we feel this way (incomplete) until we learn to trust ourselves and we develop unconditional self acceptance that we are ok as is, accept self with flaws and all and this is where release/freedom lies (a bit counter-intuitive and no straight logic to it).
I can relate to the 'ugly' self-talk. Allow me to say, from one brother to another, you're a handsome fella....outwardly and inwardly. Thank you for being vulnerable.
I have listened to a few of these stories but this is the first one where I felt like I was EXPERIENCING it WITH him...and indeed, his blockages are similar to mine. It was personal yes, but somehow listening to his story transformed ME to a degree. Amazing and powerful stuff, to share our stories. And this unusual sense of feeling connected to you now. Wow. Thank you for sharing yours Zhi!
That was such a beautiful story! I've done ayahuasca once before and I definitely went trough my version of hell. I literally stopped being Bipolar II after that, no symptoms since 3 years. I still have some stuckness inside me, I feel like generational trauma is deeply coded in me. I actually was shown it the last time I did that. I was taken to my DNA which was also at the same time the akashic records. But I was just shown that, I was yet not ready to go trough that though. I am now going again in the next few days, I feel I'm being called back as I've gotten strong enough to purge and to do healing work on my lineage. I know already that this time is going to be very hard. But I'm so ready and your video boosted this feeling!
Thank you for sharing. Healing takes a lot of work but I know you're strong. On the other side of healing, is true freedom. I believe in you. Sending you much love and support as you continue your journey ❤
This video deserves more recognition. I don't often catch feelings watching or listening to trip reports but I did during yours. Thank you for sharing, brother. Glad you are doing good now!
Thank you so much for your kind words and support brother. It means a great deal to me that you took the time to listen to my experience. I'm wishing you all the love ❤️
Thank you for sharing your experience! You are a true warrior. Only the ones that been through a rough medicine trip will understand. I too had a horrible experience. But today I feel so care free
You're very welcome. Deep healing requires a lot of work but on the other side of that work is a life full of joy and freedom. I'm so happy to hear you're feeling carefree today ❤️
I feel like I had a similar experience.. Wish I was in a controlled environment.. But this hits home and I've tried to deal with it by myself for years.. More and more I hear similar experience's..Giving up and surrendering was the relief button.. Thank you for sharing..
That was an amazing story and beautifully told. Thanks for being super transparent and honest, and sharing as much as you can. It's a good reminder to the rest of us in our daily life. Going with the flow of the river. Living in the moment. Wow when spirit said "you are my child" ... Dang I felt tingles.
Donna: the power of a hug is incredible. Stop with the 2 second hug and actually give a 1 minute hug. During that minute, you go through many emotions and want to let go but towards the last 15 seconds, you don’t want to let go anymore. You’re filled with peace
What an inspiring story youve told. It really shows that we are not alone with our insecurities and that we can choose love in every moment if we really want to ❤💙 Bless your soul
I takes a great part of courage and selflessness to share such a deep experience. You are a beautiful person, Z. Stay awesome and be happy, you deserve it 💙
This is like going to a psychologist but a bit more extreme and you know the knowledge was already in you.Thanks man keep being yourself and lots of love from Belgium.❤
Das ist wirklich interessant. Das diese schlechten Erfahrungen mit Ayahuasca oder Psychedelika oftmals damit zusammenhängen, dass Leute nicht loslassen können oder das ganze kontrollieren wollen und dagegen ankämpfen. Der Moment wo man aufgibt und das akzeptiert bzw. hinnimmt, führt dazu das die Erfahrung sich ins Gegenteil umkehrt. Das habe ich jetzt schon öfter gelesen oder gehört. Wirklich faszinierend. Finde es toll das du deine Erfahrung damit so offen teilen kannst und das ganze so sehen kannst, dass das "schlechte" der Erfahrung seinen Sinn gehabt hatte, welcher ja dann zu diesen Gefühl der Einheit und Frieden geführt hatte. Wundervoll❤
Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. As a young man I drank the medicine at age 19 and proceeded to weep for 6 hours straight. It was so purifying and I felt the great spirit loving me, and showing how I am so hard on my self. And how I need to love myself. I have always been afraid of that second ceremony, since I only had the poor unity to sit with it one night… but this video has prepared me and helped remind me that I will experience what I need to heal myself and I will be able to handle what ever the medicine puts me through, as well as reminding me of the lessons I was given during my last experience.
Proud of you for sharing your story with everyone and creating this channel, Zhi! Enjoyed hearing about your experience for the second time and glad you're finally able to live the life of freedom you wanted. Your story and insights were inspirational
This video was absolutely amazing! Thank you for sharing your experience on ayahuasca. There was so much bravery, honesty and vulnerability throughout this video. I hope one day to get to this level of being healed.
What a great privilege to hear this story, I found it very reassuring as I know what horrors lay inside me. I have been to around ten different aya retreats and mother aya is so incredible at getting what one receives exactly right, which sometimes feels so unbearable in intense. It has amazed me that my own internal fears & phobias haven't surfaced yet to the point of panic attack, which I know they might do but I trust the medicine, or at least i've learned more to now. I think she is incredibly wise and I will get this terror stuff when I am ready to heal it but I wanted to say thank you for sharing as it does help to hear that one can get through this intense hell and come out the other side for us that know it is to come.
"I trust the medicine" That's going to serve you well. Trust yourself, trust the medicine, trust your personal process. Everything is going to be ok :) Thank you for sharing your experience 💛
@@MomentsWithZhi Thank you, I really received that into my body from your comment. It is indeed miraculous stuff and has already helped me beyond measure.
I'm so happy to hear you feel the calling. No at easy journey but it's very rewarding. Here's a video I made that gives an update of my life after ayahuasca along with tips on how to effectively integrate the experience afterwards. I would recommend giving it a watch so you can be perfectly equipped for life after the experience :) czcams.com/video/DQmkvErKvUs/video.html Feel free to reach out with any questions, hello@momentswithz.com
Yes! Being able to release and express emotions is powerful. It opens us up to feel and express deep love. Starting with and for ourselves and our inner children. Thank you for sharing. 🫶 It takes guts to be vulnerable. It’s a superpower. I cried for hours in my first Ayajuasca journey. Then I spoke in tongues to the Universe, like we were old friends, not understanding, yet understanding every foreign word coming out of my mouth. Maybe I was a baby again, looking into the eyes of God. I felt deep love…
Hi Zhi. Thank you for this video 🙏🥰 I cried with you. What an experience, I did Ayahuasca this May, and it was a great healing experienxe for me, I also "hear" her call, so i'm going back in to weeks. Thank's again for you, and your channel❤❤
Your story gave me chills. My Aya experience was traumatic too so I know exactly what you mean by how scared you were to the point you wanted to kill yourself. I went crazy in the experience too. I LOST it all. I thought the same things you thought about going all the way to Peru to go nuts and that I'll be in that state forever and live out the rest of my life in the psych ward. I went through it 😪. I'm thankful for what Mother Aya has done for me but I'm deathly afraid to take it again. Still traumatized 4 years later 🤦🏽♀️
Wow it looks like there's a lot of parallels between our experiences. With such a scary experience, I'm curious, what were you able to take away from it?
@@MomentsWithZhi I learned alot from the experience with Mother Aya. I took it 4 times but the last day of it was the nightmarish one. I learned that I have alot of fears that I have to work through in order to grow and do what I came here to do. Going crazy in the experience gave me a sense of calmness and peace in this reality I'm living now where I don't seem so crazy. I learned to quiet my mind more. I worry less and try to live in the present more. I learned that there is so much I don't know and that's ok. I learned that it's ok to say "I don't know" where as before I would try to explain everything even if I wasn't sure of it. So may lessons learned during those few days and nights in the jungle.
I appreciate all the love. Y'all are the best! ❤️
Here's an update video of life after Ayahuasca along with tips for integration!
czcams.com/video/DQmkvErKvUs/video.html
For those interested in embarking on their own Ayahuasca Journey, I offer private virtual 1:1 Ayahuasca Coaching to help prepare for your first ceremony.
This also includes Post Ceremony Integration Coaching to help you integrate your experience more deeply and continue the momentum of your spiritual development.
Click this link below to book a consultation:
www.momentswithz.com/spiritual-integration
Much love 💛
This has to be the best Ayahuasca story I’ve ever listened to absolutely amazing!
Thank you, I'm happy to share ❤️
@@MomentsWithZhi Thank you for sharing my friend, I'm so grateful for you sharing this story!
@@SkateboardingMotivator Thank you for listening my friend 😊
Always happy to share 🙏❤️
That was a very powerful story, and I hope you don't feel bad about needing to be restrained, it seems you required special processing to make it all better!
@@chaimbrownbasketball4730 I appreciate the concern 🙂
I don't feel bad about the restrain. It saved me from severely hurting myself. The facilitators knew exactly what they were doing thankfully 🙂❤️
You are not a crybaby; you are in touch with very real, very healthy, and very normal emotions. Thank you for telling your experience. This was a profound experience, even if it was terrifying at the time. Congratulations on your freedom ❤
I had an Ayahuasca experience three weeks ago that took me literally into hell and back. Ten years or so ago I’d had several and they were all good experiences. This time, I asked for enlightenment and boy did I get it. But, just when I thought I couldn’t take anymore I called out, God help me, and I was out. I was God, breathing out the Universe. What an experience. I was enlightened all right. One day, soon I hope, I’ll make a video on my experience. By the way, it’s never too late, I’m 72 and you don’t have to go all the way to Peru either. Mine were all in the UK.
I would love to hear about your experience. Please send me a link once you have your experience posted
That is so great to hear. I am in the UK too and have managed to attend ten different retreats here. I have thankfully so far not been to hell but have had extremely difficult and intense experiences but guess the full on terror is yet to come. May I ask whereabouts you drank? Was it in Ireland?
I’m from the uk , where about in uk
I hope you make that video!
Hi I am interested! Can I possibly send you a message? I am looking for retreats
Thank you all so much for taking the time to listen to me share this experience.
The support and responses I've gotten so far has been incredible.
Thank you so much for the support.
You guys are the ones that give me continual affirmation that I am on the right path and to continue to share myself.
I hope this has aided you on your own journey towards healing in some way. I'm looking forward to producing more content as we embark on this journey together
What a beautiful Spirit you are💓💓💓💓👍
@@AzzekaTheRealOne Thank you ❤️
Sending you much love! ❤️
Dude I can’t remember the last time I cried I’m 62 and your story was beautiful and made me cry
that's beautiful, I'm glad my story touched your heart :)
This is hands down one of the BEST Ayahuasca stories I've ever heard. Jesus Christ, you've been through so much. From going to one of the most hellish experiences to one that transcends the cosmos. God bless you man, you have a purpose and definitely deserve a lot of love and light!:) ♥️
Thank you, I genuinely appreciate that ❤️🙏🏻
@@MomentsWithZhi anytime!:)
I laughed, cried, and felt incredibly happy while watching this video. Thank you for sharing your experience Zhi and for being so raw and honest! Sending you love and wishing us all a bit of healing from our own demons❤️
Thank you for taking the time to watch the video Nancy.
Love you a ton!
DEEEEEP video
Same here 🫶
Literally crying here. Such a great aya story bro. So glad you found the freedom from your prison. We all need this. I'm finding it now too.
You just described my EXACT second night ceremony I just finished last night. I’ve been laying here absolutely traumatized looking for answers, and your mirrored experience just offered that for me. And the encouragement to reach out and the help will be there. Thank you, brother.
I'm so glad you found the answer you were looking for. Take it one moment at a time. This is not an easy journey but it's very much worth it. Your clarity and peace is coming. It's going to be ok my dear sister 🫂
Feel free to email me at hello@momentswithz.com if you have any questions or need some support, you are not alone in this 💛
Deep and vulnerable account of your experience. Much appreciated. You received exactly what you requested: Freedom from your mind. Lost and found.
You are such a beautiful soul! This is an incredible presentation and I learned even more about what happened that night in the jungle. We were all rooting you on and I’m so glad it became a positive experience in the end. Thank you for acknowledging me, hugging you the next morning was healing for me, too. I am lucky to call you “friend” and I look forward to the day that I can hug you again in person. Love and light, Donna ❤️
Hope you’re doing well Donna miss you ❤️
You're a beautiful soul.
I love you Donna
Past weekend was my first experience with this intelligent medicine…
2 days of Aya..
The human vocabulary does no justice to this profound life changing experience…
Thank you for this video and I completely understand and are so proud of you brother 🙏🏼
Corazon Medecina ❤️
That’s what you call Ego death/Ego dissolution buddy!! Such a beautiful story brother, thank you for this testimony 🙌🏼💙
Omg the shaman’s opinion is so amazing. My mom and I are both going to use it as the plant medicine has been calling us for years
I love that you hold power to being vulnerable instead of seeing it as a weakness. You speak for those who aren’t ready to use their voices yet, thank you for creating a safe space on your channel for people to share their thoughts. 🙏🏼
Thank you for taking the time to listen to my experience Lan :)
You've always been a relentless supporter and it serves as a constant reminder for me to believe in myself.
Love you so much Lan
I’m glad you made this channel Zhi, you’re such an articulate storyteller and I’m glad you’re sharing your journey and experience. As someone who also lost their mind in the jungle sometimes I fear I didn’t dive deep enough, like Shantanu said - There’s always more. Love you man.
I miss you a ton Andrew :)
Thanks for your kind words!
No need to fear not diving deep enough. Everyone heals in different ways and at a different pace. You dove as deep as you needed to that week in the jungle.
You will continue to heal at a rate perfectly suitable for you. I promise
As they say in AA, everyone's rock bottom is different. Some people have a very high bottom and others' bottom is much deeper.
Also, trust yourself and look at it as a feedback that you don't need to beat yourself up for not going deeper ie. falling short in some way (incorrect core belief).
You actually learned an important lesson that you have agency and your body/mind is allowed to choose how far to go and how comfortable it needs to be for the moment. Trauma has taught us overwhelm outside of our control. This is a pattern/vasana/neural pathway of trauma.
If there is indeed any more depth to come, then there will be another time when you have integrated that depth level and can go deeper. Or maybe the depth was an illusion and you are self-gaslighting as you have learned/been conditioned to do. Another learned trauma thought/behavior pattern/vasana.
Usually we feel this way (incomplete) until we learn to trust ourselves and we develop unconditional self acceptance that we are ok as is, accept self with flaws and all and this is where release/freedom lies (a bit counter-intuitive and no straight logic to it).
This is once of the most beautiful ayahuasca experiences I have ever heard. Beautifully told.
Thank you 🙂
Happy to share ❤️🙏
I can relate to the 'ugly' self-talk. Allow me to say, from one brother to another, you're a handsome fella....outwardly and inwardly. Thank you for being vulnerable.
Thank you, I appreciate you brother 😊❤️
Man, this video made me tear up when you talked about hugging that mother. Wow. Incredible.
You made me cry. Happy for you.
I have listened to a few of these stories but this is the first one where I felt like I was EXPERIENCING it WITH him...and indeed, his blockages are similar to mine. It was personal yes, but somehow listening to his story transformed ME to a degree. Amazing and powerful stuff, to share our stories. And this unusual sense of feeling connected to you now. Wow. Thank you for sharing yours Zhi!
My pleasure! Thank you for listening and I'm so happy to hear you got so much from it 😁💛
That was such a beautiful story! I've done ayahuasca once before and I definitely went trough my version of hell. I literally stopped being Bipolar II after that, no symptoms since 3 years. I still have some stuckness inside me, I feel like generational trauma is deeply coded in me. I actually was shown it the last time I did that. I was taken to my DNA which was also at the same time the akashic records. But I was just shown that, I was yet not ready to go trough that though. I am now going again in the next few days, I feel I'm being called back as I've gotten strong enough to purge and to do healing work on my lineage. I know already that this time is going to be very hard. But I'm so ready and your video boosted this feeling!
Thank you for sharing. Healing takes a lot of work but I know you're strong. On the other side of healing, is true freedom.
I believe in you. Sending you much love and support as you continue your journey ❤
Awe you are incredible! Way to invest in yourself. You are so strong. ♥️✨
This video deserves more recognition. I don't often catch feelings watching or listening to trip reports but I did during yours. Thank you for sharing, brother. Glad you are doing good now!
Thank you so much for your kind words and support brother. It means a great deal to me that you took the time to listen to my experience.
I'm wishing you all the love ❤️
support you in your experience and process Z. So brave
Thank you, I appreciate you 💛
Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your experience Zhi! You are an incredible source of inspiration to me. Love you lotsss
Thank you for taking the time to watch the video Lisa. I hope it helped in some small way :)
Love you a ton
Thank you so much for being so open and honest.
This was so powerful!
Thank you! You are a beautiful human being 🙏🏽❤
You have me in tears. Thank you for sharing your story.
Absolutely. Incredible.
Thanks for sharing your experience.
Well done
Thank you so much for sharing 💚
Wow Z !! Thanks for sharing 🙏🏻
Thank you for sharing your experience ❤
Beautiful. Thank uou for sharing.
Thank you for sharing your experience! You are a true warrior. Only the ones that been through a rough medicine trip will understand. I too had a horrible experience. But today I feel so care free
You're very welcome. Deep healing requires a lot of work but on the other side of that work is a life full of joy and freedom.
I'm so happy to hear you're feeling carefree today ❤️
Oh man that was a crazy story ❤
You are and you will be fine! Thanks for sharing
Wow... strong resonance to your story 😊
Thank you for sharing!
Thank u for sharing this with us
Upvote brother, thanks for sharing!
I almost turned your story off when it went dark. I’m scheduled to go soon. I’m so glad I watched till the end. Very inspiring! Take care!
Thank you for watching it through. Sending you much love and strength on your journey ❤️
Thanks for sharing that was riveting. People who cry have a good heart. Be proud of it.
Thank you, I appreciate that. Genuinely :)
Is a beautiful testimony Zhi. Thank you for sharing
Awesome and beautiful story, thank you for sharing!
Am glad you exist and I had the chance to watch this. U touched my heart with your experience . ❤
I feel like I had a similar experience.. Wish I was in a controlled environment.. But this hits home and I've tried to deal with it by myself for years.. More and more I hear similar experience's..Giving up and surrendering was the relief button.. Thank you for sharing..
That was an amazing story and beautifully told. Thanks for being super transparent and honest, and sharing as much as you can. It's a good reminder to the rest of us in our daily life. Going with the flow of the river. Living in the moment. Wow when spirit said "you are my child" ... Dang I felt tingles.
Thanks for sharing. I appreciate it.
Only halfway through and this is an awesome report. I subbed!
I appreciate that 😁🤍
Donna: the power of a hug is incredible. Stop with the 2 second hug and actually give a 1 minute hug. During that minute, you go through many emotions and want to let go but towards the last 15 seconds, you don’t want to let go anymore. You’re filled with peace
Thank you for sharing. Love you!
Happy to share! Love you too 🙂
You’re doing/being exactly what you’re meant to do/be… much love brother
What an inspiring story youve told. It really shows that we are not alone with our insecurities and that we can choose love in every moment if we really want to ❤💙 Bless your soul
Thanks for your honesty and sharing. Much love and peace ❤
Thank you for sharing. You are amazing ❤
Thank you, I appreciate you 💛
Wow great video man ❤ 👏🏾
this made me cry. thank you so much for this. I've been judging myself for quite a long time
I takes a great part of courage and selflessness to share such a deep experience. You are a beautiful person, Z. Stay awesome and be happy, you deserve it 💙
Thank you for your story🙏🏽❤️
It's my pleasure ❤️😊🙏
It sheds light on your shadow
This is like going to a psychologist but a bit more extreme and you know the knowledge was already in you.Thanks man keep being yourself and lots of love from Belgium.❤
For sure, it was quite the intense experience.
The facilitators there described it as going through major surgery without anesthesia.
Appreciate you 💛
❤❤❤❤❤ You're inspiring, thank you ❤❤❤❤❤
Appreciate you ❤️❤️❤️
beautiful share. thank you
Your experience is beautiful! Thank you for sharing.
This was really awesome to watch. Thank you so much for sharing your experience. wow. Go Z!
Das ist wirklich interessant. Das diese schlechten Erfahrungen mit Ayahuasca oder Psychedelika oftmals damit zusammenhängen, dass Leute nicht loslassen können oder das ganze kontrollieren wollen und dagegen ankämpfen. Der Moment wo man aufgibt und das akzeptiert bzw. hinnimmt, führt dazu das die Erfahrung sich ins Gegenteil umkehrt. Das habe ich jetzt schon öfter gelesen oder gehört. Wirklich faszinierend.
Finde es toll das du deine Erfahrung damit so offen teilen kannst und das ganze so sehen kannst, dass das "schlechte" der Erfahrung seinen Sinn gehabt hatte, welcher ja dann zu diesen Gefühl der Einheit und Frieden geführt hatte. Wundervoll❤
I am 18 years old. This story and experience from you made me want to take this opportunity 🙏 Thank you and seriously thank you
Scrolled thru 5,000 videos today. This was the only one that had substance.
Brother, you are awesome! I resonate with you, thank you for sharing such a personal experience :) love from the UK
@@jacknottingham9492 thank you brother 🙏🏻💛
Thank you for sharing this. I had my first experience recently and it helped make sense of some of what happened. :)
Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. As a young man I drank the medicine at age 19 and proceeded to weep for 6 hours straight. It was so purifying and I felt the great spirit loving me, and showing how I am so hard on my self. And how I need to love myself.
I have always been afraid of that second ceremony, since I only had the poor unity to sit with it one night… but this video has prepared me and helped remind me that I will experience what I need to heal myself and I will be able to handle what ever the medicine puts me through, as well as reminding me of the lessons I was given during my last experience.
Thank you so much for this, you are amazing!!!!
Beautiful story❤ thanks for sharing❤
Proud of you for sharing your story with everyone and creating this channel, Zhi! Enjoyed hearing about your experience for the second time and glad you're finally able to live the life of freedom you wanted. Your story and insights were inspirational
Thank you so much for the support Dan
Neveer eeveer commented on a youtube video. And never felt a video so much than this. Wow. Gooooosebumbs!!!!! Sending you love man
I love you, you are amazing! This video is apart of MY HEALING
Thank you!
It's an honor to be a part of your healing ❤️❤️❤️
Thanks for sharing
Truly the BRAVEST are the most VULNERABLE! THANK YOU SO SO MUCH! YOU ARE INSPIRING AND EXQUISITE!
Thank you, I love and appreciate you 🙂💛
Your amazing bro
Beautiful soul!
Thank you! You're just as beautiful ❤️
What a beautiful story by a beautiful person. Thank you xx
Thank you ❤️❤️❤️
This video was absolutely amazing! Thank you for sharing your experience on ayahuasca. There was so much bravery, honesty and vulnerability throughout this video. I hope one day to get to this level of being healed.
What a great privilege to hear this story, I found it very reassuring as I know what horrors lay inside me. I have been to around ten different aya retreats and mother aya is so incredible at getting what one receives exactly right, which sometimes feels so unbearable in intense. It has amazed me that my own internal fears & phobias haven't surfaced yet to the point of panic attack, which I know they might do but I trust the medicine, or at least i've learned more to now. I think she is incredibly wise and I will get this terror stuff when I am ready to heal it but I wanted to say thank you for sharing as it does help to hear that one can get through this intense hell and come out the other side for us that know it is to come.
"I trust the medicine"
That's going to serve you well. Trust yourself, trust the medicine, trust your personal process. Everything is going to be ok :)
Thank you for sharing your experience 💛
@@MomentsWithZhi Thank you, I really received that into my body from your comment. It is indeed miraculous stuff and has already helped me beyond measure.
I cried with you. I haven't done Ayahuasca yet but it's calling. As hard and scary as it is I need it so much xx
I'm so happy to hear you feel the calling. No at easy journey but it's very rewarding. Here's a video I made that gives an update of my life after ayahuasca along with tips on how to effectively integrate the experience afterwards. I would recommend giving it a watch so you can be perfectly equipped for life after the experience :)
czcams.com/video/DQmkvErKvUs/video.html
Feel free to reach out with any questions,
hello@momentswithz.com
sending you love brother. great story.
Love received! Thank you, I appreciate you :)
Thanks for your open honesty and sharing. Blessings Always! LOL, and I Love the cat!
I appreciate you :)
Much respect, I needed to see this video, thank you.
Beautiful.
Thank you so much for sharing! ❤ you are amazing and so so strong 😊
Thank you 💛😊
Yes! Being able to release and express emotions is powerful. It opens us up to feel and express deep love. Starting with and for ourselves and our inner children. Thank you for sharing. 🫶
It takes guts to be vulnerable. It’s a superpower.
I cried for hours in my first Ayajuasca journey. Then I spoke in tongues to the Universe, like we were old friends, not understanding, yet understanding every foreign word coming out of my mouth. Maybe I was a baby again, looking into the eyes of God. I felt deep love…
Hi Zhi.
Thank you for this video 🙏🥰 I cried with you. What an experience, I did Ayahuasca this May, and it was a great healing experienxe for me, I also "hear" her call, so i'm going back in to weeks.
Thank's again for you, and your channel❤❤
Thank you for your comment, always a pleasure to meet another on this healing journey. I am wishing you love and joy 💛
Your story gave me chills. My Aya experience was traumatic too so I know exactly what you mean by how scared you were to the point you wanted to kill yourself. I went crazy in the experience too. I LOST it all. I thought the same things you thought about going all the way to Peru to go nuts and that I'll be in that state forever and live out the rest of my life in the psych ward. I went through it 😪. I'm thankful for what Mother Aya has done for me but I'm deathly afraid to take it again. Still traumatized 4 years later 🤦🏽♀️
Wow it looks like there's a lot of parallels between our experiences. With such a scary experience, I'm curious, what were you able to take away from it?
@@MomentsWithZhi I learned alot from the experience with Mother Aya. I took it 4 times but the last day of it was the nightmarish one. I learned that I have alot of fears that I have to work through in order to grow and do what I came here to do. Going crazy in the experience gave me a sense of calmness and peace in this reality I'm living now where I don't seem so crazy. I learned to quiet my mind more. I worry less and try to live in the present more. I learned that there is so much I don't know and that's ok. I learned that it's ok to say "I don't know" where as before I would try to explain everything even if I wasn't sure of it. So may lessons learned during those few days and nights in the jungle.
I am still traumatized 7 years later.
May I ask what was positive out of the experience? And could you have got the same through meditation?
In what are you still traumatized?
Thanks for sharing and so happy you came out better on the other side of it. ☺️
Thank you I appreciate you brother 🙂
amazing video and so helpful to my journey. thank you! as an asian american with a similar experience i feel less alone.
This was beautiful ❤
You're beautiful ! Thanks for sharing
WOW thank you so sharing
Thank you for listening 💛
Thanks for sharing. I cried my eyes out listening. Much love and light to you and your soul 🦋
Thank you so much 🥲💛