Yes we all can! I am 14 yrs sober from meth pills and I am Happy I'm not gonna lie it was a long hard fight and journey but I fought like hell for my sobriety If I can do so can anybody can! "IF GOD BROUGHT YOU TO IT GOD WILL GET YOU THOUGH IT"
@Diamond420x Way to go, just remember stay in your lane. Take care of yourself. God will take care of your parents and in their time. You can only do what you can do congrats on the baby best wishes 🤗✌️
Heroin consumed me as a teenager. Homeless, jail, rehabs, that whole cycle. It was brutal man. I just turned 30 and have been clean for 10 years. Now I’m a Respiratory Therapist and put all my addictive tendencies into my health and the medical field. It’s a beautiful life out here away from all that garbage.
My husband has been clean and sober for 5 years, and we have a beautiful life. For anyone struggling, you CAN recover ❤️ I thank God everyday that he has one more day sober. ❤
For me it was "my dad's dead, my mom's proud" and "I took one last line until both my eyes closed, said one last goodbye and I overdosed", I lost way too many homies that way.
Finally music that doesn’t push getting drunk and high. We need more of this. This is such a light for people . This song fills my heart and makes me feel so much when I listen. We do recover . 8/12/2002 🖤🖤🖤🖤
I have been clean for 10 years now, and this song makes me feel proud knowing that I didn't die from the multiple times I overdosed. I lost so many of my friends from drugs, some of them from the drugs they did some from the drugs I did. I love and miss all of them so very much. Life is truly better being sober and sometimes you do have to take it one day at a time. Thanks for an incredible song that helps me be proud to be clean!!
As an ex addict myself I’m not to man to admit this brought me to tears 2 years sober now with a 2 year old son he saves me because I finally love someone more than I love being high!
Jfc "I finally love myself like i loved getting high" Hit me like a ton of bricks, I'm on my road to recovery, and all i want is to love myself, but its so hard. Thanks for the tune.
Hang in there keep fighting I am 14 years sober it was a long hard fight for me but I did it you can too "If God brought you to it God will get you thur it"✌️
@@derekrobinson8955 it gets easier bro keep it going I have 18 months and it gets easier!!! We’re all one bad decision away from loosing everything again…..remember that you have a choice today!!!!
I feel you brother. This seems like a lonely road, just remember, though were all at different points on it, there's many of us walking the same road with you. You're not alone🤙
"I know that you hate me and I hate me too" reminds me of my first born. I'm so sorry son. I wasn't there for you when you needed me. I love you so much. You helped me get sober.
“Finally loved myself the way I loved getting high” That one line brought instant tears to my eyes. There is absolutely no way to better word that feeling!
Mod sold out to me for his much needed career boost and his fake ass relationship with my wife avril. My wife has been faking public relationships for many years to keep fans out of our private life and because I worked for more than one of the three letter agencies. The hot mess with my wife's former and current fake ass public relationships is her revenge on some nosey fans that pissed her off. Grab your popcorn this shit show is just getting started.
Sober 3.5 years. I’ve been the child and the parent, victim and perpetrator. Living with that I’ve done feels impossible some days. But we must soldier on. Thanks for this gift gentlemen
Mods verse got me like it seems it did a lot of us!! Been clean for over 4 years now and it literally takes you hitting your rock bottom!! Everyone’s is different so glad I said babe we gotta stop or we are dying!! We are both still here and so much better than we were!! I’m not as good as I’m going to get but I’m way better than I used to be!
Does it? Does "rock bottom" even exist? If it does, I never found it. As long as you're alive, things can ALWAYS get worse. I'm going on almost 5 years sober from oc, heroin, and fentanyl now. I thank my parents all the time for standing by me through it all. They tell me how "proud" they are of me, and I tell them be proud of themselves because I never could've done it without their help. Even when I relapsed over and over they still kept hope that Id get better eventually. They're the reason I never went homeless, never had to sell my body, never got kidnapped, or lured into a human trafficking ring, or murdered by some random person in the streets. It took their unconditional love and my dream of one day being a wife and mother, the opposite of rock bottom, to get sober after many years. (If we didnt hurry up and get sober, my husband and I would never be able to have a family.) Plus, telling ppl that it takes hitting rock bottom to get sober is very dangerous. It makes their support network, their sober family and sober friends, the most important thing in their life when they're sick, believe that they have to abandon their loved ones under a bridge or never speak to them again unless they get sober. Which is terrible. Tough "love" is not real love. Real love is unconditional and never, ever gives up. Which is something an addict desperately needs. And you and I both know taking your heroin addicted kid and dropping them off on the corner and leaving won't be enough to get anyone sober. It'll just make them resent you and any offers of future help. It's just a more dangerous environment/situation to be an addict in. People prey on society's most vulnerable individuals and a homeless drug addict without a family that cares just sets their loved one up to more likely die, and them eventually standing at their grave with massive regrets about their decision to put them in even more harm's way. I'd never push someone to "rock bottom" and expect them to get better. You have to lift them up. Keep encouraging them, not putting a wall of resentment between you and them. They're already suffering immensely which is probably what sparked their addiction in the first place. Everyones path to sobriety is different, but it rarely is through rock bottom. If you've ever been to Portland you'd see "rock bottom" don't mean anything good for an opiate addict. They just nod off in their tent and the dope man lives 3 tents over, and if he's out, the dope man 5 tents over is good to go.
@@Janellabelle what I refer to when I mean rock bottom which is what I call it.. is the day that you are sitting there and say this is it and something makes you get up and ask for help! Everyone’s story is different!! Glad you got clean to. I was just commenting on how a verse hit me.. it is a great day when you “finally love yourself like you loved getting high”. Even though after the beginning it’s not a love it’s a requirement to get through the day, just glad I don’t wake up like that anymore, and hope and pray someone reading this struggling decides todays the day I choose me, and want to change my life!
I love this song, my dad died when I was 15 and been struggling my entire life with addiction, anxiety and depression. I have always been functioning at a decent level but I hope one day to break the Xanax habit but sometimes I don't see it happening. I love how many people get to collab with Mod Sun.
You got this, screw the drugs you don’t need em to find happiness and meaning in life, all they do is take away from what makes you unique and special, just know you are loved and I’ll keep you in my prayers ❤
I never thought I could live one day without Xanax. I kicked an 8mg a day habit and I’m one year clean. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I could live a life without substances but now I live a life beyond my wildest dreams. Don’t give up before the miracle happens. Your life matters and I believe in you. We do recover ❤
0:44 'if only you loved me like you loved getting high' - 2:22 'i knew i couldnt live life like this anymore' wow. been on repeat for weeks now, i finally had to comment because everytime i hear these words i cry. i relate to every part. i got sober and its been almost 3 years - this is an amazing depiction of love and addiction. im from Minnesota and just moved to LA last year to finally start living. just graduated music school, saw the ocean for my first time, so many things i never thought id be able to accomplish because of my addiction. i commend you both. this song is beautiful, sad, tragic, motivating, inspiring, but most of all a very important story that needed to be heard. thank you ❤
Best song in years. Best band in years. Listen to you eveey day, all day. Cant wait to see you in concert..Your music talks to alot of people from all walks of life..Much love. Great songs..
I watched mod suns freestyle so many times and the line I finally love myself like I loved getting high hits me way to hard both my parents were addicts and they actually started giving me weed and alcohol when I was 9 and I got addicted to a lot of drugs before I was even 16 I’m about to turn 20 I’ve been to rehab twice I was able to get sober off many things but I’m still batting my addiction I moved out and have a beautiful girlfriend that pushes me to be better everyday I thank god for not losing sight of me and keeping me safe all through my years of addiction recovery is possible I pray for every struggling with addiction ❤
As someone who struggled for almost 20 years with drug and alcohol addiction, this version hits hard. 12-14-2022 saved myself from this disease. I'm luckier than so many of my friends and family members
I’m 39. been drinking and done every drug under the sun since I was 15. Wanted and have tried to get so er for the past couple years. fentanyl had a death grip on me and I lost a couple life long best friends on top of PTSD from deployments to Iraq early on in the war in the early 2000’s. I finally have been sober Since Jan 22 of this year(‘24). I’ve been scrolling through all these messages and just wanted to tell you, You are amazing and I am proud of you, have a good day today…. one day at a Time!🙂
1/31/2018 clean off meth. 2/10/2023 sober from alcohol. Have had hiccups along the way and lost my gallbladder and the bloodwork now looking scary but I would rather fight to live than just say fuck it. We do recover!!! ❤
I cant wait until i can say "i finally love myself like i loved getting high" im joining a rehab tomorrow morning to start my recovery journey. Praying for anyone who is struggling. There is a brighter side and we will find it. ❤ Praying my husband finds the light. He deserves it more than anyone.❤
Went from 4+ years sober to 2+ years are hospital visits, police banging in my door and $700 ambulance rides, back to over a year sober ❤ Congrats Mod, proud of you
I LOVE THE WAY IT SOUNDS WHEN YOU SING I FINALLY LOVE MYSELF THE WAY I LOVED GETTING HIGH MOD! Showed this to my Mom and she cried. You both are such wonderful artists, thank you for this movie 🤍 xx
Mod sold out to me for his much needed career boost and his fake ass relationship with my wife avril. My wife has been faking public relationships for many years to keep fans out of our private life and because I worked for more than one of the three letter agencies. The hot mess with my wife's former and current fake ass public relationships is her revenge on some nosey fans that pissed her off. Grab your popcorn this shit show is just getting started.
Saved to my dopamine list along with the OG. Play it on repeat anyhow lol. Good shit my boy. Hope life gives ya all ya deserve. Ya song has been a saving grace in a dark time for me. Struggling hard to stay sober and alive. Mainly alive the sober part I have. But fkn A it's a struggle to find a reason to wake up daily.
My addiction was food 😭 Binge eating and depression. I’ve listened to your song since it was on TikTok and it made me realize I’m overdosing myself and since then lost 30lbs with dieting. You are going to go far with your lyrics buddy congrats!
This is so true and I have similar struggles. Congratulations on your weight loss, keep loving yourself and you’ll get there. Down 10lbs and I have a million more to go.
@@baejay798 thank you so much! Congratulations on yours too! Keep it up! We are doing it for ourselves! If you ever need to talk I’m here for everyone going through it too! Much Aloha!
Aw thats a good one ❤. I loved reading everyone's comment about their sobriety. I was on the OG OCs about 4 years, the ones you could crush and sniff. Then took the rubbery OCs for about 2 years. Then when they stopped prescribing those and all narcotics in mass quantities, and no one could get them anymore. If this was meant to help the situation, which I doubt, it didn't work. "Thanks a lot Obama!" Lol I did what everyone addicted to OC at the time did and immediately started using heroin. You could always take the right amount of OC and know what you were getting, but with heroin...every batch was different, and every dealer I knew had a different batch constantly, which was always a bit scary and overdose deaths shot up sky high. Then somewhere along the way, I think about 3 or 4 years later, I cant be sure, "heroin" got a lot stronger. It turned into just pure fentanyl. No heroin at all in any of my drug tests, just fentanyl. Even though it was still being sold as "heroin"--quality control was never exactly known to be the best. Lol I was on that about 3 years. The whole thing was something else. Been sober going on 4 years now. If I can do it anyone can. But your way may be different than my way. The path to sobriety is different for everyone. There is no one size fits all solution. I didn't fit in at AA or NA. I hated the program and about 95% of all rehabs in the USA use the 12 step method, which has showed a lot of promise for alcoholics, but statistically, a heroin/opiate addict has less than a 10% chance of staying sober a year without relapsing just going to AA or NA meetings alone. I went twice to rehab about 90 days each, and relapsed the day after they let me out both times. Actually, I had my boyfriend (now husband) sneak fentanyl to me into the rehab. Why I didn't just check out and leave if I was gonna use anyway, idk. I had to go to a psychiatrist and a therapist to address the reason I started using in the first place. That was really important for me to get past. I never thought I had unresolved "trauma" until I quit and remembered what happened the year before I started using and worked through that. I really miss my dead friends, and the ones that don't talk anymore because they have their mind and whole life on one thing, and one thing alone. My life revolves around my 2 year old daughter, and 1 year old boy. And of course, my husband. My #1. Who was with me the whole time, also addicted to all those opioids with me. He liked his with a little cocaine on the side too. He has about 3 years sober now. Im proud of him. Everyone told me in rehab and AA and NA that I'd have to leave him to get sober. But without him, really, I'd rather overdose. So we got married. Being a wife and parent, sober, I never imagined this life. It's so fulfilling. I don't fall asleep at night anymore worried about withdrawing by morning, guilty about all the money I was wasting to just feel normal. These days I fall asleep after I check on them one last time and smile at them asleep, laying in their cribs; so precious. What a blessing. Sometimes I look down at them and smile and silently cry and idk why. I always thought we'd be dead long before 35 years old. Why did we get a happy ending. I wonder that all the time. I wonder what my dead friends would be doing today if they had not died, been given 11 years to get sober. I bet they'd be sober by now. They'd be with their families and kids, instead of their mother and father raising their kids for them while they lay in their graves. May they rest in the peace they never found in this world. ❤ I wish perhaps the government could step in and invest some money into stopping the opioid epidemic, and no that doesnt mean build more prisons or deny patients in pain adequate pain management. Invest in more affordable healthcare for substance abuse disorder. More people die of an opioid overdose every year than all of the American soldiers we lost in the entire 20 year long Vietnam war. That's a lot of families with a missing loved one. If there is a "war on drugs", we lost it long ago. Their legacies-their children-dead before them. I cant imagine that type of pain, and hope by the time my kids are teenagers fentanyl won't be available on every single corner. Laced in weed and cocaine and pills sold as "Xanax". It's in everything. If you're still struggling with Opioid Use Disorder, I pray you can find your happy ending too. As long as you're still alive there is still hope. ❤
I finally love myself the way i loved getting high!!!!! This is fucking amazing yall!!! Thank you guys!!! I'm on year 7 of being sober... thank you for putting into words what we can't. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Once upon a time I only would be with guys who use. If we had to choose which to give up it wouldn’t be the dope. Got 10yrs and am happy for the first time. I’m 71yo. I researched for 45yr. I’m done but I’ll never say never. ❤️🌟💙 God luck to everyone trying to live their life in light.
Yes love this I've been sober from painkillers for 4 yrs and alcohol for 14 yrs and I want to say modsun I'm so proud of you for not only your music but 5 yrs sober that's awesome you doing the damn thing keep on keeping on bro we love you❤❤❤❤
I love this song with u both❤ Sober since 10/18/24 Finally made it out after 23 yrs. This song is on repeat in my head and speaker!!! Thank you!!! We got this.
“It’s been 8 long months since you’ve been gone, I saw your kids at your funeral, it fucked me up and I thought: look what you left behind to chase a high, all those night I stayed up trying to save your life, I never thought you’d fucking die, so I wrote this song for you, I think you’d sing it loud if you were here, cause honest lyrics always made you proud, and I hope you get rest but I’m not dead yet, so while I’m still alive I gotta carry on” RIP Kayla Rose I might be bitter he chose mod sun, he did do a great song though.
Just found this song, and it means a lot to me. The last time I did drugs I overdosed, and have been clean since. 5 years this year, both me and my fiancé. But I lost my fiancé and father to my kid a few months ago. And the line "can't be without you, I'd rather overdose" its really how i feel sometimes. So thank you so much for this song.
Been watching you since the clips on tiktok of this. Makes me feel proud for you to get acknowledgment and this accomplishment. Keep goin Av, the sky is the limit. Great job. I love you guys. Inspirational and I just wanna say thank you. Mod I'm praying you find your peace again. Can't wait to see you in person again and on stage.
An amazing video. @HONESTAV so glad you got to collab with the GOAT @modsun !!! Way to rise above a tragedy to find life worth Celebrating. Keep up the good work. Luv u guys!
I have never touched a drug in my life but this song means a lot to me…I’ve lost too many friends through the years to addiction. If you are struggling please know you are loved and you mean something to the world ❤
I listen to this song daily since it came out and I cry every time broke boyfriend you definitely gonna make it your music is fire I follow you in tiktoc ty for this song it has heal me in many ways bro..I had family and friends die to over doses I can relate I will always miss them ❤
"I finally love myself the way I loved getting high." That line just hits so hard. Love y'all, this is amazing. ❤
Yeah, good choice tying the song together there
Yesssssssss, I felt that to my core❤
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*its not ii wont*
*its ii cant*
“I finally love myself the way I loved getting high”
We can recover!
Yes we all can! I am 14 yrs sober from meth pills and I am Happy I'm not gonna lie it was a long hard fight and journey but I fought like hell for my sobriety If I can do so can anybody can!
"IF GOD BROUGHT YOU TO IT
GOD WILL GET YOU THOUGH IT"
4 years 10 months sober here 🖤🤍 September 29th makes 5 years 🎉
#WeDoRecover
2 years clean and expecting my first baby so excited for this new journey in life! Just waiting on my parents too get clean and praying everyday 😢
@@crazycatlady4391 congrats to you!👏👏🎊🎉
@Diamond420x Way to go, just remember stay in your lane. Take care of yourself. God will take care of your parents and in their time. You can only do what you can do congrats on the baby best wishes 🤗✌️
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Incredible song amazing message and the Mod Sun feature?! Pure 🔥🔥🔥🔥
This song gets me through the day
This is one of the best comments sections I've ever come across. Love seeing strangers connecting and inspiring one another. ❤
Heroin consumed me as a teenager. Homeless, jail, rehabs, that whole cycle. It was brutal man. I just turned 30 and have been clean for 10 years. Now I’m a Respiratory Therapist and put all my addictive tendencies into my health and the medical field. It’s a beautiful life out here away from all that garbage.
😂😂😂 so you got clean at 20? Sounds like you’re wise beyond your years.
I love this. ❤️
@@andreanickerson4249some things make a person grow, some things prevent them from growing.
Thats great sir. Hope you have happiness..
Same but mine was fentynal.
2 years sober ❤
WE DO RECOVER! ❤ made it out 6-2-19. Still going strong. R.I.P. to the ones lost along the way ❤
Congrats
16 months still strong god bless
8/5/17.. I do it for my friends that couldnt get out and my kids. Never forget them. Fly high my angels 😇
It's a feeling most of us never experience
❤ YES WE DO 11-03-2019❤
My husband has been clean and sober for 5 years, and we have a beautiful life. For anyone struggling, you CAN recover ❤️ I thank God everyday that he has one more day sober. ❤
I was grateful that my wife stayed with me during a rough recovery.
A woman can really change a man.
Happy for you two!
What makes a woman beautiful?
Everything, when you love her.
Men need women...
Thank them all for saving our souls.
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THIS GUY NEEDS TO GO WORLDWIDE! AV you’re a lyrical genius dude. Cheers from Canada!
No let’s stay out of mainstream bs
I agree! This guy.. Keep it up!
He a good singer but he no lyrical genius lmfao.
Its not his song. Its Phix who is the artist
But he sings well.
Yeah: "I finally loved myself the way I loved getting high" is profound.
What hit me, harder, was "I knew I couldn't live life like this anymore".
For me it was "my dad's dead, my mom's proud" and "I took one last line until both my eyes closed, said one last goodbye and I overdosed", I lost way too many homies that way.
i didnt get why mom is proud?@@beckhenry8712
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Finally music that doesn’t push getting drunk and high. We need more of this. This is such a light for people . This song fills my heart and makes me feel so much when I listen. We do recover . 8/12/2002 🖤🖤🖤🖤
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I have been clean for 10 years now, and this song makes me feel proud knowing that I didn't die from the multiple times I overdosed. I lost so many of my friends from drugs, some of them from the drugs they did some from the drugs I did. I love and miss all of them so very much. Life is truly better being sober and sometimes you do have to take it one day at a time. Thanks for an incredible song that helps me be proud to be clean!!
Drinking almost killed me I was diagnosed with necrotizing pancreatitis hospitalized for 5 months in a coma for 1 month 293 days sober today ❤️🤞🏽
I hope you are still going strong 5 days later. So proud!
@@brandirice4975 one more day to 300🥳🥳🥳❤️❤️❤️
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I'll drink to that 🍻
Keep loving that sober feeling. Congrats!
As an ex addict myself I’m not to man to admit this brought me to tears 2 years sober now with a 2 year old son he saves me because I finally love someone more than I love being high!
Jfc
"I finally love myself like i loved getting high"
Hit me like a ton of bricks, I'm on my road to recovery, and all i want is to love myself, but its so hard. Thanks for the tune.
Hang in there keep fighting I am 14 years sober it was a long hard fight for me but I did it you can too
"If God brought you to it
God will get you thur it"✌️
@@derekrobinson8955 it gets easier bro keep it going I have 18 months and it gets easier!!! We’re all one bad decision away from loosing everything again…..remember that you have a choice today!!!!
I love you!! and im so proud of you. one day at a time
I feel you brother. This seems like a lonely road, just remember, though were all at different points on it, there's many of us walking the same road with you. You're not alone🤙
Don’t pick up no matter what! You got this!
"I know that you hate me and I hate me too" reminds me of my first born. I'm so sorry son. I wasn't there for you when you needed me. I love you so much. You helped me get sober.
Same.. my oldest hasnt talked to me in 6 yrs. He has 2 daughters i haven't met, i love u
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Your not alone brother. Still battling my worst enemy, myself.
Damn I'm proud of you man wish my dad could say this
“Finally loved myself the way I loved getting high”
That one line brought instant tears to my eyes. There is absolutely no way to better word that feeling!
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Seriously hit me like a ton of bricks had me all choked up instantly!
Literally the best song out right now
I first saw Modsun’s youtube short before I discovered the full song. These two are amazing together
Same. I'm glad they got to do it together. I love Mod's verse.
I heard the OG version after hearing Mods verse and his verse in my opinion makes the song so much more
bro mod sun go crazy in the freestyle cyphers tooo
Mod sold out to me for his much needed career boost and his fake ass relationship with my wife avril. My wife has been faking public relationships for many years to keep fans out of our private life and because I worked for more than one of the three letter agencies. The hot mess with my wife's former and current fake ass public relationships is her revenge on some nosey fans that pissed her off. Grab your popcorn this shit show is just getting started.
@@HarleaTylerbro Honsetav is a dude they just started up in Springfield mo he’ll get there
Sober 3.5 years. I’ve been the child and the parent, victim and perpetrator. Living with that I’ve done feels impossible some days. But we must soldier on. Thanks for this gift gentlemen
@@TravsCallis whatever you done….it can’t be that bad brother. Every day a new start. Go easy on yourself son…much love
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Holy shit . Damn man i got one month clean from fent . This helps so much
Keep it up homie.
@@MattWebzthank you bro 💜
@@cameronshaffer1592 ✊🏻 sobriety is a helluva drug
Keep it up! You’re doing great!
Congratulations! My mother in law is 13 years sober. You can cont to do this.
The vulnerability is inspiring to be more human!
Less human. Humans are disgusting
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This song.. it's still on repeat. Love you guys!!
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“I know that you hate me and I hate me too”
This line hurts so much, because I know I’m pushing them to hate me and I hate me too.
Same
Mods verse got me like it seems it did a lot of us!! Been clean for over 4 years now and it literally takes you hitting your rock bottom!! Everyone’s is different so glad I said babe we gotta stop or we are dying!! We are both still here and so much better than we were!! I’m not as good as I’m going to get but I’m way better than I used to be!
I'm not as good as I'm going to get. I'll have to remember that, thank you.
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Does it? Does "rock bottom" even exist? If it does, I never found it. As long as you're alive, things can ALWAYS get worse. I'm going on almost 5 years sober from oc, heroin, and fentanyl now. I thank my parents all the time for standing by me through it all. They tell me how "proud" they are of me, and I tell them be proud of themselves because I never could've done it without their help. Even when I relapsed over and over they still kept hope that Id get better eventually. They're the reason I never went homeless, never had to sell my body, never got kidnapped, or lured into a human trafficking ring, or murdered by some random person in the streets. It took their unconditional love and my dream of one day being a wife and mother, the opposite of rock bottom, to get sober after many years. (If we didnt hurry up and get sober, my husband and I would never be able to have a family.) Plus, telling ppl that it takes hitting rock bottom to get sober is very dangerous. It makes their support network, their sober family and sober friends, the most important thing in their life when they're sick, believe that they have to abandon their loved ones under a bridge or never speak to them again unless they get sober. Which is terrible. Tough "love" is not real love. Real love is unconditional and never, ever gives up. Which is something an addict desperately needs. And you and I both know taking your heroin addicted kid and dropping them off on the corner and leaving won't be enough to get anyone sober. It'll just make them resent you and any offers of future help. It's just a more dangerous environment/situation to be an addict in. People prey on society's most vulnerable individuals and a homeless drug addict without a family that cares just sets their loved one up to more likely die, and them eventually standing at their grave with massive regrets about their decision to put them in even more harm's way. I'd never push someone to "rock bottom" and expect them to get better. You have to lift them up. Keep encouraging them, not putting a wall of resentment between you and them. They're already suffering immensely which is probably what sparked their addiction in the first place. Everyones path to sobriety is different, but it rarely is through rock bottom. If you've ever been to Portland you'd see "rock bottom" don't mean anything good for an opiate addict. They just nod off in their tent and the dope man lives 3 tents over, and if he's out, the dope man 5 tents over is good to go.
@@Janellabelle what I refer to when I mean rock bottom which is what I call it.. is the day that you are sitting there and say this is it and something makes you get up and ask for help!
Everyone’s story is different!! Glad you got clean to.
I was just commenting on how a verse hit me.. it is a great day when you “finally love yourself like you loved getting high”.
Even though after the beginning it’s not a love it’s a requirement to get through the day, just glad I don’t wake up like that anymore, and hope and pray someone reading this struggling decides todays the day I choose me, and want to change my life!
I just Woke up !; ,what a Song 🙏
When I heard Mods verse I was hoping for a full version! I’m loving this and it will for sure remain on repeat
me too! i thought he’d at least sing along w him in this tho😢
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I love this song, my dad died when I was 15 and been struggling my entire life with addiction, anxiety and depression. I have always been functioning at a decent level but I hope one day to break the Xanax habit but sometimes I don't see it happening. I love how many people get to collab with Mod Sun.
You got this, screw the drugs you don’t need em to find happiness and meaning in life, all they do is take away from what makes you unique and special, just know you are loved and I’ll keep you in my prayers ❤
I never thought I could live one day without Xanax. I kicked an 8mg a day habit and I’m one year clean. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I could live a life without substances but now I live a life beyond my wildest dreams. Don’t give up before the miracle happens. Your life matters and I believe in you. We do recover ❤
@@TheDalyShowSwag Congrats. How long to taper off?
Don’t give up! Do not fucking give up!
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0:44 'if only you loved me like you loved getting high' - 2:22 'i knew i couldnt live life like this anymore'
wow. been on repeat for weeks now, i finally had to comment because everytime i hear these words i cry. i relate to every part. i got sober and its been almost 3 years - this is an amazing depiction of love and addiction. im from Minnesota and just moved to LA last year to finally start living. just graduated music school, saw the ocean for my first time, so many things i never thought id be able to accomplish because of my addiction. i commend you both. this song is beautiful, sad, tragic, motivating, inspiring, but most of all a very important story that needed to be heard.
thank you ❤
Seriously can't get enough of this dude
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Almost to 8 years sober from heroin. This song hits home. Thank you for something so relatable. ❤
I got 3 years from that (h) and everything else. This song hits so hard.
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Comin up on 7 from the same thing! I’m proud of y’all 🫶🏻
Mod and his music helped me get and stay sober 5 years earlier this month.
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Best song in years. Best band in years. Listen to you eveey day, all day. Cant wait to see you in concert..Your music talks to alot of people from all walks of life..Much love. Great songs..
I relapsed during the pandemic and have been struggling with being sober for the last three years, one day I will win the fight again. Love this song
Same
Yes you will. You can do it!!! ❤
We just got to keep on trucking on bro I'm with you on that
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@@marcgallegos1070 📠 🙏
I’m playing ur music non stop on TikTok, Spotify, and CZcams. Your style is impeccable.
"I finally love myself the way I loved getting high" wow.. just, wow.
The tears that fall down my face, are the memories that can't be replaced.
Omg yesss. Ive been watching modsuns short with his verse over and over just prayyyiiinnnggg they made it into this!!!
Been waiting for this! What a GEM! 💎
Me too!!! Since I heard the others guys verse! I was hoping he'd see it!!! I love it!
That line Mod
It's how a lot of us in recovery feels! This song was already amazing then Mod did his thing. Good job boys 👏 out here saving lives ❤❤
I watched mod suns freestyle so many times and the line I finally love myself like I loved getting high hits me way to hard both my parents were addicts and they actually started giving me weed and alcohol when I was 9 and I got addicted to a lot of drugs before I was even 16 I’m about to turn 20 I’ve been to rehab twice I was able to get sober off many things but I’m still batting my addiction I moved out and have a beautiful girlfriend that pushes me to be better everyday I thank god for not losing sight of me and keeping me safe all through my years of addiction recovery is possible I pray for every struggling with addiction ❤
Keep. Going.
You can do it.
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Keep going kid. Make your life worth living
As someone who struggled for almost 20 years with drug and alcohol addiction, this version hits hard. 12-14-2022 saved myself from this disease. I'm luckier than so many of my friends and family members
I’m 39. been drinking and done every drug under the sun since I was 15. Wanted and have tried to get so er for the past couple years. fentanyl had a death grip on me and I lost a couple life long best friends on top of PTSD from deployments to Iraq early on in the war in the early 2000’s. I finally have been sober Since Jan 22 of this year(‘24). I’ve been scrolling through all these messages and just wanted to tell you, You are amazing and I am proud of you, have a good day today…. one day at a Time!🙂
1/31/2018 clean off meth. 2/10/2023 sober from alcohol. Have had hiccups along the way and lost my gallbladder and the bloodwork now looking scary but I would rather fight to live than just say fuck it. We do recover!!! ❤
Praying for you right now as I read your comment. You got this. Please do fight to live.
Here before this has millions of views.
I love Av, I’m so happy to see him comin up.
This is the potential of authentic music... healing instead of numbing. Good stuff man.
Both of y'all killed it!
I cant wait until i can say "i finally love myself like i loved getting high" im joining a rehab tomorrow morning to start my recovery journey. Praying for anyone who is struggling. There is a brighter side and we will find it. ❤
Praying my husband finds the light. He deserves it more than anyone.❤
You got this!
I am only seconds in and already appreciate the vibrations of the bike matching your rasp. Soooooo good!
Went from 4+ years sober to 2+ years are hospital visits, police banging in my door and $700 ambulance rides, back to over a year sober ❤
Congrats Mod, proud of you
Lost my little sister a year ago to an overdose and life will never be the same without her here. #getbetter #youareloved
wish I could relike this every time I listen to it!
I LOVE THE WAY IT SOUNDS WHEN YOU SING I FINALLY LOVE MYSELF THE WAY I LOVED GETTING HIGH MOD! Showed this to my Mom and she cried. You both are such wonderful artists, thank you for this movie 🤍 xx
This one is my favorite one 😢
Mod sun makes the song hit so much different
Mod sold out to me for his much needed career boost and his fake ass relationship with my wife avril. My wife has been faking public relationships for many years to keep fans out of our private life and because I worked for more than one of the three letter agencies. The hot mess with my wife's former and current fake ass public relationships is her revenge on some nosey fans that pissed her off. Grab your popcorn this shit show is just getting started.
Love this song. And especially love MOD SUN
Saved to my dopamine list along with the OG. Play it on repeat anyhow lol. Good shit my boy. Hope life gives ya all ya deserve. Ya song has been a saving grace in a dark time for me. Struggling hard to stay sober and alive. Mainly alive the sober part I have. But fkn A it's a struggle to find a reason to wake up daily.
We are watching this man av go places in real time. He deserves it!
My addiction was food 😭
Binge eating and depression. I’ve listened to your song since it was on TikTok and it made me realize I’m overdosing myself and since then lost 30lbs with dieting.
You are going to go far with your lyrics buddy congrats!
This is so true and I have similar struggles. Congratulations on your weight loss, keep loving yourself and you’ll get there. Down 10lbs and I have a million more to go.
@@baejay798 thank you so much! Congratulations on yours too!
Keep it up! We are doing it for ourselves! If you ever need to talk I’m here for everyone going through it too!
Much Aloha!
@@baejay798the first ten is the hardest. You’re doing amazing
Aw thats a good one ❤. I loved reading everyone's comment about their sobriety. I was on the OG OCs about 4 years, the ones you could crush and sniff. Then took the rubbery OCs for about 2 years. Then when they stopped prescribing those and all narcotics in mass quantities, and no one could get them anymore. If this was meant to help the situation, which I doubt, it didn't work. "Thanks a lot Obama!" Lol I did what everyone addicted to OC at the time did and immediately started using heroin. You could always take the right amount of OC and know what you were getting, but with heroin...every batch was different, and every dealer I knew had a different batch constantly, which was always a bit scary and overdose deaths shot up sky high. Then somewhere along the way, I think about 3 or 4 years later, I cant be sure, "heroin" got a lot stronger. It turned into just pure fentanyl. No heroin at all in any of my drug tests, just fentanyl. Even though it was still being sold as "heroin"--quality control was never exactly known to be the best. Lol I was on that about 3 years. The whole thing was something else. Been sober going on 4 years now. If I can do it anyone can. But your way may be different than my way. The path to sobriety is different for everyone. There is no one size fits all solution. I didn't fit in at AA or NA. I hated the program and about 95% of all rehabs in the USA use the 12 step method, which has showed a lot of promise for alcoholics, but statistically, a heroin/opiate addict has less than a 10% chance of staying sober a year without relapsing just going to AA or NA meetings alone. I went twice to rehab about 90 days each, and relapsed the day after they let me out both times. Actually, I had my boyfriend (now husband) sneak fentanyl to me into the rehab. Why I didn't just check out and leave if I was gonna use anyway, idk. I had to go to a psychiatrist and a therapist to address the reason I started using in the first place. That was really important for me to get past. I never thought I had unresolved "trauma" until I quit and remembered what happened the year before I started using and worked through that. I really miss my dead friends, and the ones that don't talk anymore because they have their mind and whole life on one thing, and one thing alone. My life revolves around my 2 year old daughter, and 1 year old boy. And of course, my husband. My #1. Who was with me the whole time, also addicted to all those opioids with me. He liked his with a little cocaine on the side too. He has about 3 years sober now. Im proud of him. Everyone told me in rehab and AA and NA that I'd have to leave him to get sober. But without him, really, I'd rather overdose. So we got married. Being a wife and parent, sober, I never imagined this life. It's so fulfilling. I don't fall asleep at night anymore worried about withdrawing by morning, guilty about all the money I was wasting to just feel normal. These days I fall asleep after I check on them one last time and smile at them asleep, laying in their cribs; so precious. What a blessing. Sometimes I look down at them and smile and silently cry and idk why. I always thought we'd be dead long before 35 years old. Why did we get a happy ending. I wonder that all the time. I wonder what my dead friends would be doing today if they had not died, been given 11 years to get sober. I bet they'd be sober by now. They'd be with their families and kids, instead of their mother and father raising their kids for them while they lay in their graves.
May they rest in the peace they never found in this world. ❤
I wish perhaps the government could step in and invest some money into stopping the opioid epidemic, and no that doesnt mean build more prisons or deny patients in pain adequate pain management. Invest in more affordable healthcare for substance abuse disorder. More people die of an opioid overdose every year than all of the American soldiers we lost in the entire 20 year long Vietnam war. That's a lot of families with a missing loved one. If there is a "war on drugs", we lost it long ago. Their legacies-their children-dead before them. I cant imagine that type of pain, and hope by the time my kids are teenagers fentanyl won't be available on every single corner. Laced in weed and cocaine and pills sold as "Xanax". It's in everything. If you're still struggling with Opioid Use Disorder, I pray you can find your happy ending too. As long as you're still alive there is still hope. ❤
I finally love myself the way i loved getting high!!!!! This is fucking amazing yall!!! Thank you guys!!! I'm on year 7 of being sober... thank you for putting into words what we can't. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I love this song so much
Once upon a time I only would be with guys who use. If we had to choose which to give up it wouldn’t be the dope. Got 10yrs and am happy for the first time. I’m 71yo. I researched for 45yr. I’m done but I’ll never say never. ❤️🌟💙 God luck to everyone trying to live their life in light.
2 Years clean and expecting my first baby so excited for this journey! I just wish my parents would do the say i pray for them everyday 🙏❤😢
Bro 😂can't front...never thought about how long I have been clean and dam all the memories with this just cane back....7 years the 30th
This song was a masterpiece 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼 much love
Yes love this I've been sober from painkillers for 4 yrs and alcohol for 14 yrs and I want to say modsun I'm so proud of you for not only your music but 5 yrs sober that's awesome you doing the damn thing keep on keeping on bro we love you❤❤❤❤
🔥we do recover!!!!! Celebrating 18 months next month!!!!!❤️
😮❤THIS BAND IS FRIGGEN EPIC THEY NEED TO GO EVERYWHERE ❤
I'm here for every release!
I love this song with u both❤ Sober since 10/18/24 Finally made it out after 23 yrs. This song is on repeat in my head and speaker!!! Thank you!!! We got this.
SO DOPE THANK YALL ❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹
The hell YT. I loved this song.
DO YO THING AV🤞🏽💫
ive been watching you for so long and this song just hits the SOUL. volume all the way up dude, im so proud your so great 😭😭😭❤️
“It’s been 8 long months since you’ve been gone, I saw your kids at your funeral, it fucked me up and I thought: look what you left behind to chase a high, all those night I stayed up trying to save your life, I never thought you’d fucking die, so I wrote this song for you, I think you’d sing it loud if you were here, cause honest lyrics always made you proud, and I hope you get rest but I’m not dead yet, so while I’m still alive I gotta carry on”
RIP Kayla Rose
I might be bitter he chose mod sun, he did do a great song though.
Fucking love you guys together in this, as a son of an addict this still resonates with me every listen.
I'm crying it's so good 😢😢😢
Didn’t know I could live the song any more than I already did until you added Mod! 😍
Must be doing something right if mod sun jumps on your track
This is instant gold!
I don’t think I’ll ever love myself the way I love getting high
U will
This song is so beautiful. Having watched Mod’s journey for years, this song feels like a triumph. I’m so incredibly proud ❤️
Ik you hate me I hate me to..😔
Nothing is better than windows down, air guitar belting this song out with NO SHAME!!! Rejects rejoice our boys brought us a banger
Your song hit the radio @ work this week congratulations. Keep it up big dawg
Sitting here, listening over and over again...crying...this song hits the spots...💚🎶💔
Still here 💔 don't know what or how to just make it all stop!!!!!!
Just found this song, and it means a lot to me. The last time I did drugs I overdosed, and have been clean since. 5 years this year, both me and my fiancé. But I lost my fiancé and father to my kid a few months ago. And the line "can't be without you, I'd rather overdose" its really how i feel sometimes. So thank you so much for this song.
1 last line until both my eye's closed ... i said 1 last goodbye and then i OVERDOSED! #Ready4TheAbyss
2:29 discipline shows me the way
When I saw Mods version I thought this would be a banger, and here we are! Well done boys!
Been watching you since the clips on tiktok of this. Makes me feel proud for you to get acknowledgment and this accomplishment. Keep goin Av, the sky is the limit. Great job. I love you guys. Inspirational and I just wanna say thank you. Mod I'm praying you find your peace again. Can't wait to see you in person again and on stage.
Y'all both killed it !!!!This hit home in the realest and rawest way 💯 love y'all both 🩷
An amazing video. @HONESTAV so glad you got to collab with the GOAT @modsun !!! Way to rise above a tragedy to find life worth Celebrating. Keep up the good work. Luv u guys!
I have never touched a drug in my life but this song means a lot to me…I’ve lost too many friends through the years to addiction. If you are struggling please know you are loved and you mean something to the world ❤
Thank you for making this. As a child of an addict I needed this ❤
I'm sitting here in labour and your music is pure magic🎉
You know the emotion in the song is raw when they put a content warning AND a link to the suicide hotline
417! Kryptic! Honestav! Killing it, really gives hope to us small ones 🔥
I listen to this song daily since it came out and I cry every time broke boyfriend you definitely gonna make it your music is fire I follow you in tiktoc ty for this song it has heal me in many ways bro..I had family and friends die to over doses I can relate I will always miss them ❤
holy shit.. ive loved honestav before realizing he was honestav and that this was him.. much respect to this dude