Derealization - Bambi Baker (official video)

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  • čas přidán 12. 10. 2023
  • Stream on official platforms: linktr.ee/bambibaker
    Wrote this song when I was 13 in foster care. Literally took foreverrrr to get something I’m satisfied with. It was such a simple idea in my mind but every time we tried to get one of my ideas it turned out impossible. I really wanted to try my best to get something that represented derealization & depersonalisation is some way instead of just what looks pretty, I wanted the outfit to represent feeling like a ghost, or like you’re completely blank and stripped of identity. The background seeming like it doesnt really match is supposed to represent feeling disconnected from your surroundings. It’s still only a lil homemade video by me and my mom, and a little help from my stepdad, but I hope you enjoyed it & thanks for watching 🤍
    Also for those who are not aware, I have currently been focusing on music videos due to the fact i have silent reflux (or im debating if I might’ve been misdiagnosed atp) and I’m temporarily not able to sing and havent been able to since snow on my windowsill. But i will release new music as soon as i can sing again🫀
    Lyrics:
    Stood trying to remember what I look like in the mirror
    What does real life really feel like?
    I don’t remember what I’m supposed to feel
    Am I dead?
    Or am I in a dream?
    Am I a ghost watching what my life would of been?
    I can’t feel
    Times not real
    Life’s not real
    I’m not real
    Nothing is real, ohh, ohh
    Nothing is real, ohh, ohh
    (I don’t think I belong on this planet
    This galaxy, this universe
    I don’t think I belong at all)
    What am I here for?
    What is my purpose?
    Or am I even here?
    What can I trust?
    I don’t know who really exists
    I don’t remember who anybody is
    Do I know them?
    Can they see me?
    Can they hear me?
    Can they feel me?
    Do they know me?
    Do they know who I am?
    I can’t feel
    Times not real
    Life’s not real
    I’m not real
    Nothing is real, ohh, ohh
    I can’t feel, time’s not real
    Life’s not real, no I’m not real
    I’m lost
    I don’t belong, no
    I can’t do it, I don’t know who’s real I don’t know what’s real
    Anymore, ha
    (No more, no more)
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  • @bambibaker
    @bambibaker  Před 7 měsíci +960

    Love and appreciate so many of your comments, thank you all so much I hope you all are well🥹🥹🫶

    • @lasttiger221
      @lasttiger221 Před 7 měsíci +6

      Still such a talent bambi👏👏 you have always done such amazing job💜

    • @JuntaWithLustrationsOnTanks
      @JuntaWithLustrationsOnTanks Před 7 měsíci +1

      Q!!
      😘😗😙😚

    • @AsAuvAge
      @AsAuvAge Před 7 měsíci +5

      merci jolie voix p'tit ange

    • @AsAuvAge
      @AsAuvAge Před 7 měsíci +1

      avec plaisir c'est quand même plus agréable de faire des compliments plutôt que de chercher des défauts, j'en ai bien assez pour savoir que tout le monde a ces défauts, mais bon qu'es qu'il est plus agréable de faire des compliments .
      que de vomir sur les autres, par rapport à nos déviances....

    • @TIKITECHA-2095
      @TIKITECHA-2095 Před 6 měsíci +3

      this song blew up omg that's awesome you deserve it and i hope you get better soon

  • @rosanellu
    @rosanellu Před měsícem +20

    This song is SO TRUE. I love the detail of dressing all white like a ghost or angel. It truly does feel like I've been dead, and I have no clue for how long

  • @Nikko2I
    @Nikko2I Před 3 měsíci +64

    This is such an ethereal, melancholic piece, especially for a budget production, that I'm shocked it has only 250k views after 4 months.
    This is art.

  • @mudkips8399
    @mudkips8399 Před 7 měsíci +1939

    As someone who struggles with depersonalization-derealization disorder, this video was cathartic. I haven't really related said disorder to any other music other than Radiohead's "How To Disappear Completely." Beautiful, but haunting song, this video matches perfectly.

    • @bambibaker
      @bambibaker  Před 7 měsíci +166

      Thank you so so much!! I adore how to disappear completely 🤍 appreciate it

    • @mudkips8399
      @mudkips8399 Před 7 měsíci +36

      @@bambibaker I'm glad you dig How To Disappear Completely, I hope you're very successful with your art!

    • @sakn104
      @sakn104 Před 7 měsíci +7

      You should check out the song "Is Happiness Just a Word", by Vinnie Paz.

    • @laloelsalamanca
      @laloelsalamanca Před 7 měsíci

      Stop making up disorders to justify your own failures and laziness.

    • @jasonsnyder5469
      @jasonsnyder5469 Před 6 měsíci +2

      Dumb question I have did what's the difference

  • @jb.burnheart11030
    @jb.burnheart11030 Před 6 měsíci +893

    This is like a Tim Burton character coming to life. Ethereal, haunting, beautiful. 🖤🖤🖤

    • @qiwnie
      @qiwnie Před 6 měsíci +4

      Perfeição 💗

    • @yago7289
      @yago7289 Před 5 měsíci +1

      @@qiwnie foda

    • @picareta666
      @picareta666 Před 4 měsíci +1

      I think I know which tim burton's character she makes u remind of, the hearts queen sister in the alice movie

    • @MeuNome-gk1of
      @MeuNome-gk1of Před 4 měsíci +4

      She look more like and beserker characters

    • @hanielarindel1408
      @hanielarindel1408 Před 4 měsíci +3

      @@MeuNome-gk1of Well... at first glance I thought it was a Griffith cosplay since many Griffith cosplays are done by women but then I opened the song and got to hear the song and see her more clearly...
      But yes. She does have a resemblance in appearance to the Queen sister from Alice in Wonderland. I think even better.
      We got the feelings of the song.

  • @Emisnyan
    @Emisnyan Před 5 měsíci +429

    Me at 15 when I realised I have this would've been so happy knowing they're not alone in it. I'm 26 now and all I can say is for me, the numerous of traumatic event I've been through, the childhood and , well, not getting any help for it (which worsened it) are some causes. I know its hard... believe me. But please, know that you can get better... I've even heard of people who don't feel it anymore lol. But yeah love to you all, you are loved, worthy and most of all youre HERE. ❤❤❤❤❤❤

    • @chryslite589
      @chryslite589 Před 5 měsíci +12

      I’m 15 now and I feel like I relate to what you said pretty accurately. When I looked up my symptoms I found that, and to my surprise I had every symptom of the disorder- I’m pretty sure I had it for much longer but it only recently started getting worse. Of course I told my parents but they, thinking I was making it up or that it would go away eventually, did nothing for it. I’m glad I found this when I did otherwise I would’ve believed I was alone in how I felt since no one else in my life has this

    • @PoisonelleMisty4311
      @PoisonelleMisty4311 Před 4 měsíci +1

      Thank you for sharing your experience and offering words of encouragement. It's important to remember that everyone's journey with mental health is different, and while some people may completely overcome their struggles, others may find ways to manage and live fulfilling lives. It's great to hear that you are feeling better, and I hope your message provides comfort and hope to others who may be going through similar challenges.

    • @Nibiru3600X
      @Nibiru3600X Před 2 měsíci

      @@chryslite589Your parents’ dismissal is a BIG part of this feeling. I’m so sorry 😢 I know this all too well. Narcissistic abuse comes in MANY forms & can be deadly-even neglect of emotions.
      I’m so glad you’re learning to KNOW YOURSELF 🙌 Break the cycle & do your best to not end up in any type of similar relationships that ignore you or dismiss your feelings & truths. Find someone that CONSISTENTLY hears & validates you-no back & forth BS ppl making you question if you even exist! Online support groups with people going through similar issues are very helpful, as well as Bambie🖤 ✨ and any other you can identify with. Some solitary time to think, reflect & scrape off others’ opinions they’ve forced on you is good too…
      You exist & you matter!! 💫 Hope this helps 🙏❤️‍🩹🙏

    • @chyennewhisman7166
      @chyennewhisman7166 Před 2 měsíci

      I'm 25 and it's gotten worse 😅

    • @djgdgjjdtdjt
      @djgdgjjdtdjt Před měsícem

      Thank you for saving me

  • @trivari
    @trivari Před 5 měsíci +197

    oh i absolutely adore this. the visuals perfectly capture the experience of derealisation - the contrast between your pure white image and the darkness of your surroundings create such a perfect visual representation of what it's like.

  • @jex_testament
    @jex_testament Před 5 měsíci +149

    This just hits hard as stone, I suffer from schizophrenia and many are the times I feel nothing at all, no emotions, no colors, nothing feels really like living. This song describes my situation perfectly, to not be able to feel and being desperate to find yourself being conscious of the life you are living and that you are breathing air just like the rest of the people.
    Your music is now one of my favorites, love the way you play synths and even more your skills at singing.
    Love from Mexico, never give up, I'm pretty sure you'll get far with all of your dreams. 🖤🥀⛓

  • @KUKAKYOTOTOKYO
    @KUKAKYOTOTOKYO Před 4 měsíci +91

    I can tell the writer understands derealization/depersonalization intimately. Listening struck me with this intense feeling of not being alone with this, and there's someone else who really understands. I understand the theory on why and how it happens, but it still catches me off guard. Still comes and goes after 20 years ago when I first started having it.

  • @eileenscat
    @eileenscat Před 5 měsíci +219

    This reminds me a lot of what it felt like growing up with undiagnosed autism, even if that’s not the theme of the song
    I’m in love with the music and visuals alike, I only wish I’d come across your music sooner ♥️

    • @bambibaker
      @bambibaker  Před 5 měsíci +86

      Currently in an autism assessment after 17 years no diagnosis haha it makes sense, thank you so much🫶🫶

    • @LadyVenus125
      @LadyVenus125 Před 4 měsíci +2

      Oh my god, yes! I thought I was the only one.

    • @PoisonelleMisty4311
      @PoisonelleMisty4311 Před 4 měsíci +3

      Thank you for your kind words! I'm glad that my music and visuals resonate with you. It's always a powerful experience when we find something that speaks to us on a personal level, even if it's not intended to have a specific theme. I appreciate your support

    • @noctovania
      @noctovania Před 4 měsíci +2

      Can you tell me what it was like? I've been having some suspicions and, obviously, I won't self diagnose, but I've been talking to my therapist about it and he had some suspicions as well :0 I've had derealization many times as a kid and to this day I'm still trying to figure out more stuff about myself that I wasn't/can't be able to explain

    • @LuumiBluee
      @LuumiBluee Před 4 měsíci +1

      Omg right this would've been so helpful to listen to growing up realising I'm not the only one that feels this way

  • @deflawed1602
    @deflawed1602 Před 6 měsíci +115

    the visuals are so beautiful and dreamy i love it and the song is actually so good, i rarely like any new music i find so thank u for making this masterpiece 😭

    • @deflawed1602
      @deflawed1602 Před 6 měsíci +9

      i forgot to add that i also find it very comforting bc it makes me feel a sense that im not alone bc i go through rlly bad derealization everyday 😭this song is exactly how it feels

  • @sleeplessangelz
    @sleeplessangelz Před 7 měsíci +222

    1:09 really close to what it feels like in real life. She is so talented, the voice the visuals everything just perfect!

  • @njux1871
    @njux1871 Před 6 měsíci +114

    !!! This is fuxking phenomenal. I'm a goth who's deeply into music of any genre that's about darkness though and this just hits every note for me. Didn't know I needed a dissociation song in my life but retrospectively it's pretty obvious lol. amazing. Could be nine minutes long honestly, Dead Can Dance style. But do what you feel it's right obviously, I will root for you.

    • @PoisonelleMisty4311
      @PoisonelleMisty4311 Před 4 měsíci +1

      Thank you so much for your enthusiastic feedback! I'm thrilled to hear that the song resonates with you and captures the essence of darkness that you appreciate. Your support means a lot to me, and I'm grateful for your encouragement. While the length and style of the song may be subject to personal preference, I'll definitely take your suggestions into consideration. I'll continue to create music based on my artistic vision, and I appreciate your belief in me. Thank you again!

  • @Lunniezz
    @Lunniezz Před 8 měsíci +230

    I want this video tattooed on my body for absolute eternity. This is pure perfection! It makes me hurt it makes me happy! Even quite nostalgic- I thank you Bambi Baker for making this masterpiece.

    • @bambibaker
      @bambibaker  Před 8 měsíci +29

      Oh my goshhhh that’s so sweetttt thank you so much😭😭🫶🫶

    • @hannacolo
      @hannacolo Před 7 měsíci +1

      And I!!!! ❤❤❤

    • @jasonsnyder5469
      @jasonsnyder5469 Před 6 měsíci

      I hate this fucking song so much

  • @dylidyl7169
    @dylidyl7169 Před 3 měsíci +11

    I don’t have derealization, but there have been many times in my life when I have felt like this, like an outsider, dissociated from reality, from the world, from everyone, from myself. I felt apathetic yet in pain, frustrated and trapped yet careless and unbothered, observant yet blind… lovely video. The wicked, ethereal quality was depicted beautifully. 💜

  • @rrrey999
    @rrrey999 Před 8 měsíci +74

    Where was this song when I needed it? This is exactly how my teenie years felt like and this experience felt so isolating cause nobody would ever speak about it. I'm glad there's a song that describes this experience so well. I've also been seeing more people talking about derealization on the internet lately, which is of course a good thing so that maybe some people out there don't feel so alone with this experience.
    By the way, your voice has such a beautiful sound! I love it. :)

  • @adoringcatfish
    @adoringcatfish Před 4 měsíci +15

    Finding something that represents dpdr so accurately is rare. I relate to both the visuals and the music here so much. Thank you for making it.
    I find that over time my struggles have gotten less. Both in terms of the actual symptoms, and my rationalizations of it. Over a decade in at 23, dpdr is still something I deal with daily but the full blackouts I used to get are completely gone, and the glass between me and the world appears less often and is less thick. It gets better. Part of what made it get better on the rationalization side is realizing that other people struggled with it it too, making art like this is so important for that.

  • @DascorpFr
    @DascorpFr Před 4 měsíci +12

    oh my fucking god i thought id be the only one whod also have an artistic expression for my issues, i have DPDR (depersonalization derealization disorder) and the notion that the disorder makes you feel out of place and vivid in everything you look at and do feels so fucking stressful and sad, you dont feel real enough to feel safe or feel sure that you are where you are physically. you want to feel YOU WANT TO UNDERSTAND AND FEEL YOUR RELATIONSHIPS BUT YOU CANT. everything feels like a blur even if you dont want it to be. thank you for expressing it in your way. it means a lot.

    • @jonatasvieira4025
      @jonatasvieira4025 Před 2 měsíci +1

      I had expressed dpdr also by pictures, poem, histories and draws

    • @sudaiiice145
      @sudaiiice145 Před měsícem +2

      YESS I GET THIS! i suffer from DPDR and have for about a year now, i used to think i was seriously mentally ill amd schizophrenic but oncr i googled it i realised what i was going through, i then told my therapist. Im so happy to see people who r like me and the comfort of knowimg im not alone

  • @VAVORiAL
    @VAVORiAL Před 7 měsíci +32

    Beat has a Silent Hill feeling to it, whole thing feels dreamy af, love it

  • @zim-p
    @zim-p Před 7 měsíci +65

    First of all, this is a masterpiece and I'm so grateful CZcams recommended this to me. As someone who suffers from frequent dissociation, this is spot on. And your voice, don't even let me get started on that. You sound like an angel. And your vocal technique fits this song so amazing. But out of all of the amazing this, the video really stood out of me. It's truely surreal and shot so well. I'm obcessed with your stuff. Wow. You should be popular really.

    • @PoisonelleMisty4311
      @PoisonelleMisty4311 Před 4 měsíci

      Thank you so much for your kind words! I'm glad to hear that this song resonates with you and captures the experience of dissociation accurately. It means a lot to me that you appreciate my vocal technique and find my voice angelic. I put a lot of effort and emotion into my music, so it's heartwarming to know that it connects with listeners like you.
      Regarding the video, I'm thrilled that you found it surreal and well-shot. Visuals are important to me, and I strive to create an immersive experience that complements the music. It's amazing to hear that you're obsessed with my work, and your support means the world to me.
      As for popularity, that's something that can be subjective and unpredictable. However, I'm truly grateful for every fan and every person who connects with my music. It's the listeners like you who make it all worth it. Thank you for your kind words and for taking the time to share your thoughts.

  • @MisterSpleenlol
    @MisterSpleenlol Před 5 měsíci +24

    Nice to see a song ab something like this. I have multiple disorders that cause memory loss, amnesia, and dissociation consistently, and for as long as i can remember
    its just nice to see any form of representation. This sounds amazing and the MV is lovely

    • @schnitzelberry
      @schnitzelberry Před dnem

      I’m going through the same thing and I’m genuinely sorry that it happens to you too

  • @rashidjurgens9992
    @rashidjurgens9992 Před 7 měsíci +37

    i have no idea how the algorithm introduced me to your work but I'm an absolute fan. this music video represents the existential dread i constantly feel. finally something that i truly resonate with. amazing.

  • @JVERASJ
    @JVERASJ Před 6 měsíci +25

    Thanks for this! I suffered a lot with desrealization for years, today I can say that I'm much better, since I got better from my depression and Maladaptive daydreaming. I hope everyone who suffers from desrealization can get better one day... Your voice is so beautiful, incredible, fantastic, amazing!! I love it, again, thanks for this.❤

  • @Ravenist
    @Ravenist Před 6 měsíci +180

    0:50-1:20 is exactly how dpdr feels like; one moment like a slideshow, then other times a disorienting mindless existence blurry like a dream, but then there are also moments of clarity that are eery and calming yet confounding in an odd surreal off-kilter crooked way of being lost like something (that you are unaware of) has gone terribly wrong and that you aren't supposed to be when/where you are or that you think you should be feeling a certain way but you aren't.

    • @PoisonelleMisty4311
      @PoisonelleMisty4311 Před 4 měsíci +3

      Thank you for sharing your description of how depersonalization and derealization (dpdr) feels like between 0:50-1:20. It sounds like you experience a variety of sensations during this time. The fluctuations between a slideshow-like experience, a disorienting and dream-like state, and moments of clarity can be unsettling and confusing. The feeling of being lost and disconnected from your surroundings, as well as the sense that something is wrong or that you should be feeling a certain way, adds to the surreal and off-kilter nature of dpdr. It is important to seek support from a mental health professional if you are experiencing these symptoms.

    • @GPWT-video
      @GPWT-video Před 3 měsíci

      @@PoisonelleMisty4311 🥳

    • @jonasgeez2140
      @jonasgeez2140 Před 3 měsíci

      Odd I usto feel exactly like that but it was psychosis from drug use

  • @starryniightt
    @starryniightt Před 5 měsíci +17

    This really resonates with me, sometimes it feels like nobody sees me or like I’m a ghost, or in a dream this is really a beautiful video and song.

  • @Se_Siel
    @Se_Siel Před 5 měsíci +14

    I don't know what derealization/depersonalization feels like but this oddly enough...kind of shows me an example of that.
    I can't explain it-
    this song + the visuals make me feel so light headed(?) like I'm dreaming....idk it just feels surreal-anyways gr8 job and keep doing what you love 👍🏻❤️

  • @playlistismo
    @playlistismo Před 7 měsíci +32

    Thank you Bambi Baker for this video because this is exactly how a lot of people are feeling at this time... so you definitely got your message across to us! This music video was like a hug!

  • @Kno3ledge
    @Kno3ledge Před 7 měsíci +56

    Macabre...Your music is terrifyingly beautiful. It scares most, for they fear being lured into a deep psychosis. Can a blind eye make the distinction between enlightenment and illness? How does one 'derealize' without experiencing one or the other? Thank you for sharing your talent with us.

  • @xxxsugarcookies9909
    @xxxsugarcookies9909 Před 4 měsíci +8

    the tone of your voice mixed with the lyrics and the video gives me exactly the feeling of what my depersonalizations were like when I was younger, they are memories that simply disappeared after I had them, it makes me feel at home

  • @xbrandi12345x
    @xbrandi12345x Před 2 měsíci +3

    I have had this in my watch later for a few months and finally watched it today. I am not familiar with Bambi Baker before this but it made me an instant subscriber. This isn't just a song and video. It's a literal work of art. Bravo! Encore!

  • @LiminalLegion
    @LiminalLegion Před 4 měsíci +7

    I've been really struggling with derealization for quite some time. This song showed up in my recommendations and I'm so glad I clicked on it. Listening to it is super comforting and the lyrics really hit what I've been feeling. Knowing that I'm not alone in questioning what reality is and what it is supposed to feel like makes me feel more real. Thank you so much

  • @LameMule
    @LameMule Před 6 měsíci +14

    No idea why this was in my recommendations a few weeks back but your album has become one of my most played in 2023 in that short time. I was stringing up Christmas lights with the album on repeat. As much as I enjoyed the juxtaposition, I just straight up love your music.
    So here's a comment for the algo gods, praying they bring your music to another unsuspecting soul who falls in love with the album as much as I have.

  • @raccoonpandas1851
    @raccoonpandas1851 Před 3 měsíci +4

    I've always struggled with derealization and its destroyed so many relationships, I think its definitely always a good thing whenever I see media of it. It instantly makes me realize that I am real, I definitely have people who still care about and are willing to talk to me. I think I will definitely be adding this to my most played playlist and listening to the rest of your music, especially since this song alone is an extremely beautiful one.

  • @eyelessghost_
    @eyelessghost_ Před 3 měsíci +5

    Not exactly type of music I usually listen to, but woah, your voice, your outfit, the vibe, everything is gorgeous

  • @imperialchalice
    @imperialchalice Před 4 měsíci +6

    Oh man…this takes me back to my Japanese goth music phase. Hauntingly beautiful, and absolutely relatable.

  • @marib.364
    @marib.364 Před 7 měsíci +9

    i’m struggling with derealization after some traumatic experiences this past semester. i wish it would leave so i could feel again. i’ve had to quit a class and retake it because my memory is just so shot. it’s so exhausting, but music like this is very relatable and gets me through it. you seem to understand. take care.

  • @ventdeclipse
    @ventdeclipse Před 8 měsíci +29

    bambi, I'm glad i found you, you're really talented, never stop doing this🥺💖

    • @bambibaker
      @bambibaker  Před 8 měsíci +2

      THANK YOU SMM I could neverrr🫀🫀

  • @RayDavillah
    @RayDavillah Před 5 měsíci +7

    I finished listening, and WOW this is beautiful... this is perfectly Borderline disorder... congratulations on being able to perfectly portray one of the most stunning or dangerous moments of this disorder, which is depersonalization... feeling empty, not recognizing yourself, begging for knowledge or what you are...This is a perfect work... I just discovered it but I'm already hoping for more songs. Bambi, you are a great artist. GROW WITH YOUR CAREER ❤

  • @TheDaydreamer777
    @TheDaydreamer777 Před 4 měsíci +17

    As someone who has experiences frequent derealization and also has psychosis (One of my psychotic episodes I actually had the delusion of being in a dream and that all of humanity was trapped inside of a dream) the lyrics "I can't do it, I don't know who is real, I don't know what's real anymore" hit me in the feels WAY harder then I expected🥲 That's honestly what I feel like during my derealization episodes and what it felt like during my psychotic episode except mix in a feeling of betrayal because I thought that my family didn't believe me and thought I was crazy even though I truly believed in my delusion at the time.

    • @jonatasvieira4025
      @jonatasvieira4025 Před 2 měsíci

      But that sympthoms are from dr not psychosys.. its a feeling not a delusion.. if u question and know that is strange to feel and not normal to feel, that means u are lucid

    • @jonatasvieira4025
      @jonatasvieira4025 Před 2 měsíci

      But yes psychisis or schyzophrenia also can have dpdr to protect from stress of having hallucination and delusions abd traumatic events

  • @blinkie_shine
    @blinkie_shine Před 5 měsíci +27

    You are so amazing singer!! You should be more famous 😍

  • @Milk_Carton11
    @Milk_Carton11 Před 5 měsíci +10

    I’m so glad YT recommended this video to me. This song and MV are so sick!!!

  • @crabmaster6932
    @crabmaster6932 Před 4 měsíci +6

    Im not diagnosed with anything, but i heavily relate to this and do think i struggle with derealization and depersonalization. I struggle to feel real and then when I do feel real i feel gross and anxious. When I remember i am human and have to be human and am a person to others, that every single one of my choices and actions matter i feel gross and anxious. I feel like I should be anywhere else and anything else, just not here and just not as me.

  • @LukaxRose
    @LukaxRose Před 3 měsíci +4

    I love this song and your aesthetic. Truly ethereal. I really struggle with intense depression and depersonalization and this song captures it absolutely brilliantly...Please keep making music!!

  • @Tiger_Lightning_Music
    @Tiger_Lightning_Music Před 6 měsíci +16

    Really nice sound, like a songbird of the underworld 🔥🔥🔥

  • @dollforever1749
    @dollforever1749 Před 5 měsíci +6

    The feeling was so perfectly emulated not just with the music but the visuals living like constantly looking through a TV screen

  • @salvadorisp
    @salvadorisp Před 4 měsíci +4

    im struggling with dr/dp for 4 years and lyrics are awesome. probably the best description of this feeling. also im in love with music video, visions, looks. love u ♡

  • @silver_dusk
    @silver_dusk Před 4 měsíci +6

    I'm so thankful for discovering this video randomly, this is intricate and melancholic and angelic and ✨BEAUTIFUL✨the visuals are so immaculate and mysterious, this song is too underrated and I hope this video and your channel get more popular, this is brilliant👍👍👍

  • @Miniman15
    @Miniman15 Před měsícem +2

    As someone else who was in foster care from 11-18 I completely feel every word of this in my soul. Thank you for giving us a voice and words to the feelings.

  • @heichi-mthealien594
    @heichi-mthealien594 Před 6 měsíci +5

    Oh my thank you so much for this masterpiece and as a depersonalisation-derealization struggler, you really packed up the feeling in you music and video, and it just feels... I don't know how to put words on it. I'm glad I discovered you, I just love this kind of music so much, you're very talented, keep up the good work, I guess that I'll be in your fandom by the end of the evening to be honest, definitely gonna dig your music !

  • @tomochka_
    @tomochka_ Před 7 měsíci +9

    прямо сейчас наткнулась на эту песню и послушала все остальные песни Bambi и черт ВАУ!
    почему она не популярна? текста превосходны, звучание идеальное, эта музыка погружает тебя в атмосферу уютна и мрачности, это ощущается как что то родное. я благословлена тем что нашла это, спасибо!

  • @e.l.7116
    @e.l.7116 Před 23 dny +2

    So underrated. Vocals are not what I expected!! So cool and love your deep melancholic voice

  • @kannon2565
    @kannon2565 Před měsícem +2

    Bambi, you are incredible, I have only been listening to you for 3 days and I have already listened to all your music like 8 times, you have a beautiful voice and your songs are masterpieces, I will not get tired of saying that you are incredible, I hope that many more people listen, you deserve everything the support you have and much more
    Greetings from Mexico

  • @nietzscheente1271
    @nietzscheente1271 Před 3 měsíci +3

    This is brilliant. What a beautiful voice, deep lyrics and haunting music video.

  • @thatonepekokinnie
    @thatonepekokinnie Před 7 měsíci +7

    I discovered your music from Spotify and I'm obsessed! All your songs have some sense of nostalgia and your aesthetic is so enviable. I love this music video especially for the relatable lyrics and accurate visuals to how derealization feels like.

  • @wobbles1149
    @wobbles1149 Před 6 měsíci +8

    Such a distinct and hauntingly calming voice! I started listening a few months ago on Spotify. I saw this video today and I am so glad I did

  • @kruchka_official
    @kruchka_official Před 8 měsíci +12

    this masterpiece deserves more than a million views, why are you still not popular?😭💗💗💗

  • @danowo1048
    @danowo1048 Před 5 měsíci +6

    i love when the algorithm shows me the good stuff

  • @Simona2103
    @Simona2103 Před 7 měsíci +18

    Приветствуем восходящую звезду. Это шикарно!

  • @rxynela
    @rxynela Před měsícem +1

    I literally can't tell you how much I adore this hauntingly beautiful piece of art. The song, the lyrics, the video, it's all a masterpiece. I hope you can sing again soon, so you can bless us all with some new music. You got this!

  • @SypticParasite
    @SypticParasite Před 6 měsíci +7

    Thank you so much for making this masterpiece!! One of the best songs I've listened in my life.
    I really love everything related to ghosts and this song really evoke a deep feeling of solitude, just like being a lost soul, trapped and condemned to wander in a world without a purpose but with so many questions, confused and completely alone, hoping someday to get help, to get an answer, or at least, to rest in peace.
    As a new fan I'll be listening to your previous works.
    Have a nice day, and I hope you are feeling better now!

  • @Angel_Scum666
    @Angel_Scum666 Před 7 měsíci +15

    I won't lie, the genre of the music wasn't what I was expecting, but nonetheless, I'm enamored with it all! Thank you ♡

  • @LezardValeth-nn2gl
    @LezardValeth-nn2gl Před 2 měsíci +2

    This video fits the time some one threatened to kill me as a child. because i was talking to much? the feeling of dissonance within the piano chords really hits the "I'm disassociating: reality is fucked".

  • @fabianpertschi1500
    @fabianpertschi1500 Před 2 měsíci +2

    Listen now to this beautiful voice in this beautiful piece of art the third time in repeat. So a powerful yet melancolical song. And I was there too, don`t feel right here and feeled to much pain here on earth so got depressed for many years. Be blessed beloving being

  • @Michael_RA_Duffy
    @Michael_RA_Duffy Před 7 měsíci +5

    Damn, this song's so perfectly aligned with the vibe, it's basically a bloody platonic ideal

  • @wnybpd
    @wnybpd Před 7 měsíci +7

    LOVING THE VIBES SM UGHHH BOTH YOU AND YOUR VOICE IS EXTREMEEELLLYYY GORGEOUS

  • @grantrey.9109
    @grantrey.9109 Před 26 dny +1

    Its cute that u wroked on this with ur mom and stepdad 💕💕
    I really liked it , ur voice tone , ur makeup, dressing , Editing 💕

  • @robertromero5769
    @robertromero5769 Před 3 měsíci +3

    The beautiful girl turned up the music at full volume, I love you Bambi

  • @Lylantz
    @Lylantz Před 5 měsíci +5

    This song and video is ethereal. I'm glad I discovered your music. The ultimate vibe

  • @Sonia-ut2ie
    @Sonia-ut2ie Před 8 měsíci +8

    I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH AHHHH. The video is amazing, matches the song so so perfectly. Angelic
    🗝️🥀🪽🕯️

  • @azoth._.
    @azoth._. Před 3 měsíci +2

    This is beautiful, I'm surprised you don't have more than 13k subscribers :D Also the fact that you started writing this at 13 is crazy, I believe you hit all the notes you wanted to hit with this project overall too, especially the outfit

  • @akbarkhantoru
    @akbarkhantoru Před 8 měsíci +25

    the high notes at the end give me chills , brilliant work

    • @bambibaker
      @bambibaker  Před 8 měsíci +8

      My biggest supporter since the start thank you so so much🫶🫶

    • @wnybpd
      @wnybpd Před 7 měsíci +2

      IKRRRRR ABSOLUTE CHILLS

  • @cianb8741
    @cianb8741 Před 6 měsíci +6

    this is actually insanely good wtf
    never seen music actually express the feeling this well

  • @Wiltinggarden
    @Wiltinggarden Před 5 měsíci +2

    OMG?! this literally gave me chills, your vocals are so angelic, and the way you express yourself is honestly amazing. I am grateful for getting your music on my reccomended videos, keep the good work!! You are incredible

  • @H1N4_N1NJ4
    @H1N4_N1NJ4 Před 5 měsíci +5

    This is so good!!! The vibe, vocals, music everything is just perfect!!

  • @Floop246
    @Floop246 Před 8 měsíci +4

    IVE BEEN LISTENING TO ALL OF YOUR SONGS ON REPEAT!!!! Your one of my new favorite artists and i love your music videos AMAZING!!

  • @aaronlosey7201
    @aaronlosey7201 Před 6 měsíci +2

    I've been fighting off derealization for over 5 years. I really don't see it talked about often enough. The worst moments of it are so surreal that I think a lot of other people don't believe me when I try to describe it. I had a therapist for a while and he had never heard of it. Thank you for writing a whole song around derealization. I've never belonged anywhere yet, but I'm still searching.

  • @EspoirDuVide
    @EspoirDuVide Před 5 měsíci +1

    This just randomly appeared, recommended to me out of nowhere, and I am SPELL BOUND!!

  • @nevillemita
    @nevillemita Před 8 měsíci +5

    OMG!! SO PERFECT, I NEED THIS ON MY PLAYLIST RIGHT NOW.

  • @naenae1114
    @naenae1114 Před 7 měsíci +4

    This is crazy good. I literally feel like you made this song for me, as somebody who struggles with this on a daily basis. I have tearsss in my eyes fr. The whole aesthetic, visuals and song is GORGEOUS it’s literally everything I’ve been looking for in a song. Thank you sm. Keep it up 🫶🏼

    • @bambibaker
      @bambibaker  Před 7 měsíci +1

      THANK YOU SO MUCH it means a lot 🫶🫶

  • @LuumiBluee
    @LuumiBluee Před 4 měsíci +2

    I absolutely love this your voice is so soothing omg and I just relate so much to the lyrics ✨

  • @MikuoHatsuneVocaloid
    @MikuoHatsuneVocaloid Před 5 měsíci +3

    You have such a beautiful, ghostly singing voice. It's very calming, please continue to hone your craft. You are unique!

  • @Orchidry
    @Orchidry Před 7 měsíci +5

    You're extremely underrated it's insane. Your voice is amazing

  • @deleted6991
    @deleted6991 Před 8 měsíci +1

    I just found your music on spotify and I'm insanely obsessed with this song and its album especially holy shit . This song is so hauntingly beautiful!

  • @randomlife9584
    @randomlife9584 Před 4 měsíci +1

    Honestly the song paired with the visuals are perfection, It captures the feeling really well
    Thank you for making this peice of art (:

  • @14daysuntilsundown
    @14daysuntilsundown Před 8 měsíci +8

    UNDERRATED ASF

  • @TheDarkSoul97
    @TheDarkSoul97 Před 4 měsíci +2

    I really liked the song, and all the hard work you put behind it just made it even better!

  • @niravelniflheim1858
    @niravelniflheim1858 Před 4 měsíci +2

    I found that landscape so fascinating. The woodland. The green. The sea. The monument. I used to live in England; not any more, and it reminded me of it. Then I started guessing where it could be. Trees that like the cold; a coast; the sun setting(?) over the water. Maybe on the west. North. Maybe Cumbria. Reminded me of going to Hadrian's Wall one time. And that time I went to Scotland for a funeral. All very curious experiences.

  • @backpacksad330
    @backpacksad330 Před 8 měsíci +4

    The music videos are amazing and I feel like they just keep getting better

  • @Baron_Lio
    @Baron_Lio Před 7 měsíci +4

    Sometimes my youtube recommends are spot on. This is fantastic. Thank you for this work of art!

  • @call_me_lex
    @call_me_lex Před 5 měsíci +2

    I really relate to this song alot, i really love the visual that matches the aesthetic melody of this song. Overrall i feel like you're very underrated please keep up with the hard work you do!❤

  • @Dun-N-Dusted
    @Dun-N-Dusted Před 4 měsíci +2

    One of the better Indie songs I've seen on CZcams over the last bit, nice job

  • @ugh-fp9ep
    @ugh-fp9ep Před 5 měsíci +3

    You are so underated!!! I recommended your songs to some of my friends and they loved it!!!!! I'm sure you'll be so popular soon!!! You deserve it!

  • @bingleblorp993
    @bingleblorp993 Před 7 měsíci +3

    Such a good song omfg 😩 and your aesthetic/artistry is amazing 😚

  • @solan2915
    @solan2915 Před 14 dny +1

    As someone who struggles with derealization a lot this song really resonates me :)

  • @Holographichaven
    @Holographichaven Před 3 měsíci +1

    Completely got my attention, great work from start to finish.

  • @laiyongquanmoe-sz7ub
    @laiyongquanmoe-sz7ub Před 5 měsíci +3

    why doesnt this masterpiece have more views?!

  • @YIPPEE0712
    @YIPPEE0712 Před 8 měsíci +7

    THIS IS GORGEOUS! 💗💗

  • @theroskitten
    @theroskitten Před 7 měsíci +1

    yesterday i was trying to find music recommendations on a site, and this was one of the songs included on the playlist.
    will never forget this was the first song i listened by bambi, now one of my favorite artists!
    wish you the best success, talented is way far from describing you.
    your voice is unique and has a magical range, love u living doll 🎀✨💘

  • @AveSatan666tilbe
    @AveSatan666tilbe Před 5 měsíci +2

    for a homemade video it looks great, and your voice is just amazing! ❤

  • @Evelyn-wd7so
    @Evelyn-wd7so Před 8 měsíci +5

    I found your music not long ago, I feel like I'm so lucky now ♡