A First-Hand Account of Delirium Tremens - Alcoholic Hallucinosis, Hallucinations, and Delusions
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00:00 Introduction
00:30 Alcohol Withdrawal
02:28 Delirium Tremens
07:10 Background & Context
09:55 The First Hallucinations
27:02 The Faces
36:09 Other Hallucinations
40:35 The Worst Hallucination Of All
44:19 The Fear
48:23 The End
In this ~long~ video, I talk in detail about my first-hand experience of alcoholic hallucinosis, delirium tremens, and acute alcohol withdrawal syndrome.
I've experienced delirium tremens and alcoholic hallucinations as a result of alcohol withdrawal several times. I thought it might be interesting to commit some of the experiences to video.
I'd live to hear your experiences, because there aren't enough out there.
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My alcoholism made my life a total misery, and the withdrawal almost killed me.
If you've never been through it before and you're a heavy drinker then I promise you it will only be a matter of time that you do. It will totally surprise you out of the blue. It's like you've suddenly been transported to hell. You can't sleep you sweat and you'll feel your eyes starting to droop when suddenly you see the faces. I'm going through it again after this weekend's lapse after a 4 bottle session on rum. I stopped again on Monday Night. Last night was the only night I finally found some real sleep. I'm literally scared to go to bed just in case I'm transported into hell reality again. I can't go through this again. I have to stop for good this time. No sneaky cans of weak lager as that is how it progresses quickly onto the spirits. Thanks for your video. It's helped me
Yep. Thanks for saying this, it really does creep up on you.
@@_BatCountry Thanks for your videos. I managed to get through last night. It was my 4th night and I was no longer hallucinating but I did hear disturbing voices as I was trying to drop off to sleep. I ended up taking 15 mg of Mertazipine and got to sleep about 5:30 am and managed to sleep around 4hrs. I had some memorable dreams about friends in the past but they weren't too bad. I feel a lot better this morning. I managed to eat a bowl of museli without overheating and sweating. I think I'm over the worst. Tonight should be a lot better for sleep. I didn't know about the kindling effect but from watching your video I can relate to its effect personally. Every withdrawal seems to get worse and I couldn't work out why. Many thanks for your videos they've kept me on the right side of sanity through my withdrawal. I cannot thank you enough.
@@cjh0751hey buddy, keep it up. I’m sorry for what happened I hope now you’re alright and if you need somebody to talk to or just wants to share something we are here, this video is becoming a community. I just hope everything went fine since then and you’re back to reality. Keep going on with the sobriety, don’t touch that shit again
@@DortmundWolf Thanks for the kind words. I'm still off the booze. I'm taking it day by day. The Bat Country channel reminds me that we're not alone in this battle. We all need to help and encourage each other to stay sober.
me too, I saw demons. I was literally in hell.
This guy has better story ideas in his hallucinations than I do in my journaling.
Thank you for sharing your story. It takes a strong person to do so. I have also considered sharing my story, but I've been reluctant. Your story hit me hard, and brought flashbacks of that nightmare caused by AlcoHell. It's definitely given me PTSD, however I am learning to live with it. I quit drinking in 2017, by the Grace of God.
Edit: I would also like to add, these "hallucinations" that I experienced were definitely demonic, evil spirits. As a Christian, i believe there is a Hell, and Satan, and of course demons. I believe Alcohol, and drugs create a Portal to the other side, kinda like using a Ouija board. There's a reason these drinks are called _"Spirits"_
I was trapped in addiction, but I prayed myself out, and Jesus delivered me.
Your story so similar to mine. I’m 5 years sober this month. All the glory to Jesus ❤
@@laceycalhoun3203 Amen, Sister 🙏 Happy to hear that.💪💪 Praise the Lord, Jesus Christ! 🙏
I totally agree with you. My father is the alcoholic and it brought spirits..demons home. My mother got possessed. She's on "meds" now but I know that is just to numb her. My father even After Several DUIs, u being "poor" cuz of the debts he racked up due to the DUIs, restitution fees, alcohol spending, I thought we were "poor" therefore could not "afford" a babysitter, and my mother relapsing with these demons aka " mental illnesses " AND he still is an Alcoholic. You're right ..Alcohol is a gateway ..You're opening another dimension..to Hell!!!!! She would scream...talk like Carrie the movie..."they're burning me!!!" I brought a Priest to the home and no one knew about it except me and the driver..that thing inside her screamed expletives why the Priest was here?!?!?! Get Closer to God and choose your Friends Wisely. Blessings.
Stay strong friend, you can overcome alcoholism with the help of good friends, a good doctor and support from your AA or whatever you choose to find a way out. Stay strong!
I have also been through the cycle of binge drinking over a period of weeks and then going into acute withdrawal and I identified completely with your experiences of alcoholic hallucinosis as I have gone through this several times. It was exactly as you described, with it beginning as a sort of background hubbub, like I could hear the neighbour's TV through the wall, progressing to actual voices, me having an actual conversation with them, arguing with them, pleading with them. It was absolutely terrifying. And when I went to the A&E department armed with a self-diagnosis of alcoholic hallucinosis, the staff looked at me like I was talking nonsense. I don't think they'd ever heard of it, it's such a misunderstood complication of acute alcohol withdrawal. Thankyou for doing this video and reassuring me that I'm not the only person who's been through this.
It's really, really hard to try to describe this stuff to people who haven't been through it, isn't it? They look at you blankly like you're just describing a dream. But to us, it was viscerally real at the time. It's frustrating even trying to get people to understand the scale of the experience without sounding like a crazy person.
"Like I could hear the neighbour's TV through the wall." That's exactly it.
I feel you about the treatment too. The NHS tell you to call an ambulance as soon as you start hallucinating, but the staff aren't prepped for handling it. The first time it happened to me was in the UK and I had a similar experience. They put me on a drip on an open ward and just left me there. It's been different since it happened again in Germany where they did understand it, and knew how to treat it.
Anyway, I hope you're doing ok now :)
@@_BatCountry I'm sober at the moment and after having several traumatising experiences with alcoholic hallucinosis and delusional thinking, I'm determined to keep it that way. Every time I go through the withdrawals I am worried about the damage I'm doing to my brain, because of what I'm putting it through on a neurological level.
The last time I had to go to the hospital with alcoholic hallucinosis, I was aware that I was hallucinating. Like I said previously it started off sounding like the neighbour's TV through the wall, but then became more coherent and louder. It eventually manifested itself for some reason, as the voice of a Scottish woman, who was taunting me for trying to ignore her. I remember sitting in bed trying to read my book but she just kept repeating the words on the page in a mocking tone, laughing at me and taking the mickey. It was just relentless.
This is where it's going to sound really mad because I started talking back and telling her to go away, and then it was sort of like, 'well whose voice WOULD you want to have a chat with?' and for a joke I said, 'well Ricky Gervais probably'. And guess what? Suddenly it WAS Ricky Gervais's voice. ANd Karl Pilkington, and Stephen Merchant. And I was sat in my bedroom suddenly having a right laugh with the three of them.
It hadn't gone away by the morning, which is when I went to the A&E department. But how can you explain to the staff that you can hear Ricky Gervais in your head talking to you and cracking jokes without being sectioned immediately...? It seems ridiculous.
After about four hours in A&E those voices disappeared and I thought it was over, but then the delusional thinking started. I began to become convinced everyone in the waiting room was talking about me and criticising me. I thought they were looking at me funny. My mum was with me and she was frightened because none of it was real but I was getting really paranoid and vocal about how angry I was with them for talking about me. Luckily at that point the doctor saw me and I was medicated with librium. I went home and I slept it off, and thankfully the voices and the thoughts had gone away when I woke up.
Sorry for such a long post, but honestly, I have never found a video anywhere before that I could relate to so personally as much as yours. Thanks so much for putting it out there, and I'm glad you're in a much better place now :-)
@@blondebutterfly87 I'm happy to hear you got through it and you're sober right now. And to be honest, not to minimise your experience, but if i could pick someone to have a hallucinated conversation with, it would probably be karl pilkington.
@@_BatCountry to be fair, that part of the hallucination was quite entertaining!
The visuals are more vivid than human eyes can even see in real life
Absolutely true.
Yeah I heard my name and it was terrifying. And horrific faces when I would try to sleep and my heart would race. But once It's over It's a humbling experience. Alcohol opens doors to hell and that's what we see. When we are sober we are our actual selves and that's refreshing.
Very true, thanks for the comment Bradley!
Hell exist... alcohol are key to this, dark dimension x.
It really is. When I was hungover I would be a sweaty shaky mess, completely depressed and too anxious to leave the house. I wouldn't know what was a thought, a dream, something that happened on TV or if it was something I did when I was drunk. Even 3 day benders when I wasn't hungover I remember feeling like I was losing my mind from the lack of sleep and the high amounts of alcohol, once I remember holding my head and just screaming because I just wanted to snap back to normal.
Hi friend, I'm here from your link from r/stopdrinking. I've had absolutely horrible alcohol withdrawal hallucinations... and white knuckled then all at home. Easily the fucking most stupid, dangerous thing I've ever fucking done. I should be dead. I'm now 20 days sober, and this will be the final time I have to GET sober.
Thank you so much for sharing your experience and sharing such personal things. It is sincerely appreciated.
Sending you positive, healthy vibes.
Hey Daisy, and welcome from Reddit. I might politely encourage you to commit your experiences with hallucinations to video - I know that's a scary prospect, but if there's one thing I've learned from the comments on this video, people want to know what it's like and there are very few people talking openly about it.
Congrats on your 20 days, that's the hardest bit done with. I wish you nothing but the best, and feel free to check in from time to time with updates.
All the very best. ❤
Has anyone else experienced hearing dead loved ones? To this day I don’t know if this was DT’s. I got out of bed one morning and heard my dead ex’s voice announce himself to me. We talked all day and it started off really pleasant (he died by suicide and we ended on a bad note so it felt like a blessing to get closure). As the day went on it started to become more demonic. It went from my exes voice telling me how much he loved me and to tell his family how much he loves them- to “I’m going to hell for dating you! Lord is bad! The demon is going to kill you!” At one point I even became convinced that my ex’s soul was trapped in my pillow by a demon. Ended up being hospitalized because I was shouting at things no one else could hear. To this day I don’t trust my perceptions anymore. The story is so much longer, but it’s honestly kind of re-traumatizing to type out the details.
I really do think alcohol opens up some type of demonic door. This happened 5 days after I stopped drinking cold turkey. What’s interesting to me is that there were no visual hallucinations, unlike a lot of the comments I’m reading. It was exclusively auditory.
I did all my loved ones were waiting for me very scary
It's crazy how similar our stories are.
I was going through really bad DTs and was convinced there was a drone flying over my apartment beaming voices into my head. They started off as whispers at first just like this guy says. I slowly began to be able to pick out words and distinct voices. At first it sounded like an ex's friend who works for a government research facility. I thought they were fucking with me for some reason, it got so bad that I messaged my ex who I hadn't spoken to in about a year, "Can you please tell your friends to stop fucking with me? They're really hurting me and I just want it to stop".
Then the voices revealed they were actually teenagers who lived nearby and bought this cool drone attachment online. There were three or four of them. I was tortured by it for 3 sleepless days, whenever I tried to lay down I thought they were blasting incredibly loud concert level music into my brain. Lots of laughing at my expense, bringing up past mistakes and pains and insecurities only I could have possibly known about. I pleaded with them to stop and they said not until you die of sleep deprivation or kill yourself. They eventually told me they would stop if I drove to a certain location. They gave me an address in my mind and I wrote it down. I put it into my phone and followed the directions. 15 minutes later I found myself at the address of an old part-time job I had 5-6 years before. I waited for instructions, the voices laughed and called me a dumbass. Crazy how the unconscious/subconscious brain can remember things like that. If someone asked me the address to that place I would have no idea what it was.
It was really intense and getting more intense. I could hear full conversations and was having them back. They talked about stuff like adjusting the calibration or turning up the power when the voices got quiet. Really weird shit. It got so bad I ordered one of those silver-lined hoods that supposedly block EMF and cell towers. Didn't help because the voices were all in my head from the DTs not from some drone or government 5G towers or whatever conspiracy theory I probably read an article about once and my brain stored. I drove around the neighborhood looking for people in back yards with controllers in their hands and everything, I was ready to beat the shit out of them.
Several times I went outside to look for this drone and kept seeing it just dipping over the other side of the apartment. Once I saw it speed off in a direction then zoom off at a right angle somewhere else and circle around like they didn't want me to know where they were located. I saw bright flashes of light from electrical sockets, moving shadows, could feel footsteps on my bed or someone yanking on my foot. Once I felt something stab me and lurched out of bed because it hurt so bad. I turned on the lights to check for blood but there was nothing there.
It went from teenagers to the government to demons. All the messages were extremely threatening, the closed eye visions were of unimaginable gore and terrible sexual depravity. The demonic stuff was most certainly the worst, that was towards the end. Very creative ways of torture and what not I still don't particularly like talking about so I'll keep that part short.
I don't know how long it lasted all I know is that I ordered the hood on the 3rd day, it came 4 days later, and it kept going for a few days after that. I'm sure my complete lack of sleep didn't help with the audio/visual hallucinations. I'm also sure I made everything worse by trying to drink just a little bit when it got too bad to make everything go away. That didn't work at all and just prolonged my torture.
I can assure people reading this I have no history of mental illness but those DTs and 10(?) nights with just a few minute microsleeps while I was still conscious turned me absolutely temporarily insane. When it was all finally subsiding that's when my dumbass finally checked into a detox center. I definitely should have gone in sooner.
Wow that really is VERY similar to my experience. I could go point by point like "yep same thing, yep same thing." Thank you so much for sharing that - as scary as it is, it's really useful that we talk about this stuff because there's some comfort in knowing other rational people have experienced it too.
That detail about being given an address that was already lodged somewhere in your subconscious or memory: that's what makes me feel like these things are more like waking dreams (or nightmares) than the actual hallucinations you get from, say, a bad acid trip or something.
And that bit that you don't really want to talk about? The violence and sexual depravity? I had that too, constantly, with elaborate torture traps and stuff. I don't tell people about that part because I worry what it says about me as a person, but there's some relief in knowing that that's actually really common, but people (including me) are scared of revealing it.
Thanks again.
I think I was so sleep deprived my mind forced me to enter REM sleep while I was awake. It was absolutely terrifying. Luckily I'm doing better now. I've always been a very rational person and don't have a history of mental illness of anything like that. No drug abuse either, I stay away from that sort of thing because I know it'd be too easy to fall into that trap.
It was honestly the most terrifying experience of my life. And I agree, the violence and sexual depravity part with the torture traps isn't something I'll likely ever tell anyone about. I know it had to come from inside my head somewhere, and what would that say about me as a person? I think the dark places in our hearts come out at the worst moments.
We're not bad people at all, for instance I have a lot of love in my heart to give and I would never intentionally hurt someone unless it was in self defense. It was just horrific and I never wish to experience anything like that again.@@_BatCountry
Dude. Wow. What an unexplainable terrifying experience. Our stories are extremely similar, I could write a short book on the whole experience it was nuts, I can't even begin to type it. The different levels and storylines I was flipping through hallucination wise was unreal. Very demonic. Very scary. I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy to go through that haha it was NUTSSSS, wild how creative it got. And yeah all starting with people from my past outside my windows talking horribly about me and then it spiraling into a whole wild series of themed hallucinations that seemed straight out of a movie. Your completely sucked into it and have no idea that they are actually hallucinations.
And yes, to both of you the "don't talk about" parts about it, same. Horrible and terrifying and I can't believe my brain produced this experience.so wild.
I honestly think it's more than just our brains making the stuff up and we tap into some spiritual realm with entities that know who we are and all of our past and bad things we have done
as somebody who tripped a lot - i was very very aware that i was hallucinating, but the fact that it was due to my alcoholism was news to me. i figured i was having "flashbacks" the very first time. the second time it happened i stopped drinking i put two and two together. i was like ohhhh so thats whats happening. after two nights no sleep and sweating, it usually subsides. i do it cold turkey, probably not smart - i dont think i could do it one more time. wish me luck mate
i had full dt's, i thought the tv show i was watching was talking to me, i was having full on conversations, i couldnt sleep or even keep water down, i was hearing full symphonies and could control them like a conducter, i was hallucinating , a tree stump would become a dog, i saw demons, horrible creatures in pain, felt as if i was being cut, squeezed, it was literally hell. i was eventually 5150. that was a whole other experience.
Well, I'm glad you made it out buddy. A Lot of people don't.
I had been drinking for around 30 years but over the last 15 years more and more heavily until I got to the point that I was starting to drink in the morning to take away the anxiety (I was up to around 4 bottles of wine a day at that point… but I still considered myself to be a “functioning alcoholic” I performed well at work and thought that my drinking wasn’t affecting my family (oh Mum’s always pissed in the evening…) until for various personal reasons and events I went on a 3 day binge and drank over 20 bottles of wine. My husband simply didn’t know what to do and he was working away in Ireland at the time… my daughter took charge, dressed me and drove me to the doctors where I was signed off work. That was my low point and I drank my last bottle of wine that afternoon (I couldn’t get anymore anyway as my husband had taken my car from me for safety reasons) by the late evening the vomiting started but it was mostly dry heaving as I hadn’t eaten for 4 days and I couldn’t keep down water. I hadn’t slept for 3 days but by the nighttime I was having the most horrifying closed eye hallucinations every time I tried to go to sleep. It would start with glowing cat like eyes in the distance then the images would get closer and closer changing into people, snakes, spiders, aliens or rotting corpses and demons all with sharp pointed teeth barred at me… all glowing brightly. I would try to keep my eyes closed as long as I could until the images rushed at me with their mouth’s open to attack me with the pointed teeth and I would scream and open my eyes and the images would disappear. I phoned my daughter in the morning and told her what was happening (I was still hallucinating at the time) and she called my doctor who immediately phoned me and told me to get to hospital. I didn’t want to go but he was persistent and kept ringing me until I agreed to go. My daughter and gp probably saved my life… I was in hospital for 5 days given medication and put on various Iv drips. I’m in a therapy group and I take medication 3 times a day to help reduce alcohol cravings. I’ve been alcohol free since the 9th April this year and after that horrifying experience I intend to keep it that way… my mental health has greatly improved since quitting which is ironic as I’d used alcohol to self medicate my anxiety and depression all those years. I thought alcohol was my friend, but it isn’t, it’s pure poison (well for me anyway) xxx
Hey Angela! Congratulations on making it out the other side of that experience. That term... functioning alcoholic... people always focus on the 'functioning' part and just ignore the most important part: alcoholic.
It sounds like you had a really rough experience with delirium tremens. It's life-changingly terrifying, isn't it? It's horrible to think that all those extreme, gory images are just sitting there inside our heads.
Anyway it seems like you have good people around you, and that's so important. I wish you success, and thank you for sharing your experience. I wish more people would be brave enough to do the same.
When you know you are going to withdraw from alcohol you know that you are going to be in a world of pain. I used to look out of my window when withdrawing and wishing that I was anyone but me. This is because it was the first day of pain. Frightening and scary.
I agree…when I know it’s time to comedown…I feel the FEAR…makes things clearer…now I understand why some ppl commit to taking their lives…because they fear the pain and hurt of coming off…or why ppl never come off…
Dude alcohol is definitely in a way more powerful and life changing than LSD and Mushrooms as well as other substances. I fucked up and binged drank with a friend from out of state for an entire week after being alcohol free for awhile.... I'm finally feeling better like 2 months later.... Stay safe and learn from past mistakes. Thanks for sharing your experience.
Thank you so much. I had a really bad DT as you did and it's beyond imaginable. I had memory loss but the weird part is that I still remember the hallucinations, physical touches, the sentences - music in detail 2 years later. My brain managed to play music and lyrics that I never heard before, really great chorus music wise except for the time being of course. Sober now and I will never go through that hell again.
i've had vivid nightmares in withdrawal periods, and I thought I'd had it bad...those hallucinations sound horrifying. i will say though, my experience had one thing in common with yours - it exploits your insecurities
The hallucinations are incredibly terrifying when you’re in withdrawal
Wanna share a story too about dying from fear of the hallucinations. It’s not about me, it’s about my dad. Since I have memory he always had an alcohol problem, kinda like every 3/4 months he would take a week free from work and just drink all week. Sometimes even more, some times often. All my grandparents were alcoholic and my mom, brother and myself we always tried to stop him from drinking but he would eventually find a way to go buy alcohol. Hiding his keys or his wallet wouldn’t stop him. So we were always “he is used to it, we just have to wait for the week to pass and he will be sober again” big mistake. To anyone who has a beloved one who is an alcoholic, go to a detox, help them, do something cause you don’t wanna feel like me now. So about last week he started drinking again. Literally 1 or 2 bottles of vodka every day. Same as always I thought. Until yesterday.
Yesterday he stopped drinking completely, he began to shake as always but I noticed that the shakes were too “strong” he couldn’t even handle a glass of water without making water drop cause of the shakes. He couldn’t really walk, he was disoriented. But he was conscious and could talk. At some point I was smoking in the kitchen, he came, asked me to give him a cigarette. After the first 2 blows he turned to the fridge, started screaming and his face was getting purple. He was frozen and I touched him as his arms were still paralyzed towards him and he was hard as steel, I could see the veins on his neck getting bigger his eyes almost popping out. I was in panic totally panic I started screaming my mom and brother came and we managed to set him on the ground on a side of his body cause he was making bubbles from the mouth. I really thought my father would have died between my arms. As he started breathing again really loudly I was in a mix of anxiety and happiness. He vomited alcohol and blood probably because he bit his tongue. I was talking calmly to him telling him everything is all right that I’m there as my brother called the ambulance. And guys, I don’t know what that was but he was looking at me terrified, couldn’t recognize me, couldn’t talk, he was like very drunk again even if all day he was conscious and on the sober way, but never saw a drunk man like that. His eyes were looking at me and they were so disturbing. I can’t tell if it was fear, confusion or surprise of seeing me, whatever he saw by looking at me. And I’m pretty sure he saw something as he turned to the fridge back as when this “thing” started, hearing that delirium tremens leads to this experiences and seeing his face like that, his scream everything in those 10 seconds as this crisis started, made me think how lucky he was and it’s not one of the 40% of people that dies from this horrible experience. We don’t know if this was an epileptic attack or something near to a heart attack or panic. I still have to ask the doctor of the hospital.
The ambulance came, took him and I visited him today, he looks better but after this video I think he is probably still hallucinating. I just hope that the medications he is receiving are helping him to sleep.
I’ll talk tomorrow to him and ask him about everything cause this video made me realize that talking about it can only help, no shame.
And no shame in sharing this story, I was always ashamed of this side of my father and never really tried to help him or told anyone about this and I’m doing this now. Especially cause I’m sure a lot of people thinks like I did and they don’t really try to find a solution. Please drink responsibly if you can’t just cut it out like I did, I lost my driver license twice because of alcohol and I’m sober since 3 years now. And please help your beloved ones if they are alcoholic, don’t be to late
Wow what a terrible, terrifying experience, for everybody involved. You raise a point that I didn't cover: that it's terrifying to go through, but it's also scary for everybody else around.
Congrats on three years, Wolf!
Hope everythings ok man. 💪
Everything fine now. Well my dad is still recovering in hospital but it’s on the good way. Thanks for the messages guys, this video helped me a lot and I hope it helps others to understand how critical this experiences are
What a terrifying experience. I’m glad you and your brother and mom were there because if you weren’t there to help him and call 911 he probably would’ve died. What your dad went through was living hell and he was scared with what was happening to him physically and mentally. I went through that same thing last year and I was alone in a hotel room no one around I was ready to die I just asked god to please look after my wife and kids because they deserved so much better. I was shaking uncontrollably but then it passed. I messed up many more times after that but today I’m 4 months sober. What your dad needs to do is cut the head off the snake, eliminate alcohol, toxic people in his life and anything else that might affect him and make him turn to booze. All he needs is those that love him and all he should care about are the ones living within the 4 walls of his home. Nothing else matters tell him to tune out the negative and start over. He’s got this. Rooting for him and for you and your family-Joseph
@@jbenz1990 Great advice, and congrats on your sobriety!
Some say it’s a disease and some say it’s the devil
This is my story. Finally. Someone else knows. Where can I got to talk about these things?
I was released from hospital about 6 months ago after nasty DTs. The worst part is the delirium doesn’t start when you first stop drinking. You have to go through a few days extreme anxiety and pounding hearts. Then they come. I was screaming until they finally injected me with Valium. Makes me too terrified to drink again. I don’t remember a lot of my hallucinations, other than spiders and terrifying faces. And my name being said from different parts of the room in a demonic way. Thankfully my Mrs is a nurse and called the ambulance so quickly. Thanks for your story. It’s scary what alcohol can do.
I missed this comment when you posted it. I'm sorry you had to go through that, but happy the outcome was that you decided not to go through it again. Stay strong.
During my first night at rehab, I had an unusual experience. I vaguely woke up, thinking I could hear a radio playing Bob and Tom. The intriguing part was that it seemed to come from the hospital bed, creating a unique and calming atmosphere.
On the second day, everything was fine. However, the following night, I woke up to bright laser pointers of various colors shining through the window, creating a surreal scene. Imagining black ops scenarios outside, I became concerned about who else might be in the hospital. Venturing out, I overheard worried conversations, leading me to wedge a chair against my door for safety.
Soon after, a real doctor arrived, pointing out that I couldn't barricade myself. Later, I overheard a heated family argument that escalated into a tragic incident. Witnessing surreal events, like the appearance of Jamie Foxx, left a lasting impression. When I questioned nurses the next morning, they expressed concern about possible hallucinations. I chuckled it off, attributing it to a bizarre dream.
This is heartbreaking. Thank you for your story. I’m so happy you are well now. I have only had shakes/vomiting and small amounts of audio. I would hear some light music and some times a door bell. I knew I was in big trouble and stopped. I pray for every one going through a rough time. The devil is real. Evil. May everyone receive blessings ❤
I’m in the same way, much love and strength for you!
I've been through alcohol withdrawl a few times. I'm not sure if God is real, but I'm sure as heck the Devil exists purely because of my withdrawl experiences.
Thank you for your incite..it is very telling and yes very true as i have been down that rabbit hole myself ..alcohol is a narcotic but yes legal..at least in many countries..and we do believe that it is safe as it is legal and governments make billions off it but they said the same thing about cigarettes 50 years ago. I served in the army..i taught overseas..alcohol was everywhere..but i never thought i would become addicted to it..but i did..as you have..I appreciate your courage and honesty. Fortunately i did not have the DTs..but i definitely went through withdrawal..sleepless nights..some auditory illusions..but i still keep going back..beer was my friend..at one point until it wasnt..Brian from Canada.
I appreciate the subtle background sounds, music, sounds french. you incorporated into your video. It's awesome how you managed to capture those eerie, almost otherworldly sounds. During my own experience with DT's, I vividly recall hearing a mix of Mexican music and distant German soldiers. It's a chilling but incredibly intriguing touch, and it makes me believe that there might be another dimension that only our minds can unveil. It's scary, yet undeniably fascinating. I tripped on LSD and Shrooms before but nothing I mean nothing like alcohol withdrawals 100X more insane and realistic then LSD or Shrooms and it can last for weeks lol.
Amazing account. As someone who went through chronic benzo withdrawal ( which is very similar) I found Especially relatable are the voices (my mother in distress as well) also that super long narrative arch semi dream hallucinations. And the destroyed faces. I had similar ones seeing a delivery man with one of those destroyed faces caused me to crash my motorbike then a bus driver with the face of the devil who I had to talk to. The accusing stare of a dead roadkilled cat swivelling its head to follow me up and down the street. A long narrative arch story where I was a detective working in a red and black dark room dismantling the retinas of a dead mummified woman (found clutching her dead baby in a shower) in order to see the last thing she saw was. Which tuned out to some kind of hideous unholy creature from hell. Asking people about it "you know that mummified shower woman?" Still have actual dreams year later that go on for like full length novels, never had them before the addiction. Reckon my brain was permanently damaged in some way by the withdrawals and the siezures that followed.
I was drinking heavily and one day I saw some kind of dwarf in the kitchen. I screamed, “Who are you?” And he responded, “Who are you?” Well, I ran into the street barefoot in my vomited pants, the police caught me and took me to the ambulance. Three weeks in the hospital, a week in intensive care. The doctors said that cerebral edema had begun. I haven’t drunk since then. Alcohol delirium is an incredible horror
It’s weird how closely yet far similar the hallucinations are…my last go round with my hallucinations was like that too…I seen two dwarf like things…hiding behind the couch…then the stove…creepy things…
I did too
@user-lc4kr1yt4c During delirium, insects crawled over me and a cat walked on my back and rubbed its head against the back of my head. Although I never had a cat... And it felt as if my whole mouth was stuffed with either cotton wool or threads. I pulled these threads for hours from his own mouth and put it on his wrist... Complete madness
@@johnjoe3386 Yes. Horrors. Some monstrous faces, spiders, dead mutilated children. Sometimes I woke up in the middle of the night screaming wildly. I thought I would either die somewhere on the street or go crazy...
@@user-lu2xx7vn9wI'm glad you're doing better.
I can listen to you for hours.
Wow this was incredible. I’ve had audible hallucinations after a bender before (voices tauntingly telling me that I was going to die… I didn’t) and have had visual hallucinations exactly one time (I saw a bunch of triangle-ish shaped spaceships in the atmosphere almost like an invasion). The majority of the terrifying experiences for me are the closed eye visuals - I never saw people or faces when I had my eyes open but when I would close my eyes it was a fucking trip. Like a nonstop movie that changes scenes every 5 seconds. Often about porn, sometimes about nonsensical stuff, and sometimes grotesque violence dreamt up from the deepest depths of my subconscious. I was always afraid of paying too much attention to the hallucinations or writing them down for fear they’d become more permanent or give them more staying power in the real world. Fascinating stuff about the two reoccurring people in the delirium tremens though I hadn’t heard that before. I feel like you tap into a weird alternate spiritual world when you’re up for days on end in withdrawal, almost like the reverse-DMT. It’s terrifying and definitely gives you motivation to live a good life lmao. You do feel a weird sense of conquering that other world though, not necessarily “conquering” but coming out with yourself intact knowing that that place didn’t break you. That place can drive lesser men into permanent psychosis/insanity or even death. You’re a spiritual warrior.
I’m coming up on 4 years sober now but I still felt that cold tinge of fear creep up when you were describing the hallucinations (although I didn’t have it as bad as you)
Yeah you're right - the closed-eye visualisations are wild. Yours sound like mine, loads of weird sex and extreme violence, almost beyond your control, like a movie, as you said. Thanks for the comment buddy.
@@_BatCountry Do you ever maladaptive daydream? I do a lot as a fellow writer so I have a pretty vivid imagination even in my 30s. I wonder if this happens more to people who are creative/have big imaginations
Great question, yes I do, and I've privately wondered that same thing.
I had the exact same thing. Only when I closed my eyes, you described exactly what I was seeing. For hours all night long. Eventually I just gave up and watched it like a movie. The most demonic scenes I’ve ever seen!!!
@@donengland9140 Yeah I didn't mention it but that's what I did too, I just kind of... watched it.
Thanks for the comment!
Thank you so much for this! ❤ i have never reached the full blown visual hallucinations, but am beyond fascinatef by these stories. Its almost like you can feel your actual soul being damaged. I experienced insane scenes of bloody piles of bodies having sex in bath of blood whenever i closed my eyes. And a loud rumble that overtook everything like a jet engine or a tibetan horn. I also had a dream (or hallucination maybe) that i levitated out of my bed and floated into the hallway and this evil presence and the deep rumble just was all around me. Its so surreal how this stuff borders into spirituality and how similar and carnal the images are. Best to you man and really appreciate this incredible story.
From one Jack Torrance to another, glad we got out of there alive.
Me too brother, me too.
I drank a bottle of Jack y everyday for 2years When I stoped I would shake violently the only way that would 🛑 would be to drink! I started helusinating talking to people that weren't there,then I stay hearing voices Very Scary I thought I was going crazy I used to think meth was the but Alcohol is the worst drug I have ever seen
thank you for sharing. Having hallucinations that are so convincing that I knew what it must be like to have schizophrenia is what scared me away from alcohol for good. I still get chills thinking about it. At the same time its amazing what our minds are capable of.
Everything thing you have said happened to me too. Everything and even more. It was by far the worst time of my life. I'm surprised I'm still alive. Thanks for sharing,. I feel relieved.
Glad you made it through.
Very powerful video. There are indeed very few first-hand accounts of DTs on the internet.
Hope you can post more videos about withdrawal and about leading a sober life. 👍🏽
Thanks Peter! The response to this video has been so positive that I will definitely be posting more on this subject.
@@_BatCountry Yup, just saw and shared your most recent video. This stuff is gold! Should be part of addiction education in schools.
@@_BatCountryHi Trying to learn more about this. What does the acronym DT stand for?
This is exactly why alcoholics have a tendency to turn to God. Everything you described can easily be attributed to demons who are tormenting you. I am agnostic, but when I see stuff like this over and over it makes you think.
I suspect you might be right, I think a lot of people are tempted to believe that they've punctured through some sort of veil of consciousness and seen something spiritual. That's not my own interpretation, but when I understand why people feel that way.
I just felt the same feelings in my DTs
Demonic
POWERFUL VIDEO!!!! Y’all listen up!!! Salute to you my friend!
Thanks Slayer, that means a lot, I'm a fan of your channel too.
@@_BatCountry that is awesome bro, keep up the good work, I binged like 7 of your videos earlier lol, can definitely relate to a lot of what you say. Thanks brother, have a great day 💯✌🏻
The first full day and night of withdrawal, everytime I closed my eyes I saw terrifying, disfigured faces. I tried to imagine other things and was shown grotesque machines which started as seemingly normal objects and flashed into horrifying imagery. The tremors were annoying too. I also got audio hallucinations, I was recently arrested and coukd always hear faint sirens in the distance. Was camping in a forest at the time and would make out dark figures once the sun set. I'm only 24, am homeless and this was a week ago.
You saw the faces too, huh? I also saw machines, weird, partially organic things leaking dark blood. You ever had a serious head injury by the way? I did, and the other guy I spoke to who saw faces also had a head injury.
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@@_BatCountry glad to know I'm not the only one aha. I was involved in a car crash in which I was knocked unconscious. Perhaps that played a part but I can't see how they'd link up...
@@asdfghjvrty I don't know how either, but some of the other people I've read about or spoken too who've seen faces in particular have also had head injuries.
I had all these numerous time each one was scary
Thank you so much for ths video. I have seen those faces too after drinking heavily. I thought i was inssne. Its comforting to know im not the only one
WOW ty brother for sharing ,,i have been there too its the worst feeling a person can exprience ,,all things bad all at a time ,,,wow just cant imagine ,,,
Fascinating. Thank you I am always looking for stories on the DT’s
They are horrible…
My experience with them was very scary and even had them outside in public places and saw shadow people etc…
Its no lie…
I was really fucked up one time
Glad I found you ,
Thankyou sir, from wales uk
bole da cariad, welcome to the channel :)
@@_BatCountry how sweet xx thankyou
Some of the things he’s describing is experienced during sleep paralysis, you feel something touching you and talking to you as if it’s real , I’ve had it since childhood with no drinking or substances. But awake like he’s describing sounds terrifying
What’s with the odd background track on this one? Great video man you’re incredibly articulate. I was absolutely gripped listening to this.
Thank you! And yeah, good spot with the music - I took some music from the 40s and 50s and slowed it down to 70% to make it feel a bit more... unsettling.
I’m glad I found your page I thought I was alone for years
Welcome buddy.
You have a link to speak
Talking to my family and friends about how serious this disease is
Yes Ive dealt with it. People need to be aware
I had something very close to this but I was not drinking. I got a severe case of covid last November. What I can tell you is that my head felt swollen. My brain was burning severely. I started hallucinating 2 weeks into it. I started seeing figures walking around me. I heard voices when I laid in bed at night telling me to do self harm. There was a few times when I would walk into my house and hear a full conversation of people talking. I expected a group of my family there. the house was completely empty. I have been left with extreme ptsd from this whole thing. I also encountered disfigured faces especially when try to close my eyes at night. Images of peoples eyes coming out of there head, demonic faces, things that no human should ever even see and things I didn't think my own mind was capable of doing.
I quit the drank last year and I do not miss it. Even a bit of chilled vodka (which I wasn’t accustomed to b/c I’d never wait for it to get cold) is enough to make me feel sick and ashamed. So glad I never got into those deep withdrawal symptoms. It honestly shouldn’t even be legal let alone as widely available as it is and marketed how they do.
What was said in the into is 100% true. I smoked some laced weed back when I was 15 & absolutely thought I was going to be schizophrenic during & afterwards. I would work myself into panic attacks just by looking in the corner of my room in the dark convinced that there was something there. It took months, maybe even years, for me to regain my composure. I lost all of my HS years due to it. That was a decade ago.
I can feel the panic creep in if I stay up for a day. I can catch myself most times, but there are moments where I wake up sweaty with my heartbeat racing that makes me think that's the day I lose my mind.
All that had led to me abusing alcohol. I'm more of a binge drinker & that's how it all starts. Videos like these remind me of how slippery that slope is & how hard I worked on making it back to my former self.
Hope everyone the best. It's a tough time, but it does get easier to manage.
It's scary how an experience like that, so long ago, can still bleed into our everyday lives. Thanks for the positive thoughts and encouragement!
This is simply horrifying, I’ve gotta say I’ve had convincing hallucinations from ketamine that scared me but this makes me glad I’ve stayed away from hard alcohol. I commend you being able to stay sober through all that, I know with my own addictions my brain would remind me what would make the discomfort stop. It’s surprising that your mind didn’t see alcohol as a means to stop the hallucinations
Yeah that's a really good point - these hallucinations don't "feel" like hallucinogenic hallucinations. It's really hard to explain. And yeah, powering through that period without reaching for another bottle to kill the visualisations is HARD. Thanks for the comment!
Actually, once the DT's have begun nothing can stop the hallucinations, even hitting the bottle again won't work. Drugs can help to reduce the chance of seizure and death but the other symptoms just have to run their course.
@@_BatCountry I second that…when the hallucinations start…in back of your mind…you know even just a sip of alcohol would make it stop…but then it’s like pushing the “RESET” button…and now you have to start over…
This is giving me real anxiety remembering how bad my hallucinations where,absolutely terrorfying. I sat in a bus shelter for 2 nights after running out of my house in fear.it was like I was living in a mad insane terrorfying alternative realty ,but I was awake .it got so bad I started to think I had gone mad and the only way to stop this was to kill myself. I needed this timely reminder. 3 months since my last drink.
Those two you saw, I had a similar experience .... I thought my two platinum blondes were angels, and that I'd died. Totally convinced. You're right, I struggle to believe my own perceptions even now.
My hallucinations were like fuzzy tracers shooting across the floor... I did have a few shocking mental/audio-visual visions in the dark where I see something in my peripheral and turn to look and saw a woman staring at me about a foot from me. That was chilling.
It's scary stuff isn't it, how our own minds can deceive us like that?
@@_BatCountryyup
Im fascinated by this .. iv been having very heavy drink binges... lasting up to two weeks. Id like to find the link to your book.. but cant find it! Can u pls send it me please? Many thanks 😊
Hey Melissa! Here's the link... www.amazon.com/-/en/Stu-Nugent-ebook/dp/B09SY4K17P
Detox with help.
Thankyou so much I'm going to order it!
I had them that bad one time i still was having them still 2 weeks after stopping drinking…
Had seizures as well in the past…
Its the neurotransmitters being messed up by alcohol with hallucinations
So much I can relate here. For I it was figures coming in between doors where there was a little bit of light coming through.
I appreciate you and how you explained this. Its closest to how I understand what happened when I went through this
Thank you. Your experience seems consistent with a lot of others that I've read, and with my own. It's interesting to me that alcoholic hallucinations seem to provoke very similar visualisations across cultures and backgrounds.
Wow. 🙏❤️
I’m having dreams while wide awake, out of bed. I haven’t been drinking this week at all and I guess this is withdrawal? Like I get tingling all over, mostly in my butt cheeks (weird, I know, but that’s how I know something is wrong) then it’s like I’m dreaming about something, I get lightheaded and can’t figure out if I’m asleep or not even though I know it’s not a dream. It’s scary as heck. Nothing terrible happens in the dream or getting out of it. I don’t know why this is happening except that I’m not drinking every day anymore. If I drink beer (I rarely drink liquor) as mundane as these weird waking dreams are, I’m terrified to quit drinking, terrified to keep drinking. And yeah, I hear audio hallucinations as well. I always assumed they were from my neighbors. Thank you for putting this out there. I know I have a problem. I gotta try to figure out how to get better.
How many beers do you drink a day ?
Nice job with that low volume music in the background
Thanks Clay! I hope it gave it a slightly surreal, vaguely unsettling feeling.
Nailed it
@@_BatCountryit certainly does, I turned my phone down to be sure it was coming from phone.
@@leetarrant5630 Sorry about that. Kind of.
"Fairies wear boots, ya gotta believe me... Son, son, you've gone too far..."
Going through it now!
Hang in there mate. Any chance you can get to a hospital? Trust me, it's better than riding it out alone.
Keep us posted.
Them withdrawal hallucinations are terrifying I can say I've withdrawal from both booze and opiates and they are identical and from psychosis also . The booze though had tactile hallucinations which was the worst of the worst cause that's the point we're you start getting confused cause you can't understand what's going on . The most profound hallucinations I've ever had were from sleep meds like zopiclone or lunesta but they were euphoric unlike booze and opiates
I've never had D.Ts but I'm sure I came close. I was never a spirit drinker but I drank wine to blackout stage.
I got into trouble with the law and lost my licence a bunch of times.. I'm getting older and knew that I had to stop before it's too late.
Luckily I was able to stop by cutting down then just went cold turkey on a date that I picked.
I've lost allot of my confidence since I was drinking for some reason but don't miss drinking at all. 11 months sober and hardly even think about it and never want to drink again.
Congrats on your time buddy!
@@_BatCountry Yeah ta bro, same to you...
I've had mild hallucinations when I'm hungover I think. I've had that 'shoulder tapping' thing before but I think it's a twitching nerve and our brain perceives it as being someone tapping us on the shoulder. So things are happening in our bodies (like your punch in the heart by that woman when really you might have been near a heart attack). I would also hear music so loud in my mind that it felt like I had ear buds in, but it wouldn't be a full song it would be a verse and the chorus on repeat non stop. I would also close my eyes and basically be watching television, I could see images on the insides of my eyelids.
Your hangover must be pretty bad: what you're describing is exactly what the early stages of either alcoholic hallucinosis or delirium tremens feels like. That fragmentary music in particular, that's a major feature of alcoholic hallucinosis. The closed-eye hallucinations, like your brain is streaming a movie and you have very limited control, that's part of it too. I would be whooshing through landscapes and stuff, or seeing weird architecture, quite often I can't stop it, I see it over and over again.
I think it's fair to say you've been really close to a very horrible experience. It speaks to your other comment though, about why hallucinations happen, why they're similar, and what they are. I hinted at having my own unscientific theories - in my experience, the hallucinations behave in some ways like dreams. Real stimuli, like a twitching nerve, in interpreted as a tap on the shoulder and so on. That's dream language, that's what dreams do. I feel like alcoholic hallucinosis and delirium tremens move the threshold between consciousness and sleep in some way, and the confusing, surreal, impossible properties of a dream can cross over and become experienced in wakefulness. The fear in DTs is very much like dream fear, for example.
Possibly related: have you ever had a head injury?
Ive use almost all party chemicals but i can agree that my alcohol withdrawal was mor real when it was so fake. No one who has not went through it has no idea. Im still trying to understand what happened in those 2 weeks in the ICU.
Im definitely a different person after 5 and a half days of medical induced coma
I feel you, I don't feel the same as I was before either.
I've been through the depths of Hell, during my alcohol withdrawals. I consider anyone who has been there, and through a battle buddy.
Would you care to explain a little more about medically induced coma? And, why does someone have to be during their withdrawal?
I have been on the hospital bed a few times, at death's door for withdrawal and DT'S. I just wonder why they didn't put me in coma as well. I was in bad shape.
Anyway, hope you are doing well. God Bless
@@jdmbeats when they chose to intabate they administer different meds in order to basically put you to sleep like surgery but for multiple days. They do this to limit outside imput and reduce additional seizures. So that's advanced life support in a nutshell.
I am now a week away from having 5 months sober, and I thank God, the doctors, and the great nurses that put up with my insanity. Thanks for asking. And I totally agree with you. Especially when the statistics are 1in 5 or 1 in 7 that go to the ICU for alcohol withdrawal will not walk out the door.
The major reason why I was put into a coma was to protect my airway. A machine is breathing for you
@@jdmbeats God bless and fight the good fight. Life is worth it
@@CannaGro81 Thanks for explaining, and I'm glad to hear of your recovery! Congratulations on your upcoming 5 months, that's awesome! It takes a lot of hardwork, and dedication to get there. Keep going bro, God is Good 🙏
Take Care and, God Bless 🙏
Sounds like Hell to me. No wonder we need a higher power. I wonder whether it opens doors.
That different kind of fear,id call it terror,totally understand the theory about people dying in DT,S due to fear.heart attack
Yeah it's unlike any other experience.
It's pretty awful. I only had one cold turkey withdrawal that I rode out until the end. Kindling your brain doesn't help future withdrawals either. I did my own video on that too.
Reminds me of a scene in scanner darkly
Yeah, I know that movie. The bugs are are a really common element of withdrawal and, in some cases, overdose.
Yeah those hallucinations where as bad as Gipson weed not fun, lucky for me I detoxed in the hospital. I started drinking at 13 stoped at 40 been over ten years dry, no turning back now.
Wow bad as the devils trumpet that’s scary
I only drink 4 beers a day and stopping is very strange and dreams are evil 😈 and u understand your story 😅bloomin horrible stuff kids stay away from it😊
Yeah you don't have to be a completely full-blown alcoholic to get a taste of how hard withdrawal is once your body has adjusted to its presence.
Me in the beginnig: Our stores are very similar..... 10 minutes later: Nope, you won.....
All kidding aside. It is horrible and the auditory part is basically the same as my 2 episodes. I was hearing music, talking(evil and downgrading) and wispering, mosquitos and other stuff. The visual part was not so bad, mostly shadows.
Luckily i went to the doctor and he knocked me out with some benzos...
4 months sober....
have you ever considered this experiance as demonic. i have been through exactly the same thing.just different characters. complete HELL. it was so real i was convinced it was actually happening and was going to die and be taken to hell. alcohol is fucked up and very dangerous. an experience i will NEVER forget
There's not much spirituality in me, but I totally understand that some might interpret this experience as supernatural or demonic. We just use different language to describe the same experiences.
I'm glad you made it out though Gavin. It's a life-changing experience for sure.
Maybe you are medium and have access to the spirit world...and other dimensions.....or your past lives...You might have been a soldier in a past life,,You should really consult a medium to see. If you have these abilities...yes 'les gueules cassé' is interesting..I live in France and am fluent in french....very interesting your stories...!!You could make a film called deliriious tremerous dreams.. Van Gogh the painter used to get hallucinations from absinthe..You should try hypnosis....thanks for your video ❤
It's called delerium bro you'll see shit if you take a bunch of benadryl too lul
I was drinking for years 24/7 and decided to stop. 24 hours after my last drink I felt like I was on a different planet, imaginary bugs flying across my room, tactile hallucinations, it wasn't till I was watching tv and realized it wasn't even on that I panicked and thought "shit the tv isnt even on I must be going through dts" then I drank and it went away.
I remember seeing incects crawling around everywhere and no one else could see them, scariest fuggin thing ive ever gone through.
Yeah the insects are really common, and really scary. It's so real.
I am starting to wonder if a level of drinking-so incredibly high and prolonged can actually cause the veil of our reality rip open and reveal what is on the other side. In other words, these are not hallucinations. You are seeing another dimension. Because the experiences are all too similar for everyone.
All major religions discourage drinking. Certainly to excess.
The devil
Snakes were my creatures
Aliens were mine and visions of hellfire and Jesus on the cross
Why do you so easily dismiss it all as hallucinations? I know my faith probably influences my perception of what you and many others express, but it's worth considering that there is a spiritual explanation. If I were an unbeliever, I think this kind of experience would at least leave me open to the idea.
I'm not closed to the idea. But the hallucinations didn't *feel* spiritual. It didn't feel like divine intervention. In the end, it felt like what it was: my very human mind doing something to my very human body, and vice versa. This wasn't spiritual, it was biochemical. I don't think I peaked into some supernatural realm any more than an ancient shaman does. You can interpret that as spiritual, I interpret is as neurological, but we're just using different language to describe the same thing, so at some point there's no difference.
I appreciate the comment buddy. Thank you.
@@_BatCountry sounds like you explaining it away. That it's even possible should alarm you. We often look for science to explain the things we can't understand, but even when science explains the how.....you are still left with the why? Why would your brain do that? Why is it pretty much always scary, evil, etc.? You can explain tourettes syndrome scientifically for example........but why curse words? Why do they blurt out curse words? Science can't and doesn't have an answer. And I'm not trying to argue with you or give you a hard time. I know we all look for an explanation to things, and if you're not open to a spiritual explanation then science will often give you what you want. But I am curious when you say it didn't FEEL spiritual? I mean what would that feel like? You said it felt real.......you said it was TERRIFYING......I'm a Christian, but I donlt know how I would define a spiritual experience FEELING. My opinion......whatever it is you saw was as real as we are.....just as some animals can see colors and hear noises we can't see.......I believe there is a lot there that we simply can't see...........but drugs and alcohol open that door. And not in a good way. I'm saying it opens up the more demonic side of things.
We can agree to disagree.....I mean we're both talking about opinions......but I've heard enough of these stories and many people do believe that it is spiritual and demonic. Another term for alcohol is spirits afterall.
Great jobbing getting sober. God Bless.
@@_BatCountry and I'm sorry.......but there is a BIG difference in accepting a neurological explanation versus a spiritual explanation. Why can't it be both? Things definitely happen neurologically speaking when we're changing our chemistry with drugs/alcohol.......that may very well be the thing that opens you up to seeing what you've seen.......but that doesn't explain what you saw. And why you saw what you saw. I think seeing it as spiritual allows you to accept the deeper meaning behind life and the real dangers behind addiction. It allows you to see what is really at stake.......so I'm sorry.......but the difference between accepting one explanation over another is everything.
@@_BatCountry the puzzling part is the amount of resources it takes to produce something convincing when done on purpose (such as in rendering). The mind can easily spot perspective distortions, lighting inconsistencies in generated imagery. And here you face perfectly real things supposedly generated from scratch by the brain. It looks like a detuned consciousness rather than brain generating things. There are cells in the brain firing signals. These signals appear as integral world somewhere. This somewhere we name consciousness - it is separate from the signals and is self evidently real. It is verifiable in the present moment through self awareness, awareness of being aware. What this awareness is observing, all the external stuff (not only senses but also thoughts) - is a question mark, it may either reflect some real objects or reflect nothing, so there may be only reflections without the underlying things. From this point of view your hallucination experiences may be not your brain generating some random impulses, but this conscious part being detuned into different sort of reflections.
The hallucinations you describe sound like demonic attacks.
Those aren't hallucinations. Thats demons
Bullshit!
It is obvious this guy is a liar.
Why?
He is not lying,been through the same thing,scary real stuff
I remember withdrawal where i could see closed eye visuals at night. Faces morphing. Hands shaky. I could hear melodies in my head looping over and over. I had white noise earbuds on as a distraction and its as if i could hear vague commotion from the room next to mine, the insomnia too. Second day was uncomfortable, But a bit better. 3rd day a little better, and them boom!
Seizure! 😢
Wow. Yeah that's a familiar story, it can hit you hard just when you're starting to think it's getting better. Glad you made it out buddy!
It always starts with the sounds of a radio station.
Yep.
The first person in 10 years I have seen in that tells the truth about hallucinations 😢
AA .. you were probably having a nightmare. Luckily I was either in hospital or the worst one, which lasted 5 days, with my ex
I now drink sometimes , when someone dies, as has happened 3 months ago 😢
What kind of booze you are drinking
How much per day and how long????
About 1 or 2 big bottles of vodka or whiskey per day for five months. Some days less.