Thank you for externalizing that it's your BRAIN. It's not "us," it's that out brain has a glitch, like if we walked with a limp or something. Keep fighting for your happiness and don't believe the lies your brain tells you. ❤
I'm a 17 y/o guy. I have severe depression and anxiety. I DO NOT come from a background of trauma. But I have eating disorders. I was 250 at only 5'11. Anytime I would workout, I would see no improvement and would get so upset. Seeing this made me tear up. I just found you but you are a HUGE beacon of light and inspiration to many, including myself.
Weight loss doesn't come overnight. It's many days of doing better. When I stopped badgering myself, and just enjoyed my life, the 10 ponds I'd gained came off. Read my other comment I posted.
Note that it doesn’t need to be direct “obvious trauma”. One that includes neglect that can be parents lack of emotion/bonding for you, lack of parent involvement in your life. So not obvious trauma but this is a trigger for food development issues. Sooo tricky to I’d but is possible to I’d through closer profile examination. TY.
I appreciate this SO much. I haven't weighed myself in about 5 years because it's too much of a trigger. However, I do still have days where I have much stronger urges to engage in disordered eating. And I still have the thought process of disordered eating that I have to talk myself out of very regularly. I haven't much engaged in the behaviors for years, but it will always be a battle. Thank you for opening up about this ♥️
@@Kenny370it does get easier but it depends on your mindset and your copeing mechanisms. I haven't stepped on a scale in about 6 years. But I also don't examine my body or try to regulate my food intake what so ever. I eat when I'm hungry, which is around 3 times a day, and I don't under or over do it. Idk what ED the commenter had but I was anorexic. It does get easier but there will always be times when your ED tries to influence you back into it.
Molly you’re so strong and beautiful. Muscle weighs more then fat always remember that no matter how scary the numbers are on the scale just know you’re body is getting stronger. So much love. Keep spreading the love ❤️
I had extremely severe OCD for the last 3 years - and I can relate to this so hard. It's not an eating disorder I know but this is exactly what it's like - in this one moment you think everything is fine it creeps up and these thoughts start rushing into your mind. And "my eating disorder brain took over" for me it's "my OCD brain" but I felt this soo hard. Thanks for sharing this extremely intimate stuff! It really helps the people out there - and also keep fighting - WE ARE NOT ALONE! Love goes out to everyone suffering from mental disorders! Love you all!
I love you so much. I've always struggled with my weight. I was adopted into a family with four older siblings. They were blessed with genetics all fit and slim. Then myself who was far from being thin. It was a nightmare growing up. Family pictures, clothes shopping, teasing, fat shaming. It was so obvious i looked nothing like them. People don't realize what effect it has on self esteem, and self worth. I've always felt alone. Sorry, I'm babbling. What I'd like to say is please don't stop posting. You give me strength, hope, and a beautiful disposition when I view your videos. You're a warrior with a free spirit. You were born to fly...
Thank you so much for sharing this I struggle with feeling the number on the scale doesn’t match my body. I’ll love my body but the number makes me feel the need to change it.
I am recovering from binge eating disorder and it's especially hard because with a healthier relationship with food the scale number is going down, and I have to keep reminding myself that the work I'm doing isn't about the scale number. It's about how I'm happier, fitter, stronger, healthier and feeling in control of my life. I try to celebrate all my wins but I have to remind myself that the scale number is not a win or a lose, it's a number, and that is nothing in comparison to the actual changes I have achieved. It's a forever battle but those eating disorder brain moments are becoming less and I have an amazing support system now to remind me of what's important. ❤
Molly, aside from being in awe of your bravery with diving, i thoroughly enjoy your candidness and realness!! Ty for being you!! Your inspiration is contagious and very much appreciated! I think you look fantastic!! Loaded with courage! You go girl!!! 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽
Thank you. I don't have eating disorder but autism and I belive the thoughts are simmilar but in different ways. It's important that we see you and many many orhers are human ❤
This was me a couple of days ago. I was moving out and found my old scale hidden under a cabinet. my boyfriend (who is trying to gain weight) decided to step on it to see if he’s made any progress, and seeing that made me want to step on it too. but as I approached, my whole body started to shake and I immediately started sobbing. I know I’m stronger now, but stepping on there and seeing such a high number immediately made me feel terrible. Everyday is another step to recovery, there are setbacks like this, but I just have to constantly remind myself who I’m doing this for. Younger me: Whose childhood was tainted by the desire to be thin, I’m doing this for her. Future me: who deserves a long, happy life. Who deserves to have functioning organs (which once were in failure), a body that doesn’t ache, a head that doesn’t spin and pound when you try to pick up your future child. If you can’t do it for your present self, do it for them.
I was a diver (many moons ago) and had to weigh in before every practice. If I didn't lose or if I gained, I would be punished with running 5 miles, doing 300 situps w weights or swimming a mile BEFORE practice. I was on track to train for trials. One day, I weighed before my weigh in. I gained a pound. That one pound pushed me over the edge and I walked out never to return. Later in life I realized it was connected to my self worth and for believing the lie I wasn't good enough. Forgive others for things they have said, then more importantly, forgive yourself for things you did or did not do. It is there in that place you will find more freedom than any drug or self will. Love you and appreciate your willingness to share ❤
as an addict in reco❤ery it’s bloody hard wen these things get in our head our addictions are so different yet so similar The best thing you can do is utilize the positive people around you allow them to help you by letting them listen to your struggles and do not try ever to cope alone You keep strong much love ❤️
*Edit cause I found the best way to explain this phenomenon (credit goes to a work training, not my original words) : “A person may still have the biological predisposition to the illness. But they have found a way to prevent or minimize relapse. They live in wellness despite the disorder.” This is what I (and the DSM-5) call an ED in partial recovery. As someone in the same boat mentally, I validate and empathize with you so so so much. Also, way to go for not weighing yourself for so many months!!!
Thank you Molly You are so strong! I myself have been battling bulimia for 3 years and got into weightlifting 2 1/2 years ago. I gained over 40 kg and feeling stronger and healthier than i would have ever imagined, but of course my eating disorder thoughts are still catching up on me. I always like to think that i came that far and giving up is not an option. Lots of love to all of you out there struggling. Feel hugged. You are amazing and keep going ❤️
I have such an unhealthy relationship with the scale too. The other day I needed to weigh my cat so naturally I weighed myself and then with me holding my cat to find the difference. EVEN KNOWING the number was higher for my cats weight just SEEING the number say 12 pounds more broke me. It's unbelievable the power a number has over so many of us
This made me get up and EAT! I have tried really hard upping the energy i eat and man it makes me feel so strong and full of energy. It's still scary but here we are. .
It’s okay to struggle what’s not okay is letting it consume your whole life I struggled for a very long time with ED related behaviors even in and out of psych hospitals for 4 years for that and other mental illnesses i struggle with keep going like you said your body is stronger now than it was and that’s more important than a number on a scale
Thank you for sharing. ❤ Remember, one step backward is part of being human. The fact that you're still trying-- and willing to try again-- to put your best foot forward shows how strong you are!! And above all, you're still you no matter the number on the scale, and we love you for it.
Saying it out loud is the best way to hold yourself accountable. Your ED will always try to seduce you. And you gotta choose yourself over and over. You got this.
I was definitely concerned when I saw the video where you pointed out something that no one else saw, cellulite. I have struggled with an ED since very early childhood. I remember "feeling fat" as a 3 y/o; I'm nearly 50 now. I'm disabled and have been for half of my life. I was a competitive athlete before I was hit by a car on a training run. I'm blending life events together for the sake of time. A TBI and debilitating, disabling injuries with undiagnosed Ehlers Danlos Syndrome. Deaf. I require help with ADLs. In treatment they stress focusing on what our bodies can do, but I would argue that we need to find our intrinsic worth. You're special because you're Molly. Additionally, you can do all of these amazing feats! I wouldn't begin to guess what you weigh, what I see is an incredible, brave athlete who is fighting for her recovery! TY for sharing with us. Sadly you aren't alone in this struggle. Hands are numb. Bfn ❤️
ED will always hold you back. Keep pushing him back. You got this. You are beautiful but even more important an inspiration to us all that we can do hard things!!!!
What a beautiful message you have put out there. I can so relate to your thoughts. I can be having a fabulous day, weigh myself, and it can totally ruin my day and make me feel depressed. Thank you for sharing this side of yourself.
more weight means more strength! ur a very strong and indipendent young lady! you should NEVER be harsh on your body! not even if you really think its neccicary! because most of the time it really isnt!
Molly…..you are one of the bravest people I’ve ever seen. Letting us in on something like this is bravery beyond comprehension. I’m a former active duty Marine and I have PTSD and anxiety. I’ve also struggled with food. I brush my teeth in the dark because I can’t stand to see my face in the mirror. I’ve never actually said that out loud, or typed that.
I was a gymnast as a teenager and when I was 17 I discovered I had degenerative disc disease, and I herniated a disc in my back. I had to have surgery, and I ended up getting an infection that almost killed me. I had to be on a lot of medication and it caused me to gain 70 lbs in 6 months. My health has gone downhill from there, and because of it my weight fluctuates a lot. I used to obsess over the scale, and was very sensitive when it came to my weight. Over the yrs I have learned that it's not about wat the scale says, it's about how I feel. I no longer weigh myself, because the number on the scale doesn't define your beauty!❤
For 35 years I’ve woken up everyday agonizing about what to eat. All because when I was 12, an aunt told my parents I was fat. I was an athletic child. I’ve learned over the last few years, I have an hormone issue and my weight fluctuates more than someone without these issues. All this time I blamed myself. The other day, my Mom told me I needed to lose weight- just randomly out of the blue. And I was actually feeling pretty good about myself that day. To know that you, a gorgeous, extremely talented, athletic woman struggles like this is so upsetting to me. I’m glad that we are both working on loving ourselves more and appreciating our bodies for all the amazing things they continue to do. Sending love!!! ❤❤❤
Eating disorders are so insidious. Im in recovery and i just want to say thank you for being honest, i think communicating our struggles helps those struggling to feel less alone❤
Oh damn, so sorry you are going through this. You are such an amazing athlete and person. The number on the scale is totally irrelevant. And you know that. Hugs!
Thanks for sharing. Too many of us have been there. Currently in my journey I do weigh myself every week it has actually really helped with my fear of the scale and lessened its control over my life but I know that's not where everyone is on their journey. Stay strong, be brave, we can heal.
I completely understand!! The last few years i had lost lots of weight but with that came an obsession with restriction and my weight. This year I’ve been working so hard to be better and i have been! But a few months ago i caved and weighed myself for the first time in months and i had the exact same reaction as you. I’m by no means overweight or unhealthy, and I’ve almost fixed my relationship with food and with it my metabolism. But it still affected me. Just know that you are so strong and amazing!! ❤.
Thank you so much for sharing your truth and speaking about these issues because so so so many people are suffering it feels SO good to know that you are not alone. You are doing great babes
Thank you Molly and you are all those things! I dont battle an ED brain but I do battle SI brain…and it’s the hardest battle of my life! I so look forward to what great dives you will do next❤!
As long as you are comfortable in your own body that number doesn't control you at all. You're an amazing person and so sweet. You've accomplished so much to be proud of yourself. Don't let that scale be your personal enemy!!
I really, really appreciate hearing this today. Sometimes I feel so alone, constantly feeling like I’m put on this planet to shrink. It’s exhausting and it’s isolating. Thank you for sharing this.
Hey, you’re doing great! It’s ok to have a bad day. Acknowledge the suck, be there in it. And then go to bed and try to reset. You’re doing your very best, and I’m cheering for you.
I also have an eating disorder and gained a lot of weight since two years. Accepting our body is a very hard thing, but we have to stay strong, because our eating disorder is not the only part of our personality.
You are beautiful. You've been training a lot so any weight gain is probably all muscle which you need for your sport. You are an amazing person. Nobody here cares about your weight.
as someone who is recovering from an eating disorder i really appreciate you posting this. it shows people the bad side of eating disorders. not the romanization of it. thank you❤️
You really are an inspiration!! I've managed to not step on a scale for at least 10 months now, I've thought about it, I've almost done it so many times but I've resisted the urge. This video reminded me that i should be proud of myself and that even if do step on a scale again it doesn't matter what it says, because I am beautiful and I have the right to feel like it.
Dear Molly, I am also struggling with an ED since I was 14. I am now 26 and I still know this feeling way too well! I had the same situation this week and I thought I couldn’t take it, but then I remembered my progress in the gym and the strength I got from my yoga practices! And then I reminded myself that it is just a number on a scale and I won’t let my life be defined by a number anymore. The “it’s just a number” thought always helps me. Maybe it is also helpful for you or anyone else here ♥️
We all love you, it can get hard sometimes and you just have to look at yourself and realise how beautiful you really are, your so talented, amazing and strong m❤
I’m right there with you sister. Ups and downs are part of recovery, but remember that when you’re in a down phase, you will always come out of it. Your body is capable of doing amazing things, and your weight is the least interesting thing about you.
I’m a guy so might be different, but I recovered from being 89lbs at 5’10 due to an eating disorder. Now I’m 165lbs extremely healthy and love my new body
That's awesome, man! Just like Molly said: you are brave for what you achieve, so remember that you _are_ brave when you need to keep up the effort for most of your life... Just keep in mind: it's always easier to maintain the good situation, than to stray and get back to it. You did good!
There is so many of people like you!!! When I came home from dance one night my brother is on a bulk so he was constantly weighing himself and I was so hungry but when I had more food on my plate than he did, I pushed it all away because I was ashamed of myself and didn’t eat for 37 straight hours. 😢 I think we all just need to know we are all different and what we do is different and different is perfect. ❤❤
I'm crying. I just went through this about 6 months ago. I got extremely thin around 2020 Not eating. So when me and my ex husband decided to try and get our family back together I decided to start eating better again. Little hairs stood up in your video because my situation was identical in it was an amazing two years! I wasn't fat obviously but eating healthy, felt stronger, mentally stronger, our family was happy and healthy. I stepped on the scale two years in and I had gained 30lbs. The thing is, I know I was way too thin. I didn't even notice that much weight because of how thin I was. But that number on the damn scale freaked. Me. Out. I never replaced the batteries in my scale again. I have two daughters in my house 😢 we are not those numbers ladies! It's really a mindset! I felt great for years. And in one second one number tried to take that away from me. We have to stay strong and have support ❤ we're here for you Molly!! I literally watch your videos in amazement of how strong you are. I know exactly what you're going through and feeling. We let those feelings pass and get back to kicking ass!! 💪🏼💪🏼❤❤❤
Molly I know that it's hard to change your mindset❤. But behind you there is a huuuugee comunity which supports you in every situation. I love you so much bc you are REAL and don't fake your videos. It's okay to have problems cuz everyone has them. If you wouldn't have problems, you wouldn't be a normal person. We are all human❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
As a teen who struggles with this you are my inspiration for how I want to be. You show how confident you are and strong and you even show the real struggles. I hope I can be like you one day❤
Good for you for being so open and honest with this internal relationship you have with your brain!! Remember that all the scale is is the effect of earths gravity on you. And you said it yourself best- you’ve performed some absolutely amazing dives because you took care of your body and are a HEALTHY weight. don’t let the side of you win! You’re winning :) - fellow Canadian
Wait, you don’t realize how hot you are (at sooo many levels) ? You are a spectacular example of what a human body can be if one applies the effort to achieve. The fact that you are also hot is just a bonus. Pray for strength and healing and re-focus on the goals, you have been hitting them out of the park! ❤🌹🙏
Molly you are not alone. Yes you are gorgeous, with great sense of humour, personality. You are amazing, talented, skillfull, and you can overcome anything.
Every day, your body does incredible things. A mere number on a scale cannot reflect the hours of training nor the feats of strength you are capable of.
Its so interesting the difference between how men and women think about themselves. I weight myself everyday. I know I need to keep an eye on it and even when im annoyed at myself I dont let it hurt my self esteem. Your body in particular is amazing in all ways.
I am so sorry that you have struggled with something so hard! I am so glad that you now feel welcomed to share this part of your life. It really helps us see how strong of a person you are!!! We are here for you every step of the way! YOU ARE PERFECT! 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🤩🤩🤩
Im so sorry. Im the same. Not a Pro Athlete…but Ive been an endurance Marathon and Triathlon racer for decades. It helps me stay “on track” and “heslthy”. But I still restrict. The disorder never goes away. You ate amaaaaazing. So fun and cool and talented. I wont say anything about your fitness or weight. Bc we all know all that foes is trigger us. Youre amazing. Your channel has brightened my darkest days
We are here for you Molly, we love you so much and you bring so much brave energy to our daily lives that we could not be anything but grateful for you being who you are❤❤❤❤❤
As someone that hasn’t had to fight this battle, I can’t say I understand. But, as someone that loves a person that has, I know hard it is. Never be afraid or ashamed to ask for help.
iv suffered with anorexia for as long as i can remember and i ended up going to a facility to help and even that didnt help all i need was family and advice and it got sooo much better. youve got this!
Im an Heroin addict for almost 20 yrs. I lost everything including my pefect wife and 3 kids. I found a way and got it back. Now dont feel like your alone for i 2 have shared the monster i hode in my closet! You are stronger then you look just by admitting those thi gs. Never give up! 😊❤
Omg molly, I am so sorry that you have to go through that. Everyone will still loves you for who you are. It does not matter what you look like even though you are beautiful. I sit here for hours watching you and you have inspired me to continue my dream. I am now a junior high diver for Australia. Love you so much, keep going. You are worth it
Muscles weigh more than fat. I had to also learn to live with a higher weight to what I used to be at when I had an ED and was recovering from an ED. I'm now 15kg more than what I was due to gaining muscles. On bad days I try to remind myself my body (and mind) are much stronger, healthier, capable and more loved now than they've ever been and that is more important than a number forced upon us from birth by society. Sending you much love 💕
I’m an extremely skinny person and I’ve been told to gain weight my entire life, but recently my parents bought scales to weigh their suitcases for a business trip, every week I started checking how much I weighed. When I saw that I was gaining a kilo a week, I starved myself cause I didn’t know what to do. But I have now realised that it’s ok to gain weight when you need it ❤ thank you for putting this message out there :]
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it’s okay! we’re all here for you, your body is beautiful by the way. no need to loose ANY weight ❤❤
No matter what, you are still unique and that’s what makes you special
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Fat 🐷 At least you recognize it. Respect 👏
That's what I was thinking. She's fine af
Y do you need to lose weight your beautiful ❤❤
We love you Molly, you are a perfect inspiration!!
Eating disorders are a lot about perfection. So being called 'perfect' creates a lot of pressure.
I'd just say she's an inspiration.
@@piiinkDeluxemeh. ED's are more about control. But you're right that word can be triggering
@@katiejenkins4532 control as well. Both.
Feel you, Its so hard but you gonna win the Battle
inspiring for what lols
Thank you for externalizing that it's your BRAIN. It's not "us," it's that out brain has a glitch, like if we walked with a limp or something. Keep fighting for your happiness and don't believe the lies your brain tells you. ❤
Yes, u r perfect as u r
I hope you know that your community is and always will rally behind you. You are so incredibly awesome
I'm a 17 y/o guy. I have severe depression and anxiety. I DO NOT come from a background of trauma. But I have eating disorders. I was 250 at only 5'11. Anytime I would workout, I would see no improvement and would get so upset. Seeing this made me tear up. I just found you but you are a HUGE beacon of light and inspiration to many, including myself.
Weight loss doesn't come overnight. It's many days of doing better.
When I stopped badgering myself, and just enjoyed my life, the 10 ponds I'd gained came off.
Read my other comment I posted.
Note that it doesn’t need to be direct “obvious trauma”. One that includes neglect that can be parents lack of emotion/bonding for you, lack of parent involvement in your life. So not obvious trauma but this is a trigger for food development issues. Sooo tricky to I’d but is possible to I’d through closer profile examination. TY.
I appreciate this SO much. I haven't weighed myself in about 5 years because it's too much of a trigger. However, I do still have days where I have much stronger urges to engage in disordered eating. And I still have the thought process of disordered eating that I have to talk myself out of very regularly. I haven't much engaged in the behaviors for years, but it will always be a battle. Thank you for opening up about this ♥️
You are loved and appreciated❤!
You are beautiful❤️
So it never gets easier
@@Kenny370it does get easier but it depends on your mindset and your copeing mechanisms. I haven't stepped on a scale in about 6 years. But I also don't examine my body or try to regulate my food intake what so ever. I eat when I'm hungry, which is around 3 times a day, and I don't under or over do it. Idk what ED the commenter had but I was anorexic. It does get easier but there will always be times when your ED tries to influence you back into it.
Molly you’re so strong and beautiful. Muscle weighs more then fat always remember that no matter how scary the numbers are on the scale just know you’re body is getting stronger. So much love. Keep spreading the love ❤️
I had extremely severe OCD for the last 3 years - and I can relate to this so hard. It's not an eating disorder I know but this is exactly what it's like - in this one moment you think everything is fine it creeps up and these thoughts start rushing into your mind. And "my eating disorder brain took over" for me it's "my OCD brain" but I felt this soo hard.
Thanks for sharing this extremely intimate stuff! It really helps the people out there - and also keep fighting - WE ARE NOT ALONE!
Love goes out to everyone suffering from mental disorders! Love you all!
I have OCD so I completely understand, I have intrusive thoughts like crazy and the only way I feel better is to eat
i have OCD too and intrusive thoughts, i feel u guys x
I’m here too 🙋🏻♀️
17 years with severe obsessive compulsive disorder…. *sigh* I hear you 🩵
Girl you don’t need to lose weight u are so beautiful do what you love❤
I love you so much. I've always struggled with my weight. I was adopted into a family with four older siblings. They were blessed with genetics all fit and slim. Then myself who was far from being thin. It was a nightmare growing up. Family pictures, clothes shopping, teasing, fat shaming. It was so obvious i looked nothing like them. People don't realize what effect it has on self esteem, and self worth. I've always felt alone. Sorry, I'm babbling. What I'd like to say is please don't stop posting. You give me strength, hope, and a beautiful disposition when I view your videos. You're a warrior with a free spirit. You were born to fly...
Thank you so much for sharing this I struggle with feeling the number on the scale doesn’t match my body. I’ll love my body but the number makes me feel the need to change it.
I am recovering from binge eating disorder and it's especially hard because with a healthier relationship with food the scale number is going down, and I have to keep reminding myself that the work I'm doing isn't about the scale number. It's about how I'm happier, fitter, stronger, healthier and feeling in control of my life. I try to celebrate all my wins but I have to remind myself that the scale number is not a win or a lose, it's a number, and that is nothing in comparison to the actual changes I have achieved. It's a forever battle but those eating disorder brain moments are becoming less and I have an amazing support system now to remind me of what's important. ❤
Molly, aside from being in awe of your bravery with diving, i thoroughly enjoy your candidness and realness!! Ty for being you!! Your inspiration is contagious and very much appreciated! I think you look fantastic!! Loaded with courage! You go girl!!! 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽
Thank you. I don't have eating disorder but autism and I belive the thoughts are simmilar but in different ways. It's important that we see you and many many orhers are human ❤
This was me a couple of days ago. I was moving out and found my old scale hidden under a cabinet. my boyfriend (who is trying to gain weight) decided to step on it to see if he’s made any progress, and seeing that made me want to step on it too. but as I approached, my whole body started to shake and I immediately started sobbing. I know I’m stronger now, but stepping on there and seeing such a high number immediately made me feel terrible.
Everyday is another step to recovery, there are setbacks like this, but I just have to constantly remind myself who I’m doing this for. Younger me: Whose childhood was tainted by the desire to be thin, I’m doing this for her. Future me: who deserves a long, happy life. Who deserves to have functioning organs (which once were in failure), a body that doesn’t ache, a head that doesn’t spin and pound when you try to pick up your future child. If you can’t do it for your present self, do it for them.
I was a diver (many moons ago) and had to weigh in before every practice. If I didn't lose or if I gained, I would be punished with running 5 miles, doing 300 situps w weights or swimming a mile BEFORE practice. I was on track to train for trials. One day, I weighed before my weigh in. I gained a pound. That one pound pushed me over the edge and I walked out never to return. Later in life I realized it was connected to my self worth and for believing the lie I wasn't good enough. Forgive others for things they have said, then more importantly, forgive yourself for things you did or did not do. It is there in that place you will find more freedom than any drug or self will. Love you and appreciate your willingness to share ❤
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as an addict in reco❤ery it’s bloody hard wen these things get in our head our addictions are so different yet so similar
The best thing you can do is utilize the positive people around you allow them to help you by letting them listen to your struggles and do not try ever to cope alone
You keep strong much love ❤️
Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your journey! ❤You are worthy, beautiful, strong, and so BRAVE!
*Edit cause I found the best way to explain this phenomenon (credit goes to a work training, not my original words) : “A person may still have the biological predisposition to the illness. But they have found a way to prevent or minimize relapse. They live in wellness despite the disorder.”
This is what I (and the DSM-5) call an ED in partial recovery. As someone in the same boat mentally, I validate and empathize with you so so so much.
Also, way to go for not weighing yourself for so many months!!!
Thank you Molly
You are so strong!
I myself have been battling bulimia for 3 years and got into weightlifting 2 1/2 years ago. I gained over 40 kg and feeling stronger and healthier than i would have ever imagined, but of course my eating disorder thoughts are still catching up on me. I always like to think that i came that far and giving up is not an option. Lots of love to all of you out there struggling. Feel hugged. You are amazing and keep going ❤️
I have such an unhealthy relationship with the scale too. The other day I needed to weigh my cat so naturally I weighed myself and then with me holding my cat to find the difference. EVEN KNOWING the number was higher for my cats weight just SEEING the number say 12 pounds more broke me. It's unbelievable the power a number has over so many of us
This made me get up and EAT! I have tried really hard upping the energy i eat and man it makes me feel so strong and full of energy. It's still scary but here we are.
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Girl! Nothing to be ashamed of! Don't think of it! Your dives are so good btw, you inspire me so much
It’s okay to struggle what’s not okay is letting it consume your whole life I struggled for a very long time with ED related behaviors even in and out of psych hospitals for 4 years for that and other mental illnesses i struggle with keep going like you said your body is stronger now than it was and that’s more important than a number on a scale
Thank you for sharing. ❤ Remember, one step backward is part of being human. The fact that you're still trying-- and willing to try again-- to put your best foot forward shows how strong you are!! And above all, you're still you no matter the number on the scale, and we love you for it.
Saying it out loud is the best way to hold yourself accountable. Your ED will always try to seduce you. And you gotta choose yourself over and over. You got this.
I was definitely concerned when I saw the video where you pointed out something that no one else saw, cellulite.
I have struggled with an ED since very early childhood. I remember "feeling fat" as a 3 y/o; I'm nearly 50 now. I'm disabled and have been for half of my life. I was a competitive athlete before I was hit by a car on a training run. I'm blending life events together for the sake of time. A TBI and debilitating, disabling injuries with undiagnosed Ehlers Danlos Syndrome. Deaf. I require help with ADLs. In treatment they stress focusing on what our bodies can do, but I would argue that we need to find our intrinsic worth. You're special because you're Molly. Additionally, you can do all of these amazing feats! I wouldn't begin to guess what you weigh, what I see is an incredible, brave athlete who is fighting for her recovery! TY for sharing with us. Sadly you aren't alone in this struggle. Hands are numb. Bfn ❤️
ED will always hold you back. Keep pushing him back. You got this. You are beautiful but even more important an inspiration to us all that we can do hard things!!!!
Thank you for sharing! As a runner, I have a similar problem being consumed by the number on the scale. Thank you for making me feel less alone 💕
you are amazing and beautiful and so much fun to watch. You are fantastic. Thank you for all that you share with us
What a beautiful message you have put out there. I can so relate to your thoughts. I can be having a fabulous day, weigh myself, and it can totally ruin my day and make me feel depressed. Thank you for sharing this side of yourself.
more weight means more strength! ur a very strong and indipendent young lady! you should NEVER be harsh on your body! not even if you really think its neccicary! because most of the time it really isnt!
Molly…..you are one of the bravest people I’ve ever seen. Letting us in on something like this is bravery beyond comprehension. I’m a former active duty Marine and I have PTSD and anxiety. I’ve also struggled with food. I brush my teeth in the dark because I can’t stand to see my face in the mirror. I’ve never actually said that out loud, or typed that.
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You are not alone and you are so worthy!
I was a gymnast as a teenager and when I was 17 I discovered I had degenerative disc disease, and I herniated a disc in my back. I had to have surgery, and I ended up getting an infection that almost killed me. I had to be on a lot of medication and it caused me to gain 70 lbs in 6 months. My health has gone downhill from there, and because of it my weight fluctuates a lot. I used to obsess over the scale, and was very sensitive when it came to my weight. Over the yrs I have learned that it's not about wat the scale says, it's about how I feel. I no longer weigh myself, because the number on the scale doesn't define your beauty!❤
For 35 years I’ve woken up everyday agonizing about what to eat. All because when I was 12, an aunt told my parents I was fat. I was an athletic child. I’ve learned over the last few years, I have an hormone issue and my weight fluctuates more than someone without these issues. All this time I blamed myself.
The other day, my Mom told me I needed to lose weight- just randomly out of the blue. And I was actually feeling pretty good about myself that day. To know that you, a gorgeous, extremely talented, athletic woman struggles like this is so upsetting to me. I’m glad that we are both working on loving ourselves more and appreciating our bodies for all the amazing things they continue to do. Sending love!!! ❤❤❤
Eating disorders are so insidious. Im in recovery and i just want to say thank you for being honest, i think communicating our struggles helps those struggling to feel less alone❤
Oh damn, so sorry you are going through this. You are such an amazing athlete and person. The number on the scale is totally irrelevant. And you know that. Hugs!
Thanks for sharing. Too many of us have been there. Currently in my journey I do weigh myself every week it has actually really helped with my fear of the scale and lessened its control over my life but I know that's not where everyone is on their journey. Stay strong, be brave, we can heal.
I completely understand!! The last few years i had lost lots of weight but with that came an obsession with restriction and my weight. This year I’ve been working so hard to be better and i have been! But a few months ago i caved and weighed myself for the first time in months and i had the exact same reaction as you. I’m by no means overweight or unhealthy, and I’ve almost fixed my relationship with food and with it my metabolism. But it still affected me. Just know that you are so strong and amazing!! ❤.
Thank you so much for sharing your truth and speaking about these issues because so so so many people are suffering it feels SO good to know that you are not alone. You are doing great babes
You have gaind strength. You have gained discipline and a better live.
Gaining isn't bad. ❤
Thank you Molly and you are all those things! I dont battle an ED brain but I do battle SI brain…and it’s the hardest battle of my life! I so look forward to what great dives you will do next❤!
It always makes me feel better when I know that there’s other people out there who struggle like me
Molly you are so lovely and healthy and you realise most of the weight is your muscles 💪 you are so brave #bravegang❤
Your body is so strong and powerful!
As long as you are comfortable in your own body that number doesn't control you at all. You're an amazing person and so sweet. You've accomplished so much to be proud of yourself. Don't let that scale be your personal enemy!!
I really, really appreciate hearing this today. Sometimes I feel so alone, constantly feeling like I’m put on this planet to shrink. It’s exhausting and it’s isolating. Thank you for sharing this.
Thank you for this, I’m not a diver but I am a swimmer and I needed to hear this❤️
We, the community, got you too🤗!
Hey, you’re doing great! It’s ok to have a bad day. Acknowledge the suck, be there in it. And then go to bed and try to reset. You’re doing your very best, and I’m cheering for you.
I also have an eating disorder and gained a lot of weight since two years. Accepting our body is a very hard thing, but we have to stay strong, because our eating disorder is not the only part of our personality.
Muscles weigh more than fat ❤. You are so strong ❤❤❤
You are beautiful. You've been training a lot so any weight gain is probably all muscle which you need for your sport. You are an amazing person. Nobody here cares about your weight.
You are so brave ❤❤
Thank you for sharing this with us
as someone who is recovering from an eating disorder i really appreciate you posting this. it shows people the bad side of eating disorders. not the romanization of it. thank you❤️
You really are an inspiration!! I've managed to not step on a scale for at least 10 months now, I've thought about it, I've almost done it so many times but I've resisted the urge. This video reminded me that i should be proud of myself and that even if do step on a scale again it doesn't matter what it says, because I am beautiful and I have the right to feel like it.
You are the pride of our Canadians.❤
You keep up the good work kiddo! The absolute best way to maintain your progress with a personal issue is to help those who come after you! Congrats!
Dear Molly,
I am also struggling with an ED since I was 14. I am now 26 and I still know this feeling way too well! I had the same situation this week and I thought I couldn’t take it, but then I remembered my progress in the gym and the strength I got from my yoga practices! And then I reminded myself that it is just a number on a scale and I won’t let my life be defined by a number anymore. The “it’s just a number” thought always helps me. Maybe it is also helpful for you or anyone else here ♥️
This is why I put away the scale when we have guests, I’d rather them enjoy their visit than being preoccupied with a number ❤
We all love you, it can get hard sometimes and you just have to look at yourself and realise how beautiful you really are, your so talented, amazing and strong m❤
If u weigh more and ur stronger than it's probs just ur muscles... Remember you are still one of the best in the world of ur sport.
You are not alone. Thank you for letting us know we are not alone
I’m right there with you sister. Ups and downs are part of recovery, but remember that when you’re in a down phase, you will always come out of it. Your body is capable of doing amazing things, and your weight is the least interesting thing about you.
I’m a guy so might be different, but I recovered from being 89lbs at 5’10 due to an eating disorder. Now I’m 165lbs extremely healthy and love my new body
That's awesome, man! Just like Molly said: you are brave for what you achieve, so remember that you _are_ brave when you need to keep up the effort for most of your life...
Just keep in mind: it's always easier to maintain the good situation, than to stray and get back to it. You did good!
Sei perfetta così come sei, hai un corpo magro ed armonioso. Un consiglio alla tua disciplina abbina anche lo yoga e la meditazione.
Man, this spoke to me. I feel you with your description of all of this.
OMG I can so relate… Thank you so much for sharing, and for fighting back against that part of your brain! You are such an inspiration!
It's muscle not fat
There is so many of people like you!!!
When I came home from dance one night my brother is on a bulk so he was constantly weighing himself and I was so hungry but when I had more food on my plate than he did, I pushed it all away because I was ashamed of myself and didn’t eat for 37 straight hours. 😢
I think we all just need to know we are all different and what we do is different and different is perfect. ❤❤
I'm crying. I just went through this about 6 months ago. I got extremely thin around 2020 Not eating. So when me and my ex husband decided to try and get our family back together I decided to start eating better again. Little hairs stood up in your video because my situation was identical in it was an amazing two years! I wasn't fat obviously but eating healthy, felt stronger, mentally stronger, our family was happy and healthy. I stepped on the scale two years in and I had gained 30lbs. The thing is, I know I was way too thin. I didn't even notice that much weight because of how thin I was. But that number on the damn scale freaked. Me. Out. I never replaced the batteries in my scale again. I have two daughters in my house 😢 we are not those numbers ladies! It's really a mindset! I felt great for years. And in one second one number tried to take that away from me. We have to stay strong and have support ❤ we're here for you Molly!! I literally watch your videos in amazement of how strong you are. I know exactly what you're going through and feeling. We let those feelings pass and get back to kicking ass!! 💪🏼💪🏼❤❤❤
Molly I know that it's hard to change your mindset❤. But behind you there is a huuuugee comunity which supports you in every situation. I love you so much bc you are REAL and don't fake your videos. It's okay to have problems cuz everyone has them. If you wouldn't have problems, you wouldn't be a normal person. We are all human❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
You are so brave to share this. Keep fighting your disorder! Because you are just perfect the way you are.
Brave, funny, very likable, very beautiful.
As a teen who struggles with this you are my inspiration for how I want to be. You show how confident you are and strong and you even show the real struggles. I hope I can be like you one day❤
You are a WARRIOR Molly!!!!
Admitting it out loud is one of the hardest parts. Thank you for being authentic and sharing
Good for you for being so open and honest with this internal relationship you have with your brain!! Remember that all the scale is is the effect of earths gravity on you. And you said it yourself best- you’ve performed some absolutely amazing dives because you took care of your body and are a HEALTHY weight. don’t let the side of you win! You’re winning :) - fellow Canadian
Wait, you don’t realize how hot you are (at sooo many levels) ? You are a spectacular example of what a human body can be if one applies the effort to achieve. The fact that you are also hot is just a bonus. Pray for strength and healing and re-focus on the goals, you have been hitting them out of the park! ❤🌹🙏
Molly you are not alone. Yes you are gorgeous, with great sense of humour, personality. You are amazing, talented, skillfull, and you can overcome anything.
It doesnt matter how much you weigh. You are still a strong amazing woman!
Every day, your body does incredible things. A mere number on a scale cannot reflect the hours of training nor the feats of strength you are capable of.
This is so sad, I am literally tearing up. Our bodies are doing so much for us as we speak, let's not give up on them
Wow! You just spoke into the ear of a 59 yr old man. Thank you ❤ young lady.
Molly, you are beautiful no matter what a “scale says”. Oh by the way, I would NEVER dive from the elevations you do !
Its so interesting the difference between how men and women think about themselves. I weight myself everyday. I know I need to keep an eye on it and even when im annoyed at myself I dont let it hurt my self esteem. Your body in particular is amazing in all ways.
That’s just all the muscle you’ve gained girlie! We are all here for you!! 💪🏻✨
You are STUNNING. YOU ARE STRONG. YOU ARE ELEGANT. YOU ARE POWERFUL. YOU OVERCOME OBSTACLES. YOU HELP PEOPLE.
WHY DOES A NUMBER MATTER.
I am so sorry that you have struggled with something so hard! I am so glad that you now feel welcomed to share this part of your life. It really helps us see how strong of a person you are!!! We are here for you every step of the way! YOU ARE PERFECT! 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🤩🤩🤩
Im so sorry. Im the same. Not a Pro Athlete…but Ive been an endurance Marathon and Triathlon racer for decades. It helps me stay “on track” and “heslthy”. But I still restrict. The disorder never goes away.
You ate amaaaaazing. So fun and cool and talented. I wont say anything about your fitness or weight.
Bc we all know all that foes is trigger us. Youre amazing. Your channel has brightened my darkest days
Thank you so so much for sharing! It does really help to know that incredible strong people such as you also still struggle with this.
We are here for you Molly, we love you so much and you bring so much brave energy to our daily lives that we could not be anything but grateful for you being who you are❤❤❤❤❤
As someone that hasn’t had to fight this battle, I can’t say I understand. But, as someone that loves a person that has, I know hard it is. Never be afraid or ashamed to ask for help.
You are strong physically and emotionally. I've seen how eating disorders effect people, and I've seen how hard it is to recover. You are amazing
I'm crying. You're so beautiful and brave. This breaks my heart ❤️.
iv suffered with anorexia for as long as i can remember and i ended up going to a facility to help and even that didnt help all i need was family and advice and it got sooo much better. youve got this!
Im an Heroin addict for almost 20 yrs. I lost everything including my pefect wife and 3 kids. I found a way and got it back. Now dont feel like your alone for i 2 have shared the monster i hode in my closet! You are stronger then you look just by admitting those thi gs. Never give up! 😊❤
Omg molly, I am so sorry that you have to go through that. Everyone will still loves you for who you are. It does not matter what you look like even though you are beautiful. I sit here for hours watching you and you have inspired me to continue my dream. I am now a junior high diver for Australia.
Love you so much, keep going. You are worth it
Muscles weigh more than fat. I had to also learn to live with a higher weight to what I used to be at when I had an ED and was recovering from an ED. I'm now 15kg more than what I was due to gaining muscles.
On bad days I try to remind myself my body (and mind) are much stronger, healthier, capable and more loved now than they've ever been and that is more important than a number forced upon us from birth by society.
Sending you much love 💕
It’s okay, we all have a bad day. You look amazing in your strong, fit, body. The things your body allows you to do unreal!!!
I’m an extremely skinny person and I’ve been told to gain weight my entire life, but recently my parents bought scales to weigh their suitcases for a business trip, every week I started checking how much I weighed. When I saw that I was gaining a kilo a week, I starved myself cause I didn’t know what to do. But I have now realised that it’s ok to gain weight when you need it ❤ thank you for putting this message out there :]