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The fact that the little girl in the song has it so abused that she thinks she's "bad" for not letting her dad abuse her made me sick... It's sad to think that there are cases like that in real life.
One tiny detail I noticed: In Japan children are taught hiragana first to learn Japanese. The text when the song starts to begin; there is only one phrase written entirely in Hiragan and that is "I'm sorry" at 1:00 . The music credits are written in Kanji. The girl also sings "I'm sorry, I'm sorry" during the entire song...so she might have written that. Also, the collapsing belly is a metaphor. Some say it's her starving but when you are panicking, your belly goes up and down rapidly because you're breathing making it look like it's collapsing. Collapsing is also a way to say someone is dying very fast. She says her body is collapsing during the song, too. So it could be a metaphor for dying. She(the main character of this song) screams at 0:52 but doesn't scream during the late and ending parts of the song. That scream was probably her screaming because her family was raping her. Your voice goes down to a whisper if your throat is severely sore. It is prominent in drill instructors, they can yell so much they cough up blood. However since the main character is not old (her voice sounds young and by the drawing, she looks young too.) her voice only goes down to a quiet pained whisper. Tie this in with the lyrics very much implying severe sexual abuse...........yeah... If you remove the intrusmental from the song and get the vocals only, it sounds sad and cheerful at the same time. The intrusmental could represent the shock and gruesomeness of gang rape and the whole extreme of gang rape. Scat and pee fetishes are also mentioned in this song. So that would be very extreme to a girl who is going through this without any permission.
WAIT SORRY BUT THEN THE COMFORTABLE GETS DISTURBED AND SINDE THE DISTURBED GETS COMFORTED DOES TYAT MEAN THE DISTURBED GETS COKFORTED AGAIN AND THE COMFORTABLE GETS UH DISTURBED AGAIN LIKE A LOOP-
Tad bit of a vent. TW, obviously. These lyrics are brutal but they speak truth. Everything is a mess. It's comforting yet it also disgusts me. I don't want to get into detail of what happened to me for personal reasons. But the whole concept of her wanting to "make papa happy" and apologizing is so relatable. "Loving" your abuser may not make sense since they're the one that hurts you, but they're also the one that builds you back up... It becomes an addicting feeling. If I behave well, I won't get hurt, and I'll be rewarded. The opposite would happen if there was ill behavior. That's the logic, in a sense (for me at least). And she blames herself, "I'm such a bad girl." This entire song is such a great representation of all the pain and sickness that is SA. As a victim, you can become so "twisted" from an outsiders perspective. A few people left me because of the situation I was in, because I was apparently disgusting. Anyways, as the victim, I ended up wanting to always please my abuser. The praise and reward was the best. There were so many things I didn't want to do but followed along with anyways out of fear, submission, and wanting to please them. For me, when it was someone I around all the time, sharing my thoughts with, having light moments, and feeling as though I could rely on them, I became obsessive. Overly drawn to them. Trust builds and is manipulated. It's difficult to describe. I didn't want to get them into trouble and I didn't want to get myself into trouble, either. It's the worst feeling- being stuck both sides. If you read all that, don't worry, I'm out of the situation now. I love Kikuo. It is such an uncomfortable subject, but it is so important to talk about. EDIT: Thank you all for the support! I really appreciate it. EDIT 2: Because it's on my mind, I'd also like to bring something else up. I feel like sometimes when we're hurting, we substitute the pain we cannot control for pain we CAN control. At least, that's what I've done. Physical scars are only a fragment of mental scars. You can't really take them away. I've put myself into situations similar to that of my past. I've done unspeakable things to relive the past, be validated, praised, and be in "control." Whether it be sh, ed, addiction, or anything else, they're all ways to control that pain in a sense. TLDR; the consequences and "symptoms" abuse or any harmful situation are NOT something that lasts only during the situation. Negative emotions and actions are still present afterwards for months and years. It's a pain. Please take care of yourself, you deserve it.
I appreciate it. It's one day at a time, some are harder than others and it's so easy to remember something I don't want to and relapse. I'm trying to work through it, but it's difficult, ahah. I don't know if I'll ever fully heal, but at least I'm out of the situation now. That's improvement in the least :)
reading some of these comments makes me realize people dont realize how awful sa makes a victim feel. i was never sa'd but i was groomed multiple times and due to the trauma, depression, and anorexia i find myself craving abuse in the worst ways possible.
Details # My age at that time : 6-7 (girl) My cousin's age " " " : 5-6 (boy) [I went on a vacation to my maternal 3rd aunt's house in village. My aunt's house was a bit in deep from the road and there were 4-5 homes together bat 1-2 metre far each home. There was also a mini yard were we could play. The house to the left had a 2 stair (Each 1 is like this : -_, In total 2 of them) and they village people can sit on them by just cleaning with a dry clothe.] One day my cousin and I were playing when an old man out of no-where came to us. He stared at me and my cousin weirdly as we were playing happily. As I've mentioned I was too young to realize and understand why he was staring at us. Suddenly he called me and told me to sit on his lap, I was were a short/half shorts. He told me sit comfortable then he put me on his lap but too close there(yk) and I didn’t understand a single thing. Afterwards he started touching and pressing my thighs weirdly and I was too much young to understand it, he also mildly shaked me unconsciously. Then he told me to get up and called my cousin and did the same. Afterwards me and my cousin told to my mother and my aunt what happened in there (my cousin's adoptive mother lives in another country so he lives with my third aunt). Both of them got suddenly angry and said to not go out anymore to play and said to play at home. Moreover I also got touched in my back after 2-3 years of this incident. What happened to us is- I don’t know whether it was a molest or mild r@p3 but it might be one of them. I am young to talk about it but my mother has already made me aware of these things which every mothers should do. As a young but a senior girl, I also think that we should make aware the girls aged from 8 to 12 aware of these things because this is the time when girl children have their physical perfection attracting those creatures. It falls as our duty to do so. Thank you for reading this far.
This is so heartbreaking. And I agree with you. We should make our children aware of the dangers of the man. My school teacher grabbed my thigh, up to my groin when I was seven years old. I didn't know what was going on, obviously. But I grew up and learned that it was wrong. We can't do anything now.
Ive never been abused in the same manner as the girl in the song, but I can still certainly relate to wanting to apologize for being hurt. My mom says that I'm 'so hard to love' and I just want to apologize, what am I doing wrong? Are you going to love me if I fix myself? Am *I* going to love me if I fix myself? Thank you, Kikuo, for your music.
Everyone's talking about the creepy lyrics but no ones gonna talk about the background of the song? That looks creepy af too, like what am I looking at here?
now i am never on tiktok but i am in the gacha community and i really agree with you i feel like gachatubers never really look into the song or even what its slightly about they just do it for the trend and likes and it makes me really sick to my stomach
If you haven't noticed yet, this song is about a girl who gets s-xually abused by her father. She meets a boy who she falls in love with. the lyrics "Im sorry, forgive me for falling in love with someone whos not papa" is her apologizing to her father for not falling in love with him. at the end of the song, the girl gets gang r-ped by her father and his friends. the lyrics referencing this are: "When he came home, papa was with a lot of people" and "they want to eat my collapsed body until the end, that's what they said".
my thought is The girl got sexually abused by her father and make her broke in every part of her including her mind . So thats why she cannot have a good relationship with her boyfriend and at the end she only found her truly love with her father , the person who destroyed her . sorry for my bad english
the lyrics are so dark, terrifying disgusting sad and horrific. the song is a masterpiece, its a horrific meaning and message but its spreading awareness on a topic that is always shut down by society. truly beautiful but so so sad. i want to hug everyone who resonates with these lyrics. you are valid, your experience is valid, it wasn’t you’re fault. you are still you. and you are wonderful.
wait isn't this straight-up cannibalism they pulled out her heart and ate it how was it traumatizing for her if she's dead? I'm not trying to be mean or invalidate others but I would like it if someone explained :/
English lyrics for people: Open my ribs, and drinking all of my soup Straight from my stomach, all with a kiss I don't think I have any kind of special taste But if it pleases Papa, then... *Music* I'm Sorry I'm Sorry Music, Lyrics: Kikuo Suck up all my yellow f@t into a straw, stick that into my p33 and suck it up just like that too Then take my p00p, stuff it, cut it up, and cook it too. Even thought my body's breaking down for you, Papa. I'm sorry, I still don't think this is what a good feeling is supposed to be I'm not sure, but my big bro taught me that it wasn't good, aahh Despite this broken me, whose body is pathetic as can be, he still kindly reaches out a hand I'm sorry, I'm sorry, this must be why I'm such a bad girl Please forgive me, please forgive me! What a pity, poor little me I'm sorry bye-bye from me, running awah from Papa makes me such a bad girl I'm sorry, please forgive me! Sorry for finding someone who isn't you, Papa. Big bro never gulps down all my @mniotic fluid, breaks open my tightened stomach and feeling around what's inside Or eats me up, but he treats me gently, despite this broken me, who's ugly as can be I'm sorry, I still don't think this was the right thing to do Big bro must really hate me now, aahh Despite this broken me, and this horrid feeling my body's giving me, I'll end up locked away, this is the end I'm sorry, I'm sorry, this must be why I'm such a bad girl Please forgive me, please forgive me! Oh so lonely, little me I'm sorry, bye-bye from me, I'm going back to Papa because I'm a bad girl I'm sorry, please forgive me, I only love my cruel Papa, so I can't love myself. When he came home, Papa came back witn a lot of people, too He had said, they'd believe I'd come back soon Now they want to take this broken me and devour it all until the end. That's what he had told me. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, this must be why I'm such a bad girl Please forgive me, please forgive me! What a pity, poor little me I'm sorry, is it tasty? Thag right there is the taste of a still-warm heart. I'm sorry, but although it hurts, my heart has been satisfied. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, this must be why I'm such a bad girl Please forgive me, please forgive me! Oh so lonely little me. I'm sorry, but although it hurts, as long as you can eat it and it stil tastes good, then I'm happy, bye-bye from me, just eat my p@rts, save for the heart, and everyone eat up! //Guys, this is not right, never do anything like this\\
i hate when people say stuff like "i liked the song until i understood the lyrics". the lyrics are a huge part of why the song is so good. i never experienced SA, but if you read the comments you will see many people who did, saying how well written this is and how much they realate. the dark topics don't make the song worse(same thing with songs about sexual things).
@scotty then i wasn't talking about your case. if it's because it's triggering then it's understandable. sorry for not specifying, it was insensitive of me.
@@theo-yo1yo then your comment is unnecessary, some people just don't like dark things so the lyrics are a turn off to them. that's ok if you liked it until you understood the lyrics because some people just don't like dark music
I've been sexually assaulted before but the lyrics don't disturb me. I mean, the lyrics did surprise me when i read them but it didn't exactly "disturb" me. I'm numb to disturbing things, i guess.
The fact that people call this "disturbing" and this song is based on Irl SA...like wth I am so sorry for whoever is a victim of SA...This song is here to spread awareness
@@ConnieCrow This song is based on parental SA and basically any type of SA and the girl says 'gommene, gommene' (sorry, sorry) becuase she is unaware othat this is wrong
since the main character is not old (her voice sounds young and by the drawing, she looks young too.) her voice only goes down to a quiet pained whisper. Tie this in with the lyrics very much implying severe sexual abuse
As a someone who has went through SA themself, this is all written amazingly well. The screams, the voices in the background, perfectly describes how disturbing and disgusting those situations are and how it can actually fuck someone up. It truly makes me sick to my stomach, that is what makes it a masterpiece. All of this is real and raw emotion, when someone tells you about them going through something like this, believe them. Because its real, and its disgusting. (Out of character)
I had forgotten how genuinely terrifying this piece is. What makes it scarier is that this is a reflection of reality-and there are so many situations like this that go unnoticed. Take care of your children.
livingantique. The parents are abusing their child it’s not always up to the parents to watch out for their kids we need to teach kids to watch out for themselves cause they literally can’t trust anyone anymore
i really hate seeing people say things like “this song is so weird”. Now I can understand the uncomfortable feelings or sorts but truly this song has such deep meaning and really explains a real and serious topic.
@@peachyjam9440 I edited it and rephrased it, I meant it in a way that this song portrays a serious topic and something no one should have to experience
Yes but as someone who has been through assault, I understand how people are disturbed from this song and it's okay to not like the song, it's about abuse after all. But the song isn't really bad, It sounds well and it is good.
Seriously, imagine sticking your tongue out doing ahegao to such a sad song BASED OFF A TRUE STORY, I’m ashamed to be in a planet with these disgusting people, who actually do this to kids and use tiktok to make ahegao about this song.
Ella.S. 113 it’s a metaphor.. the ‘straw’ is a metaphor for her fathers.. um.. lower body part, and the ‘eating’ her is a metaphor for how it feels to be manipulated into having sexual intercourse with her father, hence the ‘baked poop’ thing?? She was about nine years old in the storyline so she probably didn’t understand that she was being manipulated into both vaginal and anal intercourse-? Like?? I’m not exactly sure what the baking of her stool has to do with it but- uh.. yeah.
@@sugar7845 Yeah, it really is an explicit song with a lot of hidden meanings, and I was aware of all the dark symbolism, I was just surprised no one had brought it up hehe, thnx for the explanation tho! :)
This song is about a young girl who is raped by her dad, what she means by "collapsing body" is that the rape is too much that it ruined her insides. This song is not about cannibalism, it is about child rape. Her father is brainwashing her to believe that being raped and abuse is being "loved". One day she ran away from her father's house by going into her neighbors house, her neighbor is a boy. The boy pitied her "collapsing body", so he took her in, soon enough they fell in love, the boy truly loved her, and the girl loved him too but she was confused she didn't know what "true love" means, she thought the boy hated her because the boy is not raping her or abusing her. She thought that being taken care of means they hate you. So she run away and went back to her father's house to be loved again but as soon as she went back, her dad bought a few men in his house to gangrape her. The gangrape was too much for the young girl so unfortunately she died. Edit: Just realize the boy tried to help her about the abortion at 2:25 . OMGosh why the fucking hell both of you guys didn't just live a happily life??? Why you comeback girl 😭😭
Holy shit this video is expressive art, yet a disturbing one that makes my stomach churn. The lyrics, the demented whispering, and even the art in the video really expresses such deep emotions and feelings those of who experience such thing. I feel bad for all the children who experience this...Great job kikuo, such creativity in mind you got.
Ok but since miku is singing at cochella Imagine her playing this, Rolling girl, Aishite Aishite Aishite, and other ones?? Like the people who don’t know the meaning are just vibing while the weebs are in the back like: *_Oh No_*
This.Weird0 ?? Rolling Girl isn’t to bad, what about all the songs where Len is a w h o r e and Miku is a creepy bug? Imagine all the vocaloid fans watching in joy as a horrifying 7 foot Miku with a big claw comes crawling on stage, then afterwards they get to see Len thirsting over his sister. Ngl that may be worth seeing live dou
a lot of kikuo songs sounds cheerful, except the lyrics like how a mom call their kid useless and a father (r) his own daughter (you hear me right, HIS OWN DAUGHTER) and something
This song is probably one the most scariest and disturbing song I've ever heard but goddamn does it have a beautifully scary meaning and its so fucking catchy KIKUO IS A GOD.
I haven’t been sexually raped or anything and it just makes me sad that other people have. I thought this song was just quirky until I realised what it was about. I’m sorry for people who have been in this way..
theory, at 1:02, there’s background noises that sound a lot like a sped up child’s music box, representing how her childhood was cut short/rushed by her father.
Honestly this song is pretty accurate. The sad part is the girl believes that shes a bad kid and that shes a disappointment to her father. Sexual abuse is horrible because its emotional and physical abuse mixed into one. What she’s going through is horrible and I can only imagine what her father has done to her. Parents no matter how good always hurt their child, some leave finger prints, some leave cracks, and some like this father shatters the child.
@@helpiwatchedtenhoursof7970 this comment of yours reminded me of that one Vocaloid/Engloid song named Secrets of Wisteria. That song is about a cannibal. Don't watch it at night!
As a victim of CSA (I was 3 - 4 years old ever since it happened) this song extremely hits hard, I remember breaking down in tears while listening to it since 11 years old. This has been my comfort song throughout my years, the lyrics are written well, the screams, whispers, the voice, everything. I'm really glad Kikuo made this to spread awareness.
I believe the original comment is reffering to the people who see this song and are like "Ah yes this song sounds nice lets look up the lyrics!" And then die
Kikuo's songs are like Pandora's box. You don't wanna get in trouble (find out it's dark and sad and become sad yourself) but you really wanna know what's inside (what the meaning of the songs are).
I love the opening lyric “Opening my ribs, drinking all of my soup, straight from my stomach, all with a kiss.” It really shows how badly these kinds of relationships can mess with people.
I realized there is difference between English and Korean (my language) subtitle. When the Eng subtitle says “Big brother gulps my amniotic fluid and (idk I forgot the exact subtitle)”, the Kor subtitle says “big brother does not drink my amniotic fluid or open my hard stomach and touch the inside and eat it, he just leaves it alone because the broken me is ugly”. Korean language has a lot of similarities with Japanese language, so this might be saying that the big brother actually wanted to save her, but she thought that the awful thing her dad did to her was the form of “love”, so she thinks big brother hates her and she left him
@@ilovebreadbro Oh good analysis! I can't believe that these are still happening I feel so sorry and guilty for those who got SA.. They didn't deserve that Why just why do these keep happening.. That's the reality of our world i guess...
your actually correct to! that parts meaning was that the "big brother" refused to treat her the way her father did, bc "big brother" wanted to treat her like a human, and treat her correctly, but in english it is translated to a wording that makes it worse than what it was
Yeah, the translation is slightly wrong here. For example the line here translated "forgive me for not being able to love my cruel Papa" actually means "forgive me for being able to love only my cruel Papa", the second one makes more sense since she sings the second chorus to Onii-san.
I'm glad I don't speak japanese imagine listening to the song and actually understanding the lyrics Edit : GUYS IT'S A JOKE I KNOW THERE ARE SUBTITLES WHAT I MEAN IS THAT I CAN LISTEN WITHOUT UNDERSTANDING
Yeah, seeing the lyrics to some of their songs makes me wonder if they’re actually okay and / or are basing the lyrics off personal experience I really hope if that stands true, they’re doing better now :(
Most of his songs are based on his childhood, he has brought that up before on his Twitter. I think in some kind of way, making music like this is coping to him. Speaking of Twitter, there's no need to worry, on his Twitter account he stated that he's working on new music. I think he's just busy and can't get music out as much as he'd like to. I hope that clears things up :).
It just hurts me to see people make fun of this song because its weird, stop over exaggerating it. It’s S/A representation. NOT about Miku’s screaming. I was not sexually assaulted myself, but you don’t need to experience the same thing to know what’s right and what’s wrong.
Yo como hace 1 mes la oigo, pero la oia sin la traduccion y su rigmo me gusta la letra era pegajosa aunque estuviese en japones y ahora que ya vi la tradiccion es algo "incomodo" bueno no tan asi si no da tristesa, aun asi me gusta.. su rigmo
Is anyone going to talk about how her voice sounds? When she sings "I'm sorry, i'm sorry!" she sounds so heart broken... and her voice sounds a little sore- and hurt...maybe the abuse affected her very much. Not just her body and her head. But her voice as well.
@Kuru it’s not, because Miku has a deeper voice and kikuo uses a different persons vocals and pitches them up. Listen really carefully cuz miku only does collabs with kikuo, but she is not in this song
@Kuru Miku’s voice wasn’t used for the vocals tho, and if he did add miku’s vocals in his song, it would say in the title that she’s featured but it doesn’t. U must be new to vocaloid or at least not know as much since vocals were only pitched up and the vocals were made by a different person.
title: "i'm sorry, i'm sorry" me: well, this is probably a sad and depressing song... It'll probably sound good. *listens to it* woah! I love It! I wonder what it's about- *realizes it's a song by kikuo* ....oh
I wasn’t even looking for this song, I just ended up here without understanding how, I’ve known this song for a long time, but I constantly, like I can just scroll through the feed on CZcams and not understand how I ended up here...
Ok i dont even use tiktok but i see so much of this shit and wtf, tiktok seems to really like using good songs and representing them in the worse way possible
i’m honestly so close to a fucking break down. these lyrics are terrifying. i can’t believe shit like this happens in real life... i’m literally scared to live.
@Baka Baka i wrote my original comment at like 4 am. after that i could not fucking sleep. i kept seeing the terrifying image of the girl ripping her skin in my mind. safe to say this video has fucked me up even a whole week later
actually it's about rape i think it just sounds like the child is being eaten by the father did i mention "Big Brother drinks my amniotic fluid" and the squirting noises throughout the song? it could mean some very gross things
The fact that the little girl in the song has it so abused that she thinks she's "bad" for not letting her dad abuse her made me sick... It's sad to think that there are cases like that in real life.
@Graywasfound
My god, I'm so sorry you had to go through this... I hope things are getting better for you these days.
@@nat4713 people were saying in the comments it was miku who got abused?
@@carlaxarts193 Hatsune Miku's character itself was not abused, but in this song she sings in the role of a little girl who is abused.
@@nat4713 oh okkk thanks
I don't want to remember when i was 6...
One tiny detail I noticed:
In Japan children are taught hiragana first to learn Japanese. The text when the song starts to begin; there is only one phrase written entirely in Hiragan and that is "I'm sorry" at 1:00 . The music credits are written in Kanji.
The girl also sings "I'm sorry, I'm sorry" during the entire song...so she might have written that.
Also, the collapsing belly is a metaphor. Some say it's her starving but when you are panicking, your belly goes up and down rapidly because you're breathing making it look like it's collapsing. Collapsing is also a way to say someone is dying very fast. She says her body is collapsing during the song, too. So it could be a metaphor for dying.
She(the main character of this song) screams at 0:52 but doesn't scream during the late and ending parts of the song. That scream was probably her screaming because her family was raping her.
Your voice goes down to a whisper if your throat is severely sore. It is prominent in drill instructors, they can yell so much they cough up blood.
However since the main character is not old (her voice sounds young and by the drawing, she looks young too.) her voice only goes down to a quiet pained whisper. Tie this in with the lyrics very much implying severe sexual abuse...........yeah...
If you remove the intrusmental from the song and get the vocals only, it sounds sad and cheerful at the same time. The intrusmental could represent the shock and gruesomeness of gang rape and the whole extreme of gang rape. Scat and pee fetishes are also mentioned in this song. So that would be very extreme to a girl who is going through this without any permission.
Holy 🪐
That shit is messed up :(
Not that I disagree with your interpretation, just to say that usually, Im sorry ごめんね is very rarely written in kanji 御免 (almost never actually).
You have out done yourself
"gommene" does not even use any kanji in its daily use anymore
"disturb the comfortable, comfort the disturbed"
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im comfortable, but this comforts me
@@AmeliaAngela239 same tho
Real (EMU PFP)
WAIT SORRY BUT THEN THE COMFORTABLE GETS DISTURBED AND SINDE THE DISTURBED GETS COMFORTED DOES TYAT MEAN THE DISTURBED GETS COKFORTED AGAIN AND THE COMFORTABLE GETS UH DISTURBED AGAIN LIKE A LOOP-
Tad bit of a vent. TW, obviously.
These lyrics are brutal but they speak truth. Everything is a mess.
It's comforting yet it also disgusts me. I don't want to get into detail of what happened to me for personal reasons. But the whole concept of her wanting to "make papa happy" and apologizing is so relatable.
"Loving" your abuser may not make sense since they're the one that hurts you, but they're also the one that builds you back up... It becomes an addicting feeling.
If I behave well, I won't get hurt, and I'll be rewarded. The opposite would happen if there was ill behavior. That's the logic, in a sense (for me at least).
And she blames herself, "I'm such a bad girl."
This entire song is such a great representation of all the pain and sickness that is SA. As a victim, you can become so "twisted" from an outsiders perspective. A few people left me because of the situation I was in, because I was apparently disgusting.
Anyways, as the victim, I ended up wanting to always please my abuser. The praise and reward was the best. There were so many things I didn't want to do but followed along with anyways out of fear, submission, and wanting to please them.
For me, when it was someone I around all the time, sharing my thoughts with, having light moments, and feeling as though I could rely on them, I became obsessive. Overly drawn to them. Trust builds and is manipulated. It's difficult to describe. I didn't want to get them into trouble and I didn't want to get myself into trouble, either. It's the worst feeling- being stuck both sides.
If you read all that, don't worry, I'm out of the situation now. I love Kikuo. It is such an uncomfortable subject, but it is so important to talk about.
EDIT: Thank you all for the support! I really appreciate it.
EDIT 2: Because it's on my mind, I'd also like to bring something else up.
I feel like sometimes when we're hurting, we substitute the pain we cannot control for pain we CAN control. At least, that's what I've done. Physical scars are only a fragment of mental scars. You can't really take them away. I've put myself into situations similar to that of my past. I've done unspeakable things to relive the past, be validated, praised, and be in "control." Whether it be sh, ed, addiction, or anything else, they're all ways to control that pain in a sense.
TLDR; the consequences and "symptoms" abuse or any harmful situation are NOT something that lasts only during the situation. Negative emotions and actions are still present afterwards for months and years. It's a pain.
Please take care of yourself, you deserve it.
Even if you are out of the situation now it would have scarred you a lot. I'm so sorry you had to go through all that.
I appreciate it. It's one day at a time, some are harder than others and it's so easy to remember something I don't want to and relapse. I'm trying to work through it, but it's difficult, ahah. I don't know if I'll ever fully heal, but at least I'm out of the situation now. That's improvement in the least :)
reading some of these comments makes me realize people dont realize how awful sa makes a victim feel. i was never sa'd but i was groomed multiple times and due to the trauma, depression, and anorexia i find myself craving abuse in the worst ways possible.
Im so sorry it had happened to you :(
I understand what you feel man, I've gone through that too :(
ok im not actually disturbed from lyrics of songs but this one managed to give me chills a little
SAME GURL-
Lol
Ik its so sad bc she doesnt know its a bad thing ro do :(
same i became sick
Same-
“tHe sOnG sOuNdS sO hApPy bUt tHe lYriCs r sO dArK”
bro did you not hear the demented metal sounding whisper growls?
Exactly
Favorite part. Good song tho I wish there were a variety of metal vocaloid and stuff. (Idk of that made sense sorry)
Ikr
Nothing about it is happy imo, the beat is kinda intense and the vocals are oddly haunting. But heyyyy.
These TikTok people are getting on my nerves >:(
「パパ」と「私」の関係ってすごく歪だし、歌詞の内容も真っ当ではない…といつも思うんだけど、
そんな中で「私」から「パパ」に対しての愛は確かに感じるところとか、サビ前のところでアコーディオンみたいな優しい音が聞こえるのが、純粋にパパを好きって気持ちみたいで好き…
落ち込んでる時に大音量で聞くと死ぬほど没入してしまう 本当に好き
Details #
My age at that time : 6-7 (girl)
My cousin's age " " " : 5-6 (boy)
[I went on a vacation to my maternal 3rd aunt's house in village. My aunt's house was a bit in deep from the road and there were 4-5 homes together bat 1-2 metre far each home. There was also a mini yard were we could play. The house to the left had a 2 stair (Each 1 is like this : -_, In total 2 of them) and they village people can sit on them by just cleaning with a dry clothe.]
One day my cousin and I were playing when an old man out of no-where came to us. He stared at me and my cousin weirdly as we were playing happily. As I've mentioned I was too young to realize and understand why he was staring at us. Suddenly he called me and told me to sit on his lap, I was were a short/half shorts. He told me sit comfortable then he put me on his lap but too close there(yk) and I didn’t understand a single thing. Afterwards he started touching and pressing my thighs weirdly and I was too much young to understand it, he also mildly shaked me unconsciously. Then he told me to get up and called my cousin and did the same. Afterwards me and my cousin told to my mother and my aunt what happened in there (my cousin's adoptive mother lives in another country so he lives with my third aunt).
Both of them got suddenly angry and said to not go out anymore to play and said to play at home.
Moreover I also got touched in my back after 2-3 years of this incident.
What happened to us is- I don’t know whether it was a molest or mild r@p3 but it might be one of them. I am young to talk about it but my mother has already made me aware of these things which every mothers should do. As a young but a senior girl, I also think that we should make aware the girls aged from 8 to 12 aware of these things because this is the time when girl children have their physical perfection attracting those creatures. It falls as our duty to do so. Thank you for reading this far.
This is so heartbreaking. And I agree with you. We should make our children aware of the dangers of the man. My school teacher grabbed my thigh, up to my groin when I was seven years old. I didn't know what was going on, obviously. But I grew up and learned that it was wrong. We can't do anything now.
Crazy
@@paca1513 I feel very pained for you, what happened to you was every unexpected and wrong...
this is disgusting.im sorry
similar things have happened to me i am so sorry you had to go through that i wish you better in the future
People, protect your children. Listen to them.
A mi me estremeció saber que hay cosas tan turbias que pasan en el día a día
Y es una realidad tan cruda pero hay niños que lo viven a diario 💔
🤨🤌
OK but this song still slaps
@@flavorStev x2
@@malteadadechocolate8012 💔
Me: “Music can’t be that scary”
Kikuo: Hold my skin
S k i n
Reroll underrated comment
*_The distortionist to kikuo:_* *AM I A JOKE TO YOU?*
(Hold my sanity)
hold my soup
Ive never been abused in the same manner as the girl in the song, but I can still certainly relate to wanting to apologize for being hurt. My mom says that I'm 'so hard to love' and I just want to apologize, what am I doing wrong? Are you going to love me if I fix myself? Am *I* going to love me if I fix myself?
Thank you, Kikuo, for your music.
Your mom is evil.
Same
@@Sergiopro2006 yg
yg
Are you ok
パパのために身を捧げてる瞬間、パパを想う瞬間は 色鮮やかなのが心に来る...
どんどん身体が崩れていくように画面がぐちゃぐちゃになっていくのもほんとに、...
Everyone's talking about the creepy lyrics but no ones gonna talk about the background of the song? That looks creepy af too, like what am I looking at here?
Honestly idk
RIGHT
Troy Brioso shut the fuck up, it’s been ten years, YALL from tiktok really be ruining the peace of the comments sections
Milly uwu it’s not that deep bro like who hurt you?
Milly uwu bro he’s just confused about the background..chill
'Read the lyrics' they said. 'it won't disgust or traumatize you' they said.
😭
@@ORVRUINEDMYLIFE no one cares
'Understand the lyrics' They said
'it wont make you sad' they said
HELP ME ITS TERRIFYING 😭
@Zuri Franklin,😨
TikTokからきくおさんを好きになるんじゃなくて自分で見つけれたのが誇り
Same- I dont even use tiktok.
Confirmo, pedazo canciones que tiene
えTikTokで流行ってたりしてたんですね!?
yo por una animadora en yt, aun q ya habia escuchado como 2 canciones suyas, aun asi no sabia q eran de el
そんなのが誇りになるとかどんな薄っぺらい人間なんだろう
何回聞いても色褪せない神曲すぎる。曲の緩急がほんとにすごい。
サビでも電子音も荒んだ心にすんなり染み込む
After reading the comments I just can't believe that TikTokers and GachaTubers would borderline make fun of something this serious.
@スポットゾジエス-》《-•Müzhø ✓ Oh sorry if it sounded like i was generalizing
@@jaeywaey445 ye
now i am never on tiktok but i am in the gacha community and i really agree with you i feel like gachatubers never really look into the song or even what its slightly about they just do it for the trend and likes and it makes me really sick to my stomach
The song isn’t on TikTok trust me
I saw a TikTok about this song so I went to go find it and I did. But now that I actually read the lyrics I’m actually mad rn.
This song is the peak of "art is meant to disturb the comforted and comfort the disturbed".
Fr
Amazing way to put this
Dude ur words hit hard than a firetruck
@@painlesskun3959 fr it hit harder than my mexicans mom slipper
@@painlesskun3959 They hit harder than two firetrucks
この方の作る作品ぜんぶ独特で好き
小学生の頃初めて聴いて、現状辛過ぎてエンドレス曲ループもしてたり、そういう形でも生きるを閉じれるなら羨ましいと思って聴いていたけど、普通に社会人なって聴いてきちんと意味を理解してもなお、やっぱ好きだなって思う自分がいる
If you haven't noticed yet, this song is about a girl who gets s-xually abused by her father. She meets a boy who she falls in love with. the lyrics "Im sorry, forgive me for falling in love with someone whos not papa" is her apologizing to her father for not falling in love with him. at the end of the song, the girl gets gang r-ped by her father and his friends. the lyrics referencing this are: "When he came home, papa was with a lot of people" and "they want to eat my collapsed body until the end, that's what they said".
wtf.. that’s so messed up
my thought is
The girl got sexually abused by her father and make her broke in every part of her including her mind . So thats why she cannot have a good relationship with her boyfriend and at the end she only found her truly love with her father , the person who destroyed her .
sorry for my bad english
That's sad
Nvm hold on
She's collapsed on the ground and she's helpless
Everyone: this is so sad...
Gacha tiktokers: *haha miku screaming go brrr*
I found this song off of gacha tiktoks that was uploaded on youtube 😭
I think I heard it off of a youtuber years ago but never knew what it meant
Hold up, Gacha tiktokers are using this song for their tiktok shit?!
@@prophetpolitic564 yeah 😔
As a member of the gacha community, we don’t claim them 💗
Im so happy i left the gacha community :D
父親に虐待をさせてあげられない自分が悪いと思うほどの虐待を受けているってコメントにすごくなるほどと思った。
パパとの関係が当たり前で育ったからお兄さんの優しさは当たり前に伝わらない。パパを支えてあげられない自分は悪い子で、お兄さんが私を愛してくれないのは私がボロボロだから。ボロボロでも愛してくれるのはパパだけなんだと思い、結局元に戻ってしまう。ひどいことをされる状態を愛情として処理するしかなくてそれに耐えるためにもひどいことをするパパしか好きになれない自分になるのか。
慣れないとマジできつくて、記憶がフラッシュバックするたびに不安になるけど、一度聞いたら必ずトラウマになってでも聞きたくなるような麻薬のような素晴らしい曲
Eres fuerte y serás más fuerte
the lyrics are so dark, terrifying disgusting sad and horrific. the song is a masterpiece, its a horrific meaning and message but its spreading awareness on a topic that is always shut down by society. truly beautiful but so so sad. i want to hug everyone who resonates with these lyrics. you are valid, your experience is valid, it wasn’t you’re fault. you are still you. and you are wonderful.
It's honestly hard for me to not blame myself. idky but in the end I feel like it was all my fault but thank you anyway
Damn op said facts about society
Couldn’t of said it better
wait isn't this straight-up cannibalism they pulled out her heart and ate it how was it traumatizing for her if she's dead? I'm not trying to be mean or invalidate others but I would like it if someone explained :/
@@cpnnibal I can't tell if this is a serious question but this isn't about cannibalism it's about rape.
Every now and then i think about this song and die a little inside
Yup same here
@@mars1165 Me Too
Hi todoroki
yup literally
Deadass
みんな病んでる時に聞くと落ち着くとか
鬱の時聞いてたって言ってるけど
俺は重低音とかリズムがめっちゃ好み
で聞いてる。
だからなのか聞きすぎると
精神おかしくなりそう
今のボカロには無い生々しい表現ホント素晴らしい
今でも聴いてる人いて安心
“he _opens_ up my ribs and drinks my *soup* “
ah, delightful
*_incredible_*
spencer mcGeary *finally some good fucking food*
sweetie pie I screamed
*Lovely*
splendid
man tiktok really coming for all vocaloid songs huh
@@blackstar044 uhh
WUT
Wait they also took this song? God please no akdjsjs they're gonna take the whole Vocaloid/kpop/meme/etc discography at this point
i don't even care about them using kpop and vocaloid songs, but the dark ones,,, ugh
@@doomfis3272 It kind of ruins them I'd say,,,
English lyrics for people:
Open my ribs, and drinking all of my soup
Straight from my stomach, all with a kiss
I don't think I have any kind of special taste
But if it pleases Papa, then...
*Music*
I'm Sorry I'm Sorry
Music, Lyrics: Kikuo
Suck up all my yellow f@t into a straw, stick that into my p33 and suck it up just like that too
Then take my p00p, stuff it, cut it up, and cook it too. Even thought my body's breaking down for you, Papa.
I'm sorry, I still don't think this is what a good feeling is supposed to be
I'm not sure, but my big bro taught me that it wasn't good, aahh
Despite this broken me, whose body is pathetic as can be, he still kindly reaches out a hand
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, this must be why I'm such a bad girl
Please forgive me, please forgive me! What a pity, poor little me
I'm sorry bye-bye from me, running awah from Papa makes me such a bad girl
I'm sorry, please forgive me! Sorry for finding someone who isn't you, Papa.
Big bro never gulps down all my @mniotic fluid, breaks open my tightened stomach and feeling around what's inside
Or eats me up, but he treats me gently, despite this broken me, who's ugly as can be
I'm sorry, I still don't think this was the right thing to do
Big bro must really hate me now, aahh
Despite this broken me, and this horrid feeling my body's giving me, I'll end up locked away, this is the end
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, this must be why I'm such a bad girl
Please forgive me, please forgive me! Oh so lonely, little me
I'm sorry, bye-bye from me, I'm going back to Papa because I'm a bad girl
I'm sorry, please forgive me, I only love my cruel Papa, so I can't love myself.
When he came home, Papa came back witn a lot of people, too
He had said, they'd believe I'd come back soon
Now they want to take this broken me and devour it all until the end.
That's what he had told me.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, this must be why I'm such a bad girl
Please forgive me, please forgive me! What a pity, poor little me
I'm sorry, is it tasty? Thag right there is the taste of a still-warm heart.
I'm sorry, but although it hurts, my heart has been satisfied.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, this must be why I'm such a bad girl
Please forgive me, please forgive me! Oh so lonely little me.
I'm sorry, but although it hurts, as long as you can eat it and it stil tastes good, then
I'm happy, bye-bye from me, just eat my p@rts, save for the heart, and everyone eat up!
//Guys, this is not right, never do anything like this\\
Why would you do this
@@BroadwayorBustBoy😂😂 Well...If someone has a loose screw in their head 🫠
I searched up the lyrics before dinner and I did not eat tonight
Me too
nobody gaf
@@phosanisclearly you did if you had to comment.
eating currently while listening:D
@@phosanis then you wanted to comment to shush
10 year old me: *thinks this song slaps*
17 year old me after reading the lyrics: ):
Savannah Richardson I read the lyrics when I was 10 and still loved it lol
@@stellaanimals same
I'm 14yo and this is very *DEEP*
EXCUSE ME WHAT THE FRICK LMAOO yeah
@@stellaanimals fbi open the door
i hate when people say stuff like "i liked the song until i understood the lyrics". the lyrics are a huge part of why the song is so good. i never experienced SA, but if you read the comments you will see many people who did, saying how well written this is and how much they realate. the dark topics don't make the song worse(same thing with songs about sexual things).
@scotty then i wasn't talking about your case. if it's because it's triggering then it's understandable. sorry for not specifying, it was insensitive of me.
I almost experienced CSA.
@@theo-yo1yo then your comment is unnecessary, some people just don't like dark things so the lyrics are a turn off to them. that's ok if you liked it until you understood the lyrics because some people just don't like dark music
@@XiaoIsMyHusbandBTW hell naw
I've been sexually assaulted before but the lyrics don't disturb me. I mean, the lyrics did surprise me when i read them but it didn't exactly "disturb" me. I'm numb to disturbing things, i guess.
歌詞 0:01
肋骨を開けて私のスープを飲むの 胃から直接口付けで
私は何の味もしないと思うけど パパに喜んでもらえるなら
黄色い脂肪をストローで吸って おしっこもそのまま刺して吸って
うんちもそのまま詰めて切って焼いて パパのために体が崩れていくけど
ごめんね やっぱりよくない気がするの 知らないお兄さんが教えてくれた
ああ 崩れた私の体は可哀想だって 優しく手を引くの
ごめんね ごめんね 私きっとダメな子だから
許して 許して かわいそうな私を
ごめんね さよなら パパから逃げるのは悪い子
ごめんね 許して パパじゃない人を好きになるわたしを
お兄さんは羊水をごくごく飲んだり 固いお腹を割って中身を触ったり
食べたりしないでそっとしてくれる 崩れた私は醜くてダメだって
ごめんね それじゃいけない気がするの お兄さんはきっと私が嫌いなの
ああ 崩れた私の体は気持ち悪いって 閉じ込められておわり
ごめんね ごめんね 私きっとダメな子だから
許して 許して 寂しがりな私を
ごめんね さよなら パパのところに戻る悪い子
ごめんね 許して ひどいパパしか好きになれない私を
帰るとパパはたくさんの人と一緒で
私が戻ってくるって信じてたって言ったの
崩れた私を最後まで食べつくしたい そう言ってくれたの
ごめんね ごめんね 私きっとダメな子だから
許して 許して かわいそうな私を
ごめんね おいしい？ それは温かいハートの味
ごめんね いたいけど 満たされた心臓を
ごめんね ごめんね 私きっとダメな子だから
許して 許して 寂しがりな私を
ごめんね 痛いけど おいしそうに食べてくれるだけで
嬉しい さよなら ハートじゃないところはみんなで食べて
The fact that people call this "disturbing" and this song is based on Irl SA...like wth I am so sorry for whoever is a victim of SA...This song is here to spread awareness
🤣
what sa victim??? where did you get this information? i’m genuinely curious, because this song means a lot to me.
@@ConnieCrow This song is based on parental SA and basically any type of SA and the girl says 'gommene, gommene' (sorry, sorry) becuase she is unaware othat this is wrong
@@ConnieCrow The au in the song is fictional but it is meant for irl SA awareness
since the main character is not old (her voice sounds young and by the drawing, she looks young too.) her voice only goes down to a quiet pained whisper. Tie this in with the lyrics very much implying severe sexual abuse
As a someone who has went through SA themself, this is all written amazingly well. The screams, the voices in the background, perfectly describes how disturbing and disgusting those situations are and how it can actually fuck someone up. It truly makes me sick to my stomach, that is what makes it a masterpiece. All of this is real and raw emotion, when someone tells you about them going through something like this, believe them. Because its real, and its disgusting. (Out of character)
I'm really sorry for what happens to you
@@sabrinabenyamina6383 its okay
I hope whoever abused you will burn in hell
I'm so sorry that happened to you! I'm glad you're ok tho
I hope whoever did that to you goes to jail if they haven't
WTF Junko, I love you XDD
I had forgotten how genuinely terrifying this piece is. What makes it scarier is that this is a reflection of reality-and there are so many situations like this that go unnoticed.
Take care of your children.
livingantique. The parents are abusing their child it’s not always up to the parents to watch out for their kids we need to teach kids to watch out for themselves cause they literally can’t trust anyone anymore
4.4k likes but im the 2nd comment, makes sense
2.3k nvm
I don’t think parents are constantly eating their children but ok
@@kbut8928
I appreciate your comments alot!♡
私が人生で初めて聴いたボカロ曲がこれです。生々しい歌詞や音…やっぱりこの感じがたまりませんね、大好きです。
初手でこれは猛者過ぎるw
おかげで夜寝れなくなる日とかありましたねw
10yr old me be like: its an ok song
21 yr old me: I’m traumatised
Edit:the replies are mad crazy
off topic but, dang your ancient
@@NamelessAnimatorProbably21??
10 yr old me would have been traumatized
@@Imbreadmom if I knew I would be traumatized lol
@@Sandfishcalledpablo I think everyone would
「Tell Your World」「ハッピーシンセサイザ」「メランコリック」たちが生まれていく裏側でこの曲も一緒に生まれてんだと考えると世界の縮図を見てるみたいで面白い。
헐 해피신디사이저 진짜 좋아하는데 이곡도 같은 사람(기계?)가 만들었다는 생각을 하니까 뭔가 소름돋는다..
幸せを感じてるとき、誰かが不幸を感じてるんだね…
@@user-sh2sq2sy9bじゃあ見んなよ👋。なぜあなたはこのコメントにいんの？？？
また韓国人が日本の動画を否定するためにわざわざコメントしてくれました😂劣等感で生きるの辛そう~😂😂😂
アイザック・ニュートンみたい
@@user-dj5lq9pt6oなんて当たり前の事を真理みたいにいうんだ…
i really hate seeing people say things like “this song is so weird”. Now I can understand the uncomfortable feelings or sorts but truly this song has such deep meaning and really explains a real and serious topic.
and sounds good too ( acording to me)
@@camochiiwilldie agreed!!
. . . what do you mean a serious situation many experience??????????????????????????
@@peachyjam9440 I edited it and rephrased it, I meant it in a way that this song portrays a serious topic and something no one should have to experience
Yes but as someone who has been through assault, I understand how people are disturbed from this song and it's okay to not like the song, it's about abuse after all. But the song isn't really bad, It sounds well and it is good.
the song versus the caption "send vegetables to kikuo on Patreon" are KILLING me. Like Kikuo pookie please
"this is so dark and innapropriate!"
welcome to kikuo
so this was my favorite song but today i decided to look at the lyrics..
🗿
Still don't understand that emoji tbh
🌚🌚
🗿 indeed
in Spanish that emoji means a bueno no sabia
@@shionashiel its the facial expression. (If you dont use ios you wont get it)
someone: “this is based off of a true story”
*hol’ up*
unfortunately theres many incidents like this happening right now
@@vyasuna that’s gross, I’m so embarrassed to share a planet with those type of people
@@gianna1576 sick messed up people are the reason this world is so evil
@@vyasuna mhm
Seriously, imagine sticking your tongue out doing ahegao to such a sad song BASED OFF A TRUE STORY, I’m ashamed to be in a planet with these disgusting people, who actually do this to kids and use tiktok to make ahegao about this song.
11年たった今でも視聴回数が増えてる、ほんとにこの曲神なんだよな
Listening to the song not knowing japanese: 🔥
The picture:👀😟
The translated lyrics:☠️😭
Tbh, my mind cannot comprehend what that pic even is
it actually looks like the human or creature idk opening their skin but i dont have any idea about the background@@CandyAngel20211
@@CandyAngel20211 same kinda
Ignoring all the other weird stuff, it’s the girls body
@@annabellesgamingadventures5243😳😳😨😨😰😰
It’s like pumped up kicks. Sound nice, but the lyrics and highly cursed
The Worshipper Of Memes slightly?? Slightly???????
Salad Floof they said "highly" lmao
I'm a cupcake I think I was having a moment when I wrote that lmao
sounds nice...? did you hear that demonic whisper shouting
@@shaunna23 exactly
Everyone seems horrified by the lyrics to this song, but a lot of us Vocaloid fans are already used to these types of songs now.
True.
I want to get more into these. I find it horrific yet intruiging
Yea, I never got over the sick feeling though. I'm used to it, but I always feel lightheaded when listening😂😅
same, like i've been into this kind of stuff since elementary, and i'm fine yk
@@nikkirivera5307 bro same for me likeim getting used to it but it makes me a bit light headed
えげつない歌詞だけどほんといい曲
I miss being able to see the old original comments.
I know. Thanks TikTok 😕
It's always 𝓑𝓔𝓖 𝓕𝓞𝓡 𝓛𝓘𝓚𝓔𝓢 (BEG FOR LIKES) like..
@right662 yeah every comment section is just a joke contest these days.
@@right662can you stop appearing in every comment section I see
Everybody talking about the soup, but why has no one mentioned the baked poop
Ella.S. 113 it’s a metaphor.. the ‘straw’ is a metaphor for her fathers.. um.. lower body part, and the ‘eating’ her is a metaphor for how it feels to be manipulated into having sexual intercourse with her father, hence the ‘baked poop’ thing?? She was about nine years old in the storyline so she probably didn’t understand that she was being manipulated into both vaginal and anal intercourse-? Like?? I’m not exactly sure what the baking of her stool has to do with it but- uh.. yeah.
@@sugar7845 Yeah, it really is an explicit song with a lot of hidden meanings, and I was aware of all the dark symbolism, I was just surprised no one had brought it up hehe, thnx for the explanation tho! :)
I WAS ABOUT TO SAY
ah sweet jesus, ik those are both terrible, but like........ ya know what I mean?
@604 wtf I've never heard that before lmao
This song is about a young girl who is raped by her dad, what she means by "collapsing body" is that the rape is too much that it ruined her insides. This song is not about cannibalism, it is about child rape.
Her father is brainwashing her to believe that being raped and abuse is being "loved". One day she ran away from her father's house by going into her neighbors house, her neighbor is a boy.
The boy pitied her "collapsing body", so he took her in, soon enough they fell in love, the boy truly loved her, and the girl loved him too but she was confused she didn't know what "true love" means, she thought the boy hated her because the boy is not raping her or abusing her. She thought that being taken care of means they hate you.
So she run away and went back to her father's house to be loved again but as soon as she went back, her dad bought a few men in his house to gangrape her. The gangrape was too much for the young girl so unfortunately she died.
Edit: Just realize the boy tried to help her about the abortion at 2:25 . OMGosh why the fucking hell both of you guys didn't just live a happily life??? Why you comeback girl 😭😭
Holy fucking shit
oh shit-
what the fuck
WTF did i just read and listen?! na i'm going to jump out of the window ,fuck this world!
It's sad to think there are cases like that in the world today... humans can be extremely cruel creatures.
歌詞がドチャクソキモイのにメロディーで引き込まれる
何度も聞きたくなるような中毒性
もうこの子が幸せならいいんじゃないかっていう諦めと絶望に駆られるよね
はい 無限ループ確定。
I knowww
Holy shit this video is expressive art, yet a disturbing one that makes my stomach churn. The lyrics, the demented whispering, and even the art in the video really expresses such deep emotions and feelings those of who experience such thing. I feel bad for all the children who experience this...Great job kikuo, such creativity in mind you got.
Ok but since miku is singing at cochella
Imagine her playing this, Rolling girl, Aishite Aishite Aishite, and other ones??
Like the people who don’t know the meaning are just vibing while the weebs are in the back like:
*_Oh No_*
@@rozaleianadya5948 of course we will do that
she has never played gomenne gomenne live, i doubt they’d let it be performed at coachella
This.Weird0 ?? Rolling Girl isn’t to bad, what about all the songs where Len is a w h o r e and Miku is a creepy bug? Imagine all the vocaloid fans watching in joy as a horrifying 7 foot Miku with a big claw comes crawling on stage, then afterwards they get to see Len thirsting over his sister. Ngl that may be worth seeing live dou
This.Weird0 ?? *BRO*
Ahh don’t forget two faced lovers uhm
The beat dropped harder than my guilt
Read the captions, just don't blame me
@@mirai9242 Noo
@Aaliyah Candohi
Woomyand Veemo tbh I’m not disturbed but I just feel guilt .-.
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The instrumental: 🥳🤩🕺🏼💃
Lyrics: 💀
a lot of kikuo songs sounds cheerful, except the lyrics like how a mom call their kid useless and a father (r) his own daughter (you hear me right, HIS OWN DAUGHTER) and something
最初の高音好きすぎて定期的にリピる。
This song is probably one the most scariest and disturbing song I've ever heard but goddamn does it have a beautifully scary meaning and its so fucking catchy KIKUO IS A GOD.
absolutely, the song is super disturbing and dark but its incredible, I seriously love kikou’s music so much!
I cant watch the video with the translation on lmao
@@dinosaul same
Yea it is kinda scary and addicting but have u heard okassan-
I haven’t been sexually raped or anything and it just makes me sad that other people have. I thought this song was just quirky until I realised what it was about. I’m sorry for people who have been in this way..
im just going to ignore the lyrics cuz the beat lowkey slaps
big mood
Facts
Keef
but the lyrics slap harder-
the 1st line made my body weak
いつまで経ってもすき
サビの直前になる実も漏らしてそうな放屁の音が決め手すぎる
えっ、そゆことなん？
@@user-iz7gq1dk4p 知らんけどﾌﾞﾘｭって鳴ってるからそうかなーって
@@Ahah-ci5cg
面白い解釈だな😯
theory, at 1:02, there’s background noises that sound a lot like a sped up child’s music box, representing how her childhood was cut short/rushed by her father.
I tried to listen to what the child’s music box sounds like not sped up
I regret everything.
"father"
THATS DEPRESSING 🧑🦲
@@iateabee420 gosh i decided to slow it down and it was freaking me out and then my dumb ass cat knocked a chair over and scared the shit out of me 😭😂
theory: ur theory isnt even a theory
Honestly this song is pretty accurate. The sad part is the girl believes that shes a bad kid and that shes a disappointment to her father. Sexual abuse is horrible because its emotional and physical abuse mixed into one. What she’s going through is horrible and I can only imagine what her father has done to her. Parents no matter how good always hurt their child, some leave finger prints, some leave cracks, and some like this father shatters the child.
i was bopping to this when i read the comments
KaiDG Ive been bopping out to this even though I know what the lyrics are lamo
I thought the dad was a cannibal
@@helpiwatchedtenhoursof7970 this comment of yours reminded me of that one Vocaloid/Engloid song named Secrets of Wisteria. That song is about a cannibal. Don't watch it at night!
@@macaroll i showed it to one of My Friends,now he is scared of Albert fish
As a victim of CSA (I was 3 - 4 years old ever since it happened) this song extremely hits hard, I remember breaking down in tears while listening to it since 11 years old. This has been my comfort song throughout my years, the lyrics are written well, the screams, whispers, the voice, everything. I'm really glad Kikuo made this to spread awareness.
いつも思うけどきくおさんの絵ってめちゃめちゃインパクト強いよな、ずっと頭の中に残り続ける感じ
You know the saying "curiosity killed the cat"?
This applies to any of Kikuos songs.
UltimateLegendLugia I can only think of universe cat drowning
Hole-dwelling? Not so much....
I believe the original comment is reffering to the people who see this song and are like "Ah yes this song sounds nice lets look up the lyrics!" And then die
yea
Kikuo's songs are like Pandora's box. You don't wanna get in trouble (find out it's dark and sad and become sad yourself) but you really wanna know what's inside (what the meaning of the songs are).
I love the opening lyric “Opening my ribs, drinking all of my soup, straight from my stomach, all with a kiss.” It really shows how badly these kinds of relationships can mess with people.
Honestly the “Opening my ribs and drinking all of my soup” doesn’t make sense to me. Like does that mean cannibalism or eating her 🐱 or what?
@@JaxonVRTheMonkeh it's kinda a metaphor for a form of sexual abuse
@@bl1tz1t ok
@@JaxonVRTheMonkeh I guess it's not supposed to make sence, the victim doesn't understand what's happening
@@JaxonVRTheMonkeh no, its like saying this all happened with a kiss, like this is what they felt when they were kissed in non-consensual way
この曲謎の中毒性がある
i could live without the lyrics 😭😭 but the way kikuo uses the voice bank as an instrument in a way is so cool
The fact that this girl said "if its make PAPA happy, im happy with it" make me very sad, what a poor kid...
Yeah, i really wish i could hug her right now. People really need to take care of their children. The world NEEDS to get better.
I felt :')
@@damitrish2628 you can't anymore. She died.
@@VyTuong-rq4xy you maked me laugh so fucking hard
@•bxnny• i think is pretty self explanatory, i just have a different sense of humor than yours
I realized there is difference between English and Korean (my language) subtitle. When the Eng subtitle says “Big brother gulps my amniotic fluid and (idk I forgot the exact subtitle)”, the Kor subtitle says “big brother does not drink my amniotic fluid or open my hard stomach and touch the inside and eat it, he just leaves it alone because the broken me is ugly”. Korean language has a lot of similarities with Japanese language, so this might be saying that the big brother actually wanted to save her, but she thought that the awful thing her dad did to her was the form of “love”, so she thinks big brother hates her and she left him
I mean English and Korean “subtitle”
nice analysis!
@@ilovebreadbro
Oh good analysis!
I can't believe that these are still happening
I feel so sorry and guilty for those who got SA.. They didn't deserve that
Why just why do these keep happening..
That's the reality of our world i guess...
your actually correct to! that parts meaning was that the "big brother" refused to treat her the way her father did, bc "big brother" wanted to treat her like a human, and treat her correctly, but in english it is translated to a wording that makes it worse than what it was
Yeah, the translation is slightly wrong here. For example the line here translated "forgive me for not being able to love my cruel Papa" actually means "forgive me for being able to love only my cruel Papa", the second one makes more sense since she sings the second chorus to Onii-san.
これ虐待の曲なのかな・・？この時代に聴くとパパ活とかしてる子が聴いたらぶっ刺さるのでは？とか思った。
確かに虐待に関する話のように聞こえる
聞いて欲しいよね、そういう子には
絶対そういうことするのは辛いはず
辛い？みんな、自分の一方的な価値観でしか考えられない「知らないお兄さん」みたい
虐待がテーマというより、どんな形でも愛してほしい、壊れた承認欲求な私でごめんねって
私はそんな一方的な感想です
わかる
Yes this song is about sexual abuse
This song unlocked a core memory
Real
I'm glad I don't speak japanese imagine listening to the song and actually understanding the lyrics
Edit : GUYS IT'S A JOKE I KNOW THERE ARE SUBTITLES WHAT I MEAN IS THAT I CAN LISTEN WITHOUT UNDERSTANDING
me whos studying japenese: 👁👁
@@kelseymcleod1362 Same 👀
you can read the subtitles if you turn captions on
me whos studying japanese and had the captions on and learned how to say sorry:
hm
literally me
Sometimes I wonder if kikuo is okay
Dude if you see this are you doing good I know it's been years but im concerned.
Same... I'm here to back you up on that :(
Same
I don't think he/she's okay
Yeah, seeing the lyrics to some of their songs makes me wonder if they’re actually okay and / or are basing the lyrics off personal experience
I really hope if that stands true, they’re doing better now :(
I use this song as an unhealthy coping mechanism
Most of his songs are based on his childhood, he has brought that up before on his Twitter. I think in some kind of way, making music like this is coping to him. Speaking of Twitter, there's no need to worry, on his Twitter account he stated that he's working on new music. I think he's just busy and can't get music out as much as he'd like to. I hope that clears things up :).
It just hurts me to see people make fun of this song because its weird, stop over exaggerating it. It’s S/A representation. NOT about Miku’s screaming. I was not sexually assaulted myself, but you don’t need to experience the same thing to know what’s right and what’s wrong.
これを初めて聞いたとき、私は12歳で日本語が話せませんでした。11年前のことですが、ようやく彼らが何を言っているのか理解できました。うんざりしました。
Yo como hace 1 mes la oigo, pero la oia sin la traduccion y su rigmo me gusta la letra era pegajosa aunque estuviese en japones y ahora que ya vi la tradiccion es algo "incomodo" bueno no tan asi si no da tristesa, aun asi me gusta.. su rigmo
Is anyone going to talk about how her voice sounds?
When she sings "I'm sorry, i'm sorry!" she sounds so heart broken...
and her voice sounds a little sore- and hurt...maybe the abuse affected her very much. Not just her body and her head. But her voice as well.
Another thing to add is that she was really hurt at the end, she was screaming. (Possibly from the gang-rape)
But i agree with you, thanks.
@Eva Srejic this isnt hatsune miku
@Eva Srejic Yeah, i'm aware. I'm trying to analyze the song though.
@Kuru it’s not, because Miku has a deeper voice and kikuo uses a different persons vocals and pitches them up. Listen really carefully cuz miku only does collabs with kikuo, but she is not in this song
@Kuru Miku’s voice wasn’t used for the vocals tho, and if he did add miku’s vocals in his song, it would say in the title that she’s featured but it doesn’t. U must be new to vocaloid or at least not know as much since vocals were only pitched up and the vocals were made by a different person.
title: "i'm sorry, i'm sorry"
me: well, this is probably a sad and depressing song... It'll probably sound good.
*listens to it*
woah! I love It! I wonder what it's about-
*realizes it's a song by kikuo*
....oh
XD lol I can relate
FR-
自動翻訳にすると文字化けみたいになるけど意味があって好き
1年前とかぐらいによく見てた
ショートのBGMになってて、懐かしくなって聴きに来てみた
外国人ネキ増えた？
それだけきくおさんが人気ってことだったら嬉しい！
そんで新しい考察もあって、色々最高！
*listens to song*
*looks at horrified comments*
C'mon, the artwork is creepy, sure, but grow a pair.
*looks at subtitles*
Oh.
The sudden realization moment
Excatly my reaction
0:55
Welp, too late
Oof
歌詞のグロさといいリズムと言い絵の謎さといい全部癖になる
Yeah The song is Pog but the Lyrics and The meaning is mess up
Uuu adorei a foto do shouta
それな！(迫真)
I wasn’t even looking for this song, I just ended up here without understanding how, I’ve known this song for a long time, but I constantly, like I can just scroll through the feed on CZcams and not understand how I ended up here...
2500万再生おめでとうございます🎉
This song literally gives me chills, I didn’t go through SA but the lyrics give me goosebumps of fear.
@mushroom i was confused at 1:26 too, But i understood it later. It was about rape.
Same
@@justanomorifan3059 no one deserves to go through that, be thankful for having good life, you shouldn’t feel guilty about it
fr it makes me wanna cry
@@eurojammer Same
何度聴いても怖いし感情がぐちゃぐちゃのめちゃくちゃにされるけれど、リズムが癖になって何度も聴きに来ちゃう
それな！
ええ、それは中毒です笑
ごめんね ごめんね中毒
わかります･･･自分中毒なんで、、、
たまらん
ストレスでの頭痛にめっっっちゃきく。。ありがとうございます
唐突に聴きたくなったから聴きに来た
**Listening to this song for the first time**
Me: **Accidentally leaves captions on**
Miku: "He opens my ribs and drinks my soup"
Me: *AYO WTF-*
Good soup😃
@@anonymos_brooklyn678 WAIT NO PLS-
@@anonymos_brooklyn678 why are you like this
For real man, had to do a triple take when started reading the words.
The first time I listened to it I was 12 years old and had NO IDEA what this was about. Today, 18 years old me is just disgusted and terrified
oh my gosh I thought this was just a normal Japanese song but when I read the lyrics i actually cried this is so sad
Это очень жутко 😢
今でも定期的に聴きに来てます。なんかもう、精神安定剤になってきてる
Song: about sexual abuse and quite possibly, cannibalism
Tiktok noobs: hehe ahegao
Ok i dont even use tiktok but i see so much of this shit and wtf, tiktok seems to really like using good songs and representing them in the worse way possible
I hate people sticking out their tongue, it's stupid
@@doomi4582 yeah, its not a bad offence but if you do that for no reason im sure its okay for people to think its gross as hell
It’s actually not about cannibalism, It’s the victim describing how it feels for her to be sexually abused. Just thought you would want to know.
M1cksta05 *”song about sexual abuse”* did you even finish reading the comment
i’m honestly so close to a fucking break down. these lyrics are terrifying. i can’t believe shit like this happens in real life... i’m literally scared to live.
same it’s such a terrifying and cruel world we live in :(
@Baka Baka i wrote my original comment at like 4 am. after that i could not fucking sleep. i kept seeing the terrifying image of the girl ripping her skin in my mind. safe to say this video has fucked me up even a whole week later
it's a song chill theres literally no way someone would do something like that
@Ohio is offline yeah I'm 100% sure, rapists wouldn't want to eat a body, and cannibals would want to just eat your body then throw the rest away
@@mettsuu Look up Albert Fish
コメ欄で必死に言語化してるの愛おしい
聴いてるだけで満たさせるのに
今でもこの曲を聴くけど、いつ聴いても体の奥から危険を感じてゾゾゾッて来る感覚大好き♥️
this song is so good
too bad it gives me nightmares
shikkakyuu *right?*
Very good song
500th like
It doesn't give me nightmares
This song is about papa eating son
actually it's about rape i think
it just sounds like the child is being eaten by the father
did i mention "Big Brother drinks my amniotic fluid" and the squirting noises throughout the song?
it could mean some very gross things