Post-Surgery Update: Am I Cancer Free?!

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  • čas přidán 18. 02. 2023
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    After being diagnosed with Stage 3 ovarian cancer during surgery on my left ovary back in June 2022, I decided to pursue treatment at Mayo Clinic in Rochester, Minnesota. I went through six rounds of chemotherapy (paclitaxel/carboplatin) and had two inconclusive biopsies (liver/lymph nodes). On January 16, 2023, I had a debulking surgery that included a laparotomy, hysterectomy, salpingo-oophorectomy, lymphadenectomy and an omentectomy. Today we are sharing more about the pathology results from my surgery.
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    We are Brian & Jessica, a married couple who started on a life-changing whole food, plant-based weight loss journey back in June 2018. In June 2022, our lives were flipped upside-down when Jessica was diagnosed with Stage 3 ovarian cancer. We continue to share our adventures (highs, lows, struggles & everything in between) in following a plant-based diet while keeping you up-to-date on Jessica's cancer treatment.
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  • @KrocksInTheKitchen
    @KrocksInTheKitchen  Před rokem +85

    Check out other videos related to my cancer journey: bit.ly/KrockCancerJourney
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    • @Veegan4theanimals
      @Veegan4theanimals Před rokem +8

      I wish you all the luck in the world. Hugs ❤

    • @CharGC123
      @CharGC123 Před rokem +11

      You have been severely traumatized and that doesn't just go away! It's no wonder you don't want to be vulnerable only to get mowed down again by all the uncertainties of life! Don't worry about how you or others think you should feel, it is what it is. We all wish you the best and so glad you have each other. I lost an adult son and have my own health issues, and dealing with trauma alone is beyond hopeless. Hugs and love to you both! ❤❤❤❤

    • @angelalewis4213
      @angelalewis4213 Před rokem +4

      I am so happy for you. I am extremely hopeful for your recovery.

    • @reginahaley3723
      @reginahaley3723 Před rokem +5

      Thank you for the update! It certainly does sound like great news. Love you both, and best wishes for your full healing and recovery.💜🥰

    • @vickieshafer8217
      @vickieshafer8217 Před rokem

      @@Veegan4theanimals a

  • @bflogal18
    @bflogal18 Před rokem +893

    Jessica, no one expects a darn thing from you! You have been a warrior through this entire ordeal, but warriors are human too. Cancer is a marathon. Depression is part of that marathon. Take your time to feel whatever you need to feel. And please stop worrying about the rest of the world. You and Brian are amazing people. We are so blessed that you are willing to share your lives with us. ❤

    • @Nan-59
      @Nan-59 Před rokem +18

      Absolutely! We truly and honestly expect nothing. Very well said. ❤

    • @spiritlovescolorado
      @spiritlovescolorado Před rokem +10

      Yes! ALLLLL That! You just Do Jesus, YOU & Bryan! N Start Steppin from Glory to GGGGLLLLOOOORRRRYYYYY!

    • @36grandma
      @36grandma Před rokem +6

      Well said! Yes it’s very brave to share at all.

    • @davidthescottishvegan
      @davidthescottishvegan Před rokem +12

      Couldn't say it better and agree 100% with your comments. Jessica doesn't need to apologise because of what she's had to endure and how she feels.

    • @sjs3590
      @sjs3590 Před rokem +13

      It sounds to me like our prayers for you worked. God has worked a miracle in you. Praise God!!

  • @marymcniff1237
    @marymcniff1237 Před rokem +360

    As a cancer survivor I can tell you, once you get past the physical fight - the mental fight starts. Its hard to trust that you are finally okay. You will slowly trust in the good news.

    • @PokeMommaAndMini
      @PokeMommaAndMini Před rokem +24

      You’re absolutely spot on. Battle of the mind… it’s the long game

    • @smd4646
      @smd4646 Před rokem +22

      Cancer survivor also, and I had the same surgery Jessica had. I remember crying constantly. My doc put me on hormones and that helped a lot. I hope she has asked them about this.

    • @shess1640
      @shess1640 Před rokem

      Cancer is so evil….it’s hard to trust it.

    • @marilynpalosaari2387
      @marilynpalosaari2387 Před rokem +14

      ❣️❣️❣️ That's exactly it.. after going through one mental stress after another, the trauma kicks in & you're in disbelief that the battle just might FINALLY be over. Jessica... You will still worry and get anxious with each follow up scan, but as you sail through each one & get the assurances again & again... Your mind will calm down & you will come to believe it. Yours has been an unusual case from the start & you & Brian did everything exactly right. You researched, you self advocated fiercely & you followed all instructions to the letter. Take this time to process it all... To heal your body & to just be able to BREATHE without that weight hanging over your head!! Sending much love from Canada 🇨🇦 ❣️❣️❣️

    • @Lydbar23
      @Lydbar23 Před rokem +1

      So true.

  • @elainebeal811
    @elainebeal811 Před rokem +174

    Brian is husband of the century! He’s so kind and thoughtful.

    • @c.c.6930
      @c.c.6930 Před rokem +4

      The way he looks at her ... Awww!

    • @Monica_Escobar
      @Monica_Escobar Před rokem +4

      So gentle and caring, the best partner she could of had through such an ordeal.

    • @Alexandra-dy2ns
      @Alexandra-dy2ns Před rokem +1

      @@c.c.6930 Right, one could become jealous. So sweet. Jessica deserves that, she's been through so much.

    • @c.c.6930
      @c.c.6930 Před rokem

      @@Alexandra-dy2ns You are right. Some couples make us dream, some men are pure gold. They restore our faith in romantic LOVE!!!

    • @simonemcinnes467
      @simonemcinnes467 Před rokem +1

      Everyone needs a Brian in their life.

  • @cameronrau6142
    @cameronrau6142 Před rokem +121

    Your genuine reaction is far more impressive than a confetti laden video. There is a time to mourn and a time to dance. You’ve been taken to the brink of mortality and back. Be kind to yourself and give you the space you need to grieve the past nine months and know the collective energy from your followers will see you through until you feel more joyous.

  • @mrscpc1918
    @mrscpc1918 Před rokem +72

    It’s called relief. Cry all you need. You both are amazing.

  • @mandysand5683
    @mandysand5683 Před rokem +125

    So happy to hear your good news! I'm a retired Oncology Nurse of 35 years and I totally get where you are coming from. I know the long road you have been on and the toll it takes. Take this time to get back to good health physically and emotionally. There will be plenty of time to celebrate, and waking up each day is a gift for all of us. You have such an awesome, supportive husband who has been by your side through the thick of it. You are truly blessed!

  • @richricogranada9647
    @richricogranada9647 Před rokem +22

    You already hit the jackpot in life with a such supportive loving and caring husband-very rare to find. Keep being alive and enjoying life with him.

  • @gingerrogers5062
    @gingerrogers5062 Před rokem +95

    I have had cancer twice over a period of a decade, and may I just say this (on a lighter note): your have a gorgeous head! When my hair fell out, I discovered I have a lumpy, tiny, wholly unattractive skull. You, on the other hand, hit the cranium jackpot!
    I’m looking this video, thinking you are shell-shocked right now. I AM so very happy for you. I’m dancing while you don’t yet fell like doing so. Much that is joyful awaits you both. And after a while, good news becomes the norm.

    • @fetishavamp
      @fetishavamp Před rokem +3

      Jessica has a gorgeous bone structure.

    • @danyellenunesfranco7828
      @danyellenunesfranco7828 Před rokem +3

      She truly does! Absolutely beautiful inside and out! Every video I find myself wanting to give her the biggest hug!!!

  • @lindajojojo
    @lindajojojo Před rokem +233

    Take your time, honey. There’s no “should or should not” here. Feel the feelings and understand that you are loved.

    • @melmeier6515
      @melmeier6515 Před rokem +3

      @Lindy Loo - this is a random comment to you from a complete stranger, but I have to share this. My mother’s nickname was “Linda Loo” and when I read your comment I swear I could hear it in her voice. She’s been gone 10 years, but in this moment I could feel her. Thank you for that. ❤

    • @amymac41890
      @amymac41890 Před rokem

      @@melmeier6515 so very sweet ❤

    • @lindajojojo
      @lindajojojo Před rokem

      @@melmeier6515 so pleased to have brought you a special moment❤️

  • @tammyslaughter9587
    @tammyslaughter9587 Před rokem +97

    I hope Brian realizes he is such a huge part of Jessica’s successful treatments and recovery. His care, support, intelligent ability to learn as much medical information concerning Jessica is extremely impressive. I don’t know if the spouses and caregivers are aware how important their part is in helping their spouse survive cancer. I too have a Brian type of husband and he is my rock and reason I fought so hard to continue to survive and be together. Jessica be kind and gentle to yourself and expect the rollercoaster of emotions, you’ve been through extreme medical trauma and it takes awhile to acclimate to your new normal.You’ve lived in the cancer world for awhile and believe it or not sometimes it’s difficult to go back to normal life. I was diagnosed with metastatic stage 4 colorectal cancer which had metastasized to my liver and lymph nodes. There was cancer all on the right lobe of my liver so after chemo radiation, a colectomy, and an ileostomy bag placement I had a final scan just before going into surgery to have half my liver removed, my gallbladder , and 27 lymph nodes removed. The final scan looked nothing like the initial scan because the final scan showed no cancer at all. So I had to decide whether to continue with the liver lobectomy and was told if one cancer cell is left behind I would be in trouble. So I had half my liver removed along with gallbladder, and lymph nodes and my liver was biopsied which showed no cancer, but a few of my lymph nodes had cancer. The right lobe of my liver fully grew back healthy and I’ve been NED from stage 4 colorectal cancer for 8 years now. Do you know if they found cancer in any of your 57 lymph nodes that were removed and biopsied? I’m so happy for both you and Brian, you both have been through a hell of a journey! I wish you both peace, love, happiness, and health!! ❤

  • @stephanies3553
    @stephanies3553 Před rokem +28

    As a someone who has lived with stage 4 cancer for 5 years, I can tell you that what you're feeling is normal. Emotions can change day to day, hour to hour even minute to minute. Don't worry about what others expect from you (or what you think others expect from you). You are doing the best you can and that's all you can do even if your best is just surviving to the next minute. Sending much love to you.

  • @KM-vf4oi
    @KM-vf4oi Před rokem +73

    Also, your body is now adjusting to living without the hormones it was producing. It’s normal to feel sad and depressed during that time. It is really great to hear the news that you don’t have cancer. I couldn’t wait to tell my husband about it. Your hair is growing back so fast and it’s a beautiful color. I know you still have a ways to go in the journey and it will take time to feel like it’s safe to celebrate but I’m celebrating for you.

    • @stacyhartley8253
      @stacyhartley8253 Před rokem +2

      Yes, all of this! Well said.

    • @karen8386
      @karen8386 Před rokem +1

      Thank the Lord and give him the praise, beautiful girl!

    • @rebekahredus3963
      @rebekahredus3963 Před rokem +2

      So happy for the great news but waking up in instant menopause is rough. Praying for you both and believing that God has touched your body and healed you. Prayer is powerful.

  • @cheezyquackers3981
    @cheezyquackers3981 Před rokem +105

    It was about 5 yr after my husband's clean reports before we could breathe. It's been 22 yrs since diagnosis. I couldn't begin to explain what he went through for two years of fighting. What we went through together. But God brought us through. No cancer. Married 52yr and retired now. Having a ball. You will come through too. I believe it.❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @bevr2164
      @bevr2164 Před rokem +4

      Perfect❣ this is what I have wanted to say. There will come a day when you realize you are healed. Our son from the ages of 9 to 14 years had 6 surgeries, 32 months of chemo, 6 weeks of radiation. Every scan was a stressors. At 2 years post cancer God gave me scripture in Isaiah "behold I will do a new thing, will you not know it? It will spring forth in the midst of you" The new thing was no more tumors. PRAISE GOD Hallelujah❣ I am rejoicing with you. Blessings upon blessings.
      My husband and I are both 2 times cancer survivors. We are both 81 yo and been married 61 yo. PTL😇

    • @overgrownkudzu
      @overgrownkudzu Před rokem

      it's said that if it hasn't come back for 5 years, it's usually gone for good so i can only imagine how much relief it is to cross that threshold

  • @tmh0921
    @tmh0921 Před rokem +107

    I’ve had cancer twice now, and what you’re feeling is normal. You’ve spent months in physical and mental turmoil. You’ve lived with the emotions of the constant threat to your life (cancer). That doesn’t just go away. Many of us cancer survivors/warriors have PTSD because of cancer and treatments and scans and all that goes with it. My chemo ended in 2019, and just last year I threw away my tote of “chemo stuff” ( beanies, otc meds, etc.) and I just started bawling when I threw it away. It should have been a good thing, but all of those feelings just came rushing back. We cancer survivors live having faced our mortality, and waiting for that other shoe to drop. I’m 23 years from my first diagnosis and 4 years from my second. It DOES get better emotionally. There WILL be days where you don’t even think about cancer. Give yourself grace. Hugs from one survivor to another.

    • @smd4646
      @smd4646 Před rokem +4

      You and I have travelled the same path….twice. Sometimes I had to remind myself to start living and stop waiting to die. It’s hard. Crying is so normal. Hormones might be needed in her case.

    • @tishamonroe7418
      @tishamonroe7418 Před rokem +3

      beautiful Tracy! So happy for your strength. Jessica and Brian will be better too

    • @eon7125
      @eon7125 Před rokem

      💐

  • @Suzismart
    @Suzismart Před rokem +21

    My kiddo struggled with the same thing. He was super emotional and even struggled with PTSD from living at a hospital for 6 months, etc. Give yourself some grace and time to recover, heal and process. I would recommend a support group. Praying for peace and total healing. Hang in there kiddo. You are a rockstar!! God is good!!! ♥️

  • @lindaowens2966
    @lindaowens2966 Před rokem +18

    That sounds like a miracle. That being said, the fear you feel is valid. My daughter had endometrial cancer, resulting in a hysterectomy. Even though we were told that they got all of the cancer, it was hard to process that it was over.I had geared myself up for a long process of treatment, and there was none. We were happy and blessed, but I kept waiting for the other shoe to drop. Now, three years later, she is still cancer free. Take your time to process. You are a true warriors both of you. Brian is such a great support for you.

  • @MeHere650
    @MeHere650 Před rokem +95

    No one expects you to be automatically joyful. You have a lot of stuff to process and are STILL going through it. Take your time. You do you!

  • @KS-fe1dp
    @KS-fe1dp Před rokem +73

    I have been intermittently following your journey since the diagnosis. I am a medical student. All I can say is that your experiences, your honestly, your ups and downs, have been incredibly moving and, truly, life-giving. Both of you are beautiful people. Thank you for sharing your story.

  • @susanlanglo-killian7096
    @susanlanglo-killian7096 Před rokem +29

    I’m an Ovarian cancer and endometrial cancer survivor of 8 years. I understand how you feel. I think it took me 5 years to trust that I had no evidence of disease. I still get nervous every year when I have my check up with my oncologist. I think while going through treatment we are shell shocked and it takes time to come to terms with what we have gone through both the good and the bad. I am happy for the place you are at now. God bless you both ❤️

    • @ewigerschuler3982
      @ewigerschuler3982 Před rokem

      How long have you been cancer free?

    • @susanlanglo-killian7096
      @susanlanglo-killian7096 Před rokem +2

      @@ewigerschuler3982 eight years in January of this year.

    • @ewigerschuler3982
      @ewigerschuler3982 Před rokem

      @@susanlanglo-killian7096 wow

    • @AyoonMir
      @AyoonMir Před 10 měsíci

      ​@@susanlanglo-killian7096can you plz tell me the precautions you're taking because my mom diagnosed with an overian cancer stage 1 3 months before she was declared cancer free but now it came back but in the same place so I'm worried about her😢 plz reply

    • @susanlanglo-killian7096
      @susanlanglo-killian7096 Před 10 měsíci

      @@AyoonMir Hi! First of all I don’t know if she has had any but from this point do not take any more Covid shots. It speeds up cancer. Then all I did was eat well, fresh organic food. No processed food and very little sugar. Boost her immune system with Vit C, D3, zinc, all import for immunity and healing. Herbs can be helpful too but that you would have to research as it can be very individual.

  • @gigiknowsbest7391
    @gigiknowsbest7391 Před rokem +10

    I have been through similar treatment, biopsies, and signs of cervical cancer. So rushed to surgery and when I was in recovery I was told that the mass was made of scar tissue from back surgery and c sections x3. Honestly, I felt guilty that there was no cancer(weird hugh!) just a weird cantaloupe sized mass of tissue that attached to my liver, and stomach. I know I had a large fellowship of prayer warriors which honestly kept me from the dark places we go when uncertainty takes over. You such a darling! Both of you. You are growing in strength and courage so you can help others. Back surgery was insane for me. I had a tuff year but it’s been 5 years and I still get emails and calls from strangers that are going thru the same thing. I’m so grateful for the ability to calm and reassure people. Miracles happen and it’s our job to assure those listening and heartbroken. praise the Lord!❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻

  • @estherrossnewman4261
    @estherrossnewman4261 Před rokem +148

    Going to hospital tomorrow for my cancer surgery you made me stronger!!!!

  • @karenbocek-steele2219
    @karenbocek-steele2219 Před rokem +35

    I remember finishing chemo & when I had the negative PET scan after, I refused to ring the bell. I, like you, was afraid to tempt fate. I felt & sometimes still feel like a live tiger was sitting in the room with me at all times. I felt like it was a trick. So all your emotions are very normal. You faced true mortal danger. It changes you. You will get there where you will feel relief and happiness with out stress. I am so glad that you had a great team @ Mayo. You are both awesome!

  • @cmallis1
    @cmallis1 Před rokem +6

    Cancer survivor of 17 years. You may never feel completely comfortable with people telling you "this is just a bump in road". But it is! And you can do this! There are so many of us to help you through it. Doing it every day. The amazement starts taking over. And when it does, you will be more amazed than most non-cancer peeps. You know in your bones what amazing is. You lived it. Much love to you both.

  • @conniec5257
    @conniec5257 Před rokem +8

    Jessica, it is ok to cry and be afraid to be too hopeful. You have been through hell and back. I am so proud of you. Brian, you have been a stable solid rock of support for your wife and I am so grateful that she has your love and support.

  • @leslievalenciano-lopez8887

    As a RN who worked for many years in the Operating Room, I believe you are a miracle!!! You have to be in complete shock and your reaction is perfectly normal. After the liver doctor basically said nothing more could be done and then the surgeon operates with these amazing results! It will take time to process!
    This is nothing short of a Miracle! Your Surgeon is incredible! God Bless both of you and this amazing Surgeon!

    • @roll-tide1
      @roll-tide1 Před rokem +1

      GOD worked through Jessica's surgeon to perform this MIRACLE. You can see God's light in their eyes now. They have been healed and forever Blessed. The Power of Prayer. It's there for all of us. "You have not because You ask not. Ask and You shall receive." This is actually scripture. Luke 11: 9-13

    • @dlday7821
      @dlday7821 Před rokem

      God is so good!!

    • @Berdez1083
      @Berdez1083 Před rokem

      I was thinking the same exact thing. The power of prayer is very real!!! Share your testimony ❤

  • @KG-uc2qm
    @KG-uc2qm Před rokem +40

    Jessica we don’t expect anything. We only want you to be healthy. You’ve been a super hero throughout this whole journey. Your allowed tears,frustration,anger or what ever ,and your still a warrior.

  • @mariaorofino3267
    @mariaorofino3267 Před rokem +9

    Jessica, we don't expect you to act any way. Jessica, we just want you to be okay, we want you to thrive 💜💜💜

  • @meredith5061
    @meredith5061 Před rokem +5

    One day at a time. Even one hour at a time. No expectations. No feelings are right or wrong. Be kind and gentle with yourselves. And just breathe. You are both amazing.

  • @jeanphilpot350
    @jeanphilpot350 Před rokem +42

    I have been “cancer free “ for 11 years, so I understand your feelings. I compare it to post traumatic stress. Who is expecting anything from you? If it’s family, they are just scared because they love you. Maybe you could join a support group either online or in person. I did that and it really saved my mental health. Please take the time you need and maybe a break from social media if that is hard for you. I’m praying for you.💕

  • @lsullivan5249
    @lsullivan5249 Před rokem +106

    You’ve both been traumatized. Very understandable feeling of apprehension. A few years ago I had a scare. I was told I had cancer. I went through 4 months of testing, scans, biopsies, and surgery to remove tumors. The doctors said I had cancer, but they were wrong. I remember thinking this is like a miracle. This only happens in the movies. I was beyond happy, but also, by the time it was all over I was totally traumatized. So many emotions! It takes a long time to get over everything you’ve gone through. I am so thrilled for you both. Let the healing begin!! ❤

    • @kathleeneggert3277
      @kathleeneggert3277 Před rokem

      Jessica and Brian, you are both amazing! Cried through the whole video. I will celebrate for you!!!

    • @cindyjones8284
      @cindyjones8284 Před rokem +3

      You have been scared to death for months now. It is ok to be “cautious.”Give yourself time to heal. It’s only been 5 weeks and it was a major surgery after going through chemo. You are protecting yourself. Your feeling are yours and you will get there!💕

    • @morganlipton311
      @morganlipton311 Před rokem +1

      As ever, here to witness your story. I’m really struck by three things as I’m watching: 1. You and Brian are a Team with a capital T, 2. The great fortune of finding medical professionals who matched your need, 3. Jessica, I know this has been hard to share, but there are people on CZcams out in the future who will follow your story and feel less alone when they face their own diagnoses. Your honesty is the best gift.

  • @jeanniedillon4556
    @jeanniedillon4556 Před rokem +3

    A miracle could not have happened to a more courageous person.

  • @allisonc7069
    @allisonc7069 Před rokem +6

    I think it makes a lot of sense you’re “not there yet.” You’re finally getting a moment to just pause and realize what’s happened. That alone is worth celebrating. The fact that you can cry is the celebration. You have been in pure survival mode and not able to take a second to really process how insane this has been for you. Thank you for being so real and just showing vulnerability and strength. You’re very loved by so many!!!

  • @lisahiltz1155
    @lisahiltz1155 Před rokem +58

    We love you and "expect" nothing from you! We're here for you, not to be entertained or thinking you HAVE to do things on a schedule. We're family. Family that wants the best for you ❤️❤️❤️

  • @thaliad6759
    @thaliad6759 Před rokem +21

    PTSD from the cancer process is very real. After being told I was cancer free, I went through about 2 years of ptsd from everything I went through and the fear of cancer returning. Therapy and time heals! Be patient with yourself..I think what you are feeling is normal. 5 years later it seems like just a strange journey I went on and life is great:)

  • @nicolascott9928
    @nicolascott9928 Před rokem +2

    Well shucks now I'm crying too! Having raised a very poorly child (now 6'4" karate black belt) I know very well how holding it togther during the scary bits is the 'easy' part and then when you get an all clear the relief hits like a tidal wave and you can't believe it's real. Plus you feel awful for anyone else going through the same thing, especially when their outcome may be different. Survivor guilt (even by by proxy) is real, fear of the thing coming back is real, fear that someone will take away this hope is real. You're not the same person after this experience, I still need to hear from my son once a day, (just a text), he's ok or I can't sleep, fortunately he gets it and doesn't think I'm mad! As someone else said, your video (s) are far more real, and meanigful, than any confetti ones. Thankyou so much for sharing.

  • @dianapaonessa6409
    @dianapaonessa6409 Před rokem +5

    Having had cancer myself, I can relate. So many questions and no definitive answers! I guess we just take one day at a time, being thankful for the many blessings of each day. Cancer, or no cancer, no one is promised tomorrow. Here's hoping and praying that all your scans are clear for many, many years to come.

  • @animallvr4
    @animallvr4 Před rokem +49

    Your feelings are your feelings, own them don't apologize for them. Your body and soul have been through so much this year, the fact that you are still standing is a testament to your strength. You will recover, it will just take time. Not only do you have people on here who support you, but you have a partner who is supporting you in every way. 💖

  • @bernadetteswanson3304
    @bernadetteswanson3304 Před rokem +41

    "Your case is actually rare." Jessica, you are a unicorn! The test results are amazing. Brian, you are a wonderful, supportive husband. All of us are holding you both in prayers of support and healing. Be patient with your healing process. Your body and mind have been through a lot of trauma. Keep affirming your wholeness, and your body will respond. Love you both!

  • @aliciadawn22
    @aliciadawn22 Před rokem +7

    I was diagnosed with cancer in 2019 and have been in remission since late 2020. It’s still a mental battle daily. I still have doctor’s appointments and scans and days that are very difficult. Take your time and process things at your own pace. Eventually, things get brighter. Eventually, you start trusting that you may actually be okay. I know it’s hard to be happy and excited right now and that’s okay. You both are amazing and I’m so, so happy you finally got a bit of good news.

  • @heathershope2123
    @heathershope2123 Před rokem +1

    Congratulations on being cancer free. I’m also a ovarian cancer survivor. I was 26 when I was diagnosed in 2012. Im 37 now and just had a hysterectomy.

  • @tamracarrigan
    @tamracarrigan Před rokem +18

    I am a cancer survivor, I was in and out of treatment for three years and four surgeries. Your feelings and emotions are completely normal because cancer is hard on our emotions and bodies. It takes time for our minds and bodies to become calm after so much trauma. You will have regular scans and test from now on but you will get used to that. The important thing to remember is if anything shows up in the future it will be caught early and taken care of. I send you peace and calmness.

  • @ellendurkee5444
    @ellendurkee5444 Před rokem +149

    They found 5 tumors on my ovaries 5 weeks ago, I have surgery tomorrow, they expect cancer but wont know till they test. I'm 61. Watching you go through this has been good for me. I had no pain, it was a fluke that the Dr found them. I'm fortunate to live in Canada so I don't worry about the cost of treatment, medication or access to specialists (I have 3 already) . Thank you to you and Brian for being brave enough to share your journey.

    • @leroybrown7757
      @leroybrown7757 Před rokem +21

      sending you positive thoughts/vibes for a good outcome
      ☮️&🌱's
      -tracee (LeRoy's wife)

    • @ellendurkee5444
      @ellendurkee5444 Před rokem

      @@leroybrown7757 thanks, Tracee

    • @leroybrown7757
      @leroybrown7757 Před rokem +1

      @@ellendurkee5444 .. you're so very welcome
      -tracee

    • @happycook6737
      @happycook6737 Před rokem +22

      I'm a uterine cancer survivor. I will be praying for you tomorrow friend. Be sure to put a trash bag on your passenger seat after surgery because it makes it easier to slide into the car. Wear shoes you can slide into and going home in a robe, muumuu or such is perfectly fine. Also have a bed pillow to brace with on ride home and a trash bag lined bucket in case you get green. The surgeon never told me any of this. Thank God other patients said it on CZcams! I had complete removal of all female stuff and some lymph nodes. Everything is fine now. You are going to do better than you think. 🙏🤗

    • @hotmessmomvlogs
      @hotmessmomvlogs Před rokem +5

      @EllenDurkee praying for you!

  • @darlenesouthard4557
    @darlenesouthard4557 Před rokem +6

    Sweetheart you have every right to feel whatever you feel. As a cancer survivor I can tell you it is a hell of a ride. I’m 5 years out and I still have super anxiety whenever I have to go back for my check up. You just hold your breath and then praise the a Lord when you are still ok. For quite a while you will feel very freaked out with every lump, bump, bruise and funny feeling. It does get easier as more time goes by. You just take your time and process thing how it works for you love. It is also not unusual to feel sort of melancholy when treatment ends like you don’t really know what to do with yourself. Having cancer had become your norm and now it’s gone. Just hang in there sweetie!

  • @LindaR423
    @LindaR423 Před rokem +6

    Jessica, your case is one for the books. I can't even imagine all you've been through even though you and Brian have explaned it in each and every video. I'm happy for you that you're cancer free and I'm also sad for all that you have been through. I'm also that you have a supportive husband like Brian. 🙏🙏

  • @Dusk1962
    @Dusk1962 Před rokem +69

    As a 3 time cancer survivor. Feel your feelings. Take your time and just heal physically, and process the emotional healing. You are a strong, beautiful woman. You can and will get through this.

  • @artandbooks5850
    @artandbooks5850 Před rokem +42

    You are both beautiful souls. Your love for each other is so special. My mother had early stage 4 ovarian cancer that was discovered in a PAP test after months of stomach pain that doctors did nothing for. She was 57. She had surgery and did 5 out of her 6 months of chemo (this was 1983). She lived another 27 years cancer free. It never came back. The doctors said this was so rare and had no explanation for it. I do. It’s called Ovarian Miracles. You may have joined that club!!!!

    • @piloapolo4622
      @piloapolo4622 Před rokem

      Can you share out what supplements ur mom take? And her diet after her diagnosed? Pls and thank you because my mom got ovarian cancer too 😔😔😭😭😭😭

    • @artandbooks5850
      @artandbooks5850 Před rokem

      My mom didn’t take any supplements, nor did she restrict her diet other than no sugar. Perhaps the 5 out of the 6 chemo treatments worked!

    • @piloapolo4622
      @piloapolo4622 Před rokem

      @@artandbooks5850 no surgery need??

    • @piloapolo4622
      @piloapolo4622 Před rokem

      Btw thanks for the reply

    • @artandbooks5850
      @artandbooks5850 Před rokem +1

      She had a total hysterectomy. That was the first thing they did and then the monthly chemo session. Best of luck to your Mom. I was checked with ultrasounds every year and in 2018 was found to have precancerous cells so got a total hysterectomy since I have family history of OC as a precaution.

  • @19th-Nervous-Breakdown
    @19th-Nervous-Breakdown Před měsícem

    So glad that you chose to go to the Mayo Clinic and have them help you to fight for your life. I'm a 32 year Paget's disease of the nipple survivor, a rare form of breast cancer. My primary care said it was eczema but I went to a cancer hospital where they saved my life. God bless and good luck to you. 👍

  • @lorigrayson6414
    @lorigrayson6414 Před rokem +1

    I know I prayed like crazy that there would be no cancer found. So glad that it was answered ❤ you have been through so much. No wonder the tears are flowing.

  • @wink360
    @wink360 Před rokem +37

    For all the horror stories we hear about doctors that do not listen, it is so wonderful to hear of your surgeon who took that leap of faith in front of their peers who wouldn't. I am so happy for you. I hope you both have a beautiful life together.

  • @debikeen4010
    @debikeen4010 Před rokem +38

    Jessica, your story is going to help so many people. I know you didn't want to make this video and documenting the last 9 months had to be really hard but those videos are going to be available for other women who will need them. While you're recovering, try to remember what a gift you've given to the world. Post tramatic stress disorder is a real thing and you have every reason to be guarded. Give yourself all the time you need, your subscribers will be here when you are feeling better.
    Much respect to the both of you.

  • @berlygirl123
    @berlygirl123 Před rokem +21

    Jessica is so strong and Brian is a gem. I'm so glad you have each other.

  • @jeans.5756
    @jeans.5756 Před rokem +1

    Jessica your beautiful hair is shinning through have no doubt your whole body is fighting back, and one more thing we’re fighting back for you in prayer. You got this!!! Angels are surrounding you stay positive !!!

  • @YardleySlicker
    @YardleySlicker Před rokem +15

    I also had a “clean” report after hysterectomy and chemo- and then came the hard part of fearing the cancer would come back. CA-125 blood tests and physical exam every three months for a year - and then continued exams and CA-125 labs test for next 10 years. For me, the most important thing is not to suppress or shut down any feelings. No should or shouldn’ts when it comes to feelings. Let the feelings come and GO OUT OF YOUR BODY. ❤

  • @ttschrock7126
    @ttschrock7126 Před rokem +13

    First off, your hair is adorable. Keep it like that! You look amazing. Secondly and way more importantly, cry, scream, yell, love and be loved. We love both of you and your bravery. I mean come on girl!!!!!!!! YOU are sharing this process with us via videos. You are incredible. You are brave! Brian rocks too! He is so loving. We are all praying for you and are so grateful to watch this, pray for you, and love you in our own way. Take your time. You owe us nothing. You owe yourself and Brian .... everything. Thank you again for sharing. This is going to help so many people that are going to go through the same thing. My goodness you are a strong woman. PLUS, the two of you are even more in my heart outside of the kitchen. I loved you when I found you a few years ago, but I love you more now because I care. We all do..... tremendous prayers and good vibes. BE strong.

  • @sarahhardy4627
    @sarahhardy4627 Před rokem +10

    Your authenticity Jessica is just wonderful to see. I had primary breast cancer 2 years ago and its a roller coaster of emotions. Cancer can and often does, leave a complicated emotional legacy which can be difficult to navigate. I am so pleased about the results of your surgery and I send massive love to you from the UK for both your physical and mental recovery.

  • @cherieoden6134
    @cherieoden6134 Před rokem +5

    I am so happy to hear your wonderful news! I don’t think you are giving your diet enough credit, though, Jessica. When I received MY cancer diagnosis, I had it removed and then turned down all the other treatment (chemo, radiation, etc.), choosing to treat it ONLY with diet. I am now 6.5 years cancer-free! In choosing a WFPB diet, you are giving your body everything it needs, while NOT feeding the cancer. Keep up the good work. You are both in my prayers!

    • @Amandahugginkizz
      @Amandahugginkizz Před rokem

      Cancer free Chris did the same, had it removed and didn't get any other treatment after all juicing diet. What do you eat?

  • @shariz2998
    @shariz2998 Před rokem +18

    I think someone else said, you are also going through hormonal disruption from your recent surgery-this is hard on your body/emotions until it is straightened out. Couple that with all you’ve gone through and I would be crying too! You are loved. You are a survivor…both of you!!

    • @happycook6737
      @happycook6737 Před rokem +2

      My oncologist said it takes about 6 months before you feel the hormonal stuff to get rolling. Doc was right.

  • @keyplayer5
    @keyplayer5 Před rokem +24

    I was no where near as sick as you with my uterine cancer. I didn’t need Chemo and was given an all clear from my surgeon days after surgery. That said, I still could not believe I was ok. After over 3 years, I still can’t believe fully that the cancer won’t reappear elsewhere. I think this is normal to go through Jessica. That’s why the Lord blessed you and I with husbands that keep telling us we will outlive them and that cancer will not take us early. Thanks Brian for loving her the way you do. I have grown to love you both. 💕

  • @BubblyinUSA2010
    @BubblyinUSA2010 Před rokem +1

    You’ve had a hysterectomy which causes emotional issues and pain and crying. I’ve had one and it’s no fun. Stay strong and we are here for you and your hubby. ❤🙏🏼😇

  • @KindnessMatters_
    @KindnessMatters_ Před rokem +1

    Kudos to the doctor who challenged the opinions of the liver specialists! Jessica, Brian is right! You are strong, courageous, and AMAZING! Feeling cautiously optimistic is completely understandable. Continue to take one day at a time; one moment at a time, and know how loved you are. Thank you for sharing your journey; your transparency and compassion for others is beautiful. Nice to hear that the doctors are changing some of their procedural care based on their experiences with you! Continued prayers for complete healing! From Psalm 56:8, “You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.” 🙏💖🌈

  • @rachelelizabethschneider2974

    Praying for your both. The sadness in your eyes is palpable. Better days must be ahead. You are loved

  • @janicebeckett7287
    @janicebeckett7287 Před rokem +35

    Jessica, I like to think that God has answered many prayers and has healed you, maybe for just a time, but maybe forever. These past nine months have been awful for you two. Jessica, there is no shame in tears; don't hold them back.
    And, Brian, you are an amazing husband. Your perseverance through this very hard time shows your character and love for Jessica. My prayer is that you can continue to heal and enjoy the reprieve you've been given at this point. My prayers will continue.

    • @gladyssanto4737
      @gladyssanto4737 Před rokem +2

      Amén 🙏 well said. God is our father and he is always looking after us. He loves his children.

  • @739-Jen
    @739-Jen Před rokem +3

    The rollercoaster of a cancer diagnosis is real. Think of yourself as a pendulum that swings back and forth with the highs and lows of good and bad news. It’s difficult to swing our emotions that fast. Our emotions don’t always match what is going on at the present time. Be kind to yourself and know there is no right or wrong way to feel. Whatever you feel is okay, like your sweet hubby said. I’ve only been following you a few months. I’m a nurse and stage 3 breast cancer survivor and felt everything you are saying. You both are such awesome people. Wishing you both continued health. ❤

  • @Janet-ys4jb
    @Janet-ys4jb Před rokem +1

    My heart goes out to you both! Our daughter faced breast cancer in 2019. I know how difficult the journey is.

  • @pamtilsonrodgers2825
    @pamtilsonrodgers2825 Před rokem +27

    You don’t have to “put on a show or do what you think people expect” Take care of your self & heal. We all love you both for who you are. 🙏🏻

  • @inlovewithhealth
    @inlovewithhealth Před rokem +42

    Your tears of relief and processing is the best confetti you could have thrown. You guys are wonderful role models for the importance of not taking no for an answer, for fighting for yourself, and for self advocation. Thank you and bless you. Relax and heal.. xoxo

  • @joanneerickson8000
    @joanneerickson8000 Před rokem +1

    Whoa! Your life is forever changed from all you have been through. Hard and scary things, and yes some good along the way. Please don’t think you have to do anything for anyone but you (and your wonderful hubby Brian). And just to throw this at you….your hair is adorable. ❤

  • @TheGenflute
    @TheGenflute Před rokem +6

    No apologies ever for how you feel. This has been traumatic. And there's certainly information overload. Parsing out all the information, still healing from surgery...It's all so overwhelming! Both of you are amazingly resilient.

  • @PatriseHenkel
    @PatriseHenkel Před rokem +32

    Wow, that’s so intense. And amazing. You’ve been thru an incredible ordeal- looked your mortality right in the eye. 30 years ago I had surgery for a large endometriosis mass, and upon waking was told it was advanced OC. 5 days letter the miracle path report arrived concluding all of the multiple tumors were stage ZERO. Not malignant. I was stunned, and disoriented. No further problems.
    And, You have hair😸! Feel all the love surrounding you ❤

  • @iPicti
    @iPicti Před rokem +10

    Never feel pressured to pretend! The very reason we love y’all is because you’re REAL! 💕🙏

  • @fetishavamp
    @fetishavamp Před rokem +1

    I'm so happy your biopsies/pathologies came negative for cancer! I know it might feel like a miracle to you guys but perhaps it's a reward for the way you have handled things since your diagnose. I lost my father to stomach cancer back in 2020 around the start of the pandemic and know how hard it is to deal with cancer. Jessica, you're a strong woman and your husband is incredible. Love the way who supports you every step of this journey. Thank you for creating awareness of ovarian cancer. And I wish you win this battle. Never give up 🤗♥️

  • @nancyherrmann2491
    @nancyherrmann2491 Před rokem +1

    Look at you girl you have come so far fighting a battle that you won🥰 You're looking good your hair is growing back and you need to feel the same inside happy. ❣️

  • @imgoingtosinganyway.7644
    @imgoingtosinganyway.7644 Před rokem +36

    It's not surprising that you're both processing. Just the whole surgery you've just been through is huge. I had a total hysterectomy for endometrial ovarian cancer in 2016, and I'm STILL processing the surgery all these years later. It also took about 3 years for me to not feel freaked out and afraid at every 3-month checkup after the surgery. Bless you both.

  • @drs519
    @drs519 Před rokem +45

    You are such a warrior and your strength is unreal. I've been watching you for a while and I had my 88 year old dementia mother watch this video. She can barely hear and can't engage in TV but oh my goodness she watched until the end and had so much empathy for you. She kept saying "you are going to be ok" prayers are with you. So you don't have to hear this video to see how much emotion and empathy there is.

  • @FloridaNativeKatie
    @FloridaNativeKatie Před rokem +3

    The expectations is the part of a cancer journey that not a lot of people talk about & I think it’s extremely important. Thank you for sharing.

  • @jessicaclark611
    @jessicaclark611 Před rokem +4

    Like Brian said, it's okay to feel all the feelings. You just lived through a traumatic experience. So happy to hear your results were positive.

  • @debradavis3935
    @debradavis3935 Před rokem +21

    So happy for you both…so many prayers heard and answered. Your cancer was stage 3, not 4, you had the preventative hysterectomy and you’re cancer free. Thank you Lord ✨✨🙏🏻🙏🏻. So happy for you both…big hugs Jessica 💜💜💜. Now it’s time to focus on calming down the panic and fear. Brian, please use this as motivation to focus on your health so that you and Jessica can enjoy a long and happy life 💜💜💜

  • @robz.3225
    @robz.3225 Před rokem +47

    My heart is breaking, for all you have had to go thru, but take the win at this point. I total get the jinx thing tho!!! I don’t think anyone expects you to be cured miraculously. I love your honesty. It’s been the hallmark of your channel❤❤❤. Just keep plugging away! !

    • @robz.3225
      @robz.3225 Před rokem +1

      I also have had non diabetic neuropathy for over 30 years. I’m so sorry you have to go thru that on top of everything else. I wouldn’t wish that on my worst enemy! Hang in there guys!!

  • @dizzydaydream9647
    @dizzydaydream9647 Před rokem +1

    It’s fantastic news. Give it time…..coming to terms with your results will hit you like a truck with no warning…….and you will be able to smile and know that you are free from cancer. Sending love from England 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿 💖

  • @carolynb6956
    @carolynb6956 Před rokem +5

    OMG, I'm weeping for you! Of course you are overwhelmed, of course you are confused. Your emotions are your own and you deserve to feel them. I am blown away with your strength. You are indeed a special unicorn! I have no doubt your case will be written up in medical journals, and will help many patients in the future. Many thousands of your internet friends are hugging you in our hearts.

  • @Crochetbymindynh
    @Crochetbymindynh Před rokem +33

    Jessica, I am crying happy tears for you. Do not apologize for your feelings. You have been through so much. You are a warrior. Brian, you have been incredible through this. You two deserve a bright future💕

    • @sarahmehrtens4193
      @sarahmehrtens4193 Před rokem +1

      Yes, I too couldn't help but cry with her either, those tears of happiness. I was really wishing I could give her a hug throughout the video. She's doing amazing! ❤💕💕

  • @InvestigatingDavidCrowley

    The calm after the storm is often times more emotional than the calm before. Your report is nothing but good news! Since you are still on an emotional roller coaster, we will start the celebration for you: CONGRATULATIONS!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!! WE KNEW YOU COULD DO IT!!!!

  • @samamthaj9768
    @samamthaj9768 Před rokem +3

    I beat stage 4 cancer and I remember the the day they told me I was cancer free….. it was the hardest day of everything I had been through…. It was like I was strong for so long and buried my emotions that when it was all over I just lost it for a little bit. The first couple checks I always felt the worse it’s like you have PTSD but eventually I started to believe that it’s ok. I’m proud of you and I’m proud of your husband. I had a great husband through all of my stuff too and it made all the difference! Sending you love! ❤

  • @jenniferwong4530
    @jenniferwong4530 Před rokem

    I have lupus and Sjogrens disease. I suffer from neuropathy in my hands ,feet and elbows. I was so desperate to find relief, I decided to see a chiropractor. It helped my elbows and hands tremendously. My friend, who has diabetic neuropathy gave me a little bottle of peppermint oil spray for my feet. I spritz it on my feet at naptime and bedtime. I don't know how it works, but it really helps! The chiropractic took 6 treatments to fix my elbows and numb fingers. I hope this helps Honey. You have a lot of people cheering for you and praying for you.❤🙏

  • @5chevin5
    @5chevin5 Před rokem +16

    My only expectation is for the two of you to continue to love each other, support each other and laugh together when you can. You sharing your life with us is a privilege for us and comes with no strings attached. Take it day by day and at your speed, someday I look forward to us discussing potatoes again.

  • @suemoo22
    @suemoo22 Před rokem +14

    I don’t think anyone expects you to act any differently. Your condition is what it is, we’ll keep you in our prayers. Hugs to you both.

  • @kellygrim1437
    @kellygrim1437 Před rokem +1

    I have never posted, but i had to come here to say that I do not expect you to be anywhere or anything except where you are!!! This is your cancer journey and your body and your feelings ❤ With that said, much love and hugs and healing being sent your way!

  • @SueSletto
    @SueSletto Před rokem +1

    Congratulations! All the struggles have been worth it! It is well known that a large majority of people who have gone through the cancer battle suffer from PTSD once they have finished active treatment. You have been fighting for your life, and you won. It’s difficult to have it sink in that you beat this cancer and don’t have to worry 24 hours seven days a week and look for trouble in case someone missed it. Extremely overwhelming, and totally understandable. Give it time. Take a breather. Exhale. You will get through this, too.

  • @pa5203
    @pa5203 Před rokem +18

    You are waking up from a terrible nightmare so it will take time to get over the shock of everything you guys have been through. Brian your dream of being the knight in shining armor fighting off the bad guys came true! You both are amazing. Thanks for sharing your journey thus far.🎉

  • @FaeRae-333
    @FaeRae-333 Před rokem +42

    I’m actually relieved to see that you’re reacting this way, Jessica. You have allowed yourself to take a tiny step back and have a look at everything you’ve been experiencing and start to actually process it on a deeper level. It’s all good, feeling those feelings! What Brian said is SO true, you have been amazing throughout this. Brian has been amazing too. You guys are so impressive to me! Thank you for the wonderful update and for being sincere, as you always are.
    Congrats on being where you are now, full stop. 😊

  • @IsadellaEstelPolanco
    @IsadellaEstelPolanco Před rokem +1

    I am a cancer survivor myself and I totally get you. I was praying for you and I celebrate the goodness of God that He heard us. I'll continue praying for you.

  • @chrissykapteyn4264
    @chrissykapteyn4264 Před rokem +1

    Jessica, just wanted to remind you, that you are also very emotional because you were just put in instant menopause as well, after having that full hysterectomy. I went through the same thing. On top of all the emotional roller coaster of what you've been through the past 9 months. You are a wonderful caring human and you and Brian have this beautiful relationship. So happy for you for many reasons.

  • @wendyb2304
    @wendyb2304 Před rokem +9

    Cry until no more tears ❤Menopause brought on by surgery is horrible! Emotions all over the place❤ prayers to you Jessica

  • @sassygirl5271
    @sassygirl5271 Před rokem +7

    My cousin who had cancer calls this “chemo crazy” in that you have to be so strong for such a long period of time that when you get the all clear all your emotions come to the surface at once ❤ Take care and I’m so happy for you both.

  • @donnabradley4577
    @donnabradley4577 Před rokem +1

    I am happy for you both about the good news of no cancer found after your most recent surgery! I also understand why you are sad, scared, angry, worried, relieved, and tearful after the roller coaster ride you have been on since last May. It's a lot.

  • @michellesas8975
    @michellesas8975 Před rokem +1

    Hallelujah! Praise God! I'm so happy about the good news. God answered many prayers.

  • @suznknight5896
    @suznknight5896 Před rokem +11

    There is so much I want to say I don't know where to start. I was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer within a few weeks of you. Our journeys have been pretty parallel but mine was more straight forward. When I went into surgery we knew our doctor was going to come out and say it has metastasized or they were able to get it all. Like you guys, I was so used to getting bad news I couldn't believe it either when she said they got it all!! It has been confirmed with my lab tests but I am still trying to wrap my head around - NO CANCER. What we have been thru has taken a huge physical toll but not many understand the emotional toll it takes. Take care of each other and be patient!

  • @dodimichaud8673
    @dodimichaud8673 Před rokem +18

    Oh, Jessica. Don’t apologize to us for feeling your feelings. The last thing you should be thinking of is the expectations of other people. We all follow you because we care and are doing what we can to support you. If it means seeing you feel your feelings and hopefully writing something supportive, then so be it. You are being genuine and true to yourself, and I, for one, believe that that is the best thing you can do for yourself. You and Brian are some amazing people and I hope for the very best for you.

  • @danjamil167
    @danjamil167 Před rokem

    No signs of cancer!!! Hallelujah!!! I'm so happy for you!!! 💕🙏🏿💙