[Depersonalization] Will I ever be my old self again?
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It's one of the questions that we tend to ask ourselves over and over. I try to provide a different perspective with which to look at this question when you are experiencing depersonalization/derealization (DP/DR)
Yes this experience of Anxiety & derealization has been a humbling experience and I’m definitely going to be a higher happier version of my normal self. Healing isn’t linear was my first acceptance
Are you fully recovered now?
Yeah I've been feeling not only happier but more confident than before.its really weird.When I think about the times I had depersonalization, especially when it was bad...I can only think like bruh why the heck was I so Worried/Stressed,Scared etc.But then I remember that that's what Anxiety does, Thats what its suppose to do. Of course I did not like the experience one bit, but all in all, it was a very interesting experience.
@@elmo_eman2867 grateful
How are you now girl?
@@elmo_eman2867howndid u feel wrn u had dpdr
Hello! I have this thoughts and feelings all the time. I just wanted to be my old-self because before this depersonalization, I am such a fun person to hang out with to talk with and I got a nice sense of humor and I am more social because I am funny and fun and I don’t really care about people’s thoughts about me. But after I get depersonalization, I am feeling I have lost my fun, sense of humor, my social skills, and I feel sad about it. Now people didn’t seem really interested with me because I am not fun the way I used to be before.That is why I wanted to be my old-self because that is what tracks me to be happy. I just need a solution but I don’t know how and I cant accept the “me” now.
I understand how you're feeling, but it seems like you are fighting reality. Rather than give in to who you are at the moment, you are wanting to go back. Can the chrysalis try to go back to being a caterpillar again? It can't. But It can look forward to becoming a butterfly soon.
How are you doing now?
It's Men Update: So I tried to accept reality because there’s no other acceptable choice for me and that’s what I’m thinking before. But now I tried to reflect on myself, by accepting the “me” now, and honestly it’s a rollercoaster ride. It has it’s ups and downs and to be honest when I’m dealing with it, much of it was being the downs and it hurts so bad. Like sometimes when you just do your thing and you reflect back about yourself, like the thought that hits made you feel sad because you think about you knowing that before you are happier, more comfortable, and maybe you even think you are acceptable before. But through that process, I somehow find myself, the new self in a positive way. During that process, what I do was put the past in the past but not entirely running from it, I knew I was running but somehow I tried to reflect what was done and carry on with the people who I think that accepts me even though I had changed, because we couldn’t always be in our sweet little princess castle. Once you’re in a themepark, you wouldn’t want to miss the adventure of a rollercoaster ride, and you wouldn’t want to stay forever in a princess castle. I hope this could helped you or maybe made you not feel alone. You have me, you have you and others. Don’t feel downed, and tried to always reflect and accept you the you are now, and than you’ll heal and be better. You have God, you have me, and don’t forget you got you.
Try homeopathy
@@RealSwamyG bro this comment literally just woke me up and made me realize something. Tysm
That’s almost exactly how it happened to me. I literally just woke up with it and it was so intense. Thank you so much for sharing that with me.❤️
i've had this for 7 quick years (DP/DR means time seems to speed up for me) from 15-22 and still going. The thing you were talking about why it happens to people after early 20's, happened to me in school because school was so stressful for me.
This is such a positive outlook on this disorder though, thankyou for making these videos!!
Dude I swear. Time feels like it’s FLYING BY. Mine started in 2016 and yes it’s been like 7 years. It makes my anxiety worse, makes me think about crazy shit. I NEVER EVER EVER had health anxiety before. Dude it’s literally so bad. I worry about EVERYTHING. heart brain etc when I know I’m fine.
So uplifting and encouraging, thank you ♥️
Omg this video I think will help me get through all the stages with less stress and thanks a lot.. right now iam not able to fully analyse even what iam typing but what ever you said did calm me down and hope I believe I’ll come out stronger and again Thankyou🌸❤️
I had exactly the same notions about this, that though this may be hard but it is teaching me a lot of things such as how to be grounded, how not to judge anyone, how to be humble. Give everyone a benefit of doubt that you don’t know what one is going through. All in all I would agree that person wants to get to his/her older self but a time comes when they see a lot a bad habits and behaviours in that older self. To me depersonalisation was all about burning my weaknesses and bad habits. Stoicism helped a lot, books helped a lot, exercise helped a lot, talking to people with this experience or something far greater than this helped a lot. People who were suffering from something far harder than this were motivation and at the end I cannot thank the legend swamy g for being so truthful about his experience and helping people all around the world. Swamy you are just a godsend I want to meet you someday in person. May the creator bless you now and always.
Great points, loved it and thank you
I think I’m in stage 2 now cuz now the unreality of course still there but I’m not worrying about alternative reality feeling
Very inspiring video, thank you 🙂
Love the videos man! Pls keep them coming!
Thanks for this video man, a lot of it really hits home for me. For awhile I thought that I was going crazy, but it's good to see that I'm not the only person who has gone through this. I can definitely feel that my recovery process will make me stronger, for now I'm just trying to focus on improving myself, my relationships and just becoming a kinder person overall. Thanks again for the video.
Exactly! Keep doing those things. When you take the focus out of DP and move it into other things in life, the DP will take care of itself. Happy for you Andre.
Tanner Brandon You know what man it definitely has. I’m still in the beginning stages of my recovery and some days are definitely a lot harder than others, but I just keep pushing. Another thing that helps is telling myself “so be it” no matter what happens. I’m still a work in process though and what I’ve noticed is that it’s the hardest days that I learn and grow from the most.
Tanner Brandon I can't say that I have all of those symptoms, but it sounds like you are worried about what you are experiencing. Reach out to somebody close to you that you can trust and tell them what you are feeling.
How are you now
It is now extremely hard to socialize with my old friends, I don't have any friends and I'm now losing them too because of my extreme awkwardness. I truly don't know what to do, and I'm now becoming frustrated
I experienced this twice in a row now and i’m just 21. The first time was SCARY. I’m navigating through the second one in a much better way now.
Listening to this is so comforting because its the exact opposite of ego death, (which is almost impossible to explain) making dpdr almost impossible to explain. I will become myself again and thrive no matter how much i have to try. My frustration for this is whats driving me.
Me too
Its comfortable asf
felt like ego death to me. i realised everything i was doing and everything i was enjoying before was simply my ego. and everyone else enjoying things is mostly their ego,. thats what keeps them from questioning their reality- consistent memories / consistent identity and ego.
@@Fartosaurus it felt like that too but they say it's the ego that makes you suffer... And dp/dp is pure suffering.
Anyway, how are you now? Did you use to feel like you lost your soul/your sense of Self/ability to understand how to live 'normally' ? Have you recovered? I'm better but am still struggling with scary existential and depressive thoughts
@@Fartosaurus This makes sense... Please explain more.
@@irenaw2504 I struggle with these thoughts and feelings. My heart goes out to you. How are you now?
I have dpdr januari .. now I recover 70% .. thanks for your email sammy .. I will keep try activity ride bycicle etc ..... you are greaaat
Good job Eka.
@@RealSwamyG my hand leg any numb weak.. and its reduce 70% .. are they can reduce 100% sammy ?
hello are you from Indonesia? how did you get that healing?
Hey, how are you? I'm Indonesian, are you Indonesian too? sorry but your name is very Indonesian 😊😊
you explain it out of the moon. thanks br@
I am in middle school and i have been experiencing things like this because the people around me and me myself have changed so much im still a kid and things are starting to feel like i am adult and looking into my childhood which i am in. Holidays haven’t felt the same and things like summer have not felt the same and i have been trying to go back to the same places to feel the same as i have when i was in elementary. Once it worked but only with music my intrests are fading away and i still want to be intrested with them. I hate middle school for this reason i have been having these random like kinda outbursts of daydreams that happen anytime of like 4-2nd grade. I think its hitting hard for me because i was a kid when the quarantine happened and it happened in a time where i was very dependent on friends and different people to talk to. I just wanna be a kid ya know i wanna be so excited on Christmas opening presents but lately its not been exiting nothing exited me that much anymore. I wanna go back to when I still had reassess go on bike rides watch dan tdm and game theory and be obsessed with fnaf. I just wanna be me again.
i just want to concentrate more, i want to be more productive and more consistant like my past self from 2 years ago. I just hyperfocus on that past self and now i csnt seem to reach thay level again. i didnt know wut to do
better than my old self but trumatised as hell for what I've been through with derealisation! never sure if I can trust my brain again
Your brain and your body are doing everything to protect you from overwhelm. In fact, trusting that they will heal themselves is part of the recovery.
These are my old thought when it srikes me 1st tym . bt now m nt able to relate these thought as was mine ever . Even m using everything means using ph bt dnt know who is using do u knw what is dat please shammy i need to tak i dnt have any thought process . Means m at home bt feeling like can anybody any person in this roo.
hello sir i have been suffering from intrusive thoughts since 1 month now.first few days it was very bad i use to get panic attacks ,my stomach used to tighten and what not.But after 2 weeks of suffering like this i read ur articles.i accepted my thoughts and then i started feeling better with each day.I can now do things now that i couldnot do before.i can play guitar,play cricket and do the things i like.The frequency of the thoughts has decreased but they are still there and i am okay with that.But now whenever i try to plan my next day or try to visualize a thought there is a thought in my mind that says dont concentrate .That thought is distracting me from planning my days or visualizing.THis doesnot cause me stress but still i get frustrated at times .What might be the solution to this sir
The thought which says "Don't concentrate" is just an OCD thought. Ignore it, or challenge it by saying "I don't care, I'm going to do it" and really mean it. You give that thought power by caring about what it has to say. Stop caring and you take away it's powers.
Luv Poudel I made a story time video about my struggle with DP/DR on my channel. Would love for everyone to check it out!
I have noticed that, people who go through this is often times caused by horrible anxiety, chronic sleep deprivation or drugs. When i fully recover from DP/DR, my spontaneous thoughts also will come back?
Hello Mr. Swami, 5 years ago I had this condition (Depersonalization) and at that time I was suddenly hit, I did not know what I was suffering from in 2018, my personality changed and when I look in the mirror as if I am another person, and change in feelings, Almost everything changed from my personality, for example, before I was affected by this condition, I always liked to leave the house, but after I was hit (Depersonalization) I do not want to leave the house, and I left all my friends, I left my studies, I left my work, in your opinion, is it possible to recover completely From (Depersonalization) and how much will take time, I saw the course that you published, is this course useful and can help in the recovery from (Depersonalization ) and thank you .
How are you now friend? My heart goes out to you.
Swamy how can I contact you, if I am able to ?
Good video man I've had it 5years now and I've changed throughout those years but still stuck in this dream state
Some symptoms may last longer than others and leave the last.
5 years for me too, it's such a brutal disorder.
Hi Sir, Kudos to your videos regarding DP/DR . I used to work in night call centers.. for 6 years ... I was aware of it.. Then I got placed in Software.. I went for 10 day VIPASSANA retreat.. all hell broke loose ... I got psychosis with hallucinations... I got disillusioned for 3 years ... Any suggestions. About Psychosis
My heart goes out to you. How are you these days?
I appreciate this outlook. I'm getting what I feel is close to recovery and have had to make some pretty big life decisions. Medicating with alcohol is still a big problem but I know I have to stop all alcohol all together as that is a bad habbit. I feel pretty connected most the time however the sky, sunlight and bright lights still presents a fearfull, dreamy feeling. I guess this is the visual disturbances that are common with dp/dr since also have eye floters when I look at the sky. Did you feel these symptoms. Will they fade once my anxiety gets lower ? There are times even when I first wake up where I feel little to no anxiety however I still have the visual issues when looking at the bright sky... thanks!
All those you mentioned are part of DP. Some of these symptoms will go away quickly, some will linger on. It differs from person to person. I still have floaters in my eyes. It's may be something I'll have to live with the rest of my life and I'm ok with it. Other symptoms like extreme doom, feeling disconnected with reality are gone for me. They can still show up sometimes, but they don't have the power they once had over me.
@@RealSwamyG are the floaters part of dpdr?
They could be. A lot of DP/DR folks talk about having floaters. Although, there hasn't been a scientific hypothesis/theory explaining the connection.
@@RealSwamyG did you experience the sensitivity to light? I look up at the bright sky and it's too much. The reflection of the sun off of leaves, the bright blue sky, it makes everything feel artificial, dreamlike... did you experience this? And did u just ignore these symptoms even though they were scary? Or did u have to lose your fear of then for them to go away?
I do have sensitivity to light. Especially seeing halos around light objects. It's still there. Doesn't bother me anymore. If it's not impeding my life in a signficant way, then I don't really worry about it. Nothing good came out of excess worrying.
since i get dpdr i haven't watched movie and news ,, i just can't watch these ,, anyone there who can relate this??
Yep, I had many triggers that made my dpdr worse. Give yourself time and don't force anything upon yourself. Don't forget dpdr isn't there to harm you but to protect you from trauma. Do stuff that makes you happy!
i got it when i had a panic attack while high and ever since i havent felt normal and come to fine out i got dp and keep in mind that when i got it i was 18 now im 19 so its been about a year now and i feel like im losing so much time cuz i feel like dp is making me miss out on things becuase im really not there and i feel so lost
Exact thing happened to me
How are u today
I've lost hope and now I think I just have to find happiness in this dream😔
Dont give up
Plz have patience , I'm also suffering from these for 7 months but nowdays i understood that dpdr is not there to harm us ,and i allowed every emotions to be there so it doesn't bother me anymore ..yes some fatigue,anhedonia,confusion, are still there but i progressed a lot ..don't lose hope everything gonna be ok have patience and surrender yourself to these feeling it won't harm us
@@sharmilakhanal7849hey how are you know?
Honestly, its really sick ever since I entered in a new school. Everything changed, I changed, my emotions changed. Its so sick, I developed anxiety, stress, ovethinking, tiredness, exhaustion and more. Sometimes, I feel like crying for real. Get I be really my old self again? Where I was really calm and dont care about things. 😭 now I have changed much :( my overthinking is affecting my life daily, bringing up stress and exhaustion. I cant move on and I want to since I get bullied in this school. I really want to be happy again.... :(
We are in this together mine started 3 weeks and I am just like can this be me ?
I am not even happy I have exams and I cant concentrate
No peace of mind bro I feel so dumb life is hard I have always prayed and say it even if I don’t have food God grant I and my family and loved ones God health I don’t know how this came up it terrifying and annoying I hope we get through this sometimes I feel I should just fall off from the building but I got family I have a mother who I won’t ever want to see her weep or even suffer but why me ?
How are you doing ? :)
@@davesarah324 how are u dave ? :)
My old self was smart, good at art and also kind and very calm. And now it's the opposite, I'm not that smart, not good at art but atleast I'm still kind but not that calm.
I won't say i suffer from, but i deal with dp/dr and hppd from pronounced LSD use. It doesn't go away completely, but i believe the mind definitely adjusts over time....
Have you mostly taken LSD in a recreational setting?
@@RealSwamyG how you doing brother? Good I hope. I used to take it to explore the depths of the psyche and of reality and of course taken it to enjoy nature and amusement parks. Haha. Side effects maybe? I noticed that after a devastating ego death terror trip it happened like it became imprinted due to PTSD?!
Hey Swamy did you also have visual disturbances? Night blindness? Floaters?
Floaters yes, no night blindness. Although, my fear of night-time increased.
Hello i don't know what i have right now i had dpdr for a year but now its feel diffrent and worst. I feel like if joy will never get back and i feel very hopeless. I feel like if a part of myself was gone forever. I can't describe how bad this hopeless feeling is...i want to recover without medication. When it hapenn i feel empty and sad its very weird. Sometime i feel like if my negative thoughts was not mine and like if my conscious mind was beat by those thoughts. Do you had this feeling and do you think that with acceptance i could stop feeling this symptom because right now i feel like if no body have this....its like if i forget how i was feeling before anxiety and dpdr
I don't know of i have something worst the dpdr
Sounds like depression. It's common to feel depression along with DP. Sometimes when you begin to recover, the DP lifts and then you have to deal with the depression below that. When you had DP, it acted as a barrier between this depression and yourself. Now that DP is slowly going away, you may be feeling the underlying depression.
Maybe there are things in your life that are contributing to your depression. Work you don't like (or lack of a job), lack of a meaningful relationship, past traumas can all lead to depression. Maybe look at your life and see what might be bothering you.
Also, it will worth looking at one area in your life that you can improve. This could be fitness or eating healthy or something. Start in that one area and start small. It may be very hard in the beginning, but then once you get the ball rolling things will become easier.
Wath happen when you recover from this depression ? Is it like dpdr you stop fear the symptom and the thoughts ?
Sounds like depression, you’ll be alright bro, just keep doing the things you know you like even tho you feel no attraction to them any more you can fight this
How r u right now??
Recovered?
I am feeling same,, emotionally numb and depressed...
Please say what is this?
How did you recovered??
i wanna die cus i want my old self back, i used to be a very protected person in my self but now i used to not fight back even if i want theres just nervous comin to my body and can't talk, please lord lemme have my old self back
Update
I feel this too. I’m suicidal because I want my old self back
@@tanyawillis7595 still sad
@@tanyawillis7595 i cant do this anymore
@@tanyawillis7595 im still sad
For years I tried to be back to my old self again but people keep fucking me over, damaging the perfect self of mine, which is a perfectionism of the spiritual, mental, physical and material which I've got right. I was happy when I was my old self, I was blissfully normal and a genius at doing it, looking for a role model. That's the real me without the rejection and the bullshit, especially when I'm drowning in it.
You shouldn't try to be yourself. I've had DPDR once before (3 years ago) and I was a way better person when it was over
Hye swami, i have it for almost 6 months now and it’s still bothering me. I have fear of forgetting and nothing makes me laugh at all.. i feel like someone else is living my life and i don’t want that. I feel like i’m going crazy. I feel like this is all just a game that i have to finish and i’m scared..Everything looks new to me still. My emotions act as if they dont exist. I miss my old self...
Recovery takes time. Also in that 6 months what have you done differently? Have you practiced acceptance, have you resolved any underlying issues? Have you talked to a therapist? Recovery from DPDR takes some effort and takes time and patience.
@@RealSwamyG i did talk to her but she said it’s normal in my age to feel like this and i’m kind of sad because i have a fear of forgetting and i feel as if the fear is getting bigger and bigger every single day. Everything seems new to me and i’m totally numb and don’t have connection to my loved ones. I have a fear besides of forgetting as well i might end up crazy... please help
@@Iiivyyh helllloo I’ve been struggling with this for about 2 years I think or less I’m not sure but I know how u feel. I been dealing with this for a long time and I’m not fully recovered or any of that but I’m on my way to recovery now and I just wanted to tell u that you’ll be ok and u won’t lose your mind.
@@Iiivyyh talking with people that feel what we feel will help a lot do u have social media?
@@Unknown-zv4ox i do! And thank you for your reply
I’ve been going there depersonalization for about 2months I think I’m in stage 2 right now I’m learning how to accept it and live my life I get frustrated sometimes because it feels weird when I laugh I feel like if I am acting is it good to cry because sometimes I just want to cry and let everything out and also when I get up in the morning that’s when I mostly feel really numb to my body and I feel most disconnected did you feel this way?
It's good to cry. Don't hold back your emotions. For a lot of people morning is hard, personally, to me, the evenings were difficult. Accept it all and keep walking forward.
How are you now!
Monica!
Monica Rodriguez trust me ik how you feel i have this for 4 months and i feel sooo emotionally numb everyday
Monica Rodriguez how are you know?
Ive had it for 6 years, I constantly experience the body numbness 24/7. You are not alone.
Hey Swamy did your memories get distorted when going through this? I feel like this is the biggest thing setting me back from recovery. I have the fear that I’m developing dementia or going psychotic. I can remember everything pretty good but it seems weird and not like a real memory. Any input for this?
Also this was caused by a weed panic attack that scared the hell out of me and I’ve been stuck for about 3 months now
Yes Jacob, memories seemed vauge. Some of my memories had a dream-like quality to them. Just accept it for what it is. You're just adding unnecessary details to the storyline by saying this could be dementia etc. Cut out all of your interpretation and just accept it for what it is.
Swamy G absolutely this past week has been the best by far. I feel like I’m becoming myself again and it’s coming on fast. Positive thoughts and accepting who I am has helped me so much. Thanks for everything man I really appreciate it!
@@jacobjones7230 how are you now can I ask?
@kiwi same thing happened to me from weed at the beginning of march. I've had depersonalization/derealization since then and severe anxiety with a heap of other symptoms that I believe are all related to the panic attack I had on weed that night. How long have you been experiencing this?
how you know you recovering i had it for 3 months and feel like i’m recovering
acoachcalledlife.com/how-to-track-dpdr-recovery/
Swamy G thanks that’s exactly how i feel 🙏🏾
Antonne Bro did you recovere from dp?
@@youngshiner1207 hi did ur depersonalization fully go away where u feel normal again? Iv got it im absolutely fed up it's vile i feel like ending my life literally
@@laurenbaldwin6068 Don't even think about that. Your life is precious and you will definitely get through this. It takes time and you will learn a lot about yourself during this time but once you have recovered you will feel like a queen on top of a mountain. You're strong and giving up isn't an option!
Why do I feel like this is the new normal and I can't go back to how I was before , it's just this wierd feeling can't really describe it
After I got dp felt like this a different "Me" and I can't go back to feeling how I was before
Is this okay?
You better now ?
@@GentleTappingASMR yup
No panick attacks and anxiety
@@vilasgaikwad5684 do you feel like you did before you had it ? And how did you recover
@@GentleTappingASMR You are exactly like how you were before , just that right now you're in a state of anxiety and panick
Learn to accept the things the way they are
The more you worry and stress about how you feel you gonna be in the cycle
So when ever you get a panick attack or anxiety attack do not get scared or start to go crazy but instead stay completely relaxed and keep telling yourself it's going to be okay cause it always will
I know how it is , I never thought I'd be feeling how I am today but you gotta trust yourself and the process
Read some books
I recommend hope for help for your nerves.
Stay strong
Stay strong
Also stop coming to youtube and re searching about it
Just focus on getting better
Pls give me an answer, is it normal during dpdr to look at mirror or my old photos, and feel like i am weird or that's not me , it got me into severe panic 😨😨😨
Yes
It happened to me
@@GentleTappingASMR hi did ur depersonalization to away are u fully back normal again now? Im in it now n just dnt wanna live anymore 😔
@@laurenbaldwin6068 yup I still have it but it’s barely noticeable it gets better trust me. Just keep yourself busy quit watching videos and researching about it. It’s not harmful.
@@GentleTappingASMR i no but its shocking how often do u have it now so are you back to normal apart from every now n again? I dnt wanna b here anymore it's totally vile i jst want it gone so i cn feel normal again
every summer i go downhill
Ive lost my old self now i am building a new one a better one no druggs no illegal shit i becoming a happy person fuck my old self i am new now
I am male.
Before I had a high sexdrive, brainpower, happy as hell, confidence high as hell too.
Now nothing of that. I want that back!!!!
Same bro
You won't be back to who you were but instead you'll be better. Your emotions are ducking down because your nervous system is overloaded. Once you start recovering you'll notice you're stronger, wiser, and happier. It takes time but you'll get there! Stay strong
Recovered??
Bad audio
2018🥲
Me watching this as a 19 yo💀
Odg I just want to stop SH
I just want to go back to my old self last year I was in the best place and this year I am someone that I don’t like
swamy gzzz
I used to have better live lol
We’re you numb in the head
The short answer is - no.
🙏🏽🦾