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  • čas přidán 27. 05. 2023
  • "The world exists as I perceive it; it is not what you see, but how you see it; it is not what you hear, but how you hear it; it is not what you feel, but how you feel it." - Rumi
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  • @joshmiller7489
    @joshmiller7489 Před 11 měsíci +1780

    That feeling like life has slipped through your fingers. Like the future is behind you. Like it's always been behind you

    • @joshmillere6263
      @joshmillere6263 Před 11 měsíci +33

      woah what the hell. this is a sign.

    • @hannes2211
      @hannes2211 Před 11 měsíci +16

      S1 true detective is so good

    • @kanethesevenfootmonster868
      @kanethesevenfootmonster868 Před 11 měsíci +1

      Wow........

    • @the.seagull.35
      @the.seagull.35 Před 11 měsíci +30

      However, as it is written: “What no eye has seen, what no ear has heard, and what no human mind has conceived”- the things God has prepared for those who love him.
      1 Corinthians 2:9 ✝️☀️

    • @joshmiller7489
      @joshmiller7489 Před 11 měsíci +4

      @Dannydolan88 thank you

  • @banshiii4049
    @banshiii4049 Před 11 měsíci +2553

    something I've realized after 21 years of me dealing with shit mentally and at home and finally moving out, is that the world is what you make of it, all the things you care about and love to do would have no meaning without you. Think about it, if you abandoned your home, your personal possessions, etc it will all stay the same changing as time moves on, but you have memories or personal attachments that give all those things purpose, Your life is something special, something to cherish and while problems may get in the way it's how we respond and react and perceive those problems that can make a world of a difference, I'm not saying it's easy but I kept going through the same loop feeling unhappy with myself my home life, and everything telling myself it doesn't matter. Eventually, to make a change it sometimes takes work and personally getting to know yourself and putting more positive thoughts about yourself and your life first even when it feels like life is crumbling, you gotta stay afloat, always keep goals for yourself and take life slowly enjoy it even the bad moments, YOU do matter and HAVE a meaning. Happiness doesn't come from anywhere but within.

    • @seggzyantilope6023
      @seggzyantilope6023 Před 11 měsíci +62

      Beautiful

    • @marsship921
      @marsship921 Před 11 měsíci +28

      Yeah, sadly i had the same insight, but after destroying my life. Gg

    • @godnyx117
      @godnyx117 Před 11 měsíci +27

      Beautiful message! It's very satisfying to see that I have much more worth that I give myself credit for!

    • @godnyx117
      @godnyx117 Před 11 měsíci +38

      @@marsship921 You can always rebuild! Never give up!

    • @jxn.s2435
      @jxn.s2435 Před 11 měsíci +3

      ​@@marsship921what have you done? Probably you can still change a lot of stuff

  • @trpdrspider8372
    @trpdrspider8372 Před rokem +640

    Get in the Silent Hill, James.

  • @Jynxtheicequeen
    @Jynxtheicequeen Před rokem +216

    Damn, can someone open the gate for that man already

    • @the.seagull.35
      @the.seagull.35 Před 11 měsíci +15

      "Dominos, I'm outside"

    • @lasersummit7895
      @lasersummit7895 Před 11 měsíci +8

      does it really matter?

    • @the.seagull.35
      @the.seagull.35 Před 11 měsíci +13

      @@lasersummit7895 you just reminded me of a passage.
      "The one who enters by the gate is the shepherd of the sheep. The gatekeeper opens the gate for him, and the sheep listen to his voice. He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out. When he has brought out all his own, he goes on ahead of them, and his sheep follow him because they know his voice."
      John 10:2‭-‬4

    • @Jynxtheicequeen
      @Jynxtheicequeen Před 10 měsíci

      @@lasersummit7895 How did you find offensive in a joke…
      Loser.

    • @LuLuIrene
      @LuLuIrene Před 4 měsíci

      @@the.seagull.35 I rlly needed scripture rn thanks for reminding me ❤️‍🩹

  • @CERBERKILL
    @CERBERKILL Před 9 měsíci +439

    People who enjoy ambient and atmospheric music go into the very interesting personality category

    • @Dfnggv
      @Dfnggv Před 9 měsíci +41

      I thought the same, I think we all can agree that it gives us this comforting nostalgic feeling

    • @E-dotaway
      @E-dotaway Před 9 měsíci +30

      I think for a lot of people, this kind of sound blocks out problems that are going on in their world. Mine included.

    • @DarkMetaOFFICIAL
      @DarkMetaOFFICIAL Před 9 měsíci +1

      -_-

    • @thejuceisloose
      @thejuceisloose Před 9 měsíci +9

      Try out the silent Hill ambiance category, it hits

    • @CERBERKILL
      @CERBERKILL Před 9 měsíci +8

      @@thejuceisloose I really enjoy the forest ost from Silent hill. Cry of fear soundtrack is also one of my favourites ever

  • @tranzco1173
    @tranzco1173 Před rokem +136

    Staring too long into the abyss.

    • @ynol4879
      @ynol4879 Před rokem +17

      Getting lost in it

    • @margoth5101
      @margoth5101 Před rokem +20

      The obese stares back at you

    • @okendo011
      @okendo011 Před rokem +21

      @@margoth5101 spoken like a big mac

    • @borealis5379
      @borealis5379 Před 2 měsíci

      ​@@margoth5101Will you blink?

  • @Jam-dl9xg
    @Jam-dl9xg Před 6 měsíci +9

    I feel comfortable here

  • @0rderr66
    @0rderr66 Před 5 měsíci +11

    Listening to this music helped me realize that I am the problem. I’m my own worst enemy. Everyone was willing to accept me as their own. It was me that wasn’t willing to be accepted, but that ends today.

  • @beckysimpkins7865
    @beckysimpkins7865 Před rokem +53

    The Abyss was staring at me first

  • @ZERVVREZ
    @ZERVVREZ Před 7 měsíci +63

    This is like purgatory. All the lost souls in the comments, screaming in silence. We are here. We shall all fade, just as our qualms.

  • @TakeTheRiskYT
    @TakeTheRiskYT Před 4 měsíci +5

    i just turned 16 and i think about my future often. I know im young and “ i have time “ but as i look around it seems like nobody has time for anything in this life. it’s to short and people don’t get to appreciate that this could be a ONE TIME THING that we may never get to experience again. Set high goals, have good morals and always love everybody because death is real and it’s really real just remember that.

  • @Ben-ve2fp
    @Ben-ve2fp Před rokem +211

    My fav part is when Leon Kennedy said “it’s silent hill time” and made all the Hills silent

    • @spacemonkey_1984
      @spacemonkey_1984 Před 5 měsíci +9

      truly one of the moments of all time 💀

    • @bearzdlc2172
      @bearzdlc2172 Před 5 měsíci

      @@spacemonkey_1984 clown

    • @fewpew5787
      @fewpew5787 Před 4 měsíci +10

      "wheres everyone going? bowling?"

    • @mesotolioma5089
      @mesotolioma5089 Před 4 měsíci +4

      Uhhhhh ackshually Leon's from the Super Mario franchise

    • @zioness
      @zioness Před 3 měsíci +3

      he silented all over those hills huh

  • @odysseus4244
    @odysseus4244 Před 11 měsíci +273

    This song is basically the theme of the current state of my life. Thank you for this

  • @LOL-cringe
    @LOL-cringe Před 9 měsíci +395

    I need more playlists like these in my life

    • @Bjoviii
      @Bjoviii Před 9 měsíci +20

      how r u not terminated yet

    • @Yaktob
      @Yaktob Před 8 měsíci +11

      @@Bjoviii he makes brainrot content, which youtube absolutely loves. think of it like sssniperwolf- they wont do anything because he brings in the big bucks.

    • @Metado42069
      @Metado42069 Před 8 měsíci +4

      bro how r u here

    • @Ben_19M
      @Ben_19M Před 7 měsíci +5

      its literally one song stretched out to an hour

    • @Yaktob
      @Yaktob Před 7 měsíci +6

      @@Ben_19M its a bot bruh

  • @Mitzihunt1313
    @Mitzihunt1313 Před 9 měsíci +11

    "Nothing really matters anyway "... my everyday's line , what a luck..

    • @Dat_Feathered_Boi
      @Dat_Feathered_Boi Před 9 měsíci +1

      Yeah, that used to be my motto too, until I started wanting 30 bitches in a hot air balloon and my life started to get back on track slowly. Life is a little brighter with goals.

  • @TheMaztercom
    @TheMaztercom Před 11 měsíci +18

    Everyone trying to leave silent hill, and then there is all of u, comong back to hear it

  • @Venemoth123
    @Venemoth123 Před 10 měsíci +58

    Blisfull Ignorance is the key. Because once you realize too much there's no going back. Once you know some things you can only cope your way out of it.
    I tried to collect my thoughts for the past hour here. It really helped thanks.

    • @xycrophrene
      @xycrophrene Před 9 měsíci +1

      you dont know what kind of language are you speaking. are you?

    • @sarahfrench3517
      @sarahfrench3517 Před 9 měsíci +2

      I’m past the point of no return, people don’t understand nor do I expect
      Then to OP. Just coke and try to take care of yourself the best you can. Understand that there ARE psolld out there that see the absurdity of it all, rip the veil off and leave them all in a haze. I understand where you’re coming from as crazy

    • @sarahfrench3517
      @sarahfrench3517 Před 9 měsíci +4

      @@xycrophreneI don’t expect you to understand. You are not capable of it.

    • @Johnnyappl3seed63
      @Johnnyappl3seed63 Před 4 měsíci +7

      after reading too much philosophy and questioning free will, radical skepticism, the idea of existing when we have no real idea of what reality is. I Miss just living life and not thinking about these things but at the same time this is apart of the human experience that comes with being in tune in a world focused on nonsense.

    • @QasimAli-mx9je
      @QasimAli-mx9je Před 4 měsíci

      I messed up.I shared it with a girl I love, and she's showing a strong front to me but im hoping she can go back and ignore it, and leave me with the guilt of it all

  • @Xtoxinlolinecronomicon
    @Xtoxinlolinecronomicon Před 5 měsíci +2

    Hate that I have to reset my psyche with stuff like this before I truly get batshit insane.

  • @siylic
    @siylic Před 11 měsíci +58

    My life is like silent hill empty, vague and full of traumas and nightmares.

  • @sirupsee4698
    @sirupsee4698 Před 11 měsíci +97

    Interesting choice with the bird calls, making the 'nothing mattters' have a subtly cheerful, natural aspect to it as well

    • @sof3224
      @sof3224 Před 8 měsíci +1

      Wow es cierto. No me había dado cuenta. ❤

  • @RyanBigSmelly123
    @RyanBigSmelly123 Před 5 měsíci +10

    I’m starting to lose what I once had as a child, which is happiness; as in genuine happiness you’d feel from each day. The distant feeling of wanting comfort from somebody else rather than yourself is what makes me unhappy. I would love to just, enjoy my own accompany, to love what I am myself, rather than proving to other people what I am, becoming someone different for others pleasures. I’m done with it, yet I never commit to changing, it’s almost like a never ending cycle, one in a billion chance I’ll have to actually changing… But with all of that said, I know deep down in my heart that someday, I will come to terms with myself.
    I don’t show affection towards people I really love, because I’m afraid of witnessing that childhood happiness, it’s like a 50/50 emotion, I would love to feel that deep love for oneself, but I’m afraid of not changing, not becoming what I’m expecting myself to become, I’m afraid that I’ll grow something entirely different to that of what I expect, which in the end, makes me so conflicted on whether or not I would like to, or need to change. All these pros and cons to acting on them out wager the concept as a whole, because all I see it, is it being a guess, not a choice; it frightens me to see that I’m thinking too much, rather than acting on pursuing what I thinks best, which would just take me back to square one.
    I’m just, unwell, and I wish I had a proper answer to my question; which in the end, I’ll never get… Hate it, I genuinely hate it, hate hate hate. Ugh, writing all of this without rewriting it is, different. Spending hours and hours writing a whole paragraph, trying to perfect it for someone who genuinely can’t do much but react, is underwhelming, because it’s a complete recycle of the issue I’m addressing.
    Regardless, writing my struggles freely shows how fluent I can communicate with people, and I guess that’s something I’ve learned today, and I wish this helped someone else! Much love: Ryan

    • @IZABELAqqqqq
      @IZABELAqqqqq Před 3 měsíci

      Glad you could share this, being able to write what's on your mind is important I think, even if you don't get an answer.

  • @kuro.editzzz
    @kuro.editzzz Před rokem +368

    this is so perfect. everyday waking up to not feeling like reality is real... no purpose. alone. broken down to the point of not existing... this is the perfect mix for my daily life thank you.
    Edit- I just want to say. Thank you for everyone's concern. I just look at it as long as I wake up everyday, it's another opportunity to keep fighting. And I feel like that goes for everyone aswell. Keep your chin up and keep fighting despite what the world gives you. Again. Thanks for the concern everyone and I'm doing much better thank you ❤

    • @emeku11
      @emeku11 Před rokem +29

      I really feel like you lately, sometimes it's hard to get the good side out of our daily routine. Anyway, I hope you're doing well :)

    • @xtc1993
      @xtc1993  Před rokem +77

      Thank you so much for this comment my friend. For as long as you are of living flesh and breathe the same air we all breathe, you are living with purpose. I promise that in this life you will find your true reason for existing because your comment showed me that I found mine :)

    • @kuro.editzzz
      @kuro.editzzz Před rokem +15

      @@xtc1993
      @emerlands1177
      thank you for the responses. I may not have a particular purpose in mind right now. the only thing holding me together is that I'm gods slave. but I'll find another purpose to live for in time! thank you both of you. and I wish you two the best. I'm happy I helped find your purpose :))

    • @bastiaanschouwink3562
      @bastiaanschouwink3562 Před rokem

      stop watching porn and doing the things accompanied by it it helps to make you feel better in your skin, you ll be able to take it from there.

    • @VanezArt
      @VanezArt Před rokem +6

      IKR. hang in there bud.

  • @lecastlevania
    @lecastlevania Před 10 měsíci +54

    I stumbled across this video and it gave me the strangest feeling of peace.

    • @chmiv7465
      @chmiv7465 Před 9 měsíci +3

      Bro no way, Le Castle Vania commented on a Silent Hill 2 video?

  • @MrSandManGiveMeADream
    @MrSandManGiveMeADream Před 9 měsíci +4

    there is some kind of peace to be find in Surrendering to the nihilistic chaos of life...

  • @eyesturnedeverinward
    @eyesturnedeverinward Před 10 měsíci +4

    Not until you're dead it doesn't. And even then you'll be another memory on the wall

  • @redacted8008
    @redacted8008 Před 11 měsíci +189

    This is like my go-to happy place.
    When something bad happens, when something's bothering me, when I feel I'm absolutely fucked...
    It's fine. Because nothing really matters anyway.
    I hate that I do this. I think it's weak, and I hate weakness. But it feels so damn good.

    • @gesudinazaret9259
      @gesudinazaret9259 Před 11 měsíci +19

      How is it week to accept the true nature of things?was the Buddha weak for going under that tree to meditate?You coming back here is just your body and your mind realizing when it needs to go home,because nothingness is home ,the void is where everything comes from ,stay safe

    • @redacted8008
      @redacted8008 Před 11 měsíci +25

      ​@@gesudinazaret9259
      I consider it weak because instead of focusing on fixing my problems, on overcoming the challenges set before me, on defying mere circumstance to shape my own reality, I escape into this nothing means anything anyway mindset because it's so comfortable and convenient. It's a withdraw from facing my problems head-on, from being smart enough to come up with solutions, from having the willpower to try at all. It's just me cowering in nihilism.
      That said, I agree with you. My soul yearns for absolute zero like nothing else. But there's people I care about still here, and they matter to me, even when nothing matters anyway sometimes. I do appreciate your insight though, thank you.

    • @Alone.-gf7zv
      @Alone.-gf7zv Před 11 měsíci +6

      ​@@redacted8008By your own logic, those problems you have mean absolutely nothing either. Nothing that exists actually matters at all. People who claim different are living in ignorant bliss.

    • @redacted8008
      @redacted8008 Před 11 měsíci +3

      @@Alone.-gf7zv Yes, that was my point. And yes, I still think it's a weak take.

    • @deconteville
      @deconteville Před 11 měsíci +5

      @@redacted8008
      Keep doing what you're doing, and you'll find you can embrace any challenge you want to. You simply don't attach to the outcome good or bad and simply let yourself experience your new perspectives on reality. Trust the process, and your self judgement will also cease. Keep up the good work :).

  • @user-fk8tr5ev8q
    @user-fk8tr5ev8q Před 11 měsíci +4

    nothing really matters anyways so nothing should stop him from climbing over that gate

  • @SOS1G_
    @SOS1G_ Před 7 měsíci +6

    why cant i facilitate my own happiness ? why am i so sensitive to outside influence ? why do i let the smallest of gestures or the absense of, affect me so ?
    why do i keep putting myself up on a platter
    ready for anyone to spit on
    ready to be played
    if i know, inside and out, that i will hurt myself in any kind of pursuit
    and have done so, and not only a handful of times
    then why does my heart never listen ?
    why am i like this

  • @Doll_ver
    @Doll_ver Před 5 měsíci +5

    imagine dying peacfully to this kind of music

  • @Noluxarch
    @Noluxarch Před 9 měsíci +24

    when i realized that this world was nothing but an illusion, i couldn't understand what other humans were experiencing

    • @Melinda8162
      @Melinda8162 Před 5 měsíci +2

      Ohhh, so true. Never realized it until you pointed it out like this. 😔

    • @TakedaUchujin
      @TakedaUchujin Před 4 měsíci +2

      I wish I never knew it was fun at first..

    • @TakedaUchujin
      @TakedaUchujin Před 4 měsíci +2

      Its like why know soo much when you can't even get use out of it

    • @Melinda8162
      @Melinda8162 Před 4 měsíci +2

      @@TakedaUchujinTrue. Sad existence.

  • @LunaroselWinter
    @LunaroselWinter Před 10 měsíci +11

    My past mistakes are consuming me, my sense of self worth. Is all just slipping away. I just want it to end, I just want to move forward but I feel like I’ll never win this mental battle. Im so tired.

  • @andrewperkins3376
    @andrewperkins3376 Před 5 měsíci +9

    When you have autistic spectrum disorder life is completely different in struggles than everyone you know. Continual job loss and ostracism from people. Masking last last for so long especially as a man. It’s harder and harder to mask the older you get. I have major hopes and dreams but can’t keep my finances up. So I’m hear just listening wishing I could find a good steady job and not disappoint the people in my life more than I do. I can say I’ll find steady work but actions speak louder than words. I’ll probably not be a “good fit” for my next job either

  • @nikkon1999
    @nikkon1999 Před 10 měsíci +133

    i am in the army (mandatory), life continues in the outside world and i stay behind, it feels like prison. 197 days to “serve” remain. I hope i can make it

    • @uriel6873
      @uriel6873 Před 10 měsíci +16

      You will make it bro. I know how it feels, I’m a Navy vet got out recently. You got like half a year left, make it the experience you want it to be. Be it chill or be it partying, just try to look at it like you are willing to make the change for it. Like, you are in power.

    • @burgercook1741
      @burgercook1741 Před 9 měsíci +9

      I pray for your safe return.

    • @muaddib234
      @muaddib234 Před 9 měsíci +7

      1 month less bro, you can do it

    • @stela-ov2xt
      @stela-ov2xt Před 9 měsíci +1

      🩵

    • @Jacks-tj9mb
      @Jacks-tj9mb Před 8 měsíci +9

      Hate to tell you bud but it doesn’t get any better in civilian life. Same old shit all the way till the end. Make the most of your time in the army.

  • @MarianDwarfol
    @MarianDwarfol Před rokem +17

    I feel like this video everyday without really noticing

  • @Whires
    @Whires Před 9 měsíci +10

    we'll be alright

  • @DaringMallow
    @DaringMallow Před 11 měsíci +87

    I wanna sit somewhere
    That is far away from fair
    Because the lights there flicker
    The birds there weep
    The sun there never shines
    The clouds there, are free
    The land makes all horrors arise
    The wind brings an uneasy chill up the spine
    I wanna sit there
    Somewhere that is far away from fair
    Maybe i stop crying there
    And not brace myself to look okay

    • @ImJugg
      @ImJugg Před 11 měsíci +5

      yooo, thats mothafuckin bars!! you need to hit the studio bro!

    • @user-fr2pe8kt3q
      @user-fr2pe8kt3q Před 10 měsíci

      worst bars ive ever read, shit dosent even rhyme or have structure or logic beind it. bro just threw random sentences together @ImJugg you must be dyslexic

    • @loganireland3113
      @loganireland3113 Před 8 měsíci +3

      rest easy, brother

    • @Dest.
      @Dest. Před 4 měsíci

      yeah

  • @fourty.8
    @fourty.8 Před 11 měsíci +34

    Always glad to see other people share your same lonely-feeling thoughts.

  • @Gtrsh56748y
    @Gtrsh56748y Před 11 měsíci +11

    I love Nature

    • @hyukann
      @hyukann Před 4 měsíci +1

      are you from poland beka?

  • @SkilletTom
    @SkilletTom Před 11 měsíci +69

    this song is LITERALLY ME LMAO. I feel so lost nowadays man, I have no real sense of direction. But while I work through the muck I take pride in knowing that I am doing it alone and for myself

    • @senvr11
      @senvr11 Před 11 měsíci +2

      what do you do for work

    • @user-qw9tm7fl2f
      @user-qw9tm7fl2f Před 7 měsíci

      💫

    • @JH4RPlp
      @JH4RPlp Před 7 měsíci +1

      most of us are lost. Humans hate change, but sometimes it can be refreshing once you get past the hurdles that inhibit it.

  • @LeslyTheAviator
    @LeslyTheAviator Před 4 měsíci +2

    I have been trying to find something clever to say here but my words are escaping me. I guess what I had in mind, was to say thank you for making this. It helped me realize something I've been lacking for a while, and that's direction. After I was forced out of my home a couple months ago, I have been living in the middle of nowhere, working a nothing job, trying to piece together what I have left of my psyche, my will to keep going. And I suppose at one point the only thing keeping me here was my inability to commit to the act. There was one other reason that I felt had left me behind, but my long distance boyfriend. Every day he would say good morning, and as pointless as that may seem it helped me immensely. I live alone now, and the only people I have to talk to are my coworkers. Unfortunately I am an introvert and with some of my trauma I've experienced I often don't trust people anyway. I suppose I'm a cynic in that way or whatever you want to call me. My point was, just him saying good morning relieved a mounting tension in my mind, the fact someone wanted to speak to me touched me in a way that not many things will do. When I was forced from my home I never had the chance to say goodbye, or even explain what was happening before it happened, and I thought for a long time he'd just forget me, pass me up for someone else because... well, I can't name a good reason why you'd try dating someone two thousand miles away with no hope of ever seeing each other again... But he hoped. He held out for me when nobody else would. It gave me hope. Something in short supply for me as of late. It made me realize some things do matter. I matter. A lot more than I let myself believe. But I had no direction to take this hope, something to put it towards. The world is a bleak place, but listening to this while I put my thoughts together made me feel as if I could maybe make something of my life now. A direction to start walking in, if you will. I'll chose to keep waking up each morning, and pressing on because maybe with time, I'll be back on a path I was meant to be on.
    TL:DR - Thanks.

  • @Mulgrungus
    @Mulgrungus Před 10 měsíci +34

    Ambient music truly taps into something fundamental in us, it takes that one second to stop and listen and a whole world opens up.

  • @notsaw
    @notsaw Před rokem +89

    this is hauntingly beautiful keep it up

  • @whatistau
    @whatistau Před 11 měsíci +26

    recently i find myself drifing in these silent hill themed soundscapes. last year i was diagnosed with bpd, and began remenising my past experiences, challenges, connections with family, partners, risks i took. all my mistakes and chances make sense now. my family is all gone, i decided to part with career that i abandoned inside long time ago, and women i adored but refused to let their love engulf me are far away. im 37 and finally free, and i take this moment in life to be at peace, to take a step back and not force things for a while, just loose myself in this place inside my mind, full of silent memories, until im ready to let go and move further with myself.

    • @ShadyRonin
      @ShadyRonin Před 9 měsíci +2

      I can relate so much... also mid thirties, also feeling this desire to escape into silent hill themed soundscapes. It's the only place I can find solace.

  • @girkin123
    @girkin123 Před 6 měsíci +2

    the birds really make this whole.

  • @razorcandi11
    @razorcandi11 Před 6 měsíci +2

    Ive felt like this for this whole life.

  • @godot9223
    @godot9223 Před 11 měsíci +59

    There are a number of things I've learned in the past two months of my life, as anxiety latched onto my brain and thoughts, dragging me into a downward spiral of hopelessness, despair and arguably mild state of depression. My way of fighting back is through logical (and philosophical) thinking, observing things from a distance, in order to distance myself from things I don't actually want.
    - Firstly, whatever you fear the most, the more you think about it, the more the grip tightens, and the more the fear itself grows. If you're plagued by intrusive, ego-dystonic thoughts, it's because you give these thoughts power and value. They are things you don't want to think about, but you still do, and for what reason?
    - Secondly, the mind and your heart (or soul) are two separate entities within your fleshy human shell. Your thoughts that appear in your mind do not define who you are. There's no such things as good thoughts or bad thoughts, because thoughts are just thoughts. What matters are your morals and values. Whenever you think of something that you know is bad for you, ask yourself, "Is this important for me to think about right now?"
    - Thirdly, and finally, the title speaks the truth. It's a matter of perspective. Optimistic nihilism is something I've dabbled into. Nothing really matters, but we still live through life anyway. Because, no matter what we're going through, there still is something that we care about. Whether it's the roof above our heads, our family, our pets, if we have any, our household appliances, our computers and phones, that we use daily, our friends, be it real or online. Even when life doesn't matter, there are things we still value and care about. In my opinion, these things are the small rays of hope that make us go forward.
    Whatever it is that you're going through, only you can make the decision to give yourself hope about something. Only you can loosen the grip of anxiety, doubt, guilt, or whatever it may be that is keeping you stuck in a cycle of rumination. You have more control over your mind than you realize. When you master your mind, you'll realize that you matter.
    "If you are depressed you are living in the past. If you are anxious you are living in the future. If you are at peace you are living in the present." - Lao Tzu

    • @sergiobarrios4049
      @sergiobarrios4049 Před 11 měsíci +3

      Really beautiful words. Honestly, you just got me out of a cycle of trying to beat a level in a game over and over without any results. I'm very thankful ❤

    • @Blackout0900
      @Blackout0900 Před 11 měsíci

      Have you tried forgiving your mother?

    • @overfriedchikin3310
      @overfriedchikin3310 Před 11 měsíci

      damn

    • @thegrunch6448
      @thegrunch6448 Před 10 měsíci

      Perfectly said, I agree with everything you commented.

    • @sof3224
      @sof3224 Před 8 měsíci

      Beautiful ❤

  • @arise_femto
    @arise_femto Před 10 měsíci +6

    i see that town.
    silent hill.

  • @ianscheurer
    @ianscheurer Před 11 měsíci +3

    the hi hats in the back got me like 😮

  • @commanderseraphus8059
    @commanderseraphus8059 Před 5 měsíci +2

    I cannot justify why i should become a better person for myself. Who i am now, what i say, how i act, what beliefs i am allowed to share is based only on being better for others. If i fail to find someone in the future, someone who will give me the courage i need to be better and i find myself alone, then there is no reason to keep the filter, the one that hides my spite and rage and hatred, and let it out, without concern to whom i may hurt in the process.

  • @Kyle-qm4zw
    @Kyle-qm4zw Před 9 měsíci +4

    It's all nothing but a dream

  • @damienbunting873
    @damienbunting873 Před 5 měsíci +2

    Glad we can all find connection, the feeling of having a future once promised just out of reach to touch & never to be held...ever.
    No matter the feeling lofi sovietwave provides it and we understand eachother even if we all speak different languages we see it on eacothere faces in eachothers eyes. We are never alone and whether we keep that understanding to a nod or a smile, we are never truly alone...❤

  • @sahilhossain8204
    @sahilhossain8204 Před 11 měsíci +3

    Lore of nothing really matters anyways momentum 100

  • @stevens29909
    @stevens29909 Před 10 měsíci +3

    It’s always silent for the hill

  • @ian-online
    @ian-online Před 9 měsíci +20

    today, I went thru my usual irritation and anxiety over the same things. because of this, everyday feels the same. but right now, i feel suddenly easy. maybe it's just this comforting hoodie i'm wearing. maybe its just the water i drank earlier or maybe because i got into something interesting since months.
    it's been a while since i've felt calm for such an extended period and I'm grateful for this video.

  • @jennydeaf9O9
    @jennydeaf9O9 Před 5 měsíci +2

    watching this loop on mute while
    listening to brian wilson's SMiLE LP.

  • @christhemonkey7867
    @christhemonkey7867 Před rokem +13

    Surf the Kali Yuga

    • @chocolanny
      @chocolanny Před 10 měsíci +1

      Yes?Maybe?I don’t know?Can you repeat the question?

  • @Giveupgiveupgiveupgiveup
    @Giveupgiveupgiveupgiveup Před 11 měsíci +4

    today was rough... but that's ok because in the end "nothing really matters anyways"

  • @sarahlynn123
    @sarahlynn123 Před 6 měsíci +2

    I feel like stepping into the light

  • @HistoryPersist
    @HistoryPersist Před 11 měsíci +4

    Silent Hill + Existential Crisis=

  • @bastiaanschouwink3562
    @bastiaanschouwink3562 Před rokem +39

    i love it when games feel philosophical.
    im still waiting to lay SH2 but i feel that ill really like it.

    • @arthurfleck629
      @arthurfleck629 Před rokem +10

      Me too, funnily enough I still haven’t played any of the Silent Hill games, but I will eventually.
      I’ve been listening to the ambient music from them for years now, it puts my mind at ease in a way few other things can.

    • @xAustishx
      @xAustishx Před rokem +16

      You will love it, bro. I recommend playing through it with no help, no spoilers, no online anything, with the lights off while you're home alone. I played thru the series a few years back like that and I've got to say it's one of the most terrifying and surreal games I've played, but not just because of the monsters, because of the storyline themselves. Sh2 is easily my favorite but all sh1-4 are amazing. The games felt so familiar, and deeply comforting, mainly because if you ever had some sort of depression or episode, the games translate that beautifully. They really nailed the physiological deterioration that one feels when there is no hope left, that feeling of living a life that feels clouded, messy, and dark.
      Ironically silent hill (especially 2) gave me comfort during those dark times. And sh2 ending, man I can't get through the ending without becoming a hysterical mess even to this day. It's so beautifully tragic, but the themes of the game motivate you to stop running from the traumatic events that have happened in your past, to face them and accept what happened; to learn from what you can and to realize that you CAN move on, and you deserve to move on. To live for a better tomorrow, and live to be a better person.

    • @axelbitch7164
      @axelbitch7164 Před 11 měsíci +5

      beautifully said my friend

    • @bastiaanschouwink3562
      @bastiaanschouwink3562 Před 10 měsíci +2

      @@xAustishx oh ive had those believe it or not, I was bullied in hi school and it culminated in them partially urinating in a beer bottle and me drinking it (the whole class was in on it). Funnily enough the main guy feels so bad about it now he wants to be friends and buy me a drink afer all these years. But f that, I dont know what ill do once I see him.

    • @bastiaanschouwink3562
      @bastiaanschouwink3562 Před 10 měsíci

      im actually checking the internet for a ps2 again because the ps4 version has weird screen issues @@xAustishx

  • @Valentino016
    @Valentino016 Před 11 měsíci +11

    When life just keeps haunting you scare it with this masterpiece called music

  • @ynol4879
    @ynol4879 Před 6 měsíci +2

    The thumbnail reminds me of the sketch I made to get that feeling of being alone and watched, while also being in a world where whenever you're depressed, you could actually find some clues from the world to find that answer.

  • @Sylvie0512
    @Sylvie0512 Před 5 měsíci +1

    you'll never know what could have mattered if you arent here to experience it...

  • @MurkySoda
    @MurkySoda Před 9 měsíci +9

    I'm not military military, but I'm in Air Force Auxiliary. First 10 min of this list feels like looking at the tan tents at sunset while everyone wrapping up and getting ready to sleep. A perfect sunset with a slight breeze. (The temper desert tents the military uses for rest/storage.)

  • @NoThing-wc3cs
    @NoThing-wc3cs Před 11 měsíci +6

    The title along with the description and the soundtrack came recommended at the perfect moment.

  • @sorcery_
    @sorcery_ Před 10 měsíci +8

    we fight all our lives for money and success just to keep fighting for money and success. so we can raise our kids to fight for money and success so they can raise their kids to-.… for what? to go to darkness in the end? and not take any of it with you?
    not my family. my friends. my money. my memories. my thoughts.
    the pain is for nothing.

  • @MackyMan73
    @MackyMan73 Před 7 měsíci +4

    Everyday is the same day, same work same bullshit. Yet when I hear this music… I feel at peace, so free. I love it, sat in the dark with beats on last night and listened to this for the first time. Never felt so at peace for awhile. It’s like it’s speaking to me, it will all be okay in due time.

  • @AddictionFreedom
    @AddictionFreedom Před 11 měsíci +24

    “Remember this, when a person tries to force themselves to quit doing something, they literally create a battle within their own mind. This battle strips their soul of energy and future progress. If you’re trying to quit nicotine, I can show you how to free yourself. No one quits because they ‘Want’ to quit. People only quit because their Mind is Ready.”

    • @banshiii4049
      @banshiii4049 Před 11 měsíci +1

      This is powerful💥

    • @emanuelfmds7992
      @emanuelfmds7992 Před 11 měsíci +5

      how do you make your mind get ready then, is it only a matter of time?

    • @AddictionFreedom
      @AddictionFreedom Před 11 měsíci

      @@emanuelfmds7992 I teach a method that accelerates the quitting process by an unbelievable magnitude. I wish you very well my friend and I'll be here if you need anything. czcams.com/video/qkaAP9rSAuI/video.html

    • @lasersummit7895
      @lasersummit7895 Před 10 měsíci +2

      @@emanuelfmds7992 just make ur mind ready duh

  • @dimosthenis.
    @dimosthenis. Před 6 měsíci +5

    Or shall we call it broken? Its complex to analyze ones psyche and to understand it deeply. One thing I can say tho, your comment resonated deeply with me, I feel the same, weak for using Nihilism to guard myself, on the other hand I find very few enjoyment in most things, I have dark/negative perspective and often see myself as a victim because im suffering from a disability and hairloss, I feel like I am on a ticking timer, I cant enjoy most because of it, I always thought I was one of gods chosen ones, because I was stronger, smarter, prettier than most, but that faded and left me in my now longer working shell, my viewpoints on the world are so corrupted and dark although I think most of them are true, I simply do not fit in, I lost my looks, my interests are niche and always changing, I can resonate with very few, I feel like a Lizard always changing it's colour, forgetting how it ones truly looked... I wanna escape my depression but I'm afraid my work is futile, I'm afraid nothing will change, I'm lazy, I don't get why I'm such a failure.

  • @niks7443
    @niks7443 Před měsícem +3

    "Nothing is real everything is an illusion" I believe we are here for human experience that's it...

  • @thinkmore8024
    @thinkmore8024 Před 10 měsíci +4

    Matter is subjective.

  • @Unnecessarilylongexplanations
    @Unnecessarilylongexplanations Před 3 měsíci +1

    My mind everytime I see the word nothing: "Nothing really matters, toooo meeeeeeeeeeeee."

  • @aishaadam4327
    @aishaadam4327 Před 7 měsíci +3

    When you lost all hope...

  • @GHO5T3DFreelance
    @GHO5T3DFreelance Před rokem +11

    Will you open the gate...or will you gaze....and if so for how long will you gaze upon eternity.

  • @Acr0polis
    @Acr0polis Před 10 měsíci +13

    The shared collective unconscious of man truly is captivating yet horrifying at the same time. Maybe we really all are James' running through an ominous fog, chasing an entity that can very well spell our demise should we dare to unearth it.
    Regardless, we all out here running together, so chin up fam🖤

  • @user-mc6lo5zg8n
    @user-mc6lo5zg8n Před 11 měsíci +4

    It is really still working . Thank you so much.

  • @TechnoMinded-qp5in
    @TechnoMinded-qp5in Před 8 měsíci +5

    Damn these playlist titles hit you very hard and make you stop to think for a moment this is very haunting in my mind for some reason yes I do agree nothing really does matter we just try to make it matter we technically don't have to go to work tomorrow but we do. I see reality just the same as a Lucid dream it's nothing more than a mental image reflected in your head.

  • @mariea82
    @mariea82 Před 9 měsíci +3

    I’m letting life slip away and just waiting to sue.

  • @SidewalkSurferPhotography
    @SidewalkSurferPhotography Před 10 měsíci +3

    Everyone at some point, need's to come back home to themselves

  • @cheddarchexmixeater
    @cheddarchexmixeater Před 6 měsíci +4

    Ever since my dad died i dont care about holidays. Or my birthday. Im actually leaning more towards not wanting to celebrate any of it. Hes not here anymore and it takes a toll on me to see my family together without him. I dont want to do any of it without him. It keeps getting worse. But i want to be better.

  • @justexploring6979
    @justexploring6979 Před 11 měsíci +60

    Not sure if you’ll see this message, but just wanted to say thank you for the video; the sound and visuals are honestly so immersive and the quote in the description is so thought-provoking. I shared this with my friend and we both enjoyed it. Thanks again, wishing you well.

  • @lil_emothugg
    @lil_emothugg Před 10 měsíci +5

    what is it about this game and its esthetic that give us that feeling of peace? specifically the game too, like if silent hill was a real place and i went there I would just be like "oh this is another foggy ghost town". but in the game, its like somewhere magical that fills a space in my head. idk if im making any sense but i feel like someone will get what im talking about...? i feel this way about Bloodborne and Minecraft even. Its almost like seeing shit through my own eyes isn t as enjoyable or memorable but when its on a screen it feels the opposite.

  • @brunoactis1104
    @brunoactis1104 Před 8 měsíci +7

    The mere fact that Silent Hill is beautiful tells you that life matters.

  • @prosaic.7944
    @prosaic.7944 Před rokem +6

    ...And it is you who lives it; living has meaning only if you mean to live.

  • @TiennosMigos
    @TiennosMigos Před 11 měsíci +2

    Thank you sou much for this drone.
    I gained a lot of energy as I listened and meditated.

  • @Jukestar
    @Jukestar Před 11 měsíci +4

    This video is a godsend for me when I'm going through that feeling of overwhelming emptiness. Tysm for making it!

  • @banksubis
    @banksubis Před 11 měsíci +17

    It’s a gift to be able to share it in such a way. Thank you

  • @devinfreeman4540
    @devinfreeman4540 Před 6 měsíci +3

    I miss you Dad

  • @midnightchillradio
    @midnightchillradio Před 11 měsíci +35

    “No more expectations. Just gonna go with the flow and whatever happens, happens."

  • @Excalibur32
    @Excalibur32 Před rokem +9

    I needed this bro, thank you

  • @pjele5248
    @pjele5248 Před rokem +8

    Thank you for this, i really need it.

  • @feral.housewife.
    @feral.housewife. Před 11 měsíci +12

    Life has been a little rough lately, there are moments of pure joy but then things come crashing back down around me again. But the title of this is almost optimistic, because the bad things do not matter as much as the good. Whats the difference either way? Almost a relief really. Im here so I may as well make the most of it.

  • @officialrivv
    @officialrivv Před 11 měsíci +45

    I feel like we're all in this place. I pray things get better

  • @Ray-je5yp
    @Ray-je5yp Před 5 měsíci +1

    The day I lost myself is when I knew this ain’t over yet it’s barely the beginning of a new life to accomplish.

  • @Immoralkali
    @Immoralkali Před 7 měsíci +3

    keeping a lot to myself because is it hard to find somone who understands

  • @Geese_
    @Geese_ Před 11 měsíci +10

    Dont give up, keep going, thats not all you have, keep pushing

  • @kamalika2023
    @kamalika2023 Před rokem +22

    you did it again !! (making insanely amazing pieces of art)

  • @kaedz3055
    @kaedz3055 Před 11 měsíci +5

    for the big part, I am an atheist who believes in a type of nihilism and this playlist makes me feel better when I'm sad of feel unimportant. Nihilism does say that our lives have no purpose. But it's a different type of unimportance that I feel. My life doesn't matter (in a good way, lol). With me on this planet or not, Earth would still spin to its glory, unchanged of my existence (again, in a good way). This reminds me that they, people that make me feel this way, are not the ones who should justify my importance. My life is important to me and my loved ones because it is my one and only. In the small, meaningless details of this endlessly big picture, we've been through so much together. These tiny details may be important to no one else but myself, and that's enough anyway. I don't need anyone else's approval of my worth because they are worthless themselves. I shouldn't degrade my life's importance because of what they said to me, cos at the end of our lives, none of us actually matter. Nor did our words actually matter, our manifestations, our pain, our cries, our love, our passion, our hate or our very humanity. So while it still matters to me, I will make it valuable to no one else but myself. Living my life to my values only. To bend only to me because no one else is important. What I live is what I'll ever get to see, hear and feel. So I need not to live for someone else. It's the type of unimportance that makes me feel free of society's conformity.
    Sorry this is hard to understand lol. Basically, since we're all worthless, I don't need to worry about trivial things such as what others think about me. I'll die, they'll die and we'll be even more useless than we ever were. Since I won't matter to the bigger picture, I'll only matter to one thing: myself. I won't try and be important for other people's lives if it makes me feel less happier because deep down, their life is just as worthless as mine is. And truly you don't want to invest in something that is useless. So only invest in yourself, where the worth can only be seen by yourself. Though it's useless to others, it's useful to you, and that's all that matters because yeah, we're all useless.

  • @meowmAr_274
    @meowmAr_274 Před 10 měsíci +11

    I dont know how to express it... I tried to use that way of thinking, i tried to not care about anything anymore, but things just keep crumbling down... Everything just gets gradually worse and worse and there's nothing I can do about it... It's so frustrating. My life is slipping through my fingers and I'm completely powerless...
    I'm so tired... I just want to give up, i can't handle this any longer, i feel like shit and nothing is ever going to get better...
    Thanks for the song though man

    • @user-bw5ej1yb3u
      @user-bw5ej1yb3u Před 10 měsíci +2

      Bro do you wanna talk ?

    • @theresarodak8865
      @theresarodak8865 Před 7 měsíci +2

      I can identify with everything you said. We have to tie a knot and hold on.. And
      even that is hard..

  • @deaththekid561
    @deaththekid561 Před 7 měsíci +2

    Its not what you perceive but how you perceive it