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my main content is ZO/ZEN. just wanted to upload random stuffs
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i do not own any of the songs or the image. just wanted to share one or my playlists with yall. I also don't make profits with my vids
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00:00 i was only temporary
01:39 Wish
04:13 another life
06:24 night mom
07:48 tangled
09:09 This Feeling Will Pass
11:13 out
12:45 drift/:(/
14:22 I Thought About Death, About Time
16:22 Everything Reminds Me Of You
19:42 goodbye~
21:23 Suicide Cleanup
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I remember being sat on the floor of my bathroom, it was 4am and everyone was asleep except for my best friend who lives 2 hours from me, he video called me for 40 minutes about his Minecraft world, he had no clue what I was planning on doing…he didn’t know he saved me until I told him about it just last week. I would have been gone in 2020 if it wasn’t for him. Thank you Jayden, I love you ❤
I'm so glad you're doing better
I wish you the best in your life
I'm glad you're still here ❤❤ don't give up. There's more to life. Coming from a christian.. who has considered this.. it's not what God has planned for your life. We don't understand it now. But you're not alone. I wish I understood that earlier. I love you. You're awesome and so strong..
maybe someday youll have to show someone your minecraft world.. and just maybe youll save their life too..
Thanks man..
i am crying rn bc i read the title and it reminds me of how hard i tried to save my best friend jay... he killed himself tho... miss that man... hope he rest in peace... never forgot you man it's been 5 years already...
I'm so sorry for your loss, hope life gets better for you..
@@Ino_Onpawzz still crying ove rhim can't believe he's gone... he was really fun to hang with...
R.i.p
@@mericalslayer miss that dude he's funny always cool to hang with
@yigit-nh2vn
I remember seeing the text "thank you for everything you were the only person who was ever nice to me. I'm sorry."
i’m so sorry for your loss.
@@Boris._.15. womp womp
@@SongsAndplaylists666bro what the actual fuck is wrong with you? Show some fucking respect.
@@SongsAndplaylists666 check yourself
@@SongsAndplaylists666 bro 💀
my bestfriend wanted to die so bad.
I called her when I heard she had taken an overdose and we talked for an hour.
I remember that she said she had already written the letters, but I told her that she doesnt need to give them.
I told her that she can go to her favourite school and that we need to paint again.
She told me not to call help, because she had trauma from the hospital. I was so worried, but thankfully my other friend called help for her.
when help was on the way, I talked with her for a long time and I calmed her down, I gave her hope in that moment.
me and my other friend went into the hospital for 4 hours, we never got to see her but we felt her presence.
she survived, but after that she tried many times again but always survived.
me and the other classmates made her a get well soon-card and when I finally got to hug her, she just cried and thanked me
she told me if it wasn't for the hope I gave her, she wouldn't be here anymore
i'm so grateful that she's getting help now,
she means the world to me
what a story man.. what a story..
hey any updates?
@@waishanoor7239 not right now, I keep seeing nightmares
You need a break…your friend is having a bad time and it’s affecting them hard….take some rest…have some fun.
@@Potato_slay thank you, I needed that
i miss my sister... fly high my sweet
i am a little late to say that but r.i.p! :(
Rest in peace angel.
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A few months ago my friend attempted. It failed and he ended up in a mental hospital. I haven't seen him since. But this playlist reminds me of him. Stay safe everyone :)
you shoulg go see him, that way he knows that there is someone who cares for him...to give him hope.
@@Infinity4ever414 thank you for the idea. I will for sure try to see him soon.
@@Tbhk.fan-.- How is he rn?
Im going through the same thing. You and your friend aren't alone
This is what i did back in march I tried to commit with a knife my mom caught me and sent me to CHKD inpatient hospital I was in there for 2 weeks I got out march 13th I was fine for a bit but i had to go to court because my dad went back to jail for illegal substances and he never contacts me we had to go to court but as usual he didnt show up IDK what to do with my life anymore
Im looking at all theres comments and Im crying...Im sorry that happened...no one deserves that pain that you or that person went through...I wish i could take everyones pain...im a very sensitive and emotional person but this...this is just...i cant explain but my heart hurts alot...I hope your all okay...Im sure that the people you are all talking about are in a better place, living a happy joyful experience. Still smiling and giggling, saying everything is okay now...that you can be at ease...
It takes time, tho. For me, It's been 9 since I lost my friend and I still miss him like hell while crying my eyes out once in a while. ❤️🩹
But, hey! At least I'll get to spill some tea when I get to see him again HAHA
my ex-girlfriend had my heart. She was the sweetest, most genuine girl i knew. We had almost a 3 year age gap, she was younger than me, therefore nobody supported us being together.
One night, i was at my grandmothers, helping her around the house. i didn't have my phone on me, so i never saw her calls and texts. i wish i wouldve been there to stop her. she overdosed on 13 different pills, including medication from each of her family members.
i still love and miss you, macey. like we used to say,
"please let us forgive eachother, for be might not see eachother again one day. i love you❤"
I'm sorry for your loss man, I hope you get better soon and everything is alright....:(🙏
I'm really sorry to hear this, losing a significant other is one of the worst pains especially when they make you feel so special, I can only imagine the guilt you feel, I'm here to support you in anyway and I hope you don't let this effect you too much and believe me it's not good... farewell now
my bestfriend was getting bullied online. she would call me everynight about it. and post suicide notes on her story but never do it. and one night I never picked up any of her calls since I was busy. the next morning her brother texted me that shes gone. she was my only true friend I really love her.
I kind of feel this because it feels like every time I write another note but never do it and someone finds in I feel like in the back of their head they’re calling me a faker for not actually being depressed (I am and I’m not self diagnosed)
Rest in peace to your friend
My biggest sorry for your lost, dear. This also happend to me, so It shatters my heart to think we understand each other...
I bet your friends had a beautiful soul...!
Womp womp
@@leahoded1163 aw I know your had a beautiful soul to. I glad im not alone. rest in peace to your friend
I remember that few months ago, February 16th 2024 was the worst day for me to experience, it was 1:34am, my friend texted me their suicidal note, I was begging for them to not to leave but it was too late, I was crying for 5 hours, completely traumatised from what I’ve just witnessed, my parents woke up from hearing me sobbing as they went at me and confront me, I told them everything what happened and they were shocked, they stayed at me in the bed, sitting on each side of the corner bed till I fall asleep from crying,
Rip man I hope ur feeling better
Man that sucks I hope you feel better I'm here for you bro stay strong ❤
I decided to stay, just for my friend and my kitten. Thank you Gabriel for never giving up on me, I will never be able to express such gratitude (he's still alive, and so am I, thanks to him)
It was my uncle,there he hung on the tree, rope around his neck and compassion still seemingly being emitted all around him while tears bombarded the ground beneath us.I saw him there for what felt like the first time, he didn't seem like the man I knew at all but I never got to tell him how much I appreciated him,how much I valued him, how much I cared about him,but unfortunately, he's gone.
stop these comments are literally making me cry- it makes me realize that most of us have all gone through the same thing.. but all experiences are different. just reading other peoples stories makes me feel so much more connected to the world, and it's reminding me of sad memories. i hope everyone is doing well, love you guys
I have a Bad life😢
I've only read 4 comments and I'm already crying
@@Drugdigoisabalancer i was literally balling my eyes out on my floor while reading the comments and something in me just wouldnt let me stop reading
@@Lexy-d2r im sorry ml im sure it'll all get better soon
@@baileyboo4. Thx i have a Bad life when i was born to now(srry i'm french)
Today...i lost a good friend...i tryed to tell her not too...but she didnt listen...her friends told me its my fault...R.I.P julie...you will always be in my heart❤
oh, I'm so sorry. but know that it's not your fault. you tried to persuade her and that's all you could do.
i lost my boy bsf yesterday too rip.
Vent:
I'm bad at showing emotions and showing if I care so a lot of people call me emo as an insult. I have two friends who are like my pack. We do everything together. Its like I have a stronger relationship with them than any other person I know. (Maybe even my gf)
Anyway, one of them had a friend who tried to overdose while we were eating burgers at a restaurant and talking about life, goals, etc. Just, enjoying each others company.
Seeing her reaction was devastating. She looked like the only thing holding her to the world was a piece of string. She said that she wouldn't know how to live if she died and would probably just end up killing herself too.
My other friend said the same if one of us died but her reaction was slightly different. She had a half-sister that I knew she loved very much and said "I would too, but I have to live for her. She needs me."
I had been thinking very suicidal thoughts for the past few months, debating whether or not it was worth it to keep moving forward. But I'm so glad I didn't. If I had jumped into those train tracks back in January, I would never have gotten a gf or even made some of my new friends. I didn't want to leave my sisters with my passing either. It would have crushed their core. I know that they love me and I love them so dearly but I just felt like giving up. If I had jumped, I never would have seen how much better my life got.
Me and my friends all have our fair share of SH scars. One has a lot of knife marks and the other has nail marks while I would SH with a razor and burn myself with heaters.
But, no matter what we go through, no matter how many hurdles there are in life (and there will be a lot) you just need to hold on.
This goes to anyone. Suicide is a permanent solution for something that is temporary. If you or someone you know is going through a hard time, give them a hug. You are appreciated. You are loved by someone. Someone likes how you dress. Someone admired your beautiful smile. Someone cares. I care. I love you.
I have been a few weeks clean and my life feels better. I cried while making this. I think I'm gonna go hug my sister for the first time in months.
Bro this made me cry… Tysm I was about to commit a couple days ago but this, this message out of any of these hundreds, made me rethink, and I didn’t commit, you’re the best man❤
Im suffering depression and anxiety right now because my friend disappeared from society. I used to be extremely close to him but he disappeared. I hope some people could make me feel better because i cant talk to anyone
I have depression and social anxiety, sometimes bad thoughts. My family don't know anything about it. I wish they would forget about me so I can go away... alone.
@@quentinchevrier2059I know it's really difficult when you have depression and social anxiety. But remember there's always someone who cares about you. I hope you get better day after day.
Hey I feel like this too but sometimes you have to tell the most trusted person you know and make sure you're comfortable sharing.
Sharing helps you feel better just like crying does too, I know how you feel and it's okay. Not everyone is okay, and you know what, that's fine, that's okay, some people have the same problem some other people do, and the best thing about that is that is how you fix it.
If you know someone who used/does feel the same. It's best if you share, and let it all out then bottle it all up, I always bottled my feelings up and it never ends well, so I hope you don't have to go through the same thing as me❤❤❤ I will pray for you okay ❤❤
Go away and be alone no never say that again people love you so much and you don’t even know bc depression makes you blind and it hurts ik but depression is a sickness that people don’t take seriously just so you know I love you and you family loves you so love yourself and be happy don’t put a fake smile on and be truly happy ❤❤❤ stay safe and strong
I couldnt stop my friend from saying "Yabba dabba doo!" when his crush agreed to go to prom with him. He hasn't heard from her since 😔
But on a side note, I hope all of the people who're posting actually sad stories are doing okay. God bless yall
I feel you dawg my friend said what the sigma and ruined his chances with any girls 😔
My best friend tried many times, twice I was there, but i"m glad she's still here
i think i found the hidden message! its the first letter of the first ten songs :)
i found it as well
That's,..so fucking sad.
Dang... I didn't see that
...I do too NGL :l
What’s the message?
I remeber how I was walking around in my room, thinking if I should do it or not th night before I already wanted to it I self harmed myself in the bathtub in this night, and when I was in my room I hesitated a part of me wanted to live the other not I just knew after I took the overdose my inner voice talked to me concicing me to call my mother and telling her it whar i've done I called my mother and she immeditaly called an ambulance when she was here I was almost fallen asleep and she tried to keep me awake the ambulance was there fast enough and took me to the hositpal my heart was weak I had be checked every hour and was under control for 24 hours, it was my worse thing ever I remeber how a nurse said to me this wasn't enough pills to kill me I just cried the whole night, How can someone say that to someone who tried to take their life right after that, once I was dismissed I was relieved and I realized I wanted to live (this was a few weeks ago, sorry for my english is pretty bad)
I just want to vent...One night I had everything ready, my arms were already stained but I got a message from my sister who was not feeling very well... I took a big sigh and started to comfort her until she fell asleep, that night I promised not to do it because She continued to need me, some time later she got healthy, she started eating (she had anorexia) she stopped hurting herself and thinking about suicide, I decided it was time to do it, I planned it for a few months since my father had gotten sick, some time later I got a message from my sister's friends saying that she was in the hospital for a suicide attempt (my sister and I don't share blood she is from another continent) I felt so guilty, I didn't sleep for almost 2 weeks fearing the worst... Today she is healthy and I am suffering from depression but I am so afraid that she will suffer again... I am terrified that she cried on the phone like I did it when I found out that she almost died but she no longer needs me anymore, she is no longer my little girl, she is now a teenager
Hey man please don't commit we love you, she may need you in the future
hey baby it'll be okay
I promise you if you leave her that way, she will cry for the rest of her life, and might not make it either. Dont make her live with that regret and blame, because believe it or not she will blame herself. Get help, really get help, like therapy and medication. Because regret is the strongest emotion one can feel that will last a life time, and you will regret leaving those you love to suffer. If you are looking for hope and purpose find a church, a good one and go find out what has brought such a fuss to so many people's life. Find hope, look for the light in your dark life. I will be praying for you. Dont GIVE Up. Remember those who love you.
-love from a fellow teenager who knows the pain
@@maybe--oneday7 thanks bro🫂
@@Infinity4ever414 🫂🫂
I'm grateful to have a close group of 5 friends.
One of them makes subtle jokes about suicide or SH or just depression in general sometimes.. he's like me.. we're both big/chubby guys but I can never tell if he's joking or not..
He acts normal but I don't know if there's something underneath the surface with him.. hope all is okay at home with you Tom. Me and the others are here if ya need us man 👍
I want to change..I don't wanna be depress anymore...I want to turn my life around for good.
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
0:00 - 1:40 Wake up to reality. Nothing ever goes as planned in this accursed world. The longer you live, the more you realize that the only things that truly exist in this reality are merely pain, suffering and futility. Listen, everywhere you look in this world, wherever there is light, there will always be shadows to be found as well. As long as there is a concept of victors, the vanquished will also exist. The selfish intent of wanting to preserve peace, initiates war and hatred is born in order to protect love. There are nexuses causal relationships that cannot be separated. I want to sever the fate of the world. A world of only victors. A world of only peace. A world of only love. I will create such a world. I am the ghost of the uchiha.
I had a friend who was my perfect girl, Funny, Caring, Loving but she was in a relationship. One day something happened and when i tried to talk to her she left me behind, now i live with the guilt of letting her know of my constant suicidal thoughts while she attempted to do multiple times. Now i find myself drowning in guilt as i might be the cause of her death.
damn bro im sorry to hear that shes in a better place and one day you will both meet each other again in a better place
I'm sorry i couldn't save you, Kieran.
The title reminds me of the fact the girl I loved who loved me back committed the day before her birthday and I was asleep so I couldn't save her the one who told me she was dead was her own sister who answered her phone when I called her in the morning. Her sister told me her dying words to me were "tell ray I loved her more then anyone could imagine and that ill always be watching her" right before dying in her sisters arms I missed an entire week of school and stopped taking my antidepressants for a month. she tried to call shortly after cutitng her wrists but I was asleep I could've saved her I could've told her I loved her but I think though somehow she knew I loved her though
It’s been 6, nearly 7 years since they took their life. I tried, I tried to stop them, I wanted to scream, but I was afraid of waking my parents, I cried, I begged. I couldn’t keep them alive. Our call, the last thing they ever did, I was so young, they were so young, they shouldn’t deserve this fate. I still remember their face, their arms, the rope and the way they gasped out. The tears and the blood. the way they slowly swung from the ceiling. I should’ve called the police, but I wanted to help, it’s my fault.
Their family, they came in, and saw their child. I still remember the way they cried. I never went to the funeral because their parents didn’t even know me.
I miss them, I love them. I wish I could have saved them and done more. It was my fault and I hope they can forgive me.
I love you, I will never forget you.
God, I felt terrible reading that. . . I often feel regret after doing something-even in soccer, for example. "I could have saved that goal because instead of letting the goalie who was on the other side of the goal attempt to get it, I could've run up and stopped the ball from rolling in. " I can't find a good example of what I mean because I haven't gone through this...
I know you tried your best to save them, but ultimately, it was their decision. It's the sad way this world works - I feel terrible for the deceased friend and what they went through to lead up to that point. I hope you recover, stop blaming yourself, and think about the good memories.
i hope you heal from your trauma ml
its not your fault, its the people who made her feel like doing it.
This reminds me of when I got Intoxicated by my Best friend on the last day of school, we haven’t talked to each other much since the incident, but she has Apologized and fixed our Relationship, anyways Have a nice day yall.
me and my girlfriend are both people with really hard stories. My family is abosulte shit and extremely toxic. Both of our lives have been filled with confusion and pain. We find safety with eachother. Shes the only person thats ever loved me. Shes attemped many times. So i have ig but anyway. She was drinking way to much tonight and was texting me about it. I watched as she nearly slipped away and there was nothing i could do about it. nothing i said would get through. Shes still my favourite person. ill love her forever. I think we will both be okay. (shes alright now, shes going to be okay.)
oh and we are 14....
Hold on, always hold on, together, because once your 18 you can leave and escape. Look for God too, maybe try going to church together, a lot of people find hope there. I pray you both stay safe, keep supporting each other and you'll make it. Look for hope, for light (you'll find in church, or at least that's what happened to me) i wish you well from a fellow teenage stranger. Stay safe.
Last week, i was crying while everyone was asleep, it was 4am and i was about to end it..but i got a text from my friend asking if I'm okay, he said i deserve to be loved and i was having a panic attack at that moment, but im grateful he saved my life that day..❤ ily ____
i remember about a year ago my sweet boy committed i miss him everyday i remember his beautiful smile his goofy laugh his silliness he was perfect but i didn’t know he was suicidal bc he would never open up and i will never forgive myself for not knowing. I got a text from him one night but i wasn’t by my phone and he basically said he loves me and he’s sorry it was like a paragraph but i got back by my phone and it was to late. i miss him so much im only 15 but i remember sitting on my bathroom floor c^tting myself and trying to overdose which i woke up in the hospital but i was okay but i just want anyone who is reading this that i love you and your strong and you should know your worth and don’t ever let someone bring you down because you are so much better then that and you will get through whatever your going through you just have to believe i know it might be hard but it’s so worth it! don’t ever give up!🫶🏼
My best friend used to cut herself and I was the reason she stop which make me want to cry because she was doing it for about 3 months and when she was thinking about stopping she told me and I gave her a very long pep talk and then she stopped❤❤
This playlist is now my comfort zone
I had a foreign friend who own a sport bike and we would talk about how he would go and see me when I bought my own so that we could drive around together.
It was september 13, 2023 exactly 2:55 when he blew up my phone with notification saying how hes gonna go out and ride around the quiet city of his and how excited he was for me to get my first bike and then half way through that he kept saying how he appreciated me, that I understands him better than anyone, and saying that he loves me and will always be there for me even if hes not, at that point I started to get worried but I never told him I was, I reassured him that I'm always by his side too and that he could tell me anything without being obvious that I already know what he was doing.
Then he stopped texting, I didnt sleep knowing its around 4 in the morning hoping hed text back saying hes back from his late night drive but no he didnt. It was 1 in the afternoon and I got a text from his phone, I really wished to tell you that it was him, it was his brother. He told me that he was gone. They tracked his phone and so him and his demolished bike on a wall and the first they saw was his phone cracked but still open and it was him texting me. You dont know how devastated I was, how I wanted to scream and cry. He was everything to me, he was my bro but we never met each other. I was really looking forward to meet him but fucking hell I lost him.
this playlist is slowly healing my soul
Tbh, idk if anyone would try to stop me if they knew me irl, I am a horrible and disgusting person, I make everyone's life worse, i make everyone's life miserable and horrible, I know that and I know it's true, bc I see it in every person eyes and face when they are around me, even my family. I make people feel like they should just leave. I don't belong here, I don't belong in no ones family or no one's friendship groups, bc as I said, before even I come in their lifes, their lifes were much more better and happier, and now when I'm inside it, it made their life worse. I make everyone feel ashamed, I make people feel miserable. I am a bad person and not a good person, my personality is sh-t and I feel like I'm the outsider in everyone's life even in this world. I feel like I have been put in the wrong life or universe.
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
You are what you make from yourself, try to do something about it, try to change yourself, if you know what is wrong about you, try to change it, it will be hard, but you must keep moving forward
Listen bro I want you to know that so many people care and love you and want you to stay alive if you EVER need to talk I can give you my number no matter what it is about just know that you mean something to somebody somewhere❤❤
My best friend is incredibly Sцcidal… like me, he keeps saying he won’t k!ll himself for another year or 2, he keeps telling me he’s gonna, he keeps telling me that it’s gonna happen and the thought of the only person who’s ever made me comfortable in who I am as a person is dead, and I couldn’t stop it, the moment I heard there’d be a knife to my wrist… I love him so much, and if he ever left, I’d want to be with him… forever
this reminds me of when one of my best friends called to check up on to see what i was doin (not knowing what was going on) at last moment, then stopped and then we played FN and COD for that rest of the day. So if it wasn't for him, i'd be gone since 2022, then that best friend became a brotha. Thank u so much Clyde, luv u man..❤️❤️
This is the one thing I am afraid of. If someone I knew was going to commit, I would be one of the first people to try and get them to stop. But there is only so much I can do online and it scares me to one day wake up and find one of them gone. I hope you all are doing well
I feel like the worst feeling in the world is hurting the one person you love most in the world because then you won’t have anyone. Anyways hope y’all have a good day and eat and drink water and (try) and get sleep, have a nice day, and you’ll get better eventually! 👍🙂
This is why I won't ever do it.
I wouldn't ever want anyone to feel that they messed up and didn't see the signs.
I love you M.
I was 10 at the time, she had texted me that she loved me. I went to her house to find her window broken. And a rope tied to her bed post. She had jumped from the window. She was only 13.
A few years ago, I was in and out of the mental hospital. Having many failed attempts. I didn't know how to ask for comfort and open up, so I just stayed quiet about it. After a while, everyone stopped helping me. They had all given up on me. I had to decide then and there if I really was going to go through with it. In the end, I didn't want to leave my ferrets...I told myself "they won't know... they will just wonder where I ever went.. and what about my twin? He can't do this all by himself." To this day I'm terrible about being honest with my feelings due to not wanting people to think I'm a bother, or to just give up on me. I sometimes wish I was a bit more supported, I guess I was, but people just giving up on me made everything worse for a while.
the songs in this playlist are so gut-wrenching and so perfect.
Im not complaining but just want to type my thoughts out. My friend was a really cool guy that actually cares about other people and becoming better. Then he went through some stuff and everything changed. He stopped caring. I miss the old him. My brother. Just wanted to vent that out into words. Remember appreciate everything you have and always be grateful, I'm grateful that our friendship even happened. Life is great, much love to all!
are u okay that he changed on u dude?
@@olsadsh Yeah, I'm doing just fine, but I wish that he was still apart of it, you know? Appreciate you asking.
I remember a time when I sat down after playing a game, I looked at my hands then I reflected on life, and I said “what is life really about there has there has to be more to this world, right?”
You ever play with your online buddy and the last words was, it’s getting late I’ll see you tomorrow,ok bye, you get back on but it’s not your friend it’s your friends dad 😢❤
I would rather have the world hate me and i love myself than have the world love me and i hate myself - Suicidal person
But what can i do now, it really doesnt matter if my parents love me, if my sister loves me, if my friends love me, if my classmates love me, if my church friends love me or even if God loves me.... Because i really hate myself and wish that i could find a reason to die and not have everyone feel bad and sad.
Back then i told her i didnt care and i never liked her. Its true because deep down, i loved her sooo much more than anything. And i still do.
The other person inside me is winning. He's like the tyler durden i never had but needed only for awhile. But now he's destroying me. Now i just want a reason to die. He's always asking me whether me not existing is better whenever i make a mistake or just mess up badly. He never ever comforts me or sweet talk. Instead he curses me, put in bad thoughts in my head, manipulate me. Its like having bipolar disorder and split personality disorder at the same time. But now that i think about it.... Is it really this "Tyler Durden" that's hurting me... Or am i just hurting myself...
Now i even turned away from God. I didn't care anymore whether i died or not. I just wanted everyone else to be happy.
I think she commented but idk and do t think I’ll ever know. I might have known her for a few months and she was suicidal. She would send me pictures of -Sh- then one day her parents made it so she had to delete everything. I was her last hope because if she is alive she’s in a new school with no one. I really miss her…
the night i tried to kms was the worst night of my life. i sent my friends a message saying thanks for everything and they came rushing to my home and saved me from hanging myself. i’ve never been closer to ppl bc of how much i’ve been manipulated and hurt but these 4ppl saved my life and are my reasons to keep going and live. their like another family to me and i’m planing on living with one bc i grew so close to him i fell in love with him. he saved me the most and we’ve been together 11months❤i love them all.
My brother is going to war and im scared cause ive never been away from him ☹️😞
I’ve felt suicidal too many times before. It’s always because I’m trying to find love and I can’t seem to find it properly or I just mess everything up so badly. If it wasn’t for all the new friends I made I wouldn’t be here. But I also started taking on religion and things have been getting better, I don’t think it’s a coincidence. ❤️🙏
i was just balling my eyes out over my best friend being gone. miss ya slipp and for some reason this playlist is calming me down yet still tears falling from my eyes, i miss u so much slipp wish i knew u were very happy before dying💔😢
Its been 5 months since my last attempt my bestfriend of 7 years helped me through it all I couldn't ask for a better friend then him we were on call for 2 hours straight and I remember him begging me to stay I will never forget him for as long as I live
A few years ago, I was stuck an a verbally abusive relationship with someone who I dearly loved and wanted to help. The abuse came in many different ways. She would be clingy or possessive at me during some days, and then would completely ghost me for a long period of time without me knowing why. I remember there was a time period where I hated her guts, but I didn't understand why I did. It wasn't until almost two years ago when I read a story about abuse and then I had the horrific realization about how similar the abuser in the story was to the person who I considered to be a friend. No words can describe the amount of hurt and betrayal I felt.
I remember going to the bathroom afterwards because I felt so nauseous. It's been a few years since I last saw her. I can't say that I despise her. I want what's best for her, but I hope that we'll never see each other again. And last I've heard, she moved out of the state where I'm from. So hopefully we won't have to cross paths again anytime soon.
'I WANT TO DIE' the first letter of each song. You alright bud?..
@@unorivers no need to worry all good
@@RoramZO alright :)
Attempted abt a year ago. It was just off my last year at high school (I’m from UK so I was 16). I’d spent 5 years leading up to my GCSE’s (final exams) and hadn’t thought at all what to do after. I was without a purpose. I got a gym membership but that only solved the problem for one hour a day. I also have strict parents who rarely let me go out with friends so I was stuck home most days. I don’t really blame them bc I realise now that I have maybe 7-8 real friends and the rest weren’t really my friends - I thought I had like 20 but most were just acquaintances. As a child from around 6-11 I had bad temper issues. I would be violent and take it out on my younger siblings and worst of all my mum. Eventually I came to my senses and stopped. When that stopped, I began to hate myself and feel guilty. Self hatred followed along the way as I remember some days when I couldn’t look at myself. My mum and I don’t have a very close relationship and im pretty sure that’s the reason why. I caused that. I think that if I was a better kid, I’d have had a better relationship with mum. Maybe it’s bc of this relationship but I have a hard time trusting people and I always feel like people around me don’t like me and I feel like some hate me but I’m never fully sure.I always knew through high school from around year 9 that I wasn’t happy. To fill in the gap I was the funny man, always made jokes. I threw myself into school. In that summer I couldn’t really do that. So I was left for the first time I had to be real with myself. And the loneliness came to a head one day and I was sat at home alone when my mum had gone out during the day. Held a knife to my neck, building up the courage to do it until I heard the door unlock and put it away. Went to college (not the same thing in America 😂😂) and experienced my first rejection so that’s lovely lol. Idk if I’ve healed yet bc I go back and forth from time to time but I’m trying. ❤
i wish my family would understand me, im tired of feeling this way.
my friends stoped me from suicide multiple times right now im crying as im writing this. my girlfriend the only person who i thought truly loved me ended my happiness. im so thankful for my friends i love them so much
I wish all of u well todays my birthday and no one has even noticed no one ever does.. but I hope you all know I appreciate every single person
Hey Happy Birthday ik im late but hope your day was great
I was about to take my life but then i realized how many people it would affect in a negative way. My friend probably would of been in one of these comment sections talking about me
2020-my friend a good mate commited..he was a type of friend that would never get angry or get into arguments with you..I was on call trying to get him to not commit but he said and I quote; no matter what happens I’ll be in ur heart forever.buy it’s too painful to deal with parents fighting,drunk dad, it just hurts…) rest in peace..you’re in a better place now..rest your mind and remember the happy memories that we made for the past years thank you for making me happy once again when I was upset or nervous for things u made me feel like I over myself thank you for that..
Just a friendly reminder to anybody who may be struggling today:
You are doing great! You've made it so far, and I know that you'll be able to get even further! If you fail, all you need to do is get right back up and keep going, it doesn't matter how many times you fall.
There is always someone waiting for you on the horizon of tomorrow, even if you feel alone. You are loved, you are needed, and you are wanted.
If you're thinking of giving up, don't! Look around you and see how many bright colors are around you, and if you can't see them yet, know that you'll see them soon. All you have to do is look, and the world will give them right to you!
You might be fighting today, but tomorrow maybe you'll be able to sit down and say "I'm glad I kept going."
Your story doesn't end with an " I give up."
It will always end with a "What's next?"
So keep going, and find your next adventure. Maybe you'll find more than just treasure at the end of this road. Maybe you'll find friends and family you would have never expected! You'll grow and learn how to help the people around you! And most importantly, you'll have found what it means to be you, to be yourself, and how to be the best version of you, the one that you love the most.
So keep going, keep fighting, until there's nothing left to fight and you can sail on in a bright world full of amazing people that both you and the world chose.
Be you. Because you are loved, you are needed, and you are wanted here. And there is so much left here for you to experience and learn to love 😊
I - I don’t know anymore… what to do, and if I did how I would do it. Guys I’ve done it. I’m finally numb so I cant feel sad, but also can’t feel happy.
Same dude
My best friend was my siamese cat i came home from school with bike saw my brother digging a hole i didnt know what happened i gone inside the house called my cat ''Siimi!' 3 times nothing.. my brother came inside the house with his gf i told him 'wheres siimi' he started to cry and i just realized it was it i didnt find the last moments with my cat he had cancer i wished he was longer with me i wanted to spend the last moments with him i was late i was crying all night and day i gone to school with red eyes still having tears everyone was confused why was i crying, now i have a mainecoon cat.. though i wanted a siamese..
On one summer day I was in such a bad depression state that my family forced me to go to the pool. The whole time I was silent, not smiling which was unlikely of me. I even tried drowning myself but my brother didn't let me. Soon after, my parents said we'd walk to the gas station for ice cream. We walked on a very busy street. Cars non-stop and fast. My family stayed on the sidewalk as I got closer to the street. My brother would pull me to the sidewalk and hold onto me as we continued to walk. "Do you want to die?" My brother asked me with an awkward laugh, I did not answer. I still tried to get hit by cars even once we got to the gas station one was backing up and I didn't want to move until my parents yelled at me to and my brother pulled me away once again. This continued on the walk back too. I recently went back on that same walk, just me and my mom. The memories hit me like a brick but I didn't do anything, not this time.
I'm better now, yes. But sometimes life is still a struggle. I don't think I'm ready for school to start again.
SH is a habit I have, only sometimes. Depression started for me at around 11 years old and I'm bringing it to 14. Anxiety i also struggle with and ADD, it not a good mix. Another problem is i don't open up. I don't know who I can to. I'm always there for others, they'd re pay me the same. Would they?
I don't even know if I told anyone this story and I haven't told anyone about my SH either.
Even when life gets hard, prove you're stronger than it. Yes, everyone dies at some point but same does depression. It. Just. Takes. Time. Life isn't worth ending, good days so come. (Song suggestion: Dear depression,) You're doing great everyone and sorry for all those who lost someone. Stay strong!
"I am that friend"
I tried to off myself not to long ago my family found out now I have therapy and I use to vape to get rid of the pain but they never found out I did SH and I have an ED and my close friend only knows about it because he is going through the same thing I remmber him telling me "you die I die" so I don't plain on trying to off myself ever again (I am better now but I'm still so young)
And I just got out of an abusive home my grandfather whould yell out hit me and I whould starve to death because my mother wouldn't buy food but I still love my mom and we are on good terms (love you mom)
Meu pai um dia me chamou pra da uma volta na praia, conversamos como nunca antes, brincamos como nunca antes, realmente me senti numa relação de pai e filho, dançamos, corremos, pulamos e a gente ria muito, a gente sempre foi meio abobado mas nunca muito proximos por contas de conflitos de separação e outras coisas, nunca avia dado valor ao meu pai como nas quelas semanas, um dia ele me chamo para conversarmos so que foi diferente, ele dizia coisas sobre a vida e falava como tinha seus altos e baixos e como era difícil mas ele disse pra eu nunca me preucupar pois se eu lutasse eu conseguiria superar tudo, nesse dia conversamos e rimos muito tambem na outra semana vi ele mais uma vez dançando e brincando comigo e com meus irmaos, na semana seguinte ele avia morrido por conta de um infarto, nunca consegui aproveitar meu pai verdadeiramente e me sinto culpado por isso ate hoje, queria ter lhe aproveitado mais, eu espero que ele esteja bem de onde ele estiver eu te amo pai♡
I dont ever wanna experience these stuffs as seeing these and peoples life thoroughly makes me feel empathetic and leaves me telling myself life is cruel to many without a reason. For that reason i always try to be here for the people im with acknowledging their presence and efforts, admiring, complimenting them to let them know im here for them. Its really nice to hear people laugh and smile. It warms my heart.
My best friend killed herself Halloween of 2021. I could’ve save her.
I have tried many times to see the good side of life...but always when I make mistakes or everything is pointless, we come to the conclusion that you can hate people the most but you also love...
Have my like friend, life sucks, you just gotta find the people to make it worth while :)
i remember when my aunt took me and my sister to a birthday party and my sister didn't really understand that one of the presents wasn't her's and my aunt took us home and yelled at her and hit her really hard and i could only hear from upstairs so then i ran downstairs and hugged her in bed and she cried so hard she fell asleep with her tears on me. i want to confront my aunt but i never got the courage to. i wish that never happened. she was so young and she didn't understand.
No matter how many time I actually saved my friends, every one of them leaves calling me a “pick me b**ch” because of how I behave with boys (Daddy issues, tysm my “favorite” father😸), so.. I don't think I need to save anyone anymore. anyone who's not that special for me. I'm tired of helping for nothing. LIKE, C'MON I SAVED YOUR LIFE I DON'T NEED THAT “thanks..”, EVEN I'M SQUEEZING IT OUT OF YOU, I WANT SOMETHING MORE, AT LEAST FIRST MESSAGE IN THE MORNING FROM YOU. I'm tired of helping people for just “thanks”. I don't even want to hear it anymore. when I was that friend who was about to kill themselves, NO ONE CARES, and those friends who was saved by me JUST IGNORES ME, and one texted “Do it, I want to spend this evening on my own”. DUDE YOU ARE ALWAYS SPENDING TIME ON YOUR OWN, AND YOU SAID THAT I'M SPECIAL FOR YOU.. WTF...
i dont remember much about it but all i can remember is coming over to his house and i remember he went upstairs but i went to watch tv or something but after a few seconds i decided to get up and also go upstares to see him in his room ready to hang himself, the most clear thing i can remember is when he made eye contact with me and all i can see is the life drain from his eyes while i was frozen still, that does keep me up at night, why did i freeze? why didnt i help? my "friends" beat me up about it saying i was there so i should of helped, later that year i also tried to overdose but failed and ended up in the psych ward for 11 months and after i got released i was on suicide watch for a few weeks or months my memory is foggy, i do miss you a lot man but why did you have to leave so soon? im sorry that i couldnt help you like how i wish i could thats all i can say, im sorry that i didnt do anything
I know after experiencing a situation like that, people tend to blame themselves. But I can PROMISE you, it wasn’t your fault man ❤ always remember that
The title made me remember of my very close friend wanted to commit by jumping off his roof so me and M (the first letter of the other friends name) tried convincing him not to jump. Luckily he didnt commit and he still talks to me now and again. The thing I’m glad about is that we were so important that we convinced him not to kill himself and thats all that matters because he is still alive
I want to do it, but don't want to leave him. He's in another country and if I did it he wouldn't know for maybe a day or two. A part of me thinks he won't care and another part tells me he will. It's just been way worse recently and I don't know why. I can't tell anyone though, outside of jokes. I just wanna yell at him, tell him he doesn't care about me, never did, never wants to see me again. I know it's not true but it hurts when he tells me he's not gonna come back for a while. I'll only get to see him next year, not even at the summer. I want him to live his life and be happy, he deserves it. That doesn't mean I'm not sad though. I obviously feel guilty for being like this, being so hard, not talking to anyone about anything. Even when I try it doesn't go well at all. I just shouldn't bother. I want to make everyone hate me just so I can die knowing they won't be hurt by it. I love everyone around me and don't want them to be hurt by this. I've saved 2 people's lives, maybe it's time for mine to be saved too. I wish anybody cared that much. I get told they do but I just can't believe it. I was in an extremely toxic friendship for 7 years and you dotn break out of those thought patters easily. I wanna relapse so bad but I know the reprocussions wouldn't be worth it. Fuck it I'll live for another day.
Until tomorrow 💕
4 years ago i had a friend who killed himself because he didnt like the way he lived, he told me it was like living in a cycle the same thing happening day after day, 4 years ago i lost the greatest friend i ever had i still miss him maybe soon ill reunite with him
Am sobbing I lost my friend rip my love…
bro i really told her not to, she just did it, i miss her, i hope shes okay on the other said
lost my bsf june 18 last year. miss u liu
I have no friends that I really regret not saving but I regret the lies I've made, I regret lying to them I wish I hadn't, I wish I could tell them everything was a lie I dont deserve anything or anyone I have I want to go back and take back those lies maybe then I would feel free from this pressure, maybe I'll be free enough from life, slowly but surely I'm becoming the friend everyone is gonna wish they were able to save and they won't know what bad person I am, usually I give positive comments to everyone out there who sees my comments but life is so rough right now it's so hard to smile and mean it, I'm sorry for my small vent or whatever you would call this, i hope whoever is reading this is free from all the pain and guilt life can provide I love you all.
I fear I will become that friend.
Trust in the Process man, there's always another up in the Russian Mountain
This hurt, I miss you james, always my #1 buddy. Sorry I couldn’t heal your pain.
I remember once when me nd my ex were still dating i was breaking down sobbing and texting my friend i wanted to end it she had told my ex tht i wanted to end it he texted me wht was wrogn i told him everything and he told me how much he loved me and saved me but then broke up with not that long after for tht same reason. i loved him so much yet he js broke up with me at my lowest.
I remember a time that I almost never woke up because I ate an entire bottle of sleeping medicine i still can't forget but all i can remember of thinking then was "we already are destroying our home why stay for the ending "
I feel so alone.
I'm here stranger.
I remember getting the hints. The "hey! Wanna have this, this and this?" And I was confused and they insisted. I remember late at night receiving a text out of the blue. "I'm sorry. I love you!" From my girlfriend. She didn't do it. But said they will try again soon. I don't know when. But ever since then, I've been talking to her a lot more. To show her I care. To let her know I love her. What if next time it doesn't fail....?
I'm so scared if that ever happens to any of my friends.
I'm thinking about becoming that friend.
Desde la gente que habla español hasta la que no :) (If you speak English, just translate it, okay? I promise everything will be fine, and if it makes you happy you can ignore, I really appreciate you, person reading this)
A la persona que lea esto
Ha sido duro para ti, lo sé, y me entristece que no te veas a ti mismo de la forma en que yo te veo. A veces hay cosas en la vida que nos hacen perdernos a nosotros mismos. Echo de menos tu sonrisa, la forma en que tus ojos iluminan toda la habitación con solo el brillo de tu risa. Echo de menos cuando te mirabas al espejo y te sentías bien con lo que veías. Echo de menos cuando estabas orgulloso/a de ti, porque todo el mundo comete errores, todos tenemos defectos y no somos perfectos. Es doloroso ver que nadie a tu alrededor parece ver el dolor a través de tus ojos, pero, extrañamente, yo sí, veo el peso que representa tu corazón y tristeza para ti. Es el miedo, ¿verdad?
No sabes el impacto que tienes en este mundo y es triste ver que tus demonios luchan contra ti y quieren apoderarse de ti. Con el gesto más pequeño puedes iluminar el día de alguien, puede ser una pequeña sonrisa de tus labios, la forma de mirar las cosas que te apasionan, la forma de alejarse e ir en tu propio mundo, tú alegras mi mundo al leer esto, significa mucho para mí que estés aquí, existiendo, pero no quiero que sólo existas, mereces sentirte vivo/a. Mereces levantarte por la mañana y sentirte bien contigo mismo/a. Te mereces sentir algo, sentirte cada maldito segundo vivo/a en esta vida. Es desgarrador que pienses que no eres capaz de ser amado, porque lo eres, te amo a través de todas mis palabras y espero que lo dejes pasar en tu corazón. El amor da miedo, lo sé, tal vez te rompieron el corazón una vez y desde entonces quisiste estar más bien adormecido que sentir nunca más, me duele cómo te castigas, ¿acaso no mereces amor? Porque TÚ SÍ mereces amor, por favor perdónate, no es tu culpa que los demonios quieran apoderarse de tu hermoso corazón. No eres una mala persona por distanciarte de los demás, pero mereces alguien con quien hablar, mereces alguien que te escuche.
Te escucho, puedes decirme qué te pasa. Es todo, ¿no? Hay algo que te tira de la fibra del corazón en el suelo y nadie parece entender lo incomprendida/o que te sientes, es desgarrador saber que estoy detrás de la pantalla y no puedo darte un abrazo, por eso te daré un gran y cálido abrazo virtual y te enviaré mucho amor :). Tú importas. Eres digno/a. Eres amado/a. Te mereces cosas buenas. Mereces que alguien te escuche. Mereces comer y beber. Te mereces sentirte bien y vivo/a. Te mereces una sonrisa. Te mereces un abrazo. Te mereces ser todo lo que quieres ser, porque te mereces tener y sentir que te pasan cosas buenas y llevar una vida plena. Me importas mucho, escribo esto porque quiero que te quedes aquí conmigo, quiero que aguantes un poco más, porque no voy a dejar que te rindas. Quiero que veas que no debes renunciar a ti mismo/a porque mereces cosas buenas. Quiero que mires hacia atrás, cuando eras un niño/a, no te rendiste cuando intentaste nadar por primera vez, no te rendiste cuando te cansaste de caminar por primera vez y te caíste, nunca te rendiste, siempre seguiste empujando hacia adelante, así que ¿por qué no puedes hacerlo ahora? Sé que es agotador, que estás cansado/a mentalmente, pero ¿acaso tu yo más joven no se merece cosas buenas? mira hacia atrás a tus ojos que solían estar llenos de esperanza, mira hacia atrás esos sueños.
No te dejes caer, te mereces algo mejor. Ambos lucharemos, somos un equipo. No dejaré que esos demonios te afecten. Puedes aferrarte a mí, no te dejaré caer :). Cuando te sientas solo/a, entonces mira al cielo, la luna y las estrellas, yo siempre lo miro y pienso en ti. Sí, en ti, porque me hace feliz que haya alguien luchando por sobrepasar cada pequeña prueba que se le presente, tal vez no podamos vernos pero puedo sentir tu presencia aquí conmigo y eso es suficiente para mí, porque me alegra que tu corazón esté latiendo y que sigas luchando. Eres mucho más fuerte de lo que crees, no dejaste tu lugar en esta tierra aunque quisieras, perteneces a este lugar, aunque no lo sientas así, cuando no tengas ganas de pertenecer piensa en ti como una estrella, cuando te sientas solo/a, brillas porque tu corazón es bueno, no importa el error que hayas cometido, no importa el pasado que hayas tenido, eres una de las estrellas que brillan en el universo porque tu corazón es hermoso, por eso los demonios de tu mente quieren tenerlo.
Como una de las estrellas ves a otras estrellas, tal vez han sentido lo mismo que tú en algún momento de su vida, pero iluminan el universo con su presencia. Tu eres una estrella para mi, tal vez tu no lo veas pero yo si lo veo, eres hermosa/o por dentro y por fuera, tu cuerpo es hermoso como es. Me haces feliz al leer esto, me haces sentir algo con tu presencia y cuando puedes hacerme sentir así, también haces que otras personas se sientan así contigo. Espero que te quedes por ti mismo y no dejes que tu historia sea escrita por otros sino por ti mismo, es tu historia, no la de ellos. Como ves, digo muchos "espero" porque tengo esperanza por ti aunque tú no la tengas por ti misma/o, veo esperanza en ti aunque quieras rendirte. Por eso espero que no veas el mundo en tinieblas y lo veas colorido de nuevo, espero que te dé un atisbo de esperanza y haga que el mundo que ves sea un poco colorido por hoy. Me gusta la luna, y espero que la próxima vez la veas pienses en mis palabras. Si alguien te dejó, no te culpes, no pienses que no eras suficiente, no te rebajes por alguien que no pudo ver lo maravilloso que hay en ti. Si perdiste a alguien siento mucho tu pérdida, ellos quieren que seas feliz, espero que no te sientas culpable o arrepentida/o, porque estuviste ahí, pasaste bastante tiempo con ellos, ellos quieren que seas feliz. Ahora están en un lugar mejor y seguro. Cualquiera que consiga estar contigo, no sabe lo jodidamente afortunado/a que es. Si no eres aceptada/o en tu casa o en general, siento mucho que tengas que lidiar con alguien/algo de lo que no deberías avergonzarte, yo te acepto y te apoyo, te acepto como ser humano sin importar tu raza, religión, nacionalidad, color de piel o sexualidad. Estás a salvo aquí conmigo :). No eres inútil, no eres una carga para nadie. No eres un problema, eres humano/a y tus sentimientos son válidos. No estás siendo dramática/o. Por favor, no te mates de hambre, estrés, ansiedad, rabia e ira, sé que es duro. Me duele ver que tienes tanto dolor :( te mereces mucho, no dejes que tus emociones te controlen. No dejes que te superen. Siento que nadie se dé cuenta, ojalá /espero poder quitarte el dolor por hoy o incluso por un momento mientras lees esto. Si nadie te lo ha dicho, estoy muy orgulloso de ti, estás leyendo esto y me basta con estar orgulloso de ti porque estás aquí y eso es lo único que me importa. Si es de noche para ti, vete a dormir, sé que es difícil conciliar el sueño ahora mismo pero te mereces un buen sueño. Si tienes pesadillas, por favor, no dejes que se te resistan. Si es el día para ti, no lo empieces con esa música tan triste, sé que es imposible tener un buen día con esa mentalidad pero da pasos de bebé, empieza por beber dos vasos de agua todos los días por la mañana y así sucesivamente. Empezarás a crear pequeños hábitos saludables. Si es de noche para ti, probablemente estés abrumado/a y estresado/a, quiero que sepas que está bien sentirse como te sientes. Es importante que sepas que cuando te sientas así debes cuidarte un poco, como por ejemplo, tomar un baño... Te mereces sentirte a gusto y relajado/a.
Y si estás en un punto intermedio espero que sepas que eres muy fuerte para respirar a pesar del dolor, sé que lo lograrás :) Creo en ti. Todo lo que quiero para ti es que te quedes aquí, de verdad que todas mis palabras van en serio, aunque haya muchas cosas sin decir que quiero decirte y mi escrito sea cada vez más largo, te quiero aquí.
Espero que un día tu sonrisa se convierta en una genuina donde no necesites fingir más, porque no puedo decir esto lo suficiente, te mereces sentirte viva/o. Vales más que cualquier maldito centavo en este mundo.
Puedes soltarte por hoy, te tengo, puedes llorar a mares todo lo que quieras, pero no dejes que te destroce y que tus emociones te controlen rindiéndote. Llorar no es una debilidad. Si aún te sientes sola te dedico una canción como amigo.
"Dusk till Dawn" - Zayn feat. Sia (prefiero la versión lenta)" Espero que puedas pensar en mí y te acuerdes de mis palabras, yo seguro que pensaré en ti.
En caso de que nadie te lo haya dicho y no estés seguro de ti mismo/a, eres una buena persona y me alegro mucho de que estés aquí.
Espero que esto sea suficiente para quedarte hoy, mañana será un nuevo día, un nuevo comienzo, déjate llevar ahora. Basta ya de machacarte por hoy, ¿vale?
Vida para los que no pudieron, sonrisa para los que olvidaron lo que es una sonrisa genuina, amor como no hay otro, abrazo como si fuera el último.♡
Thanks i needed that 😢❤
Everytime I'm starting to get my shit together one of my friends becomes suicidal and I help them but it throws me so out of my plan mentally that I feel like shit again lol
i remember getting the hints 'hey do you want my bracelet? i think it suits you well' i never thought much about it till the night they attempted, luckily, police got there in time but im still scared
My friends have saved me from committing in the girls toilets. Thanks guys. You helped with multiple things I’m suffering/going through!
I almost 💀 myself in April of 2024 because I was getting tired of everything and I just wanted to leave so bad, luckily my friends stayed with me the whole time and we messaged on Roblox and they got me out of 💀 myself, I am so thankful for them and the only reason I’m still here is to protect them
POV: Your about to be on the opposite side "you tried your best to stop your friend but couldn't" 😟
I miss my childhood friend...she died from corona virus and I didn't even say goodbye to her...
although this has never happened to me, my best friend betrayed me without getting into it as i dont wanna yap to much, i knew her for six years, and in june i found out she was still in contact with someone who used me and was just toxic, ever since then my mental health is dog shit and, for the first time in a long while i did sh, i did it since im so detached from my emotions and for a few minutes i just want to stop worrying about if ill wake up and just want to end it, as life in general is hard when someone has done that to you, and what sucks the most is a close friend and my brother now whats going on and it feels like they done nothing i feel like im the only one suffering. I want my best friend to suffer or at least feel what im going through and she cant i hate her sm
To all of the people who sees this im sorry for all of this
just dwelling on that sad train lets gaurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr