I think we should talk..... This isn't easy.
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- čas přidán 28. 04. 2024
- I apologize for this video's 'random' nature, I wasn't really capable of focusing my brain.
Before I go on to give a brief summary, Here are those important links;
Gofundme - gofund.me/bd6173ad
Wishlist - throne.com/adcartattack
LiveStreams - / adcartattack
Apologies if I've forgotten any links.
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Summary;
A few years back an 'accountant' listed my career incorrectly with a lack of understanding of my profession.
I became 'during this time' very successful (Overnight), Leading to high earnings, where I chose to live within my means, budget/pay applicable tax rates, move home, fund a wedding etc...
It was later (years) discovered to have been incorrectly declared and after MULTIPLE attempts, my 'new' tax was decided leading to an overwhelming 'owed' balance (Pending and owed). Including, at the time, not yet (Current) filed, plus future tax differences, not budgeted for.
This meant I was WILDLY in 'debt' for 'money to be owed'.
Since then, I've been dreading the day the bill arrives. (Explained further in the link).
I now pay ALL applicable, and timely. Though I have fallen short and behind due to being unable and 'bled dry'. I am proactively seeking a new Accountant and hopefully with all the help received, when that/those bills come due, I can pay, without a HUGE consequence.
I am afraid. I am scared.. For 2 years I've been waiting on everything. I live in fear. While also managing FUTURE payments as well as past.
Beyond the finance, the mental pain it causes, I cry in bed MOST nights. I lost so much as a result. I've been a different person, and I've been afraid I'll never see ANTHONY again. My spontaneous emotional shifts have lead me to drink to sleep, caused me to stay awake on 'auto pilot' for 30+ hours at a time. I've even passed out MULTIPLE times at my desk. Collapsed twice, and worried about lack of eating in order to 'save money, and ensure the money is in the bank when the letter comes'.
Any ways, that is the breakdown lol.
I'm sorry. - Zábava
Hey all - If you would like a detailed description of the issue and/or to support Please read the description or check the links here;
Gofundme - gofund.me/bd6173ad
Wishlist - throne.com/adcartattack
Some information was 'watered down' and I left parts out, because I am still afraid and I still don't have full courage/confidence in talking about things. Even thinking about it make's me feel sick.
I will try and respond to all comments. But I may 'hide' for a while when this goes live.
Note - I am typing this suffering an anxiety attack due to sharing this... bare with me. I'm sorry.
I don't know. You seem pretty courageous to me. It took a lot for you to sit down and record this. I have a lot of respect for you doing this. You're an amazing talent, and come off as an equally awesome person!
Stay strong, you'll make it through this! 👍
You are a great guy. You can talk about emotions, that is a very important skill.
Take care.
Keep your head up
@@Celerott I agree 100% even considering making a video, opening up like this, is very courageous. It takes a big person to admit when they are struggling, financially, emotionally, or otherwise. I have always had respect for ADC, but even more so after ADC's past few videos.
Anthony I remember in 2017-2019 I was in a dark place based on my housing association fee stealing money from my housing unit and it I was in university completing my masters and my housing costs doubled in the middle of my program. Depression made it hard for me to even look at the mail. Thank you for sharing and just know others care. I sent you a donation and pray God will heal you from your mental health struggles ❤️ He healed me from years of fear, depression, and anxiety & now I am in a place of peace. Everything isn’t perfect but I am content and thriving
Am I the only one who wishes they could give Anthony a big hug and let him know how many people care about him?
Not at all! ❤
Me too to be honest ❤❤😢😢
Me too!
Dear Anthony, I hope you read this: You are safe here, with us and I know that everyday struggle I know best how hard it is to safe FUCK I FEEL SO LONESOME AROUND EVERYONE ! But we are still here, and we love you and speaking for myself, dont apologize for struggling with your mental health, we dont blame and no one should juge. My puppy and I are sending you big hugs
:) I really am feeling the love from everyone today. I never expected all this!!!
Thank you so much. ❤
Hey Anthony my name is Ty and I am an at-risk mental health counselor in Louisville Kentucky I mostly work with kids 5 to 18. And I want to tell you this hearing and seeing what you're going through while still making the content that you do that you have made is truly amazing and I am very proud of you. When you say it's not our responsibility to help you I have to be honest you're wrong. You bring joy to the masses you help me heal my kids through ART. It is our responsibility to take care of our friends and our family. And you sir are definitely family. Anytime you need to talk just let us know let us know. We got you. We are here for you. Thank you
Oh my goodness!!! This was actually incredibly heart warming to read!!!!
Ayyyy another Kentuckian! My homestate!
Stay strong, you are not alone! 🙏❤
You are an inspiration to everyone lucky enough to know you or discover your videos. You are a genuine person and I am happy to try to help you in anyway I can. Like the rest of your online family I am always willing to support and listen to you 🙏
D W Court.
@@ADCArtAttackhey man you can ask for help any time and you should that’s the least we could for all you have done for alllll of us and it’s fine if you break down some times it’s good to let it all out love you man stay safe❤ I can’t express how bad I feel for you I’m only 11 and I have went through depression with family stuff but I can’t imagine how hard it is for you .but it really helps when you ask for help❤God bless you❤
My little girl is one of the kids you have inspired to draw. I tagged you in her artwork (kerby in 8 different styles) a couple of weeks ago and you actually shared it on Instagram and replied via message. She was so happy and excited that she has not stopped drawing since. You are absolutely not alone and for every bit of joy you feel from inspiring someone, your fans feel that same joy from watching you. Asking for help is the biggest strength in these situations, not a weakness. Remember. Its ok to feel sad, stressed anxious etc. But we dont live there. Feel your feelings. Good and bad. And then use them as a superpower. You are a warrior in a boss battle and by speaking out have assembled an army. Much love to you ❤️
Well said. Glad your daughter has began a successful art career ❤. Sending love and success to you.
I remember hearing that a closed mouth doesn’t get fed. Please ask. You have no idea who can help, and whom *you’ve* helped that would be willing to offer the same in kind. People will help AND you will be ok.
We are all in this crazy mess together. You will be supported by many people that care and want to help. 💖. Blessings, you.
You're amazing!! That quote is inspiring!
I've always felt an overwhelming NEED to 'provide' or 'help myself'. It's my biggest flaw. I overwork, I neglected my family to chase a career goal. I dont know where I got it, or why. But I'm learning, it's OKAY to ask for help, not only financial, but mentally.
I wouldn't have done as much damage if I had just spoken about my mind more.
@@ADCArtAttackdit klopt helemaal… ik geef niet snel een reactie maar bij deze wil ik het toch even kwijt… ik kijk al een poosje naar je video’s en vind je een geweldig artiest … maar door dit soort video’s zie je ook de ECHTE mens achter die artiest … jij lijkt zoveel op mijn oudste zoon van 22 en daarom wil ik ook even reageren … hij heeft een deel van jouw problemen ( ook nog andere ) en inderdaad niets gezegd hebben op tijd hebben er inderdaad voor gezorgd dat het nu erger is als dat hij dit eerder wel had gezegd 😢 … maar hij heeft ook de moed gehad en ingezien dat hij hulp moet vragen en accepteren… dat hij zijn fouten moet inzien maar hier ook uit moet leren! … hij heeft nu eindelijk , iets voor kerstmis de stap gezet om aan echte hulpverleners raad en hulp te vragen en heeft zich vrijwillig laten opnemen , wat een erg moeilijke maar erg moedige ( en nodige ) stap was voor zo een jonge man ! Ik hoop echt dat jij ook de nodige hulp zoekt en krijgt zodat je je beter in je vel voelt ❤ zoals ik altijd tegen mijn zoon zeg “ behandel mensen zoals jij wil behandeld worden , doe niets dat je zelf niet graag hebt en vooral leer uit je fouten en gebruik die om beter te doen de volgende keer ! EN PROBEER TE PRATEN,PRATEN,PRATEN… dit is zo nodig en de eerste stap in de goede richting ( maar moeilijk voor heel veel mensen !) je komt er wel en ik wil nog even zeggen ik ben trots op jouw dat je dit durft te vertellen op CZcams aan al die mensen … en dat ik s al een heel grote stap in de goede richting ! Wens je nog veel geluk en een dikke knuffel vanuit België ❤
@ADCArtAttack i can understand I'm bi-polar have ,depression and anxiety ,odd. I love making digital art.
Thank you for posting this ❤️ Everyone knows it isn't easy to be vulnerable, even with close family and friends, much less to the Internet. I know I subscribe for the PERSON behind the videos, not just the content. I'm glad your community has been able to circle the wagons some and help in some way.
Something I've learned from my friend Jazza (here on CZcams). It's okay to be publicly open about our mental health. He has a larger platform but hasn't hidden himself. He has exposed himself emotionally.
It's inspiring. Because as a creator myself, the more followers I gained, the bigger weight I felt... and I was more afraid of judgement.
You, and the community as a whole are amazing!!! I'm still shaking, but reading these comments are helping me!!
Dear Anthony, we love you. Thank you for being vulnerable and so open with us, I know it is not easy. As a person who has been dealing with anxiety and depression my whole life, I totally understand. Take your time.. Love you, Anthony!
Thank you so much!!
A lot of Robin Williams' quotes come to mind here. A therapist told me that a lot of the time the front you show is how you wish you were. It's part of the escapism as well. Tbh as a fellow artist (also making a comic) I deal with a lot of similar issues (especially with being vulnerable) and it takes a lot to tell people what you're going through. Spending time with your means of escapism is great, but it's also really important to spend some time dealing with the reality too, and it's great to see someone I look up to acknowledging that life isn't perfect. Some times we all need a little help. I really hope that things get better for you soon.
I’ll say this, your tutelage has inspired me to go from the pencil to the ink. I understand and emphasize with your struggle(s). I’ve recently agreed with my wife to start seeking help for my mental health. “If it’s not hard, it not worth it. Things easily obtained are easily lost.” Take care of yourself, then your family, then everything else. You are an inspiration, true enough in my eyes. But, brother, you owe nothing to anyone here. Don’t apologize to us for something you owe nothing to.
Praying for you.
Yes !!!! Do it!!!!
If that is ONE thing I could do over, it's admitting I should have sought therapy before it was too late. PLEASE, follow through. You will not regret it, knowing you did what you could. I wish you the best! And thank you so much!!
I hope you live a very different, happier life with great mental health. I am proud of you for taking the steps to get more healthy. I am also grateful and happy for wife. I am proud of her too. Please thank her for your sake and ours❤.
Anthony, as someone who suffers from anxiety and depression and recently spent time in a psychiatric hospital for treatment, I can honestly say that you have played a huge role in my recovery. I discovered mindful colouring in the hospital, and I thought of you and the colouring videos I'd watched so many times. I also remembered your previous video about your challenges and it gave me the confidence to be more open about my mental health, and seek and embrace the help that was offered. Since leaving the hospital I use colouring and drawing to help control my emotions and I'm not exaggerating to say it is a huge part of what has helped me turn my life around. I know you feel alone, but you're not, and you help more people than you could possibly imagine.
Much love, mate.
Hey, it is going to be okay! It is extremely stressful and it’s okay to be vulnerable. We are here to support you throughout it all ❤
Oh I'm learning that, it really is stressful to open up. I've had multiple panic attacks this week.
But the community have been unbelievably responsive and sweet. I feel very loved and I feel so much love in return to you all!!!
@@ADCArtAttack Yeah, I completely understand that! I’m the same way, and it takes a long time
You did good with sharing this Anthony, showing that you are struggling and showing the hardships that you've been going through, you are human and you are strong
Showing weakness is showing that you ARE human ❤
You let go of your ego to show this side of you
Dont ever forget that all of us love you and support you 🤗
I donated what I could, sadly times are tough for me atm. I've had to quit my career as a massage therapist due to pain and health reasons and I'm trying to move over to my art as my main source of income. You have been a ENORMOUS inspiration and have helped inspire me to keep picking up the pencil and keep going. I was waiting for the word Patreon to sign up immediately and help out as much as I can a month. Thank you for everything you do, and it's truly nice to meet you Anthony 😊💜
dude you tought me how to draw properly when others failed to communicate the "don't rush" part
your videos made my interest in drawing traditional soar
i wish you the best
i wish the good times come to you
i hope you're gonna make it just fine
Brother… it’s only been 3hrs, and you have nearly 5K views. We read the title, and showed up. We are here! You have a world of love to fall back on! We come to you (some of us) to relive OUR stress… because you are a blessing, and you need to know that! 🤘😞 I’m in your boat, and here for ya, brotha.. ❤️
Proud of you for talking about this and praying it works out for you quickly. I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through this.
Hey man, thank you for sharing and being so open!! My kids and I have watched you for years and love the content and your art. Our oldest is on the spectrum, very high functioning but as you know that still comes with challenges, mostly social challenges for him. Honestly I cant wait to have them all watch this video just to see that even though he doesn't think so at times that he can still do great things and do things that "other" people as he says, can do! I am sorry you are struggling but just know that you do help others more than you know and with sharing your real self probably helping even more people. I wish you the best my friend, keep doing your thing man because you do it very well!!
Hey, Anthony! I’ve been struggling with panic attacks and anxiety for many years. Only people who struggle with something inside their heads know who frustrating and hopeless it feels sometimes. You’re stronger than you think, but seek help, friend. Therapy has been crucial to move my life towards a better place. Don’t give up. You’ll get through it and I’m cheering for you ❤
My son is autistic and really into art at the moment. Having people like you to look up to is important. Having people like you showing that you can talk about things like this is also important. I really hope things improve with the financial situation, it truly sucks that something like that could happen.
Proud of you for finding the strength to make this video. 💪
How far you've come all by yourself is proof that you're a remarkably strong-willed person. Don't stop. You're a badass
Love you man!!! Thank you
Sending you soooo much love and well wishes to you and your wife! You are young and still full of life ❤ don't lose hope, don't lose faith that things can change for the better! You got this 🤗
I'm so sorry this is happening to you, I love watching your videos, your energy and excitement is contagious! But as others have said we hide behind a persona in the hope others won't see our vulnerability. I hide too, I struggle with anxiety and anxiety attacks on a regular basis and sometimes it seems too hard to be me. I really wish you all the best and that you can overcome this, there is no shame asking for help. Your art is amazing and I think you are a fantastic person. Much love xx
Hey, we're all here for you! I've been watching your content for a long time and love it. I hope you're able to overcome this. I'm currently struggling myself (the dreaded C word) so I understand. Keep fighting and keep that head up. We're here for you!
Oh my! I hope you find a road to recovery!! Thank you for being so sweet.
Please, I hope things work out!!!
Bro this took guts and willpower to talk about this type of stuff. You have some great content and I love watching your drawing videos. Thanks for making content
I love you man, watching your videos as a kid always cheered me up and inspired me to make art. You’re an amazing person and I hope things get better. God bless you
Aw! Thank you!!! Now.. I mean that, thank you! BUT "as a kid".... DONT MAKE ME FEEL SO OLD haha
I really appreciate this.
I hope things get better! I love your videos and watch every single one since I stumbled across your channel.
Your energy is great and I hope things work out in the best way possible. ❤
I'm glad you were able to do this video, it's not an easy thing to talk about. I hope you know you do have this community behind you and rooting for you ❤
Thank you for this video, being vulnerable is so challenging but it usually leads to good things! It's incredible how much work you are putting in with all of this going on... you've inspired me with your art for years, but now you're inspiring me with your strength and bravery too. Hang in there, you've got this!
It is so difficult opening up and being vulnerable. Even lifting that social mask a little is terrifying, I know the things that run through my mind are worries of people liking me without the fun mask. Will people want me at my worst. I don't wear that mask around my family and close friends, but it takes alot to not only trust that people want to see you but that you are good enough. It can be so isolating, and so draining.
I also relate to it being so difficult to ask for help.
Definitely don't apologise for this video though, its so important for anyone out their that needs to know that they arent alone in how they feel. Those of us that can completely relate to these struggles, and to seeing you showing the courage and strength to share honestly and being vulnerable.
I havent looked at the link yet but financial struggles suck, because they filter into everything, that knotting anxiety just lives there infecting everything. I hate money.... well i suppose i hate my lack of money 😂
My comment is a total rambling mess. Im gonna shut up and check out the link. Thanks so much for sharing. You are not alone 💖💖
I love watching you and honestly I'm glad you shared. Mental health is a hard thing to talk about. Keeping you in my prayers. One day at a time.❤
Hey ADC, praying that you get through it man, stay strong
That took a lot of courage for you to do! I think we all can appreciate and relate in some way. Keep doing what you do. So many people love what you.
Hi Anthony! I'm 34 y.o and I draw a lot when I was a kid. When I found your channel it's re-ignites my joy about drawing and I start to draw again! So, thank you so much for the inspiration and for all your awesome content!!!
Man you help me when I was struggling.watching your videos helped me!I have also been learn to draw on side because of you!
Awe!! It breaks my heart seeing you in this situation 😢 I wish you all the best and I will continue to watch and like your content
Thank you so much for being so open. I also suffer with depression, and watching your videos honestly brighten up my day! Thank you again, and know you have lots of people in your corner!
I’ve been watching your content for years. You’ve inspired me many times, teaching me various techniques that I never knew. I didn’t get into art until 2019, but I knew that you would be a great example to follow. I myself suffer from depression and social anxiety. I have a hard time holding conversations beyond basic small talk (anything beyond 5 minutes makes me really uncomfortable). You are very well-spoken and professional sounding in your videos, which I something I aspire to. Remember, everyone has a confident and positive side. Some of us just don’t get to have it out as often. People will always show the positive side on social media, so comparing yourself to anyone else, especially when you’re feeling down is never helpful. Thanks for the content man. I really appreciate you ❤
I'm glad you are talking about this because many people who have this platform still struggle. And there are people, like you, who are more than deserving of help. You give the world so much, and it is more than okay to take as well. Just because a person has a platform doesn't mean they don't have problems. They just have a new set of problems that people with less social visibility would not understand. Thank you for being vulnerable with us! ❤
Thank you for the check in. You're doing well-just hold onto your art and goals-like your comic book-and you will get through this. ❤😊❤😊
They REALLY motivate me!! The interest in the Comic has been mind-blowing and I get so excited creating the characters. It's incredible to slip out of my head and work on them.
But due to its nature, it has sparked emotional outbursts writing them at times. LOVE it though
Thank you so much for being open about your struggles. It makes me feel less alone knowing there are others out there who go through similar things. I wish I had the means to donate all you need because you deserve it.
I really hope that this all can be resolved soon! It's hard to ask for help, so respect 🙏 And thanks for being so honest. You deserve happiness! All the best 🤗
Anthony you are such a brave person for speaking to us all, so much love for you. You got me back into drawing and coloring, I love anime and dragon ball and watching your videos help me so much. I know what it feels like to be in a room full of people you know and feel very lonely and putting on a happy face when your are the complete opposite. I have managed to get over this with time and help. I looking forward to your comic book and using the things you have taught me to colour it in,
Thank you for sharing your story. I’m a veteran with ptsd and your sharing hits home. Sending you good thoughts and prayers
I hope you can feel better. Because you are my inspiration for art and anytime I watch your videos I feel inspired
Your not alone pal. I struggle with anxiety and depression too and im also autistic so we can relate here lol. Just don’t give up though, life throws stuff at us all the time but we can make it! I’ve been watching your videos and been subscribed since 2018 and your art has always inspired me :) your a great guy 👍🏼
I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through, and I'm glad you took the step to ask for help. I know it isn't easy, nor is being open and vulnerable easy. I've been in a similar situation and it's beyond stressful and incredibly difficult - I can't imagine what you're going through. I hope you can hold out hope that things will be ok! It can be difficult to find hope at times, but in the end it will all work out. I really do hope things get better for you!
I admire your courage to open up like this I totally understand how u feel I'm an artist and I look forward to your videos I enjoy watching and learning from u keep strong u got this
Just in the little bit of time ive been watching you ive went from pencils to markers bc of the enjoyment and passion you have with the medium i didnt give up on my pencils but i did open up to a new medium that i was so scared of in the beginning. And also in almost every video you say doing art is for fun and shouldnt be stressful well i used to think i had to be perfect and draw perfectly to even consider myself as a partial artist but with your encouragement i have started looking at my strengths and gaving fun with that while practicing my weakness....thank you so much and i wish i could give you all the help in the world...keep your head up and you will get through this...❤
I am so proud of you!!! Making the switch was difficult for me too, I remember at 15 I first used colour 'properly', then markers around 23 years old.
It's a huge leap. But you never know what it may lead to! :) keep at it!! Thank you for sharing this!
Hello, sending you a big hug man ! Keep being positive and moving forward. Good things will happen because we are behind you supporting you ! ❤
I am so in awe of you, Anthony. Your artwork is amazing, your sense of humour is wonderful and the caring that comes through in your videos is heart-warming. Now, with sharing this part of you, we get to see your bravery as well. I also suffer from anxiety and depression and I don't think I would ever have the courage to be as open as you just were. Thank you. Thank you for sharing and thank you to being such a wholesome and inspirational individual.
Stay strong my friend! God bless you! Praying for you as well!
Always stay positive. Things will get better for you and you have me and your fans to be right by your side. ❤
Mental health...... heavens I know that I don't have the best most days, I have ADD, depression and anxiety. Most days its the anxiety that gets me, art helps me a lot and i love to watch yours and jazzas videos, i watch them with my kids. My son that is 8 has ADHD and ADD he absolutely loves your channel. Your energy that you show and he just really started getting more into art. I really think that its due to me showing him you, so just know that you are important and loved. Thank you for your videos and creating art ans showing that art is calming.
You’ve inspired my art from a teenager just trying to figure out an art style to now I’m 21 and have been drawing nonstop for years with much inspiration from you and your ability to show how much fun you can have while drawing/doing anything you love! I once could only do cartoon drawings while tracing but now I’m a freehand portrait artist and I owe a large portion of that to you and how much I’ve learned from you!❤
I've been watching your videos since 2019 and you have grown so much and you have my full support x10000000
I am so sorry you are going through all of this. You are stronger than you think you are!! I am sending you some strength, courage and love. One of my favourite quotes from the movie, “ The Crow”, is it can’t rain all the time! Keep on trying!!
Your mental health and general health is SOOOOO valid and seeing a video like this makes you even more human. Never stop being you!
We LOVE you!!!! And thank you for your honesty :)
I remember when I watched your video the first time and I was so inspired that I also tried it out and I Wasent that good but I kept watching your videos and look at me now I can draw Such good drawings everyone says it I just want u to know we’re here for u❤
Wow...
Thank you for sharing your vulnerabilities with us. It's obvious you found it extremely hard, but as I watched, you realised it's not a bad thing to share...
I've been trying to start a CZcams channel for a while, but some days I can't even lift my head up! So thank you for talking about your fears & weaknesses & in that showing your strengths, I wish I could help more, all I can offer is my love & light in the hopes you hold onto the courage that keeps you creating what you love & why we keep coming back to watch your content...
Take care, my lovely 😘😘😘
thank you for opening up we appreciate you and your video's are amazing very entertaining and informative keep pushing forward it does take a lot to open up to people and thank you
If I could “fix” this for you, I would. I found your channel through Jazza and Nerdecrafter. And I found this art community during a time in my life that I needed an art community. I was going through life just surviving, I hadn’t drawn in years and had given up on that part of me that once was a core part of me. Growing up I had poured everything I was into my art but throughout the years, I started to forget that person. I listened to the doubts and fears about my skills and put my pencils down and told myself that there was no point because I’ll never be good enough. And then I found your channel and it was YOU and YOUR channel that gave me the strength to start finding that person again. So THANK YOU!!!
This isn’t your fault and you CAN get through this. It’s okay to ask for help, it’s okay to need it.
We’re both nerds and grew up watching Dragonball Z and I remember a quote from Goku that still sticks with me to this day and I’m sure some other real person said it but I remember it from Goku “ where there’s a will, there’s a way”.
Goku was never afraid to ask his friends for help, yes he was usually the one to defeat whatever big bad was thrown at him in the end but he had back up every time, sometimes it was in small ways and other times huge ways but he always had help. So the point I’m making is, everyone needs help sometimes and it takes a lot of strength and courage to admit it and ask for it. Keep being you, the real you, we’re still going to be here. You’re going to have ups and downs, you can be honest about them. You’ve got this and we’ve all got you. ❤❤❤❤ you’re stronger than you’ll ever know.
we have all been there, feeling alone, lost, confused, and broken...and doing a video like this will help you too grow and heal, and we are proud of you for doing this... keep pushing!!
Hi Anthony- thank you for being so brave 💗 for someone that also struggles with mental health - it's so heartbreaking to see you like this!! You bring so much light and laughter to your vids and you'll never know how much you've helped me and inspired me (and my daughter). We're all human and you've really shed light on the issues many of us face - well done for speaking out and keep being you! We have so much love and support for you!! Take care x
Man you’ve been an inspiration✨💖
Thank u for showin its ok to b vulnerable. U are an amazin human bein, we got u fam, we love u.
Bro u inspire me and so many more people I hope you feel better keep it up ❤😊
Hi Anthony! Well done being so brave to share your struggles. It takes courage, strength, and bravery to make a video like this. You're not alone. Sending you a virtual hug (if that's ok😊). You're going to get through this with the community around you. 💛 I really appreciate the raw and real people behind the videos. It's even more inspiring because it gives people like me who aren't entertainers hope that we too can be ourselves and connect with others.
Hey man, we all go thru stuff, you’re not alone in that! We love your personality. Your arts great. Just remember everyone goes through tough times mentally and physically but definitely mentally can be worse
I'm glad you had the courage to make a video about this.i'm also very excited for the cheap vs expensive episode!
I was diagnosed with depression 10+ years ago. And it is hard to describe how you feel to others. Struggles are real. But know there are a lot of people that you inspire. I appreciate your honesty and openness. I'm not alone, and you are not alone.
Bro u inspire me and so many more people I hope that things will get better for you ❤️
Hi Anthony! I felt it so deep when you said "I remember what it feels like to be happy". I always say that too. Ive had MDD since i was 23 and it came on all of a sudden and I haven't felt happy or even ok ever since. I tell people it's so hard to do anything with this "weighted blanket of depression" weighing me down every day. And then I dont take care of my house like I should and I isolate myself and that makes me more depressed and so the spiral continues. I can't say I'm never happy. My kids give me joy and I love laughing at my cat but when its over, I go back to my baseline. Which for me is no emotion, not sadness like most people assume, and physical exhaustion. Exhaustion is a syrong word but you get it. It's hard. Medication helps but it's not the answer. I dont know the answer. I hope one day, somebody will. Until then, we carry on the best we can. Much love from Indianapolis.
You are an inspiration to many people. Especially men who suffer with meantal health. It takes so much for us guys to talk out. Much love my friend ❤️❤️❤️
you are a great person, yeah you have your problems, i have same problems too. i am a artist too, have depression and lost my job yesterday... i feel so much like you. for us it is very helpful to have people around us to make us stable for a special time of our life. i want to hug you. you are not alone!
Good luck on finding another job.
@@smccormack428 thanks. my former boss did a bit of connecting-things and opened a door to a company which i have a certificate of. so i hope they will hire me
Hellooo!!! Anthony!!I want to thank you for helping me color and making my drawings more vivid . Don’t overwork yourself . Your a phenomenal artist ❤❤!!
Your content is sick bruv, I love it. I put my pencil down a while ago and u made me pick it back up again, cheers
It takes courage to stand up, be vulnerable and ask for help, especially talking to an audience full of people you don't know. I found your channel as I love art, but I stayed because of you. Your easy going and inviting personality keeps me coming back. Never stop being you as you're awesome 😊❤
I remember one time I posted a reel of a painting I made and I saw you liked it. I was literally so ecstatic that you saw my art. You’re a huge inspiration. I really really hope everything works out for you. And I understand struggling with mental health, I’m the same, you’re not alone and we’re all here for you :)
Very brave to be open like this. We are all humans and sometimes we need help and talk about our problems.
I like your art and you skill is amazing! You got this! Keep your head up. Better days will come.
Art is therapy and let the mind be free.
Love your videos watch them when I draw some more then once. They are inspiring. Keep pushing on brother your doing great life gets hard but you got this keep it up man I always look forward to your videos
After watching your video and reading your comment, I gotta say ,despite being late to the party, you are definitley one courageous person. Even through everything, being able to make your videos with a smile despite it, and being able to tell others what your going through, that is some serious strength. You're awesome, and an encouragement to people going through hard times.
I appreciate this message. As someone who feels similar feelings, thank you for this video.
Never be sorry for being honest and true to yourself! Yes it is hard and can be very scary to open up about our struggles, especially on the internet because we have no control over what the response might be. And it never is easy to ask for help even at the best of times but so much more when life is rough. You are so brave for opening up like this. And you deserve so much. You deserve to be happy, to not have to worry every day, to not have to struggle as much as you have. At the same time it‘s the struggles in life that show us who we truly are and you are a wonderful artist who has so so much to give.
You will get through this and please know that you’re not alone.
Hi Anthony, i am watching your videos for quite a long time now. I realy enjoy them. Because of my job most of the time i do not have the time or energy to paint/draw or create myself. Just want to say you are so strong! You've asked for help , thats something you can absolutly be prouf of. Because that is always the hardest thing to do. I'm sure it will be a better Situation soon! Thank you for sharing your passion. Just sending you a big hug!
Keeping moving forward! The videos you post bring happiness to people. They inspire people. Because of you I have started drawing again. You are an important person. Never give up.
Just checking in on your go fund me and you're so close to your urgent goal. Really hoping that your community liking and sharing this video can push through for that goal (and the others). Coming from a very "Neurospicy" household I relate to a lot of what you say when I think about how my husband would manage the situation you find yourself in and the stress that would put him under. Well done for asking for help. I do truly understand how hard that is. You'll get through this.
Admitting you have a problem and that you need help is often the first and best way to start your journey of healing, what that looks like and what it entails for someone will be different from most.
What i can say is you have an awesome community here, So many great people who are there ready to help if they can, and you being brave enough to come on and talk about it i feel shows why you have such a good community here, your real about things, sure you have a stage personality but its just like us going to town, we put our best foot forward.
I don't know if your a Christian or Not man, but i will be praying for you, Idk why the Lords plans are here but i am sure you will make it through, sometimes ya just have to slow down and look at whats around and not be afraid of who or what might help.
Good for you! I get it completely. I have cancer, bone marrow, it has generally 3-5 year survival rate. My entire life I've hated asking people for help, I've put so many people out of their way and as of last week I have decided to stop. I just can't go on asking for help anymore! I am SO glad you opened your heart and bore your soul, I really hope it all works out for you!
Wish you the best of luck❤
Wow, I own a small independent jewellery store, and we do loads of custom made jewellery and I'm currently going through a downturn, due to inflation, interest rates etc, people just don't have disposable cash at the moment in Australia. I have also had depression most of my adult life, and your video really resonated with me, thanks for helping me feel like I'm not alone 🥰.
I love listening to and watching your videos. You're amazing, I know you're going through a tough time, but eventually it will get better, at least that's what I keep saying to myself. Stay strong.
I'm so sorry to hear this ❤❤
Keep your head up brother! I truly hope that things turn around! Love and support from Canada
I deal with depression and anxiety immensely and art used to be an escape. Until it became part of the problem as well so I wouldn’t do it. I wouldn’t draw paint or anything until I found you on CZcams. Please never stop doing what you do it was and is incredibly inspiring.
I found your channel a couple years ago when I was at my lowest. I was searching for anything that would bring me out of the darkest moment in my life. After buying my first set of alcohol markers, I haven’t looked back. Art truly is my therapy. And your channel gave me the confidence to try something new and just enjoy the process!
But what I found through my 2+ year struggle with depression, is that I can’t fix myself on my own. Isolation and loneliness is deadly. I am a dedicated follower of Christ, but depression absolutely shook my world spiritually. Hope is something all people long for, but what we put your hope into sets the foundation of our lives. I’ve searched for hope in many places but found that the only answer is through a God that died for our sins and loves us to our deepest parts. That hope is what brought me out. I still struggle with some depression today, but putting my life and hope in Jesus is what makes the “it will get better someday” actually mean something.
Love you buddy, you have one of my favorite channels. You're brilliant.
Be proud of your self, you are fantastic. You are a strong person.
You should be proud for the video. Never talk you down.🤗❤️
I use coloring for my anexity, pain, and more. Big hug to you🤗❤️
Hugging you tightly and sending positive vibes! You always bring joy! You’ll get through it and I’m cheering for you
Hey ADC i wanted you to know that i finally got the lightpad because you pushed me to get through my art i thank you so much for pushing to get better at art!
Respected u as an artist but got inspired as a person.... Through all the tough times u made others smile including myself and we all appreciate u for being such a wonderful person... Stay strong bro, u will get thru all dis