Today was a particularly hard day. I think every weekend is getting to be harder and harder. I was in Hobby Lobby and wondering what I'm even doing in there. I'm at a point where I absolutely don't want to buy anything for the house. I want to empty and sell the house. I want to run away and would if I didn't have two people whom I'd never run away from. They're the only ones keeping me tethered to this place. So, I was walking down the mirror aisle and the culmination of it all just hit. I felt like I was choking. Tears filled my eyes, my chest constricted, and for a moment I didn't even know where I was. And why? Because what I want isn't in this store or any store, for that matter. What I want isn't anywhere but where you are and the shit of it all is that I can't have it--at least not now. And knowing this as weeks go by, wasted weeks, that could be filled with love, laughter, and happiness leaves me with nothing but a void and there's nothing I can do about it. There's no one I can call or see to talk to about this because absolutely no one knows or will know. Usually, when you're in a situation you have a friend you can turn to for advice but this I wouldn't share with anyone--too much on the line for you. I can't talk to you. Anyway, so I'm in the mirror aisle choking on possibilities that are going nowhere and it made me so f'ing sad. I did everything not to cry surrounded by strangers. I'm fighting back the tears as I write this all alone in my office. If I was hungry--I'd eat. Thirsty--drink. Needing you is another basic need but one I can't fulfill nor satisfy. I guess I just need advice. What am I supposed to do? Wait? Run? Put my head in the sand and pretend it's not happening? I have great instincts and always have been able to trust them but even they have abandoned me in my time of need. Anyway, just some thoughts taking over my brain on this overcast Saturday afternoon. I'm going for a walk around the woods soon, so maybe an answer will somehow appear, lol. You never know. I love you--I do, I do.
This song just touch my heart I really luv it n more over someone dedicated for me too this song. The singer voice is just wow
This is mine and my boyfriends song... We've been going thru a lot right now. But I sill love him and this song goes me hope.
Rosie making memories of us. I love you Rosie.❤️
Beautiful memories of a very special time .
Ann Stevie very nice good job
the best love song ever written.
Thank you Heather. A new favorite to my list. Love you
Rosie making memories of us sheen. I love you Rosie. ❤️
This is the song i had at my wedding❤️❤️
❤️ this song😥😥
Love this song makes me cry
This is all I want for Death do us Part.. This Song says it all!! All my Luv 2 U
My teacher's name is Keith... o 3o
Anyway cute song I love it!
the song is really nice.
the lyrics are awesome. ^^
i like it
LOL.....loved the song & the lyrics thanks for uploading it! you did a [fantastic job] :D
I love you Lisa.. Il never give up on you..
aw that's so beautiful
im so happy what would i do without my bestfriend
❤️
Im making French toast! giggidy giggidy goo...alright!
Siiiggghhhhhhh.......
march2020
waw!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today was a particularly hard day. I think every weekend is getting to be harder and harder. I was in Hobby Lobby and wondering what I'm even doing in there. I'm at a point where I absolutely don't want to buy anything for the house. I want to empty and sell the house. I want to run away and would if I didn't have two people whom I'd never run away from. They're the only ones keeping me tethered to this place. So, I was walking down the mirror aisle and the culmination of it all just hit. I felt like I was choking. Tears filled my eyes, my chest constricted, and for a moment I didn't even know where I was.
And why? Because what I want isn't in this store or any store, for that matter. What I want isn't anywhere but where you are and the shit of it all is that I can't have it--at least not now.
And knowing this as weeks go by, wasted weeks, that could be filled with love, laughter, and happiness leaves me with nothing but a void and there's nothing I can do about it. There's no one I can call or see to talk to about this because absolutely no one knows or will know. Usually, when you're in a situation you have a friend you can turn to for advice but this I wouldn't share with anyone--too much on the line for you. I can't talk to you. Anyway, so I'm in the mirror aisle choking on possibilities that are going nowhere and it made me so f'ing sad. I did everything not to cry surrounded by strangers. I'm fighting back the tears as I write this all alone in my office. If I was hungry--I'd eat. Thirsty--drink. Needing you is another basic need but one I can't fulfill nor satisfy. I guess I just need advice. What am I supposed to do? Wait? Run? Put my head in the sand and pretend it's not happening?
I have great instincts and always have been able to trust them but even they have abandoned me in my time of need. Anyway, just some thoughts taking over my brain on this overcast Saturday afternoon. I'm going for a walk around the woods soon, so maybe an answer will somehow appear, lol. You never know. I love you--I do, I do.
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Ugh..its where the wild BEES swarm
It's wild 🐝 bees not beast
my girlfriend send me this song and just want to marry her