I HAVE NO THOUGHTS | Blank Mind Syndrome and Autism
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- čas přidán 11. 09. 2024
- This video is about blank mind syndrome which is one of my autistic spectrum disorder traits. Most of the time I don't have thoughts or inner monologue.
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so now i realise i have blank mind syndrome thats why im boring theres nothing to talk with al blank and akward. not being able to tell stories in a perfect manner. not able to communicate in a profound way
oh? If you mind, have you figured the cause to it yet? I haven’t the slightest idea on how it has come to this point as it’s always been this way ever since I can remember.
"I use words mostly for practical purposes, to say what really needs to be said; to get to the point."
This one sentence spoke volumes! You were able to express my own feeling so eloquently 💕
ironically, this is an ILLUSION
those people hallucinate about preciseness of their minds, while in fact those thoughts are primitive and naive
You’re not alone.
I 'll be there for you
Anything i'll do (c) 😀
You can think that
I found the cure for this shit everyone. It’s faith in Jesus Christ ❤ Try it out 😇🫶✝️
So relatable to me. I got an urge to cry when realized my mind works the same way 😢
I feel exactly the same way and I feel frustrated at the fact that I can’t have a conversation with others. I feel so miserable when I have nothing to talk about with my own family. I just feel like such a boring individual and I don’t know who I should bring this up with. I’ve never talked about it with a family member, and I don’t know if I’ve always had this or maybe I’m just at that age where I am finally realizing that I’ve been like this and I don’t even know when this started.
It’s possible this is a result of something more underlying going on.. like depression.
The processing speed of our autistic brains is incredibly fast when we aren't verbal. I think that's why we have a hard time even seeing the steps that led us to our destination. I wish I could draw this as a picture for this comment - it makes so much sense visually!
Because you may be visual
Well, this is so beautifully expressed, it makes me quite emotional.
I have next to no inner visual world, my mind is composed primarily of feelings and the thoughts of whatever I am focusing on in the given moment.
Your inner world sounds so calm, present and harmonious, thank you for sharing it.
Is it peaceful for u to have no inner dialogue?
Your miracle voice,
Calming my inner noise,
I will be a liar
If I don't admire.
Please, find your peace,
I'm with you in all this,
No longer will you doubt the greatness in you,
We all love you in a way that is true!
It benefits me but sometimes it's like a curse '.' but I already accepted the fact that it's okay being empty and feeling nothing.
Having a blank mind makes your heart center more accessible. It’s very clear from your video that you are speaking from the heart. That is where the messages of the soul are received.
Most others speak from the mind. It’s a completely different frequency, and that’s why you don’t resonate. It’s why you feel you don’t belong.
There is something about this “autism” that is very special. It is the source of your soulfulness.
Thank you for being so authentic to your true nature. You are the art, and your art is very healing.
My normal state of mind is blank too, I didn't realize that was odd until a few years ago
You are such a carefree soul. Your life is free from any boundary. I love the place you live. But it's hard to have no thoughts and feel nothing sometimes
Thank you! The little house you might see in the video actually isn't our house, we just rented it for a day to have a rest in nature :)
I wish this video never ends..no one understood me the way this video did I felt so safe here.🥀🙂
Hello, my dear friends! Unfortunately, I had to reupload my new video “I Have No Thoughts” due to technical reasons. I want to thank you for the beautiful comments that you left under the deleted video, I’m so sorry I lost them 💔 Please, support the reuploaded video so it would reach people who need to feel that they’re not alone in this “absence of thoughts”. Thank you from the very bottom of my heart and have a wonderful day
I love the consideration you have for little things like comments that are missing due to a deleted video. It warms my heart to know that people like you have this kind of sensitivity and make videos that are available for anyone who can need this, I don't have that in my close environment and it feels good to find it on youtube :)
This video is even more beautiful watching it a second time round, and thank you for sharing your thoughts on how Autism affects you,the videos that you make help all in the autism community and I should imagine people like I once was trying to figure out why they feel so different to others.
Thank you so much for kind words! 🥺🖤
much appreciated for your comment and your notice!
That sounds like a blessing and a curse at the same time. :/ I hope you are doing well.
I have ASD too, great content. Psychology and the human mind are such fascinating topics.
I'm so thankful you made this video. I started to cry after seeing this. My mind is naturally drawn to explore little details of nature. Nothing to say to people, forced to say my opinion when I don't have any. Feelings of emptyness and low self esteem because I had no deep thoughts to share. I'm currently being evaluated for autism. I've had episodes of depression and anxiety since I was 13 years old. I'm 38. Nowadays I know I have deep thoughts but I don't have the need to share them to others or to myself.
Hi! Whilst watching your video I cried. The. Whole. Time. I see and feel and hear so much of myself in your story...
Not being able to tell long stories when talking to people or answering questions, to see that bigger picture and share it...
Your video touched me deeply. Thank you. I now am curious for your other videos :)
I was wondering if i could ask you a question. I was wondering; how is this Blank Mind Syndrome connected to autism?
(My psychologist told me that my Blank Mind is because of stress and severe sleep deprivation. BUT i also have autism...)
You visuals communicate more than words ever could. Most people have a war going on in their heads. The times when thoughts leave my mind, my world becomes such a beautiful place. 💚💙
I understand what you're going through, I was like this when I was a child, I always felt pressured into talking more. I had to learn to rely on 2 things to develop personally, thoughts and inner monolog, external stimuli and reinforced learning for data storage combining these 2 things helped me get over having a blank mind and hearing someone use certain key words helps me with retrieving and relaying data which in turn helps me with conversation if I can remember and reflect on what I've learned then the thoughts and words started to come to me naturally especially in my earlier 20s, for many years this ability of mine worked but then one day it just stopped, it was about 3 years ago, maybe it was one too many night of sleep deprivation, not really sure and now my mind is trying to revert back to it's default status of being blank but I don't want that and everyday I try to fight to remember and stay who I was, trying to hold on to who I am, it's scary to think that I could lose myself, that part of me that I created, I created my own personality since initially I didn't really have much of one but who I created myself to be, I was proud of and to think that my brain is trying to revert my mind back to where my mind is an empty void, I refuse to let that happen, I relate to what you're talking about because there are times where my mind just won't let me generate words or thoughts, caffeine sometimes helps on days like that when things aren't working so well, maybe you could try a stimulant too, it might help you with thoughts and word generation like it has me.
I finally don't feel so alone. Thank you
Я прочитала комментарии людей..... Ведь нас так много...... Таких похожих...... И все мы не можем передать так цельно этот свой мир... Как получилось передать его вам. Ксана вы.... Одарённый человек..... Многие вам даже скрытно завидуют..... Что вы не похожи на всех. Вы личность.
I’m experiencing this for the last 3 months and it’s been really scary.. I can barely talk anymore because it feels like I don’t have the words.. I would love to talk to you and learn some tips!
Exactly! This is how it is. For all people who say here that it's blessing to have a 'silent mind' 🙄 I'm curious, what happened, you started to take some medications or it just happened?
@@KsanaLes it just happened all of a sudden
Same, I used to feel like everyone else. With thoughts in words and everything.
Now I lost that...
I have this too. I live at home it's fucking scary. I wonder if the thoughts will come back.
@@Rookies103did it improve?
Well, I'm always playing around with different kinds of nutrients (vitamins, minerals, additional supplements), and they affect the mind big time. Biohacking.
For example I used to be chronically depressed when I was vegetarian or after hormonal pills. Increasing methylation basically cured me and lately, being free of it for 7 years, after my last suicidal ideations, I had a breaking point again because of years of tremendous stress in my life (loss of health, home , loved ones)... Thank goodness I found out about SAMe. It was a miracle that lifted me up from the point where I was considering if it was worth living anymore.
Same goes for thinking... Brain requires energy. I added up B1 and B group so I can concentrate now better. I manage my ADHD the same way too , although it is basically a combination of epigenetics and environment /lifestyle.
I have no thought's i live in the present moment. Its bliss❤❤
Can you socialze with people while you have no thoughts?
@@johnbrad2919if I push myself enough hell yeah, I get by, but it’s awkward and painful
How did u do it?
We others have constant chatter in our minds 24/7, typically people can't control their mind, you can suggest new topics for it and if the mind finds them worthy it'll give them some time. The mind and our thoughts just go wherever and whenever it feels like it. When you're trying to sleep, when you're at a wedding, when you're just trying to focus on something, you might always have intrusive thoughts of the positive kind or the negative kind. Calming and focusing the mind is only possible through action and exhaustion, entering a flow state when you're 100% invested into doing something and you're not aware of your mind, that's pretty much the only time we experience peace or when we're physically or mentally exhausted from activity or too much thinking. Honestly I don't know which one I would rather have, always no mind or constant chatter. Your world seems so peaceful. I'd like to visit it sometime, if only I could.
My world is still far from being peaceful, thoughts and anxiety are not the same things, so i have the second one + depression. But additionally you have an empty head and no imagination or inner monologues 🥲
You seem to describe or put into words thoughts, feelings, how I experience things, or things I have experienced in my life. Not just in this video but in other videos of yours that I have watched. Often times when I try to express something or convey information to someone else they don't understand or they completely miss the mark as to what I am trying to tell them or why.
You did such a wonderful job explaining this concept, and how beautiful that is alone for the fact that the very concept makes that so much more difficult to express. You truly have made art out of your experience that others including myself have been wondering about for our entire lives and you delivered understanding and a sense of union and community and empathy, and hope.
Thank you so much! 🥺🙏
Im there with you, no thoughts, and I've never actually had friends.
I have no thoughts also.great video.
I relate to this. My empty silent space, which is where I mostly was as a child, was a place I had to hide to seem normal--behind words and facial expressions. I didn't want to worry people, but mainly I wanted them to leave me alone. Eventually, I got tired of being alone and began cultivating social skills, including conversational skills.
My mind is pretty quiet as well. I used to think a lot, like my mind used to race all the time but then one day I realized I was getting to tired to keep that up so I just decided to be quiet, my mind doesn’t do that anymore, it’s so quiet unless I’m thinking about something relative to what I’m doing, like what words to say next or just listening to the music I’m playing. There’s no thoughts like “oh what if I have homework” or “how am I feeling?” It’s just silent
Same, this is exactly how I feel right now.
However, we will get through this 😊
I think I just keep forgetting what I’m thinking about as soon as a thought comes to mind unless it has some sort of significance but I’m really not sure
is this something that we can work through? the thing is that it feels joyless, not having a mind that can talk through things, have a stimulant conversation with. I am still thinking that it is because i am not experienced enough in this world or attentive enough to realize what’s going on. it feels like lack of attention physiologically plays a role in having this syndrome. along with obsession i have which tells me that i have to be able to think, or feel. is it maybe because the lack of the idea of self? what are your thoughts on this? or maybe some language processing problems, or thinking or believing that the idea should manifest itself through language. If i have some learning problems or difficulty in language etc maybe that’s why it is so empty. Or i force myself to shut up because my ideas are so shallow and even if it is hgood, i know that i will forget it and i will need to rethink about it. So many questions, i can continueee like this :(
Having no thoughts is a sign of spiritual awakening......Ekhart Tolle has meditations that teaches how to empty the mind......
If its an awakening, then its one of the devil because i know someone who killed himself because of this.
@@LeandroSimoen true.
This is what many is trying to accomplish. I
Silence of the mind. So freeing
its hellish when you have been through it. I fortunatly regained everything back and its anything but freeing! I couldnt socialize, was isolated and rediculed so please dont promote this its hell and there is also someone i know who killed himself because of this so its kind of distespectful
Hey how did u regaine everything back
@@horikrichard8647 benzo's, antidepressants, amphetamines and an anticonvulsant called keppra.
@@LeandroSimoen Which one helped the most? Or was it all of them together? Benzos can be especially dangerous if taken long term.
@@MaddyPup19450 all of them together.
I feel and thought of nothing i tried waking up at 5am took shower ate breakfast forced myself to do chores, hobbies and exercise tho I'm not in the mood it was kind of achievement for me but i still feel like this. I sit and stare at nothing
"My usual state of mind is silence. " This sentence is what defines me completely.
I've always felt like my mind is just like a blank page without thoughts scripted on.
Sometimes I'm off and no thought is able to enter my mind and sometimes I'm so overwhelmed with billions of pieces of thoughts rolling around and bothering my worried mind.
I just wanted to say that your video kinda reflects my state of mind.
How did u get blank mind
This has been my life you are not alone
I have a lot of thoughts in my head. And I'm tired of them. I can't stop thinking. And this is my problem. I never hear silence in my head, though sometimes I wish it so much.
But it is still very hard for me to talk with people in real life. So I'm usually alone. However it is quite easy for me to communicate in Internet (but not in real time like in chats).
I also have a lot of emotions which I carefully hide from others. But I don't like emotions. I control them with my mind, with my thoughts (which I'm tired of). If I do not do this, I will go crazy. Thinking is the only way for me to stay sane. (Well, few year ago my thoughts were as dangerous as my emotions. But now I do some kind of CBT, so I converted my thoughts from menace to a weapon)
I usually do not like nature and do not like calmness. I like noisy cities.
I do not like art too much (music is an exception). But I like science and technics.
It's not surprising because I'm a man of thoughts. If I do not express anything in words, I do not understand it. Things are so unclear if I do not describe them with words.
And that was my problem. I could solve difficult mathematical tasks, but it was too hard to handle simple real life tasks. Now I think about real life tasks carefully like I did for mathematical tasks and that helps. Doing anything intuitively doesn't work for me. So thinking isn't bad. But... I'm tired. I feel that even when I'm sleeping I think too much.
I often feel that I'm strange. And I am. And you are. We are both strange, but we are strange so differently.
Hello me alter
My thing is what's the standard and is it by majority or by a measurement of life events like success or happiness.
Thank you for making this video.. i recognize myself. I read so many experiences of autistic people that seem to have a never ending streams of conscious thoughts.
Thank you! Yes, it's hard to find someone who I can relate to in this question. Absolutely different worlds
Очень глубоко, Ксана!!!!
Спасибо, что делишься с нами своим красивым внутренним миром!
🙏🥺
Wait isnt this literally enlightenment?
Spiritual practitioners spend lifetime meditating to quite the mind and get rid of the compulsive thinking. And you are already there 🤷🏿♂️
Little Ssenary from Autist baby
The way of life is aliked to the road which we understand.
People was riding a car from the huge long road. They was dropping some kinds of flowers( smiles ) but the baby whose desire of going with them was not born yet was seen as gathering that flowers.
The baby understand that the road is garden and wated to be together with whom dropped it but he have not aware of needness of riding a car.
Persons who are in that car interested in the baby who is gathering the flowers and they offer to ride to the car but baby neighter accept nor mind them.
+the Car is not beeing seen to baby, and the flower to People.
They after goes on their way again.
The bab only stands alone with his flowers.
Two world is not wondering to gather with each other even if all wants to be that.
This is an amazing video - I feel everything in this!
Thank you! 🖤
Don't get me wrong, but I never equated thoughts to 'words in my head.'
If I didn't spend so much time trying to put it into words, I would not be able to... put it into words. As I would explain it, I think in _concepts_ and then translate those into _language_ which can be said outloud.
Sometimes I want to say something and realize a word for it doesn't exist. In any of the languages I speak.
I hear _streams of words_ in my head, but only those I consciously put together because I am rehearsing the human language translation that others will understand.
So when you said you had no thoughts, I imagined something quite different.
I am now in my 50s, have lived with this all my life and just starting to find other people suffer in this way too. Thank you for the lovely video.
I thought this would be peaceful wow
Very good Video Footage. Great Video and your voice is so good it blends great with video and makes you calm in the moment, to be in present moment away from past and future thoughts.
You are not alone, the world is an amazing place when you explore it's like you are free in the world
I have ASD and ADHD, I’m similar in that I don’t use words unless I’m preparing to speak to someone, verbal communication is hard for me. So Im usually happiest spending time outside, with animals or just alone with my interests and I do a lot of thinking and processing but not instinctively in words. My journals are always just bullet point reminders for basic tasks cause I have a terrible memory. Sometimes writing can be helpful if I have to try explain it to someone in words like my therapist but before my adhd meds it was impossible to pull enough focus for long enough to remember, turn it into words and get it down in a way that made sense to other people. It also made my hand writing readable haha among other great things. I think words are great tool that hold a lot of power to convey ideas and emotion and I think a lot of people overuse them for that reason but they can just as easily be destructive.
I am blank mind person I have no inner monologue and confused 😢
I can turn my mind completely off. I usually use this to sleep but sometimes it just happens, I won't retain anything it's like zombieing out. It's such a strong shut off switch, I didn't realize silence on command wasn't as normal as I thought. It gets all foggy and just empty? The absence of stimuli in a way. Zoning out?
this is beautiful
weirdly feel like im more vulnerable to outside influence like negative words someone said because i dont really have other than rationalizing to fight back against their view of me
I always lived in a world with thoughts but there was a period where i was in the state like u unwanted and trapped. I managed to regain my thoughts back with meds thank god🙏 i have a lot of respect for people like u and i hope u find joy in life❤️
What meds did help you out??
@@kimberg2539 Benzo’s called Xanax.
Bro seriously?????
I relate to this so much
Oh my god. This is a revelation.
❤ thank you for reminding us we’re not alone.
The only way I can break my silence is if I intrude my own thought plain with something… someone that is not me and people see that it isn’t me and with no suprise treat me as disgenuine or not real which then leads to a suffering in silence but it was my own choice to drain my energy to ends of no means but what choice did I have, silence was that choice and silence is where I abide where I sometimes can’t hear cause it is so loud
I feeling numb
Don't move
Don't talk out of time
Don't think
Don't worry
Everything's just fine
Just fine
U are not alone ❤❤
Those who are awakened feel uncomfortable around the unconscious people......I don't like people, just in a short conversation thir head is spinning around, they react and show lots of facial expressions, I sense a huge imbalance and turmoil in them.....I am in a neutral state as an autistic, observing.....the average, unconscious human is in a nervous state.....it feels overwhealming because most of people are sleeping, in mass hypnosis.....but it doesn't mean it is good.....just the contrary....
Как жаль, что нет русских субтитров. Ваше спокойствие передаётся и мне и успокаивает мои слишком подвижные эмоции.
Субтитры на русском есть!!! У меня открываются только в приложении ютуб (с сайта и через ютубвансед не получается). Выбираете в приложении шестерёнку, далее - субтитрв, потом "Включить авто перевод" и выбираете русский язык. Бывает, что "Включить автоперевод" не появляется сразу, тогда надо выбрать сначала английские субтитры, а потом появится кнопка "автоперевод". У меня так срабатывает на всех видео.
а еще можно поставить яндекс браузер (в т.ч. и на смартфон), и смотреть с синхронным аудио переводом (без субтитров)
@@DiZL_ яндекс поддepживает генoцuд и penрессии.
В яндексе есть функция перевода,- с верху экрана появляется баннер - "перевести".
@@vyacheslavshlykov3476 хватит этих у6людков рекламировать. Есть другие peшeния, помимо этого отделения фaшuского фc6.
I can’t believe that meditators strive to be like this. I have no pleasure from anything and no thoughts, feelings, emotions etc.. living with this is hell :(((
Wow really? Please please explain more if u can? I thought it would be peaceful
@@theanonymoushelpline7248 its not. I manged to get everything back with meds tho.
No thoughts is actually a beautiful state of no-mind
It's not very beautiful really. It's normally a response to trauma, a coping mechanism when everything shuts down because the world is too much. It is a hard way to live.
You can see every colour, if you look close enough. (c) Luca Fogale, "Every colour" (song)
my mind is blank due to anxiety..
Due to this problem.. i have difficulties in meetings, social setting, doing work like reading n writing.. my mind goes blank and i feel more anxious n depress
That's exactly how I have felt for a very long time.
In 2015 I did drugs that led me to a psychotic episode in 2020... from then on I have had a blank mind. I learned it from meditation but also I guess its just natural. My mind always thinks negative so maybe it isnt blank. But it feels blank when I talk to people. I dont learn shit. I dont think of anything. My mind dont work 😢
This is so beautiful.
Beautiful video❤
Why you miss the thoughts, usually the mindchatter is negative......I love when I don't have thoughts so I can fully be in the present moment......my thoughts are constructive only when I need to solve something.....otherwise my thoughts are just negative rumination which is very unpleasant
sounds like bliss
Same thing... How to get rid of that? I've been having it for 2 years already and I'm fed up 😢
Did you take the covid vaccine shortly before it happened?
I got injected and suddenly my mind is blank with no thoughts and imagination gone. Nothing but darkness.
Thank you so much, Ksana)
You are not alone
You're like me. But you're still available to make videos.
Thanks for your Autizm
You're my friend 💖💖
Do you like your dreams? Are they colourful?
Beautiful Video 😊
thank you so much! 🖤
I totally have this jeez, and only seeing this a year later
A lovely video ☯️
Beautiful miss
Thank you! 🖤
I cried a lot in this video..
I am on this thing for so long time.. I was only 14 when I came through this..
Why me?
And is it possible to take this off?
I can understand the pain. Have this bullshit since i was a kid. I dont know if u can relate on that but the worst thing for me is having no motivation to almost anything. Watching a serie or movie, reading a book and even to learn new things. It sucks and i have no idea how to live adult life like that
@@Kenny66220dude! I can relate to it so much!!! I'm doing the same things. I'm wondering how to manage life like this.
Maybe my ego does not want to accept, that my autistic brain is not made for a neurotypical world.
What’re the names of the piano music?
i think im pulling the trigger..
Why should you think more? Who says, that this is wrong? Enjoy the silence. In an other culture you would be considered a holy person.
Beautiful ❤
When i go to sleep i hear no tboughrs begore i sleep its very quite in my heas i can thibk about things during the day time like nirmal but if fhoose to stop thinking about the topic its relatively quite in my head feels sometimes as im staring at people i can think of wanr to tsay before a vonversation but during the conversation what comes ojt just comes out automatically this has happened rece tly iv always had a racing mind full of neg thoughts depression went away finalll at 34 years old it just feels like something is off i can read and hear my inner voice but its not talking to me unless i choose to thi k about something now needless to say i dont sleep my much cuz tits aeird having a silent head befor i sleep i have to melatnon to knock me out
Wow and it just stopped by itself?
reply to this comment if you want to try a game with me that i have made myself
it is a slow paced logical game which i implemented on my computer years ago, and it requires thinking and drawing maps
maybe you are gonna like it...
No thoughts is the worst yhing i ever had
How did you get this?
Dpdr blank mind . Brain fog out of body tunnel vision but blank mind is the worst thing i ever had in my entire life
No thoughts, head empty
It’s both a blessing and a curse
yup!
ваш муж как вы или нет? как вы с ним взаимодействуйте?
Ждёшь свою судьбу на море ?
Your conscious you just dont think out loud?
Better having too much in mind
Too many thoughts always
Autism and ADD (me)
I wouldn't mind having inner peace rn.
Wonderful!
Beautiful locations remind me of Latvia. Where did you film it?
In Latvia 🫠
@@KsanaLes amazing! stay strong homie!
Thank you........,🙂
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