dealing with loneliness, isolation + feeling friendless | post grad diaries ep. 1
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hey sweets! this video is a little bit more laid back & vulnerable because i decided to be more open about my post grad experience since graduating this past may. this is the first video of a series called the post grad diaries & i hope to make more produced versions of this video soon, love you!!
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I just graduated from high school and I have been dealing with the exact same feeling ever since. I’m glad to hear that I’m not the only one feeling this way
same situation as you, it's been a year and some change since I graduated high school and I still feel this way. i can't speak for everyone, bc maybe not everyone feels this way, but I do know it's completely normal to! from one stranger to another, im sending you love
literally bawled watching this. this is exactly how i feel and i couldn’t put it into words. i’m glad i know now there’s others that feel like me. i really felt the “same sh*t different day”. thanks aliyah for putting this out and making me feel not alone for once.
honestly. I'm glad she made this video cuz i feel the exact same at school, i hate it there. looking forward to graduate high school in two years and meet new ppl in college :/
good luck to you
You're definitely not alone, as a sophomore in college I feel like I'm on the same boat. Thank you for speaking about it because sometimes I feel like I'm alone when it comes to feeling friendless. We all love you ⭐💖
I graduated college December 2022 and I still feel this way 6 months later. It really feels like I just go to work, gym, come home and repeat. My therapist has encouraged me to find groups of people close to my age who are seeking companionship as well. I’ve tried taking her advice but i’m just not finding those people just yet. I’ve gone through the “well what’s my purpose now?” thought as well and I’m still struggling with that. I don’t know what to do but to keep talking to my therapist and my mom about how I feel, but I hope it gets better for you Aliyah and everyone in the comments feeling the same way. We got this!❤️
Jesus loves you 🫶🏾
My therapist has told me the same but being that I am shy and reserved, it just hasn’t worked out yet.
same here! I was trying to get out of my comfort zone and try it but its just not working
I feel the same way. I just graduated high school and I feel like I haven’t had anyone since graduating. It’s so draining to have nothing to do until going back to school in the fall but I understand that I am in a state where I am still finding out who I am.
I just graduated as well and I’m afraid this is the path I’m going down
you’ll be okay as soon as you start school again, the summer between high school and college is usually like that and it was for me. just try to fill up your time by working, working out, or even just going to the beach by yourself
I been feeling like this for the past couple of weeks now since graduation. Friends are showing up for you less and less. You feel like you are all by yourself and lonely, not truly knowing who you are. But thing I realized is that it’s okay to feel that way. We are called in this time of self isolation to get to know ourselves in a more mental spiritual and physical way. By getting to know ourselves and loving on ourselves, we won’t have those feelings anymore. When we loving our true selves even in solitude, it will show up on the outside. People and true friends will gravitate towards because they see your light. We must remember in this time that we are loved and cherished and that whoever you believe in and the universe has something in store for you that’s greater and that it calls for you to be in this moment of isolation.
Hiii, I normally don't comment on videos but this video really touched my heart because I experienced exactly what you're going through right now a couple years ago. In 2021, my junior year of college, I slipped into a depressive episode for the exact same reasons except I wasn't an athlete anymore. I had always been a student-athlete, I've always had that structure and friendships that sports gave me but when I became just a student I lost all my friends (my teammates), I realized I wasn't good at making friends because I've always had friends by default and I became extremely lonely. Some words of advice from me to you: 1. be intentional about building "surface-level" friendships. I started reaching out to my "surface-level" friends and asking to hangout such as going to lunch, movies, etc, and really trying make those friendships stronger. I was also able to meet some people in their circles and became friends with their friends. 2. in the meantime, become your own friend. I know it may seem like you're already in tune with yourself but during my episode, I realized I didn't know myself as much as I thought I did. Take yourself out to eat, to the movies, get your nails done, literally date yourself! It can be a slow process and discouraging at times but I just want you or anyone else reading this to know it gets better. I hope this advice helps someone :)))
the "friends by default" thing is so real, since I've never really worked for most of the friends that I've had , so I'm not used to reaching out and starting relationships
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@@cheesecake2048 Yesss you get it! I still struggle it with to this day but it gets easier as you start to establish your friendships.
oh my god. thank u. i’ve always been able to make friends on my own but i seriously base my self worth and identity on friends. i made a lot of friends in freshman and sophomore year. then the groups became toxic, and rumors spread etc etc, so i was kinda dumped out and lost all my friends. i had to start again. i knew that i didn’t really fit well with the popular kids. so i just floated between a few people and had a lot of surface level friends. and then i found myself in a group again. i felt secure with them. but now we are all going our separate ways, i got depressed. i was getting very tense with my close friends. and none of my school friends/surface level friends really reached out to me much after my high school graduation. now i see myself alone as i am taking a break from my group, and i’m trying to reach out to those school people. i’m crawling out of my hole, but i’m not taking any time to care about myself and love myself. i don’t know a lot about myself anymore. this comment just gave me an awakening. i need to seriously find myself. i want to be secure when i enter college so i can have fun around people i care about and they care about me, but i also want to be able to care for myself and can focus on school and life. so thank you!!!
the transparency in this video really makes me feel like I'm not crazy. hearing people say "you're not alone. you have me." just doesn't help the way they think it dies. and this video really describes that perfectly.
no cause this is literally what scares me about talking abt how I feel 😭. i don't want ppl to be like "well what about me" cause that just makes me feel like a bad person.
I love that you aren’t afraid to be honest about life after graduation. As a Junior in college, I think about life after I graduate all of the time. I don’t think enough influencers speak on it. Thank you, Aliyah!🤍🧚🏾♀️
as a 2nd year Computer Science student in uni, my major alone comes with a lot of isolation. being glued to a screen the whole day as well as having tons of assignments and assessments back to back really leaves me with little to no time sometimes to interact with my friends. sure there would be times when i'm able to hang out with them but that would be before i have to dive into more work. ngl, having all this going on as well as staying in my own place, when i take a step back from the work i've been doing, i do feel lonely. don't get me wrong, i like being in my own space and coming to nothing and no one at the end of the day; yet i try to remind myself sometimes that "you can be alone and not lonely" but that's not always the case most of the time. i do know and hope things would get better.
I graduated in 2021, and I ABSOLUTELY understand this. Especially when you were talking about how you were trying to get people together to celebrate. I didn’t celebrate myself because I felt like my accomplishments weren’t important enough to other people. Only ONE of my friends even came to visit, and it broke me. I’m the loneliest I’ve ever been, and it’s crazy.
This video made me feel so safe and valid. I also just graduated from college (UNC Chapel Hill) and have been in the same feeling, of loneliness. No friends, family and boyfriend who love me, like yes. You are definitely not alone in how you’re feeling and it’s so incredibly valid.
I definitely felt this.. it's harder when you're 30yrs and you're trying to start over and make new friends... I get you!
I can definitely relate as a recent graduate feeling alone is the toughest thing I’ve been having to deal with! Thank you for being vulnerable and having a space where we can be open.
I completely understand about the friend thing. I’m 23, a year out of college, and I’m still trying to find my friend group
Felt this! Recent highschool grad and the feeling crept in super early my senior year. I had only two classes, and due to a district wide schedule change, the classes were short. I was at school for an hour and a half, with one class being an elective and the other, one that I was already taking online through a local college. I hardly saw anyone. I would sit at home in silence since my brothers were at school, my parents were at work, and my friends still at school. I realized I had good "individual" friends, who I've also known for years, but no "group", too. Now with college around the corner, I'll be going in as a junior and the feeling is harsher than ever. Before covid, I could make friends easily. But after such forced isolation and realizing we all grew up, I just don't have any gas left in my tank :(.
I’m so grateful that you made this video because I feel the exact same way. There are times where I feel lonely as hell and feel that I have no one to hang out with and make connections with. But, I have to remind myself that I am going to find my community and build genuine relationships with the people that align with me. I also feel that a lot of my friendships over the years have been really surface level and I have never gotten very close to someone like that with people outside of my family. Just know that it’s okay to feel lonely and you are going to find your community.
This is why I love your channel. I can relate to you so much. I transferred to an HBCU about 2 years ago and I’m heading to my senior year this fall. I have no friends. I have acquaintances. I’ve hung out with some people sometimes, but there is no one that I feel close with to talk on FaceTime, hang out with on a daily, or vent to. I feel so alone. I feel like my entire life, I never fit in. I always feel like the odd one out. I have this last year to try and make some friends..but I wanna give up. I’ve tried so many things like joining organizations (later dropping them though), and putting myself out there but still find myself lonely. I’m scared of how it will be when I graduate. I can’t imagine completely losing a community and trying to cope.
I feel you on so many levels because this is how I currently feel after graduating high school this past fall. It was like I had friends but they weren’t really my “friends”. You are definitely understood and we appreciate you girl💗
TEARS. this vid was really raw and i promise you, ur not alone in this. i’m entering a scary transition myself and you really put all my thoughts into words with this video. i feel so seen and heard and i’m so excited for this series!!
I just graduated with my Masters and I work from home. I completely identify with what you spoke about. I spiraled into a depressive episode (I have bipolar as well) and I am just now starting to come out on the other side of it slowly but surely. What I will say is that it's amazing that you can identify the source of your state at such a young age. You have an amazing level of self-awareness that will help you tremendously as you continue to navigate through your life. You will continue to grow through this and come out stronger.
Yes this is really me after highschool feeling very low , sad , loneliness. But how I got over it was forcing my self to get dress outside and do things by my self I was not easy for me but I am getting alot better now.
Literally how I've been feeling lately. I really only have like 2-3 friends but they all have their own group of friends which in my opinion they seem closer to. On top of recently getting out of a relationship, I was left to deal with all my overwhelming thoughts and feelings on my own because I don't really have anybody I can just go to about my feelings or emotions. I tried journaling multiple times but it doesn't really feel the same as actually interacting with someone and getting feedback or just hearing reassurance. But continuously reminding myself that I'm strong and can get through anything regardless of who's in my corner. I am trying to be more social to find new people to hang with though!
Aliyah! I'm a quiet watcher but you've created this amazing community. Though we don't know you personally, we all come to your channel to watch you and support you. I feel the same way even with my "friends" now. Having a community as an adult can be difficult when we're all making our own decisions and moving through life at our own pace. I'm going into my 5th year of college and I've realized all the close friends I had in high school were due to proximity. We all had an organization or class that forced us to be around each other. Maybe now that you've graduated you should find a hobby that brings you out the house! Maybe even start a discord for your subscribers and talk to us every once in a while! You are brave for your honesty :)
girl i completely get you. I’ve only once in my entire life have had a “community” and I lost it when covid hit. Ever since then, even though I’ve had people that I’d considered friends, I’ve never had MY people yk and i just feel so lost as well because if I’ve gone so much time in my life without a community and have always been in the perfect setting to make my own, then wtf is wrong with me yk 💀😭. like it should’ve happened by now but i totally get you girl.
i love it when you're real with us and when you branch out your content
thank you for being so raw & also letting me know that i am not alone.
I have never resonated with a video more in my life. Thank you for sharing how you feel and allowing us to realize there are others who feel the exact same way ❤️
i have never related to something more. It like hurts that i don’t have a community this far in my life and seeing my boyfriend have that and all of my individual family members having that it makes me feel as though i’m doing something wrong. Thank you for sharing, and making me feel less alone🫶🏼
I love this new series 🫶 your feelings are so real and thank you for getting vulnerable for us! I didn’t have those feelings post grad but I felt this way after I started commuting. love you 💕
I was trying to figure out how I feel about being out of school and this video kind of summed it up perfectly. I hope things get better for you and I’m glad to know I’m not alone in feeling like this
I love this , it’s in your vulnerability that you gain the most strength ❤
Hey Aliyah, I really appreciate your vulnerability when it comes to topics like this it's refreshing to see creators be honest with their audience 🤗 I hope you'll be able to get through this rough patch ❤
Aweee 🥺🥺 so sorry your going through this. I wish I could give you a hug. Praying things get better for you ❤️
I feel extremely similar. Thank you so much for posting this. This phase of life feels so so isolating and honestly often hopeless and it's so relieving to know that I am not alone with this feeling, that there are others like me and that however things may look like right now, or how alone I feel at this moment, I will find my people and connect with them, and we'll form deep and lasting relationships. Saying this to everyone feeling the same and to myself aswell, we'll get through this okay❤Your feelings are so valid, you are so loved. Stay strong bestie❤
Aliyah thank you for being vulnerable and sharing, not only have you help others, but you will always find answers for things you feel is not right now.
The way I’m crying while cleaning and watching this video! I completely understand you because it’s the same feeling that I’ve been feeling since second semester of senior year. When I graduated high school in May, I was excited for the summer because I had two trips planned, but other than that I was like wtf am I going to do with my life until August when school starts? Even then I feel like I don’t have any friends besides my two best friends and my coworkers. I feel like everybody that’s my age that I know is at a completely different stage in life than I am because I’m going into college as a junior because I did early college. This is one of the hardest transitions and as much as it sucks it makes me feel better to know I’m not alone in this experience.
not "i've been left with" but "what i have the opportunity to find out about who i am. prayer for you aliyah 🫶🏿, and happy prideeee
thank you so much for this video, sometimes it’s hard to grasp on the fact that there are more people dealing with similar issues as us i feel like this helped me a lot
Been feeling the same way honestly. Being in your own space alone makes you really reflect on your life and kinda just cause yourself unnecessary stress. As recent graduate from college, this shit really ain’t easy but as long as you’re trying that’s all that matters fr. Luv ya 🫶🏽 keep your head up
Hang in there! We're here for you. I graduated college in December, and I went through this too. Like you said, it'll get better :) love you!
I just graduated high school and I really resonate with this video and how you feel. I have never been good at making friends and maintaining friendships and now I find myself consumed by my loneliness and the thought of not having anyone, it really makes it hard to want to do anything at all. I don't feel like I know who I am and I don't know what to do anymore but hearing this made me feel less alone so thank you so much I really needed this today.
So glad you SPOKE on this girly bc honestly when I graduated in 2021 I was nervous ASL…being in high school I went though ups and downs due to the fact I was lost on what I wanted to do in my life…I had so many emotions and I cried so many tears and went though frustration . !
wow im so glad to hear this really makes me feel not alone especially with the no community part im thankful I manifested tha u get your true community i really appreciate this video
I really appreciate you for posting this because it makes me feel not alone. I also use recently graduated from college and May & I also my moments when I feel lonely at times. Like I have friends but they all have their friend groups outside of our friendship, so similar to you I sometimes wish I had a friend group/community.
I've been going through the same thing for the past 6 months and you explained it so well. It's quite the roller-coaster of emotions because one moment you're okay with "being alone" then one moment you feel like all you want is to go out and have fun with your special people but then realize you still don't have anybody.
I feeling the same way right now and this definitely helps. Much Love & I hope it gets better for everyone
i’m glad i’m not the only one who feels this way!!
i’m glad you’re talking about this. i recently left my jobs and took a break from school to focus on my channel full time! also moved out on my own recently and i feel so alone a lot of the time. i’m kinda far from family and my friends are all busy with their own jobs
This video really hit home for me bc although I’m in college and graduate Dec 2023 (hopefully) I feel so lonely, I have friends but I feel like I’m always going above and beyond and everyone forgets about me and it’s been really hitting home lately. Ig this feeling comes from really adulting and life hitting all at once :( but we don’t deserve to feel this way.
I know you haven’t been into reading as much as you used to but maybe joining a simple book club or doing fun ideas w other photographers that way you could get out the house, meet new ppl, learn as you go and potentially make life long friends ❤️ but I will say, I know we weren’t there w you in person but we r your community and we love and appreciate you sm!!
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Thank you so much for this!!! The way you worded not having friends and feeling lonely as not having a "community" is the perfect word for it. I just graduated college too and have lost a lot of "friends" and have never really had a community since high school. It's nice to feel that I'm not alone in this feeling. Hopefully, we'll both find our community soon.
FELTT!! I also just graduated in May and postponed Grad school to next year and now there’s this like “what’s next?” feeling. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing feelings that resonate with sooo many. You’re def not alone with this girly!!
Hey Aliyah! I hate that you're feeling this way, but I also appreciate your bravery to still post this video. As a high-school grad with dual enrollment credits I related to this video so much. I know we will get through this step by step, even if it is challenging. I'm just happy to know that I have a community here so I don't feel alone. I love you girly, you got this and don't give up on yourself 😘
This is literally how i felt graduating from highschool cuz although i had my friends and we were a friend group, it felt like it was breaking apart by grad :/ thanks for being vulnerable with us Aliyah🤍
the community and people relating in the comments is so heartwarming. i completely resonate with that feeling of loneliness, especially during the summer when im away from school and school friends. hope it gets better for us all ❤
omg i feel you so badddd on this!! after graduating high school last year and attending my first year of college, i've genuinely never felt so alone. i had my friend group from high school, but once summer hit, there was an immediate shift. i felt extremely out of touch and disconnected from everyone. i didn't feel seen. it's quite literally one of the worst feelings ever. i'm glad im not the only one feeling this way and i hope we both feel better about this soon. tons of respect for you to speak about this in front of thousands of people. you're not alone aliyah or anyone else reading this !!
this video is truly well spoken. thank you for this comforting video :)
You are not alone feeling this way hun dw! Feeling a little lost after such a major accomplishment such a graduation is completely normal. I also felt myself spiraling and wondering how I was going to make friends, attend events, and enjoy activities with others after graduating college, especially as an introvert! Things will get better I promise you❤ Continue to be yourself, do what you love, and put yourself out there and the right people will gravitate towards you. 💞 Good luck with everything :)
I love you so so much Aliyah🥺💗 I pray that you’ll find an amazing community of friends that genuinely care about you and support every amazing thing you do!!
i understand feeling alone and i am so glad you were so vulnerable about not knowing what to do about it. About a year ago I felt the most alone and depressed because I felt like no one would understand what I was going through so I took up praying and being open with God, even though I never really knew Him, and it truly helped me feel less alone. With that I got into church and making friends in that community and it's help me so much with finding my identity and creating a community I can trust! It really helps if your open to trying it out!
i resonated with this so much, especially right now. i had very close friends from high school that actually told me they didn’t want to be friends with me anymore and that knocked me down so bad but we will get back up my love❤️
This video was so raw and so aliyah…. I feel that I will absolutely love this series❤
I definitely understand how you feel and I'm glad that your being transparent with your subscribers and trusting us with how your feeling. I've been in a situation just like yours and it took a lot of self strength to get me through it. I know a lot of people have probably already said this but hang in there. I know how it feels to feel like you don't have people in your corner, and making new long lasting friends can be hard, but from what I see on CZcams your a fun person and I know that anyone would love to be your friend. I'm sorry that your going through this and hopefully when you make it out the other end your stronger.
I love how vulnerable you are able to get with us❤️ I have watched your videos forrreeevvveerr and I have seen you accomplished soo many amazing things throughout the years and also seen you at some very low points that you have been able to share with us 🫶🏼 with that being said, one thing about Ms.Aliyah Simone is that she’s gonna push through and come out on top ☺️‼️ You are such an inspiration for me as a 19 year old girl finding her way through the world and I truly appreciate you and all of your content ❤️ All that to say you will get through this 🥰🫶🏼 and though your fans are not with you in person, just know that we got your back 😙🫶🏼‼️ Love you lots girly💕💕💕
as a recent grad I felt very second of this .. post grad can definitely be s trying time, but you got this! the best advice I can give you is to use this time to travel..go out and see the world and make some memories while you have the freedom .. never forget you are loved and appreciated
I’m glad you’re speaking on this. I’ve struggled with loneliness and feeling like I didn’t have my own community for years. I have college friends but deep down I always felt like they weren’t really my friends you know. They have they’re own friends outside of me and I really have no one. And this feeling has really gotten worse since I graduated in May. I constantly feel like my life is at a standstill and I’m just motionless watching the world go on without me. And Ik I should really talk to someone about how I feel but again I don’t feel like I have the environment or the relationships to do that because it’s not easy for me to open up to people.
also received my undergrad in May *solo high-five* and the fact that I'm not alone in this genuinely makes me feel better so I hope it makes someone else feel better too and congrats to all my 2023 grads!
Thank you for talking about this! This needs to be addressed more in society because I felt the same way when I graduated high school and college and it was a lot to deal with. Its not only difficult keeping in communication with your friends and dealing with change but also hard as hell to make new one friends too. Trust issues be real 😅😭 I'm still on the "who am I?" part of my life, years later...
I feel exactly what you feel. Been feeling like this since high school and I’m in my 4th year of college. I try to put myself in front of people and hopefully be “accepted” but people aren’t open to let people into their friend groups. And the group of friends I have in my major are always busy with the same things I’m busy with: School, work, studying, exams and no one has time for each other. I recently broke up with my bf, so I truly don’t have anyone anymore. I just wish I had someone to call and text randomly and talk to and relate to and have fun experiences with. It’s really hard, all I have rn is my cat. I just hope this changes for us. Thank you for sharing, at least you make me feel not alone 🤎
Literally felt this this whole day thanks for for sharing !
Genuinely been going through some of these emotions ever since spring semester ended. im currently living on my own for the summer while taking classes and it has been the worst with me feeling isolated and literally not leaving my apartment unless it’s for class or to get some groceries. before the summer classes started i could not remember the last time i genuinely cried, and i held off from doing so despite wanting to break down multiple times. but eventually i had one, and man did it hurt. i also genuinely try to make friends during school but it’s almost like people don’t fwm fr lol. All i hope for for myself and everyone else going through this is that one day we can look back on these times knowing that we made it through and everything turned out alright..and man i cant wait for the day i can realize that
Aye I swear I needed this because! This is how am feeling and I have been feeling like this for a long time... I even broke up with my bf because of this but he was saying this was not a good enough reason to break up... this is why I knew breaking up with him was the choice I had to make... nowadays I try to force myself to do what I love but I don't know mayne it's alot... but you speaking on this is some am so grateful for.
I’m forever proud of you and I’m always here for you 🥺❤️ .. also uhmmmm THE AUDIO is amazing 🫶🏼
always here for some good aliyah content🙌🏾
so happy you talked about it🤍🤍
Very therapeutic, from the setting to your words :) Thank you love
What you talked about, about feeling like you don't have that go to, got your back, primary friend group is what I'm going through and have been going through. I feel like everyone has their dynamic friend group they know they can jamg with and be with, and here I am, knowing I have friends, but scheduling makes it hard and does make you feel alone.
no girl cause same, i've cried sm recently bc it's super hard to find people to relate to or hangout with. we'll get through this bby
Aliyah, as soon as I saw this video I already knew how it was gonna be because about 90% of this video is EXACTLY how I've been feeling (differences being I'm still in hs and I don't have a boyfriend 😭). Most of my recent crying sessions are because of how lonely I feel, and the helplessness that comes along with not knowing how to make friends. It almost feels embarrassing to admit that I'm bad at making and keeping friends, especially since everyone I know seems so good at it. I know SO many people at my school, but you explaining the superficial part was really validating. Deep down I know that there are ppl I could reach out to who would support me, but once that's over they'd go back to their lives that don't involve me and I want something much deeper than a one-time vent session. Everyone I know and/or would call my friend has a whole group that I'm not involved in, and no matter how hard I try I can never deepen relationships that I have. They're all so circumstantial, and once the circumstances are taken away then what? Nothing. There are 2 or three people who I know would call me their friend but none of them live close to me so I can't even lean on them for anything. This sense of loneliness will hit me at the most random times, but especially whenever people will call me their "bestie" or tell me that they love me cause I always feel like they're lying cause they'll say that but never text me. Not only that but then I'll get to thinking that it's probably my fault since I don't text anyone, which is mostly because I'm scared people are gonna think I'm annoying for wanting to hang out with them.
TL;DR THis whole loneliness thing is a whole cycle that's generally really hard to express, but regardless thank you for making this video cause you def brought together a whole group of people that feel the same as you, which helps me to remember that you're never truly alone and everything will get better with time
i’ve been feeling just like this and it is totally normal! this may be a new season in your life that’s starting and a lot of time is opened up for God now. go to him when you’re lonely, he can fill that empty place for you aliyah❤.
I have never related to a video more 🥺 it’s so difficult making friends as an adult and it doesn’t help when you work your own schedule and you’re working from home. School was such a huge part of my life and it was so easy to feel lonely and isolated because I didn’t have my own friends outside of my partner.
First of all i felt like i was listening to a podcast😌❤
Second of all, I really enjoyed this
Im going in my senior year of college and I already feel the way you did and/or are. I felt like I was journaling rn (thru this video) cuz I've been so down writing made things worse and I felt soo lazy to even journal in the first place
Love u girl..here for ya and thank you for sharing it's made me realize I do need someone to talk to and not just keep things to myself ❤
You’re definitely not alone ❤❤❤ I just graduated HS and don’t really have friends to hang with and its been hard for me to find a summer job or a job in general. Also it’s been hard being productive and not having money to buy a new camera kit to continue taking sports photos. Hopefully you find that spark and friend/friend group that will support you 🫶🏼
This wholeee video put into words on how I feel!!
I totally recommend looking up community events or activities in the area!! :) i love finding Saturday markets and community events at parks etc :) it’s a nice way to meet new people and feel connected to the space around you:) and!!! It’s also really cool if you recreation centers and sign up for classes like dance, art classes, or ways to go and volunteer :) those were definitely my favorite growing up and having things to do outside of school ❤ I hope this helps
I needed this video. I haven’t started college yet bc with everything going on both with the world and my personal life. I haven’t had the will to, ik college is already a lot in its own so putting that on top of what I already have on my plate I’m trying not to let myself fail or feel like I’m gonna fail in life.
The vulnerability. Aliyah Thank you. First and foremost. Secondly, not having a community or a “person” definitely relatable. At 19 it’s uncomfortable, but I feel like it’s coming. The people are coming. While change isn’t your favorite, the things that happen from here on out will all be in your best intrest and suitable to you❤. We got this!
I feel this same way. Especially after graduating high-school, I noticed only certain friends stuck around and many others prioritized others (that they claimed they heavily disliked). And during college, instead of paying attention to red flags I ignored them to keep the peace between everyone. That didn’t work and I had to leave two friend groups. I ended up making two good friends though, who I will hopefully stay in touch with in the future. I’m trying to unsure what society has taught us what friendships should look like and learning to be a lot more comfortable with being by myself. Also, learning how to strengthen the relationships to between my family and me. And, trying not to use people to fill some lonely void I have and actually enjoy the people I’m around :) I get into depressive episodes, but always try to remain positive.
I’m still in school, but we’re the same age and I feel the exam same way. Craving human interaction and connection but not having any form of real community. Also being in that phase of not knowing who I want to be or what I want to do/my purpose. It’s such a difficult time period and it feels like life starts playing on an endless loop of nothingness. But I’m hoping it’ll turn around for you and anyone else who feels this way🤍
Hey Aliyah! First off, thank you for being vulnerable and real. I just finished my sophomore year of college and now I am a junior. I just want to let you know that you are most definitely not alone. I felt the same way and sometimes still do but recently I have discovered a lot of life lessons that have help me to over come this feeling. 1) I know that I am going to be a wife and a mother someday and I might never have as much alone time as I have now so I cherish it and make sure I try to get a lot of my bucket list checked off asap 2) the way I found my community is through my core values ( because superficial relationships can’t get deep because there is no core morals to drive into) I am a Christian being a Christian is a core part of me and I know you can def have superficial Christian friends but finding people that have the same core values or interest as you makes it easier 3) get out of your house you never know you can meet your core friends/ community in the bathroom of a grocery store 4) volunteering/helping others always makes me feel good it’s a win win 5) seeing loneliness as not being alone but a time of discovering more about yourself and your potential and more. 6) Gratitude. 7) Jesus ( sry I just had to plug him in there ❤) You have accomplished so many things in such a short amount of time you can overcome anything that comes your way don’t let depression slow you down and take up your 20’s. Love ya ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I am still in school. About to be a sophomore in college. But I feel you 100% I understand how you feel and where you’re coming from. 😔❤ here is a virtual hug 🫂💕
I know exactly how you feel, having friends but no solid friend group. Especially now in the summer when there's no school and I don't see them everyday it's harder to reach out to them
excellent video - raw and very real. I know exactly how you feel. In the midst of it myself.
I recently just graduated from highschool, but I have been feeling this way for months, but yesterday was my graduation ceremony and the feeling just flooded my brain, all those self pity thoughts came, I tried to ignore it but once I talked about them I felt better, I felt like there’s so much more to be grateful for, why be stuck in the only thing I don’t have right now, one day I’ll my people but maybe right know it’s just not the time, I do crave the sense of community but I can’t force it, the only thing I can do is put myself out there and search for it
This would be a great podcast Fr!!
Especially the friends thing I remember going though a phase being in my feelings about no one texting me first I’m always texting first and my feelings were hurt …but Aliyah I’m here to say I love you always ik I say that a lot but I truly love who you are and you are really inspiring and motivating to people like me and others who look up to you as a role model we are here for you !!
I feel the same way too, I always be one texting first and I be feeling some type of way but I've learned to just deal with it. People will give you signs on if they want to be around you or not. You could also try bringing the topic up in the nicest way possible and see what goes from there.
this is exactly how i’ve been feeling put into words omg like i have friends but all of them have separate circles that they’re closer with but i just have them. i love them and ik they love me but we’ll never be as close as they are w their other friends……then part of me thinks i don’t have close relationships bc i’m prone to isolation 😞 such a struggle
yessss with the post grad series 🙏🙏🤩🤩
I literally had a depressive episode the end of 2022 after trying to pretend i was okay with surface level friendships for a YEAR after being torn away from the first community i felt i had. I also had to start online school for health related issues and the loneliness is crazy, i’m so bad at communicating sometimes but being so deprived of social interaction can drive you crazy!! A few weeks ago i reached out to a friend one that felt like pretty surface level and i went over their house and met their family which was nice, we obviously didn’t become best friends that fast but when I came over next we were more comfortable, and i’m going over again this week. I think reaching out to those types of friends can help not driving yourself crazy alone at least temporarily, real relationships take time though which is aggravating it can feel like your behind and just literally like you said, you have no one. Apparently looking around after a while u can notice other people having these groups and family that they talk to and see OFTEN like their go to people and wonder where yours are. honestly i didn’t realize how many people had that until long ago but i think that eventually we could both have that if we find people who genuinely wanna be friends with us (ik this might sound like young idk immature), but you can even meet ppl online and find them irl. i’m struggling still and i don’t even feel like trying sometimes, sometimes it’s aggravating because why do i have to try this hard to have people, but i think it might end well. lmao idk but until then for me and you just know your not the only one.