Kyle Spratt - Suicide note (lyrics)

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  • @karishmabanahar6145
    @karishmabanahar6145 Před 4 lety +2726

    Not afraid to die just afraid I'll survive

  • @materialgworl9910
    @materialgworl9910 Před 4 lety +2865

    My depression want me to die but my anxiety is scared to

    • @Storm-ki8fy
      @Storm-ki8fy Před 4 lety +34

      The exact same with me

    • @suzykramer459
      @suzykramer459 Před 4 lety +18

      Same here..

    • @aurorawilson5900
      @aurorawilson5900 Před 4 lety +7

      Same here

    • @bluewolf7479
      @bluewolf7479 Před 4 lety +31

      Ikr my depprison got the better of me one night and i got a rope but then my anxiety relized that no one knows what is on the other side and i just thought i would break my moms heart and i just couldn't bring my slef to drop the chair

    • @lilksx3450
      @lilksx3450 Před 4 lety +3

      Too😓

  • @boombox1916
    @boombox1916 Před 3 lety +565

    “why are you always on your phone?”
    “why are you always in your room?”
    “why can’t you go out and socialize?”
    “why are you always wearing this?”
    “why don’t you just try this?”
    “why are you getting mad so easily?”
    “why don’t you hang out with your real-life friends instead of your online friends?”
    “you have to get an A+!!!”
    “just why!?!”
    Their Child’s Mind:
    “i’m trying my best.”
    “i can’t go and socialize that easily... they’re going to judge me!”
    “i’m scared.”
    “i’m hopeless. useless. worthless.”
    “do you love me?”
    “who am i..”
    “why can’t i enjoy the things i used to enjoy before...”
    “i’m never gonna be good-enough. i swear i’m trying! but.... i’m just hopeless.. maybe that’s why i’m always failing..”
    “i’m just a stupid failure..

    • @reetasharma168
      @reetasharma168 Před 3 lety +12

      This is not even what parents and child think it's whole society and a person if you know what I mean

    • @imbored2897
      @imbored2897 Před 3 lety +14

      you are NOT a stupid failure. please don’t believe those lies...

    • @Necrodzentelmenel1
      @Necrodzentelmenel1 Před 3 lety +9

      @@imbored2897
      But what if i am?

    • @imbored2897
      @imbored2897 Před 3 lety +9

      @@Necrodzentelmenel1 ABSOLUTELY. NO. ONE. ON THIS GODDAMN EARTH. IS. A FAILURE. you can argue with me all you want, but it’s true. you can’t let the lies tear you down. You are beautiful. You are worth it. You are strong. You are amazing. And you deserve the world. And that’s on periodt

    • @Necrodzentelmenel1
      @Necrodzentelmenel1 Před 3 lety +4

      @@imbored2897
      I admire your will to help, but you won't change facts.

  • @chloex1741
    @chloex1741 Před 3 lety +303

    To everyone up there, who thought this was them failing, you didn’t, the world failed you, RIP❤️

    • @theharshtruthoutthere
      @theharshtruthoutthere Před rokem

      Psalms 27:10
      “When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.”
      “For the LORD God is a sun and shield: the LORD will give grace and glory: no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly.”
      Psalms 84:11 (KJV)
      Testimonys: /if Christianity is just another religion, then there be no Testimonys. Truth be told: THERE IS. Therefore rejoice for CHRISTIANITY IS REALITY NOT ANOTHER RELIGION.
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      Deuteronomy 11:22 | View whole chapter | See verse in context For if ye shall diligently keep all these commandments which I command you, to do them, to love the LORD your God, to walk in all his ways, and to cleave unto him;
      Deuteronomy 4:2 | View whole chapter | See verse in context Ye shall not add unto the word which I command you, neither shall ye diminish ought from it, that ye may keep the commandments of the LORD your God which I command you.
      John 15:10 | View whole chapter | See verse in context If ye keep my commandments, ye shall abide in my love; even as I have kept my Father's commandments, and abide in his love.
      Know and understand the difference between working one`s way to heaven and Loving GOD back.
      John 14:15 | View whole chapter | See verse in context If ye love me, keep my commandments.
      That verse have the word "work" in it, what that means?
      Philippians 2:12 | View whole chapter | See verse in context Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.
      It means to build up and keep alive the once lost relationship between you and GOD.
      I truly believe that none of you haven`t bother to start learning the BIBLE nor have any of you received the COMFORTER.
      Ecclesiastes 4:1 | View whole chapter | See verse in context So I returned, and considered all the oppressions that are done under the sun: and behold the tears of such as were oppressed, and they had no comforter; and on the side of their oppressors there was power; but they had no comforter. Lamentations 1:9 | View whole chapter | See verse in context Her filthiness is in her skirts; she remembereth not her last end; therefore she came down wonderfully: she had no comforter. O LORD, behold my affliction: for the enemy hath magnified himself. John 15:26 | View whole chapter | See verse in context But when the Comforter is come, whom I will send unto you from the Father, even the Spirit of truth, which proceedeth from the Father, he shall testify of me: John 14:26 | View whole chapter | See verse in context But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you. John 16:7 | View whole chapter | See verse in context Nevertheless I tell you the truth; It is expedient for you that I go away: for if I go not away, the Comforter will not come unto you; but if I depart, I will send him unto you.
      A wise soul, studies the BIBLE also not just read it. For we read a lot, yet understand little to none at all. It`s when we start studying - then the wisdom start taking place.

    • @Shouta_aizawa101
      @Shouta_aizawa101 Před rokem +1

      you alive?

    • @chloex1741
      @chloex1741 Před rokem +3

      @@Shouta_aizawa101 i am :)

    • @Shouta_aizawa101
      @Shouta_aizawa101 Před rokem +3

      @@chloex1741 that’s good

  • @Abby-xj5wl
    @Abby-xj5wl Před 6 lety +3373

    I'm not afraid of dying. I'm afraid of what comes after.

  • @shubhamshewale510
    @shubhamshewale510 Před 4 lety +3315

    They say - It gets better
    They mean - you'll get used to it

    • @allison279
      @allison279 Před 4 lety +34

      That's what it feels like anyways.

    • @ossamatanjaoui3820
      @ossamatanjaoui3820 Před 4 lety +20

      I don't think we'll be able to get use to this

    • @Black-rw4og
      @Black-rw4og Před 4 lety +13

      @@ossamatanjaoui3820 it does, and it will.
      I know a couple people who felt this way, and they ended up becoming the most positive people I know.
      And I know offing your self may seem better in the short term, but who knows what comes next.

    • @ossamatanjaoui3820
      @ossamatanjaoui3820 Před 4 lety +13

      @@Black-rw4og yeah you're kinda right but i'm almost sure that those couple of people are just acting so nobody asks them how are they doing

    • @livewellwitheds6885
      @livewellwitheds6885 Před 4 lety +4

      you can never get used to this pain. they lie, like always

  • @amandas_1210
    @amandas_1210 Před rokem +54

    My brother committed suicide 5 years ago and I still visit his grave and bring him presents and write him letters. I love him so much and miss him forever. Once he died I developed an eating disorder and depression, just about 4 months ago I've started to recover. People do care, and suicide effects people, my mom had to walk in and see him on the floor with a bullet in his head, now she has PTSD. She cries a lot because of him, she is struggling with depression and bipolar disorder. My twin brother misses him a lot, he visits his grave with me, and he even wrote a rap about are brother. All his friends miss him. Every year we host a party on his birthday and all his friends and family come, we write letters and send them on lanterns. You will never be forgotten and you make a change in this world, you effect so many people, and so many more people care for you than you imagine

  • @laughingdolphin5074
    @laughingdolphin5074 Před 3 lety +77

    My two favorite things are the night time and sleep. During the night time everything is quiet, you get to let your mind run as much as you want without anyone stopping it. And when we go to sleep it's like we get to take our life just without the commitment of unaliving ourselves.

    • @axel9820
      @axel9820 Před 3 lety +4

      You are so right, I love the night and being in the shower cause thats when I can be alone and not bothered by anyone. But when you wake up its likes ugh back to reality and sucks even more when you had a good dream.

    • @ryleemacdonald863
      @ryleemacdonald863 Před 3 lety +8

      There is a quote I like:
      "Sleep isn't sleep anymore. It's just an escape from reality~Unknown"

    • @Anime_Drawing_vent
      @Anime_Drawing_vent Před rokem

      Fr like my two fav things to do for those exact reasons

  • @jayspityparty
    @jayspityparty Před 6 lety +986

    A 10th Grader at our school committed suicide and no one cared. We put a memorial up for him and I was one of the only people who went to visit it. They took it down two days later. Shows how much people care.

    • @snowball_from_earth
      @snowball_from_earth Před 6 lety +77

      Yup. If I finally had the courage I'm sure it would be the same. Even if people cared in the beginning they would have forgotten it 2 weeks later.

    • @jayspityparty
      @jayspityparty Před 6 lety +19

      Kitty Cat I feel the same.

    • @jayspityparty
      @jayspityparty Před 6 lety +20

      Me Dicen Sonrisas Right! They make it sound like their so concerned.

    • @LWT27
      @LWT27 Před 5 lety +24

      That's what I think would happen if I killed myself.

    • @MLGRDR
      @MLGRDR Před 5 lety +65

      Hahahaha no one cares dude, people are fake. They act like they support causes and sad scenarios, but when it comes time for action, they'll sit back and do nothing

  • @renzllanos7892
    @renzllanos7892 Před 4 lety +2823

    Depression: I'm tired I want to die.
    Anxiety: but I'm scared of what comes after.

    • @xxsoli_astralxx
      @xxsoli_astralxx Před 4 lety +35

      sammeeee.stop. Go eat a good sandwich, and think deeply about each flavor going across your tongue. Try to interoperate those flavors with life. There will be some good ones, and some bad ones. The bad ones may stand out the most to you, but in the end it was the good ones that mattered most.

    • @nadza3265
      @nadza3265 Před 4 lety +28

      Me everyday .. sick of it

    • @xxsoli_astralxx
      @xxsoli_astralxx Před 4 lety +10

      @@nadza3265 lma sammeee, I only commented that 2 months ago, but I disagree with myself and wnna die more than ever AHAHAAHAhAHAShhahah... TwT

    • @kulaiahanson2930
      @kulaiahanson2930 Před 4 lety +19

      I wanna die to but l can't 😭😭

    • @gerrytheboy
      @gerrytheboy Před 4 lety +2

      There's more to do out there in the outside world

  • @goddesssabrina1405
    @goddesssabrina1405 Před 3 lety +40

    My mind tells me to die
    My heart tells me to try
    My lungs are too heavy to breathe
    My body is torn on both sides

  • @duckduckmoose9487
    @duckduckmoose9487 Před rokem +21

    I remember listening to this when i was 12 years old and i imagined i wouldnt even live to be 13, im 22 now and just found this song again. I wouldn't say that all my problems are gone, but ive realized that i can live through them ❤

    • @nevaehmusic1240
      @nevaehmusic1240 Před rokem +3

      I’m proud of you

    • @akt3037
      @akt3037 Před 8 měsíci

      Same here

    • @oliviafebres4650
      @oliviafebres4650 Před 6 měsíci +1

      It’s the same for me. I’ve been through hell since I last heard this and I’m happy I can finally relate to the final verse.

  • @moonchi_ld
    @moonchi_ld Před 5 lety +4070

    I go to sleep everynight wishing that I'll finally sleep forever.

  • @NBGXDimes
    @NBGXDimes Před 4 lety +1983

    Imagine all the depressed people who are still alive because anxiety is asking what comes after

    • @0.kunihoshigami.0
      @0.kunihoshigami.0 Před 4 lety +78

      It's weird cause I've been depressed for 3 years but my anxiety is so bad that I think about what comes after

    • @itzsam970
      @itzsam970 Před 4 lety +65

      That’s the one time anxiety helps

    • @enrichment9899
      @enrichment9899 Před 4 lety +35

      I don't need to imagine. It's the only reason I'm still here, although I did have a failed attempt from two years ago when I didn't think of a possible afterlife.

    • @NBGXDimes
      @NBGXDimes Před 4 lety +6

      CROSSWALD sometimes I wish the same thing but if you are actually a Christian and you get to heaven you wouldn’t even care anymore

    • @NBGXDimes
      @NBGXDimes Před 4 lety +2

      CROSSWALD I understand but I don’t want you to die that way

  • @monke771
    @monke771 Před 9 měsíci +9

    i love this song so much, because it really shows the inner conflict of how it'll never get better. But when you realise that there was actually someone out there who loved you and will miss you, you just want to turn back time and push through all that pain just for them.

  • @maddyyt6266
    @maddyyt6266 Před 3 lety +37

    Do people ever ask you why your not scared of anything and you just smile and say idk when really it’s because your not afraid of death and your only fear is staying alive? Or is that just me 🖤

  • @ej7325
    @ej7325 Před 4 lety +1898

    ONE of the most relatable things he said was:
    “I’ve been wishing to die ever since I was 9.”

    • @121blur8
      @121blur8 Před 4 lety +39

      I've been wishing to die when I was 5 and I still do but know I'm in middle School

    • @pamelaralston22
      @pamelaralston22 Před 4 lety +19

      They probably started when my cousin first molested me, I pretty much blocked out everything so it was somewhere between 6-8

    • @ej7325
      @ej7325 Před 4 lety +10

      Valeria Vences yeah to be honest I never liked life

    • @121blur8
      @121blur8 Před 4 lety +8

      @@ej7325 same expect that I found someone who cares about me now and I love him. Excpted I will never get to see him because he lives in Canada

    • @ej7325
      @ej7325 Před 4 lety +5

      Valeria Vences well that’s good and sucks at the same time

  • @bethanierobinson4688
    @bethanierobinson4688 Před 5 lety +3393

    It's funny how there's complete strangers who get us better than our closest family members or closest friends

  • @daytongvlogs5526
    @daytongvlogs5526 Před 3 lety +23

    The most part that relates to me is the part where it says you all act like you're looking out for me if you were looking out for me then I wouldn't about to be killing myself

  • @ImHellionixx
    @ImHellionixx Před 3 lety +38

    7 years ago, I had this song on repeat every day. I listened to it tonight and remembered how I used to feel. How everything in life hit me like a ton of bricks. How self harm was the only thing that reminded me I was breathing, the only time I could. How every day I was one step closer to planning my own demise. In 2018 I finally overdosed. I miraculously pulled through. It took 3 days of being on IV for my blood levels to stabilize, but then I was free to go home. But I didn’t feel as bad as I did before. I was at the point I needed to be to start to get better. Life didn’t get easier. It was me that got stronger. And today I still struggle from time to time with depression, anxiety, etc. I’m still on and off medications. But I haven’t cut in a year and a half, and today I’m sitting on the floor cursing at a crib set I’m trying to put together, and the proudest mother to the sweetest 5 month old baby girl.
    They really mean it when they say it gets better. But you NEED to put in the work. Imagine how difficult going from 300+ lbs to 130 lbs would be. That’s a lot of work. This is too. Please remember that always.

    • @HI-vk5wv
      @HI-vk5wv Před 3 lety +1

      Pog

    • @Jen_Findlay
      @Jen_Findlay Před 2 lety

      It got better for you.
      It won’t for everyone else

    • @ImHellionixx
      @ImHellionixx Před 2 lety +2

      @@Jen_Findlay That’s can be true, but I would just wish for anyone to not give up regardless. I’m in an entirely different place today than I was before. I’m still struggling daily of course, and nowhere near where I’d like to be. Some may even consider my progress minimal, but I’m trying to stay proud of me.
      I think all I wanted to say previously, but had trouble relaying.. is that everyone’s individual battles are fucking mountains. But they’re not impossible to climb, and a lot of times we really do need help to get up. Unfortunately, sometimes some people give up their climb.. Maybe they didn’t have the proper love and support from those around them, maybe there was an event they just felt they could never recover from, etc. I know the pain well, of wanting nothing more for my heart to stop and all the pain to stop, and I would take it all from anyone if I could. I just never want anyone to give up their climb, find the ropes to get up, make your own. Be your own reason to live, in spite, just because you’re sick and tired of the way things are, because you want to feel happy -because you deserve to. There is always a way, and no one should ever feel as if they’re better off dead.

    • @azml6424
      @azml6424 Před 2 lety

      Well, congratulations on the baby and I still hope your in a better state of mind now!

    • @iamnotyourun-epiccheeto1535
      @iamnotyourun-epiccheeto1535 Před rokem +1

      Maybe it can get better for me, but I don't really see myself becoming an adult. I don't feel like I can survive another 4+ years of this hellish bullshit. I'll try, I just don't know how long I can keep going for.

  • @phntminus3847
    @phntminus3847 Před 5 lety +1724

    I don’t wanna die, I just don’t want to live...
    Coming into this world wasn’t a choice, but leaving it is ...

  • @arcturus-mc2691
    @arcturus-mc2691 Před 3 lety +5

    who else is too tired to live but just not ready to die

  • @adreadoble2108
    @adreadoble2108 Před 3 lety +3

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I’m a 54 year old mixed race Canadian. You are able to voice the anger and sadness that so many of us experience but are unable to articulate. Perhaps you saved a life tonight.

  • @allenchase6033
    @allenchase6033 Před 6 lety +2942

    Life doesn't seem like a gift anymore. It seems more like a curse.

  • @rhec_27k57
    @rhec_27k57 Před 5 lety +684

    My mom always tells me to turn off my “depressing” music, it’s making me worse, but no it’s not. It’s keeping me from dying everyday. It’s what’s keeping me here.

    • @rainbowhearts3737
      @rainbowhearts3737 Před 4 lety +7

      I feel that

    • @endstardeadlock9006
      @endstardeadlock9006 Před 4 lety +6

      Yeah that's what I do but a this point it's pushing me further into wanting to at the same time but that's what I want for my feelings of compassion towards others to go away so I can just end it all I don't know what's next reincarnation heaven hell idk but whatever it is I doubt it could be worse than this

    • @urmom-dq4el
      @urmom-dq4el Před 4 lety +6

      Same, my mom says its "retarded" but its the only thing keeping me in this torturing thing called life

    • @blancamason2975
      @blancamason2975 Před 4 lety +3

      Same my mom says that everyday

    • @xxgoldenlunarxx9286
      @xxgoldenlunarxx9286 Před 4 lety +6

      Yes! Everyone thinks that it makes it worse but it's what actually helps us understand that others feel the same way and we all want to die but complete strangers and sad songs keep us alive

  • @Gothpumpkin
    @Gothpumpkin Před 2 měsíci +1

    I found this song when I was 12 years old, and it impacted me greatly. The way it switches up to “I CAN picture myself as a grown man” and ends on that lighter note. Anyways, I’m 25 now. It does get better. I’ve worked so hard on myself and I can say I am happy to be here on this earth now. Don’t get me wrong I still have hard days, my depression certainly isn’t gone, but it’s completely manageable. Thank you Kyle for this banger, I think about you and hope you are doing so well man

  • @kody4983
    @kody4983 Před rokem +7

    I used to listen to this song when I was 15 on repeat and I would cry myself to sleep to it. One failed attempt, sh recovery and 5 years later I am the happiest I’ve ever been. Even though I’m still on medication and I feel like there’s no point sometimes it’s the thought that I wouldn’t have done what I’ve done and met who I’ve met past age 15. I never would have graduated highschool and been able to leave all that behind to start a new life with the loml

  • @heyitslivvy5142
    @heyitslivvy5142 Před 4 lety +712

    It's actually depressing that I'm here at 2am listening to this after googling painless suicide

    • @inesemadara5815
      @inesemadara5815 Před 4 lety +16

      Same here

    • @savvvv069
      @savvvv069 Před 4 lety +39

      HeyItsLivvy overdosing is the easiest way to go
      Edit: I wasn’t being serious, overdosing could end up not killing you and put you in coma, honestly there isn’t a way you can kill yourself without it atleast hurting a little, when I overdosed I took 9/10 Klonopins, I was in a drunken state but I still overdosed, it’s not fun. Don’t go straight to suicide as a answer just because you can’t find answers to all your problems yet, little by little you’ll figure out those answers, speaking from personal experience it will take awhile, I’m still struggling with not cutting myself, you can only truly get better if you want too, therapists only want to give you medication, they don’t care, they get they’re paychecks whether we kill ourselves or not so that means y’all have to depend on yourself to get better.

    • @ladysweetzredz1822
      @ladysweetzredz1822 Před 4 lety +19

      HeyItsLivvy what’s sad is when you call your local suicide hotline and explain you feeling down. And they reply this is an emergency hot line if you feel like you can’t control yourself then call back.

    • @bandugunasena2802
      @bandugunasena2802 Před 4 lety +12

      Hey listen,
      Its okay to hurt.
      Just breathe
      I know you dont know me,
      And this probably sounds cliche , but
      Your not alone. All this bullshit is gonna blow over. Things are going to get better. Shit is going to happen. Bit they will always get better. Okay?
      I know you dont know me, but
      If your alone there, just know that just like the end of this song, suicide doesnt end the way we hope. I know it feels like the only option at times. But that moment when you cant take shit anymore .... thats the moment everything starts to get better. This your monsters will shut up.
      I think the most important thing is sharing. And not with these fake friends who dont actually give a daamn about us, but with yourself . Admit your hurt. Write it down. Cry it out. And tell yourself -
      "Life treats me like shit. But i will not abandon myself. I will hold my hand and walk myself through this hell hole." Cuz Winsten churchill said-"if your going through Hell, keep going" dont stop going. One day you will get out of there i promise.
      No matter how much hate people throw at you. Dont let that pain turn into negative things. Use it to get stronger. Like a clay cup burning in a hot oven. Surrounded by flames and imense heat. In the end it comes out stronger and more firm.
      Livvy, i know these words seem like things you have heard a million times. And like when google assistant tells you "your not alone" when you search easy ways to suicide . But, i really meant every word.
      There are many people struggling to live for another hour as we speak. Laying in hospital beds. Im not saying your a bad person. Cuz ive been there. I understand your every word. And yiu have every right to dislike life. Its the shitty way life has treated you.
      But remember you cant have a new beginning now. What has happened has already happened. But you can start now and have a brand new end.
      Please please be strong. And one day, when you return that kitchen knife you are hiding in your desk back to the kitchen. Help someone else who is going through it. We might not have the same stories but the shit that hurt is fucking real. So be strong. Your not alone. Get through this. And help someone get through depression as well.
      Lets all heal eachother .

    • @kieanahanlon4509
      @kieanahanlon4509 Před 4 lety +3

      HeyItsLivvy I was in that place two months ago, I overdosed, fell peacefully and woke up in a hospital with my fiancé next to me crying his eyes out. I promise you it’s really not worth it. I hope you’re doing better❤️

  • @transparantcowboywombat
    @transparantcowboywombat Před 4 lety +4331

    Take a moment to appreciate all the people who died listening to this song, may they rest easy. May they know now that they are loved.

    • @deathanoide3041
      @deathanoide3041 Před 4 lety +150

      Nobody likes me man.... I feel like I make my life miserable. I don't have friends... even if I do have friends thwy always left without me.. I always get bullied a lot... I just can't take it anymore. I can't even play chess game really well. I love to play chess in real life. I feel like im actually playing chess in real life...

    • @transparantcowboywombat
      @transparantcowboywombat Před 4 lety +48

      @@deathanoide3041 if you don't have friends then I'll be your friend, I doubt know if it will get better but I want to try and help.

    • @transparantcowboywombat
      @transparantcowboywombat Před 4 lety +20

      @@deathanoide3041 idk maybe try and talk to her more or try and show her how much you care, or be more open ask questions about her day or how she's doing.

    • @deathanoide3041
      @deathanoide3041 Před 4 lety +23

      @@transparantcowboywombat Ok... I might do that see how it goes one day.. thanks for the small advice.

    • @transparantcowboywombat
      @transparantcowboywombat Před 4 lety +12

      @@deathanoide3041 it's ok anything to help, I hope it work.

  • @norathecannibal83
    @norathecannibal83 Před 3 lety +4

    I love how when ever I tell my friends at school that I’m not feeling very happy they just say,
    “Nice”
    Or
    “Same”

  • @wendistitt9117
    @wendistitt9117 Před rokem +4

    Thank you Kyle for this. I have never had anyone understand or explain what’s going on inside of me.

  • @kaylaeverett2264
    @kaylaeverett2264 Před 6 lety +652

    I've overdosed twice when I should be dead...
    I've cut too deep and almost died from blood loss...
    People at school mock suicide like it's some sort of joke...
    Maybe they'll stop when they lose somebody.

    • @_thekiing_vlogz1996
      @_thekiing_vlogz1996 Před 6 lety +17

      Kayla Everett ik what you mean, i have suicidal thoughts every day and people at school just make jokes about it

    • @chrysigabriel543
      @chrysigabriel543 Před 6 lety +7

      can u plz be ma friend

    • @madlad-zv3oj
      @madlad-zv3oj Před 6 lety +11

      I make jokes about it to fucking deal with it myself, they could be doing the same

    • @gabrielladiggs8397
      @gabrielladiggs8397 Před 5 lety +2

      Kayla Everett i can relate, I'm sorry

    • @gabrielladiggs8397
      @gabrielladiggs8397 Před 5 lety +3

      Ik how it feels an I can relate... I've cut deep so many times over the same spot that it's numb, I should've been dead but.... I'm not

  • @kennywooosh2105
    @kennywooosh2105 Před 4 lety +444

    Fuck it, *vent in the replys.*

    • @bloodvypa783
      @bloodvypa783 Před 4 lety +6

      I am blood runnin down my arms as i type

    • @carlye8759
      @carlye8759 Před 4 lety +5

      Me life is to much depression takes over faking it everyday pretend to be happy

    • @chiarack2952
      @chiarack2952 Před 4 lety +4

      Me. Nobody wants me. Not even death. And that hurts most.

    • @Lottie._3
      @Lottie._3 Před 4 lety +5

      Me Because I feel like everyone doesn't give a fuck About me ! I Try to explain they Laugh and say "Your tired" no I am Mentally exhausted from all These Horrible Thoughts ..

    • @kennywooosh2105
      @kennywooosh2105 Před 4 lety +3

      @@bloodvypa783 I don't cut my arm until I bleed so it dosen't leave big marks, but you shouldn't cut yourself regardless because you might get addicted to the point of no return. And then even when you find happiness you won't be able to stop

  • @adriancampbell2793
    @adriancampbell2793 Před 3 lety +10

    I'm sick and tired of battling bipolar. It's one of the worst mental illnesses you can get

  • @spiritwolf9884
    @spiritwolf9884 Před 2 lety +3

    I came across this song in middle school. since then, this song has been incredibly important to me during my darkest times. I come back to it every now and then, and reflect on what has happened in my life and the things i am grateful for still having.

  • @piss8835
    @piss8835 Před 6 lety +697

    im tired of trying
    im sick of crying
    i know im smiling
    but inside im dying

  • @mortalshayne5842
    @mortalshayne5842 Před 4 lety +1631

    Who is still listing this beautiful song in 2020??
    Edit: now in 2021

  • @Yuki69420AUTTP
    @Yuki69420AUTTP Před rokem +3

    its ironic how strangers on the internet can comfort me more than my family ever will

  • @classicalpurple
    @classicalpurple Před 3 lety +9

    I wonder how many of these commenters lost their fights. Bless them. I’ll visit you guys soon.

  • @YankeeFox
    @YankeeFox Před 6 lety +291

    It's scary how I can relate to this song so well holy shit...

    • @LukeB513
      @LukeB513 Před 5 lety +1

      Rude

    • @30ratsstackedinatrenchcoat91
      @30ratsstackedinatrenchcoat91 Před 5 lety +1

      @Joseph LaPietra wtf rude much

    • @LukeB513
      @LukeB513 Před 5 lety

      I'm not a furry my name is just an inside joke that me and my friend have that I decided to use as my username

    • @Srpstv0
      @Srpstv0 Před 5 lety

      @Joseph LaPietra yep

    • @raccoon5606
      @raccoon5606 Před 5 lety

      Joseph LaPietra Rude muchhh

  • @seanbryan694
    @seanbryan694 Před 4 lety +3377

    I wonder how many of the commenters here are dead.. rest easy angels.. hope the pain is gone.. see ye soon

    • @dessertgirl4103
      @dessertgirl4103 Před 4 lety +170

      What do you mean see you soon??
      I hope you won't do anything to yourself..

    • @sssorro
      @sssorro Před 4 lety +102

      I know how you feel but, don't leave, don't kill yourself. It's doesn't get rid of the pain, it passes it to someone else.
      ❤You are loved more than you realize!!❤

    • @hannahtheresequizon6873
      @hannahtheresequizon6873 Před 4 lety +53

      I hope you’re safe and please don’t do anything bad to yourself ❤️
      *virtual hugs*

    • @smarterquestions3166
      @smarterquestions3166 Před 4 lety +46

      Count me one more soon... 💔

    • @Kingyissilly
      @Kingyissilly Před 4 lety +32

      @@duck_.y Please don't.. just ending the pain might end your own but it's passing it on.. it's.. not worth it .. please don't..

  • @kiribakudizzy4770
    @kiribakudizzy4770 Před 3 lety +5

    My ideal death would be to jump off a very tall building and listen to music, this song is a great song to die to-

  • @Angel-jq5yb
    @Angel-jq5yb Před 3 lety +4

    You, the person scrolling through the comments
    *received a stranger's faith*

  • @hellonearth9232
    @hellonearth9232 Před 5 lety +605

    When he said, "But I don't wanna die, not gonna lie thoughts of suicide keep crossing my mind on a regular basis" it hit home.

  • @anabels2978
    @anabels2978 Před 4 lety +713

    I’m not scared of dying or even what comes after I just don’t want my family to be sad... so I just suffer to keep them happy.

    • @connerbebee8805
      @connerbebee8805 Před 4 lety +11

      I know how that feels

    • @___Steinn___
      @___Steinn___ Před 4 lety +5

      Same...

    • @anabels2978
      @anabels2978 Před 4 lety +5

      Steinn, hey everything’s gonna be okay trust me you just can’t give up okay? promise me you’ll stay strong. promise? i’m here for u 💘ik it’s hard

    • @___Steinn___
      @___Steinn___ Před 4 lety +8

      @@anabels2978 i know i can't just quit. It's like you said above. I have to keep my family running...

    • @heuehwokay
      @heuehwokay Před 4 lety +2

      Yes yep

  • @jran9381
    @jran9381 Před 3 lety +4

    Anyone else just have a fight with their parents for the 7th time in 4 days?

    • @damyuro2202
      @damyuro2202 Před 3 lety

      if you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so do not waste it, and also do not worry of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help..

  • @Skinny.Steve1991
    @Skinny.Steve1991 Před 3 lety +1

    OMG ive never gotten goosebumps so much from listening to any song. Wow. I can relate. Thank you for this so much.

  • @nikkiwolfie1997
    @nikkiwolfie1997 Před 4 lety +437

    I hate the way everyone just says that you're faking your depression and suicidal thoughts just for attention they don't know what goes on in your life and when you explain they just say you are over reacting and they don't know how it feels to be yourself they just see it from a different view they never understand..
    Edit: omg I'm so glad that people understand I'm just glad to spread the message and to everyone who commented about their life I'm so sorry for all of you ♥ and I hope life will get better for all of you and I know that's something a lot of people say when they hear someone's depressed and I would know because I'm not very secretive about my depression and suicidal thoughts I only hide it from my parents and it's hard, life is hard, but we need to fight it and look on the brighter side! When I think about suicide I start to think about my friends and how they would miss me and they would be sad.. And one of my friends even threatened to kill herself if I do and just that alone makes me stop and think, what can I do to make my life better and be happier? I can't let everyone bring me down! And you should think like that too! Don't let anyone bring you down to the level people have brought me down to... I had to switch schools because of bullying and I'm thinking about calling child support and getting taken away from my mother because she's caused me so much pain... So the moral of the story is don't let anyone bring you down and if they do think of a way to fix it and make life better!
    Edit 2: if you got it to here and read that whole thing thanks for reading it and stuff.. And I hope who ever is reading this that your life is doing good
    Edit: I'm glad a lot of people are getting my message
    Edit 4: please don't fight in the comments I don't like seeing people fight it makes me sad and it probably makes you sad too I want this reply comment section to be full of your stories and support not fighting

    • @ulysse9989
      @ulysse9989 Před 4 lety +5

      ALL THAT BITCHES BETTER DIE, OR I WILL SAY THEM TO :
      Go to sleep

    • @ej7325
      @ej7325 Před 4 lety +7

      Nikki Wolfie my friends all pretended they were the same as me when I told them I was feeling suicidal and I cut myself but they were just wanting attention. They were the first and last people I ever told and they didn’t believe me

    • @fizz7523
      @fizz7523 Před 4 lety +11

      Thing is, some people are so fucking inhumane they like to lie about it, thinking its funny. When people suffer from depression or suicidal thoughts, they don't say it aloud. They struggle. Terribly.
      I never said it, I wrote it down and my mother started reading it and we had a chat but after about a month? She didn't care nor did she remember so now I'm back at the start, name-calling and crying every night. All those people that said 'it gets better' are the liars, it doesn't. Life gets worse.

    • @ej7325
      @ej7325 Před 4 lety +7

      Ugh. Yeah, problem is that I share a room with my 5 year old brother so it’s hard to get private time to cry out my pain. I can’t eat or sleep well and I took the NHS test and got tested with:
      Depression - Severe
      Anxiety - Severe
      Stress level - Severe
      Sometimes my dad or mum will ask me if I’m alright and they’ll tell me I can tell them anything but it just makes it harder to think.

    • @zengchen3098
      @zengchen3098 Před 4 lety +4

      Fuck those people

  • @soad2609
    @soad2609 Před 4 lety +306

    I searched for 'Suicidal Songs'. CZcams shows me, 'This video is offensive, discretion is advised'.
    Me: OW! I didn't know that.

    • @samhayes8095
      @samhayes8095 Před 4 lety +6

      Imma thank you for that. Brought an chuckle to my lifeless face

    • @soad2609
      @soad2609 Před 4 lety +5

      @@samhayes8095 I am glad that I did. And you are not alone. Stay strong and don't let the life fuck you instead fuck this life. Make this life your bitch. 🖤🖤🖤

    • @mlgsalmon
      @mlgsalmon Před 4 lety +4

      @@soad2609 tf is that for motivation😑

    • @soad2609
      @soad2609 Před 4 lety +3

      @@mlgsalmon My pleasure.

    • @upstairscandy0764
      @upstairscandy0764 Před 4 lety

      CZcams is ok with the song worthless but not this

  • @segasatsakura7581
    @segasatsakura7581 Před 5 měsíci +1

    Found this song when I was in middle school. I'm graduated from high school now. The ending of this song is probably a big reason why I'm here today.

  • @A-Rory-Lion
    @A-Rory-Lion Před 3 lety +2

    This song is literally my life. At age 14-19 i didn't want to live. But now, at age almost 21, with a baby, and fiance, I can see myself as a grown woman, I can see a future for myself. This song saved my life

  • @StephanieKay01
    @StephanieKay01 Před 7 lety +4924

    Who else here has attempted suicide and still have the thoughts?

    • @The_Skrongler
      @The_Skrongler Před 7 lety +55

      I actually see a lot of people around here in that position. It won't necessarily last though, please don't give up

    • @StephanieKay01
      @StephanieKay01 Před 7 lety +81

      I've been fighting depression for over 2 years and it's so easy just to give up!

    • @The_Skrongler
      @The_Skrongler Před 7 lety +21

      I know, man. But that doesn't mean you can't keep at this, you absolutely can especially if you don't forget your own strength.

    • @StephanieKay01
      @StephanieKay01 Před 7 lety +24

      I know how strong I am but it's too hard to keep fighting.

    • @The_Skrongler
      @The_Skrongler Před 7 lety +10

      Seriously, you can make it if you don't keep telling yourself you can't.

  • @madisongittings8338
    @madisongittings8338 Před 6 lety +7391

    We are just suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that sucide is never the answer

    • @kjMikaelson
      @kjMikaelson Před 6 lety +72

      Literally though it's so true

    • @hmmmm1356
      @hmmmm1356 Před 6 lety +47

      Madison Gittings yes to me it is me to I don’t think it’s right but at 9 I wanted to die😭

    • @starzoJ
      @starzoJ Před 6 lety +53

      How'd you find me through my disguise?

    • @YankeeFox
      @YankeeFox Před 6 lety +15

      Hmmmmmm kyle spratt..........hailie spratt..........hmmmmm

    • @madisong2090
      @madisong2090 Před 6 lety +7

      Boi aww plz don't do that bc i love u

  • @uneelfe4021
    @uneelfe4021 Před 3 lety

    Oh man, I didn't expect at all the end !!! So cool , some shivers and goosebumps

  • @lawrencetalbot8346
    @lawrencetalbot8346 Před rokem +3

    Damn I googled suicide/depressing songs and from the first one that popped up was this one. From the opening lines, holy shit this nails it.

  • @frogintheroad
    @frogintheroad Před 5 lety +2276

    I Don't want to die.
    I just want the pain to end.
    edit: GUYS STOP OMG I WAS EDGY LAST YEAR IM SORRY
    but seriously if you feel like this get help, please.

  • @natedogg7254
    @natedogg7254 Před 4 lety +677

    Some wrists are stained red
    Some wrists are not
    But If I seen you suffering
    I'd never let you rot
    And i'd be here for you until i am dead.

    • @deathanoide3041
      @deathanoide3041 Před 4 lety +11

      I don't believe it is going to happen to me because I always get bullied a lot and I don't have nobody to talk to... I always holding my anger in and I started to feel I making everyone miserable.. I'm not as important as everybody else. 😔🔫

    • @elta6563
      @elta6563 Před 4 lety +10

      @@deathanoide3041 you are really important,if you were looking for a sign this is it. YOU ARE REALLY IMPORTANT!!! Don't let them put you down,I've been bullied too. The thing is that nothing is wrong with u,it's with them. So please be strong and know that there are a lot of people who love you. Much love :)

    • @natedogg7254
      @natedogg7254 Před 3 lety +7

      @@deathanoide3041 You are one of the reasons I made the comment. Everyone (except bullies) is! Please stay strong. Lots of people love you. And don't say 99.99 of the people hate you (even though you didn't) that just means billions of people love you still!
      If you want, You can search it up!
      :D Don't ever commit suicide, People love you.
      Bye!

    • @natedogg7254
      @natedogg7254 Před 3 lety +3

      @@elta6563 Okay take my like.

    • @elta6563
      @elta6563 Před 3 lety +1

      @@natedogg7254 excuse me?

  • @umpiper3550
    @umpiper3550 Před 3 lety +4

    100 Reasons Why You Should Stay Alive
    1. Your friends, your family, and your pets would miss you.
    2. It's not worth the regret. Either by yourself, if you failed or just simply left scars or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you.
    3. It does get better. Believe it or not, it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow.
    4. There's so much you would miss out on doing.
    5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there.
    6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself.
    7. You ARE worth it. Don't let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise.
    8. You are amazing.
    9. A time will come, once you've battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won't regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better.
    10. What about all the things you've always wanted to do? What about the things you've planned, but never got around to doing? You can't do them when you're dead.
    11. I love you. Platonically. Even if only one person loves you, that's still a reason to stay alive.
    12. You won't be able to listen to music if you die.
    13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You'll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about.
    14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me.
    15. You're preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born.
    16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died?
    17. You're gorgeous, amazing, handsome, and to someone you are perfect.
    18. Think about your favorite music artist, you'll never hear their voice again...
    19. You'll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day.
    20. Listening to incredibly loud music.
    21. Being alive is just really good.
    22. Not being alive is really bad. And boring.
    23. Finding your soulmate.
    24. Red pandas. Just… THEY ARE SO CUTE!!
    25. Going to diners at three in the morning.
    26. Really soft pillows. Or blankets.
    27. Eating pizza in New York City.
    28. Proving people wrong with your success. Take that!
    29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life. Take that!
    30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can.
    31. Being able to help other people.
    32. Bonfires.
    33. Sitting on rooftops.
    34. Seeing every single country in the world. And not being ignored. Because you know, if you were dead everyone would run into you… it would suck.
    35. Going on road trips. Have fun doing that as a ghost, or whatever.
    36. You might win the lottery someday, who knows! How would you enter while you’re dead?!
    37. Listening to music in your own special place.
    38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower, staring down at everyone with the wind in your hair.
    39. Taking really cool pictures.
    40. Literally meeting thousands of new people.
    41. Hearing crazy stories.
    42. Telling crazy stories.
    43. Eating ice cream on a hot day with your best friends.
    44. More interesting books or episodes could come out, you never know. It’s gonna be hard to get books or watch Netflix/Hulu/Etc while you’re dead.
    45. Traveling to another planet someday. It’s gonna happen.
    46. Having an underwater house.
    47. Randomly running into your hero on the street
    48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel.
    49. Trampolines.
    50. Think about your favorite movie, you'll never watch it again.
    51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke.
    52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it's for just one person or 20 or 100 or more.
    53. People do care.
    54. Treehouses, you won’t really be able to have a treehouse while dead.
    55. Hanging out with your soulmate in a treehouse
    55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees.
    56. I love you. Platonically.
    57. I care about you.
    58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness!
    59. You won't be here to experience the first cat world emperor. You won’t even be influenced by it.
    60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU'LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS!
    61. Starbucks. Or caribou coffee.
    62. Hugs. The kind that makes you squeal because of how tight they are, the kind that you really love.
    63. Stargazing with your favorite person in this universe at 4am because you can’t sleep, the grass brushing against your toes as you snuggle together.
    64. You have a purpose, and it's up to you to find out what it is.
    65. You've changed somebody's life.
    66. Now you could change the world.
    67. You will meet the person that's perfect for you. Maybe you already have.
    68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you.
    69. You can’t look at any more memes if you're dead.
    70. If you end your life, you're stopping yourself from achieving great things.
    71. Making snow angels.
    72. Making snowmen.
    73. Snowball fights.
    74. Life is what you make of it.
    75. Everybody has talent.
    76. Laughing until you cry, with your stomach screaming and your lungs flaring in heat. Rolling on the floor, grinning ear to ear.
    77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy.
    78. The world would not be the same if you didn't exist.
    79. It’s possible to turn frowns upside down.
    80. Be yourself, don't take anyone's crap, and never let them take you alive.
    81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero.
    82. Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.
    83. One day your smile will be real. It will, I promise you.
    84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day.
    85. Lying on the grass and laughing at the clouds.
    86. Laughing insanely hard with your best friends.
    87. Eating weird food.
    88. Staying up all night watching your favorite films with a loved one.
    89. Sleeping in all day.
    90. Creating something you're proud of.
    91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud that you didn't commit. And if you did, feeling regret that you did.
    92. Being able to meet your Internet friends.
    u93. Coffee.
    94. The new season of your favorite show.
    95. Staying up late with your best friend.
    96. Being stupid in public because you just can.
    97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile?
    98. Being able to hug that one person you haven’t seen in years
    99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this.
    100. But, the final and most important one is just being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn't seem so great right now, literally anything could happen.

  • @hardikgarg6559
    @hardikgarg6559 Před 2 lety +7

    second day of 2022 and i am already listening songs like these LOL

  • @lillilovell133
    @lillilovell133 Před 3 lety +174

    My best friend asked me if I was scared of dying. I looked at him crying and I said" Devin, I am not scared of dying I am scared of living. Why be afraid death when it welcomes you in with open arms. Life beats you down and kills you. Death is my happy place, so how can i be afraid of dying."

  • @phoebeholst
    @phoebeholst Před 6 lety +481

    deep inside, they care about us, but it's sad that no one shows it before we're gone.

    • @zsyfallendemon5402
      @zsyfallendemon5402 Před 5 lety +8

      Funny when we're dead how people start listening

    • @nicknameangelsharp9676
      @nicknameangelsharp9676 Před 5 lety +3

      yeah they only care when your dead

    • @lyse5612
      @lyse5612 Před 5 lety +2

      Phoebe Holst yeah I’m gonna kill myself after Valentine’s Day and do the world a favor the world who says I’m crazy and not depressed for the world who ignores me like I’m s ghost my family who doesn’t notice me

    • @DanielaSanchez-kz3yb
      @DanielaSanchez-kz3yb Před 5 lety

      plz dont kill urself

    • @jan-jan9702
      @jan-jan9702 Před 5 lety

      Truueeeee😭😭😭

  • @Ryoland
    @Ryoland Před 3 lety +3

    Its not only depression and sadness that can take you here, sometimes there's so much rage, it boils and burns. You focus it inside as to not let it out on someone else, eventually it boils over and you try to find a way to escape to get out, to stop all the anger...

    • @alexdanieloliveira2294
      @alexdanieloliveira2294 Před 3 lety

      If you need help Go talk to your friends, family and People you Trust, Life can Be Great full of Good memories and experiences and Will get even better after the pandemic ends so dont waste it, If necessary call the suicide hotline, search for help in the internet like r/suicidewatch and if necessary call a therapist "suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem" we all have the dark chapter of our lives but you can pass through it...

  • @madisonisaway
    @madisonisaway Před 3 lety +3

    Man I remember 11 year old me listening to this song thinking it was the end, I’m 15 and started my career and I’m doing okay. I’m really proud of how far I’ve come

  • @yixris
    @yixris Před 4 lety +706

    Roses r red
    Violet's r dead
    Outside I'm smiling
    Inside I'm dying

    • @Flyerbeklol
      @Flyerbeklol Před 4 lety +11

      i love you

    • @C0smicSlushie
      @C0smicSlushie Před 4 lety +11

      Outside I'm laughing inside I'm crying secretly I'm dying I don't feel like singing I don't feel like reading I don't feel like living.
      -poem I made up in my head

    • @Peyton_20_
      @Peyton_20_ Před 4 lety +2

      Stay strong, you can get through this.❤️

    • @dobsgf
      @dobsgf Před 4 lety +2

      Peyton Wright no I really don’t think I can do this anymore life is bullshit

    • @adheagstka4075
      @adheagstka4075 Před 3 lety +2

      Me every breath I takes

  • @baileydavis3743
    @baileydavis3743 Před 7 lety +527

    When you are depressed and you family doesn't understand and just gets mad at you and doesn't even try to help you that is me right now

    • @The_Skrongler
      @The_Skrongler Před 7 lety +4

      Holy shit, idk what is even wrong with them! hopefully there will be friends better than this wack family

    • @safazouari8782
      @safazouari8782 Před 6 lety +4

      Bailey Davis SAME ... I mean, that's my life...

    • @heavenmendes7380
      @heavenmendes7380 Před 6 lety +1

      Bailey Davis. Freak this that like me life

    • @heavenmendes7380
      @heavenmendes7380 Před 6 lety

      I mean. Freak this!! That's my life ever since

    • @alexisisbest1489
      @alexisisbest1489 Před 6 lety +2

      Artsy_Judoka I tryed to tell my dad once and he thought it was a joke

  • @NicolePeyper369
    @NicolePeyper369 Před 9 měsíci +2

    RIP to the angels that took their lives with this song. See you soon. Glad your pain is gone. Get a seat ready

    • @loveandfaithfulness4479
      @loveandfaithfulness4479 Před 8 měsíci

      Keep holding on to God. No matter what may be trying to keep you down, keep looking up to God. He will always be your hand in helping you get back up. God wants us to change and grow into the person He wants us to be. All things are possible with God. He has your back and will help you through anything, All you have to do is have faith. difficult times can leave us feeling exposed and unprotected but it is only temporary. everything is temporary and that nothing lasts forever. this includes both the good and the bad times because it will eventually end. Ultimately, the enemies we face, are not people or objects. It is not our body, it is not physical enemy. our battle is indeed spiritual, In each of those cases, we can choose to fight the wrong battles, or we can rest knowing God is fighting for us. We fight this war by daily putting on the whole armor of God, always praying, standing firm in the Word of God, and staying alert. We need to live each day guided by an eternal perspective. we get swamped by temporal concerns. So rest in knowing that when you keep holding on, you will see that in your weakness, God will be your strength.
      John 15:13
      Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends.
      Romans 5:6-8
      For when we were still without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. For scarcely for a righteous man will one die; yet perhaps for a good man someone would even dare to die. But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

  • @avamorgan3635
    @avamorgan3635 Před 3 lety +1

    Me and my friends joke about dying while behind there back i acually want to

  • @bennybee5870
    @bennybee5870 Před 5 lety +611

    I don’t necessarily want to die but if I was in the middle of the road and a car was speeding towards me, I don’t think I would get out of the way

    • @sophiekirkley4398
      @sophiekirkley4398 Před 5 lety +2

      @@tulikadey9532 and you're a very boring person :)

    • @noone-ie6xt
      @noone-ie6xt Před 5 lety +4

      @@sophiekirkley4398 this person can already be dead, and you say he/she is boring. Sometimes I wish I can give people suicidal thoughts.

    • @sophiekirkley4398
      @sophiekirkley4398 Před 5 lety +7

      @@noone-ie6xt no i was talking to the other person, who was saying stuff about this person being suicidal, Im suicidal too and I know how it feels to be in this dudes situation

    • @allenhe9000
      @allenhe9000 Před 5 lety +1

      Me everyday

    • @ladydeath3463
      @ladydeath3463 Před 5 lety +3

      Holy shit I told my therapist these exact words. Word for word like 6 years ago when I was 14

  • @Theboss-rp9pb
    @Theboss-rp9pb Před 6 lety +2030

    I don’t want to kill myself but just wish I was never born

    • @heavenmendes7380
      @heavenmendes7380 Před 6 lety +11

      The boss 12 .Same

    • @braziliantrash1.085
      @braziliantrash1.085 Před 6 lety +11

      The boss 12 same

    • @anastasiamcquality9605
      @anastasiamcquality9605 Před 6 lety +23

      The boss 12 I've been wishing that for the longest time every time I blow out the candles it doesn't work

    • @dankjackplayz7588
      @dankjackplayz7588 Před 6 lety +24

      Same and I just wish some people would understand how we all feel 😔

    • @snowball_from_earth
      @snowball_from_earth Před 6 lety +14

      I've been thinking that for as long as I can remember. Now I've wanted to kill myself for about half a year now. Right in this moment it's especially bad. But I never managed to go through with it. Always chickened out and hated myself for it.

  • @MixArtemiz
    @MixArtemiz Před 2 lety +5

    I just realized so many peoples comments I was reading are dead now.. I can't do this anymore.. I need hope

    • @nevaehmusic6992
      @nevaehmusic6992 Před 2 lety +2

      I tried to kill myself to this song and I’m still okay. I survived and am thriving now. That’s hope

  • @rainwinggamer
    @rainwinggamer Před 3 lety

    No one’s probably going to read this but I just wanted to say it was my depression and anxiety that I learned that in order to get better you need to hold your own hand before you can have others. If you don’t make an effort there will be no help, but it is easier said than done, I know and the road to recovery is Hell. You’re going to feel so alone but you need to reach out or else no one is going to know and there will be no help. It’s a sad and harsh truth in society but that’s just how it is right now. Depression, your anxiety or any other mental illness you have is always going to be apart of you but they don’t define you. You can make it. You are strong and I believe that in time the problems you’re facing will slowly be more bearable.

  • @TheTrax
    @TheTrax Před 6 lety +216

    It's f***ing hard to act like im happy, making jokes all the time and laugh, but still the depression kicks in harder everytime i try acting, its my kids and wife that keep me up all the time...but for how long...dont want to absorb their energy all the time.

    • @30ratsstackedinatrenchcoat91
      @30ratsstackedinatrenchcoat91 Před 5 lety +2

      Oof same

    • @haziqmundrawala2832
      @haziqmundrawala2832 Před 5 lety

      i agree it is really hard to act like i am happy but every time i cant manage a smile and just want to kill myself i think about my family, imagine having to go everywhere and have people constantly remind you that i committed suicide

  • @soilderisahealslut6614
    @soilderisahealslut6614 Před 7 lety +552

    People keep saying that you have yourself. But that doesn't help if you hate yourself.

  • @Coddywaffle
    @Coddywaffle Před 9 měsíci +3

    The most realistic song I've ever heard so deep

  • @TheFloridaBikeVlogger
    @TheFloridaBikeVlogger Před 2 lety +2

    i still keep this on 3peat and never leaves my thought process and yet the wouldn't skip a second if I eventually do it

  • @riyasohi9771
    @riyasohi9771 Před 4 lety +277

    You know when I was younger I used to be afraid of death and things that could kill me now I just don’t care because I’m like just kill me already

  • @boowho2362
    @boowho2362 Před 5 lety +207

    I’m patiently waiting for the day I can Rest In Peace ✌️

    • @ethantapscott4705
      @ethantapscott4705 Před 4 lety +2

      Same

    • @deliahstoeckel6566
      @deliahstoeckel6566 Před 4 lety +5

      I dont have patience

    • @sharonperez5011
      @sharonperez5011 Před 4 lety +3

      With my luck, my death still won't bring me peace

    • @prettylittleliar5834
      @prettylittleliar5834 Před 4 lety +1

      Same

    • @NGUNeverGiveUpBeautiful
      @NGUNeverGiveUpBeautiful Před 4 lety +1

      I'm here for you and anyone who ever needs help or a brother to lean on. Everyday I want to kill myself because I couldn't save my brother when he overdosed, but I want you all to know that I love you guys and I am always going to be here for ya'll. Just reach out to me and I'll do my best to reply. You guys are never alone because in my eyes, you are family to me

  • @GreyPetro
    @GreyPetro Před 3 lety +1

    The end of the song literally gave me chills because I wasn't expecting it to be inspirational

  • @Ikigai747
    @Ikigai747 Před 2 lety +4

    Man....the comment section

    • @HiPolar
      @HiPolar Před 2 lety +1

      I know right 😅

  • @acupoftae9079
    @acupoftae9079 Před 4 lety +271

    It's sad I'm sitting here listening to this while thinking about what I would say in my suicide note and looking up painless suicides idek how i ended up like this feeling empty and hollow and idk why I fight it but I do for some reason maybe I'm just to scared my depression is telling me 'its okay it'll only hurt for a minute' but then my anxiety comes out and says 'but what comes after what if the pain doesn't end' it's just exhausting and I'm so so tired I've been giving my family hints about how I feel playing songs like this making jokes about how easy it would be but they don't see it. I can relateto the people in the comments more then my own friends and family

    • @elta6563
      @elta6563 Před 4 lety +11

      Hey are you ok? If you see this know that everything is going to be better if you are strong and don't give up.

    • @davidwhitaker2211
      @davidwhitaker2211 Před 4 lety +9

      I know it's hard, I've been there, and sometimes I find myself back here. But we have to find something to live for, and then when we start getting better, we have to start living for ourselves. I know it's hard and it's dark and it hurts, but it really will get better. You just gotta keep trucking no matter what

    • @Dawnofdusk
      @Dawnofdusk Před 3 lety +3

      I already told my mom If I ever lose my fight I'm happy and with my grandpa which is all I've wanted since he died

    • @cassandrastrong5655
      @cassandrastrong5655 Před 3 lety +3

      Hey a cup of tea you been doing ok?

    • @newheadstart
      @newheadstart Před 3 lety +1

      @@cassandrastrong5655 i think he/she is gone....😑

  • @urlocaldumpster4570
    @urlocaldumpster4570 Před 4 lety +560

    I don't want to die, I just want to be saved.

    • @bonzoschlacendaker1057
      @bonzoschlacendaker1057 Před 3 lety +2

      Hey Itz salvation the simple Has anybody ever told you how to achieve it?

    • @imbored2897
      @imbored2897 Před 3 lety +6

      Bonzo Schlacendaker that’s not what they mean they mean they want the pain of life gone

    • @urlocaldumpster4570
      @urlocaldumpster4570 Před 3 lety +1

      :/

    • @imbored2897
      @imbored2897 Před 3 lety +1

      • Hayden • i’m serious please please don’t

    • @imbored2897
      @imbored2897 Před 3 lety +1

      • Hayden • if u need to talk abt anything i’m here for u and i will always listen

  • @sarahhh5104
    @sarahhh5104 Před 2 lety

    I love it . Thank you so much

  • @QueerlyBeloved_
    @QueerlyBeloved_ Před 3 lety +1

    Death is the ultimate escape in this prison we call "life".
    That's the one line I kept thinking about over and over in my mind lately.

  • @humorocity4104
    @humorocity4104 Před 7 lety +1257

    I'm a sad guy. Trust me I'd kill myself, but then thinking of others, I don't want to hurt anyone. So I stay because of them

    • @tiffanymyers978
      @tiffanymyers978 Před 7 lety +5

      amen. i feel😪

    • @nicolassmithlemaire1232
      @nicolassmithlemaire1232 Před 7 lety +19

      same here i have a huge amont of problems and i just stay alive for mi freinds and family

    • @Ghishayperyagh
      @Ghishayperyagh Před 7 lety +29

      I don't kill myself in case my suicide attempt fails ; that would be worse . Imagine being handicapped because your attempt goes wrong

    • @thewoldneedslove8975
      @thewoldneedslove8975 Před 7 lety +9

      I have no one here for me I am struggling with everything

    • @yanyare7763
      @yanyare7763 Před 7 lety +3

      That's good (: I'm glad you think of the people that u will be hurting. Cause does are the people that matter

  • @aja8048
    @aja8048 Před 6 lety +545

    Suicide. The one mistake that Im not strong to enough to do

    • @safazouari8782
      @safazouari8782 Před 6 lety +26

      Lightning colors aj Neither am I. But still, I wanna die as soon as possible

    • @reddyornot7985
      @reddyornot7985 Před 6 lety +6

      same

    • @catslife7460
      @catslife7460 Před 6 lety +7

      Same but I can't because my mom has lost her parents and my father. I want to but I will not do that to my mother.

    • @brisadelmarleon1206
      @brisadelmarleon1206 Před 6 lety +6

      Lightning colors aj I've tried to do it like 10 times but they took me to the hospital and they didn't ask if I had problems and I still cut muy self and all because my family

    • @w1ndblade810
      @w1ndblade810 Před 6 lety +5

      Lightning colors aj Mistake, honestly , i dont think it's a mistake, i see it more like salvation, an escape from life's problems. Too bad i am not strong enough to do it yet

  • @april9251
    @april9251 Před 2 lety +3

    For those outside:
    Your skin isn’t a piece of paper, don’t cut it
    Your neck isn't a coat, don't hang it
    Your body isn't a book, don't judge it
    Your life isn't a movie, don't end it
    Your heart isn't a door, don't lock it
    People have their ups and downs
    Remember to always love yourself no
    matter what you come against♥️
    (This is not my word, I'm spreading it to the
    1% and now it's your turn)

  • @asmrmoonix
    @asmrmoonix Před 2 lety +3

    Why couldn't covid just have ended me
    Why do I have to keep surviving

  • @adritenki424
    @adritenki424 Před 4 lety +133

    My soul is already dead, now it's my body's turn...

    • @skystar8045
      @skystar8045 Před 3 lety +4

      Things will get better soon one day :) don't give up

    • @stevenneal172
      @stevenneal172 Před 3 lety +2

      Hey bro, dont talk like that... get help!! I did and am doing great!! Believe me I know it's hard homie... but just get help... there are plenty of people who care about you, like me... I didnt think there was...but there is.. you got this bro. 💪😔

    • @shutupbeyatch3523
      @shutupbeyatch3523 Před 3 lety +5

      @@skystar8045 your jokes really, things won't get better it's all lies and fake crap that everyone says over and over again!!!

    • @risen1950
      @risen1950 Před 2 měsíci

      @@skystar8045 bullshit

  • @sleepingeve469
    @sleepingeve469 Před 6 lety +144

    They treat me like shit when I'm alive, but tonight, they'll read my note, and then they will start to care. WHY?! WHY WOULD YOU CARE THEN? WHY CAN'T YOU CARE ABOUT ME RIGHT NOW?!

    • @lisadomagala6105
      @lisadomagala6105 Před 6 lety +2

      THE LIGHT BEHIND YOUR EYES They do, and it gets better FR ! They just don't understand what you need . I'm so sorry you feel this way, hang in there , when u get older u will have more options and will be able to choose your own life and who is in it , and it will be a relief

    • @sleepingeve469
      @sleepingeve469 Před 6 lety

      Lisa Domagala Thank you.

    • @heavenmendes7380
      @heavenmendes7380 Před 6 lety +1

      Yeah why can't people u love or ur family care when ur still alive. But care if ur gone from this world. JUST WHY???!!!

    • @sleepingeve469
      @sleepingeve469 Před 6 lety +1

      Heaven Mendes I just wish they would care about me now! I want them to show me that I mean everything to them. I want my mom to hold me and tell me that she loves me. I want my dad to come back and say that he cares about me. I want my siblings to tell me that they love me as well and that they don't want me dead. I want all of that, is that so hard to ask for!!!! Apparently it is!

    • @heavenmendes7380
      @heavenmendes7380 Před 6 lety

      THE LIGHT BEHIND YOUR EYES . That's right why can't they show us that they love us now! I mean is that really hard to do?! Well for parents and siblings it's really hard for them to do

  • @FelipsFacts
    @FelipsFacts Před 2 lety +2

    Worst part is being there for everyone but no ones ever there for you, but when you change it up you're the bad guy somehow. What a joke

  • @millybuzz1426
    @millybuzz1426 Před 3 lety +3

    When I feel like its finely better but I come back to this song and realise I still dont wanna be here its lovely to see everyone get the happy ending and I'm still dead inside

  • @angelanndelapaz9041
    @angelanndelapaz9041 Před 4 lety +864

    The following content has been identified by the youtube community as offensive to some audience.
    Confirm anyway.

    • @mlgarmy4789
      @mlgarmy4789 Před 4 lety +3

      @Alexandra Boenig agreed

    • @souravahmed007
      @souravahmed007 Před 4 lety +1

    • @ulysse9989
      @ulysse9989 Před 4 lety

      SHUT UP U DON'T KNOW NOTHING ABOUT THE SADS PERSONS. BITCH
      WHAT DO U KNOW ABOUT be helpless ?! What do you know about be headless ?

    • @undead_dread8536
      @undead_dread8536 Před 4 lety

      I love how youtube asks you if you want to continue when you are literally clicking on a song named suicide note

    • @fixon7780
      @fixon7780 Před 4 lety +1

      @@ulysse9989 i think you misunderstood her comment

  • @katelyneighteen3390
    @katelyneighteen3390 Před 5 lety +173

    The body has the urge to live when the mind does not.

    • @dereksclater7135
      @dereksclater7135 Před 5 lety +2

      The first time I cut my wrist... I was home alone (well apart from my brother who doesn't give a shit about me) And I had been contemplating cutting for the past few days... I walked downstairs (don't know why) And this urge... This voice... was telling me that *now is the perfect time* I stole the small knife from our kitchen ran upstairs and I couldn't stop

    • @greyeyedpsycho5793
      @greyeyedpsycho5793 Před 4 lety

      I started cutting a month ago. The pain from the knife and my girlfriend, are the only motivation I have to live.

    • @jellyfoxtrap2066
      @jellyfoxtrap2066 Před 4 lety

      Same

    • @Orangepotato2
      @Orangepotato2 Před 4 lety +1

      Sadly it's because it's our bodies' instinct to live even when we don't want to...

  • @Life_as_a_christian
    @Life_as_a_christian Před 4 měsíci +1

    Sleeping to this song have been hearing this song since I was 8

  • @Froggy_Boba7400
    @Froggy_Boba7400 Před rokem +1

    "Crying in my room and I keep it top secret" Why is this so relatable?

  • @jeklinmarvipongotak4381
    @jeklinmarvipongotak4381 Před 7 lety +842

    Yeah, funny when we tried to give the sign of killing ourselves, people will think we're kidding..

    • @emilyishome5553
      @emilyishome5553 Před 7 lety +1

      Jeniffer A7X YOVINUS bye

    • @The_Skrongler
      @The_Skrongler Před 7 lety +17

      Yeah, people can be really oblivious, if there's someone who you'd benefit from knowing I'm sorry to say that you'll have to be super obvious, like flat out telling them. It's worth doing though, really.

    • @melomaniaaa
      @melomaniaaa Před 6 lety +1

      true

    • @briannaskaggs7144
      @briannaskaggs7144 Před 6 lety +23

      Its weird how my mom will let me have my door shut for hours at a time even though she knows im depressed.....i kinda wished she would at least open the door and check on me..😩

    • @theepicestguy8581
      @theepicestguy8581 Před 6 lety +13

      Jeklin Ed Warren unfortunately people won’t believe shit untill they see it. They just can’t take a hint can they..

  • @elagabriel3940
    @elagabriel3940 Před 5 lety +179

    I just want to die and donate my heart, eyes etc. to someone who needs it.

    • @AsadEfratYT
      @AsadEfratYT Před 4 lety +2

      hey man .what's you pb?

    • @pippytime2550
      @pippytime2550 Před 4 lety +2

      y the eyes tho that's so weird

    • @ray-ur4eb
      @ray-ur4eb Před 4 lety +2

      @@pippytime2550 blind ppl-

    • @tylerhamlin7477
      @tylerhamlin7477 Před 4 lety

      You should watch the movie 7pounds great movie

    • @emmymickelson9803
      @emmymickelson9803 Před 4 lety +1

      Yeah ... instead of forcing yourself to live when u just dnt want to anymore . Maybe smeone would appreciate to live and just needed a Heart ...

  • @lake_cooper
    @lake_cooper Před rokem

    You nailed it 🙏🏻

  • @mlstoxpl4484
    @mlstoxpl4484 Před 3 lety +1

    I didnt think I’d come back to this song once again

  • @harmonica6835
    @harmonica6835 Před 4 lety +60

    is it just me who feels like this dude’s doing this so fiercely he’s probably spitting everywhere??
    just me??
    yeah...okay..