𝑷𝒐𝒗: 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒂𝒄𝒉𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝒊𝒔𝒔𝒖𝒆𝒔 [𝒂 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒚𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒕]
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- čas přidán 12. 01. 2022
- Hey!!! I'm back!!!
Sorry for not uploading for so long, I've been pretty busy with stuff in my personal life. But, I hope you enjoy this one!!! (p.s: I've got two more playlists on the way!!!). Also, thank you all for 14k views on my "They Both Die at the End" playlist, I was absolutely overjoyed and it gave me the motivation to upload more playlists for you all to listen too ^^.
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#pov:youvegotattachmentissues #playlist #music #pov #attachmentissues
hi! i know someone already tried to make a timestamp list, but it was missing a good bit of the songs. hope thats ok :3
.·:*¨ Timestamps ¨*:·.
0:00 - 3:01 Two Birds by Regina Speltor
3:02 - 6:26 Telephones by Vacations
6:27 - 9:05 I Love You So by The Walters
9:06 - 11:52 I Bet on Losing Dogs by Mitski
Tysm ^^
@@seaofcereal2337 you're welcome ✨
Tysm for this x
Tysm
Thank you! :D
Depression is being colorblind and constantly told how colorful the world is. -Atticus
I love this, thanks to Atticus for this quote
to add onn.... Telling an asthma patient, there is sooooo much air in this world. (hope ur doing good
Fr tho
Wow. This quote hits hard
I have to say it's not true, I went through a phase of very deep depression and Bullying, and unlike being colorblind it's naturally temporary, things don't last forever, you can learn to see the beauties of the world with help, because everyone's support does work
I honestly have problems with letting go of friends. Especially when they seem like family. There's people that I wouldn't be able to survive without, or be able to find myself.
I use to have that and I feel awkward, alone without my friends and family beside me... Well actually I kinda still have it
samee
I honestly feel you its like that person fills a certain void in your life so you have trouble letting go because of a fear that the void would open again
Accept that someday they will leave, try to be the person who fills that void, who encourages you, who lifts you off the ground and gives you advice to move forward, at the end of the day you only have yourself.
Tru....like ur lost or smth..
POV: You found someone you really really enjoy hanging out with, and talking, about anything really, and you're so *happy*, you finally found someone who said they're not gonna leave and so far have stuck with it, and everything is fine. Really, it is. But, you get scared. You worry, "What if I'm being too clingy? What if they're lying about not being bugged by me? Am I annoying? Do they think I'm weird or disgusting for being so attached?" And then the distancing starts. You start slowly messaging them less and less, hoping to save your relationship even if it wasn't in danger before, even though it hurts you so fucking much, you do it. Not because you don't wanna talk to them, but because you're scared they don't wanna talk to you. They ask if you're okay and that you haven't been talking to them a lot lately, and you just say "yeah, sorry just been busy" but every time, your heart squeezes so god damn painfully, it hurts so much, you wanna tell them how you're feeling, that you're scared they'll leave, that you're scared you're too clingy, that you're scared you're annoying. But you don't. Cause you're scared you'll be too talkative, scared you'll be treating them like a therapist and they'll be annoyed, scared you'll worry them, scared they'll block you or ghost you, scared that they. don't. care. Even if you know they do, in your heart and mind there's that writhing snake going around clamping down on your feelings, not letting go till it's poisoned with anxiety and fear to the point you can't enjoy your time with them without constantly having that thought in your mind wondering if they're doing this just to be nice, or if they're just pretending to enjoy spending time with you. It never stops, you hold on so hard, try to force yourself to let go, but are scared to at the same time cause you really really don't want to let go, but care more about the other person and try to not harm them even if you're not and it's fine, still you think you are and force yourself to the point to even chop off your hands, make yourself let go. It'll help them. If I go they won't be annoyed. If I go they won't have to worry about the next time I'm gonna message them. It'll be okay. It'll be fine.
It feels like the end, like you lost all strength to fight to reach the surface of this deep deep sea of fear, anxiety, depression, everything. And you let go. You slowly sink into the dark cold water.
Closing your eyes feels like the most relieving thing ever, until it's not. You feel suffocated. You feel like you want to go back, but lost your strength to try to. You think it's too late, you can't go back. So you give up again.
Then you feel the arm around your waist. You feel warmth from it.
They ask you to please tell them what's going on, they know what you're doing now. They need you just as much as you need them. They don't think you're annoying, they're asking you to please not leave them alone. They want you to talk to them. They *need* you. You're needed. You're wanted.
Suddenly, it feels less suffocating, you feel the warmth just wrap around your heart and body. You feel the tears just silently trail down your face. You feel them hugging you. It's okay. It's fine now. You're okay now. They won't leave. They don't want you to leave.
Thank you for coming to my TED talk
Edit: Thank you yall for all the comments and everything, sorry to make yall cry lol, this is what's happened to me before, except I changed the ending to be happy, to give hope and happiness to those who are awaiting for it to happen. Just know somewhere in the world there will be that special person who will stick with you through thick to thin, being a stubborn (loveable) bitch, refusing to let you go. I think I've recently found that person, but I just gotta hope and see. Just yesterday I got out of the mental hospital after being overwhelmed, but it has made me realize sometimes things feel impossible to get through, but it's just the weight of it all, you're actually really strong, sometimes you just need a break. I love you all, strangers on the internet
Goddamn this was really amazing, do you write? It's expressed in such a clear way, thank you for this, honestly, I needed this right now
This made me cry
girl, I'm pretty sure you deserve to be a professional writer! I love the way you expressed your feelings. I honestly can feel the same. I wonder why I'm stuck to a few people but then they all just leave. I always feel like something struck my chest but wasn't sure what it is ,,,
I have bad social skills and my mom just wants me to talk to more people ... I spend my entire day just in my room crying or just trying to find ways to express my feelings
Whenever I go to some social place I'm usually the quiet one . For some reason, I'm clingy to my sister. I hug her a lot. honestly, I think she is probably annoyed by it.
hope you have a good time
alr imma go cry cyaa
This is amazing, I felt so much thing just reading this. Are you a professional or something cuz if not you should !
Unless they never do come back. You distance yourself further and further and everytime you pass them you hope they stop and ask you what's up but they don't. They don't care. They're just glad you're gone. They never liked you in the first place. You watch them walk around asking everyone how they are and telling everyone to have a good weekend but when they walk past you, you don't get so much as a hello. You're left to wonder how this person has gone from that person that they said they were going to be. The one person you can trust and talk to about anything. The person that was always going to be there for you to being just another person. They forgot about you. You're nothing special. You're alone. Forever sinking. Forever drowning. Suffocating. Isolated. Hurting.
i started crying the second two birds started.
i’ll admit it. i want to give my friends hugs every time i see them. i don’t like my texts being ignored. i wish people understood how emotionally attached i get to them.
This playlist hits hard, being a clingy person like me. I've always been socially awkward but stuck to a specific person or two.
Me too ;-;
Same
ME
That's so true tho TvT
same-
One time I had a friend that that stood up for me against some bullies (4th grade) a few years later, I see her again I was so happy and... it's like she doesn't even remember me.
I’ve had that happen to me a lot
Same
Same
My life every year be like
That always sucks. I’ve encountered something like this before and it might be because she has had a traumatic head injury or something that involves memory loss. So sorry that you had to experience being forgotten!
This playlist perfectly describes my attachment issues, I feel terrible when my few friends start having jokes with each other, jokes that I don't understand. They talk about their problems with each other and leave me aside, I feel like I'm not there, they leave me alone in the classroom after class because I didn't pack my stuff fast enough. But I'm afraid of being alone, that's why I never say anything that bothers me, because I feel that if I do I'm going to be alone...it gives me an overwhelming panic
wow, that's me, lately i feel like i'm being leave behind, and that suck, there's a hole in my heart and i can't tell people about it. i just feel if i tell them about it they hate me, they left me alone
@@meika-li same, and I tried telling them but the only thing they told me is "we can't see it if you don't say it" but how am I supposed to say it...?
I have never related to any comment so much.
i felt that. But the words "..... i feel terrible when my few friends start having jokes with each other, jokes that I don't understand. They talk about their problems with each other and leave me aside" describe me totally. i feel so bad
they always say that they like me , i am important but i dont believe them.
im not a aprt of them . But they always say that i am. i am not.
They always talk about people from their school, but we dont go to the same school. Me and my one friend are left behind when they talk about stuff they are conected with.
they dont tell me anything.
always when they talk about their problems, their mental health problems I AM ALWAYS LEFT BEHIND.
they dont tell me anything. i just want to know.. i want to be a part of them.. but
i will be always the third/second wheel.
nothing really changed.
Pov: That one friend is fading away and you really love them but you have a hard time showing that you care and putting effort into the friendship so they just leave.
😭
this playlist hits hard when literally everyone fucking left in the end
@Kiwi ikr like my parents said they Will love me no matter what and one day my father said how me and my sibling is lazy and a failure and my mother always say bad things about everyone including me behind our back
im still here for you akenomic 💝
out of topic but does anyone know the name of the manhwa on the vid?
exactly
ask them a question " Am I boring too you?" they say no then please explain to me why in the fucking world you block me out of nowhere when I didn't even do nothing.
pov: you're watching your best friend that you're absolutely head-over-heels for be happier with someone else
How did u know-??
But the thing is they dont wanna tell me who that is
@@estelle.x i'm usually the first person he tells this kind of stuff to, so he didn't really hide it ://. maybe they're not ready to talk abt it yet? its okay, give them time and when the time comes, be understanding :>
@@grinreaper4949 i dont care abt them anymore, i mean i can't do anything abt it so i better give up
i still love her but i gave up already...
@@jelly_frog_5154 same, i know how u feel..
pov: you were actually happy. they actually cared about you. they made you feel like the world might actually be worth living in. they laughed with you and held you when you cryed. they understand that you struggle with mental health sometimes. you couldn't and still can't picture your life with anyone other than them. they swore up and down that they liked you were clingy, that they loved how emotional you were. they promised, PROMISED, they would never leave you.... but it happened anyways and it hurt more than anything else has ever hurt you before. and now you cry yourself to sleep wondering what the hell you did wrong to make the love of your life tear your heart in half
I’m sorry that happened. It must hurt a lot. If you’d like, I can be your friend. I’m willing to listen to you vent as well, but that’s optional. You don’t have to open up to me if you don’t want to.
THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED TO ME. It's so specific im kinda scared lol
As for me, I knew the reason why they left. I did it. I was the reason why they became exhausted and hurt. I was the reason why I ended up this way.
I pushed them away, fearing that it would be better than them leaving me. I wanted to stay by their side but the anxiety crippling inside me blinded me so much that I was the one who became the thing I'm most scared of.
Now I don't really want to have friends in fear of repeating that. I don't want other people to be suffering because of me. I don't want to see other people cry. I'm tired of constantly telling myself that I'll be fine with this because clearly, I'm not.
I deserve this though, I'm a monster.
Mine is sort of similar-..
They told me they wouldn't leave. They told me I was special.
They told me I meant everything to them.
They told me the *Love* me...
What *Love* is it when you would only leave and ignore after a while 2 weeks?.. Even bragging about your "girl friend's" good smelling perfume. Just to what point is it they tell me all those sugar coated words when in the very end they all meant nothing but lies..
Damn, that is so deep 😥😥
the sinking feeling in your stomach, that pressure on your chest.. you already know something is wrong
I just wanna go back to the days it wasn't hard to feel wanted in a friend group
I got replaced in my friend group that I brought together 😔💔
I clung on to my friend group but most of the time it seems like I’m just talking to myself. So not a good option either
i wanna go back to 4th grade when i just met my bsf. And i never want to go back to October 31, 2019 in 7th grade when i realized she replaced me. nothing was going to be the same. and i was right
duos trios or even groups doesnt last for me tbh. I'm in a few rn and they are the best fr but it seems like I rather would just leave and be alone. there are times which I think if I disappear from them would anything happen lol
I watched mine slowly drift away. I watched them cry, smile, laugh, and now leave me here. Moving on without me, leaving me clinging to the past.
Well, someone who is love sick and has Separation anxiety, I can say this is accurate.
hey i found my people
I also have separation anxiety, it's fucking hell
I understand how it is :(
me too :(
Fr fr
I don't really know if I'm lovesick or it's limerence, but it hurts. Love sucks, especially when it comes to falling in love with your best friend. Bruh.
POV: Your best friend is distancing them from you because they’re in love with someone, and while you fully support it, you’re so terrified of them leaving you. They’re hanging out with their crush and their friends, and progressively become more and more distant to you. Everytime you both talk, they treat you like a therapist friend, and they never ask you about anything.
Your best friend is slowly becoming just a friend, and then just someone you used to know.
where did you put the cameras.
@@moyamoya2886 you’ll have to look harder than that to find them
You know too much.
U explained my life story damm
This playlist just describes everything. When you’re clingy, you tend to think you annoy them and I just sit alone so I can’t form any connections ✨
😢Yea
I sit in a chair in a corner hiding behind device screens all day every day
Feeling touch starved
My fear is that when my Best friends find their S/O I'd be left behind and forgotten and I can't accept it since I love them as much as how they love their S/O.
happened to me recently, it really sucks.
One year without her, never had such a bad time 😅 but I'm moving on and so should everyone. I still am very paranoid, sometimes this paranoia is right tho, and then there she is and I... I see her and it let's me break like nothing else. I cried in a bus because of her twice. She was there too, but either she didn't see me or she didn't WANT to see me....
It has been such a rough time, and it will still be. I don't know how long this paranoia of seing her anywhere will go on, but I hope it will go away as soon as I'm out of this shitty town, as soon as I leave the country or smth.
Wishing you luck for this shit, because it's very hard... Idk how you meant this, but in case you meant "deeply in love aith them" wether tell them or don't be too obvious as soon as they've got a s/o...it broke our friendship apart.
Sorry for ranting and have great success!
It's happened to me 3 times and i still never learn :( I never understood why they would just leave me without saying anything just for a guy they just met, i still never moved on.
I was like that. But I still stuck with my friends. Though now I'm not dating and everyone else is/is crushing and hanging out with others
happened to me but when they broke up he crawled back to me lmfao
POV: you feel like you annoy your friends who just push you away because they don’t seem to have time for you
i seriously relate because of how clingy i am i feel like i annoy people too much :(
relatable af :(
this is so relatable im cruing
Yep.
pov: you're listening to the amazing playlist and reading the comments as well
dont worry i got a spare bucket for you too we can water some plants together later.
Thats exactly what im doing right now
Thank you…
POV: You have the most perfect relationship ever to yourself and others but then at night when their asleep and you're alone with your thoughts, you start to think about the day and the relationship, like; "Am I annoying him?" "Do I give him enough love to know he means a lot to me?" "Am I too clingy?" "Am I enough for him?" "He deserves someone prettier looking" "He is too good for me" "Maybe he'd be better off with someone else" "Someone else could make him happier" "Am I just a play thing he'll throw away when he's bored?" "Did I make him uncomfortable with what I said earlier?" "Am I too much for him?" And all these thoughts just keep occurring because of past relationships and you can't help but think them and you can't really talk to him about them otherwise he might think you're insecure about the relationship or something along those lines, so you just bottle them up and pretend none of it happened.
This is the most accurate pov in the world
Feel this on a spiritual level….because I was that person until everything went to shit and we stopped talking to each other. Still miss ‘em even though it’s been over a year or two since the breakup. :’/ Still can’t stop thinking about them in a romantic sense, making it harder for me to move on.
Me doing that right now
“i wish i could live without you” if only i could, it feels so strange without your “good mornings” everyday.
knowing they already found somebody else, made me realize..i was easy to replace that i’m only there when they don’t talk to anybody.
Good morning too you
Ty, good morning to you too :)
Can I high-key use parts of this comment for a song I'm making LMAOA
Yes, you have my full permission!!
How ironic I find this playlist once I discover I have attachment issues 💀💀💀
But reading everyone else's comments knowing that other person are feeling what I'm currently going through helps me feel better,, just wish I could talk to someone that has them too so maybe it'd be easier? Or better?
I just wanna feel safe :( Long clingy hugs to anyone reading, I love you
long clingy hugs to you too, my friend. i love you too
long clingy hugs are the best
Oh gosh long clingy hugs are what I'm craving rn
hii u can talk to meee
Same I just don’t like being alone. It makes me not feel to great about myself and I soon try to find someone to talk to. 💀💀💀😥😥😥
A girl falls in love with a guy, knowing she doesn't have a chance with him she distances herself. One summer later he confesses to her telling her that he likes her and wants to date her. She knows at first to not dive in head first, they go on a date and then she falls deep in love with him. They end up dating on August 8th. They go one a couple dates, hanging out at each other's houses, watching anime together or playing videogames together. November 13th, the guy confesses that he's been in love with her for awhile, and never knew how love felt until now. The girl was so happy, the smile didn't leave her face for days. They started holding hands, even took each other's first kiss. They hugged every morning and afternoon. Texting each other whenever possible. When they were far away from each other they called, sometimes a video call to see each other's faces. December rolls around and the girl found such a great gift for the guy for Christmas. She buys it, expecting nothing from him. She gives him the present, then receives a promise ring. He promised that he'll always be here for her, even if she falls out of love with him. She hugged him and cried of happiness. She's never felt so happy. They have such a great relationship, no issues at all. Each argument turned into laughter and hugging it out. There was never negative feelings about each other. February comes around and the guy has a new male friend. The new friend has a partner and is really cool. The girl seems suspicious of the new friend at first but decided to let him have his friends. On the 13th of February the guy asked the girl out of a Valentine's date, to roller skate. She said yes, happily. Then soon found out he invited the new friend also. She was alright with it, she didn't want it to seem like she hated them anyway. They had a great time, with the guy's attention split between the friend and the girl. A week passes and the guy stops talking to the girl as much, she doesn't think of it until she found out he has been giving hugs to the new friend and been talking to him twice as much as he's been talking to her. She gets self conscious and thought maybe he's just distancing himself to heal. She does the same and distances. On the 28th of February the guy breaks up with the girl. He said that he found feelings for the new friend. The girl cried. Not very long. Thirty minutes at most. She gathered all of his things and set off to him. She went straight up to him, tear stained, messy hair, and looking terrible. She placed the ring in his hand and told him "I will never fall out of love with you. My love for you will always be there, it'll be buried and forgotten. Seven months. I hope you remember it all."
August 8th 2021 - February 28th
My relationship.
As someone who has attachment and abandonment issues this playlist hits hard I have extreme attachment issues because my parents never payed attention to me it was always focused on my older siblings and I was just left there wondering why I wasn’t good enough, so when I met people that cared about me I was so clingy towards them and I didn’t know what I was going to do without them so since I was so clingy people viewed me as annoying and then left me and then that’s where my abandonment issues come from
Do you want a hug
Literally same dude ily
This kinda hurts. I'm clingy but to afraid of losing people to be clingy anymore. If i loose my friend (ie in a crowd), can't find them, get left alone by them, I panic and normally break down and cry
I could have written more but panicked and deleted it...
Awww ur just like my bff
I do that tbh with my best friend
It's okay...*hugs*
You're like me.
I feel so bad for you even tho I a little bit like that I hope someday you’ll get over this and you don’t get bothered anymore
Pov: you fell in love and became too 'clingy'. You couldn't understand that they lied about loving you and then ghosted you out of nowhere and went to the person that they told you they hated and now they're "best freinds."
You sit there while they talk about how much fun they are gonna have over the weekend and they don't even ask if you wanna join them and your just sitting there like the third wheel in the "freind group". So you completely give up on trying to show affection towards them. They ask you if you're ok and you can't respond because your not ok but you do anyways and say "oh yea I'm fine just tired". You avoid them everyday knowing that deep down inside you miss them and think about them but.. they don't care. So why do I even try..?
You had such great memories but none of them are real. Their all fake. Heh. What an idiot I was for being in love.
I’ve felt that.
this is exactly what happened between me and my ex, but don't worry. not all people are awful like that :)) i've met someone way better for me and i can tell you with certainty that there are people who will genuinely love you and care for you
Damn almost made me cry. It reminded me about my ex and how he lied about loving me.. Lol. But I'm better now and I got someone better for me now, I know you will as well, don't ever give up ! We all are here for you.
Damn
legit me but i a clingy with everyone.. my dad my mom.. My boyfriend.
Dear person whoever reads this,
Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile.
Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs.
Live for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one.
I love you and send you hugs.
You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you.
YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN.
I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC.
You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice.
You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is.
Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN.
I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO.
It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you.
I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go.
I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.??
I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night.
If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you.
If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits.
If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :)
Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out.
Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up.
I am sorry you feel misunderstood.
But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :).
Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?!
- The stranger that cares about you more than anything.
I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay.
This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it.
And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you.
I hope you will remember my words :)
Until tomorrow, my friend :)
I love you.
Thank you.
I'm not crying I'm just cutting onions
thank you im glad that you spread your words for people
it was exactly what i needed. i didnt even know that such words in comments uunder this kind of video could make me feel so alive and happy.
I love that you can tell the internet how you feel and it offers you just the music you need
the only trouble of having attachment issues is that one day you are with him and you feel really happy with him but then the other day... you miss him, you feel uncomfortable without him, you feel alone, sick of feeling like shit without that person; you feel like a shit that doesn't deserve him and then it starts the overthinking issues, you ask yourself "do I deserve him? does he really love me? does he really needs me? does I'm enough to him? will some time we'll be always together? will we have a "perfect" love story? will he leave me? is my body fine to him? does he prefer someone else? do I need to change to feel more love from him? does I give the love and care that he needs? does he really love me? does he hates me? does I'm too cold with him? I'm boring him? I'm too clingy with him? is he using me? I'm using him? does we really love each other? our relation ship is toxic? is okay for me to overthink about us? is he talking to someone else in a lovely way? he would never cheat on me, right? we will be fine in the future? will we live happily together? our relation ship could end? the love we give each other is okay? does we need more time together?... is it really good to be together?..."
Many questions pass on my head... I don't know if it is really okay, but some time I think is okay... but others I think that is to much, that I'm the only one overthink our relation ship, that he doesn't do it and that he doesn't really care what will happend to us; so I try to stay calm and don't overthink what will happend but... it's really difficult to doesn't feel like nothing when he is not with me, to feel lonely... be without the person you love...
I feel you. I can relate to you SO much. I was feeling as if my best friend doesn't actually have feelings for me and is just messing with me. Although it does seem as if he's really into me, it feels as if most the time he's "busy" he's just ignoring me or talking to someone else. I ovethink about him and I a lot, and it really isnt a good feeling. Always thinking about if we'll even last. I love and care for him very much, but at the end of the day Im somehow always asking myself if I'm even enough for him. It always starts with the attachment issues, and turns into overthinking issues. You're aboustely right. I understand you SO SO SO much. It's really weird to think about how much I can relate to you. But I can promise you that he surely loves you and that you and him will last awhile before things can get out of hand. I love you
i feel like this with my current boyfriend....hes so freaking amazing and reassures me all the time bc he knows the same feeling im having, hes the sweetest person and he has his flaws but I dont see them as problems, this honestly made me feel better by reading it because ik im not alone in feeling like this, so thanks for writing it :)
Nah cus this true
i feel this sometimes
feeling this so much lately ugh
regardless of how often he reiterates that he likes me and likes spending time with me, if we don’t see each other for a little bit, all the overthinking starts and my mood goes from 1000000 to -50000000000
i hate this ha
this is the reason why i try to be so mean all the time so people will treat me like I'm weird. then i wont get attached. but it never works. i hate getting attached to people. :(
The picture is from:
How to live as the enemy prince
It's a novel which is not bl unless something happened in the korean chapters
The characters are Franz and Calian
Repost cos i think my last comment got sent to review cos i edited it with a pinterest link to the photo
tysm
Thank you
Have a nice day
Ty ^^
I miss him so much. Even a simple snap score change makes me cry lmao wtf is wrong with me.
Nothing is wrong with you dw
I feel attached to so many things and I'm not sure if anyone around me can really understand the extent of my attachments. Feeling attached to the past, even just that one period of time in my life, or even objects. I say goodbye to the places I stay a few months in (I move around here and there) and when I got a new device, I wrote a goodbye letter to my old devices, thanking them for being there for me all these years. I know how ridiculous these things may sound, but imagine the attachment I feel towards people. If anyone read it to this point, thank you. I really appreciate it. I wish the best to everyone here.
It doesn't sound ridiculous at all! Anything I do or have I always have a big issue letting it go, so I get that! And I do the exact same things!
I don't think its stupid tho it seems kinda normal to me at least not that extra ig
i completely understand. its because i love around so much i have attachment issues. everything is my life has been temporary. nothing is consistent and it leads to this constant state of uneasiness. i get attached to people, houses and even just my surroundings like specific trees, corners stores, etc. and then when i have to leave again it just hurts more and more. u definitely dont sound ridiculous
@@abigailarredondo6257 Thank you for this. It's really nice to hear that someone else feels similarly. It really does suck and hurts like ass, but hey, i guess it shows how much love we have to give, despite all the pain we've gone through.
I didn’t expect to cry tonight
I’m so close to having a breakdown because not only do I hate being so attached and clingy to people close to me, but the person I cling to the most is moving to flordia forever. She was like the only reason I was still happy. She was always by my side since I met her when I was in 3rd grade (she was in 4th)
I found this playlist a month to late. It really just brings out an emotion that you didn’t know you had and you just start to feel vulnerable and like you’re not alone in what you’re going through.
Im sometimes scared to let people be my friends. You never know if they will hurt you or if they will just do something bad. Maybe they will affect you in bad way? Maybe they will use you to clean up their emotional garbage but they refuse to clean up yours. Or they will touch you even when you say no.
This is what my mind thinks whenever someone is friendly to me B)
yes I do have attachment issues.
exactly!! but my mind ignores that because I want to be seen or I just want to have someone by my side, due to that I have done a lot of stupid things:)
yes. now that i think about it, i dont think ive ever had a friend where i wasnt scared they would get tired of me or leave me for their other friend
@@hayunojam_ same
I've always wanted a friend that stuck by my side but I was always the one who destroyed my closest bonds so now I'm afraid of people being my friends because I don't know if I should connect with them.
I get clingy really easily. If someone shows me affection, I want to return it tenfold. When my girlfriend asked me out, and started calling me "love" and saying she loved me, and said goodnight every night to me, my heart melted. I sometimes text them in the middle of the night when I get scared they don't love me or scared I'm being annoying, and they always tell me it's okay. It's nice to have someone willing to help you work through stuff, and we chat casually often. You'll find somebody who you love who loves you just as much as you do!
Aaaaw that's really sweet
Pov: the only person you're close with made new friends and likes them more than you and you try so hard but you know they're drifting away so there's nothing you can do other than accept it
Me because I distanced myself first to see if they chase but they don't so I just accept that I'm actually just another person in their life
this playlist hits home really hard because through my life I have been really social awkward unless I am around my 1 comfort person. But they recently moved away to America, and its been hard to try find a new person but I can' t because I am scare to go running to the wrong type of comfort person like i used to do and these other comments are making me realise that its perfectly normal what I am going though at the moment.
POV: You realized you fell into a codependent unhealthy relationship that you left, but you feel lost without them.
Honestly it feels like I am going insane I get attached to someone and then I am terrified of letting them go I feel like if I let them go I will just collapse mentally I need someone to love me but I am afraid of loving them back because of my issues I feel like I will hurt them for some reason I feel like I will become obsessed with them like some sort of messed up yandere I am afraid of loving someone because I don't want to hurt them I'm just stuck in this endless loop of falling in love and forcing myself to hate them so I don't get attached but when someone shows me love I get scared they will hurt me like everyone else has I'm so tired of it.
one time i had to let go of my best friend i didn’t talk to her for a year, we had a fight and i was crying everyday for a month. she is the only person i can truly
tell all of my feelings about. we came back into contact because she wanted to talk to me again, i feel like if someone is really your soulmate they will always come find a way back, this changed me i learned to be more alone and right now i love it.
check my channel.
My best friend randomly ghosted me and never talked to me again. Since we didnt see eachother in person anymore.
having attachment issues and trust issues is just wanting to believe but you constantly think people are lying.
you just want to believe but you cant let yourself
Since everybody seems to be telling their feeling here in the comments I will as well
I have a rough time letting go of friend and recently i got into a big argument with one my friend. We have been best friends since 3rd grade ( I’m in 8th ) and she completely made up a story and told everybody bad things about me. But I just can’t let her go- I can’t hit that block button, smile at her, even do simple things we loved to do together without getting a pit in my stomach. I’m going trough hell in my personal life besides that, and another one of friends is slowly drifting away. We haven’t know each other for long but I tell her everything. She is my world the only person who understands me and excepts me for me. She isn’t constantly making fun of me, but I’ve shut down and pushed everybody away. I’m to stubborn to apologize or come back to reality ( that’s the only good metaphor I can think of ) I know that this isn’t as bad as some of y’all’s but I prefer not to say anymore than this.
- Ava
@@c4rrot508 thank you so much
I have a friend named Ava I miss her so much she's also the 8th grade but she moved away and I don't have her phone number anymore
I’ve had the same thing happen to me if I was you let it go it will hurt you the worst if you don’t I have depression and separation anxiety and it sucks and also stomach acid you don’t wanna be like me trust me leave everyone who is toxic, but live life while you still can
I'm sorry but ur friend remind me so much about me n I regret doing what I did so much. I did it out
Jealousy n now all I have is regret. So I'm sorry about what happen to u n to my friend even if it won't change anything😕
I used to have a friend who I'd talk to every day, then one day they stopped talking to me because I would always check up on her and just talk to her and it made me realise that we maybe I took our friendship too seriously . She managed to let go of our friendship but I still can't stop thinking about her and that maybe if I wasn't so clingy she wouldn't have left, heck people keep saying that it's good she left because she's a toxic person, but I still can't let her go
Same as you..
Your not alone buddy. I used to like my best friend, but she seemed to just ignore how i felt.. But I found someone real.
Even if their just like a relative or an old friend, find someone real, someone who will care, and once you do, i bet, you’ll be happy and comforted by that person
Tonight I’m writing a message to a person who went from saving my life, to being the reason I wanted to take it. Mutual friends of ours say that she’s no good, but I can understand what she’s going through trauma wise, because we really aren’t that different, and I don’t know how to tell them that because they distanced themself when they realized I was staying. I cry about it too much n I’m tired of it but I can’t let go :/
as someone who is really clingy to my friends i needed this thank you
Day 4 of listening to this
I hope everyones doing well! I'm actually got sleep, (finally) have good dreams tonight!
it’s really strange, the chance I actually get to talk to that friend I generally like talking to is either stolen away or something. Now everyone is gone, I’m living the way everyone sees me as somebody who is what they call ‘wouldn’t hurt a fly and too kind’, because I’m not taken seriously. But I also hate attention by everyone, I freak out big time whenever somebody tells me they like me which makes me feel like I have to act a certain way as everyone else watches. It gets so overwhelming I start to feel sick and cry.
I felt that, its like yup want to be loved but at the same time you don't
do you ever want to be in a relationship with someone and in the end you’re terrified of them leaving?
yeah
deathly afraid
POV: you’re about to go into your freshman of highschool. Everything has been fine until summer started. You and your two best friends would talk all the time, and go online together. One of them had lived across the country, but that never changed anything. Recently the one you had with you went to another state to see family. You were stuck alone. Everything was fine at first, we all still chatted, the far away friend started texting more. The other started to stop. You grew worried the first few times it happened, they always had taken a bit to respond. But a week was worrying, you started wondering if they were dead or hated you. You wondered if they would ever text again.. they finally texted back but as soon as they responded they just as quickly disappeared again.
Over time you got used to it but silently still felt sad, and even a little angry. You started developing an issue where you got mad at them and wouldn’t know why, and would force yourself to not text them. Maybe you thought it would bring them back quicker, maybe they cared. But those texts were rare, you felt awful ignoring them but you still did. Whenever you came back from those temporary fits nothing would change.
It’s the middle of summer, they text you again. This time saying they have bad news and didn’t want to tell you yet because they knew you would “react badly”. You were a bit upset they would assume that and they instead told you they were getting a new dog soon. You immediately tried connecting the dots “maybe their dog died.” You thought to yourself a little sad that that might be it, but you understood they needed time to grieve and didn’t ask questions. A week passes, they text that they’re ready to tell you the bad news.
Fully expecting them to talk about their dog, buddy. You get prepared to comfort them. But instead, that wasn’t what you were told at all. They said that they would be out of state for longer than they thought, and that they were sorry. All you said in reply was “oh, it’s ok.” You weren’t crying, you didn’t know what to feel. You never expected them to come back anyways.. they never told you when or if they were coming in the first place, so why would you be sad? You should stop thinking selfishly, not everything is about you.
It’s nearing the end of summer, your messages won’t go through. They haven’t texted. It’s been 2 weeks. Maybe more… At this point you’re giving up.
But in the long run it doesn’t matter because they won’t see you at school anyways.
Hi, i made a similar type of playlist so check it out if you want to
Btw, i really liked your POV, especially that im starting high school this year and im nervous about it
I'm afraid of being abandoned. Forgotten... I'm afraid of being alone and having no one. Yet here I am, feeling and being completely alone
i love my friends so much but it hurts so bad when i see them laughing and talking stuff iv never heard about. they wld talk about giving gifts to each other but i’m never included in those conversations i’m there at the side trying to look like i’m enjoy the convo 😄😄😄
thanks for all the msgs
I feel ya man... If you wanna talk about it or hear my stories i'll be here. You're not alone
My friends tend to plan things and not invite me, they just casually mention what they are going to do and how much fun its going to be and I'm just there like. "Yeeeah."
@@WormTexture same, but theyve been friends for ages ive just kinda joined them so i dont know whether i should leave or not
sorry for a vent-like comment :|
@@meganbowden8651
I'm one of the friends that has been there for ages they just never seem to acknowledge my existence.
Thats me everyday my friend who i was friends with since 4th grade actually left me out when she found new friends and made a friend group. I tried to include myself but i get ignored. People will say there your “friends” but they just want someone to keep hold of them until your replacement comes.
You know it’s good when it starts with “Two Birds” by Regina Spektor
Yep
POV: you found someone you enjoy talking to, someone you enjoy staying up all night with, someone who is really amazing, someone who understands you for you, someone who listens to you talk for hours, someone you enjoy laughing with, someone you are willing to travel the ends of the earth to see..but then one day that person just leaves and never talks to you again for an unknown reason..someone who told you they'd be there for you forever...but then they leave like they never even existed...or like everything you guys talked about was...all a lie..and a dream to perfect to be true..or real...
Bro this hits way too hard. I’m always so scared of my best friend hating or leaving me, because idk what I’d do without them. They’re the only friend I have, and I’m so scared of messing up- I love them a lot, and I really enjoy being their friend, but sometimes I overthink. And by sometimes I mean every damn day- “do they hate me?” “what if they’re only talking to me out of pity?” “am I annoying them?” “am I too clingy?” “Do they feel the same way that I do?” “Are they happier with someone else” and other things like that. I feel so clingy and I honestly hate it so much- a part of me wants to be open with them and tell them how I feel, but I’m scared it’ll come off as creepy or weird- and then the other part of me wants to keep this all to myself, but I feel like that’ll make it even worse🧍 I just feel terrible overall and idk what the hell to do🤠
This is exactly what I feel, I have a really close friend I love her sm. But I'm trying not to be too clingy or annoying. I feel like she doesn't need me as much as I need her. Idk what id do without her. We talk everyday, when she's not at school I literally die. I've tried to distance myself so I don't become to attached, but I kept getting dragged back to her. I love her so much. I'm just so scared she's gonna leave me someday.
It’s too hard letting go. I can’t let go.
Why can’t I just let go for once?
words cannot express how much i relate/ love this playlist. i have really bad separation anxiety when it comes to certain friends, family members, and most of all with my s/o. they can’t always be around, which really sucks because i miss them more than anything, so i just feel bleh when they aren’t around. but i manage with music and distracting myself as much as possible. but thank u strangers, for listening to me, a another stranger. :)
No problem, stranger :)
relatable :( hope everything goes for the best! happy to able to listen to you :)
has been 4 years and i still love you and miss you
*•literally my favorite playlist. Can't go without it.•*
I just want to let everyone know that it's going to get better. I've been through hell I've been through so many screwed up things in the past and now it's gotten a bit better :) and for you to whomever is reading this I just want to let you know that all those things you've been through you're still here standing so don't let this certain situation bring you down.. no matter how hard this can be just know that i care about you and that you've done so much and I'm proud of you so please get some rest, eat food, and drink some water I love you
me when i cry /pos
attachment disorder is when you have a hard time expressing your care and affection to another person. However in my case, i seem to have a hard time suppressing my care?
Its clinginess and more. Like the grey area between caring friend and overprotective parental figure. Im obsessed with helping people, im obsessed with making sure everyones happy, im obsessed with the person i am when i do a good thing. Im selfish and only do these things for attention tbh. even i know it. I dont want to hear a "No youre just very considerate and selfless", because no. I well and know im only doing this for someone to return the care ive given them. Sometimes i hurt people trying to help, so why try when they wont appreciate anyways. Why must i be like this lmao
Fun fact: I just got broken up with and I got really attached and now I'm listening to this🥰
this playlist literally represents my life. its so bad to see your most loved ones slowly drift away. ive never replayed a playlist that much in my life. thank you for this amazing thing, it helps me so much. also, i hope you havea good day/night. they want you, but they just dont know how to show it, trust me.
What? Only 102 subscribers? There should be A MILLION because of this playlist. Keep up the good work!!💗
Awww thank you luv!!
@@seaofcereal2337 💖💖💖
Well this aged well, actually!
@@RedSnowSystem I just checked! That’s so cool
This actually hit me like a truck, especially since every year someone meaningful to me seems to leave to a better place and it hurts even more since they always say the same thing when they leave..
Getting to the end idk the song but it's the so long one and when they were singing they said "BYEEE😍💅" I WAS CRYING OF LAUGHTER and I was literally crying bc I was sad about something for some reason that part just made me happy
i listen to this playlist almost everyday. its so good and i listen to it so much!
Thanks this reallly helped.. When my friends replace me it makes me cry thanks...
Straight away this playlist feels like a call out, you worked so hard on this and I'm seriously happy-
I have no idea what in the world attachment issues are, but this playlist has this vibe that matches with me so, thanks for making this playlist!!
i was not ready for this
Vent time haha
All my life I’ve been the “I’m an introvert but for some reason i know tons of people” person, and all those now are gone. I had two great friends (A(she) B(he)). But because A now has a bf and B did some stupid things over A and me (sexual abuse involved) both left.
Now im alone as i can be. I thought that at my age I’ll be this happy teen with tons of friends, actually in a part time job and trying to live alone in an apartment with some pals or smt, but im alone as i can be, only with my mom, that we don’t have the perfect relationship.
I miss my friends, i miss my dad, i miss being around all this people even though it felt a little lonely, but this… this is driving me insane
I got attached to my friend in school bcz she showed me love i don't think i ever felt in my entire life...i have absolutely no idea how to get over her....and it hurts cuz she's the popular kid and she has so many other friends and all i want is to spend time w her all the time...but i can't
I really REALLY needed this I have really bad attachment issues and I have the fear of detachment I really need this thank you so much definitely subbing
I love hearing everyone’s stories here. Thanks for both making me cry and showing me it’s okay to feel sad. I’ve been feeling really conflicted over the aftermath of a breakup lately, and as much as this hurt, it really helped. ❤
I keep remembering them. these 2 girls and this guy. they were everything to me and they still hurt me before. I was used by those girls and thrown aside by him. I see them again after 3 years and they apologized and we agreed to not hang out and just say hi. But I can't believe I miss them. I'll see them from afar but I want to be close and I want to talk to him but I know he is trying to forget. I know they are different and moved on. And I still can't let go of it all. I loved them all and I wish we could go back to before we messed it all up. before we started to take sides and act the way others did just to fit.
The biggest pain is when you need somebody and there the last thing keeping u there but they just think of u as a person that they talk to 🙂
aaaaa, you need to make more of these. i love it
Ever since my elementary school friends stopped talking to me all of a sudden on the first day of middle school, I got severely attached to the group of friends that allowed me to sit with them when I asked them if I could sit with them. I was honestly surprised on how I was able to ask them when I had social anxiety. (I still have it and I think it got a bit better but it might start to get worse once again) I always feel anxious that they don’t need me even though it has been 4 years that we were friends. We are a group of 6 and I am always the one that has to make an effort to talk to one of them in order for them to talk to me. If I don’t say anything then they don’t talk to me. I am also the one that walks in the middle when we walk from lunch to class, but I end up getting moved to the back walking alone while they each split into groups of 3 and 2 and I am left alone walking with my head down since I am too scared to look at anyone else but them. When I do try to talk, most of the times they can hear me and I am able to join in but there are times when they can’t hear me and I keep trying to get their attention because it’ll be awkward for me if I just go back to being on my phone and it feels as if they don’t want to talk to me. I know I shouldn’t be thinking like that since we are close friends but I can’t help it. I also feel like I am getting too talkative or trying to hard to get them to notice me and I end up thinking I am an annoyance to them. I also sometimes make things awkward because of comments I say and I try to say what I said more detailed and explain it but I see them staring at me waiting for me to explain and my head goes blank and the words don’t come out so it looks as if I said something that annoyed them and I end up feeling bad about it for the rest of the day. I have also tried sending signals that I have social anxiety like saying “Can you ask the teacher if I can go to the restroom for me?” and they laugh and say “Why? It’s just asking to go to the restroom.” And I sink back into my thoughts and start feeling ashamed of myself for feeling nervous and scared to ask such a simple question. I also think it has worsened because in math when they asked me how I solved it, I looked down at my paper and started to tear up. They were far so I don’t think the teacher saw it, but I just couldn’t say it aloud feeling the other students looking at me and I shrugged and said quietly “I don’t know.” which makes me seem stupid. There was another time which happened yesterday where the teacher in math was asking me what the sentence I read meant which made me tense up since I didn’t understand the question. I couldn’t understand how that sentence could be more detailed than it was. Then he asked me “what is revenue?” I said “What you earn.” But it was too quiet and he put his hand on his ear cupping it and said “I couldn’t hear you.” I said it again and he took off his mask and mouthed something but my mind was panicking too much to make out what he said so I said it again a bit louder this time and then he said “So what does the sentence mean?” And I turn to look at the sentence and stare at not looking anywhere else. I stare at it for a minute or 2 not moving at all then he says “Need help?” But in a calming voice and I nod and he asks another person to help me out. The hole time I was biting my lips and since I had long nails, I curled my fingers and stabbed them into my palm wishing the pain could overtake the anxiety I had. I wished there was some blood streaming down my palms. I couldn’t feel the pain so I stabbed even harder and then final,y let go and when I looked at my palm there was no blood, there were just nail marks that were red around it. I started the habit of stabbing my palms whenever I would feel anxious a while ago and it helped sometimes and I know that it is not good to do it but what am I supposed to do when I can’t do anything and my mom gets mad at me for speaking too softly when someone is trying to talk to me? How else am I supposed to calm myself from crying in front of everyone and embarrassing myself even more than I already have? I just wanted to write this because I honestly don’t know. I always thought that only unhealthy people that didn’t grow up in a good environment would be facing these problems and I know that it was wrong to think that way but not anymore. Especially considering how I am a great student with high grades but everything is too much nowadays. I just want that one friend that would stick to me and talk to me everyday even during class and I would also stick to them and talk to them during class but I can’t let go of my current friends especially after some other people leaving the group. I see how they talk bad about the people that left and I am scared that they will also do that to me when in reality I just want someone to listen to me and I want to open up to them but a lump in my throat forms every time and it feels so suffocating. I just wish that I could meet that one person that will always be there for me and I will always be there for them.
Same sometimes I feel like in my friend group I am the second or last choice. I feel like my friend group will leave me for someone else just like my last group of friends. I also get anxiety in school and pressed to be better than my siblings.
@@xxcosmicxx1297 Yeah me too, but it is kind of different since my brothers were always smart and they have outstanding grades and they expect the same from me. It was mainly my mom that pressured me. Since that was happening since I was little, I got used to having good grades and if I see less than a 90 on my six weeks grade I end up crying because I feel like I wasn’t good enough for them and myself. When I fail a quiz and I need my mom’s signature to re take it I always get scared and nervous to ask her to sign it since I know she will end up screaming at me and saying why I couldn’t pass it and when I tear up she gets even madder asking why the hell I am starting to cry. They also get mad at me easily and when I try explaining why I did what I did they don’t end up listening to me or they think I am lying. When I was little no one really played with me. I always asked my brothers to play with me outside or on the wii but they always said “later” or “tomorrow” and then weeks passed and they never did but I would hear my brothers always play with one another which made me really upset that they wouldn’t want to play with me since my mom was always busy cleaning the house or always annoyed at me and my dad would be working 10 hours a day. Now when I try making a joke or play around, it sometimes puts my oldest brother in a bad mood and my mom sees me looking sad and I just end up joking about what I did and how he responded but I end up tearing up in my room. Even I don’t like crying because if my parents walk in or someone they will ask why I am crying and I don’t want to tell them because I was never really close with them so it’s awkward for me to open up to them.
@@xxcosmicxx1297 Maybe once we are older and have a job we can take a break and go on a vacation away from the problems. That’s why I want to go to a college that’s a little far away but still in the same state, but my mom gets mad and says why I can’t go to the college that’s 10 minutes away from my house and says that in the future she’ll tell me if she allows me to go, but I believe I deserve to go to the college I want because I am working earnestly hard on my grades and being the perfect student that knows the answer to almost everything even if that means stressing about it at night and having major procrastination on work and bottling up my emotions so I won’t cry or get mad and only show positive emotions to everyone around me.
@@KC-od4sn lets hope that one day someone will came in our lives and make us happy.
I honestly have an issue letting go of people who make it kinda clear they have no interest in me anymore. Idk, its annoying for me and I get picked on for it sometimes but when that person was so close to me, its hard to just drop it all like it was nothing.
That’s why I hate getting into any relationships, It’s either I get too clingy or cold no in between. It’s risky because it’s like deciding whether I hurt you or you hurt me.
omg thank you SO much for adding mitski in here
i've been inhaling this playlist every week for the past 3 months
Okay, this is so heart breaking for me to listen to. I’m about to rant about different people I’ve met and attached to, and if they’ve ripped that attachment in half by leaving, I’ll mention that too. And, I will mention a song that I feel fits our relationship.
Britian, a boy I met in preschool. I loved and cared for him dearly. At first I had a crush on him. I slowly realized he was like a brother and lost feelings. Though in the first year or two we were glued together, by 3rd grade, we were distant. Way too distant to be on regular speaking terms. My parents never liked him much, I never knew why, then I realized it was because he had two moms. He moved in 3rd grade when Covid hit, I haven’t seen him since and it’s been about 3 school years. He left in the end, I don’t hold it against him though, especially because I was always a clingy idiot around him. Honestly, with us, two birds on a wire by Regina Spektor fits us heartbreakingly well.
The twins, it’s been so long since I’ve seen them. Almost 8 years..time really does fly by, and it stings like hell when you realize you’ve went on that long acting like you were fine. These two were my happiness, the both had strawberry blonde hair, the girl had greyish-green eyes and the boy had dark green almost emerald eyes. And oh boy did I love them both. We played family at the park in the city over from our school once. The girl was so kind and bubbly, she was my whole heart, I loved her so much, she was so nice and I was close to her quick, but not too quick. The boy was nice but he wasn’t bubbly, he was calm and deep rooted, he was the one that kept me and his sister protected and unharmed. I liked him. He was so comforting to me. He was calmer than a lot of boys in our class and I found that nice. He practically listened to everything I said. He was respectful too, and he never was rude to any of the girls like the other guys were. Even when I clearly upset him, he always talked gently and calm to me. Obviously he wasn’t perfect but he was as close to perfect as I could get in our class. We were all so perfectly close, we told each other everything. Well almost everything of course, I didn’t tell the brother I liked him because I was embarrassed. They ended up moving, and I will never hold that against them, ever. With both of them in mind, I definitely say our song was All I Want by Kodaline.
Addi, oh my darling Addi, one of the 2 best friends I have left from preschool, I met her at recess and we both liked to swing so we always talked and swung on the swings, sometimes, since there was a dinosaur toy on the playground we talked there sometimes too. (you would get on it and it would rock back and forth like you were riding on its back, it was hard ASF to get on) We told each other absolutely EVERYTHING. No boundaries. She never left. Butterfly’s Response by Zabawa is quite literally us, solely because we’re constantly comforting each other and reassuring the other we’re there for them. (Also because our relationship is slightly romantic.)
Micah, the person I met in 2nd grade and the person I have feelings for to this day. He was my bully but honestly I found that attractive, really funny fact, some of the reasons I was so into him was because he was larger than me, had large and pretty hands, he was really easy to get mad, his voice was deepish, he was possessive and protective of me in a way. Hardly anyone could touch me, he called me sweet cheeks once, and would call me cutie, shortie, and darling constantly. (Examples: “If you’re trying to make me feel bad your doin’ a real good job shortie.” “Hey! There’s my cutie!” “Darling, you’re so ugly you’re cute.” He tried to insult me by saying that) Once I was crying in music class next to a cabinet, the cabinet I went to if I wanted to tell someone a secret, or more importantly, if I just wanted to hide from everyone. He was just kidding around with his friends and then he saw me, for some reason he felt like he needed to talk to me and ask what was wrong apparently. He kind of jogged over to me and squatted down. “Hey- uh..what’s wrong (my name)?” There was complete silence, all except for my sniffling and fast breathing. He glared at me and I lifted my head, he made a growling noise and got closer to my face. “(My name) tell me why you’re crying.” I started breathing really fast and tried to talk but to my surprise all that came out of my mouth were sobs and whimpers. Once he realized I was dangerously close to a panic attack he sat next to me. He glanced at me, all I was doing was staring at him, I remember feeling like I everything was in slow-mo, I don’t remember what I was thinking but I know it was probably something stupid. (This is all from memory so I know it sounds like a stupid Wattpad story but this is exactly how I remember it) He made a decently loud groan and threw his head back against the wall. I think it’s because he realized what he had to do to calm me down so I could talk. All I remember is him grabbing the shoulder closest to the cabinet (he somehow reach my shoulder and idk how 😀) and pulling my head onto his chest, then he grabbed behind my knee and pulled my legs closer to him, I was practically in his lap by now but I could see that for some reason, he didn’t even look mad. (The reason I say it like that is because in 2nd grade I couldn’t touch him without getting a glare from him) He wrapped one of his arms around me and rested his head on mine, after about 45 seconds I was calm enough to talk, I managed to whisper out “I just miss (cousin’s name)…” And I started sobbing again, I was really close with my cousin but she was held back. He just chuckled at me and rubbed my waist, after a few minutes I sat up and went back to just sitting there like I was when he found me crying, with my knees up and my head on my knees, obviously using my arms as pillows. I heard him shuffling to get up and I looked up at him. Right as I made eye contact with him he patted my head gently and walked off to his friend group again, who apparently didn’t realize he was gone for like 10 minutes. In a way, he never left, we go to the same school and I see him almost every week but we’re in completely different classes, so I don’t talk to him anymore, there’s the occasional time when we have to go to the office by initial and since we both have the M initial for our last names, we go at the same time and there’s the occasional passive-aggressive insult and maybe a bit of flirting. The song that I would say describes us is Him & I by Halsey and G-Eazy :)
(This turned into a huge rant mainly about Micah, I’m so sorry, I’m just on my knees for him rn-)
Honestly please write a story about Micah im invested I also want that love story.
Not me wanting for you guys to talk to each other but I can’t cause it’s your life and I don’t want to affect it 😭✋
Due to my obsessive nature when getting attached easily to one single person that I care about a lot, when I lose someone I care about, I listen to this to cope. This playlist was so relatable I actually cried 😅 Thank you for the beautiful playlist. ❤ 💗 💕 💖
Day 1 of listening to this
I love the playlist, my friend might be moving to texas but its okay! I'll see how long I can do this for!!
i have attachment issues but the other way around... i drop people like hot coals and i never miss anybody. listening to this is very painful because this feeling of needing anybody at all is something i have tried very, very hard to repress :(
I lost so many friends during the pandemic and now that I'm back in school it's so hard for me because I miss them but they don't even make eye contact with me and it's hurts so much. I know that they just drifted away but I for some reason can't let go of the friendship I had with them.
(Vent, skip if you don't want to see)
I basically lost my cats a few days ago and I had to surrender them due to financial problems, they were the main reason I was continuing with this hell hole of life, it's almost the same with people, I had to let go of many many friends, some I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye too, they just, vanished.
I try and distract myself but no matter what it always comes back, I have a hard time with emotions and handling them, it's even worse when I try and comfort others.
To anyone reading this, even if you don't think your going to make it, it's ok, I won't say it'll get better or it'll be ok because we never know. But you matter
Knowing that my friends I’ve known for a decade have found “replacements” for me but still hang out with me hurts. It hurts a lot.
I feel really bad for you, but sadly I can relate to that. I put my trust into them and they broke me but acted like nothing ever happened, that happened in 5th grade btw. I hope that you can get through this! I support you in everyway I can!😄😊☺
Thiss hits really hard thank you for making thiss 🙏
Well- I'd say i attach too quickly to people, especially toxic ones.
The trouble here for me, is that I'm so clingy yet,, i guess distant? Like I basically glue myself to my friends and when they try to cling to me or learn about me in more depth, i just push them away in fear that they will see me for who i am and who im not, that they wont like me, the 'me' that isnt the image that they have of me. They always say 'oh youre so nice', 'youd never do this', 'youre such a calm responsible person', 'you look so cute' when im really, honestly not. They dont know that i instinctively lie due to past trauma, that im not genuinely so nice, but a people pleaser. Im afraid they’ll leave me or use secrets and confessions, my self against me, like people in the past have, like my mum has. Im so afraid of being disliked that i fake myself to my family, to my friends, to myself even, that i push people away. Im lithromantic which means that i desire and may search for romantic relationships, but feel uncomfortable in actual relationships or cant picture myself in being in an actual one. Though sometimes i wonder if im just lying to myself again. Did i push him away because im lithromantic, or was it because im afraid of the emotional depth and understanding that comes in a relationship? why did i push him away so confidently yet instantly regret it? Why did i feel such comfort clinging, yet when he clinged back, i felt so uncomfortable? why did i feel so proud of him, yet so hurt when i heard that he moved on so easily a month later? I know it was to be expected, that it was my fault, that my own fears got in the way yet again, but i sometimes wonder. What wouldve happened if we just stayed together? What if i actually set some boundaries, went along with the flow? Would i be happy? Would he be happy? Would he have been happy with **me**? Why am i so afraid of deep, genuine relationships and showing myself to others to the point where i push people away from me if they get too close and personal? Why do i feel so alone and disconnected from the world if it was my own choice, my own fault? Nobody feels real enough to me, i judge and measure someone based off of logic, disregarding that they are their own person. I grow close to someone without ever growing genuinely **close** to them and i feel so bad, so so bad that they reveal themselves to me, but i can never do the same back, ever, in fear of being hurt by someone close to me again, like my mum did and does, like my old friends, like my sister did. I know there's no one but myself to blame for my yearning yet my detachment to life itself and the people around me, so so afraid of well, everything.
sooooo when i saw the tittle then i realize that thats why i feel so lonely and feel so alone cause im so attached to pppl that if idont see the ppl that i have an attachment i cry just by feeling lonely and i feel so pathetic but now i know why im like this thank you for giving me awareness :)
POV : You just wanna feel the warmth, the safe-feeling, the love, of a single hug. For once in your life.
i had this toxic friend who slapped me alot but i focused on the good times instead of the bad and i was so scared of losing her that no matter what i’d always be first to apologise, even if i did nothing wrong.
I hope things are okay now, you deserve a lot more better than this person! :)
I always put a barriers between me and my friends to avoid getting hurt although it affect our friendship I so took the risk. Some people say I don't trust them enough. Yes I don't there's sometimes that you know they're other side but not they're real one. Which can lead to a huge fight if time comes I really wanna trust them for my own good but there's also a inner me saying not to cause it's not the time yet. (I have trust issues regarding being afraid of getting left out)
This playlist really hits hard... I was always either alone or isolated... I always make sure to not cross boundaries so that I won’t get too attached. I’m scared of showing how clingy I can become... I’m soo clingy that I wish I can hug my friends everyday. I love hugs... but people don’t really like clingy ppl...