Sorry about losing your mother. I don't have a great relationship with mine but if she passed I would miss her for better or worse. Sometimes its just hard.
Thank you, no matter what kind of imperfect relationship you have with your mother, it’s natural to observe that her death will make you feel like a child all over again. Appreciate her good while you can and navigate the bad to the best of your ability. Sometimes we regret not enduring through our mothers lows when they die just because any moment becomes a lost moment after they die.
My mother is a verbally abusive alcoholic who was especially mean to me during my teen years and I still couldn't imagine losing her. it would be one of the worst days of my life if I did. I am so sorry for your loss, I cannot begin to imagine your pain. I'm sure I don't speak only for myself when I say your fans are here with you during this difficult time. Sending hugs and prayers from TX. God bless.
This is why I love cuddling, a moment to be honest with your love and yourself. To be vulnerable and loved as the chaos of the world around you just become a calming white noise as you verbally and physically embrace the body and soul. ok, I'll touch grass but I really mean it. What connections that are in this unstable life should be appreciated.
Up to this point, I’ve assumed all your ASMR videos are characters. So I hope this on is too for your sake. I’m sorry about your mother either way. Praying for you to heal emotionally while still remaining connected with the love of your mother.
@@angelicasgrass I need to hear your voice right now I can’t SLEEP . I can’t go back to sleeping pills ever again I Almost died I almost didn’t wake up.Listening to you uhh it makes me sleepy ❤ good night kisses for GREAT LUCK ❤ I appreciate your hard work
I’m sorry Angelica. I almost lost my mother this year due to suicide. Just thinking about it makes me wanna scream and tear myself apart, I can’t even imagine what it must have felt for you. My heart goes out to you.
Probably the French in me talking, but I feel like the French revolution shouldn't be so easily compared to the crusades, or hinted as comparable to the crusades (sorry if I misunderstood that point, but it kinda did rub me the wrong way). Yes, it unleashed a century of chaos in my country and unfair death was involved in the mix. But to begin with, it was a response to a system that itself did not recognize the value of a life (unless you were one of the privileged). The French people were responding to a whole category of society, a minority in number too I'd imagine, disregarding the lives of the less privileged everypeople as valueless and not caring for it. They responded with massacres, which effectively was fighting fire with fire, which I agree is never the best way, but at that point they probably considered themselves out of other options. And I definitely think it didn't come out of nowhere or out of a complete disregard for the value of life.
My mom just passed away a couple months ago from cancer and I’m only 20. It was a very horrific painful death, and I was there to see it. People that it hasn’t happened to will never understand. I get it, trust me. Also just started being catholic again, so that’s fun.
Im so sorry. An old lady when I was a teen told me the death of her mother, and she died from old age, left a permanent hole in her heart because you lose that inner child permanently. You feel alone in the world. It’s almost like Bambi, having to the face the elements alone now. And that feeling happens at ANY age. I had another conversation with an old lady who recently lost her mom and she broke down in tears like a little girl. It’s just more intense and long lasting the younger you are, feeling every moment pass without her and wondering what she’s thinking. We all share the unspoken secret of grief. If you lose your mom while in the world, you soon realize how hollow everyone’s sympathy is and it becomes like ash in your mouth because you know they don’t even value their own lives let alone the loss of a mother. No one can recognize or respect that pain because they’re too stuck inside their own heads to care beyond appearances. However, God makes everything clear. Even when you’re alone, He’s there for you, reminding you of the beauty of life and the meaning of death. I hope your journey is much gentler than mine and you find deep peace as you progress. 💗💗
Yeah, I know how it feels as my mom passed just a few weeks ago. Luckily, in her case she lived into her 90s and was ready to go at the end. Not that any of us were ready to see her go but at least she had a peaceful death and can now hopefully be with dad and the rest of her family.
I just wanted to say thanks 🙏 Angelica for sharing your passion for art and asmr with the rest of us, also thank you for communicating with the fans who really enjoy your work, it’s awfully nice of you, thank you 🙏 ❤
Thank you for being vulnerable in this video and sorry for your loss. Your reasoning over morals was very insightful and I definitely resonate with that line of thinking I pray that God comforts you as you greive and fill the emptiness you may be having at the moment. God bless you 🙏🏾
For me its my grandfather...he was the father I never had and the loss is still very great. I'm so sorry for your loss, and appreciate how vulnerable you allow yourself to be. Take care, Angelica. 🫂
I lost my mother suddenly May of 2020 due to sudden liver failure. I understand the pain. Never got to say goodbye, she went in her sleep. I'm sorry for your loss. For me, I found comfort in a more generalist spirituality. At the end of the day I'm agnostic, I just don't think I'm the kind of person who could confidently say they have unshakable faith either way. I do like to believe however, that if there is a god, that they don't want to intervene; that we have been given the ability to learn and grow for a reason. There must be some goal in place for us, and it must be such that if we were placed at the finish line, we wouldn't truly understand it. Every lesson, good and bad, must be learned the hard way, so that we truly understand them. Teach a man to fish vs give a man a fish, in a sense. In my mind that explains how great evil,great pain, great suffering, can come to exist without an extremely powerful being like a god smiting it. I think we're like children, who, no matter how many times you explain it, will never actually understand why you don't touch the stove until they burn themselves. I do think such a god would nudge us, point us in the right direction, still leaving it to us which direction we go from there. Perhaps that's why so many belief systems have the same core pillars of community and love. Perhaps those were nudges they gave us, which we took and ran with, for better and for worse in instances. I don't quite know how an afterlife would fit in. Perhaps we're reincarnated to learn and grow more until we've learned enough to reach enlightenment. Perhaps life is only the first phase of a cosmic 10 step plan. For me, the comfort comes less from purpose in death, and more from purpose in life. Perhaps our mom's are out there somewhere. I hope they are. But i know they had purpose in life in love and we carry that purpose with us andspread that love, so while they may not be with us anymore, their purpose lives on through us, in the very least. The pain will fade and dull over the next few months and coming years, but it never fully goes away. You just have to learn how to healthily manage it . I hope you're coping as well as you can ❤
I had the same mindset when my mom passed. If you ever feel like you’re staring at a void or people can’t understand your grief, I’d recommend structured religion to help balance you and give you a community of people dedicated to keeping you on track, loved, and nourished. That was my experience no matter to which Christian I turned to in good faith. 💙 otherwise, I genuinely hope you manage your pain well with the tools you currently have because this journey is PAINFUL and confusing. All my love 💗💗💗
Most would spiral after a convo like this but it brings such comfort to me Grew up a JW with my dad, and my moms not mentally well enough to have a relationship .. I dread their deaths, both I can’t have in my life if I really want to live and love my truth, and it’s so hard I was so angry at religion for years after 18, 25 now and the open mind of spirituality and love and connection I strive to connect to all lovers of love no matter their god, and that really surprises people, there are solutions to being different and human in union and harmony 💚💫🦋
I really like the way you think. Not just the topic, which I love, but how you are talking , you are thinking through it all as you speak. People say, " Think before you speak." but the opposite helps a lot more when it comes to self reflection.
I hope you get through what you're going through. Losing your mother and being faced with mortality like that must be terrifying, and wanting to reach out for a greater sense of meaning in this universe is completely understandable. I hope that your religious changes aren't just a mechanism for you to cope with loss, else you might regret your online conduct, and the audience you're cultivating as a result. Personally I find meaning, and morality, without God, but you've got to respect other opinions too huh? So I hope Christianity helps 😊
Here we are with the “coping mechanism,” yet again. Garnished with lashings of psycho-babble. No doubt, Angelica’s high IQ can easily see through fake well-wishers’ not-so-hidden agendas.
I’m so sorry for your loss sending you prayers and wishes of comfort because I too have lost a parent my dad actually and when you accept you will see them again in the after life and they are looking down upon you it will be a lot easier❤🕊️
I also have moments like that, where I see everything with a rare lucidity, and we notice things or we become aware of things which in reality can perhaps change our way of seeing things but after that time everything disappears like this moment never existed and we resume our lives normally 🤔
Brilliant, very clever. 🙂This reminds me to keep your mom in my prayers as well. 🙏 I know this is a parody of those girlfriend ASMR vids but for me this actually is what I would consider a real cozy conversation. The deepest conversations are the cosiest for me.😄 As for the question of evil I never really understood it until recently. I now believe it to be what occurs when a person finally removes God from their soul. When the direction of divinity or the holy spirit is gone all you have left is a mix of cold intellect and animal instinct. When the goal of goodness is gone then the pursuit of ever greater pleasure becomes the driving force.
I think that nihilism is not an adequate concept for a prosperous life because it is precisely based on the absurdity of life and for me life is a wonderful thing and to refuse to see it is like accepting not to suffer to avoid any responsibility that it brings to be alive, it's like when you accept a person, you accept him for his qualities but also for his faults.
it was so interesting what you said, because you didn't say it in a thoughtful way, you said it in such a non-chalent way that we would have or believe that you were a guide 😙
Being godless or being without religion does not facilitate having no morals. Since I left the church 5 years ago I have had the viewpoint that religion is a tool for people to have a higher purpose in life, or as a way to justify our short lifespans with a great paradise after death. And I do not think people are fools for it. I just do not need a higher power in my life to justify me living. Just as I do not need a religion telling me what is right and wrong. Just as evil is a part of human nature so too is good, I don’t require an ancient book to know I shouldn’t kill or rape. I believe in the goodness of people and myself. And I find myself much better mentally now than before after recognizing this. Your experiences has shaped your life just as my experiences have mine.
A few videos ago when you did the Vinyl collection, you said when looking at the pics inside the Paul McCartney "i want this", well here's looking at you thinking the same thing😉
What is the meaning to life? Whatever you make it. What is the point to living if well die anyways? Well that's up to you. What can you do? What will you do? What does it all matter? Well what moves you? that's what matters to you. As some say go with the flow but what is your flow? Get to know yourself. Change what you can if there's anything you want to change. Imagine living life without emotions. On the one hand you'll never have any desires or ever feel pain or beel betrayed and all the other bad feelings but also your never experience love or joy. Man you'd never smile or laugh and that would be catastrophic. No one ever considers how our God feels or cares about how our God feels we just assume God doesn't care but how could God not care. God has to watch us grow up and become our worst enemies and since God knows us better than we know ourselves and loves us can you just imagine God's pain. We lose ourselves in our emotions sometimes and we seek answers and sometimes we don't like the answer but over time if you keep wising up you'll understand in the bottom of your heart that this world we live in not the world we live in but the entirety of everything that exists what was what is and what will be it just all makes perfect sense and I see the beauty in that and I thank God for everything. I could sit here and mope about the crush of my life not even acknowledging my existence or I can face the facts harden my heart swallow my tears and condition myself to overcome myself and dig my way out through acceptance the thing is your mind and heart have to be on the same page and this is one lesson that hurt second most behind losing My hero my Grandpa the only Male in my life that really tried really hard to pull me out of the gutters and tried to teach me and give me the tools to survive but he never gave me the tools on how to deal with myself just distract myself in a positive way. There's just so much I want to say to you and there's so much to teach. I've never written anything down I've just lived through experience and learned from other people's experiences. Analyzing everything like the what when were why what could of been what was what can I change what can't I change and learning to accept everything not just mentally acknowledging it but also emotionally internalizing it and molding or sculpting myself refining myself to be what I want to be And for me I didn't want to be another lost soul anymore I chose to live I chose to be a better version of myself I chose to be someone that I needed as a child growing up I want to be a good human being I want to help the world entirely not just people or animals but also plants and earth and everything on it I could never repay Jesus Christ for what he did for us. I could never be a great man like my grandfather. I could never do what many can but I can do my own part and no matter how insignificant any of my blip of an effort is I have to keep pushing forward I have to keep being the example for the future of today and everything that is a part of it directly or indirectly. It's easy oh so easy to be bad and there's a dangerous lust for whatever keeps you in a bad place. Try not to stay in that cold dark place where the sun used to shine and kept you warm. You'll only drown in depression and that is a choice I'm sure you know it. Yeah I'll probably never get to have a conversation with you but if my words ever reach you and can help you in anyway possible I can live with that. I'm sorry for your loss but I'm also happy you got to know her personally and that you had a wonderful relationship. I hope one day you'll get to hug her again real tightly. My prayers are for you tonight.
Ik the comments are talking about something serious but I just can't ignore how you look even prettier than usual in this vid and this is coming from a regular viewer for the past year
I wish Angelica the best, but I can't help but feel like seeing someone else go all in on Christianity right now is like running out of a burning building and watching someone else run past you on the way in. My experience with (admitted limited, mostly evangelical) Christianity has been belitting of me because I'm a woman, hatred for my sexuality, hatred for being autistic and unable to do the evangelical work that I'm "supposed" to do, hatred towards my sibling for being trans, and finally the hatred that made me leave when I developed long COVID and found that my church family didn't believe I was sick. I still believe in God and Jesus but the idea of going into just any church without doing extensive research on their beliefs first makes my skin crawl. The common Christianity has strayed so far from the base goals of loving and providing for others.
Evangelical Christianity is really not common Christianity outside of the US. It's the loudest, sure. But not the most common. But I would think Angelica isn't all in on evangelical dogma being from an atheistic background. But idk.
I hope you’re okay love 🩷 take care of yourself. This hardship may never entirely pass but you will flourish from this despair and sorrow. Stay true to your heart and your beliefs 🫶🏼
Lamento lo de tu mama. Pero ella siempre estará cuidándote, donde sea que ella esté. Y ella está muy orgullosa de ti. Mi madre está viva y paso el mayor tiempo posible con ella, pero me da mucho miedo pensar en el dia en que ella ya no esté mas. Sin embargo, también se lo que es una perdida, porque perdí a mi abuelo que era mi unico padre que me crio como su hijo. Nuestros seres amados deberian vivir por siempre y para siempre. Siempre odie que las personas se van al mas alla, mientras que las personas malas viven una larga vida. Es algo injusto supongo, pero creo que eso es la vida.
The uninitiated will click on this thinking it's innocent. They'll sit back and try to relax. They're going to hear some unhinged terrifying shit and they'll leave confused
Omg im sooo sorry that ur mom passed she’s gonna go to a holding place and will be ok I hope ur mentally doing ok and that u take some time to relax and heal❤️❤️❤️
I think the "christ is king" is for all her people who came to annoy her on the previous video, you guys deserve it, I mean you were waiting for everything to be fine and for her to make satire videos for come and judge her again when you said you'd unsubscribe it's people are just disgusting (like shawn phillips😙)
you know what's the hardest thing, it's to put into practice what we become aware of in our current life, I think that 95% of people have fascinating thoughts but that no one puts into practice really in practice, for me the best philosophy of life appears at times when you get out of yourself, you get out of your own life, you gain height and that's exactly what I saw today with Angelica 😙
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Why can't you watch the video without things "explaining a lot" or "saying everything you need to know about something"? She's not an animal in a cage or your chiId for you to ignore and talk about like she's not even here... I really hope you're not like that offline.
@@redacted2275 she’s a person who again had a 180° of her personality and is exhibiting it online for the world to see, it’s not wrong for me to wonder what the hell is up with that if i’m worried and it’s freaking me out
I'm sure you knew you'd start getting hate but I bet it's still tough. You'll make it through. Everyone searching for the truth winds up where you are. Always loved your videos. Stay strong
Sorry about losing your mother. I don't have a great relationship with mine but if she passed I would miss her for better or worse. Sometimes its just hard.
Thank you, no matter what kind of imperfect relationship you have with your mother, it’s natural to observe that her death will make you feel like a child all over again. Appreciate her good while you can and navigate the bad to the best of your ability. Sometimes we regret not enduring through our mothers lows when they die just because any moment becomes a lost moment after they die.
@@angelicasgrassi feel that. 15 and my mom passed away in July
@@Bandnerd173my mom died in 2010 when I was turning 12…I miss her everyday since.
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@@angelicasgrassman we love you as much as strangers can love their CZcamsrs you know? I hope in time it feels easier.
My mother is a verbally abusive alcoholic who was especially mean to me during my teen years and I still couldn't imagine losing her. it would be one of the worst days of my life if I did.
I am so sorry for your loss, I cannot begin to imagine your pain. I'm sure I don't speak only for myself when I say your fans are here with you during this difficult time. Sending hugs and prayers from TX. God bless.
This is why I love cuddling, a moment to be honest with your love and yourself. To be vulnerable and loved as the chaos of the world around you just become a calming white noise as you verbally and physically embrace the body and soul.
ok, I'll touch grass but I really mean it. What connections that are in this unstable life should be appreciated.
Oh Angelica, I am so sorry. Losing a parent is a pain like no other. Sending you so much love and prayers for peace and comfort.
Up to this point, I’ve assumed all your ASMR videos are characters. So I hope this on is too for your sake. I’m sorry about your mother either way. Praying for you to heal emotionally while still remaining connected with the love of your mother.
i think it may be an oc? i hope, but from the pinned comment of her last vid it seems kinda.. not
Pretty sure it largely is real
My Mom too. I love you Angelica and here is a hug if you want one 🫂
I hope things get better for you, brother.
My dad for me
Thank you, we understand the particular pain /that/ specific death causes. I hope you’re managing well 💙💙
I'm very sorry for your loss. Stay strong brother.
@@angelicasgrass I need to hear your voice right now I can’t SLEEP . I can’t go back to sleeping pills ever again I Almost died I almost didn’t wake up.Listening to you uhh it makes me sleepy ❤ good night kisses for GREAT LUCK ❤ I appreciate your hard work
this is so sad, angelica. thank you for being so vulnerable with us. sending you so so much love❤❤❤
I’m sorry Angelica. I almost lost my mother this year due to suicide. Just thinking about it makes me wanna scream and tear myself apart, I can’t even imagine what it must have felt for you. My heart goes out to you.
sorry for u loss angelica couldn’t imagine the pain you & your family are feeling i love u 💐
Probably the French in me talking, but I feel like the French revolution shouldn't be so easily compared to the crusades, or hinted as comparable to the crusades (sorry if I misunderstood that point, but it kinda did rub me the wrong way). Yes, it unleashed a century of chaos in my country and unfair death was involved in the mix. But to begin with, it was a response to a system that itself did not recognize the value of a life (unless you were one of the privileged). The French people were responding to a whole category of society, a minority in number too I'd imagine, disregarding the lives of the less privileged everypeople as valueless and not caring for it. They responded with massacres, which effectively was fighting fire with fire, which I agree is never the best way, but at that point they probably considered themselves out of other options. And I definitely think it didn't come out of nowhere or out of a complete disregard for the value of life.
My mom just passed away a couple months ago from cancer and I’m only 20. It was a very horrific painful death, and I was there to see it. People that it hasn’t happened to will never understand. I get it, trust me. Also just started being catholic again, so that’s fun.
Im so sorry. An old lady when I was a teen told me the death of her mother, and she died from old age, left a permanent hole in her heart because you lose that inner child permanently. You feel alone in the world. It’s almost like Bambi, having to the face the elements alone now. And that feeling happens at ANY age. I had another conversation with an old lady who recently lost her mom and she broke down in tears like a little girl. It’s just more intense and long lasting the younger you are, feeling every moment pass without her and wondering what she’s thinking. We all share the unspoken secret of grief. If you lose your mom while in the world, you soon realize how hollow everyone’s sympathy is and it becomes like ash in your mouth because you know they don’t even value their own lives let alone the loss of a mother. No one can recognize or respect that pain because they’re too stuck inside their own heads to care beyond appearances. However, God makes everything clear. Even when you’re alone, He’s there for you, reminding you of the beauty of life and the meaning of death. I hope your journey is much gentler than mine and you find deep peace as you progress. 💗💗
Yeah, I know how it feels as my mom passed just a few weeks ago. Luckily, in her case she lived into her 90s and was ready to go at the end. Not that any of us were ready to see her go but at least she had a peaceful death and can now hopefully be with dad and the rest of her family.
I just wanted to say thanks 🙏 Angelica for sharing your passion for art and asmr with the rest of us, also thank you for communicating with the fans who really enjoy your work, it’s awfully nice of you, thank you 🙏 ❤
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I'm so sorry for your loss Angelica. Sending you love and support 💙
Love you more everyday Angelica! You are loved and appreciated by many ❤
As much as I don't agree with some of your beliefs now, I wish you the best. Hug yourself on my behalf.
Thank you for being vulnerable in this video and sorry for your loss. Your reasoning over morals was very insightful and I definitely resonate with that line of thinking I pray that God comforts you as you greive and fill the emptiness you may be having at the moment. God bless you 🙏🏾
For me its my grandfather...he was the father I never had and the loss is still very great. I'm so sorry for your loss, and appreciate how vulnerable you allow yourself to be. Take care, Angelica. 🫂
I lost my mother suddenly May of 2020 due to sudden liver failure. I understand the pain. Never got to say goodbye, she went in her sleep. I'm sorry for your loss.
For me, I found comfort in a more generalist spirituality. At the end of the day I'm agnostic, I just don't think I'm the kind of person who could confidently say they have unshakable faith either way. I do like to believe however, that if there is a god, that they don't want to intervene; that we have been given the ability to learn and grow for a reason. There must be some goal in place for us, and it must be such that if we were placed at the finish line, we wouldn't truly understand it. Every lesson, good and bad, must be learned the hard way, so that we truly understand them. Teach a man to fish vs give a man a fish, in a sense. In my mind that explains how great evil,great pain, great suffering, can come to exist without an extremely powerful being like a god smiting it. I think we're like children, who, no matter how many times you explain it, will never actually understand why you don't touch the stove until they burn themselves. I do think such a god would nudge us, point us in the right direction, still leaving it to us which direction we go from there. Perhaps that's why so many belief systems have the same core pillars of community and love. Perhaps those were nudges they gave us, which we took and ran with, for better and for worse in instances. I don't quite know how an afterlife would fit in. Perhaps we're reincarnated to learn and grow more until we've learned enough to reach enlightenment. Perhaps life is only the first phase of a cosmic 10 step plan. For me, the comfort comes less from purpose in death, and more from purpose in life. Perhaps our mom's are out there somewhere. I hope they are. But i know they had purpose in life in love and we carry that purpose with us andspread that love, so while they may not be with us anymore, their purpose lives on through us, in the very least. The pain will fade and dull over the next few months and coming years, but it never fully goes away. You just have to learn how to healthily manage it . I hope you're coping as well as you can ❤
I had the same mindset when my mom passed. If you ever feel like you’re staring at a void or people can’t understand your grief, I’d recommend structured religion to help balance you and give you a community of people dedicated to keeping you on track, loved, and nourished. That was my experience no matter to which Christian I turned to in good faith. 💙 otherwise, I genuinely hope you manage your pain well with the tools you currently have because this journey is PAINFUL and confusing. All my love 💗💗💗
Most would spiral after a convo like this but it brings such comfort to me
Grew up a JW with my dad, and my moms not mentally well enough to have a relationship .. I dread their deaths, both I can’t have in my life if I really want to live and love my truth, and it’s so hard
I was so angry at religion for years after 18, 25 now and the open mind of spirituality and love and connection I strive to connect to all lovers of love no matter their god, and that really surprises people, there are solutions to being different and human in union and harmony 💚💫🦋
While I sympathize with Angelica's loss, I was truly not expecting to hear a justification for the Crusades here
And in the same sentence a repudiation of the French Revolution.
Ngl, pretty based.
I really like the way you think. Not just the topic, which I love, but how you are talking , you are thinking through it all as you speak.
People say, " Think before you speak." but the opposite helps a lot more when it comes to self reflection.
I hope you get through what you're going through. Losing your mother and being faced with mortality like that must be terrifying, and wanting to reach out for a greater sense of meaning in this universe is completely understandable. I hope that your religious changes aren't just a mechanism for you to cope with loss, else you might regret your online conduct, and the audience you're cultivating as a result.
Personally I find meaning, and morality, without God, but you've got to respect other opinions too huh? So I hope Christianity helps 😊
Here we are with the “coping mechanism,” yet again. Garnished with lashings of psycho-babble. No doubt, Angelica’s high IQ can easily see through fake well-wishers’ not-so-hidden agendas.
so sorry for your loss angelica ♥️
"Nihilism, Death, Christ is King + Ignores Your Feels". The entire history of my upbringing.
thank you for putting this video back up❤ i hope you’re doing alright
I’m so sorry Angelica. I can’t imagine what your going through.
For what it's worths, sending lots of hugs from here to you Angelica.. 💙
I’m so sorry for your loss sending you prayers and wishes of comfort because I too have lost a parent my dad actually and when you accept you will see them again in the after life and they are looking down upon you it will be a lot easier❤🕊️
we're all here for you Angelica ❤
I lost all contact with my mother years and years ago but I empathize for you ! My condolences 💐
My grandparents recently threw me out the house and so I have no contact with them or my ma
I also have moments like that, where I see everything with a rare lucidity, and we notice things or we become aware of things which in reality can perhaps change our way of seeing things but after that time everything disappears like this moment never existed and we resume our lives normally 🤔
each video has a different atmosphere in the comment section, in fact each new video is a new page that is written 😙
Brilliant, very clever. 🙂This reminds me to keep your mom in my prayers as well. 🙏 I know this is a parody of those girlfriend ASMR vids but for me this actually is what I would consider a real cozy conversation. The deepest conversations are the cosiest for me.😄
As for the question of evil I never really understood it until recently. I now believe it to be what occurs when a person finally removes God from their soul. When the direction of divinity or the holy spirit is gone all you have left is a mix of cold intellect and animal instinct. When the goal of goodness is gone then the pursuit of ever greater pleasure becomes the driving force.
My condolences. Hope you feel better in due time.
May God bless your mother with His mercy. From Him we come and to Him we return.
are there like, ai in this comment section? these cannot be real people but they seem too smart to be regular bots
I think that nihilism is not an adequate concept for a prosperous life because it is precisely based on the absurdity of life and for me life is a wonderful thing and to refuse to see it is like accepting not to suffer to avoid any responsibility that it brings to be alive, it's like when you accept a person, you accept him for his qualities but also for his faults.
My condolences to you & we will always be there for you In your time of need 😢💐🕊️
i lnew this wouldnt be a angelica video without ignoreing your feelings
I like having the cozy cuddles with you, Angelica 😊
Therapy has helped me very much so in my life. Perhaps...
it was so interesting what you said, because you didn't say it in a thoughtful way, you said it in such a non-chalent way that we would have or believe that you were a guide 😙
I know how you feel. I felt real connection between us. So deep in though.
Much Love, Peace and Healing to You.
This video makes me feel a type of way-.. This is crazy
Being godless or being without religion does not facilitate having no morals. Since I left the church 5 years ago I have had the viewpoint that religion is a tool for people to have a higher purpose in life, or as a way to justify our short lifespans with a great paradise after death. And I do not think people are fools for it. I just do not need a higher power in my life to justify me living. Just as I do not need a religion telling me what is right and wrong. Just as evil is a part of human nature so too is good, I don’t require an ancient book to know I shouldn’t kill or rape. I believe in the goodness of people and myself. And I find myself much better mentally now than before after recognizing this. Your experiences has shaped your life just as my experiences have mine.
Being moral without religion ignores that the vast majority of our modern ethics are originally founded in religion
My condolences to you angelica. I'm sorry about your mom.
Sending you all my love angelica❤
A few videos ago when you did the Vinyl collection, you said when looking at the pics inside the Paul McCartney "i want this", well here's looking at you thinking the same thing😉
I’m sorry for your loss…. A lost mother is something I would wish upon nobody
Jeez I feel terrible I hope you bounce back from this I’m praying for you
Don't forget to NEVER confuse the end destination with the journey.
Stopped reading after ASMR cozy cuddles (and you have to most of the time with Angelica) 😂
Sending my love and prayers ❤️🙏
What is the meaning to life?
Whatever you make it.
What is the point to living if well die anyways?
Well that's up to you.
What can you do?
What will you do?
What does it all matter?
Well what moves you? that's what matters to you.
As some say go with the flow but what is your flow?
Get to know yourself.
Change what you can if there's anything you want to change.
Imagine living life without emotions.
On the one hand you'll never have any desires or ever feel pain or beel betrayed and all the other bad feelings but also your never experience love or joy.
Man you'd never smile or laugh and that would be catastrophic.
No one ever considers how our God feels or cares about how our God feels we just assume God doesn't care but how could God not care.
God has to watch us grow up and become our worst enemies and since God knows us better than we know ourselves and loves us can you just imagine God's pain.
We lose ourselves in our emotions sometimes and we seek answers and sometimes we don't like the answer but over time if you keep wising up you'll understand in the bottom of your heart that this world we live in not the world we live in but the entirety of everything that exists what was what is and what will be it just all makes perfect sense and I see the beauty in that and I thank God for everything.
I could sit here and mope about the crush of my life not even acknowledging my existence or I can face the facts harden my heart swallow my tears and condition myself to overcome myself and dig my way out through acceptance the thing is your mind and heart have to be on the same page and this is one lesson that hurt second most behind losing My hero my Grandpa the only Male in my life that really tried really hard to pull me out of the gutters and tried to teach me and give me the tools to survive but he never gave me the tools on how to deal with myself just distract myself in a positive way.
There's just so much I want to say to you and there's so much to teach.
I've never written anything down I've just lived through experience and learned from other people's experiences.
Analyzing everything like the what when were why what could of been what was what can I change what can't I change and learning to accept everything not just mentally acknowledging it but also emotionally internalizing it and molding or sculpting myself refining myself to be what I want to be
And for me I didn't want to be another lost soul anymore
I chose to live
I chose to be a better version of myself
I chose to be someone that I needed as a child growing up
I want to be a good human being
I want to help the world entirely not just people or animals but also plants and earth and everything on it
I could never repay Jesus Christ for what he did for us.
I could never be a great man like my grandfather.
I could never do what many can but I can do my own part and no matter how insignificant any of my blip of an effort is I have to keep pushing forward
I have to keep being the example for the future of today and everything that is a part of it directly or indirectly.
It's easy oh so easy to be bad and there's a dangerous lust for whatever keeps you in a bad place.
Try not to stay in that cold dark place where the sun used to shine and kept you warm.
You'll only drown in depression and that is a choice I'm sure you know it.
Yeah I'll probably never get to have a conversation with you but if my words ever reach you and can help you in anyway possible I can live with that.
I'm sorry for your loss but I'm also happy you got to know her personally and that you had a wonderful relationship.
I hope one day you'll get to hug her again real tightly.
My prayers are for you tonight.
Ik the comments are talking about something serious but I just can't ignore how you look even prettier than usual in this vid and this is coming from a regular viewer for the past year
Angelica as a long time fan and fellow follower in Christ, you get a hug from me 🙏🏽♥️
May her memory be eternal 🤍
I wish Angelica the best, but I can't help but feel like seeing someone else go all in on Christianity right now is like running out of a burning building and watching someone else run past you on the way in. My experience with (admitted limited, mostly evangelical) Christianity has been belitting of me because I'm a woman, hatred for my sexuality, hatred for being autistic and unable to do the evangelical work that I'm "supposed" to do, hatred towards my sibling for being trans, and finally the hatred that made me leave when I developed long COVID and found that my church family didn't believe I was sick. I still believe in God and Jesus but the idea of going into just any church without doing extensive research on their beliefs first makes my skin crawl. The common Christianity has strayed so far from the base goals of loving and providing for others.
Evangelical Christianity is really not common Christianity outside of the US. It's the loudest, sure. But not the most common.
But I would think Angelica isn't all in on evangelical dogma being from an atheistic background. But idk.
I hope you’re okay love 🩷 take care of yourself. This hardship may never entirely pass but you will flourish from this despair and sorrow. Stay true to your heart and your beliefs 🫶🏼
My Mom literally passed two days ago, this vid hits real different with that context
Whomp whomp
@@S-tan-ley maybe not?? 🤦🏽♀🤦🏽♀
@@S-tan-leynot everything has to have a response
@@XxhollowkittyxX you should take your own advice, eh?
@@izz1919 maybe 🤔
Lamento lo de tu mama. Pero ella siempre estará cuidándote, donde sea que ella esté. Y ella está muy orgullosa de ti. Mi madre está viva y paso el mayor tiempo posible con ella, pero me da mucho miedo pensar en el dia en que ella ya no esté mas. Sin embargo, también se lo que es una perdida, porque perdí a mi abuelo que era mi unico padre que me crio como su hijo. Nuestros seres amados deberian vivir por siempre y para siempre. Siempre odie que las personas se van al mas alla, mientras que las personas malas viven una larga vida. Es algo injusto supongo, pero creo que eso es la vida.
I hope youre doing well angelica
I could listen to this all day - *Scarface - Bolivia Theme*
I am sorry of your mothers passing, may her soul be at peace. I am very glad you are know on the path of Christ.
Great video as usual Angelica 😇
Thanks for this video, it's nice to be treated badly by you. Thanks Angelica. ♥️
I felt like you were staring into my soul 🥲😩
You’re a genius
Wayment...is this a character or did she really lose her mother!?
good evening everyone 😙
Wish you the best kind of people around to help to go through it 💟
I will pray for you Angelica, the Virgin Mary is always there to hold you
in fact to be simpler tonight I saw myself in her, without bad spirits lol 🤣
i fucking love this channel
The uninitiated will click on this thinking it's innocent. They'll sit back and try to relax. They're going to hear some unhinged terrifying shit and they'll leave confused
You should be a writer. Horror stories! That last sentence… LOL
early btw ur gorgeous 😭‼️
I was watching like--if anyone started talking to me like this I'd turn around and leave.
Why
@@ArmageddonHex No.
so real
This video was removed but I’m still watching it, take that world, I’ve got hax!!! Hahahahaha
this is a slay
Why was this removed, I really liked it?
Awesome vid as always. President seriess?
Im sorry for your loss…may Christ be with you as you go through your grief and that you continue on the way of Jesus.
"Angelica is now drowning in an indescribable empitness"
Hxh reference, nice
Omg im sooo sorry that ur mom passed she’s gonna go to a holding place and will be ok I hope ur mentally doing ok and that u take some time to relax and heal❤️❤️❤️
I lost my dad a year ago. Losing a parent is hard
I think the "christ is king" is for all her people who came to annoy her on the previous video, you guys deserve it, I mean you were waiting for everything to be fine and for her to make satire videos for come and judge her again when you said you'd unsubscribe it's people are just disgusting
(like shawn phillips😙)
I love you Angelica
The title gurantees its gonna be that gas sinple
So glad you're uploading again, Angelica! I hope whatever you were/are going through has gotten better.
you know what's the hardest thing, it's to put into practice what we become aware of in our current life, I think that 95% of people have fascinating thoughts but that no one puts into practice
really in practice, for me the best philosophy of life appears at times when you get out of yourself, you get out of your own life, you gain height and that's exactly what I saw today with Angelica 😙
As I said, one of the most impressive people within this community! Good words 👍
@@rocktricity9277wow, I don't know how you manage to be so nice sometimes, it's a quality 😙
@@SkkLsls 👍 ♥️
I'm OK. That's too bad. Have a nice day
I wish you do another video where she actually pays attention to you
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if the mother thing is true this for sure explains a lot
What does it explain? I don't watch her that closely so i feel like I missed something 😕 😣
@@flaminghead1va her recent psychosis-like states
@@kickstartmyheart2116yeeeah like the sudden religious themes in these videos
Why can't you watch the video without things "explaining a lot" or "saying everything you need to know about something"? She's not an animal in a cage or your chiId for you to ignore and talk about like she's not even here... I really hope you're not like that offline.
@@redacted2275 she’s a person who again had a 180° of her personality and is exhibiting it online for the world to see, it’s not wrong for me to wonder what the hell is up with that if i’m worried and it’s freaking me out
Angelica, te amo
when she says crazy shit but says it soothingly 😂❤
I know many others have told you this @Angelica but let me say it again; Damn you're beautiful.
I'm sure you knew you'd start getting hate but I bet it's still tough. You'll make it through. Everyone searching for the truth winds up where you are. Always loved your videos. Stay strong
Wow I never thought I'd be able to actually cuddle with my crush Angelica this is the best day of my life
Angelica and Jon Zherka are my favourite christean channels