【Guchiry Ft. Flower 】 Abnormality Dancing Girl (アブノーマリティ･ダンシンガール) English Subtitles
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- NOTHING IN THIS VIDEO IS MINE! NOT THE TRANSLATIONS, NOT THE SONG, NOT THE MUSIC VIDEO OR ART, NOTHING! PLEASE DON'T CREDIT ME! CREDITS ARE BELOW
Original video: • [Music Video] アブノーマリティ...
Song by ぐちり/Guchiry: / @guchiry , / bomless_race
illustration：暇 / Hima
/ himanemuitoma
Movie：Aise Manami / 藍瀬 まなみ
/ aisemanami
Mastering: Alicegawa Mayuka / 有栖川繭歌
/ mauka_alicegawa
Guitar：Shishido / シシド
Twitter： / shishido_4410
CZcams Channel： @シシド
Lyric translations by Sympalissma: / @sympalissma
Lyric edited by Violet330: vocaloidlyrics...
Diary Entries translated by Amethysuto: / @televiq_sub2
Please give them all support for helping me do this! If any of them find this and want me to take this down, I will do so!
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I noticed there was no translation of this on youtube, so I decided to make a video with a translation myself so I can read the lyrics and watch the video at the same time :)
I plan on making an MV using this song with my OC, Wysteria. I've got like a 1/3 of it done already, so expect it to come out by next month. I know I shouldn't really do stuff with my OCs if I want it to get traction, but I said frick it, I want to have fun. I considered doing it with Luca, but ultimately decided no ❤
I do not do translations! I might take the lyrics from someone else and make it into a video for myself and whoever wants to watch the video and read the lyrics at the same time, but it'll be rare, and I don't want people to sub to me for this. I make stupid content, you won't like it- unless you like Inquisitormaster, Magia Record, and/or my OCs.
Have a good day :]
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Why is flower always an insane people pleaser in all of her songs?
*it makes it even better*
Is this a reference to Appetite of a people pleaser? :3
@@konekoscara yes how not
venom reference??
OMG FRR
NO FR
Man, I can't express how much I sympathize with this song. Try as I might, I just can't get academic shit in my dumb head.
Relatable
Not being able to keep academic things in your head doesn’t make you dumb, or stupid.
Schools are disgustingly rigid, and don’t try to help those who learn differently than what’s considered the “norm”.
They punish people for stepping outside the box, and discovering things for yourself.
If you don’t do things EXACTLY as they say, they call you dumb, lazy, not trying hard enough, etc. even though it isn’t true!
Our brains work differently from each other. We all have different skills. We don’t all learn the same (Example: some people learn better vocally, others learn better visually, or even learn by example!)
Some of the greatest minds on earth have failed school, or dropped collage!
But the school system doesn’t want you to know that.
You have things you are TRULY good at, that doesn’t always correspond with the schools agenda.
You don’t have to be good in school to have a successful life and career!
You are amazing, and you should be told that more often!
School is not the end all that people make it out to be.
Your not alone bud
@@legendarybubbles4567 Lord in heaven if I had gotten this kinda advice before almost trying to kill myself over school-
@@Zakal2 I hope you are doing alright now. It honestly hurts my heart hearing that, especially with how common it’s becoming.
I hope that message can be spread to more people, cause everyone deserves to be treated better.
You are an amazing person! You have talents, and skills, outside of school, that make you the wonderful and unique person you are! I know you can put them to great use!
Live a long and happy life, and show the school system they don’t know what they’re talking about! Prove them wrong, by being your awesome self, and enjoying your life!
I hope you have a great rest of your day. You are worth caring for, and you should know how great you truly are!
My Music teacher:it's so annoying how a good beated sound could have such sad meanings!
My playlist: 😃💀
LMAO SAME (25ji fans in a pic)
Hated by Life Itself standing in the corner
25ji kin reporting for duty
that's basically every playlist to any music platform lol
@@id10cyy pjsk fans assemble
sometimes I forget that Flower isn't a real human being
I wish Flower were real. Lesbians would go wild 😔
@@LesbiansMarie your actually kinda right tbh but like- I can actually imagine someone misgender her tbh
@@CEOofKusuo Tbh Flower gives off the vibe that they go by all pronouns, and whatever gender you say she is, he’ll be like “that’s right!”. Love that for them. (Just how I see it tho djdjjdbs))
@@LesbiansMarie that seems so perfect lmfao
@@LesbiansMarie I literally had the same thought just a few minutes ago
Based on the diary entries, Tame is dissatisfied with herself for not being able to get good grades no matter how much she tries. When she sees Nana dancing with a stranger and their eyes meet, she wakes up suddenly. She keeps trying to have the dream again just so she can see Nanamiya look at her again. The final entries are of her telling her classmates to shut up and that she's finally become the abnormality, the butterfly. I mean, she may have committed suicide, as you can see a vase of flowers on the desk (1:39) she was napping on.
It may appear that she is uninterested in what others think about her and that she eventually accepts herself, but she is actually distraught to just be "abnormal" (perfect), in such a way that she acknowledges that while being alive implies she will never be perfect (this is the reason she tends to leave the mirror dirty at the end), and instead ends up killing herself in order to become an eternal abnormal butterfly.
The final entry, "I became a butterfly," means she's committed suicide. When she envisions herself as a butterfly, she's surrounded by either chairs or shoes; both are often associated with suicide. She's always sleeping; the entries note her wanting to sleep constantly so that she could be noticed and loved in her dreams by the classmate she's obsessed with. It's quite sad, and it exemplifies the pressures in Japanese culture to be perfect and exceptional. Also, the morpho butterfly has been mentioned to have wings much larger than its own body, making it have a distinct flight pattern from other butterflies because of it. This could be interpreted as a unique aspect or maybe even a sort of abnormality in a sense compared to other butterflies. Even in Hima's drawing for the song that they posted on Twitter for the release of the song, the Morpho butterfly was shown within it. The morpho butterfly could be representative of Tame's longing for abnormality being so big in the end, most likely that the weight of it, in a sense, is so big that she can't support herself any longer for that desire. In the end, she ends up straying far away from being normal, though it's not too apparent with it, but I would just point that out since no one seemed to really do so.
Edit: More details
Edit 2: Why tf do I have so many likes that I don’t deserve-
Edit 3: Thanks to the person that told me that Tame went insane before committing suicide. I don’t know how to put it in, so I guess the people that read all these edits know.
edit 4: help my comment has 1.2k likes and is the top comment what do i do
22/03/23 edit: Why? WHY DOES THIS HAVE 2.3K LIKES I-
04/04/23 edit: 7 month anniversary
09/04/23 edit: why is this getting more likes i-
20/4/23 edit: fun fact: at 1:40, Tame has a butterfly on her left chest. In Japanese culture, if I'm not mistaken, symbolizes death.
Hold up seen something in comment that I seen in original
@@HelenJustetsOrTheNormalGirl damn didnt expect eyes to be a vocaloid fan
Bro so eagle-eyed he even knows the names
I WANT TO COPY PASTE THIS IN KY NOTES SO BAD
@@user-xh6ll5db1d U can if you’d like!
a small detail i like, watashi/i isn't written with the kanji (私) but instead the katakana (ワタシ), which is usually used for foreign words, implying that they are foreign to themself :)
I’m studying Japanese, and I’m so surprised I never noticed that! ありがとうございます！
Ye I was like : wait what? At first sight lol
Dang
WE MAKING IT OUT OF METAMORPHOSIS WITH THIS ONE🗣🗣🔥🔥❗❗❗
@Limesaidshewashere what do u mean
@@togamii. I'm pretty sure they're talking about a manga that is also called "Metamorphosis" that involved fucked up topics like SA
@LimeLim3_ they are talking about literal metamorphosis not the manga 😭
MONOKUMA PFP🫵
@@CraynsLookYummy yes
my life has come to the point where I relate to singing japanese robots
too real
Don't call me out like that
Real
Real
Real
I've slipped back into my japanese music phase, and I don't regret it
Mood fr
i feel you
I feel you so much. And I too am glad and don't regret it
"it's not a phase, it's a lifestyle"
its called vacaloid 🤬🤬🤬🤬/j
So I was doing a project in class, and the kid next to me complains that he can’t listen to “dancing girl” on the school computer. I turn and asked him if he meant Abnormality Dancing Girl, and he said yes. I tell you me and my friend were very shocked about it
I think Soundcloud works in school computers idk
They do
@@valplanett Ive heard of a kid at my school who got OSS (out of school suspension) Cause he was listening to whimper audios on the school computer on soundcloud😭
@TW1L1GHT_YIP dang
On my school wifi, I can’t get the original video, but there is a 1hr version I can use
The, "I'm not being manipulated, I'm just dancing" honestly makes me sad. I feel like they might be speaking to someone about this, but refusing any sort of advice out of denial that they need it. I don't think that the voice that is speaking here is speaking to no one, and that worries me a lot.
this song is too relatable, the fear of being forever average at everything no matter how hard you try while others seem to excel so easily 😭
this is exactly what i feel pls 😭
lucky people who are can be at least average
literally shaking, twitching, itching, stimming, everything. its so good
SAME BRO FR
Same
ok
Oh. This is the best way to put how this and other Vocaloid songs are affecting me. It’s more than just ‘good music’ to me. Thank you for putting it into words ❤
@@Michelle-dd8nl fr man vocaloid isnt a genre its a lifestyle
God I wish lesbians were real
I’m so tempted to pin this
@@LesbiansMarie
*do it*
You high on what drugs this time?
@@LesbiansMarie
YOU ACTUALLY DID IT-
@@flutter-heartsgaming412 LMAOOOO
A friend recommended this song to me, and usually I don’t like songs in languages other than english, BUT THIS IS AMAZING. The singing and the visuals are all amazing and the english captions are appreciated SO MUCH. This is just a masterpiece
Btw in case you didn’t know, they didn’t make the song.
(Not meant to be rude towards you or them I was just letting you know incase you didn’t know :] )
@@Blue-xo4tg i appreciate it a lot, thank you I didn’t know :)
@@shadowdweller761 Yw :-D
@@MiniEmber Tbf it does say “English subs” and Guchiry’s name in the title. Don’t know how to make it any more clear than that.
@@LesbiansMarie Maybe put “original by Guichiry” after English subs. People seem to be getting confused very often
This song is pretty relatable, you don’t wanna be average and wanna be special and the jealousy you feel when you see someone that is more special than you, but when you turn and try to act special, you become a different kind of special
real, i dont want to explain my life story here but ive always wanted attention more than anything and i love it when im ahead of everyone and i coukd finally be distracted from the fact that im stupid
ive realised the butterfly motif used in the visuals and the lyrics and i thought it was neat to point out that butterflies are a symbol of transition of life to death, so that further implkcated teh character’s suicide
What a winning smile
YESSS
🗿💀🐭💀🗿
💀💀💀
Yes
💀💀
I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR THIS SONG FOR LITERAL WEEKS AND I FOUND IT BY SEARCHING UP VOCALOID
BRO SAME I FOUND IT BC OF MY FRIENDS BIO FROM A WHILE AGO AND LOST IT LIKE A YEAR AGO AND EVER SINCE HAVE BEEN TRHIGN TO FIND IT AND I JUST DID
I found it on my mix of CZcams. JAVDISVXJS
Nah I found this song on a beat saber osu skin song
@@sillykuro same
I found it by searching "flower"
I knew the vocaloid beforehand
i cant wrap my finger around this feeling but, i relate to this to much.
same lol
same. im glad to have a song to put my feelings into words in my stead since its so difficult for me to.
Me too
So you dressed up naked to get noticed?
Are yall okay
**DISCLAIMER!!** Please stop leaving suicide notes in my comment section. I know it can be hard and I know what it’s like to want to die to a song, but please stop, it’s ruining my day and I hate seeing the comments when I go to read through them. **Now, on to the translations,**
!! THIS SONG AND THESE TRANSLATIONS WERE NOT DONE BY ME !!
Here’s Amethysuto’s translations of the diaries, since I couldn’t fit it in the description:
x/x (mon)
Cloudy again.
I had a strange dream, but I can’t remember much. It’s like my heart is closed off. I don’t feel anything.
x/x (tue)
Cloudy again.
I don’t feel like studying. I zoned out during class, so I’m glad I didn’t get called on.
x/x (wed)
Cloudy again.
Tomorrow’s when tests start. As expected, I’ll study for them.
x/x (thu)
Cloudy again.
I couldn’t sleep because I was studying till dawn. I feel refreshed.
x/x (fri)
Cloudy again.
There’s more tests today.
I feel like I answered the questions to some extent. The studying was worth it.
x/x (mon)
Cloudy again.
Our tests came back. Even with all that, I’m still stuck at an average score. I don’t feel anything.
x/x (tue)
Cloudy again.
It seems that [Redacted] from our class is entering some competition. I don’t feel anything.
x/x (wed)
Cloudy again.
I was suddenly called [Redacted] during break time. Can’t help the rumors floating around. I don’t feel anything.
x/x (thu)
Cloudy again.
I have this feeling like something’s wriggling around in my head. It’s uncomfortable.
x/x (fri)
Cloudy again.
It’s all dirty when I look in the mirror. I wiped and wiped, but it doesn’t help. It’s uncomfortable.
x/x (mon)
Cloudy again.
In the morning assembly [Redacted] was commended. Seems like she got excellent grades. I don’t care. It’s uncomfortable.
x/x (tue)
Cloudy again.
Seems like there’s planning for the school festival. That [Redacted]’s gonna be in charge, everyone’s enthusiastic. It’s uncomfortable.
x/x (wed)
Cloudy again.
The class decided to do a play. [Redacted] was unexpectedly overjoyed. They were appointed behind the scenes by [Redacted], the protagonist. I was a little happy. My head hurts.
x/x (thu)
Cloudy again.
Most of the class wound up behind the scenes, so lots are starting the preparations. Something’s irritating me. My head hurts.
-
x/x (fri)
Cloudy again.
When I stroked the mirror, it cracked. I cut my finger a little. I’m frustrated.
x/x (mon)
Cloudy again.
All the talking around me’s so noisy. [Redacted] asked me how the production was going. In the spur of the moment, I stumbled on my words. We managed to talk.
x/x (tue)
Cloudy again.
Everything around me’s so noisy.
I stumbled and touched the wound, so my fingers are dirty. I’m frustrated.
x/x (wed)
Cloudy again.
The sounds are echoing in my head and it’s troubling me. I wipe and wipe but the dirt won’t come off my fingers. [Redacted] met eyes with me and smiled. I’m not qualified enough for that.
x/x (thu)
Cloudy again.
[Redacted]’s voice is beautiful.
Not just that, everything about her is perfect to the point of abnormality. How did I never notice this until now?
x/x (fri)
Cloudy again.
[Redacted] talked to me. She stands out so extraordinarily. I feel like I was watching [Redacted] all day.
x/x (mon)
What does [Redacted] have that I don’t?
I tried to imitate [Redacted] a little. I feel like my heart’s calmed down.
x/x (tue)
The mirror I just bought is dirty. I wipe and wipe but it won’t go away.
x/x (wed)
I tried talking to people around me just like [Redacted]. I was met with different gazes than I usually get. It’s kind of a special feeling.
x/x (thu)
I dared to talk to [Redacted]. I think I talked more differently than I thought, but I was interrupted halfway. I don’t get it.
x/x (fri)
I stared at the dirt on the mirror. For some reason, the pattern looks beautiful. I’ll put off wiping it for a while.
x/x (sat)
I had a strange dream.
x/x (mon)
The pattern on the mirror changes every day. When I talked to [Redacted] I got laughed at. I couldn’t hear their voices.
x/x (tue)
For the past few days I’ve been seeing indecipherable dreams. The pattern on the mirror is beautiful.
x/x (wed)
Another dream where I keep averting the gaze of others. My head hurts.
x/x (thu)
I dreamt of dancing in a dress. My head hurts.
x/x (fri)
In my dream, [Redacted] was dancing with a stranger. I woke up the second our eyes met. My head hurts.
x/x (sat)
I slept five times. I wanted to dream. I’m irritated.
x/x (mon)
the beautiful me.
the beautiful you.
is this love?
x/x (tue)
i am me.
who are you?
are you also me?
x/x (wed)
I want to see you in my dreams.
x/x (thu)
I like you
x/x (fri)
How happy would I be if I could become a butterfly like you.
x/x (sat)
Do I need to coordinate my sleeves to match with the toes of my shoes?
x/x (sun)
Sew together one by one. Along the line, stitch the dots. A collection for me alone.
x/x (mon)
I transformed into a different me!
x/x (tue)
The dream should have ended as a dream.
My longing should have been thrown away.
x/x (wed)
[Redacted]
x/x (thu)
you are me.
i am you.
x/x (fri)
I like you.
x/x (sat)
I feel disgusting. I had a feeling like I wasn’t me.
x/x (sun)
Look at me
x/x (mon)
Look at me Look at me Look at me Look at me Look at me Look at me Look at me Look at me Look at me Look at me Look at me Look at me
x/x (tue)
Looked.
x/x (wed)
Everyone’s so noisy. Shut up.
x/x (thu)
Shut up.
x/x (fri)
Shut up.
x/x (sat)
I saw a butterfly.
x/x (sun)
I became a butterfly.
i relate to this a bit too much
@@mewsslf Yeah, I don't wanna admit it since it makes me look like a creep but every like 8 months I get obsessed with someone and they're on my mind 24/7, I don't even think about myself. Though I don't even want to become like them (not that I'll ever be able too) nor do I want to be with them romantically, I want to disappear and be a ghost and watch whilst they live life; also my grades are always weighting me down making me feel useless.
To answer your usernames question - Gods work
"x/x (sat) I saw a butterfly."
"x/x (sun) I became a butterfly"
character development
@@Knownnom bro .......... uh .... u ok?
Based on the translation of the lyrics and diary entries, the final entry "I became a butterfly", means she's committed suicide. Each chorus when she envisions herself as a butterfly she's surrounded by either chairs or shoes, both are often associated with suicide. She also had a vase appear on her desk after napping, which is normally used to pay respect to the dead student that occupied that desk. So everytime she sees herself as a butterfly she's basically wishing to be dead, to be free and always dreaming, because that's the only way she can live up to her own "abnormal" expectations. She's always sleeping, the diary entries note her wanting to sleep constantly, so that she could be noticed and loved in her dreams by the classmate she's obsessed with. Its pretty sad and a representationof the stresses in Japanese culture to be perfect and exceptional.
It may seem like she's not caring about what others think, and that she eventually accepts herself, but she's actually desperate to be "abnormal" (perfect), so much so that she ends up accepting that being alive means she won't be ever be perfect (this is why she leaves the mirror dirty towards the end), and instead kills herself, to be an everlasting abnormal butterfly.
OMG IVE BEEN TRYING TO FIND ONE WITH ENGLISH SUBTITLES FOR SO LONGG
Pretty sure it got deleted and they made it again
Just checked, yeah got deleted for copyright
Oh that’s a shame at least this one didn’t get taken down yet
@@FruitaFuka Yeah, I plan on downloading it incase it does so I can still understand the song
poor cloudy, she’d went through *55* days of severe jealousy and depression
This song just gives out the vibes of obsession over perfection, the desire to be better, and how it can drive one insane.
I can understand it a bit on how in the mirror she asks herself “who are you?” With the shadows asking “who are we?”
But not an answer was given on that night.
The final turning point where she gives in to abnormal insanity, declaring herself as “abnormal” as the rest of them with something special about her.
She might have ended up killing herself to prove it in, death showing how she’s fully embraced her “abnormality”.
And seeing her face and animal print pattern is matched with a certain butterfly’s pattern, it seems that she associates herself with such because this SPECIFIC pattern shows up and the wing span is bigger than her, and the most appealing thing to a butterfly is their colorful wings.
Desiring for more could be that she wants to spread wider and be more colorful than everyone.
Obsessing over improving and perfection could be that “the greater the chrysalis, the better chance to be noticed.”
212 likes and not enough recognition? Let me try and fix that
i relate to that too much.
pasting these lyrics down for myself;
[Verse 1]
Itsumo dou ganbatte doryoku o shita tokoro de
Sashishimesareru wa heikinchi
Yatterarenai yo
Kudaranai hyouka ni odorasarete bakari
Mou iya ni nacchatta kono jinsei
Nara umarekawarou ka
[Pre-Chorus]
"ijou" ga mune o umetsukushite
Futsuu ja nai jibun ni naru no
Jimonjitou kurikaeshi teniireta no
Atarashii watashi o
[Chorus]
Hora mite yo hora furete yo
Bon'you na fuku o sutesatte
Ima sanagi kara chou ni naru no
Ari no mama subete misetsukete
Samekitta butai enja wa inai
Nara suteppu kizande 1,2,3
Odorasareru nja nai
Odoru no yo saa saa saa kurutte
[Verse 2]
"futsuu" ga noroi o kakete kite
"ijou" ni akogareta no
Iron, jiron ni kyoumi nado nai kara
Mou kagi o kakete
"suki" "kirai" o touni toorikoshite
"ijou" ni koikogarete ita no
Yuganda ai no nare no hate tsukurareta
Atarashii watashi o
[Chorus]
Hora mite yo hora furete yo
Bon'you na fuku o sutesatte
Ima sanagi kara chou ni naru no
Ari no mama subete misetsukete
Samekitta butai enja wa inai
Nara suteppu kizande 1,2,3
Odorasareru nja nai
Odoru no yo saa kurutte
[Break]
Kurai heya hitorikiri
Kagami no mae gozen reiji
"anata dare" "watashi dare"
Toikakedo henji wa nakatta
[Bridge]
Kurue, kurue, kurue, kurue, kurue, kurue, kurue, odore
Saa, atarashii watashi o
[Chorus]
Hora mite yo hora furete yo
Toumei na fuku de kikazatte
Ima sanagi kara chou ni naru no
Ari no mama subete misetsukete
Nekkyou no butai enja wa inai
Nara suteppu kizande 1,2,3
Odorasareru nja nai
Odoru no yo saa kurutte
[Post-Chorus]
"ijou" ga mune o umetsukushite
Futsuu ja nai jibun ni naru no
Yuganda ai no nare no hate tsukurareta kanawanu koi
"ijou" ga mune o umetsukushite
Futsuu ja nai jibun ni naru no
Jimonjitou kurikaeshi teniireta no
Japanese vocaloids are so relatable
u good?
@@-cottoncandy- no
This song is rly relatable... like TOO relatable..
Based Homura PFP btw
Are you okay??
Too relatable for me it also reminded me of the people who loved and hated me
i listened to this a lot may 2021
it was the last song i listened to before being in the psych ward, because we weren’t allowed to have our phones in class even after the state test had finished and i thought “just in case this is the last time i can listen to this”
You went to a psych ward? Damn, I hope you recovered well. I don't want to be personal, so I'll just ask if you're doing fine now.
@@Tadashiismid it was hell. it didn’t even fucking help, just made my damn problems worse. if you EVER go to the psych ward (which you really shouldn’t. it’s like multiplayer therapy but literally all of you are in a state of borderline insanity so it’s just really distressing to be there) make sure it has at least 4.5 stars and a minimum of 25 reviews
i slept on the floor the first night, in a room with lights that never turned off, with a tv that never turned off, always stuck on one hundred- with six other kids, one of which was sick, crammed in the room with me
the phlebotomist didn’t know how to do his job either. we were supposed to get our blood drawn every other day... yeah, glad i didn’t stick around for that. he scraped the inside of my vein multiple times because he was looking over his shoulder having a conversation while he drew it.
i got woken up at four in the morning to do it, too. i wish i had the energy to raise hell about it instead of just steadying his hand. i got yelled at for doing that- if i was gonna get yelled at anyway, why the hell didn’t i make it worthwhile by chewing his ass out lol
that’s just a fraction of the shit i saw. that’s not even mentioning how i sat waiting to be transferred to that hospital in handcuffs and listening to a girl high on xanax scream... for SIX HOURS.
yeah, i burned the clothes i wore there. i couldn’t wear them anymore.
i’d burn the place down if i could
@@IWantToEatRodyaFromLimbus Good grief, sorry to hear that. I know this sounds fake as hell but I don't know what else to say other than sorry to hear that. How's your mental state now? Is it any better?
@@Tadashiismid just barely. i’ve become a little more aware of the problem, which does help sometimes. i’m surviving still.
@@IWantToEatRodyaFromLimbus Good to hear, have you tried other ways of seeking help? If so, did any work?
This has got to be the most relatable vocaloid of my life
You don’t know how many times I’ve had this loop.
?
I had 4 hours straight
63,452 times?
today marks a week I've been listening to this on loop
2:32 I cant believe how much i relate to this part bro💀😭
The go crazy part reminds me of when I’m angry at the one person
Dawg are you okay?? 😭😭
NAH THIS IS SO ME CORE 🗣️🗣️🗣️🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
Same
maybe im thinking in to this too much, but near the end of the video when Tame finally becomes the butterfly she longed to be, her true self, her butterfly hairpins at the back of her head look a bit like pigtails, and the way her hair flows out away from her face made me think she had pigtails for a moment. who in this video has pigtails? her "idol", the one she grew obsessed with, miss top of the class Miya. you can especially see the resemblance of pigtails at 2:55
W rio ranger pfp
HELP THANKS BRO...
WHAT I LITERALLY SPENT A WHOLE YEAR THINKING SHE HAD PIGTAILS IN THAT SECTION OF THE VIDEO 😭😭😭
I think it's safe to say she has finally been noticed... By almost one million people now
more like over 9 million people check out the original video and Guchiry’s musics cuz all of them are underrated.❤
Yes, exactly!! Please check the original video
Its not a sad song at all.
Its anything but sad to me. I am feeling motivated listening to this
My whole life is basically described here
Really starting to feel like this girl huh damn….
Again 💀
3:14 my face at 3am while listening to this song
U good?
@@dia4175 yh lmao
@@dia4175 no
Same
Gurl u good
"Such happy sounding songs can't be that bad, y'know?"
..Me and my playlist is crying-laughing rn
PLUS BOY
I just found this song, after MONTHS. it was on my Spotify playlist and I wanted to find it but u didn't know the English translations, NOW I FINALLY FOUND IT.
same
When I first heard this song I thought it was about how the main girl wasnt happy about the way she is or something and she wanted to impress the people around her or something and it got so bad to the point she was an entirely different person like she pretty much changed herself so much she DIDNT recognize herself because she was comparing herself with that other girl (the blonde one) wanting to be more like her and when shes at the mirror shes pretty much asking like “what happened? Who are you?” And her reflection or the voices(?) in her head are just like “i dont know WHO am I?” and then at the end shes just a different person completely and her first(?) personality/version is just there and shes just saying she went crazy idk this is what I thought
Abnormality Dancin' Girl is a Digital Rock, J-Rock, Pop Punk, Alternative Dance, Yakousei (Night-Loving Scene) song composed by Guchiry featuring Flower. The original version of the song is sung by IA. However, IA's version is exclusive to the album Gods' Miniature Garden.
*_TRIGGER WARNING_*
(Note: This paragraph this just spectulation)
This song is about a girl named Mene. Mene is unhappy with her average grades. When Mene sees her classmate Miya get perfect grades seemingly without trying, she thinks that this type of perfection is abnormal and tries to become more like her. Mene tries to act more like Miya and tries even harder to become "Abnormal", and gets to the point of envy where she falls in love Miya, realizing it during the dream sequence. But then Mene realizes that she'll never be with/like Miya. Mene finally snaps, and becomes a butterfly, a metaphor in the song for committing suicide. Her death is reflected earlier on in the PV where a vase of flowers is sitting on her desk, a common tradition in Japan when a student has passed away.
However, despite this whole paragraph. Guchiry has officially stated that Mene is not dead, nor ended her own life. Even the translated lyrics never implied suicide.
I relate to this song so much but a little differently than the real meaning of it.
Basically, I always was the "gifted child" who always had good grades, didn't ask for anything, didn't bother anyone, was ok with being alone, etc. But, as the time passes, the "gifted child" is fading away. Average, now everything I do is average. And I can't complain about it because "I seem ok", "I have no reason to be sad", "I'm a person that don't get in troubles, that has a good family and friends"... All of that is true, but that's the problem. Being "normal", "average" or even just "ok" is killing me. I'm in highschool rn and it's getting so difficult to the point that idk what to do to just pass my classes. Idk how to study anymore, idk how to do homeworks anymore, idk how to work correctly anymore. But that's not the worst part. It's that I'm aware of it and I'm seeking for help in vain. People don't understand how much it's killing me. They just brush it off saying that they know how hard school is and that it's just a phase... I'm so desperate lately that I even tell my family that I need to get therapy but they mock me and don't take it seriously. I love my mom so much and I know she's doing her best to help me but she doesn't understand what's going on in my mind.
Everything started to really broke down when I got into highschool some months ago. I made myself some good friends but there's this one girl that is bothering me. It's my friend too, she's kind and all but the thing is that she's the "unlucky girl". Can't do sports, has social anxiety, school phobia, panic attacks, get therapy, etc. Even if it's bad, I envy her. The fact that everyone is looking at her like she's a porcelaine doll... I hate it. I want her to just feel my pain when I'm here next to her crying, rejeting physical contact from anyone even if it's nice attention, because the teacher yelled a little too loud. I can't cry like her because I DON'T HAVE A REASON TO. Plus, it sounds weird but I would never reject someone's attention if I'm sad, I don't understand her, she's irritating me. So I just keep being there for others and being "the average girl" that is always fine and that no one saw crying. That's why it's killing me and that's why I relate so much to this song.
Dw I don't have sui cidal thoughts, I just need to know that someone actually understand what I'm living.. I don't need someone to reply, I'm already grateful if you took the time to read all that. I needed to be listened. I need some sleep now. Love ❤️
Hiya even tho you said you don't want a reply im writing one because I want you to know that i understand what are you living through and many people here you are strong really strong just because of the things you are feeling.
All day you are Smileing and helping many and everyone thinks your Life is ok while they are dont know about the pain on the inside and thats worst part of it that you don't want to be average like the others at least im feeling these on the everyday.
So i just want to say you are not alone this is not making it better but at least its something.
(Sorry if my English is a brit bad)
@@karma1783 Thanks, it means a lot ❤️
y'know, i'm grateful you wrote this. i've always wondered what its like being "the perfect kid". movies do so bad at portraying it,and i guess because of movies its far misunderstood. if that makes sense, my grammar is getting worse by the day haha. (i don't mean to sound like THAT person when i say this) but i have a mental illness, but movies when portraying it do such a horrible job, when i tell people about it, the movies are all they know about it and, well, they stay away from me. or apparently i don't have it because "i don't act like it." so i just don't tell people anymore. point is, i know how it feels to be brushed off by everyone,to tell people something is wrong and they say nothing is wrong because apparently if they say that nothings wrong, nothings wrong! and the illness goes away. at this point i cant even be touched, i hate socialising, i just don't want anyone to see me anymore. i hope someone will come along eventually though, and they will understand what your going through is real, because i can understand what your going through, and people need to address the fact that something is wrong. they just have to see the writing on the wall
sorry if i sound off as i said i don't socialise much so my grammar has gotten a lot worse.
@@oogaboogaheehaw ❤️❤️❤️
@@shiramykatami 🧡💚💜❤♥
The fact when i understood the meaning of this song and animation, now i get why i got so obsessed with this song…
this song is so relatable it hurts
I love this song sm it got me through a hard time
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS
FLOWER IS SO COOL. THEYRE MY FAVOURITE VOCALOID BECAUSE OF THEIR VOCALS LIKE. OMG
REAL!!!
my grades in math : 90+
my score in random buzzfeed tests i find on pinterest : 3/10
also me :
Why do i relate this
i kin this comment except change the math to science
same
me rn
Same-
this song is slowly becoming my reality.
Lyrics in romaji (^.^)
itsumo dou ganbatte doryoku o shita tokoro de
sashishimesareru wa heikinchi
yatterarenai yo
kudaranai hyouka ni odorasarete bakari
mou iya ni nacchatta kono jinsei
nara umarekawarou ka
"ijou" ga mune o umetsukushite
futsuu ja nai jibun ni naru no
jimonjitou kurikaeshi te ni ireta no
atarashii watashi o
hora mite yo hora furete yo
bon'you na fuku o sutesatte
ima sanagi kara chou ni naru no
ari no mama subete misetsukete
samekitta butai enja wa inai
nara suteppu kizande 1,2,3
odorasareru nja nai
odoru no yo saa saa saa kurutte
"futsuu" ga noroi o kakete kite
"ijou" ni akogareta no
iron, jiron ni kyoumi nado nai kara
mou kagi o kakete
"suki" "kirai" o touni toorikoshite
"ijou" ni koikogarete ita no
yuganda ai no nare no hate tsukurareta
atarashii watashi o
hora mite yo hora furete yo
bon'you na fuku o sutesatte
ima sanagi kara chou ni naru no
ari no mama subete misetsukete
samekitta butai enja wa inai
nara suteppu kizande 1,2,3
odorasareru nja nai
odoru no yo saa saa saa kurutte
kurai heya hitorikiri
kagami no mae gozen reiji
"anata dare?" "watashi dare?"
toikakedo henji wa nakatta
kurue, kurue, kurue, kurue, kurue, kurue, kurue, odore.
saa, atarashii watashi o
hora mite yo hora furete yo
toumei na fuku de kikazatte
ima sanagi kara chou ni naru no
ari no mama subete misetsukete
nekkyou no butai enja wa inai
nara suteppu kizande 1,2,3
odorasareru nja nai
odoru no yo saa saa saa kurutte
"ijou" ga mune o umetsukushite
futsuu ja nai jibun ni naru no
yuganda ai no nare no hate tsukurareta kanawanu koi
"ijou" ga mune o umetsukushite
futsuu ja nai jibun ni naru no
jimonjitou kurikaeshi te ni ireta no
atarashii watashi o
YOOOO I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR THIS FOR SOMETHING LIKE THIS FOR LIKE FIVE MONTHS NOW, THIS IS AWESOME!!
I love this song too much. I listened to it on loop for 2 hours. It's so relatable.
Im writing all the diary entries rn!! (my hand hurts)
Best song to ever exist. It explains me so badly brooo I love this song. STAN VFLOWER
"In many cultures, the butterfly's metamorphosis symbolizes the soul's journey from an earthly existence to a spiritual one."
The very first image in the mv were a collection of butterflies and all throughout the song she refers to becoming a "brand new" and "abnormal" version of herself as evolving into a butterfly as shown with "Now, from my chrysalis, I'll become a butterfly".
She doesn't care about other's people about it since since she made a decision (metaphor : "I've already locked the door" & "I don't have interest in your differing opinions")
The "abnormality" she talks about probably refers to sucidal thoughts, "I think I'll restart my life" and the empty vase (to pay respect to a dead classmate in Japan) as well as the pair of shoes around her in the 2nd chorus (people often take them off before jumping to meet their end in Japan)
The "manipulation" she refers to was the grading system : "Constantly being manipulated by useless measures of worth" even though she refuses to admit it at the end of every chorus "I'm not being manipulated, I'm dancing !" also "I'll show off everything as it is" can be a desire to prove everyone wrong (that she's not being manipulated)
idk what else to say but i'm preparing for an essay in school so i analyze lyrics for fun
2:16 best part
歌詞
いつもどう頑張って努力をした所で 指し示されるは平均値
やってられないよ
くだらない評価に踊らされてばかり もう嫌になっちゃったこの人生
なら生まれ変わろうか
「異常」が胸を埋めつくして 普通じゃない自分になるの
自問自答繰り返し手に入れたの
新しいワタシを
ほら見てよ ほら触れてよ 凡庸な服を捨て去って
今サナギから 蝶になるの ありのまま全て見せつけて
冷めきった舞台 演者はいない ならステップ刻んで1,2,3
踊らされるんじゃない 踊るのよ さぁ狂って
「普通」が呪いをかけてきて 「異常」に憧れたの
異論、持論に興味などないから もう鍵をかけて
「好き」「嫌い」を疾うに通り越して「異常」に恋焦がれていたの
歪んだ愛の成れの果て創られた
新しいワタシを
ほら見てよ ほら触れてよ 凡庸な服を捨て去って
今サナギから 蝶になるの ありのまま全て見せつけて
冷めきった舞台 演者はいない ならステップ刻んで1,2,3
踊らされるんじゃない 踊るのよ さぁ狂って
暗い部屋 1人きり 鏡の前 午前0時
「アナタ誰」「ワタシ誰」 問い掛けど返事は無かった
狂え、狂え、狂え、狂え、狂え、狂え、狂え、踊れ。
さぁ、新しいワタシを
ほら見てよ ほら触れてよ 透明な服で着飾って
今サナギから 蝶になるの ありのまま全て見せつけて
熱狂の舞台 演者はいない ならステップ刻んで1,2,3
踊らされるんじゃない 踊るのよ さぁ狂って
「異常」が胸を埋めつくして 普通じゃない自分になるの
歪んだ愛の成れの果て創られた 叶わぬ恋
「異常」が胸を埋めつくして 普通じゃない自分になるの
自問自答繰り返し手に入れたの
新しいワタシを
I relate to this song so much that it kind of worries me...
But, I'll just try and focus on how pretty Tame Mene is.
Like, just look at her!
Her hair, her eyes, her face, all of her clothes, just all of her: Beautiful!
I fr wanna dye my hair purple now- but I worry that it probably won't end up being the shade of purple that her hair- and that shade of purple... just- wow- and that black dress with the butterfly is especially gorgeous! I don't have any dresses (or at least I don't know where they are if I do have any) but I wanna wear one and spiiiiiiiinnn
After 2636182737 years of searching... I finally found it... THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SOUNDS IVE EVER HEARD.
1:09 i an just see the butterfly shaped slider
my boyfriend made an animation using this song for a OP for an RPG we're participating, and I never asked him about the name of it, it's been weeks and I tried searching for it today, AND HOLY SHIT, I'M SO HAPPY I FOUND IT!!!
me and my friend would always sing this song in the vcs, and oh my god, I can finally show him the original song!!
I JUST REALISED WHEN SHE FIRST PUT ON THE DRESS ITS FOR A BAL FESTIVAL THING THAT WAS WRITTEN IN THE DIARIES I JUST THOUGHT SHE CASUALLY DRESSED LIKE THAT TO SCHOOL LMAOP
I kin this song sm especially the diary part
i thught the comments were normal but then i just see “japanese vocaloids are so relatable” gonna go ask them if their ok
WHEN I FOUND OUT FLOWER SUNG THIS I WWS SHOCKED. SHE SOUNDS SO HUMAN😭
Hey I just wanted to say thanks for translating it!! It gave me inspo to write my own little fucked up song :)
Here it is!! I just wanted to share it! :D (TW!!)
In a world of shifting masks, a girl with fractured dreams,
Many faces, many names, not all as it seems,
In the corners of her mind, a classroom filled with scorn,
A ticking time bomb waiting, till the truth is torn.
(Pre-Chorus)
She's a puzzle of emotions, a canvas painted red,
A storm of shattered memories, secrets left unsaid,
One fateful day, it all broke free, the anger and the pain,
A blade unsheathed, a tear-streaked eye, her life would never be the same.
(Chorus)
In the classroom's hallowed halls, a dance of fear and might,
A stab of vengeance in the dark, a clash of wrong and right,
A scream that pierced the silence, a heart that turned to stone,
She found her power in that act, a power all her own.
(Verse 2)
The aftermath of crimson wrath, regrets that claw the soul,
A fragile smile upon her lips, a heart that can't be whole,
She walks the line between the light and shadows deep within,
A fractured mind, a fractured soul, a battle she can't win.
(Pre-Chorus)
Her laughter hides a secret, a joy she can't deny,
For deep within the darkness, a truth she can't belie,
A satisfaction lingers, a twisted kind of glee,
Knowing that she's caused the pain, the pain that's set her free.
(Chorus)
In the mirror's cold reflection, she sees the fractured truth,
A girl with many faces, a heart that's lost its youth,
In the depths of inner chaos, where her personas fight,
She finds her solace in the pain, the darkness, and the night.
(Bridge)
A symphony of voices, a tapestry of lies,
A kaleidoscope of memories that no one can disguise,
She's searching for redemption in the fragments of her mind,
A journey through her broken self, a chance to leave behind.
(Chorus)
In the echoes of her actions, in the choices that she's made,
A girl with many battles fought, a soul that's both afraid,
She navigates the labyrinth of guilt and hidden glee,
A MILGRAM's dance of agony, the truth that sets her free.
(Outro)
In the end, she's still a puzzle, a masterpiece of pain,
A girl who's learning to embrace the scars that mark her bane,
In the complex tapestry of light and shadows intertwined,
She finds her strength, her voice, her truth, her path through fractured minds.
Only god knows how much i've sang this song
As soon as I heard a second of it I knew it was already my new favorite song
[Verse 1]
Itsumo dou ganbatte doryoku o shita tokoro de
Sashishimesareru wa heikinchi
Yatterarenai yo
Kudaranai hyouka ni odorasarete bakari
Mou iya ni nacchatta kono jinsei
Nara umarekawarou ka
[Pre-Chorus]
"ijou" ga mune o umetsukushite
Futsuu ja nai jibun ni naru no
Jimonjitou kurikaeshi teniireta no
Atarashii watashi o
[Chorus]
Hora mite yo hora furete yo
Bon'you na fuku o sutesatte
Ima sanagi kara chou ni naru no
Ari no mama subete misetsukete
Samekitta butai enja wa inai
Nara suteppu kizande 1,2,3
Odorasareru nja nai
Odoru no yo saa saa saa kurutte
[Verse 2]
"futsuu" ga noroi o kakete kite
"ijou" ni akogareta no
Iron, jiron ni kyoumi nado nai kara
Mou kagi o kakete
"suki" "kirai" o touni toorikoshite
"ijou" ni koikogarete ita no
Yuganda ai no nare no hate tsukurareta
Atarashii watashi o
[Chorus]
Hora mite yo hora furete yo
Bon'you na fuku o sutesatte
Ima sanagi kara chou ni naru no
Ari no mama subete misetsukete
Samekitta butai enja wa inai
Nara suteppu kizande 1,2,3
Odorasareru nja nai
Odoru no yo saa kurutte
[Break]
Kurai heya hitorikiri
Kagami no mae gozen reiji
"anata dare" "watashi dare"
Toikakedo henji wa nakatta
[Bridge]
Kurue, kurue, kurue, kurue, kurue, kurue, kurue, odore
Saa, atarashii watashi o
[Chorus]
Hora mite yo hora furete yo
Toumei na fuku de kikazatte
Ima sanagi kara chou ni naru no
Ari no mama subete misetsukete
Nekkyou no butai enja wa inai
Nara suteppu kizande 1,2,3
Odorasareru nja nai
Odoru no yo saa kurutte
[Post-Chorus]
"ijou" ga mune o umetsukushite
Futsuu ja nai jibun ni naru no
Yuganda ai no nare no hate tsukurareta kanawanu koi
"ijou" ga mune o umetsukushite
Futsuu ja nai jibun ni naru no
Jimonjitou kurikaeshi teniireta no
[Outro]
Atarashii watashi o
OH so that's what the song's lyrics are like. I read an explanation comment in the actual video but it's cool to actually see what the word for word (kinda) lines are. Also the song is relatable. I really don't like how schools make students associate worth with things like grades, it's really draining on me and my friend group. But I feel like we keep each other somewhat sane I think. Or if we all are going crazy it's at least together.
Ok, yeah
I want to demand that I’m in this comment and I don’t like it
XD
But really, This year I start university. I finished college the past year and was… a nightmare, to say the least
I wasn’t a social kid like… never, but I made a friend circle that I now Can comunicate with
And I used to be the “perfect kid” with amazing notes until highschool came and I got my first bad grades. More and more, my grades getting average. And now, I’m a bit worried I will be drowned in my new place
I listened to this 20 minutes straight..
Edit 4 hours later: still listening...
Still listening after 1 month?
Still listening after 2 months?
Still looking listening after 3 months?
Still listening After 4 months?
@@gummybearsfordream probably lmaoo
I'm proud to say that I didn't become a butterfly years ago
but I'm starting to consider it!
I’m so happy that you didn’t become a butterfly! I know exactly how you feel, back 2 years ago I felt the same way. But I’m so, so glad I didn’t because I’ve met some really good friends and I wouldn’t trade them for the world. I can’t imagine life without them anymore, so just keep persevering. Life has so much to offer and live for, so hold on. It’ll hurt a lot, it’ll be hard, but it’ll be worth it in the end. You’ve got this :)
I feel as if even though my grades are okay, it will never be enough to get me somewhere. I think i relate to this song too much haha.
I love dancing uncontrollably to good songs, even when I’m infront of other people
Thank you! I really needed that for meme I’m making! :]
YOUR NAME IS MY NAME IRL
Shes so cuteee
understanding the lyrics just makes it better
This is so good I'm listening 24/7 of this I love this!!!!❤️
By striving to be better, you automatically become better then the rest. So continue to strive and push your self even though in may hurt. I do believe in you and hope you all have a nice day.
Litterally ever sad japanese song sounds like the happiest out of my whole spotify playlist XD💀
Ikr
I normally don't like songs that tune Flower this high, but this song is pretty good
I really want this song on pjsekai ☠️☠️
every time i come back to read the translation i just can’t help but feel like the ppl who focus on the grades COMPLETELY missed the mark. it’s not about the grades. it’s about being dissatisfied with your existence and feeling empty and numb with no certainty over your personality/sense of self. it’s about jealousy over someone else being better than you and that jealousy forming into an ugly obsessive infatuation as you believe this person has everything you need to become a real person that everyone - including yourself - likes and wants, and moreover becoming obsessed with the attention from others your “brand new me” gets. it’s not really about the grades at all.
ur so correct that’s what I thought, it’s really about being obsessed with becoming perfect
I HAVE FOUND THIS AGAIN AFTER 1YR (nah bcs I was obsessed with this a long time ago. i found this again by searching kanade edit bcs i saw a kanade version of this)
THANK YOU I WAS TRYING TO FIND THIS FOREVR!!!
I hate how relatable this song is I used to be always above average but since I went to highschool everything changed and I feel like I don't exist or know who I am anymore
SI NO TE PREOCUPES POR ESO 3DÍAS A QUE TE GUSTE Y QUE PASES UN BUEN RATO CON TU PAREJA Y QUE PASES UN BUEN RATO hijueputa con tu novio en la cabeza de tu pareja que me ha hecho una vida muy buena hermana de mi vida que me siento muy bien con i COMO TE PREOCUPES QUE TE LO PUEDES DECIR POR EL AMOR QUE TIENES EN EL TIEMPO QUE TIENES Y NO TE LO HAGAS A NUTSHELL O A NUTSHELL O TE GUSTE Y NO ME?! 😭🤬🗯
nice to see this become popular again ahh
Fun fact!: the original song is made for IA and sang by IA also! I personally love both covers!
this song made me learn foreshortening bc I wanted to draw fanart
I keep drawing tame on my science notes
@@nex2107 real
@@nex2107 based af, she's a painfully relatable character, I've drawn her a lot too or characters similar to her
HELP I SAW THESE COMMENTS THE DAY THEY WERE POSTED BUT I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY but yea Tame is really relateable and shows how shit society can be
here are all the diary entries bc i can't find a comment that has them
1:30 x/x (mon) Cloudy again. Our tests came back. Even with all that, I'm still stuck at an average score. I don't feel anything.
1:31 x/x (tue) Cloudy again. It seems that [Redacted] from our class is entering some competition. I don't feel anything.
1:32 x/x (wed) Cloudy again. I was suddenly called [Redacted] during break time. Can't help the rumors floating around. I don't feel anything.
1:33 x/x (thu) Cloudy again. I have this feeling something's wriggling around in my head. It's uncomfortable.
1:34 x/x (fri) Cloudy again. It's all dirty when I look in the mirror. I wiped and wiped, but it doesn't help. It's uncomfortable.
1:35 x/x (mon) Cloudy again. In the morning assembly [Redacted] was commended. Seems like she got excellent grades. I don't care. It's uncomfortable.
1:36 x/x (tue) Cloudy again. Seems like there's planning for the school festival. That [Redacted]'s gonna be in charge, everyone's enthusiastic. It's uncomfortable.
1:37 x/x (wed) Cloudy again. The class decided to do a play. [Redacted] was unexpectedly overjoyed. They were appointed behind the scenes by [Redacted], the protagonist. I was a little happy. My head hurts.
1:39 x/x (thu) Cloudy again. Most of the class wound up behind the scenes, so lots are starting the preparations. Something's irritating me. My head hurts.
2:15 x/x (fri) Cloudy again. When I stroked the mirror, it cracked. I cut my finger a little. I'm frustrated.
2:16 x/x (mon) Cloudy again. All the talking around me's so noisy. [Redacted] asked me how the production was going. In the spur of the moment, I stumbled on my words. We managed to talk.
2:17 x/x (tue) Cloudy again. Everything around me's so noisy. I stumbled and touched the wound, so my fingers are dirty. I'm frustrated.
2:18 x/x (wed) Cloudy again. The sounds are echoing in my head and it's troubling me. I wipe and wipe but the dirt won't come off my fingers. [Redacted] met eyes with me and smiled. I'm not qualified enough for that.
2:19 x/x (thu) Cloudy again. [Redacted]'s voice is so beautiful. Not just that, everything about her is perfect to the point of abnormality. How did I never notice until now?
2:20 x/x (fri) Cloudy again. [Redacted] talked to me. She stands out so extraordinarily. I feel like I was watching [Redacted] all day.
2:21 x/x (mon) What does [Redacted] have that I don't? I tried to imitate [Redacted] a little. I feel like my heart's calmed down.
2:22 x/x (tue) The mirror I just bought is dirty. I wipe and wipe but it won't go away.
2:22 x/x (wed) I tried talking to people around me just like [Redacted]. I was met with different gazes than I usually get. It's kind of a special feeling.
2:23 x/x (thu) I dared to talk to [Redacted]. I think I talked more differently than I thought, but I was interrupted halfway. I don't get it.
2:23 x/x (fri) I stared at the dirt on the mirror. For some reason, the pattern looks beautiful. I'll put off wiping it for a while.
2:23 x/x (sat) I had a strange dream.
2:24 x/x (mon) The pattern in the mirror changes every day. When I talked to [Redacted] I got laughed at. I couldn't hear their voices.
2:25 x/x (tue) For the past few days I've been seeing indecipherable dreams. The pattern on the mirror is beautiful.
2:26 x/x (wed) Another dream where I keep averting the gaze of others. My head hurts.
2:26 x/x (thu) I dreamt of dancing in a dress. My head hurts.
2:27 x/x (fri) In my dream, [Redacted] was dancing with a stranger. I woke up the second our eyes met. My head hurts.
2:27 x/x (sat) I slept five times. I wanted to dream. I'm irritated.
2:28 x/x (mon) the beautiful me. the beautiful you. is this love?
2:29 x/x (tue) i am me. who are you? are you also me?
2:29 x/x (wed) I want to see you in my dreams.
2:30 x/x (thu) I like you
2:30 x/x (fri) How happy would I be if I could become a butterfly like you.
2:30 x/x (sat) Do I need to coordinate my sleeves to match with the toes of my shoes?
2:31 x/x (sun) Sew together one by one. Along the line, stitch the dots. A collection for me alone.
2:31 x/x (mon) I transformed into a different me!
2:31 x/x (tue) The dream should have ended as a dream. My longing should have been thrown away.
2:31 x/x (wed) [Redacted]
2:31 x/x (thu) you are me. I am you.
2:31 x/x (fri) I like you.
and the rest i can't find so that's all i'll put :p
I really relate to this song so much especially in school the feeling that you wanted to be noticed by everyone, ive always wanted attention in school bc i hate the way my classmates treat me like dust they looked at me like im invisible the feeling that you also wanted attention the feeling that you wanted tp show how different you are unlike everyone else that you will basically show almost everything just to get everyones attention ive really felt that.
And the way it controls you, your heart is no longer itself its filled with abnormality filled with obsession and you no longer cant tell who you are especially when theres someone your jealous of. You'll do anything just to manipulate them you wanted to change their tracks the feeling getting rid of that person bc it kinda felt like their feeling the one who is manipulating you
This is why i love this song alot its becoming an obsession especially school academics
This is one of those songs that make me cry for literally no reason
Basically the only song I've been listening to for the past month. It explains what I feel so well it's scary
This song is a honey for my ears
I like how most of the insanity started becouse she wanted to improve for the better but no matter how hard she tried it didnt work
Love this so much
I listened to this song again at age 17, it give me goosebump and I can relate to her so much...
I had a best friend, but my friend was too friendly and easy to be close by anyone but I'm totally opposite of her. She got a excellent grade meanwhile mine was average( just like the girl's grade), I'm trying so hard and she wasn't even trying, I cried after the school ended.
I feel like I'm not fitting to be her friend, she's beautiful unlike me. She's also smart, my intelligence is average than her. Her family was also good meanwhile mine was average(I love my family), she have a lot of friend while I had to clinging on her. I had a severe depression, but even the teacher couldn't notice it but my friend can. I'm going crazy... She ask me to smile but I can't! I couldn't do it!
I feel like I'm living inside the shell, this is not real me.
私の好きな歌で英語を学ぼうとしています
私はまだ文字を理解していません...
私も、でも私は英語です
If you know this, good!
Learning Japanese.
Good luck!
( 頑張って! )
4 months later. How you doing?
1:39 " "Normality" cast a curse on me, and i yearned for "abnormality". " this part is so relatable to me. it feels like the lyrics perfectly captured what i had been experiencing for almost my entire life but could never describe
Is it okay to interpret this as a trans/acceptance of mental illness song despite a HEAVILY implied contradicting story? It's a really, really great song but I'm not great at listening to suicide songs because once upon a time a really great one (ahem, RuRu.) helped in spiraling me into a hospital. I really enjoy it but I'm afraid of thinking too deeply about the actual story and, y'know. 'Course, I already know I'm not very sane but I have no intentions of suicide and i'm unsure if I should keep listening to it, since their are other good Guchiry songs that are slightly less problematic (for me).
I always thought of the song as Mene being so tired of being average despite her conflicting thoughts and then snapping; in the way that she accepts herself as Not Sane and using that as empowerment; a metamorphosis. Also the envy of Miya could maybe be interpreted as 'damn it she is so pretty and talented, she is a real girl, why can't I be like her' etc. idk.
I feel the same way actually! I'm not suicidal by any means, but I can still relate to the song and struggling to FEEL perfect no matter how hard I try, while also getting jealous of others who can seemingly get by easier than I do. I think that's the cool part about music because certain lyrics can resonate with you more than others, but as long as you get the basic idea of the song without having to worry too much about the depressing stuff then you are still free to enjoy it :DD
I believe music can be interpreted in any way, so yeah, go for it! There’s no “right” way to interpret music. :)
I'm not usually one for more intense songs but oh boy can I relate to this right now.