I am so sorry for your loss. I have been there too and now volunteer to help women heal from the effects of post abortion. It is such a void experience many do not understand. When love is in your heart, it hurts a lot.
Your story brings me to tears ,I’m going through emotional regret again after many years have passed since I had an abortion…and I’m trusting God to pull me out of this funk. I appreciate you telling your story it helps me so much . God bless you sweetheart 🩷
I had my first ever abortion about 15 days ago. I'm 21, still in college, just starting up with my career and so is my boyfriend. I found out that I was 8 weeks pregnant on my birthday and I broke down instantly. The reason being that I had always imagined having kids with the loml (my boyfriend) but it was just the timing, I did not want to mess his life up but I still gathered courage and told him that I was pregnant and he was scared to death. I felt helpless and didn't seem to have any other option but abortion. The next day I got a sonogram, that's when I heard it's heartbeat for the first time and I could not stop myself from weeping. Only if the timing was right, I wouldn't have had to do this. I really wish I didn't have to do this. This is a trauma I will never heal from. When I first walked out of the abortion clinic, the feeling I had, I haven't felt this empty my entire life. I look at the sonogram every night and cry myself to sleep. I keep thinking about what would he/she have looked like, what they would have been like, etc. I feel like I will never get over this. I don't talk about it to anyone, not even him. I often get the urge to hurt myself, almost everyday. I feel like I deserve the pain. I don't know what to do.
hi there P...It must be very hard to be in this situation. Crossroads has a 24-7 Prayer Line where you can share and pray with a prayer partner....1-866-273-4444. crossroads.ca/247prayer/ I hope you are able to call. There is hope in Jesus. I hope there are friends you can talk to, family, even to share how you are feeling. Please also reach out for help about your feelings to your doctor or clinic.
I’m going through the exact same emotions as you I’m 21 and had my first child 8 months ago and I figured I was pregnant a couple months ago & I had to drive 7 hours to Kansas from Texas to get the abortion. I feel so depressed and I keep dreaming of being pregnant and it just hurts that my son could’ve had a sibling😢I know I’m irresponsible for getting pregnant again. I just can’t forgive myself right now.
It’s been 2 years since my abortion and I’m still coping with the grief and regret. You aren’t alone and I’m sorry. I do the same things- imagine how he/she would have been and how different my life would be now. It was unplanned and no body supported me so I let the fear control my decision and looking back I’m so mad at myself and I regret it everyday. I’m so sorry and I hope we can all heal and someday go on to have healthy wonderful children- if I ever get pregnant again I’m not telling ANYONE or maybe I will and if anyone has anything negative to say I’m telling them to f*ck off. May God forgive us and be with us and allow us to forgive ourselves. I’m so sorry
Don’t be too hard on yourself. You had the courage to keep that child, yourself and the father from a life of struggles. I pray that you forgive yourself and continue to move forward.
The trauma of no one believing you (regardless of the pain or trauma) is hard enough. That IS where you meet Jesus. 101. God bless and I'm sooo glad you are you healing, and I'm moved to tears
We have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. None of us free not from consequences not from the future. However this is why Jesus Christ paid such an awful price. Only in him can we find forgiveness of sins, and find the truth about why He must have seen such worth to pay such a price. He is the only savior and according to the bible He will in no way cast out those who call on him in truth and in spirit. He is your only hope and he knew your whole life before you were born. I hope you seek him and find him.
My relationship ended about 3 weeks ago, I found out on Father's Day. I was so excited to have my baby and he said he didn't want it and that he'd hate me if I kept it, that I'd ruin his life. I never thought this would happen and he picked up the pills from his friend that is a doctor, the next day. I suffered through it and I was expected to not speak about it but get over it. In October I had a miscarriage and I started to hate him, resent him. He started being horrible saying it was undeserving of his love and he has abandoned me. I'm on meds for my depression, I've attempted 7 times in the past two weeks. I'm so tired, I want my babies and I hate myself so much.
when you were the Dad that never had his crap together enough to go for a family at that time its 5 years later and all you can think about is them being on the other side wanting you with them. Always wondering what they would look like, boy or girl, how they would be. Genuinely feeling like they want you there on their side is the most horrible feeling in the world never got to speak to ex about it or anyone really its messed me up now. I wish we had the child and she could leave still I just want the child now, others thinking the same should have the child dont be scared just go for it even if u dont want to be with that partner forever just have the child i know its scary but just do it it’ll mentally destroy you everytime in the future its not worth it dont be scared just do it trust me.
Hi. Thank you for sharing your true and honest thoughts about your experience… I can sympathize with the feeling of not having yourself together and then the abortion happens, then the aftermath of all the “what if” scenarios… What they would have been like, boy or girl, etc. I have already accepted (for me personally) I will mourn this, until I am reunited… I just would like to share that for my personal experience, I had and still have the same thoughts… however as much as I pray to God that he pardons me… I knew it was not the right time where I could be the best parent. Life has a trajectory… I would not have been able to give the life my child deserves because I myself was not setting the trajectory of my life to its fullest manifestation and merits… So I chose, and am still choosing to fulfill that so I can be the best parent to my child(ren), when the time comes (I pray) I will forgive myself but never forget the fire kindled within me from that experience…. I take it as a lesson. And pray to God he will bless me with children when the time comes…
Had one at 17 y/o almost 15 years ago . Been dealing with infertility ever since 😢definitely hardddd fighting this fight in my head but I give it to God that He forgave and one day I’ll have my child or children
This is heartbreaking and so are the comments😭 this would be so traumatic! Here I am knowing what I already know in my heart, I have 4 kids already and I'm nearly 38, and this is still too hard....My God how to choose when you cannot😭😭
It’s so sad that no one cared enough to ask you if you wanted to keep your baby. If even one woman can be spared a forced abortion it’s worth it to end all abortions.
My thing is if you don’t want children that’s fine…but to not live with the repercussions of your own choices should never be respected…give the kid up for adoption before you wipe it from existence…millions of women out here who can’t even have kids who are dying for them…just seems all kind of messed up
Poor kid. Fancy dropping your daughter off for such a traumatic process??? let alone allowing the death of your grandchild??? So much for my body, my choice. 🙏❤️🙏
I hope all who listen to this know, as the bible reveals, we ALL deserve wrath. Jesus the Messiah paid an awful gruesome price on the cross because as it is written we have all turn led aside from what is right to our own self serving way. The true gospel is not a Mickey mouse gift giving genie but an all knowing creator who put to death His own Son in our place. However he also saw in those who come to Him and repent and believe, something of intense value and worth that caused him to willingly undergo that awful suffering. He is not a fool he will indeed receive the bride price he paid for. So I hope women or anyone do not give up on themselves for one or all of their mistakes- Jesus has paid it all. Praise God it is written even though we were helpless, without God without hope and in the world, He successfully endured his vicarious atoning sacrifice as the Kinsman Redeemer. "And we know He is coming again, this time not to bear sin but to bring salvation to those who wait for Him." He came to seek and to save that which was lost, fulfilling Ezekiels prophecy about He himself finding the "lost sheep of israel". Dont let our wretched disfigurement from the fall keep from the unblemished lamb: their is forgiveness in Him.
The majority of the women I have heard from about the after effects of abortion, say in effect that a nightmare begins that never ends. Tragic.
This is true...I don't recommend any woman to put themselves through this...The image haunts you over and over again. It never never ever stops
I am so sorry for your loss. I have been there too and now volunteer to help women heal from the effects of post abortion. It is such a void experience many do not understand. When love is in your heart, it hurts a lot.
Where do you volunteer to do that, say if I wanted to do the same thing?
Your story brings me to tears ,I’m going through emotional regret again after many years have passed since I had an abortion…and I’m trusting God to pull me out of this funk. I appreciate you telling your story it helps me so much . God bless you sweetheart 🩷
I had my first ever abortion about 15 days ago. I'm 21, still in college, just starting up with my career and so is my boyfriend. I found out that I was 8 weeks pregnant on my birthday and I broke down instantly. The reason being that I had always imagined having kids with the loml (my boyfriend) but it was just the timing, I did not want to mess his life up but I still gathered courage and told him that I was pregnant and he was scared to death. I felt helpless and didn't seem to have any other option but abortion. The next day I got a sonogram, that's when I heard it's heartbeat for the first time and I could not stop myself from weeping. Only if the timing was right, I wouldn't have had to do this. I really wish I didn't have to do this. This is a trauma I will never heal from. When I first walked out of the abortion clinic, the feeling I had, I haven't felt this empty my entire life. I look at the sonogram every night and cry myself to sleep. I keep thinking about what would he/she have looked like, what they would have been like, etc. I feel like I will never get over this. I don't talk about it to anyone, not even him. I often get the urge to hurt myself, almost everyday. I feel like I deserve the pain. I don't know what to do.
hi there P...It must be very hard to be in this situation. Crossroads has a 24-7 Prayer Line where you can share and pray with a prayer partner....1-866-273-4444. crossroads.ca/247prayer/
I hope you are able to call. There is hope in Jesus. I hope there are friends you can talk to, family, even to share how you are feeling. Please also reach out for help about your feelings to your doctor or clinic.
Same .
I’m going through the exact same emotions as you I’m 21 and had my first child 8 months ago and I figured I was pregnant a couple months ago & I had to drive 7 hours to Kansas from Texas to get the abortion. I feel so depressed and I keep dreaming of being pregnant and it just hurts that my son could’ve had a sibling😢I know I’m irresponsible for getting pregnant again. I just can’t forgive myself right now.
It’s been 2 years since my abortion and I’m still coping with the grief and regret. You aren’t alone and I’m sorry. I do the same things- imagine how he/she would have been and how different my life would be now. It was unplanned and no body supported me so I let the fear control my decision and looking back I’m so mad at myself and I regret it everyday. I’m so sorry and I hope we can all heal and someday go on to have healthy wonderful children- if I ever get pregnant again I’m not telling ANYONE or maybe I will and if anyone has anything negative to say I’m telling them to f*ck off. May God forgive us and be with us and allow us to forgive ourselves. I’m so sorry
Don’t be too hard on yourself. You had the courage to keep that child, yourself and the father from a life of struggles. I pray that you forgive yourself and continue to move forward.
The trauma of no one believing you (regardless of the pain or trauma) is hard enough. That IS where you meet Jesus. 101. God bless and I'm sooo glad you are you healing, and I'm moved to tears
Thanks for your courage! Been there done that and your experience will help others heal
I made the decision no one forced me ...I thought it was the best decision for me it's been a year but I'm drowning...it never gets better only worse
We have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. None of us free not from consequences not from the future. However this is why Jesus Christ paid such an awful price. Only in him can we find forgiveness of sins, and find the truth about why He must have seen such worth to pay such a price. He is the only savior and according to the bible He will in no way cast out those who call on him in truth and in spirit. He is your only hope and he knew your whole life before you were born. I hope you seek him and find him.
To me too
@@nkirotedoreen3789 so sorry maybe we will be okay.
I’m truly sorry. Admitting your devastation is so brave. May God lead you to the peace you need.
My relationship ended about 3 weeks ago, I found out on Father's Day. I was so excited to have my baby and he said he didn't want it and that he'd hate me if I kept it, that I'd ruin his life. I never thought this would happen and he picked up the pills from his friend that is a doctor, the next day. I suffered through it and I was expected to not speak about it but get over it. In October I had a miscarriage and I started to hate him, resent him. He started being horrible saying it was undeserving of his love and he has abandoned me. I'm on meds for my depression, I've attempted 7 times in the past two weeks. I'm so tired, I want my babies and I hate myself so much.
How long does an abortion last? Forever!
when you were the Dad that never had his crap together enough to go for a family at that time its 5 years later and all you can think about is them being on the other side wanting you with them. Always wondering what they would look like, boy or girl, how they would be. Genuinely feeling like they want you there on their side is the most horrible feeling in the world never got to speak to ex about it or anyone really its messed me up now. I wish we had the child and she could leave still I just want the child now, others thinking the same should have the child dont be scared just go for it even if u dont want to be with that partner forever just have the child i know its scary but just do it it’ll mentally destroy you everytime in the future its not worth it dont be scared just do it trust me.
Hi. Thank you for sharing your true and honest thoughts about your experience… I can sympathize with the feeling of not having yourself together and then the abortion happens, then the aftermath of all the “what if” scenarios… What they would have been like, boy or girl, etc.
I have already accepted (for me personally) I will mourn this, until I am reunited…
I just would like to share that for my personal experience, I had and still have the same thoughts… however as much as I pray to God that he pardons me… I knew it was not the right time where I could be the best parent. Life has a trajectory… I would not have been able to give the life my child deserves because I myself was not setting the trajectory of my life to its fullest manifestation and merits…
So I chose, and am still choosing to fulfill that so I can be the best parent to my child(ren), when the time comes (I pray)
I will forgive myself but never forget the fire kindled within me from that experience….
I take it as a lesson. And pray to God he will bless me with children when the time comes…
Had one at 17 y/o almost 15 years ago . Been dealing with infertility ever since 😢definitely hardddd fighting this fight in my head but I give it to God that He forgave and one day I’ll have my child or children
Thank you for speaking. It’s appreciated and will help women of our future.
God bless you and your baby.
This is heartbreaking and so are the comments😭 this would be so traumatic! Here I am knowing what I already know in my heart, I have 4 kids already and I'm nearly 38, and this is still too hard....My God how to choose when you cannot😭😭
It’s so sad that no one cared enough to ask you if you wanted to keep your baby. If even one woman can be spared a forced abortion it’s worth it to end all abortions.
Good on you for speaking up about abortion.
How could anyone commit such a horrific crime against humanity??
It is marketed as ‘just a little procedure’ and normalised to the point that they think its a method of family planning.
Its so sad .... women who don't even know me tell me what they felt when they had to abort....
My thing is if you don’t want children that’s fine…but to not live with the repercussions of your own choices should never be respected…give the kid up for adoption before you wipe it from existence…millions of women out here who can’t even have kids who are dying for them…just seems all kind of messed up
I can't thank Allah enough for the grace of Islam ❤😭😭
Masya Allah, can you share stories probably?
Poor kid. Fancy dropping your daughter off for such a traumatic process??? let alone allowing the death of your grandchild??? So much for my body, my choice. 🙏❤️🙏
I hope all who listen to this know, as the bible reveals, we ALL deserve wrath. Jesus the Messiah paid an awful gruesome price on the cross because as it is written we have all turn led aside from what is right to our own self serving way. The true gospel is not a Mickey mouse gift giving genie but an all knowing creator who put to death His own Son in our place.
However he also saw in those who come to Him and repent and believe, something of intense value and worth that caused him to willingly undergo that awful suffering. He is not a fool he will indeed receive the bride price he paid for.
So I hope women or anyone do not give up on themselves for one or all of their mistakes- Jesus has paid it all.
Praise God it is written even though we were helpless, without God without hope and in the world, He successfully endured his vicarious atoning sacrifice as the Kinsman Redeemer.
"And we know He is coming again, this time not to bear sin but to bring salvation to those who wait for Him."
He came to seek and to save that which was lost, fulfilling Ezekiels prophecy about He himself finding the "lost sheep of israel". Dont let our wretched disfigurement from the fall keep from the unblemished lamb: their is forgiveness in Him.