Dan Roman - Living With Depression
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Dan Roman, performing at CUPSI 2015 in Richmond, VA.
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this and explaining my depression to my mother are the most accurate depictions of depression i have ever heard
Taylor Alexa You should check out Patrick Roche's poem, "Couples Therapy" it is another good one.
Ikr!!!
Also check out "depression by: rage almighty" it's my favorite
Taylor Alexa You should also give couples therapy, by Patrick Roche a listen.
Check Depression, the secret we share
it's not poetry but it's very accurate too
"wants my friends and family to forget my name, only to remember his."
"I know he wants me to move out. Sometimes I do too. I don't know if there's a difference. " I hadn't even teared up until that line was delivered. The way he held his mouth, like someone pressing on the cracks of a wall, trying to keep it together... I broke and you can tell he did too.
PoeticPotato Wow, great way to look at it! 😭👌
The absolute raw anger, passion and emotion he had just gave this poem more fuel and feeling. I loved every second.
'I know he wants me to move out. Sometimes I do too. I don't know if there's a difference.'
That really hit home.
this part was it for me too
"I try to find other apartments... With different drinks, different drugs."
Ow ow ow that hit me HARD.
the price of existence grows higher every year... damn so right
Angela P it means that living gets harder as he gets older, after this sentence he explains that this is because people he know leave or pass away and because of the bad moments in life
Knows*
I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder combined with depression. This poem...ugh. This is _exactly_ what goes on through my head. No peace. No peace. I'm a prisoner of my own mind and a slave to my anxiety.
+Weston James
Painfully relatable. I have anxiety and depression too and on top of that I have physical ailments that severely affect my everyday life. It's so difficult to do ANYTHING these days and I kind of want to rip my face off.
The same here ... Life is too difficult :(
Same/
"i try to remember that so many people want what i have, that when i turn on my lights i become part of a skyline that people look at and envy, that living here is a privilege, no matter how much it looks like these walls want to crumble."
You could here all the emotion in his voice it was raw and brought me to tears
Natasha Mwansa hear*
the thing about not picking up the phone, not wanting other people to remember you, not wanting to leave your room because then other people can see that you are a person, that you are alive, when you are neither :/
My body is an apartment that I can barely afford because of the location,
an entire world of possibilities accessible in some multiple of my footsteps, and for some reason, I can't make it out my front door.
I'm staring at the splintered wood in the frame where she slammed the door on the way out and ignoring the leaks in the roof and how I'm running out of buckets,
I'm trying to remember that so many people want what I have,
that when I turn on my lights, I become part of a skyline that people look at and envy,
that living here is a privilege,
no matter how much it looks like these walls want to crumble.
I pay my rent in late night laughter with loved ones,
purple-pink sunrises on the drive home,
laced fingers that feel to tight to ever come undone, but the price of existence grows higher every year.
With every lost friend,
every tear shed,
every fight where I cannot make amends,
every story I start to write where I cannot possibly imagine an end,
I earn less and less and my rent is late,
until a letter comes in the mail and says my rent has been paid.
I have a roommate now or maybe I always have,
someone who started out as this silhouette stranger on the other end of the bedroom of my brain.
I am living with depression. There's no other way to put it.
He puts my walls up, and everyone else stays out.
He tells me he's the only who can stand these cramped quarters,
where he seems to be spreading out more and more every single week, until there's no room left for anything that reminds me of me.
I can't find room to eat anymore and I don't feel like collecting new memories,
telling myself I only have room for the same old routine.
I have a roommate and he makes my friends uncomfortable, because when he's around, I don't say much of anything.
When he's around, I keep my voice low.
Don't want to make him angry.
Don't want to hear what he's gonna say.
When I...when they leave, when he's around, we spend all my time together.
When he's around, he's the only one with the energy to answer my phone, so I keep it shut off.
I don't want to know whether people will keep trying to call.
I tried to leave, tried to find other apartments with different beds, different drinks, different drugs,
anything to forget that I eventually have to stumble home,
have to see him in the living room, hear his laughter all night, keeping me up.
I never want to leave my bed.
He wants me to move out, I know.
Wants me to vacate these walls with no bags packed. I know.
Wants my friends and family to forget my name, only remember his. I know.
I can tell by the wallpaper he peels off, by the thin, pink wallpaper blueprints he draws in my skin, his plans to make new bloodlines.
I know he wants me to move out.
Sometimes I do too.
I don't know if there's a difference.
I hate the fact that i can absolutely relate to every single fucking word he says. There is no better explanation i wish i could explain this like he just did this hits me so hard
had me in tears, absolutely encapsulating
when I can't sleep I listen to these and cry
me too
I'm up at 5am again, listening to this.
thats exactly what im doing
me too.
Doing this right now
this will forever be my favorite slam poem, it has so much meaning and emotion to it
I didn't know I was going to church, until he started preaching! Yasss
I live with a person who suffers from depression, and it's hard for me to understand the walls they put up. This poem helped. Thank you for this.
How is your roommate?
This is all too real, the analogy of equating Depression as a room mate is very multi- faceted. In the way that are rent and company is misleadingly comforting but then the overbearing nature gets too much, it's so great that this can reach so many other people who are enduring
I can recite this poem by heart now yet I still cry almost every time
This hit me so hard, you can clearly see the emotions on his face.. Totally... Amazing.
Not even done with hearing this poem and it's already my favorite.
I don't usually post comments on any video of CZcams, but this one of the most beautiful and painful things I've ever heard. I can totally relate to every word to every feeling. There's lots of things I wish to say or write, but I'm just gonna stick to.. this one is officially my favorite and some people will never understand why!
I hear you ;)
Anybody else bawl on this video? Lately I've been feeling the same way but have no words to spill from my mouth to other peoples ears so only that that they can avoid and have no response for me. I feel like this but it grows harder and harder to tell someone I feel like this. But you wanna know the fucked up part? I'm 16 and I feel like this every single fucking day.
+Maya_That_Weird_Chick Look into getting a therapist and go from there. I don't even remember more than a handful of memories from being 16. Mental illness literally took that entire year of my life from me, a long with so much else. I'm 23 now, though, and have been doing better the last couple years overall...
close all the doors let no one in the person you knew is no longer me lock all the windows make this my cell the dark is my prison this is my hell block out those sounds let life roll along I can still hear the music but its not my song by john brad
Couldn't hold back the tears.
As someone who also struggles with depression, this is extremely moving. Phenomenal. I am in tears and covered in goosebumps.
How comforting though to know that depression is roommates with many of us.
"...he wants me to move out I know
wants me to vacate these walls with no bags packed I know
wants my friends and family to forget my name
only remember his..."
:'(
i've always loved slam poetry. this is the first poem ive heard to give me chills. this is really astounding and raw and it just sums up depression perfectly. this worded unspoken words in my head so well. just wow.
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thanks for this glad I watch
dandeliøns and däisies slam poetry isn't actually a a genre. this is a spoken word poem performed at a poetry slam. hope i helped (:
the amount of goosebumps i have right now....
Sometimes, he wants me to move out. Sometimes I do too. I don't know if there's a difference"
I swear, I cry every time I watch it...I get chills...
This poem has described my life for years, and I'm happy to have recovered. There is always hope. Always. I never imagined there could be. Please remember that, if you're suffering.
this is so accurate it hurts
Tannaleah Cornell yeah. This so raw and emotional and it just 👌🏻
depression...he seems like a permanent resident in my apartment too. thank you for this, couldnt have explained it better
The way he stutters in some lines really shows how much pain he's been through trying to say these things and yet always getting caught mid sentence
Going through the nightmare that is depression right now and this is exactly how things are. I wish the ignorant bullies who tell people to snap out of it could understand.
The last few lines were just ringing with so much truth.
For my English class we had to recite a poem and I memorized this whole thing. Thank you Dan Roman for this amazing piece of art.
That was amazing, it really hit me
6 years since I've stumbled on this video and I still can't watch it without crying halfway through. Guess when I thought I'm fine it really isn't, eeh?
This hits close to home (pun intended).
I don't cry, and this broke me down. It's the best description of the monster I've ever heard.
I don't suffer from depression but this hit me hard...
"I don't know if there's a difference"
I started crying. It always hits me hard when I realize people feel the same I do. Amazing. Absolutely amazing.
i held my breath throughout the whole poem especially when his voice began to rise i felt the pain all too familiar this was beautifully heartbreaking thank you so much for it
I come back to this video whenever my depression amplifies and I feel alone, unable how to explain it to people. It reminds me that lots of us feel like this, that lots of us suffer. It also reminds me that so many of us, no matter what anyone else sees or thinks can relate to each other and empathize with each other. It breaks my heart and brings me hope.
i cried so much that it actually hurt
Pretty sure this is the most accurate description of depression that I've ever heard... I'm in tears.
I want to own this on my phone, because it so comforting to hear someone say what I've never been able to put into words. This is everything. Thank you.
This was so raw, you could see it in his face. I just wanted to hug him. It was so painful, especially because I understood it. Also, the way he covers his mouth, rushes away and ducks his head down afterwards held so much emotion.
I just met him and I'm in tears
Rest In Peace Kim Jonghyun. Your talent and kindness will be missed.
I'm in tears. I can't even!
This made me cry
tears and goosebumps
What a fresh wand accurate way to encapsulate depression. Amazing!
I get most of the things he says, not everything, but every video almost make me cry. I think I would even if I didn't understand a single word. These guys are so much more than poets...
Damn. Tears are flowing.
I'm speechless and in tears. Great metaphor.
The goosebumps during this...
this brought me to tears, bravo my friend!
...utterly beautiful. No other words.
That was sooooo good. I love his intuned emotion
Goosebumps everywhere
It hits me just as hard as when I heard it in person the first time. Thank you so much for having the courage to write and perform this. Know that you are loved ❤️
The energy, I felt it. Amazing and many blessings.
Goosebumps..
This was absolutely beautiful...
This is a perfect description. It hits me so hard. Amazing.
It got me tearing up, I know that feels too. Great poem.
THIS IS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING
The emotion in his voice at the end just... wow. i've listened 4 times now. so amazing and so raw.
Absolutely jaw dropping. Wow.
This was amazing. So pure in every way. I cried so hard
Thank you .
This was so so so so good. I love all of button poetry but this one hit really hard. Thank you for sharing.
chills. everywhere.
I love all of the passion and emotion he says this poem with
Priceless insight.
This brought me to tears my god this is beautiful
Just found this poem and storm of emotions exploded in my head.
I just feel sorry for everyone who goes through this and I want to hug them..
Love when I can feel the poem as well as the poet can.
this gave me the chills, he's so amazing at voice projection and expression
thank you
Each sentence he said, a new memory of my life comes floating by. Deep and a masterpiece!!
i cried so hard oh my god. i relate to every single word he said. the emotion he puts into it as well, my god. one of my favorite poems ever.
This so deeply resonates within me..
omg this was perfectly put, sometimes its really hard to describe depression bit he did, and he did beautifully. I felt this in my soul
The emotion and passion is incredible. I love this poem so much.
this is so beautiful and powerful, despite all the pain in this performance, i can still see a beauty glowing out of his words
I don't have words for this, I listened to it and I was so utterly moved and I hope poets like Dan Roman know that their words stay stuck inside people's skin for a long time.
love this poem.. thank you for these powerful words
I have been searching for poetry to explain how I feel all day and this is the best, and most accurate I have come across amazing job
this made me cry. the way he described it is beyond amazing.
This was brilliant i have tears in my eyes wow
Damn..... Speechless
This is beautifully, viscerally accurate.
Especially: "So many people want what I have."
I want to cry so bad this is way too relatable