How I Came to Trust God and Over Come Anxiety - A Testimony
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- čas přidán 26. 08. 2024
- Hey guys,
this week's video is a little different. I wanted to share my story of how I came to trust God, His plan, and overcoming my anxiety as I reverted back to Catholicism. Hopefully, this can help someone who is struggling as well!
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I was afraid of losing friends - I gained more friends then ever because of the church.
I was afraid of losing my boyfriend - I gained a husband.
I was afraid I would never be healed - Things have got better.
I was afraid my family would turn away from me - Realtionships have healed because I was now willing to take the first step.
I was afraid I wouldn't have the strength to face trials - With each trial I detach just a little bit more and I am still here fighting the good fight.
Trusting God is a really hard thing but overtime , it becomes a habit and the habit gets easier. If you are looking to come back to the church don't be afraid. God is with you - literally - he feels your pain, he rejoices with you when you are joyful, he is sorrowful when you are sorrowful. HE IS WITH YOU!!
Hi Stephen, I suffered scrupples and all sorts after I came back to the faith. I actually am going through deliverance with unbound to deal with the things that caused my mental health to get worse. Is there sins from your past that you need to forgive yourself for? Please do unbound ministry if there is. Is there unforgiveness to others? I am not saying there is something like that for you, I am saying that there was for me and maybe this will help for you. God does expect that we make an effort to overcome these things. I had things happen to me that I needed help with and also I was wracked with guilt and shame over past sins. I am doing unbound with a Francisican priest now and honestly, its a process but its worth it. Please look up heartofthefather.com and if it suits your situation (I dont know your situation just throwing out what happened to me and what helps me). It helped me, maybe it will help you. What I said above is true I am not sorry I came back to the faith and our lord was my best friend through it all.. but I also will say that life is hard and you have ups and downs. God bless
@Stephen937 just came across your comment. It is true your life could be more difficult. If it helps at all I'm older nearly 50. I think by now I have some wisdom I could share. At least on CZcams 😃. I have suffered with mental health since I was 18. It started because of a miserable abusive upbringing the nervous issues were there from early on and the fact I was overmedicated on seizure medication. When I came off the medication at 17 and a half during last year of high school. I had a major depressive episode panic attacks couldn't eat without throwing up. Alot of medical issues. To make a long story short the faith I had weakened and often wasn't able to walk in a mass for fear of panic attacks or the feeling of wanting to 😱 scream out to God. Why did he let this happen?. I was 25 before I had an amazing Spiritual experience after a priest offered a mass for me I didn't even know the priest had offered mass for me but during this experience I had a vision of the priest in mass. The next morning I rang the priest and he told me he offered the prayers of the mass for me. It was profound and there is so much I could talk about the experience of the Holy Spirit in my life. .....my life improved. I could go in a building without looking for the exit because of severe panic disorder. I still had general anxiety but my faith was reignited. I had suffered family rejection older siblings wanted nothing to do with me but Christ has been there in so many miraculous ways. I sense your feeling of being fed up. Looking back I thought my life would keep getting better and that I would get married. It never happened. I know now that even though God touched my broken life I had not truly been able to cry 😢😭 out all the pain and hurt and anger to him. I thought 🤔 it wasn't proper to do that. If your still young my advise would be open up more with your relationship to God. I made that mistake. I started to trust other Christians who let me down and when I had some good come in my life were jealous and did things to harm me. Put your total trust in Jesus......I only realized after so long to carry all our pain to him not others....you can talk to therapist but they can't heal and then ask him what he wants you to do .....I didn't really listen 👂. Jesus showed me an experience nearly twenty years ago. I had gone into the city for an interview and decided to go in place to get a sandwich, on they way I saw a man sitting on the ground sitting with a container for begging. When I looked at the man's face ...I was struck ....with a mystical experience...I thought it's the face of Christ ... I was 😳 stunned walked into the place for the sandwich....I had little money but couldn't wait to get back outside after eating...to go over to this man... another thing I thought was unusual was he was wearing white ...when I went outside there wasn't a trace...he was gone....I have heard many times people say you find Christ in the poor, the forgotten, destitute....and now I see Christ was showing me who is worse off than me....he tried over the years to get me to look away from myself and what I didn't have and looking at others who had so much more made me jealous and ...all the time if only I had denied myself and took up the cross and truly followed Jesus not my own desires but I was angry 😡 how life treated me I had no family that were close...I was lonely. But if I could have turned more to Christ's way of being ....I am now at this late stage asking him to do what he wants ....and my life is in a sorry 😔 state. Don't delay is my advice ....it's hard to hear he may not give you everything you want until you change your heart ❤️ and he could surprise you recently in prayer in adoration a whisper in my heart " do you want to know about 💕 love"? my heart was closed to real love as it is for many in or out of relationship in my experience of meeting and knowing so many people, he will definitely give you what you need and if we follow him completely ...I know he would give us so much more ...I was fearful...I ended up looking to the world....I never fitted in and I think Jesus didn't want me to but follow his ways ....P.s...no need overburden yourself ....attend weekly mass and holydays...go to adoration...your own few personal prayer....discern what to do....you don't have to do everything right....ask the Holy Spirit.....and go easy on yourself.......take a break from trying too hard ...that's the advice I wish someone had given me years ago......I know God's not finished his work in me ....God bless
So I'm a revert and so basically Im a cradle catholic I just went to church every Sunday and holy day of obligation I watched veggie tales lol and did religion it wasn't until August I really got to know God and not view church as a chore by scrolling on TikTok and I found one of your tiktoks and then I followed you since then I've learned more abt my faith and about God. Thank you Amber for helping me with my relationship with God
“Do It Anyway” by Mother Theresa
“People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you.
Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous.
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough.
Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and God.
It was never between you and them anyway.”
- Mother Teresa
Mother Theresa’s poem reminds me of what you said in this video. God is sooo Good! We should do all things for Him. God bless you! 🙏🏼😊
Thank you for your witness and your strength! I'm 54 years old, been a faithful member of my Parish for decades, and have only started learning to truly trust and love Our Lord in the last few years. You do your thing!
THANK YOU for talking about mental illness and St. Dymphna!!!
Amber Rose, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Your videos are inspiring and charming. I love your direct style of communication and you share your soul. 💖🙏✝️
Yesterday I attended my first TLM since I was a kid in the 1960s. It was a high mass. So many memories of my childhood popped up. Angles were singing in the choir, the beauty of the church, the processional, chapel veils, men in suits the vestments and altar boys.. the feeling is indescribable. Thank you 💖🙏✝️
Im so happy for you thank you sm❤
I'm converting to Catholicism and I'm still in High school. I cried when you spoke about group thought, because that's exactly what I do. I pray everyday to not care what others think of me, but it's so hard. You've given me hope of deliverance x
Im doing the same thing right now. I found the church in December and Its such a struggle to convert in high school. I haven't told my parents or anyone.
i will keep you in my prayers welcome home❤️
@@brennanmartinez3723 i will keep you in my prayers!! welcome home❤️❤️
I feel this sm!! God is helping me
I feel the exact same way. Especially since I have to go through rcia which is a long process. And I want to do it but I’m so scared that I’m going to be the only person in the class and I’m a shy person. I don’t make conversation easy and I’m afraid of doing things alone. I know I’m not alone because I’m with God, but I’m struggling.
God’s truly using you for His kingdom!! you’ve helped me so much Amber. my reversion is very similar to yours and i praise and thank God that He’s led me to your account!! i love you sister, please keep me in your prayers i’m struggling to call myself a catholic. i haven’t done it yet on tiktok because i’m so scared of the hate, but you’ve inspired me and encouraged me to trust in God and have courage in Him. God bless you❤️❤️
I literally had to give up my whole entire circle, and I know it was my grandmother's prayers along with my mom's prayers that made me the man that I am Today. Uniting all our sufferings and joys to the Holy Cross has a very powerful effect on souls, especially our own. You're doing a great job leading souls back to God. And yes, Saint Faustina is a great example of placing all our Trust in Jesus! Her Diary is one of my favorite books! You're on the right path! I'll continue to keep you in my prayers... I'm going to Holy Hour on May 14th so I'll make sure to pray for you! Please pray for my pastor Father Aldberto He's going on a trip this Friday to Miami for a graduating seminarian it's why Holy Hour got rescheduled to May 14th [ First Friday Devotion ] Much Love to You and Your Loved Ones! Yes! We All Fall Short! but Thank God for Our Holy Guardian Angels who always inspire us and guide us back to Our Blessed Mother Mary!
I suffer from religious based anxiety too, but mostly in the form of being overly scrupulous. I thank God for his Divine Mercy and bringing the devotion into my life. Through it our Lord has granted me the grace to trust him more and more. It always makes me smile whenever I hear someone mention the Divine Mercy. =)
On the note about worrying about friends and their reaction to being Catholic; It's been over a year since I've seen most of my friends because of the pandemic and I only within the last several months reverted back to the faith (I was still Catholic in name but definitely far from practicing). Not gonna lie, I'm a little worried about how I'm going to interact with them once we can see each other face to face again. They are pretty accepting of most things, but its their secular life styles that makes me wounder how we might get along now. (you know, like what movies and things I could still enjoy with them) But hey, its in the hands of God. And thanks for the video, it's nice to know I'm not the only one that worries about these things.
So I'm a Protestant and I've been watching your awesome videos for a while now. I've been looking into Catholicism for a while now. I still have a lot of unanswered doubts about the Church. But I often wondered what my friends and family would think if one day I did convert. I really don't like the irrational hate that other Protestants have towards Catholics. Believe me, I know what your church actually teaches because I studied the RCC teachings extensively and it nothing like the stupid misconceptions Prots have towards Catholics. I just wish we all could discuss our differences in a charitable way. God bless you and your channel!
I remember when I first came back to God my anxiety was so bad but after praying the divine mercy alot it helped me over a while
Thank you for encouraging mental health Amber.
This video is so helpful! Thank you for sharing your story. I have similarities to your story but I am still in the early stages of reverting back to my catholic roots (raised cradle catholic). I was spiritually numb throughout my middle school/high school years and was never really taught catechism until I finally took a break from college and started taking RCIA classes. I felt spiritually renewed once I went back to confession! Recently got confirmed during Easter Vigil and I am so happy to finally be on my faith journey and to grow my relationship with God even more! I still struggle with research and readings since I am kind of illiterate and I've had trouble with english since I was little, but I trust in God to help me learn the truth little by little and help me with the virtue of patience. I have put you in my prayer book so I remember to pray for you every night! I'm so glad I found your channel❤
Hi sis, it seems like you purchased your faith with much suffering. We who have been Catholics our whole lives are quite often lukewarm in our faith because we do not value what was handed down to us freely. God bless you and make you a great saint. Speaking of loneliness, it is a great help for sanctity and getting close to God. In fact, if we are popular and have many friends, we should give them to get closer to God. Once we are close to Him, He will give us good friends. Loneliness was a great factor for me in discerning my vocation. I never understood it then. But now, after many year, I feel God is just making people attracted to me. The key lies in converting loneliness into SOLITUDE. As my novice master used to say: "To be alone with the ALONE".
@The Religious Hippie I've struggled with anxiety as well. Very difficult but praying a lot helps. God Bless ❤
Prayers right blessed Virgin Mary change her life in the name of Jesus Christ amen Hail Mary full of grace everyday I still deal spiritual warfare negative energy from people hate me Mary is powerful overcome demons and satan I’ll share my testimony soon once this overcome mental illness is social anxiety disorder and ptsd give more faith hope love sleep better
I'm a convert to Catholicism, growing up Southern Baptist. However, with mental health, I have bipolar disorder type i with psychotic features and generalized anxiety disorder, I have a history of cutting and I have had issues with suicidal ideation including attempting suicide (and it was through the care that I received in the psychiatric hospital by a Catholic Chaplain that got me exploring Catholicism). When I was ready to return to the historic Church, I was debating between the Russian Orthodox Church or the Roman Catholic Church (which if you know about Catholic theology, although Eastern Orthodoxy is in schism, they have valid apostolic succession and valid Sacraments). Although my faith helped me, I have had to take medicine (150mg of Seroquel at breakfast, 40mg of Latuda at dinner, and 300mg of Seroquel at night). I have also turned to St. Dymphna and Our Mother, the Blessed Virgin Mary.
Oh Most Blessed Mother, Help of the Sick, pray for us and obtain for us health of mind and body through Thy Immaculate Heart!
My niece has the same psychiatric conditions. Is your current medication working? She has nightmares nightly. Is this common? Any suggestions? Unfortunately she is not interested in religion. 😢
My own my own scrupulosity had me in tears last night, but thank God he forgives and is merciful. Also thank God he sends these videos to my feed when I need them.
You're being extremely relatable again. Thanks for making this video, it was very helpful.
A long time ago I was a person full of existential doubts and events that have happened, I asked myself questions that are only resolved with faith, but I was so stubborn that I wanted a logical and immediate answer, my parents and sisters advised me to have faith and not leave a bandage of doubts covered my eyes and lost the experience of believing in God, I also doubted our Virgin Mary and my closeness to her, but after reflecting, investigating and, above all, believing, I consider myself a strong Catholic who believes in her Lord and wants be part of their flock. ♥
May God Bless You !!! Thank you for all you share!!!
Okay I'm first also can't wait to watch idc if its 1 am I'm gonna watch it lol
Great testimony, thanks for sharing. God Bless you.
Thanks for sharing your story, friend ❤️
Love you! You are so strong!!❤️✝️🙏
I’m a convert, and I had the exact same experience. People like you give me a lot of hope for the future. God bless!
You go, girl! Love your content and your witness! 🙏
For me, I used to be forced by my grandma to pray and go to church when I was very young and I hated it, mainly because I didn't understand why I had to go to church and why I had to pray, but one day she told me that going to church by force is a sin and that if I don't want to go then I don't have to, but still because of that I started to rebel and even hate God, and I was a huge atheist who fought everything remotely religious, I felt this sort of pride thinking I was smarter than everyone else, I felt cool and rebellious, that the religious people were below me because my knowledge about Catholicism was soo basic back then, that it all seemed stupid and fairytale to me and easy to dispute, and I couldn't grasp why people believe in it, it also helped that everyone cheered me on.
Then I noticed that my friend who said she will never wear a skirt because her parents tell her to, and another friend said she will not wear two of the same colored socks because her parents told her to, and it seemed so childish to me that they base their whole life around wanting to defy everyone and everything simply because they wanted to rebel, and it slowly started to make me feel like a hypocrite since I have been doing the same thing my whole life but in different ways, then my aunt came who was soo amazing, even when I was mocking her faith right to her face, she was soo nice and patient, and her life was soo carefree and happy, she was extremely religious, and I actually started to envy her, since I had huge anxiety (I always thought I was going to die, because of that I developed anxiety pains, and get spontaneous arrhythmias, etc.) this made me think that maybe religion isn't that bad, and I became open to anything I started my research into all religions, Islam, Prodestantism, Hinduism, paganism, Jehovas witnesses etc. but I found that pull towards Catholicism, and it suddenly made soo much sense to me after studying it on a deeper level not just the basics that my anxiety now is only university related, I feel that all those events was a way for God to show me my own selfishness through mirroring my own actions in my friends
So If you see any negativity from atheists it usually is because they get praised by other atheists, it makes them feel smarter especially since most Catholics don't even know their faith, looking at Muslim channels they get soo much support from other Muslims that atheists don't dare mock them, people target Christianity because it's easy because no one really fights back, nor protect each other, while if they did that on a Muslim channel they would always get attacked, and just like you, I never talk about my views in groups, but if you talk calmly and individually with a person you will be surprised that most of the time they will agree with you :) they also are too scared to say anything, also i'm sorry for the essay hehe😁
Yes we do need more kindness in the world, not less 👍
Great witness, The Religious Hippie. As a cradle catholic I'm still at a place to avoid conflict. That's cool how God prepped you for that conflict.
Oh my gosh, thank you for this video!
When i was in highschool, I had no friends. I was homeschooled, and everyone who I was friends with in middle and highschool flipped over on me. They refused to spend time with me, and would always throw big parties with my friends, where I would be the only one not invited.
The church i went to had only old people. My sister and i were the only 2 young people. Everytime there was someone my age, who I tried to talk to, he or she would say "Who are you, why are you talking to me? I don't know you, go away."
There was next to no reverence, *zero* community and mass was just cringey. That's why I nearly left the church. Now i go to a different church in Michigan. In highschool, I grew up in Florida, and it is a souless, spiritual desert.
Am i thankful for it? No, but i'm sure I have a place in Michigan where people respect me, and that's where i may have had to go.
My little sister I came across your CZcams video on the traditional Latin mass I am and been a Catholic my entire life, and just recently I am attending Latin mass the Lord has placed it in my heart that his ultimate sacrifice is there and yes it is such a reference and such sorrow and joy at the same time. I am so overwhelmed with joy to see the young generation as yourself embracing God’s Divine Will, I definitely am passing down your video to my daughter and to my granddaughter in the hopes that their eyes will be open and that they were embrace their calling. Yes the times are very short and we all have to get ready for Jesus is common and through his true Holy Spirit I definitely would like to send to you God the Fathero 14 prayers if I may.
Always so glad to hear your words and your experiences. You help keep me feeling good about the Catholic faith and God’s will.
Ok now Amber... repeat after me... " I am who God made me to be!! You're approval is not required!!"
Amber Rose, i love your videos. I converted to Catholicism as an adult but never had any instruction so i really knew very little about the faith, didn't even know about 1 hour fast before receiving the Eucharist! I lapsed and was away from the Church for many years, i really have no idea how it happened but a few months ago I came back and am fortunate to have a trational Latin mass church i attend, your videos have helped me so much to learn about the faith, i thank you so much, you are an inspiration, God Bless you
This was so helpful. Thank you so much!
This video has ministered to me so much! God bless you! ❤️
Girl!!!!! You are my twin soul!!!! Whoaaaaaa
Thank you for your testimony. It gives me more hope
I am going through a difficult time and listening to u calms me down...GBU🤗
You sound so similar to me. I'm not a cradle Catholic. I went to an Anglican school, but was athiest through my teens and most of my early twenties agnostic. I'm interested in becoming catholic now. The subject of anxiety and doubt is relatable, as well as not being truly myself in groups out of fear of rejection.
God bless you sister!
Hi Amber... Can you do a video that clarifies about the Divine Mercy? There are some videos (and some Catholics) who think that the events and what some Jesus has said that are written in St. Faustina's Diary contradict God's Word,
And to 'groupthink' of course is a Sociological concept. Where for an apartment full of people to see a woman being stabbed by a river laid next to thier building--would no person arise to help her thinking that simply another person, would cause the altercation to cease.
More power to your good work.
Please pray for me, I’m in that spot. The spot of anger and hurt but still wanting to repair the relationship with Jesus. I have a lot of bad thoughts and I have been struggling for almost two years but I’m still here.. idk why idk how, so please pray.
I'm still quite anxious at times! St Francis de Sales, Patron of the Institute of Christ the King Sovereign Priest, pray for me as well as for our Canons and all members of the Institute and our Shrine and for the SSPX and all their associated faithful Catholics and all of us in these end times!
A suggestion a video on the book Understanding Divine Mercy by Fr Chris Alar. Your work is important and life-saving for so many
My saint name is Dymphna
GOD doesn't give you things/situation that you can't handle remember this.
WOW
I don't know how and why, but there is someone who claimed that you stole your channel's name from her..Leaving that aside, I enjoyed listening to your story and I'm thankful there are beatiful people like you to look to.
Meh yea she doesnt like me very much but thts her problem😂😂
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My story is The Parable of the Lost Sheep
I got the same holy water bottle as you
You look like Joyce Jonathan, you should listen to her song "ça ira"
Could you please make a video about mary and why catholics pray to mary etc? i kind of understand but when you say “mary is perfect” it kind of bugs me.
We ask Mary to pray
WITH & FOR US
to The Father, Son & Holy Spirit.
(One God, 3 persons)
...
Formerly protestant,
I attended RCIA
& became Catholic in 2018.
Best thing I ever did.
It would've happened eventually because I study History. Jesus founded 1 Church.
She was created without any stain of sin at all... She is pure and full of The Holy Spirit .. Jesus was created in her womb.. God chose a perfect human free from sin to be the Mother of God and she only wants to bring us to God. Jesus refuses nothing his Holy Mother asks and He gave us His Holy Mother from The Cross.
I suggest St. Louis de Montfont's writings about our Blessed Mother!
You have to know what it is the Comunity of Saints. The Saints is in Heaven. They are like an angels, so you can ask for them to pray to God because them see God face to face. Mary is the most perfect person who was created by God. Her Holyness is more perfect than angels...so for this reason is so important for us...besides is our Mother.
What's your opinion on Billie Eilish?
She scares me tbh
Her music is so depressing. Suicide rates in teens is out of control....I don't think she's helping anyone's mental health.
Come on! She's just another (not so?) closeted Satanist/NWOist! Pray for all so-called celebrities to our Lady of Fatima!
Religious Hippie, I AM that I AM. you too
You seem really nice 😉
NO ONE has the right to ridicule you for your religion they are Atheists,you have the right to believe what you want and it's no ones business but yours peroid.
You should be called the Cute Christian Hippy,you are Beautiful,Intelligent and beautiful.
What kind of idiot would bully you,if it was boys there gay.