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  • čas přidán 19. 02. 2024
  • song: survive myself - my head is empty
    album: nothing is real, part XXI (unreleased)
    footage: i recorded half of the shots myself, and the other are from ex machina
    this song + all my ambient tracks on my spotify playlist here
    spotify version: open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB...
    soundcloud: / my-head-is-ambient
    spotify song link: open.spotify.com/track/6tX4X5...
    also available to search for use in reels/tiktoks with both apps in-app song search.
    800+ songs like this (90 albums) in my collection on spotify, soundcloud, bandcamp.
    thank you for listening and your support.
    this song is about my struggle with MS, and how its been effecting my vision. i hope to be able to survive myself. thanks you for listening
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Komentáře • 164

  • @myheadisempty
    @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +66

    🤍🤍🤍
    friends, this song is released independently, which means
    i get zero help from any label, or playlists getting it out there.
    its up to my friends here to get this song out there if you guys think its good!
    any tiktoks/instagram videos made with it using the in-app song search once its available in a few days
    means the WORLD to me.
    either way, thank you for listening

    • @BLTZSanta
      @BLTZSanta Před 3 měsíci +5

      I love your music it helps me when I’m going through tough times and sad times

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +1

      @@BLTZSantaim so glad to have helped friend

    • @Azrael_g
      @Azrael_g Před 3 měsíci +3

      Dont let that disease stop you bro 🔥🔥🔥

    • @alyssabunch2571
      @alyssabunch2571 Před měsícem

      I watch it

    • @Oliver_pepania2
      @Oliver_pepania2 Před 21 dnem

      @@myheadisempty This is the saddest yet. Thanks for the music!

  • @Huckll
    @Huckll Před 3 měsíci +35

    Maybe I’m the problem

  • @gopremiummedia29455
    @gopremiummedia29455 Před 3 měsíci +60

    Surviving myself has always been an ongoing battle. Like wrestling with the shadows in my mind. Finding solace within my own chaos is a daily challenge , but being able to navigate through my inner demons is how I’m surviving.

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +16

      that’s beautiful bro. i share the same sentiment. the hardest part of life for myself as well, has been me. physically and mentally. i hope things improve for both of us somehow. and thank you for being kind to me, commenting here. it means a lot

    • @gopremiummedia29455
      @gopremiummedia29455 Před 3 měsíci +5

      @@myheadisempty Likewise, my friend. The toughest battles in life start within ourselves, and we’re all navigating the chaos together. All the best! 🙏

    • @xxxeduardo472
      @xxxeduardo472 Před 3 měsíci +4

      This is very much my reality man I feel dead inside even though I wake up every morning

    • @gopremiummedia29455
      @gopremiummedia29455 Před 3 měsíci +2

      ⁠@@xxxeduardo472I feel you. Waking up is a daily struggle for me and feeling dead inside is a heavy load to carry. Hang in there, friend. You got this!

    • @ANTHNYYY
      @ANTHNYYY Před 3 měsíci +1

      Real

  • @EDIT4_MAMBA
    @EDIT4_MAMBA Před 6 dny +2

    No lyrics, no nothing, just pure beauty ✨️

  • @whateverhappenshappens.5525
    @whateverhappenshappens.5525 Před 3 měsíci +23

    The regrets are so loud in my head that’s why I gotten into this amazing style of ambient music. You can just drift away thinking about the past, future, present or nothing at all.

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +4

      im really glad to have inspired some introspective thoughts my friend, they can be very useful i think! and thank you for supporting my music

    • @whateverhappenshappens.5525
      @whateverhappenshappens.5525 Před 3 měsíci +3

      @@myheadisempty anytime you are extremely underrated I wish you success and happiness

  • @scisniety6696
    @scisniety6696 Před 3 měsíci +17

    This song reminds me of the tough times from my childhood, but I still wish to go back to the past to have one last conversation with my mother.

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +4

      shes with you still bro, i speak to the empty chair sometimes to my dead friend Jacob all the time.

  • @petermaltzoff1684
    @petermaltzoff1684 Před 3 měsíci +8

    It feels so good to untangle the knots in your brain. Love is the answer

  • @BLTZSanta
    @BLTZSanta Před 3 měsíci +5

    I love your music

  • @masqueraidr
    @masqueraidr Před 3 měsíci +11

    All of your songs have this certain vibe to them that I just relate to. Honestly love it ❤

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +2

      i’m really glad to have made you feel something my friend 🤍

    • @masqueraidr
      @masqueraidr Před 3 měsíci +1

      @@myheadisempty first time in a while 😆

  • @duc..
    @duc.. Před 3 měsíci +5

    Ngl your music is just amazing i hooe you are always at peace i struggle with my own wars but i hope your wars end with peace and love

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +2

      yours will too friend, thank you for being kind and supportive, its what this world needs most

  • @fakestonefield
    @fakestonefield Před 2 měsíci +2

    Perfect song…this song reminds me of my grandpa 💔

  • @alexis..
    @alexis.. Před 3 měsíci +5

    it really feels like this song is telling a story and i think that is incredibly beautiful

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci

      i’m glad friend 🤍 my “nothing is real” albums are made just for that purpose, each song takes like a month to make sometimes. even though this song is ambient and not as much effort went into it, i would say it has some of the characteristics of a “nothing is real” song. i really hope you may consider listening to them aswell if you like the ambient songs !

    • @alexis..
      @alexis.. Před 3 měsíci +1

      @@myheadisempty I've made the experience, that taking more time for songs always pays off, so don't rush things!!
      I've also listened to your songs for quite a while, in fact I even recently made a remix of your song called 'i was only temporary'!
      Is that cool with you if I upload it to CZcams(I hesitated bc of copyright or sum), I think you might like it:)

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci

      @@alexis.. oh im sorry, i really hate for you to have wasted your time but its not allowed. my music is released with a label and they own the rights aswell. my music is not available for remixing/reuse of any kind.

    • @alexis..
      @alexis.. Před 3 měsíci

      @@myheadisempty Oh I understand, good that I asked beforehand and thank your for your kind replies :)

  • @thefuturedependsonwhatwedo6686
    @thefuturedependsonwhatwedo6686 Před 3 měsíci +4

    Keep Shine My Friend..☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️

  • @samsolo-os9ie
    @samsolo-os9ie Před 3 měsíci +5

    dude is carrying my life rn

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +1

      thank you for listening to my songs. it gives me a chance to live, seriously. i cant even describe how much it helps me just you being here

  • @elianmoreno6459
    @elianmoreno6459 Před 3 měsíci +5

    This song makes me rethink about some of my decision

  • @Silver_Specter
    @Silver_Specter Před 3 měsíci +5

    Amazing work dude beautiful music with a very nice aesthetic background

  • @YYSincapv2
    @YYSincapv2 Před 3 měsíci +4

    I really love your art :>

  • @juancgarza8836
    @juancgarza8836 Před 3 měsíci +4

    Absolutely incredible.

  • @custar_lov
    @custar_lov Před 3 měsíci +5

    Bro, this is just crazy, I've never found such an atmospheric track to suit my mood. This is simply the best thing I've heard in my life from similar genres. The simplicity of the melody, literally a moral relaxation.There are no 808s and various kinds of kicks and snares, this is simply fantastic, truly awesome work!!!❤❤❤❤❤❤

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +1

      thank you friend. it means a lot. i’m right there with you. i’m 13 years into making music now and i used to add so much to my songs. like 20 different instruments but ive come to realize that all that matters is the feeling and most of the time i think i can do that with a lot less, as long as i can write a good score to begin with

    • @custar_lov
      @custar_lov Před 3 měsíci +1

      @@myheadisempty Yes, you are right) Good luck to you, I will follow your development in this area)

    • @joanne9825
      @joanne9825 Před 3 měsíci +1

      This work is phenomenal!

  • @Th3Suns3tsW3Shar3
    @Th3Suns3tsW3Shar3 Před 3 měsíci +4

    You're So Good Man Holy Crap

  • @mirandarain
    @mirandarain Před 3 měsíci +5

    my goodness, one of your best ambient songs i’d say. (they r all the best hehe:3 ) truly, this makes my heart go vwoomp vwoomp. your soul is the most beautiful in this world. you have my heart forever and ever, i can’t wait to be with you again, i miss you so much it hurts. but i know we will be soon, and i will finally feel complete again.💗

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +2

      thank you sweetheart 🤍 i can’t wait to be with you too :-) very soon 🌸🤍

  • @QuadEarFeelz
    @QuadEarFeelz Před 3 měsíci +4

    Love your music! Love your message! Your lyrics, and your song hit so deep. the videos are incredibly haunting.

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 2 měsíci

      thank you for listening and being s kind friend

  • @timetorest4318
    @timetorest4318 Před 2 měsíci +2

    Feel empty, and dark.

  • @ys0kk
    @ys0kk Před 3 měsíci +4

    your music helps me with bad times i would always listen to your music to calm me down when i’m mad or sad thank you for everything all your hard work into these songs i appreciate you man ❤

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +1

      it’s what i’m here for friend, thank you for listening and being kind 🤍

  • @IZALEE-MUSIC
    @IZALEE-MUSIC Před 3 měsíci +4

    Such a crazy vibe bro, nice work

  • @Cianmo
    @Cianmo Před 3 měsíci +4

    Really a great artist, the music you create is so unique! I really love the texture of your synths. Thanks for your music !

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 2 měsíci +1

      thank you so much friend. it means alot to me you commented on this in particular. i make every sound by hand, no samples or presets. all hardware

  • @vaulz_
    @vaulz_ Před 3 měsíci +4

    Keep up everything that you do, you're an inspiration to a lot of people including me, i hope you get to live for as long as possible. ❤

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +1

      thank you friend. things have been very stressful lately with the copyright infringement of people taking my music and trying to either monitize it, take credit for it, or not credit me at all. its been pretty rough. still making music though. thanks for being kind, much needed lately

    • @mammabear2693
      @mammabear2693 Před 2 měsíci

      🤍

  • @mrcatmartins1116
    @mrcatmartins1116 Před 3 měsíci +4

    love being apart of this journey

  • @shidzen3333
    @shidzen3333 Před 3 měsíci +3

    Me arrepiento de tantas cosas que hice.. de haber lastimado a esas personas por mis malas desiciones.. me encuentro solo, escribiendo esto con una lagrima apunto de salir, quieriendo volver a donde fui tan feliz (el pasado) y no cometer esos errores que me costaron la felicidad..
    PD: tu musica me ayuda a pensar en una solución a mis problemas, thanks you!!

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci

      i’m glad to have inspired some deep thinking my friend 🤍 thank you so much for writing in and supporting my music 🤍

  • @Y2K_33
    @Y2K_33 Před 3 měsíci +5

    This is so good ❤️

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +1

      thank you so much friend 🤍

    • @Y2K_33
      @Y2K_33 Před 3 měsíci +2

      @@myheadisempty yw you are so underrated i love ur content 🤍

  • @ItssssJackTTYT
    @ItssssJackTTYT Před 2 měsíci +2

    When im listening to this it makes me feel daed inside

  • @EXSIRE
    @EXSIRE Před 3 měsíci +5

    The soundscapes on the song is beautiful, Love It!

  • @meepdhctdjsh
    @meepdhctdjsh Před 3 měsíci +4

    Your music is worth the wait

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci

      thank you friend, it means alot :-) i have 800+ songs already out if you want something to listen to in the mean time :D !!!

    • @meepdhctdjsh
      @meepdhctdjsh Před 3 měsíci +1

      @@myheadisempty help me I can't stop listening to every single one of them

  • @Thetravelingmonke
    @Thetravelingmonke Před 3 měsíci +4

    This guy is actually so good love your work man

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci

      i really appreciate it friend

    • @joanne9825
      @joanne9825 Před 3 měsíci

      He is just simply the BEST! Spread his name to everyone!

  • @JusMing
    @JusMing Před 3 měsíci +5

    Your music makes me feel something I have never felt before...
    Thank you 💙

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +1

      youre too kind. thank you for listening friend, i really hope this song can get out there. it makes me feel something aswell

    • @nyctophilialover
      @nyctophilialover Před měsícem

      adu anh dũng cũng ở đây sao?!?!?!

  • @k--
    @k-- Před 3 měsíci +4

    goosebumps every time :]

  • @Klarajacobs
    @Klarajacobs Před 3 měsíci +4

    💙 You are pure 🤍
    🤍 I love you 💙

  • @ethanbelgium7736
    @ethanbelgium7736 Před 3 měsíci +4

    Keep up the great content 🙏

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +1

      thank you for listening / watching 🤍 means the world

  • @Axicte
    @Axicte Před 3 měsíci +4

    its so unfair how you do insane songs and don't get enough crédit for them. I'm definetely subbing do.

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +1

      thank you friend, it helps so much.
      and yeah.. tiktok is .. something.
      on one hand it makes me happy to see like .. millions of people !! listening!!! but almost always it’s an “original audio” someone reuploaded my music without credit so i’m still very unknown :/

    • @Yuyuuzh
      @Yuyuuzh Před 3 měsíci

      ​@@myheadisempty you will soon my friend

    • @Mrvishnu1276
      @Mrvishnu1276 Před 10 dny

      ​​@@myheadisemptyyour music is so good i subbed

  • @sneur392
    @sneur392 Před 2 měsíci +3

    Hoping for your success ❤

  • @Magx63
    @Magx63 Před 3 měsíci +4

    REAL

  • @user-ki6vh1os2s
    @user-ki6vh1os2s Před 2 měsíci +1

    We all need tenderness 💚

  • @Fxst_
    @Fxst_ Před 3 měsíci +4

    nice song

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +1

      thank you so much. my health was so bad lately, it felt like it was the end for me, and writing this song gave me the strength to keep going. i hope it can be special for you as well 🤍

  • @theengineer_16
    @theengineer_16 Před 3 měsíci +5

    "Corruption aint easy." -A friend
    "Way too early to die." -Me

  • @Goofy2712
    @Goofy2712 Před měsícem +2

    I don’t know what it is but I just simply think that your songs are beautiful

  • @joanne9825
    @joanne9825 Před 3 měsíci +3

    Yet another example of excellence! TY 💋🤍

  • @evynwz
    @evynwz Před 3 měsíci +4

    ty i was crying ❤

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +1

      i’m crying with you friend 🤍

    • @evynwz
      @evynwz Před 3 měsíci +1

      @@myheadisempty tysm for « i was only temporary » it’s a masterpiece

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +2

      @@evynwzno problem. i have alot more songs like it if you ever want to hear them !!

  • @Menevolence
    @Menevolence Před 3 měsíci +4

    I liked your song "i was only temporary 2 u" so much i said to myself "wow this is so great that im gonna share this to all my friends so he gets nore views". Then i realised i have no real friends to share this with. The irony.

  • @eliaspacheco-zr6gq
    @eliaspacheco-zr6gq Před měsícem +1

    Your music is helping me so much I wish you the best man things will get better for us ❤️🙏

  • @GuyNamedJaeden
    @GuyNamedJaeden Před 3 měsíci +4

    Sometimes the greatest battles are from yourself. You know all your weaknesses, strengths, and every move you'll make. When you overcome, your enemy does as well. Its a never ending battle.... or is it?

  • @Acorn2024
    @Acorn2024 Před měsícem +1

    Beautiful art. I want to get it and I don’t at the same time because you feel like it only connects to one. Keep it up!

  • @user-xe8hh3lq7o
    @user-xe8hh3lq7o Před 3 měsíci +5

    I pooped my pants

  • @wenostic
    @wenostic Před 3 měsíci +4

    art:

  • @aadipie
    @aadipie Před 2 měsíci +2

    Really fuckin good man, this cuts deep

  • @dutchboes
    @dutchboes Před 3 měsíci +3

    I almost killed myself a few days ago, the I remembered a moment of my childhood where my friend said he loved me, I wanted to say it back but was too shy. I don’t know where he is now.

  • @azrael8197
    @azrael8197 Před 2 měsíci +2

    Very nice :)

  • @kimurarin.oceanempire
    @kimurarin.oceanempire Před měsícem +2

    song name: i was only temporary (slowed)
    i recommend you to listen: i was only temporary 2 u

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před měsícem

      hey friend. this song is my called “survive myself” . all the videos on my channel just have the song names as the video titles

    • @kimurarin.oceanempire
      @kimurarin.oceanempire Před měsícem

      @@myheadisempty I'm sorry, for some reason I sent this comment to the wrong video

  • @Smaejdah
    @Smaejdah Před 2 měsíci +1

    I really like this song! I think 0:00-0:50 could be extended into a song of its own ;) Awesome

  • @ItssssJackTTYT
    @ItssssJackTTYT Před 2 měsíci +2

    Watching my whole family fall apart

  • @NiwaFlan
    @NiwaFlan Před měsícem +1

    I just, can't hold on. if I doesn't exist.

  • @juancamposreyes
    @juancamposreyes Před měsícem +1

    😍😍😍hermoso sonidos 😍😍😍

  • @waqu_
    @waqu_ Před 3 měsíci +3

    Грустно

  • @ItssssJackTTYT
    @ItssssJackTTYT Před 2 měsíci +2

    Losing my best friend losing my grandpa and my great grandpa and moving away from my friends being homeless nearly starving to death

  • @ItssssJackTTYT
    @ItssssJackTTYT Před 2 měsíci +2

    Im thinking about whats happened to me throughout my life the good and bad memories me watching my dad got to jail getting kidnapped

  • @user-ki6vh1os2s
    @user-ki6vh1os2s Před 2 měsíci +2

    💚🥺💚 ‏‪0:15‬‏

  • @StanleyGurvich
    @StanleyGurvich Před měsícem +1

    wow

  • @SuperNaughty
    @SuperNaughty Před 5 dny

    surviving urself is hard, i have a strong immune system but theres simply too many horrible diseases i can get with a high fatality rate, enjoy life while u can or all that time will go to waste
    anyway this music is pretty good like ur other music

  • @LaGrasa-hu5pi
    @LaGrasa-hu5pi Před měsícem +1

    Tear

  • @KINKYmustache
    @KINKYmustache Před měsícem +2

    It's very likely the format is for the tiktok people, but I hope one day you will make longer songs. This music is too good to not be enjoyed for a longer period at a time.

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před měsícem

      my friend, these ambient songs are fun but, my main music, the "nothing is real" albums are full of very lengthy tracks, that in my opinion have much more emotion and depth than these simple ambient songs. there is 20 albums in the series currently. i hope you will consider giving them a listen!
      open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3
      here is a playlist with them all, i added this song you commented on here on youtube to the top just as sort of an introduction, but all the songs after that are long and much more detailed

    • @joanne9825
      @joanne9825 Před měsícem +1

      We always want more! My Head Is Empty has many albums. Explore them ALL!! 🤍

  • @haah9059
    @haah9059 Před 2 měsíci +3

    I have a bit of a hyposis and is that hes surviving himself

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 2 měsíci

      you are correct. i have a brain disease that is slowly killing me called MS. the long and short of it is that, a person with MS, witch each stressful moment we encounter, our immune system eats our nervous system, quite like a living zombie. so every day is a struggle for me, trying to live in a world where i seem normal on the outside, and many people around me fail to realize that any bit of negativity or stress they unload on me, quite literally kills me. currently i cant feel my feet and im losing control of my left hand again, and possibly going blind in my right eye. all they can do for me is give me steroids to attempt to close the active lesions in my brain neck and spine, but only after a high dose will i find out what control of my body im left with. it takes more each time, until inevitably one day it will kill me. it sucks, but i guess i am glad to be alive. everyday, i just hope to survive myself. most of the time to do this, it means hiding myself completely from the world. i cannot trust that others will not betray me, use me, backstab me, but the one person in the world we can trust, is ourselves. and i do not wish to harm myself, or anyone.

    • @haah9059
      @haah9059 Před 2 měsíci

      @myheadisempty that's crazy man 😲 wish you the best of luck though 👍

  • @Pucktechnology
    @Pucktechnology Před 3 měsíci +3

    Nice one😊
    Did you remove ___distant? Can’t find it anymore.

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci +2

      yes, it’s on bandcamp tho. you can download all 90 albums for like 1 dollar with this discount code “zurcedit” on tidecruz.bandcamp.com :-) hope this helps . the album it was from is called [nonsense.]

  • @Alone1am
    @Alone1am Před dnem +2

    Why are people so selfish to take love when its given?
    - love starved man.

  • @jicundo
    @jicundo Před 3 měsíci +4

    Hello, could you send me the lyrics to your song "exit plan"?

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 2 měsíci +1

      of course friend, it means alot you lisnted to a song from my main music "nothing is real"

  • @Joeshyra
    @Joeshyra Před 20 dny +1

    i like your music🤕, because.. i like calm... I am a problem for her

  • @ByakuyaKuchiki006
    @ByakuyaKuchiki006 Před 2 měsíci +1

    ❤❤

  • @juancamposreyes
    @juancamposreyes Před měsícem +1

    👏

  • @kevalparmar5066
    @kevalparmar5066 Před 2 měsíci +1

    I wish you could make some tutorials.. 😮‍💨

  • @SuperNaughty
    @SuperNaughty Před měsícem +1

    this is what i should hear after technoblade died

  • @rosecallaway1694
    @rosecallaway1694 Před 10 dny

    I dont get why people cant love me, ive done nothing wrong and yet not a single girl even looks my why

  • @BostonWells
    @BostonWells Před 15 dny

    I Am

  • @AmirDark-fy3lc
    @AmirDark-fy3lc Před 3 měsíci +3

    what's if name the movie

    • @myheadisempty
      @myheadisempty  Před 3 měsíci

      some of the clips i recorded myself, the rest are from Ex Machina

    • @AmirDark-fy3lc
      @AmirDark-fy3lc Před 3 měsíci +1

      thank you ♥@@myheadisempty

  • @Gaggleac
    @Gaggleac Před 2 měsíci +1

    Ffuurryy🤨🤨

  • @_Sami__
    @_Sami__ Před 2 měsíci +1

    Why does it say I’m -2:06 minutes into watching the video

  • @Energylooper1111
    @Energylooper1111 Před 2 měsíci +1

    And she was the problem, not you

  • @phonkMent
    @phonkMent Před měsícem +1

    nah, furry