Pure Obsessional OCD (Pure O)
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OCD: when you become so obsessed with a problem that the obsession becomes more of a problem than the actual problem
Matthew Hankosky, Agreed.
it’s horrific
Couldn't be described better than this!!!
Exactly!
Infatheline you nailed it lol
The thoughts wouldn't cause distress or anxiety IF you were really a psychopath. You are anxious because you believe that thought is horrible and would never do it.
but also you can get desensitized to the thought and as a result are not disturbed by it anymore.
Sooo true
Spot on
This is very reassuring
@@jeansforbeans6836 you're feeding my intrusive thought when you said this.
As someone who's experienced this, it's a living hell! You can't live a normal life you're literally being tortured by your own brain and it's mentally crippling. I'm praying for anyone who's experiencing this. There IS hope I promise, I've completely recovered after seeking help. Love you and stay strong!!
How did you do it ?
Omg how??
Yes I'm sick of it
@@matayagreen2414 Find a therapist and check out all the resources. You're not alone. Sending you love and compassion.
@@chaunceylocklear3661 I am seeing one she gave me some stuff to look at
Pure O sucks. That's what I'm dealing with and the intrusive thoughts and images really give me terrible anxiety. ugh.
***** Thankfully I am. However I got recommended to take medication and I'm not too sure about that.
IKR. Mine was so bad I had constant anxiety and couldn't sleep for 2 years. I'm happy I'm not alone.
Hang tight brother
I understand your struggle, I'm going through the same
Get help... PLEASE
I feel a lot less alone
Madeline Coe me too
Glad you feel relief
Me too :’)
Ah I’m crying.
Me too
Me too
For me it's died down, as soon as I accepted that my thoughts can never harm anyone, it calmed down.
I think you just explained my whole life. I never brought this up in therapy cause I'm scared of what she would think (that I'm a psychopath). Wow. Just wow.
Yeah. I really feel you. You don't want to explain your horrifying thoughts because you fear you will deeply disturb the other person. And even weirder still, repressing the thoughts when asked about them seems like a basic form or control.
I know exactly how you feel I'm currently go through what she is describing I want to cry because this whole time I've been going to therapy and I can't get myself to tell the therapist the nature of these thoughts for fear of being judged or a psychopath
Me too! I told my therapist some of the less bad ones and she didn't seem too horrified, but I still can't even say all of them.
You should certainly bring it up. You're certainly not a psycho, and gettung therapy in this area could be very liberating. You're freedom from pure o, is way more valuable than the fear of someone thinking that you may be psycho. Although im peetty sure your therapist wouldn't judge you or anything. Peace in love 🙂 PS. I started trusting and believing in Christ more and more and this has completely liberated me from pure o and fear of any kind . All love my friend
Just to be clear, Pure O is generally like, 95% of the time you are FLOODED with these thoughts and feelings. It doesn't end, except when heavily medicated or extremely busy. I still get echoes of it but when it was full blown I likely would have killed myself if I couldn't find treatment. It's horrific. Would probably rather have both of my arms chopped off than relapse.
I have pure O and it sucks. I remember back as young as 8 have intrusive thoughts. It went away for a while then came back viciously as a teen. I kept it to myself because I knew it wasn’t me, I knew something was wrong but I was too scared to voice my concerns because I thought if I talked to someone they would think I was crazy. The intrusiveness eventually subsided for about 6 years.
Fast forward to pregnancy and having a child. My hormones were thrown completely out of wack and once again intrusive thoughts came back and hit me like a truck. It was almost constant. It would play on my worst fears(loved ones dying, me hurting them, suicide and leaving my child motherless). Even though I 100% know none of this would ever happen the fact that the thought popped in my head made me absolutely disgusted with myself because I didn’t understand my disorder. At this point I didn’t even know wth intrusive thoughts were let alone pure O.
I decided one night to get help after thoughts kept popping in my head that I should commit suicide(even though I wasn’t depressed and in no way shape or form wanted to. The thoughts were scary and dark just like all the others). I went to a therapy session. ONE SESSION that changed my life. I learned that with my disorder this process is normal, and now I know that if an intrusive thoughts happens I can just push it aside mentally. I know that others have this issue as well and it helps so much.
Sorry that was extremely long I just wanted to share my story.
I love you Bri. Hugs my friend I feel you.
OMG...I literally felt the same after my pregnancy as well! And I always wondered why I would get these weird thoughts most of my life! For the most part I have been able to better control my OCD in general with the help of natural medicine for the anxiety.
We are not alone ✌🏻
I'm crying in bed because it's so overwhelming to Even open up about.
Erin how are you my friend
Look up Nathan Peterson on CZcams. He specializes in all types of OCD… He’s the best!!!!
I hope you are doing better these days
thank you so much for this. i get physically nauseated from my intrusive thoughts
Me too!
Sem here
same i hate it
Look up Nathan Peterson on CZcams. He specializes in all types of OCD… He’s the best!!!!
I had this and it was HELL! It started when I was 16-17 and it was SO bad, that I tried to commit suicide : ( The thoughts didn't stop until I fell asleep and I actually needed the radio to be on the whole night so it would distract me even a little from the thoughts. They were the typical ones, sexual and very violent. I honestly believed that I had psychosis or some other. Then suddenly it stopped and I was SO happy! Until it came back when I was 19 : ( It was a little milder but still horrible. It all stopped when I was 22 years old and chose to seek help. I got meds for it and a weekly therapy session. Nowadays I still need to use meds but they help A LOT! I have other diagnosis too, like PTSD, Avoidant personality disorder, generalized anxiety disorder but honestly the OCD caused me the most problems and I'm super happy that even just that is now controlled.
So glad to hear you've got it controlled! I also got a lot of sexual ones and it was horrible but CBT and ERP really helped me learn not to react to these thoughts and now I also feel I have a lot more control! So here's to having control!!!
Indira Pandora did it help
I hear you. keep going my fellow pure o warrior xx
Indira Pandora I suffered those thoughts when I was 5 years old till now. Pure. Hell. PURE HELL.
Yes I haven't been seriously suicidal but I've had thoughts about it
Does anyone else have fear and intrusive thoughts about breaking the law and ending up in jail? I have been a super straight arrow all my life but I've been stressed and mentally tormenting myself about my accidentally or unknowingly breaking some huge law and having my life ruined. I also sometimes have other types of intrusive thoughts but the criminal one is at the forefront now. I had the violent ones real bad when I was younger. Scary thing is it's all too easy to slip back into.
I have that fear so much and it’s pure o
i have this fear everyday too
I had my worst panic attack ever about that I don’t even know what triggered me to think that it just popped up but I’m still not sure if I have pure o
@@rulingvenus yes! Those kind of programmes seem to make it worse.
@@mairimka8757 literally me 😅😩
for those who don't want to go to the doctor, here you go.
• i constantly thought i was a psychopath
• i thought i was gay
• i thought i wanted to have sex with the members of my family.
• i thought every human is a criminal waiting to become. and the only reason i'm not a murderer or a rapist is because i haven't been put in a situation that facilitates it.
• i thought i was a racist and i hated people that didn't look like me.
• i thought i didn't actually like, and didn't deserve the girl i so madly in love with, i was constantly worried about not loving her anymore and was constantly worried about harming her mentally or changing her personality or believes by force.
....
of coerce none of this was true, but it felt so real. and living with that was pain on another level.
please, PLEASE seek professional help, if you find yourself thinking these or worse, *YOUR DOCTOR WILL NOT JUDGE YOU* .
Thank you for posting this. I’ve had a lot of these thoughts (my bisexuality spared me from developing hocd thankfully Lmao 😂) But it’s gotten really bad for me lately. It feels like I actually think these things, that I want these thoughts, and that I’m only pretending to be a good person. I know that seems crazy, throughout most of the day this is how it feels and I honestly haven’t been able to get through a single day without feeling like I’m going insane or becoming a psychotic, demented person. I just feel like pure o is something not enough doctors are aware of, and even if I were to find an ocd specialist, I’m still not sure whether I have ocd or if I have some other mental problems causing this issue for me. :(
Thanks man those are pretty much the exact same thoughts in my head and they suck like shit
Correction-writing about it, as I had shared a journal entry with her.
"i thought i was gay" as if its a crime😭
(my pocd made me think im attracted to men when im literally a lesbian)
@@fluffynyasquirrel lol tru. But here's the thing.
My family would have disowned me & there are a-holes in my extended family who literally would've (tried to) kill me.
So.. u r absolutely right but also 🥶
Oh my God. I have this and I had no idea it was an actual thing. It's not exactly easy to google and not something you would want to discuss with someone else. So glad I subscribed!!
SAME
Look up Nathan Peterson on CZcams. He specializes in all types of OCD… He’s the best!!!!
ME TOO it’s like once i finally found articles and videos about Pure O it was like someone was looking directly into my brain. Now that I am paying attention to my spirals of doubt, I’ve found that sometimes I can even make myself doubt if I have OCD.
I had this for about a year and a half. I really considered killing myself... taking Prozac helped me IMMENSELY. Please don’t give up if you’re going through this, it will get better
casey s yeah I’ve been feeling like this lately. My pure O is beating my ass right now. Taking Lexapro, but it gets better, then gets real bad
casey - I have it too developed few months ago
casey - I have really weird obsession where when I see people on my screen and my obsession quickly calling them “ugly” sort of then I dont know why my mind agrees and my heart thinking its true but I know the real me I don’t see people only by their appearance so it comes in handy that I think I’ll get karma because of this
Dub Kodiak I don’t take meds and really wanna fight it
Dub Kodiak same with me. I am taking lexapro as well for OCD and some days are good, then it gets bad again
This video made me cry. Ive spent 15 years thinking I was crazy for my thoughts. Thank you for relieving a 15 year stress. Now I know I need to talk to someone and there is a name for what I have.
Since I was 12 years old, I've had intrusive thoughts. Throughout the years they've changed. It's scary. Now it's stupid, I have to compare & repeat things in my head over and over. I really don't know what to do.
Michelle Elez try CBT it helps
I got mine also when i was 12 and now i`m 26. I know what are you going through. I`ve just found out recently about pure O OCD. Unwanted thoughts, images and impulses are the worst thing ever! ugh it`s so hard dealing with that...
Same. Started when I was 11. I’m 15 now. It comes and goes, mostly returns in stressful times. I haven’t been diagnosed but I’ve done research for years and I want to talk to someone but my family doesn’t really believe me they say I’m exaggerating but it is extremely distressing. What should I do? Who do I talk to?
molly, talk to a teacher or a trusted adult. you don't need to be specific about what the thoughts are, all you should say is 'i'm in a very bad place mentally, can you please help me to get to see a psychologist'. first with your psychologist should you open up about your thoughts. i've only opened up to my psychologist, and no one else, and i don't plan to do it, cause sometimes some things are better left unsaid, especially if they are really embarrassing/shameful for us.
Pure O is terrible and so scary, mine are philosophical instructive thoughts. I’ve Sally’s tumbled upon some philosophical videos and topics and I of course did more research out of fear which made it even worse. The thoughts come and stay for a while I’ve had one stay for almost 4 months until another came on. I luckily have great friends who have helped me through eh tough times and am so grateful I found videos about how to cope and how others have struggled. If you are dealing with these thoughts I’m sure reassurance hardly works but please know you ARE real and you WILL be okay and WILL overcome this.
Thank you. Stay strong brother. We can get thru this.
I love you and know you're not alone. This illness is a curse and so hard to live with, but we just gotta hold on. We can get through this.
I feel so weird watching this bc I'm half like "this is 100% me" But the other half is like "I wasn't even diagnosed with OCD to start with wtf"
either way! thank you for your work and information
I was thinking the exact same thing!
same!x
a lot of the time you can hear the symptoms of a mental illness (or a physical illness) and relate to it but it's the severity of the symptoms that is different from actually having the illness.
regardless if you have the illness or if you're diagnosed, you should seek out someone to get help from! You don't have to have a diagnosis to go to therapy, if it's bothering you then it's valid.
Pure O is a fucking bitch man. It will make you obsess and worry about anything and everything mentally. It is such a mind fuck man
My pure O seems to just latch on to anything distressing that I happen to be thinking. I'll spend the entire day obsessing about multiple different bad things, especially regarding my health. It's exhausting.
How are you now?
I definitely identify with pure obsessional ocd but not with the compulsive side of washing your hands or cleaning the whole time. It really gets me when I have those horrible thoughts, it can manifest as dark demonic type of images, or memories of a video game that overwhelm and crowd my mental space, which is why I can't play video games.
My experience with pure OCD began a few months ago. It started off as general panic/anxiety attacks and then progressived into anxiety from only intrusive thoughts. I stopped driving for over a month in fear of hitting a pedestrians & I began to isolate myself from friends and refused to spend time with family in fear that I would hurt someone. I can't stand being near knives. I've searched for so many ways to get better but I have such a hard time accepting these thoughts. I find that creative writing and listening to upbeat music helps a bit. I hope to find more strategies because this is no way to live. I feel for other people suffering from this. We will all get through this. Don't give up!!!💗💗
How r u now
@@isabellawillberg3872 My life has changed dramatically. The ocd and anxiety has subsided a lot since 3 years ago! I know longer have an issue with driving, being near knives or isolation. What has truly helped me is challenging the thoughts and confronting situations that in the past triggered anxiety and intrusive thoughts. I have taught myself to observe thoughts rather than react and life has been uphill since then.
Wishing you the best!!
How are you?
I have this! Took me stinkin' forever to get diagnosed because I had no idea what it was and neither did anyone else. It was hell for a long time before I was officially diagnosed at 19. But my obsessions started at 7. 12 years and no idea what was going on. I am a happy person by nature but it got to the point that I wanted to kill myself because I didn't know what I was going to do, but I was afraid to do that because I was afraid that I would be damned because of my thoughts. At 25, I no longer feel that way. Exposure therapy actually REALLY helped me! It was AWFUL at first but it really helped and am now in an amazing place where my OCD rarely affects me and I can manage it easily. Thank God!!! I hope that more people become knowledgeable about this so another little girl doesn't have to grow up thinking they're demon possessed or going to hell because they can't control their thoughts. 😫. Thanks for this video, Katie, and for raising awareness about mental illness!
hey i have similar story like you. Except i`m still dealing with this. I`ve never visited psychiatrist. What kind of therapy you had? I wish you all the best
Thanks for sharing. Praise God!
I know this comment is old but it's such a relief to hear success stories
I am that little girl 😟
@@aylinnf8861 honey you are ok! These thoughts only occur because they represent the opposite of who you actually are and what you actually desire. They are from anxiety and the fact that they fill you with dread instead of longing or delight, means that they are the opposite of your will. They have no power over you
Kati, I’ve been stressing bc I’ve been thinking I’m a narcissist for about 2 years. I have empathy, I have hurt people very close to me, like I was controlling to someone in my family at a young age and an old friend. I was also in some bad relationships and rn have insecurities. I am good at listening and I’m good at empathizing. I just over think and obsess over small things and beat myself up when I think I’m being selfish. I’ll neglect myself just to help ppl sometimes bc I think helping me is slfish. That’s another thing is when I act as a therapist to people, they usually seem to feel heard and understood and feel like I give them some pure useful advice. I’m just struggling bc I read all day about narcissism. Find what traits I can relate to and then start freaking out and thinking I’m a narcissist and will almost mimic the traits in my head. I once read narcissists think they’re perfect and I was always told by a close person when I was younger “you think your just so perfect sonny” and I’d feel like shit bc I don’t want to think that. So an intrusive thought I’ll have is “you think your perfect” and I’ll think “I’m not perfect” and I’ll get anxiety and think “I’m perfect” then “NO NO NO IM NOT PERFECT” then I’ll beat myself up bc I’m not being fair to others thinking that, and i think I’m really being dillusional about being perfect when really the dellusion is what I think I believe........ FUCK that was a lot for you to read if you read this
My husband has Pure O and I'm just praying and praying we get to see a therapist soon!
i think i probably just watched a video with the potential to change my life. ive been im treatment trying to deal with anxiety panic disorder self harm depression etc for 8 years and little to none improvement because I still have these "intrusive thoughts" all the fucking time and nothing makes them go away. for the past months I've been reading about ocd and thinking that could be it but I don't have compulsions so it didn't quite fit. the thing is, I never brought up this obsessive thoughts in therapy or to my doctor cause they are extremely grafic embarrassing chocking and weird and I don't feel ready to talk about them. maybe the time has come. I have never heard about pure o in my life (I'm from Brazil, maybe this is not well know around here? I had five therapists and six psychiatrists in the last 8 years and nobody mentioned it) but I'll certainly keep looking into researches and stuff like this and eventually talk about it in therapy. thank you, kati, I thank you profusely. keep spreading knowledge!!
Hey guys, I once thought I was suffering with pure O, I felt unable to do anything, was constantly worried by these thoughts, but then guess what? My confusion finally came to an end, the only problem I really had was diagnosing myself with pure O, I labelled myself as having pure O, and everyday I would have the urge to think delusional thoughts. I will give you the solution, the solution is DONT LOOK FOR A SOLUTION, you are trying to solve something that doesnt exist, hence creating the problem yourself, I wish I could go back and tell myself this wheb I was google searching solutions for hours, our brains are very powerful, we have to fight urges in everyday life such as urges to smoke, urges to spend money etc, similiar to this scenario you have formed the urge in your head to think delusional thoughts, seperate the thoughts in your head with actual thoughts & urgeful thoughts, and when you have them recognise them & understand you have the urge to think these thoughts and they dont mean anything, also clear your life of any unnesecary stresses and i would recommend a strong belief in God, I have a strong belief in Allah, and that is what keeps me so confident and strong, but anyway hope my comment helps, I got through this & so will you
never feel embarrassed..i have had terrible thoughts that i am still dealing with.
Louise Miles thank you for the support. i hope you're OK ❤
the thing that helped me the most with my pure o is the Buddhist practice of mindful awareness. you are not your thoughts. you are not your emotions. you are not your images. you are the observer of your thoughts, emotions and images. keep an open mind. mindful awareness. it will change you, but time takes time.
It is absolutely fine to have graphic, embarrassing, shocking thoughts. Everyone has them once in a while. Random thoughts are part of the human existence.
If you keep holding on to your intrusive thoughts and trying to scrutinize them and make them go away, they'll only grow stronger.
You have to just allow your mind to flow. Learn to shrug, learn to laugh at your most absurd thoughts.
Violent thoughts; sexual thoughts; disgusting thoughts. We all have them. It's human.
I can’t even leave the house anymore without getting scared my intrusive thoughts get triggered.
I have Pure "O" OCD. thank you for this video and for including that we actually DO have compulsions, it's just still in our heads. but yeah, we do have triggers, a WORD can remind me of a similiar word that exists as a part of my intrusive thoughts. I had times when I couldn't really listen to music, read books or watch tv shows, lol. Love the video though!
For me, any scenes in hospitals or of injuries would trigger panic attacks, because I temporarily could not distinguish between what was happening onscreen and myself. I had to watch pretty harmless shows for a long time. Disney movies were good :)
this is so true for me holy shit. I get triggered by colours, ice cream, just reading about things which remind me of what I’m woRryIng. About.
I can so relate to this. I have pure o and hypochondria too, so my head would keep spinning around potential diseases esp cancer and I'd stopped reading newspapers and articles bcz every other article having cancer written would make me panicky! And I'd be obsessed with thinking other superstitious thoughts related to it, like if I've read it, OMG I'm finding the word everywhere around that means I have it, I need a doc!!
Yeah same😍
How are you now? Did you cure?
Lately I've been having scary thoughts & it frightens the hell out of me! It's to the point that I'm avoiding certain people, places and things. Its not fun at all and I dont wish this on people at all. Thanks Kati!
Same here, it’s the literal worst. I hope you’re doing a lot better seeing as this was a while ago but, these thoughts are so hard to get rid of.
The also scary thought is that therapists can quick to think that you are a danger to others if you have the thoughts, which makes it that much more scary.
Wow I'm glad I don't feel so alone anymore, I feel understood...thank you so much for this
Great meeting you at Playlist, Kati!
I feel like this is me. But I’m too afraid to say how bad my thoughts are because they are so graphic. Whenever I get these thoughts I try to pray so I can “balance” out the bad thought or stop it. It doesn’t work usually. The thought just gets worse.
I’ve never been diagnosed but I feel like I have OCD.
I also stress out about events that I know never occurred. Like “what if I just told that lady she is ugly and fat”. Even though I know I didn’t say that I stress about it.
Erica dude, I'm right there with you. I'm sorry you're having a tough time with it. I've done that before too, the praying thing for it. I also get the doubt of 'did I just do /say that? No, right? I don't know I don't think so? You're definitely not alone!
i have it too, what i find works best is to take the power away from the thought. this is done by not reacting to it. what i say to myself is 'let it go in through one ear and out the other'. you will get better, especially if you start meditation
Same. I’m also afraid to say I might have this and describe it but it sounds so familiar. I just hate to self-diagnose. I’m going to show this to my therapist and psychiatrist and discuss it with them.
Lisa-Michelle Morgan that's a good idea! And honestly, I was super nervous to say something too but honestly what makes me feel better is that it's not stuff that'll phase them :) even as disturbing as it is. It's also super relieving to tell someone
Look up Nathan Peterson on CZcams. He specializes in all types of OCD… He’s the best!!!!
(CBT therapy can make any OCD worse. Look for a therapist that specializes in “exposure response therapy”. If they aren’t trained in this, don’t waste your time.
I had no idea this existed, but I think it describes me perfectly. Thank you for this video.
Yay! I've been looking forward to you making a video on intrusive thoughts for a while. Thank you for making it so easy to understand and follow as always. 💛
Thank you so so so much for making this, I really needed it. This helped me a lot and gave me hope
You’re a queen. Making these videos so easy and clear for everyone. There’s so much misinformation in psychology today. Thank you 👍🏼
Thank you for doing this! I tell people I have the obsessive and intrusive thoughts that are part of OCD but no one thinks that it could be a real thing. Finally I can show them this incredible video!
This was hell growing up with. I had no idea what was wrong with me until late high school/college. I'm 24 now and have a much better handle on it. 24/7 of the thoughts were unbearable at times. Thanks for shedding light on this topic. Blessings!
expose yourself to the situations which fears you of, stay there and don't do anything, don't even judge, don't even ruminate.. feel the fear... do this for few times and over the time u feel it is just an unwanted thought... this is how I cured.. I had an intrusive thought of jumping off the building and fear of loosing mind.. for over 6 months.. this is how I cleared
Thank you for this video! I suffer from Pure O, and intrusive thoughts that really plagued me a few years ago. During that time I would get thoughts about all kinds of disgusting and morally repulsive things. It was very scary, especially for my family who knew little about the subject. Thankfully we went to my doctors and he told me I was a good person, that I would never do any of these things etc and prescribed clomipramine before referring me to the community mental health team. Two weeks later I had a interview with them, who also reinforced the fact I would never do anything like said thoughts and they refereed me to a few self-help CBT sites, which really let me understand my mind better.
In a way, I am glad it happened. Since doing CBT and learning more about my brain, I have found my life has changed for the better. I feel stronger and I have been told my confidence has greatly improved. Sure, its not something I am ever going to be 100% cured off, and rumination is something that I suffer with a lot too. But I feel more able to carry on with life now. I simply have a brain with is far to creative for its own good! ^_^
How are you now? Do you still have thoughts ?
Yes far too creative !
I knew I was struggling with this for a while now, but this video really "set me free" in a sense. I am regularly seeing a therapist but she doesn't seem that knowledgeable about pure O in particular, and I now feel the courage start telling her about it and explain it to her. Really the worst thing is that the more you try to deny it, the worse it becomes. It's just pure hell. Just ... thanks Kati.
Finding this video saved my life. I thought I was crazy and a bad person until I realized that I have this, thank you 💖
Kati yay!!! I'm so glad you're talking about Pure O OCD. I talk about it so much because so many people need to hear it. I'm glad you're able to reach so many people with this information!!
Thanks for this...it definitely helps create conciousness around the realities of what it really means to struggle with OCD. The more we speak about it the better others around us can be educated.
We all think mental health should be destigmatize but we all struggle to talk about our own issues. This is my experience: I initially had regular ocd, it's always been very secret for me, noone would notice unless I told them. Lately it got almost pure O, my ruminations got worse and worse. It's terrible, sometimes I think I can't get through this, that there's no way out and that my life will never be normal/happy. If you're going through the same thing please seek help and don't be ashamed of yourself for who you are. You are not alone.
Has anyone had an experience with intrusive thoughts where you start to speak them out loud when you don't want too?
Yess!! I try so hard to suppress them and not blurt them outloud. It's so distressing. I'm doing intense research to find out why i have such an urge to say them outloud.
No but, that would be hell!
Seems like tourettes?
Saving this to send to people who, when I say I’ve been diagnosed, say “but your place isn’t always tidy” 🤦🏼♀️
Lol! I get it... we are all supposed to be "neat freaks"? It is just a stereotype & misconception that many people have of OCD. People think keeping an tidy desk at work or color coordinating socks in like OCD. lol If they only knew.......
Thank you so much Katie. I have been going through this for a while now and had really no idea what it was. This video has been so helpful and informative. I really love your channel it's been a lifesaver! ❤️
I’ve never heard of this and been following you for a long time. My psych told me she suspects OCD. I didn’t understand so I started digging for internal OCD. This was the first video that came up. Thanks again Kati. I kind of wish this had a different name because OCD research is dominated by the compulsive side of things and it just presents so differently like cptsd and ptsd
I was having intrusive thoughts as young as elementary school, it's literal hell. I'm so glad I learned about this!
thank you so much for this video Kati! having more information out there about OCD/Pure O that challenges the stereotypical assumptions of what the disorder is makes me feel such relief. thank you for all your work. posi vibes from Scotland ^^
Hey Kati, you did super well explaining Pure O. Good job!
Woo, great to see this video! I also raise awareness for OCD on my channel - and keen to see other people do the same. I can also recommend Kat from Shalom Aleichem as a channel with loads of resources on Pure O. :)
The term "Pure O" is a fallacy though, they do have compulsions (I hate it when people call it Pure O, because the compulsions are mental and can be treated in the same way..)
Thank you for making this! I've dealt with this type of OCD in the past. In my own experience, I've found that the book 'Brain Lock' by Jeffrey Schwartz really helped me learn how to break the cognitive cycle that fuels the obsession. Despite the name 'Pure O,' it's important to identify the cognitive compulsions and to work on eliminating them. Examples include obsessively seeking reassurance, mental checks, going out of your way to prevent yourself from acting on impulse, etc. The more you do these, the worse the obsessions get! A good mantra to remember is that thoughts are not reality.
Your approach of explaining is very simple and easy to understand. Thank you Kati
I just flat out adore you. You phrase everything as I would if I were a psychiatrist.
I'm seeking help for this. I'm scared shitless. But my best friend convinced me to go to a psychiatrist and seek help. I'm going to do this before it's too late...
i feel the same and have to do that too
How are you now?
@@chelzyramirez3663 well, I'm doing better! I realized I was fixating on different disorders to try and establish my identity. So, I don't have OCD, but I'm trying to get help. It's still a struggle, I'm trying to see a psychiatrist without having to spend hundreds of dollars. But eventually I'll get there! Thanks for asking
I was diagnosed with pure O OCD which is pretty stressful, but hey, once you're diagnosed treatment can begin
How r u
Look up Nathan Peterson on CZcams. He specializes in all types of OCD… He’s the best!!!!
(CBT therapy can make any OCD worse. Look for a therapist that specializes in “exposure response therapy”. If they aren’t trained in this, don’t waste your time.
Great video, Kati! Thank you so much!
YAAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Finally they also just mentioned this type of OCD in the news last night in New Zealand! Thank you so much! This has plagued me for so much of my life and still continues to plague me today!
Wow I just self diagnosed myself and I’ve never had anything describe my thoughts more accurately in my life. I’m gonna start therapy ASAP
I have been regularly sitting for hours trying to fix things in my head, trying to obtain some sort of mental closure each time a new realisation comes into my head. Is this a strong sign of OCD?
What do you mean by new realization?
you just described the EXACT way ive been feeling the last two weeks. the ontario covid lockdown got extended to 6 weeks and it triggered a lot of anxiety that led to intrusive thoughts. i convinced myself i was going insane and labelled myself every mental illness in the dsm until i found this. I'm currently waiting to see the doctor this week and hopefully get a referral to a psychiatrist too. my mom has ocpd but i resonate so much with pure o OCD. i feel so much better knowing im not insane and that there is hope. im looking forward to doing CT and getting medicated. THANK YOU SO MUCH
ive had pure o since i was 10 years old! i understood everything that you are saying! well said, thank you for informing the world about mental illnesses
I have one small comment Kati. ERP is definitely necessary for Pure O, just as necessary as for OCD with physical compulsions. I'd argue ERP is more effective than CBT for OCD, all types of OCD.
In my experience alone, ERP helped my Pure O tremendously, in conjunction with CBT. But CBT alone does not help Pure O as much as CBT with ERP.
Pure O is really the same thing as OCD with physical compulsions, and needs the same treatment. Pure O may be harder to treat to therapists without experience with it, but with a therapist experienced with Pure O can treat it effectively with ERP. It's about finding those mental compulsions and refraining from those, since people with Pure O DO have compulsions, they're just internal.
Other than that, thank you for talking about such an important topic! :)
I've struggled to explain this to so many people. Thank you, I've been dealing with this since I was a kid and have never had the words to properly define what was going on in my head.
same here..
Wow... so this is what has been torturing me all my life. Very informative, thank you. 💌
This is the most enlightening thing I have seen. My entire life I have had this "fear" or "urge" to throw myself out of moving cars. Just what if I would unbuckle my belt and open the door on the highway? WHY? WHY WOULD I DO THAT? It scares the hell out of me. Or in the shower...what if I pushed my razor down on my leg and scraped my skin off? I am not a self harmer. I don't want to hurt myself. But my brain has these horrible intrusive thoughts ALL THE TIME. It usually isn't directed at other people, but they are SO SCARY.
And now this. THIS VIDEO. I was planning on looking for a new therapist after we moved in a few weeks bc my depression and anxiety are getting bad again, and I will definitely be showing him/her this. THANK YOU.
I have pure o. Does anyone else see "floaters" and have a ringing in their ears every now and then?
Boston Schroeder yep
Yes!!
Yes!!!
I think everyone does.
Oh I was just having the ringing in my ear just now hahaha
Thank you @KatiMorton for explaining Pure O! As a sufferer, I had a therapist who did not know how to help me with my sexually violent thoughts. That was 5 yrs ago. Now I have a great therapist who understands me:) My question to you: Why aren't some therapists knowledgeable about this subtype of OCD?
Great video, thanks for discussing this topic Kati!
Your hair looks incredible. Love it. ❤
Jesus. I always wondered why I got these types of thoughts. There’s OCD in my family and they have different compulsions from what I suffer from. I thought I was just fucked up in the head. Thank you so much, this brings me a bit more peace.
Pure O can be a real bitch to root out, because there's nothing you can do to break the compulsion physically, you have to break the chain of thinking, and describing horrifying or embarrassing stuff to a therapist can be really difficult. And the obsessions are often dug in deep and use all the mind's own resources to try and stop...the mind!...from healing itself. But it can be done.
Your videos are a life saviour!
THANK YOU 🙏
There can definitely also be physical compulsions too, some of those are checking and that might be checking what you emotionally feel and evaluating if that is bad, checking the body for a physical response because pure o can come with a physical response and reassurance seeking. ERP and meds can both help.
I thought this was a normal way of thinking like my whole life..... glad to know I'm not the only one dealing with this.
I relate to a lot of this. I probably don’t even have pure o but, since April, I had terrible sexual thoughts and I hated myself for it and even thought if suicide. It sort of calmed down but, I still get intrusive thoughts from time to time and recently, I’ve always found myself thinking about near death situations that have a 5% chance of happening and start to panic for one second before calming myself down and realizing none of the thoughts are real, get thoughts about my loved ones dying or me accidentally killing them. I’m not really ashamed of the thoughts about death but, I’m more ashamed about the sexual intrusive thoughts. I might talk to my school therapist tomorrow though.
Thanks Kati for another wonderfully informative video. I had no idea something like Pure O even existed. xoxo
This is so eye opening. Thank you.
Invite the thoughts and feelings in, break the cycle! taking me years but its worth the hard the work.
It helped you
Jesus, I just thought I was becoming a monster, I just need therapy and medicine 🤣 thank you so much
THANK YOU FOR RECORDING IN 60fps!! 😻
I had never heard of this before, but I'm sure I have it. I always thought there was just something really wrong with me and was afraid to talk about it. Thank you for posting this video.
I have had these thoughts for years, It's highly distressing but you learn to live with it. It's incredibly interesting to watch this video though, It's nice to know there is a diagnosis for this. I was always told they were just 'intrusive thoughts'. Every time I have one I have to tell myself it's an 'intrusive thought' and it helps it go away. I don't know if this is normal but they tend to stay the same for a while then I'll get a new one? It sounds ridiculous but I struggle to hold a hot drink around people out of fear I'll chuck it in their face. I then have to abandon my hot drink because of the worry i'll lob it over someone. (I have many different 'thoughts' and it's embarrassing to share them because some of them are so horrific but It's reassuring to know other people have them too.)
Love your hair here it frames your face nicely
I didn’t know this was a valid thing! I feel relieved. I was diagnosed with OCD by 2 different psychiatrists and was on medication but I never fully resonated with my diagnosis if only for the compulsion part. I felt like was doing OCD wrong. It’s good to know that you can have OCD without the C.
I suffer from schizophrenia but find myself with this type of mindset many times as it seems to kick in as a self defense mechanism especially when outdoors. I noticed one way to make the conflicting positive thoughts win out over the negative ones is by looking at people's faces directly which helps me to snap out of the negative fantasy thinking as i all of sudden see them as people and tell myself that was some foolish negative thinking.
Thanks for the always excellent videos Kati Morton :D
Actually, I believe ERP has in recent years surpassed CBT and has proven itself to be the most effective treatment for this condition. ACT seems to be used quite often as an adjunct to ERP.
You look so beautiful and I love your hair so much 😍
I did NOT know there was a name for these intrusive thoughts! Today is the first time I've heard of Pure O. This helps me understand myself better!
Thank you, watching this video and reading the comments makes me feel better. I was diagnosed with OCD a few years ago, and I’m 23. Before I was diagnosed I felt so shitty about myself. I used to combat the horrible sexual thoughts with extremely violent ones when I was younger because it numbed me for the moment. I am on SSRIs right now, but I find I need to watch these videos once in awhile because it’s so hard to explain to people that I’m suffering when there is little to no physical evidence, like compulsions. To everyone out there - remember that your suffering is real, and that you don’t need to justify it.
These videos and the comments sections makes me feel better as well. Honestly, it is comforting to know that there are people out there that can relate to what you are experiencing. Just imagine I was first diagnosed with OCD about 30 years ago. This was before the internet and I always felt rather alone in this condition. I confided in my dad about it and his advice was "Be a man, suck it up and push forward". Yeah... not very helpful, huh? I don't blame him really, nobody knew about OCD then.
I feel fearless today!! And won't let the mindless bring me down!! : D
I suffered with this my whole life along with general anxiety and depression. They’re all beasts. Ugh. It’s funny for so long I thought I just had obsessions but then I realized that I have a ton of mental compulsions too. My OCD is almost entirely about perfectionism with myself and my experiences. I obsess about interactions with people, stressful things at work, if some part of my body isn’t perfect. It’s awful. I’ve been off meds for 5 years, have many coping mechanisms and therapy has helped a lot but it’s hard. It’s also hard for me to do ERP because of these hArder to see mental compulsions. I wish OCD specialists were covered in my insurance plan but they’re not so I can’t see an ERP specialist. 😭
It was interesting hearing you talk about ACT, my psychologist specializes in Acceptance Commitment Therapy and it has really helped me over the years of seeing her. I am diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, and she wished for me to see a psychologist trained in CBT but she had always really helped me so I stuck with her.
thank you for this ! i've had pure o for a long time but only got properly diagnosed in the last 5 or so years .. good to hear this being talked about openly :)
i sure hope so :)
i've been struggling with this for so long i forgot how to feel normal
literally me too, I’m sorry I know this was 4 years ago. But I hope you’re doing a lot better.
I’ve begun the process of writing a book on my experience with Pure O. It’ll likely be called “Oh god, I think I might be gay!” My intrusive thoughts are based unfortunately in pretty violent thoughts as well as the frequent fear that I may be gay when I know I’m not sexually attracted to men. I’d love to collaborate with you on the book, Kati! Perhaps quite you on occasion throughout the book!
OCD is literally hell, i feel like i have sepreate sides of my brain and they battle all the time
It is surely an internal battle between the rational & irrational parts of the same brain. The judge, jury and accused all in the same mind.
Omg I wish I had known this information when I started struggling with OCD (Pure O) at age 13. I also struggled with anxiety and depression (of course) until 18, when I started taking an SSRI and the OCD went away and depression lessened. Much later, at 33, I found out the "root" of all of it was actually undiagnosed ADHD. Thanks for your videos- i would love to see more on ADHD in women/adults. 💕