My Trauma | Britain's Got Talent (First Reaction) | Hollie Steel

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  • Hello! During lockdown I've had so much time to sit with myself and how I'm feeling. Mental health awareness is very important to me &
    I realised after 11 years since this event I have never actually seen the video- I wanted to share this moment with you all since the moment happened public, I'd like part of my healing to be public :) Coming to terms with what is and embracing my inner child has opened so many doors that need healing - that's okay! For many years I have been trying to prove myself & others by pushing on, putting on a happy face and trying to never put a foot wrong. Time to change that!
    Please bear in mind that the BGT clip audio is quiet as I edited the video myself, which meant watching the footage multiple times. I didn't realise until after.
    I'm so glad I watched this and I'm so happy you can watch it with me too
    Hollie
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Komentáře • 286

  • @bluefirekin-aria
    @bluefirekin-aria Před 4 lety +149

    Sweet little ten year old Hollie has grown into a beautiful, wise young woman. This was such a mature and beautiful video to make. Way to go. You were, and are, amazing xx

  • @charlottecroft5806
    @charlottecroft5806 Před 4 lety +197

    I remember watching this and I was younger than you and I all I could think was how brave you were🥺❤️

    • @perspective1234
      @perspective1234 Před 3 lety +7

      I wasn't even 1 wen she was on

    • @chickenplayz2079
      @chickenplayz2079 Před 3 lety +4

      When was not brave it’s called fake it till you make it or cry your way to the top

    • @perspective1234
      @perspective1234 Před 3 lety +5

      @@chickenplayz2079 wut on earth do u mean

    • @chickenplayz2079
      @chickenplayz2079 Před 3 lety +1

      Charlotte Croft she did not cry because of fear she cried because she messed up she clearly stated that in the video maybe watch it before calling people queens

    • @chickenplayz2079
      @chickenplayz2079 Před 3 lety +1

      Charlotte Croft ok but that’s still not why she was crying

  • @The_Dudester
    @The_Dudester Před 4 lety +72

    When I was ten I had to sing "Oh What a Beautiful Morning" (from Oklahoma) in front of the whole school. It was so traumatic that I can only remember bits and pieces of it.
    I didn't volunteer for the solo, I was pushed into it by my music teacher. The real trauma came months later when my music teacher was killed in a car accident and I witnessed the accident. I had nightmares for decades after that.
    So, Hollie I very much sympathize with you and I can't watch your video without going for the tissue. God Bless you.

    • @saniyahnoor9355
      @saniyahnoor9355 Před 3 lety +6

      Pope Anthony hope you're feeling more better your music teacher is in a better place now sorry for your loss 💕🕊

    • @feather_fluff_art_n_stuff
      @feather_fluff_art_n_stuff Před 3 lety +5

      That must've been hard, I'm so sorry.

    • @thomasbeaulieu6230
      @thomasbeaulieu6230 Před rokem +1

      Wow that's horrible. I can't even imagine. I hope you were able to work through those traumas and bring yourself to a better place now that you're older.

  • @docphy
    @docphy Před 4 lety +73

    I remember watching this show and I read all the comments and it seemed that a lot of people including me were seeing you as a hero. I thought Simon was awesome insuring you got a second chance at this song, where did they find the time. I've been following your journey ever since, I watch ALL your video's and I am glad you finally watched my favorite. Have a beautiful weekend Hollie and remember you are that little girl just a bit further along in life.

    • @thomasbeaulieu6230
      @thomasbeaulieu6230 Před rokem

      My sentiments exactly. I was a father of one when I watched this on TV and now I'm a father of 5 (two by marriage) and still get a little choked up watching it. I think the nation and the world were all so proud of her after the 2nd go, almost like a parent would be. Hollie, everyone is so proud and happy to see each of your wonderful, positive posts here as an adult. You're a star.

  • @BoyzInTheHoo
    @BoyzInTheHoo Před 3 lety +32

    This was like watching live therapy. So brave of you to watch yourself and facing your childhood trauma. You are so brave now as you were all those years ago.

  • @lindsaygarber2773
    @lindsaygarber2773 Před 4 lety +23

    I love how at 8:59 Simon is going "Holly!" and Dec is going "Holly!" and it just makes my heart swell because they care so much

  • @renaepetersen2393
    @renaepetersen2393 Před 3 lety +50

    Holly, that was YOU. YOU are talented and I truly hope you can learn to love the whole YOU. That little girl is still a part of who you are. It's easy to see that inside that little girl was a huge sentimental heart, but also the heart of a lioness! It took real courage to finish that song, especially after breaking down. You got back up! YOU did that! I would wager that the same kind of bravery lingers in you still. BRAVO to you!

  • @AshleeMcCann
    @AshleeMcCann Před 4 lety +36

    Hollie, I loved watching you on the show you did awesomely, I'm glad they found the time to let you sing again. I can't imagine how hard that must have been at such a young age but you did it. I know it's been online for everyone to see/comment, which isn't easy just remember you are smarter, braver and stronger then you seem.

  • @danl.4743
    @danl.4743 Před 3 lety +14

    Very spiritual of you to go back to that little girl and forgive her, and to support her, and to give her the love she needed.
    You mom is awesome.

  • @katek8311
    @katek8311 Před 4 lety +27

    I‘m so proud of you for watching it! I hope your perfectionism isn‘t as damaging as it used to be. I‘m glad you can look back and be kind to little Hollie, she needs all the kindness she can get from you :)

  • @tammieveentjes7281
    @tammieveentjes7281 Před 3 lety +21

    I did'nt know that it was soo traumatic for you.
    I know how upsetting it feels when you have a breakdown in front off audience.
    You're a strong girl😘

  • @miyenakamura484
    @miyenakamura484 Před 3 lety +9

    I am 62 years old and I have moments like this being a sensitive person. This video shows you were trying hard and did not give up.

  • @John--nj4lp
    @John--nj4lp Před 3 lety +8

    Hollie I remember this so well and it was excruciating to watch at the time , you were a 10 yr old under so much pressure, and to come back and re perform was a huge ask, but you nailed it ! It was hiding behind the sofa time when you re performed, and I shed a tear when you finished the song , such a relief, and full of admiration at your bravery and guts to face the challenge head on, at 10 ! Fantastic! It was unfair pressure on a child and I was so happy when it went well second time round. I am quite emotional watching you reflect on this but be proud of yourself, I’m sure you are, you were and are awesome !! Always loved Sound of music ( and My Fair Lady , and POTO, great choices ) . Good on you and I wish you all the best , you were right, it wasn’t that bad ! If anything blame the show for placing a child in the vulnerable position you were placed in. Best of luck for the future , you are a fabulous young lady!. John

  • @AllanMogensen
    @AllanMogensen Před 4 lety +13

    Tough to watch still. It took me more attempts back then. I so didn´t need to see you in tears like that Hollie. Bless you for your strength to come back!

  • @HingYok
    @HingYok Před 3 lety +5

    This video is very inspiring! For those who have undergone childhood traumas, it's a good example how to let go of past traumas and move on. It's something we can all learn from you. It might not be easy to let go of the traumas and you might have to do what you do in this video more than once, but this video is already a good start. You're so brave to revisit your past self and dig into this little girl's mind despite the haters' comments in those videos. Well done!

  • @crunch8484
    @crunch8484 Před 2 lety +6

    HI Holly. You may not remember me but I met you and your parents at your house near Accrington 10 years ago to discuss making a video for your Christmas song "When Christmas Comes to Town" ( someone else made it in the end ). I chatted with them in your dad's upstairs studio, before they called you up to say hello. I knew how harmful early fame could be for a young child, and advised them not to push too hard and allow you time to grow up and maybe attend stage school in a few years, when you were a bit more ready. I hope it was good advice. I haven't thought about you for years, but yesterday you popped into my head and I thought "I wonder what little Holly is up to now?", googled you, and here you are.. a beautiful, grown up woman, living her dreams and doing what she loves. I'm so happy for you, and wish you the very best of luck for the future!

  • @OfficialLauraE
    @OfficialLauraE Před 4 lety +7

    You’re so brave reacting to this on camera! ❤️ you’re amazing Hollie please don’t forget that x

  • @mikeferguson296
    @mikeferguson296 Před 4 lety +6

    Hollie, I've always found it difficult to watch the "breakdown" video. So, I can't imagine what it brings to your memory. You are a wonderful talent, which is why I've followed you all these years. Also, you are one of the world's most charming persons.

  • @MidnightMystASMR
    @MidnightMystASMR Před 4 lety +3

    Hollie this is a beautiful video. It's so important to embrace all of us- especially our inner children! Sending you all the love girl xxxx

  • @timothyhinton9613
    @timothyhinton9613 Před 4 lety +5

    I remember the first time I saw this. At that time I cried right along with you. I am in America and am now 61 tears old. You were so beautiful then but even more beautiful now. Love you sweetie! Also HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

  • @samwyz69
    @samwyz69 Před 3 lety +3

    I loved that 10 year old Hollie! When she cried, I cried too and wanted to comfort her. I loved her style of singing and she had a very beautiful voice.

  • @sportstackeroctober2531
    @sportstackeroctober2531 Před 4 lety +7

    I’d be surprised if no-one finds it hard to watch the video, and I still find things like this to watch hard. I’ve got no idea how you plucked up the courage to watch this video. Amazing stuff :)

  • @cybersoil100
    @cybersoil100 Před 3 lety +3

    Glad to see you as an adult, Hollie. Don't even worry about the little girl who was very nervous, it happens to everyone. Even professional singers, I've heard them on TV interviews, say they get nervous, butterflies, etc, and have to walk it off before a performance. It comes with time. Anyway, you did a great job and should be very proud of yourself.

  • @dooodles06
    @dooodles06 Před 4 lety +5

    You say it's the little perfectionist in you that found it hard and upsetting at the time, but I always see a gifted 10 year old that's just being human. I think that, the strength you showed to carry on, as well as your talent & personality is what won the hearts of many.

  • @SabakaJunglay
    @SabakaJunglay Před 4 lety +12

    You were one of my favourite kids on the show. The fact that you stumbled here is no biggie. Scott Heierman on AGT was my second favourite comedian, and he had the same thing happen to him on the show. Talent is talent, and you were only little.

  • @carolmeindl8973
    @carolmeindl8973 Před 3 lety +3

    Thank you, Holly, for making this video. I have always wondered what happened to you. I remembered your first performance and just how spectacular you were as a singer. And I remember your second performance and your stumbling, and your crying about it, and your chance to sing it again. I also remember the comments some people made about you “failing” somehow. They seemed to completely forget that you were only 10 years old and it was a huge pressure for such a young girl. I am so happy to see that you continued singing and have grown into this beautiful wise young lady. I am glad that you have found it in yourself to love the little girl that you had thought had been rejected by so many, but in fact, had been loved and cherished by so many.

  • @MandaBearHeart
    @MandaBearHeart Před 3 lety +4

    I love this, so healing! You are brave to go back and do the trauma work! I'm proud of you!

    • @holliebsteelofficial
      @holliebsteelofficial  Před 3 lety +2

      Thank-you so much Amanda! That's such a nice thing to say :) Hoping it'll help others go back and do their trauma work too. x

  • @maddy_jenna
    @maddy_jenna Před 4 lety +3

    you are SO brave, and i’m so grateful that i found your channel! you’re so grown up now, and I’m so proud of little hollie for going back a 2nd time. i would never be able to do that!

  • @johnnyrats7083
    @johnnyrats7083 Před 4 lety +5

    So brave if you to deal with this traumatic event on camera, all the best in your healing Hollie 💕

  • @BlindSingleMom
    @BlindSingleMom Před 3 lety +5

    Holly, this genuinely had me tearing up. I saw your video a few years ago on CZcams and my heart ached for what you went through. This step you've taken is incredible, and that you've shared such a vulnerable moment with the world is a testament to your strength. You have a beautiful understanding of yourself, and I'm truly happy for you that you and little Holly have mended that rent you've lived with for so long. Well done. You have always been supported from this tiny corner of the world.

  • @princesssadie3073
    @princesssadie3073 Před 4 lety +5

    Oh girl, I remember being young (I’m 21 in august) and watching your performance and even though I didn’t fully understand due to being young-ish I still remember feeling so emotional FOR you. I can’t Imagine being that age and singing in front of thousands of people. It’s so amazing you’ve chosen to react to it as you’ve grown up so much in that time into what seems like such an intelligent, strong person. Keep growing and shining girly.

  • @katieminns9778
    @katieminns9778 Před 2 lety +2

    I noticed you were talking about yourself and your younger self like you are a different person and that’s a really common trauma response but you as a 10 year old and you now, are so brave. You fought through your anxiety and even after your panic attack wanted to show the world how great you were because YOU knew you were. You are that girl. And you’re making young Hollie proud x

  • @waynesanchez6504
    @waynesanchez6504 Před 4 lety +2

    Sweet, beautiful, massively talented young woman, I was floored when I heard you say you hated that Hollie. Why? I'm a sixty plus man and I was in tears, watching how grueling that was for all of you. And, Hollie, sweetheart, you got massive amounts of support , from the BGT team and the audience. Never had I seen a major show, such as that, STOPPED, the time schedule shifted, so that you could try again. The kindness they showed you was unprecedented. PLEASE do not beat up on yourself. YOU CAME THROUGH and, now, look at how gorgeous and mature you are! How I wish I could hug you, look into your eyes, and tell you, "It's ok. It's alright. We're all too proud of you. Please carry on. Please be happy and successful."
    God Bless

  • @smokey528
    @smokey528 Před 3 lety +1

    Hollie, you have every reason to be proud of yourself. Everyone has bumps in the road and they are not what defines us as people. What shows our true character is how we pick ourselves up again and the courage you showed at such a young age to come out and sing again was inspiring. Very few kids would have been able to do that. I am glad you have learned to love that incredibly brave little girl again, because she has grown into a warm and empathetic person. I wish you all the best.

  • @Xackadee
    @Xackadee Před 4 lety +5

    Wild timing! I was just thinking about this event yesterday! Honestly, I've always found it a very emotional thing to witness, even and especially today. I'm only a bit older than you so I was young myself when I first saw it with my family, but I remember everyone having so much sympathy for you. Watching it back nowadays, I can appreciate even more how stressful and difficult that would have been to deal with, especially at your age. But it's so moving to see the crowd and the judges stand up for you and give you that triumphant second chance. You did an inspiring thing and you did it so well.
    Hearing your reflections on it now is interesting and all the more inspiring. You have such a mature and strong outlook on the situation as well as the guts to share it online. I'm very glad to see you've had such a positive take on this moment and I hope you have no problem continuing to carry that strength going forward.

  • @lolaparker1315
    @lolaparker1315 Před 4 lety +2

    I remember watching this and crying with you and just wanting to give you a big hug, I’m glad they let you sing again later on though and that the world found out that Simon had a heart, that he was actually a nice guy and not scary at all. Can’t believe how much you’ve grown and you are even more amazing now than you were back then. 🌸💖 xx

  • @oliverbowman5695
    @oliverbowman5695 Před 3 lety +2

    You couldn't have drug me on that stage at 10 years old. Your voice was just beautiful and I think you did an amazing job. That was a tremendous amount of pressure to put a 10 year old under. Most adults would have never got on stage infront of that large crowd. A tremendous amount of courage on your part to face your fears and then overcome them. The song was beautiful like an angel singing it. Hold your head high. You earned it.

  • @Wiganpilot
    @Wiganpilot Před 4 lety +3

    I was sat watching you that night, amazing talented performance, my heart sank when your nerves got the better of you because i don't like seeing sad faces, so strong and brave to get back up there the second time and totally smash it. You can look back on that experience now with great fondness, knowing that everyone was behind you.

  • @VernCrisler
    @VernCrisler Před 3 lety +3

    Haven't checked in on you for a while now Hollie, and wow! you've grown up! I agree with others here. Your "breakdown" made all of us love you all the more 12 years ago. Simon also proved he wasn't the hard-hearted producer he pretends to be, and your second try at the song was sooo much like the scene in Sound of Music where they sang Edelweiss.

  • @drnobody7934
    @drnobody7934 Před 3 lety +1

    Hi Miss Holly, I watch you on AGT all of the time. When I am down, I just pull up Miss Holly. I get goose bumps every time and I cry every time. You take my breath away and make me smile when I hear you sing on there. It was like you were my daughter and I was so proud of you. All of America was so very proud of you and happy for you. I’m waiting and watching because you will be great one day. Nothing could kill the spirit of that beautiful girl that I met that day and hear now. You blew all the ten year olds right out of the water n chose such hard songs. You have to love that little girl even when she fails. That is what will make you sucessful. You really are such a sweet angel. It was so brave to do it again. Most girls would have hid in the back but not you. So much courage, talent and now I see you being so introspective and grown up. Big hugz. Big hugz 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

  • @c.syde65
    @c.syde65 Před 3 lety +9

    As a 10 year old, I probably could have done it without problems because I loved attention as a 10 year old. But as a 25 year old, attention isn't nearly as important. So I'd probably be less confident than my 10 year old self.

  • @claireemilycostello3201
    @claireemilycostello3201 Před 3 lety +8

    When i was about 8 my dad printed out the lyrics of this song because i loved hollie steel and i would always have small concets for my parents and i would sing this for them

  • @Nikita-jm3cc
    @Nikita-jm3cc Před 3 lety +1

    You were one of my favorite child singers. I find myself occasionally searching for the singing ballerina on BGT. You always bring a smile to my face when I hear you sing. I cried during your breakdown because I could only think that that was way to much pressure to put on this little girl. But you came back and kicked its butt. Love you! You're amazing!

  • @Mick.Porter
    @Mick.Porter Před 4 lety +2

    Heard reports of you and searched for and watched the show as soon as it was on YT because I had social anxiety, extreme shyness, through all my school years. I think that when I watched you I had a mild panic attack when you froze? and cried. You were and still are my hero for going back out to sing again.

  • @mikejohnson5537
    @mikejohnson5537 Před 3 lety +7

    Hollie, you were the first contestant on any of these competition shows that I followed from audition to the end. I admired you as a ten year old doing what you were doing. I am glad you finally confronted your breakdown. I was there with you from Nevada then, pulling for you, and glad you were able to finish the round. Mike from Virginia.

  • @ardalla535
    @ardalla535 Před 4 lety +14

    Hollie, you appeared at the same time as Connie Talbot and Jackie Evancho. You guys were the first little girls to go through that experience. Of course, now it's commonplace, but back then it was unprecedented; you all were forging a path that other girls would follow. And there have been dozens of girls since then (too many to list). Maybe, if you got a chance, you could visit Connie and have a talk with her. It might help. The other girls are scattered out all over the world, but Connie living nearby is someone who would understand what you went through. Also, Connie is a wonderful, sympathetic person.
    The hate comments from the media are to be expected. If you appear in public, you're going to expose yourself to the crazies who are like rats in a medieval kitchen. It's best to not even read negative comments. If you read them, then your brain will react and put you in a bad place emotionally. It might help to think of someone like Nigel Farage, et al. They get death threats and vituperation thrown at them daily. Yeh, it's hard to deal with. My advice, for what it's worth, don't get sad and down on yourself ... get angry instead. I have PTSD and I find that I can usually change the fear to anger. Anger is much more pleasant emotion to deal with than fear. It actually works to do that. Surprisingly.

  • @Worldsemblance
    @Worldsemblance Před 4 lety +4

    I really hope that way negative people made to feel fade away into the darkness so that way we can have the best versions of you that we always hope for...
    Stay beautiful, good and stay strong!

  • @pixienixieqq
    @pixienixieqq Před rokem

    7:40 the PRESSURES life puts on us to "PERFORM" simply on the stage of LIFE my Love...... is HURRENDOUSLY TRAUMATIC and YOU young lady did it ON A MASSIVE STAGE with a FULL audience- how impressively remarkable!!!! xxxxxxxx

  • @MrSimonamos
    @MrSimonamos Před 4 lety +2

    Don’t ever change for anyone sweetie. You are an amazing and strong girl and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise ❤️🌹

  • @leebaker8617
    @leebaker8617 Před 4 lety +4

    I remember watching this at the time we all feel in love with you you was so brave to come back on you should be so proud of your younger self xxx

  • @Dez568
    @Dez568 Před 3 lety +1

    Hollie, if I may, you were incredible brave to get up there. Let me tell you, I'm thirty-one and when I was in grade four, the was about a year before my accident, so I was about 9 or 10 I got up in front of the class to do a presentation on British Columbia, I went to the front of the class and burst into tears. In grade six, after I came out of the coma, relearned to walk, talk, etc. again, someone accidently hit me in the head with a piece of candy and I started crying. Purely out of embarrassment but what I thought was the whole class laughing at me was them gasping. You are incredible! Don't ever change!

  • @joecaroselli5858
    @joecaroselli5858 Před 2 lety

    Yayyyy, Hollie. God bless you. You were brave 12 years ago on the show, AND you're a very "valiant" young lady NOW...watching yourself. This is hauntingly beautiful. To me, it has the same wistful feeling that Charles Dickens conveyed when an older Ebenezer Scrooge looked back and saw himself in the schoolyard as a child, and then comforted him. Your looking at this is such a poignant moment. It's like you staring at an oil painting of your younger self, and your heart and love, and empathy, and understanding make that painting come to life. We are all very proud of you, Hollie. We believe in you.

  • @spiderzo2162
    @spiderzo2162 Před 4 lety +3

    Hi Hollie, I remember it very well I’m sorry that happened. You were a brave girl to be given a second chance and I’m very proud of you. I think you’re a very beautiful and good singer. Love you 😘

  • @emilied.3696
    @emilied.3696 Před 3 lety +2

    Brilliant, Hollie. Love your introspection and wisdom. Thank you for sharing this!

  • @amyrivers4093
    @amyrivers4093 Před 3 lety

    Your ability to express deep, inner feelings in such a beautiful way is admirable. A lot of people never get to a place where self reflection is so deep. You and your voice are so beautiful. To get back on stage to sing your song again was incredibly brave and it showed you vulnerable and raw. Thank you for your voice and for sharing your personal strength with us as well. Xx

  • @MarkDaGardna
    @MarkDaGardna Před 3 lety

    It's wonderful that you can see your inner self and you have nothing to worry about. Your 10 yr. old self was FANTASTIC! Never Doubt Yourself... You are Wonderful!

  • @Hernie1976
    @Hernie1976 Před 3 lety +3

    You were so brave to stay on stage and push on. I thought you were so adorable. I still think you're adorable!

  • @Dez568
    @Dez568 Před 3 lety +1

    Holly, you're a brave, beautiful girl and through my recovery, I was hit by a car twice by somebody who clearly couldn't drive here in canada I've learned that alot of my issues stemmed from making myself out to be too much of an individual. i.e. I'm the only one with these thoughts, feelings, fears, etc. You are incredible!!! Don't ever change!!

  • @scopiedoobyrstevensde718

    Dear Hollie
    you gave me strength, courage and the power for go on. Mostly by listening to CHILDREN ON TITANIC. When I watched your videos on CZcams I smiled for that moment. Than you grown up - turning 16 - became an adult - it’s so beautiful to see you smile - many Thanks for sharing all these moments for us. A big hug back for that.

  • @pinolada4276
    @pinolada4276 Před 4 lety +1

    Amazing to hear all those words and thoughts of you. Never realised how much of a struggle it must have been for you. But its nice to hear that it seems you are able to overcome the past. I remember like 10 years ago when I was able to meet you. You seemed just like a normal bit shy little girl, with an absolutely lovely family. Hope you're good now, and hope you'll have a bright future.
    Greetings Kevin from germany

  • @Laney955
    @Laney955 Před rokem

    This just shows how brave you are, Holly. I am so inspired. Love you ❤❤

  • @JerricaLyne
    @JerricaLyne Před 2 lety +1

    You were actually one of my favorite contestants ever on many Got Talent shows through many seasons. I always hoped to see more of you after the show. How nerve-racking that must have been though. If it were me crying up there I would have had red eyes and snot everywhere. You were actually adorable haha. They need to do a better job of considering children on the stage I think. Live is so much pressure.

  • @sbaxter4207
    @sbaxter4207 Před 2 lety

    So brave and talented at such a young age. To be able to go back on the second time after being so nervous before and then sing so calmly and beautifully is super impressive . I'm so so glad it worked out in the end.

  • @Selahrocks
    @Selahrocks Před 3 lety

    Kids emotions can be so raw and immature, which is age and life experience related.
    Coming of age changes that.
    The moment you're feeling so tense everything around you just stops happening; you don't process the full experience anymore.
    The only thing you're focussed on is your feelings, the one comforting you and wanting to feel comforted.
    Ten years ago, when i heard your BGT audition, i loved your clear voice and extraordinarily high notes.
    The breakdown itself made me cry as i felt so bad for you to feel such anxiety you're breaking down into tears.
    Ant and Dec, Simon and Amanda where so supporting to you. I loved their responses.
    Keep in mind that everyone goes through anxiety, stress and hard feelings and showing them is just part of normal life.
    Keeping your mental health as a priority helps you maintain a healthy life.

  • @mcphepat
    @mcphepat Před 2 lety

    You're reaction to this video is priceless in itself. It's so nice of you to answer this question for us because we all wonder how you thought about it. This is so great to watch and I remember that time and I often think of you and how you felt about this performance since all these years have passed. So thank you for this , I have more questions but I'm going to read through the comment section here to see if my other questions will be answered thank you, very much.

  • @chrisceder4027
    @chrisceder4027 Před 3 lety +1

    Double victory for you Holly, young you perfectly managed finish the 2nd try with the song & now adult you managed to watch the "fragile performance" moment in full.

  • @LindtLLawliet
    @LindtLLawliet Před 3 lety

    You were such an angel. When it happened my heart broke, that song was so beautiful love, and hearing you sing back then made me cry I hope your doing well and that things have gotten better. And I hope you know that if you ever need to talk to anyone not only do you have people in your everyday life but also here, so don't be afraid to talk to us, and remember that your loved. ♡

  • @thecreatorofbeauty
    @thecreatorofbeauty Před 3 lety +2

    You made cry today... And learn from you to be stronger... Thanks 🥺❤️🍇

  • @carolined5923
    @carolined5923 Před 2 lety

    Yes to a child everything is so important not knowing how good you were is part of that. You were and are amazing, stay true to yourself and your amaxing voice

  • @youtubelover7411
    @youtubelover7411 Před 3 lety

    From Minnesota, about in the middle of North America. All the way from England you endeared us to your talents with this exact video. And years later still following you!!!
    Richard

  • @BoyflyIRL
    @BoyflyIRL Před 4 lety +2

    You’re always have a wonderful voice! It so awesome that you do this react!

  • @theblondelions9894
    @theblondelions9894 Před 2 lety

    Congratulations! you were, you are so sweet. You´ve got a beautiful soul. You were born an artist, and you wil die an artist. Your sweetness will remain in the air for ever. People like you make this world better.

  • @georgivelev77
    @georgivelev77 Před 4 lety

    You know, Hollie, you can’t please everyone. There will always be people who will love you and people who will not like you at all. I am pleasantly surprised what a charming young lady you’ve become. What you did in 2009 on the BGT stage was courageous but to watch your failure from 10 years ago, to film it and share it with the world is equally courageous. It seems you’ve lived with that trauma for 10 years. There’s a lot one can learn from this video. I admit I haven’t followed your career (got your first CD with your picture and signature❤️) but now you’ve regained me as your fan. I remember I traveled back then in 2009 all the way from Bulgaria to Bournemouth to see you sing in person. Who knows, maybe some day I’ll travel again to England to see you performing in a musical theatre. Stay well and keep doing your best.

  • @babshy
    @babshy Před 3 lety +1

    11 years ago you were so brave holile when l get on to a stage l have a heart attack how did you do it? my god you were amazing well done holile

  • @yveslandrain8147
    @yveslandrain8147 Před rokem

    As you said this little girl was so brave and talented. But she is you. You are brave and talented ! Thanks for sharing your talent with us. Much love.

  • @pixienixieqq
    @pixienixieqq Před rokem

    2:07 What you said here .... makes SO much more sense than what you could EVER (in your wildest dreams) imagine, Love!! If only half of the human population could GRASP that!!!!! We ALL have a hurt, sad, mad, angry, bitter, bothered or pained little INNER CHILD........ (some of us worse affected than others) but .... not 20% EVER connect with, THANK and HEAL the little Wonder inside (we became today BECAUSE of the resilience, perseverance and determination of that little girl or boy TO SURVIVE AGAINST ALL ODDS!!!)

  • @ergasegadaddy
    @ergasegadaddy Před 3 lety

    Wow! What a great inspiring video. I admire your courage to confront your childhood pain and willingness to share with us. And yes, it will be okay, AND it is also okay that we have moments when life does not feel okay, and we grieve. Sadness is indeed a normal human expression and tears are how our bodies help us cope with deep complex emotions. May you continue to love that 10 year old self and offer her and yourself grace. You deserve it.

  • @Worldsemblance
    @Worldsemblance Před 4 lety +9

    I remember watching it, you were a child and there were so many terrible people that expected so much more from you...
    you were a child, and you weren’t perfect, you weren’t trying to be spoiled... and you don’t have to prove this to anyone but yourself...
    You are okay... and I think they way people have made you feel about that moment in your life really sucks...
    I was a teacher and I know how hard it would be for any kids that age to go up on stage with that many people, let alone talk in class

  • @michaelmuldowney8
    @michaelmuldowney8 Před 3 lety +2

    The manipulation of talented children on BGT and AGT has always been disgusting. A child should be performing to celebrate the joy of their talent. Having to compete against adults is just plain wrong. Glad you took positives from this experience however. Stay safe.

  • @wrestlinglandscape9716

    Really really good way to talk about ptsd and trauma genuinely so good too open up and talk about it I’ve been in the same situation I had a traumatic experience when I was a kid and watching this helped me to cope with it

  • @AwesomeHyperSonic547
    @AwesomeHyperSonic547 Před rokem

    I felt so bad for you watching that as a kid and even now. Thought that little you was so brave to go on Britain's Got Talent, and was rooting for you to win. Anxiety and panic attacks are no laughing matter, thank goodness the judges gave you a second chance. 😌 Glad you came through this difficult time, and you still became a star regardless. Hope you are doing well these days. 👍🤗🤗

  • @lizzie7654
    @lizzie7654 Před 4 lety

    I love that you were brave and went back to this. You were so brave then as well even as a little child. I teach singing and help my students to get on stage, most students are around the age you were here, I honestly can't imagine the platform you were on and processing it at that age. On this processing, it's so good you are working through barriers or things you've been holding that you didn't need too. A while ago, I worked through some past things I had to face up to from childhood, to move on in my life, a mentor I had said "It's like you locked a monster in a box, because at the time it was such a big monster and you couldn't fight if, but now you are bigger and when you open the box, it will be smaller and it won't hold the power it did when you were facing it the last time." And she was right, I feel like this is similar for you. All the best Hollie ❤️❤️❤️

  • @fahd4550
    @fahd4550 Před 3 lety +1

    Alway believe in yourself no matter where you are and it will make even the hardest thing easy for you.

  • @juandanielvidelamontilla3403
    @juandanielvidelamontilla3403 Před 11 měsíci

    you beautiful soul. I can tell all this was so trying. you brave, then and now!

  • @dwighthorner4486
    @dwighthorner4486 Před 3 lety

    i think your personality is honest and as beautiful as you are. don't change yourself. you are so humble that i don't think you realize it.

  • @mariamnozadze4227
    @mariamnozadze4227 Před 4 lety +1

    it's strange as you say that so many people were against.. As i saw through the video everyone was there to support and encourage you.
    You were and you are awesome and I hope you'll appear in talent show again after 11 years!
    We're waiting for you, Hollie ❤️

    • @themiserychick9219
      @themiserychick9219 Před 2 lety

      I remember years ago when I watched the video there were a lot of comments and also top comments that were roasting her, maybe now they all got overtaken by positive comments, which is awesome. I think back then CZcams was a worse space than it is now, but anyway it's always not okay to be judgemental to such a thing.

    • @jixer1956
      @jixer1956 Před 10 měsíci

      ​@@themiserychick9219 @bobseason9064 posted an absolutely nasty comment on this video. There are a few other detractors but he's the worst.

  • @sakurasakura2892
    @sakurasakura2892 Před 2 lety

    Hi Hollie, I honestly think that you did really really well even the first time you sang. I was just so mesmerized with your voice. I didnt see any flaws to be honest with you. While you were singing, all I can see is a child blessed with angelic voice. You did brilliantly well the first time. The second time you proved your perseverance and determination. Youre not only someone with a beautiful voice but an exceptional young girl as well!

  • @johnmcgrath8166
    @johnmcgrath8166 Před 2 lety

    What you need to know you are loved beyond measure. Be yourself and realise that 10 year old is you. You've stole hearts. Be her and bring that innocence to the core. That's what makes you. You will always be loved

  • @michaelmuldowney8
    @michaelmuldowney8 Před 2 lety

    Whatever doesn’t destroy you only make you stronger. And this clip clearly demonstrates which of the nations favorite duo is a genuine caring individual and which of them is as his trial judge said is a person “not of good character”

  • @alema1443
    @alema1443 Před 2 lety

    Are you kidding you are such an angel and being able to do that at 10 years of age with that voice is unbelievable I hope that you are in the music industry or voices in movies and just stay positive and stay around good people don't get drawn into some people are not good people but it seems that you're very strong and willing and able to pull through that don't think twice a question in your life because you were so well loved by the public you could hear that in the crowd so don't forget that you got a lot going for your beautiful young girl 💯♥️🥰🤗🌈

  • @Joey_1999
    @Joey_1999 Před 3 lety

    The other day while I was in the shower I started singing this song to myself. The first time I actually heard it was from this show so I heard it in your voice in my head. I remembered when I saw this as a kid I thought you were so brave for going back up to sing it again, and not only that but you sang it so beautifully too. Today I thought, "hey I wonder what she's up to now?" So I did a little search and came across this awesome video. Not only were you brave as a girl but you're brave now too, it takes so much strength to look back at a video of such a difficult experience like that. Bravo.

  • @myidentityisamystery5142
    @myidentityisamystery5142 Před 4 lety +1

    Thank you for making this video! I hope more people will see this!

  • @gudrunscherber1351
    @gudrunscherber1351 Před 3 lety

    Dear Hollie. It was so brave, what you do. I often speak to me, to my inner child, to me, as a little girl. I am in tears, when I look your video. You are your strongest supporter. You can be so proud. And sorry, my english is bad.

  • @kindred_kimmy2048
    @kindred_kimmy2048 Před 2 lety

    you know what? You weren't the first to break down and that the reality. Hollie...you like everyone overcame a stressful moment and got your second chance your chance to shine! Bless you!

  • @BANKO007
    @BANKO007 Před rokem

    Hollie, perhaps another way to look at this is that you inspired a lot of people to know that you can be fragile and brave at the same time. I'm sure that in many ways, life is challenging as it is for everyone, but one of the people that can inspire you now is, well ... your young self.

  • @tomthebird
    @tomthebird Před 4 lety +1

    This was a very interesting reaction video. Hollie you are awesome and we love you, I hope you know that!

  • @catherinekelso5592
    @catherinekelso5592 Před 3 lety +1

    So many times we have moments we wish we could go back to our younger selves and say "you've got this, it's going be ok"

  • @bengregory1235
    @bengregory1235 Před 2 lety

    Ant, Dec and Amanda took such good care of you and Simon’s kind words definitely helped you. It’s probably not as bad as you thought because the difference of being that person and being an onlooker is so different

  • @dmb25108
    @dmb25108 Před 2 lety

    Hollie you sang the song beautifully, watching it I can see you were still nervous but as you sang you began to blossom like the beautiful little flower you were singing about.

  • @charlesreed1648
    @charlesreed1648 Před 3 lety

    I remember seeing your original performance. I thought you were great then and handled yourself very well for the situation...especially since you were only 10 years old. I thought of you as very strong, beautiful and smart. And you were wise to show your disappointment afterward in possibly not being able to have a second chance. Thankfully you were given the chance and did great. You are and were a winner in my eyes. God bless your future Hollie!