EMDR THERAPY | SESSIONS 1 AND 2 | COMPLEX PTSD TREATMENT
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- čas přidán 31. 03. 2019
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In this video you will hear me describe my first and second #EMDRTHERAPY sessions. I am very open and give details about the way I feel and I try to explain how the process works. This is definitely a touchy subject for most people so if this kind of video is not for you, NO WORRIES! I am still uploading my regular content as well as my #EMDR & #PTSD journey videos. I really wanted to document this process for myself so that I could see all the progress I make as I take this journey. My family is my priority, as well as my mental health. If you would like to see why I have decided to dive into this kind of therapy I will link my "LIFE UPDATE" video below! This will give you some insight into the situation. I hope that if you are struggling with something you know that I am ALWAYS here for you! We shouldn't walk through tough life circumstances alone!
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Can't wait to see all my progress in this journey! Thank ya'll for following along and being supportive. If you have any questions leave them below or just say hello! :) love you all!
You’re so courageous to try EMDR and share about it. I’m a therapist trained in EMDR and really appreciate you sharing this from a client perspective. Wishing you continued healing.
Christine Ackerly thank you so much!❤️
EMDR Training saved my life. It doesn't erase your traumatic memories, but it makes them managable.
I'm a therapist trained in EMDR. I admire your vulnerability in sharing your journey!! I hope you are continuing to heal.
You look wrecked / exhausted when you get out... You're truly putting in work! Wish you the best.
Caucasian African I truly am after every session! I’m ready to kick these traumas in the butt and move forward in a healthy way😊 thanks for commenting!
EMDR therapy really works. I used to have PTSD from a terrible car accident in 1993. I didn’t sleep at night, I couldn’t sleep in vehicles, if I heard the sound of crashing vehicle (even if it was on tv) or even the smell of gas I would have a panic attack.
I just found your video today! Thank you so much for posting your journey! I started on Mar. 4th w/ a well attuned, well trained EMDR/IFS (internal family system) therapist & it only gets better. My anxiety level lessened pretty much from the beginning & so much more healing has taken place so that my family relationships are so much better as well. I trust that God has guided me all along the way & that's the best part for me!
I have my first EMDR session tomorrow, and this video helped me feel less anxious about it, so thank you.
Thank you for sharing your journey. I just started EMDR. I am grateful my therapist is so patient with me. We have worked together for a while doing CBT, talk therapy etc. She recommended we try EMDR to help with some very difficult content that has caused problems for me for many years. I just about cried when you stated your safe place was with your Mamaw. As crazy as it sounds...that was exactly my safe place too; with my Mamaw. She was my safe place for me, a terrified little boy. She never pushed me away, she always drew me near to her, held me, rocked me, loved me...she always made me feel safe and special. To all of the special Mamaw's of the world thank you, my Mamaw saved my life. Thanks for sharing your story.
💙💙💙💙 mamaws are the best
Thank you for this. I’m new to this diagnosis at age 32, and I am finally starting to feel hope. Thank you so much for being so open and vulnerable.
I’m doing emdr soon and I’m scared I’m going to have a bad flashback or remember another trauma my brain has been hiding from myself
This is so interesting. I think you talking about your journey may helps us all about finding comfort and taking charge
I had my first session today and I watched ur video before going in to my appointment to try and understand it and see what I was walking into. And it helped a lot!! So thank you! Please continue to up date us. Excited to see if it works for you!! Good luck! I’m subscribed!
Gissele Flores oh yay! I’m so happy that I helped even if it was just a little bit❤️ we’re all in this together! I hope that you see progress during your therapy!! :)
Ensor Vlogs... Thank you 4 being so transparent, sharing your safe place & safe word. Your detailed explanation of the progress really helped me! In tears, thank you!
Thank you for making this video and sharing your experience!
To make a long story short I went from melting down and panicking over having agreed to try this to feeling like its going to be ok.
I can tell tell its really draining and challenging, but I feel better knowing that you arent thrown into it head first.
So thank you so much for sharing and being real about your experience.
As a EMDR trained LPC, you did a really good job explaining things in a way others can understand. It is very draining to engage in therapy.
Good luck with the treatment, I’m going to start EMDR soon. I’ll follow you
Yes, thanks for sharing your journey. Very cool that you are doing this! I'm inspired.
Cort Curtis thank you for watching & taking the time to comment! 😊 I’m hoping sharing this journey will help others
Ty for sharing. EMDR has recently been suggested for me and I’m apprehensive but willing to do what is needed to heal. This really helps!!
This was very helpful. Thank you for sharing your experience.
Really interesting! Im glad you are sharing..this will help others that are interesting in EMDR therapy!
Thank you so much, I have my first ever EMDR session in a week. I am grateful to you for sharing your vulnerability. I am trying to gather as much as information and courage I can, to reconfirm something I know that healing is possible. Much Love!
Thank you for sharing this. I have been in therapy for awhile for alot of different reasons. I am about to start EMDR next week. You ARE enough! ❤️
Im thinking of doing emdr therapy and im gonna watch your videos. Thank you for being brave.
Thanks for doing this.
Thank you for sharing!🤗❤️Very encouraging.
Awesome that you covered this. Seems like a really promising therapy
#GetWoke thank you❤️
woow, thank you for sharing this! I'm really grateful for your courage and vulnerability to talk about this! I'm about to start this therapy next week, so looking at different materials that can kind of prepare me for that. I can't find a healthy relationship and it's getting worse. My heart is bleeding after each break up. I really hope this therapy will help me to heal and maybe even get a loving and healthy relationship in the future.
You are articulating it very well. Thank you.
Thank you for posting this! ❤
I usually fall asleep when I get home from EMDR, and i have found myself dozing on and off the day after, I've had 12 sessions and the doc wants me to have lots more, the first day the doc said to me that "the next twelve weeks are going to be hell are you prepared for that?" And it has been but it's also been the best thing I've ever done, it's the hardest thing I've ever done as well, just picturing those memories that are clear in my head but happened twenty eight years ago, that's hard, picturing the worst thing that happened to you while watching a light go back and forth is extremely scary, then having the doc ask you how feel about yourself and how you want to feel about yourself, I usually end up sobbing on my hubbys chest on the drive home, but it's actually made that worst thing feel like it happened year's ago instead of feeling like it happened last week, I'm not getting those emotions when I think of it now, what i would tell anyone that is thinking of going to EMDR is that it's hard work, your telling your brain to do two different things at once, your brain is not used to that at all, so for me after a session i feel drained, emotionally and physically, it has made my flashbacks and nightmares (which I've been informed are flashbacks while you sleep) more intense but less often, my hubby doesn't have to wake me up that often now because I'm screaming in my sleep, the one downside is that I've remembered things that happened to me that my brain has hidden for twenty eight year's because it could not handle what was going on, that's been really hard,, I've been in therapy for five year's, talking to someone every other week, I've done different therapies like DBT and emotional regulation, they have helped a little but I truly believe this is working, I don't feel so scared all the time, I'm actually starting to get out of my house, you have so many emotions during a EMDR session, I've felt sad, scared and REALLY angry, but I'm getting there, I'm just hoping that the final five sessions I've got can stop the memories from running my life, I'm so proud of everyone that decides to do this, you are stronger than your memories, you run your life not them, thank you for sharing this video and i wish you well in your journey
how do u feel now?
Still watching but wow so interesting on the therapy!!
Thanks for sharing your journey! Love uuuuu
you da best! thanks for watching
Thank you very very much for these videos. My significant other has just started this today and I am trying to understand it all and figure out how I can help and support her through the process. You have eased my mind and I greatly appreciate the knowledge you have passed on from "her perspective".
I’m so glad this could help in any small way! I hope that the journey of healing continues and brings peace to y’all 🙏🏼🖤
@@Forgetbreezy wow. I never expected an answer on a video this old. I am hoping that it will. Her trauma is extensive to the point that she in doing inpatient for 4 days. I scares me as I don't know what is going on and she is cutoff completely from me, they confiscated her phone and she is not allowed to communicate with me these 4 days. You have helped with that fear so much. Just getting ready to start the 7&8 video.
Emdr therapy has recently changed my life. Thank you for posting. I have the same reaction with my safe word it’s hard to explain.
Me too! The safe place technique didn’t work well as i want because i dont know how it like to be safe. But after giving it sometime it did work especially after processing some memories and practicing grounding techniques I think.
It's the first time that I see your channel and I applaud your will to help other people.
Thanks for sharing your journey - you're really working hard to get there! Wishing you the best!
You explained the process well!
I've heard of EMDR through a podcast (Back from the Abyss), but didn't know much about it. I've been thinking about finding a therapist near me who does it and give it a try. Your video is convincing me to try it. Thanks for sharing your thoughts
I'm going into EMDR therapy this summer💖
Thank you!!
Thank you so much for this, I will start EMDR after more sessions with my therapist. When it is time for me to do EMDR, she will refer me to someone.
You’re doing a great job and you are so brave
And I know exactly what you where talking about with the dissocociation
Interestingly the very moment you start dissociation yourself with dissociation you can snap out of it quickly
I have been doing EMDR for 3 yrs now. When one incident is address and cleared another comes right in to take its place. This is a very intense process,sometimes I just want to end it,but I haven't yet.
Is it worth it?
Im worried that will happen to me and something else will take its place
You look drained after the second one. :(
I want and need to do this so very bad, but I am sooo scared to do it. I am looking forward to seeing where your journey has went.
Fireflies in a mason jar is beautiful.....
Yea my memory of them was my mom whipping my ass cause it was 4th of July she said no glass jars or glasses & I got a glass mason jar.🥴 it wasn’t good lol.
I also have complex PTSD and just had my first "prep" session today, finding my safe place and words to take me there. scared and looking forward to continuing with this
Katie Wheeler it is scary at first, I honestly wanted to give up a couple times at the beginning. But now I can honestly say I’m in such a better place than I was when I started. I hope that your journey finds you peace Katie! All the best to you. You GOT THIS!
@@Forgetbreezy thank you so much for the encouragement and sharing your journey!
3:28 when you mentioned your safe place your smile reminded me of my safe place and how I feel when I bring that image up. I feel free and in peace but with overwhelming happiness at the same time. Even though there we're people around me in that image it feels like I'm alone.
Its recommended to be alone as “getting past your past” book says. You can only include pets if it has no bad memories attached to it.
I just began emdr with my therapist who is still taking classes, but she wanted to try out bilateral stimulation. We didn’t go into a deep trauma from my childhood but we just worked on something that’s been upsetting me now. I noticed I slept for a long time after my session and then had super vivid dreams that night. Then the next morning I woke up super angry and everything was just irritating me. My question is, did you ever experience this or do you know if this is normal?
I don't think I can do it. I've tried finding a safe place or memory while meditating and there is none. And being vulnerable around a therapist in public, idk. Mostly I don't know how to find a safe thought/word/imagery
R C i get this! It has taken me over a year and a half to trust my therapist enough to try it. Just started EMDR. My safe place is totally made up.
I’m finding this video 6 months after you’ve posted- how are you feeling now? I have servers complex PTSD from over 15 years of multiple traumas- I’m writing this as someone who’s desperate for a change in my mind. My marriage is struggling from it, I have a hard time being a good mom bc of it, a lot of aspects of my life are effected, including my ability to make connections with other people. I guess what I’m wondering is how is this holding up for you? Bc I’m desperately searching for something that will help me recover. Reg Counseling at one point helped me- however I had 12 extra years of severe trauma occur post counseling... and I just never went back.
Mandi Lovelady thank you for reaching out! 6 months of consistent counseling / EMDR therapy has done WONDERS in my life! I can honestly say that I am in a healthier head space now. I too was struggling in my life with relationships and being a good mom & wife too! It really has helped me in so many ways. I recommend this therapy to anyone that asks me! WORTH IT! It’s hard work though you have to commit, but the results are worth it all!❤️
Ensor Vlogs after watching 1-8 of your videos from your therapy sessions, and seeing the obvious progress in your voice and the hopefulness showing through the struggle, I was highly inspired to get online and look up an EDMR therapist for my area. After a few calls I found one who does house calls (of all things!) and who also works with children. My kids and I have experienced a lot of trauma from my past marriage- so I am incredibly hopeful in this journey! I feel like I am 100 percent dedicated to putting the work into this, and very positive in finally recovering! And even more so for my children, so that they will not have to grow up wondering why they can’t feel better inside. I want to say thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for sharing your story, being vulnerable, and real- because had I not stumbled upon your videos.... it’s very likely I’d have never pursued this EDMR therapy. Your testimony through these videos are going to be a very big part in my life, and my kids life changing for the better. Thanks so much again-
@@Forgetbreezy am so happy for you and am excited on the results for EMDR. I completed my third session today and I am beginning to be more open what happened to me and my therapist has been so reassuring. Tq for sharing your experience
How long does it take for you to feel somewhat normal after. I go weekly and I’m on week 3. Lord have mercy I’ve been so exhausted, emotional, triggered so easily. Hoping this is how it gets worse before it gets better
It really is so taxing emotionally and draining! I noticed a big change after my 6th session
@@Forgetbreezy are you still seeing you therapist?
I've had my first session of EMDR recently and I'm feeling very anxious lately. Is this a side effect? I'm scared that this feeling won't go away 😰
I’m doing EMDR now. The same thing happened to me. My therapist told me it gets worse before it gets better.
Thanks!!! Starting this therapy soon 🇬🇧✌
What’s the trauma. I wonder if it will work on my crazy trauma 🤦🏽♀️
Not wearing a seatbelt and looking at a phone instead of the road will get you and others killed. Would be a huge setback to your therapy.
I don’t think she is driving...
the5thYearSeniors you’re a fucking dick dude lol
As a therapist I dont know the logic and safety in bringing your therapy onto a public forum. I am wondering of your therapist is aware of this. Especially so soon after each session.
Just sharing my personal experience in hopes it helps others and encourages people to seek this kind of therapy if they wish to. My therapist knows as well.