First Time Hearing Alone With Me by Hopsin | Suicide Survivor Reacts

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  • čas přidán 13. 04. 2022
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    Let me just begin by saying that I don't like rap but WOW this is the exception to the rule. This is my first time hearing Alone With me by Hopsin and it was a very pleasant surprise for me.
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  • @MentalAmanda
    @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety +8

    💖Keep the mental health conversation going by sharing your story here in the comments. No matter where you are in your journey, you have a safe place here to share your struggles and accomplishments without judgment. This is how we shatter the mental health stigma.💖
    And if you need some direction and would like me to be your Happiness teacher, you can sign up for my Happiness Boost course here:
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    • @logankerlee
      @logankerlee Před 2 lety

      Good vibes. :)

    • @Cripplified
      @Cripplified Před rokem

      Thank you for accepting rap music suggestions when they are applicable to the channel. Not all rap is filled with the party, sex, and violence stereotypes. It's an artform that can be poetic and beautiful when done right, just like any other genre. You don't need to go back and listen to music you react to to at least appreciate it's message. I'm glad you're willing to expand your musical horizon to talk about the message a song is trying to send, and how you can relate to it.

  • @UKFreakster86
    @UKFreakster86 Před 2 lety +20

    I'm into any genre of music but generally metal/rock/blues/punk but I'm always drawn to rap like Hopsin, Jelly Roll, Tech N9ne, NF etc because they have so many mental health songs and songs that reach us on that kind of level. So glad to see this reaction, keep up the important work :)

  • @samuelsmith5622
    @samuelsmith5622 Před 2 lety +6

    I needed this today, my mind went/is still there since yesterday. I'm 54 and have been fighting this darkness since I was 9 years old. It gets harder to fight this, 3 years ago I almost succeeded, my body had other plans. Thank you for this space.

  • @bararobberbaron859
    @bararobberbaron859 Před rokem +2

    Aside from the song and the reaction, I have to say, I think 'Not a bunny' is my favorite description of Hopsin. So many ways to describe him, all with their own connotations attached, using different words to avoid saying stuff with connotations in itself has connotations. But the pure innocence and surrealism of 'Not a bunny' somehow just works for me. It tickled me. And especially what he says to/about himself in the song, the innocence to the opening is a lovely juxtaposition.

  • @b3r3tta95
    @b3r3tta95 Před 2 lety +5

    hopsin also struggles with mental health. how he's so relatable

  • @mavhunter8753
    @mavhunter8753 Před 2 lety +3

    You should do more Hopsin. He’s very introspective. Also, I’m sorry to hear about your mom, I send my condolences.

  • @headphones2006
    @headphones2006 Před 2 lety +4

    My demons have been really loud lately. This song is kinda how I have been feeling. I can’t be alone with myself because of my shadow, which is why I always have something playing in my earphones. I can’t be alone with myself but yet I wanna be alone all the time. It’s to the point my girlfriend and son are noticing. Yesterday it got to a point that I almost screamed and broke down in front of her and her cousins. This has been a really hard week

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety +3

      Hey Alec! I'm so sorry that your Shadow is trying to knock you down. We're all here for you and won't let you face this alone!

  • @deejayturtle
    @deejayturtle Před 2 lety +3

    OMG. This is crazy. This is my horror. My inner critics won't shut up, I can't even sleep without something on to drown out the inner critics.

    • @SparkimusPrime
      @SparkimusPrime Před 2 lety +1

      Hopsin is always just so good. You should check out his Ill Mind of Hopsin series he did. Hope your well! 🖤

    • @deejayturtle
      @deejayturtle Před 2 lety +1

      @@SparkimusPrime I'm as well as normal. Had a major break through recently with my anxiety. Would love to chat with you soon. When last we talked you were having some issues and that was months ago. Hope you are well also.

    • @SparkimusPrime
      @SparkimusPrime Před 2 lety +1

      @@deejayturtle I will hit you up on discord later and we can chat 😊

    • @SparkimusPrime
      @SparkimusPrime Před 2 lety +1

      @@deejayturtle Congrats on your breakthrough! Make sure you give yourself credit for that progress 🖤

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety

      It took a while, but I started overwriting the tapes that they had been so deeply ingrained. It takes consistency, but it's a HUGE part of getting past the darkness.

  • @garrettai1610
    @garrettai1610 Před 2 lety +3

    I'm not into rap either but this guy does send really good messages

  • @JD-mo4fv
    @JD-mo4fv Před 2 lety +1

    Amanda, Glad you got to this. I had to throw you one with a positive message. Sorry I haven't been able to jump on a Friday Livestream lately but things have been hectic. I have a few more for you to do. Glad you liked it the song though. See you soon on a live stream. ;IGY6

  • @user-lx3qr3kf2g
    @user-lx3qr3kf2g Před 10 měsíci

    neven know iam a old school rocker but i love that is like it was talking to me to RYAN

  • @SparkimusPrime
    @SparkimusPrime Před 2 lety +2

    Yay!! I was hoping you would get to this!! This track and video are so good and so vulnerable in all the best ways 🖤
    I would love to see you react to Phantom Regret by Jim. Jim Carrey does a spoken word piece as the last track off The Weeknd’s new album. It’s one of the most beautiful and haunting things I’ve ever heard. It’s messed me up existentially. Three months after the album came out and I still listen/think about it everyday.
    Thank you for always having such compassionate reaction to what you listen to 🖤

    • @deejayturtle
      @deejayturtle Před 2 lety +1

      LoL, so you sub'd to Amanda too? Figures.

    • @SparkimusPrime
      @SparkimusPrime Před 2 lety +1

      @@deejayturtle Hahaha I’ve noticed we sub to a it of the same channels 🖤

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety

      Aww, friend match! Adorbs!

  • @sirikalvik
    @sirikalvik Před 2 lety +1

    Hello Amanda. Nice to see you exploring hiphop! It's unfortunately a stigmatized genre. Hiphop has a lot to offer, and many of my favorite rap songs are tied in with mentality.
    One song I would like to recommend to you is a song by an artist called NF called Why would you leave us.
    It's a song dedicated to his mother who died of drug overdose, and it touches on the perspective of the loved ones that are left behind.
    But I warn you to watch it on a good day, as it is truly heartbreaking, but also massively beutifully made and very important.
    Hope you have a wonderfull easter, and stay strong!

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety +1

      Thank you. Here is one NF song that I have done. czcams.com/video/XKJfS5Eu36I/video.html

  • @sleepydragonzarinthal3533

    I suggest listening to something like Aesop Rock - Rings or even his older older stuff, it's pretty raw and honest about depression and self awareness. I'll never forget Ill Mind of Hopsin, it gets really raw, he's explored his pain so thoroughly and publicly it's unbelievable. I am not a big hip hop fan, but some of them like Aesop Rock and Hopsin are too legit to ignore

  • @diabloeb
    @diabloeb Před rokem

    The kid is a ... touchy subject. I highly recommend Hopsin, all of his music comes with a powerful message that can change lives. If you want to learn more about his son situation, Ill Mind of Hopsin 9 gives the situation, and might also be worth a reaction, it's a lot less gritty than this one

    • @Snoorlacks
      @Snoorlacks Před rokem

      Also ‘Hotel in Sydney’ gives a lot of context and backstory to what happened

  • @brianhenn9872
    @brianhenn9872 Před 2 lety +1

    Don't really think you need the whole "journey" but you should get into NF. Mansion, Wake up, Outcast, Paralyzed, NATE, and Taruma are good for your message. Maybe also "interlude with Hate myself". He also does one called LOST with Hopsin.

  • @numbtolife4032
    @numbtolife4032 Před 2 lety +1

    I don't feel alive necessarily. I feel like a conduit, alive for the sake of others.
    Can't say for sure if I hate myself like in the past, but I can't look at myself with sympathy either.
    Thank you for your thoughts and feelings.

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety +1

      That is a very poetic way of putting it. I've been there. Why can't you offer yourself sympathy?

    • @numbtolife4032
      @numbtolife4032 Před 2 lety

      @@MentalAmanda it's not an aspect I'm comfortable with, looking and reflecting on myself with sympathy and empathy. I don't feel I deserve reprieve. To reference NF, I feel like I'm at war inside myself but I forgot the shells. More I could say, but I digress. Thank you for taking time out of your day to reply, means alot.

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety +1

      @@numbtolife4032 I didn't say you had to be comfortable practicing it. Growth happens when we do the uncomfortable stuff!

    • @danielfarias5182
      @danielfarias5182 Před rokem +1

      Tbh, it's possible you are, I know exactly how u feel, cuz I'm the same

  • @haveyouseenmybaseball8920

    You should listen to I'll mind 7 by hopsin.

  • @idontknow-vq9hu
    @idontknow-vq9hu Před 2 lety

    Sleep Token - Blood Sport (from the room below)

  • @davidgaps6589
    @davidgaps6589 Před 2 lety

    I have my episodes in life, and each on leaves a splinter or fracture in my mind. They never leave. I can keep them contained, but sometimes the flare up and get inflamed. This triggers self doubt, self loathing. They shine a spotlight on all my failures. Each failure that left a splinter. Then I over correct, and instead of reaching for help, I pull in. Don't bother others. Don't upset others. I fantasize about a gladiator moment or fight club moment. Me against someone that represents my dark self. I will do battle, a fight to the death. I will kill or be killed. Maybe its a male thing. Anxiety triggering my fight or flight.

    • @davidgaps6589
      @davidgaps6589 Před 2 lety

      I loved Gandhi at the end.

    • @ak2nda695
      @ak2nda695 Před 2 lety

      Pull the splinters out, use them as tooth picks and throw them away. I know it's easier said than done, but when you know you're shutting down just stop it. I have to do that a lot. I'm not great at it but I when I feel that way I just try to talk to anyone about anything. We humans are pack animals, you can be on the outer edge of the pack, just don't wander off.

  • @cmdrjat7074
    @cmdrjat7074 Před 2 lety +1

    You should do a reaction to down in a hole by Alice in chains the MTV unplugged version. I struggle with depression daily and have no one to talk to. When I hear that song, the lyrics and just the raw emotion in his voice absolutely just tears me apart

  • @loganbrown6184
    @loganbrown6184 Před 2 lety +1

    Eminem - My Darling
    Another good song about inner demons/personalities that put in their two cent. Specifically from Eminem's point of view.

  • @codybyas2675
    @codybyas2675 Před 2 lety

    You should check out Break The Cycle by Motionless In White! It’s one of my favorite songs and is also very powerful… most Motionless In White music is quite powerful

  • @donovandelaney3171
    @donovandelaney3171 Před 2 lety +1

    Take a look at My heart is Broken by Evanescence.

  • @jeremycooper638
    @jeremycooper638 Před 2 lety

    Your story you told is alot like the song glass house by machine gun kelly. That song saved my life..came on at the right moment for some reason

  • @jamessteinhoff7711
    @jamessteinhoff7711 Před 2 lety

    How's your day going so far

  • @chrismyhre354
    @chrismyhre354 Před 2 lety

    you should check out more hopsin, he is very talented. I recommend ill mind of hopsin 9

  • @kangwachisha3357
    @kangwachisha3357 Před 2 lety

    You can also check out hopsin ill mind of hopsin 7

  • @johngagne4673
    @johngagne4673 Před 2 lety

    Please do No Way Out by Bullet for my Valentine, it fits in with in mental health

  • @stevendolangitano4life301

    Rap is a genre I'm actually getting used to. I'm very particular to what I listen to when it comes to rap. Thank you for this interesting tidbit. Fridays are my Narcotics Anonymous meeting, so I won't be here for the livestream. Have fun ya'll.

  • @ak2nda695
    @ak2nda695 Před 2 lety

    Rap is the number one genre of music that I cannot listen to. I will say this was a very well written song.
    I simply call the negative thoughts my demons. I will often say out loud "devil get out of my head" that's usually when I am thinking it would be easier to end it all.
    Wednesday I was extremely positive, Thursday was ok until I found out my son got into some legal trouble. We have to hire a lawyer. He keeps making bad decisions and I worry about his mental health. I stayed as calm as I could, I ate my anger (figuratively) and didn't lose my cool with him, I didn't even raise my voice. When we got done talking to him, the demons started in my head. Telling me I'm a failure as a parent.
    It's 2am and I'm waiting very anxiously to call a lawyer at 9am.

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před 2 lety

      Very proud of you for using your skills to regulate your emotions and focus on helping him. I messed up really bad as a teen. Got a felony. Got into drugs. Self harmed. The whole nine yards. I couldn't have asked for better parents. It wasn't their fault and I'm confident it's not yours either.

  • @alokorton5125
    @alokorton5125 Před 2 lety +1

    React dear alcohol

  • @PaganGamer520
    @PaganGamer520 Před rokem +1

    You need to look up and watch NF I suggest the search first.

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před rokem

      One NF reaction already czcams.com/video/XKJfS5Eu36I/video.html

  • @dustybones1448
    @dustybones1448 Před 2 lety

    Metal music is great, should try a little rap review Wu Tang clan good stuff.

  • @masterroshi2158
    @masterroshi2158 Před 2 lety

    I've heard a bit of hopsin and he does alot of song with a very dark truth you may not always be ready for what he's about to say a few others buy him I think more people should see are ill mind of hopsin 5 and ill mind of hopsin 6

  • @allenrogalskiy7036
    @allenrogalskiy7036 Před 2 lety

    Please do nf how could you leave us.

  • @lwandleloumaphumulo4381

    You should try and react to NF 😭

    • @MentalAmanda
      @MentalAmanda  Před rokem

      Here is one NF reaction czcams.com/video/XKJfS5Eu36I/video.html

  • @rogerlosh3537
    @rogerlosh3537 Před 2 lety

    Listen to already dead by juice wrld

  • @jamessteinhoff7711
    @jamessteinhoff7711 Před 2 lety

    Linkin Park castle of glass

  • @oscarhokom8394
    @oscarhokom8394 Před 2 lety

    Yea hopsin is pretty good but I prefer Dax.