lyrics: Don't kill me Just help me run away From everyone I need a place to stay Where I can cover up my face Don't cry I am just a freak I am just a freak I am just a freak I am just a freak My head is filled with parasites Black holes cover up my eyes I dream of you almost every night Hopefully I won't wake up this time I won't wake up this time I won't wake up this time I won't wake up this time remember you are loved. I love you
there was a girl I liked at school last year so she liked me too and she came and said she likes me but i rejected her because of my strict parents and i really regret it now she changed her school i hope to see her every everyday when i walk in the streets :( i think about my choices every day everytime i go to school it reminds me of her
I'm abused and my parents call me fat and tend to send me too my room because my mom is sexist for being a boy. She treats my 3 younger sisters like normal daughters but they hate me and called me a reject and they said they wished to abort me. I tried to do anything. It won't work. I'm not saying I need help because in 2 years I turn 18.
@@ahmetarda1912 damn bro. Sad man there's still plenty fish in the sea. Plus if you need comfort I can send you my discord. (I just realized this was a year ago so if you want to it's okay.)
Anyone reading this, I love you. You may not know me and I may not know you but I know your beautiful and strong! I'm very proud of how far you've came and if you haven't please get some food and water and enough sleep. You are enough, you are perfect, you are worth it, you are YOU.
*you know that emotional pain where everything is cold and it feels so dark and you feel empty and hungry and then you feel that shiver run down your body*
this song makes me feel like i'm wasting my teenage years where you go out with friends on car rides and blast loud music and laugh together, or where you walk alone in the dark streets with headphones on admiring the dark beauty around you. i really am wasting my teen years. instead, im home all the times, no friends to go out with, always being told off my parents that i can't do this or that. i wish life was like the movies. teens having fun, not stressed about school grades and always being depressed. i was so excited to be a teenager, turns out that it wasn't what i expected. i hate life.
same. I feel so lost. My own dad said you have no friends and when I thought of it he was right. I really only have 2 real friends. I try to do fun stuff with them but their always busy
honestly this year in school was really stressful for me, especially when I went back to doing in-person school instead of online since I’m kinda antisocial and didn’t really like anyone there except people I was close with. It was more harder and stressful, and everyday I kept losing motivation although I gained amazing, caring, friends, I just still couldn’t hold on, but it wasn’t even a week before I planned on giving up, like two days after I wanted to give up, an angel sent from heaven literally enters my life and he makes me feel so much better. Honestly I don’t know what I did to deserve him, I don’t know why but his voice, laugh, smile, him yelling my name across the school halls, and football field or anywhere just in general, keeps me going through the day and having my head held high. I never mention it to him or not even the person I’m closest to, but he always makes me the happiest person no matter how sad, frustrated, or stressed I’m feeling. I don’t know what a hopeless romantic is but he really is someone that just always keeps me going through the day at school. Everyday I look forward to going to school just so I could see him, but even if he’s playing with my feelings and just want to make me feel better so he can put me down later on, I still thank him for showing me what it feels to atleast feel loved, even if it’s was just for awhile. I love him so much that I can’t even be around him without smiling, hearing his exact voice calling my name, us making eye contact yet not talk but just smile at each other and walk past each other just to look back at each other at the same time and smile even more, him not being afraid to yell “I LOVE YOU” or “LETS GO JAMYYY” infront of his friends or even teachers, him getting jealous if one of his friends try talking to me, all of it, just makes me happy, and he’s the reason to why. I just know that if I ever lose him in the future, which I probably will since not everything lasts forever :)... I know that it’s gonna tear me apart more than ever and it’s gonna definitely be the most painful thing for me to go through. Sometimes one of his friends in last period always glance at me and say “Jamy, Will has feelings for you” or something like that, and honestly I know he can’t really tell, but holly sh!t I smile so damn bad behind my mask when even is friends come up to me and tell me about how he feels
I found it amazing how people can’t tell their closest friends these things but they can tell random people online, why is it amazing? Because somehow that person trust random people with that information and I personally think that is a Beautiful thing. I hope you have a great life Jamy!
I needed up loosing a lot of friends over quarantine.. school has been so hard that I have an incomplete in two classes and it’s almost the end of the year. Im so stressed and and I don’t know how to fix it. Doing work is so hard these days. I ended up going to irl school because I was forced by my parents and I don’t have a single friend at school. I’ve been alone at Lunch and recess just reading a book alone at a table.
wake up, school, come home, eat, sleep and all over again. everyday is the same and i'm so sick of everything. i'm only 12 years old and i have to go through stress and other things. honestely it's tiring. teachers are always over working ourselves by them setting so much homework for us and we don't even get a break. and society now changed to being normal but now its toxic. honestly can't wait for things to end. if ur reading this i wanna let u know that ur so strong and beautiful and i wish u all success and happiness in the world that u deserve .
Спасибо 🥲🫂 Ну я тебя понимаю скоро я перееду на 9 класс экзамены, домашние задания, уроки. Я сама стрессую по этому поводу мне попросту страшно за моё будущее и за оценки. Мне с детства влили в голову учиться на 5 быть отличником но я мне могу 🥲
It's always the ' Why are you crying? ' oh im the same as everyone i act exactly the same as u did ' at this age ' LIKE LET ME LIVE GOODNESS SAKE IM TIRED
Im 12 too people we don't know what stress is because of our age sometimes so I gave up. I don't care about my grades. I will when I'm the right age to feel stressed
Dear person whoever reads this, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile. Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs. Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. I love you and send you hugs. You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you. YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN. I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC. You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is. Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO. It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up. I am sorry you feel misunderstood. But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it. And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you. I hope you will remember my words- luke :) Until tomorrow, my friend :)
thank you. I don’t know you but you made my day so much better, thank you thank you thank you thank you!! Thanks to you I can finally look forward to waking up and having fun. thank you again. it’s good to know I’m not alone.
It will be ok. idk u but boy do i want to hug u so hard. It will be ok. i swear it will. i know happiness can go in a flash but u know what. u can do this. ilysm. I know how u feel. u can do this. Whatever youre going through.. Ull make it out.. And when shit gets thrown at u... ull feel the pain.. then solve it.. and get over it.. Ik its hard to believe that it will be ok but i swear it will.. ur future is a gift that isnt opened yet. Everything has its positives and negatives... boo it will be ok. I believe in u and all these people who are reading ur comment.
se você não gosta de ser vazia então você pode preencher seu interior com algo que te faz se sentir bem e se tudo doi é um sinal que você só devia fazer as coisas de um jeito diferente espero que isso tenha te ajudado boa noite
Don't kill me just help me run away From everyone I need a place to stay Where I can cover up my face Don't cry, I am just a freak I am just a freak I am just a freak I am just a freak My head is filled with parasites Black holes cover up my eyes I dream of you almost every night Hopefully I won't wake up this time I won't wake up this time I won't wake up this time I won't wake up this time
"I wont wake up this time" hits different when your crying over meeting your friend in a dream and desperately trying to fall back asleep for 2 hours cause you felt safe in their hug
Gosh I felt that. I haven't seen my best friend for a whole 5 years bc I moved away and everyday just hurts more and more without her. Seeing people hang out with their best friends on a daily basis and doing all sorts of things with them really makes me sad and jealous 😔
@@trash9471Yeah I know the feeling.. a friend I knew for almost 7 years ghosted me two years ago and this song helped get me through it. It hurts because I hadn’t had a friend for more than a year or two so it hurt.
You feel empty staring at your wall then you get a lump in your throat and you get shivers down your body and break down, tears streaming down your face unable to control anything you just sit there.
No one will probably see this, so I’ll write my feelings out. I’m in love. Really, really in love. To the point of obsession and fixation. But the problem is that we are not allowed to be together. Not due to my family or anything, but society. It is inappropriate for us to be in a relationship, but that doesn’t stop my feelings for this person. We are so close, and she tells me so much about herself, some of it she’s not supposed to. And she might leave in five weeks. And I don’t have enough time for her.
“Hope fully, I don’t wake up this time”. I relate to that part sm it hurts, since 5th grade I’ve gotten into the habit of whenever it gets to hard, give up. Leading me to 15 od attempts and I’m terrified of that overwhelming feeling coming back into my mind. I’m so tired and I got out of the hospital back in may from the last one, I’m so scared it’s happening again and I’m trying so hard not to let it happen. I haven’t tried yet but it’s gotten to the point where I’m back in my spiral, I don’t plan to try again but I’ve been trying to avoid people in public, overthinking, and walking in the middle of the road with the thought I might die there. I don’t want to relive the past but it’s so difficult not to.
wow same but this time i will never recover from it because im just a useless worthless good for nothing human being or as the video states it, i am just a fish
pov: you were running while crying because someone you thought you could trust betrayed you but yet you knew very well that you`re friendship with that person was going to end but you questioned yourself why does it still hurt is because you knew it was going to end? or because you didn't expect to get betrayed and get hurt in the process?
Please dont do it, im doing exactly the same like you, i just cant do it cuz of my little brother... He keeps me alive every single fucking day, maybe wanna chat with me for a little?
Don't, I love you. No matter how much you hate hearing or how many times you've seen it im struggling as well and just like this girl in this vid i wanna cry and give up but keep swimming it gets better and it did at one point and it still is.
Я тебя понимаю но не стоит этого делать. Когда-то придёт время и все наладится. Закончим школу но всё равно дальше взрослая жизнь. Я сама иногда думаю о экзаменах: -Если не сдам мне конец, моему будущему конец и из за этого думаю а самоубийстве, но это так больно и мучительно. Я не знаю что буду делать когда будут сдавать экзамены мне страшно. 🫂
I get it. There are so many moments I feel the same exact way. What keeps me away from making that permanent decision is the joys we do have in life. Those days were life feels like a movie. Music like this that fills our mind with euphoria. The satisfaction of the things we enjoy. Life sucks. But, if we carry on, it’s well worth it:)
I’d also like to end it. Not forever. You know, just for a little while :) I’m so very tired and my parents won’t let me sleep longer than 17:00. They tell me to get up at 11:00 but erm- no
honestly i dont know where 2 rant...so ill do it here...I'm so stressed out, I cant seem to focus on school and put effort into school work anymore...and I feel I'm letting my mom down, I'm sorry mom...when I go on my phone half of the time i see people always hanging out and they seem sooo goddamn happy, when i take a break from social media, im always missing something and i miss out. on everything..but I cant seem 2 be like them and always go out and have fun like them, im grateful i rlly am but fuck life, like idk who i am yet or how to love myself and love every part of me....my life feels like a routine..and just the same step over and over again..everyday...i feel so lost and alone...i know people around me love me but why cant i feel that love, whats wrong with me where i cant feel it...i just wish this could end..and my mind could find inner peace and my happy place...but i cant, and idk when.
This song makes me happy and sad at the same time... I can't explain it but I love it... it makes me wanna be like teenagers in movies or like on my fyp page... just skateboarding on the road or running in a field with my besties, laying down in the rain with my bestie, it makes me sad that my life isn't like that but it gives me such good vibes and it makes me feel like I'm experiencing it... it makes me kinda happy and it makes me nostalgic about things I've I've experienced... it's just... idk it's a masterpiece
is it just me or is the "i am just a phase" part makes me realize how much im scared of every moment that passed/passes/will pass by? cuz- like- there is always that sudden pressure to treasure every moment cuz u know it will pass by soon and it's driving me nuts- i've said a lot, whoops- bye- {edit: i misheard the "i am just a freak" part as "i am just a phase" and now i shall succumb to the embarrassment, bye-}
I was failing three classes like a month again but one went up to a d and I was so happy but then my happiness is shattered when I tell my parents and they are disappointed in me and think it’s my phone and friends wen those are the only things keeping my happy. My room looks like it’s been abandoned bc I’m too exhausted to get out of bed and clean it. I’m overeating way too much and I hate how fat my body is. Yet I eat to cope with it. My whole family is homophobic and will never except me for being lesbian and the only person that isn’t is my older brother who is 16 and hates me but I want to tell him so bad but Ik I can’t. I have to deal with my alcoholic, racist, homophobic/transphobic, sexist father who is horrible and is always fighting us and has physically abused all of us including my mother. My parents aren’t even married but have separated, even tho once my mom had her first child 19 years ago it went all bad and he treated her like shit and used to throw plates at the wall bc he didn’t like the food but she was pregnant with the my brother at the time. And so how I was an accident. I know I’m a mistake and I will never be “normal”. My family is always saying “why can’t u be normal.” And it makes me want to hurt myself even more. They think everything is wrong because I love anime and bc of my friends. When in reality those r the few things keeping me here. I’m trying my hardest to get my grades up since we got back from spring brake but I’m already giving up. I have a full diorama due tomorrow at 3:00 pm but I haven’t started cause I don’t have the supplies. It’s always been about my brother and how he can do things bc he’s a man and he’s more important cause he’s doing things with his life. I love my brother but he is a total asshole to my mom yet she treats him so well. The only times I do get along with my siblings it always goes wrong. They hate me so much but I just Want to be excepted by them. I’m so close to just ending it all and Im currently using self h**m but I can’t stop. The first time I tried ending myself was when I was not even ten and a half. It could have ended then but I stopped myself. I sat and thought about my friends. Even tho at the time they were horrible and dumped me. But then the people I never expected took me in and they became the best people for me. I love the friends I have now. They may be only two friends but I love them and they make me enjoy living when I’m with them. I haven’t truly been happy in a year except for when I’m with them. I want to be with them all the time. But then I feel like I’m latching onto them. I have horrible trust issues cause every friend has left me except them. Since going back to in person school I’ve made two friends. They are also rlly nice but once again I don’t rlly approach them bc I feel too clingy. I don’t have the energy to do wha ti used to like doing, such as art. I’ve been so lifeless but also not. There’s times where I feel empty and useless and all that but others where I’m laughing and talking. I hate social interaction but THOSE people make me want to talk. I cry every day. I cry and I cry. I used to be the kid who would cry over everything until fifth grade I stopped that and changed my personality for the better. I took my crying away but deep down I wanted to just let loose and cry so badly, but I didn’t. Now I’m letting out and I feel weak for that. My dream is to just fall off a building in Las Vegas or Tokyo at night when the city is beaming. I want to just fall backwards and that being the end. :) goodbye
Sis don't let others tell you who u are let's let's through this together I know u wanna cry and I I do as well and its fine if u do its perfectly fine! Now don't in fact keep on smiling but work your way up to smilinh
I just want you to know that I am so proud of you. I know that your doing amazing. You are so beautiful and amazing! Your so strong. Please stay here with me. I need you here with me. I support, love and care for you.
i’m just so tired, i want to block everyone out and be by myself. i spend all day at school wishing time could go faster and trying not to break into tears at any moment, and when i finally get home i’m happy, until the next day. the cycle just continues. eventually it’s the weekend and i can finally have a break from life but my family wants me to socialise with them, talk to them, anything really but talking to people just makes me want to fall into a hole and die. i only ever feel safe when i’m by myself, in my room, probably crying over how shitty my life has become yet its hardly even started. the weekends are so short, and then the week starts again. it feels like the cycle never ends, it just goes on and on and on of working, socialising and working more. i dont see the point in living if my life will just turn into me working in an office when i’m 50 years old with 3 kids at home. i’m scared of growing up, i’m scared of life, i’m scared of people, i’m so tired. i’ve been trying so hard to hold on for the few people that care about me, but i dont even talk to them about how i really feel. i’m tired i’m tired i’m tired i’m tired i’m tired when will this end when will this end i’m so close to just ending everything and maybe i’ll finally be content. i feel empty, i’m exhausted, everything just seems cold
Same also I'm sorry :( I hope your doing ok 💕💕❤️ I'm always only in my room and talking to my on-line freinds I feel like I can be myself on the internet more than irl even tho I'm just 10 I'm just thinking when I will die or something like that this song makes me think of life and where I will go or do when I turn old
@@NIKKISIXX_101 it’s really hard man i’m sorry you have to go through it as well :( thanks for checking in as well, yeah i’m doing ok also cool you’re a mcyt fan i’m guessing by your profile picture
I'm gonna send this to the gc so we can listen to it while we do our daily therapy calls where we cry and talk about our problems but mostly listen to music in silence.
Lemme tell yall a quick story time. So 2 days ago I turned 17 and 10 minutes before it hit midnight I was listening to this song, crying because of all the memories I made these past years, I realised that I should've enjoyed life more, even tho it was perfect. This song means so much to me and it makes me tear up everytime I hear it.
Look i have to be honest I’m not depressed but I seriously want to just escape everything,the bullies,the yelling,the touching- I want to go escape,start a new life somewhere away from all of this- somewhere with my online bestfriend.. I haven’t even been friends with them for a year and they are better than people I’ve known for almost 8 years
Man I used to cry listening to this song. Now I know who i am, and I don't feel so sad when I listen to it. It's just a reminder of what I'll never do again: not living life to the fullest.
the clip of the girl crying is listening to this song realizing how much time ive been wasting of my life doing pointless stuff, i sit on my bed and watch youtube all day
I don't know what to do anymore - who'dve known that I would be struggling over a BOY? He liked me for so long, and I did too. we had neutral feelings for so long and then we went back to school after lockdown. He's clinging to someone else and they're cuddling and shit all the time and it fucking hurts. They aren't dating, the person he's cuddling with has a partner. and it hurts because me and the person are exactly the same people, im just the second choice all of a sudden? Me and him are opposites, literally, and the person he likes used to think we'd be good together. So why now does he suddenly like them again? What did I do wrong? When they're not there and it's me, him and our other friends he clings to me, and even when they're there he looks at me after jokes, to laugh and look at me. We play with eachothers hands and yet he can't see what he's doing to me. It hurts so much, im in love with him dude.
Whenever I hear this song I always think of the Marauders. I don't know why, it just feels like them. Like if this song existed during their era I feel like I can just see them singing this song at the top of their lungs at a Gryffindor party or just playing this in their dorm. After James and Lily's death Remus curled up in a ball slowly whispering this song to himself, almost being able to hear James and Sirius chanting this together. Meanwhile Sirius was also humming this to himself, reminding himself of the "good old days". Sorry if the grammar is weird.
It really hits hard when your that person who got left out, talked about, used, called names by almost everyone, and feels unloved or not cared about and you feel like everything is falling apart yet you are a people pleaser and do everything for everyone but no one does anything for you. And that happens to be me and I know probably other people too.
A friend of mine ghosted me a year ago today. I knew him for seven years and moved away from him 5 years ago. He just stopped talking to me out of nowhere and he was my first real friend that I knew for more than a year and a half. Because of my parents job I had to move every one to two years so when I first met him I knew I would leave soon. I knew a few other friends where I met him, but I wasn’t as close to them as I was to him. But I stayed there for almost four years and got really close until we had to move and it just broke me. I never had any long lasting friends because of how often I moved. It hurts, and sometimes I don’t know where to go or what to do. I have more friends now but it doesn’t feel the same. I’m about to be a senior in high school and I’m just tired.. Everything I used to do that makes me happy just doesn’t anymore. The video games I used to play are boring and stale now, same with the activities I used to do. I can’t find anything or anyone to fight for. I don’t know what to do and everything just feels pointless. Every time I have a dream, he and the other friends I moved away from are in it and every time I wake up I just want to cry. I don’t know what God’s plan is but I just feel alone right now. Edit: I hope everyone is doing okay, because I am starting to find more of a purpose in my life. I pray that everyone else here struggling can make it through. ❤
The pain that i can't even describe, the feeling of emptiness and loneliness that's just there, the one that you try so hard to get rid of, the one that comes out specific times on specific days, why do I feel this way
Everyone said to listen to this at night while laying on floor. Mostly at 12am and when ur all alone with nobody to bother. I just did that and well...It feels different. Not a bad kind of different tho. You should all try
i like me i like how i don't get blamed i like how i think i'm pretty i like how i don't overthink i like how i'm not a crybaby i like how i don't *SCREW EVERY FUCKING THING UP.* i like.. her
I wish i could love myself but every time i start to have even just a small bit of confidence i'm back to the start of hating myself. I don’t know what to do i just want to feel pretty. Its hard when all you want to hear is… your beautiful or your kind and sweet but whenever someone tells you those things you shut your emotions off because you don’t believe them or you think you don’t deserve anything and whenever i open up someone goes on and tells me i'm being dramatic or i'm just doing it for attention. I want to scream at the top of my lungs but i don’t want anyone to hear me.
I'll rant here too. Most of the time I just want to fall asleep and never wake up. I'm pretty sure my friends are annoyed with me and my mom always nags me about something like, "why is your room so dirty?" Do you even want the cats? Then why is their litter box is dirty?". Then my sister make comments to me but I pretend like it doesn't affect me like, "Your so fat." "Omg your so ugly" "says the one who's a idoit". Then me and my friends got in a argument because I got sick and didn't come to school for a few days. I got yelled at my friend who was "introverted" saying that I faked being sick and it was allergies just to get out of school for the concert we had to play for band. They told me "your stomach hurts? Suck it up?" "Omg I'm tired of your complaining your so annoying" "okay? I get cramps from my period.". My friend from the kindergarten yelled at me too.Should I mention I like her more than bestfriends? Now it seems as though they avoid me like I'm just some person tagging along for a bit then to leave. I want to fix it all back to when I was close to them, back to when they didn't keep secrets from me. My brother doesn't make it any better because he always says my sister is his favorite and that she could have anything she want then looks at me and is like "you pay for your own things". Should I also mention he hold me in choke holds till I cant breathe? Then when I cry he blames it on me being sensitive. My friend also held me in choke holds. I just want to end it all. I can't take it anymore. I feel like I'm falling but no one is here to catch me. It's not fair because I caught everyone else when they are sad but now no one is here for me. I just want to jump off a cliff and close my eyes and smile knowing I'm finally free.
I feel like I've just lost all my life. I have a job, my mom and sister, home, but I'm overwhelmed by mental illness that I refuse to get diagnosed with because I'm afraid to face my own reality. I'm on gap year having just graduated high school and I dont have a passion for anything anymore, I feel useless and like a failure. All I do is waste my time loving someone that will never love me the same, and lying.
lyrics:
Don't kill me
Just help me run away
From everyone
I need a place to stay
Where I can cover up my face
Don't cry
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
My head is filled with parasites
Black holes cover up my eyes
I dream of you almost every night
Hopefully I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
remember you are loved. I love you
You are loved, you are important, I love you ❤ ! Thank you for spreading love, always keep loving to love
there was a girl I liked at school last year so she liked me too and she came and said she likes me but i rejected her because of my strict parents and i really regret it now she changed her school i hope to see her every everyday when i walk in the streets :(
i think about my choices every day everytime i go to school it reminds me of her
I'm abused and my parents call me fat and tend to send me too my room because my mom is sexist for being a boy. She treats my 3 younger sisters like normal daughters but they hate me and called me a reject and they said they wished to abort me. I tried to do anything. It won't work. I'm not saying I need help because in 2 years I turn 18.
@@ahmetarda1912 damn bro. Sad man there's still plenty fish in the sea. Plus if you need comfort I can send you my discord.
(I just realized this was a year ago so if you want to it's okay.)
@@SansTheSkeletonOnCZcams i forgot about it already brother, i even forgot making this comment but still i appreciate it. thx
*pov: you're not sad anymore, but now you don't know what you feel except for tired*
Yh pretty much.
you just described the me of today very well..
Holy shit I know my issue now. Thank you
Exactly
yes.
POV: your stressed, depressed and/or tired of everything and you vent in the comments while this song plays in the backround.
yes yes.
yes.
yeah
cause som coments can make me feel a bit better for a sec
:,)
Anyone reading this, I love you. You may not know me and I may not know you but I know your beautiful and strong!
I'm very proud of how far you've came and if you haven't please get some food and water and enough sleep.
You are enough, you are perfect, you are worth it, you are YOU.
reading this knowing i havent gone to bed yet and that i have to get up in 7 hours
@@a.howardd get at least a little bit of sleep it helps
@@a.howardd Get some sleep please! Don't overwork yourself just remember to relax yourself and to take care, okay? Be safe out there. :)
Wholesome
Ty 💔 and I'm hungry and sleepy is 5:03 am :(
*you know that emotional pain where everything is cold and it feels so dark and you feel empty and hungry and then you feel that shiver run down your body*
i - literally the exact same thing happened to me just right now, during i read this comment lmao
🤓
Yes
@@mrdicclister2032 🤓
Everyday
this song makes me feel like i'm wasting my teenage years where you go out with friends on car rides and blast loud music and laugh together, or where you walk alone in the dark streets with headphones on admiring the dark beauty around you. i really am wasting my teen years. instead, im home all the times, no friends to go out with, always being told off my parents that i can't do this or that. i wish life was like the movies. teens having fun, not stressed about school grades and always being depressed. i was so excited to be a teenager, turns out that it wasn't what i expected. i hate life.
i wish covid didnt exist
same. I feel so lost. My own dad said you have no friends and when I thought of it he was right. I really only have 2 real friends. I try to do fun stuff with them but their always busy
istg the most relatable comment so far, hope us teenagers can survive the future
Cant tell you how fucking much i can relate to this shit
Eu te entendo… ToT
honestly this year in school was really stressful for me, especially when I went back to doing in-person school instead of online since I’m kinda antisocial and didn’t really like anyone there except people I was close with. It was more harder and stressful, and everyday I kept losing motivation although I gained amazing, caring, friends, I just still couldn’t hold on, but it wasn’t even a week before I planned on giving up, like two days after I wanted to give up, an angel sent from heaven literally enters my life and he makes me feel so much better. Honestly I don’t know what I did to deserve him, I don’t know why but his voice, laugh, smile, him yelling my name across the school halls, and football field or anywhere just in general, keeps me going through the day and having my head held high. I never mention it to him or not even the person I’m closest to, but he always makes me the happiest person no matter how sad, frustrated, or stressed I’m feeling. I don’t know what a hopeless romantic is but he really is someone that just always keeps me going through the day at school. Everyday I look forward to going to school just so I could see him, but even if he’s playing with my feelings and just want to make me feel better so he can put me down later on, I still thank him for showing me what it feels to atleast feel loved, even if it’s was just for awhile.
I love him so much that I can’t even be around him without smiling, hearing his exact voice calling my name, us making eye contact yet not talk but just smile at each other and walk past each other just to look back at each other at the same time and smile even more, him not being afraid to yell “I LOVE YOU” or “LETS GO JAMYYY” infront of his friends or even teachers, him getting jealous if one of his friends try talking to me, all of it, just makes me happy, and he’s the reason to why. I just know that if I ever lose him in the future, which I probably will since not everything lasts forever :)... I know that it’s gonna tear me apart more than ever and it’s gonna definitely be the most painful thing for me to go through. Sometimes one of his friends in last period always glance at me and say “Jamy, Will has feelings for you” or something like that, and honestly I know he can’t really tell, but holly sh!t I smile so damn bad behind my mask when even is friends come up to me and tell me about how he feels
I found it amazing how people can’t tell their closest friends these things but they can tell random people online, why is it amazing? Because somehow that person trust random people with that information and I personally think that is a Beautiful thing. I hope you have a great life Jamy!
thanks
I feel you
Aww that’s amazing, I hope u guys have a good future together!!
I needed up loosing a lot of friends over quarantine.. school has been so hard that I have an incomplete in two classes and it’s almost the end of the year. Im so stressed and and I don’t know how to fix it. Doing work is so hard these days. I ended up going to irl school because I was forced by my parents and I don’t have a single friend at school. I’ve been alone at Lunch and recess just reading a book alone at a table.
wake up, school, come home, eat, sleep and all over again. everyday is the same and i'm so sick of everything. i'm only 12 years old and i have to go through stress and other things. honestely it's tiring. teachers are always over working ourselves by them setting so much homework for us and we don't even get a break. and society now changed to being normal but now its toxic. honestly can't wait for things to end.
if ur reading this i wanna let u know that ur so strong and beautiful and i wish u all success and happiness in the world that u deserve .
Спасибо 🥲🫂
Ну я тебя понимаю скоро я перееду на 9 класс экзамены, домашние задания, уроки. Я сама стрессую по этому поводу мне попросту страшно за моё будущее и за оценки. Мне с детства влили в голову учиться на 5 быть отличником но я мне могу 🥲
It's always the ' Why are you crying? ' oh im the same as everyone i act exactly the same as u did ' at this age ' LIKE LET ME LIVE GOODNESS SAKE IM TIRED
Im 12 too people we don't know what stress is because of our age sometimes so I gave up. I don't care about my grades. I will when I'm the right age to feel stressed
Im 12 too
Im 12 too, and my parents dont understand that a "kid" can have so much stress on them.
This feels like you're drowning but you want to say goodbye to a person you love
"I dream of you almost every night, hopefully i don't wake up tonught" Damn that part hit diffrent
For those who want to know:
The girl is from black rock shooter. A really underrated anime that I personally love!!
Thank you
what’s it about?
Thanks!
Dear person whoever reads this,
Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile.
Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs.
Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one.
I love you and send you hugs.
You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you.
YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN.
I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC.
You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice.
You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is.
Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN.
I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO.
It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you.
I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go.
I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.??
I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night.
If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you.
If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits.
If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :)
Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out.
Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up.
I am sorry you feel misunderstood.
But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :).
Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?!
- The stranger that cares about you more than anything.
I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay.
This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it.
And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you.
I hope you will remember my words- luke :)
Until tomorrow, my friend :)
THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I HOPE YOU LISTEN TO YOUR OWN ADVICES, OKAY? I'M PROUD OF YOU TOO!
i dont know why but when you said angel it just felt so nice :) i hope you have a good day/night, love u
thank you. I don’t know you but you made my day so much better, thank you thank you thank you thank you!! Thanks to you I can finally look forward to waking up and having fun. thank you again. it’s good to know I’m not alone.
Thank you.. THANK YOU SO MUCH ! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU.I HOPE U HAVE A GOOD DAY!
I FUCKING LOVE YOU BRO, THANK YOU❤❤
*The girl crying is just-*
Anime name?
@@gabi6321 black rock shooter
@@fraek5875 what episode?
@@rosiexedit5170 anime ?
@@Nursyy I don't remember 😭 black rock shooter? I think?
*I'm empty, everything is cold and dark... everything hurts.*
It will be ok. idk u but boy do i want to hug u so hard. It will be ok. i swear it will. i know happiness can go in a flash but u know what. u can do this. ilysm. I know how u feel. u can do this. Whatever youre going through.. Ull make it out.. And when shit gets thrown at u... ull feel the pain.. then solve it.. and get over it.. Ik its hard to believe that it will be ok but i swear it will.. ur future is a gift that isnt opened yet. Everything has its positives and negatives... boo it will be ok. I believe in u and all these people who are reading ur comment.
se você não gosta de ser vazia então você pode preencher seu interior com algo que te faz se sentir bem e se tudo doi é um sinal que você só devia fazer as coisas de um jeito diferente espero que isso tenha te ajudado boa noite
Don't kill me just help me run away
From everyone I need a place to stay
Where I can cover up my face
Don't cry, I am just a freak
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
My head is filled with parasites
Black holes cover up my eyes
I dream of you almost every night
Hopefully I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
thank you :)
@@xlottle3413 ;b
This definitely needs more attention
THIS IS TH BEST THING IVE EVER HEARD :DDD
Until you understand the lyrics
@@thekidwiththebluejacket7070 true
Yo not the pfp
@@Oof-kn8yo why?
@@tukanbzs it’s matching it’s pretty cool coincidence
im in pain and my mom isn’t helping with it.she gives me more stress about school,she blames her mistakes one me.
im so sorry hun
And it sucks because there's nothing you can do. Just gotta wait till you grow up.
@@ayala7061 exactly
Same but with my sister and mom
This song already makes me want to cry now I feel like i actually would cry because of this istg
do it, it helps bae
I'm crying cus of this song
"I wont wake up this time" hits different when your crying over meeting your friend in a dream and desperately trying to fall back asleep for 2 hours cause you felt safe in their hug
Gosh I felt that. I haven't seen my best friend for a whole 5 years bc I moved away and everyday just hurts more and more without her. Seeing people hang out with their best friends on a daily basis and doing all sorts of things with them really makes me sad and jealous 😔
@@trash9471Yeah I know the feeling.. a friend I knew for almost 7 years ghosted me two years ago and this song helped get me through it. It hurts because I hadn’t had a friend for more than a year or two so it hurt.
You feel empty staring at your wall then you get a lump in your throat and you get shivers down your body and break down, tears streaming down your face unable to control anything you just sit there.
No one will probably see this, so I’ll write my feelings out.
I’m in love. Really, really in love. To the point of obsession and fixation. But the problem is that we are not allowed to be together. Not due to my family or anything, but society. It is inappropriate for us to be in a relationship, but that doesn’t stop my feelings for this person. We are so close, and she tells me so much about herself, some of it she’s not supposed to. And she might leave in five weeks. And I don’t have enough time for her.
everything’s gonna work out just try and make some times even if it’s a little bit but remember enjoyed every second of time with her
“Hope fully, I don’t wake up this time”. I relate to that part sm it hurts, since 5th grade I’ve gotten into the habit of whenever it gets to hard, give up. Leading me to 15 od attempts and I’m terrified of that overwhelming feeling coming back into my mind. I’m so tired and I got out of the hospital back in may from the last one, I’m so scared it’s happening again and I’m trying so hard not to let it happen. I haven’t tried yet but it’s gotten to the point where I’m back in my spiral, I don’t plan to try again but I’ve been trying to avoid people in public, overthinking, and walking in the middle of the road with the thought I might die there. I don’t want to relive the past but it’s so difficult not to.
wow same but this time i will never recover from it because im just a useless worthless good for nothing human being or as the video states it, i am just a fish
pov: you were running while crying because someone you thought you could trust betrayed you but yet you knew very well that you`re friendship with that person was going to end but you questioned yourself why does it still hurt is because you knew it was going to end? or because you didn't expect to get betrayed and get hurt in the process?
I just want to jump off a building but it will hurt a lot. because of school stressing me every god damn day.
Please dont do it, im doing exactly the same like you, i just cant do it cuz of my little brother... He keeps me alive every single fucking day, maybe wanna chat with me for a little?
Don't, I love you. No matter how much you hate hearing or how many times you've seen it im struggling as well and just like this girl in this vid i wanna cry and give up but keep swimming it gets better and it did at one point and it still is.
Я тебя понимаю но не стоит этого делать. Когда-то придёт время и все наладится. Закончим школу но всё равно дальше взрослая жизнь. Я сама иногда думаю о экзаменах:
-Если не сдам мне конец, моему будущему конец и из за этого думаю а самоубийстве, но это так больно и мучительно. Я не знаю что буду делать когда будут сдавать экзамены мне страшно. 🫂
I get it. There are so many moments I feel the same exact way. What keeps me away from making that permanent decision is the joys we do have in life. Those days were life feels like a movie. Music like this that fills our mind with euphoria. The satisfaction of the things we enjoy. Life sucks. But, if we carry on, it’s well worth it:)
I’d also like to end it. Not forever. You know, just for a little while :) I’m so very tired and my parents won’t let me sleep longer than 17:00. They tell me to get up at 11:00 but erm- no
honestly i dont know where 2 rant...so ill do it here...I'm so stressed out, I cant seem to focus on school and put effort into school work anymore...and I feel I'm letting my mom down, I'm sorry mom...when I go on my phone half of the time i see people always hanging out and they seem sooo goddamn happy, when i take a break from social media, im always missing something and i miss out. on everything..but I cant seem 2 be like them and always go out and have fun like them, im grateful i rlly am but fuck life, like idk who i am yet or how to love myself and love every part of me....my life feels like a routine..and just the same step over and over again..everyday...i feel so lost and alone...i know people around me love me but why cant i feel that love, whats wrong with me where i cant feel it...i just wish this could end..and my mind could find inner peace and my happy place...but i cant, and idk when.
Got to love the feeling if being a burden
also you are not alone I know many people including myself that feel this way.
hey, i relate to u so much. it sucks ik. but ur not alone. we can rant together!
were just the same :)
reading those comments and listening to this song makes me wanna cry
comment section full of 13 year old edgy cringe kids lol
@@eagle5818 hey, either way this is something to take seriously, so i wouldnt go around making jokes like that :/
@@loreee5 nope its not.
@@eagle5818 whatever you think my guy
@@loreee5 Thank you my guy.
you guys know music is better then your life and im agreeing :/
like ligit
I wish you the best
This song makes me happy and sad at the same time... I can't explain it but I love it... it makes me wanna be like teenagers in movies or like on my fyp page... just skateboarding on the road or running in a field with my besties, laying down in the rain with my bestie, it makes me sad that my life isn't like that but it gives me such good vibes and it makes me feel like I'm experiencing it... it makes me kinda happy and it makes me nostalgic about things I've I've experienced... it's just... idk it's a masterpiece
this song makes me think of him so much
it hurts :')
Is it just me or does the end make me feel a certain happy way I love this song so much :(
when i listen to these kind of versions of the song, i just close my eyes, inhale, exhale, and relax
this hits different at 3 am while eating cereal contemplating life
is it just me or is the "i am just a phase" part makes me realize how much im scared of every moment that passed/passes/will pass by? cuz- like- there is always that sudden pressure to treasure every moment cuz u know it will pass by soon and it's driving me nuts- i've said a lot, whoops- bye-
{edit: i misheard the "i am just a freak" part as "i am just a phase" and now i shall succumb to the embarrassment, bye-}
this needs more likes :)
this makes me want to hold onto my teen years and make memories for a lifetime
I was failing three classes like a month again but one went up to a d and I was so happy but then my happiness is shattered when I tell my parents and they are disappointed in me and think it’s my phone and friends wen those are the only things keeping my happy. My room looks like it’s been abandoned bc I’m too exhausted to get out of bed and clean it. I’m overeating way too much and I hate how fat my body is. Yet I eat to cope with it. My whole family is homophobic and will never except me for being lesbian and the only person that isn’t is my older brother who is 16 and hates me but I want to tell him so bad but Ik I can’t. I have to deal with my alcoholic, racist, homophobic/transphobic, sexist father who is horrible and is always fighting us and has physically abused all of us including my mother. My parents aren’t even married but have separated, even tho once my mom had her first child 19 years ago it went all bad and he treated her like shit and used to throw plates at the wall bc he didn’t like the food but she was pregnant with the my brother at the time. And so how I was an accident. I know I’m a mistake and I will never be “normal”. My family is always saying “why can’t u be normal.” And it makes me want to hurt myself even more. They think everything is wrong because I love anime and bc of my friends. When in reality those r the few things keeping me here. I’m trying my hardest to get my grades up since we got back from spring brake but I’m already giving up. I have a full diorama due tomorrow at 3:00 pm but I haven’t started cause I don’t have the supplies. It’s always been about my brother and how he can do things bc he’s a man and he’s more important cause he’s doing things with his life. I love my brother but he is a total asshole to my mom yet she treats him so well. The only times I do get along with my siblings it always goes wrong. They hate me so much but I just Want to be excepted by them. I’m so close to just ending it all and Im currently using self h**m but I can’t stop. The first time I tried ending myself was when I was not even ten and a half. It could have ended then but I stopped myself. I sat and thought about my friends. Even tho at the time they were horrible and dumped me. But then the people I never expected took me in and they became the best people for me. I love the friends I have now. They may be only two friends but I love them and they make me enjoy living when I’m with them. I haven’t truly been happy in a year except for when I’m with them. I want to be with them all the time. But then I feel like I’m latching onto them. I have horrible trust issues cause every friend has left me except them. Since going back to in person school I’ve made two friends. They are also rlly nice but once again I don’t rlly approach them bc I feel too clingy. I don’t have the energy to do wha ti used to like doing, such as art. I’ve been so lifeless but also not. There’s times where I feel empty and useless and all that but others where I’m laughing and talking. I hate social interaction but THOSE people make me want to talk. I cry every day. I cry and I cry. I used to be the kid who would cry over everything until fifth grade I stopped that and changed my personality for the better. I took my crying away but deep down I wanted to just let loose and cry so badly, but I didn’t. Now I’m letting out and I feel weak for that. My dream is to just fall off a building in Las Vegas or Tokyo at night when the city is beaming. I want to just fall backwards and that being the end. :) goodbye
Sis don't let others tell you who u are let's let's through this together I know u wanna cry and I I do as well and its fine if u do its perfectly fine! Now don't in fact keep on smiling but work your way up to smilinh
You are extremely gorgeous 😊and I'm so proud of you don't give up👍
I'm lesbian too❤️🤗
I just want you to know that I am so proud of you. I know that your doing amazing. You are so beautiful and amazing! Your so strong. Please stay here with me. I need you here with me. I support, love and care for you.
Ok I'm sorry but I did not read the rest of your comment I'm really sorry for you :(
im proud
Im not depressed or like the Song so much i just am not happy and this Song explains ideas to be more happy-Pisces♓
essa música-- 🛐
i’m just so tired, i want to block everyone out and be by myself. i spend all day at school wishing time could go faster and trying not to break into tears at any moment, and when i finally get home i’m happy, until the next day. the cycle just continues. eventually it’s the weekend and i can finally have a break from life but my family wants me to socialise with them, talk to them, anything really but talking to people just makes me want to fall into a hole and die. i only ever feel safe when i’m by myself, in my room, probably crying over how shitty my life has become yet its hardly even started. the weekends are so short, and then the week starts again. it feels like the cycle never ends, it just goes on and on and on of working, socialising and working more. i dont see the point in living if my life will just turn into me working in an office when i’m 50 years old with 3 kids at home. i’m scared of growing up, i’m scared of life, i’m scared of people, i’m so tired. i’ve been trying so hard to hold on for the few people that care about me, but i dont even talk to them about how i really feel.
i’m tired i’m tired i’m tired i’m tired i’m tired when will this end when will this end i’m so close to just ending everything and maybe i’ll finally be content. i feel empty, i’m exhausted, everything just seems cold
Same also I'm sorry :( I hope your doing ok 💕💕❤️ I'm always only in my room and talking to my on-line freinds I feel like I can be myself on the internet more than irl even tho I'm just 10 I'm just thinking when I will die or something like that this song makes me think of life and where I will go or do when I turn old
@@NIKKISIXX_101 it’s really hard man i’m sorry you have to go through it as well :( thanks for checking in as well, yeah i’m doing ok also cool you’re a mcyt fan i’m guessing by your profile picture
@@annabel8425 ya I like mcyt
I'm gonna send this to the gc so we can listen to it while we do our daily therapy calls where we cry and talk about our problems but mostly listen to music in silence.
How do you not have like 1M likes this is amazing!!!!
Lemme tell yall a quick story time.
So 2 days ago I turned 17 and 10 minutes before it hit midnight I was listening to this song, crying because of all the memories I made these past years, I realised that I should've enjoyed life more, even tho it was perfect. This song means so much to me and it makes me tear up everytime I hear it.
i turn 17 in a few days crazy when i was kid an age like that seemed so far away and alien
@@SLG-jt1rd and all of a sudden you're so old and you think about the past that can never be repeated
i love just clicking on these songs and reading the comments
Look i have to be honest I’m not depressed but I seriously want to just escape everything,the bullies,the yelling,the touching- I want to go escape,start a new life somewhere away from all of this- somewhere with my online bestfriend.. I haven’t even been friends with them for a year and they are better than people I’ve known for almost 8 years
Man I used to cry listening to this song. Now I know who i am, and I don't feel so sad when I listen to it. It's just a reminder of what I'll never do again: not living life to the fullest.
“I won’t wake up this time”
it’s gotten to the point where it’s the kind of tired that sleep can’t fix
IMMA NEED A 1HOUR VERSION OF THIS PLS😭
the clip of the girl crying is listening to this song realizing how much time ive been wasting of my life doing pointless stuff, i sit on my bed and watch youtube all day
When you remember your friend that didn't back online in xbox 360...that got me chills... 😢
This song hits different, I Dream of u
Almost every night.
I love listening to this, wow
Same
Please make an hour long version
I saw it coming and I was still blind
*that moment you start crying because this song is beautiful*
I AM JUST A FREAK.
I don't know what to do anymore - who'dve known that I would be struggling over a BOY? He liked me for so long, and I did too. we had neutral feelings for so long and then we went back to school after lockdown. He's clinging to someone else and they're cuddling and shit all the time and it fucking hurts. They aren't dating, the person he's cuddling with has a partner. and it hurts because me and the person are exactly the same people, im just the second choice all of a sudden? Me and him are opposites, literally, and the person he likes used to think we'd be good together. So why now does he suddenly like them again? What did I do wrong?
When they're not there and it's me, him and our other friends he clings to me, and even when they're there he looks at me after jokes, to laugh and look at me. We play with eachothers hands and yet he can't see what he's doing to me. It hurts so much,
im in love with him dude.
i like part when shy crying.
Finally , Thank You So Much !!
Anyone here not depressed or sad and tired, but just here for the music?
Poor Mato...she did deserve better
Seems like u recognize this character. If you dont mind me asking what anime this is
@@cinnamontoastcrunch1666 the anime is black rock shooter. her name is mato kuroi
@@rat2315 Alrighty, thank uuu!!!!!
@@cinnamontoastcrunch1666 no problem :D
Thank you so much
Whenever I hear this song I always think of the Marauders. I don't know why, it just feels like them. Like if this song existed during their era I feel like I can just see them singing this song at the top of their lungs at a Gryffindor party or just playing this in their dorm. After James and Lily's death Remus curled up in a ball slowly whispering this song to himself, almost being able to hear James and Sirius chanting this together. Meanwhile Sirius was also humming this to himself, reminding himself of the "good old days".
Sorry if the grammar is weird.
спасибо за русские субтитры 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕 очень классно 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
im just here cuz this is a vibe, hope all of you stay safe
this was the worst year of my life. ty for this song
i luv this omg
It really hits hard when your that person who got left out, talked about, used, called names by almost everyone, and feels unloved or not cared about and you feel like everything is falling apart yet you are a people pleaser and do everything for everyone but no one does anything for you. And that happens to be me and I know probably other people too.
I wish I had memories too this but I don’t
спасибо огромное!! ❤️
I feel like i have felt like this in parts of my life ngl
the stuff that sucks just don’t make me cry anymore. can’t tell if ive gotten over it or i just can’t cry, just a empty hole in my heart.
Gracias te lo agradezco mucho por subirla en under water 🙏🙏🙏
A friend of mine ghosted me a year ago today. I knew him for seven years and moved away from him 5 years ago. He just stopped talking to me out of nowhere and he was my first real friend that I knew for more than a year and a half. Because of my parents job I had to move every one to two years so when I first met him I knew I would leave soon. I knew a few other friends where I met him, but I wasn’t as close to them as I was to him. But I stayed there for almost four years and got really close until we had to move and it just broke me. I never had any long lasting friends because of how often I moved. It hurts, and sometimes I don’t know where to go or what to do. I have more friends now but it doesn’t feel the same. I’m about to be a senior in high school and I’m just tired.. Everything I used to do that makes me happy just doesn’t anymore. The video games I used to play are boring and stale now, same with the activities I used to do. I can’t find anything or anyone to fight for. I don’t know what to do and everything just feels pointless. Every time I have a dream, he and the other friends I moved away from are in it and every time I wake up I just want to cry. I don’t know what God’s plan is but I just feel alone right now.
Edit: I hope everyone is doing okay, because I am starting to find more of a purpose in my life. I pray that everyone else here struggling can make it through. ❤
look, it's a picture I took of you the first time I ever came here, look at you, so young and happy, where did the years go?
pov: you cried so much that your room filled up with tears and you're drowning but you still gotta vibe to this song
Hallo how are you im under the WOTAH pls help me
POV: They apologized to you, but you still feel broken and upset.
thanks for this, is the best
i just wanna be happy again.
Perfect for go to sleep (Sorry when my english don't understand i'm don't speak english)
Aww
this is gorgeous
The pain that i can't even describe, the feeling of emptiness and loneliness that's just there, the one that you try so hard to get rid of, the one that comes out specific times on specific days, why do I feel this way
Everyone said to listen to this at night while laying on floor. Mostly at 12am and when ur all alone with nobody to bother. I just did that and well...It feels different. Not a bad kind of different tho. You should all try
i like me
i like how i don't get blamed
i like how i think i'm pretty
i like how i don't overthink
i like how i'm not a crybaby
i like how i don't *SCREW EVERY FUCKING THING UP.*
i like..
her
THIS IS AMAZING
The 0 dislikes says everything
I wish i could love myself but every time i start to have even just a small bit of confidence i'm back to the start of hating myself. I don’t know what to do i just want to feel pretty. Its hard when all you want to hear is… your beautiful or your kind and sweet but whenever someone tells you those things you shut your emotions off because you don’t believe them or you think you don’t deserve anything and whenever i open up someone goes on and tells me i'm being dramatic or i'm just doing it for attention. I want to scream at the top of my lungs but i don’t want anyone to hear me.
Listening to this while you're losing your best friend hit different
Am i the only one who just likes this type of music?
when the only thing keeping you alive is internet friends, music and video games
also swinging but yk
This song is really suitable as an angst backsound, i think?
Can Someone pls make a 1 hour video with this masterpiece
Amazing 🎶💕
I'll rant here too. Most of the time I just want to fall asleep and never wake up. I'm pretty sure my friends are annoyed with me and my mom always nags me about something like, "why is your room so dirty?" Do you even want the cats? Then why is their litter box is dirty?". Then my sister make comments to me but I pretend like it doesn't affect me like, "Your so fat." "Omg your so ugly" "says the one who's a idoit". Then me and my friends got in a argument because I got sick and didn't come to school for a few days. I got yelled at my friend who was "introverted" saying that I faked being sick and it was allergies just to get out of school for the concert we had to play for band. They told me "your stomach hurts? Suck it up?" "Omg I'm tired of your complaining your so annoying" "okay? I get cramps from my period.".
My friend from the kindergarten yelled at me too.Should I mention I like her more than bestfriends? Now it seems as though they avoid me like I'm just some person tagging along for a bit then to leave. I want to fix it all back to when I was close to them, back to when they didn't keep secrets from me. My brother doesn't make it any better because he always says my sister is his favorite and that she could have anything she want then looks at me and is like "you pay for your own things". Should I also mention he hold me in choke holds till I cant breathe? Then when I cry he blames it on me being sensitive. My friend also held me in choke holds.
I just want to end it all. I can't take it anymore. I feel like I'm falling but no one is here to catch me. It's not fair because I caught everyone else when they are sad but now no one is here for me. I just want to jump off a cliff and close my eyes and smile knowing I'm finally free.
Underrated-
Amazing! I have no words this is just AMAZING!
i camed with lissening the slowed one and.....what the hell its more sadder than the orginal one
please. i wish they would see how much i love them. just ask me please.. i cant do it myself
I feel like I've just lost all my life. I have a job, my mom and sister, home, but I'm overwhelmed by mental illness that I refuse to get diagnosed with because I'm afraid to face my own reality. I'm on gap year having just graduated high school and I dont have a passion for anything anymore, I feel useless and like a failure. All I do is waste my time loving someone that will never love me the same, and lying.