Therapist Reacts To: Dealer by Lana Del Rey *sorry again*
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- čas přidán 18. 07. 2023
- This hit too close to home. Sometimes it feels like you guys know exactly what to recommend that lines up exactly with my life. I'm sorry I couldn't speak.
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im sorry mere for what you had to go through. you're a really strong person. and i love watching your lana reactions, you're so real and we really admire you a lot.
Thank you. I’m still emotional from this song and sharing a tiny piece of what I’ve gone through. Your support has helped me tremendously.
@@mendwithmere more power to you queen. sending lots of love and we're always here to support you.
@@mendwithmere Mere, Please listen to White Dress from Chemtrails Over the Country Club! It's about an empowered Lana making life happen for her by her. It's Lana reminiscing. You'll like it. And you've NEVER heard her sing like she does in White Dress
Yes, we really do. ❤
@@mendwithmere please don’t be sorry for ending the video there.🫶🏼 you’re feelings are valid too.
As a recovering addict, I never thought of this song as her singing to/about the drugs. "I don't wanna live, don't wanna give you nothing bc you never give me nothing back. Why can't you be good for something?" It never clicked for me until you said something. Now this song is even more special to me. She's completely right too. Drugs will take everything from you and give you nothing in return.
Proud of you for being on the recovery journey. Drugs only takes from you. Did you watch the illicit affairs reaction? That song can also be from the same perspective. Sending you ❤
I hope you're doing well, recovery is no joke. I feel the same way about some of her songs. I never thought about how "Ultraviolence" was about Jim Beam, and then it clicked. I used to be a heavy drinker, but I haven't had a drink since January. Proud of you! Keep going. 🙏💟
So true.
its most likely about her cutting off a friend/lover who is doing drugs and she cant help. its a reccuring theme in her music and she was in a group for addicts when she was younger, after she got sober. she got sober but he didnt and he was bringing her down and she had to let go for her own good
i'm sorry you have to go through that. sending love and prayers to you!! stay strong
Just know that the Lana fandom loves you so much, we appreciate you and wish you nothing but the best ❤️
Love you all so much
So true @LDRBUZZ ❤
My mom is a recovered addict, so I heavily relate to this song. Particularly Lana’s frustrated performance.
I’m sending you so much love. It really is one of the hardest things to witness and deal with.
same
Lana's vocals are so powerful on this one. I was thrown off by the beginning too upon first listen, but then she comes in with the "I don't wanna liiiiiiive" and I was blown away. She said in an interview that she wanted to scream on this one because she's always so gentle and quiet. Because she was like "I do scream, I do and I want them to hear that" or something along those lines. Blue Bannisters is so personal, I really loved that this was when she started to work with her dad and they made the song for her sister, "Sweet Carolina". Blue Bannisters walked so Did you know that there's a tunnel... could run. Damn, girl. I don't know what you've been through, but hang in there. This is why I'm always sending you purple hearts, because you're a warrior. You have nothing to be sorry about. Love ALWAYS. 💜💜💜
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I don't know if anyone's ever mentioned it in the comments, but one of Lana's ex's died of an overdose. I feel like she could be talking about losing him and others in this song. She also refences in in the song Heroin. Also, "Is this Happiness?" is a song I'd love to see you react to. Thank you so much for these videos!
Especially for K part 1. Talks about her loving going to prison and dying.
And also In pawn shop blues
I think someone has mentioned that before but after hearing this song, I absolutely think it’s about that. You can hear the pain. I could feel it so deeply.
@@pcbusby Hi! I just wanted to say that the story of k was made up by lana, k is alive and well + married, his real name is josh kemp and video games, blue jeans and born to die are about him, the actor she had in the blue jeans and btd mvs are also based on his looks. Idk if he ever went to prison but he clearly wasn't put on death row like she says in the song
This is not true at all. Lana never had a boyfriend who overdosed. Heroin is about a friend who had a rocky relationship with the drug itself. If you are talking about "K", then you are wrong because he was just in jail. He did have a boyfriend who died but did not overdose. Stop spreading misinformation to Meredith.
Just like @pawnblue said.
you're my favorite youtuber pls never stop
Awww thanknyou!
@@mendwithmereWe love your videos and we love you Mere!!
You're such a beautiful sunrise 🌞 receive a huge hug from Mexico 🇲🇽
Aw Mere, I’m so sorry. I was in love with a heroin addict for 16 years and totally understand. Lana has multiple songs about loving an addict that can turn me into a puddle on the floor on the wrong day. Particularly Heroin, Dark Paradise, and Nectar of the Gods, so if you react to any of those just be prepared. Sending you lots of love!! You’re deeply appreciated.
Thank you for the heads up and I feel really lucky to have so many people that get it. Loving an addict is incredibly painful. Sending you ❤❤❤❤
And she was herself i think nectar is about her as well and perhaps relapse based on the last line
yall are FOUL for making mother mere listen to this
I feel terrible poor mere, wishing nothing but the best for her
“This” is a masterpiece babe …
This was definitely one of the hardest! I’m still affected by it but I think that’s even more of a reason to share it. If I feel this way, so many others must so keep the requests coming :)
@@makasous7961 oh I know I was just saying that after hearing what she's been through people recommended such a raw depressive song
@@mendwithmerehappiness is a butterfly mere plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
And now I feel kinda guilty as I was one of the people suggesting Dealer because it's such a powerful track. Not realising at the time how much it would put you through
You are a brave strong woman. Sending love and we should go for some 'lighter' Lana next. There's plenty of them!
Thank you for suggesting bc it was/is therapeutic for me. Don’t feel guilty. It was meant to be reacted to. Thank you for the ❤
Big eyes. I would recommend that not only because I love this song but because many Lana fans hadn’t heard this one. This is so precious.
Big eyes omgggg that song is like a hidden gem that nobody talks about
HIDDEN GEM, everytime i hear it i cant wait for the trumpets ugh!!! so underrated
Agreed I love this song and movie
the thing about dealer is that unlike so many sad songs that can have very like in general scenarios, dealer is about one very specific predicament and feeling that when the people who get it, get it, they get it in a way that hits so heavily. and this feeling hits regardless of which perspective you see it from and who its targeted at.
this broke my heart, im so sorry for what you had to go through, hope you're doing well. your channel is my favorite, i watch your videos religiously since your a&w reaction
That means so much! It is still something I’m dealing with and it feels never ending. Thank you for the love and yes, I’m totally okay. I have good supports around me and all of you ❤
I love your honest reaction and I'm sorry you go through difficult things. I recommend you Lana's "High by the beach" as a little change from her heavy topics, it's a pretty girlboss song with a dope music video worth watching!
Oooo I would love that!!
Never felt the emotion of the song until I watched this video. If it sent signals to my emotions I just can’t imagine for anyone else viewing this video and hearing you explain it. Wow
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The way she seys the " I don't wanna live " you can feel the pain in her voice💔
this is my moms favorite song because she used to be an addict and she used to also love an addict and to see how emotional you got made me so sad and I wish I could give you a big hug right now! 🤦♀️💞
Wish I could hug you too!
I got stuck on drugs at 15 this song really hits,im getting better but it doesn’t get easier. I just want to give you a big hug I hate seeing you sad I love you so much💕
I want to give you a big hug!!
@@mendwithmere your videos feel like big hugs ❤️
I'm so sorry you went through something so difficult, please don't apologise. And let us know if you need a heads up on content warnings for her songs first. 💜
If you need a break from the heavy songs, you could try Beautiful, Cherry Blossom, Sweet Carolina (written for her sister), or even the Chemtrails music video (which does have lighting effects and motion, which might make your video sickness worse?) or the double video for F*ck it i love you & the greatest.
Thank you for being so kind. I feel it’s important content so I’m totally okay not knowing what the song topic is about and also so appreciative you care about me to bring this up. Means so much! I will definitely react to the ones you mentioned ❤
whenever you are ready - we will be ready for The Greatest & Fuck it I love you❤
Cherry blossom is a beautiful song but ive always taken it as dark meaning? Have i been taking it the wrong way lol
@@Alex-qe7bt it is dark in a way :,)
@@eljorthesun lol i went through something something simular and cry my eyes out to it, i would've felt like an idiot if i was crying to a happy song 💀
i hope you're ok queen thank you for this reaction 🥺
I’m okay. This song just brought up so much and I’ve been crying and releasing so much since. Addiction doesn’t just harm the person with it, it leaks acid on everyone around.
Oh Mere. I’m sorry. 🥺
Recommending the song “Beautiful” by Lana to change pace. This reaction made my eyes water up. Sending love. ❤
The best art ignites this kind of emotion. It has been therapeutic, I promise ❤
pls never stop to react lanas songs, it’s always a amazing and deeper react
i have hope that one day you will react to “is this happiness?” song 😂
Thank you. That means so much. Yes, I’ll def do that so g
Every night I get home and check youtube to see if you posted today, love your reactions :)
That means so much!
me too, i love herrrr
my brother was (probably still is, idk where he is now) a drug addict so i feel this song quite a bit. love ur videos
Pink Champagne next! It's unreleased but truly the most haunting gorg song ever.....
I love Lana so much because when you hear her songs, you can picture it in your head. When the chorus hits and she yells it paints a portrait in your head and makes you feel for the situation the song is about
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i definitely think lana’s part is from the perspective of the addict’s significant other. the “gave you all my money” part along with the rest of the chorus hits so close to home for me as well. i love this song, but it’s so painful
It’s so so painful. I agree with you. I felt it so deeply bc I know it so well.
The lyrics are very relatable. This could be a metaphor for a relationship with drugs/ alcohol/ addiction or a relationship with an addict. She lays it all out beautifully in this song, lyrically, and by using a deeper, darker voice, and by channeling her rage into a wild scream. It's haunting ❤
I love how honest you are and how you don’t hide your feelings. Been through something similar in my early adult life, scars still remain. Sometimes I still age slide to those days by some triggers. So sorry you had to go through, what you did, but thank you for your reactions to the song.
Sending good vibes ❤❤❤ from the other side of the world
Every time I listen to this song I think about my meds for depression, and how even though I'm doing everything to get better for some reason is not working.
I feel you on this ❤
I’m literally abt to cry
I never understood the complete / actual meaning behind this song ( nor I searched it anywhere), you just cleared my mind. Thanks Mere, you do it every time 😭. You’re so strong and intelligent you make me discover atleast 1 new thing everytime I watch a video. This song is soooooo cool, I tried to sing it with my vocal coach but, of course, I couldn’t scream the chorus I had to stick to falsetto, which is very soft, so it didn’t match the energy at all. Love you ❤
Love u
TROPICO it’s her short film ❤❤❤
I imagine the frustration and sadness that this song can bring to you, sorry to hear about that. Thank you for reacting for us and thank you for always having wise words and thoughts. You’re still human like every single one of us, don’t be sorry for feeling something, no matter what. Sending love and good vibes ! We love you
It's so inspiring that you didn't edit this video too much, we appreciate your authentic input.
Oh, Mere, I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I'm an alcoholic myself, although it's been 955 days since I last tasted alcohol. It's been somewhat rewarding when I get to rebuild the bridges I've burned, but I know I hurt a lot of people and those were the ones who cared the most. But I'm also on the other side of this, my father is also an alcoholic and I do understand most of the feelings you find it hard to deal. It's crazy that my decision to change was also made with the intent of inspiring him, but the fact is you can only help those who wanted to be helped. It must have taken all your forces to be brave enough to leave, but I'm happy for you that you did. And I'm sorry again.
Oh, and by the way, this song is from the same sessions as California (from NFR!) and Thunder (also from Blue Banisters). You should check them out since they seem to be talking about this same individual, but through different lenses.
❤ proud of you!!
Thank you for sharing this and proud of you that you are focused on your recovery. It was the most painful decision to leave but I had to keep reminding myself of the fact that I’m powerless to their addiction and I can’t want it more than them. I’ll definitely check out the other songs too. Sending you ❤
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So brave, keep fighting your battle💪❤️
I see how you talk about Lana, very beautifully, throughout all the breakdown of her songs. In this video, I really saw in your eyes the pain. It felt very vulnerable. I appreciate how vulnerable you can be about something so hurtful. I think you are amazing and beautiful as well, just how you see so much beauty in Lana. I wish you healing and peace.
Thank you so much ❤
Thank you sharing what you have been through. Lana’s songs often hit me hard (sometimes for reasons I don’t understand) and your insights help me sort out my emotions surrounding these songs. I highly recommend Lana’s song White Dress if you haven’t heard it before. It is absolutely gorgeous and probably my favorite.
this track hits too deep.. i'm hoping you're healing through music too like all of us are, wish i could give you a hug mere cause your channel and reactions really have helped me through these tough times 💚
I’m so happy it has helped. I feel like this channel is just as therapeutic for me ❤
this song is so amazing at expressing her anger i love it sm even though its a sad tale 😭 you should do thunder if you have the time!
I will!!❤
omg you’re my favourite you-tuber, don’t stop doing those reaction. I feel like you get what we all feel
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I love your videos. Thank you for being so real and pure. Seeing you get emotional got me in tears ❤😢
i swear y'all just like to see this woman cry
People just wanted to give her a song where Lana is angrier, since that’s what she’s been asking for. Unfortunately, because a lot her viewers are new from her Lana reactions, most people don’t know about Mere’s history and wouldn’t have known that this song would be hard for her to hear :( I just hope she’s alright
It means so much that you are concerned for me. I promise you tho, I’m okay and will be okay bc of the support around me. I wanted angrier and I got it. It was really therapeutic so I’m grateful. Love you all so much ❤
you are such a strong person and should never apologise for what you feel, lanas songs have such a deep meaning and are incredibly beautiful but can be difficult to listen to at times 💗 hope you are doing okay mere 💗
I’m living for your Lana reactions, I literally open CZcams just to check if you posted something, keep it coming!
Just wanted to say, I appreciate you for putting your own mental health through a rollercoaster while doing reactions for us. I know things can be triggering and the fact that you still sit here so strong and do these videos is admirable and I can’t tell you how grateful we are. You are such a ray of sunshine and I hope you know that you are a brightness during my darker days. I look forward to seeing your videos so much. I love you and thank you for doing this. You are so valued. 🩷✨
I have lost people to drugs. Those hurt in different ways. So glad to know songs like these touch me and others in ways that help me process the hurt.
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i know that this isn’t the actual meaning to this song but as someone with chronic and mental illness this song was perfect. the frustration of wanting to be up to peoples standards but physically can’t, the money spent with health and not being able to work, feeling like your illness takes everything away from you
Thank you for sharing this with us Mere, love you ♥
didn't expect your reaction, as a lana fan it amazes me that i never thought about this song that way, i'm really sorry that you had to experience loving an addict and had to re-open that wound, but i'm also glad that you're able to uplift yourself and move on, it's a hard thing to do when you really love someone, but we're not saviors, we're just humans... sending you a big hug
Seeing you sad made me start to cry omg... I wish u nothing but the best! God Bless! 😊
I am so happy that you had to go through so much sh*t and you are still so incredibly brave! This song for me definitely had a double prospective where Miles is using and Lana is mad at him.Addiction is quite complicated, Mere!
For the person using and those who love them, it's like you can't bring yourself to hate them for wreaking devastation and choas for their own selfish reasons, but you can't totally support them since it kills you to see them but it's out of your hands.
You are incredible and brave for doing this, and I greatly appreciate it; you are like a mother to me, and I am so glad that you are facing this without breaking down ❤.
i'm so sorry mere :( hope ur ok... love ur videos and spending time with you
Sending you love❤️ it's ok some songs really have impact on us. You don't look weak for crying, you are strong for what you've got through
I look forward to your videos and become so happy when you react to lana songs.
Yes, lana songs have this power of making u feel strong emotions and her music definitely hits home a lot of times. I'm so sorry for what u went thru Mare. Lots of love to you 💙
So glad u showed so much emotion!! Shows us viewers how real u are. I’ll love u to the moon back!! Have a good day! ❤
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I just found your channel thru this video,and haven’t watched the video until the end,but I’m gonna shortly tell about who is Miles - his full name to Miles Kane,he’s an English singer & musician,he is co-frontman of “Last Shadow Puppets”,it’s a group of two people - one of them is Miles and second one is Alex Turner,he’s also the main singer of Arctic Monkeys.The point is,Alex and Lana used to be friends and even had dating rumors,and since they were friends and thru Alex she met Miles and they became all friends. “Dealer” is actually one of her unreleased songs that nobody knew about,like it was probably recorded in 2016-2019.Before all of these stuff in 2020,if she was posted before Blue Banisters, she probably would add his name as “Featuring”,but Lana & Alex don’t talk anymore for a long time now and with Miles too since he’s his friend.That’s why he’s in the song
I have listened to all her songs but your reaction always sheds a whole new light 🤍🔆
Sending u love, Mere 😭💜 you are so special and your transparency is always appreciated. Thank you and I hope you heal all your scars.
Love,
Thank you so much! You all are helping me heal for sure 🤍
We all go through some sort of healing process, the people who use music to do it are blessed.
oh dear, i watch all ur lana videos and didnt think this one would hit so hard, it was so powerful! i send u hugs❤ and suggesting Violet for Roses and Sweet Carolina🩷
Thank you for watching ❤ yes to those songs :)
I wanted to say that I love your videos💗 and I always find your points about lana's lyrics very interesting
I’m so so sorry you had to experience that.. I love your Lana reactions and your content as a whole! I admire you so much :)
Thank you so much!!
Your reactions are so special pls keep going with your Lana journey:)
Love Mere, sometimes it’s hard, cause some songs are like our mirrors or memories, but we do it, we closed this time, and we move on. Big huge for you, I like your interpretation…and ist all fine. ❤️❤️❤️
thank you for reacting to lana even though some of her music can be difficult to listen to. you help me understand her lyrics in different ways i would have never thought of and im so thankful for that! 🙏 much love to you! 🩵
Thank you for sharing queen 🫶🫶😍 really appreciate learning from you.
it’s okay mere ur so strong and i love your videos your 100 my fav youtuber i love all ur lana reactions fr thank u for everything you do and i hope it gets better 🙁 love u 🫶🫶
You are an amazing person, wish you all the best ❤ this song is beautifully tough btw
I'm so sorry mere of what you've been through. I hope you're doing ok now 🙏❤️ this song hits hard
I’m okay now. Thank you for the love❤
i love your videos and it makes me so sad to see someone as bright and awesome as you feel like that, i really hope you’re okay
your videos make my day
we love you Mere🤗💜 sending love and hugs
We love you Mere, stay strong. Addiction its such a heavy topic and living it as a colateral damage... sending u a hug ❤
Thank you for the love. It’s brutal so this song was very therapeutic for me.
We love you mother, thanks for being brave. Hope you'll feel better soon. Would love if you listen to Arcadia next coz it's a lovely song of loving yourself.
omg my heart is breaking!! hope u feel better soon
I’m getting there ❤
This song reminds me of my dad.. he’s been an addict my whole life but he always comes around when he need something… I love him dearly but all he does is hurt me and take.. I have literally sobbed to this song
Ahww im so sorry 💔💔
Now therapists are reacting to music? everybody so creative!
hi queen I love your videos, I'm sorry for what you've gone through but I hope discovering these songs at least helps you with the healing process!
It absolutely does! It feels very therapeutic for me. I feel lucky to have you all and your requests ❤
Money power glory next please 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
I really want to hug her, I know exactly how it feels, and I"m literally going through the same thing now, and this song just feels like it written about me ! You re the best
Sending you so much love. This is brutal to deal with
Ohh sweetie 🥺 I'm so, so sorry for whatever shit you've been going through! I believe it's never too much to remind ppl of their greatest qualities: what a strong, intelligent & beautiful woman you are! May all the light shine into your life 💛✨️ you're my favourite youtuber, thanks for sharing so many nice thoughts!
That just made me cry bc it was so kind! Thank you ❤ I am okay, I promise ❤
This is my comfort channel, I love your videos!
That means so much!❤
mere, u can always vent to us. it’s what’s Lana about, embrace it. we will still continue supporting u because ur extremely authentic and real. I’m so sorry u had to go thru this.
Thank you so much, you have no idea how much it means to me❤
Rewatching every single one of your Lana reactions just to say that you are amazing and I love you
I'm finally seeing this song for what it is thanks to your reaction. I love it even more now
Sometimes there's no words needed in the final reaction, it gives us just as much if not more. That's exactly how I felt when I first heard this song. Lana screaming like that is so rare, and I just cried cause her voice and words were the exact depiction of the hardest feelings we face when loving an addict (or drugs)
Also please do some healing with the song Violets for roses, you need it as much as I need your reaction on it! Love u ❤
Oh Mere I’m so sorry. I was going to recommend this after your reaction to Norman Fucking Rockwell when you said you wanted something with some rage.
Loving an addict is impossible sometimes. I have gone NC with my mother and it hurts me every day. Sending love 💙
I can see how hard it hurt you just by looking u hearing the song, i feel sorry about what u had to go through but im happy you have moved on, love ya girl💖
Primera ves que te veo llorar con una canción de Lana!!! Nunca creí que iba a pasar sinceramente jaja,pero verte asi me ha roto el corazon en mil pedazos,si como quiera cada ves que escucho esta cancion me dan ganas de llorar,que no es la unica casi tosas las canciones de lana me hacen llorar jaja,imaginate viendote a ti 💔 lana es la unica persona que me ha hecho llorar ya que sus letras son profundas y crueles pero reales y no hay duda que lana del rey hace transmitir sus emociones en su musica,siempre me ha sacado mas de una lagrima pero no porque me identifico si no porque logra hacerme sentir lo que ella paso y logra transmitir sus sentimiendos ❤️😭pero aun asi te quiero mucho y te apoyamos en todo y estamos para ti,no me pierdo ninguna reaccion tuya,espero mejores❤️❤️❤️
mere i love your videos 💘 hope you're having a nice day
Thank you! Things are getting better. Sending you ❤
hope you're feeling better i really love your reactions helps me think more deeply in the songs , if you're not ready to a song like this avoid nectar of the gods and heroin, instead i recommended beautiful, violets for roses and thunder same album as this blue banisters but they express rage in a beautiful way , I'd also recommend wild at heart it's so good and White dress
loved this reaction! PLEASE do either terrence loves you or is this happiness if you haven’t yet! they are some of my top lana songs and sound amazing
I absolutely love your videos and always look forward to the next one, please tell me how I can become a member 😩🙏🏽
You deserve so much love ❤
That means so much ❤
I love how real you are❤️
Thank you ❤
Never apologize for sharing your feelings and experiences!
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You’re soo strong, we love you ❤
love you mere!
I love you’re videos so much :)
Hope your doing well! Love the channel 🤗
Thank you! You too!